Rabbi Shmuel Reichman - Rosh Hashana: Achieving the Impossible

so instead of starting off with the story i want to start off by having you think about your story i want you to think about your big goals i want you to think about how far you've come because rosh hashanah is an amazing time and on the one hand it's yom hadin now mahaden when we think about rosh hashanah it's not just hashem's giving us an accounting for what we did this past year it is the root of the upcoming year a good analogy a good muscle will be to think of it as a seed rosh hashanah is the seed of the upcoming year the upcoming year everything it could be everything that we want it to be it is determined the max potential that upcoming year is determined on rosh hashanah the rest of the year blossoms from that route so we are literally entering into an amazing time where our upcoming year is being created but in addition to being hadin it's also a yom of simcha because we're entering into the omni realm which culminates in kipper where we're forgiven for all of all of our sins all over our owners from the past year so in addition to being as man of year as man of of heightened awe and an awareness of the truth of reality it's also is man of simple where gives us this gift of kabara but it's also a time of dreams rosh hashanah is a time of thinking big it's a time of trying to conceive of the greatest year imaginable to davenport to strive for to yearn for and it's such an amazing experience that we have every rosh hashanah it's this time where we come up with new year's resolutions we come up with big goals big ideas big dreams and how often do we look back at our list from last year and it's almost identical and you've heard this probably a million times before and yet it happens all the time we we question ourselves we say how is this possible how is it possible that in don't get me wrong i'm sure that you've grown in many areas of your life but there are probably things that you've been dreaming about for a long time that you're still dreaming about and the question is what holds us back what stops us so we're obviously going to delve a lot deeper but on a purely psychological level the moment we have these big dreams what usually happens the moment we have these big dreams the eats of her this voice in the back of our head starts to talk to us and say oh you think you can do that you think you can start learning more you think you can start getting healthy you think you can work on your marriage your relationships you think you'd have more self-confidence what makes you think that when was the last time that you were able to do that what what about your past experience makes you believe that you're capable of achieving greatness and that voice in the back of your head tells you stop stop with those dreams stop with those big goals just accept the way things are you are never going to change and the question is how do we overcome that how do we actually start achieving the impossible how do we start making progress how do we do something new and the question is really a fascinating question because for some of us it's it's like the same habits it's you know we we press snooze on the alarm we you know say yes to unhealthy food we you know get into those same arguments it's those same cycles and the question is how do we pull ourselves out and has this tying to russia what is rosh hashanah really about and i want to delve deep into rosh hashanah i want to go really deep into russian but i would say the first thing first thing to think about is to review we've talked about this many times to review a little bit of a deeper understanding of tesuva because if we're going to try to understand rosh hashanah in a deep way beyond the concept of yes we are determining our future but to really tap into what restaurant is truly about because it's not what you think it's not what you think i'll guarantee you that there's something much deeper about china that most people don't know of and i want to develop that today but the first stage in order to develop that which is much deeper is we have to start with the the surface level of teshuva because what is teshuva and the rambam puts us a free will in teshuva why because the essence of teshuva is becoming something new right the essence of teshuva is changing your habits to create something new that's what we would think but it's something a lot more than that because what does shiva actually mean return return to what return to who where what what is this idea of returning so the round bomb delineates three essential aspects of chuva holagically there are three aspects the first is you have to go into the past and recognize that you did something wrong right the first the ram cloud talks about this beautifully with me social sharing you can't improve unless you recognize that there's something you can improve on if you are unable to mock here to recognize hakkar satova is recognizing the good hakar's hara is also equally important you have to recognize what you can improve that's the first step look at yourself in the mirror and the psychological mirror in this case look deep into yourself and say who can i become what can i shift what is holding me back from that next stage of growth what are those things that i know i need to improve on that will help me excel in my self-development in my awareness my connection with hashem my relationship my physique my physical health my emotional so you know well-being my intellectual growth what's holding me back the next stage is you have to go into the present and you have to genuinely both regret what you did wrong meaning it's one thing to recognize that the other thing is you have to want to change you have to want to improve you have to you know connect it to it the emotional response of i have heard i want to be more and the third stage which i wouldn't say it's the most important because for different people different stages are more important more difficult for sure but for some people different stages are more important but the third stage is to direct towards the future and to commit to being a better version of yourself to commit to stopping whatever it is that you were doing and to commit to becoming that great greater at least greater version of yourself and the classic question is the realm says what's shivagamura is that if you're in the same exact position as last time and you don't do the you don't do make the mistake again so the question is how do you you're saying the only way that you can actually fulfill teshuva is if you're put in the same exact position but it's impossible number one you're never going to be put in the same exact position and number two how are you supposed to know that you you have to wait until you're it's clarified so so there's a lot of detail on this but the simple answer which is also a profound answer is that it has to become a real enough that if you were put in the same position you wouldn't get me right now you so so want to be become a greater version of yourself that if you were put in the same position you wouldn't do it but there's a deeper layer of tissue as well because teshuva is not just wiping away your sins teshuva is not making a new choice to become someone new that's part of it but the deeper layers that shivez we've mentioned many many times before and this is just an introductory principle which if you haven't heard before it's revolutionary if you've heard it before it's obviously a good hazara the deeper layer of teshuva is the as maharal explains in there and a lot of bali this is the core of their makshafa is that yeshua means to return and you're returning to who you really are you're returning to your higher self and it's based on the gemara neither the flaming obeys it says that when you were in the room you learned kalatorakula as we've mentioned many times before the village explains it's not just torah it's not humish it's not russian it's not gemara you're learning the cosmic root of reality you're being shown the purpose of everything you're being shown your unique purpose and right before you're born the malach hits you in the mouth and you forget everything why the villain explains that you can come into this world and build it yourself it was given as a gift in the womb to show you what you could become what you're supposed to become but you're then put into this world and you don't lose it you lose access to it and you come into this world to create it and build it yourself and it's like michelangelo's once asked how do you build these amazing sculptures and he says i don't build it that's right there beneath the surface i just chisel away the you know everything blocking it and once i chisel away the outer surface i reveal the true sculpture underneath and that's really what life is you're not learning you're relearning you are creating yourself but you're actually recreating yourself you're discovering who you really are and the entire journey of life is becoming you becoming great doesn't mean just you know striving for some objective greatness it means striving for your unique friendness who you're supposed to become and that revolutionizes the concept of growth and that's the village actually gives a beautiful proof for this and gemara and where he says that the gumaras the gemara says that if someone says that i tried really hard you got the ifaloma sauce i wasn't able to succeed in my learning don't believe him because he didn't really try hard but if he says he got to you saucy i tried really hard and i was successful in my learning you should believe him so the only one says it shouldn't be much sussy if i try harder knife concession means media you found a lost object it should say that you succeeded you accomplished you learned it what's this methia so it says that no it's a messiah because when you were in the room you learned it and then you lost access to it it's a lost so speak a lost object lost concept lost idea lost knowledge and when you learn in life when you hear a deep idea why do you have the sense of yeah it resonates with me yeah that makes so much sense yeah that's true why why does it resonate with you because you're not creating a form of knowledge within yourself you are simply activating knowledge that's already rooted deeply within your consciousness deep within yourself you are simply rediscovering that which you once had and that's also what life is about you you crave knowledge because you once had it you crave greatness because you once had it the question i like to ask people is you know people crave things they once tasted they crave pizza you crave you know delicious meats do you crave yabba galula the delicious dish yappa glue do you crave it no of course not because i just made it up you only crave that which you once tasted you crave wisdom you crave closeness with hashem you crave greatness because that's deeply rooted within you you lost access to that when you were born but your job in life is to spend your entire life rebuilding that and the villenegon says something absolutely chilling he says that there's a very strange gemara which is at the end of your life you're going to come to shamayim and malachim are going to come and they're going to say where is your mitzvos where's your averse and where's your torah so the villain ganassi says okay mitzvos i understand but torah look tama torah is a mitzvah you know connected coulomb it's a great mitzvah but it's still a mitzvah so what's this idea of one male is going to ask you for your mitsville song for your very someone for your torah what's going on they said that no the malach isn't asking you if you learn torah he's asking if you learned your torah the torah that you learned in the womb your unique purpose that you were supposed to bring to the world and the village says something absolutely incredible he says you're going to recognize that because that's the same malek that taught you torakula in the womb that gave you your mission and your purpose and he's coming back at the end of your life and he's gonna say did you do it did you make it your own did you accomplish it that is powerful that is powerful but let's take this step deeper because now that we have the concept of teshuva let's try to delve into rosh hashanah because rosh hashanah rashford is a strange hug because on the one hand we think we know what it is but once we start to ask some very very interesting questions we stop understanding what rosh hashanah is and we need to really deepen our understanding of it because on the one hand you think of it as a time of teshuva a time of close to the shaman time of din but let's let's start to analyze it a couple of questions number one one of the most famous things we say in the fila rosh hashanah is that how do we uproot a bad gezera to shuver tv was on you and you're becoming someone new or you're returning to your root you're becoming a better version of yourself you're able to make that because they're no longer i mean the deeper understanding but it's not your uprooting exercise that the gazero is on a certain version of you and b by becoming someone better or greater or by returning to your true self the zero is no longer on the right address because you're no longer the person who did it you're someone else you're the the truer or greater version of yourself so that's one way to uproot it another version is tvla which we just gave us sharon feel it's that same concept of you are becoming a higher version of yourself is a vodas on it's yearning to become a truer higher greater version of yourself to connect with hash on an even deeper level to tap into a higher root aspect of your inner will and by doing that you're able to once again you know uproot the xero but the question that everyone asks is what what's sucka what's sadaka doing there sadaka is a greatness for giving charity is incredible but what's the the deeper idea here it's just like a magic trick you get stuck and it solves the problem what's the deeper meaning behind sadaka being able to uproot a bad gazero there's another also very fascinating problem in the realm around them he says something absolutely stunning he says in in alpha truva he's talking about people who can't do teshuva and he says that one of the people who can't do teshuva is someone who's poorest nazi bore and he explains that who's what does it mean to be poor schmidt sleeper he could learn torah he could be fulfilling all the mitzvos he could be an upstanding individual and he can be a great person but if he distanced himself from the zebra from clay israel he goes off into let's say by himself into a cave and he says i don't want to have anything to do with clay israel that itself is someone who can't shuv and has no share in allah can't do that he has no share in the world to come now that seems to be a very inappropriate punishment or consequence for someone who simply said i want to do my own thing he's still learning tori still fulfilling the midsole he's still a good person why simply by removing himself from the community does that person not only not get your name but he is unable to perform teshuva what's the deeper idea there but the question which i think is probably going to be the most striking question especially for how we understand rosh hashanah is that there's one glaring like non-existing concept when it comes to the entire rosh hashanah what one glaring omission from all of tefila of all of tefila and rosh hashanah we don't focus on teshuva now you're gonna say what yo din we're being judged for our entire year it's the root of the year it's the seed of the year we should be focusing on teshuva we should be asking hashem to forgive us we should be asking hashem to accept us back we should be yearning to get close to god's barracu we don't talk about teshuva we don't talk about there's no mention of teshuva we don't make personal requests no personal backus right everything we say is in the plural when we're talking about clash royale we don't mention ourselves we're literally in court we're literally asking someone to forgive us for our sins we don't talk about ourselves we don't ask ourselves to forgive us for our sins we don't mention teshuva there's no vetoi there's no vidue it's like what like all of ello although is sleekness and uh what happened to rosh hashanah right after rashford i go back to sleek yum kippur is literally a day of sleep rosh hashanah no no no what is going on this is literally yom hadin and we're not mentioning din this is literally yom hadid and we're not asking question to forgive us for our sins now i understand you want to qualify you don't want to only mention our sins but we don't mention it once and if you think about that first of all the result said that it would be terrible to say vedo and rosh hashanah it would be spiritually damaging you don't want to see that and even the things that we do say that seem to be related to the shuv and vidue those aren't even fundamental to feel so for example we say because right this was actually added much later it's added in the 9th century and there was actually a lot of debate whether we should even say this and we still say that in the plural so if we want to even take a step further if you forget it you don't have to go back because it's not essential so it's like it's unbelievable it's the same idea for avinu malcano it's the real feeling of rosh hashanah is ishmael asteroids where we say the three parts of malchios zechariah central for us and this is not about teshuva there's no vidue we're not you know clapping all hates what is going on what is rosh hashanah really about and it's it really it's it's such a good question you know sometimes the questions they're just to give an answer so you can like share an idea this question is a really good question this is yomadin and we don't mention the din that we are trying to get out of well we don't mention uh you know we're not focusing on ju at least not in the way that we we would think of teshuva as being so what is going on there if there's one day where where we should be saying view to its rosh hashanah and we're not so what's happening i i want to deepen it as well because russian is our yum hyden and because i'll talk about how like each individual is judged and it's like one person going you know at a time and it's you know on the edge of a cliff and a lot of different analogies so you don't mind in and all we do in hashanah really is talk about hashem we don't mention ourselves we don't talk about the the things we want to be forgiven for it's you know we think that the the ultimate day of asking hashem to forgive us and all we do is talk about hashem accepting what is going on we're being judged for the entire year and we don't mention ourselves we don't ask hashem to forgive us why what's happening and perhaps you know the culmination of this entire problem is that rosh hashanah should come after yom kippur think about it rosh hashanah is the day of judgment yom kippur is a day of kapara being forgiven now when would you want to be forgiven before you're being judged for the rest of the year or after if you're being judged for the rest of the year you'd want your plate you know wiped clean your slight wipe clean so that you can then come in looking pure looking like an angel which is what yom kippur is about and then hashem will say look at this pure individual of course i'm gonna you know give you an amazing year but we do we go to rosh hashanah and say give me an amazing year please okay then we get forgiven on your kipper it just doesn't make any sense it's like if you think about it let's say you're you're on trial and the judge is determining what's going to happen to you imagine being quiet the entire time the judge you know brings the gavel and sentences you whatever it is and then all of a sudden you start saying please no you don't understand i i you know i'm begging you to forgive me uh you know like you know all of these other ideas you start to basically make an appeal after the verdict and the judge will say what that's great that's a great appeal you have a lot of great points but why didn't you speak up beforehand that seems to be what we're doing the verdict is on rosh hashanah and then we go back to vidue and yo kippur is the ultimate day of video and kapara so we we should be switching the order why in the world does rosh hashanah come before you kipper again like these are really big questions and if you want to deepen it as well you can we've talked about this in the previous couple share but the whole idea of of of malchios and secrondo centrophos why these three what are these three themes about and really what is chauffeur about so look the ramen says that chauffeur is about waking us up from our slumber like you know people are sleeping like what does that mean to be woken up so we just gave a very very deep share on that and you can reference that we'll maybe touch upon that a little bit but these are the the essential questions of the day if you're a thinking jew like we should always be wanting to deepen our understanding of of torah thought of judaism of life of of what it means to be a jew and when we have so many things that we do in life you want to deepen every single one of them and you want to interconnect them you want to really gain a deeper understanding a deeper conscious deeper meaning behind it and when we come to rosh hashanah i can't just go through rosh hashanah say that fila and go home what is rosh hashanah really about so in order to develop this correctly we need to develop a couple principles in order to really understand what research is about we need to understand the concept of oneness what is oneness so we live in a world of multiplicity a physical world you're there i'm here you see things and things in the background things in the room you're in you can look up you can look down we live in a three-dimensional physical world now the maharaja basically you know all the deeper bali they all refer to the spiritual world or spirituality as referring to the concept or at least related to the concept of oneness what is oneness oneness is that which is not a thing it's not here or there it's beyond thing it's beyond even infinite because you can think of infinity as having an infinite number of finite points but we're going beyond things we're going to realm the absolute interconnected oneness that is beyond expression what's the relationship between oneness and the physical world well the physical world is twoness a cursed brotherhood created physical world as an expression of oneness an expression of spirituality so the way that we can think about it and then the deep idea behind this is that kashmir will create the world with a base why so the maharal explains that the midrash says that kansas will create the world with bayes because baze is the letter of bracha so they've been famously said to understand why because base also stands for a lot of other things myral explains why because bracha is the word of tunis kansas is the connection between hashem which is the source oneness flowing into the world of tunis the word bracha literally bays reshaft all of those have a gematria of two so phases two ratio is two hundred twenty it's the the word of tunis it's the relationship where the chef of the energy the creative flow from oneness from flows into the world of multiple into the physical world baze is the letter of creation that's why the torah starts with a base beratious it was in the villain actually says that's also the creation of time you know different events one after another a realm of multiplicity we live in the physical world but the physical world interconnected with the spiritual and oneness is always the root and it flows into twoness and that's why when akash broke revealed himself by mountain torah what's the first letter of of that experience what's the first letter of the first the letter of oneness the spiritual the transcendent that realm of oneness is the root and twoness is the expression and we have this in every aspect of life first of all you have it in yourself you you're in a shama your soul a self a consciousness a an inner being you have your own inner world and then you have your individual thoughts you have your physical body which is an expression of your inner self meaning not only we can talk about the different time only are your actions your words and your thoughts individual components that are you know so speak expressions of your oneness self but your body is also an expression of yourself so your things they are extensions of you in the physical world but you you when you say i you're referring to yourself you're referring to your your inner mind your inner consciousness your higher inner self when we talk about teshuva it's about delving deeper and deeper into yourself getting more and more in touch with yourself oneness is always the spiritual root twoness is always the expression but the expression reveals the root so you can always trace yourself back to the root so for example avraham looked at the physical world and said there must be a creator and trace himself back to the root he was able from the physical to get back to the spiritual because also he was able to ascertain to understand all the different mitzvos even the exercise and hamel who was given access to all of toro wisdom was able to therefore understand all of its expressions and understand all the physical wisdom of this world you can basically go either way now which one's ideal is it better to go from the expression back to the root or from the root to the expression it's always best to go from the root to the expression but when you don't have access to the root you can get access from the expression so a couple other examples that we've talked about before the idea of taking multiplicity taking the physical world and understanding how to trace it back to a spiritual root you can actually understand it in some sense as the maharal explains through the concept of six seven eight so we live in a three-dimensional world and as we've mentioned many times that means that there's a right left forward backward up and down that's really six six sides like a three-dimensional cube but the seventh is that which interconnects it so the entire physical world is built off of sevens because you can have the six sides which are just lying flat on the floor what interconnects them it's called the seventh thing the center the that which interconnects it and shabbos interconnects the seven days of the week so that way there's seven days in the week seven lights and the spectrum of light seven notes in the musical skill the chevaminim should have missed can go through all the different sevens eight islam and taba eight is that which transcends the sum of its parts so for example it's the nishama to the body it's let's say you have a radio it's you know the radio frequency is when you put all the pieces in the right way together you get something that's greater than some of its parts and the eighth is always that which is you know emanates from the pieces it's that which is the the oneness concept relative to the physical pieces so we've talked about bruce mila which is uplifting the physical vessel that which you know the aver that we do the british meal in the eighth day that can be used for the most animalistic things but we use it for the spiritual for the transcendent hanukkah is the miracles of shaman that light which emanates from the candle that's the eighth so we're not going to go deep into this right now because we can give a whole sheer just on this but the idea like is like this oneness the eighth the spiritual the transcendent is always the root of the physical expression but you can always find the the the root within the expression and it's where oneness becomes multiplicity it's where the spiritual becomes physical it's where the infinite becomes finite and the idea is is i'll just give you two last very quick examples for those that are still trying to wrap their mind around it the concept of beauty is no specific thing like what's beautiful when you look at a beautiful picture like is the color blue beautiful beauty is when all the different pieces come together in such a way that the result transcends the sum of its parts say look at a beautiful sunset it's not the sun or the ocean or the sand or the reflection it's the entire scene creating something so grand and awesome that you're just lost for words because the result transcends the sum of its pieces music great symphony great music you don't hear any individual note you don't hear any individual instrument you don't hear any individual anything all the pieces come together such a way that you just have this experience of beautiful music that's the concept of creating oneness out of multiplicity that which transcends the sum of its parts and here's where we get to the core principle you yourself are the root of all of the different multiplicity all of the different expressions of you so your thoughts and your emotions and your physical actions and your speech and like all that stems from you as an interconnected oneness self an inner being that's the root of all that expression claudius real also has a root itself israel we're not going to talk about different terms but clay israel while we're all individual members we're all individual branches we are all stemming from a single root a single self so consciousness is a single single neshama it's the shaman of cloud israel so much of life is about recognizing that all the different aspects of your life need to be rooted back into one higher self your true self and all of life is teshuva returning to your true high yourself but that true higher self is written in an even higher self glycosyl glycerol is your root self we are all all of christopher's part of one root self and the concept of oneness to multiplicity once again is that one self of cholesterol springs forth and has so many offshoots of all the individual and without getting into it we can get obviously then split up into twelve schwaten then into families into individuals the the concept of the tree is obviously a beautiful analogy because you have a trunk and then thick branches thinner branches thinner branches thinner branches you know but we're all interconnected we all are part of one tree and really at root all of humanity is part of one tree we're all from adam harisha and all from one root soul but to give you a beautiful analogy in addition to the fact that a seed becomes a trunk that expands into all those different branches look at a torah where you open up a hamas you have a letter that letter becomes a word that word becomes a sentence that sentence becomes a paragraph which becomes a chapter which becomes a book a safe here and that becomes part of the torah which is a series it's an ever expanding like one individual one individual person is part of something so much bigger than themselves and one letter by itself you say that's nothing one letter is missing from a safer torah the whole safer taurus puzzle why because every individual is part of that collaborative interconnected self and it's not only that you're essential and that you're supposed to contribute something essential is that you are fundamentally essential like you are part of the dna of reality you are part of the story during the class because i'll say that each of us are allowed in the safer torah but that's the deep idea that one letter and safe return it's like it's like an organism you take out part of a dna one chromosome is missing from a zygote and that human being will have unfortunately a lot of problems it's the same thing you take one letter from the torah you're messing with the dna the blueprint of reality one person disappears and does that person stops existing in the world the world is missing something fundamental something essential each of us are a fundamental letter each of us are something a fundamental expression of fundamental part of fundamental self within the higher self of client's world which is an amazing amazing idea but here's where it gets really interesting do you experience yourself as part of this awesome interconnected self of christian do you look around at at fellow jews and say wow we are part of oneself i love you so much just like uh i i love myself just like uh i um you know my fingers not jealous of another finger like i'm not jealous of you i love you i have no ill feelings against you but unfortunately we live in the world where that's not always the case now why because when we are born just like we forget who we are we forget we lose access to who we truly are remember the model hits your mouth you forget everything you learn to the womb you forget who you are your purpose you have to go into this world and build it and create it so to speak but you're not really building creating you're really tapping into it you're really bringing it to the forefront of your awareness and consciousness you're really just reactivating it re-accessing it in that same way when we are born we forget that we're part of a bigger self we forget that we're part of clay israel we forget that we're part of a grand cosmic self that has this grand cosmic purpose in the world and how do we start off life we start off life as an ego which means that we start our life thinking of ourselves as an isolated individual we have our own thoughts our own emotions our own experiences our own goals our own drives our own struggles our own problems and no one else knows and we're alone and naturally it's survival of the fist just make it on your own compete against people dislike people lie to people steal from people not that this is what people do but that would be like the natural starting point it's you against everyone else you're not interconnected you don't love them you don't naturally care about them naturally we're all selfish naturally when you're born all you care about is yourself your needs your desires you view yourself as separate from everyone else and you view yourself as separate from hashem you're just here alone in the world and i would say in addition to all the problems that come with that like competition and hating people the most fundamental pain the most fundamental pain that comes from that is the feeling of being alone utterly alone that no one understands you that no one really cares about you that no one knows what it's like to be you and there's a deep truth to that no one will ever ever experience your experiences no one will ever know what it means to be you but there's a lifelong process of developing something deeper now on a practical level part of his communication the ability to share what's going on in your head inside your world with other people building relationships communicating building loving relationships open relationships being vulnerable being caring being willing to share and give people what's actually within you meaning not to lie not to say what people want you to say not to be what people want you to be but to be genuine to share your true self but to do this correctly do this well and to really be confident enough to do this you have to first spend time figuring out what it means to be you you have to come in touch with yourself you have to spend time by yourself you have to fall in love with yourself you can't love anyone else if you don't love yourself what does that mean to love yourself the first step is to go back to what we just said which is to realize to realize that you are a neshama that you are a self you are a consciousness a soul in your being and that you are not your body the mahara the they all give this beautiful explanation of haba it's not some great gift for your soul that your soul gets it's you you are your soul you don't have a soul you are a soul now english is a poor language to talk about spiritual ideas but there's no right word to talk about it but you can refer to what you are as a self a consciousness a mind an inner being all these words fall short of what it means to be in a shama but when you say i what you refer to when you say i that's who you are and you know um but you exist as the being you created the the inner self you constructed the the the conscious the mind the intellect all of the essential components of what you crafted and created and built and developed how much of the teshuva process you were able to achieve during your lifetime that's the experience of omaha but the joy of everything you built obviously the pain is everything you could have built the pain is coming face to face with what you could have become and realizing that you you didn't but the goal of this life is to make sure that there's as small the gap as possible between what you could have accomplished and what you did accomplish well you could have become what you did become and that's why the gemara in bracha staff and zion says that shabbat says because is a taste of the world to come because we stop the creative process and we experience who we are in shabbos you can't do malachi's creative activity you know you can't create anymore you exist as the being that be you became now i will qualify by saying that there are stages of almhaba there are stages where you continue to become and develop but an essential aspect of almhaba is experiencing who you are in a static way this world is becoming and the world to come as being to an extent let's take it a step further you you are a soul a self anisha your body the vessel a tool it's an aspect of you an expression of your things or we've talked about this in the past where things are also halal metaphysically spiritually extensions of you know ownership why can't someone take the shirt off your back in addition to the fact that it's illegal why can't they do that because it actually does belong to them it's actually a part of them that's why yaakov went back for those small utensils because every aspect of of ownership is an expression of that person it's a finite expression of their time of their energy of their koa and everything every aspect of you is essential you your thoughts your emotions your physical body your things your relationships they're all aspects and extensions of you now clawing israel play israel is the self of yourself it's you know when you perform the ultimate form of teshuva you get in touch with your higher self the root of that self is claustro every single member of clystro is connected to you is your literal spiritual brother sister we are all part of oneself and the way that you love other people is by recognizing that they're part of yourself now how how are you supposed to do that i mean the classic question how do you genuinely build this oneness like we don't we don't experience that right now we we're not part of this oneself you're here i'm there she's there he's there we're all individuals we're not part of this oneness of claustro so how do you experience that well it's based off of a powerful principle or deaths or explains like this and dasha explains that you really oh can only love yourself and it's very logical because you only experience your own thoughts your own emotions your own needs you can't really love someone else i mean when we say love right you say like i love that pizza you love that pizza no you know you love how it makes you feel you people say i love that chicken if you love the chicken you make sure that when it gets then you'd make sure that it was alive you don't love the chicken you love what makes you feel what's love love is real oneness but how do we experience that oneness if we're naturally separate in individuals so if daschle explains that the way you love someone else is by giving to them why because by giving to them you can expand your sense of self to include them the root of ahava is have which means to give why because you love yourself you experience yourself as yourself but you also love everything you invest yourself into so you love any creative idea you came up with any project that you created so my parents love their children because they're literal genetic and existential expressions of themselves they created them obviously partners with hakash barucho but the timing energy and effort that parents put into their children they see so much of themselves in their children we love what we invest in because it becomes an aspect of ourself an expression an extension of ourselves and not just psychologically but in a true deep way it unearths the aspect of interconnectivity that lies dormant within the relationship when you give yourself to someone you start to really tap into the interconnectivity the oneness that lies between you the facade of i'm here you're there i am me i am an ego you are there you are your own self that begins to fade away root we start to really get a sense of the interconnected oneness that lies at our shared root how do you love someone else you give to them now the classic question that i always grappled with was that's great but you can't give to every member of kleisthen are you supposed to love clients real what do you think the way that you love clients rel is by committing your life to clydesdale so you're giving yourself to chloe's role as a concept and therefore any member of clystrol is by definition the recipient of that devotion and giving to clients trail and you get to see yourself within every member of class well even if you haven't met them you love clious row you'll have every member of christchurch in a deeper way really then do that for the whole world devote yourself to the world in a different way but in a deep way you can love every member of the world and you know if cook would say you know then you love the world itself the you know then ultimately you guru back to kashmaruku i mean that's part of how you build a sensitivity to not harming animals to the the physical earth itself you know it could be he bgb it could be like oh like you know stay away from that person but in a deep way there's a truth to it there's a truth to it we're not going to go i mean if you think of the entire physical world as expressing the spiritual there's a deep root consciousness to the world itself you have midrange talk about like inanimate things talking like yeah there's rocks talking underneath yakko's head so it's like really so there's a part of that which is just an idea there's a deep truth to it too moshe abby knew wouldn't hit you know it wouldn't do the macbooks that were related to the water because the water saved him and the sand because it hit the midstream so you know part of it is because he has a karsatov it's about him recognizing what the good and that those things saved his life but part of it is that you know even inanimate things have an aspect of spirituality aspect of consciousness albeit a much much much lower form but the sensitivity of everything as being an expression of spiritual root and and having a sensitivity to the whole world as an expression of a college bar who's wrestling that's a deep idea right there and obviously the first and greatest example of expanding your sense of self is in marriage because the best way of giving and sharing yourself with someone else and really finding like expanding your sense of self in the deepest and most potent ways through marriage that's why the relation there are bonus means the relationship between all of us in the college is a married relationship it's that deepest form of giving of self who gave the ultimate self in the relationship he gave us existence and we give ourselves takashi we devote ourselves back to our root and that's like that oneness relationship of that intertwining torah because i'll say that harsina was the khuppa that was our marriage with akash baruch where we committed to a lifelong journey of revealing hashem in this world and coming to a life of truth of the sachem so now let's start bringing it back why do we give tzadak all right teshuva that's how you uproot a band gazer or why tadaka so beautiful now because as an individual you may have a bad gazer on you an individual you may have done something wrong but once you're able to become part of a seabor something bigger than yourself you can get the din of that seaborn so by giving zuzaka you're expanding your sense of self beyond yourself you're becoming part of something bigger than yourself you're becoming part of classroom and to schumann's fila are you consider more individual you're returning to your root self there's aspects of still returning to classrooms well but tadaka is that beautiful idea of uprooting the bad xero by becoming something much bigger than what you are by becoming tapped into the deep truth of you are part of cli israel which is unbelievable and there's something really powerful about this as well because there is a deep existential yearning that we all have to become part of something bigger than ourselves that's why people love kum's it says why people love concerts why they love you know giant events sports games whatever it is we love falling melting into the background of a crowd being part of something extraordinary part of something infinite part of something way bigger than ourselves you lie downstairs the night sky it's mesmerized i mean the rambam says one of the most amazing ways to build yura's hashem and is to look at the the granger and the the beauty of the physical world to stare at the night sky and the stars and the infinite nature of the universe but we're also individuals and that's where the beautiful synergy comes into play on the one hand we want to be part of something bigger than ourselves on the other hand we want to be unique we want the spotlight on us we want to be important we want to be significant we want people to know who we are we want to be recognized we want to feel that like we mean something how do you how do you solve that seeming paradox that we have these two contradictory yearnings well you could say that no the ideal is to negate yourself and get your ego just become part of something bigger than yourself you could say no life is about being a yakid being unique and being you know developing your own casa torah the round bomb says that at night you were able to really you know build the castrator why because at night it's not when there's hundreds of people in the basement so you're maybe sitting in a room by yourself or it's you're more in a realm of yogidas where you're able to really become more self-aware and learn deeper torah and delve deeper into yourself and really in the sense of heightened awareness find your uniqueness so if that's true like what's going on which one is it but the real idea is both synthesizing the two it's finding what makes you unique you know some people are brilliant thinkers other people are are more technically tuned they're more mathematically inclined some people are more emotional some people are more people oriented some people you know people just open up to them uh they're they're really good communicators they're really good empathizing at being able to listen and make people feel not like create that open space so that people don't feel judged other people are better with their hands some people are really good they're just natural businessmen you want to find your uniqueness your topic what makes you tick how can you become the greatest version of you but then devote whatever it is that you are and everything that you are devote that to the clown devote that to clay israel devote that to the world devote everything that makes you unique all of your greatness make that about something bigger than yourself that's the key and now we can we can start to understand some of the problems we raised why why why is everything in the plural why is everything on the plural in rosh hashanah because we're trying to become part of something bigger than ourselves we're trying to tap into the fact that we're part of client israel as an individual you have a certain type of din as an individual you might not be zoha to a certain extraordinary year but once you're part of klystron once you're part of klystral clay israel is first of all in terms of who's going to live who's going to die clyde shows definitely live so you want to be part of that you know you want to be in the book of life so to speak without getting into that whole that's a whole share what that means book of life but you want to really be tapping into this of being part of the clown as an individual all you are is what you are when you're part of a claw you're part of something that's the casual of mitzvah the maharaja says comes from the relation because as a individual your action is just you but once you're connecting to the will of akash baku you become infinite it's like greater is one who's commanded than one who isn't commanded now you think what if i wasn't coming i did it i'm doing it spontaneously i'm showing how much i love hashem no but when you're commander then you do it you're connecting your will to an infinite will to a clutch borrow because well and you're becoming infinitely greater than yourself so as great as anything you could do once you become connected to akash baruch it becomes infinitely greater same idea here once you're connected to client's room you become infinitely greater than anything that you could be by yourself it's not to say that you by yourself aren't important or incredible or great and you haven't accomplished a lot it's you want to become not only a yakhid but also part of its hebrew also part of a a kegel also part of claudius and that's the idea of tzedakah of becoming part of a shared self part of itself that's bigger than yourself and that's also the answer to why the rambam says someone who's poor ishmael at seabourn doesn't get any share of allah but i can't do shiva because you are not an individual you're a part of a bigger self you're part of christ so if you disconnect yourself from client stroll you don't exist it's like you can think of it almost like a projector what what you see on the screen comes from a projector if you take the film out there's nothing showing on the screen because it's no longer in the projector if you take yourself out of the root out of the scene it's not going to grow into the tree if you take yourself out of the genetics of the have the the blueprint of the genetic makeup you're not going to be expressed when the human being is fully grown it's the same idea there if you take yourself after the root out of clay israel's root and if you pour raise my saber you remove yourself from your root self can't do teshuva i mean unless you go back to yourself unless you reconnect the zebra because you don't exist within the root anymore and that's why you don't get aloha because but part of muhammad is existing as part of a cloud that's bringing ourselves there you exist as everything you create but you're also there as part of something bigger as classroom if you remove yourself from clients rule you're no longer there it's not a punishment it's a direct consequence you have your move you have removed yourself from reality you have removed yourself from your root now the way to do chuma is to reattach yourself to it to rejoin the zebra to make yourself part of quantity israel to make all of your individual greatness part of a bigger greatness something that's bigger than yourself but now we come to our big question what's a big question all of this sounds great all of this sounds great except there's one big problem what about rosh hashanah what makes rosh hashanah so powerful what is unique about rosh hashanah so let's build it like this so far we talked about individual chuva and we talked about this idea of true of going back to your route going back to client's role but there's one last step and the last step is going back to your ultimate route not only the root of yourself not on the root of your higher self your true self but the root of claisro we're going back to our ultimate route rosh hashanah is going back to what it's going back to hashem in rosh hashanah we go back to hashem himself during ello and and really this whole time we're trying to achieve our personal tissue we're trying to become our best selves we're working on ourselves teaching hamida's working on our characteristics and our character traits we're working on developing a sensitivity on on becoming a grower grow developing a growth mindset and we're also trying to become part of the seaboard we're devoting ourselves to the oneness of clients role to becoming part of clay's role really making our mission statement i want to be bigger than myself i want to devote myself to gly israel give all my co-hosts and talents the classroom but the last destination the ultimate step is i want to devote myself to hakarejba who i love hashem i want to connect to hashem i want my life to be about fulfilling my ultimate purpose which is connecting to my ultimate root hashem himself and connecting back to our ultimate route is what rosh hashanah is about it's ruining ourselves within reality saying i want to be rooted in connecting dash time and i want to be part of this story i want to fulfill my ultimate purpose which is about saying what's the rats in hashem and how do i how do i live that type of life and part of this is going back to the past couple shrimp that we've been giving is recognizing hashem as our ultimate root as our ultimate source as the malcolm of reality now you can think of hashem as having created the world but the ram khal and the maharal and they all mentioned the famous matrix that the world ullam the world is not hashem's the malcolm of the world what does that mean so we've mentioned many times that kashbach who didn't just create the world that he created the possibility of existence he created a place for existence and that before hashem created the world there was nothing but there wasn't actually nothing there was no thing when we say yes we're referring to what iron so it's the same as inf it's from iron from nothing but really means no thing from that which is beyond thing even beyond oneness it's the absolute root it's himself from that who made space we're not going to get we can't really go so much into what that means because that's what once again i even shared probably multiple share but who made space made the possibility for us to be able to exist we exist within hashem we are within hashem and explain not only are we within ourselves not physically but a very deep existential that we are within hashem but we are constantly being brought into existence we are constantly being created and think of almost like of the projector concept or like a flow of electricity a flow of will so most people think hashtag one time create the world so we are we're here so nav shahim says now in the physical world you take a building you take bricks and you build a building and stays there the way congress barco created is through will through willing us and thinking us into existence will is the root then thought is the expression and also british behold who constantly is creating the world what does that mean so the analogy that i've mentioned a couple times before is think about a person in your mind and give him a name give him a you know a face give him put clothes on him and give him a background give him a story give him personality and okay now he think about him now stop thinking about him he disappears he ceases to exist he only exists so long as you think him into existence as you will him into existence hakash brother who constantly wills the world into existence which means that right now hashem is willing and thinking about us because if he stopped willing us into existence we would cease to exist that's the deep idea between behind why in village and they would learn torah around the clock because as long as torah is being learned we're tapping into that root energy of his the stackable rhizobar alma that the torah is the root of the creative energy of existence that the physical world is an expression of the torah expression of spiritual root but without confusing anyone who doesn't understand that the basic idea is that kashmir who's willing us into existence right now hashem is thinking about you you only exist because hashem is thinking about you hashem is thinking you into existence which means that we are constantly being created we are constantly connected and we have to simply become more aware of it and hone into that but that's the the powerful idea that is the root of our existence he is the reason why we continue to exist and rosh hashanah is about tapping into that it's about tapping into kashbachu as our ultimate it's about saying i want to be connected to you i want to exist in reality meaning i want to be part of the story meaning that i know you're the root of my existence i know you're willing me into existence and i want to continue to be willed into existence because i want to be so tapped into the root of reality i want to be so tapped into a college berkeley so connected to so tapped into the cosmic unfolding of history the the story of this world i want so badly to be in the root of reality that i continue to be brought into existence this year that's really the ultimate feel of rosh hashanah we're not davening for teshuva we're not davening for hashem to forgive our sins we're just trying to recognize hashem as our ultimate root and tap ourselves into that connect ourselves to the root rosh hashanah isn't a hajj of whether hashem will forgive your sins as a question of whether you're are you rooted in reality are you connected to hashem a root are you do you want to be here and when i say to be here i don't mean like in the physical world i mean like in the physical world achieving a root spiritual mission how badly do you want to achieve greatness how badly do you want to fulfill something extraordinary for to be involved in the muhammad hashem to be involved in this extraordinary journey of achieving something for the ultimate purpose and that's what the restaurant feels about the marches the village explains is is recognizing it's recognizing that everything in the world exists because the college broker brings things into existence we are quran which means that we are recognizing hashem as our source the creative source and force of reality and everything that happens in this world stands for and it's reckoning which means hashem is the one who governs it's recognizing that anything that i want in this world needs to stem from hashem there's no other way for anything to happen hashem is the source of everything and zachronos means memory what's memory it's tracing something back to where it happened is tracing things back to their root and we talked about this in previous year but it's the same concept tracing ourselves back to our ultimate route what's our ultimate route well part of it is we're we're all part of clash royale shared itself and then what's the root of claire's fellow tracing yourself back show first what's chauffeur so chauffeur we we just gave a whole share and trophy which was a very very deep sheer but to briefly review children isn't meant to just wake you up that's part of it but it's meant to wake you up at an existential root level it's meant to wake up your inner yearnings to become your true self that's why chauffeur is a soundless cry it's beyond words it's at root the root of debor is sound it's cold it's cold chauffeur that's why the rambam says that a stolen chauffeur you can still fulfill the myths of chauffeur because it's all about the coal the physical vessel most things is still lula if you can't use it especially on the first day it has to be lachem and also mitsuba vera what's the what's the idea of a stolen chauffeur the entire essence of chauffeur is that it transcends the physical we're going back to the ultimate route of the existential route of sound which is coal that soundless cry that deep internal yearning to connect to our ultimate route and if you want to take a step further the shoe rush of chauffeur has the same choice as a couple other words number one the chaper which means to go back to the root and to perfect to repair to improve it it also has the same root as shapir which means something which is spiritually beautiful but also mei shafir which is the amniotic fluid which is going back to your fetal self where you are perfect in the womb chauffeur doesn't go about is about waking you up from your stupor and inspiring you to go back to your ultimate self to perform teshuva to go back to your fetal self of perfection which is really beautiful and in a deep way chauffeur is they're all really interconnected so really all of them are about going back to your ultimate self and clay israel's ultimate self and then our real ultimate self which is baruch but chauffeur is much more individual the chronos is much more about clay israel and malchios is obviously much more balkan our ultimate so now we can go back to our questions why is there no video in rosh hashanah why aren't we talking about teshuva and mahaprabhus because rosh hashanah is not about us rosh hashanah is about hashem russia is about ruling ourselves within reality recognizing hashem as our mouth recognizing hashem as our ultimate source the the actual hajj bone of aravonos and kapar that will come afterwards now i'll come by yom kippur but rosh hashanah is saying who are you and where are you rooted and the answer to that should be i am hashem and i'm rooting myself in reality connecting tashan which is the ultimate source of everything it's all about going to our hare root connecting back to our harry route saying i want to be part of reality i want to be part of hashem and it's the focus is i want to be part of hashem not i want to be part of asham but i want to be part of hashem the focus still needs to be on hashem and i mean the powerful truth is that what everything is interconnected so but isn't that yom did aren't you still going to be judged so there's also something unbelievable he says when we blow chauffeur we move from the kisei of dint why because what is show for you for recognizes is recognizing hashem as the ultimate source which means what um we can give a whole shira on dinner into pharas but the idea is like this akashbach will create the world with me desden why because part of the entire purpose of reality is for us to earn our ultimate perfection which is the ultimate connection with hashem which is the ultimate godliness becoming our you know actualizing ourselves becoming a creator becoming all wise and all kinds and all giving and becoming godly but in order to do that if you give it to us as a gift it would be embarrassing because no one gave him his his perfection so he allowed us to earn our perfection which is coming as close to to actually being like hashem as possible like obviously there's still going to be distinction but you are now as like as much like hashem as possible so as a creator and you create yourself who is a giver and you gave yourself takashima you devoted yourself to gospel wise and you earned your wisdom so you know it's it's uh we've given shiraman this is a very very deep idea but the principles like this the principle of din is ms it's that meet the connected media you get what you deserve so kharshvar who created the world of media connected to me just that we would get what we deserve now the concept of yom hadin is what do you deserve who are you also added which is the ability for for mercy now why because if you got exactly what you deserved then you know you wouldn't be able to handle it so this is a whole topic we're not going to delve too deeply into it but what's the idea here the idea is like this akash we are being judged but who created the rules of din who created the concept of din who is actually going to be the one to decide what happens to you is beyond den he's beyond the rules he created the rules so unbelievably he says that when we recognize hashem as the ultimate source when we recognize hashem when you recognize hashem as the source of then we are able to transcend him and that's how we're able to get a capanyam kipper because we are able to recognize haqqasba bahu as the one who is able to be mahapera aravanos because he doesn't have to obey the rules of them because he created them he transcends and that's really the idea of the you give me those of we're not going to delve too deeply into that because that's also a whole topic everything's a whole topic everything to really fully understand anything you need to fully understand everything and really every single idea every single concept requires a whole share but the idea as we've talked about several times is that whenever you give a sure you want to really delve into your specific topic and then use all of the other topics and concepts in torah to help unfold the topic at hand while recognizing that the trulian understands topic you then need to unfold all those other topics and then to understand all those other topics you need to understand the topic you're talking about but also a bunch of other topics it's an endless journey it's a sea of torah and the key is not to be overwhelmed with the fact that you'll never fully understand anything but to enjoy every step of the process as the ramban explains the russia says i'll never understand everything so what's the point and the tsadik says i'll never understand everything but i get to learn a little more today and it's an endless journey but i enjoy every step of the journey and i mean that is our journey and that is our journey and when we talk about the journey from ella to mkipper it's really a four-stage journey it's 40 days but it's a four-stage journey and the journey is l l is really more focused on i mean all of them contain all of them all of them are about individual clients from hashem but aloe's about going back to our individual route we're achieving teshuva which really choose itself as a paradox how can you change the past so the way you change the past is by changing who you are you you're not changing what happened you're changing who you are in some sense there's there's an aspect of you can change what happened but in a deeper sense and this is based on the gemara which we're not gonna dive into right now but you're not changing what happened you're changing your relationship with what happened you're removing yourself from it and you're becoming someone new and rosh hashanah is about going beyond teshuva right elo is about shuva becoming the best version of yourself working on yourself you know really regretting the past the things that went wrong really wanting to become remember recognize what happened regret it and commit to a better future roshan is going to be on to shiva we're going beyond our individual journey we're saying i just want to be connected with hashem it's about rooting yourself first of all rooting yourself in clash role but it's really rooting yourself with the ultimate root of reality which is like and we'll just delve into this for just a minute or two the real topic is is asking hashem saying first i'm recognizing hashem is my ultimate root but the next is i'm asking i'm asking him i just want a part to play in this for you like i want a part to play in this world i want to be rooted in reality i want i want to i want to have a seed planted for this next year i want to be here but not for me for you i know that rosh hashanah is where the scene for the next year is being created and i know that you know from my own for what i deserve i don't i don't know what i deserve but i know that you have an amazing story to tell i know kosovo has an amazing plan where we're revealing what we're bringing up we're revealing the ultimate truth we're revealing torah truth revealing you know the ultimate to the world i want a part to play in that that's what we're asking for we're saying i want to be part of this but for you hashem i i want a bigger tafka to fulfill and think of it like this hashem is writing this incredible story that's really what history is this is unfolding of uh one big revelation of akash baracho and remy says at the end of days every single part of all of history was ultimately revealing it was ultimately bringing the world towards towards his ultimate destination but in the meantime we have to bring it we can't just sit here and we have to be characters actors in this play we have to become part of the story you and i have parts to play in this story in rosh hashanah we ask hashem i want a part to play i'm signing up i'm auditioning like look how much i want it look how genuine i am look how much i really want it and yeah you might say like maybe i don't want it maybe i'm not being genuine no but that's what the shoe is recognizing that you do want it in the womb you were shown what you're supposed to accomplish and all fila is about tapping into that and saying i really i i want to tap into who i really am and when you dive into hashem you're saying like just help me become who i'm supposed to be help me fulfill my role help me play my part in the story and like rosh hashanah should be a time where we ask akashi for the biggest role we can possibly have we have to say i'm ready i'm ready for a big role you know let me become more like give me the call give me the ability give me the skills give me the assets give me the tools give me the resources and the resourcefulness to be able to become the person i want to become and that's that's our that's our topic rosh hashanah oh i'll just share like the the famous question around the rambam says that you either at sadhak or russia or benini and it brings someone who has you know 50 50. and he says that most people in the world are beating him i know most people in the world are 50 50. if you count your mitzvos count your virus most of the people in the world 50 50. now first of all you don't know how much they're amidst this value you know how much of you is valued what does that mean everyone's 50 50. almost everyone's a banananee everyone's somewhere you know like exactly in the middle 50 50. there's a beautiful idea which is that you are where you're rooted you are where you're rooted and this is actually part of the idea of why bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people you are where you're rooted you are who you really are and if someone's rooted in reality the rooted in truth the rooted in the rooted in hashem that person is is sounding that person is fulfilling their purpose and oh why do bad things happen to good people because their root is reality they have a couple there's some of heroes they have to get punishment for those of yours in this world so that but they get to exist only is who they really are and rashem are people who are rooted in evil rooted in deception rooted in wasting their life wasting their time corruption lying stealing those are people who that's their entire essence that's what they they've chosen to be and how they have how come such good things happen to them because maybe they have some good things that they've done but those good things ah but a mitzvah is infinite how can it be rewarded for something that's infinite in the physical world something fine because those mitzvahs weren't real they weren't doing the shame shaming forever hashem so they have some you know some miles some uh some zahusam so those are rewarded in this world but they're rooted in non-existence but most people most people in the world are baiting him they never decided who they're going to be sometimes they're feeling like it they do good things something without feeling good they do they mess up you know who knows what people's internet history is and who knows what people do behind closed doors and who knows what people really think about you or who knows what you really think about people who knows who knows anything but most people are here they're there they they're not focused they haven't rooted themselves and chosen who they're going to be in rosh hashanah is about choosing it's about saying i'm no longer going to be a banana i'm rooting myself in reality i'm choosing hashem i am choosing life i am choosing existence i am choosing purpose i am choosing a tough kid and i'm choosing to have hashem wheel me into a higher purpose and write me into the story i want to achieve more i want to be more i want to be at sadhak i want to be at santa can i like neither base it contagious and says that right before you were born you made an oath he made a nether that you'd be at santa what does that mean the ram says everyone could be it's says what does that mean you can't be like moshe revenue exotic means you fulfill your topic your purpose you made a nether to fulfill your purpose and you want to be in the book of life make that nether you're about to be recreated every year we're recreating rosh hashanah you're about to you have to take that and then do that i want to be a topic like mushroom you know be honest like what does that mean i want to fulfill my purpose i want to be exotic i want to be in the book of life i want to be rooted in reality i want to be connected to a college better who i want a higher meaning and purpose to my life it's something you know you look in the mirror you say i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired i want more and russia is about choosing it's about uprooting yourself from where you are and maybe for the first time in our lives saying i am really really choosing who i'm gonna be i'm not going to dabble i'm not going to try it i'm not going to make a big goal i'm committing i'm going all in and i'm going to focus and i'm going to make it a reality i'm going to create external about i'm going to create external accountability i'm going to tell people i'm going to have harusas i'm going to have partners i'm going to tell my spouse i'm going to uh make sure that whatever it is that i have to do i have to do and i'm not going to be inspired and let it fade away like always i'm going to make it a reality i'm going to achieve the impossible i'm going to be connected to the source of all possibility that which is beyond reality the source of reality and and that's really what rosh hashanah is about because after rosh hashanah after we recognize our malcolm and we recognize college broke as a source of reality we then come back down into serious mate teshuva where we ride those waves and we take advantage of that last stage of teshuva and yum kippur is once we are rooted in reality once we know that we are committed to achieving a higher purpose once we're in existence then hakaru wipes our slate clean then it's like the culmination and the climax of this process the last stage of the truth of the destructive process once we're rooted in reality we start the year with a clean slate a gospel who wipes away our passive on us which is unbelievable it's the biggest gift it's the biggest gift and this is really what we need to be thinking about how do we do it how do we make like one of the things that that is the most difficult for a speaker for a rebbe for a teacher is when people listen to torah as ideas torah torah is not just ideas you need we need to live your ideas and right now either pause this or commit to right after this year write down what you're going to do make this real this is not inspiration these are not fluff this is not something which is going to make you feel good and you can go into russia feeling all good commit make it that it's impossible for you not to do it whatever it is like we never never never go back to the way things were take a step forward make sure that the date is the first day of the rest of your life and that's the essence of what rosh hashanah is rosh hashanah is the decision to be great the decision to be part of reality think about it famous tells us was the world's created in rosh hashanah or pesach was it in tishrei or nissan it's really was the el or utter because the 25th of 25th of other but was hume was humanity which is the first potential humans were created on the sixth day of creation was humanity created on a tishrei or a nissan one opinion says history the other sisters so toso says what's going on do we passing like one it seems like we pascan like uh the one in nissan so what's rosh hashanah so he answers unbelievable he says who decided to create the world on rosh hashanah decided but he actually created the world at least humanity but what are we why do we celebrate rosh hashanah then because that's the most important stage of creation the decision if you want to really tap into rosh hashanah you need to tap into the power of ruts and the power of will the power of deciding decide who you're going to be decide you're going to be connected with hashem decide to root yourself in reality decide to just say i want to be part of the story hashem but then decide how incredible your year is going to be make goals but make concrete goals make a concrete plan the way i think of it is create your what would be your ultimate life the next 50 years of your life okay how is this year going to head you in that direction what's what's the ultimate version of this year to head you towards the ultimate version of you now what's the ultimate version of this month to head you towards this ultimate year what's the ultimate version of this week to add you towards that ultimate month what's the ultimate version of today to add you towards the ultimate week and now break down today into finite goals orient your life orient yourself create actual goals achievable goals break them down into smaller goals make your life a real journey a real incredible story of growth a real incredible story of contribution of meaning and purpose because that's what rosh hashanah is about it's about deciding making the decision recognizing willpower the the gemara actually the marine conduction it says that if someone says i'll marry you on the condition that ahmad sadiq we have to be there's relevance to that claim and we have to actually be that maybe that was a good condition so the kumar says even if we even if we know he wasn't that sondik why becamar says unbelievable it says because maybe he had hihuaychuva maybe he had the initial thoughts and maybe he at that moment he did shiva what does that mean the decision of who you want to be is real who you decide to be is who you are as long as it's genuine as long as it's real i mean the gemara it's really it's really missionary then but it talks about that you have two thousand almost if you're outside of a city if you're outside and james you have two thousand ammos that you can walk now what if someone's it's arab shabbos is about to be shabbos and a person is far from where they want to be they can point and say i want to be there and their two thousand almas will start from where they want to be why because halacha recognizes you as where you want to be it's the decision it's willpower it's deciding who you want to be who are you going to be that is the essential question that's why the rambam puts the halachus of free will in hilheshuva the essential component of teshuva is free will is willpower it's the ability to choose to change where you are to change the point of existence from where you are to where you want to be and that's the essence of rosh hashanah it's deciding it's using will using ruts and using willpower to choose who you are who you want to be rooting yourself with and number one your higher self number two your higher collective self clay so number the ultimate root of old self and that's our avodah so let's really think about how we can become our ultimate selves how we can be connected and committed ourselves to clients so be part of a bigger self and how we can really connect yourself to the ultimate right zone the rest of the video to know making our attention connecting ourselves and living the ultimate lives of truth so my brother to all of us is that we are rooted in the book of life that we commit and connect ourselves to hashem that we anointed that we fall in love with ourselves we fall in love with christ where we fall in love with hashem and we embark on this incredible journey we take ourselves we put ourselves out of abandoning and root ourselves into reality we start coming ourselves take that neither to be at santa commit to live that life of truth and really ask khaka for a bigger part in this grand cosmic story you