Don't Be Afraid of Success - A Different Reading on the Story of the Spies

the yeshiva dotnet it was probably the greatest collective failure of leadership in the genesis of Jewish history when Masha Rubino sends twelve leaders 12 spies upon whom about whom the terror testifies that they were prominent leaders Ailish Moyes Hashem mashallah mashallah Souris R is neither the names of the men who Moshe sent to scout the land and the terror describes them as coulomb an awesome they were all men rush ibanez roll aim of the heads of the sons of Israel what does it mean Kulemin awesome they were all men obviously if he sent 12 men they were men so rashly says : awesome Shiva McCarroll awesome Kashi voz when it says they were men it's like you say you're the man or he's the man they were all men of distinction men people of great prominence of great dignity of great significance of great virtue as he says voice aw shucks cherem are you they're considered they're described as the heads the heads of the Jewish people meaning they are blessed with with leadership skills with extraordinary qualities and characteristics this is how they're described and yet and we had notwithstanding the great qualities that these individuals possess somehow their mission ends up in a colossal failure and catastrophe the stakes are high the hopes are elevated everybody is looking forward to enter into the Promised Land they are so host to come back give a report and explain to the people the nature of the land the flavor of the wine thank you thank you the nature of the land the flavor of the land the nature of that position the empires they would have to confront moshe asks them to describe the people who are living there how many people are living there the population the strength of the population the nature of the earth the different types of cities that are there how fortified they are to bring back the fruits and when are shem sense the hemlock Aloha an awesome send men and as we said Rashi says men means people of prominence my guess in parentheses it would be worthy to note the commentary of the clay ochre written in the 17th century 1600s and Prague the clay ochre says God says to marshes Locka Locka notion send to you men and the word to you is of course very awkward flocking awesome send men and let them scout the land to slack locomotion so the clay ogre says the fact that you're sending men is your position it's your idea and it's your responsibility if it was up to me so clay a little older than me I will only send women dude that's what he says you could look it up Slavic on mush this is a bad idea to send men listen to me thank you for agreeing and very good make sure to tell your husband in God's name that's what the clay akka says this is not a commentary written today he wrote this in the 1600s he says God says if it was up to me do not send men this mission has to be done by women take ten women twelve women send them Terry to zero because they're loved land and their resilience is far superior but you're not ready for that so I'm just telling you I disagree I think you should send women anyway the rest as they say is history and history is made up of two words his story should have been her story and then history would have been changed and substituted with her story which maybe would have been better but that's what the clay up here interprets the Schleck Lacan notion you could look it up in the Commish my crocodile is clay occur the truth is we do we're source sheets on the yeshiva dotnet I'll put on the clay occur and the video of this source sheets so you'll be able to see the clay occur inside what happens as we know instead Marsha doesn't send women he sends men and the terror lists the names of the men they come back and when they come back we have an explicit report of what they said they spoke to moisture they spoke to the people and they said we went to the land it flows with milk it flows with honey they display it's delicious fruits but then they add but the nations that live there are mighty and the cities are excessively fortified and the inhabitants are giants the people say lay knew koalas we can't we cannot ascend into the land the people are more powerful than us in the quarrel and the battle that we will encounter we will surely be defeated they say that it's a land that consumes its inhabitants all the people that we have seen there are huge humongous muscular powerful the result is of course national despair they managed to dissuade the entire nation and deplete the energy the vitality the enthusiasm to go in the entire nation breaks down sobbing and says we wish we could have died in Egypt or at least in the desert why should we die a violent bloody death why should we subject our wives and our children to die in battlefields let's at least go back to Egypt where we could spear slaves and not die there are two spies as we know who disagree Yahshua from the tribe of Ephraim Yusuf and Khalif from the tribe of Yehuda collie the son of you funa and high share your issue with the son of known those are the only two of the 10 of the 12 who take a different position who try to instill confidence and faith and conviction but the majority they're outnumbered by the majority of their colleagues who disagree with them and managed to transform the mood of the nation and from a hopeful promising moment in Jewish history turns into a moment characterized by the spear by sadness by depression as the terror says the entire nation cries a whole night attacking Moshe and I rain about this horrendous and vicious idea of taking an innocent people to die by a sword by the hands of these fortified nations living in the land of Canaan and Erica strong we all know the continuation of the story Hashem tells Moshe that I want to smite the people let them die here in the desert and you will begin a new nation moysha once again stands up and prays and argues god forgives he says so octahedra I forgive but the people will not enter into the land they will remain in the desert 40 years they will wander the wilderness their children their children the top hem their children they will enter into into the land they left mitzrayim on the 15th of Nissen this happened one year and two months later 14 months later the spies were sent on the 29th of 7 one year after the anniversary of the exodus one year in 2 months 14 months they spent 40 days scouting surveying the land they came back tradition has it the gomorrah says and Thainess it was the day of tonight of touch number / they came back and that's when the edict happened so you're dealing with one year after the anniversary of Egypt a year and a few months and then they remained there for the four decades they came into the land over to stall with Yeshua be known in the year 2488 since creation the exodus of Egypt happened in the year 2 4 4 8 now we're living in five seven seven nine right hey Allah from Tufts and I ain't s go back a few years to Bayes Allah from tough Memphis to four four eight since creation that's when the exodus of Egypt happens forty years later the enter into the land that's two thousand four hundred and eighty eight forty eight to eighty eight forty years yeah and four hundred and forty years later my mom my look builds the first base of McNish so for the first four hundred and forty years there without a temple they have a Myshkin but that's mobile it moves around but the permanent structure in Jerusalem was built only for engine of forty years later it stood for four hundred and ten years and then they were exiled by Babylonia in the first exile to bubble which was present-day Iraq so they remained an area to sell for more than 800 years proximately 850 years for 40-plus for 10 and then they were exiled so that's around 850 years and then many come back 70 years later to rebuild a second base on Marrakesh most Jews remain in exile but 42,000 Jews come back to rebuild and there are some Jews who always remained in Eric's East role even during the Exile Nebuchadnezzar allowed some Jews to stay who mostly assimilated and intermarried during that period and Ezra and his colleagues had to create really a Jewish Renaissance ok you got it the moraga l'm forty days oh I thought you meant how long would the Jews in Israel so I gave this whole history lesson sorry the morale in 40 days that alone forty days yeah a month and ten days yeah they had to travel the land so it takes 40 days you'd ever travel there too strong when Hashem turns to moisha and starts sharing with them his feelings about what happened his first words is omnia not suniye Amazo how long will this nation cause me such pain Vardhan Allah yamino be bacala a sister shall see she became boy how long much longer will they not believe and all the wonders all the miracles that I have done to them and hence I don't think there is a future here let them perish in the desert Masha fights back so to speak he's successful and God says they won't die in the desert it'll be a long time many of them lived for another forty years or thirty years whatever it was and their children will come in into the land will come into the land after this story the terror makes a sharp shift into a theme that would seem disconnected and the next theme is called in a Sock'em moussaka means libations right after this story Shem tells moisha tells the Jews that when they enter into the land which now we know is going to be 40 years from now so you start speaking to him about something that's going to be relevant forty years later and as Raschi says that it's actually a very promising moment because after everything he ran away tells Myesha tell them that when they come into the land in other words they're going to come in it's gonna take some time he gives them a mitzvah Venus Aachen the middle of an assault him is that when they brought offerings in the base--emitter dish many of the offerings had to be accompanied with nosaka which are libations of wine a certain measurement of wine would be filled in a cop and poured together with the offering on the altar that's the Mitzvah that is introduced right after the spies the second Mitzvah is introduced one that you're very familiar with them it's Valhalla that when you're breaking grey you're baking the dough you're baking the bread or whatever you're baking from with the grains from the five grains so part of the dough is separated as tithed and it's identified as a sacred section of the dough known as challah which is like a true mat separated and given to the cayenne and it's considered a holy food a sacred food that the Cayenne must eat in purity that's the second Mitzvah that's introduced seems very disjointed we have the story with the spies and then suddenly in 40 years bring wine libations and separated oh ask Allah and then there's one more Mitzvah that's brought in this portion at the end of the portion the Mitzvah of tsatsis also suddenly emerges the Mitzvah of tsatsis that if there is a cloak with four corners there should be what we call the fringes the National I'll sit cysts are kind of so pale as the fringes that come out of that club that we know it's it's us and as the terrorist says each one of the corners should have one strand one one of the fringes should be of Kahless which is turquoise bluish wool that is dyed with a special turquoise color that's that Mitzvah comes in here as well what is the connection what is the fee seems very disjointed as there is a thematic connection which brings us to the central question how did this failure happen how did this happen if moisture would have sent no-goodniks rabble rousers troublemakers okay we could perhaps understand that even then it would be difficult to grasp but how did this catastrophe happen what went wrong how are we to understand the story the commentators have struggled with the story for thousands of years any commentator of himesh from the earliest generations till our generation was forced to confront this story what happens what was the mistake what was the error there are enormous amounts of interpretations a large diversity of interpretations today I want to present to there really two on two extremes two opposite extremes at least on the surface one has to do with an element that we know today very well a lot of studies have been done research has been done we call it self-fulfilling prophecies we also know a lot about the power of fear the gripping power of fear and maybe the best way to summarize it in simple terms is this whether you believe you can or you believe you can't your are probably right if you believe you can you're probably right and if you believe you can't you're probably right it's not just semantics and feel-good psychology but there's a truth to it much of life is a self-fulfilling prophecy I believe I can't I'm right I can't I believe I can't and I really can't because I can't my actual neurons my hundred billion neurons firing away every millisecond every nanosecond if the message that is conscious in my brain is I can't then I really can't I'm not joking I'm not trying to run away I can't I'm incapable and if I believe I can then I actually can is it true in every situation of life I don't know if it's true in every situation of life but many situations of life we can see it a lot of us have experienced this or experienced this in our own lives I once read the sad but humorous story or anecdotal story about this fellow who was an ultimate pessimist but like the real thing you know he always spoke about of how miserable his life was and how he was destined to the worst block and Mosel and everything was supposed to go wrong and whenever anything went wrong it was I told you so and he worked for a he worked in the exporting business and he would load trains that would travel intercontinental long long distances for hours or days to different different states of the Union and he once loaded a train it was a refrigerator train with Beery products that was supposed to go to Vancouver and it had milk and yogurt and cheese and cream cheese and ice cream and butter dairy products a refrigerated train just simply to transport the food and he finished loading this train which would now travel for approximately 40 hours and he's about to leave the train but mishap the doors close and off the train goes before the cellphone days and he knows it's supposed to be a refrigerated train which means he's supposed to be in a refrigerator for the next 40 hours or so slow death of hypothermia and he sits down to write his final will and testament his family finds a piece of cardboard takes out a pen after of course pounding on a door that nobody hears as the train is off off on its journey and he's pounding and pounding no response finds a piece of cardboard writes his final will to his wife and children he starts off I always knew that I would die in such a fashion and he laments how miserable his life was is and will be what a miserable death he will encounter he does wish them well and hopes that they experience a brighter and better future than he did the train arrives in Vancouver the door is open and the people are there to unload the merchandise and they see this fellow looks like in a comatose state unconscious there on the floor they immediately immediately bring the doctor to check him out he checks him out and the fellow is unconscious symptom is hypothermia but he can't understand because the refrigerator was off this is just a dramatic display of what is true and so much in such a more subtle fashion and that is we seldom Lee we often fail to challenge the initial awareness that produces so many of our emotional responses when I'm experiencing an emotional response whether it's anger or despair or terrible frustration I orphan worship that emotion and take it for granted it's a given and the question is how do I deal with this given but what if I could go back what if I can trace back this emotion to the awareness that is producing it there is a certain mindset that is behind it that mindset I have to challenge I have to be able to look at I have to see what is the belief system that is the oxygen of this emotion every emotion has oxygen and without the oxygen it can't live there's not a motion in the world that is not being fueled by messages from your conscious and from your unconscious can I can you have the courage to be able to look at those to be able to examine those the Moraga limb actually didn't lie the Rambam points this out they didn't lie they described factual truths when they came and said the land is flowing with milk and honey and these are its fruits it was accurate when they said that the nations the empires the tribes that are living there are mighty the cities are fortified excessively they were describing facts we will see later in the book of yahshua the book of Joshua that they were describing facts the fact that they encountered Giants was a description of facts the Ramban asks the question did you want them to lie did you want them to come back and say peanuts it's a garnished chopped liver bupkis nothing don't worry nobody home did you want them not to say the truth they said what they saw but it came with a conclusion and the conclusion was and therefore loin local allies we can't we really can't they are more powerful than us we simply can't the it's were true Hashem is response to what happened in many ways the Rambam says the Sumerian of 'him is not a classic punishment as we often perceive the word punishment when we hear the word punishment and that's something I think people have to really get over we understand that it's like I'm gonna get even with you I'm gonna teach you a lesson I'm stronger than you and you will see it you will not defeat me I will defeat you we sometimes hear in the word punishment some vengeance some quid pro quo I'm gonna get back at you I'm gonna get take back my honor and my power but imagine you are the most confident loving empowered mother in the world anybody the most confident loving empowered mother okay and and your little baby like disobeyed rules do you ever feel like I'm gonna get back at him I'm gonna take revenge I'm gonna teach you a lesson we have such emotion especially we men have such emotions but that's when we're in a more primitive and weak and impulsive and impetuous and exhausting state but when I'm in a wholesome state I may want to discipline my child but completely out of love out of hearing out of affection it's never I lose myself my temper overtakes me and I simply lose it now we lose it sometimes because were weak and that's why there's something called apology saying I'm sorry learning lessons saying you know it was this was a weak moment and that's part of the view of humans and that's why we always try not to judge people by their worst moments rather by how they respond to their worst don't judge yourself based on your worst moments we have bad moments weak moments judge yourself based on how you respond to those challenging moments the fact that I lose it okay I'm human and I lose it I have eight Sahara how do I respond to that moment do I suddenly take my failures and turn them into success stories does my weakness now become a philosophy that's where the challenge is not that I have weak moments and bad moments it's that the weak moments are suddenly hallowed and worshipped and sanctified and they become a gangster there was an old Yiddish anecdote about you know this fellow who was sitting in the theatre in the theatre and you had to take off your hat you know in Europe you had to take off your hat wherever you went coming in with a hat was disrespectful and this fellow was sitting in the theatre and with this big hat so the guy behind them says you're blocking me he's sorry I have a principle I don't take off my hat and they get into this whole argument and finally a middle of the play he's so frustrated he knocks off his hat and he sees that the guy is completely bald so then with expression in you dishes at the hostel Caracas my flesh constricted from them just because your ball don't turn it into a philosophy into a I have weak moments I don't have to turn them into awful acephate I can say I'm sorry I can apologize I can be vulnerable and when I learned from that and I learned to be in a more confident loving and empowered space then even if I'm disciplining it's never with a sense of impulsive anger and and craziness it's coming from a deep place of effect of affection of attachment of carry so when we read the story in posh LA and it seems like you know God says that's it that's it I'm wiping them out again and I let it wait wait it's not understood god forbid kalila as this impetuous uninhibited sense of vengeance and anger but it's really much deeper than that and that is once the Jews believe that they can't go in they can't they can't they won't be successful there was a formidable task edema Wrangler weren't lying that's why the first thing God says is uh-uh no lawyer I mean do be Bajal oi sister sure Assisi the keeper there was only one tool that they had that would allow them to be successful and that is faith and conviction if they lack this tool they indeed would not be able to go in it would really be cruel to take them in just to be defeated if you believe you can't you really can't it's a self-fulfilling prophecy we spoke last week about Miriam and and and the daughter of Pyrrha she stretched out her arm but she stretched out her arm if you stretch out your arm I am going to do what I'm going to do great things can happen but if I pull back to my arm I'm incapable I can't deal with this this is beyond me it's beyond me I have to be able to extend my arm who said Roosevelt we have nothing to fear but fear itself it's the fear that they experienced when they sought and you know when you see something that's very powerful it's extremely impactful it's the fear that gripped them it made them panic it made them paralyzed and when they brought that back to the Jewish people it became a self actualized prophecy I believe I can't and I can't I really can't I'm not capable the same facts don't change there was a senator of Senator mone Ian used to say you're entitled to your own opinion but you're not entitled to your own facts there's a big difference you're entitled everybody's inside of that I prefer not to your own facts but the same facts could be said in different ways the morale gloom came back and said the facts and then they gave a conclusion and therefore it's obvious heavier we're barking up the wrong tree Egypt is a much better option Loy Newhall alloys we are not capable that is a belief system that is not a fact I say it to myself as a fact I can't I can't I can't deal with this those are my neurons that are pre-programmed to think slavery it's a mindset of slavery I can't I can't I can't we don't even notice that we're telling it to ourselves it's obvious I can't write somebody once said just because I'm paranoid doesn't mean the whole world is not out to get me just because everybody why I said I shouldn't say I can't doesn't mean that it's not true that I can't true it's a fact it is a fact it's a fact because I turned it into a fact because I shrink myself I put myself into that box because I don't realize Who I am you don't realize who you are you're an ambassador of the divine God says if you really don't have this conviction if you don't add muscle oh yeah I mean only by Hollow incise if you don't have this type of conviction of course you can't I understand so you won't that's true impartial safe them very good when they went to war the kaiyan would announce me Huish I you're a miracle evolve somebody who was frightened shouldn't go because they were afraid that he will demoralize the other troops that fear can grip people and then they really become paralyzed but there's another way of interpreting the story a completely different way of interpreting the story I shouldn't say completely in a deep place that two interpretations are really one as always a loo valid every alikum Khayyam and God is one but it's a different angle a different perspective and this second interpretation I heard from the lubavitcher rebbe and it's probably I could say from all the interpretations it's certainly one of the most creative ones and deering ones and he argued that the spies were not afraid of defeat that was not the fear at the surface it seems like it was a fear of defeat they were afraid of something else they were afraid of victory what they said to the Jewish people is one thing what was behind what they said is something else completely the spies were not afraid to lose they were afraid to win let's understand them what did they have now going on in the desert what did they have they have everything they had everything this was a messianic life par excellence they were living in a utopian jury no mortgage payments no tuition payments moisture than in charge to wish God didn't charge to wish yeah no grocery bills no therapy bills no e-bills even to go to a nutritionist to help you deal with the Shabbos diet of egg salads and mayonnaise and chopped liver and Shaolin Kiska Allah and Allah P no herring with a lot of oil because the no rugelach in the desert no cheesecake no babka and all the zhonya no carbs heavenly mana mama so he didn't even have to pay to go to the gym personal trainer yoga pilates nutritionists with acupuncture even that bill was gone what the gamora says in you malaria by P soilless the mana had nothing in it that couldn't be converted into the bloodstream when we eat food part of the food hopefully most of the foods depends what you're eating I don't know what you had for breakfast but hopefully most of the food can become part of the bloodstream and part of our energy flow and this part of the food that the body evacuates because the body says sorry no use for this it belongs somewhere else we call it the soilless that's what our body does for us the man did not have any Silas there are many producers they made a brush on it I'm worried she left him mean hashamayim wasn't Minar it's asthma not sure my that was the blessing on the manna so you understand what type of bodies they had their bodies were aligned with its natural innate divine energy and chemistry you know who the teachers were moisture Urbana was a teacher Aaron was a teacher they were protected on every level physically emotionally socially spiritually now I ask you a question you got to be crazy to leave this life you got to be crazy they knew that in the land everything changes no mana from heaven sudden leads carbs can you imagine they have to become farmers agricultural experts they have to build armies and fight wars they have to build an infrastructure they got to build homes and cities there is the politics of building a nation even pure politics it's the politics there's the responsibility of a physical life of a material life there are bills to pay they have to make meat staff make ends meet there's the stress of raising children of building families of maintaining a country of dealing with enemies within and without so the spies were frightened of victory they were afraid that we're going to be successful and we'll enter into the land and what will happen in the desert you're living with God in the closest proximity Hashem is in your bedroom engulfed by clouds of glory Ananya cover it with moisture as your teacher the greatest prophet communicating what he heard today in the morning yesterday from my chemin self the Shema is there there's a cloud of glory our PRM used to appear sham yahoo knew the GPS God's positioning system every step you take every breath every step you take every breath every moment is an expression of that intimacy with the divine presence in the Land of Israel nature will take over a life of nature a life of rain and seasons and natural foods you don't have this rolling rock biracial Miriam coming with you and everything else that came along with life in the desert protected on all levels it was literally a heavenly existence on earth the spies were terrified of it and it's three words they say Eretz ILS your smell it's a land that eats up its inhabitants the responsibilities of material life will eat us up they will consume us they will stress us out and most importantly it will be it will spell the end of this rich powerful infinite relationship with the divine everything is going to change that's what the spies are afraid of that's what the miraculous are terrified of they're afraid of this awesome miss responsibility pressure and stress as a whole new paradigm opens up before them as the previous life is transformed and they have to face a material world in all of its Brutis air it's a hellish mal what they tell the Jewish people is one thing what they their intentions behind what they tell the Jewish people is something else completely and yet this means that there was a nobility to their sin there was something wholly about their sin the space Emmis says the Zohar says why didn't the Miss spies want to go on tear to zero because here they were leaders I mentioned in the beginning the terror identifies them as a rush a B'nai you saw they were heads Cesaro says they knew if they enter into the land they won't be heads anymore they're going to be feet so everyone interprets desire that they were scared they're gonna lose their leadership position here they're big markers over there they'll be replaced there'll be new elections so they said let's stay here it seems like a power struggle but the truth is it's not it's much deeper what they meant was not only themselves everybody is ahead in the desert the brain is the place the seat of consciousness the brain is the place where the soul is visible the Meldrick and obviously Reb Nasim calls the acre of the sole of the foot the malacca mother's shiva autumn the angel of death and a person because it gets the least circulation that's why people who suffer a little from diabetes though the feet always get affected first because the circulation they're in a good day is not so strong it's so far from the heart and therefore when somebody is suffering with blooded with the sugar and the blood etc the feet are affected first the seat the head the seat of consciousness is the brain the central nervous system spiritually speaking they said here Rashi B'nai Israel we can where we have consciousness we're aware were alert you go into that land will be like in a spiritual comatose state you're not fully alive it's like somewhat of a zombie we won't have that that mental space that mental awareness that connection that spiritual deep intimate connection with God that we have here in the desert what's fascinating as we know today there are two types of fears in life there is the fear of losing of defeat there's another fear it's a fear of success you'll ask somebody do you want to be successful of course I want to be successful but sometimes we undermine our own success because there is a fear in being successful you know what happens when you're successful you can't blame anybody for your problems if I'm losing I could blame everybody I could blame this rig in the mom and that popped in the community and the rabbi in the system and the school and it is if I'm a powerhouse I'm successful am I gonna blame now I have to take responsibility myself sometimes we're afraid to be successful because success comes with responsibility success means the buck stops here success means I could navigate my own life success means I can author my own biography success means I can let go of the resentments and the fears and the shackles that hold me down success means I'm free is it so easy to be free free means actually there's nobody else to blame the buck stops right here I can be the master of my own life I'm a free human being I'm uninhibited I can't blame my spouse and my sibling and my family and my extended family and this one and that one I have the ball in my court sometimes we're very afraid of that there's something nice about being a neighbor case you know what I mean although nobody says it nobody you want to be another end the whole no but then I started etching if I don't want to be why am i this is an unconscious source of fear this fear to fail and therefore I will not try new things I will not take risks I will not be vulnerable I will remain in my comfort zone there's also another fear I'm fearful that I'm gonna succeed there are people sometimes stuck in a difficult marriage they know that there are certain things they can do and not do that will make that marriage much more successful and happier but they will revert back to their old habits of looking at it the same way saying the same thing and reconfirm the negativity and toxicity of the marriage what is it perhaps it's a fear of being hurt again and sometimes it's a fear of actually being free of being happy of being powerful of being successful it sounds a little counterintuitive but the unconscious is a very slight tricky guy the aids are sometimes people are afraid to be happy do you know that especially Jews they're afraid to be happy that you're gonna want to know what I'm taking what I'm on why am i miss sugar if we're all miserable Baruch Hashem they say that once the Knesset had this whole debate about how to boost the Israeli economy because it was in a difficult situation so an old man says I have a great idea let Israel declare war on America like Japan and Germany and what did America do to Japan and Germany wiped them out felt guilty because Americans feel guilt and then they rebuilt them into economic superpowers let's declare war on America America will wipe us out feel guilty and that will become an economic superpower and one old Jew in the Knesset gets up he says one problem I have it's a brilliant one from what happens if we win the war believe it or not sometimes people are afraid to be a success story there's a voice in me know my relationship with my children has to be problematic my marriage has to have some issues what am I gonna say to them about busmalis connection what's gonna happen to the either Chakiris what you know what are you dish attracts us you know what I initially thought he said in French there's no word in French the French don't saya okay are you the Seacrest what's gonna happen to the grown to the site of the oh you know the Oi what's gonna happen to the and I ask you what's gonna happen when she comes to the inertia crafts ah aha like you know the story about the three women in Miami Beach and one says oh I got new reboiler siloam and the fourth is we made up not to talk about the children today [Music] sometimes there's a deep voice in me or in you were in us that says I'm now let it be happy I'm now let it be successful I can't be a powerhouse I can be as influential as I could be I can't be as beautiful as I should be or could be physically emotionally spiritually I can't be Who am I to be for whatever reason maybe it's some trauma maybe it's some messages maybe this is going too much out of the comfort zone maybe I'm afraid of vayan horas all these types of messages that say you stay in the closet for life much better place but God says it should I shoot him Hashmi Nia Skylar her Amy s Moriah he call a arrived or marry another you know those verses in the Song of Songs he describes you're a Nazi but have a a celibacy Sam I drink my dove is in the clefts of a rock you ever saw a bird hiding in the cleft of Iraq because it sees a vulture you ever see you could see it in muncie sometimes I got some vultures on my block and hawks and these cute little adorable doves are hiding but have a hog maze-like the cleft be say sir Hamid Riga sure shoot him says under a hidden step not to be noticed so sure shoot him says her Aeneas Mariah show me your countenance Hashmi Mia Scylla let me hear your voice recoil a ra-vu my lover your voice is sweet and your countenance is beautiful Carl had tarnished my Bart's ain't no spring has come it's time to come out of hibernation learn from the trees they hibernated a whole winter learned from the beers they hibernated a whole winter but as the Rays of the Sun emerge God is saying come out of the clefts of the rack it's time to blossom it's time to get back your pigment of green it's time to begin the process of photosynthesis look at the trees and their full blossom that's what he says they're the the grains and the legumes and the vegetables and all the fruits are blooming and blossoming why don't you also emerge from hibernation it's a different type of fear it's a fear of success what is it to be on top of the world not on bottom of the world it's very scary now I have to make decisions now I'm responsible it's a whole different experience am I allowed to even be somebody once told me I'm afraid to be happy I said why cuz then God is gonna punish me and I said and if you're not happy then I'm already punished so it's good but if I'm happy now I'm living a good life he's gonna have to punish me I'm like just give God as much credit as you would give a healthy mother not more just doesn't what would you say to a mother who speaks like that about a child you know I see my child as happy time to destroy him right never heard a mother speak like that my 17 year old is happy which is a miracle of course right your seventeen-year-old comes home hey how is life MA awesome right she okay we're ready if your 17 year old says MA and I'm looking forward to tomorrow usually how is life what's for supper again good luck how is life yet you see your child is happy oh this is not good this is not good let's make it who thinks like this why do people think that our Shem wants them to be miserable I never understood but everybody needs a source for everything so it says in Paris he saw a at the end of all the toilet huh the worst thing is tacos I should lie about it doesn't Shambala cancer simcha over to evolve says the Rambam milk is love that's what hurts God why aren't you happy Takata Basim kuvvatov wave of the Ramba mineral crystal event that reaso gives the same interpretation but sometimes there is this I feel a lack of permission for success and unconsciously I may undermine my own success sometimes people will say something they know deep down they could have said something else but they will perpetuate the toxicity of the relationship they will perpetuate the negativity just to make sure that things don't change because success comes with a big responsibility the origin of this idea which is prevalent today in psychology is in the spice the Murad l'm they had a very noble calculation but sometimes noble calculations are still wrong because it's not what Hashem wants in the words of the Madras tongue Homa parshas nos a matter Shaba parshas now say miss avocadoes borrow holy is Lloyd dear Batak Steinem one line god desired that we build a dwelling place for him Batak Steinem tak dhina means in the mundane lower elements of reality I could disengage from the world but my soul could have also remained in heaven and not come down the whole story of existence of birth is entering into a world entering into a body entering into a Material Plane with the divine consciousness is eclipsed a human being dealing with physical reality facing the realities of inside and outside and yet having the courage to reveal the sheen of the divine presence create a fragment of heaven on earth this was the error of the spies the spies were afraid of that because they knew they are risks they knew it takes courage it's easy to remain in the paradise and yet that was their sin it was the lack of the ability to understand to believe to appreciate that is your very purpose we are very purposes to transform the landscape of planet Earth your very purpose is to confront your demons your skeletons your insecurities your trauma your addictions your very purpose is that you are empowered to be able to take earth and transform it into heaven to take on holiness and transform it into holiness to take the body and align it with the soul to eat regular food and eat drink regular drinks and deal the day-to-day responsibilities of life and yet experience divine intimacy within that space are the risks involved of course that's what they were afraid of air it's a hell of a smell and thus they neglected the whole purpose of it it's something that paralyzes still many Jews we are sometimes terrified of the world we want to remain sheltered in our own desert and then when we do face the world it's sometimes so difficult it becomes so overwhelming we don't have the tools and we can easily get lost the mistake of the spies was to understand that the ultimate purpose of Yiddish skite is to engage and transform my environment into the divine reality into a divine abode I have nothing to fear and the reason I have nothing to fear is because look how shallow them camisa as the messengers of our shrimp every Jew must enter into the land and turn his or her land into arity stroll into a place of holiness into a place of sacredness never ever fear the challenges that face you the reality that you're in and feel that you must disengage detach numb yourself from the reality that faces you and all nominees is a form of disengagement know I could remain fully present and I can transform the very gosh me the very hungry into the divine of course the Jewish people had to first be in the desert in order to be able to enter into the land because they had to have the strong foundation but the desert was not the goal it was the means it was the beginning of the journey it was not the end of the destination they wanted to turn it into the end of the destination and sometimes I have to really appreciate this that the ultimate purpose of yiddish kite was Lusaka knew all along them all who sinned Allah dude as we say three times in LA no to fix the world to transform the landscape of civilization the world was given to you to elevate to sublimate to metamorphosize don't be afraid of it it's there for you to transform beginning with your with your own body with your own self with your own environment internal and external and therefore right after the story come the three mitzvos that give a blueprint to this exact idea and here you see the subtlety of the connections and the profundity of the connections you're going to become farmers you're not gonna have mana you're not gonna have Miriam's one of Miriam's water you're gonna build gardens and orchards and farms and fields and of course your orchards will produce fruit and the greatest prominent through the vineyards the vine with the clusters of grapes that has a special blessing usually fruit juice just gets a Shaka oranges burger prea aids apples burger create apple juice shikaku orange juice shikaka why because it's not the fruit anymore the value of the fruit is the fruit you squeezed it into juice great it's Asha haka like water one exception wine you squeeze the grape and from a8 it's elevated into beta period often so you have this beautiful orchard that you work it very hard those of you who are farmers or planted orchards you know what it takes to nurture a vineyard or other fruit trees it's not simple it comes with blood and sweat and toil booze is a pecker like Alaskan God tells are them but the terror says a little bit of this wine you're gonna bring up to the altar and you're gonna pour and it's gonna become really clear crush em of the vine aroma and your whole vine is now sanctified the whole vine is transformed as part of it literally becomes a carbon it becomes divine this is not mana from heaven this is mana from earth this is my labor with weeds fighting grasshoppers and fighting all the birds of all the birds that are eating up my my ving my vines and building fences vit Seng and Seng and part of it becomes a divine carbon and then I farm migraine my spelt that my oats and my rye and my wheat that my barley and I'm baking but this is not manna from heaven that lands in the morning on forshay or on Lynn Crest or on Lodi lane or on 3:06 or on the 59 everybody goes out of their house picks up their mana brings it home there's enough breakfast lunch and dinner how do I know cuz right now some of you are thinking what's gonna be for dinner tonight they didn't have to do that by their mod now today now if you can go into the store and buy bread they didn't have that luxury didn't buy bread you went that you planted wheat then you planted barley and the storks grew and then you had two harvests and then you have to Thresh and then you had to window and then you have to select and then you have to grind and then you have to need and then you baked and today many people don't even know what all these words mean not even needing they walk in give me pen Fowler's sign didn't work that way and I finish and I have this dough and it's ready he says no on a piece of this dough you gonna separate and it becomes true mirth becomes holy it becomes divine both of these myths have something very powerful and common the rest of the dough you're going to eat but part of this dough became divine and then you have animals or your animals that you have to raise you need to get milk from your animals and you need your animals to plow and you get your animals for fleece and from your animals from the fleece from the wool you're gonna make a garment you're gonna makes it's us and a part of this fleece a part of this wool is going to become a mitzvah census so you have here the world of fruits you have the world of grain farming and you have the animals which becomes part of the ancient lifestyle day to day life in generating the revenue that came from these natural resources that earth provides but what's it's is there's one more thing there's the Tallis of tsatsis the cloak that garment and then there are the fringes the tailor says I'll sit seasick enough in each corner there should be one strand one thread that's dyed with a special turquoise so the Gemara says rip mayor says painless dye Mulayam it looks like this see the ocean which is diamond Lakia which looks like the sky which is diamond locusts are covered which looks like the throne of glory blue in ancient times was considered a royal color that bluish turquoise color has something very unique to it appealing to the eye the color of royalty the Gemara says reminds the person of the ocean reminds them of the heavens and ultimately reminds them of the throne of glory what what does this what does all of this mean what it means is I have a garment and I have fringes hanging from the garment and there's one strand one thread that I look at it and it reminds me of heaven and that's the Mitzvah of cities I'm not living anymore in heaven I'm living on earth but there's one thread that I look at and it reminds me to be able to look up to be able to see heaven and that's the midst of tsatsis and here lay the ultimate power of human existence the ultimate power of human existence is not that the person lives within the blue heavens I don't but I have to be able to stand on earth and yet look up at that one strand that is mixed into the other strands it's mixed into the other threads it's heaven leanness that's mixed in like makalah like the nests are him and what does it teach the person it teaches the person that under all circumstances in every single situation that I'm facing I never ever have to be terrified from any one of my emotions I never have to be terrified of anyone of any reality that faces me I never ever have to be terrified of a world around me I never ever have to be terrified of my own impulses experiences of my own body of my own psyche of my own brain I never ever have to be terrified of the responsibilities the journeys the relationships the people who are in my life I never have to disengage I don't have to detach why because the function of a Jew is to reveal oneness to reveal that a night Malvado there is nothing outside of him this for the spies was so difficult to wrap their brains around not because they were lowly but because they were noble they were celestial there was a heaven leanness to them and that's exactly where they wanted to remain it is fascinating because the Gemara says when they said key kazakh who me men knew he's more powerful they're more powerful than us I mean men who really means than him so the gomorrah says Rashi says they said that the people in Asia Cyril are more powerful than God a fillable abayas ain't alkaloid see Calif you're living in my house and you're a gangster and I can't come in to get out my vessels cuz you don't let me they said Hashem can't take out his Kaleb for Mary to stroke because they're more powerful isn't that how could they Gomorrah say this is what they said isn't that utter nonsense the spies really believe that you just left Egypt how did he get out of Egypt really God can't go attach a straw what were they saying they were saying something very deep they knew that God could do whatever he wants but what they said is this there was a system of nature and there's a system of miracles where we're in a miracle mode I'm good God can do whatever he wants but he's sending us into a civilized land to live according to nature nature was established by God these are immutable laws it's fixed even God Himself can subtly change the system he made assist them it's a respectful system if you want to operate in a level of miracles I mean the level of miracles but you want me to operate in a level of nature you want me to fight a war you want me to become a farmer you want me to live according to nature if that's the case despised said let's look at nature let's look at the statistics let's look at our manpower there's no way we're going to win even our shed can't change that because this is the world of nature that's what the Moraga lamar saying and you want us to go into that world what was their error their error was nature too is a conduit of the divine nature is not separate nature is not detached nature is not a different reality the same god of miracles as the god of nature nature too is an expression of godliness and therefore if he sends you here you will be successful not only by reverting to heaven leanness by engaging the earth you will be successful because earth and heaven are really one have a wonderful week no so you shouldn't mean after not to flaunt it off the flaunt success we're not talking about flaunting we're talking about fulfilling your mission yes you can't make mother's on her way destroy you when you succeed yeah don't confuse the language right be afraid of success right even because a mother yes yes yes that's why I said I said a healthy mother a mother who has borderline personality disorder will often destroy the success of her child phonetically yes yes yes I know so we can't always confuse God with our mothers when they're sick your father lot of hats Lana don't be afraid of success it's still quite about Leah snow is still hard to accept to see their natures is another advantage like you said it's listen they were very spiritual people a lot of people till today feel that you have to you this guide could only be successful in a particular cocoon you can change the world so even well there's still a lot of people like that they feel that as a cheetah as a ultimate goal Judaism has to be Judaism has to be protected that's oh it's a very genuine idea that we could live in the world of Ronnie's we can't transform the world of gosh miss we cannot we cannot change planet Earth and therefore we have to remain segregated essentially not just as a means for an end but as an end in and of itself now we all need segregation children have to be educated in a protected environment you can't send the chicks out of the nest before they know how to fly you have to nurture you have to nurture them in a protected environment but ultimately the birds the birds gotta fly and there are always Jews who have to remain in that cocoon like always you know connected to a higher plane of reality throughout history there were always those people but the ordinary Jew is empowered in his or her own way to be able to make a difference to be able to change the world there's a mission here don't just think about yourself and your own spiritual growth you have to think about that but you can change the world this was one of the big ideas of their ever to to change the world yeah listen you're not supposed to flaunt Jakob says La Motta strong enough to show off and I'm not flaunting you know it's a Stefan and organ to flaunt it now I'm talking about that know my inner success Guinness know what I'm saying for me to fulfill my mission with with full power and fakers and yeah so proven somebody else's face and then it's not successed and it's you know petty games huh yeah that's it you understand what I'm saying cover her some women are iron means - the person has to be modest but modesty doesn't mean that I have to think of malice this means that I'm in a relationship with God I'm not in a relationship you know with with the media with people I'm not a facebook addict everything everybody has to know and has to see I'm in a relationship with Hashem if my mission is to put it out there put it out there my mission is not to put it out there it's a different mission everyone in their own like it was a base for the future something to look forward to and stuff like a goal to reach but it seems natural that they wouldn't want to leave that perfect right so that's exactly the point that we understand their challenge we can relate to them they were saying something beautiful and yet it was considered a sin because they should have been able to see the mission of the world because it's not the ultimate purpose of the Jew the ultimate purpose of a Jew is Lusaka noi'm to transform Teva to transform the physical world to transform all the nations of the world what was your question my question was the same kind out very much like being in the middle they care when they live and that's what the Turin all the diamond the Gemara is about how long as I'm like yeah yeah yeah so what is your answer to that seems to me very it's an interesting comparison there are sometimes young men who call me fellow called me from a particular community who was in Cairo for many years and yeah now asked to go work and and he was a terrible terrible pain I said what's the pain it's a disappointment is that you're going to miss it because that's good you're going today he said no he feels that I'm disappointing Hashem I'm disappointing the Jewish people one I'm a failure and I told them that you know I don't think you should look at it that way I don't think you look good look at most of Jewish history the word Jews who had the schools to remain and learn their whole life just like the Kohen Gadol never left base-emitter Shailaja it was not out of leave even for a funeral of the family wouldn't get taught me but if I'm gonna compare myself to coin goggle it's wrong take the coin goggle himself Yom Kippur you had to go into the Holy of Holies what if he says I want to stay here forever it's a sin it's time to go out i I want to be in the Holy of Holies when our Shem wants you to be in the Holy of Holies go in now he wants you to go out he wants you to go out and being in helps you go out but that's the purpose to go out not to stay why don't we have every day in Kippur every day we should have your capital what angels watch there would be angels every day you got to be a human angel not an angelic angel so I told this person you had many years you had asked us to learn Tyra now God is sending you out you could bring godliness to the world two people could be McAra Vidan he didn't look at it that way he saw it as a failure as an abandonment of Judaism as as a loser and I think it's a it's a tragic error people shouldn't see it that way it's really the question of where Hashem wants me it's really the question of where Hashem wants me learning tire is AG evolve the cathain there's nothing like learning tire it's in the Holy of Holies so it really depends what Hashem wants from me throughout history to always some Jews who said and learned their whole life and this gave a certain connection you know to everybody there were teachers and rabbis or authors or Asha Shiva's etc as as the responsibility for most Jews that was never the case that most Jews have to do this if a person if a person could learn and the person is being much slower hemant really successful and you utilizing their time in an optimum fashion and a real maximum fashion then there's certainly something to consider something powerful to consider you also have to know the person in other words today we live in a generation where there's so much assimilation that any person who has a skill to use at least part of their time to reach out and educate and teach and bring other people closer it's a responsibility in our generation to give an example I could be sitting and learning all day and very successful if I see a house on fire I stop and I go put out the fire because my perfection shouldn't trump what could be the death of other people today we have a fire burning fire fire burning there's not many Jews and we're losing them every day so any Jew who has the ability and there is privilege and the know-how to have influence on other people in terms of Education in terms of leadership in terms of reaching out whatever it is today has a responsibility I think to dedicate at least some of their time to do that everybody or at least I know everybody but people who could people who could because of 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