Do We Really Want People to Lose Their Minds on Purim!?

[Music] the yeshiva.net okay there will be a purim for brengan here in the shul 18 for shay for men and special section for women that's purim night after the suda thursday evening 9 30 p.m everybody is invited men women children that's 9 30 p.m today's class is dedicated by solomon ezekiel thank you very very much for your friendship and partnership it's also dedicated by frady you didn't put in your last name in gratitude for enriching each yomtif every shabbos in our day-to-day lives thank you so so much and dedicated by rabbi small cats in memory of his grandfather harav rib hill hakayan and esther the title of today's classes do we really want people to lose their minds on purim that's the title so that's going to be the topic the subtitle is how purim has the secret to dealing with trauma you anyone know what's the connection so that's why we'll have the class so let's begin with the first source this is very very well known there is a mishnays that's dedicated to purim called massachusetts magilla tractate megillah and it has also in that gemara so the gemaran tractate megillah massachusetts megillah davzayan page seven zion i'm at bay 7b says omarova rava said who is rav rav is one of the greatest talmudic sages of his day he lives in babylonia in buffalo present-day iraq rava lives approximately 800 years after the story of purim in the fourth and fifth century after the common era already a few hundred years after the destruction of the second base amiktas and he and his colleague abaya constitute much of the discussions and conversations throughout gemara hawaii is so amazing a person is obligated to become inebriated or intoxicated on purim until he is unaware of the difference between cursed as haman and blessed is marduk is an aramaic word rashi says it means to become inebriated intoxicated through drinking wine until the person reaches the point that they don't know the difference and this statement of rav made its way into sh into the practical code of jewish law shulkin sim and tafresh which constitute the laws of megillah and the laws of purim the shulkhanara offered by rabbi yosef cairo in the 1500s in svas he says he quotes the gemara verbatim a person is obligated to become inebriated on purim to the point that they don't know the difference between cursed as human and blessed as marduk the obvious question is and this is the first the third source this is raised by the in his mishna brewer beer he says what is this what happened suddenly to the sages that they're obligating jews to do something that throughout the tanakh we see is considered actually very negative it's considered to be toxic pun intended intoxication is considered to be a mixture god the mixture guttal means great obstacles great challenges problems could come from it we all know the issue of alcoholism and here it's suddenly an obligation this is what the birth asks already generations before the base yoseph la tourism and tafra decay the base yosef who was the author of the shogunate his commentary on tour he quotes it doesn't mean to get drunk eastern getting drunk is absolutely forbidden there's no greater sin should guide him it causes all the problems in the world it causes lack of modesty promiscuity it can cause bloodshed violence and many other sins it means it means to drink a little more than you're accustomed to to go a little beyond your comfort zone and drinking that's what he says the basis and yet in his own written afterwards he just says this is one of those very enigmatic laws why did the ghazal do it what did they mean with it but really the question is more fundamental what does this even mean a person should drink kanpurdum until they don't know the difference between cursed as homonym and blessed is marduk that seems actually to go against the very grain the very essence of purim because the whole reason purim is a celebration is why is because haman was defeated and mardica was victorious if there's no difference between cursed as haman and blessed as mardukai then there's actually no reason to celebrate purim if human is a great guy you know i could say blessed is haman is blessed then the whole point of purim is absolute it it's moot it's irrelevant the whole reason why we're happy on purim is because venapricho who schemed such an evil scheme against the jewish people went down he was hung on the gallows and his decree was annulled and mordechai and esther and the jewish people are yahudah myself so if haman was not cursed there's no reason to celebrate purim so how do you celebrate purim you should celebrate purim to the point that you don't know the difference between haman and martin if you really don't know then stop the party so it's like a real paradox it's a catch-22 you're celebrating purim why are you celebrating purim because you know the difference between haman and martha there's no reason to party but you should party to the point that you don't know the difference and then then then you lost the whole theme and message of puru oh so thematically it seems strange there's a famous gemara in sakhim that when a person is checking on pesach for comets so we're not afraid that they're going to eat it why because the whole reason why you're checking for it is in order to get rid of it so if you're checking for it to get rid of it so you're not going to come to eat it you're not checking for the comments because you're looking to eat hummus you're checking for it because you want to burn it so here the whole reason the person is drinking is because to celebrate purim which is the defeat of ammon and you say you should reach a point and actually human suddenly becomes the good guy human is blessed then there is the educational question the pedagogical question that i'm sure some of you have asked over the generations over the years i should say is this really the is this really an appropriate goal and theme that on purim you should celebrate until you don't know the difference between haman and mardukai between cursed as haman and barak murder is this what i want for my children or for my students that they shouldn't know the difference between haman being cursed and murdered being black blessed i mean i would say one of the main functions of pedagogy of education is to teach our youth and to teach all of us the difference between good and evil between right and wrong between the holy and the profane as deposit says if you would move into an apartment building and i would tell you by the way your neighbor doesn't know the difference at all between good and evil between what is constructive and destructive between morality and immorality would be a little queasy to live in the proximity of somebody who for him ahman and mardikai are identical so the idea of understanding the difference between compassion and cruelty between what's right and what's wrong between morality and immorality between life and death between peace and and violence is fundamental to civilization and certainly fundamental to to to the jewish people and yet here the ghazal seemed to be saying at some point you should lose that difference now many of the commentators say why did you rather say this because that's what happened on purim the story of purim is a story about people who kept on getting drunk it starts off with ahashverish partying for 187 days the last day ketov was completely completely smashed to inebriate that's when he summoned vashti to come she was probably also not too sober they get into this major fight vashti ultimately is eliminated and esther comes to the palace later on akash makes another feast called mishta esther in order to celebrate esther's coming to the royal coming uh come becoming the queen of persia and then later the highlight of the story esther throws a party she invites al-qadrish muhammad to the party gets them both drunk gets a kashmirish and hummus to come to a second party and again is drunk human is drunk and that's when esther really unleashes her brilliant in innovative creativity and ingenuity and has haman dig his own hole and the jewish people saved so if akashvedesh if esther wouldn't have used the tool of wine and excessive wine and kashmirish himself wouldn't like to drink the whole story wouldn't come to the fore it's a very certainly a very interesting interpretation the question though is so that means we're trying to copy a kashmesh we're trying to copy human i mean these were people who like drinking and ultimately it turned out that marijuana's drinking habits contributed to the salvation of the jewish people but why i'm purim are we trying to mimic them and emulate them in terms of excessive drinking so some people even if they don't say it bluntly but it's so certainly i think a sense that many people have is that it's almost like the one day a year that judaism just allows everybody to lose it it's like i don't know if anybody would say this officially but it's like you know one day a year you have to watch your teenagers become really really crazy you just hope that the hangover doesn't continue for too long most women who are usually responsible on purim bite their lips a little bit they're supposed to be the happiest day of the year but many are biting their lips they want to know where my kids are where did they end up so most people would say people who usually don't smoke suddenly are a lot of smoke people who you would never find throwing up i'm not going to elaborate here and get graphic i don't want to i don't want to make arifpura miserable it's enough what people go through and put him so it's like almost that day you know people get a little wild especially in the masculine gender and teenagers have a an excuse to be able just to to do things they wouldn't do they wouldn't do in other other times of the year you see it in israel you see it in many jewish communities in in in in hebrew there's an expression you know what lesh talal means to go wild to lose it but does that really make sense i mean all of yudishkait is based on the idea of shivisi hashem the negri summit a person has das a person has awareness it's based on the idea that god is always with me hashem nietzsche it's based on the ideas it says look always focus on three things and it will prevent you from problems you should always know who's above you there's an eye that sees and an ear that hears and all of my deeds are written down in the book we say every morning the advantage of a person over a bahama that is the key of yadus to understand the difference between a person and a bahama and an animal so it would seem so strange that ghazal almost like instituted this from where from what but then there's also another question why purim rava says purim this is not the only holiday of jewish salvation why not pesach we were saved on pesach too from paris he was a pretty serious criminal i never saw any way i should say that on pesach you should eat so much matzah and so much more and so much chirosis and so much matzo bry if you do gabraks and drink so much wine until you don't know the difference between paris and maisha and you should bless suddenly paris is blessed you shouldn't know the divinity maisha is blessed in paris doesn't say that you should eat so many donuts and so many latkes and have so much oil until you don't know the difference between antiochus and yehuda maccabi and you should say blessed is anta why not the jewish people were saved on purim and purim they were saved on chanukah they were saved on pesach it's also a mitzvah to drink four cups of wine you should lose your mind we don't drink on chanakya you light candles you say hallo we do the other minham of hanukkah what happened on purim that they felt that rava felt that abdullah if you look at the fourth source it's israel she was the rabbi of kraka also in the 1500s and he writes he says anderson it's a comment on the shakiness that says he's supposed to become intoxicated he says some say the answer is some people say it doesn't mean you should get drunk so much it means drink a little more than you used to which we already saw from the best and then fall asleep now if you're sleeping you know the difference between cursed islam and a blessed is mother because you're sleeping so the ramos says some say don't take it literally it means drink a little extra because it's a day of celebration and feast and you'll get tired you'll snooze off you'll sleep and then you won't know the difference and then he continues where the one goes with a little more or go and goes with a little less the main thing is that they're met at their mindset they should be mindful of hashem so what do we see there ahmad saying here that i must suddenly say that it may not even mean literally it just means drink a little more fall asleep the question is why would then hazal put it in these terms very strange terms they could have said i'm put him you should feast and celebrate drink a little extra get into a better mood a more festive mood but they put it in these words you shouldn't know the difference between curses streak a little more until you fall asleep but mainly you don't know the difference it's a very interesting way of expressing it according to the rama according to those opinions that say it doesn't mean it doesn't mean literally and also the rama itself he says whether you're drinking a lot or you're drinking a little the main thing is if i'm really liberal can i lose my mind to the point that i could say blessed is hammer or the other thing about mardikai what does how do we make sense out of all of this the question becomes even stronger when you look at zayhar there's a section of zoya called tikkune zoya it includes 70 interpretations on the word boracious and the zoya says that the reason they named khaga purim purim in the megillah it says al-shamhapur because of the lot the gorilla we spoke about it last week the zorya says there's also a deeper interpretation that purim al-shame yoimha ki purim iskari it got the name of yoim hakipuru in toyota we have our day the 10th of tisha which is the day of atonement the day of kapara when they wanted to choose a name for purim they decided the best choice would be purim which is almost identical to in fact it says in swarm that one of the interpretations of yamaha purim is purim the day that is like purim which means in many ways that purim may be even higher than yom kippur because kipper even though it comes earlier in history is like purim it's compared it's like kemai purim like now if i ask you a question look at the jewish calendar and tell me which are the two days that are more diametrically opposed that are most diametrically opposed in the jewish calendar it's no no brainer it's him kippur versus porter yem kippur is a mood of intensity and seriousness and introspection and truth and people aren't sure all day you know faster you know you do fast you don't eat you don't drink and there's no bathing et cetera et cetera you can't even wear shoes and purim is the exact opposite certainly in a person's sensations and ambiance and atmosphere and the whole zeitgeist and the energy of puerto ri but somehow the zoya saw it differently the zaya says that the two closest days in the year are kipper and put him that's what he says purim is nikri it's called what is happening here like do we really did we really do we really not maybe we don't know what purim is or we don't know what team kipper is but this comparison between the two and not just comparison there's juxtaposition between making them the two closest days when they seem to be the two most distant days seems so enigmatic which of course invites us into a deeper understanding and perspective of this very concept of ad because when a person thinks that purim is not a serious day it's just a day of histololute how do you say huh not roaming around chaos absolute chaos it's really missing the point of the essence of purim because yom kippur nobody's going to say it's a day of chaos on the contrary it's a day of focus it's a very serious day so purim certainly is a very festive and happy day but it's a very serious day the happiness is a very serious happiness serious happiness doesn't mean it's not happy it means that it's a happiness that is very deep it's very profound it's very authentic so today we're going to present one of the very powerful explanations what adalayada means what does it mean not to know the difference the source of it comes from the you'll see it in your fifth source sheet by the way the source sheets are posted on the yeshiva.net so you can always review them later from the balatanya my mario admiral kentuck has a discourse a miami that he said on purim tough samajimo 1803 and i quote rather does not mean you shouldn't know the difference between cursed as human and blessed as marduk you should say the opposite you should say that mordechai shalom is cursed and haman is blessed that's not what it means who the meaning is even on purim a jew should say cursed is haman and blessed his mother raksha yada but you shouldn't know it what does it mean you shouldn't know it shall i say he shouldn't be self-conscious when he says it peter does a person should be able to say blessed is human and curses motherhood but without das it shouldn't be coming from das it shouldn't be coming from a form of self-consciousness and self-awareness and he gives those two excellent words of a dialogue maven this will be enough for somebody who understands for somebody who understands this will be enough so we want to decipher at least to some degree to some limited degree these very very profound words what is he saying when rava says you abdullah to listen to the words very carefully a person is he could have said a person is supposed to be drunk until he doesn't know what hit him there's an expression you're as drunk as light which is of course a symbol of somebody who was completely drunk to the point that the terror describes and purchased valley what happened as a result of his inebriation with his daughters etc he was so drunk that he could allow for promiscuous adulterous and sexual behavior that's an expression of somebody who completely loses their mind they're just out of it they're out of it they're smashed stoned as they say from from from yayan from alcohol rubber doesn't say that rover decides to talk about haman and murder until you don't know the difference between curses says it means that i'm put in my reach a place of adelaide i don't know the difference between so most people may say it means what there's no difference he says no it means that the difference between haman and mordechai is not stemming from yoda it's not stemming from a place of intellectual cerebral knowledge analysis das perception it's coming from another place completely the difference between curses i'm gonna have blessed marduk i should not be coming from yadah from the fact that i know it i understand it intellectually i wrap my brain around it but what does this mean what does it mean the words are interesting that i'm putting him up jew or to reach a state that yadav it's not that he knows the difference which means a whole year haman is cursed and blah blah is blessed what creates that distinction my das my knowledge of it my understanding of it my perception of it yada yada we say a person knows yada das knowledge so the difference between the two stems from my idea my awareness of it my conscious awareness of it that's what creates the difference on purim he says there's a special opportunity it's a gift what's the gift the gift is not that i don't know the difference between them now that human and identical as we explained if muhammad and martha are identical there's no purim stop the party you should party celebrate so much that there's no difference and then there's no party so there is a difference not only there's a difference if there's ever a difference emporium is the biggest difference because purim is the day you celebrate the victory imagine somebody was saved from the war and you say you should be so happy on this day that you don't know the difference between the murderers and the victims it's it's a strange thing to say you could say be so happy the grace that i don't know you know lose yourself in ecstasy fine i understand that but it's a very strange way especially jews okay rather didn't live at the time especially talking to people who went through put it you shouldn't know the difference tell a mother who went through you'd see a smithsonian and say you shouldn't know that empowering moisture really i shouldn't know the difference so that'll be says no i'm putting me the difference is much deeper than a whole year so what's adalayada the difference is not coming from yadah it's not coming from yadiyya you're reaching a place that you don't know between ara rahman and al-qaid not because there's no difference but because the difference is not coming from your yada from your knowledge to explain what this means we have to understand a little bit more about what happened on purim and then we'll see why rava said these words we all know the story the story is it's in the chapter three of mcgillis esther that we read on purim at night and in the morning the story you have it here in your source sheets as well one two three four four one two three four five seventh source after advaria may allah translate into english akhashverish is the king vashti is gone esther is the new queen and the king decides to appoint a new prime minister what we call a rash member second in command a missional amelia viceroy person who is right under the king and this is haman and he doesn't just appoint him he elevates him his throne is above any other minister meaning he is the closest person to the king he is the king's confidante he has the king's ear the king trusts him he feels that he is his man he's loyal to him not only that the king inspires such dedication and such reverence and fear for ahman that everyone is bowing down kneeling and prostrating themselves to haman and it's not just because they want to find favor by haman it's a king's command it's the royal command that haman needs to be all the way on top that's how much akhashverish needs him trusts him cherishes and values him but murder um won't kneel and won't bow down and the pasta continues this is peri gimmel pasake esther chapter 3 verse 5. human sees that mordechai is not kneeling he's not bowing before him is infuriated he's filled with wrath got it he doesn't want to just kill marduk that's not good for him why we're not waiting for an explanation because they told haman about the nation of martyrs so now what's human's ambition he wants to exterminate khalil all the jews under the empire of akheris who because mordechai the nation of murder and that's when he comes to the king with his plan pasaques and he tells the king famously there's one nation they're scattered everywhere they have their own religion they don't follow your laws it's really worthless for you to leave them intact to keep them alive and the king agrees and the pasta continues saying how he sent out a decree to the entire emperor empire the hashmat lara glabadesca to exterminate to kill to destroy every last jew young and old children women men all in one day the 13th day of other and not only that all of their booty can be plundered all of their assets can be taken by anybody and you understand why he added this because we saw by the holocaust that the fact that the ss and the germans allowed the ukrainians and the lithuanian and the polocks and the hungarians to take the assets of the jewish people only increased their appetite to assist so it was a brilliant device because not just kill the jews for your anti-semitism you also get a very nice car your neighbor had a beautiful coat and you could take the coat somebody has a home somebody had other things that's what happened throughout eastern europe and all of these communities they allowed their assistance the local gentiles to kill us lovers to take the big booty they took for themselves you know the expensive art and there's that they shipped back to germany or vienna but the the slalom lovers they allowed the peasants to have that's why he adds it here because this is an extra an extra motivation people don't realize it's very video it's an extra motivation you'll kill and you can take whatever's in the house you could take the clothes he could take the money he could take the property he could move into the villa could move into this jews palace this is what happens this is how the megillah describes the story how do we understand this what infuriated haman what infuriated haman is that one man is not bowing down to him only one man marduk everybody else did bow down whoever was part of the palace whoever was part of the the elite group in the palace whoever was connected everybody bowed down to him there was one man martha so you would think that haman would kill martha martha is infuriating you he's driving you crazy he will not recognize your authority he will not recognize that you are the master of the world okay so kill him you don't want to only kill him kill his closest circle martha was a member of the sanhedrin the jewish supreme court killed his colleagues killed his havrusas kill the sanhedrin i don't understand why do you want to kill the entire nation many jews did bow down to him i mean the jews that were there probably did bow down only only mordechai didn't bow down what do you want from them so you say well mother has influence on people fine so the people that you think martikai's influence on kill them but it says that it was mordechai who did it so it's more the circle so the magilla asks this question and the miguel says they told them about the nation of murder what they tell him it doesn't say what they tell him about the nation of martha but the megillah gives a hand they told him about the nation of mata who's this nation not his inner circle if it's his inner circle if it's his family if it's his friends if it's rash yeshivas if it's a stadike then he wouldn't want to kill every last jewish childhood if he lost jewish woman and man in the whole empire 127 provinces who's the nation of murder every jew and that's when the next basically says his ambition was to destroy every last jew amma murder the nation of murder suddenly they get a new title they're not the jewish people anymore they're the nation of murder what is it that haman understood what is it that human heard that infuriated him so much and gave him this ambition to destroy a villas jew and the answer is that these two words ahmadakhai really encapsulate the essence of the story haman wanted to understand where is this characteristic in mordechai coming from this resistance of mardi gras he will not bow down to haman where was where does it come from who created it how was it crafted is it maybe mordechai is simply a super intelligent man his iq is is super high he's just a very smart wise person and he's not ready to become subservient to haman he's just not ready to surrender himself to this narcissistic egocentric maniac who thinks he is the most powerful person in the world sorry i'm not going to be part of your uh of your my office club i'm not going to dance quietum in front of you maybe that's it maybe it's mordechai's mother was a tremendous london it was a great talmud it's a terrorist scholarship that caused them not to bow down maybe it's his candidness his deep wisdom his sharpness maybe it's his religious zealotry mordechai was a really fruma frumaid he's not bowing down to a person and ghazal said he was wearing his pagan now his horrors on it his idolatry on it maybe it came because madoka was an israeli he was spiritually sensitive deeply spiritually sensitive and it didn't allow him to bow down to hama it's his sacredness his aloofness his spiritual sublimity his kedusha his metaphysical transcendence the godliness that vibrated in him the shrine that dwelled in him those are the characteristics that live in murder human is asking himself and that's why marduk will not bow down to him and then hammond realized that's not it why didn't he want to kill mordechai himself they told him about the nation of they told him that this entire nation is called the nation of martha what did haman learn haman learnt that mordechai is not bowing down to the inflated infinite ego of haman that mordechai is not ready to surrender to the evil barbarity to the sadism to the narcissism of this man who couldn't tolerate any other methius outside of him a man who could not tolerate any one existence outside of the whole world is bowing down to you one old jew is not bowing down to you ignore it no it's not enough right narcissistic narcissistic personality disorder with a little say that or a lot of sadism and brutality involved if there's one person who does not surrender to me i can't exist it's not just i don't like the guy i'm not going to invite him to the party no i need him dead so haman would think it's magnifying get rid of him martha is a jewish stubborn guy you're a stubborn guy butt heads with each other let's see who's more powerful get rid of him no harman understood something that murder not readiness to surrender himself to this inflated ego a person who was so indoctrinated with with toxic evil and cruelty this characteristic is ingrained in every single jew it's ingrained in the entire nation and the entire nation could therefore be called ammardachae the nation of murder in other words this quality and martha is coming not because marthaphy as an individual he's a goddel he's a genius he's a spiritual saint he's a sadiq he's a rosh yeshiva no then kill motherhood it's coming and marduk and not because he's unique it's because he's a member of a certain nation a certain people and this people is what gives them this quality and this quality is what makes them call be called ammar in other words it's a nation that at the core of their being they will not surrender their souls to avoid zara they will not embrace and acknowledge idolatry they will not acknowledge a narcissistic egotistical tyrant despat and dictator who feels that he is the god of the world and will eclipse and want to suppress the real reality of anoid mulvade of hashem's truth so what's the conclusion of haman if this is the case if this quality of mardukai comes from the fact that he's a member of a people and this is embedded in the dna of the people so human things are what am i going to kill martha so what do i need la hashmi i need to get rid of every last jew why because it's suddenly haman realized that even the smallest jewish child is a little mardukai it's a claim so you'll get rid of mordechai you're still left with 18 million tiny mordekais every girl every boy old young they live in this city they live in that city they may have mardukai's iq or none of it there's eq or none of it he suddenly realized that every jew embodies that level of kedusha that level of spiritual truthfulness and authenticity because the soul of a jew as it always says is a helix it's a piece of divinity the body of a jew is kaidos kadashima as the zoya says go for the lion kardashian the body is holy haman feels suddenly this holiness this divinity that exists and is embedded in every single jew and this drives him mad it's almost like if you study the world of if you're a naturalist you study the world of mammals reptiles insects you'll see even the smallest insects they have this acute awareness when there's danger right they just they why it's part of their dna it's incredible how hashem made nature the tiniest little insect instinct the tiniest little insect has an instinct for survival the tiniest animal reptile bird insect fish tiny weak frail doesn't look like they know anything but when there's danger they somehow are alert they're sensitive to it and they'll do anything to ensure their survival according to the devices that were given to them and to propagate their genes even the smallest animal has this instinct of survival you are a threat to me certainly more sophisticated mammals it's an incredible thing that nature has today we know even trees have it shrubs plants you know they've they've proven that trees is very interesting there are trees that when insects come and start eating so they release a message it's like a perfume that the other trees a fragrance other trees pick up on and the other trees release noxious fumes so that the insects won't come close so they actually realize that there is communication between trees it's incredible we call it speech they have their own type of dib with their own type the gemara says he could listen to the conversations of palm trees and the conversations of other trees and the conversations of animals and insane now if you look at the gemart and sukhada what conversations who's having conversations today in science they're all having conversations all the time we just don't have the tools to understand it you have to have a deep sensitivity this is certainly mammals but even not even mammals even things that we don't seem to it doesn't even seem to be alive what's my point even the most primitive insect is aware of something that's threatening it haman was no different when human sees a jewish child he feels threatened you say why this child knows no more that he's not growing up like martha she's not growing up like murder because haman actually evil is allergic to goodness tuma feels tahara khalipur feels kadusa where does haman feel this threat not only in mardukai he feels it in every single drew because it's the truth because the infinite goodness and holiness embedded in the youngest jewish child boy or girl and in every single drew me naive at zakir tavinashem is so authentic it's so real it's so genuine that he feels as long as any one of these children exists my existence is compromised my existence is incomplete my existence is miserable because they do not recognize and will never give legitimacy and will never surrender to my endless egotism and narcissism and tyranny and dictatorship and sadism and barbarism that all that came with ammon's endless ego where did we see this again we saw it again 80 years ago in the second human of jewish history in jewish history throughout history there were many tyrants who persecuted the jewish people but in terms of a recorded story of somebody who decided and really had an authentic ambition to exterminate every last jew we know two people haman 2500 years ago and adolf hitler yamaha just 80 years ago a little more than two mortgages ago not long and you saw something fascinating i heard this from mayor koch remember mayor ed koch i heard this story from him he once went there was a group of mayors that went to visit eastern it went to visit europe and they were taking a tour into the berghoff hitler's home in bavaria you probably saw pictures of it it's incredibly beautiful and he said that the tour guard was taking them around and showing them around hitler's home a lot of the videos and pictures were taken there him and eva brown and the dog and he had his dog and they had receptions there this is in the bavaria bavarian mountains and he said in his office there was a huge globe a beautiful globe and he saw with a black marker on each country there was a number a number america had a number every country had a number russia had an every country had a number albania had what the number one so he asked the tour guide what is this so he said that hitler he wrote down on his globe how many jews exist in every country because his goal was i need to reduce it to zero he says in albanians albania had one jew he had one juice he had to put it on his globe to be able to make albania juden fry to destroy khalil the last jew what does this mean in fact in the early 40s there were commanders and generals in the german army told hitler that the resources you desperately need to win your war against the allies against the english against the soviets against americans you're squandering these resources to send the jews to the gas chambers but for him that mattered much more than winning the war in other words more important than me winning and surviving and being victorious is killing my enemy which is strange you want to kill your enemies that you should have a better life where does this come from you saw with hitler what you saw in haman that the hatred was not reserved for jews only who were kadosham rashid shivas sadikim rebus mekobolum which diamond which saturated eastern europe some of your parents grandparents great-grandparents great-great-grandparents them too but jews who screamed were atheists we're not religious we don't believe in toyota we don't believe in yiddish great they married out they had no connection to judaism may be for generations it didn't matter the same glee with which they sent to the gas chambers the holiest of the holy the most religious of religious the greatest toyota personalities men and women of all the state and state and cities in eastern europe with the same glee and the same venom he and the nazis murdered every single last jew even that jew who completely didn't identify with judaism why you'll say well that is what blind indoctrination hatred and evil is of course it's all true but why the same relationship to a jews not identifying himself as jews his parents didn't his grandparents he would be very happy to tell you i'm not jewish there were many jews screaming i don't believe in anything they believe in and the answer to this is as intensely painful as it is intensely true and that is because he felt hitler like haman embodied the ultimate ultimate evil and he felt they both felt something very true that the goodness in a jew cannot be eliminated i the jew screams i'm not really jewish they felt that that's only signias it's only external i am bowing down to haman you yourself are not really bowing down to hammer your facade are bowing down to hammer and hitler are allergic to the kudus to the holiness of a nation and to the holiness and every jewish child and therefore as long as there's the last jew in albania who lives or this one little girl who was discovered in a bunker somewhere in poland or in lithuania in ukraine you cannot rest until that little girl needs to be exterminated how is she threatening your life she's not threatening your right she doesn't have philosophical opinions she's not a bolshevik she's not a communist she's not an american capitalist trainer to be a national socialist fascist but i'm in every child haman sees this is just a little murder the i possibility wise from my enemies you want to know who somebody is you want to know who you are look who hates you you'll know who you are you want to understand who somebody is look at their enemies you right away no when you see a people and you see that their enemies are stalin and hitler and turkme day and khmelanetsky and para and the vulcan and every despat in history the first enemy is the jewish people you know that this is a good people if for osama bin laden hates you rawan he hates you some you're doing something right so now you have to ask who do they hate who did stalin hate who did hitler hate doshim the holiest holiest jews of course them too every jew identical when the hamas sends their missiles who do they want to target if you're a jew you're fear it's good fair play why because there's an ms that the kidusha of claudius syrah is so profound and it's embedded in every single person no matter their age no matter their knowledge no matter their persuasion and even no matter their behavior afalpisha khatta israel who means that the kedusas israel is embedded it's in my dna and hitler said you can't he said this you cannot he didn't use the word the enemy you cannot change their dna you cannot change their core he may cause coming from a place of evil because evil hates goodness it hates it and it senses it like a little animal that senses danger and it will do anything to get rid of the last jew and somehow he cannot have menuh until that happens that's why the gomorrah says in magillada fidala that if you want to understand the gemara gives a very interesting metaphor that there was a man who had a big ditch in his garden and he wanted to fill the ditch but he didn't have sand and one day he was walking and he saw in somebody else's garden a mound and he said can i pay you ten thousand silver shekel to buy your mound of sand so i could fill my ditch the man says i've been looking for years for somebody to get rid of this mound take it for free and everybody was happy the man with the mound got rid of his mound and the man with the ditch filled the ditch and the gemara says who are these two people akhashverish and hama haman has a ditch he comes to kashmir he says a mound ah ten thousand shekel give me the mound. says you don't have to pay me the money is used i'm trying to get rid of the mount what's the kemar trying to say a mound a ditch what's this metaphor adding just say that with two anti-semites they both hated jews when the gemara gives a metaphor to explain something besides the fact human in the story in the parable you want the mound right you want the earth in your garden to fill the ditch hammond didn't want the jews you want to exterminate the jews but i think now you can understand haman has a ditch in his heart the khazal here are inimitably expressing one of the deepest truths of anti-semitism haman has a hole literally a hole and i'm trying to fill that hole because if there's a jew deposit says in yeshaya atam um god says you are my witnesses as long as there is a jew there is a witness to the presence of the abundant shalom in the world i the jew says i'm not a witness you are you're essentially a witness you're a piece of kedusha you're a manifestation of hashem in this world haman says get rid of kill the witness and then my ditch will fill up my void will be gone the void hitler once told somebody he said that the jews introduced two problems into history they circumcised the world they circumcised the world physically through a bris and they circumcised the world emotionally by introducing conscience conscience circumcises the world what's conscience conscience means you're not let a kill you're not let a lie you're not let us steal you're not let it violate might doesn't make right there are moral limits there are moral boundaries there's respect for life in other words it's not just the law of the jungle you do it because you can you have to know if it's right or wrong they circumcise the world in other words they they distorted they they they ruined creativity by saying there's something called conscience in hebrew it's called matspoon you know what spoon is conscience we turned it into guilty conscience he didn't use the word guilty conscience that the day of conscience the idea that there's unashamed there's a sensitivity there's right and wrong you can't tell a lioness you know that sheep is so cute and she was just born yesterday maybe do a yom kippur today lie in this you'll fast your kids will fast fast three days like esther go go talk to the lioness you can't blame the lions these are her genes but a person does have that ability it's called morality haman knows he can't live this ditch is so deep he's a deep person and he knows that this ditch exists as long as there's a jew he cannot fully celebrate life so what does he do he comes to khashwatish is not so sophisticated like knows that there's a mound the jews bother him they're just a strange nation that you always bump into them that's a haze it's another type of anti-semitism more more more simple it's based on haman but not so complicated had a deep side to him you see how he knew jewish history and the gemara says if he had some spiritual wisdom he understood things haman feels the issue you got to fill the ditch how if there's no jews there's no ditch there's no void there's no god there's no moral law there's no right there's no wrong and suddenly my barbarity my sadism my egocentricity can rule and that explains why marduk didn't bow down to him why did not bow down to him you don't want to bow down go sit at home what do you have to sit here and human walks by you know go bow down to him what if to infuriate him the answer is to the truth the jew who thinks that by not bowing down to the anti-semite that's what creates anti-semitism that the jew who assimilates and the jews that says i'll bow down to you suddenly that jew is loved it doesn't work that way the worst hatred came from germany where the jews were mostly assimilated on the contrary they feel essentially that your dna is holy there's a kedusha there and now when you tell me that you're like me it only exasperates it only infuriates me even more if there's any hope for the jewish people there could be akiva said it's not that the fish should come out of the water it's not going to save the fish understood the greatest salvation of the jewish people is their divinity their connection to hashem not bowing down to haman doesn't turn haman into a friend because the most secular assimilated jew he sees as the same jew the only difference is here it gets even more infuriated why because now you're trying to fool me you're trying to deceive him here at least tell me who you are be honest with me and you saw something else and that is there wasn't just a hatred to the jewish soul it was also a hatred to the jewish body the goof and we saw this also by the hamana of the previous generation it wasn't enough to kill every jew he needed to he needed to destroy the bodies after the gas chambers they all went into the crematoriums there shouldn't be a zakah to the idoc on one level it's because erase the evidence the obsession of it had to do with something deeper it tells you about the kedushas haguf of a jew a human and a hitler are not just allergic to a jew they're not just allergic to a jewish soul they're not just allergic to somebody who has the name jew they're allergic even to the physical manifestation of a jew you would think it's a goof it's a body what's in a body it's a body like everybody else says in tanya when it says ivanov shows us what did he choose it's the goof it's the goof that was chosen and the explanation is the neshama didn't have to be chosen it's different choice is between two things that are similar you want to go buy a house and there's two houses you have to choose this house from this house you want to get a car there's two cars you have to choose one car from another car but if somebody comes to buy a house and the person says oh you could choose between this car and this house i didn't come to buy a car i came to buy a house you came to buy a computer and there's one computer said you could choose between buying a computer and buying a broom i didn't come to buy room i came to buy a computer choice means two things are similar you have to choose that's why by the nashama of a jew there's nothing to choose if hashem wants the shaman of a jew a different type of soul so so where is the period the clearest in the guth who feels it the evil feels it the evil fills the kedusa and ayida shaguf in a jewish body and that's why to save a body your mikhail shabas and your avery are all the mitzvahs of terror if the god leaves him kipp in the middle of kaido to go save a child that's in a suffix akana why because the kedusha saguf manifests godliness the holiness of a jewish the visceral body the physical material body even though it seems simple it's just physical but that goof has in it infinite divinity and that's why those who tragically embody negativity in the world have that score and that hatred to the soul as much as to the body and to the body as much as to the soul it's an incredible testimony what do you learn from these people you learn from me you learn from your enemies wisdom how you have to look at a jew and how you have to look at a jewish child because the reason that hashem allows there to be evil in the world is in order to be able to show us what goodness is to be able to contrast it and to understand how to perceive goodness to have the goodness vanquish the evil so when we see such evil in the world what is it for it's to be able to understand the goodness of ayid the holiness of a jew and without differentiations minar vadzak and tava nashim every little one of them every last one of them is ammar that's what infuriates haman and that's why he will not rest until he could convince akash that every last jew has to be eliminated has to be exterminated only then could i'm unrest now this is evident in a very strange and enigmatic madrid if you look at the third to the last source on the bottom esther abba parish resign there's a madrid on the megillah it's called madrushra esther gives us the following statement hashem told hama you're a fool you're the most foolish man in the world ania martin i also tried to kill the jews i was a failure shenanimar to hillary lash medium lulay masha god wanted after the creation of the golden calf to destroy them but maisha stood up and he he he challenged it it never happened you think you're going to do it so listen to this conversation hashem tells haman you think you're the first hulk i tried already i was a colossal failure did it work i tried i told myself i'm done finished they're gone marsha said it's not happening it didn't happen now you think you hum and you think you're gonna do it this is what the matter says what are the sages telling us what does this even mean and what does it mean hashem says you know i tried it didn't work it's almost like what is this empathy towards haman like come and let's just face it we're both going to fail at this and what does it even mean hashem says i tried and it didn't work really who stood up to him who stood up to god how do we even understand hashem saying i was incompetent what is he telling this to humans almost like you know we're partners i tried this you know when you tell somebody going into business oh i tried this business years ago stay out of it what is this type of camaraderie and he calls ahmed ashoita why is he a shaiti he's a rash he's not a shiite he's a russian he calls shayta you're not a doctor you're a russia also but first and foremost you are shayita what's the difference russia means wicked shaytan means an idiot in english [Laughter] doesn't work as well as in yiddish i also know the word in english shaita means you're not only a russia you have a simple lack of understanding of basic chemistry basic truth if you look in the next madrid madrid my children are stubborn people they're always refusing they're very stubborn people like i can never destroy them in the midst of me i can't bring them back to egypt i said when i'm going back to egypt and i can't exchange him for another nation marcelo what am i supposed to do so we're going to have to work it out so here we see two madrashim and one he admits to human incompetence and then he says i pressure can't i can't destroy i can't take them back to mitsrayam i can't exchange them for somebody else yeah people get divorced and they marry somebody else canis bringing out the essence of the whole story of puru hashem says i can't destroy a jew it doesn't begin with the physical it begins with the spiritual the divinity of a jew is indestructible because just like hashem remains hashem a jew is one with hashem so you'll say but the jew destroyed it it's indestructible this is who he is this is who she is i could change a lot of things about myself at least i could try one thing i can't change tell a person change the color of your eyes good luck i should change the color of my hair good luck i could dye my ear i could cut my hair i could dye my ears a hundred colors people do it change your dna sequence i want to become a chimpanzee i can behave like one i want to become a horse i could try to be one people do it he was the maggot of yerushalayim he was very funny so he once came to new york and he told the story he said once came to me and started to cry why didn't hashem make me like an animal like a bahama it would have been so much easier he said a bahama a cow an ox a horse doesn't have to eat with a plate with a fork with a knife you can eat everything enough to pay for your food he said you'll forgive me says he doesn't have to search for a bathroom when he needs to tend to his needs doesn't have to get dressed in the morning there's no davening life is good and he says the boy looks at me and starts crying and he would say in yiddish with a sing song on the bachelor vein the bachelor he says master of the world why didn't you create me like a behemoth so i said i looked at the boy and i gave him a beautiful glet a beautiful caress and i said my dear student you have no reason to cry you are a mame so it's a good anecdote but the fact is a person could behave a certain way i cannot change my dna sequence at least not the resources that we have available today it's actually uh that's actually a very sensitive topic about manipulating genes and manipulating dna but certainly in the days of haman this information was completely inaccessible so hashem says about every jew we saved before prakayavas a branch of my bush my plant the work of my hands in which i am so i'm of what i'm s someone i'm so proud of his spoiler i boast in this person you can't destroy the elokus of a yid so hey look this is who he or she is it's your etzema nephesh this is your core identity i could color i could put on masks i could put on a hundred masks i can deny who i am i can repress who i am i can suppress who i am i can run away from who i am i can do it all and do it successfully too but one thing i cannot become not me i can't i can't become a fed i can't become a horse i'm sorry i have nothing against horses i just can't do it have not been destroyed you the children of yaakov have not been destroyed hashem says i can't destroy myself i can't destroy a jew which is hashem a jewish and avery there are maxes and times of jews and abraham from the limbs of the shrine this is true spiritually he's describing change them with another nation you have to understand what a jew is a jew is a jews holiness is not based on the fact that he or she chose at some point i want to live a certain lifestyle if so haman should kill the people who chose it a jew is divine in his or her very core you can't change the color of your eyes you can't change the color of your soul and the holiness is manifested in the soul in the body in the very presence that you're a witness of the shrine in this world if you can't destroy a jew spiritually you can't destroy the godliness automatically physically is indestructible because it goes together ani hashem you can't destroy hashem you can't destroy his gene bonnie mata mashem al-qaeda you're a child now i want to ask you what can your child do to make any of you sitting here and look at him and say you're not my child anymore anybody what exactly he could do stupid things we know that it could be driven by a lot of trauma a lot of pain whatever it is but a child remains a child and even those parents who unfortunately don't have the perspective or don't have the emotional resources or don't have the guidance and the mentorship and they do alienate themselves from the children sleepless nights they have i never met a mother telling me i don't speak to my child my child doesn't speak to me we threw him out of the house when he was 16 and since then life has been grenade i never unless the person is pushed completely sick and they never themselves in a very deranged situation just not aware of what's happening in themselves why not because a child is one atim with you say don't be me anymore your child is what's one exam it's not just you grew up in the same house he does kibbut of aim those are all wonderful and amazing that's all expressions but the core is it means atsmis it's the bone it's the essence it's the core it's the quintessence that's why the gemara says in kedushin ribmeyer says what if jews are not behaving like children says hashem says even children who are completely alienated they go and create idolatry meaning they tell you you're not my mother you're not my father god you're not my god god says bank i can't bank or bank they're still my children and it's interesting that here in this case the rajput pascals like remain that bangkok they're always children in other words the relationship is always intact it's always essential so when the positive says in your shaft of last week this nation i created they tell my story they tell my praise it's amzuyati their very creation tells my story if you want to see the greatest holiness in the world stand in front of a mirror you don't believe me ask come on ask hitler ask arafat ask them the greatest kadusa in the world tell the jew stand in front of the mirror you'll see it and it's not true about some jews do about every single one this is his this is his or her core ah if this is what was happening if this is what haman was sensing if this is what haman was feeling we can understand when he comes to mardi gras and he says there's a singular nation but they're all scattered around it's not worth to have them he contradicts himself first he calls them it's a holistic unified nation then he says mephuzam afraid half of them are assimilated they're here they're they're part of everybody which which which time is human bringing as a source to justify annihilation you could say human was saying they're distinct they're segregated they're jews they look like jews i get that but then he says no they're assimilated they're trying to take over they're everywhere which one is it the answer doesn't make a difference jews always scratch their heads why do they hate us maybe if i change my nose maybe if i take off my yamaka i take off my payers i do this i do that yes there could be segregated people before i'm afraid feels the ditch and therefore he needs to fill the ditch it's called filling the void the expression in english and psychology filling the void begins with the story of haman and gemara that there was baal balakrits there was a ditch and he had to fill it so you screamed to me no i'm not the jew i'm not the real thing you are the real thing the one who has to know it is the jew has to know it haman teaches us in the gud moshe says you see two paths good and evil the evil is there to teach you about the goodness to teach you how to look at yourself how to look at your child how do you how to look at cloud you still know how to look at an individual drew no matter where or who he or she is how they grow up what their persuasion is and even how they behave today doesn't mean it doesn't need tikkun doesn't need correction but it means that the essential holiness is now negotiable it's absolute and therefore ultimately mitzvahs is part of their life and it's going to come out at some point every soul is connected it's going to come either sooner or later an interesting thing how do you spell yehudim you'd have dalai dude meme the word yehudam is introduced the first time in mcgillis esther told mcgillis esther we're called yester albero the first time we're called yehudam why it's interesting today we call jews yehudim so the literal interpretation is because the mcgill is the first book that was written where it's written in persia after the destruction of the first base the ten tribes were already assimilated they were gone so who was left yehuda so they're called yehudam because most jews came from sheikh but they also came from beyond those were the two tribes that weren't expelled the gemara says yehudi also means because he was maiden he he acknowledged he embraced he denied available issues the word yahood that comes in the word gratitude and from submission and might i acknowledge acknowledging this the megillah brought out that every jew is a yehudi ishihudi so how do you spell you do you'd have dollar dude mem but six times in the megillah yehudim are spelled with two youths if you'll see the magilla if you're having a megillah you'll see six times it's spelled with two years and the first time it's spelled with two users when mardikha when haman gives out the decree and he gives money to hashmaidish by yehudim la abdum to destroy yahudah so there was a masculine there was a it was a secular jew he called himself an apocalypse a heretic and he went to the tsa and he asked him why so he said because there's two types of yehudim there's two youths there's yetzer toiv and there's the eight sir two youths and we know that there's ten faculties in the soul so there's the youth the ten faculties of the divine zone the ten faculties of the animals saw the zero of haman wasn't only on the yehudim of the eight setoff it was the same xairan the uhudam of the eight sahara it wasn't only on one type of view it was on every type of youth yudhis the reason yidna are called eden is because yahood the youth it's the youth and the yura is the beginning of hashem's name jude and haye and varven hey there was once by uh by one of the the great rebels in poland so there was one satish so some it was pushy so somebody was on somebody else so the the the the rebel who was there says what what do you want him so he says two youths together is hashem's name yudhyud is hashem's name so he says there's a difference hashem's name is you do together side by side when you have one you're on top of another unit it's a safe passage it's the end of apostate when one youth is on another jew then it's the end of aposic are you nearer you that's hashem's name so you have two youths but you have different types of eudon don't think that those said oh you're you're part of my team you're good you you believe in what i believe that's not how it works but you had them lobbed them and the sama said they told this jew you'll see by you will be the same thing because he was very antagonistic to judaism and yet he says you'll see the same thing you'll be challenged by life and you'll see that your truth is going to come out of its whole story what happened he fell ill hitake became a tremendous year of shamayim afterwards he became a new person that's the bayou dim the two youths if now we understand once we understand this now you'll understand very clearly if this was the essence of what happened on purim so now when we celebrate the salvation of purim vikar what did it bring out what hashem told haman i couldn't destroy them you're not going to destroy them haman you have to be a not a doesn't know facts you have to know what they call the facts of life the facts of life is that the godliness of a jew is indestructible and that's why the jew is indestructible and that's why the jewish people are indestructible and even if khalil there comes times of xaiders that a jew or a big portion of jews like by hitler a third of the jewish people were physically destroyed not only is it not that their neshamas are not destroyed but claud israel as a body as an entity is indestructible and that's why nobody can do it even though the human triad and hitler's right and different ones tried in different ways even though not with the same dramatic ambitions like hitler so what came out at purim at purim the jewish people suddenly realized in the good sense from muhammad they realized who they are the jews who were nanumi sudashi russia they were covelling and passions with their photo ops in the shushan white house with akhashverish he invited us to the meal and the jews that bowed down to the salem and suddenly they saw the zelda the same anti-semitism to marduk the big sadiq motherhood is to every single jew the jew who hangs out in the shushan patashushan parties and took photo ups with haman and hung it up in his office and he framed it and laminated and sent it out on all the what's ups that he was holding haman's hand by the party and they were smiling together finally we made it after thousands of years of being segregated and crazy and parasites we finally made it and suddenly the jews realized who they are in the positive sense that's what came out and because they realized who they are therefore haman ultimately can't win haman was defeated and the jewish people emerged from the xavier itself the jewish people managed to shed their layers and that's why esther told marduk we spoke a few weeks ago and remember go gather all the jews human didn't want to marduk i didn't think he could gather all the jews and fast there's jews who went to the party they're not going to fast three days but esther said because she knew that at the core even those who went to the party haman knew the truth they're all little mardukas just didn't come out and in a time of challenge ultimately it comes out of him so she's told malik i trust trust me you can gather all of the jews and martha did it and he did it successfully this happened on put him it never happened another time that the jewish people should discover through haman the venapaiku is not just it was a transformation that haman was killed and the jews were saved it was a venapriku in the jewish soul they themselves were transformed from haman's evil they learned about their own goodness from haman's hatred they learned how much god loves them from haman's anti-semitism they learned about their own truth their own identity their own holiness if this is the case so rava said of inislab is difference by a jew between human and motherhood is not based on knowledge it's not based on intellectual analysis and comprehension on the person who's a scholar who's assidious who gets it who's immersed in it and they come to a point where they say ah haman not good mordechai is good that's all beautiful but purim brings out that the relationship is far deeper than yadah even when the person the choir is sheker there's no das the truth comes out but not because of das the of purim the ability of purim is what comes out is then is the atom the core relationship of a jew with hashem the core infinite holiness that transcends my awareness of it it's not a relationship because i'm conscious of it because i know it because i'm cognizant of it reach a point you don't know the difference is your very core it constitutes your very essence it constitutes on the contrary in das in self-consciousness and awareness i could be confused people are confused what do i believe in what don't i believe and who am i who am i not what's good what's not good when a jew reaches a place of adelaide where you shut down the yad you go deeper than the other who are you beyond the way you process yourself to yourself when the pneumonias when the atmos when the etsom comes out then the jew is completely won and unified with the rabbi shallallahu give a simple metaphor maybe not such a simple metaphor there was a shotgun a matchmaker called up two families in muncie one had a boy one had a girl and he said i think it's a good okay they met and the the courtship didn't go so well the shotgun felt that there's potential so he called up the carlos family and he sold them the brooklyn bridge and the tappan zee bridge he called up the hudson's family and he sold them the white stone bridge and the williamsburg bridge and another few bridges and they decided to go out again still didn't work out the shotgun had a gift of gap he met with the boy and he met with the girl and he explained it's only two times and after this et cetera et cetera et cetera as it says in swarm shattering as an acronym shecker deiver kasif naito speaks lies and takes money if there's any shot in here it's present company excluded this is not makhadesh it says in old books so anyway he gets them back together miracle happens after a few dates at work they decide to get engaged they put up a chupa they get married everything is wonderful the wedding is over the khas and kala go to the apartment that was rented for them they come into the apartment after the wedding it's already after the mitzvothans it's 3 30 in the morning they're exhausted and who's there in the apartment the shotgun they say what are you doing here he says i was just evicted from my apartment because i haven't paid rent in a few years and i know you have an extra bed here so if you don't mind i'm going to stay here the husson looks at the shotgun and says listen you know we just got married tonight it would be nice if we can have a little private time maybe you can go find somewhere else to sleep he says what type of hot spoon this i belong in this house says why do you belong in the house he says who's the one who made the relationship between you who's the one who created the connection between you if not for me where would you to be you would be in completely different planets you're still in different planets maybe but at least you're married what is it mars and venus what is it huh mars and venus okay i'm the one who brought you together what do you mean i don't belong here without me there's no glue i'm the one so the caller looks at him and says shotgun here's a check go find yourself a bed it's true you created you initiated the relationship but it's really now let's just be together a husband and a wife without the shot every person has a mind that mind is a special gift it's a gift the mind has to be used that mind is the shatkin between the soul and hashem it's the mind of a person that makes us ask questions it makes us curious it makes us inquisitive it asks where am i where do i come from why am i here how did the world come about what is responsible for the infinite intricate intelligence in every cell in every neuron and every atom and every electron the mind is the tool in us that allows us to search to explore to open ourselves up to transcendence in that sense the mind is an unbelievable and it's not easy it's always negotiating because the it's hard to put some doubts amalek is the gematria suffic 240 and the mind has to deal with it the shotgun has to always say come back come back come back don't run away once a year the hassan and the khala turn to the shotgun and they say do us a favor take a break for one day you're a good person yesterday we enjoyed you tomorrow will enjoy you but once a day allow us to have absolute intimacy aneela doidi in that sense purim is just like him kippur yem kippur is the day the gemara says rebbe says the day itself atones kipp is the day of the act of absolute oneness purim embodies that but even deeper because young kipper the oneness is expressed through transcendence through segregation through asceticism we're like you dress in white and you sit in shula hold then you don't engage in the physical the hidden purim is that the oneness is manifested in the body in the visceral body because haman didn't only want to kill the nasham he wanted to kill the guth he recognized that the ancient scythe of hashem is manifested in the guth so put him i don't have to run to my neshama to celebrate my oneness in my goof in my body how do we celebrate buddha i give you a gift of food it doesn't have to be candies it could be an orange can even be kale and spinach i'm giving you good ideas right the you know the more cavities the better for the dentist to give them maybe also an indian to give dentists parnosa but what's the idea of manners i give food what are you doing with foods we eat food matanos purim why because that's the whole hidden portion the visceral experience of the jew is a manifestation of the course of godliness so we tell the shatkins not that i'm put him there's no hammer martha come but becomes allah muhammad becomes a murder then there's no put him it's that my relationship to truth is not limited through the shock my relationship with my spouse is not before i call my wife i say well i have to call the chat at the first date it's a good idea second date it's also a good idea sometime later it's also a good idea at some point you got to talk to the person you're married to can't always go back to the shotgun sometimes you need a shotgun you're right when there's a crisis there's a challenge sometimes you need somebody in the middle it's called an arbitrator a professional a rabbi a rabbit's an affair whatever it is a person to help it's a shotgun you need somebody to bring two sides closer but in an experience of one is ohayou the bus it's not that i know the difference in it's much deeper than you did it's much it's much higher higher than judea and the truth is it's not just when we talk about the jewish people and claudius are all in the world it's also true individually with a person and here is with avoid of purim in that sense is the profoundest day of the year even deeper than yom kippur because if i ask any person do you know yourself and most people will say of course i know myself but isn't that the problem the way i know myself is through knowledge but can i know myself without knowing myself that's called adelaide you see when i know myself through knowing myself i don't know myself because my self-awareness that makes a lot of sense right okay you don't have to follow it better not to follow just let it sink in that's the point we don't stop with mental chatter we analyze ourselves right i know i want to know myself through knowing myself but that's the problem because the self-awareness that comes through self-knowledge is always filtered through the intellectual tools that i bring into my self-awareness did you understand what i just said okay because i didn't but but it made sense on some level i hope and what happens if my story is somewhat traumatized and what happens if my narrative my narrative is sometimes blemished all my self-awareness is being processed through that filter of yadah and some of us remain stuck our whole lives in there and we don't even realize it and that's the internal mental chatter right am i good am i bad was it a good cheer was it a bad they liked i'm never speaking again in my life you know that mental chatter that narrator that sits in you right and has commentary constantly 24 hours a day and we try to distract ourselves from it but it's all internal because i'm processing myself always through that yada through that self-awareness which is in itself part of the challenge because it's being filtered through the tools that i use to tell me who i am and who i'm not it's called self-conceptualization it's the self that becomes a concept that's experienced through my other you didn't understand what i just said okay process it don't process it too much don't process it too much in that sense the hardest thing in life is abdullah yoda adlaya there's not as simple as getting drunk that's not adlayada that's sometimes getting worse than tayata that's distracting myself more adelaide doesn't avoid the pinemans it's a very very deep avoider it's a very deep avoidance that they said others have to drink upon them is not to get drunk so that a person completely becomes chaotic and wild and violent and they're making a mess everywhere and they're using language that's it's completely not connected to putin that's connected to our own frustrations and our own voice that we have to deal with purim is avoided can i really let go of all those things that limit me because of the stories i tell myself about myself i'm afraid i can't i'm insecure this is horrible i'm living in my own orbit of trauma and i don't even know of any other orbit so everything gets processed through it to let go of that the trauma is not going to want me to let go of it why will he not want me to let go of it because that's where human comes in and that's why it's so important to remember our malik in every generation and blot out a molek stop remembering him so you won't have to erase him you know there was once a rabbi he was talking to his congregation and every five seconds he gave a pound on the bim they said what are you doing he says every time i give a clap another jew into marries so somebody screams so stop clapping remember i'm all lake so you can erase him stop remembering him and you won't have to erase him i forgot about a molecule no there's a mitzvah to remember him it's like don't think about the pink elephant what is everybody gonna do think about the pink elephant don't think about our molex what are you going to do think about a malik it's a bad strategy for erasing something from your memory the answer is amalek is something that keeps on coming up because amalek is what keeps the das in prison the word amale comes from malak you know what milika is malika what they did with a bird you ever heard molak removing the head of the bird from the body so there's no vegas nerve that allows the flow so what happens is i can understand everything but i'm still stuck my nervous system is stuck my brain is stuck a molecules have a problem with knowledge you could know everything but my das is stuck in a way that it cannot influence me there's a disconnect the only way i can deal with it is add a lawyer i have to be able to let go of the das i have to be able to trust my own lawyer to let go of all these defenses and it's a it's it's it's a profound transformation that's very subtle very internal very authentic to allow my core to come out and when the core comes out you will never see something as beautiful as gorgeous as infinite because it's a manifestation of hashem in the world that's why you'll see in the last source khulanda of kuflam tessa mabes the last source what's the source of human entire interesting question the gemara wants to know the source of amma why do we need a source for haman because everything in the world has a source entirely the blueprint of existence what's the source for ahama so the gemara says the passage who told you adam that you're not wearing clothes did you eat from the tree that i told you not to eat did you eat hamin is letters what does the umara mean means from mean ham in from the tree hamman is hammer it's the same letters that's the source of you see what's happening here haman is the source of the eight you ate from the tree hameena eights what was the name of the tree it's hadas was the avoider of purim where did rather get these words because he knew the challenge is haman holds on to eight hadas and that's why that what harvaina told akash medisha is take the aids of haman and put haman on that tree and put him you have to have the courage to take haman what's haman the inner hammer hameen i ate saze from this tree the eight zadas have you eaten and once you ate from that tree now suddenly i'm walking around oh i'm so embarrassed other man father weren't embarrassed before why weren't they what do they have to be embarrassed for they're god's presence in the world i have to be embarrassed with my pinky to be embarrassed with my your one-year-old girl runs around the house or your one-year-old boy runs around the house you know how they run around the house nobody's embarrassed even if it's friday night or it's the middle of a shovel bro because there's 50 people in your room they walked anyways it's so cute he's so adorable everybody's taking pictures when your 14 year old walks around that way suddenly you're calling every psychiatrist in new york what happened between 1 and 14. the 14 year old is not the same little cute kid we don't look at them the same way anymore why self-consciousness the one-year-old there's no eight sadas there's no so i'm i'm embarrassed i'm not embarrassed what do i look like when i don't look at the mental chatter is gone the challenge is we don't remain one years old we ate from the eight sadas so we have yadah i have to work through my das but islam is purim gives a drew the kayak the opportunity the gift that my relationship with life my relationship with myself my relationship with the world relationship with my loved ones with my spouse with my children with every person and of course with hashem is one that goes much deeper than etsa does it goes to a place of lawyer the one the essence of the jew becomes completely one that vacus with the ain't saved that transcends any filter any limitation and the greatest limitation the limitation that i impose on myself from my own dust am i allowed to be happy am i now let it be happy am i supposed to be anxious am i not supposed to be anxious how anxious how not anxious and i stay there and the more i argue the more anxious the more anxious i become comes rav and says putim is the gift of the basumavaporya the complete vacas with the ainsaf that is absolutely infinite is manifested within the soul and the body viscerally of every single jew have a wonderful wonderful day and afraid to all of you and to all of us and to all of our people i'll take a drink yes it's not wine it's water but it's fine you could do it through water too sometimes sometimes better through water you i hope you understood about the mitzvahs i hope you understood now what the mitzvah is if this is the mitzvah then it's good for men and it's good for women also [Laughter] yes so it doesn't so when it says a person should drink that's what it means that sometimes wine helps a person go deeper into themselves but it's not about getting drunk and smashed and then it does getting unstuck and sometimes for some people wine will do the opposite so that's the vart it's not but isn't there a mattress that moroccan worked in the staples that's also true that's the question what does it mean if he knew mordechai already what does it mean he found out about the nation of madagascar what did he find out what did he find out that they which it says what did he find out that they go to show he giddaloo he found out that every jew is a little mardikha when we can do adela yoda inside i think by osmosis it affects a lot of people around us the jewish people are like a body one body when you strengthen one part of the body the whole body gets strengthened so maybe we're internal transformation affects the whole world this class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at www.theyshiva.net donate