Did You Ever Really Experience Your Spouse? - Likkutei Torah "Atem Nitzavim #4

the yeshiva dotnet okay let me summarize what we learnt and pay to gimel about homily be boxer font is panache I'm a Vikash that there are two dimensions of what is what it what is quote what is called here sack a solid the the yearning for the outcry or there gravitation the forces the force that causes the heart to gravitate to be named shock to have a sugar craving the yearning that c-minor thirst and one is called ensign es la one is called give me a solid so it sees that we used here were one has to do with the pin of a Corral after a Hashemi Alejo which produces kairyushin the roar of the lion which would seem as the most powerful outcry the most powerful form of of connection but he says that's really the cycle of concern yasala and then there is pox upon I searched for my plumie assaleh which only comes from as panetta hashem Ibaka Espinosa Shama Rakesh means that I searched not for your hits I Gnaeus for use if for your Ray for your aura but I search for your enemies and the difference he says is one comes from conv das one comes from a certain awareness and understanding of godless Hashem which is explained as the presence of Hashem within every creation as explained at length Bharata macaé s Kula and this is called fit Sonia Saleh because it this chuka comes from the his past us Ziv the extension the ray of the divine on the never om which that is what every nivea could comprehend according to its own level and capacity and that is what's called Mayan the way there are spa whenever I love Costas is in a state of Han Zhang Han - Bob coming down what do we mean coming down compressing itself articulating itself limiting itself restricting itself to be able to suit to suit the chemistry and identity of a liver this is already the plane of Miami miyamura demand malcolm Guevara or Malcolm no more and therefore this is called concerning to live because it's taken from our relatively speaking from a place that we call in Sonja's which means post Simpson post restrictions post post limitation and that's where that psycho of a fit Sonia self comes in a Korean I'm having access to the ethereum and that's karyesh and it creates a tremendous cry a scream a passion a tremendous fire but it's essentially a car a and we call it external and then there is that which is he says lamella Mutombo das Hashem himself is misgav smiler vada amel akamaru mum Levada meows I'm a super famous NASA I miss my mom is not said mr. Lowe Kaddish move de las américas H is loads fire the Tavor fires that it doesn't come down in the contrary constantly ascends a sense to heaven tries to leave the earth you have to you have to hold it down there's a sham Ella Kesha a salut it's beyond our spa beyond began to began there are spa because for the world to be for the world to be what it is not bottle not Valhalla Kalaheo if this was expressed if this was manifested the world would cease to be you would go back to a state of I envy office for there to be being in existence there has to be my am not H you're a demon welcome go via the the inclination has to be to descend to compress that but make it finite if the H was revealed was manifested in the world he says the only mistook me put a limb for how ukulele they would be like they never were I invest completely I invest in this source in the inside so therefore from this from this place from this consciousness comes the enemy is high wave that cycle epistle which is beyond das not to be separated from the octopus limb Sonakshi mascot because hail Akash am am I and that's the that's the box upon a the beholder huh the she reminds me my mock him me my mock inclusive fashion may MK Holly even though we don't know Cayla Kshama my one oven we don't have an intellectual Hey look in it I would say there's no there's no hosaka oven in terms of comprehending it within our finite structures on some even the lower level it's not comprehension you know mom mister comprehend the divine is not even even mamala Kalam and we can't really understand but there's some experience of it in terms of one's finite house saga because that is the divine energy that creates the human the human identity so from ident from your own identity you can find it because that is at the core of your identity so there could be some level of a saga some level of comprehension numbers do we know of our own as Shauna just like we know our own neshama you don't really know the most of your neshama but but but we could we relate to our inner son because that's our life force that's our identity that's Arceus now to explain this somewhat so let's give an example is just an example it's not gonna be exactly accurate or perfect but just a little time of the concept if we talk about human relationships mailer the table what about the notebook it's indelible if we talk about in relationships between human beings so let's give to this model again I'm just using it as a as a impoverished muscle to be able to taste a little bit of the difference lift the eros in our own conversations between ourselves the compass the muscle I'm gonna give first is I'm gonna use it I'm gonna use the word course I don't mean course in the literal understanding of course but the course with the editor the concept that we're discussing but I think that will be an introduction to be able to go into it a little deeper in in all relationships one of the greatest Salinger's and leve challenges also an opportunity so I shouldn't say challenge is one of them the greatest opportunities in a relationship is just two dimensions in a relationship this is almost any relationship probably not almost probably every relationship was saying almost to play it safe if I'm relating to you whether you're dealing with friends colleagues employers employees partners good Kovarian at any stage of the game kovaydin as youngsters as adults as teenagers senior citizens whatever whatever stage in life and of course every stages are different relationships with friends are different there's no senior citizens in this room enormous what makes you single it makes years on the planet Einstein says time is relative the elif's on umbrella and then of course this isn't the riddlin now all pipes are parents and children are teachers and students kovaydin of course spouses siblings Marshall a year when there is a relationship there will always be two dimensions of the relationship one is the way I relate to you based on my experience of you and essentially that is how many relationships function which means I often never get to know you all I get to know is myself if I'm happy and that itself is good but what I mean is the way I define you is in terms of myself I grasped you in a certain way I experienced you in a certain way and I impose that on you now sometimes new that's I am I am am I I know you for me and I use my mind to know I use my art to know you I can't know you from you only you know yourself from you I know you for me but often there could be a great challenge in that because sometimes I never even get to know you because your entire self is tarnished and it's colored and it's tainted by my own experiences very often and this is a very basic theme in psychology and generally in self-help if I experience certain things in life so I process everything through that prism I process everything through that filter when you speak to me I don't hear what you're saying I hear my voice interpreting what you're saying from my perspective from my experience and sometimes people who have been through difficult experiences never mind traumatic experiences almost everything anybody tells them is filtered through that prism they become defensive in situations when you didn't even mean that they become aggressive they shy away they run away this way or that way explicitly emotionally or intellectually consciously or unconsciously but they're experiencing the relationship completely not based on who you are but based on who they are I don't necessarily mean in this functional situations it becomes very very dysfunctional because the first the first first prerequisite for a relationship a real religion is the humility to be able to know that my experience is not your experience and your experience is not my experience and it's not easy for people to always realize that even if intellectually nobody would argue with that when it comes to emotion emotions are so powerful my experience of you is you there's no other you so you said this and this to me you did this and this to me it triggers me in such a powerful way that I almost have no space in me for anything but my experience of you and that's how I judge you and that's how I define you and that's how I experience you and that's I relate to you and maybe for years all of my emotions towards you are based on my Vista of you which has absolutely none do with you that's completely everything to do with me your entire identity in other words is defined and grasped and experienced via the tools that I have now those tools may be extraordinary wonderful tools sometimes those tools are damaged or I don't know the word damages are those tools we need help they need expansiveness especially if I've been through some stuff and I don't have any other tools that's how I experience life now this itself is not does not know one color for this this itself could be from one extreme to another extreme but we see this all the time the part of human life human progress part of avoider fine above including avoiders Hashem is working on this and every day growing with this is true with our children it's true of course with our spouses there it becomes really intense but it's true with everybody it's really true in every type of relationship and you can't bleh I can't blame myself or anybody else I experience life through I through my mind what's those two this these are the responses I'm accustomed to these words mean certain things from me they don't mean the same thing for you you can hear something from somebody it creates a tremendous trigger in you that you will live with for weeks later and you won't stop thinking about it the same person told the same words to somebody else yeah he forgot them around seven seconds like and now the person won't forget them twenty years later why the words were the same but what they heard was not the same I heard one thing you were completing something else because what I heard was not what you said rather I heard what you said based on my experiences of life my awareness of life my awareness of self my standing in this world and if one does not understand this one cannot begin to break down the boundaries between people because two people could live together their whole life but they're living in different frequencies I don't know you you don't know me I have a certain definition of who you are sometimes in couples you see they get married they interpret each other in the beginning of their marriage based on a certain way and that interpretation never changes and every day the wife continues to ferm for the husband who she is now that everything he has more is that this is the person she has more eyes that he is this type of person 24 years later each one of them has a book with approximately three point six million proofs that my husband is this type of person my wife is this type of person and every statement henceforth odds a bouillabaisse rice until their last breath is just another confirmation that you are this type I am this type he is dispatch he is this type and this is not disputable and you have already at some point you have 40 years of Reyes and 14 years and it's all inside it's not even you don't even have to process it anymore and every time your wife says this your husband says this it just goes into the same farm here she goes again here he goes again and it includes positive it includes negative and includes things that drive you crazy and includes things that you make peace with and then one day you open your eyes and you realize perhaps if you're lucky you never even begin to know the person you knew a lot but everything was filtered through your own consciousness based on your capacity and it's not it's not a blame it's not about a blame game you're guilty I'm guilty it's about appreciating the limits of our understanding and how often that impoverishes compromises and minimizes the depth of a relationship which means I'm not experiencing you I'm experiencing me is it possible that a relationship should graduate to a deeper place or actually I experience you not me experience you and tell it it's not an easy thing good luck good luck that that's but but but but this is not easy this is this because we don't really we don't realize this is happening I don't say okay my wife is talking to me I don't hear what she's saying all I hear is what I wanted to say what I think she's saying what works with my insecurities or trauma or guilt or shame or pain or hurt or loneliness and here's another confirmation that lets people that walk around the planet feeling they're misunderstood and anything you'll tell them will be another liar that they're misunderstood it's very hard to get out of that but who leave with Huli many other examples for us life is an example every life is an example of us I once gave a shirred of your service elevate sick once did a set of tremendous of art at a convention of the RCA of a status Arab on him in Atlantic City in 1961 I don't know if you were there I know it's worth I'm gonna say the gomorrah says in Haghighi that alicia by now who you told his revered his Talmud remain he could never do children because he here Tabasco on Yom Kippur shufoo Bonhams Evolvin cuts me off here all children are welcome besides action she said God said I'm not welcome so everybody has de rambha the Rambam says everybody says English a lover or I'm in the snare children there's nothing in Judaism that stands in the way of children this is an axiom of you distract one exception Alicia pan of mooyah can do to heed Dana consumers on the ramen was asthma nationality stroke he was the worst Mela a chauffeur's dumb what Menasha did 55 years of evil reign Ikeda marry me Obama says he killed ajayan of is a Tom Zeta gamma setting government as masasa McGillis terrible murder the Shia Navi with he also did sugar brahmam says I feel the kuffar beaker call yomo wish of borrowing is good also you accept I leave ship and I've owe you one man hoots my ass she said in your xiaomi the garnish apart and you've shown me you have the same story but with one change the basket of sugar bottom shave of him hoots may Alisha Bonavia because which one was the bicycle was the bicycles to the bottom shave off includes me out here was the true bottom shave of include smelly Shaban of oil which one that I sham say come back my children except for after which was his nickname the alien one or the nosh em say come back my children except for Alicia Panov William there's two versions in Bob Lee and Kijiji payer debase and you were showing me the same aesthetic like incubated bass generally the body was written after the year saw me a logic a Bob Lee one was what the bicycle said and what was what he heard the bicycle said shovel bun and shave of include some a akka come back my children besides the action Alisha been a vu you one day you woke up in the morning and you decided that you're a knock here you're an alien you're a foreigner you're an outcast you don't belong to the kanessa see straw you don't identify their faith is not your faith their heritage is not your heritage their history is not your history I am not part of this cholent I'm not part of it I'm an actor I'm an alien I belong to Roman civilization to Roman culture which is what happened he said it was like I Jews used to talk a lot about a did book based on a play that was made the D book so if you're stressed it's like ice right Cindy book as I write in that you know what a big book is yeah like like this black D book attached itself to Lisha pandava he looks in the mirror and all he sees the Picture of Dorian Gray all he sees is a thick I'm an alien and everybody Elohim says that's not true you're a child you're not an actor you silver bunim survival come back my child puts my akka leave your ass here outside let go of your ass here don't allow the afterimage to interfere in our intimate relationship I know you have that image but that's from outside leave it outside cuts that stays keep it out it's it's contaminating it's eroding it's corroding it's destroying the fabric of our relationship you decided we're enemies you decided I hate you and you hate me God said it's not true I'll never hate you I never hated you we're one hail Akasha mama that's what the bicycle said it's not what he heard what he heard was sugar bun and shave oven hood smelly Shabana hooyah Alicia pan of who you you're not welcome why the tragedy this was his tragedy the tragedy was that for him the affair identity became synonymous with himself with Alicia Bonneville so when he was told let go of the AK head I don't want the Oscar I want the child what he heard was I don't want you out sometimes what I tell my child is not what my child heard sometimes what I tell my spouse is not what my spouse heard completely opposite I said puts me off here this person hurts me Alicia been avoid I'm not welcome in this house because for this person the eye has become the Asha and this is the difference that the Casal are conveying through this subtle nuance change which as we see is not so nuanced so it's a completely different experience what I'm communicating and what you perceived in the communication is different and your perception is real because it's real for you and I can tell you oh you misunderstood you can hear that you misunderstood but can you feel the image understood me not necess certainly and and you can't deny that I could did not I could sit in denial and say yeah yeah I misunderstood but if I was hurt I was hurt I have to I have to confront it I have to make sure but I also have to confront it so and again this could be sometimes in a very dysfunctional horrible dysfunctional way to people I'm Amish living together and it's just walking on eggshells because there's just absolutely no the two worlds are not coming together they just never come together but it also exists in much more subtle ways and in it even in functional ways even people that are functional and civil but I am i and I have a certain hisagi and things are processed through my house ugh do you that I know is the you that I know right I didn't repeat myself the you that I know is the you that I know it has nothing to do with you the you that I know yeah when I'm when I'm hearing something it's distorted but when the person is giving it over when you're saying something you're distorting it through you as well so what makes what you're saying to me more real than the way I'm receiving it that both distorted for me to cop your craziness than decoration so why should I even listen to your question if the question was distorted through you so why should I even open myself up to the distortion question based on what you heard from me which was not even when I said but what you distorted in your mind of what I said before that's why I shouldn't even respond to your question because me and him have a special relationship right I have to cut through your mishegoss them in order to hear what you really mean and what you intended to mean without you even knowing like it's like there's no end can we do that all the time I know what you mean he says he says that you know what he means through my but you don't know what you mean you hear something I know yesterday you know I would do a positive Sam don't you you're 100% right this is part of the challenge sometimes the person themself is so distorted and therefore the distortion is double and triple because it's not just I have to open myself up to you you have to open yourself up to you you're completely living in a in a in a fantasy island of yourself you're right that makes it much more complicated and sometimes one actually especially an educator a good educator has to know that the student may be distorting himself in a very powerful way it's not that the student or the other person sometimes our spouse is completely so to speak healthy and the challenge is that I have to open myself up to it sometimes that person is going through a tremendous struggle within their own self interpretation that really affects the relationship and how is can one graduate stage one stage now if you have you don't have both on board that becomes very very painful and difficult we could still do a significant amount of work but if you don't have both on board is just a whole different experience because there's no there's no other voice joining me the key distinction is when one graduates from a place of das to Leviathan ah das meaning what does it mean meaning the ability to grasp you not through my awareness the ability to completely open myself up to you without a not analyzing without thy secti without intellectualizing in other words without bringing in my own interpretation to the relationship okay of course we use our brain without the brain we can't access anything I can't listen but within that itself I don't bring in my interpretation I'm blank I'm open I'm open to you not through the prism of figuring things out the way I figure it out now we are tempted not to do this we are tempted to bring in our interpretation that's what I always do I analyze you I dissect you I know everything about you I can explain to the whoever we're talking to about this person and with proof with history with everything and I could remain there and people remain there and they remain in a very stuck place and sometimes arrogance also comes into play I don't have the humility to come down from the tree it's very humbling to come down from the tree you have to be very vulnerable vulnerable towards the other person and vulnerable towards yourself you have to be very accepting of your own mistakes and failures but that's step one step one is there's no analysis of the relationship I'm not trying to comprehend to understand to figure it out to make sense of it to file it to label it to put it in a filing cabinet and say son the doors closed on this one I'm fresh I'm open almost like it's like like a child in many ways children are wet sponges they take things in in a positive sense in a negative sense they don't discriminate they don't have that maturity to be able to say this I'm not listening to this I'm listening to as adults we do that very very often we stop listening to certain things it's like oh here here she goes again it's like I'll finish the sentence everything's fine because RSR shops you know it's just a kisara it's one big Hazara shots nobody's average - anymore it's as are some shots and you couldn't it's always predictable it's always predictable what's gonna happen I'll finish it for you you don't have to finish it yourself it's fine you could stop while you're ahead I'll play it out so the script is already done there's no freshness which of course invigorates and stimulates the other person to respond to that as well you wrote the script for me I'll follow that script this but in an in a deeper relationship I have no script filled in this itself there's a mother this is a deeper space and yet a deeper space and a deeper space now that's a very vulnerable space to be there but that's where intimacy happens intimacy artists real oneness happens in that space but from here I can't remain in a defensive place of always defending myself if there's no trust this can never happen because why would I even go there if I'm gonna get backstabbed and betrayed I have to create a picture and I operate from that place I'm in a war essentially some people are always in a war when you're in a war you stay behind the wall you don't go out of that war you remain in the trenches and you peek you see but you always have to be ready to shoot at a moment's notice when you're not in a place of trust you can't afford to do this because you need to remain confident in your position figure everything out know when the enemy is coming when to shoot when it's safe you'll peek here and there but it's very very limited only when this real real trust that means you're trusting that there's no maliciousness there's no ill feelings this commitment is real real loyalty that's unwavering can you have the courage and their vulnerability to be able to come out of all hiding places and really express a complete openness to the other reality and that means also expressing complete vulnerabilities of my own interpretations which means I have to acknowledge all my fears and many of my fears and insecurities that have triggered all these interpretations and I'm ready to graduate from and say yes I have always been listening to you from this in this perspective due to this in this experience and now want to stop that it's it's extremely extremely vulnerable it's very the person removes their garments and lays beer if you're in a war you don't do that you know you don't take off your helmet I'm sorry you don't take off your gear you guys are with me where the first dates are painted on dinner how do we recognize whether we're distorting it or not usually we're distorting it you don't have to recognize but the first recognition is knowing that it exists so that when it's pointed out we don't have to defend that as well and this is not about juggling this is not about you're distorting me this is the process of of relations it's really a beautiful process in many ways if we're ready to work on it it's it's an inevitable process I am I I relate to you through I it's it's that's what human beings do and then we work together and so the new shoulder is there just like a human relationship we understand that there's a person beyond the person that we see here do we understand from beyond mammalian so babe light is an aspect a little twist that we know is there that we have to yearn to try to latch on to rightly said for the rest of us was told I'd like to sit in the muscle a little for another few years another few decades in the muscle and then when he's 91 when he's 90 he'll go to the no to the names what having fun I'm sorry somebody asked something this is called basically the Asian of Miami and I decided it could it could be in a way that's very damaging like by Alicia panda who you but even when it's not damaging even when it's you're dealing with people that say who are healthy healthy I don't know who's healthy but they're still looking for that person but you dealing with people that say who with more or less functional functional lives could communicate can experience themselves can experience other people on other again everyone has struggles a historian is but yes reacts you know things are relative it's still gonna cook you still have this same Lakota there is grasping you the way the you is interpreted by me and then it's opening myself up to the you the way it is truly truly authentic and pure and this relationship exists even within ourselves to ourselves can you have a relationship with you that is not distort it we do this to ourselves I interpret myself to myself and that's what I hold onto and I don't let anybody shake that because I become comfortable with that this is who I am and this I am has been processed through my own interpretation and I stick to that and if somebody comes close to shaking that up I will bring proofs that this person is wrong because who knows me better than me but sometimes I'm living my whole life with a self image that is completely tainted by how I was forced for whatever reason or compelled to grasp myself with these terms and that's what I do and I never even learn about anything else I don't want to be surprised I don't want to be shocked I put myself in a box this is my identity and this is who I am visa vie the world visa vie myself Kandak and when you talk to such a and you converse with such a person and all of us have that dimension they will only listen to certain things you say and everything else will go will be interpreted because I'm not ready to challenge that I'm not ready to open myself up completely maybe I am not who I think I am in other words maybe my eye is not my eye really you're gonna make me crazy now the specimens rights I think impartial is by mid bar the hakodesh one of the great said victim of pollen was known as the EDA Kaddish so why they call the EDA condition could call every Jew he talked on this every eaters are a leaky so he said about him that they used to say that every day every day very very powerful for his avoid this Hashem was one that was completely new as a low today he converted from being a non Jew to a Jew the change from yesterday till today was like a guerre most people I get up today I doubted chakras like I doubted yester like I dominated for like a lava tomorrow for him the transformation every day was so fresh the yidao cottage it's like he became a Jew today for the first time quantum leaps every day in your day and I love her we have a cloud that anything that's an old taste if it's more than 24 hours in the pot noise sent Tom lip gum and how logically it's not gonna betray because nice and Tom lab gum it's called nada bhasi aarya ma pot that's not within 24 hours did the flavor the Konami kosher or the most axilla fallacious has been absorbed three days ago when I cooked when I cooked the pasta and cheese it's already has a different illogic status spiritual in and Citrix in this this is brought whatever is 24 hours old is nice and time love gone it's blemished it's blemished if you you disguise is 24 hours old if your God is 24 hours old it's already nice of Tom look it's there's no flavor there you don't want to eat it it's old what do you mean oh we watch it my god should be a new god who is he's 24 goddess faces is much more than 550 777 but if my experience is old it's not a definition of God its definition of me I'm old that's all we don't mind that's always what I meant with the senior citizens the cops Kariba says that that has all speak about a person doing a myself like a mule akka monkey she says what's shot he says monkey Apes and ships they often emulate people so he says sometimes people emulate people and cuz I'll say when people get old they become like a monkeys he says what's up shot they start emulating themselves the hairs since for 60 years I did this so when I'm 61 what should I do I copy myself so I'm a monkey maybe once I was a human but today I'm a monkey because I'm just copying what I did yesterday I'm emulating what I did yesterday so I'm essentially a monkey I'm not human and I have a good excuse seventy years of how you feel with me well I shouldn't copy what I did so that's what a monkey does you're copying a human being even if you were once a human being called sugar cane if you never even developed as a human being you always a monkey because you're just busy copying other people what did somebody say don't copy other don't copy another person because this place is taken already do your own thing be yourself everybody else's take huh so this this this this this has to do with our self sauce so in the nem shell as we shall see this is distal it's a little comments here it's on a much deeper level but this is in the NIMH shell also another course you have the relationship with Hashem that is very powerful it's not a small theme it's called the hit sign ESL life now we understand why talking sign is it's the it's the lion roaring there's something more powerful than a lion's roar you ever heard a lion's roar live not only on national Geographics anybody ever heard an elephant when I was in Africa we decided my driver decide on the way to the airport that take me through one of these safaris with his lions and I still don't know what happened my guess is that he had steak in the trunk South Africans usually have steak in the trunk that's my guess but the lion started to chase the car and it wasn't in a movie it wasn't on YouTube it was in real life so I experienced the car you shot the roar of the lion in the chase of the lion it's pretty forceful and it's called consigning slf because when you have the plebeians I love there's no roar there's no roar it's very very silent very serene extremely serene so this is the beginning of the difference the fists of hashem as a creator as the engine of the universe is is beyond awesome it's the core of spiritual experience it's the core of either skypes it's just a relationship with God it's a relationship with the de God in you but the God in you and the ballot Anya Steiner was called the shiniest of in disguise because it's my grasp of God from the experience of the Nivea which is legitimate which is praiseworthy and it's not dysfunctional it's awesome but we call it as if why is it as if because if you want to use the Shiva solution concerning us how love is the way I experience God from my experience of God which means the way the ray of Hashem is experienced so in other words it's an experience of Hashem but it's really it's it's a it's the uptight of Hashem from the perspective of the person it's only as how life is I've been in the person Polybius olive is adenine Eliquis it's not the way it's experienced by the person from his own perception it's the person opening himself up to the divine itself and that's an entirely different paradigm as we shall see what I'm sensing a feeling of understand the other person there is no that so I have to try to get into that and latch on to but I know there's nothing there with your bonus on the knowledge that beyond what I know from their bones on this anoxmous requires a certain act of faith because I don't even know this so I want to ask is meant a long time ago when I think it was it's Emma said back and I think it was on man when distinguished what I think's really tough really Hoonah and he says it's not what you think that you know you see so the Guam and you believe there's a Roadshow behind but behind all that almond you see around you it's something above and beyond all that I remember I think was it some of the sending of us and like the sex don't matter so is that what how in this Civic and mullah is sort of that before we can even latch onto the Maximus that's beyond the what we feel as the its O'Neill's that we have to believe it actually exists because and that's miss by a person I know that's true and then there's another that could that we would say that has to do with in a some of the jus that is connected that's beyond the world there's not pure faith this stuff we try something internal business which is really how he defines and Tanya he defines a Munna that Amina was the experience of the soul not just a Munna is now that's why do I believe why should I believe it because my Xavier told me so that's essentially a and what if my saying that was right like you've said suppose I grew up in a different house right right right essentially a moon I even though there's that concept of I believe the Messiah but in the way in many ways that's weak because this girl is my relatives are he relevant today now my bubble was not a wire so it's a Degas okay she wasn't what she said was real she was sincere so the real concept of explode I may not understand it but it's an experience and therefore it's absolutely different episodes now of course one can argue that itself means that we're not ready you experienced this and I experienced as I type rain watching you for 40 years to experience that's an argument some arguments sterile evidence page 88 good morning everybody and welcome page 88 paddock dollard's page 88 on the top it says in its of him the second column tough mem Dollard on with the dollars men down with column 4 and well up to the top of the page which is paid at all that everybody sees the last ms mayor of tehilim the last capital of love anomalous safer to hilum is of course capital con una chapter 150 and it's the capital that we say every day towards the end of su Cadiz Imre before we get into the value VAR f David Baruch Hashem loyal um and then of course Asya share the last the last complete capital to Hill them that we say cicadas Imre Corsica dissimilar are the verses that the ha common instituted to be said by chakras before breakfast Krishna and they're called cicadas Imre verses of song and what were chosen were the last few chapters of tehilim after Berkshire many he avoid we start with Ashley Ashley - Hillel of David which is cook from ma chapter 145 right hallelu Colleen off she which is chapter 146 a looker kicked over some rocky no novice ahilla is 147 a luca lewis a seminar sam-i-am is 148 she rule our shamsher Kaddish is 149 and the last capital the last chapter of Psalms is hallelujah hallelu al-baqarah a lubricant was a now [Music] very good thank you now this this mismo has a lot of hallelu coasts and in camp they usually sing it and upstairs they sometimes sing it and when you look at the words which we say every day you know it's easy to gloss over the words it's just praise praise praise praise Heyerdahl it is going to open up this smizmar tehilim for us and in quite a unique way but appreciate it let's go through the MS morale peep shot hallelu Carlo Kell Alleluia Louella back atcha a lubricant who's there a little bit we receive a lucrative good there a little bit sacred Schaffer Lubin Ava within there so for muscle Minimoog of socialism Methuselah's through a coil on automata hallelujah colors on the pie only what what is mm Ellen say first he says hallelujah which means praise Hashem hallelu caught razor show how the Luke help raise our sham a second time because she in His Holiness okay praise our Shem for his holiness next hallelu again he says how the loo he could just said the carcass of a key with a comma but every time he repeats hallelu in other words it's a different praise it's not the same praise he can't say hallelu Boccaccio Becky O's are a bigger roaster could have good lay it would be clear praise him for this and this and this and this and this now everyone is a different hallelu so what's the first one I'll ubukata hallelu kelbek auction praise our Shem in his holiness next a lawbreaker who's I praise Him in the firmament of his strength rikiya is what we use yukia means spread out heaven is called Rocky ah yes rakia is the heaven but really the firmament right the Bostick says he creates a rocky ashram on two separate between the higher waters and the lower waters we call it heaven the firmament of the atmosphere so hallelujah Berea Kia with the firmament of a strength next hallelu big rusev now praise him for his mighty surah his strength next a lucrative goodly praise him for his abundant greatness next a little bicycle Schaffer praise him with the call of the chauffeur which is a little strange first you're talking about him shy rakia who's a GU Royce of correct good light now you stop talking about him now we're gonna talk about how to praise him not anymore him we're done we praised them for these things now I'll tell you how to praise and praise him with a chauffeur that's not enough then praise him Binet Vova sinner with a harp and a leer then praising the sofa muffle with timbrel and dance with drums and dancing and then meaning Minimoog of stringed instruments and a flute silsila sharma resounding cymbals silsila sewer clanging cymbals now you know what this means meaning hoga sultan muhammad celesteville now let's go to the next dimension of it bozell hallelujah hallelu el a looky-loo big release of a lucrative good lay a little bass a kerchief now we'll understand what is being conveyed in this Misner of tehilim and all these particular Peters the entire process explored in this my math admits of until this point is all conveyed succinctly briefly concisely in these sukima the entire discussion that's been discussed is all in these circle Peter shot Azazel boccaccio the first thing is how the locale baccata what's in his holiness doesn't only mean that he's holy because she is because her Elian in the highest form of kadesha who murder him the Kaddish moved over finis lavada McCole Pinhas Vega - ma Kai - Rashi says condition - you crucian tear kedusha means aloof you say he's a holy man something special aloof sublime unique a safe iterators holy or Shula's holy certain things are Kaddish segregated unique distinct transcendent is the right word there's a transcendence about the culture means ultimate Kanishka shalya aloof wholly distinct in a state of Levada not only Levada the godmother with Nicole Geneva gather her spot as discussed earlier in the my massamilla Casa a choice law the contrast between fire and water water descends water therefore represents Ashbaugh coming out communicating to a different space a lower space which by definition requires restriction limitation consideration of the recipient and the other that's the definition of a spa H is inconsiderate of the other asia's the pin of a stylist alia departing going up not going down the opposite trend when we spoke about hemella Hamir umem Levada eos Hamish uber from the foyer of amis not even my soul o æneas emulation EC kinescope Schmoyer vada that Naqada that before there's even a concept of a spa the very concept of any hush spa from Ilocos is already my materia to the set so the first thing is boccaccio Kalle acknowledging what we spoke is not that it's ideas of Eliquis but the premise of Ilocos its own use of Ilocos is already the way of the course articulates itself limits itself defines itself as a hush spa even the highest form of our spa we're not talking on the lower forms of us any level of our spa any level of flow of communication of giving of bestowing of creating even when you're dealing with the deepest deepest deepest spiritual realities that are completely aware of the divine even that level of Ashdod they're ready necessitates a trickle it necessitates a restriction or concealment as he says by drag after my draga called his foul solace with Hester and his lobsters and sumsu mimma and concealments to be master the kiliel occurs before their batsmen because without that there could be no outside reality there would be all the elements which sees and be how you kill a hurry of the absolute IMF is Kasauli in a la cosa shem himself he says the concept of a sparse not shy if not man male I'm not even savour why because it's cut shy coy - alien completely completely absolute infinity beyond articulation beyond any finiteness and therefore there's no way to talk about the concept of our SPO which by definition already is articulating a certain form or a definition or level or moderator that any world even the highest world can relate to this is what we begin with hallelu baccata but it doesn't remain there because existence is authentic existence is real and therefore we continue we continue we start with aloo bakarwadi l'm ila Levada over there it's alone what do we mean alone the viola is not - not before creation before creation I've either even after creation in that state there is only Levada in that state at - who caught him sniffing elemental officer never I love in that state all of existence is submerged and absolute oneness without any separateness without any definition outside of that ain't sighs another this is not a theoretical moderator that could exist this is the reality in that state it's always lavada hemella Hamer emam lavada in that state of h hashem elokenu hol ooh so he says after the parentheses show who prymus H Allah this is what we spoke about a chocolate it eats up everything what do we mean here the concept of H like the nature of H which is not in a state of a spatula so it's not in a state of you reader unlike my M on the contrary it always seeks to depart to go away it doesn't you can't grasp H you can't wrap yourself around H it's always elusive it defies any articulation that's the martial arts ml attacker by definition is a shailu that's so to speak it's natural organic state any definition trying to articulate is already defying it's a very essential nature articulation of truth is already the greatest contradiction to truth any form of articulating truth is already contrary to it we have no choice what are we gonna do if we don't articulate truth but we have to recognize that the greatest problem is not the law the law is already a natural result it's the ability to the desire to articulate MS to articulate truth just a hug door of it articulation of it is the issue because it's our tear hashem elokenu a a she don't you can't put fire in a box try put it in a box it's gonna break it down ace breaks down it does not allow boxes any box is untrue it's not true do not put me in because I'm not here you want me to be here but that's about you not about me it's your issue not my issue has discussed with relationships it's all the same good don't put me in your box I know I want to put you in my box because first of all I'm a control freak then I for sure want to put you in my box but even if I'm not a control freak I want to understand you I want to I want to be able to help you to grasp you right so that's what we do again on so many different levels as we discussed you can have it in a very you know real problematic way but even in much more and much more subtle levels there's always half shuttle shuttle RF shuttle I'm not going to get into this viruses but in in the Derrick Holly mode of learning Toyota in the in the paths of learning throughout Jewish history you have seen we have seen two different trends in Isis of the Algeria but one is called the Derrick of how Basha and one is called the Derrick of half shuttle the Derrick of how Borgia literally means to dress up the more you can dress up the better it is the Derrick of a SATA have shot the means Lahav to divest to undress right push it as brother huh push it yes simple it becomes simple undefined and undressed Lahav that I've got a means to undress your clothes Lahaul bish lavash means of course to dress up so the outer ever has a phrase half shorter and Hal Borgia one is a trend to remove as many clothes as possible and one is a trend to put on as many clothes as possible what is the difference while blushes are is a little more well-known because it's also easier how Buster means you'll have a person and his Demian is to take the concept and dress it up in as many garments as possible to make it relatable and applicable to everybody a concept in its pure nakedness intellectually is very hard to deal with it's a skeleton give me meat give me potato add some add some spices setae me some vegetables and presented with lavash am with garments we dress up to make a presentation and a presentation that is relatable it looks nice to people what's the concept intellectually you take an idea and you don't want to leave it abstract you want to illustrate it you want to give them a Shalom you want to give explanations you want it to be grunting thorough you'll speak about certain teachers great ballet house Bora your crime risk you once said I said Felton oz bara Felton Havanna if you can't explain to me you can't explain if you can't explain you don't understand if you understand and you own it you can explain it of course in that itself you have many moderators but this was one darussalam o2b mouth wish more and more more and more and more and more and more there was an opposite Derek and that's the Derek of half shelter there so I shot is usually not appealing by deafened effort other means get rid of every garment and even if there's an undershirt left take that off too and that itself you take off one garment and you're deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper in other words you want to get to the core core core core of the seem completely undressed completely undressed without any glamour and the Arctic even the idea that it's any articulation already compromises it there was a have Russa Jewish history of two people who learned together for a year nakai in brisket and the Rockets other rockets avant-garde abusive rosin came to the base la vie abusive de Valle a visa live agent the father becomes a late to learn by him and a city called k-- his father saw that his teachers are not doing well for him he didn't really fit into the system not like many other people don't fit into the system I mean differently a little bit different type of Chemeketa H Islip so his father didn't know what to do so he sent them to the base La Vie was one of the goin hard or abhyasa breasts elevation the father of climbs elevation so he sent to you the rub of before he left there there there and then he went to brisk ultimately so he was the Institute so he looked with the primarily by mid stage for a year and when you read there's Farnum you see this difference now Brian was a tremendous master of Hall Borgia tremendous master of abortion trying to dissect and articulate and explain in a very very powerful way the situs of a swather these ciders of a sugan which came to be known as the brisket direct which is its own path and its own Derek I mean some of it is not always that there is but this was a certain way of learning yoga Chavan his swaram which are far less popular for this reason also because of his writing style all have shortened a nice avartar you want to deal any sue you wanted deal with he likes to remove all of its incarnations and try to explore it's fine fine fine core and when you do that first of all you see that it may be connected to 200 other sugars that are all operating on that level even though in terms of expression there are different concepts but that's only on a level of expression not on the level of core and it's generally two paths one path is bringing down and one path is going up one path is water one path is fire when you're looking for her spa you need water when you're looking for MS meaning you want to get to the MS to the core of it then you're looking for the fire you're looking to go out out out of the box you want to go deeper and deeper and remove any form that imposes itself on the concept which makes it a little more coarse now the truth is one has to be a Kayleigh for this because it's not about articulating it it's about getting to a much deeper place and this is the decoder of half shuttle here we have these two trends that if they exist in Toyota because they exist in Eliquis it always begins another course and then it exists in Toyota and it exists in everything in the world the first is our locale Boccaccio's are similar kasia a choice Allah will make kale alien Hanul nish maha vaakya saya Daedric ianuzzi now you come to a new halleluh halleluh be recusant from this h kale allien there is a hush ba there's a light and an energy that comes out through rakia you see the firmament of a strength what's this Shaima Misaki Robin shamily member must didn't gilja Lucas is Barbara Lamar Allen rakia OSA is our rakia represents a firmament it's like a veil which are the many many veils curtains partitions that eclipse and conceal the revelation of His divine divinity the hell and alcohol and concealment Africans Tilman he says too but he means endless layers or many layers of concealment that's the second halleluh kelbek art show if we would remain in the baqar join its Levada his only aim safe and there's no room for any articulation in any box whatsoever even the most spiritual sophisticated transcendent form but then we go to the next up hallelu it's a new allelú be rakia who'sa dis our rakia rakia is a muscle it's basically a firmament we hear a kia marvel that the first time rakia is introduced into homeless right gracious in the beginning beginning of Genesis its mouth dill it's a muscle it's literally a veil it separates what do we mean here it blocks the presence of the ain't safe in its full truth and therefore what the others do it allows for articulation of the divine the moment you start articulating the divine you already make it relevant to a recipient there's already another that is introduced is a consideration of another now consideration of another is not another consideration of another means in my mind I'm thinking about the concept of somebody else but there's no somebody else yet till there's going to be the reality of the world they're still going to be endless levels of concealments which is still without another but its consideration of another for example there's a person learning by himself there's a person preparing or shear to give over to somebody else there's no anybody else yet but in your mind you have to imagine that other and if you're not imagining that other your preparation is not going to be sufficient sometimes people who get up they want to communicate and they thought it was so clear in their mind it is but they go blank or nobody knows what they're talking about why because there was no consideration of the other they're completely in their own world and in their world that makes perfectly sense they convey it but it's so abstract they're talking to themselves they're not talking to anybody else and nobody knows what you're talking about this happens all the time for the first since sometimes the person himself doesn't know what he's talking about but considering that the person does know what he's talking about but nobody else knows what he's talking about or even if they know what he's talking about it doesn't mean anything to them why because you didn't consider the other you have to consider the other before there's another we speak about you asked Naphtali asked actually never aha I'll um hi Yahoo shmeil Avadh what was my my is the potentiality within the inside that could be articulated for the other the potential and ain't safe to be articulated it doesn't have to be articulated then cuz it's an ain't safe but in ain't safe yours have the potential to be articulated that's called Schmoe in other words the aspect of being safe that is relatable to the other and one day if you're going to pluck that out you'll be able to be relatable that's smart this whole process also exists within the person's own relationship and communication of course on a different level in the microcosm but the concepts are there sorry s zelicah the microcosm is always a mirror of the macrocosm entire semester especially by the by the ballot Anya always did human human psychology the human chemistry is always a mirror reflection of the entire structure of all of existence from Picacho so now we're step to Ricky Lucy Rukia takes Ozai why is it easy who'sa is because it's essentially the concept of Helen the ability to contain to restrict himself to allow the Gili Ilocos to come through veils so just like if it's tremendous light and you put up curtains and veils the light will travel through the curtains but the light on the other side of the curtain is never the same on the light like the light on the other side of the hood it's completely a new light it's it's it's a reborn light why because it went through a tremendous muscle or tremendous veil and the base hamikdash cuz i'll say you'd give more paralysis how you been with - - with thirteen curtains in the based on meters each / basically mitigated it diluted the kedusha between kadesh ectoderm and coordinate there was a paralysis it wasn't only a physical curtain it was a spiritual curtain paralysis is a muscle that's what a muscle is it's called the paralysis or a v-line sometimes it's Paul what is it from the kadesha Kardashian there was a certain presence of the sheena to go into the next step you have to have a paralysis the parathas blocks it so what I'm receiving in this room is not what you're receiving in that room if I would go into that room I wouldn't be able to exist my eye as I know it would not be able to be and by his Shamy the camera says inhuman many Korean and England would pay would pay off the authorities to become kind in Buddhism and they wouldn't survive that year because they were going to him Kippur they weren't worthy and they were dying remember the Lubavitcher never once said he says give up cook off I eat these are Jews who bought the Kahuna don't look for money in other words they were completely corrupt and they knew they're gonna die in Him kit because their friend died in him pepper but they wanted intimacy with God for a few moments on Yom Kippur and they were ready to do that so you have to understand you talk about this corruption in this corruption yeah you wanted to say something that's a wonderful question how can a physical paralysis block a spiritual reality no you're right artists I the paralysis was a physical symbol of the spiritual transmission everything in the basis of McNish was a physical feature that was reflecting a spiritual feature the borough's has existed on two levels one was push at concrete you couldn't see what's going on or walk in but the other one was a paralysis that actually eclipsed a certain intense level of relationship that you couldn't be it yeah at first that's the first the earliest manifestation where there's a muscle so that the ain't safe wants to be much fear but he knows for how far to happen it's irrelevant to whom the word how spa is already Ricci losing the word ash bar means articulate communicate all communication is articulation because communication means there is another it's not I'm not communicating even communication to myself communication it doesn't mean to not somebody else even to me I'm articulating myself to myself the first step where we come go away from our essences when we speak to ourselves about ourselves what we're saying to ourselves about ourselves has very little to do with us very little I don't mean to drive anybody crazy but so either we have our the rugged sells cryptic smile wasn't well-received first of all Erica Chavez writing style was very difficult he couldn't write unfortunately I know he couldn't talk he spoke slim the ice of Zevon writes that when he spoke a five-year-old understood when he writes unless you know Bob Lee or Xiaomi Baba well you have the help of the people who do the footnotes it's just he can't he can't get close to it the pie Briscoe was a bomb Osman he was a pedagogue Krebs was a pedagogue he was an exit eight he was a teacher he sat with with students with teenagers he explained he mentored the trouble was the cut show he was like you could see his writings but when you when you when you read him you're hearing it as a son who's a certain like you feel there's a depth of of of Toyota that's simply unparalleled he saw it like he saw everything in half shot so that's Ricky Ozai that's the Massa so therefore from boccaccio come to be recuse I beheld Mahara next Oh big Verizon hallelu be a Kiowas I now is a Nuala Lou how little big for us about salut big Verizon hear it sloshing rabbit rikiya Isaiah's Yahoo who writes of not GU rasoi who writes off his strengths is plural hain hey Matt sinsemilla shiokara hello after the concealment there are some some and there are restrictions the slap shows are inside burrows who become a mini Lucien of moderators shyness the odor of infinity closes itself up in many different garments and levels as I only then nyse:ba re receives light and the energy could be conflic ave say some say some an expression of your shy on of it Carville the curve means a line to a line one line to another line to another say Sharma's arashiyama a little bit here a little bit there could they show you who look coal oil a misalignment explain them lockable to use so that all the worlds of your intimate doctrine of the macabre there's one very key oh so he defined as the hell him the first hal amos that allow the hester of gilja Lucas's barakah be corrosive he defines as that symptom him after the Helen the slop shows of aden cypher many different lavash Norma Drago's Jonas and that's when the world's can emerge and receive their tears meaning breccia loosely represents the first stage the first stage is concealment what is concealment that the Ainge serve should simply be concealed because without that concealment this is impossible for there to be another for there to be an identity any level of identity even the most sublime spiritual identity be corrosive in the plural is actually the Ainge scythe in clothing itself in articulating itself in endless forms of identity you'll call it up sillas brilliancy osseous a security Ferris Nets ahoy destroyed Malthus masculinity femininity intellect emotion instinct the animal kingdom the botanical dim the mineral kingdom the earthly kingdom the human Kingdom transcendent worlds angels souls everything is an articulation of the divine the after Messiah school there's nothing that's not the divine the Baal Shem Tov says Gupta's outs on ounces gods the after messiahs coulomb after the motion has got is outs and outs as gods but it's out here you articulating yourself in our rack here in a gray a snowflake a droplet of rain the heartbeat of a baboon a blade of grass Lily the Sun a black hole a galaxy stars angel souls emotions experiences encounters everything has its own identity again some are very sensitive some our course spiritual physical some aware of the divine some not aware of the divine some atheistic as well the Atheist is also the heartbeat of the atheist is also the vine and his neurons are also divine the very neurons with which he's developing and his own mind is brilliant for us about life are also divided by Optimus is Coulomb that's the miracle of nature of course you don't want to tell this today's atheist you don't want to spoil it them you don't want to tell them that God is allowing him to be to be an atheist that's also divine because what would become as he said for that price he could within what what is he gonna do for a living but the Nakota here is this is already step two first step is Helen the oil has to be concealed completely concealed after concealment now you have actually communicating communicating through the lucian dressing up that's what that that the grace of that since women after the hell of what symptom after round after concealment after self suspension now the oil becomes Malou bush it assumes incarnations madhaggis garments pavlikov is an assumption and every world in its own way can receive its energy and develop itself as an identity what would be these two stages again in our communication first is Rukia who's I then is blue rusev the difference is very significant before I can get to derisive I first have to self suspend what do I mean by self suspend I first have to be able to say I'm going to block I'm going to stop experiencing it the way I'm experiencing it there has to be a certain element of an empty space and openness where my eye is not present that can then allow allow simply for the appreciation of another presence then step two after that is taking your ideas and communicating them in a way that relates to the other person but before I can do that first there has to be a Helen in myself what do I mean alamin myself the ability to be able to suspend my own thought process and my own experiences simply to be able to open myself up when we speak about relationships between people we spoke about no different types of relationships the first step in experiencing the other person is in a relationship first it has to be rakia is a rakia who's a means I have to stop putting in my energy into it my creativity into it my experience of it simply create a balaiah an openness a void a cavity of openness it's called in Kabbalah halal or an empty stomach and ponder in which they can even be the presence of somebody else then there is actually articulating the energy in a way that is relatable to them in the NIM so what is this first is Rukia whose I which is the helm of the ain't safe the helm of the ain't safe creates fertile ground for there to be able to be a world now the ain't safe needs to communicate itself and clothes itself in a particular way that it can actually give fears to this world this that's why Ricky Rozay is lost on Yahoo think Larissa is Russian rabbit when the great teacher wants to communicate it's not enough for him to say how do I communicate this message in a way that it relates to people he's not ready for that yet the first thing is he has to go blank completely blank what's proud if he if he remains present fully in his world he will never be able to find the energy that is relatable to the student because the way he's communicating the energy is a reflection of him the first thing that has to happen is in a sense intellectually I don't exist my intellectual eye does not exist and therefore you create an empty space where there is real space for the other and there's no consideration of I it's not how do I make my eye up how do I talk to you I don't know how I talk to you first of all create an empty space where my intellectual ego is not here with it could be a beginning of a consideration of you that's called the first step the hell of it afterwards once that happens then the teacher could go back in and find in his in nation in his data in the infinite data so to speak he can find that trickle that will be relatable to the student but in order to be able to find that to be able to even discover that the first has to be a complete openness to the presence of the other and that's the rakia who is I followed by the derisive so we start with Boccaccio you continue with Rukia who's I and then you go to gross next hallelu Kirov good life what's now now it's the opposites Roy if good Lloyd means his tremendous greatness Peters Aramis saw him but since some am after all the veils and restrictions this have of the nets Levin evil reboot of of asylum is lame Kate's Vitalis from here emerged Myriad's and Myriad's and Myriad's of worlds infinitely commercial Kosova alum ice ain't miss Porsha a shame cause I'll say Alamos and miss / overhaul Alamein miss Polly Judith endless world and in each world endless legions who big dude Ascot LFL often the Navi says and in one Legion you have LF L offer me some Sunni Myriad's of angels will of Hanks if Karev could live a like a godel goodly shall live Russian drive my Rajesh comma mean a DB is how cus the cleaners doulas dispatched us a fields become a mini islands doesn't say CAG idle goodly it says rave good life what happens after that Simpson after big for us off now the greatness of God emerges till this point the greatness of God can't emerge why we explain what is dual assumed election doesn't mean God is big Dilys our son means God is everything God is infinite till this point is no doulas are my signal it's all avada so Hashem himself now at this point the the divine is expressed everywhere at endless diversity worlds and angels and souls illumise aid Mizpah and every world is endless Librium on every level and it's all the highest of hashem this is only after Rukiya who's i after the race of now finally the gudule ax comes at the gamma resin brushes how to do love zoom ice operations look harsh i'm abdullah zoom ice abrasions why creation is an expression of the infinity of God that comes out in every single neighborhood this is real of good light that could guide the good life it's de boi is how cuz the endless diversity which brings out his greatness meaning is infinity his his fastest and every single memory it starts with Picacho it goes to the Kia who's I from there it goes to grow rice of and then the recipient says look at godless Hashem rev goodly which is only possible because there was Ricky was in Jerusalem for Kosair all this love anomalous now shifts stops talking about God he goes to the chauffeur but holes are all this hallelu you should be praising him you know why Laham hallelu but take a bit cliche so Luba Katja mcusic would I still go good liebe Seca Schaeffer all this is this should be TS life what's Keith shake friend show penis shrivel up and his pen amia snicker disallowed this should be able to be the shy for what's to Schieffer no words the Schieffer is the pit nummies Nicholas I left Kyle Porsche takea below you sow cuz I seriously as penis debacle chauffeur there's no words there's no letters it's that cycle from Polybius our life what is the cycle for enemies oliver present we explain there's that psycho from Sonia's her lathe that grasps the heat Sonia's Avella cause of atomosphere Matthias Coulomb they Rove good lie and he gets excited from that he even roars like a lion he's excited but that's after - Amal occasionally what's the Schieffer the cipher is the plebeians nicholas LF with us absolutely no words it can't be contained in words it's when the soul of the Jew becomes a violin that senses the music of pure infinity the pure divine hallelu lelu Caldecott shine the premieres of Ilocos which triggers the pen amia solid of complete oneness beyond time the das beyond grasping that's the true very law of the penis true verdict complete oneness so that's to show you first so hallelujah our little baqara a lubricant was a little bit worrisome a lucrative good life all this I'm able to be the chauffeur which takes you back through grave good luck through guru so through whose eye through the QIOs eye back to the country back to the core back to the Premier's Emma Lucas the whole install is the whole evolution which goes through such a intricate process until we face the world as is and we celebrate the world as is that's it's only as a life and then you take out the chauffeur I mean how mates are Carosa Utica you blow the chauffeur from the mate sir from the narrowness what's there now on this here narrowness is not the narrowness that I have a little something stressing me out in life that's the that's the result the real marinus is already the first hellim the first concealment on ain't safe that's the mate side and the chauffeur breaks out of that the chauffeur says I want you and I want the real you I don't want the you that's diluted and compromised and mitigated and the way it comes down and lavash them in the way I have you and grasped you and the way I experience you based on the filter of my eye the chauffeur is that I sense the true presence of the you and it moves me and therefore there's no deeper there's no way sis that's the hallelu but take our chauffeur that allows the Jew to skip over to climb back through all the processes and go back into the the cart sight without getting trapped and convoluted in there akia ozone and the corrosive and the rate of good life on the contrary what's all this the taker chauffeur is the cry that reaches into the percussion it's just my shaken Edition Sony SLS sheets a cabal Macrinus time to das he bawled the called dipper miss Hulka so issues its own yourself which is that cycle that comes from reason from understanding that always comes into words it's becomes divided is how casillas words are articulated words are defined to speak you have to define the concept if you don't define a concept there's no communicating about it stop talking about it the chauffeur says I'm sorry I can't talk I no words all words will not express what I'm trying to touch upon if I'm speaking about it that's already already recusant its corrosive so the coal chauffeur it's not a word it's not even a cycle from the mouth it's not even a cry from the mouth it comes from the plenum ESL lathe so it's not even articulated in the cry the idea you shuck the lion roars is an excitement as a passion but that excitement represents the ego of the lion the king of the animals it's a roar that is full of passion but it's a roar that is full of presence of the lion here on the contrary this complete oneness and therefore it's beyond any ice ischaemic let us say ho next voices from the power of intellect that's where the letters are chiseled out there there you know their necks of who they're carved out kiaba you said bard to commercial customers oil so it says the father creates the daughter meaning in this case albert hofmann say ho and Isis is Malthus that's called brat to the daughter so therefore the Liuba take a chauffeur that's the choy for the cycle of the Premier's olive that never reaches a state of dibber and his house so that's the whole Seder of David Emmel is describing everything as its own ala Luca does hallelu kelbek are shy hallelu breccia huzzah hallelu big erosive a lucrative good land each one is celebrated Rekia Ozai is a tremendous celebration guru serve as a tremendous celebration Leroy of goodly is actually the result of it which is godless its greatness its infinity its awesomeness the calls a says this is all that I should be able to be hallelu but take a bit Luba Seca Schieffer just be able to be the takea chauffeur that psyche of Nemea celeb that is aware of this whole process if he's not aware of this whole process there's no cycle phenomena so wealth he's aware of this whole process and he's looking for that pen Aeneas and the chauffeur is the outcry reaching out to that this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot AUC banette / donate