CHAZAQ | Rabbi Avrohom Walkin | Coming Clean / Becoming Clean for Yom Kippur

foreign good evening Thursday night a few days before Yom Kippur I'd like to take the opportunity to thank kazak tour anytime olami I'd also like to um dedicate this year for refur shlima for tinok Ben merel and for menaka Mendel Ben devorelaya that they should have um a quick refer anyway so I I was thinking of a title for tonight's shior and I came up with something literally five minutes ago I had a different title but I like the title it's called coming clean becoming clean um for Yom Kippur not onion Kipper but for Yom Kippur so coming clean means admission and becoming clean is spiritual purification so I want to start off with a story I want to start off with a story I always like to start off with a story it was once a RAV in Erich Israel that um that had to go away he went to America to raise funds for the Yeshiva and a student actually took over this year the Allah that he gave every Shabbat so he was giving this Allah and he he passed and a balabas got up and said to him that's not the that's not the and he brought proofs this balabas brought proves that he this did not pass incorrectly so that when he heard the proofs was model he admitted it that he was wrong and he thanked the person that actually told him that he was wrong for teaching him the proper because the word thing this time said was that I should a be makti the rabeem in plus I should not know the for myself so he thanked him professly profusely for for teaching him teaching him the right was very excited that this person was so humble about it and he left a few days later there was a knock on this door and there was a Colo guy standing by the door and he asked him were you the rabbi were you the rav that my father corrected after she or and he said yes I was that Rev and he's so the cola guy said can I come in and of course he said yes and the cold guy begins to tell the the guy begins to tell this that I want you to know that the impact of you being more there of you admitting that you made this you said this incorrectly had tremendous tremendous effect on my family and many other families what do you mean asked he said I want you to know that my father the very wealthy man a very wealthy man but he wasn't so he's not so he's religious and everything but he's not into the whole Indiana of colel he's not into the Nyan of people sitting and learning after they're married and he felt that I should not be sitting and learning and he felt that I should go out and get a profession and support my family and even though he was wealthy he never gave me a nickel but while I was in collel for the last five years not thinking he says I am not giving you because I don't hold of kolal I think you should go to work but after that she or that you gave and admitted that you made the you made it in your basketing of the my father told me and he said can I visit you and he visited me and he hugged me and he cried and he said I was so wrong all these years about the greatness of what a bentura is for a human being he said to sit in front of masses of people and to not only admit his guilt not only to admit that he made a mistake in Allah but was happy that I pointed it out and I was he was happy that I pointed it out to Rob him so that no one should come in so your admission your admission that you made a mistake actually stirred in my father a longing and a yearning to not only support me but to support any causes any causes that I go into years later this Colo guy opened up a coal in Texas and this person's father this cold little guy's father supported the Colwell for years the entire Cola all because of your admission we know Yom Kippur is coming the most important thing that we need to know about Yom Kippur is to admit our guilt and the greatness of our who and I said this last week the greatness of our colors but who is in a regular Court the more you admit your guilt or even guilt that you're not even tried for but you start bringing up stories the more you're going to spend years and years longer yet the more you admit your gift our guilted the more Hashem loves you and and that wants to forgive you you have to make obviously the commitment that you're going to change you obviously have to make the commitment that you want to to you know change around your life and to not do these aveirot but the more you admit your guilt and want to change the more Hashem says yes beautiful beautiful you're admitting and I'll I'll let you go and you'll actually have a good year so that's the difference between a regular court and court so it's very important that we know that we understand that a person has to come on your Kippur and open up open up your heart open up your nishima when you clap our heads do some research on what you're clapping don't just say the words without thinking it's not a good thing when you just say words very important that you understand and you go over and you review and they have these vedu pamphlets in the back of the Arts goals and you can get them separately that go through in depth and a person could understand what he what he's what he's clapping for what he's asking forgiveness for so I think that's very very important I also want to tell you what Michelle that I saw recently and it came up in a discussion that I had with a student of mine it says throw in Hashem your burdens and he'll sustain you throw an Hashem your burdens he will sustain you has an unbelievable Mushroom on this he said there was once a an individual and this individual was standing on the outside of his City in the olden days people didn't have cars obviously that horse and Buggies not everybody owned the horse and buggy and they would get a ride with a balagola a wagon driver and many times these wagon drivers didn't just go it wasn't like we have transportation today on the hour on the minute on the every half hour you might have to wait days till you get a ride somewhere so but what would people do they would stand on the outskirts of their city with whatever where they were going and hope that some wagon driver would be passing by and would give them a lift so this person is standing outside outside of a city he's holding a bunch of suitcases next to himself and the wagon the wagon passes by and he stops city flags it down and he asked the wagon driver the balagola are you headed to such and such City so the balagola said I'm actually going further but it's on the route that I'm taking hop on I'll take you sometimes you pay sometimes you they did it for free anyways it is um person gets onto the wagon and he's sitting there with his suitcases no problem the wagon driver continues he turns around 10 minutes later and he sees that this person that he picked up is still sitting there with the suitcases on his lap what his knapsack was on and he couldn't understand why this guy is sitting like that so he tells the man he says listen it's not costing you anything it's not costing you even more money I didn't even charge you put your suitcases down it's not it you might as well if once I'm taking you to where you have to go your might as well put your suitcases down so the cover crime says this is a nimshall of of a marshall of what goes on in our lives her cuddles is that balhagala our color spoke who is that wagon driver he is taking you to your destination this is sometimes different shortcuts and sometimes longer routes but eventually he is the one taking you to your destination why do you needlessly need to sit on the journey with all your peckler with all your burdens put your suitcases down and enjoy the ride go for the ride ride the wave as they say a person has to understand that unburning your burdens on our Cutter's bow who is what the balagola wants he wants you to put your burdens down and to rely on him throwing Hashem your burden Hashem your luggage and he is going to sustain you anyway that was a very nice Michelle now I want to mention two unbelievable questions that have risen Arisen to me for many many years question number one question number one says that there's a special Mitzvah to eat on air of Yom Kippur special Mitzvah the more you eat the more mitzvot you get this is a fascinating thing we understand you have wine but the more you eat the more mitzvot you get but not only that the gemara says in incredible thing like all the incredible things say that the average that tells us Hashem tells us that if you eat every viom Kipper I will treat it like you fasted on Yom Kippur that means that you will have this Hood the Merit of fasting on the ninth day and the tenth day of of Tish rate which means Yom Kippur and the day before that means if you eat and you eat a lot the more you eat the more the average the looks at it like you're fasting and you're fasting and he merits you as if you fasted on Yom Kippur now that's an obvious question why why would you get married on eating on young people that on eating before Yom Kippur as if you fasted on Yom Kippur why would you get marriage like that so the Bali Muslim many of them want to say a very powerful years old anyom Kippur human being to get chuva for any type of avirah he did he can go to his friend even on Yom Kippur and tell his friend if he's close to him you know I'm sorry I hurt you I I every Yom Kippur he can call a friend but on Yom Kippur you can get mahila for everything the only question is how do you get mikhila for someone who ate indulgently somebody who ate gluttonous someone who ate a lot someone who didn't have kavana when he ate didn't eat for the right purposes ate for his own enjoyment for his own Tava he didn't eat for the proper reasons he didn't make Havana for rahoot right he didn't have cover nobody made the brachord how do you get kapara if you can't eat on on Yom Kippur so the abusa tells us that if you eat every Yom Kippur but have the proper kavana that you're eating for the sake of Hashem you're eating so you could fast better you're eating said you can get close to that Hashem you'll have energy you make the proper rahut for that you get the kapara for all the eating of the year the Bali Moses say so therefore when you eat and you have the proper kavana the abused is if you fasted unbelievable unbelievable Torah that a person could benefit by eating as if he fasted on Yom Kippur big squat big Merit the second question that arose always that we know that a person hopefully hopefully goes through an ello where he worked on himself he did chuva he tried to to improve himself and then he comes Rosh Hashanah and again he tries to get even higher levels a series right all these days all these days are days of powerful unity and change where a person shows Hashem that he wants to get close to him then comes Yom Kippur where we're like malachim we're like Angels We fast Hashem comes to you this kappara on the day itself some people some um actually learn that the Yom Kippur itself brings kappara the fifth of Yom Kippur forget about the chuva aspect just the day itself is so holy that it brings kappara so all of a sudden comes afternoon and we have kriya Satora and what do we lay in by kriya Satora we learn we lean we read in the Torah in yone arayas improper relationships so the question is after everything we've been through we need to be worried that Anya and Kipper by minute time after we went through almost the whole Yom Kippur that we need to be worried and discussed arayas so the Bali Musa teach us yes that even the holiest of holy levels that a person's on when it comes to Arias a person has to be on guard a person has to be on guard and it's teaching you that even on Yom Kippur by man of the time after we went through a a a night of of kolnidre and after we we went to al-head and we went to my river in a chakras and a Muslim by Miracle time when it's almost the end of the fast and it's closing the end of the nail we're about to start in the ELA what do we learn we laying in United Arias that would aim after Trump is a person has to always always be on guard always be on guard and never think that you're safe so that was another beautiful thing I saw now I want to discuss a few things actually on why we do the things we do on uh on Yom Kippur and even Kippur now I don't know all the Min hageem from this faradim I try to understand some of them I I didn't go through all of them so I will probably be mentioning some things that maybe according to Minix fardim that they don't actually you know do or they or they or that's the reason why they do certain things but I'm going through basic and things that we do and why we do them Yom Kippur and actually on Yom Kippur so first of all we do know that this coming Shabbat called Shabbos of return why because this Shabbos has men many many powers that a person besides the regular Shoppers that a person could show Hashem that he's doing his best to almost not wipe away Shalom but to almost be my second to a certain degree or the Shabbos of the year that maybe he wasn't on you know as great as he should have been or as watchful as he should be so what do we do we have one Shabbos between Roshana and Yom Kippur and we want to show Hashem that this Shabbos we're going to be as as great as we can be to show Hashem how much we care and how much we want to we want to do chuva for all the other Shabbat but I saw a beautiful thing also why it's called because we're hoping that the real return our returning from the galloup should come about because of the Shabbos because we know that gazal teach us that if claudiusville keeps either one Shabbat completely all of claw Israel or According to some refresh him two Shabbat but if you keep one According to some the Google should come therefore we're calling it Shabbos that because of the effort that we put into this Shabbat the we should return completely to the for the so that's one answer why I saw why it's called Shabba shuva now the medrish tells us that on Shabbos the heads of the community the rub of the community they give a Shabbos we know that they give one on all that's a must almost and we know they give one Shabba shuva which is attended by Men by women many people it's a famous famous Shabbat that the ROV gets up and he discusses musar he also discusses he does both sometimes but it's a very very um a very important Shabbat to prepare for Yom Kippur so I will tell you that Madrid I saw this Madrid it's unbelievable the Madrid says that if a rub gets up and actually ahead of a community gets up and discusses chuva and musar and Indiana on this Shabbat and afterwards they say the kadish and Claudia thrall say the amazing it brings tremendous kapara to the entire sibur that came to hear it so therefore we see a very powerful linear that's not just you know giving musar but it's a it's a it's a vehicle that a person brings on himself a better chance and a quicker chance for kappara in the on Yom Kippur so I saw that midrash now Russia oh it doesn't so I will tell you that by us by the ashkenazim in many many kilos they do wear a talit and I saw the reason why they wear a talit because they have two reasons I saw one reason is to show the sibur that came out so you wear a talit because it's dignified and you want to show this naturally like when you go up to the you know to that mode to Daven it's showing you know dignity for the factors for the cloud so therefore you wear a talit that he shows dignity to the community and to the Tibor uh another reason why I saw a white with talit is because when you wear a tallit it looks more serious so you the people that are sitting there will it'll be more an impression on them what the rub is about to say wow he gets up he's wearing a talit you know he doesn't wear till it normally in the afternoon here he's wearing it must be very important information he's telling us now I want to discuss a little bit the Indian of caparott the Indian of Kappa wrote now I do know that years ago when I was growing up I don't know how many years ago 56 50 years ago most people used they did use the chickens they did have chickens and people used it today you know you have all these people that are animal rights activists I'm not getting involved right wrong I know where climb kanevsky uses a chicken a rooster um but we used to do is today a lot of people don't use it maybe they can't get out of their houses on time maybe they don't know they're not going to get to the place that they have to go to but what is the inyan what does this inyanov actually uses using a chicken or a hen now I will tell you that for a male you use a rooster and for women you use a hen a lady who's expecting a child according to menak ashkenaz she uses tooth because either it might be a boy or it might be a girl and therefore we she uses two now why do we use an animal at all really the animal is supposed to not take the place but remind us of the Sur La Zaza that just like the Sur La zazel went for kapara so we also use all we use an animal that we should remind ourselves that we need we need kapara and therefore like any carbon that's used not that the sins go on the carbon but then we could have been the carbon and instead it reminds us that it could have been us and it's created animals for the purpose of serving people so we use a uh a uh an animal Wyatt why a chicken wire rooster why a hen so in reality we should have used actually an animal like a set or a canvas and we would just either have few people hold it over us because if it's like the Sur La zazel then that we should use that we should use it then so a Ram or a goat so it's brought down that in the olden days especially that people would have thought that you're actually going to be microwave a carbon and there's no bad to make Dash and we know that you can't bring carbonate if there's no bad tummy Dash so we use an animal that's not used by carbonate like like a rooster or a hen and therefore at least we know that we're getting the benefits of thinking that it should have been us of Sarah but it's not an animal that would have been shafted therefore we know that there's no if there's no better I saw that now um I know as far as I'm very mockman on this and you could fill me in they do the malkot after minha or doesn't make a difference any day after so do you know is there a particular direction that you face when you do the the the malkot or no towards north right right so let me so this is what I saw today actually I wanted to just verify it I saw that you faced the north because in EU if it says that from the mizrach um it comes up from the from the north from Teflon comes the gold right and therefore it refers to where a person's money is is valuable in the sense that a person should face that way because it reminds him from that Pursuit that most of a person's sins are a result of his financial dealings with money so that's what I saw I don't know if that's what the reason is but that's what I saw anyway what is this purpose we're supposed to do because of my name we can do it all the time so why do we do that Yom Kippur because our children hopefully have been inspired by Elle by Rosh Hashanah by serotime by the preparations that we put in for Yom Kippur hopefully children see a difference in their parents that it's it's very important days therefore it will mean more to them more before Yom Kippur than any other time and they'll accept they'll accept that that Phila from the father more than any other time so that's another uh that's the reason why we say before Yom Kippur now I know by a lot of they don't wear the white Kettle um everyone in meaning ashkenaz wears the white title every um they all wear the white Kettle I do know in certain meaning by far them also they do wear a kettle just that most of the most of them don't wear Kittles right what is this minhog that we wear kettles so the three reasons I saw why we were a kitten Yom Kippur one of them is that every even kids know this when I grew up was where compared to malachim like angels and angels bishitar are like white they're like they have no sin they have no aveira so they're considered like white so therefore we're compared to Angels another reason why so we wear white is to remind the person of tahrihen when a person gets buried he's buried in white white like pajama-like type of clothing therefore this will instill in a person so he'll go and take the the day of Yom Kippur more seriously and I saw a beautiful answer actually a reason why we we're also a Kittle on pesach night if that's yomisa and pesach night is a day of Joy why would you wear a Kittle so I saw two years is grounded for that one answer I saw is that a father on the night of pesach is like the coin gadol in the Bedtime because he is about to do avodah for his children that for Generations hopefully will instill in them the love and the emunah and the bit and the closeness to Hashem on this on this father how he conducts his seder therefore he needs to understand that he's like that coin gadol that's about to do avoda on the holiest days of Yom Kippur even by the pesacher and another answer I saw which is like the second answer of Yom hamisa that and this is like the two answers of why of the compared of takrihin and almost like melakim that you are on such a high level of of sanctity um also we know that Hashem says that if you're if you have a Rota like red I will be Michelle I will make it white like shelleg so you see the Indiana of white and shelleg is cleanliness of aveira so we also wear because we want to show that we we've cleansed ourselves from Avira um now we do know we do know that we light up a um a almost like a yard side candle I know it's Joshua candle I know what it's called and uh what is it called and uh that that Memorial candle is there a name for it yeah okay so it's an Indian to light one even if nobody actually passed away in someone's home and he's not lighting for a particular reason to the inyan to actually have what we call a ner nishama and now many people use the nearest amount of a loved one and they will use that for what I'm about to tell you which is that you're supposed to have dala time use a candle for Abdullah that was not um started after Yom Kippur it was called shavas it rested over the Yom Kippur so therefore when you light that 24 26 hour of uh yard site candle therefore you use that for havdala for uh Yom Kippur okay now call midre right now I'm not going to go into the the power of kolnidre it's a you know it's still I heard answers they're all good answers hey they're not going to answers but you know what what is shot and if you if you could say something I don't mind what shot that call nidrae said literally as soon as Yom Kippur comes in we take out the sifri Torah we stand there and it's almost if you ask Jews that are not affiliated they'll tell you that call nidre Knight is the most powerful moment of the year for them they'll remember even if they're not religious and they don't even go to Shula anymore they'll still remember when they were young and their parents took them to bed knesset to synagogue and for call nidrae Knight what is called vows and Promises I still need a clarified answer what is the power I understand you see the power of Deborah you see the power how making promises is important you have to you know keep your word but what is this called nidre that it's almost like you know Universal for truva for capara that Yom Kippur is identified by Jews all across the world as call midray night so we do know that has to be said before before it gets dark why because we do know that Concordia is about our promises and our vows and you're not allowed to take off vows and Promises on Shabbat or yomtov therefore we started actually earlier so that we can actually remove the vowels and remove our promises and swears when it's allowed to be done which is before yamtovan Shabbat many people think we do it because it's like more like like almost like mystical love before it gets dark even we're saying no that's the reason that I saw and that's the reason that I'm going with that's what I saw um why do we wear a tallit now um right so why do we wear a Tali Yom Kipper night so one answer obvious answer is that we resemble malachim Holiness we show that we're on a different diagram than we were all year so that's one reason a second reason I saw recently actually was a very nice reason and I saw that Hashem himself that Hashem himself when he said over when he said over the yud Gimme dot when he said over the youth give me dot to Moshe he actually tell us gemara tells us actually that he wrapped himself in a talit and he taught the yudhimidot to Moshe so we also are going to say that you'd give me dot on that night so we also want to show in that classroom that we're like Hashem but is such an important feeler obviously an important aspect of our chuva that we also wrap ourselves in Italy to remind us of the greatness um I saw a reason why we take out the sifri Torah so the obvious reason why we took a we take out sifrin Torah because to show the importance of the day we take out sifritorah almost like Witnesses thank you thank you thank you I saw that I didn't need that um so why do we take out the Sith free Torah because you think that the sifri Torah are gives it an all and so I saw actually the reason why we take out safetyra besides for that reason is that lujot were given on Yom Kippur the second set of luhot so we stand with the loot and what did the second teach us that Hashem forgave us therefore we stand with the witness that gave us the kappara eagle and kapara which is the Torah so we stand with it and we start Yom Kippur we're saying that you see these sifri Torah this is we showed Hashem gives kappara for our RV road and the Torah is our witness that Hashem for gave us on the greatest of our sins so I thought that was a beautiful answer I saw a very nice thing actually today and why we say Baruch out loud why do we say it out loud and the rest of the year we say it very quietly so I saw an unbelievable like all the unbelievable hazals that where did where did this come from it came from Moshe rabeno he taught at the cloud Israel and we I'm sorry but I don't know it could be could be they said Baruch I don't know it says they said I don't know I saw a Ghazal that says that they said that kaito was taught it at least maybe they said it but Claudius 12 was taught to say it from Moshe remain could be they said it individually but Clydesdale as a nation was actually taught it by Moshe Ramen and you could write you know maybe so therefore we got it eventually they got it earlier we got it later but it says that when mosh rabbin went up to shamayam he overheard the melachim so he learned that this must be a very powerful Twila so he brought it down and taught it to Cloud Israel but he told Claude Israel you have to say it quietly and the khaza that I saw it brings in my child there was once a in a friend of the king that would visit the king many many times and he saw there were ornaments that were given for the closest to the king so what did he think he knew he wasn't the closest but he started to rationalize you know maybe I'm close enough I could take some of the ornaments he took an ornament and he brought it home to his wife but he told his wife do me a favor please don't wear it only in private because I don't want anyone to say how did you get it you're not worthy enough how did you get this is special pendant don't wear it it's a gorgeous gorgeous expensive pen only wear it in private in front of family but don't wear it out we all become the highest of of advisors we become the highest level closest to the king therefore we're worthy to say that out loud because now we can wear that we can wear that pendant I thought that was very nice also um that's one thing I saw also it's interesting very powerful that we don't say that at least we don't say the bracha in the morning then why becausearki refers to shoes and therefore we don't wear shoes on Yom Kippur therefore we don't say that but look at the powerfulness of what the bracha is the power of this shall also lead that he made me call Turkey all my needs and what does it refer to a pair of shoes we don't appreciate the little things in our life in the olden days a person that had a pair of shoes almost had it all could you imagine up here today I don't want to talk about women that have 8 000 pairs of shoes but men also today got into the act and they have hundreds of pairs truths every occasion I mean it used to be that women huh whatever that would have Cubbies but now the men have it too they buy a house they have to have all their shoe their tennis shoes their sneakers their sneakers for this event their shoes for this event had Casa Shalom to wear the same pair of shoes more than twice at once anyway but listen to this alsolete called sarki that he does cold turkey all my needs refers to shoes on your feet not expensive shoes that you could walk the streets and not hurt your feet because you're wearing shoes that's a silly called turkey so we don't say that on uh on Yom Kippur in the morning by brakhot now let's go to neela and we'll end with this pretty much by ni Ila we know that Neil means the closing of the Shah the closing of the gates and refers to the closing of the gates in the betamic dash that this was when the avodah was coming to an end and the gates were closing which meant the avodah was coming to an end which meant that whatever protected us at least till the next time we have it was coming to an end so we use it we refer to the closing of the gates in Heaven in shamayam that what that that we are going to try our best to sneak in literally before the gate closed like I'm sure all of you I've done this many times when you're coming late now I'm very careful not to ask Hashem but you come a minute before a store closes and you're hoping you could sneak in or when somebody walks out you go in with him many the last few years I've been very marketed not to do that because for the people that want to go home already and they're standing there and they see you sneaking in you thought you snack you snugging but these people needed to get home so is great I told my wife a few days ago actually we were going to do it I said if we're not getting there on time even if you get there five minutes before it's not gonna die to go because it's not fair to those people looking and saying who knows what she's going to buy now and she's gonna have to wait and come home late so and they don't get overtime for it so we tried to sneak into that gate so that we're still in the palace with our sham because we're about to lose this high level that we're at we were in the palace can you imagine you're in the Palace of of Hashem and you know now you're going to be leaving it's a you want to stay as long as you can you want to stay as long as you can so we tried to sneak in now I want to tell you it's brought down that it's very important a person should try to bring himself to cry bring himself to cry now I'm sure if you're crying over stupid things I'm sure that's not what it's referring to but a person should try to bring himself through juva it's he's weak he's tired from the fast maybe he's already stronger out from all the emotions of the all the you know the whole 40 days but a person should bring himself to tears why because it says that even if the gates of chuva are clothed Shari the more lonely are never clothed the gates of chuva could be closed but the gates of tears are never closed this brings up a big question that the only reason why we cry because of chuva we're crying because we want to do chuva so how could it be that the gates of true could be closed but the gates of Tears which were crying because of the children are still open what is it about the tears that it Remains The Gates still open so I said this many months ago about something I don't remember why the power of tears I forgot why I brought it up maybe it's about tissue love maybe but what is this power of tears what is this power of tears so we do know and I'll end with this little piece we do know that the gemara brings down a story about Revelation was a very very difficult person a big Russia at least in the beginning of his life and the gemara says that he would go miles upon a month he would travel he would fly almost and spend as much money as he could to be with as much mushroom as he could and it wasn't an Isha that wasn't famous that he didn't try to to go with and to be with and he overheard a boss coil that said everyone could do juva except for a lesser bendu DOI what did he do he went to this place he went to try to get school art he spoke to the stars but whatever that means he tried to get chuva and everyone told him no truva for you so the Gomorrah tells us he put his head between his knees and he cried until his soul left him and then a bicycle came out and said rebellious not only has a rebellious it's prepared to Allah straight to Allah and on this web he cried this gemara tells us ready cried yes that he got his world the whole world that we worked for that we tried to get in the next world he got it in one moment how is it possible that he got this so the diet that I want to say is he died he died probably a heart attack I don't know what caused him to die but it was his cries that actually made him the pain of his cries was so great but it was the tears that actually made him cry to this that made him to this level where he moms cleansed himself but how because when a person cries he becomes a different person so the Truvada could be not accepted on this individual but when you cry something out of your system you become a different person you're not the same person God forbid if somebody has a situation where he cries they say he had a good cry he cried it out he feels like a different person how can it be a guy could can get to a point where he cries and he starts feeling better because you reach the Pinnacle of your emotion and you cleanse that situation and now it's upward now it's upward therefore a person becomes a different person so the gazardine is not on the same person anymore so once he cried himself to death he he's not the same person so now he's rebellious he's not the same a person's tears cleanses himself they say that tears are the sweat of the Soul when does the person show his highest level of emotion is when he cries therefore when you cry you show Hashem I reach the bottom the bottom the bottom and now I'm a different person I cleansed and that's why I did the Indian on Tish above I said this over tissue if I did that it says that if this was not a day of a velutes is the day of biyah of crying the morale says you cried for no reason you're going to cry for Generations what is it about the tears because every Jew was created with his in his dnaired Israel what is the highest level of emotion where you take something out of you is when you cry it out therefore they cried out through all out of their system hashan said you're gonna have to cry it back in you're gonna have to cry it back in and we tell them you know Levine said we said that we cried why did they say we cried we were babies we said and we cried no they were telling the Abra when they were going to lose from bovill when they were going to bubble out of there when they were being chased out what did they say that we sat by the Nares Buffalo we cried we cried every soul back into our sister and they were saying said you cried Earth's soul back into your system the rest of isol didn't cry it because the power of tears has a way and we know when it comes to Cash Ring apart this same heat that causes something to become unkosher you need it the same heat to make it kosher so the same crying that you did for your mushagastim or the same emotion you need that emotion back to bring it back to you so tears are a very important thing we've got to find a way so they ask a child attacker if the gates are tears are never closed why they're Gates you know your gates for they're never close you don't need a gate so the katsuku rabbit says something beautiful he says that there's two types of Tears there's tears of hopelessness and there's tears of Yearning when your person just has tears because he's in a billion years no you have tears but your tears bring you to uh and The Trusted Hashem that you want to get close and you trust in him those tears it opens but not for random tears so therefore you need the gate and then I saw a beautiful thing also it says um Ray Gates and doesn't say Dao say what's the difference between a gate and a door a door it's completely solid nothing gets through but a gate has has openings therefore if you cry enough almost like a screen if it rains enough you can have your screen by your by your room if it's raining enough it gets into your room because it needs a certain type of crying a certain type of power so I want to give everybody a bracha that we should have a special Yom Kippur Yom Kippur I know of kapara but the most important thing of our chuva is to bring us closer to our Chef not just forgiveness not about forgiveness it's about getting closer to Hashem I want to end with this that I used to dive in a shoe for Roshana Yom Kippur called Israel and Moonlight wolves I used to go there my family used to stay and I used to the doctor could go with a friend of mine dafka to Daven there why would I dive in there because I knew that if I won a good year I better be sitting here these are the seats you want to be sitting with this group because they're very very very very very spiritual people and they're very close to Hashem I take my public schools not recently but years ago I used to take my public school kids on a random afternoon in August to munas Israel just that they should stand on top by the women's section during the during a minute and to see how they dive in on a regular afternoon minarvid you would think it's Yom Kippur their passion their connection 20 minutes from one estres and they're talking to Hashem they believe that the same Hashem that's there for Yom Kippur is also there on the afternoon on a Sunday afternoon when you already had your barbecues and you're ready to go upstate you ready to go home and you're just dive in five seconds quickly quickly hey quick condition just let's get out of here I gotta get home so that's how they dive in so I wanted to be the first shot at Yom Kippur and I want to tell you the fascinating thing I saw you would have think because I went there many many years ago I was just married and I would go that my mother my wife would actually stay by my in-laws in Borough Park and I would sleep actually in there they have like a little hotel place in the in the shoe on top where you could rent it and a friend of mine would rent it for me and I would say this I didn't have to walk the 20 blocks on Yom Kippur or Rosh Hashanah so I would tell you that um that I thought because I grew up that you cry in Rosh Hashanah you cry on Yom Kippur and I said these people are for sure going to be crying they're going to be mommy is crying Tasha and what I saw was the complete opposite I saw people that were clapping and happy by and I understood why this true vermeera and this proven may I have her they don't care it's not about me the king the king is being crowned you know comes to you I shouldn't be happy Hashem do what you want to me I want to be happy that you're here with us I want and you had to see the entire diving in the cinema that they're getting close to Hashem yeah Hashem of course this year of course there's fear but to the higher level it's not about you it's about the greatness of our colors powerful that you can get close to him that you can dive into him Hashem do what you want Hashem whatever you want is my will your will is my will but I want to give you the covert I want to show our brothers that I'm happy that he's spending yantev with me so this is what I learned from there that a person yes a person has to have fear Amer and awe but he shouldn't lose sight of the joy that Hashem comes to you the king of kings of the world actually says you don't have to come to me I'm coming to you it's a reason to be so we should all have a wonderful yamtov I wanna I don't want to say an easy fast but like we always say a meaningful fear after fast that actually gets us to think and appreciate and to understand that we solely rely on have a wonderful yamtov and I hope to see you next week