Discovering the Fire that Can't Be Extinguished - Likkutei Torah "Ki Bayom Hazeh" #8

the yeshiva dotnet so yesterday we learnt what forgiveness is both in terms of God and as a muscle for this somewhat the reflection of it also in terms of humans the process of Mithila what Mithila is why we asked Mithila and different types of Mithila forgiveness that people ask depending on the situation of the person that they hurt and the core idea was that the real essence of slack Lama McConnell is that I lost you and I should be able to find you again I should be able to have you again I should be able to experience myself the way you experience me I should be able to experience my Rutzen from your answers perspective that is the ultimate request leus Josh Everett sign alias rich so nice trainer Elena Yashiro it's a night Leah shower Elena that his Rutzen should return back to dwell on us what does this mean it's abstract words but really what it means is not something not so abstract his eruption should come back to dwell on us in other words I should be able to experience my eye as a reflection of your eye to be able to see my eye as a reflection of your eye is the relationship we called the vagus intimacy and everything I did with the ages ARA with kat up which catapulted me to the cafe cala that slingshot that brought me to places in which i don't recognize my true I created a dissonance a dis alignment between my eye and my true I so Mithila is that the your Rutzen should be able to dwell on me once again and now he continues no it's happier is a stage development this existence onus Kavya she continues and he says before iam one two three four four lines from the bottom curve of Ahmad base page 51 I mean when we say mica mica of Iraq I mean seriously it's sort of like I am Baraka who is like you a father of compassion who remembers his creatures for life with compassion he knows call this Abu Salah masala of attack dynamite is rather sorry for the fun of his mother's spirit Alice this means is tire creation of all over the world's the higher worlds in the lower world from beginning to end is for Hashem one memory one act of remembrance Zoe chariots or of its one Saphira one glance commercia COS of bizarre desire says the Merkava a cos boris urlanis the creation of all of the Worlds was one thought one thought that created all of the islands with fisheries far left side for mob attacks F Caledonia's because he gazes throughout history he'll the end of all the generations and the posix has clearly had died as my gosh he declared the generations ahead of time beam cane yard Keshava Paulo was mahabali Boris had a car Negro Venetian lugubrious allophonic thus immediately when all over the world ascended in his thought to be created their creation in his presence became complete the one thought to create all of the world's and what they should look like that constitutes the energy that creates them that one mark shava really creates all of the worlds Descartes said I think therefore I am and he says God thinks therefore I am one much over one much over includes all of history and all of creation one thought he may need a before one can appreciate practically gödel had symptoms should Simpson only insofar as Obama Chavez the depth of the symptom of the restrictive Ness at the light of infinity restricted itself in one foot into one for one massive of inside and that's what the whole world is one divine one whole world and all of history is one divine thought now that's a pretty intense observation if you really get into it if you really listen to what he's saying you could just read it okay myself I don't know what you're talking about but if you if you contemplate this if you meditate on it it's a very intense thought so how many thoughts do you have a day how many thoughts do you have a minute per minute how many thoughts the people that he says one match over all over the world is one more shot which gives us an appreciation to what he says in different my monument we learnt it also previously lies oh it karela coos Masha Allah miss miss have a momento don't define godliness by the fact that it's the source of the world's don't define our Sun by the fact that he's a creator it would be like all I know about you is one thought of yours and that's basically how I define you I mean imagine if you would define people like that how many meshugganah thoughts do you have that we did a how many ridiculous thoughts how many inconsequential thoughts how many foolish thoughts how many serious thoughts thoughts thoughts thoughts thoughts we don't stop thinking you can't stop thinking tries to stop thinking you'll be thinking about the fact that you're trying to stop thinking but there's no such a thing is happy to thing so the Sawyer says one match OVA is all the world's so now imagine you're defining God by that it's not that it's a mistake it's a mistake means that it's better you know you say you're saying a wrong shot but it said so so there's some relationship here but it's a mistake it's you know your wrong wrong realm it's not even in the same realm it's one marshal that's but we understood before the beginning of the mind my desire laughs orchid the Malkovich type of millon that yet it's not the Derrick of the King to speak peasant like words meaning words that completely don't reflect the author of these words they come from him but they don't capture what does a mash of a capture so when you define God based on creation it's the most pathetic way of defining him not that it's not true it's much of it came from him and between you and I it's a pretty impressive thoughts it's a pretty impressive thought with the telescope certainly with a microscope and that's knowing how little we know with the microscope and the telescope what we know about this some 28 of 30 billion light years what we know about and it's only the beginning of what we know about and that's we talk about everything but you could talk about one cell in one atom so this one my server is no mass mr. Marcus next up it takes a brave guy to say you know the whole thing just one thought but it explains to you how they thought about this how they understood the world on one hand they took the world very very seriously it's God's world on the other hand they didn't take it seriously they took it very seriously and I didn't take it seriously both so he says eina so you understand that Simpson that symptom that had to happen for this one watch over wish a meal of the area will see cloud for how Colonia is a over a comma it's all because he's over a command Petersham Ahava mom showed me this Romanus the rascal my loyal missile our voice some other kind of Thamud but since summer sovereigns right not here here it means they right just one one part you're right you're right Simpson has two interpretations sometimes you have the word symptom in Madras you have a few times since a mustiness a been badly Hara he compressed he compressed as Sheena between the two poles of the arm the Washington Madras Simpsons Kinison body ara hear the word symptom is how much has to be withdrawn and withheld in order for this mash of it to emerge as a self-contained reality which is really the source of all the worlds so he says this is a very it's sort of it's one serie everything all of history's once in one memory meat samosa over a famine what's the connection since he seems to be connected who is like you the father of compassion who remembers everything so everyone teaches it's for the answer if you know the high in barakamon that's the other after he says no it's an Azeri to itself it's only mid-south administer a bonus that that itself he creates to constantly have compassion on the worlds and create them constantly by having this symptom of one much other that's me some oyster over a common because it's really so sure it's only one spirit so therefore there has to constantly be the other element to perpetuate this act of creation and to be maintained this symptom into one massive Oh which is the source of all the world what he means here mmm is the desire for relationship the desire for relationship ohm is a is banana automated a thermograph mom I've sorry this allows a person out to meditate and arouse great empathy for his own selection of LaMotta mater might when he realizes how far he descended he felt they start labor sure sure when he looks at his source as the Mishna says da ein basa know from where you came but he says you have to go much deeper down may I investor doesn't only mean from where you came Peter's from a penis iein may I in Bossa you come from a state of iron may i anot may iron from where may i from a state of iron show penis of iraq allah i in verses yesh geishas something i in is nothing but sometimes nothing is more than something and sometimes something is less than nothing because the iron that we're talking here about is what we call iron what we call iron is that which in our world doesn't exist it's intangible we have no definition for it so we call it highly divinity is called iron we could recognize the H we can't recognize the iron so he says die you have to nominate iron Bossa you're not rooted in the world of the H you rooted in the world of iron you have to know who you are in other words your Stickle of course your Divine Being Cain I you read show your admirer one of his bars he could Olamide so the descent of a person from his infinite light is huge or may agree rama holy the Gomorrah says in hagigah neoguri Ramallah be remitted from atop theorem as a tall mountain the beer I mix it through a deep pit so when a person appreciates who he is the Dom may I in bossom this is the Mithila that a person says muscala know that I want to again identify my eye with your eye and you say mica mica over a film is also part of this contemplation that what that only because of your wrath come in your desire to have a relationship with us zhichen you create this one mash of ax which requires an infinite symptom of your infinity in order to have all of creation and all of history and this is constantly recreated and where does the soul come from the soul comes from this source Don may I in muscle like he said in the beginning of the mind man but he puts behalf of Mishima sky in the soul is God exhaling in other words comes from his inner devil it was completely one with them and now the person descended and not only descended but sometimes it's completely lost and fell lowly when you know me I in basa you can appreciate where you are and where you have to be overzealous my main option might a genuine contemplation of this will call cause a deep his smile Marissa deep anguish a deeper paid but not God Nicolas a live mama could touch the core of the hearts and usual and aftershave Oliver babish novella shop that his soul in his heart will go out and return to God by the juvenile Arabica zoo and when one those children with this type of love the Gemara says in the sacrament of pave Ava's darkness na seuk is obvious which Lockridge says that when a Judas just ruler out of love all of his sins are transformed into mitzvahs it's diagnosed now some like as audience even his willing of Eros his willing sins becomes obvious Peters what's coming well how does did what is the proud of this a person eight say pork it does true ver out of love so now eating the pork becomes a mitzvah Chris was makalah Shabbos so now that little Shabbos becomes a mitzvah the marsh are within the Gemara Swedish I got this much distance doesn't make sense why should the sim become a myths we did sugar and therefore the Marshawn terpenes the Gemara says did more doesn't mean that this dinosaur left his office the Gemara means that about sugar in order to forgive for his past he does extra mitzvahs and because he does extra mitzvahs that various cause them to do more mitzvahs but it's not that this dynast also like this office but it's not what the Gemara says they tomorrow says darkness not select esophagus the gut says it means that this deines caused him to do more mitzvot so therefore he has more Zacchaeus than other people because he's prompted he's tempted he's inspired to do more mitzvot but the ballot Anya tights is Peters to shame shall you day as obvious to Saleh now sure by Russia just like we explained that through mitzvahs what happens you're catapulted you remember I need to rush random you're catapulted the soul is elevated into the infinite light flute iodine mitzvahs Terry driveway that Melissa saw them which hold down the a choice law car this Alan naphtha there may decide the De La Hoya smart massage dinosaurs say miss Alice the same elevation of the soul that happens to the mitzvahs his soul will be elevated through this frustration in this my readers that comes from this dinosaur thus in this darkness the falling into the abyss create some e-readers maybe this means a sense of loss a sense of hurry a sense of frustration where I ended up knowing who I am who I could have been and who I became and being frustrated with that the elevation of the soul into God's light through mitzvos that same elevation happens to the frustration that comes through sins and without sin as you can have this frustration is lost in Category it's also catapulted dis frustration this sense of anguish of grief elevates a person to a place that he would have never be able to reach under conventional methods and that's where the Gemara says in brothers but Malcolm Shabazz hov I'm them he says who lead the Gemara said the malkos relative I'm them ain't said victim's mother miss Carla Muhammad the place with about chuhwa stands even a complete Tzadik can stand but what's the Havanna what's the plate explaining it what does the most over have over the southern just because I didn't send my whole life there for lawmen Agora if I sinned then I became about silver wow wow wow just because I'm a dad think I'm a good kid I never sinned sorry you can't get the prize it's not fair well many Gori have to say the other way around just because I didn't sin therefore I'm discriminated against what's per SOT that's what he's gonna start explaining now yeah pain anxiety similar similar not mama who's the ball sugar as the catapulting you think oh something is just you know and at a very very nice light level but right get that extra jump you didn't get them that Sabich is stable for care that Sabich is in a beautiful stable place consistent perseverance perseverance is consistency and he's in his orbit he's in his orbit the ball Chavez catapulted the ball to bezanika Veyron and sits down on that branch of the Cypress of the cedar and gets catapulted elevated to a place beyond his imagination beyond his capacity what does it it's the fact that he fell so low and experiences terrible me readers deep pain over it and that creates an elevation that catapults it brings a person to a place where action actions which are positive in a positive environment despite their greatness don't have they don't create the momentum which means as follows if you want to put it this way whenever negative energy is converted into an energy of fuel that fuels transformation the person is catapulted into a place where he could have never reached on his own because what's fueled this new growth is the exact opposite so there's a shock element here there is a leap there's a quantum leap that doesn't exist in that sadhaks life it's the sin that becomes the catalyst and the springboard for tremendous growth because it's what creates the me readers the sense of loss the sense of grief and this is what he's gonna start explaining now what the subtractors this is not really it's a new peyrac but it's you'll see right away he starts key ok he may be my should have a no city with some ticker by Nicholas at soon to Sherrod Salah he did give them in the Sirocco we that now go to the story apart rest easy son the Jews create a golden calf now partial specie so you could even see when you read the Amish to read the parsha there it's completely mysterious they create a golden calf is a disaster God says that we're done this is this this experimenters has failed let's start over with mush with you Marsha says it's not happening either you forgive them if not blocked me out of your book but feigning I miss it for a car find Hashem forgives what happens now is a strange conversation between motion God moisture says high readiness for death I want to see you a whole discussion could you see me could you not see they go back and forth and finally I Shem says he named up committee with some teeth he named up committee minutes after a lot survival Roy Davis I'm taking up any croissants or there's a place with me stand on the raft when I pass when my glory pass I'm going to place you the cleft of the sewer the cleft of the stone he says you'll see my back you won't see my face and right after that he gives him given me this irascible there's 13 attributes of compared by average I shot my palm of a crush mmm carafe a banana and then the parsha moves on to the next Soviet she says with moisture that's what the context the some tea company Kura such I'm gonna put you in the cleft Nick rustic left they were all of the rock when he wants to bring down the 14 the 13 attributes of Rafa Peter MacKay masseur alien mucker with shaders called cherchez salvos what's sewer sewer is called it's sewer a lien meaning the supernal rock which represented it sir like you say sir you saw of a gorilla in the morning right than the many Venus Caius the rack of the Jewish people Surya sir all the rock happy to out sir max after have the Navi says look at the rock from which you were home doubt where you would chiseled out from which he were carved out mock of a strange culture she is how was the source of creation commercial Kosovo be jeweled circuit south that's after gaze the Navi says at the turret Iraq from which you were carved the Nicorette sir wise a cold sore Camilla Marshall surah Hamish take a Flintstone shamrockin bylaw heh you take a Flintstone you strike it and you extract fire from it you can create fire if you know what you're doing everybody could try can you see sparks come out you can create fire we was this fire how you say that Asia boy you'll become a hell of a letter pile I ask you a question if you take this Flintstone you put it in the water for a thousand years you still will be able to take fire from it why water extinguishes the fire the answer is because the Asada age is not the pile it's because if the assignor age the fire would have been burning if you take a coal that's burning you put it in the water you know what's gonna happen but you take it out after 10 minutes it's not on fire because the element of fire is revealed it's actualized because it's actualized it could be extinguished - in the Flintstone it's pacaya its potential because it's only in a state of potential so the paradox is you always have it if it would have been in a state of actualization you could destroy it since it was only in a state of potentiality and concealment it's also indestructible because what are you going to destroy you put it in water so you extinguish the flame you don't have a flame here you have the potential for a flame that potential you can't destroy actualization you can destroy that potential potential is a state of potential there's nothing tangible that it can destroy that's why as we shall soon see people can be destroyed but their potential can't be destroyed the only thing that can be destroyed is they think their potential was destroyed but their potential can't be destroyed you can't destroy it you can damage an existing reality you can damage a potential reality so you can never destroy somebody's potential the challenge is you destroy them hard enough that you think that your potential was destroyed you don't think you have potential anymore so that is the greatest tragedy but not that your potential was destroyed so this you soda ash will always be there Konica buy your home liquid sword that's why sham is called sewer we say soon hey no every morning right sir hey no mugging ishe know mr. bard a no sir you sir oh yeah at night we also say right what do we say we say at night sir anybody love it and made them I guess okay what is this idea of sewer she says surah Calle Nokia shader shove-mucker lecoultre Shia via he is the source of all the sources of creation the surely shall valya who the hell of McLaren labor pearl and the source of creationism potential not an actuality Shima beginners say my Veolia smile : and so you may only ash shopkin Sh Ilana you have shame evalute cave of K that's the force of God which actually creates everything from nothing to something and we call that H have a penis at suru Shan Mei men who nymphs of Venus have a penis Asia Islam ah ah this rock goddess fire and this God as the Flintstone what's the difference a shovel the cat-car H I slow that's actualized fire that's not sir hey no sir I ain't know is there's also fire but it's only in a state of potential and concealment that's beyond Asia ha ha viola kara a child hello the way you cave of K is actualized meaning the force of divine energy comes out and creates the world's may I only ash that is Hashem as an Asia fire which creates light which creates warmth which creates life and energy and that fire has to be held down as explained earlier in the Maya that's H but then you have the mucker and the shire ish of shame Avaya the source in Hashem himself before he has any names here you have the source of everything but you don't see it it's not like I look at a flint and I said oh there's the fire you don't see it it could come out of it but it's not actualized in God himself you have everything but it's not in a tangible way where it becomes concrete eyes and therefore defines him or limits and he is the source of everything but the source doesn't mean that everything has to be in a concrete form and therefore in a limited another find for its rather in a state of mocking and cherish so you have two states you have are same as H and you have a semi sewer now when the jews create a golden calf their relationship with God is over quote unquote Hashem says this is not happening there's a fire you need to hold down this fire a choice Allah how do you hold down this fire Terra avoided Melissa soda what did they do they did the exact opposite so the relationship is over he says there's no relationship anymore the purpose of creation is finished the purpose of creation cease so where does the fire go goes back there's no wick there's no law of the fire goes back that Simpson is done we go back to the source moisture says no no no no it's time to go to the sewer we lost the H now you gotta go to the sewer there's some tissue but Nicholas at sewer after the head to a go you got to go to the Flintstone the regular h Eisler that was extinguished you put fire and water it's over you don't have the the wick could carry the fire it's not gonna be carried but the disorder doesn't work that way that sir could be in water for thousand years and the fire doesn't get extinguished because it's in a state of both its huh Battaglia that's the point conquering of about sugar chanita Exley may earn her a iyslah the ball Chavez a choice law was extinguished the fish a limp penis upsala bites he lacks the wick he lacks the logs this a phase Bahama owned in which the oil the light of divinity can hold on Shane terramycin payment tire it's filum I spend everything explained before the wicks the logs of Judaism that hold down the early Dasha and Nika Briana and allow the soul to become part of ain't size and they're the axis upon which all of the worlds and the cosmos rotate and exist the neshamah spinning me asylum is Baruch Hashem la que nous and then melech ha'olam as explained before at length that Aish is gone he losted in his own life he lost it he has no wick to hold down divine light what's his life like we're talking about a person who has fallen person was fallen spiritually morally psychologically emotionally so now you ask where is God in his life he lost it there's no wick there's no law there's no fire so what happens now what happens now is he may I'll you day how many decided early Lavina kudasai leave through the profound sense of pain and grief at the core of his heart I was sure hula my llama has mom and this transcends time why the ain't Chaffetz bhisma no mahkum cloth when a person is really in pain he doesn't care about time or space time and space don't occupy significance in that realm when a person is in as to another word you'll say oh it's two o'clock we gotta go I don't care I don't care he's in a space we're here it's a pasta dish why are you crying it's public area time and space don't hold them captive then he's enough because the pain touches him at a core space at a core point where there's no time there's no space monomer come on octo for smoking Shania's bhai enough shame he becomes disgusted with the way his life soul became keenya de bilasa bender daya the gomorian my father's aria your class has a story that blossom bender daya Gomorrah says that with their blossom bender daya was a Jew to put the words of the Gemara lo hee Nia ishes onna there was not one harlot in the history in the world that he didn't know he went everywhere he had to do with everybody and everything in other words he was a true true quintessential sinner on the highest level Mahad in Minamata with everybody's a share and so he says he once heard about some beautiful woman and he decided to go seek her services and he gave money etc etc the Kamara continues and he was together with her in the middle of the intimacy he let out here he let out here so she for more people she tells them just like this ear that you just let out is gone with the wind forever this is a reflection of who you are you're like this ear you're also like this this is what she called it and this triggered this Tribunal imagine all the teachers all the neighbors in the world all the receivers all the thrushes no world nothing touch Italy this mustard Russia that she gave in the middle when they were when they were with it together distributed huh transform an enchanted transformed them he got it he got it and he decided to change his life and the Gemara says he spoke to the heavens and the earth and the mountains and the Sun and the moon and he realized nobody can help them he said a nod of hurt all Al of B garb PA he went into weeping he put his head between his knees and he was weeping and weeping and he expired he passed on he passed on and there was a bicycle there was a voice that said rabbul izza bender diamas zoom and the hilum hop he goes tell him hump the Morrises bukka rebbe reb be cried when he heard the story and he said yes Clara allow me become a shinobi are no longer Chavez some of us have to acquire our world over many years and some of us acquire it in a moment Jacques Jacques means an hour not abused too tight shot from the word Venetia turning Bashar Assad Smith ain't care when I long Bashar al cosmic ain't care with one turn not our show with one turn with one movement with one gesture with one motion your coin a llama and Lloyd they call him Reb so he says let's understand this Kenya blossom mashup Boccaccio swish monster had a mash misère Maggie Allah penis at sewer lamella myeloma penises havelis have ears vom chakras mono maken through this moment that about sugar reaches God not as H he reaches God that sewer he reaches Hashem beyond our via beyond time beyond space the source of everything over there the fire was never extinguished because you can't destroy potential you can only destroy a chic and so this it's also reflection within himself what part of yourself can you destroy you can destroy your fire but you can destroy the potential of your fire you can never destroy that that's what a person has to know I could destroy my fire my can destroy the Flintstone I could destroy I could actually I can't destroy the fire in the Flintstone because the fire in the Flintstone can always be regenerated because it's not there in a state that is vulnerable for destruction we have two parts to ourselves we have a part that's vulnerable that somebody constr Amata's somebody can destroy somebody can eliminate somebody can tamper with somebody can minimize somebody could compromise and weaken that's the parts of you that are out there but the part of the ace that's in that sewer that could Annette's indestructible and therefore nobody and no force in the world could get there because there's nowhere to get they don't have it doesn't allow itself why is it so concealed thank God it's so concealed because that makes it indestructible so that's why sometimes people are trying to access parts of themselves and they can't it's very hard because it's deep and they get very frustrated but they have to thank their goodness that it's so deep and concealed because that is what allowed it to remain immune to all abuse to all trauma to all mistakes because it was in its Oracle Amish so that's in the person himself now in our Shem is the same thing the bulk Trouville lost access with the Asia Russia so what do you do how do you recreate a relationship the fire is gone he got to go all the way to the desert how do you get to the desert how do you get from the abyss to the sewer which is Hashem as the rock the Flint stone which is the source of shame avaya the source of divine energy the source of a child's life and that's beyond time and space because it's the source the answer is that ah the the sense of grief the sense of loss the sense of frustration that this person has and that sense which makes them think La Hoya that he has fallen so low that in itself catapults him and creates a momentum that allows them to transcend time and space because he's not interested in time and space he becomes disgusted and that sense of disgust takes him outside of time and space and brings him back to the sewer which is beyond the fire because it's the source of the fire Maria's back to the sewer is a place which deciding typically does not process so that's the yesh Coyle um I'd be shocked us with one turn what's out of turn what's out of turn turn means I don't know I don't go anywhere I'm in the same position I just turned around my reaction is different my direction is different my perspective is different I'm facing here and I face them in the same place yeah so what what's the idea is darkness not so like as artists I sent that's a reality I can't change that you want to speak about it psychologically I was hurt I experienced this in my life that in my life my choice other people's choices that's already the type of the type of how you developed into what you develop these are the facts what does the boat you have a change he doesn't change the facts but what does he do with it it can do one of two things either he could just wallow in that and remain there or the blossom and air daya uses all those experiences to catapult him to ain't safe to kedusha how because they create a certain sense of me readers a sense of loss that creates a yearning and it creates a sense of grief and pain that prompts the person to say it's not who I am it's not who I want to be so the varies diagnosed now the very sin becomes the catalyst the springboard to bring a person to the place of sewer to make a quantum leap with it's sad that could never reach because it's addict operates in the place of a ice law he doesn't need it sir the ball jouvert by falling solo through this darkness goes all the way back to the service i'm tiffani croissants ooh and if we says well the pain yachts is Basco zuma-zuma McCallum haba can my sad sad decommission enemies if they rustle Varvatos the Baskin says that he has Olam haba just like that tsadikim who have I'll um ha but what's Olam haba they enjoy the ray of their trade an avoider that's what LM Abbas I love muhabba is not different than your life now Olam haba means you experience your life that's with you LM hablas that's what we explained the other day with Earlham Hagen Aiden and Gehenna you see what he says woe leila mob is nandan mr. Dawson Varvatos meaning when you're even that sure when you learn tired it is as if there's a light that's created but I don't know the lights or the muhabba simply means I get to see the video I get to see the result I get to see the light I get the bats in the light of tired an avoider aidable is abandoned I didn't have Toyota Nevada how can he have LM haba after La Hoya Leto mitzvos bnei hey yo Sadoff up the McCoy Tavish are shove the cooler but he was dove look at the source of Terrence's because he was Davao he was connected to the mucker to the source and the shaders the root of everything which is did sir sir Calle know they're freaking Avraham ABBA even though wasn't processed through the regular situation of Turin avoided which holds down the fire of God he didn't hold down any fire he lost that fire early on in his life and he was left with nothing so all he was left with was nothing he was staring at the abyss what do they say when you stare at the abyss the abyss stares back at you right that's what could happen in other words you fall in and you stay there all he has is nothing what does he say a not over Tolly L of B I have nothing so what yeah what does he have you still have one thing huh right but in this state all he has is his sins so the Gemara says the sins become business how does sins become mitzvos what happens is the engine implement bomber IRA's so basically all I have is my sense of loss and you know what doctor ever says that sense of loss is the most incredible thing you can have because that will give you the awareness and the depth and the push and it becomes the engine and the springboard for infinity the Heckscher motion mini crescents or because that was give me the place of comfort oh yeah that's why it says plenty later oh it's all the Hester bees it's got in the Flint stone right oh you're right there's no way so glad to see Riley right if he becomes above children if the sad that becomes about children he has to hang around if the Sabich hangs around below sugar then he can have it a little bit he could be tired from their toy elevator that's what it says yet so in other words so you have here the concept that whatever you take negative energy and you somehow figure out how to convert it into a source of positive energy the positive energy is far beyond the regular positive energy it has a momentum it has a depth to the positive energy on its own doesn't have by taking this darkness and turning them into the source of his relationship with Hashem those tears that cry brings a person to a place that he could have never had with his obvious itself so therefore just like the soul is elevated to infinity through sophia's in a different way it's elevated through this dynast - where's it elevated not to a cycler to nick receptor where the ash was never destroyed because it was never actualized so the ball Trueba touches god in a place so to speak with its addict doesn't touch that Sabich touches Hashem in a more structured place he gets in touch with this structured God the God who creates a world and create systems and creates good into its bad and this is how you connect to me and this is how you disconnect to me the about silver lost that there's no so he destroyed all the structures I'll tell you yeah there's no structures anymore the fire is gone there's nothing just abyss tell you one volume this question so now what does he have to figure out he can't connect to a God of structure because he destroyed all the structures he has to go to the place of sewer to the shoulder shoves man the stretcher shove-mucker but how can he get there he infests to finding it in himself that space where he becomes transcendence and single-mindedly directed to that which is beyond time and space and then there's darkness massive like a softness that's why by cata Agel that says with something Sabina croissants you can't come about Trueba can't copy anybody else if you're copying it's not that it's all original we'll see tomorrow so let's summarize after the hele go after the jefe go we learned there was a crisis that faces the Jewish people it's the first time that the entire relationship was at the verge of becoming extinct and the reason was obvious the reason was obvious imagine a couple gets married and forty days later not a year later not ten years later not even six months later forty days later which basically means a little more than a month the spouse betrays the other spouse on the honeymoon you know in middle of the seven brothers basically it's like whoa odka the economy this is a whole pretty hopeless situation mail a few years later you know oh so it's quite complicated I get bored of each other they get into fights stress of life issues come up you just newly married what's happening the feta eagle 40 days after Mountain Toyota was an absolute betrayal so it seemed like the relationship is over and Moshe Rabbeinu emerges emotional baby who says no hey Dina Missy for akashic us after he raised me from the safe eternal what did they say it's not over until it's over and moisture Boehner said it's not over what makes it not over what happened moisture at that moment had to reveal he allowed he created the revelation of a relationship that exists on a deeper level let's call it on a super conscious level on a subconscious level where does this come out in the Commish that afterwards motion of a new reveals as a sham revealed you'd given me the Sirocco meant by avarice I'm upon a vehicular but the prerequisite to that is the sum T carbon Icarus at soar when it's after Alex or to some type of an occurrence at soar and according to the ballot Anya that sewer that is the key issue here why because the relationship between the husband and the wife is defined as a relationship of fire the Gemara says incited hve Shizuku finish ribbon am dr. gomorrah ich is issued he sure is h-hey his fire her fire mixed together hashem his name you didn't kay you take out a dude and the hey you have Asian H you have two fires killing each other so you have to have the youth and the hay in order to make it is an issue so you have the H that begins with our relationship with our chef assemble the Casa a I slew ash a misfire and what does a fight the finishing of a fire is it burns it lights up and warms but the clown is you need an H I swap you can't have fire if it doesn't eat something up fire doesn't exist in the self-contained way fire needs a relationship that's why a relationship is defined as fire all these things in life you could do on your own fire can't exist on its own fire needs to be in an active relationship with something else that is feeding it this yielding to it is being consumed by it that's what makes the fire exist without the a choice law you don't have H Sasha Miller castle Eliquis can only be experienced if there was what there's a relationship there's something being consumed in the fire what's being consumed in the fire something your personality your mind your heart your soul your me dies this is Scofield is this happening there's something happening this upset then being made something that's burning Sabratha fire there's something burning it's a beretta fire there's something burning if there's nothing burning there's nothing burning up it's not our similar Castle H ISIL oh there's no H Tyler there's no uh Shambala cash because he's a sizable now you have this Jew in the story it's Klaudia stall sins with the golden calf or you have an individual Drew who is lost in his calf Aquila there's no H anymore the H departed so moisture beta comes and says distill it Seward there's still a Flintstone - still - Rahul Amish and the Flintstone has sparks of fire that nobody can destroy nobody can eliminate and we can extract the new sparks from a Flintstone and even if the Flintstone has been in water for generations you could still take out the fire from it that's the sewer that gets revealed only after the hele go this becomes the source of the Yamazaki yeah that's the pin of the sewer that's an indestructible flame that can always be extracted on a deeper level this is not only in the box over this is kebaya : hashem oseh sir max after sir hats off sir what's the Russian circuits after a bit too old sir much often represents the rock from which we come suis role sir hey no why is he called it sir because sir is the source of the fire but the fire is not tangible in the desert that represents Hashem as the source of the source of the source of all life but it's not yet actualized in a concrete and tangible way in other words it's not defined Hashem is undefined and in his undefined this includes everything encompasses everything but not in a concrete defined way that would make him a limited being a shamash hakama yeah Sheamus has said yeah Sheamus Brewer yet does he have youth cave of K has everything but it's in a clean of sewer in the most abstract on the find way just like the relationship of fire to the stone what's the nature of fire in the stone if you open the stone you'll see fire no what is it that is the fire existing in the stone are not existing on one level that's existing in the stone if wouldn't exist in the stone right you could clapping and clapping and clap it from today till tomorrow for nine days Morgan for a year straight you're not gonna have any fire take a cup of water and clapping clapping clapping clapping not gonna extract any fire that sir you couldn't extract fire from that means it's there on the other hand is it there nothing there that'll fire there it's there in a state of potential meaning it's available to you it's available to you but it's available and it's completely in a state of concealment it's not defined by it because it's not defined by it its properties are not limited by it if you would have a regular flame me you would put it in the water the flame would be extinguished you can put the rock in the water for generations if does an effective length because the nature of the flame the weights in that rock is as he puts it in us because Kemba hellim not the pile when we describe a Sheamus or with describing everything they're in a state of pacaya not in a state of the pile in a state of potential not in a state of actualization yeah this is even higher than I couldn't yeah yeah remember we learned that the man was the Prima of a khuddam and then there's Anna could of shabbos right when you go back to the source that's what the mom wasn't on Shabbos yeah yeah sure - Irish it's beyond you - cave of K you - cave of K is a fire youth cave of Kings hashem elokenu hashem is you'd cave of K other characters on the Kim together it's a Sai slow but this bout children lost his fire he lost his fire in here and he lost the fire up there same fire but what happened says the dal Gemara and Yuma's doing this now so like his obvious if he does truth ahead of love the sins become its las' he asked how can that happen how concerns become mitzvahs who ever heard of such a thing they say mm it's Ichabod it's of the Medici we love once in Kippur he's so in front of Sean my ditch of a Jew was smoking and eating but did you always have something good to say to a person that was his thing he was he was the quintessential of Easterlin Muhammad's Cassandra so this Jew was a real Sox guy real life to walk on he says new neighbor what do you have to say he says ah I'm sure you forgot that it's in Kippur he says no I remember it's in Kiptyn as I'm sure you forgot that you know let me eat onion keeping all the smoky he says no I know I'm doing it anyway so he says I'm topped in him O Father in Heaven give a cook look at your children here's a Jew eats him kipper supposing but Allah he won't say why you won't say and then by dips away they say the my digital told them happened in the common I'm jealous of you this is why he jealous of me he says because if you do children you can have mitzvahs that I would never have because all your sins will become mistress you can have mitzvahs I've never have I'll never have a mitzvah meeting on Yom Kippur I never got such a beautiful mitzvah so this Jew says it ever come back and next year you'll be even more jealous now there's my amount of sins I'll do over the next year I'll be even more jealous they say that the youth became about sugar at the end they thought touched them it affected them but what stuck at the Havana here what means done there's nothing like a zoo you could say God forgives you for the sins I mean think about it in a relationship let's say you have a marriage and it fails the husband betrays the wife the wife betrays dollars and whatever the situation's there's a concept of moving on there's a concept of asking forgiveness it's my simple call your thing you have to say I'm sorry hopefully not for betrayal but for different things people say I'm sorry that's how the life you say I'm sorry you apologize this forgiveness what are you gonna say that betrayal becomes a mitzvah it's a strange thing this is doing this now so like this office you could say I forgive you you hurt me I'm gonna overlook it we'll move on I can appreciate I understand you you mean you're weak ok I forgive you I forgive you you asked I forgive you but that becomes a mitzvah yes that becomes omits in other words that becomes what creates the relationship that's the missing link that's what destroyed the relationship you asked forgiveness so we're gonna move on we're sayings deines muscle like as obvious means the deficiency the vice the destructive cause of them that which destroyed the relationship now becomes the link it becomes the missing link it becomes the new link between them he says why is that the same way the soul is elevated through turnaround mitzvos it's catapulted like we learned I nikka Frasier I'm on the same way this deines catapult the sole of the popular to wear to sewer from a stat sir what's the Havanna runner is that this is the mirus the sense of grief the sense of frustration that comes to us as diners that fuels the relationship and the love in a new way that without that negative experience you could have never experienced this type of intense emotion it's the absence it's the loss it's the betrayal that when it's converted into positive energy gives the positive energy a momentum a depth and an intensity that it would have never had had this relationship just been smooth and stable and consistent and never crash so basically what you do is you channel you channel you convert the negative energy itself into a Marita sameiras means a frustration that you can't create fake it has to be real you can't mimic this let's be an authentic experience and that authentic experience makes the disturbance catapults him to a place that he couldn't have reached without it what's this place not a sewer this um this carbon Icarus absurd he gets to Hashem desert he doesn't know he has to go there because there's no fire he has to go to the source of the fire to the place where the fire could never be destroyed not in him and cover your home Arron Asham that fire can't go away that fire is not a cycle that can depart he can access that for that he has to go to a place beyond time beyond space you to cave of K that means he says the level of frustration has to be resumed on and Macha mean nothing for him time and place me nothing Nicholas her label of my element as one that was the patina of rebel Asif endured aya and because of that he's mazuma Messiah Allah muhabba I the whole allah ma be basically enjoying the radiance of your toyota mitzvahs the buzz urban today doesn't have time it's miss to enjoy in our LaMotta what is he doing in Elam haha he says he still gets Alomar but because he's doubled by Mikhaylovich our shove the cooler in the source of it all the bottom of the diet it's a different type of path yes it's a different type of path the pain is price that's why I could never be premeditated courses if it's premeditated then it's not this is a real it's not real Madrid us so this means in other words that whatever a Jew does he's Owen get he's always creating a path Tasha whatever a Jew does he's always carving out a path Tasha there's just two different types of paths that he carves out one is he goes on the beaten track he goes on the path and the Kim assess other MIOSHA there's a highway you go in Shabbos to the Catskills you take the 17 summer season is coming there's a highway the beaten track that's one path you carve out to God then there's a Jew who decides to sin you might think he's carving out a path away from us Shem no no he's also carving out a path to God it's just a different type of path it's a path that's not the beaten track it's off the beaten track like you decide you know this traffic on the 17th so you decide to go through the woods there's no path there's maybe a little bit of a dirt path and you stumble and you fall and you get hurt and you go over rocks but you create a new path what society is creating the path - and now he's not he's trying to go away but when he's going to do children and he will do children and the sugar is going to be a very deep sugar retro actively it's going to be revealed that these dynasts created the momentum for a much deeper type of relationship than without this dynasty r4 retro actively they're considered missus based on what you're saying this pushes the sewer concept person you those we really have a whole new havona I mean didn't even start with a Shambo with a Russian laughs or something special yes yes when is I feel when it's good so at the end of the Asian was yeah this is a question the Gemara says her name is Shoshana Hashem Hashem why had to take twice so the Gomora says we learnt it earlier that one is Hashem before the sin and one is a sham after the sir Rashi brings in a commercial song there's me the Seraphim and before you sin dismisses our Africa after you sir so the Russia ready the Russian Gamora asks a question this is what do you need to wrap them in before you soon what's their afternoon before you sit what's the minister arrived from before I understand after you sit what in the minister Ashima so the russia answers because he knows you're gonna sit there's a VAR tie so once from the Siddha chivor he says that the rack'em um you need before you sin this because you think you're perfect is that the real me it's in a way it's worse than after you sit after you sitting it's done I'm a lament I'm a man you're a normal person you're humble before you sin you have the holier-than-thou attitude you know that attitude holier-than-thou I don't send I'm perfect he says you actually need Rahman but here we tackle learning that is to us we're gonna see soon this to grimace this the youth cave of K in the peon offshore it's quite a mahat I'm sorry this dude have of K in the plane of youth cave of K H and then this dude cave of K which is the plane of sir - Irish as we will see so now let's see further mine starts Bashar should the Kola page 52 lines transmissions like 15 miles on the bottom Floyd Khalid the mosaic ELISA they blossom and their daya did a lot of work not everybody could merit this to be able to experience where the bellossom ended I experienced enough he gets a loom haba even without tearing our mitzvahs because he went back to the core of our mob he went back to the source of terror Nevada he went to the desert even though he didn't have the H well economist Powell and that's why we dive in every morning we say ash even wash I'm a less of an achiever we turn to our shall we say you return to us how she vainly left martien return us to you finish uma and then we will return there's two ways of describing true ver who makes the first phone call who sends the text first right after the fight who makes the first call so we turned to our semi say you know what why don't you make the first call as she they knew I said may let her return us to you finish OVA and then we'll return we say in this lifter so she made no similar cacophonous over kadesha Manuka Kevin intranet so we say Hashi vein or vanilla sarah sarah kovin MLK de la vie de cerca de reina be super slim Oliver NASA but he was quoting delicious ash in vain I said my lack of inner silver shieid he listened Rosa de la salle de la Isla but they surely Santa Casa service Lewis active in a shoebox at first this should be the services later the arousal from above so that afterwards they'll be winner Shiva which is a serviceable eSATA the arousal from below Hoshi very new a Lepke and then Venus oeuvre and he emphasizes this is what we choose because it's another pasta subbu a lie for sure violation returned to me and then I'll return to you another you make the telephone call first but in the siliceous and anatomy we say no has she vain you a level you return us and then finish it and then we will return first it's a Russa delaila so then afterwards the commissioners blue satin but off Columbus original Assad to Talia Russa delaila I we have a principle like we also went in by Ukraine P arith to say there is that he SaLuSa delaila depends on his Ursula SOT arousal from below is what precipitates and initiates and triggers the arousal from above we continue our 4p cane had a shamanic academ it's not two separate things there's a question-and-answer achieve a new Hashem a lack of in a shoe go I'll tell me in each verse dissolution - lusaka then he says delaila we're not done radhe Shyam a new Caqueta renew our days kick Adam like in the past what Piero's Kamisha achilles brie asylum as MacMaster it's an iota of khilafat scattered just like in the beginning of creation there was no a service to lasat because there was no Sapta there was no brihat so it had to be it had to come from him he huh fates casted cuz he desirous Cassatt Maximus attorney at time because of his desire is good desire we spoke yesterday the concept of territoy if we hated the nature of goodness to give good to bestow good but it all had to come from him so we say even today God is your main look a cat just like he said in the beginning of the mind that in the beginning of the Bria sorry Loomis everything was dependent on his Russian he caught his castle afterwards it depends on mice a pastor named you need the H alcohol we need to hold it up but in the beginning he made the H we couldn't start the age there was no service little something that's what we're asking the Union hadisha may know what struck a dish we knew our days ok hi yummy me crying I'm Jacques are You Hashem days represents flows of God's light commercial cost of deposit says Allah he laughs I - I'm Ashley REI mom because Hashem is going to be your light you won't need the Sun to light up your day because Mahalo Carvalho island deposit continues Hashem will be the oiler so when you say Kaddish your main look academ your main dough is really a metaphor for a divine light just like daytime is when the Sun shines the true source of the Sun is that God's light and one day you will say the faucet says you don't need the Sun as your life because I sham will be your light so how does your main ik academies ours Arnhem of action she your Elena or others Macrinus at surah now option if Sacramento or a tradition of cleanness H I slow behind Newcomb over Hawaii no kamae bahasa that's the sad a shamanic academ yo him is light ye Kralik in LA oil' Yan hadisha may know we need a new light we need an earth huh - why do we need another others cuz the ace went away the a choice was gone because the Asia has gone were asking him a sheave a newish I'm a law-abiding blossom and air daya she ate it all on his own we're saying help us see that the could officer allow us to experience that part of ourselves just like he kept him in the beginning of the creation the Seleucid Aleli came on your own radhe Shyam a new kick Adam why is this because we need a new day we need a new light in our life we need a new fire because the old fire of a charcoal was extinguished as a result of the way we live so we were in darkness so now we need a dish may new renew our light this should be an iron because Kevin was eServices Allah Allah not a Saracen losartan so even though there may be missing my sarisa to love Santa it should be Kadim ketamine's like all the way in the beginning carmine and time when the world was created so this means whenever your light goes out whenever your light goes out what it really means is that our son is saying she rule our shamsher Kaddish it's time for a new song because it's time for a new song so therefore the old song had to get interrupted it's not fun to have the old song interrupted because it's a nice song but sometimes this song just goes away succinct sufficient so now what do you need you need to create new music you need to create a new song share Kaddish that's when we say shout the scheudle ourselves share colors you need a new song sometimes you look at a massive and you say the old song is just not working anymore nothing spiring anybody you know when you have the same song singing and singing the eylem dance they're ready it's done the energy is gone you're gonna sing the same song you need a new song right so the professional musicians and singers know exactly how to pace how to you know judge judge the crowd and pace themselves in a new song new song but the concept is you need a new a new source of inspiration new source of a cyrus so how does shamanic academies now my fire is out the fire is extinguished so now what happened so you could look at it in two ways one way to look at it is it's over the fire is gone the passion gah he's saying the real way to look at it is now you have to get to discern the reason this fire was extinguished is in order you should be able to dig in to your own sewer and to the Torah of Hashem and find the fire that's indestructible and create a new fire from that sir bring out new sparks from the Flintstone to create a new flame because the old flame was extinguished that's the real concept of children and whenever a flame gets distinguished that's really its purpose it's doing is not so Lakers obvious to become a catalyst and a springboard for a whole new fire because the old fire is gone that's the hadisha maenam of action Cheryl a new earth Kaddish zoki by yuri misere you happy he now comes back to the beginning of the mind which started on the pasta cannot very much people Yuri Messiah hopper a little--it iris from Calcutta session of national to taru and his question is who's this it happened it happened in third person why don't you say who keep I am Isaiah Harper Hashem I like it's a very strange thing because when you commercial are also gone now why does this book case have Mazel Mazel a philosophical mesh ok Coakley's - no that's gonna work not easy to use a cup but we'll figure it out go to half of Zara Matthias the posix says inaccurate a mosaic design positive test it's not like he's speaking about Hashem he's not speaking about a Shem that he you could speak in third person sometimes in a sentence if you say Yankel asked me to go to the store he also asked me to pick him up he also asked me to drop somebody else off fine you could say he carries talking about the curb bun is that iron has to make on Yom Kippur does the pirate copters desire a hot dose and then he says voice look i'm lucas oil amuse it fast you shouldn't do malacca hashem is not mentioned hashem is not mentioned many many verses mention the beginning of the part subtly key by your emails are you happy relation grammatically and stylistically it's very straight on this day he's gonna atone for you clean you from all your sins with may Hashem Tatara suddenly you mention it he serves at kom Isaiah he's hot brush a Malaika the fun of tea taro leaf finish MT taro Hashem gets mentioned at the end of the pasta nom in the beginning of the pasta she says now although after this whole Academy started to explain Jim Kipp his truth what's children children is returning the soul to its original source they have all the breath in Hashem and he started the whole husband of the mind so he says now he comes back there ok by a Missouri shoe yamaki pulling me my children should my soil animal is golem at the patina scoff it's Casa de their Commission Phyllis and Kip which is a day of truven it brings out it arouses and it reveals what we call prima stuff it's lesson that He desires hassle I their Commission Phyllis to the five prayers of him Kippur McCarthy is happier I Latham stop it says Daphne hopper Allah am not who he's going to forgive what's the who's he who give a name the answer is Monda Leslie shame you dear the one who has no name no no name the like it's Fez bashang cannot be grasped in a name well I you see Romney's Bashan Isis with kites a clown and cannot even be hinted through any letter or even a case the kites is the thorn on top of the letter what's known as quite social youth for example on top of the youth is like a little wine or you haven't save the tighter the kites of the targum the little Zions on top he says this is a type of presence that can't be hinted first of all he doesn't have an own name he can't be grasped by a name and he can't be hinted in any ice and even in any case even a case which is the edge of a letter already capture something and this can't be hinted in anything he Seamus our via all the names of our sham including youth cave of game-mode L made him along Jacques may I in leash Mahalo melody Lou on some level they all represent a flow from nothingness to somethingness from absolute concealment to revelation Leah's mom a local almond save of kawaman there could be many different names hashem Zenergy fills the world's hashem Zenergy infinitely transcends the worlds but there's a hum Chaka may I in Lea Esther some flow from a state of nothingness to a state of somethingness from a state of hellim to a state of Gilliland a shank Ana could his mother who before they'd be out smile when we speak about Hashem in his essence well Shia howl of Lima you can't say on my perkiness Vimala kawaman not the concept of mamala kawaman e fills the world the locum is save of kawaman or even save of Kalam and even though that represents an infinite light Balaam a Mau the kawaman is the light that fills the world that penetrates the laws but save of Kalam and Tran cents but even that is already a relationship with Colombian Shane I began there alamin clock because he's not in the realm of Owlman in other words the relationship already with Owlman that is a state of I'm shocked that is a state of Gulu there's some type of definition in the energy that is coming out in a particular way to create the world's to be in a relationship with the world's either above or inside either finite or infinite that's all names that's where there's a name which is really what the concept of a name is what is a name when you say somebody has a name what does it mean he has a name the name is how you're known to others that's your name just like if you would live yourself on an island you wouldn't need a name why because when you talk to yourself you don't have to call yourself by a name yet if your name is Yankel you don't say Yankel you want to eat breakfast some people do that Yankel you want to get up your ankle but if it you talk to yourself by talking to yourself but if I want to talk to you yeah how do I talk to you I'm not inside of you I need something to be able to help you so you have a name so in other words a name technically what does it serve the purpose it serves is that other people should be able to identify you should be able to talk about you be able to talk to you in more abstract terms what is a name a name is the way you're defined these are the other people this person has a name it's your reputation it's the way I know you but the truth is a name also exists for ourselves it's our reputation to ourselves it's how you talk to yourself about yourself but it's not you so your name is never you your name is how you talk to yourself about yourself it's your thoughts about yourself it's not you but there's always a you there's always an eye that's deeper than names so the more you talk to yourself about yourself the more you're getting into your names and I'm getting into yourself because the way you're describing yourself is the way you are describing yourself it's the way there's a certain part of you that can understand you that can appreciate you that can define you but it's already defining you it's not you there's the you that is deeper than all of that that you doesn't have a name in fact the moment we speak about that you it has a name but that's not you anymore that's the reputation of you to others a notation of you to yourself the metric says every person has three state who you are this is who you think you are and as though other people think you are but even who you think you are as nothing to with who you are it's your thoughts about yourself it's not yourself in other words it's your shape now this is a marshal in Hashem the kebaya whole is the same thing whenever you speak about the name of Hashem it's already Hashem the way he defined himself in a manner that can be known even to himself that can be described that can have some description some definition but then you have that Nakota that's beyond me the shum mucker has lissa the Caparo and that's the source of all forgiveness why as we say indeed yo minister after man no say oven delivered our passion he lifts up the sin and the overlooked special transgression what shot noisy of invited our Pasha nicely means he lifts it up he contains that he forgives him he'll the fun of his butterfly be at similar such a vehicle well Shia should become her lover no passion because in that space that's beyond names in the presence of his core of his essence there's no blemish there's no sin and there's no transgression in youth cave of K you could say you sinned you harmed you blemished when you're dealing with sword over there there's no blemish just like you can't destroy the fire why can't you destroy the fire because the fire is not vulnerable to destruction when the fire is burning on Allah you can extinguish it you throw it into the sea and it's over but the Asian that sewer is not vulnerable to destruction so he says in that source does not become there's no passion there's no oven so we said the other day about the relationship am I to follow it's not like really the person that's really because of its doing yeah he would not write it write it write in the a size law there's an Casa Mata follow at least relative to us the fire doesn't disappear but it goes back to its source we can't experience it just like when I in a person when I harm a person who's very very confident relatively speaking he may not be harmed but I lose him I lose you I don't have a relationship with you and I asked forgiveness because I want a relationship with you as we explained how do you recreate that relationship relationship is gone I have to go to the place of sword where there was no damage in the relationship I have to go and literally it means sir like a rock there's a rock there's a core we were damaged when you say by Hashem there was no head that was not oven there was no Petra it means in the person is also that space in the sewer of the person there was also no blemish because that relationship can't be destroyed the fire the way it's in the Flint stone you could never destroy everything you do in life to try to turn yourself into a bad person let's not use the word anything you do in life that may be called a mistake a sinner transgression cannot eliminate that level of the relationship there's nothing you can do to eliminate that core and you can't be playing him in anything when you're talking about that suit is not gonna keep him the only become could be bomb chakras I heard this may vary pun of his brothers I then comets and summon or miss awesome you love or some rabbit only in the flows that descends from are shams lied through many restrictions and curtains and veils and garments many garments that are that comes through some some MMS aukerman devotion it becomes defined in a way that my actions or lack of actions can change the dynamics can alter the dynamics so that's why it says Kiba yo-yo Ma's a hopper alikum if you would say you may ever say a happy rush I'm I left him you're missing it you're losing it keep my elements is Harper who I can't tell you who that's the point this is like fascinating in other words if I tell you who you can't be forgiven if I tell you who there's no forgiveness in your cell phone so you have to discover that you we're all forgiveness comes from and that I can't I can't I can't give you a name sorry all I could say is he and even he I'm only saying he could I can't say anything else okay bye I'm Isaiah cop are you not talking about a chef from we remove our thread that's exactly the point that's weird comes out keep I am Isaiah Harper I lay some who Louis rama's library chinoise library some courts there's no shame you did there's no need for this but shame not even you gave off gray which is called shame I'm a fighters and shame I Exim and shame on me you should and they were showing him that's what they call it said the Gomorra shame I'm a furrier shame I mean you could say my Epson I can't give it that name even that name doesn't work here because that's only Shaima at some lagaa by other names but it's not the gobby the eczema it's still a name it's definition of an X and in the world of names there's no real forgiveness the world of forgiveness comes from the space in yourself which is beyond names it also been our survey new without a name because here you're talking about reigniting the fire there should be a Seleucid allah-allah like you said goddess your man who can tell me you wanna newer you want a new age yeah you know you wanna be you want about silver should be able to go in to get a new fire which is Utica vodka but the source of copper comes in the place that's beyond I just want to say in a person's life in a person's life all everything you know about yourself I know this is a little bit of a difficult exercise maybe for me as well everything we know about ourselves are basically things we tell ourselves about ourselves I'm a bad guy normal good how many conversations you have like that a day this was really bad no is all right do they realize that and maybe right people argue with themselves about themselves four hours a day you don't even realize yeah we're in negotiations it was bad they like with it right she meant that she didn't mean it I'm angry I'm not why am i angry and we're busy with descriptions this is all you think it's you number with you this is how you are talking to yourself about yourself the way your thoughts understand yourself at best it's a name the question is what level of a name how deep the name is completely super superficial or deeper forgiveness all healing all wholesomeness comes from that and it could then where there's no name sir you're nameless what did you want to ask know if there's a gap yeah are you safe for Christmas are you safe for Christmas you're running between a husband and a wife when we say these Michelin it's not perfect metaphors because there could be a divorce between a husband and a wife correct but between a man and God there can't be a divorce can be a divorce yeah yeah you mean Yale Islamic um shame Akira my son Gilbert right well that's the opposite idea that's the opposite there's no name isn't it chaos no I think I think that's where it's like the eye of the storm is the center you know the center of the world with the eye contains all of our names but it's beyond this you hear the real eye contains everything but it's like a container it's not it yeah yeah yeah so now let's see the last line here for so now here comes I'm late at the cottage where do you see this is seeing to read the end of the puzzle okay bye you're a masseur you Harper who he the he that has no name is Harper died away from the tire s chemical cut they say him live in a harsh empty taro how does everybody touch the Finnish empty taro in front of our mule become pure in front of us shun literally in his presence he says no the cell Mikolka they say from the flesh MT taro with mayavi literally before not before as in front before as preceding you to cave of K the high noob attention Nets looking at some shockers our voice Mijares callin and sayin as I teach Haru Chateauguay machete Luba tequila Madrid I'm looking at Sudan Escalade when you want it full cleansing you have to go lift may have I to the space that is before that is beyond that is above lift may as in the funnel with negative of K before there was the concept of Hawaiian which means Avaya from the word javea existence creation before the divine energy flows to create javea to bring into existence which is youth cave of kaha you're over here and from the word how vile AHA voice to bring into being at year to create before that hum socket to create all the nem sodium if you go into that place that's when Tatara when you elevate yourself as the bolts uber does to the clean of sewer behind by heard of mazda the merchants are kuta wrote a commentary on zoya soy pouches are Currahee says tea taro become a tree a castle the word tea taro is 600 the numerical value of 620 key Hina tired Mitzvah so how does this fit in this game it I admit systems I endure abandoning I'm sure some tough flesh cough amudha are 613 biblical mitzvot star 7 rabbinic mitzvahs together at 6:20 it makes up the word Kassar tough rishi office caster says in Zoya that there are 620 pillars of light from heaven to earth each Mitzvah is another pillar she says there's a pillar this is the pillar that holds down the fire pillars of light a fire I him hot all on nefesh if he sinned on his soul but he's sara programming chakrasana so he blemished there's a deficiency in these 620 pillars at Akuma's a Hawai they add sugar should goggle crush all the malice column command officer knows the power of truth is to fill up all the blemishes and the deficiencies gazelian Tatara become a theater you're afraid that you're missing the 620 we say no once you go in the Atacama sea well since you go to lift mayor value beyond utica roughly over this tutorial with is the source of all cleansing so therefore even if the H Alcala was missing because you went to a surah the calf Aquila the way to fix that a cycler is the lack of it is you go to the sewer you happen la with niosh am and with 80 total you recreate the t taru 620 pillars of light right I would have say the time but I would say in concept lift nay in concept of you to cave of cake that's the source of time yes this class is brought to 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