Charlie Harary - Hoshana Rabbah Revealed

It's a big supposed to be here. Thank you again. I remember last year was a very special moment and thank you first of all for organizing and I really appreciate it um for making that all happen to to Miam. Um last year if you remember correctly it was it was like a thunderstorm. Do you remember last sharaba? So I remember coming in here being like I can't believe that like anyone would ever leave their home and the like we got I think that I got from being here meant a lot to me and it dawned on me later how important this day is and speaking to my rebel we leave you about it today especially it really um it was very basher that we're together and that hopefully we should be za to be able to really finalize the den in the right way. Um just a two quick announcements. One is um we're really trying to get a lot of Tik Tok. And then those who are um for those who are watching online, you can go to say tick sayth.org.com sayeth.org.com um and just join us. We're going to try to get a lot of tickly. There's a lot going on under the rabbi really. So if you can say it here, great. We'll say it together in the same movie under his leadership. And then if you can say it online with us and get one in before Yantiff or two, that'd be amazing. So please feel free to say it. And that's uh it'll mean a lot to to all to me and to all of us and all that we're doing. >> See if you can look closer to yourself just >> Okay. >> So as you know, I've had the to learn with this with Robert Mosi for many years. He's my RV and uh and in many ways what happens before Yantiff from Zoh I get a chance to talk to him and he connects a lot of dots and a lot of tonight the entire thing tonight will be based on conversations we've had over many years and especially recently. So like I say the first disclaimer is if you hear something that you like the credit goes to the rabbi. If you hear something you don't like I apologize that I'm the guy in front of you. We're in an amazing period of time right now. We'll be fine. We'll be fine. Good. It's It's not working. >> You're good. You're good. You're good. Okay. Good. Okay. >> We're in an amazing period of time right now. And in many ways, where we stand is the crux of everything we're working on. There's a concept in sports that games are won in the fourth quarter. And what that means is that everybody wants to win games. That's why you play sports. And when you come to the beginning of a game, everyone's excited because it's the game and it's there's pressure and you're not sure who's going to win and people watching and and so the first first few quarters, the first half of the game, it's you're running on Andre on and then the game sets in and it becomes normalized and then you know every play is another play and that the crowd starts to sort of like mute into the next thing and over time when you play any game or any season that which was once super exciting sort dims down a little bit and what ex what what comes forth is exhaustion. You've done this before. You're tired. The variety went down. The the the adrenaline dropped. And the best teams for those who play sports knows the best teams, they don't train for the beginning. They train for the end. Mentally, emotionally, physically, you want to get to the end because the end is where all the all the goods are. In many ways, that's where we are right now. We're in this unique moment called Hosana. Sharaba really is the end of the judgment. That's why you say or something is taking place in Shayim where Hashem is constantly slowing down the judgment. And it, if you think about it, like it shouldn't take this long. It's hash, you know what I'm saying? Like Amazon has prime. You know what I'm saying? Like you can order stuff overnight. the aister could figure out a way to be sitting on rash sha and yam haden and be like listen it's like morning rash shana like I don't know it's like alos we're good it took us a nancond like we're we're finished and then one day and then a second day and then then you have and then you get the kipper and then you get all and then even everyone's exhausted you come home you're not finished are you joking me got the suka and then the whole week of suka then we find out that by the way it's not even done yet tonight like the messenger the the messengers go out like they couldn't go out beforehand what what is taking so long let me explain that I don't know this but in the world of panemas in the world of people that are involved in what's called cavanas they're the way they davin which it has a I guess a higher I know has a higher level of connection he says that the tilos from rashes shana all the way until the beginning of is really one long tila there's a connection from really even before ashan between all the way to tonight up into is apparently like there's some level of it being finished and the stays with us a little bit longer than we get the simplest Torah. So tonight if you think about it and we have different we different huggers tonight different men hugging people stay up and saying which is a big big a big deal and stay up to hill people stay up all night tomorrow feel is a very very inclusive of it has a a feel of yipper it's a different day you went from like which was completely and then it went right back to den so what's happening and what is the den and what can we do to make sure that when the messengers go out, they go out in the best way. So allow me to share a little bit of what the Rev said, we try to build the pieces together. And for those who are watching online, we did this a little bit in sukus and you may hear a little bit of a review, but we'll finish up sukus. We started at now we got to get to the end of the rash begins in a very interesting way. This is a little bit of review for those who may have seen this before but it's okay. Rashana begins in a very interesting way because the story of Rashashana is a story of that first Rashashana and in the world of pineas you know that when you ever have something you look to the beginning of when it was first mentioned and in that moment contains the seeds of what it stands for and at the beginning of Russia shana you're telling we know the story of and is in the and the aish after a little bit of time makes a and makes And he gives to Adam and on the first day of the Kava decides to sit with to to consort with the and to go to Adam and make him do the one thing that he wasn't supposed to do which is eat from the tree turns to Adam and says now the or the from say wait a secondy what's ayaka means you're playing with him there's nobody else in the classroom right it's one kid sitting in front of the teacher. There's not a million people in the world. He's not like finding Hashem somewhere and then he finds him and he goes to Herit and he comes back and finally there's no one else in Shul. It's Adam and he's cheating and he just was created. It's day one of his life. He only knows daddy. Like he doesn't know of anything else. He didn't leave and go to yet. He's sitting at home and he's cheating. His hand is in the cookie jar. And his his mom's like standing there in the kitchen with the hand in the cookie jar. And she goes, he's like, "What do you mean? If you want to punish him, just punish him. If you don't want to punish him, then don't punish him. Ayaka is like you're toying with him." And the author says, "In fact, the didn't want to punish him for the sin. Something else was going on. [snorts] Harishon ate from the tree and it's sin. The misa alone wasn't enough to kick him out because there's two different levels of activity. There is what you do and there's who you are. What you do is what you do. But it doesn't come out of nowhere. The things that we do don't stem from nothing. Most of the time when we do things and we're not doing it because it's just monkey see monkey do. When kids are very little and you make faces at them sometimes they'll copy you but very soon in a person's growth they stop doing that and they start doing things based on something that is behind the misa and that's called amida. Amida is a trait. It is almost like a conditioned trait of who you are and that mida drives you to do certain things. So for example, we did this this example earlier when I was in Muny before the year before the Russia sh everyone has a friend that's a fetch. Everybody has at least one good fetch as a friend. And how do you know? Because every time you speak to her or him it's always wrong. You don't is always the wrong time. It's always too hot or too cold or too rainy or not rainy enough. Right? The the the temperature in the shul is never right. There's not enough food at the kdish. Even when you speak to them about the day, when you hear them speak in their day, they speak in fetch, right? The whole day is and then I had to cook and then I had to do this and I had to go there and then I had to do this and you know what happened here. They're the way they vent, the way they connect to other people is in a fetch. If you listen closely and close your eyes, you would think they have the hardest life ever. But when you break and some people are struggling, but these the fetchers don't have when you really break it down, they're fetching about everything. Guys have it also. Everything is an issue. Everything is the beginning of a of which the chose them to be pinazar. And they walk around with a spear at all times. Now, when you speak to them one-on-one, you find that they're mostly right. Y always finds a way to fall out in a place that it's never fully convenient for our schedule and it's a little hot and I love why it didn't rain and there should be more food and I can't believe they're making a wedding in Lakewood like nobody's from Lakewood. Why do I got to show up to Lakewood on a Sunday? And you know what the truth is? Someone said something that wasn't 100% right and I got to check with this rebby and whatever. Yes. And when you deal with people at the level of M, you we don't get anywhere because they're in some ways they're right. But it's only for a few people that seem to always be in the space. Why? Because what's driving the misa is a mida. The mida is male. The mida is I'm in the center of the world. And I judge what is good by how I feel. And when it feels off, it must be off. And if it's far from me, it's just far. And if it's too warm, it's just too warm. And if I don't understand why you said this way, it must not be kala or because I if it wouldn't be because otherwise I would get it. And I the aister must be wrong because the kesh bro who couldn't figure this out. I spoke to this wonderful girl I don't know who she is but she called for and she gave me a a real in her mind a clear a clear logical proof for why the kureshu can't be here because she's a mother and she would never do this to her kids. So the kuresh who did it to his kids so therefore he must not be a loving father. I'm like that's it? That's the extent of your theological ability to understand the aster. But in her mind, she's like, "Yeah, I get it. What a diff between me and my kid is different than Hashem and me." I'm like, "No, no. Hashem is your father, but there's no other calculations that's taking place in the world. It's a mida and the mida is ani." Understand something. This mida of ani is the mida. It's a mid the the this the from believing of course the the the the turn to and says again if you're watching us online we do this but stay with us and waiting why because what if said you know what my bad she's my wife it's the first day I'm trying to impress my wife you know I don't want to look like the I want I look like the geek they're all like you know she looks like a cool guy I'm sorry my bad or you Know what? Eight. I don't know. Like that's pretty enticing. Like I'm sorry. My bad. I shouldn't have I shouldn't have driven in the car. I'm only 11. It's a misa. My fault. Saida. I can handle my off. What's Adam say? You have time on me for the by the way. Good call. No, she's perfect. You figure when the resume says mom and dad Hashem, she would lead you towards the aish and not towards the one thing I'm not supposed to do. You know who? You know who's at fault? You're at fault. If she says, "Ah, I'm at fault." You're complaining. Complaining. You are. You know the type of wife that you should have. Ah, you know about women. You were married for a day. I must be wrong. I guess so. It's a mida that caused it. If you know to that means that there's some bit again, this is marisha. We're not talking about marisha. This is what words on the page. If you know to ver it means that you have a piece of you that thinks that you're also eloqu sour is called life. What is good and bad that tree belongs to me. And if you think it belongs to you then it's a mida mida can't equal so simply roshashana comes and the real and this is so critical we did this last year we did this when we came but by by the we were here again remember before shvis it's the same midos we're going to see today how it connects mit from the rabbi it's the same midos the game of life is the game of midos because if our midos are off the cleave is broken Nida of Ani of Gav I in the middle could make a Jew seem so f you see by the Greeks they had deities they did they bowed to them they did crazy things to them they did they waved things they did things they ate things they sacrificed we think like it's like such a big deal for us to be shaking a branch they've been shaking branches off trees from the beginning of time We think like doing a a kaparo, walking to shul or domining for a few hours or fasting. Do us a favor. There are people that have been doing rituals from the beginning. They're from Edosh. The rituals, everyone does a ritual. The rituals are only valuable because they come from the word of the kureshu. But if I am doing the ritual in order to get the kures to deliver what I want him to deliver, am I doing it for him or am I doing it for me? Am I using Hashem to get what I want? I want a good year and I know what that looks like. I know tovra clearly I know to and I know what I want and I now I know how to get it because now I got an easy pass lane called Judaism. Now I don't want to necessarily diving along or fast but whatever. I know what it's like to kiss up to a teacher. This is how we pass through school most of us. This is what happens if you get pulled over in a cop. This is what happens when you go to work. We know when the boss when the we know when the authority says I am giving out things to do. We know how to put our heads down and say whatever it IS THAT YOU WANT. You're so funny. Oh my gosh. Sure. Absolutely. I'll do my papers. We know how to give in our finals and pretend like we're good students the night before. Why? We don't really care about the subject. We care about the grades because we care about the next level. We know how to do these things. So the kuresh shows up and says the den. We come in and go, "Okay, den." But the question is not whether we show up. That's already a level that we're in the room. But the if we want to be growers, if we want to understand ourselves, we have to ask ourselves, am I in the room because I know to ver and as a result, I want to make sure Hashem gives me what I want. It's close but it's far as we see it on the page complaining. Complaining a lack of gratitude is amida and amida is I'll take it but what's next? I got it. Thank no I got it. I'll take that. I'll take the help. I'll take it. Thank you. But now what? But what what I gave you? You give a little kid a cookie, right? You go, "No, here's the cookie." [laughter] He goes, "No, of course. I got the cookie." Yeah. Thank you. Let's go. You don't have the box. You got the box. You're three. Like, "Yeah, I got it. Thanks for the cookie." Like, "Next. Thank you." I said, "Thank you." I said, "Thank you. Never had this." I said, "I said thank you. But didn't we take you less today? Didn't I say thank you? What have you done for me lately?" All the kids are wonderful. You come to Rashashana and the Kuresh says, "You want to know what Rashashana is? Rashan is one word. And guess what? I'm not even going to bring up m. You know what I'm not bringing up m for? Cuz m going to throw things off. Once you get into me, it's all going to be about you again. I can't I can't be you're going to show up with all with a whole book of katasis and all I got to deal with. I'm not good enough. I'm not good enough. I'm not good enough. Stop. No m the nut is the ganch. Just leave it off. Leave it off. Let's do one thing. Can we do one thing first? Let's get to the toida. Who's the melik? Let's do that. Who's the malik? Who sits on the throne? There's there's room for one. The real work of rash sha. And this is the I'm telling you this. I'm sure we all know this. This is the hardest aod a Jew can go through. It's the avoda of anova. And gya. Ga is not arrogance. That's easy. Gya is I'm in the middle. GIA is I I know what I am. I'm I'm what I do. I'm what I have. I'm how I win. I'm how I lose. It's I got I got to I got to get I got I got I got that's closing my eyes on and thinking about my job means I am controlling my job. Closing getting through a shakus over four hours in the morning while I start my whole day is that I clearly am in charge of my day. Doesn't appear as arrogance. Walking into a room and getting offended and we all get offended or better walking into a room and getting insecure comes from a place of listen you know who you are. You're just a piece of me. You're nothing you'll ever do in your life and ever get in your life will be more valuable than the infinite. And you're already the infinite. So, how about that? You win. You're infinite. The trillionaire is not infinite. And I put you in this world for a very specific reason. And I'm going to help you get there cuz I'm Hashem and I'm the father. So, I'm going to give you things. And if you do the things that I give you and you connect the dots that I tell you to connect and throughout the day, you walk around with gratitude and with trust and with belief that I run the world, you will do your tikun in this world. And you will not ever be more satisfied than a life in which you feel you came to this world to do that which is uniquely meant for you. But the world doesn't tell that to us. The world says that's not why you're here. You're here because your value is what you do. So if you're good at school, your value is the A's next to your name. And if you're good at clothing, your value is making sure you wear the latest clothing. And if you're good at money, your value is your wealth. and all of and everything in between. How funny you are, whether you can run here, whatever, all the details. And we go through life and because we we live in the west, we go through life and we don't know what it's like to be. We've never had that experience. We got it as we came into this world. But we do know what it's like to have mommy be proud of us when there's enough A's after our name. And we do know what it's like to walk on a stage and people clap for us because we can memorize well. And we do know what it's like when we have homes that people look at and go, "You must be so smart." And we do know what it's like when we walk into a room and it goes, "Where did you get that? You look amazing." And we do know what it's like when we say something, people go, "Wow, that's so We know what it's like to walk around and get attention or to accomp or to not accomplish something based on that which I do and that which I have." That's me being in the middle. Because if you could just give me more of that, Hashem, I'll be happy. Just give me more of that. And some of the stuff is legitimately real. Health, happiness, family, building families. There's a lot of real legitimate stuff in doing and having. We should all have good things. Shaatov um but understand something that feeling that we all have. And if you don't have it, my gut is that you are so far in it that you don't even see it. If me and you walk me and you're walking around and you can tell what it is that you are closely identified with because that's what is emotionally connected to you. When you walk into a room and somebody has something that you want, you feel the rabbi always said you feel less. That's how you can tell what you're identifying with. when your eyes are closed if it's not a Christ what you're doing for. one time went to see a big sadic in the north whatever a narra went to see see a big sadic someone and I went a man's a guy like a Israel he's sitting there and he says to me um America I said yeah he goes from I said yeah he goes parnasa I'm like how did you know he goes kulam shim parnasa I said everyone he goes every American comes from parasa I said what are the Israel they ask for goes they all ask for I said wait goes all the Americans that come if you're going to come to and find a way to get up there you know what I'm saying every guy that ends up by this He needs money. He has money, but it's who he is. So if it's who you are, you can never get enough. And every that's running up to the top that probably has a kid who's not learning as well. And he wants Tyra. It's who he is. Beautiful. What's money is not what I need to put in my fridge. Money is who I am. For some people, by the way, and Tyra is amazing. But some people even Yiddish's like that. That's not You can't compare money to Yiddish. But if I'm doing it in order to be seen, if I'm doing it in order to be valued really, really, really, if we're going to be honest, and how could you not be honest air of the day that the messengers are going out, it's like se it's we're almost there. It's to us by it's really us and it's okay. Says it's okay. You recognize the issue. You almost deal with the issue by recognition cuz the plays us as if it's not a problem. And once it's a problem, you're already fixing it. >> It is one thing you know to I hope it's sweet Hashem. Oh man, you're going to give but I hope it's sweet. I hope I get it. But good can put his head down. Midas Anava greatest man ever was Mosher Benu. They didn't call him the smartest. They didn't call him the most guy you can memorize. Then he called him the strongest or he went up against power and he went against the you know what made him so strong you know what made him so great he had one trait what was his trait head went down cuz when your head goes down you know what you know when your head goes down you know where it connects to it's a plug it connects into the outlet you know what the outlet's connect to infinite Moshe got it he could be the strongest man in the world he's only strong because he's connected all the strength that we want in our lives happens either with me alone and I I'm I'm on battery power my whole life and I can have 40 battery packs behind that phone and it can go long or I'm plugged in and when I'm plugged in the green thing goes on when I'm calm it's a choice it's a choice that means we walk out the door and we say I am no longer in charge of to and ra I'm only in sweet and sour tove guaranteed aba that's it the hardest It's the hardest but it's the only thing that sets us free. everything out everything after that to that extent it's a fight and you can come to and you can fight Hashem because you can say I know to I need this on to the rabbi he said to him be careful for doving for something for too long said why he goes because sometimes it's supposed to come at this time but Hashem loves his kids and if you dive in too hard and you don't dive in with a whatever you want I want this you can dive in for everything we But we say letova which means I I trust you but I want it but I trust you. If you don't have that I trust you in there. Sometimes you get something too early it's not good. Get it at the right time. Hashem knows what he's doing. You can do for it and sometimes tila opens the door but you're dinging not as a kfetch. You're dvening as a I am a son coming to my father. I want this. I'm supposed to want this but I want it if you want it. It's hard. It's hard. But being a Jew is hard, but it's also amazing. That's what happens when you're the prince in a palace. Being a princess in the palace of a king is you can't just walk around however you want, but you're the princess. We're standing in front of a king. We're invited to his ballashana. He says, "Welcome my children, but remember the throne is mine. I'll give you a lot. You can walk into a room, open up a a tahill, and the world changes. You have the ability to sit around and it's amazing. And you watch Yidden operate, they they're not even bothered by the world. They're not bothered by the world. It's the coolest thing in the world. See the difference between Yidden and the rest of the world. It's a miracle that takes place on an airplane. Rest of the world's like, I'm so lucky. The guy all the like stop the whole world. We have a lot. But our head goes down. The mida. That's how den begins. The den is the mida. Who is in the center of the world? The is in order to mean that's why shabas is allowed to even knock out chauffeur. My rabbi says why shabas? Because he may carry on the because shabas is the chauffeur. It's the testimony of the who runs the world the chauffeur shabas. It's the same thing. It's even a deeper mama. It's a it's a it's a weekly being able to be mama. And the din begins in a world a world of gratitude. Why? Because gratitude is the proof that you are not in the center of the world. You don't we don't have to wait for crisis. If you want to see a person that is not in the center of the world, you will find someone that is so grateful. Hodah, no timelessness on the border. Someone, God forbid, that went through something, they they recovered. You talk to them. They're different people. You can see people and you talk to them. And when you talk to them, you'll tell right away their connection to the by how many times what comes out of their mouth is doesn't have to be with pain. It could be with life the the says at his level the sin eating the sin was not good enough. Not good enough. She's perfect. Ally, she's perfect. You made her perfect. And the rash turned into how did you give me this life? I can't even imagine. I can't I I I can't even count the amount of things like my because I dabed a few times because I may have learned a word in my life. Maybe if it was even I learned it properly. Why? Why? I have a yamaka. I deserve all of it. You hear stories of Jews hooking up Jews and this and I deserve to be part of this nation. I deserve this head goes down says you're grateful of everything I give you. That begins then. Wait, we're going to go somewhere. We're at Hosano. Just give me a few minutes. I want to keep want remind me in case I forget this because I got to circle back to it. Remind me about the okay in case I forget the kosh looks at the ma the mice is off. He looks at the mid. The meat is off. That's a different story. Now remember something as rabbi explains. Mesle a blemish. They do a bear is our tame. They pull us from the kures. People walk around they think they're moral but they don't keep co they're not from they're sweet. Hasham should bless everybody. Midos come from connection to the kurbu. Everyone's wonderful. God bless America. Midos come nidos come from connection to Hashem. When we pull from a kuru, we blemish that connection. We blemish that anova. It's the proof that we don't bow to Hashem. the mida kicked him out and we go through the week and what we're trying to do is build the muscle of amuna. Amuna is not just Hashem created the world. Amuna is Hashem creates and guides every decision in my life when I walk outside. And as you look at the and if you look at all the swarm of you will see they're super clear. What does that mean? Like a shade moves, the moves. If I choose to give the power to somebody else, they have the power. If I choose to keep the power by the I have more hash and we go through the beginning of our year. And as we go through at the beginning of our year, we're working on the mida of I don't want from the you know where I want to eat from. I want to eat from the That's the tree that you want me to eat from. We all we want is connection life. Life means I'm plugged in. I have life. I have charge. All I am I asking for Da. There's no place where you have throughout the entire yonted process with more daas. We ask for the abisher. We knock out the middle bra and say take over the world please. That's all I want. My head goes down. I want just plug me in. I'm done pretending to be the king. The whole aod of 10 days is an avod of I want to be plugged in. And we get to Yom Kipper and the Ashknaz here is but the Ashknazm not by the by the but by the we have a during do a bynazm they have a thing where they they read that malus you know comes from Roman times where one of the Roman kings decided he was going to kill all the Roman all the sadikim many of the sadikim 10 sadik it's a tish story but somehow it makes it to kipper how come and the answer the explains is that this is the yard of the annivers the yarda was was young kippera was the greatest reb of all time was what happened they tooka they held him in a prison and they they stuck him there and they're ready to kill him as part of the story and if you read the malus you'll find something so touching in the story of the malus if you can read it inside you at some point flies up to wherever he flies up and he asks is this axer and they say it is aer and the mal The highest turn to the and they look a Roman general, a guy has the right to touch says one more word I'm taking you back to to Shamun inspired them said we got this what was that about it's about yum kipper yum kipper is when we turned to the kesh bro and say I don't have any more questions stood up and couldn't get out of the jail says could jail his his student one time the famous story was one of the students came back from and he made a few dollars and all the guys in the base measures were a little excited from remember the story and walked him into a valley snapped walked him into a valley snapped his fingers and the entire valley was full of gold coins four walls too much for Rubya some cuffs for really he's he's shaking in front of a Roman general that would change the whole world was shaking in front of a Roman general he could snap his fingers and be in the north in a second. No questions. Cuz in the back of our minds, if we're being honest, the back of our minds, we all have what happened in the what happened to this family? What about happened here for this? How come I don't got it? How come this happened? I can't connect the dots. Hashem, your kid should always win. How could they win? How could this happen? I know you're the Malik. I know you're the Malik. I got Rashet. I I can't is the battlecry of the Yateser that holds us back from falling back into our father's arms. Is he really loving? Is he really loving? Could he really love us? I heard the story took place in in Europe. I heard a story took place in I heard a story about this f. Could he really? Is it really? Can I trust him? Could I really trust him? That's Yum Kipper. And on Yum Kipper that comes and says, "I'm done. You know I'm looking forward to the And guess what? I get to fulfill his will. And now I learned that I get to be as they're destroying me and killing me. I get to fulfill a he died with the word on its lips." What does mean? means I have no questions. You know I have no questions for cuz I'm two. I'm not the mel. I don't know rah and to we're not eating from the tree. All I want is and is the plug. I don't understand how the world works. And I could spend my life trying to figure out how the aish is working it. Or I could spend my life saying, "Ma, what does Hashem want from me today? Today, today is not asking and what's going to be and what's going to be and what's going to be and what's going to be." Raven was not saying, "Wait a second. What are you talking about? You promised me a son my whole life. Wait today." He didn't wait until maybe he could do the degree in today. What do you want from me at your service your honor? And looks at you and goes and your mim are supposed to be for me and your mad yourself not to die to live. Give me give me leash. Forget it. What? What is this? This isn't who you are. That was the person who thought they were the king. Bring him bring them. Bring him. Come on. Come on. Come on. Come on. Asham the beagana whatever whatever you come out of your kipper clean you know why you're cleaning your kipper we're cleaning your kipper because we're done being in the middle we're not clean because Zeus gave us a look down and sort of sacrifice and so that we fasted for a few hours and so as a result the same people get a clean bill for real it's a mikvah mikvah means you remove everything and the bishop goes if you come in with just you not your stuff yeah Zara is gonna be in your head. If I have to explain to you, I got to bring you back to basic. You're holding by your gulum. You're holding by what you did. If you explain to me person sees somebody gives him an iron love, they can cause damage and you're holding by the fact you're sitting in the back of sh a guy mentioned someone's name and you breathe the wrong way because you know the guy from when you were a kid, he doesn't give him the job. You're holding by you understand the sitting by. You say something that's a little bit too much. You think that you're holding by the you're not holding by the you just know that it's all so you hold back someone you call we're holding in the din I can't figure it out I there's no way all the good that I did all the stuff that I I have no idea what do you need from me I'm living ales hashem you live alkashem then you're not the same person that's called amuna That's our job. Our job in this world to be like Mosher Rabeno. It's not to win. It's not to have the most. It's not our job. You know what our job is? Anas, what do you need for me today? You need me to open up a sitter? I'm not thinking about my day because you need me to open up a sitter. You need me to go into my day. I'm not thinking about anything else because you need me on my day. You need me on the floor making a kid happy? I'm on the floor. Where do you need me? Because where you need me is where I need to be. I can I can plan for tomorrow, but between me and you, Hashem, how many times have I planned for tomorrow, it didn't come true. So, I'm doing myas, but I know at the end of the day, it's just all you. As the B says, now we're getting somewhere. Mr. Sham from the rabbi, if you go through 10 days with a prep, right, we didn't roll in. by the SP. We were doing this for a month. We appreciate you coming into the party whenever you came. It's wonderful. But at some point, you showed up to too. It's okay. Whenever you came, we're happy you came. You got to rush together. Everyone's wonderful. Every min is everyone has what they have and everything is in the eyes of no one's better than the next. Every Minhug is perfect if it's from. We got 10 good days. that we turn to the kures and at the end of 10 days if we did our job we stare at the kureshu the name of is the name of the name of elohim is the name of din of nature hava nature's down we turn to the kures when we say hashem and we scream I got it I'm just saying we do by hashem I I got it it's so clear to me. I I got lost. I don't know where I went, but I understand. Kosh says, "Well, well, we got that's all I wanted. I'm here for you." Yu amuna. What does a muna bring? [clears throat] What does a muna bring? So, watch how this works. When you live a life in which you're always in the center, you live in a world of limit. What the Greeks do to us, remember the Greek virus. Remember, we're all living with a Greek virus. If you don't if you don't think you have a Greek virus, then you need more antibiotics. Golus is perspective. It's not locationational. There are people in Aritus right now deep in gulus. And there are people in America that are. It's here. It's in the nama. It's in the mind. It's perspective. The gullus perspective is the west. The west is the world of this world, right? It's what you have is in front of you. It's materialism. It's I when I live in a world of like I said earlier who I what I do and what I have is who I am. I'm living in a gull state. Of course I'm not connected to I can turn I can be so to speak I could I can play with a deity in gullis. The Greeks did it. The Romans did it. Idol worship did it. They they played around with kas. They didn't go to the abisha but they play with kus. That doesn't make me from. What makes me from is what my relationship is to that. If I live in the world of gullless, I'm always limited. Once I'm limited, I'm only happy when my reality matches my expectations. That's why we live in a world where people aren't happy. I don't know about you, but people that are less happy than my Holocaust surviving grandparents alashsham. I remember as a kid growing up in their home, they survived the Holocaust. I remember as a kid in their home and them saying, "Charlie, we're nervous about the next generation. They're so not happy." I'm like, "Am I having this conversation with Holocaust survivors that they're worried about people that grew up in America that are not happy?" Yeah. Why? Because the more it's about us, the more my happiness is based on whether or not my expectations are matching my reality. But that means we're all expecting reality to match. How could reality match all that? And what about the things we have to do in this world? And what about growing up? And what about not being spoiled and the kesh in the whole world doesn't work like that? That's why we're in and out of happiness. That's why people are like, h how you doing? Okay, surviving. How many how many have walked down the street and they're glowing? You go to store, you see someone in an apartment, tiny little apartment, and they're glowing. You're like, what's going on? And you come to people, walk the streets, just try it yourself. Hi, go to show who's how are you? And just see if you can measure their happiness levels. Do we walk around anyone with like an 11? How? How? Because I'm in the middle. I can't be happy because I'm in the world of limitation. But if I'm in the world of amuna, go from the driver's seat to the back seat and I get to get on the road trip and just look out the window and have fun. You know what that's called? Once you get to a moon, you know what you have next? I could be in a hot under the rain. I don't care where I am. It's like when you ever watch a little kid, little kids before they get older and independent when they're little, like three, four, they'll be playing and like mommy or whoever will go to the next room and they'll take their toys and they'll just play next to mommy and then she'll go to the and what's going on? The answer is I just need to know that you're around me. I just need to know that you're because if me and you are if you're over my head, Hashem, I just went through 10 days. If you're here, I don't care what the walls look like. I don't care that they're shaking. Trust me, my house is more insecure than my walls of my of my suka. If you're on top, I get to enjoy. Rabbi always says sukus is the one yontiff where you get mitzvah for being you. Eat, drink, chill, talk under me mitzvah. It's amazing thing. You can't sleep out the s going sleeping is not even conscious. I'm not even doing anything. I'm literally not doing goes, what do you have to do in order to connect to me? You're my child. You're my child. You just have to be. Doing is what you made yourself do when you got to this world. Being is what I'm looking for. You're me though. So who you are. You're doing is what's making you crazy in life. Sit in the suka and just be. Just be. Just be with me. And if a Jew is able to be with Hashem and not have run all the time, not to compete on the sukas, just to be under the tail of the what he experiences, which he experienced something called sim means I'm not in control and it's okay. Simka means I am giving up to and all I got to do is try to do my job. Sukus follows yum noram when it shouldn't. Why shouldn't it? Because it happened after we got out of the midbar. It could be whenever. So how comes the Torah says the reason is because we want you to have a hecker that you're going out to. What do you mean? We want you to have a hecker that it's not during the in the spring when everyone's going to huts when you're going into Wait a second. We have a mitzvah. We have we have a which is from How does that make sense? Where do you get that init measurement? Imagine mistar kipper guys like four going it's not working for me I'm outstra from fillain mistar from from from what does it mean from the suk you know what it means as the rabbi says you know what it mean it means if you're not happy in the suka you're not you don't belong in the suka abra doesn't want grouches didn't we do this in rash shana if you're sitting in my suka and you're fetching you don't belong here it's not working don't fetch stop if you're not bimha in my suka it's not working for you the cup is not working just go and I'll take the sukas. They put them into yamas. It's in it's in it's in September which really should be in. You know why? Cuz they're setting us up. It's going to be a little raining. It's going to be a little cold. It's not going to be perfect. It's going to be a little small. And the keshb who's looking. And he's saying are you happy to be with me? Are you happy to be with me? If you're not, if you're still fetching, you're mit your potter. My son told me a great part said to me the katka says a mit which means once you start the doesn't work for you out the out the whole goal of what's going to be wherever you go if I'm with you. Now the goal of sima now what is simha? Simka is not getting what I want. That's Greek. You know what simra is? I'm connected to more. I'm connected to more. If I'm my eyes are open, I'm doing my job. My job sometimes is teaching. My job sometimes is schleing. You know, my job sometimes is eating and just being. Sometimes my job is figuring out if it's raining or not. That's my job. Yes. No. Yes. No. Yes. No. Should I? Shouldn't I? That's my job. If I did it to buy a building, I'd be cool. If I do it for suk, I'm fetching. If I'm connected to Hashem, I'm because it means that me, the real little old me, means he wants me. The Jew and Isuka goes, "Wait, Hashem, I'm just napping. You want, but I'm so little in this world. I haven't accomplished what I should accomplished. I'm not enough. I I'm I'm listening to podcasts that tell me that guys were billionaires at 20 listening I go into shu I go into this thing and everyone looks at me I'm racing every day of my life I I can't catch up I don't have Hashem says yeah but you're still my daughter but how could you possibly be proud of me says what what's wrong with you what's wrong with you the Greeks got you sit in my home because you are valuable for you. And every day I am building a world around you. Plug in to more. If you do that today and for the rest of your life, you experience something called simha. And if we don't, we're never happy. We're only happy the moment the trophy goes over our heads and whatever that is. And then we put it down and we start again. And then comes Hosanna Rabba. And what's the judgment? Listen to what the rabbi says. What is the manifestation of whether or not you're bas What is the manifestation? What is Watch this. What is the manifestation of whether or not you fully did your job? Amuna and Simha amuna it's everything connected to him I I I can live my life and every day just do my best and legitimately my best I don't mean do less than my best but trust and believe that is bespoking my life I can come to I'm not competing how do I know if I'm competing how do I know. How do I know if I look at somebody else and I feel less? How do I know if I'm living a life where who I am is being and doing or who I am is sorry, if I live a life where it's doing and having or if it's being, how do I know if the is on top of me? And this is called zuama of the was the reason for all of this. Remember the is the didn't go away. What drove the tells us was driven by one thing. He saw and had a relationship. They were a couple and he was jealous. Kenna. Kenna drove [snorts] the entire process. What is Kenna? Kenna means that me and you are in the same finite playground. Your winning is my losing. If your mug is right, then my mug is wrong. If you've accomplished something, that means I'm not accomplishing. You making a sim that's bigger than mine means that my simra wasn't as good as your simra. Kenna means that I'm living a world in which I'm back in identifying with what I do and what I have. Kenna is the disconnection from the infinite. Because if it's infinite, where's the ka? If I hand you a credit card and say it's unlimited, there's no limit. Everything, everything, planes, planes, islands, islands, and you see your friend and your friend is trying to shop for shabas and they're struggling. You wouldn't swipe. It's unlimited. You wouldn't go to everyone, you know, every organization, knock on the door, and go, "It's unlimited." Hold on a second. Swipe. It's free. If Infinite was your source, you wouldn't share it with the whole world. The only reason why you wouldn't share something is because you don't believe it can possibly be. Even as I tell you the mush, you're like, "It's impossible. Everything we do in this world is finite. Everything we are in this world is finite. Even as we see ourselves, we're finite. The insecurity that breeds us is the finitness of our lives. We grew up in a world where wherever you grew up, we grew up in a world there's only a certain amount of A's. There's only a certain amount of spots in camp. There's only a certain amount of people that get married first. Only a certain amount of people that make money. There's only a certain amount of people sit in the front. There's only a certain amount of kids that can memorize. Only a certain amount of kids in the year. There's only a certain amount of everything. Always. Always. And we always grow up in a world where we are in the middle of some something in which there is a finite amount going around. That's called gullos. That's what it means to live in a world. But the job of a Jew is to turn to a world and say it only looks finite because you're looking at a world because what you do and what you have is who you are. Who you are is a piece of the which means you're here for a reason which means Hashem is guiding your life to perfection. There's no in there's no finite finite only looks finite. But your life was being guided by your father. Remember rash remember rash. Remember remember what it's like to sit in a suk. You remember what it's like to be in a hut of insecurity but the is over you. What that means is that when you go through your life and all you're asking is what does Hashem want from me today? I bow to you Hashem. You're the mel. What can I do for you today? I had a friend of mine that was a a United States commando. He was a I don't know if he's a commander, but he was a a a highlevel person in in in the army. He said to me, "What it means to be a elite soldier, right? An elite soldier means you they train you that wherever you wake up may not be where you sleep. Until you get that, you can't play. The minute you understand why I wake up in one place, I may get a call at noon. We're getting on helicopters and we're flying tyrant." I told me, "Until you get that, you're not an elite soldier." Why? Cuz you service the country. You may not sleep in your bed. If you're an elite commando, if you're an elite serviceman, your wife knows if you got a trip planned, it may get cancelled. You may leave in the middle of the trip, serve the country. Who says you woke up in the morning thinking going left? What if I send you five things to the right, seven smiles, two hellos? What? What? Fall back. Fall back but how come I fall back but relax back suka suka protects you cover and cover gets rid of the rose that's what the rabbi says you put sukus right after the den but how do I know you lived in a suka how do I know you lived in a suka I'm almost done paraphernitia landing how do I know you lived in suka for because you lived in a suka you know how I Cuz you look at your friend and if you're trying [clears throat] to beat your friend, you clearly don't live in my there isn't a parent that I know that it gets nah when he watches one kid beat his be his brother and sister nas. Don't you get that I'm the dad? I want them both to win. And any parent knows that if you've got a kid who's an ace and he gets 95s when he wakes up and he has an hour to get to 100 and you've got a kid who's struggling and he can pass and that child can choose between the 100 perfection or helping his brother pass and drop his grade to a 90. I don't know a parent that would say get the 100, let the kid fail. Who's your brother? I get nakas when one brother fails. I get nakas when one brother loses. And if you're the 70 and you watch your son, your brother get a hundred and you look at your father's glow. If you loved your dad, you would say, "Ah, I couldn't get there." But for my father to watch my brother cuz if you love somebody, you see the world through their eyes. The abisha likes the fact that one Jew wins and one Jew loses. Maybe she gets that I'm winning a race. I make a and everyone feels bad and maybe she gets from my I walk into room and I see someone that needs my help and I don't think about it cuz she's not like me. Maybe she should get from now. We have to be normal. You have to have common sense. You have abundant. You have you have you have you have you have you have dastora. Okay. You got to know how to navigate your life. Kot says I didn't tell you to do anything yet. I didn't put you onto the world. You know what I'm asking you? What do your eyes see? Want to know what the end of the judgment is? The rabbi says the judgment is on your eyes. On your eyes, on your truly it's really your that's the true judgment. It's your fine on which you can give whether you're a taker or giver from what I understand. I'm sure it's much more complicated, but from what I understand, but begins with your eyes. What does that mean? Your eyes are infinite. They're free. I can't help you buy the thing you need, but do I want you to have it with all my heart? I see you and you have more than me. I can't I can't take that. I can't get more. But you have more. Am I happy for you? Like thrilled for you. Like thrilled. You You're You're making a sima. That means aish is making a No one's asking me to swipe a card. Don't ask for me to go to who? You want to know where the bra comes? It comes by. It does. It comes by giving. Comes by being a giver. It comes by not being in the center of the world. Those are all big things. You know where we can tell? You know where we can tell? We can tell by the zuama of the nash. That was the first thing that started the whole snowball. One Yates looked over to two people and said, "How come he has a wife and I don't?" The whole game starts before Adam goes to the tree on Russia Shana before we begin. The first thing that really happened the be the pie the beginning seed of the whole estalas is the Yates are going how come by him and not by me. It's the same Yateser that we still have. It didn't go away was looking at us on a shar and saying where are your eyes? We went through a long time. You sat in my suka. Now you're looking over to your friend. Insecure because she has someone needs something. You want them to go and get everything or just just enough to keep them dependent on you? What if the guy who needed something became the biggest cavir? You'd be pumped for him. You'd be like, "Easy, easy. I'm still very." What if someone else's kid became the top of the class and he was struggling when he was little? What about the family that walked in that didn't know Yiddish kite as well as you did and they're the talk of the town? Take the thing that you identify with and ask yourself, I'm telling you, this is not easy stuff, but guess what? This we're princes and princesses. Take the thing you identifi identify with and ask yourself if your sister or brother or best friend was known for more of that thing, you'd be pumped. It's not Hashem's kid. Orin you see the is the beginning of the is how it begins. If you want to see something really cool, if you know where if you go into the world of Pineas, the two months that fix the eyes is different. M says from what I know, what are those two months that fix fix the eyes? Tamuz and a do you know why? Because guess what's of the bas the jealousy? Because jealousy is s that is I could be I can wish you well. It's I have an unlimited credit card. It's called my eyes. So why don't I just wish you well? You're not asking me for money. You just invited me to the sun. You just invited me to the house. You just invited me to the bish. You just invited me to the you invited me to I just asked you for some money. ain't asking for all the money in my sheet. I ask you for a little bit. Why can't you be happy? You know why you can't be happy? Because we're unplugged. We're here to build the basdash. The bas mikdash comes when we can give ourselves to each other. We give ourselves to each other when our eyes say so. So here we are the end of the boot camp. The fourth quarter amuna leads to sim leads to being a giver. Begins with not my hands. Begins with my eyes. They come before the kures. And he's sending out the messengers. And we're turning to him and saying, "Oh, oh, before before you send them out. Before you send them out, I don't want to have a good year. I want all of us to have a good year. We're all the same. We're all your children." And I got it. I got it. I got it. No, I got it. You're the Malik. My job this year is not to be the Malik. My job this year is to serve the Malik. And I got it. I know it. I've got it. Serving the Malik means you're going to give me my job every day to do it. And I trust you. And that job may be and it may be not. That job may give me attention or it may not. That job may have Hebrew words and it may not. But you will give me my job every day and I'm going to look for it. And every day I'm going to plug into you and ask what you want. And every day when I look over to the Jew, I'm not going to see another person that I'm fighting with. I'm going to see another one of your children. And if they're mats, I'm going to get nas for my daddy. And if they're struggling and I can't help them, at least I'm going to wish that they have everything that they need and more. I don't know what my hands will do this year. I hope my hands will do a lot. I really do. I hope my mouth can do a lot. But I'm beginning with my eyes because my anam or what caused all the stuff that took place at the end of the year. And when me and you could be mabo upon ourselves and I'm telling you I'm telling this from the rabbi and I'm giving you I'm going to give you homework and I'm telling you but omi do it. It's going to change your life. at least once a day. At least for my advanced students in the room, 10. Do not walk out of these doors. If you walk out of this door without saying okay, you've wasted my time, which is not so important anyways. Not big deal. Well, at least last year when it was raining, I couldn't sit in the suka. But it's far from the five towns to my took me two hours. I had to cross the GW, a little Rahman is to cross Bronx. I'm begging you, not for me. I'm begging me for you. I'm begging me for I'm begging you for us as a nation. Once a day, I'm begging you once a day. When you get the itch, when you get the itch of ka, there's a lot of forms. It's I'm not enough. It's how come by them. Usually, there's a fetch involved. Did you hear? Soon as you hear, "Did you hear?" You know you're out. You know, don't don't don't get into it. You don't want to be involved. Remember, an ion can bring damage to somebody. Go look in the gar what it says about bad eyes. You don't want to get the shine after 120 and know that you've got a bill to pay because of your eyes and golf because of your mouth. Holy cow, that's bills. We don't want bills. When we get an itch, an itch once a day, here's what you do from the rabbi. We did it like two years ago and I can't even tell you. I I mentioned a tish of two years ago. I can't even tell you how many people responded with crazy stuff. It's where I leave you. I'm not I'm a nobody. Crazy stuff. You turn to the person in your head that's making you jealous and say I bless you that you should have double of that which making me jealous. Double two homes, two simas, two tires, two speeches, two this, pick whatever it is moreas, more this, more health. Soon as you walk into a room and some and it can be tiny, mundane. We're we're humans. Someone's wearing something you're like wow everyone's googling over that I daring you should always be you should have [clears throat] two times you should always be the center if you need to be second you have an itch makabit bleander now before Jehosha raba tell yourself what's one day I'm asking you it's a second it's a second you know what it does it re how do you bless someone to have double you're jealous of them you know you know how you could do it the only way it works is If you have to be connected to the macar the says you know why because the whole goal of an eye is to constrain there's so much stimuli in the world the eye takes it and constrains it. If a person takes his eyes and he's that means he's not connected to nature he's only connected to an infinite source because the eye by nature contracts. We don't need to be reminded anymore that we need Hashem in every second of our lives. We've got the reminders. We don't need another story of yesterday. Never. We're done. What we need is to turn to the and say, I got it. I'm bowing my head. I want to be connected to you. And if I'm connected to you, it's all good. My day is filled with simha. Not how I feel. It's what I'm connected to. And I'll know if I'm connected to those two things by my ion to ion. And I want to be a source of blessing. I'm telling you, try this. Take it just for a month. Go to Kaneka once a day. You bless someone with double, your brain starts to rewire. You know what you become? You become a makura braha. You become the vessel the abish looks and goes wow I won't lose them they're not jealous anymore they're happy for each other and we in our small little American tiny little gullis way take one little crack out of that nashush one little bit of that take a little bit of the poison that started this whole thing and we pull it out and that voice is not is going to tell you to say don't do it and like braha to us we're not perfect how do we have a judgment we're perfect. We're not perfect. At least I'm not perfect. Stand by the day. We turn to the We say, "I got it. It's the I got it. I'm grateful. I believe in you. You're the melik. I'm not asking. I'm falling back. I'm sitting in your suka this year. I'm doing my job. I just want to serve you. And when I see one of your children need something or have excited, Hashem, you can trust me. When I see your kids succeed, this child's going to be happy for them. Cuz if you're happy, I'm happy. We're not We're not competing. We're not competing. We're on the same team. Just like a parent sees their kids get along and there isn't enough to do for those kids. Hashem should see us tonight just trying. And this r this hosana as he sends out the messengers he should send out the messengers that have a na of tom that this is the year we should have a year filled with good and combenched we should be za have a sha tova which it'll for sure be and msuka and we should be z that this year that when we and hopefully we won't but if we are standing together by av but if we're standing together by Thomas and av if me and you are standing here Thomas and a we should know that at least 5% I tried to make sure that I brought the bas I worked on my eyes all year long I blessed a lot of people with double you'll see we bless people with double to see those days have good years and together sees the world in the best way possible and we're able to see what has been doing from the beginning of time with Mashia who may come soon in our some hair man.