Daily Chassidus - 4-5 Kislev, Nov 12-13 - Torah Or Toldos Mayim Rabim #5

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beer and therefore to really appreciate the beer I'm going to encourage those who can't the cars at the moment that we learnt it so you have it also on wine so you could cause of it yourself with a serum of the issue without messing with the soy sweets but then you'll be able to appreciate the beer much more she says beard are now an explanation on the above Allah Allah Allah Allah miss carla need birla number 11 miss Cavell well having bearded Warren I'll post the meeting is calling basin to understand more the explanation of the ideas that we explained on the Costigan sure she did if somebody will give all of his money the money of his home the wealth of his home for love Boise of Missoula and he explained he may EMU Larson Koch said that idiom doesn't only mean if it means when it's one of the meanings of him in Lausanne Congress so yes iam same assumption blush and Suffolk elaboration radically impressive Tolliver Vimeo evil Shane solution Suffolk law Alysha Bovada yard over r-e over the larceny mania logic asha which he said in the first moment that sometimes in homers and Tomas him doesn't mean if in casts of towels and practice run doesn't mean if you will lend money a Jew is obligated to Duke Millers casa to help somebody in need with a loan it means when you lend and then the Turner discusses the whole office for example not to lend with interest etc orally a Kenosha over there you shouldn't go and demand payment if it's making if you know it's making him uncomfortable if he doesn't have the high your evil if your evil will come doesn't mean if it's going to come the fiftieth year there's nothing to do you can't stop the clock it means for sure it's going to come it's just a share one of the meanings Peters car straight cost of Thomas on the Osceola Kenosha I think I'll show you how you evil this is this should be though offer could my Cana meeting is based on this we can touch in heating it's not if as the normal ordinary interpretation but when Peter said this is what we explained cash a you teenisha heated Bovada when the man is going to give as Colerain base site all over the wealth of his home he's going to give all the richness of his home it's going to happen it's might happen for sure and we explained that behind the lawsuit so you didn't want some offsets also globally Tanisha's call him Bishop then in the future when Messiah comes as he said in his monotheism Mason primarily is the one that we referred to as ish is going to give as Colin basing all the richness of his home but Ahava for this love Shabazz man has had this died this time any but would they give earliest in associate in a scholar in baser now it does not manifest in and reveal that he's giving as calling base even though they're showbiz acid African the future it will be revealed for Indian explanations cahiim a home base say the wealth of them handle camilla oysters why Madame Schirmer not kimitaka my high bias is not just a person's assets refers to all the treasures like all the Magnum everything that's hidden all the secrets all the hidden treasures inside the home calling basin means everything in the home while there is much the cost of this is similar to a deposit cezzah Michelet payers of the Lenoir of gimel where the PASOK says that he quoted earlier but hakama eben abayas our home is built through hokhmah Oh Bettina and through to Aeneas crinum the home is established through hakama the home is built to through understanding the home is established he Scylla and then Schlemmer melt continues in the next part ii says Hoopa das and through das hedorium you modern Colonia Kerman I am the rooms the chambers the hadarom of the home will be filled with all of the precious and sweet with met numerous precious and sweet Pleasant treasures that's the call lane bison and as explained earlier that that's the remnants of call him by sight that all over the horn and the bias which bias as in said well I see cetera because Isis are called a Varnum you remember Isis are called stones which build words which build home it's a form of construction so bad death tell me there's a Hammond the Oracles ban noi'm they build they build because they build the world through AC cetera Isis our bottom and Calhoun base say was traders hakama Terrace bina but then there's the dice of Toyota the title of Toyota the him base a of Toyota the kind of Toyota that's what's eating is his calling basic that's what he's going to give behave ah that's what he explains he says being exceed Ivana buyers this fully is going on oh but that's Kothari me Malaya Peters Mahatma Rock etson Binion abayas lava with Hawkman you build the home itself Shane I see certain action occurring bottom tonight this refers to the letters of trailer which called homes but we said each every few letters creates a word which means this construction a letter is like us a pebble or a brick and together the letters put together a word obits Warner you're scoring and finish it could kill you my mother's tavernas but I cannot believe it out of the myths of them above all they've been enough and then it's established through tuna which represents bina which means the maintenance and the establishment of the tavern is the structure of the home the theme of the home the many rooms the pathways going in and going out is through Benin the very building the foundation is hot and then you scorn on the establishment of it in all of its details and intricacies as Benin as we will see I'm a badass but then one meets da Simo going to call a Honduran boy and yaki that's what fills all the chambers with precious richness and that's the holding base side that is here presently filter net mitzvahs but will come out beguiling in a revealed way losted lover this is what was said in the previous moment but he did not elaborate at all on this cuff him and the beam and the dots and the connection to the home he said it very buckets it in a second to the last paragraph and from there he went to the concept of Boise of whose alloy as we explored in this year among that mind men we learned it all the hardness calls that to understand all of this which before it record in passing he says cause Mabini das das is titled it's kind of get a little accustomed Turner Shia Loomis you'd soon as your courage ISM is huge in in heating issues how the future can accommodate been a said today's become a day you'd said etc say he says Lahav and calls a sort of Oaxaca Den Haag Adama a class the beer Indian saying that estar suppose the youths finished our civilization syndrome very fun to understand all this we have to bring the hot Dhamma an introduction and this introduction is going to discuss one of the concepts no and I say one of the concepts in what's known as Satan espousals the evolutionary process of the ten spirits of our zilla's eight who syndrome by Farnum how their order and manner functions now here is going to discuss what would seem a classic Kabbalist thing from Kabbalah from Sofia Coppola which as you will see immediately here you'll have a very vivid example of how mister of tell him et cetera evolved he's going to explore a theme that's in Kabbalah at first glance it seems completely coated code language extremely abstract it's mystical it deals with things it's very hard to relate to it's not tangible intangible it gets into a hole so to speak not mathematical but like mathematical terms of structure where this is where that is where that is anyone who's familiar in a little bit with with the Florham of kabbalah of clemens atenas sees this language all the time but the language is extremely mystical extremely coded it's a very very very Emma's very hint and then the ballot Anya is going to take these very concepts and first of all try to explain them according to - of his sitter which is hakama - which is disgusting Cosmo bina das in a way that's more understandable and more importantly equally importantly apply it to life what it represents in a person's life so let's see say their spouse solicitors translation means the word espouse was comes to the word self Seles evolution a chain one rung follows another rung unlike a chain is to separate wrongs we put them together but each rung is a replica of the other room spiritually say the de specialist means the evolution of divine energy from its highest place until it reaches this world that's called satan espousals youth spiritism up sillas I'm saying very very back it's it very briefly you'd serious about Zyliss Kabbalah it's explained that there are generally four worlds generally sinless breeding it seriousiy it our world is the world of us SIA the world of action above it is the world of the observer formation riah creation and absolu swings from the word eight-cell oneness the world of intimacy of closeness and when we say for what doesn't mean for separate worlds you take a spaceship and you fly a hundred million or hundred billion light years away you'll hit your cedar they'll do 300 billion light years you'll bump into drear and then you'll crash into - up to us and by that time you won't know what hit you for good reason when we speak for world's - forward they're not up sinful places they're all in the same place it's ultimately four perspectives on every reality therefore worlds that took much spiritual worlds meaning spirituality is not limited to a certain place I'm sillas is here Bree is here and get serious here and I see is in I see itself you have the spiritual world of us see you you have the physical world of us see we inhabit often the physical world of ASEA and each world evolves from the other world another that sillas and I see are not two separate worlds one involved that's constantly espousals each world is generally made up of building blocks that will have in chemistry well how do you have the building blocks of everything yeah a drop of water right a molecule of water is made up of two atoms of hydrogen and one atom of exit one atom of oxygen that will be the building blocks of water when you look at what are you to see water but if you dissect it it's made up of atoms every single molecule of water is made up of atoms but each atom is made up of what we call subatomic particles I'm just trying to explain that there's the chemistry of everything and you could go further and further and further then dissect it more and more and more until you get to deeper deeper deeper layers until you get to its core the building blocks of every world is made up of what's called ten spheres Spheeris means numbers like Misbah it also means lights like sapphire and heavens happen characteristics ten spheres which means ten divine energies 10 divine lights that make up the world those ten spirits are well known usually they're defined as chochmah binah das Casa Dorothy Ferris that's a high decided Matheson serious the seven weeks most syndrome and killers go through the seven minutes those are the last seven before that there's a bar across mabini das very often we count casa in many of the lists of this videos you'll count casa caca Mabini skip das crescent or into ferrous metal hood you said Malusi one those are the ten spirits kill by Yakko it's the way Hashem I want to summarize it in one sentence it's the way the infinite the enjoy fashion identified with his which within his infinity ten manifestations ten characteristics as it says there is also that could have been a thousand Smithers that could have been infinite Severus infinite manifestations but these are ten ways which are shem chose to identify will reveal his infinite light they're manifested through ten methods through ten venues ten characteristics 10 leaders 10 attributes whether it's Kaufman beam with us and they are the building blocks of the universe of every universe including our universe and of everything in the universe NASA Adam it's al main looking Jose know our P Kabbalah means man a person was creating our shams image that were also made up of the Ted that's why it says in Canyon him and he swore him inefficient I mean he's running that every soul is made up of ten characteristics there's the menu and the B menu and the Daoists nu and the faster than you in the Gordon now some people are more oriented towards one sphere there's Polyfest at this valley glory this valley differences male Metsa you have to know who you are what but each soul is made up of all 10 those are the 10 building blocks of the universe and of every single the choices we make man in our image with some main looking machine which according to the desire and according to thy reason and many others this refers to the tenth characteristics C says we want to understand something about this evolutionary process of youths minutes elapses now I'm very well aware that people who hear these things for the first time it's like you want to shut down it's like okay this is this is this is this is above me this is be honest not negate so this requires a little diligence to be able to stay the course they say and you'll see things become clearer as we move on I just wanted to specify what these words mean one you wants you to become familiarize a little more with the terms then you see this really as a very useful vocabulary in order to describe basically everything that goes on inside she says but see nobis debita vide i'm the kabbalah mayor Farnum solarium kamat off in the words of them a caballo this is encyclopedic mastery of all aspects of Toyota miglin Edmondson is essential allarakha Ralph but also preliminary sir Taylor was something extraordinary to the point that when Multani would speak at all the swaram of both of miglin mister came together he says you see in the words of the McCallum and in parentheses but am I talking about the atrium of a paratus its name and paradis to meThe - I find them two orders which look I dark Amato from our opposite will hire to their mamas opposite so when one reads Kabbalah these McCallum they come across two completely different methods of interpretation of how the SS rate is workable who are the h time and the Paradis dates I am chronologically to the partisan dates I am the H I am was written by it means the Tree of Life of course which was written by up high in Macau and encapsulate some of the fundamental teachings of his River the ariza the result who was considered the greatest Kabbalist or one of the greatest in the history of either scribe who revolutionized the landscape of Panem et cetera in two short years of course lived in spas many people visitors McMorris or his resting place in swansea he was his yard said his hay of Shinhwa midbass 1572 and v of love in the summer he lived in sparse to last year's you have the soul of thy result the caber of that is on the maker of thy reason and that reason is uniqueness of their diesel this is one of the few people who revealed so many new ideas and yet didn't have opposition so shitless in Jewish history that somebody should reveal should be so revolutionary in his teachings and yet he had mommy's very little opposition that ISM and he was accepted almost immediately occult physicists all by everybody almost by everybody to what degree is a question but he was accepted by everybody other young and that result passed away very young neither 36 or 34 38 in 1572 that is a lotta devil and his ever within a mock reply sure cordovero passed away just two years before him of gimel Thomas Xinhua Matt 5070 Sperry no sir there that moisture cordovero and he authored a safer called Paradis practice remind him the portrait of pomegranates together with many others farther than the famous muster savor of the realm after its learned a lot it's called time of Ireland give us a goes on this Martin that he made but his his magnum opus is known as the Paradis which is really an encyclopedic work the partners remind them is right to gather and compile all the teachings of Kabbalah that exist until this day from Zohar from say Fiat Syria from safer a voyage from all the writings of the Rambam and other but Kabbalah that existed till this day and put it all together and organize it in chapters in different topics and reconcile contradictions that was their motto when they have not passed away the reason started to teach and so after Mikasa Lutheran's master was a camera and then the resource started to teach the next two years and the reason developed Kabbalah and a whole new way and system as much beyond their AMA she says when you study the dividend the Cabal and whether they its kind by reason or the part of this reverse occurred the very there are mountain you see two different they found them two different methods - Alan we're now gonna read now and see the contradiction that he's raising and as we said it will become clearer and clearer for you from that hour the first method is Salinas responsible same Z akazawa and I was the concentrate a little better now me too supremacists out sir will say except a casa one is they evolved one below the other jetpack has their one below the other the idle subpoenas been in that limit in a scuffle Pina emanates Nets law comes from the word like young patches by Wescoe Shem says to the moisture shoes seventy people but salty men heru-ur a Cheryl aha what does about salty mean I will take from the spirit on you and and and imparted to them right I will emanate in English the word emanate I will emanate from the Ruhr huh new to them won't won't get taken away from you like the Rashi brings from this if we can model ik name in there like lighting a candle from a big candle first candle doesn't get the minister but the light continues I'm going to take from the spirit on you and put it on there 70 people that's what happens that the word bought salty Nets Allah comes from that word Nets Allah means it emanates from it emerges from it begin there's been a net full of kinescope cleaners - MacLean has been done the gimel a Luang get motorcylist these are called get more shine is the three first ones karma which is the source for bina and bina which is the source for thus Zaragoza who mayhem and then from them nets Luca gasps huh gasps is Cassidy gorot affairs you'll see how bad this hospital a das chef Garces cousin damn came also Albuera hang out in the same fashion vehement seer gosh me Hallows this physical picture who are there as Marshall with sorry Addison a metaphor for it would be as we say miss refl the car the posix s india for my flesh I will perceive our stamp which means there's a metaphor for it there's a manifestation of another person to my essay crisis and nefesh sham Islam super toys every echo it's like the ten faculties of the soul the soul the nefesh is made up of ten characteristics ten faculties again karma bina darcet cetera and they're all manifested within the limbs of the body the soul lives in the body and different organs of the body our manifestations are lavash them for different classes of the soul karma Pina das are completely manifested of course in the brain everything comes in the everything is in the brain but it's manifested it's revealed through different parts just like our power of vision it's also on the brain but it's manifested through the eye and our power of smell or our power of speech or our power of motion or our emotions our feelings every class has the lid the the organ of the body that houses and manifest that code so the generally the template is a nephesh from cosmodrome all those are manifested in the limbs of the body she races Louie the first revelation is always because the Faculty of karma she he penis a Baracus our sake of a penis local farmer represents Africa secession the word that comes from word bara bara means alight to me indeed it's a blitz of ruckus our seho when the same hope in light through the person that is like a lightning flash my god a light to me goes off in the brain the premise that coulda it's always a seminal point on the could be hokhmah that's why it's called Karma which is a combination of two words oh yeah ma which means the power of what ma means what like you say Martha I talked to my wife but Martha we're sisters Bernard no mom what are we who do you think we are that you're fighting as much as the National map usally no alone Aaron Mao wish a guy named mo sadness its mr. Davis very often when they ran at us at Avis when when they say when they write out a word to emphasis Clermont the Claire come ma it's not under surveillance the fish I die in and happens to be my Sausalito matter yeah oh don't mars-1 way how you ride out you take off game but that's not what he's getting into if we shall die in a normal sentence because it's not yet and comprehended when a group remiss you this is also at harm associated with the year the first year the mute came up here which is Ana kuda in the whole alphabet a love base the youth represents a point the seminal point the other letters are much more expensive only men in the machetes cleaners been from Harbor will come be men he splashed to South America whereas with the comprehension will be expanded both in length and the breadth who can I say and this is the hey the urine comes into the hang which represents been there the hey name have an a my really there's a submit this out of the year Cartman been and the father and the mother which give birth to the mid this to the children to the mid dose are usually called emotions or feelings we'll see exactly what that means usually people translate mid this as emotions and feelings and as we will see it's a pretty confusing translation because of what we call feeling is is not exactly what mythos are but mid this means the emotions that emerge from the kauffman be no like the father and mother which generally are a Vevey era love and or he Lafitte's it wave is baited new saber govern who might live Avila double awaited momentum because generally all love or fear a valeera are all based on understanding and awareness based on how I understand something I think about something I contemplate about something that will be the father and mother that gives birth to my emotional relationship to with whether through either or you'd a positive closeness or rejection a sense of love or a sense of reverence of fear of or so in the person you have that same system this Hartman Hoffman gives rise to bina and ultimately husband give rise to a ver and year in etc this is the system of Zetas Casa were once mera one Playa emerges from the previous kayak as his progenitor as its origin as its source that's what he says miss re-exam this begins in the person himself this is a muscle that the person themself the 10 paisa is the way they're in there but in the body different parts of the body manifest nib but it all begins with hakama which is the first flash of consciousness the first flash of say home in the brain and then gives birth to peanuts at Avenida parallel Hasan angora in Clarissa nefesh custard is represented by hava kindness is connected to love and Cora discipline or strength is connected to year oh yeah that's what he says alpha unit and so forth okay making the Maglev a LeMat sillas this is how it isn't a person but the reason it's in a person like this is because it's above like this in other marks elicits this one we say the responses that you dismiss in the evolution of the text readers in is horribly loud that sila see nature subduing the car my law but sinless means the higher Hockman which is hakama but Silla that's the beginning of the revelation in his usual same avaya that's the youth sad I am an American is given it's not yet revealed but Harlan may alien Tamotsu India which says whither Scott we're gonna find her Hockman may I intimate say from where he'd like to find it but he's explaining it in the positive that Hashem is that emergence from I am and therefore it's less revealed it's less beguiling it's less eh for the heinous lobsters am so possible of that's why the result says that alien serve the light of the Infinite is always manifested in common because it's raesha son healing is still die in there it's not so concrete and tangible on the penis hakama in Michigan has been added solace from car Kumar comes the next level which has been there so beginners give oh yes pastors because have any expansion but are you the three relative it's called hey hey the youth expands both in length and in breadth both ways Vinnie came upon him another name for being there in in the works of a kiss mayor easel is a my Bonham Samantha the mother of the children Cochran was the father and bean is the mother and we know the difference in the mother and the father when it comes to the feet is the father contributes a seat a sperm a tipper that seed has a lot in it microscopically it contains the fetus but the seed is mama shut if it's a tiny little Mukunda yet when that makuta is absorbed by the aim upon him by the mother of the child so together with her contribution with the egg it develops into an embryo that then evolves into a full-fledged fetus over nine months and then a healthy vibrant living baby BAE's Russian could be born but without the mother one remains with a Seminole literally Seminole comes from that same word semen a sperm with a dippin does the little drop which contains life in it but it's still very very concealed it's in a state of potentiality it has to be developed that's why from Kaufman the Ave you come to which is a my bottom the mother and so on and so forth the father and the mother could then give birth to the children a my Bonhams made her which would be hazard and then Dora and Tavares and Mexican hide and you said it cetera all of the me those that are born and emerged from the father and the mother this is one system of the spheres one system zeth Taha'a sell for - a base so say that it's our soloist is another way we see in kabbalah a completely different method shane battier gimel convent that the ten Spheeris are in a form of three-carbon which means three lines a triangle Hakan bakov you mean talk about Hazzard Metsa and the right Huli again he assumes here previous knowledge but this is a different system where it's not in the tents various one follows the other but rather there are units of three so if you look at a picture so to speak a graph there would be three completely different columns on the right on top you'll have hokhmah on the left you'll have been there one is not under the other column is on the right bin is on the left they're on the same level and in the middle you'll have what's called Casa now you'll go down okay das is again in the middle under casa right Wiscasset on the column goroh will be on the Taveras will be on the dance nets ax will go to the right and then Hyde will go to the left you saw it again will be under the varus under - under Casa the malthus's under that separate so you have on the right column you'll have ha ha ha ha Cassatt and that'sa on the left column you'll have began being a lure and height in the middle column in the middle center column you'll have capital F kisser - eros and das so sad Picasa is Kassar under it Hough Mabini disgust and Virata fairies Mexico like a straight line one from the other and then you'll have a completely different situation we're they're not coming one from the other but there's like this this knob you have a picture okay both bison give me a song about it we did you find this picture yeah we're not going to come Castro - together this is a little picture do you see this picture now well you could see huh so on you'll have here in the middle you'll have Casa right on the right hakama on the Left you'll have be not under her you'll have the doula which is Hasset on the left you'll have Google in middle you'll have to Ferris and so with those and that's right how it left your site Center everything is right left center the first is the center Kester that customers on the right being on the left like a triangle then you'll have a double triangle you'll go the next level and you'll have come on the right beam on the left you'll have das and then you'll have acid on the right who ran to Ferris let's not hide and then you saw it and on there it models according to this cross much faster than that Sahar in the right column being Agora higher on the left column caster - - Ferris and you side are in the middle column that's a completely different system of splitters in the city of Kabbalah and both are discussed both some pictures I think what do you want to ask like a Sehgal yeah like a sega like a triangle yeah yeah mint salafi say this according to this order but in this hospital bananas ending shot resume ezel hoobin the - don't emerge from each other the gamma made this cool on any corruption hosonaga more shyness also the mythos they don't have merge like we said before from the first three husband and ask me after church will be not in this base cabinet villas because Kozma had been are standing in two parallel lines so which pens which made the facet is associated with Kozma for is a completely other side you're not gonna say that the myth has just come from cross Mabini - like we said earlier kebab doesn't come from each other customers on the right penis on the left they're not under each other right and the myth is so so I'm not under combat one meter is associated with one another myth associated with something else Mohini ether I have for summer base applicants beside the responsible son of a peasant farmer the main difference between the two systems expressed in two areas her Aleph area number one is the fee Seder her I live in the first system Chabad Ames Utah kazoo Kozma bananas are one below the other NIM sir sadhus the macaws Mobin which means thus is always under huffman being a hakama then bina then that's under it like a hierarchy all the myeloma has said Laura and - as always higher than question and guru house mabini - are above - comes to after complement beam and how can you are much too far as a Cosmo vanilla president water das is actually the channel from Kauffman bina to Castle angora das is the link from top tea and mommy to the Kindle after the children mashenka love he said to the babes but in the second system same begin will common with a citizen on one one but in three separate columns like triangles nimza Shah - subic events are you - is in the middle column they may attack us from Obinna - doesn't stand under Kaufman in Iraq - Asakusa das is directly related to caster which is the crown above wall whoo-hoo monsters are a successor look hakama be another person to go to commercially is part in fact here - becomes the channel from cancer to the huh c'mon the right to the beam on the left and then to question and hora in the next column of right and left as we will explain so one major difference is the place of das in the first system diocese below Hoffmann bina and it's the intermediary between kharkom and bina and Amida's which are under - that system number one in system number two it's a completely different hierarchy Kassar which is on the top feeds directly into das which is the middle commas on the right penis on the left dance is not accepting and receiving approximately man das has a channel - Kassar and it's channels cast in fact if the channel of kisser and then gives it to the right and to the left if anything and then to fasten and guru because it's the middle in the middle becomes like the middle means it's the center it's the center point it's the core it's the vortexes to emphasize the mercado sirs on top cursors on top a young Hawk Mabini right and then you have on the right Hawk the left beam and the dots in the middle so chaos is channeling Kesha catharsis the same column I caster unlike in the first system were Huffman beam are above das and - channels command minute to the next level here das is directly channeling Kecak dance is macabre from casa not from Kaufman that's just that system number two what is it flew that way what can it flow in any direction well the reason we say dancers in the center is for that reason why is dance intestine in the center because there's a relationship between them that is unique the picture is simply a muscle it's not about a picture not together why is Kesser in the middle and das in the middle and not das on the writer on the left kostas is uniquely it has an intimate connection to cancer versus kaufman bina kasih is channeled through das that's why it's in the middle the fact that it's in the middle is just a way of saying that das is channeling kisser rather than das is channeling bambina to the next place you're the stone I'm saying we'll take over the death that's why his picture was confusing that's why his picture was confusing so just for the sake of clarity keep it not like a cycle he brought him on the right beam on the web house in the middle of the Casa okay or Hawk bambina instead of doing the Sehgal do it like a triangle I said a triangle not a signal that's why I said a triangle instead what I'm saying Dyson the Center and Kauffman being on the right and on the left and then you left a ferris and then and Cressida Gloria and then you'll have your side the net succumb height okay so that's the second way but how Bayes is one more difference if we say do that Aleph in the first system if you're in love the summit see is submit assume a hakama beam idea now some answers come out the mid is come from Carmen bina through das Masekela be said in her BAE's hate them suckers with cleanness I casted I did her mom has been Arisaka said Africa with the second - the myth is don't come through Hawkman bin and not necessarily actually the myth is our channel from cancer through - who introduces to them the light of Casa so two major differences difference number one is in - difference number two is in all the ministers in system number one das is below Hawkman bina and it's the intermediary between Hawkman Ben and all over the minutes when system number two that hierarchy completely breaks down it does not exist anymore because das is not on the complement being on the contrary das is directly under casa which means it's relationship is with Kessler and as we will see it feeds Hawkman beneficent Angora that's a difference in das but it also results in a major difference in terms of the minutes in the first system all the minutes are children of hokhmah and bina and das that's where they emerge in the second system is a whole different idea take two ferrous the ferrous is not born from gory antacid the ferrous is born from where the ferrous is directly under gas which is directly on the cancer the minutes are channeled in a completely different way it's not that the mythos come from kaufman bina no the mythos are channeled through das which comes from Kesser and that's feet scattered das feeds Gura right to ferrous will feed nets are tossed feet hakama das feeds bina to ferrous will feed fasten and hora you side will feed net so can hide all from the middle which is - through castle a whole different system through thus through deaths the columns are very very meticulous the columns represent how that gets channeled you channel through your column right so hazard will feed Nets ax and Hosmer will feed press it but the middle column is a direct contact so Kessler feeds - since guesser is always on the top so here da suddenly the hierarchy is changed set of downs being under punishment been there das is at a completely different place and therefore the minutes are affected because now the this received from das which receives from Kesser so it's a whole different ad even kaufman bina I mean even Hester and Gloria it's all connected to - cause - feet scattered into all of them so it's a completely different system when the first system Casa maja but being a being a das disgusted word the first nuts off in your sentence so in the second system it's not so simple to call Kaufman being a father and mother and I'm gonna say not but it's not so posh it the role of father and mother it is a very different role right okay there be father or mother yes that's what I'm saying it's not that did not have a many more but it's a completely so completely different understanding well at this point we don't consider them in relation to each other before relationships they first have to have their own identity okay so first after their honor then then they can be a relationship so when somebody sees this we'll set it in the contradiction here it's a completely different system okay let's do system and then you can go better and ask the two important important question of - ortho - come in - who cares and finally put down say it put Casa as far as I'm concerned you can put good you can put another few people in between and put them in the right kind of manic on the left column so this is where it's important to understand here that all these pictures are just descriptions of tangible words of profound ideas of how the system of life of how this whole system of life works as we shall see and the hamster cover the my mind that these two systems are completely two different systems of understanding the entirely human structure as well as we see here it's all paralleled in the human structure completely two different sets of ways of understanding the entire system of a person's life how our life is developed both in terms of our will our intellect and our relationships our emotional and it's always how das plays gets how das comes out as we will continue learning in the em joke of the moment again I know that this is somewhat abstract or extremely abstract and intricate so I do request from you to stay the course you could consider it learn it well but to get the facts of what he's saying and then we'll go on Bey's rush em the next days to develop it further so the brief summation and the Kudus attempts is that we learn to us then insipred kabbalah the works of the Kabbalah and eights I am an empire this one finds two systems which apparently seem almost paradoxical the little words of the ballot annulus hire him come out of him apparently they seem almost completely opposite system number one is what he calls Z Cocozza sadist also most Zetas at that when we speak about the tendon conscious the tenth faculties of the soul which originated in the ten caballo home on the tenth theorists in the tenth faculties or ten characteristics through which our manifests himself one evolves and emerges from the other so you'll have Kozma and below that below we don't mean in space we're not talking about grandfather we're not talking about space below we mean in concept following from it emerging from it that's what below means you'll have beena and das and das will become the channel the intermediary between hakama bina and then the next level which are the me dice hazard Goren and to Ferris all the way down that's a high decided mouthfuls which gives us the number ten that's one system called z picasa one below one emerging from the other caca mubina' das will be called gimel rich - the three first meaning the first main Spheeris the next seven would be called Zion tough Zion Dinah's the seven lower ones just like in the person he said one begins with hakama which is a flash a flash of inspiration a flash of intelligence a flash of wisdom like a lightning it's pitch dark and lightning goes a light in income strikes and for a moment there is an extraordinary brightness and luminescence which then disappears and then comes pima which is the development of the idea as he says from you you go - hey the youth is the point in the highest expansion from father you know the mother and father provides the seed and the mother absorbs it fertilizes it develops it of course she fertilizes that you can then develop it until a full-fledged baby it has of as the father is a symbol for Kozma Abe is the mother is a simple Femina and then the mother gives birth from the father and the mother from that's processes birth the birth is the birth what we call the me dice I have a love year or and all of the other emotions and experiences and this is a reflection of how it is kebaya home by Hashem in what he calls the world of atilla's the first world of the vine world we also have this process of huge which is the beginning of the Gili which is customer come at me int matzah and then from there you go to to benumb which is the a mob on him and then love and hate the other system however is very different to other system he says is not Z a casa it's rather what he calls it seer of gimel Cavan right see your of gimel cava would mean that there are three columns not one below the other but one parallel to the other it got the hierarchy but the picture would be a different picture the form would be the woman again when I talk them in space we took use the word pictures just to illustrate a concept it's to illustrate an idea which is abstract so that's why we use forms and picture simply to make it a little more a little more accessible and here clock mabini dots don't flow from each other but they parallel each other nor do the meters flow from the gimel resign is hokhmah bina das again they parallel each other in fact what you have is three columns on top in the middle you'll have Kesser on the right you'll have Kozma on the Left you're going to have bina and this will continue in every process so on top all the way on top you love Ke$ha that you'll have her on the right Kaufman on the left peanut and in the middle you're going to have the column of kester which is on top and das houses in the middle and then it will continue in every one every week that's it on the right on the coffee mug or on the left on the beam up to Ferris in the middle on doodahs on the castle that's it on the right on the facet right on the left on the Gura and then you saw it again in the middle color malthus's is just like kessaris above malthus's below that's why he says it's always the picture of an icon is an acronym of Kozma that's it Nats up because they are all right column spheres the other one would be bad guy which is be Magura high which is left column sweet as the middle would be cursor on top das the Stettin das the ferris and you saw it yeah because there's the crown so cursors on bulk off from accustomed means the crown which is above Kaufman just like the crown is on top of the head so spiritually speaking in this rivers Kesser is above kanako-sama is in the brain it's the first experience of the conscious mind of hokhmah the flash you know person has a dilemma you're confused and suddenly have this I got it the aha moment we call it inspiration that's called hakama is absurd conscious thought some experience something comes in to your brain and I hear answer a solution an awareness something opens up that's karma but then you got a development that's be not the father comes to the mother that's been done and there's discussable Kassar is the crown which is above more like the crown physically which is above the king's head it lay a pop pop of his head and represent something higher but ultimately we'll see it's connected to us and we'll seven minutes you want to know how did eleven come in without Cosette stabbed with guess it's 11 you won't know how that works it's 10 or 11 Kassar is often not counted but that's above it's number 11 it's above there are systems there are systems we will see which Kesser is counted and then das is not count as abhorrent there are such situations with kessaris countin and doses knocked out yeah what are the two mates if there's two major differences between these two systems bus it to understand the mathematics of it or the facts of it I should say the first is that in the first system chochmah binah das are one below the other so das is under Huffman bina and emerges from them receives from them and then gives to what is below it which is castle in hora and to Ferris etc so it's above castle and Gura it's below hoc mabini that's the first system where in the second system that's not the case das is not under classmen bina in fact das is in the middle the center and where does it receive from receives them directly from castor which is on top of the spheres which is in the middle so it's a whole different that's he's not a dastard Chapman bina this is a das that emerges from Kester cover em sorry and it's the other way around it's an old cassette because it's in the middle column it gives the common beena rather than it takes a copper mine be man gives the wrestling or that's a whole different picture that's why says it's almost contradictory who is this das character the second major difference is not on - but the second victim is on the mythos in the first system the mid this come from where from cause might be now the father and the mother again through das ghost asses on the Coffman bean that's in the first system in the second system the midwives have access not necessarily the hakama Beeman true there are the business of the right column there are the minutes of the left column is also the minutes in the middle column the me this in the middle column of no connection to Hofmann bina right they take me to sati Ferris emerges from the middle column which is from das which is from Casa so that means you have a relationship between mythos and castor and das that is not through the medium of Hofmann bina like in the first case where all the mid this emerge after custom I've been in because there's a clear hierarchy and you're not escaping that hierarchy but here in the second one it's a completely different system where the meters can be accessed through das which channels Kessler and the campsite so therefore when you look at these facts in the works of Kabbalah this seems like a contradiction who is that and who are the mythos I will say obviously that obvious is most people with even if they see the contradiction that's my dog head what else is on the menu today what's for breakfast but of somebody who understands that this system of Nemea start playing to the system of terrace a kabbalah is not just words it's actually the spiritual science of the entire universe it's the spiritual science of the universe that's what the Cabal is it's the spiritual science of the song just like biology is the physical science of the salt and science and physics is our attempt to understand the physics of the universe not much not all but much of kabbalah Nimisha Toyota is the science of the universe the spirituals of the universe and the spiritual science of the soul which is of course the spiritual origin of the physical science of the soul of the universe and it's not also of the universe and of the soul but really this so to speak the the the the the set of the system that the Roberta shallow them set up even can I offer within himself NASA odd emit some a new king who say no I we're making a person in her image as the posix elaborate so these types of contradictions for a mind like the Bama Tonya were alarming so now he continues and on the top line of the few tests on my base page 37 for Enya nudists Nahum Emma's you could have guessed that probably the Indian is that both charts both systems RMS are true the you've ins this will be understood I'll P marson-knight the based on what is known no one means known to those who know seers base beginners das when we speak of das we have to differentiate between two types the salient vanastra the hired Arsenal or does dasa Elyan the hired as one himself in a circus that is the das that flows it emerges from Kassar omaha be Romeo in Lusaka Mabini and then will synthesize hakama baby that's what a center you'll say a centrist person could synthesize the right winger and the left wing door and he can bring them together and I mean to get political here but everything originates the spirituality you have right wingers you have left wingers and you know they have centers so you have centered people who are in the center because they don't like to take positions that would be like the cut score ever said as the ancient givers gate admitting vague is a Fed mention gain other atoms other links cuts guerrillas sit on the hind there were no highways then but in the road the horse is the only one who manages to stay in the center people are either to the right there walk to the right or to the left which was of course is explicit of blunt way of describing his position about people who play it safe and are always sitting on the fence they're good with everybody because and good with nobody but themselves they just protected it that's one type of Center but there's a different type of sent to the Rambam says in who whose dais that the path of life should be the Dare of him sayest not the extreme life that so we're talking his center the center is not because the person is afraid to take a position but because the person has the maturity to be able to see different positions and perspectives and try to bring out the best in each and bring them together das as we will see as the center the center is the one that can synthesize right and left which makes its entity it's in the middle it's not right it's not left so das always connects in the dots LEM he receives from castor in the middle cow and he brings together Hockman been he impacts Hoffman Boehner he's macabre only aphid links and unites unifies which was even deeper than if you are you they are a successor by introducing s with that synthesizes synthesize that to disable the to end you act here synthesizing actually impact the das the das attracted then there's the lower da Seward are some responsibilities ominous just the das that extends within the mid this la Hampshire's but Hannah Horace Cosmo Boehner to bring into the mythos again connecting chochmah binah together and bringing in Hoffman Bhima into the middle so there's two dancers does the das le oi that's the das that's channeling Cosette and that does actually synthesizes hustle I mean it's like above Kaufman beam up and then there's a distraction that's the first system right which is below kaufman bina and brings harm I've been into the myths the Gambino - a us-based witness mythos just like there's two types of dollars there's two types of minutes how I'll live maybe the shaken would see you soon with awesome Obinna the first is the media is that their main reality emerges across 20 now I'm dead-ass Marshall bottom Amato the metaphor would be a person below shag media chimed in the same Dhokla fear say ho where one's me those ones emotions are always based on his or her mindset awareness she has said whoo-whoo I'm a lead on because say ho is what gives birth to these mythos the Cotton's are sick like caught sir hooli he doesn't finish the sentence I'm immature proud child who has a certain awareness of things his emotional responses will be reflective of that type of awareness basically our mid days our emotional responses are always a reflection of our awareness there's no such a thing as an emotion Lahaina at this moment in this context of minutes every emotion is preceded by awareness a certain awareness it's hard for us to see sometimes it's hard when you're feeling an emotion to say we're well overweight who is the mother of this emotional who is the father emotions are so intense a person is so intense it consumes you but really if use not when you go back there's a perception that gives birth to the emotion there's always a percentage of emotion it just happens so fast and it's sometimes so ingrained that we don't feel they have control over it but every media is a child and every child came about through somebody somebody's responsible they may not take responsibility so it may be too rowdy they want to give him up for adoption that's what people do with their emotions they don't want to take responsibility for their children but you gotta take responsibility for your children and the worst thing is to be afraid of your children not good good yes they can be scary they could be scary but they come from you that means all the fear of your children is something inside of you because they come from you there's nothing in the child that ultimately you can't confront you can't deal with it so you see this constantly with people and their emotions they're frightened of their emotions like they're frightened of their team and they say we did you ever come into my family I can't have to do with you so when it comes to adoption it's a little bit of a more dramatic amputation but emotionally people do it all the time I don't own these emotions they're not mines and this might make in there and you can have them you can raise them I'll send you $100 a month of course it has to do with psycho with perception with awareness and with maturity with maturity is a major development of cycle mature cycle is a different type of cycle it's a cycle with experience it's a sale that is realistic you can have a seven-year-old genius you know who knows the dictionary but he's still a child and as we will see this as we're - plays a major role this is weird ass which is parched partly maturity it's all other things - plays a major role it's not just the father and the mother and the children customers the father bean as the mother but there starts in the middle with his dogs come in from a mother you have a child but we know a mother has to be developed to be able to have a child biologically it has to be a certain estate to be able to have a child the same was true spiritually and emotionally so that's why a cotton has different mid this a couple of different methods some people remain - down in their whole life other ways also make them aware that their parents I was one speaking in a shul and there was a problem with the men realizing that they they drop their the problem was that there was there of those speaking aerosols of items of a mitzvah and I know was assured that the the parent parents still refuse to acknowledge that they grew up which is an understandable emotional it's always easier to see yourself as a nine-year-old and you could just run for the lollipops so basically when the lollipops came the adults were ahead of the children you know sometimes when you see they have a children's dinner and the ones who are there are the adults because it's real food is french fries chicken nuggets hamburgers are too fake you know vo and and fancy spareribs that's a you know eighty dollars a plate this is you know the basics three dollars but that which sustains sustain civilization so so I told them that one of their size differences copy this a vehicle SC Mecca respect your father and mother so it doesn't only mean respect your father bobby's means respect your father mother also means copy this of the club respect your fatherhood respect the wolf s respect yourself as a father respect yourself as a mother see who you are I know you feel like a fourteen-year-old immature teenager trying to figure himself out still trying to have fun at night I got it we have to make space for that too that's also your child you don't ever do we don't have to give them up but respect your fatherhood respect yourself as a father you know two years old you're a father you say 10 is the priceless letter fine so maybe we have to learn a few things but a person has to realize that and that challenges me to rise to the occasion not with tally the fact that this stocks still unresolved often in many ways I'm still a child and in many ways that's also a good thing they used to love child because you know there's a certain spontaneity and immaturity and inquisitiveness maybe in curiosity mr. might to play with the trucks and and with Lego and so forth so on this level on this level which will be developed more but first basic ideas that will mythos and emotions is always born from a perception which means unlevel one when you feel it let's let's be very proud when a person is feeling a very negative feeling toward something you're feeling hate you're feeling terrible frustration you're feeling alienation whether it's sadness anger is a big one anger you're angry all their motion says is I'm angry this person is the worst person why did I ever get involved with this purse the frustration whatever that motion is and that's what it is that's that's that's what you feeling that's what it is at that moment and sometimes you could feel it all over the place and it just paralyzes you there's nothing else you can do you stop stop thinking about it it puts it out and it comes back with a vengeance and one thing a person has to know it's not the only thing one thing a person has to know is there is an entire set of beliefs that preceded that emotion this kid was not born in a vacuum an emotion is a child but sorrel doesn't just pop out one day even a penguin and any birds and any mammal and any fish it's a process birth is a process it doesn't happen outside it's a process and it's a long process sometimes it's a process of years sometimes it's a process of nine months depends on every creature call cobbler cobbler food so you're a delay but it's a process in other words there's an entire set of beliefs of ideas of perceptions of thoughts of my service of awareness of perspectives and perceptions that are the father and mother of the Somoza and when I can challenge those perceptions when I can go back to those perceptions quite interestingly a lot of my emotional attitudes and experiences will be seriously refined or altered or developed why because somebody is responsible for these children and if I can go back to that one who is responsible a lot of things can change so as we said the worst thing a person could do with children is I don't own you I can't deal with you you're too much for me never do that never do that you may feel that it's too much that I understand but feeling that it's a to mark that itself comes from a perception feeling that it's too much is also information I feed myself and that's a big question what is the information you fed yourself or has been fed to you over many years sometimes a person is 40 or 45 or 55 it's hard for them to go back and see who are the fathers and mothers of all these kids because 30 40 years you're trained to think of this way about yourself this is your belief system these are this is your cycle these are your March August it's already taken for granted now it's a given and now you're just responding and every day it's the same response you're simply living out this script or some like to say what are the stories you tell yourself what are the stories you have told yourself what are the stories that are ingrained in your psyche and character about who you are about who other people are and the more a person takes responsibility for this the more a person could take responsibility for their children the better of their children will be you don't do your children a favor by being scared of them by disowning them then you I can't no no go in there face it look at it there's nothing you can't deal with this is yours this is yours of course the metaphor is not completely perfect because when your child is uh is 50 years old it's all was 25 years old that's not inside of you but the metaphor is an important metaphor you don't amputate you don't cut off and you don't live the fight I'm scared to talk to you I don't know who you are this is too hard for me that's what people do with their own emotions all the time so what happens doesn't go away doesn't go away they're just completely not dealt with nothing goes away it's this just not dealt with so comes back with more mishegoss on and sometimes more strength and makes you more so they're more miserable first time they but this takes this thicknesses takes maturity this is a depth this is our responsibility person has to be able to see this process and it's also true in education a lot of times people see things that are happening with their children at home very often all the children are doing is they're playing out what's happening between the husband and the father between their husband and husband and the father yeah good good Freudian slip at least in my case maybe but all very often that with playing up between the husband and the wife the father and the mother it's the OP in the end it's not easy to go there it's much easier to say a DD ADHD PDD miss sugar and capable conveys of us which find it there may be issues and challenges you have to deal with in terms of the trial but very often the place to go back to his to the source they're just playing out there just playing God at Moses that you're not dealing with emotions that you're repressing relationship challenges that have been dismissed and have been buried and kids who are very sensitive just play it out so they play it out in a very aggressive way these kids are not crazy these kids are actually very normal and they can't deal with the dysfunction and this is their best most respectful way of expressing the dysfunction they're actually doing very well for the situation because if they would really be blunt they should tell their mother and father the truth they the hope they have Romanus on them they may not even know it themselves so that's one dimension that we always have to understand the relationship between myths and the perceptions that give rise to them which means I never ever get angry at anybody I don't mean I am in you you you you know yeah you never ever know none of you ever get angry at anybody ever ever so you'll tell me please why don't you follow me throughout the day but that's the truth it's the truth there's nothing anybody can tell you that will that will trigger your anger other emotions it's always your thoughts about what they told you that shrivel your emotions of course I know it's what they told you that's when your emotion but it's not what they told you Varia they told me the same thing they told him the same thing we responded in opposite ways why you say we have different personalities well what does that mean we have different personalities it means it's not what you said that triggered their emotion it's my thoughts about what you said that triggered emotion but that step I skip because it's the father and the mother but a child has a father and a mother Commodus of it immensely you have to respect the father a mother first thing respect is money of the respected because they take responsibility there's a reason we respect our father and mother because on the natural circumstances the right thing might have been for them to kill us right a mother of a teenage children stuff she now understands the animals that kill their soldier in a humorous way of course and yet fathers and mothers take care of their children hopefully again we're talking about functional parents healthy parents normal parents and even though they're not completely function completely healthy but very often they try to do the best they can with the tools that they have and with the lack of awareness and perception that they have now sometimes people are in a prison because their whole life they're feeling stuff they're experiencing stuff and they never once stopped and said who gave birth to these emotions the emotions become God they can't be challenged they don't have a father and mother all we think that doesn't have a father and mother in this world is your awareness Iloilo and your emotions are important but an abjad so tough it's a fascinating thing when emotions become worshipped as God we actually did never liberate ourselves from it when emotions can be respected as children and not as gods they can grow up they can develop so I have to run from them but I don't have to worship them worshipping them is the opposite mistake where there's nothing but then it's like worshipping a four-year-old child and his attitude or worshipping a 12 year old and her attitudes you don't these attitudes do you respect it you respect them in the sense that you have to create space for it you have to see what's going on you can't make believe it doesn't exist respect doesn't always mean you agree with something respect means if somebody is in my office and he may have a certain hang-up I have to respect what is going on and see the process if I make believe it doesn't exist then I'll never be dealt with we'll just get worse if I worship it then I become a complete victim to it the proper approach is always like a child you never disown a child you never make believe the child is not crying the child doesn't have an attitude but I don't have to take it seriously to the point that this is divine this I have to worship the hell I owed some EP Vyasa send us through with your emotion give it space and then in a curious calm non-judgmental fashion be curious as to who are the fathers and mothers of these emotions and you will see that a lot of your life will change from that you will be opened up to reality and I say non-judgmental because that's another quality with children you don't charge your child you have a nine-year-old kid who is throwing a tantrum or in the seven year old strong that I'm a four year old you don't start charging them do you such a baby is such a baby imagine you tell you three or you such I mean people do with them it's a terrible mistake you such a baby cry baby cry baby cry baby of course that's what two-year-olds are supposed to be you also cry baby you just do it without tears but you're the same cry baby but you just get angry at the world you're frustrated everybody hate everybody you're not a crybaby you're a seventy two-year-old crybaby or forty fifty six-year-old cry baby you're not a crybaby you just cry over a bigger toys them smaller toys somebody took away his horse an event my shoulder and somebody takes the last piece of sushi at the kiddush what do you do for a month you hate this guy you're much worse than your Charlie you trauma the horn your people last piece of sushi at the kid if you were eyeing it for five minutes it's a competition between you and the other guy and he got it don't forget it assaults in the face of that relationship is dead usually when we have to call other PNE buddy relates to the yeah there's always the last piece of sushi another piece of sushi it's perhaps it's for oil to special able to live for four days but for hungry Jews after Moosa fits its well Monsieur my summer and the truth is the more I don't respect the crybaby and me the more I have to scream at the crybaby in my child I don't have space for you to myself so I have to so the way I deal with it with myself is I don't recognize it so when I see it in you it drives me crazy because it triggers my own so I have to knock it down but you don't touch a child you don't worship a child but you don't judge a child and you don't disown it you realize this is the child and this is the process of growing up and you look at what the reality is and you embrace it on one level you let it be but you realize that it has a father and a mother in other words it's not insane juh belitz not immutable it's not divine that only one of those another father and mothers are show and other men have I guess they didn't have a biological father at all but they were still created from a source that's why the Baal Shem Tov said that another person is a mirror another person is a mirror which means what I see in you is very often a reflection of what I see in myself or what I don't want to see in myself very often you're triggering within me things that I don't want to deal with and when I see them in you they drive me crazy that you're driving me crazy that's me driving me crazy but I don't know that I'm driving me crazy you helped me bring out that I'm driving myself crazy so instead of getting upset at you I should say well thank you for being a mirror which is always a wonderful experience in life sometimes you see your children behaving a certain way look up take a deep breath and say thank you for being a mirror thank you for being a mirror who is really the father and mother I don't know I'm not a prophet I don't know all I'm saying is we have to have the car to be able to see the father and the mother there are thoughts that I am experiencing there are perceptions there are belief systems that have been set in my place right and that's how I process what you're telling me and it's company every single day and not surprisingly the children are products of that my I'm talking about spiritual culture our products of that so I have to be able to them and say what is my thought process in marriage this is one of the biggest issues people are married over the first few years they develop certain and more nice I would call them beliefs about their spouse sometimes I'm honest fearless but if they would know it someone Australis always remind your family sometimes they think that is a muna there are moon about their spouse they equate with them when their God again they don't think this this parent nobody owns these emotions these emotion they're absolute truths like a nice rebel attacker now what happens is 5 10 50 20 years later whatever it is these are not up for negotiation I know who my husband is I know my spouses I don't even it's not even a schuyler you don't even go there this is the estoy that you say this these are the premises and the paradigm is by which you play your game of chess everything else follows that so now there's a bunch of children running all over the house terrorizing their house smoke bombs every night wildfires arson terrorism in the house I'm talking about your heart the house here is a muscle for your heart the kids are actually playing it out too but we're not now talking about the actual kids were talking about the kids inside of you the playground inside of you and it's a given oh she did this again he did this again he said this she said this he came home late she came home late this was not ready this was a but it's not really what he said it's not what she said it's not what he did it's not what she did it's how you thought about what she said than what she did and what he said what he did but those thoughts are already buried in the foundation of my soul I don't want to go back there and that's the point that take responsibility for your children take responsibility for your emotions and realize that they come from somewhere they don't exist in a vacuum it wants to judge them don't amputate them don't disown them and don't be afraid of that never be afraid of your child never the worst thing for your child children don't need parents to be afraid of them children need parents to be there with them in their fear the more you're afraid of your child the more your child is afraid of himself family do a service by detaching let him grow up himself no it doesn't have to grow up nobody needs a father to be there with them to give him the space to let him become a person he's not an extension of your fantasies in there and hallucinations and expectations that's another issue we're not going there right now Martha Shem does a lot of stuff to talk about when it comes to these issues but the more you work on yourself the more you have hope to be able to inspire those around you to be able to be the people who are they're capable of becoming right so therefore it doesn't need you to fear him to fear her I can't deal with not only they fear themselves much more they're responding to their own stuff you got to be there you have to know how to be there and obviously what's a whole but you have to be emotionally present in the lives of your children the biggest mistake today that parents make is that they're not emotionally present in the lives of their children they detach because it's hard they don't mean to it's hard I'll just pay the bills it's enough he's paid tuition $45,000 a year has to be not emotionally attached he's emotionally attached to the tuition the problem is that's for the school but your kid needs a parent you talk to emotionally attached but they need a motion attached to them that goes to the money you're paying for the tuition so you could freak out Friday night when they don't know that's right tired you paint $60,000 a year tuition and they can't even tell you one right between the soup and the kids chicken and you want to know why you're paying so much tuition they could stay home on the video games and I'll be cheaper you wanna know why I'm in such a good mood this morning I'm gonna have to go back to the father and the mother figure father how do you know how to peel with that sometimes you don't want to go there damage you know you know there's no question sometimes a person is just lost and there's complete that and they're just damage control and I'm scared any move I make right like they say stay put I don't don't don't do anything whatever you do is going to be wrong and your child will make sure but that itself I have to identify and that's why we need relationships that's why we we you know true a borough view it's a person needs friends a person needs mentors or sailors or Ralph or canal with a harvey whatever that means in every person's life we need to be able to have honest feedback in terms of identifying exactly that's that's I can't say understood yeah how do you even begin to identify we'll see a little more about that later but here we're talking just the general idea that it has to be identified and that doesn't make you weaker you never have to be afraid of that on the contrary it makes you stronger because when you take responsibility for something you have a relationship with it you can own it it doesn't make you a weaker person it makes you a much stronger person you become a weird because a weirdness the baal shem tov said aim go low-angle mozella badass in google all of the dancers all exile and redemption is about awareness it's about das it's about knowledge is about perception we'll soon see what that means exactly even deeper than that but that's where Carlos sinkhole that begins because that gives you choices as long as there's no awareness there's no choices I'm just a when there's awareness I could not make a choice I may not get rid of the emotion ever maybe never but I can make a choice yeah the assessing your Xiaomi why did they put half dollar and Finan hadass after hey Montano mid/side Shabbos myths are Yom Tov we say in the brush after heinola them that's why why then we thanked with we think after contour matters at her mouth D'Amico dis will hold an early Rizer sure makes half dollar why does it belong have him with us and to the Damara your sami brothers in ain't das half dollar men on it if there's no das that can't be half dollar so it looks like whether there's a very deep idea there's no choices half dollar means there's a choice you separate that's without choice means choice - yeah ain't das half dollar matt9 if there's no das you can't separate oh you have no choice you just did one big one big bubble in a concoction of this law it's not half dollar if there is das after joining love them das her name mitra hokhmah beam over das and will soon see here the focuses even though we mentioned Hockman me depends on the news of this different messiahs but not only does but the Irish Army focuses on bath it may dance at all cousin come up in itself the key issue is gonna be done the key issue in this whole process that we're talking about - taffeta we're not dealing with nothing of this is das opinion we're all dealing with that started enough but this process of identifying the father and the mother taking responsibility for it owning it seeing the connection respecting it for what it is and being aware of the process being the way of that process then you can make a choice and you can make a choice we'll see later in the mind with the ballot Anya's gonna quote the whole story from a set of my desire it's almost a whole almond it's a significant part of the homonym accession of a deserter it's one of those stories and shafts that gets your mind gets your gets your mind thinking and yeah yeah you're scratching your head to try to figure out how people could speak this way what it means and it's a stirring of my desire a few turn will see the last paragraph of this page the ballot Anya's gonna go and explain based on this idea of what das das doctor a whole conversation between a bishop and kisser and abuse and I'm in a bit Travian moments a little while before acrimony but rather was killed half love a fella I'm Amish absolutely Stu Pender's unbelievable how one of those stories in tomorrow between two of the ten valuable the greatest Italian which was dealing with very serious moments before one of them was killed by the Romans are committed but tried to one of those early a mouse and this his friend and his teacher diminishment kiswa gave him an insight that at the surface like how do you speak like this but he's gonna show that they lived with das they always lived with das because they always lived with das this comment was not just tolerated it was welcomed by him it was really welcomed man as you will see the emption of the mind so a medalist is so so so at this in the kuda this is always gonna CUDA that you could always learn when it comes to your child you never disown a child ever only live a cost to the solar trials the idea that some people think that have sought at some point you disown a child you sever a relationship with a trial it's a colossal tragedy you never ever sever a relationship with a trial you may disagree there may be pain right unconditional love doesn't mean uncritical of unconditional love doesn't mean that I don't I'm not paying by a behavior what I feel as destructive or wrong or I know is destructive and wrong but doesn't mean I'm not gonna love you and that's I don't I don't moan you because not owning you means I'm not only me oh so we're warning what such a thing you don't do you mean moment I don't know Amy oh you don't diss all McCallum do you always connect the tour child doesn't you agree with everything doesn't mean you spoil doesn't mean there's no discipline but it means you're always connected how do we do this not how do we deal with you small you have to deal with your small and somebody has there a charge of small and they constantly do you small you wonder why why a from Aveeno didn't follow this shear and he dishonored mom and again and get there so first of all so first of all once season of Rama V no for it in other words would sign up Rama V no didn't make sense to send away his small yeah Hashem told them say he did it so anybody if a sham tells you to send away a child because it a hey wait wait wait he didn't only send the way his smartly sent it with his mother if you send away a child no problem do it with his mother send away with his mother which is will be better for her too to get away from you just remember you don't just send away a boy you sent away the boy with his mother that's fine that's fine send them away the mother doesn't enjoy number three this is before Matt and Tyler let's remember that too number four you small didn't even ever get it over Y it wasn't a get over dude give me it's hockey Kerala Hazara number five it hasn't picked it the never lesser it says in ROTC that when I've Rama V no passed away who buried him deposited my Hebrew I saw it suddenly a small how did he small shop that will avoid he got a text message what does Rashi say Mohammed Shah said silver how do you small do children what happened so it doesn't picture the devil as that I probably know what go visit a subset send them away you go visit him because the home I saw he came and he was his wife was patima huh Fatima yeah and the Muslim Muslim world that's a big name and of Rama V know was very impressed it was one wiser than a second was very impressed with hospitality his small came home and she described table visited him and it was very moved that his father came so even then Hashem told them Hashem told them color stimulus or over cola but everyone went to visitor and then suddenly the next generation you took has a son a sofa was no great at Satsuki then you small what should have been the first thing you took did send them away as a day bursting hey said the top that the Messiah is used to know out kids in the house that's the Messiah your own father did it suddenly what does it's gonna do not only enough throw out a serve ace of Mary - Sarkis but the nml know what the right word for witness I don't wanna say - APHIS huh okay two sixes fine and what were they doing as it says in tragedy was smoking up your mother Lila and not smoking up to their gods and the father but T Anna Marie rush through our Lee it's the color Africa people think it's up was some naive Saint living in heaven they were a cause of agony for you to cook you should have thrown out a sub with his daughters are more go go but here's mommy go find yourself an apartment leave me alone go get a job you're a hunt to go get a drop he doesn't know that how do you have a father of Roma Vinny and a mother Sarah look what they did that they threw out his small I said that's the right thing to do and suddenly it took changed course completely they some remained with him and not only a soft ace of had a son and leave us what does Rashi say this week's buyer sure you remember yeah Yakov cried when he met your uncle why did he cry he said when my father had to have a siddha Eleazar came to the girl with ten camels loaded with wealth and richness ten camels wasn't enough one camel wasn't enough one diamond ring one tennis bracelet three mink coats for homes and Switzerland shall I am and Florida right the month see for Shabbos ten camels ten Campbell she got lift a path and I I said with timid garnish keep it mockingly Oh variety say I did Yakov came with a stick that's what he'll be on the sticks when you go on the hike you know you make us think that's what he had keep Immokalee around this yeah so what happened there it's the couldn't send them jack up a couple of dollars you can't give you two you're sending in friendship after sunniest impress somebody Noddin something to give start off her life not think so now she says he can't he went with a lot of money it took was a wealthy dude okay never has a tiny that he took lost all of his wealth but the pastor's it's tough most believe it was wealthy says he was very much Leah my Iguodala is mayor Chartres the shot is a sub who was furious with the active because of the story of the brothers had a son a leaf us and he sent to leave us to go pursue Jakob and kill him cuz Yahoo fled and they leave us found the active and he came to Yaqoob and he said I gotta kill you daddy said so now she says olofi should go down but shaker so you'd struck because elephants grew up in the bosom the shaker means in the on the lap and the bosom of uterus and the choice yeah that's exactly the translation in the spice of you talk in other words you took we would say mean it's a cradled him so he couldn't kill Yaakov you could just couldn't get him he was it was a vampire's he knew you'd suck he knew Yaakov he couldn't kill her she tells you actor we have a problem you know in our family keyboard of and our family kid without a trumps everything that daddy said that he said so yeah active said come I'll give you a shear and after gave him a sheared him assessed in the Dharam das HOF that army Joseph kinase then a broke destitute persons like that any taught him there on and he totally restrain him when they turn on doctor right now he's probably even told him to smooth sort of crimes for leverage on that game our ancestor and I leave her seviche Marcus here let me take your money and he took his money and that's why I'm broke that's the story now understand this and leave us is a murderer you give him a serum assessed in the door and you imagine yeah you meet a murder said wherever it on me the Gemara says in a door upon the source of kinase so worried really that's what you do with murderers they're interested in mrs. Kiner door knock off and it worked it worked he comes to killing me makes all his money but doesn't kill him the answer is this was the tragedy of Ali Fazal ethos was a son of a seven who was he a father of I'm mulling a leafless was the father of a male and as a deposit of the Partridge my useful Khalifa lived with his mother and he lived married his daughter everything in that family was one big incestuous relationship this was a leafless so apple doesn't fall far from the tree in this case a sip was no saint and ali first took it to the next level when he was the father of our malik and we all know who are malicious you would think mainly a song you have to tolerate but your grandson throw him out of the house God Allah leave us but he can show you talk he had him on his lap the Adam on his lap he'll leave us the atom on his lap dis dis dis Alif us so you could say okay he hope they'll make a mensch out of them but he didn't the guy became an awesome Arusha and that was it but wait we're alive today why are we alive today cuz Yaakov wasn't murdered on the way why wasn't he murdered on the way because I leave flowers remained with you talk so a leafless might have not become Roberts or coconut oil and a great sabot but ultimately the entire Jewish people are alive today and they owe their life to one thing that you'd sub did not throw out his Gramps all from the house and if you'll open up parsha seat place a furrier and you'll see I think painted down to the paint a twelve by yon and leaf runs hot a mummy one of the herbs friends is a leaf us who consoles them after the death of his children and now she says I'll leave us sir - she says in the earth he wants to God our behavior shall eat Scotland I think the lushness sauce olive Roja cleitus a leaf on SideReel ha kodesh a leaf ours was full of mum save him in his life he himself was not a very cultured child as Rashi explains in my useless from the Cameron sunedra he had drew her Kurdish why because intercalated owe me a shock and this is answer to your question it should have said you saw it happen if you small the ace of may laughter tolerate risk whatever this but uh now usually fathers do it because the mother wants but Rifkin was actually in theater so you took kenneth card plenty had a green ticket go ahead learn from he did the exact opposite from his father interesting very interesting it did the exact opposite uh and he was with us at horrid glories the Smithers are then I'm not a facet I'm not love love love love love love love I'm truth yeah what did that rabbi said I'm not politically correct like everybody else I say Ms I say the MS I'm not politically correct I don't flatter people yeah I'm cool I'm the real thing I mean this I did but yeah if you took about yeah it's a curse a soft and this is a sub this is a sub from whom closet snow doesn't come close she came the covered home right after Martin Taylor when it says after the car Tommy McCullough I'm him and every Jews at a local economy my mom recently the terminal middle part should be ice it'll be oyster and if you really feel you gotta throw him out no problem just make sure he has his mother to do is laundry and make him cinnamon buns and and chocolate chip cookies and and cradle them and so on and so when you go take care of yourself if your mama shaft is I have two actions I'll call bonamana galing and they know let's finalize so just like when it comes to a physical child to a comes to a biological son the same is true with mythos I don't have to ever ever disarm but says the song finished minor don't be afraid of your mothers don't be afraid it's there it's fine don't worship it unless you're afraid people say if I'm not going to be afraid of it I'm gonna follow it no the contrary if you're afraid of it the monster grows you're not afraid of it and you could look at it with a certain respect and a certain curiosity you can actually see what is going on help dissolve as we will see in the [Music] our competition is this class is brought to you by the Shiva net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they you Shiva net / donate