Derech Mitzvosecha Vidu vTeshuva #6- Soul after life requires cleansing w "Sling Shot" - RC Dalfin

Good [clears throat] day. We're learning the uh mitzvah confession and from the we're about five six lines from the b from the end of the first chapter. But just to briefly recap, yesterday said uh introduced an interesting and new idea and that is that chuva requires true repentance, true returning to God requires dealing with the soul of a sin and the body of a sin. That's his language. The nephesh and the goof. What's the neff of a sin? What's the soul of a sin? The soul of a sin is like the soul of a mitzvah. What's the soul? The drive, the passion, the excitement. It's not the actual deed. It's what causes the deed to be causes the deed to be in a certain way. That depends on your drive, depends on your excitement. Did you wake up on the wrong side of the right right side today in the morning? You know, and that's how you go about doing leading your day. That's called the nephish. So, so too when it comes to an aa, you know, there is a transgression that a person does, but they do it in a yiddish. There's um two words worth which are worth knowing. Kik k you can hear the word is cold comes the word cold means cold. Blutick is blick coldblooded cult blute. So there's an expression there's a the a person can commit transgression a vera sin in a cult blutic manner in a cold blooded manner. What does that mean? YOU DON'T GET TOO EXCITED. YOU DO IT BUT YOU'RE NOT TOO EXCITED. whatever whatever it is, you don't get overly stimulated. Okay, that's one way of doing this. Another way is that you're totally into it. You're totally passionate about it. You're not cold blooded, you're hotlooded. That's another way. That's what we mean about the soul of a sin. What is the application that that you're involved with when you commit the transgression? Cold blooded, hotlooded, excited, boring, stimulated or not, etc. So that's one aspect of sin that needs to be dealt with when you do chuva. In other words, if you got excited about a sin and you were into it complete completely with your passion, the way to to trouble for that is to REMOVE THAT PASSION from the sin. Even better is to transform that passion. So you had a a passion to gossip. HE JUST ENJOYED WHEREVER HE WENT. You spoke go you go gossiped your cha would be right. So there's the act of gossip and then there is the soul within GOSSIP THE DRIVE WITHIN GOSSIP. So now you transform that where you keep your mouth quiet WITH THE SAME PASSION. IN OTHER WORDS YOU HAVE THIS URGE. You want to GOSSIP AND YOU STOP YOURSELF FROM THE URGE. So the urge is still there but you transform a you two steps. One you stop the urge you don't right you you come to a point where you and number two you actually elevate the urge where you you take that urge and you use the urge for something else. And this we see particularly by balichuva as as as we see in real life also explained in our holy writings where about the shuv is someone that for years they could have been immersed in a certain lifestyle and behavior and whatever it was with a tremendous passion and drive and everything else and all and all of a sudden they changed a course of action where they they they use that same drive for godliness. And that is why sometimes a balta might feel and a little you know what's the word I want to use compulsive a little uh you know some people would say the word weird don't like the word weird you know but like like zealous like just relax you could you could do chuva but why with such to burn and passion. And the answer is because the chuva has has has touched them so deeply that they're displaying the same energy that they had when they committed the transgression. They're now using that same energy for Hashem. And it expresses itself in what some might perceive as strange. Be that as it may, this is all about the soul of a sin. What about the body? The goofed taught us that the goof also needs to be obliterated. You need a two-front attack here in your chuva. In your chuva, soul and body. What is the body? The actual act, the deed. Andic says based on a gamorra I believe it's a gammoria the movement of the lips is considered action God did Hashem did for us a big favor. If you study Rambam, the Rambam says that Chuva is the chuva is when you're confronted with the exact same details of when you sinned, of how you sinned. Okay? In other words, if I gossiped at 7:45 in this particular corner, in this particular sh in this particular place of business, and now the next day at 7:45, I don't gossip, but I'm not in the same location. It's not the ultimate truva because we don't know if you really regret it. It might be the reason you're not gossiping now IS BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT IN THE circumstance and the CIRCUMSTANCE MEANS THE EXACT LOCATION. put yourself into the same circumstance and now I want to see if you won't gossip says and if you do that you're in the same location at the same time in the same predicament and you don't do it now I know that you really mean it that you really did chuva says that said that although this is the ultimate god in he says god in his great kindness said to us, you know what? I'll consider your cha 100% even if you're not in the same time and in the same location. And even if you don't and even more so, even if you don't do it, even if you don't you did a sin, even if you don't correct the sin by doing what you're supposed to, but just uttering with your mouth a pledge, I won't do it again. says that through the kindness of Hashem, Hashem considers that adequate proper 100% children. That's a it's a it's a very great idea and that's why he says we do confession. We have sinned, we have purged, we have stolen, we have robbed Those words coming out of our mouth are the antithesis and the way to do chuva for the actual deed. So if you robbed you have to give back the item naturally. But the way you GET RID OF THAT sin is by a giving back the item and b confession. And and this is if you think about it, if this were not the case, if Hashem would not consider our our verbal pledge and verbal words as a commitment, we would be in big trouble because we would have to retra retrace our steps and go into the situation and act do something in action. And that's a very difficult thing to always accomplish. This is what we learned yesterday. So now let's go to the text. [clears throat] One second. We're again about four or five lines from the bottom after the parenthesis ends. there's a parenthesis and the last word is. So now he begins with these words [clears throat] and this is the secret the mystical secret of what's called conf the confessional prayers literally meaning falling on our faces. Why is why is why is pleading supplications the prayer that we say after the amida why is it called because during the theor says during the time of the talmud there were sages there was who literally fell on their face when they said this their face fell to the ground out of real regret and chuva. We don't do that. The only time we do that is you know but throughout the year we don't do that. But that's why it's called this is this deeper meaning in mystical meaning of falling on the face which is I which is what we call that the sages ordained they established that we should say we have betrayed we have transgressed knew but God knew we have betrayed and if you go through the takn And you see that's bal it follows the Hebrew alphabet. Why? Why is that? It's a good It's good poetry. Why? Says that through alien thoughts because of alien thoughts and wicked designs that a person was involved with. And he and he tells us very clearly there's no person that is saved from these on any day. The garra says that you hear that you think every person that's a doesn't have think again every person has every day. That's what the garra says and none of them are lost. and not one I'm sorry and not one of them are lost. In other words, all of these thoughts and impressions they make an impression in the spiritual realm and they have a consequence. You think that I have a thought and okay it's a fleeting thought. It's an alien foreign thought. It's a bad thought. Goodbye. Charlie says that they know and this is brought from Kabala that the thoughts haunt you. Mark, you want to hear something? After a person's soul returns to God, we need to have what's called cleansing. Hashem gave us a pure unstained soul. Nishama, it comes into a body and we go through life with all the stuff and schmutz, ketchup stains, coffee stains. It's full. Well, now it's time to return your soul from where you got it to God. What? Are you going to give back, Hashem? A dirty, stained soul? No, you have to clean it. So there are various different cleaning processes which the soul must encounter and experience after life before re-entering the place of paradise which is called Gan Eden, Garden of Eden. One of them is called Kafhaka. Kafela literally means the slingshot. What's a slingshot? And it flies. The soul flies. But how does it fly? It doesn't fly literally. All this is metaphysical. When you fly, you see, right? You fly in a plane. You see the Grand Canyon and you see Yellowstone and you see the the Atlantic Ocean and you see this and you see that. During our lifetime, we had urges and we acted upon those urges many times to because we had a lust, a tya again, not just sexually but in every area of life. And we got excited about it and it brought us pleasure, right? So what happens is the way to erase this from your soul, you need to go through the same experience. So what does God do? One of the one of the things that he does is HE HAS THE soul say you like for I'm giving an example. You like playing basketball. There's nothing wrong playing basketball, but you played BASKETBALL FOR FOR HOURS ON END. You didn't do your your your schoolwork. You goofed off. You wasted hours. It you did IT MORE THAN JUST EXERCISE. You went overboard. You became obsessed. So God SAYS TO YOUR SOUL, "HERE IS A BALL. Come on, shoot some hoops. No problem. I'm tired and I'm sweaty. I got TO SIT DOWN." NO WAY. JOSE, YOU LIKE BASKETBALL? PLAY MORE BALL. I WANT TO SIT DOWN AND WIPE MYSELF AND COOL MYSELF. NOPE. PLAY MORE BALL. YOU LIKE BALL? MORE BALL. AND THIS is something that's not even a sin. YOU LIKE TO OVEREAT? STUFF YOUR FACE. I CAN'T. I'M ABOUT TO VOMIT. VOMIT. This is called painful. This is what the soul has to go through to empty itself out from that urge and behavior and it's no fun. Again, this is all metaphysical. I'm using a physical example to understand the metaphysical. We call this in the holy writings. So the the says it's the soul is given the punishment. This is considered a punishment. I use the word correction because I wanted to be nice to you guys to myself. But it's a punishment. It it hurts. And the soul is given this kafaka the slingshot experience of indulgence. You're like look look over here, look over there, fly here, fly here. LIKE THIS, LIKE THAT, AND just nonstop. We don't let you take a break. Let's continue in the text. And that's because the thoughts that you had that were inappropriate surround your soul. But even after the soul leaves the body, you hear that it should appear to the SOUL AS THOUGH YOU'RE actually indulging those same physical activities that you did while you were alive. And you think and you're thinking, imaginating about those things. [clears throat] Now the soul, why is this a punishment? Why is this painful to the soul? BECAUSE NOW THE SOUL REALIZES THE TRUTH AND THE SOUL RE REALIZES HOW FEUDAL it is to do these things. And yet and yet God says until you are have wiped away this from your soul, I'm not going to let you get away with it and you're going to continue. SO IT'S VERY PAINFUL. IT'S like a spiritual schizophrenia if I may say two realities. The reality is I'm in going into the world of spirituality, the world of God, heaven. And at the very same time I need to go through this process. So it's very painful. It says that the the concept is that it encompasses him. This implies that a person's sins encompasses the person even post death. So now he says through reciting the 22 letters in the confessional prayers that we mentioned before of knew but God knew I've sinned transgressed we've s and I've and and I've you know been in inappropriate and misleading and all of that. you obliterate the 22 letters that came about from this these alien thoughts. That's the reason why we say we we of every day at least two times a day if not three times a day including the nightly prayer. He goes back to what he said earlier. It's not adequate that the confession be by just saying the words. There has to be also the removal of one's will from the evil thoughts from all negative thoughts. is to extract excuse me to extract the spiritual inner content i.e. the soul the nephesh commission is bo as we explained above before. So this concludes chapter one and again the the basic idea is that we need to do chuva on two fronts to to erase the goof of the aa and to erase the soul of the aa the nephesh of the ara and the sedic says that the confession vidi right this is called the mitzvah of confession and chuva the vidui the articulation with the mouth not mind reading but actual saying the words all of those things following the Hebrew alphabet is the way to remove the letters that are are are part of the soul the spiritual letters that are part of the soul that have been captured in a negative way so I think that there's something practical from this that when we say it isn't just another time to get out of it. We all look I shouldn't say all but many people look to excuse themselves from saying and there are some shs where they'll hardly ever say I'm not going into the different customs. I'm not, you know, I'm not starting up with anyone with their customs, but overall the is giving us the positive reason for saying because those letters are the antidote to wiping away the actual goof of a the BODY OF SIN WITHOUT HAVING TO DO ACTION. JUST BY saying words, you clarify that. Everyone, Zaz, have a good day. We'll see everyone tomorrow. Take care. Bye-bye.