Rabbi Dovid Goldwasser | New Year, New You | CHAZAQ

Okay, good evening. Welcome everyone to tonight's very special shar being presented by of course the kila kila ordashm [Music] organized many programs um not in this building but a few hundred feet away right across the street and it's a beautiful kila and the the kil continue to grow in not not only physically in in maybe height but also in the amount of people and toraim um and from and of course the the the sh is nish Abraham Bena aliyah. Amen. And as well as should have a complete amin. And of course we have this very very special um uh Ra which we're gonna hear from momentarily. Ra go who I think spoke here around approximately one year ago and who gave such amazing inspiration and really left such an impact that Hashem the Rav is back again. We appreciate it. And um I think to introduce the RV and and and and and the topic tonight we're talking about um a a new year, a new you. Um so something interesting that that I heard about from from this week's para it talks about and we're going to be reading it tomorrow in the morning is it says that the person is we're standing here today. It says that it says the heads as well as the the the head the theatim the the leaders like of of the the tribes. It says the heads and it says the tribes. So there's a famous question that Rab Moshe Finstein he says that you would think it should say the heads of the tribes. Why does it say two different terminologies? Why does it say the heads and the tribes? So he said that that often a person thinks okay fine in order to make an an impact in order to to be a leader then you have to have a certain title maybe you have to be a rabbi you have to have a certain title in the in the in the community in the shul in an organization but what what what is it saying that the the week's para is talking about is that in in order to be a leader you just have to be part of the Jewish people every single person can make a difference in um in in the in their own life, in their famil family's lives, and in the in the world at large. And I heard something interesting did said he said that that if you have you ever heard of some of of a person's name community, you see always see when someone says, "Okay, fine. This is it is an issue in the in the community." So what happens? People say, "Oh, the community will take care of it." Who's the community? Each one of us in the each each person is considered um a person who can do something for for for the community. And for hashem that we're we're here taking um talking about um preparing for the new year and I think each one of us whe whether we have a position in the sh in the community or whatever or not everyone should go over to the to the heads of the of the shu to the rabbi of and say I want to get more involved in in in the sh and projects and of course there'll be a big big mar for you and your family and and um a rabbi who who is doing so much for the community in New York, all over the America, all over the world is um Harav Davagas. Everyone please rise. Vote Haravas. >> Thank you. >> Thank you. Thank you. Shalom. Shalom. Thank you. to be here this evening. It's a very exciting idea. First the in the days that we have that can change the entire life for all of us for better bra for better for great success for all good health and bisuro tovote and a lot of lot of great things is right now uh on this day I want to first of all thank Kazak an organization that is very very close to my heart they are so special. I've seen what they've done all over. They do not stop to spread the shamayim, the glory of hashem in particular rabbis. I was afraid if he was going to give adv more I was going to get a little nervous is he's good har and he should continue to spread the Torah all over organizing and also teaching as well tonight abid her his should have anime should be Megan for the entire family. Me for all good things this year >> higher and higher also for Dvor Bakalma. She should quickly come back have all of her and live the >> and for should be big this year in every area of life should help you long healthy good years. Uh we're starting now in uh interesting we have the uh ot or the letters of lul el alf lamemed v lamemed. So it's a beautiful uh little acronym and that is as everybody knows arishag ar a lion that roars who does not get nervous. You hear a lion you don't expect it. You're you know out on this street over here. You're leaving this evening at the end of the couple hours here right? You're leaving that roar. You hear a lion that roars. You can't believe it. A lion escape from someplace. Milo, who wouldn't get nervous? Everybody would get nervous. Everyone would be upset. No matter when something happens that's an extra loud noise, you get nervous. You want to know what's the source of noise. But the puk says when a lion roars, we all get nervous. So how come we didn't get nervous? I didn't get nervous. I mean it's a time of great uh what shall I tell you? Great things are happening up in Shamayim. We change our whole lives change every day. Every day we say to Hashem that we are sorry that we want to become better and that is each day our main goal. The reason is is because the more that we prepare right now for the el for the yhadin for the days of judgment the more I come in on shan I say this is what I want give me this au good health a in school my family should be together auo I say it all it's all based on the el right Now this beautiful shul with his great rav planned to have a evening on touva. This is exactly the avoda what we are supposed to do right now. Everybody is involved in some way with chuva each and every day. In the perote it says merit that the heavenly voice comes out and cries and says everybody think about the Torah. Think about the obligation that we have to learn to do mitzvot to be good to our fellow man to be kind to be nice. Every day the bat call there is a voice that comes out in the world and it speaks to each one of us. Now a person could say today I didn't hear the voice maybe I didn't hear it yesterday either that voice that came from shime eli but what do we know? We do know 1,000% that shama inside of us begins to hear it. A man calls me from Manhattan. He's got a huge company. Huge company. He says, "Rebi, I know about you and I have somebody. There's a young woman here from Israel. She's one of my employees and she came to me with a problem that I don't know anything about. Could you help me?" I said, "I'll try." And he began to explain to me what the problem was. She came completely secular background. Nothing. Nothing at all. Not Kipur, not Rash, not Pesak, nothing. Not nothing. Her family, they should all come close to to Hashem and to toua. But that's what she was brought up. She came, he realized that she's from Israel. She must be Jewish, but not beyond that. He gave to her a job. She comes in and she says, "I have a problem. My problem is I began to toss and turn at night. I have I have dreams that are bothering me. And he began to say, I don't know about dreams. Dreams are a different subject. They are very important. However, I want to send you to a rabbi who will help. Okay. They make an appointment. She comes to Brooklyn. She comes into the study. She sits there. She said, "I never ever in my life thought about anything to do with Judaism. Nothing. It wasn't a thing. Nothing." But I start to have dreams and the dreams are bothering me. I wake up bothered, shaking. What are the dreams? What is a person? What is our job here? What are we here for? What should we be doing? And just bothering her. She never thought about in her life. What's her job? Her job is to get money, to have vacations, to do all the things, everything, to go get the the what do you call it? The nails done. But tough kid, purpose, what we're supposed to do. She never thought about it. As the time goes on, she's having the dreams. She's afraid to go to sleep because the dream keeps coming back. So she asked, "What do I do? What is the explanation? How do I get help on it?" I told her, "Your nisha is waking up. Your shama finally has started to become inspired by something. Maybe the people that you work with, they're religious. Maybe it's waking something up inside. But you are now going to be on fire. You're going to want to know more and more about it. You must go. You must go to seminary. You must go to a school. Take classes. Take sharim. You got to start to learn. She saidim me. I don't I I eat. She told me like this. I eat kazair. I said I don't believe you. I don't believe. She said no rebi. I'm telling you, I wouldn't lie to you. I might eat, but I wouldn't lie to the rabbi. I You're a good girl. You got to go to learn. That's the only way. The Torah is our connection. A person could do a lot of mitzvot, but the Torah is what keeps us strong. The Torah keeps us connected. Tonight, we're learning Torah. We got a lot to accomplish. That is our whole connection. all the mitzvah great but the Torah is the basis of our whole life. [Music] So I told her to go she went to school believe it or not a grown woman young woman starts going to seminary starts learning all the she progresses very quickly. Hashem gave her a good head. Anyhow, she became little by little religious. The funniest thing, I shouldn't tell you this, but I got to tell you, she was very popular, very popular young woman before she became religious. They liked her. Let me just leave it like that. One day there's a car service, a lot car service. They have a lot of Israeli drivers. So, a guy comes, he knocks on the door. I said, "Ken," he said, "Uh, can I ask you where is there a coal?" The guy comes, no yamoka, no kipah. He's there amazing like did not look at all religious and he begins to ask me. He begins to ask me, "Where is there a coal?" So I said, "Well, Rabbi Lankree has a coal on the next street over on East 8. You can go over there off of King's Highway." And he says, "Thank you. Thank you, Reb." I said, "Can I see a question? You want to go to the coal? You want to learn?" He says, "Yes." I said, "That's wonderful." He said, "Verrett said she will only go out with somebody who learns in the co." This young woman now will only go out with somebody who's learning. So, he wants to go to learnishma. You can go for whatever reason you want is the end will be that you'll go for the right reason. That is a person that was stirred up during this time. What is it during the Mayel that an individual should be inspired should wake up. So not everybody is nervous. The lion is roaring but not everybody hears it. Why? Why isn't a person afraid? Because there is a difference. If you go to the zoo, I don't know if is there a zoo in Queens? >> There is a zoo. >> What do they call it? >> Where zoo? >> Queens zoo. Good. Okay. >> Bron zoo. >> The brunt. Don't worry. In the Brooklyn, we got enough zoos. We got You don't got to worry. I don't got to come over here. Okay. Anyhow, so uh when you're going in the zoo, you can be very strong. You're going to be a strong man, a strong woman. There could be a lion in the cage. There could be a bear. And you can go right up to the cage and you can even make a face at the animal or you could make like you're going to throw something at him. You're not afraid at all. What is the reason? There is a wall. There's a gate. They got the bars. The lion can't come out. I could do it. I could tell the lie anything I want. I ain't afraid. That is the reason that a person does not feel the why they don't feel the fear because during the year I allowed that there should be some distance between myself and bore between Hashem. There is a little bit of a distance I made the wall and because of that I'm not afraid. Should I be more careful in this or that? Should I be more honest? Yes. Should I be nicer to my friend even though they weren't so nice to me? Yes. But I built that and I don't feel it because I'm not afraid of the lion. The lion's behind the wall. What happens? El the makita comes down. The wall that I built up comes down. I begin to think. I begin to get a little bit nervous. I begin to shake. I begin to remember. What's my purpose here in this world? What am I supposed to be doing? What kind of mitzvot do I need to do in particular? What am I supposed to do to help out the community? What is my tapid? Not just myself that I go in my family and I take care of the house and I do all the things I need to do. What is beyond that? Why did Hashem put me into this world? That is alul is when all the walls come down and we begin to see which direction we should take to be to be strong. I got to be a little stronger in the Do we realize what the is? Fascinating. Fascinating. Senu told Abra what's she want? Anybody? What's she waiting for? >> Good baby. Excellent. So she got angry at Abraham Au. Take out the kumsh. You go home late tonight. You want to do something before you go to sleep? Open up the kumash. And what did Sarenu say to Abrau? Abrainu, you're not nice to me. She accused Abrau. Abrainu, you were not good to me. You were harsh to me. Why? Because you did not pray that I should have >> baby zel. You didn't pray. The great mash of Lakewood phenomenal asked a question. Why Abraino has to pray for Sarah Emanu? Rashia Kadosh tells us Sarah Emanu did not have the capabilities to have a child. She didn't have was impossible. She couldn't do it. Could I pray that somebody shalom that doesn't have a voice? Can I pray that they should be a great Kazan? Could I pray that they could be a great singer? No, they don't could do other things but not that. So why did Simeu get angry at Abraham Au that he did not pray for her that she should have a baby? That's all she wanted. That's all she wanted. Very fascinating. We would think that he would have the right, but we learn in this safer that there is no right. We learn that exactly the opposite. There is nothing that is impossible in this world. No matter what they tell you is impossible, that is not impossible. No matter what the no matter what a scientist, no matter what any secularist would say to a person, impossible. It will happen. It is possible. It was possible for Sahu to have a baby. It did not matter. It was entirely possible. So therefore Sah was angry was upset with Abrainu you didn't mimit pel for me you didn't pray for me every single thing it is possible even that which we think is impossible that is also possible I want you to know in the area of braot a lot of times a person gives up they think it's not going to happen I know already it won't happen and In fact, the family I was brought up with are a little bit negative and so it's not going to happen. So sorry. Do you know that a person should never ever say the word never? It could happen. A person who prays with their Shabbah can change things in this world. The prayer that each and every one of us has is earthshaking. Every prayer that you say, the smallest little prayer, you get up in the morning, you say the little even that has a tremendous ability to change this world. We don't realize it. We think what do we do? Do you know that Hashem created us only that we should be able to come here and pray? That we can say amen to each other's that we can say. We can say hashem created us only to do that and we think what am I I'm gold vaser what's my whoever babacov what what's my prayer what's the going to do what what I little do we know that our prayer is so huge it's unbelievable there was a family it's we got to make shidim we got to make shidim it's Number one, I want you to know anyone can make a I made a few and I can tell you I didn't know what I was doing. I'm telling you, I even messed up on one, but at the end it went okay. Anybody could do it. I tell you about it later if we have time. But it's it's unbelievable to make shidim. It's unreal. There was a family that was waiting waiting and waiting for their daughter to become a kala. Ooh, unbelievable. After years, she became a kala. Beautiful. Everybody singing and dancing, the whole community, everybody knew about it. It was unbelievable. You know, uh, it says in the le when you're making a sim, there's always a little something that's going to come in somewhere along the road. It was the night of the engagement party, theim the vort. The parents of the kala were preparing. They're getting the dress and dressed and everything, getting everything ready. They get a call. Something went on. The engagement is canled. It's off. Can you imagine? They're opening the door to go to the engagement. Finished. It's off the bear. They tried to talk. Why? What? How? What? It's finished. Parents began to cry. They cried a long time. Can we understand the s of another Jew? >> Difficult. Sorry. >> Scout's honor. >> True. is something that imagine a person on the height of their life at the time of their great sim and such a thing happens. Okay. They cried. The gates of tears are never never closed. When a person cries and they have a good cry, they think it's nothing. But that tear was created that a person will be able to be po that we can work that we can achieve with a dim one tier. We don't even realize what that can power in the world. There are no tears that go to waste. None. Every tier, Hashem collects, put in a special treasure and uses that tear when it is necessary. And in fact, there are tears that are used even that a person cries. It says in the future that Hashem will wipe out all the tears from all the faces. But the malim says only the tears of sadness, the tears of joy will continue to flow from a person's eyes. Tears are very important. Don't ever think that it's over. Never ever think that it's over. Cry. You cannot know what will come of your tears. I could tell you a personal story, but later they cried. The parents cried. We're standing at the height of our life. We have our daughter. She's finally a kala and now it's gone. What a shame. What an embarrassment in the community. All of a sudden after they cried a good amount of time and in fact they realized that now is already the time that the engagement would have gone on. The husband had an idea. He says to his wife, Miriam, this is not the road. Everything that goes on in this world is from Shay. I may think that I did the wrong thing and it could be the right thing. I may think that I was supposed to go. I missed the bus. I missed the investment. I didn't go to the meeting. Somebody double crossed me. Oh. The heavens are destroyed. Shalom. Didn't happen. Every single thing that we do is from Shay. We say in the morning. Hashem establishes our every step. Every step that we do. And I'll tell you in a moment something that incredible. So what happens? So the guy says, "We're not going the right way to his wife. Instead of crying and being so upset over what happened, let's take it the other way. Let's start to thank Hashem for all the good things that we have." To thank Hashem for all the things. What does a person have to thank Hashem for to begin with? for us for living for another day of life another day of mitzvot another day of Torah another day that we're here second I can seem I can hear I can hear I can hear third I can walk we walked here today that we walked here today to thank Hashem for our legs for our feet that have clothing not only one set of clothing but other set of clothing I once was in Poland I need a pair of shoes. My shoes wore out. I was there for a few weeks. I went to the main department store at that time in Poland. Main department store. And I said to him, I need to have a pair of shoes. Can you give me a shoes? The guy brought out a pair of shoes. I'm tell don't tell anybody. I'm an 11 and a half. He brought me out a pair of shoes. A six go. Right. He brings. So I said to him, uh, my friend, this is 11 and a half. This is six. He said, "No, it shoes." But I said, "But it's not but it shoes." Then I realized to have a pair of shoes is not so simple. I never forget it. I never forget that we take for granted. I got this shoes for now. I got the sneakers for then. But then when it's fancy sneakers, I got the other kind of sneakers. But for running, I got now another pair. Every guy has like a 20 pair, you know, whatever. What is it? I have to thank Hashem for each one. I have to thank Hashem for all the good. You have a food on the Shabbat everybody has in kush and you have everything that you need. You have to thank Hashem. There's good air conditioning, beautiful sh you come in. I was just admiring some of this that you have to pray from in there. It's unbelievable. I feel like coming myself one time and just praying together with everybody in the show is unreal. I don't know if you'll let me in, but if you will, I want to come. It's a beautiful place. Thank Hashem. You gave us such a beautiful bait midrash. So, they began to thank Hashem for everything. And they were crying when they're thanking Hashem for everything because they begin to think back in life. I thank Hashem. I got a lot to thank Hashem for. A real lot. Believe me, everybody we're living today. You wake up in the morning, you thank that I'm able to walk as though you thank Hashem. As they're thanking Hashem, they get a call on the telephone. Call a telephone from the Shhatan. The shan the matchmaker said, "I want you to know the other side is extremely upset that I want to apologize." The couple said, "No, no, it's okay. We don't want to hear. It's okay. We accepted it. Everything is good. Everything >> Everything is good. We've accepted it. Don't worry about He said, "No, no, but they're very, very sorry. something happened and they had a reaction to it. They don't know how to tell you this, but they would like that uh engagement come back together again. They want that the couple should be engaged. The initial reaction from a person that does not have amuna, the initial reaction of a person that feels that they want to take nikama vengeance. The initial reaction is I'll show you is fine but we are no longer interested good luck and good life or good riddens or whatever you say. No, happy is the person that believes that believes that everything is mama they said whatever happened we are not going to ask why and how and what happened and where we're not going to ask we will continue with the next day there was a beautiful art there was a beautiful engagement and everything went on a person can never tell what happens at what time it is our job to be met pal I'm going to if you remind me in a minute I will tell you you can never tell where you're going and why you have to go in that way there is a uh unbelievable unbelievable piece that we read in kazal bear with me for a Second is so great. We get closer to theina. We get closer to Hashem and we don't even realize it how close we are. I can think uh you know I'm not that close to Hashem. I'm not that you know spiritual. Everybody is close to Hashem. Everybody has a kher a kesher that nobody else has. Hashem, it says, waits for each and every one of us tonight. Everybody that was supposed to come here to the sh the beautiful crowd, I want you to know Hashem had the guest list and Hashem is waiting for each and every one of us to come and then gets tremendous from it. Just like if you're making a sim everybody, everybody and you have the list, well, where is this person? Where is that person? And on the way in this evening, somebody called me up and asked me where I'm at. I couldn't go. I have to come to Kazak. But uh it's an interesting thing. You have it. Hashem knows everybody and where they're at. And what does it say? Yesterday the person was hated in front of Hashem. They did the wrong thing. They made they desecrated Hashem's name. Can you imagine a person that does that? They go in public and they make and people say, "Oh, that's what a Jew does. That's a religious Jew. That's what they do. Keep me far away." Right? Yesterday the person did something wrong. Yesterday the person stole. Yesterday the person Shabbat Yesterday the person went, they ate. Yesterday the person went and they weren't nice to a a widow to a to an orphan yesterday. However, listen what Rambam says. However, the person was they were abomination far despised in front of Hashem. Today the person did they stood up by the or they stood in the women's section goal. They said, they said, "Bring me close. I'm far away. I want to do tisha. I want to be close to you. I want Hashem says you asked to do tishua." So today, listen to this. Who? He's not despised. He's not an abomination. Beloved, precious. Listen. Hashem says you're precious. When's the last time somebody told you you're precious? I don't know. But anyhow, Hashem says you're precious. It's on the highest level. You're a relative of Hashem. A relative of Hashem. People always say you're a relative. I was walking down King's Highway in Brooklyn one time and a guy told me he's my relative. I know most of my relatives. He says, "Not only that, but I can tell you I was the one who gave you your name." That I knew the guy was way off, but a lot of people want to be a relative like that. Yeah, we're connected. We're whatever. There was a guy, same name. I won't tell you the state he lived in. So, he called his son the same name as my first name. Can you imagine? At least he could pay me. But anyhow, he called me to say he called. So he brought over a he said, "I want you to meet him." He says, "Do you know the media coverage we get because his name is the same name as yours." So everybody always talks about it like it's a a piece to to speak about. Anyhow, let me get back to the point. You did close to Hashem, a relative. And you did friend of Hashem. Friend of Hashem more than that. Yesterday the person was crying out and would not be answered. They would do a mitzvah and the mitzvah would disappear because it was eaten up. And today the person is one with the he cries out, she cries out, Hashem listens and saves the person. And Hashem accepts every single mitzvah that the person did. And that doesn't matter what a person did. I just want to I got to bear with me for one more minute. I got to tell you. The great the greatest of the great says the following. Listen to this. A person should know that a never to despair, never to give up. Whether it's a body or a uh spiritual or physical thing even though the person sunk down to wherever they sunk down to didn't matter the person went and served idols went over to India and began to serve the gods over there they became a career criminal or shalom whatever they did and did an a in something that Say that chuva will not help. The guy can repent for the rest of his life. Don't matter. Or the chuva is very difficult to repent. The guy's like in quicksand. I can't get out of this. I got a life of a I'm doing this. I'm doing that. I can't get out. How I am is how I am. I'm angry. I'm upset. I blow up. I'm a bgya. I'm arrogant. I'm any of that. I'll never change. That's just the way I am. That's how I'm wired. No, sir. A person should never lose their hope. Never. There is never something called giving up by a Jew. Hashem can help in any. This is the Jew never to give up because Hashem can help us no matter what. No matter which things we've done, Hashem can help us in any area of life. Never never to give up. I've had some people that have been pretty pretty bad off and they have been able to come back. I will tell you uh you never can tell where you're sent for what reason that you're sent and where you're at. You can never tell if you somebody puts you in a place and you don't know why you're there. You can never tell why you're there. In Eritz is there was a collo a regular man in the colo very sincere the real deal dedicated man he comes home after a whole day of learning he learns until 7:30 he comes home 8:00 Ben 8:00 he comes home he can spend a little time with the children before they have to go to sleep eat a little suda with his wife and he's happy. He got the blessed life. He's learning all day. Beautiful Torah to that's his whole work. That's his whole life. He comes home one time all of a sudden knock on a door. He just came home. He closed the door. 7:30 Mishtar the police two police they say to him Moshe Moshe go he says yes he says you're under arrest the colo man you're under arrest they take handcuffs they put handcuff on him a ko guy he just finished learning the Torah Ah, he just finished Tammud. He just finished a whole day of Mousar and praying. And they put her handcuffs on him. He said, "What's going on?" "No, we have we got the warrant for your arrest. We're arresting you." His wife begins to scream, "What are you doing? How are you doing? The kids are upset." She said, "The kids, they shouldn't come down and see it." But why? This is our orders. You can come quietly and nicely or we can drag you away. They didn't have any great love for him. A lot of the police are wonderful in Israel. A lot of the police are sadikim. This happened to be one guy was not such a great big sadik. He said we can take you away. Quiet. We can take you away. No. Let him away. They begin to lead him away in the handcuffs. Terrible. I don't know if the neighbors saw it or not. They put him in. They put him in the prison. It's night time. They put him in with criminals in the holding cell. Other criminals are standing there and they have this Carlo guy. He's there for a while. They told him his case is going to be tried in the morning. The judge will first hear him in the morning. He's got to stay the whole night. The whole night. What kind of a place is it for him to stay at night? Terrible. Yadik was in the betaim. He stayed in the prison. And the say for Yseph Sadik for his level that he had to be in the Egyptian prison. There wasn't a worse oish than that. Not a worse punishment. Yose sadik should have to stay in the prison. So this colo, he's in the prison. There's another guy and I guess it's boring. I don't know. Hope I never have the uh the opportunity. I guess it's boring to be in the prison. So one prisoner talks the other prisoner. So he sees this religious man standing, you know, dress with the he's got still his hat on and and the guy wants to talk to him. So he goes over, what do you say to him? What what do you say to the guy? You know, how do you So there's one question that they ask in prison. I hope no one should ever know this, but I know this. Okay. What they ask for? Tell me the question they ask in prison. Anybody? Who's what' you do? What' you do? So he said, "I didn't do anything." They asked the color, "I didn't do it. I'm innocent. I didn't do nothing." Oh, they start looking at him. He said, "I came home from learning in Cole and they put me in handcuffs and they brought me in." The kilo guy said to him, "What did you do? What did you do?" He said, "Well, uh, I hit my kala." Hit his kala. It's not a good thing to do. You know, there are other ways to deal with it. The caller said, "You hit your kala." He says, "Yes, twice. I hit my kala." Story gets better. He's hitting twice, right? The klel guy is about ready to faint. This guy's hitting his kala. This is where he's spending his night, you know, mishar in the in the prison. And he says, "Yes, I hit her twice." The kaga says, "Lama, why would you hit somebody, especially a kala, a woman, a girl, why would you hit her twice?" He said, "I had a very, very good reason." Why? because she was hitting her little boy. Her little boy. And I couldn't take it. I love him with my heart and soul. I love that little boy. And she and I kept telling her, "Stop. Stop. Stop." I couldn't control myself. Finally, I said, "Go away." And I did. I gave a smack because I cared about the little boy. The kylo says, "Who is this little boy?" He says, "Well, you have to understand my brother." He said, "I love a shalom. My brother died. He was married to this woman and they had this little boy." The little boy was heartbroken. His father wasn't here in the world anymore. However, I look like my brother. I have the same facial. I have the same mahalak. And the little boy loves me and I love him. And we are very close. I take him everywhere. I take him to the game. I take him to the school. I do whatever a father would do. I love him very much. And in fact, I am going to marry his mother because I love him so much. So I can always be the boy's father. The colo man said, "Wait a minute." That is your brother's his widow. Yes. Assur is forbidden. A you cannot marry it is impossible to marry a brother's wife. No. The other man said ye booms a mitzvah that you go and you marry the No, no, no, no, no, no, no. The ko said only a mitzvah if there are not any >> children. If there is a child assur meteorit it is forbidden. No way. The guy, the guy who hit the kala begins to get upset. You don't know halaka. You learning all day in the coal. You don't know. And he said, I promise you I do know. They said, "No, ye boom, ye boom, you got the biggest mitzvah in the world. I'm marrying her and it's going to be unbelievable." And he says, "As they're arguing and arguing, arguing." Finally, the guy tells the colo guy, you know, I wish I would have never met you. They shouldn't have brought you here, man. That was a mistake. You are right because all you're doing here is giving me sar. I'm trying to do the biggest mitzvah in the world and you come and give me problems. I don't need problems in the prison. I got enough problems with the te with the with the file already. Okay. arguing back and forth, yelling at the top of their lungs. If you yell, if you care about something, he cared about this guy. He's yelling the guy, he cared about, he doesn't want something to go. If you care, you're going to say something. I cried when I saw somebody out in the street and they weren't keeping the mitzvah. I cried on Shabbat. I cried when I saw people going in different places. I cried. This ka guy couldn't keep it. He had to yell. He wanted to stop it. All the other prisoners there, they're like, "Oh, this is a good show tonight." They're all watching it back and forth and listening. It's unreal. All of a sudden, all of a sudden, it was about 4:00 a.m. 4:00 a.m. The man who hit the kala put his hands up and said, "Saddak, you are right." He bent his head and he said, "I didn't want to believe you, but I see you are true and you are saying what the Torah says to me. I will not marry her. I will listen to you." At that second, all of a sudden, the guard comes, opens up the door, tells the coll, "We do not know how to apologize to you. >> We made a error. There is a person with your same name and even similar height and weight that we were supposed to get. I want to apologize. We don't know how we could ever make it up to you. You are free to go. The ko guy quoted a that we learned the said and you meant it bad. But Hashem had only the best in mind when we were sent. So you see it happens that when a person does not realize that Hashem is in charge of our every moment of our every action, Hashem will make sure that we are in the right place. Hashem will make sure that we have the right opportunities. But we need to have constant amuna. We need belief in Hashem. And then it comes to and we pray. We say the and we know that Hashem listens to every a person can walk away. I prayed and now Hashem will answer. A person needs to have great amun big faith in Hashem to know that the opportunity is now for all of us to do tisha. Doesn't matter what a person did. It really doesn't matter. Anything like we learned here in this anybody can do anything and they can have complete inap. I can tell you some people that did some big a came in and I tell you they were able to straighten themselves out. They were able to do tishuva. They were able to become sadikimot. I had one time a young woman came in. It was a horrible thing and she told me she went off, she did this, she did that. I happened to ask her, "Where did you go to school?" I needed to start somewhere. It's a young woman. She said, "Uh, I went to the Bethyakov." I said, "Oh, a betakov girl." No, no, I'm not a betakov girl. I went to the You told me you went to B. I'm arguing with her for 10 minutes. I She's not a beta. You went to bed. You went to bed. Going back and forth. Anyhow, she was more upset about that than anything. Anyhow, I said the fact that you came in means you want to do tishuva. Hashem opens the door for anybody that wants to do tishuva. Opens the door wide. The door is open for you. I don't know who told you you should come here, but I can tell you one thing. you're going to do tisha. She thanked me. She asked me one, one piece of advice and I gave it to her. I tell you the truth, I always wondered what happened to her. I wondered, did she do the tusha? Did she change her ways? Did she go back to her earlier life in the beyakov or not? One day I got a card in the mail. the card in the mail. She wished to tell me her progress, that everything went well and that things are good. And she signed it at the bottom. A girl from Betyako. Each of us has the power during this time to reach higher. Each of us has the power of tisha. When you say in the morning the braot you ask Hashem that every step every step you realize is guided by Hashem and every step that we take should bring us one step closer to the everybody a good strong year lot of lot of all good things And this year we should sing. Amen. Thank you. Thank you. We also want to give a special um shout out and thank you to David of so much of course for tonight. his effort tonight as well as all he does of course is a big switch for the Leah Benadish.