Shmuel Reichman - Making this the Best Year of Your Life

I want to start off by thinking huzzah cameo you for putting together this incredible event I want to thank Chris Moore to ask for the rub of this amazing Kela first of all that amazing introduction but also he has an incredible reputation himself and it's a us to be here and to share some words of tour at this special time I want to share something very deep something very powerful something which will hopefully transform not only your ll but this important time period as we start sleeveless tonight we start that the transition from where we understand that things are getting real to where is crunch time we have about a week and I want to develop something profound but I want to start off with a story the story goes like this there was an elderly man who came across an old friend old friend back from when he was younger and they were overjoyed to see each other they haven't seen each other in about 20 or 30 years and the elder man said would you like to catch up would you like to schmooze talk a little bit so they said of course and they started to talk they start the catch-up he said you know it's getting late would you like to come to my apartment we can continue the conversation we can talk I said sure they talk through the ninth shared old stories jokes experiences where they've been what they've done who they saw what they saw and it got to the point where it was getting pretty late so the guests look to his hosts and he said what time is it do you have a watch mine chance the guy said no no I'm a watch so you don't know watch do you have a clock he said no I don't have a clock is that listen how do you tell time said I tell time with the trumpet don't what is that and how do you tell time with the trumpet so he smiles and says just wait a second opens the window takes out his trumpet and blows a long deafening blast a couple seconds later there was a shout from a wind the next door it's three o'clock in the morning what are you doing waking me up turnt just friend said it's three o'clock and while it's a cute story like to me that story represents owl that L is hashem blowing that chauffeur waking us up in the middle of night from our slumber because this is the wake-up call where we start to realize that life is essential and profound and important and we start to question what are we doing with their lives who are we becoming what are we doing with the time we've been given and what I've started to realize is that we need a chauffeur for the chauffeur we need an L for L because we're so numb to this constant cycle of experience where we're not really tapping in to the true potential of owl to the true potential of Rosh Hashana of what this process really holds in store and what I like to do is to perhaps take it a step deeper perhaps develop these themes because there is so much that life holds in store and there's so much that this specific time period holds in store so when I develop some very deep themes when it comes to Rosh Hashanah but I want to start off with a very simple request I want you to take 10 seconds to genuinely and experientially imagine the best year of your life that if this upcoming year were to be the absolute best year of life what would it be like what would you accomplish what would you create what would you bring to fruition what ideas what potential what is in you that you want to bring out that you've just been waiting to do that you've never really accomplished that 1 2 3 things that you've always dreamed of doing and it could be any but I want you to imagine just for a couple seconds and by reason of hands who thinks that's an extraordinary image to imagine it's amazing right and it's also just so pleasurable whenever I ask people do that to see the smiles that come to people's faces cuz we love that inspiration the imagination the what-if but when we look at our to-do list in our New Year's resolutions our L resolutions they tend to be very similar to last year because we often have these goals these dreams these ambitions things we want to accomplish and the inspiration of Fame's we know that there's that time of inspiration I want to remind us what we should be doing but then when it comes down to it we get we get swept back up into the daily routine into the cyclical habitual lifestyle where it just not happen and the question I always ask is how how do we get out of that how do we take our lives to that next level and before we go a little deeper I just want to share a little bit of my personal story if anyone who doesn't know any of my anything about my story when I was when I was younger I was actually gonna go to the NFL that's actually I was really good at football and like it wasn't just me who thought I wasn't making I thought other people thought so too I was really good but then in kindergarten I busted my knee and had to change I had to change career paths I've in all seriousness when I was younger I was that kid who was inspired I was always going to those inspirational speeches and I would come out saying like I want to change my life I want my life to be better I want to make a difference in the world I want to make a contribution the class rule to the world as a whole and every time I would have those inspiring thoughts there would be that that voice in the back of my head that says you can't do that come on like what makes you think you're capable what makes you think that you're gonna do anything different than you've done in the past I mean yeah sure you're a nice guy but you can't do anything great and the inspiration would fade until one year I had the most devastating year of my life I was about 20 years old and I was walking through my day and I just felt this pain in my head and then I felt the pain in my stomach and I just lost consciousness and I woke up but I didn't just wake up I remember the pain and the struggle to come back to conscious coz I passed out before before that and it was just you don't remember passing it you just remember waking up you just wake up this was different this wasn't just waking up this was a long struggle to wake up and I thought this was a one-time incident and then it happened week later and for about a six month period I had no idea if this was gonna happen remember every time it happened I didn't think I was gonna wake up and every time it happened I woke up so scared not understanding what was happening inside of me and I began to do something which was incredible but a gift that Hashem gave me which is to question the meaning of my life on a daily basis I was facing death on a daily basis and I was having a midlife crisis at the age of 20 what is my life about I don't know if I'm gonna live till tomorrow why am I here and then something else happened I started to lose the ability to speak I start having this jabbing pain in my throat where every time I would try to say something it felt like something was stabbing my throat and my life was falling apart and I was questioning life on a daily basis I didn't know if I was gonna live till tomorrow and doctors had no idea what was going on they couldn't diagnose it and for about a six-month period I was living life on such a different plane where on the one hand I didn't think I was gonna make it in the other hand I was starting to ask questions and do things that were so different I start to build new habits I start to learn and ask a question I started to listen and read and find mentors and obey Him and I started to get like I was becoming such a different person because of it and it's a gift to be able to ask yourself why am I here what is my life about what if I died today what am I gonna leave in this world what have I become with my life what consciousness have I constructed what type of essence have I created with a life given and after about six months the doctors were finally able to realize this was something called vasovagal which is not the address and if you understand how to prevent it it's absolutely fine I haven't had an episode in many many years but that didn't train at the moment and kept on going and I kept on learning I kept on just investing into myself and then I began you know people ask can you help me can you give me advice I began to coach I began to write they began to speak and I began to go on this journey of self development and self exploration because of this gift that I was given there's a wake-up call this near-death experience but my mission and the single most important principle that I want to share with you and really delve deeper into this is that you don't need a near-death experience to have a wake-up call you know many people they see only those who have had those near-death experiences do things and it's so not true that's just a few and I want to share you a deep insight this is not just an idea which I'm sharing with you I shine instilled within the very fabric of time this principle that's what L is it is the wake-up call you don't need to go through some horrifying you know experience where your life falls apart and many of us have but you only need that to wake up to start living life at a higher level to start taking life to the next level and so what I'd like to do now is I'd like to develop the per inner feeling of this time period of teshuva of Rosh Hashana and to do that I want to begin with a very simple question teshuva means what what's the rudest issue of our shoes to return and the question is what are we returning to who are you returning to so yes in the simple level we're returning to a sham but I want to develop this a little deeper and also there's a very fascinating Gemara the de marrón condition that flama tes on the base and the Gemara says that before the world was created teshuva was created and the question you have to ask is this just something chronological like teshuva was prayed before the world or is this something deeper it's something perhaps more fundamental that teshuva is some cosmic root principle that comes before creation itself and the question is why second question is a very enigmatic romba around by Maimonides he talks about the power and importance of true the Hydra true of up that wall in the midst of that discussion he says something very enigmatic and pure he says that there is he listed a number of people but one in particular want to discuss is that someone who disconnects themselves from the Jewish people from the Jewish community even if he continues to do all the mitzvahs and show my torment sauce is a upstanding Jew if he disconnects himself from the community he gets no shared Olam haba he gets no share in the world to come and the question you have to ask is I understand if he's a terrible person if he's an idolatry she violates Shabbos there's something horrible but if he's keeping all the mitzvahs but he's just doing it by himself somewhere else what's so wrong with that maybe it's wrong maybe it's bad but to the extent that you lose your share in the world to come the if you look at the rest of the list where he talks about people who also share in the world to come their heinous their awful people so what's so bad about this person the third question is what is the connection between the main themes of Rosh Hashana between the main themes of the feel of Rosh Hashanah because there are three main themes of the feel that mean there are so Jonah what are they Martha's chauffeur and Tsar Chronos so the question is these are three beautiful ideas and if you look at the soup command the explanations it's a beautiful Fela what are these three themes what are the three themes of show Fross Cronus and Mario's but what's the deeper connection between these three because if you look at them on their own they've it's beautiful I guess show for us is the shofar we push over the cornice we go back to the Ikeda that's the memory we recall the the memory of the Ikeda and Mathias we crown when Hashem is our King well what's the deeper connection so let's start by understanding a deeper level and to do that we just need to the basic question what are we trying to return to because if you think about it life life has those those moments of inspiration those moments of dreams and if we'd be honest with ourselves we're all at different stages of life but we've all had those bursts of clarity the births where we know who we were meant to become what or meant to accomplish and it's it's enjoyable but what happens we get we get scared what if I try and I fail what would people think of me if I did this or we get scared about the pain I don't want to go through the suffering you know I don't want to start that diet give up the food I love I don't want to you know take the risk of going into the unknown now I'm comfortable or I don't want to you know try something new where I I just don't think I'm worthy or capable of taking my life to next level or I don't you know have this optimistic perception of life I've just lost my idealism and my excitement I just don't have the passion there are so many reasons why we stopped that the momentum and the excitement and the energy but in order to really get to the root of it we need to understand what's the goal what are we trying to accomplish what is the goals chuhwa and before we develop the deeper ideas I just want to share with you a beautiful story the story which has really touched me and inspired me and the story goes like this there's a story of two boys two boys who love to ice skate five there was no ice skating rink in their City but in the winter the lake freezes over so as the winter time and they go out to that to the lake and they start the skate but it wasn't frozen over as much as they thought and the ice cracks underneath one of them and the boys get swept under the ice and while he gets swept underneath the ice his friend sees this and runs as fast as he could again but he's not quick enough and the kid gets swept all the way on there his friend is freaking out he looks around he sees a tree in the distance so he runs full speed and he pulls down a giant branch he takes that branch he runs back over its thrashing at the ice breaks through ice pulls his friend over pulls him back to safety starts to resuscitate him by the time the ambulance came they're able to resuscitate everything was fine one of the older ambulance members looks at this scrawny little kid and says I don't I don't understand how can the scrawny little kid pull down this giant branch well smash through this thick ice it doesn't make any sense so when the older ambulance member smiles so I'll probably how he did it Wow how'd he do it there was no one there to tell him that he couldn't and we have to ask ourselves what could we accomplish if we didn't listen to that voice inside or outside our friends our parents our family ourselves that convinces us that we're just not capable but just not for us and we'd said that now I could do this so the question now becomes what is the process of tissue though so I want to develop two stages the first is the practical stage of chuhwa which we're going to develop the ROM BOMs approach to Juba and now I think it one step deeper so the simple approach to suva to repentance which we're going to translate as return has three stages three levels within the romba the first stage is to go into the past and to recognize the problem what does that mean that means going into the room by yourself and just being self aware being able to recognize that there's something I could just switch that one thing I can make that one little change develop that one habit change my thinking on this change this relationship that one thing but it's about recognizing the problems there are houses very beautifully in my social sorry if you can't recognize the problem it can't fix it and just such a profound thing to realize that when you allow into your consciousness what you allow into your field your horizon of perception becomes your reality until you start to evolve and expand that perception you can't grow meaning nothing can change until you change and nothing within you can change until you recognize there's a possibility for change so the first thing is just recognizing that you are not a static being you can develop and going within yourself and saying what is there that can change the second thing that was not only recognizing within the past that you could change that there's something that was wrong but within the present to very deeply regret it that's what the Raman says the second stages is segrete to want to be more because there are people who know if they've had exactly on their radar what could change but they just don't want to change they're so happy with who they are or at least they're complacent they're saying it's enough they don't have that emotional attachment to say something has to give it's one thing to recognize what could change is nothing to attach a motion to it that feel we are very smart beings we're able to numb the pain we're able to say that it's true this is horrible but I just don't care enough but to have the ability to to let go of that wall that prevents it from being emotional from being hurtful and to say no no like I'm not gonna numb the pain I'm gonna experience it so I can take my life to the next level because change will only happen when your life gets to the point where you can no longer stand the way it is there has to be a breaking point and we're very good at numbing that breaking point so we don't feel it but until you get to the point where you allow yourself to say like I don't want to do this anymore I'm ready to give up being okay with this to the extent that I can take my off next level until that happens it's impossible but the third step is perhaps the most important it's going into the future remember we had past present the random says the third stage is to then commit to a greater future you have to acknowledge it you have to regret it you have to want to change and you have to commit to change and that's the hardest step because that that that means that it's no longer within you you're making a genuine commitment you're saying I'm taking my life to the next level and I have so many clients who come over to me and they they say like I'm trying I just how do I actually do it how do I change and like one of the classic examples the person wants to go on a diet and I you know it's not working out so I say do you have junk food in your cabinet and they say yeah like how do you expect yourself to genuinely evolve and develop and grow if you're not creating an environment of growth if you have all of the challenges always in front of you it can't grow and it's the same thing for every aspect you want to start learning more books around your room you want to start you know being more positive surround yourself with positive people if you're not creating an environment of growth you're not going to be able to genuinely take that next step and that's why the Rambam says is that to shoo the gomorrah is if you are put in the same exact situation full trubiz if you're pretty in the exact same situation and you wouldn't do it so what's the question everyone asks how can you know how can you genuinely know if you're first of all it's impossible because all the different psychological physical spiritual elements that went into that specific decision point it's impossible to put yourself back in the same situation but the real question is even if you were put in the same situation tomorrow how do you know now that tomorrow you wouldn't do it again it's a good question so the question how can we ever do to Pho we're never gonna so what's the answer so one beautiful approach you can't know if you would do it again you can't the truth is a sham could no but what are you saying what are you committing to you're saying that I so much want to improve I so much want to be better that right now I want to be the type of person that if I was in that situation I wouldn't do it I can't tell you honestly what I wouldn't want to do because there would be a lie to say I promise you I'll never do it again very often we want to do true then we mess up again but I could tell you what I want and that's the power of desire for Autzen means that is a powerful story about person who wanted to be great we want it to be successful so he found this guru this this expert this professional who was you know the world expert in whatever life success it doesn't really matter what so we found out where he lived they tracked him down he knocked on the door of the guru guru answers he says I want to be successful I want to be like you how do I do it how do I take my life to the next level so the Guru says you know what I'll tell you how meet me tomorrow by the beach at 5:30 in the morning I'll tell you how to be successful guy says okay the Guru gurus gonna tell me so it shows up the next next morning at 5:30 with suits and you should've wore a bathing suit because when the Guru got there he said start walking into the water so now you listen to the Guru starts walking into the water gets about knee-deep and looks back at the Guru and says okay I'm here can you tell me how am I supposed to be successful what's the secret guru says keep walking it's about waist deep looks back gurus just keep walking this time he was about shoulder deep he's thinking this guru is a little crazy the Guru's crazy looks like the Quran says come on King Tommy how do it guru says keep walking says listen I came all this way he's going to keep walking so he turns around is about to keep walking before he can think twice the Guru takes his head and rosin underneath the water and he's thinking like this gurus crazy he's trying to get out he can't get out he's struggling to breathe and he's thinking like I'm gonna die here this gurus a serial killer that's how he became successful so he starts to you know it's man I just trying to get out he can't he's really struggling to breathe and he's about to lose consciousness when the GUI pulls him up from underneath the water and the Guru tells him something that he'll never forget the Guru looks at him and says when you were underneath the water what did you want most what did you want most he's recovering we're trying to get some action he says I want the breathe it's all I wanted I just wanted to breathe through look cinnamon sense when you want to succeed as much as you want to breathe then you'll be successful that's so powerful to think about what you want in life because we become what we want we become what we really want and there's a beautiful you know Kabbalistic mystical exercise called the rough zone exercise and many you know positive psychologist has actually developed this as the want exercising they've taken it it's a incredible exercise to do you can do it right now you can do it by yourself but it's really asking yourself and that it's best to do it alone in the room where you can think about you know what you really want but you ask yourself what do I really want in life and then you say okay why do I want that then you say okay why do I want that and you keep on going until you get back to the absolutely route that's what's driving you and you start to see that this is really what's driving my life and sometimes you're not so happy with what's driving life you say like this is really what my life is about and you start to say what can i generate life towards what's worth want them because we live our lives based on our Rutzen based on our desire there are miles talks about rulers IQs Harrison changing your designer changing what you want and the question we need to ask ourselves is how do we develop a deeper want and what I want to do now for the remainder of this this short cheer is to go the next level deeper one level deeper and I want to develop a deeper understanding of teshuva so far we developed the practical steps taking our life to the next level want to take it a step deeper and to do that we need to need to examine one of the most fascinating admires one of my favorite kumari is like a bar and you needed a flower in a vase and the Gemara says that when you were a fetus you learned cola - oh cool all of Torah Amala who was teaching you cold or cool just before you were born the mouth hit you on the mouth and you forgot everything and then you were born and we're born we don't know anything we have to learn Torah and the question that everyone asks is what's going on what's the purpose of making you forget it and if you're going to forget it why teach it you in the first place so the vinegar Vilna Gaon gives a beautiful explanation he says that you weren't made to forget everything you learned you lost access you were given everything in the womb as a gift and that was a humor not just learning hummus Niraj a practical Torah you were being shown with clarity the absolutely truth of reality maybe you were being given a crystal clear lens as to who you were meant to become within the cosmic structure of that khloé general goal of life and you were shown where the entire world is going and how you fit in what your mission is what your purpose is what you're meant to become an accomplished and you weren't me to forget it your loss you lose access to that clarity so that you can come into this world and build it yourself because that's what life is about it's about starting out as a child as no developed character into let no spiritual sensitivity and developing and building and making your own in essence life itself is what teshuva it's a returning back to your feet'll self back to your roots we are all in this giant journey back to our original source and if you think about it so far the word chauffeur when we blow Sofer with chauffeur we're going to develop us in a couple minutes but if you take the word so far was actually mean in Hebrew well this shot pair means to go back to the root and to beautify to make beautiful man shall fear what's Misha fear the amniotic fluid of the fetus that's Shaffir going back to the root going back to the source that's what shall frizz it's waking us up to go back to our root to go back to that fetal stage when we were perfect and that's what our life is about becoming hours of we're not trying to become great we're trying to become our true selves it's like there's this misconception that there's something objective called greatness greenness is becoming you it's becoming the person you were meant to become before we go deeper and we're gonna go deeper in a minute there are three levels of the Shiva the first level is where you go back to your roots but the second level is where you go back to this Kaliyuga where we go back to this collective self where you're going back to so to speak your individual self but you're also part of something bigger you're part of a quali cloudiness around the knee Israel is one collective self and the goal of life is it is very simply recognizing that we start our experience of life as an ego we're the only thing that exists is me and everyone else is separate and the process of life is getting this sense that I'm part of something bigger both practically and also spiritually that we have a clot that roof who you saw Raven Zell is that he eats a hot believe a hunt that we are all part of something bigger we're all part of a collective self and therefore chuhwa is not just going back to your roots it's going back to our roots as a Clow and the third stage is going back to our absolute root the root of all roots the source of all sources Hashem themselves and that if you don't find yourself within a bigger self as an official kind puts it the neshamah shundich ammos if you find yourself as something separate you live a very separate life until you find yourself within a bigger self within the bigger consciousness that you are not some individual separate ego floating around in space but that you're connected to some higher higher self some higher entity the question resolved you haven't performed full teshuva and you need all three and this goes back to the Randolph who says that if you disconnect yourself from Klaus row even if you're performing all the mitzvahs you don't get a limb haba why because if you've disconnected yourself from class or you've disconnected yourself from your root you don't exist it's like think of it as part of an electric current if you disconnect a bulb from an electric current the bulb will turn on because it's not tapped in if you're not tapped into the collective consciousness there is an aspect of Olam haba which is individual and that's a whole separate discussion but a very deep part of Olam haba is being part of reality being your consciousness will transcend your body and you'll become you the being that you created with your life but if you've disconnected yourself from that circuitry you've said I'm not part of choir all you won't exist you've disconnected yourself from reality the same thing that goes if you disconnect yourself from a Sharma you're not part of reality which is ultimately as well get to the root of Rosh Hashana is connecting yourself into reality it's saying I want to be part of this I want to have a bigger role in life I want to be part of this cosmic symphony we call life I want to contribute to the world to Christ all I want to make some contribution or make an impact and now we can develop two important principles before we do this we can go back to our original question why is teshuva why is to sugar proceed creationist now why is the sugar created before I said create the world because teshuva is the root of reality all of life is about to shove about going back to our roots about going back to our collective root clients or about going back - I'm himself and that's why Soph math said mash of Aquila before you do anything you have to build that seed so if my semi vertically means before you can accomplish anything has to arise first mere thought but if you want to build a tree after plant the seed if you want to accomplish two-foot tissue but it has to leave the root so that's why to Shuba precedes creation because the sugar is the root of creation let's briefly develop the connection between show froze the Chronos and mouth Leos as we already mentioned tro forces about going back to your roots elf main shaft here the amniotic fluid when we blow so far it's that cry if I want to go back to who I meant to be I want to be the person I meant to become I want to be my best self and that's why if we think about it the cool of so far the cool of so far what does that mean if you think about it what is speech if we think about the concept of coal of a wordless cry when I take a deep breath I take a big mishima and I express my thoughts into the air through vibrations and they're being received in your ears right now and they're being redefined that we translate into sound into letters into words into meaning and magically what was in my mind is now in your mind and that's the form of communication it's Niebuhr so in this sense I took in a deep breath of mishima and I expressed my neshama into the world the extent way now you get to experience always in my head but that's a limited form of expression why because if anyone who's in a relationship knows it's impossible to communicate genuinely in words the words are never what you actually devar de Bourgh is a thing and it's also a word why because it's limited it's a construct and anyone who's studied this topic knows that communication is so difficult because whenever we're communicating we're never saying what we really think what we really feel we're trying to convey it in a limited way through deep or through words but there's two levels of speech one is awarded speech and the other is a speech that goes beyond words where you just can't convey what you're trying to convey in words and that goes back to the root of what you really mean it's like when you have an overwhelming experience what do you say wow wow really just means out of anything to say about this and words it's too overwhelming it's too incredible I can't communicate it in a marriage you get to the point where you're able to communicate beyond words and that's what coal means cultural pride anyone who's familiar with the Holocaust of chauffeur knows that the whole concept of chauffeur is not the physical chauffeur it's the coal chauffeur which is why there's a question can use a stolen chauffeur and we pass can we say you could why because it's not about the physical chauffeur it's all about the the actual coal but what is coal coal is that trail that that wordless cry that goes beyond words and when we blow that troffer it's us saying that we want to go back to that route without words without and if you think about it and this really is very profound when do we cry but chauffeur is connected to two damata tears to the cry the shrill the cry of quiet or cry of people in tonight why because when you cry it's it's it's this expression that you just can't put into words it's it's well when does someone cry when they're on a path on a journey Holson everything falls apart and everything they thought that was gonna happen doesn't happen someone thought we they were gonna live for another 50 years and they find out they're gonna die someone thinks they're gonna die in a day and they find that they're not gonna die tears of joy crying is what happens when your journey falls apart when there's no expression well you don't have any you can't even express yourself but at route crying means that I'm going beyond expression I'm going back to the roots and the cry of chauffeurs when we're saying that I just want to go back to my roots I'm just your name frame or I want to go back to who I'm meant to be I want to go back to my Chloe to our Clow as a collective want to go back - Anna I'm just learning to transcend to achieve more to live on a higher plane and that's what the cry offers that's the depth of chauffeur and there's more we don't have time to talk about it right now the next level is Acronis services memory what's a memory memory something in the past where I go back and I trace it back to its root if you think about the concept of a memory memory is all about sourcing back saying that I'm in the present but I come from a history I come from a past my past my family's past my Nations past where am i coming from it's about ruining yourself back to that source that's why we go back to the akkada why because they Keith is that the root of klystrons connection - I'm gonna transcend anyway what happened at the Ikeda think about Hitchcock was willing to give up his life why would you give up your life if you think that once you die you've ceased to exist you never give up your life for anything I'm a very belief system of giving up your life requires there to be a belief that I am NOT my body that I'm connected to some higher root higher yourself I'm a consciousness I will not cease to exist once I die when you talk was willing to give up his life the shame kiddush Hashem he was saying that I am affirming my belief that I'm connected to a higher reality when we say that the Ikeda brings forth the memory with the Bhumi blow so far we bring back the memory of the Ikeda on Rosh Hashanah we're saying that we're going back to our root as a claw as a collective self that transcends this physical world is facing time that we are connected to a higher root that we are eternal we have a deep connection with Hashem and the gumar says and there's a host of bringing back the memory of the Ikeda we'll hope for a good director what's that mean we're saying that we are so connected to something more it's all about rooting ourselves and that's what Markos is about Maoists malleus we crown a sham as king why the house is something deep something powerful he says what's the purpose of crowning ash and asking them one word talking about Hashem is our Mela Hashem is our root where it's the same thing so far is going back to your individual self the nation fear the amniotic fluid saying I am destined for greatness that's my true self the chorus is going back to our lovely self as a nation where's a nation come from that roots of the Akita and Marcos is what's our absolute what's the root of all roots what's the self of all South that's Hashem that's her ultimate source and that's the ultimate purpose of Rosh Hashana crowning action is king why somehow says beautifully that when the Gemara Shoshanna says that when you dive in and when you crown Ash and his king and there's a horse of crowning of Simon's King we move Hashem from the Keisei of then for the Keisei rahman so the question you have to ask what was that mean but if you understand and this requires a whole others here but I'm the very surface level that then itself is something that I'm created Vashem is the ultimate route of reality that is completely transcendent of all rules and requirements and he created this system of space and time in physics and our system of life and that at root he's the ultimate root of everything then then doesn't have to happen you can overcome death and there are process how Rahman doesn't even overcome them that's the beauty of Rahman we don't have time to develop that but how do you overcome din how do you get a judgment of Rahman by recognizing that your judgment is ultimately coming from a shaman it's all about rooting yourself in reality connecting yourself session which gets to the ultimate question will end with us the ultimate question is and this is really what we're at the time of the Rambam says that we have people who are a deacon that they're written in the book of life at the very beginning you have people who are refined evil they're in in the book of death and then you have the Boehner Boehner name people who are neither you are there and they have really this time period to root themselves in the book of life so question everyone asks is the roundup sloshing around BOMs language is so weird he says that if you have 50% sins and 50% mitzvahs you're in the bane of nice age if you're more you're it's attic if you're last year Russia why should everyone asks is that it seems that no one would be at vina needs to sit statistically to be 50/50 is so so rare if we're talking about quantitative mitzvahs how many mitzvahs how many of Eros really because we assume that most of the world they're being in it so happen to be the most of the world as a Beynon is somewhere in the 50/50 so one of the most beautiful answers is like this you are where you root yourself how you identify yourself like why don't people become great so we talked about it most people don't become great because they're scared or because they have failed or they're scared of failure or they don't want to give up the ease and the comfort and the pleasure because they don't believe they're capable or because other people tell them they're not good enough but so many people do reason why they're not great is because they've never decided they've never really decided who they are what their life is going to be about what they're going to devote their time towards how they're gonna view themselves how are they're gonna view reality what they're gonna devote their time towards that's what the baton is the the deeper approach of the bane of me is someone who hasn't rooted themselves decided for the art because you are aware you root yourself who you decide you're gonna become that assertion of will that decision that I'm going to be great and so many people they just haven't decided and that's what I've been in here someone who yeah I'll do something good when it comes my way I'll do something bad one comes my way but I haven't decided that this is what my life's gonna be about and there's no question I'm going in that direction and that's what lol is about is rooting yourself in reality shifting your core your identity and saying I'm gonna be someone else it's not gonna happen I'm gonna make it happen and the way I'm gonna make it happen is starting the decision when you want to succeed as much as you want to breathe when you make that decision that I'm gonna be someone different I'm gonna be so many more and that is what we're all about it's deciding that I want to rule myself in reality I want to be connected to a sham I want to be my best self won't be part something bigger than myself I want to contribute my life to clients Rho which is why in Russia Shana we don't mention vetoing we don't talk about sins why because Russian itself is all about connecting ourselves - I'm just saying I want to be here I want to be rooted in something more yeah yeah we're gonna talk about my personal husband that's more for Yom Kippur then well then we'll talk about all that right now all I'm saying is I want you I want to be more I want to be part of something more just use me if you think about it we're all living our life story but we have to ask ourselves what part am I gonna play I might am I playing some background role in this world where am I gonna play a bigger part am I gonna take on something more make a new decision make a bigger contribution make sure that my life is worth living and that's what we're asking I said we're saying put me in the book of life because I want to be part of this life I want to I want to be a living walking kiddush Hashem I want to just represent you in this world let let me do that I want to crown you as my mouth and maybe Zola that when we starts clapping sleeve hose tonight we're not clapping it's like who can clap louder we're trying to wake ourselves up we're trying to say I want this life to be the best life possible and I want to make the biggest impact and make the most the life I've been given I want to realize all my potential and I want to express all that feel potential it may be it may be ZOA to really do that than to be inspired to utilize this out on this the time P that we're currently in to really get prepare ourselves to Russia showing us so that we ultimately are all put in the book of life [Music]