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Charlie Harary | Understanding Galus: From Destruction to Redemption

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Welcome everyone to today's of course special event understanding gas from destruction to redemption. I think uh of course everyone should they can't make it in person they should join right now watch online torrentime.comazaklive tornitim.comazak live the call in is 718-8820-7284 extension 40 718820-7284 extension40 of course on behalf of Kazak we thank Shamuna and Zakali for partnering together on tonight's um today's special event of course Shamuna is so much more than a shul it's a Torah center there's so much amazing programming and and the ways to inspire the community. Such an amazing community center. And of course, Zika. Um they they feed thousands of uh feed, clothe, and they provide emotional support med and uh and health care for for for thousands in in in Israel. And u and they do it zero overhead. Of course, right now we're during the three weeks we're focusing on between us and our our our fellow brothers and sisters. 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And of course, Kazak is is dealing with a modern-day destruction of thousands of of public school students that they don't have a they don't have a path and and and they don't know their their their heritage of of Judaism, of Torah. and Khazak has over 20 different programs after school programs for for them and has transferred over 2,500 students from public school yes of course the um everyone should um if you know a public school um a family that has a a child in public school of course reach out to Kazak and of course I think for to introduce Charlie tonight I think it's a of course uh is things so special because if we look back some sometimes we have a struggle how how can we relate to the to the three weeks, the nine days, the tishab something which happened so so long ago. So Rabbi Yiddi said something fascinating. He said that that if you look back to the root of of of this day of this time period, what was that there was that the Jews in in paral they they went out they they they sent out the spies. So what was what was so what was so destructive about that about that moment. So what was is that they said one word they said FS. It's impossible. we're there's there there's giants there. We're never going to be able to conquer the land. It's impossible. We can't do it. And um and of course we know we have to believe in three things. We have to believe in the Torah. We have to believe in Hashem. We have to believe in oursel. And and uh somebody who of course has such a such an impact on on Kra and and somebody who always gives the the the the strength and to that we have to believe in ourselves and our capabilities and overcome the challenges that we have is none other than our speaker tonight. It's a It's our honor to call upon Charlie Roy. >> Thank you. Thank you Robbie and thank you Kazakis and Charmuna and the whole crew for making this uh reality. uh bash my parents who are here. Thank you for being here as always and for what you did especially on today which you know about today. Thank you for all the work. It's hard hard work that you had. We I appreciate it. As you know many times many times speeches begin with a conversation with the Rob Moshalvi. In this in this case, we had a conversation last week in which he shared something with me that I thought was incredibly powerful. And a lot of what we're going to talk about today, in fact, the core of the speech will be from that conversation. So, if you hear something you like, attribute it to him. If you don't, attribute it to the secular mind that it goes through. We are in an incredible period of time. You know, many times in life, you know, there's the famous story that people tell over. It's like a famous mushel of a guy who stands uh at a flood and he turns to the Kuresh Bar and he says, "Hashem, please save me." And he sends a boat and he goes, "No, no, no. Hashem, please save me." And he sends a helicopter and goes, "Hashem, like Hashem." And then he sends sends a jet and he goes, "Hashem." And then he shim after the flood comes up through the house and he goes, "Hashem, I I I heard I read all the books." I said, "Save me." So he says, "What do you mean save you?" He goes, "Where were you?" I ded. I said, "Oh my." He says, "What are you joking me? I sent you a helic I sent you a boat, a helicopter, a plane." Like, who do you think send that to you? Many times in life, we turn to the bash save me. I want to be connected to people. I want to find my bash. I want to have more. I want to be more connected. I want to dab him with kavana. Like, hello. Like, what's up? Like, what do you mean? I gave you tishov. I gave you three weeks. I gave you l where are you? I changed the whole world around. You think that's a regular world? Like, you think it's like a regular world that looks the same because the sun rises and sets and it gets more or less in terms of how hot it is? Are you joking me? You're the Jewish people. Every second of the day, I'm changing the whole spirituality. Everything is changing behind the scenes. I'm telling you what to do. If you're rolling through the year like it's a regular day, yeah, you're missing the boats. If you realize that when you hit periods of time, they carry with them very specific energies, very specific abilities, you tap into the abilities the right time, your sukus, your chua and your weal last year in this room, the ability to be able to go beyond your tea and sit in that suka. what lagba means. If we could just slow down and realize that what's happening is behind the scenes, Hashem is opening up channels of connection, what happens is if we put in effort that is uniquely specific to the time and it hits the right time, we change. If you're looking for the plug and you hit the outlet, you get the energy. If the plug is too small and if the outlet doesn't have electricity, it doesn't work. We're entering into a time that for most of us is like a time we want to be done with. Three weeks in most of our minds is like here we go again. Is there a greater joy than the bagel when you break your fast on tishabove? Like there's it's almost as good as breaking your fast on your kipper. I'm done. Like aaega, I'll see you in a year. Are you joking? Shivas tamuz it's like you know we say in the corporate world it's like the opposite you say that like July 4th it's like amazing how it works out in the same in the corporate world July 4th the greatest yontiff. Why? Because everyone loves summer but July 4th is the beginning of summer right? So like by Labor Day everyone's upset. So the holiday that launches summer like everyone's like dancing in the office now. We're leaving it's July 4th and then we're coming back to July and then August and no one's around. It's like the opposite unfortunately for like Shivas is first of all forever and it's of course it's 100 degrees and it's the beginning we're not done and the sh thinking like the nine days oh my gosh usually we're out doesn't really fall out half the time so it's like we now it's like Thursday oh my gosh we got like all the you got to go back and figure it out oh my gosh I want to just go back and have a summer and Hashem is I hope you don't understand. I hope you realize then I'm sending you a speedboat. And if you can capture three weeks of your year now and understand what we're building, you get to tish, you come out of tishabove and you know what you may be able to touch? you may be able to touch gula because this is the period of time where we told the kures were not interested. This is the period of time where we're trying to fix a problem. The problem we're fixing is it ends without hashem galas at the end of the day is just and I had this question yesterday. Someone said life's amazing here. I can fly to Israel kosher food. Have you seen Central Avenue? And this is nothing. this thousand feet go down to Lakewood you know what's going on in the world galas and the answer is if you walk around and you do not feel with you every second if you walk down the street and someone goes are you Jewish you go yeah and they don't ask you can you teach me about Hashem if the qu if they don't come out of their mouth it's can you teach me about Hashem you are in gullus because if we walk around trying to get through if you come to this day and I don't feel this way and you don't feel when you get to Shivas that you are broken, in pain, you're in gullus. That means the darkness of this world overwhelms us. And the goal of this three weeks, if we can get one%, can you imagine if we're done and we shitz for three weeks and we get 1% moreina speedboat. So dig in. Don't pull out after you break your fast in a few hours. Don't lose three weeks of greatness. The cousins the says from the mag of measures it's a he says whoever runs during this time to be hashemar if you ever wanted hashem in your life if you ever wanted a life with moreina Yeah, the time that you run after that is 3 weeks. So what is the goal and what are we trying to accomplish? So let's see if we can just identify one nuda. It's a difficult nuda, but we got to when else are we going to talk about stuff then on a fast day. It's from the rabbi. So take it from him. It's interesting what we're standing in right now. It almost feels like a setup. You ever noticed this? Like in most holidays, the holiday is the story, right? Kaneka is Kaneka. It happened on Kaneka, right? What took place in Log Bulmer is Lagbo. When you think through Yontiffs, there's a lot of setup to Yontiff. Like we have a very a very very busy life. We're the Jewish people. Like before something happened, we do a lot of stuff. Like there is a climb to Mont Torah. There's a lot of prep before Pesak. Like things happen as a pregame to the history that we remember. That's called living life. Nothing came out of nowhere. And usually when you have an event, the event is that what you're paying attention to. And we have an event. It's super clear. The event is tish. The day that the destruction of the of the carbon happens, the building the base mig happens and it burns on tishabove. But this is the one time if you think about it throughout the year that we have an event for the event. We're fasting. Why? Because they broke the wall. So what? Well, well then they broke then they they then they burnt the bas. Okay. So we're fasting for that. So what the wall is a setup to the B mdash, but we got the B mdish covered. What is going on? There's of there was a million things that went wrong. They burnt all the food. They killed a lot of people. A lot of things happen when you're about to lose the B mikdash. When you're in battle, it's not one thing. There's a million things that go wrong that slowly leads to the evolution of the Romans or the Babylonians coming and destroying the place. Do we fast for every little thing? There's something about Shivas Tamuz that's not just about Tishab because if it was it would be Kyle and Tishabove. There has to be something different and it has to be unique because it sets up the whole period of time. We have a surv that's also connected to tishab but we're not fasting and there's no period of time from a surve all the way to tishab which means if something happened on that began this process if the walls that surrounded the bish went down it can't just be that there happened to be a battle it has to be that what's going on right now is the setup the tishabove it's the it's like when the teacher tells the kids I'm telling you what's on the test and like two kids are like holy cow what's on the test and they get to the test and you're like I can't I can't I failed and she's like I told you it was on the test. You're like you were serious? She's like yeah I told you. Hashem is like saying to us I am telling you what's on the test. It's a three-week period of time. I'm launching it with a fast. I'm closing it with a fast. And I'm telling you that in the story of the of the midbar you're not going to see the connection because fast one is about a story about an ael and fast two is about a story about a about a moraglin. And you're not going to connect the dots. And if you pay attention only at the end, you're only going to think about the second story and you're going to miss the point. And maybe and maybe if you get to tishabove and you wake up in Tishab and go, "Oh, why are we here?" You can't get it because it's half the story. Maybe the Moragim and maybe the destruction of the Bam Mikdash is not the full story. Because if it was, we wouldn't have a shabbas three weeks benitar nine days. Maybe we would just have tishab yum kipper. Maybe we just have the day that it it actually destroys the fact that we have a day beforehand that we're sitting here. It's like tish of esque a little bit. No, don't you feel that way? Like it's I could sense like you have like that exhausted tired. We're almost done. I can't we're almost done with this tish of boiling hot feeling because maybe what's happening in Shiobasamuz is really part of the story of what happened on tishabove. It's just step one and if you miss step one you may miss the whole game. So what happened on Shivas? So if you remember the story comes out of out of Mimiso get gets ready for the Torah. They start counting 50 days they go to Moshe. They get the Torah. Moshe gets to Torah for Cl on the sixth of SA. Remember the story the next day the seventh depending on how you understand the story and when you got it on the sixth or the seventh doesn't matter. On the seventh, Mosherenu goes up to to Hashem to get the Torah and says to I'm coming down in 40 days, right? 40 days later they to their count is the 16th of Thomas. From the 7th of Son, 40 days and 16th of Thomas, right? As I always learned the story growing up, it's different. What really happened at the foot of the table at the mountain was Ashkanazi Jews. Moshe was sparum have their own time. We didn't know and we fast because of it. So that's how I remember learning the story. It's not like that at all. What happened? They were wrong. Mosha said 40 days. 40 full days. The 7th of Son wasn't a full day. He wasn't coming down on the 16th of Son. He was coming down on the 17th of Son. On the 16th of Son, the Jews started to panic. Why? They're in the desert alone with mun and with clouds of glory and not knowing what in the world just happened and where they're going. But here's the thing that we don't realize. Moshe got it beforehand. And Moshe tells the B Israel, he says he told the people if you have a problem I am putting in my replacement. The VP is staying back. We got the protocol. I am not leaving you alone. Last week, two weeks ago, whenever it was with Korak got up and says, "You and I are are hoarded and all the power." This is the whole point. There is a there's a succession line. I got somebody here. He's going to take over. You need to sh the rabbi. He's got an assistant rabbi. And he goes up. He comes down and Cla on the last day starts to panic. Remember what happens? We're going to do it nice and slow because what happened is something that we may not realize. Kiboshious Moshe. They see that Moshe came down to come down from the mountain. He's late alon. Who was the Am say it's not the full people you know who did it? It was the air of the Arav is a group of people that weren't part of Clausro that joined at the end because they saw the miracles and as things were amazing they rolled with us and when things got bad they stepped up into a problem. What who's the Arab today? Complicated suga. Are they spiritual? Are they physical? It's a ser ask your local sadic for this one because I can tell you something. When the Jews have problems, the Jew that has misora sticks to the abashar. They don't panic and run to the world right away. The rolls in and the says who they who are they? They're the elim for us a god that will stand before us. Why? Moshe led the way. They can't talk to Hashem. They can't walk through mountains. This wasn't regular people. They weren't in a fourth grade class. They just experienced plagues. They just walked through a sea. They're talking to somebody who just walked and standed in front of parro. He just learned about Hashem. We're talking about the craziest time of all time. How are we going to do this? We need We need We need somebody to be the conduit. the man who led us out of simple people came and said the Ramban says this approach they didn't want another god you know what they wanted another leader simple I I need Moshe I don't have Moshe I need someone to be like Moshe can you put a different replacement in front of Moshe does that sound logical of course because logic is the beginning of us leaving Hashem because the the argument that was made to the men was we don't have anybody. We should put somebody in. Makes sense. What they do that was so wrong. So let's look at the P again. You'll find something amazing. Elohim Aer Yu leanu. What did they ask for? So let's get into it. One of the greatest aspects of finding the rabbi speaks about this a lot. We have to understand why is it that we're still sitting around in gullis after all these years. So if you go into tishabove you will find that tishabove is about two totally separate things and you'll hear both come out on tishabove. Why is there destruction? So one camp is because of and there'll be a lot on sin and one camp is on the moraglin and all theum. Here's the challenge. Sinusimum and the Moragim are not the same thing. The Moragim were actually totally aligned with Kalisrael. There was no Sinus during the Moragim. They got up. Two people were against them. And the rest of Kalisrael held hands saying Kumbaya and said we're all going to die. There was no fighting. No one's like you're wrong and you're a rabbi. You're a rap. Nobody was like that. Two guys were locked at the corner. 10 out of 12 said we're going to die. And the entire nation said, "Yes, we're going to die. How could there be sin on Moragim?" Wait, then what's moragim? But I thought it's about the moragum, isn't it? But then is it about or is it about the moraglin? Because the morag doesn't have. So then what's then how does it connect? The rabbi says something amazing. If you go underneath it one level, you will find something that very very important. It's actually both. But at your at the level we're seeing it, we're missing it. There's something underneath taking place. What is the core of sinosum? Why is it that I should be able to ever look at somebody else and not like them? Why? What drives me? What is the core of the moraglin? Why is it that a people should stand before the kures boru and say, "You're wrong. We're going to die." Why? What happened? So if you get into the level of drop deeper, you will find what is it that causes a bas mig to get destroyed. Why would Hashem ever leave? What causes Hashem to leave anywhere? Hashem loves us. He runs the whole world. He is the whole world. What could ever cause the kesh to ever leave? What mechanism is there in this world that can ever have the Shina leave presence? What do we have to do in order to get it to leave? We know that kicked it out, but what does that even mean? But we know that Moragum kicked it out, but what does that mean? So the answer is there's something even deeper. There's only one thing in the world that can kick out the Shina. And what is that? Us. We kick out the Shina. Hashem says, "I am in everything. I am in everywhere. I am in you. You You have me inside you. The reason why your eyes are open is because what you are empowered with is an is you don't exist but for me. Nothing exists but for me. Therefore, if I actually leave, it disintegrates. So even when I leave, I can't really leave. So why would I leave? You know why I would leave for? Because you're kicking me out. The only way Hashem leaves us is when we say goodbye. And our kicking out Hashem in everything in our lives always is the only way he leaves. How do you kick out Hashem? Do you say leave? Does the Jews say leave? Do they get up to the and say I want you out? Does the come back and say I want Hashem out? No. When you have sin, that's not about Hashem. If you really thought that you were kicking Hashem out, this wouldn't be a sin issue. It would be a sin as hashem issue. So then what's sin? And the answer is the rabbi thinks about this a lot. The answer is that the way operates in this world is if you don't want him here, he won't be here. Which means if you believe in your core, if we believe in our core that Hashem is in everything, he is in everything. But if we believe in our core that I am in something to the place in which I put me in in that place the Gmorrah says Hashem says I can't be with you. The Garra says I I can't be d I can't be with someone who's a gas ru someone who has a horty spirit. Why? I love the guy. He's my kid. He doesn't want me. The rules of the game is where you are, I am not. That's why kings, Jewish kings had so many things they had to do. They had to carry a toy. They had to control themselves. Why? Because a Jewish king is not a human being. He has to be a conduit of Hashem. Because if you would be a king and everyone has the highest level, a king as the rabbi says was the biggest unav. But he fought David Hamelik. Why? To keep his kingdom. Because a king has the highest risk of ani at his level. The ani that's inside us is the difference between whether we have a life with hashem or not. I saw this today in the it says in the say the says from the more you make yourself into something if you want to know where Hashem is in your life if you can make a meter in your own life for how much ani how much an how much is it me you know there's no hashem a guy can stand in front of you and quote chapter and verse everything the guy a person could know shas cold if he lives with an ani there's noina it's a computer a guy can come in here not know olive bay and he is koe and the goal is to do both. But understand something when we talk about the lack ofina, when we talk about tishab, stop blaming the world. We love to sit on tish and go, I wish Klaus would just get it together. When are we going to bring the gahula already? When can we just all get together and figure this out? Stop. You know when you figure it out? when you figure it out in your heart and then the kurb comes into you 100% and you will see if you're living your life with zero ani and hashem's inina he'll use you he knows koshen knows how to use people you'll shine the game between today and the rest of our lives but for sure until you stand up in three weeks from now and break your fast is you have one I'm with you on this one I'm the regular dude we have one question. You know what the question is? If my ani meter is at a 85 out of 100, can I get it down two or three degrees? If what we can accomplish in the next three weeks is get what's going on, what's going on is Hashem never left. We kicked them out. We said it's about me. It's about you. Me. Therefore, if it's about you, what am I here? This whole city's yours. Okay. Even today, you think the city's yours, I'm going to come wherever. You think the sho's yours? You think the house is yours? You think this is your house? This is your business attack ever. No problem. Good luck. Laws of nature, not what's the difference? What's the what's the unifying factor between moraglin and between? What's the what's the connective tissue? As a believer, he says it all from him. He says, "How can a person stand in front of Hashem and say, "I'm not going in." You know why? Let me give you the logic. Explain to let me explain. Let in case you missed this, Hashem. I don't know if you can see up there. It must be very high. There's fortified cities. Are you serious? I mean, do you see these guys? They're giants. I don't know what you're thinking. We're going to decide over here what to do. It's It's for the kids. No, it's it's not. We're not going in. So, thanks. We appreciate it. Keep the mud going. We need this for a little bit longer. We're going back to the clouds of glory. She's like, I'm sorry. This is a democracy now. Like, I Oh, we're going to decide together cuz you're one where we're moving next. Ah, I get it. You You're the God. I understand now. Ah, you think you can turn to Hashem and tell me what's right. You're going to predict how a battle goes. It's going to be you. You know what that's called? It's called Ga. It's going to be an is going to be Yoshi. You know what? If it's you, I'm out. And if you look at the story of the Moragum, you find something very sad. I find one of the saddest parts of the story of the Moragum take place afterwards when Kisaw get realizes it and says okay okay okay okay we're going in remember the story look at the story inside they go we're going we're going like don't do it like no no no sorry they go in and get killed why she's like wait you think you're going to win a battle you think this was oh I'm sorry you think this is logic you think this is like like battle terrain you think that's how you win wars look at the base allevi you think wins wars based on our battle strategy are you serious if you paid attention to the Jewish people we win war based on We our wars are based on faith. Hashem sends boats. Got to use our hands, but now we're using our hearts too and our souls. Sham says, "Here's the deal. You think you can win?" Going, "Oh, here's how it works. Um, I win." And I was going to use you to be the generation, but apparently you know better. Ah, you're in the middle. You know what? That's same difference. You know why I don't like you for? Because you threaten me. You know why? Because I don't believe that I'm in this world for a mission. I am worried about your success. I am worried about you. Why? Because it's about me. And if I walk around and I am not achieving the game that I was put into, I feel less. And if you are, then I feel like your presence makes me feel bad. And I don't want you to win. I don't like you when you don't look like me. You know why? I like how I look. And look at me every single day. And if you're my type of Jew with my type of Yamaka, let's rock and roll. If you got a different Yamaka on, I don't like you. I mean, I'll pretend right around Tishabove time. But deep down, you know why? Because it's about me. How I talk. As we always say, I'm right in the middle to the right. You guys are fanatics. You don't got to do that. I don't know where you wrote that. I don't know where you I don't know where Robbie told you to do that. It's not real. Okay. It says in the show, big deal. We We don't do that. You You're not even Jewish. Like, do this stuff. Can you step up into my lane? Why? because I am in the center of the world. Hashem says, you know what that's called? Galas. You can be living in the old city in Galas. You can be living in a a an alley in the middle of India in gula. It's about your relationship to the an you know who teaches us ani our environment. The west is a place of anarchism. That's gullis. Gullis is Greece, Rome, right? How did Gullis start? The gullis we're in right now isn't Babylonia. That gullis ended. The gullis we're in right now is the Greco Roman gullis. Yavan, Rome, Edom. It's all one. That's the last gullis. It's all through the Middle Ages and Europe and now America. And we love America and they give us freedom, etc. But what it gives us is gullus. We're in gullis. But the gullus of America, the gullis of it's not just America. It's the west and the east, but let's we're living in the west. If you're not living in America, but you're living in the west, you're living in gullis. But what's the gullus of the west? What makes this country go? Me. Bootstraps independence. Do it on your own. Feeling of that I have to take care of myself. What about you? And what about me? You deserve it. You deserve a You deserve a How many commercials in your life you seen with you deserve a time and time and time and time again, our brains orient around a life that feels normal and it and I'm telling you and again, you could reject this, but between me and you, if we're a zero is a total unavo Moshe and Bum, let's say, if you want to be real today, Before you f break your fast, take five minutes and ask yourself, take five minutes and ask yourself, where do I score for real? No playing. No one's got to look at your score. I'm not Billum, but am I Mosha? And if you feel like a normal person and you're living in this country, chances are you're not on the Mosha side. It's okay. It's normal. It's called living a life where you're taught what do you want to be when you grow up. What does that mean? You know what that means? Let's figure out what you're good at when you're three and now you can do it your whole life. You anyone tell you what's your when you grow up? Anyone have that conversation with what's your do you think when you grow up? Well, what are you talking about? I already gave a guy a dollar. What are you talking about? I got to worry about my family, myself, and my growth. I got to pull myself up. I can do anything. And then you hear this stuff. be hungry, ambitious, win, beat the guy next to you. We we we glorified it. And and I love sports, but we got to call out on Chioas. It's a crazy thing that little kids are put in rooms and being told if you beat the kid next to you, you're a winner. Yay, you outpaced the guy. You elbowed him. It's okay. K ref doesn't see it. It's okay. I'm I'm a sports guy. But it breeds a sense of an it just does. When 15 kids are in a room and one kid memorizes better than anybody else and what one little kid gets put up on a room, it's okay. It breeds a name. It's fine. But let's not forget what it does. I guarantee you Mosher was not having validictorians in by hari. I'm sure they were not playing and I love sports. They were not playing sports mikdash. You know why? Because a doesn't think about any the was running a race he'd be going the slowest because he'd be worrying about the kid whose father is watching and what's his mom going to think needs to win needs to win that sadic needs to impress the r comes down the rabbiton that walks in the room she gets dressed and when she when the rebbitson you respect walks in the room and she gets dressed she's hoping that you all look at her they they come from a different place you know where they come from aani Rak Hashem they're free they're plugged in and in that percentage that they are able that we are able to take the ani and lower it to that percentage we don't go to zero you know what happens as you lower it's like when you're in a pool and you bring the thing down and the water fills in as you lower it you know bunny what happens the fills in because the is always there he's waiting for you not for him you we're sitting around thinking we're sitting around When are you going to bring Gula? Maybe today. Like, when are you going to bring Gula? Maybe today. Like, it's your problem, not mine. You kicked me out. I made the house. I showed up. You kicked me out. And we're like, maybe you'll come today. And's like, yeah, I hope. This is the fight. This is the underlying fight. It's going to happen in three weeks. Let's get it now. Anyways, we're sitting on the floor in three weeks. And when you do and someone goes, don't be like, "Oh my god, Moragum. That's right. Moroglin. Let's get it. Three weeks." Kushbrook will look down and see a bunch of people on for him. What a forem he'll look down and see a few people walking around going ah I'm getting ready for the game getting ready for the test. What is the biggest ani we have? You think the ani starts at you think the ani starts at at at standing in front of and saying no no because if it did we would never fab the ani starts earlier. The ani comes in in a much more subtle way. The ani presents itself way before you get to destruction. You know where it comes in the beginning? Before the atahara comes and messes with the keshu before the comes for one second and says, "Listen, I want you to say no to Hashem." Yeah. He says, "Go forward." And you go, "No." Can you imagine? I want you to look at another Jew and I want you to think bad. I want you to walk into someone else's and not be happy for them. Before the atahara comes and whispers real good anas like the good gya before he does it he sets us up. How? Through the story of Shivasamos. It's a setup. What's the story? It's a logical move. Moshe is not around. They need to fill it out. But if you look at the words, it's not what they're asking for. Look what they're asking for. Ramban picks it up. All of them pick up on this. Rashi picks it up. Here's what he says. They don't ask for for a leader cuz they really want the leader. You know what they would do if they really wanted to replace him for Moshe? What would they do? They would walk up to Aaron and say, "Aaron, take over. Moshe's not here. We've been paying attention. We've been watching the back of the line. You're in the front." When the when the when the s when when the sea splits like we know the whole story of Korak, it was insane. This the ground opened up. Like, holy cow. This is beforehand, but whatever. structurally beforehand. But either way, before Korak, Kisha would come to Aaron and go, "Moshu appointed you." You know what they do? Elohim. No. Rashi says, "Yel, I thought the leader is supposed to have a singular. Yel is plural. What? I thought you wanted to replace Moshe. Mosha is one person. Elohim Zakumar and San. You know what they wanted? They didn't want another Moshe. Now listen closely. When the rabbi told this to me, I was like, it hurt to hear it. They didn't want another Mosha because they wanted an emotion. They would ask Aaron to step in. They wanted another system. The Mosha system wasn't working. There's a guy named Ken Spiro. I once heard him speak. He's great. He's he's a history guy. And he spoke about in Rome, Jews used to be prosecuted, I know this, for for belief in religion or for theology. And they would say in Rome, how could that be? Rome had thousands of gods. We only have one. Why would you prosecute a Jew? you have many more gods than we have. And the answer was because the belief in many gods is the belief in no gods. If I've got 30 gods to choose from, guess who is God? Who? Me. If I wake up in the morning and I have one god, then I'm number two. If I wake up in the morning, I have 30 gods, then I'm number one. I don't wait for my plate to come to me in a restaurant. I have a smorggas board. Now, I can make myself feel like I have the gods, but I'm much better than that. Of course, I know how to play games. But the truth is if I can pick the gods that I want to choose and day one is Zeus and day two is Epher whatever and all every I need son stuff I need B I'm doing this I don't want him to see I go here if I can walk around and be led by lots of different opinions then you know what that means then who is the opinion that I care about the most that is the playing checkmate. You see it? They weren't asking for Moshe because if they were asking for Moshe and they're worried about Moshe, you know what they ask for? They'd ask for iron. Even though Korak came later, they'd ask for they'd ask for the zakaniman. Moshe is not running alone. He's not running his own shop. There's a whole a whole group of people that are there. There are people standing in front. They just sra. It's a group. If they're asking for Elohim, what they're asking for for real is I want a different system. I want a system of gods. I want a system where I have many in front of me. Do you know why? Because what I want to not do is bow my head to one. The first step of knocking Hashem and watch this closely. I'm not going to have enough time. I'll leave you for homework. Look at the world and you will see. Look at different types of whatever. Go do your own homework and you'll see something amazing. Before anybody messes with the kures, they know better. Hashem's Hashem. You know they don't. You know how they mess with the Keshu? They don't go after Hashem. You know they go after they go after Moshe. You see, Hashem did something that was incredible. You know what Hashem did? He created a system of Torah that was unique. It wasn't just I'm handing you a book and figure it out. Torah is not open source. It should be because we're Americans and we should have access to everything. as one guy came to me once at a at a at a at a party a business thing. wonderful Jew. I whatever nice guy he comes to me and he had a whole thing with me about Orthodox Jews and hal I don't know. So he says to me, "What do you know about the Torah?" I said, he goes, "Oh, before you say anything, whatever you know, I know too." I said, "Really?" He goes, "Yeah, everything's online now. I've done a lot of studying. I know what you know. So do me a favor. Don't don't don't tell me that you know more to me. I know everything you know. It's all available today and I study this stuff all the I'm thinking ha really like is the pork in your mouth didn't make it to the thing guys are telling me that and he was serious you know why he was serious for because of this same episode you see the way Hashem gave us Torah listen closely is he did not give it the way the world gets information you see if you live in a secular western world your information comes and it's packaged for the ani because I wouldn't go to it if it wasn't part of myself. And so it has to feel like it applies and it appeals to somebody who is trying to be self-oriented. Hashem built a system in which Torah is not about yourself because if you learn Torah and it all it does builds yourself, it's not Torah. It's a sam mavis. For Torah to flow properly, it's not just the words that you learn. It's the midos you have. The rub says because the midos is the cle. If you're learning and learning makes you arrogant, you're pushing away Hashem through your learning. That's not doing anything. The goal of Torah, it's the word of Hashem. The goal of mitzvah is to connect to Hashem. So therefore, Torah has to make you more humble. And if you're learning your whole life Torah and all you get is ani, okay, it sounds like more you'll make him sound more yeshivish or moreash. You'll use more Hebrew words. But if you walk into a room and you look around and go, I know all that stuff an Hashem's like, not I'm out of here. So what's the point of Torah? Just learn science. What are you learning Torah for? If the whole goal of Torah is Hashem and the goal is to get close to Hashem and it's to devour Hashem, Hashem has to create a system in which when you learn it, you have to learn it and at the same time work on your midos. Because if you don't work on your midos, then what are you learning it for? But how does he do that? How does Hashem create a system that's going to allow you to both be able to grow the ani? Because as you learn, you're going to get smarter and you're going to get more wiser and more respected. Torah is Hashem's godless. You're going to be interacting with divine wisdom. You can have a shabas table and the world's going to be like, "How do you have a family?" You can walk into the room and know how to split the hairs on ideas. A person who's engaged in Torah in Yiddish. They're connected to the divine mind. How could any human being not be a ba? But if you gota hash has to kick out. So now he's stuck. You hear me? So what does hashem deise? It's the most brilliant system. Here's how it works. Perhaps Hashem says, "You don't have Torah. Torah is not given to you. What do you have? You have a couple of books." Torah is a yam. You know how you have Torah? I'm giving you a misora, which means it goes down. You don't just pick it up off the shelf. You can pick it up off the shelf, but you can't just pick it off off the shelf. You cannot wake up in the morning and go online. And I love online. I love everything going online. But if all you have in Torah is just online, you don't have all of Torah because it doesn't flow like GBT and Wikipedia. It's not biology and it's not coding in Claude. It's a mechanism to bring you to me and to come to me. As the rabbi says, you have to learn how to put your head down. If your head doesn't bow to another person that I have put in the misora, you can't get the full package. It doesn't work like that. Your midos have to also grow. And if all you're doing is information, information, information, information, guess what's happening? You're becoming the god. This rabbi for this, this rabbit for this. I'll go online for this. GBT for this. How I got it. I got my cabinet of advisors. Rabbi doesn't know this. I got three therapists here. I got two advisers here. I might ask Rabbi about the business deal. Why would I do that for? Okay. So, it's ribbus. Ribbus. What's Ribbus? What? No, I got it. What does the rabbi know? What does the rabbi know? I I I brought the rabbi in. You think he knows more than me? I paid for his salary. Rabbis. Rabbitens. What? No. I'm a rabbi. I I use arts girl. You know what that's called? Ano? Sounds American, isn't it? It is. But America doesn't bring gula. We can sit for the rest of our lives until we get this. And says, "Put your head down. Who do you ask your questions to? Who do you turn to for advice? You can learn everything if there's not one personal." Why? Because that's how I want it. Hashem says, "I want you to go to some person in your life and not know the answer." Because when you ask a question to someone and not know the answer and you tell yourself before you get the answer, I'll do what he says. You know what you're doing? You're actually getting to me. Because it doesn't matter if you do the deal. I give you Parnosa. It doesn't matter if you go left or right. I run the world. It matters if you're building yourself into a clea so I can live with you. And when you put your head down and you let somebody else guide you, someone you choose very carefully, a RV, a rebbitson, someone in the misora, you know what happens? You connect to what I'm going for and you can know everything, but until you have that, you're not connected. You know what the air does? They come and say, "Ah, I don't I love Hashem. I love Hashem. Me and Hashem. We're boys. I want Elohim. I want lots lots of options. Moshe is too tough for me. I don't know. This whole do everything thing doesn't work for me. I don't know. You see Moshe up there? He's a serious guy. It was too much. Ara, you're going to be like him. You're way too religious. Give me a bunch and we'll make them fly. The ages were dancing. I'll show you miracles. Hashem's like miracles are easy. No, no, you see how you know it's religious. You know how loves it because it's miracles. Otherwise, it wouldn't be miracles is the setup before the goes for the he goes for the Torah. He goes for the misora. He says figure it out on your own. Whatever you feel is true. You don't need to bring to the rabbi into this one. And when you start to break at the misora when a person goes through their lives and looks over to a rv and feels why should I give you respect when a person if you're sitting here right now and you can't think of a rv that you go to to guide your life they're getting you it's hard welcome to being a Jew I don't know who try if you're living your life and you do not and you're listening to this and you do not have a human being that you're going to stand with you in Shamayan and say don't blame me, blame him, blame her. It means we only got one piece. It means the AEL is still here. They got us. They convince us that we're the gods. We can figure it out on our own. We'll just collect a few pieces together and put it into some agent and they'll tell us what to do. And Hashem's saying, "Uh, uh-uh, do that. Learn like crazy. Pick up things off the shelf. Study watch all of Torah anytime, but you need a Mosher Rabenu." And the fight for me and you to put our heads down and to tell ourselves, I don't know how to lead my life. You know why? Because the way Hashem set up the world is that he wants me to be able to put my head down in front of Torah and I'm not worthy of standing before Hashem because I'm not holy. I'm not a nie. So he wants me to go to a representative of his. I got to find one. I got to respect one. I got to be with one. But if I put my head down and I'm able to realize that my job in life is to be able to my das to somebody else. That act of being able to I don't know everything and I can't figure it all out myself is the hardest thing for a good Westerner to say out loud because I could get it especially now with with AI. What can I have? I can figure it out. Hashem says, "If you think you can figure it out, then you're not figuring it out because there's no it out." The first level of what we have to do for three weeks, if we're being honest, I'll say one more thing and then I'll call it. This next thing we're going to talk about for those who want in two days from now, I'm just going to give you a taste. Especially because of today, if we're really being honest with ourselves, we have to take a minute, go back to the sin, and see what that was and say they tried to knock out Moshe. Do I have a Moshe in my life? Have I degraded a rub in front of somebody else, lowering the statuses of Moshe? Even if he's wrong now Moshe's the rves are lower. Have I contributed to that? When I therapist tells me to do something, do I ask the rv to make sure it's kahala or what does the rabbi know? She went to Harvard. Is my life aligned not just with Torah and this is hard but welcome to greatness. I'm not there. Is my life aligned with the msor? If we can't plug into that, how in the world are we going to plug into being close to the kures by? And so the first bit of homework I leave us today is where's my Moshe? Do I have that person? Have I degraded those people? Do I think I'm better than the rabbis or do I have someone that I and I it may take me years to find that person, but I'm searching. Hashem looks down and says, "I want to have my advice come from the misora." The agel knocked us out. I'm not independent. I don't want to be a person that makes my own decisions. I'm going to use my head. I'm going use my I'm not going to be blind. I'm going to read every book on the shelf. I'll learn everything that I can, but at the end of the day, my head bows. And when my head bows, so does my gya. And when my gya bows, there comes the shina. And the second thing I'll mention for one minute, we'll talk about this later for those who go online. There's one other way that we there's two ways we get misra. The first way is with what is the second way? There's only one more way. And the fact that we are not screaming it out right now shows just how much they got us. The fact that we don't know the answer off the top of our heads shows that we are Hashem save us. The modern world has taught us that our parents work for us. If they're not delivering, I don't got to respect it. You know who got shafted in the misora the most? Parents. Hashem says you don't honor your parents because they're good to you. You honor your parents because I told you so. You look around the world and you find if you want to know who is the greatest casualty to a world that's broken misora in a world of the west and a world of gullis it's when kids don't understand that their parents deserve respect because they are in the chain of the msora they gave you msura they gave you your soul and you hear stories of kids that don't talk to parents. It's psycho. Why? Well, when I was 18, my mom didn't understand me. I'm like, what? You out of your mind? Well, my wife, well, my husband. Yeah. Like, you understand that Hashem said that if you don't talk to your parents, if you're not good to them, you're not good to me. Oh, it's about me, isn't it? Aren't I in the middle of the world? Isn't about my suffering and happiness? Hashem says, "Actually, no." We're going to set the parents to another speech, Mashim, the next hopefully the next few days. Our goal tonight before we break our fast, if we really want to be serious, is to ask ourselves, what is it about this moment that is causing our destruction? This is the moment where we realize that what we need to rebuild is the misora. The rabbi says, "How do I rebuild the misora? I want to be back in the chain. And if my misora is strong, I can't go far from Hashem. And if my misora is weak, I'll be making up versions of Judaism and I'll be thinking that everyone else is crazy. You know how I reconnect to a Mosha. I need a RV. I need a Rebbitson. I'm not going through life making it up. Torah is not aggress. And if you don't have one, three weeks, let's rock and roll. Let Hashem see it. And if you do, put your head down a couple more times. Let Hashem see it. And my parents need to have the respect beyond what they do because of who they are. Parents and rebum are the misora. And if our msor is broken, you're going to have in three weeks from now. Are you kidding me? But if our msor is strong, if our chain is rebuilt and we're rebuilding it every single day, then we get to tish and all of a sudden we go, "What's with you people? How could you live without Hashem?" Hashem says, "That's my boy. We should be z to be Jews." That during this period of time, we're not messing around anymore. We're not pumped for chabas would be done. Why do we want to be done? We want to be winning. We want to be growing. We want gula. We don't want to go back to the country. We don't go back to eating. We want Hashem to come down. And guess what? It's a few Jews that can bring Hashem down. Says, "A bunch of Jews that get together and are willing to do something big, me and you have a chance. We really can be a people that gives Mal and Hashemas. And if we spend today before we leave and try our hardest to see how I can rebuild the Mor in my life and for my children and for my grandchildren, we should be z to fix. By the time we get to tishov, we've already already passed the final. Our days