PURIM: Unmasking Reality | Rabbi Revah, Rabbi Nissan, Rabbi Steinmetz | CHAZAQ

[Music] all right or um so I wanted to talk about P what we are celebrating you see we know we're in now such such a happy happy day what's all theim about you know um with all this anti-Semitism going around in the world there was a video that was taken off of uh YouTube somewhere that was that that showed a migil laning in a Yesa I won't say which one and it had in the middle of the Mig laning when H was finally hanged it had one of the rabim get up to the beo get go onto the go onto the not to the be to the or in front of the or and hang H they had a they had a Gallows over there and they hanged h on and the video stops and says what are these crazy Jews doing and pointed to the and then it had one of the people everybody was cheering and one of them had a cap gun and was shooting at the hmer man and the the guy pointed out gun and um suddenly two of the RAB of the of the Yesa go up to the front and they started to to dance and do the kazka and these are and overnight it got I think 2 and a half million views besides being reposted everywhere and the comments were of course horrible comments because that's what's going on nowadays and uh what's very interesting is that uh so I happen to know which Yeshiva this was at I'm very familiar with the Yeshiva I won't say just in case but I happen to know which this this recording came from I'm very familiar with the and um just in case I would be questioned about that video because I do have I had to think of something like what happens if you know the big what happens if this goes beyond two and a half million people what happens if this goes really viral and one of the news stations calls up and says can you just explain I I I don't even have words to ask what are you guys doing like we know you we know but I'm saying can you explain what's going on over here this is does not look like a doctored video at all so just just explain so I'm coming I'm going to say you know what a long time ago 2,000 years ago we had uh a very an enemy of CLA trell and um we won that enemy like okay that doesn't explain it I mean do you guys have a special day that Hitler committed suicide on and like we have that day and we're all dancing well what exactly is the REO of sim it's very hard to explain to RAB I'm doing the kazka on the Ain so the explanation is that we came up with is Sir you got to sit down I have to explain we got to start got to start from scratch in fact Aral says that purm is the holiest day of the year it's famous already that is Yumer is a day that is like Pur and brings down from desler that yum was a day of that we serve with and and Pur is a day that we serve with Sim with and AA is a greater Madre he brings down from the go there brings down from the as well that is a day that we got we got the we got the because we had 40 days of CHA and 40 days of we were finally and it was such a that from then on it was it was the to have from then on to get that to the and at the same time there was an element in that cabala of being forced as it was known we we in the initial we had a mountain over our heads we understood that if we weren't ma the entire world would just stop it was so clear the the the level of kadha that we were on was so clear to us that of course we had to be Ma so that itself was considered an O all in all the initial cabala sa was slightly coerced slightly forced whereas explains the G later on during the story of where the says they were we will we went ahead and we were ma upon ourselves more mitzvas we said we know what it's not enough that you gave us all we're going to get another Mitzvah and we went ahead and we were ma upon ourselves the M of the day of P we were so excited to be part of the nation and we were REM that was the great Sim now what exactly is that Sim so explains in the name of the you see up until then we were serving the and it was all great Hashem loved us we loved Hashem we were in yush we were doing exactly what we were supposed to be doing and it was a great relationship but there was a nuda that we were in the's you know the's house we were the wife of the we were we were serving we were living together it was such a great relationship but then it all came crashing down we weren't sure any okay we we we we we we we went ahead and and and and we went ahead we went against until we were deserving to be to to be sent away from hashem's house and at that point in our first Gus we were not sure perhaps it's all over perhaps we we messed up the relationship to the point that we don't matter anymore and perhaps the entire time that we were in a relationship with hem it was an it was on us doing the Mitzvah on us living in on us being being Tak by was there an unconditional didem love us to the point that nothing can break that to that we weren't sure about until it became Nala that even during a time of Hester even during a time of even at a time when hem sent us out of even at a time of gas we were still Roy to be hashem's wife we were still there Hashem still loved us in an unconditional AA we realized that the entire time we were serving Hashem it wasn't because we were doing what hasem wasn't a busy deal we give you mitz and carbas every day and you give us life in it was a it was a true relationship of deep unconditional that had for us and that fact brought us such Sim to to suddenly realize it wasn't just H going away we've had other enemies die it was the very realization that we were an no matter what that incredible joy that the gave us that that that that that that incredible realization that we that came to us would sparked our rebe M our saying Hashem we are all for you we're going to do whatever we could under any circumstance because when you feel loved then you feel accepted and you feel like then you reciprocate with that same depth of love when a person has somebody who shows him unconditional acceptance unconditional he's going to reflect that showed us unconditional a unconditional acceptance no matter what you're still sinning you're still in gas you go to's party and even at's party Hashem goes ahead and starts the wheels where he's showing us that even as we were sinning I'm still going to save you the realization of the depths of hashem's AA to us caused us to be in such excitement that we are going to do good for you Hashem we're going to be there for you Hashem and that re rekindling of the relationship is what is the cause of such Joy now when you see T doing the kazka of course that makes sense why when somebody goes ahead and does something fantastic you see him Jumping All Around I won't bring any Mich from different um different places but sometimes you see people get super excited and they're jumping up and down they're so excited that happens this happens a person becomes so excited with with information that he can actually this is the information that hits us and that is what that is what the that is what the say the is to you know is because we got the and is because we got the T now be with a deeper that we're being again with more uh with even more Mitzvah not only all the Mitzvah that you gave us but even new Mitzvah I heard once that there is a s on a similar depth going along with this and is is like is is is is is like purm because on purm we are celebrating the fact that we are good no matter what that our Essence is good loves who we are deep down loves who we are no matter what and is like that day you know why because we are erasing all our ays and we're trying to get back to that same level of of Hashem Loves Us in other words purm is the essence that Hashem loves our Essence no matter what and that love that the is showing us is is integral it's unconditional He Loves Us for whom we are Y is a day when we're trying to to get back to erase all of the extran all of the extra Aus that we have built up on us similar to to this go showing that the reason why perm is so amazing is because Hashem loves us to the point no matter what so nowadays we are living in a um a Gus and it's becoming clearer and clearer you know the different that Messiah is coming any minute now any day now now is a time when the T when when when when the going gets tough for us to show our love to Hashem a lot of times in you know we'll tell somebody you know it's uh let's let's let's say in a relationship in a marriage relationship so there's a one of the partners is not is not acting 100% not acting like they they should be so what we would tell let's say let's say let's say somebody's having a rough day so we say you know what we tell the husband on the day that your wife is having a rough day that's the day to really stretch yourself go out on a limb be super nice and you know that you know what at that point you're going to be buying a lot of points because she's going to recognize if she's a healthy girl she's going to recognize that hey yesterday I wasn't 100% and my husband was Mish a rock he was so good he didn't respond he didn't act back he was just strong and she's going to invest a lot of more uh a lot of trust in you here's somebody I could trust I could be not perfect and he will still be there for me I could have a day that's not you know and and and not act 100% myself and I know know my husband will still be a rock acting and and accepting and being there when somebody else is not perfect buys you so much points it buys you not I'm not saying leverage it buys you points it gives you their trust it gives you it buys you their love if a person is act acts acts even under duress that buys even more points the same way is with us when when if if if if we were to have everything running for US perfectly if mhia were to be here so then you know a person who goes ahead when m is here assuming that we're still going to have our we're still going to have similar experiences as we have right now in so it's still not going to be such a anymore if a person goes ahead and is and keeps his there and is or he joins a because it's going to be much easier to do these things now when the going is tough when when the G is mamish pouring out his Last Licks when as far as he can now is the time when the time to show hasem that we're going to love you no matter what we are there and we're going to do whatever we could to display to reflect this this unconditional that you have given us we're going to reflect it back I was standing next to somebody at a recent so you had I don't know the numbers maybe there was a thou maybe 500 bam being Messiah at the same time there were two 2,000 plus people in attendance and you had 500 B some of them with tears going ahead and being for the first time and the that that was in that was so powerful and somebody was standing next to me and he's like I can't understand why is messia not here right now what more could the want what more you have 500 B here who never finished the before and they finished did some of them knowing it cold what more can mhia want and I told the guy I can almost guarantee you that mhia is not coming in the next two or three days why I'm I'm I'm I hope that he's coming every minute it's a hope but uh I'm not a c for bar but uh I just I happened to be that I ended up being right so uh I I I I say what's theat because when a person if the is looking at the world if he sees a person on an upward madrea I'm not trying to be just on our level just so we could be if ifem sees somebody do going up and he sees a who's never finished the before having such an alyah over the next two days don't you think that guy is going to be Mish he's going to be he's going to overcome this he's going to be able to turn away from things he's not supposed to look at he's going to be able to make cab he's going to be able to have a P with a with a G and and and have a connection to the so if brings M right now on you know right now two days before P all that alyah that the guy would have had even under duress would be under a time when Messiah is here it wouldn't be worth much so says let me push it off two days I'll push it off just two days and this way all that Ali of these 500 boys and everybody who M by coming to that by coming to that coming to that event they will be able to go ahead and use that Aliyah in order to do good Hashem doesn't want to bring it when everybody's at is everybody's on on a rise because then everything we do in the next two days would be when mashiah is here that wouldn't count instead what Hashem wants is Hashem would like us to Hashem sees that now is money in the bank now is a time when it's when when when when a person is on fire he wants to go ahead and he's going to use that and he's going to use it the shame um he's going to use it the shame um shame for the this is a uh this is the the message that we can take right now is a time when we see the mahish about to come the Z says that all of the nations are going to go ahead and gather against CL or gather against ER Isel and go to War who would have I mean obviously again we believe we believe in every word of the navi and up until 5 months ago okay so I believe it in any second now this can happen B there now the pieces are all in place the world stage is set for this you have the United Nations going ahead and day after day nation after Nation going ahead and literally Mish be mo saying let's destroy them it doesn't it's it's it's Mish the stage is set like it's never been set before and of course M can come at any second we believe that Mish 100% but now the stage is set y says that it's going to go ahead and come after this's a huge in in in in in in again there's nothing like like like we've had before this D in this is time now for us to go ahead and be to show the that we're going to be there for you even under these times and this way when the Messiah does come any minute now we'll be in middle of having a say that will be in the middle of re of reciprocating the great love that Hashem shows us and it'll be able to have a glorious relationship with Hashem as we used to during the times of the this time having all these years of gas behind us having built us a deep deep relationship everybody and a huge toak for putting this Shear together Hashem sh you the incredible work you do it's lighting up the world Hashem sh you should be go able to go you went 18 years it should go from should B you in everything you do you should be and bring we cannot thank you enough for what you're doing for cl Isel thank you for having me and mem just for a few minutes together you and I my friends wherever you are watching to be able to try and get ready for the to feel the the meaning and the impact of this day how to take it into our soul so that we could become something greater and our lives could change from these experiences cuz that's what's meant to happen we're meant to become different people so what do we want to walk into perm thinking about and walk out of perm taking with us as a permanent fixture in our life and all the already tell us you know there are different different types of experiences in life and there are sometimes that you can see things so clearly you just see Ah that's a miracle I had a miracle happen to me there were times we went out of Egypt we saw things that broke the laws of nature but then there are other times in life and these are times of Hester when it's hidden when everything looks natural maybe even bad what is thetive what is the light that we can hold on to so that even when we're in a moment of life when we can't see will'll be able to still hold on have confidence have happiness have power and have joy and have light the gor tells us there will be a yump that lasts even after mesiah comes all of them will be negated but one will still hang on and that is the yump of PM PM will remain why our SW tell us because PM is a yum of mashiah what's the light of Messiah is that if you look at the perm story as the K points out years and years go by it's it doesn't happen in 45 minutes like it happens in sh you know depending where you go if you go to a place that's really quick they knock it off in 25 minutes that's how fast the story happened it was years and years and years and years and there was so many questions why this why is hon rising to power why is hasem allowing Esther to be taken why is Mor not not being rewarded for saving the king you watch these events unfold and for years people were wondering what's going on where is Hashem and then at the end when Hashem showed his cards and all the pieces fell together like a like an unbelievable domino effect where every piece was in the perfect position boom boom boom boom boom boom boom and all of a sudden they all went hallel luah Hashem was here not Hashem is here now Hashem was here the whole time H Rose The power was from Hashem M didn't get rewarded so he could be rewarded later Esther gets taken to the Palace from hasem to save us can't sleep at night it's so that he'll be able to save us everything everything was perfect everything was placed perfectly by Hashem hidden so hidden that we couldn't see it when it was happening but then we realized in hindsight that everything while it was hidden everything while it was dark everything while it looked so Bleak was really lighting up Hashem was there the whole time this my friends is the light of Messiah when Messiah comes we're going to look back on the entire Exile and we're not just going to celebrate oh you saved us amazing we're out of here no we're going to go back and we're going to think about everything we went through in life and it's going to have such Clarity we're going to realize hem you were there the whole time you were holding our hand the whole time you were dancing with us the whole time you were giving us blessings the whole time the entire Exile we now see in perfect harmony with this salvation it's it it was you the whole time you were just covered you were hidden you were hiding but now we realize you're there the whole time says the re of P gives a person the ability to make it all the way till mhia comes because when you go through life and we hit bumps and there are hidden things and there are we don't see open Miracles and nature looks so real and difficulties looks so real unfortunately right now we're in the midst of a war in AR it's so difficult but perm tells us even when I walk in the deathly Shadow it's so dark it's so painful I'm not afraid because you Hashem are with me you never left me for one second even when I couldn't see anything it was you it is you it will always be you and it's good it was good and it will always be good and if we can hold on to that then we've pierced through the cloud and we've realized the truth that can give us the strength and the happiness no matter what's happening because even if we don't have a clue what's going on we know it's just a costume we know Hashem is really under there and hashm is just giving us a hug I don't see how but I know it's true like the says we have so many questions now but when Messiah comes it'll be just like the end of the perm story we'll say oh that's why everything happened and every year when we come to this young of a Pur and we think about this and Hashem gives us the ability to put this in our heart the clarity that it's all him it's all perfect and even if you can't see anything even if it's perfectly black and dark and hidden to know that is my father who's running all this that's my father hidden behind him him and that person and that event it's all aash and my father there running it perfectly for me when you can't see Pam says know he's there and that my friends is the biggest encouragement and source of I heard this story from on a recording unbelievable story he was in they went out to eat he was there for Bar Mitzvah he was making bar mitzvah for his son they went out to eat and they left the restaurant his daughter said o I left my iPhone in the restaurant so they went back to the restaurant they went looking for it they couldn't find it so they figured one of the workers swiped it and stole it so says listen guys let's go back to apartment I have an iPad over there that tracks all the phones and I'll track the phone and we'll find it he said but let's not tell Mommy because she's not going to want me running around Arab shab is chasing the phone but he tells his son-in-law let's go they go back to the apartment they look on the on the iPad and they see sure enough they could watch the the phone moving across you they see it on the Move say let's go they run out of the house they run down they start chasing where they think the phone is going they have to catch up to it but it's keeps moving it keeps moving they're watching the whole time finally it stops they stop they see it's a group of people you know his son-in-law says Hey Dad who ABA who we going to jump you know it's one of these guys who is it we don't know got to wait for it to keep moving oh it starts moving now it's ahead of them they're chasing it down sh it looks like it's going to the Kell they're going down sh and it's it's fairly empty and as they get to that split-off point where you could go either to the Arab quarter or to the kisel and they're chasing to go to the kisel to follow this phone they see that starting to walk into the Arab quarter is a seminary girl a Jewish Seminary girl who has no clue where she's going and she's starting tolam go into the Arab quarter but not just that ABI says they could hear the Arab telling her yeah yeah yeah come this way this way to the cotel that the Arab is trying to kidnap her and he sees further in there another Arab with a big smile on his face waving her in yeah yeah the cotel is this way who could imagine to trying to abduct this Seminary girl frightening to think what could have happened and as AB du and his son son-in-law are running by to chase the phone they see this and he quickly stops and he turns he says hey you want to go to the cotel it's this way and she goes what they're saying he's said trust me come it's this way he said the Arabs look very upset with him but what could they do tells the Z girl to come and he gets us to the he gets her to the to safety bar but at this point it's too late in Friday so him and his son-in-law give up on the phone they go back to their apartment when they get back his wife says to them where were you he doesn't want to say no where were you he said okay we were chasing I don't know what his daughter's name was Dena whatever we were chasing dena's phone so his daughter comes out of the other room and says what' you say oh we were chasing your phone I was tracking and trying to get it back for you she says my phone oh I realized it was a mistake I never brought it to the restaurant it was here in the apartment the whole time so him and his son-in-law face each other they say so what were we chasing this whole time Andi said the answer is we were chasing a seminary girl who thought she was walking alone but really Hashem was walking with her watching her and protecting her the whole time that's who we were sent to go save the phone was a fake unbelievable true story a girl walking in the most dangerous place she thinks she's alone but the truth is and the truth that perm screams to us is We're Never Alone Hashem is walking with us the whole time and even when we don't see and even when we think that girl she has no idea that she was miraculously saved she's living her life right now like as if nothing happened she has no idea that Hashem came out of Heaven ripped open the curtain of this world and said you my daughter I'm with you you don't even know and I'm going to save your life and you'll never know you'll die you'll never know until you come to the next world that I was with you the whole time I was holding your hand the whole time I was carrying you the whole time and P him when we wake up to this truth then we start to dance when we realize Hashem we didn't even see we don't see but we know we know that you're there the whole time whether we see it or we don't and that's the Sim The Unbelievable light the light of Messiah that that shatters the shell of this world and we all wear costumes cuz we say it's all just a costume everything is hashem's costume Hashem is here in everything it's unbelievable Sim to realize that you're with Hashem every moment there is no joy as knowing that the creator of the universe cares about you enough that they that he won't Le let you go for one second that he won't leave your side for one one second There Is No Greater Joy in knowing that that's how much Hashem cares about you that even when you can't see even when you're not worthy to see even when we're not worthy of open Miracles hasem stays there the whole time he just puts on a costume he sits there dressed as a bush and he sneaks along with us and he protects us and saves us and does everything for us and even the thing you say oh that looks so bad it's not it's Hashem in a costume he's giving you a hug and a kiss this and he's saving our life and we go through life unfortunately we forget I thought of a I was thinking of like a mush imagine you're on a plane and the person next to you is holding on to their trade table white knuckled white knuckled there already serving the drinks you know you're taking the free snacks you know nobody everybody just ate but you know free snacks free is free everybody's shoveling in the snacks you know free pretzels like as if You' never seen pretzels before everyone's eating pretzels you never eat pretzels your whole life only on a plane you eat pretzels all of a sudden right everyone's all pretzels yeah when they say we can't give out the snacks because of some uh some bumps thatone a now how are we going to survive you'll survive just fine you never eat pretzels okay anyways think about the pretzels and you're enjoying yourself but the person that Mak you white knuckled and you turn to them you say khabibi my friend relax what's the matter guys says relax I'm holding up this plane if I let go of my trade table how's this thing going to stay in the air and you see him leaning leaning you say what are you doing well we got we got to get to Chicago Chicago's to the left come on lean with me you say my friend firstly you've lost your mind secondly you think you're holding up this plane there's a pilot he's flying he knows what he's doing relax catch yourself a drink catch yourself some pretzels take out a safer you're on vacation over here they're flying you they'll take you off they'll land you you're holding on with White Knuckles you think you're doing it it's all Hashem let go relax it's all good hashem's got this the more we can internalize that it's all Hashem and we could let go and loosen our grip then the more we'll get to see how hashem's running everything and he's watching us and taking care of us the whole time my grandfather ofi said The more you realize that it's all Hashem the more you'll get to see how it's all Hashem and the more you insist that it's you the less you'll be able to see hashem's hand in your life which is the worst we have the chance to tap into such Joy but we have to let go of our grip when I was a kid we used to go to the mall we thought the escalator we used to go we used to give the escalator p we say ah we used to jokingly give it a big push up I say ah that should keep it spinning till we come next time as if we were the one keeping the escalators going every time we came by pushing don't be a fool the escalator runs automatically life runs automatically hashem's got this let's loosen our grip relax and lean into Hashem to not forget hem is the one and that's what makes everything go Waxman said he said there was a guy who went in er's Ro to adopt and he went to the agency and the agency they want to see if you're going to be a good parent so they say write down your top priorities of life so the one he put on top was Hashem so of course the agency is not religious so they didn't like that so they start giving him problems with that and he said listen Hashem is my top priority above my family above everything Hashem Hashem who El like him he's the god of the universe he's the one I care about the most so they got brisly about it they didn't like it and there was somebody else sitting there waiting to adopt to and when the fellow when the person in charge of the agency walked away he said to the guy listen you know what they want you to say just write the right answer he said I'm not taking Hashem out of the top slot that's the truth that's what I'm saying Hashem is to so the agency ultimately said he can't adopt okay he walked out of there but he was proud of himself Hashem is my ABA Hashem is my father Hashem is everything and I'm not negotiating on [Music] that nine months later they had twins after not being able to have children for so many years to the point that they went to go adopt then they had twins and he called up the other person that was there waiting to adopt with them and he said to him I want you to know something we just had twins he said you know what the listen is when you don't forget the one you get two if we could remember hasim Hashem is the one hitting M Esther in all of the hiddenness we reveal it on Pim it's all Hashem hasem is there with us he's holding our hands he's protecting us he's our top priority he's our everything we don't have to hold on white knuckled hashem's got this and we want to lean into that and we want to rely on him and we want to remember it's him and we want to dance with him and we want to celebrate him and we want to never forget who's running everything and that everything's good if we lean into that then Hashem allows us to see so much more of his inner workings and and we can get Miracles if we don't forget the one we get double back we get so much more back this is the of PM and on purm we go and we hit there the idea that we want to hit till we don't know that we don't need to know when you're in the passenger seat you're okay letting go because you say hashem's got this this P my friends let's dig deep we dve in and we dve in for everything but at the same time let's never forget hashem's got this and with all the things that worry us let's let them go give them back to hashm and say Hashem I don't know what's going on I don't need to know because you you know you're running this and I rely on you you're my ABA you're my ta you're my daddy you're my father you're my hero my Champion my best friend and you run every second you're always there and you're in Gaza right now and you've got this so I don't know what's going on like they didn't in the perm story but I have the clarity of perm to know that even when I don't know I don't need to know because you know and that's enough for me because I trust in you Hashem I know you're all of reality and that's all I care about you're my top priority and I know I am yours and there's an unbelievable quote hope is to hear the music of Tomorrow faith is to be able to dance to that music today the and of my friends the Sim of the celebration the of the light of is that even while we're in the dark while we can't see while the mask is still up while the world is still hiding Hashem we know with our amuna our faith we can already hear the music of mashiah we could hear Hashem inside of all the world we know he's there we hear the music and we have with that Faith the clarity to dance to that music today to go crazy with Sim because we know that even when we don't know it's perfect hashem's got this and he's got us and he's holding us every step of the way he's holding our hands he's protecting us saving us and bringing us to unbelievable places that when Messiah comes we will see with full clarity how every step was perfect and Hashem was our pilot the whole time and we were on the most unbelievable ride of our life every one of us may we be and Merit to touch that joy that Sim that Clarity and most importantly that while Hashem is with us every second reaching out to hold our hands we should reach back out and hold on to his hand so tightly and develop that un believable relationship that he's offering us and together walk through every moment of our life hand inand with Hashem dancing together to the music the music that comes from knowing that everything Hashem does is perfect and everything Hashem does is out of the most unbelievable love for us may we be to that and a an unbelievable PM dance extra dance higher sing louder than ever before hand in hand with everybody [Music] have happy P may we be through our joy to tear down all of the veils see hasem face to face and to we thank the kazak organization and Torah any time for sponsoring this this momentous ability to become inspired May the sh help that this of inspiration and for cl Isel we go back to the beginning the beginning of the PM story where HHA was coming to be hipple poor to figure out what should be the what should be the time that he should bring this CL Israel and it says no PO he was happy he was excited when the lot came to that this should be the time where he destroys I'm able to go and to kill shom on this month because this is the month thatu died didn't know one thing yes it's true on the seventh day of he was n tomorrow night but on the seventh day he also was born and this requires explanation hon obviously was a student of History he obviously understood and knew when M was n so he missed that class when they explained that M raenu also was born is it possible to say that he knew one and not the other there's obviously a depth here of something that hon understood but also misunderstood and something for us to grab on to we also know we know for the that every time it mentions me it means it says it means but the this is brought the and others that there's another in the in the in the M he writes that says when it says it's Tak not referring to rather that the end and the beginning are his he comes from the beginning of the world he comes at the end of the world is a a compilation of the words of and representing where and racious is shal so other than this new found idea that we now have that some could also be referring to but we need to understand in this context that it's referring to the the end and the racious and the beginning is his why is it mentioning the end first it should have said that Rous and is the why is it saying that and mentioning the end first we go a little bit into deeper in the says and says in again need to be understood why is the being represented at the time of but even more so we ask a deeper question isn't specifically a good time for cl Israel others at the time ofer the asks how do we knower the it's a time that we're lacking his that herself said K she didn't feel the anymore she asked asking and beseeching to the why do you leave me and this is all represented in the month of Ador that's original rights in the Saad brought down byad says in specifically ad because every month has a different compilation is represented by a different compilation of the's name is represented with everything's perfect it's the new creation of the's peoples where we became a CL Israel and therefore everything is set in the proper path but he says is the last of all the months Nissan is the first ad is the last ad is the furthest away says the origer from the gal from or of Nissan from the a of becoming hashem's Nation we don't feel we're hashem's nation in Adar it's a time of a time of a time of on that day we don't feel the we're missing that and yet is is referring to that perfect order of the world that there's something perfect here exactly yud k v k it's an order representing hashem's name what does this mean why should this be at a time of endless Hester that the sh of yud is being represented Kay we're feeling a lack a lack of G why is Hashem in its perfect order being represented here but here lies the Godless of puim the N of puim which is the n that brings us to sim like no other this is where the secret of sim lies I was in the hospital this past week visiting a very tired ye in L's hospital this ye was there for his daughter's kidney transplant a young girl 7-year-old a girl who's been very inhibited in the past while because of her sickness and now she was going into a transplant a very large surgery and the fellow the father told me he a a very very deep thought a a mindblowing thought a thought that I truly think changed my life he he told me I don't want to be here I don't want this I want my daughter to having full kidney function without the surgery I want her to be in school like a regular girl I don't want to be however beautiful L's hospital is I don't want to be here but he said invoking the term that esala used he told me but kay kay Lon I don't see the where I am now I don't feel his G I don't feel that he's with me I don't want to be in this place but I know he's here and even when I don't feel the Gus and even when I don't feel that he's doing what I want I know there's a k here even if my rues has left me because I'm accepting the place where I am as a place where I'm supposed to be I'm accepting that the place the downtrodden the hard place the place of lack of R the place of the place of is I realize that Hon's here but I know hashem's here with me Kaye Kay L of wasn't a mournful Cry of despondency it was a redirection it was a Clarion call to announce to the world that there are times where I don't see you but Kaye you're here I know you're here even when I don't feel it from a place of losing rues I'm connecting to you and this is what ham didn't understand about clra of course he knew that M was nift that day and he was also born that day of course he knew that but writes the origer he made a mistake the way works is that the beginning is Malala on the end that like shabas KES he says shabas KES is the last day of the week it's the we the day that should be the least amount of our of escalus of the week it's a should be the day of least energy that out is by the Saturday is just a time of letting yourself loose but by shab gives us the gives us the energy because at a time where we feel the least connected or sometimes the time that the sh is able to be found in the greatest possible wayu was and but that's the exact day he was born CLA gained strength from their downfall they able to witness tragedy and to be part of hardship but in that Y and seeing and hon coming they're able to embrace it that this is R hasem this is where I'm supposed to be and if so I know hashem's there I know he's with me and as long as I accept where I am I'll be able to find that or famous story of the re together they went pron and there was a Bak in front of them they weren't able to say BR to learn and originally they were thinking thoughts of being broken but said if the doesn't want me to learn now if the doesn't want me to D now then that's where I'm supposed to be I'm living in the in the I'm embracing where I am now and even if it's in a place where I don't want to be even if it's in a time that I want to pass but I embrace where I am as Ro and they started to dance they start to dance together and as The Story Goes brought in many suddenly the prison guard came in and removed the pale and they were able to say the BR the they so much wanted to they embraced Hashem in the they embraced Hashem with K Kay L ofon I don't feel you but I know you're there and I'm embracing it right now and I'm acting upon it you know the says is this is the the most difficult of all the why is that so horrible things are said in the why AIC these words are the are the most difficult words and the answer is is because we all living in life of nationally individually we're all in a place where we don't want to be somehow they're all parts of our life that we don't want to have that we don't want to be in that's but when it's when we say because of that that's it I'm frozen I have nothing to do I'm in a place where I don't want to be and therefore I'm paralyzed I can't grow I can't be happy that's that's the hidden within the hidden but we can't find the in the we can't find our we can't find the strength to understand that he is here with me it's something that didn't understand but something that we do is the fous the AIS is part of the races it comes first theis a hardship the lack of R the lack of feeling connected to theous sh the leads into the when we find the when we find him and say yes I'm not feeling up to it my life is not perfect my Shalom BAS may not be good my children may be struggling my parosa is may be something I don't want for it to be in this place I'm not happy I'm away from family I'm with family too much I'm single I'm married I have too few kids I have too many kids my Rob understands me he doesn't I'm in a place where I don't want to be I'm in a place of Kay k l but that's where I find him that's why I find a place to grow was but he also was born on that same day vicious shal this is why the excitement of the is not limited to ad it's the start of Nissan it's the start of the yod of that perfect order is because when we're in the last month of the year and we're feeling far away from that es Galos and that excitement and yet we say I'm accepting where I am now I'm suffering from depression I'm feeling anxiety but I'm finding Hashem where I am I still could I still could learn I don't feel the I'm like but I realize is shal just like gracious is when we're feeling the lack is the same with us when we're excited about as long as we move forward and keep our strength with understanding of the notion that there's a y v right now there's somehow perfection in where I am now I embrace it I'm okay with where I am now and even if I'm not feeling the excitement I'm still going to go H didn't know this Hon thought we break H thought when was n there's no turning back but we are strong and Us in this generation when we're going through so so much so much so much depression so much feeling down about ourselves we could say I embrace the I embrace where I am now I know this has a t to bring out a great a and when we do that bem when we find the a in the dark in the in the in the will be led into a light a light that's so bright in Theiss in the times of real G will we able to see not just through the but is with us he's with us then he's with us now so now we have to work to find him he'll bring a new with