CHAZAQ Event with R' Yosef Zakutinsky on "Keeping Warm with the Fire of the Torah"

so first of all I just want to thank kazak and uh ra may ro for welcoming me here and give me the honor and the privilege to speak to you one Jew to the other one Jew to the other you know the name of this organization is kazak so I figure it's only appropriate that we we're each other we just talk straight plain and Pate simple words of words of words of encouragement that's it if any of you came tonight to hear like deep mysterious thoughts I'm sorry just just straight pH you know the the sa once said the sa once said the following thing he said words of strengthening words of encouragement are necessary Like Oxygen Like Oxygen to the soul is necessary words of encouragement for this generation that's what he said we need words of ofas of encouragement you know one of the greatest Jews of all time Wasa right Raba and I'm sure many of us are aware that Raba didn't start off Raba for 40 years his first 40 years of life he was just AA right not just AKA he was very far very far and I'm sure we're all aware that what was the turning point in his life the turning point in Rab's life that he that he exited the world of Akiva to the world of reaba was that he saw a rock right we saw a rock with a big hole in it and he and he deduced what happened was there was a little drip of water drip after drip after drip and eventually made a hole in the Rock and that changed his life so what changed rea's life encouragement it wasn't a lesson of how bad it is to sin right that's not what changed him it wasn't to see how bad it is to go to geham that's not what did it what changed Raba what awakened within him one of the greatest Souls of all time was to see how good he can become it was encouragement it was the fact that he saw that even a rock even a rock can be worked through by drop after drop of water this is what we have to talk we have to talk words of plain and part straight straight one je to the other encouragement this this enters into Egypt we enter into Exile of Egypt says in the Z the following thing it says in the the Zar says speech this is going to we're going to be talking about this for a little bit the Zar says that the ability of speech the power of speech havala says thear the essence of the Exile of Egypt was that the power of Jewish speech was in Exile the Jewish people were unable to speak and therefore we findu was a of a the P says in this para this this week's portion that mosenu was someone that wasn't unable to communicate well he was unable to speak the Z is telling us that the deeper meaning of that is that there wasn't just one specific person unable to communicate that was symbolic of the entire Jewish people there was something going on that the world of speech was held back speech was in Exile and this is why we find who's the main enemy of Egypt who's the main enemy of the Jewish people in these parishes parro right Pharaoh the word parro if you switch around the letters comes to the word which means the back of the neck the thing that's opposite speech speech comes from the front of the neck power is the opposite the back of the neck we find in this six para when the Jewish people call out to Hashem and eventually Hashem answers us and brings the Redemption it doesn't say anything that we daved it doesn't say we daved it says we groaned we yelled we weren't able even to talk to DAV even in daving we weren't able to say words we moan like animals we cried out we we we we we ketched but it wasn't speech wasn't there speech wasn't Exile we find that the word you know the holiday that celebrates us leaving Egypt is PES right the word p comes from two words P which means a mouth that's finally able to speak that's what PES is about us leaving Egypt means speech being able to come out but during gas during that Exile speech was was taken away we weren't able to speak mosha was unable to communicate the Jewish people are unable to DAV we unable to speak we can't bring out speech that's why we find one of the main themes of PES is a Revol our mitz that revolve around speech right the whole saying the ha it's all about talking it's all about talking asking questions back and forth questions answers it's about talking the Exile Exile means UN in an inability to speak and Redemption means now able to speak so what does this all mean what does this all mean what does speech mean you know the truth is that we all are all familiar with this I'm sure that one of the one of the according to the Torah one of the one unique qualities that make a human being a human being that make a human being Superior and above animal life is our ability to speak right we all aware of this the PK says when Hashem first created Adam when hashm first created says that that this this person was a NE a living being and uncle right the Aramaic translation of the Torah translates that as someone who's able to speak so what defines human being is the ability to speak so the question is like what does that mean animals don't communicate dolphins communicate with each other you know whales do it all you know all animals communicate so what does it mean a human being to speak what's unique about a human being speech so like I said we're going to talk POS very straight very POS you know what it means to talk speeech deor deor in Torah to talk to communicate doesn't mean to you know just to you know find out what's going on with the in the Nick game last night that's not what speech is about that's not what debor is debber means the ability of a human being to speak in in essence in a deep way means the ability of human being to take what's inside of him the most deep thoughts the most deep feelings that's inside a Jew that's inside a person and to express them outwardly that's what it means to speak that's what it means to speak speak doesn't mean to say you know how you doing I'm good that's not real speech real speech means to take that which is hidden that which is concealed that which is deep down in the Jewish Nish and to express it and to and to let it come to the Forefront so what does it mean that g what does it mean that Exile is that we're unable to speak what's being held back during Exile what aspect of ourselves is not being allowed through is not being allowed to communicate to express itself during Exile so I want to read to you a letter this is a piece of a diary actually that R cook cook wrote for himself this is a personal diary that he wrote listen to this this is unbelievable M unbelievable this again I'll tell you these are words that we Mish like if we were allowed to tattoo it we would have to tattoo it ourselves I'm telling you like these are words we have to carry with us always says the Jewish the Jewish Soul doesn't matter if you're sadic Russia somewhere in the middle doesn't make a difference if you're Raba or not a jewi a Jewish soul is great A is great it's awesome it has the ability of breaking down iron walls it's able to crush mountains it's it's infinitely expansive the Jewish the Jewish we have no idea what we have within ourselves by its very nature it has no choice but to ex but to spread out the Jewish is waiting to explode to explode with with godliness it's impossible for it to shrivel up it can't stand being shriveled up of cook the Jewish Nish every single one of us that has a Jewish Nish whether we're born Jewish or whether we converted into the Jewish people every single one of us by the very fact that we're Jewish have within us a light of God such a Godly light that it's infinite in its infinite expansiveness it has the ability and the and the power and the desire and the and the the Natural Instinct of exploding and being able to penetrate all levels say the needs it has this unquenchable thirst to cover all levels all the all the alas all the uplifted situations in a Jew's life and it also wants to enter into all the idas all the all the shortcomings all the Low Places in our lives all the great mountains that we've climbed and all the valleys that we sunk to all the great Vistas that were able to see and all the holes that we climb our that we put ourselves into the in all of these places the great highs and the great lows of Life the Instinct of the nisham is to spread out and to Encompass and to swallow up and to give light to all these places all these situations all the different aspects of Life the highs and the lows AR wants to embrace AR wants to hug then wants to give life to all these places and the the Instinct of the nisham is to take all these places the highs and lows of life and to return them all back to the source of all life which is Hashem the essence of G understand this the depth of Gus the greatest tragedy of Gus is the inability of the Jewish person to express that which he has inside a deep sense of expression to express his own Nish that's what Gus means Gus means that we convin that the guy the the nations of the world tell us that we're nothing the nations of the world tell us that we're nothing but who we are what we do we're nothing but what we accomplish in this world the go tell us that we're nothing like what we used we tell ourselves we're nothing like our grand our grandparents used to be we hear stories all the time all the time we hear stories about how our Bubbies and zes right our grandparents back in the old country whatever how great they were right how they went through ice to go to the Mikvah or how they sacrificed their lives to doin and to learn and it's all true it's 100% true and therefore but when we hear all those stories the more we hear them what do we tell ourselves that we're nothing we're talking nothing we're really nothing compared to that that's the depth of Gul the darkest the darkest Exile that a Jew can experience is to not know what he has inside of him to not know that the N is is is screaming is screaming inside of him to explode that there's no such thing as a Jew who's left alone there's no such thing as a Jew Who's down here without this explosive expansive unbelievably powerful there's no such thing if you're a Jew you have this inside say of cook a lack of faith he's talking about himself a lack of faith in my own spiritual Powers this is causing me to lose an infinite amount of spirituality that it could have spread in the world says a lack of belief in myself that is what's causing my own downfall it's nothing else it's nothing else it's not that I don't have the power and it's not that I don't I don't believe in God it's not that is that I don't believe in myself I don't know what I have inside because Gus the the thick veil of Gus means that we're that what's hidden from us is not just Hashem that's one type of GS but the depth of GS is that what's hidden from us is our El so we don't even know what we have inside you know the PK says when hasm describes Exile says that I'm going to hide and hide again my face from you h a so said the B famously what does it mean Hashem is going to hide him himself twice he says there's two types of G there's two levels of Gus one level of Gus is what where Hashem is concealed where hasem is hidden and we believe in him we believe that he's out there but we can't sense him that's one type of GS but there's a much deeper G what's the what's that I will double I will double intensify the G it means that not only there such a goal there such a thing that not only not only is God's presence hidden not only is Hashem taken away that we can't feel his presence that we can't feel his existence in our lives it's much deeper than that we don't even know that he cares we don't even know that we have anything connect to do with him that's the depth of gas we don't even realize that we're in gas this is what this is what exile does to a person it takes away his ability to speak it takes away his ability to express that which inside that which is exploding inside of him and it turns a Jew he turns a Jew who is a son of a king Mish a prince Mish a prince with infinite talents with infinite possibilities with infinite powers of productivity of spirituality and he and Gus turns the Jew into a into into a shell of himself m a a case a a picture of a Jew that's what Gus does that's what gas does you know this story they say chob was one of the great students of the M great kic masses the early Generations ofas CH was sent by the balv to go to a certain town to be involved in kir to try to bring the town close and for the most part he was pretty successful there was one Jew that was he was hard not to crack Story Goes that there was a certain person in that town that owned an inn he owned a you know a hotel and this guy you know his parents own the hotel his grandparents own the hotel for Generations this guy just stayed in this town didn't never went to Yeshiva never went to sh never had any connection to anything he did he you know his wife with chabas candles yeah you know he he did his thing he fasted him Kipper he didn't have any real attachment to Judaism nothing so was talking to him you know spending his time with them he would take walks with them so one time was talking to him about Exile about how tragic it is that the Jewish people are thrown into the into the nations of the world that we don't have Isel we don't have Israel we don't have a temple we don't have sacrifices so you know is talking about these things it's so foreign from this guy so says like you know you have no idea what we're missing you know he said started to cry he said you know Exile means Exile we're so far from God we don't have a connection to Hashem we don't know what we have inside and the guy's like I don't I don't know what you're talking about Rabbi you know listen I'm just I'm just the simple inkeeper I don't know what you're talking about so said began to cry even more he said but you know what G also means g means that g means that g give us trouble and these there's pams there's Holocaust there's there's inquisitions there's all sorts of problems that's also part of gas so the guy said you know what Rabbi I hear you I hear you you seem like a big sad you seem like a big person so I have I have I have a I have an idea instead of you know all all your life you're ding to Hashem that hasem should bring mhia we should all go to Israel I don't know maybe hasem is not not interested in that maybe you should start ding then instead of messia coming taking us to Israel why don't you ask that M should come let the go go to Israel and we'll be good good here by ourselves that's what he said understand you know what that story means there such a thing that the is the hus the dreams and longings the desires of a Jew who this guy this guy's a Jewish person means his Nish is the sameish was describing unbelievably explosive but all those years all those Generations being stuck in this little hotel in the middle nowhere of Poland he was being trained from childhood every single day that you're nothing that you're no different than the non-jewish you know Hotel owner across the street so his great dreams his great ideals the lofty goals of the Jewish people whatever to be safe to have a good parnasa whatever so why you why you making yourself crazy going to Israel I don't want to move to Israel I'll stay here let the go go to Israel whatever it's a difference this is what goas does goas takes a Jew and turns him into into Mish Mish nothing nothing to what he can be a picture of a Jew a picture of a Jew you know there's a there's a there's a you know the H KES the uh the P RAB he was the he was the rabit during the you know he was re in the war so ghetto during the holoc he was killed in the Holocaust so in one of his letters in his Diaries he writes the following thing he said he talks about this on his fourth birthday he says that I'm you know listen I spend all day learning and daving I don't do s i don't sin at all so but he said it to himself but you know what I'm I'm the perfect picture of what a jeice supposed to be I'm a perfect replica of what a Jew supposed to be what am I missing I'm missing life I'm missing knowing what what does it mean to really be a Jew I do everything 100% according to according to the you know the code of Jewish law I do everything 100% but I'm missing knowing what it means to be a Jew what does it mean to be a Jew let me read to you a few lines from this is from a unable thing he says like this I said we're talking plain things things that we all know we just have to hear again was one of the great masses of all time he writes a Jew is it's not possible for a Jew to give up in all areas in any area whether it be in physical matters or whether it be in spiritual matters even if a Jew finds himself sinking into a place that he sank the and he's sinning in areas that kazal that the rabbis have have have themselves said you can't get out of right there are certain part parts of the zor let's say that are nice to read you know very lofty things but there are parts that it's not so nice to read certain parts of the talks about certain sins that a Jew commits that it's very very difficult to climb out of let's say say you find yourself in in sinking in those areas where you read the books and they tell you you can't do Chu it's very difficult to get out of or you see yourself you see yourself sinking lower and lower in things of this world says it's possible it's forbidden for a Jew to give up to say I can't you cannot say the words I can't that's not part of the Jewish language I can't get out of this I can't fix myself I can't better the situation I can't come close to Hashem I can't it's another thing to tatto to yourself there's no such thing as giving up hope by it comes to a Jew no such thing says could help in all situations say and this is the essence of what a Jew is the essence of what a Jew what it means to be a Jew is to believe never to give up that could always help and then he goes on to say something fantastic he says and the truth is any Jew who claims not to believe in Hashem we we've met people like that and maybe sometimes a little bit in ourselves any Jew who lacks any faith in hasem says really ultimately is not a lack in faith in hasem ultimately sayic any lack of faith in the master of all worlds is really a lack of faith in oneself that's what he says if you truly believed in what you were in what you can become and what you have inside there will be no such thing in lacking faith in Hashem he says a person has to believe with a full heart that listen to the doing of all mouths listens to the calls of every single person no matter what level he's on these words says this is the main strength thing that we have to strengthen ourselves with when it comes to Faith in Hashem we don't have it's not necessary for most of us to sit down with books of philosophy to figure out is there a God in heaven that stuff has been worked through for many years already we're past that the main like the main strengthening of amuna that we need in our times is to strengthen the Amun in ourselves to know what we have inside we all believe in a God that's again whether God exists or not that's been worked through it's been worked through there's so many books on it previous generations have worked through it there are individuals that need to hear it there's no question but for the most part for the most part what givs what what what's what's holding us back the essence of goas is our lack of Debo it's a lack of an ability to communicate to express that which we have inside and the way that happens is that the Gus the veil of Gus tells a Jew that you don't have it inside that you don't have anything inside of you there is nothing deep inside of you there's nothing but what you see I mentioned this story once before as well there was a Misa that uh I mean it's it's it's a marshall it's a parable someone once said that uh you know there was a son of a king there was a prince who was doing you know not such good not such princely things so the King as a punishment sent them away far off country so he sent them off and after a bunch of years the king wanted him wanted his son to return so he sent the messenger to go find him and he found that he was looking and you know he went from corner to corner you know you ever saw this guy yeah he found him somewhere else eventually the guy finds the prince the son of the king he's drunk and he's dancing in some disgusting bar somewhere in the in the corner of the world he's dancing for quarters so the guy comes the comes the messenger comes to the prince and he says prince prince your father wants you back your father wants you back home and the guy starts to remember the prince starting to remember what it means to be a prince what the C what the palace was like what the King was like and he says to the and he starts to cry and he says to the messenger he says you know what I I if only my father could could give me some money to buy some new shoes because the shoes that I'm wearing after so many years of dancing they're getting worn out I need new I need better shoes to dance that's what the guy said so the sadic said who said this much he said look at this you have a Jew a prince Mish a prince Mish a prince and we're we're ripped from the palace Exile means we're thrown into some crazy drunk bar in the corner of the world I'm some crazy place and every once in a while every once in a while the king of all Kings comes and wakes us up and reminds us that he's a king and reminds us that we're Jewish but because of our lack in ourselves because of our lack of faith in ourselves of us we don't believe anymore that we have any connection to that King that that world of being a prince is already lost so the great thing that we could dream about is getting a new pair of shoes that's the great thing that we could dream about it's that's what go it's the dep the darkest place of gas is this so the question is how do we how do we combat this at the end of the day the world is the way it is and and to and for us to to just keep on telling ourselves that we're great and that we're awesome it's very very difficult so what do what do we do what do we do practically how do we handle the situation the fact that we have greatness inside but it seems impossible for us to come in contact with it it's impossible so what do we do what do we do in the meantime in other words what do we do until until until the Salvation comes until that debore until the ability to communicate comes back and until we're able to really figure out who we are to express ourselves fully and to let that that's inside of us explode what are we supposed to do until then how do we give how do we how are we ourselves how do we strengthen ourselves until that day comes so it says in this we para as well says as follows we all know this says in P that the MIT hated the Jewish people the Egyptians hated us right and we all know that they they plotted against us and they came up with this idea they're going to put us into into slavery because they were afraid that we're multiplying like unbelievable numbers and they're afraid that we're going to overtake the country so they'll put us into slavery right they'll subjugate us and the natural thing is for a people that's completely subjugated they're not going to reproduce they're not going to grow and develop as they as they normally would but nevertheless says the P we're all aware of this the yanu that the more they subjugated us the more they punished us the more the ghost was thickened the more the veil of ghost became heavier and heavier the more we multipli the more we became great so on a simple level that's a great miracle just plain very on a very simple physical level the fact that we're able to multiply and to become powerful despite despite all the afflictions and all the suffering of Exile that's a great miracle but what does it mean for us we know that every single word of Torah is telling us right now today about how we can become better what is this what what does it mean this idea that as the G was was was worse and worse the Jewish people were multiplying and multiplying even more so I want to read to you a mish this an unbelievable Mish you know the there's an episode we know we lay millas Russ right the book The Book of Ruth on sh Russ migil Russ is a story about how Ros a gorus who converted was able to eventually become the mother of royalty the the grandmother of Dava so the PK says that in the beginning before she married into boas who was the leader of the Jewish people before she married him she was a like I said she was a gorus a convert a very very poor convert she had nothing she had nothing so the pic says that Ru was gathering some little grains in boas's field that's what the P says and boas saw that she was modest right he saw that compared to the other women there Bruce showed a sense of modesty so he said to his servants who is this woman so they told her this is Russ this is aorus a convert that she left her whole family behind and she converted and to come to the Jewish people so Bose is very impressed so says that you know he had compassion on her he took a fistful of grain and he gave it to her and she ate she was full she was satiated and she had left over that's what the measure says listen to this that's what the says listen what the says said the son of this me is coming to tell us the following thing this p is coming to tell us the following thing that what that if you ever perform azah do with a full heart do with a full heart and the M goes on to say says that if for example when ruven we know the story weeks ago ruen tried to save ysf when ysf was thrown into the pit ruven tried to save him he planned on saving him says the mag if ruven would have known if ruven would have known that Hashem would have written would write in his Torah for all generations that ruven tried to save Yosef so the M says if he would have put him on his shoulders and ran to his father yov and ifon knew in this week's par in this week's PR when mosu was saying to hasem I don't know what's going to be I can't take the Jewish people out I'm nobody and Hashem says okay if you can't speak I have Aon your brother Aon your brother's going to speak for you so the PK says that Aon hasem said to M aon's coming to greet you and he's going to see you he's going to find out that you're going to be the Redeemer he's going to he's going to be happy for you he's not going to be jealous he's going to be happy for you that's in this says the and if Aon would have known that the Torah would have written about him he was not jealous for his brother he would have gone out with an orchestra to greet MOS if he knew how great it was how great Hashem considered it the fact that he wasn't jealous and if boas knew and if boas by the story of Russ if he knew that what would inscribe in his Torah throughout time that he gave a hand A Fistful of grain to a poor to a poor convert so the PK says that he would have if he knew what great of a Mitzvah this was that hashem's talking about in Torah that it's written down in in in in tanak Forever he would have made an unbelievable meal for her that's what the me says so when you read this me what does it sound like it sounds like it's saying something negative about these people right that if Ru knew what he was doing he would have done a better job if Aron knew what he was able what he was accomplishing by not being jealous he would have done a better job if boas knew what he was doing by giving a little stuck he would have done a better job so it sounds like it's being negative listen to what say listen to this every single one of us wants to know what what what do we do down here that really makes Hashem smile so to speak right you know what Mitzvah what is it what is it about ourselves what Mitzvah could we possibly do to really make hashm happy we all want a good portion of the next World we all want a good place we want to see mhia what could we do to really make Hashem happy so says I'll tell you what you can do I'll tell you what you can do you want to know what's the most the most important the biggest Mitzvah that a Jew can do say the main Mitzvah that a Jew can do that's most desirable and most respected in the eyes of hem is it's D when you don't realize how great it is that's da the greatest Mitzvah he says to because when you do something that you don't realize how great it is you do it just because it's the right thing to do he says he says when you're doing something that's great if you do if you give a million dollars TOA and you know you're going to get your name written up in all the newspapers and there's going to be a building with your name on it and all the people are going to you know bless their children they should grow up to be like you then it's not such a big deal to do it right it's not such a big deal to do it what what mysterious nefes what really you know how deep do you have to dig in order to do that when you know you're going to get so much respect and honor in return you don't realize how big it is when you do something just because it's the right thing to do and you don't think anybody's watching and you don't think it means anything and you don't think it's going to get you anywhere you just do it because it's the right thing to do you do it out of just the simple goodness of your heart of and you do that which is just seems good in your eyes that's it plain and plus it you don't expect anything good from it you don't expect anything great from it you don't expect any Fan Fair you know you're not going to become some rebba they're not going to talk about you in the newspaper you do it because it's simply the right thing to do you're doing because you know has wants you to do it that's it you get up in the every single one of us we get up in the morning we D why why we're going to get respect from it people are going to oh wow you came to SCH today wow no why do we do it why do we DAV because it's the right thing to do it's plus the right thing to do when a poor person comes you give a quarter you're going to get ridden up in the newspapers for that no so why do you do it cuz it's it's it's sad this guy's this guy doesn't have what to do he give him Accord he give him something say the main the most mitz the most unbelievable Mitzvah that a Jew can do are D the ones are specifically the ones that when you do them you don't realize that you're doing anything those are D the most awesome Mitzvah why because they show a good heart they show what type of person you really are that's exactly the point when you do the the bigger something does if you know to finish sh you know to just sit down I'm going to go through sha I'm going to you know give a million dollars okay but when you when you do small things small little things that you don't realize what you're doing that shows that shows Godless that shows greatness he says those are the things those those are the aspects those are the MIT that writes in his book forever about you so going back to the med that's what the med is saying that if ruven would have known if ruven would have known that Hashem would say about him that he's trying to save y he would have carried him on his shoulders so it sounds like what it sounds like he didn't do do such a good job but say the exact opposite because he didn't know it was D because he didn't know what he was doing he didn't know that it was such a big deal boas didn't know it was such a big deal to give a handful of grain to a poor goras Aon didn't know it was such a big deal not to be jealous of his brother Moshe it was dka because they didn't know it was such a big deal that's dka why those mitz are recorded in in tanak for all time says he says why doesn't Hashem tell us about the daving of of AR why doesn't it tell us about the great learning of boas tell talk about how you know how ruen did Chua talk about how how long iress was why doesn't it talk about that stuff you know why because as great as AR was Aron knew his was great so at the end of the day there's something lacking in that boas knew his learning was great so there's something lacking in that Ru knew how great his chuva was so there's something lacking in that it was D these Mitzvah these small little seemingly insignificant acts of kindness or these small seemingly insignificant quality traits of not being jealous those were DAV the Mitzvah that are written for all eternity for all eternity that when we think of a great deed of Aon we think of the fact that he wasn't jealous and if you ask Aon you'll tell him this is what's this is what they we talk about when it comes to you and I was going to say that but that's exactly the point because these small things reveal the essence and the purity of such a heart it's in the small acts that we don't realize that we're doing anything special it's D in those places that we're Mish we have no idea what we're accomplishing you know there's another medish this is par MOS was chosen to be the leader of the Jewish people right so listen to the measures M says that hasem never chooses a person for greatness Hashem never makes a person person great hasm never picks a person to be in a position of leadership until he's tested in a small thing M says what does that mean so M Give an example famous story mosu moshu before he's chosen as mosha Renu he's a Shepherd for his father-in-law yra right so has the following story when M was a shepher for his Shepherd for his father-in-law's flock but midbar in the desert so the me says I'm sure we're all aware of this story B it was a certain goat a little young goat that ran away so is chasing this goat goat's faster than him so he's he's chasing so at some point the goat finally found a brook of water and stopped running and drank from the brook of water that's what was going on so now finally is able to catch up to the goat soar M sees that this goat was running away not just to run away he was running away to go find some water he was thirsty so so says to himself I didn't know I didn't know you were so thirsty I didn't know that you were running away because you were thirsty so then says you know you must be very tired at this point so here picks up the goat puts him on his shoulders goes back to the flock like that soem says to Moshe hasem says look how much compassion you have on a goat so he says by your life you're going to be the shepherd of my people this is what Mo this is this is how MOS became MOS really that's it the measure doesn't say that hasm you know questioned him in all he didn't know you know where did you get sm like you know where it doesn't say anything that like that what made MOS mosu what made him chosen to be the leader of all Jewish people was the fact that he was MOS he was great in small things that's it because the fact that he ran after this goat and not only spent the time chasing it but once he saw that the goat wasn't rebellious he was just trying to get some water and realized that the goat must be tired and put him on his shoulder and carried it back that showed such an unbelievably good heart unbelievably good heart and that's what Hashem wants Hashem wants good Hearts You Know M says in pis one of the great mishas in pis it says the path the path that a person should choose for himself that contains within it all good qualities is to of a good heart what does it mean to have a good heart a good heart means that you do the right thing despite the fact that no one no one knows that's what it means to have a good heart if someone does the right thing only because people are watching okay he's doing the right thing it's great but at the end of the day it doesn't show a good heart Hashem knows Hashem could find out who we are dka davka specifically when we don't realize that we're doing anything special that's D when that's dka when it becomes clear clear so continues back in time back in the times of theah when a Jew did a Mitzvah like this when we did a small thing when aw did a small thing so the prophet would write it down the prophet would write it down it was written down for all time by a prophet like ruen his act of saving ysf or trying to save ysf was written down by a prophet inish boas it's written down what about nowadays what about nowadays who's who's recording what we do now says noway when a does aah who writes it says writes it and seals it when comes when M comes we're each and every one of us is going to get a Milla it's going to be Milla of Our Own Story we have Mill Ros we have all sorts of millas we're GNA each one of us is going to have a Milla and it's going to say in that Milla all the mitz that we've done and you know what we're going to be shocked we're going to be shocked because we're going to read that we're going to think what's it going to talk about o it's going to talk about the big check I wrote it's going to talk about unbelievable things I was able to do I I learned uh you know three days in a row whatever you know it's it's going to say that too for sure it's going to say that too but you know it's also going to say and you know what's going to be the headline it's the fact that you you know a person called up that that wasn't feeling well and you gave him a few extra moments it was the fact that a person was feeling down and you gave him an extra smile it was the fact that a person needed some financial help and he gave him a little loan that no one knows about that's what the mill is going to say those are the acts that reveal what it means to be a Jew what it means to have a good heart so the veil of GS is very thick very very thick and we don't know what we have inside we don't know who we are we don't know what we can become we have no idea our n is exploding inside exploding with potential exploding with love of hasem but Gus is so thick that we look at ourselves as nothing but you know what but even in that situation even even when we think we're nothing this is also for the ultimate good hasm has a plan plan in mind because it's because we don't think we're anything that it's dka because we don't realize who we are that dka makes our Mitzvah that specifically makes our Mitzvah all the more precious in the eyes of Hashem that's that's what's going on over here that's what Hashem is telling us that the M thought we're going to get the Jewish people we're going to kill them how are we going to kill them because we're going to make them think that they're nothing we're going to make them think that they're nothing and if they think they're nothing then they're not going to they're not going to accomplish anything but Hashem is telling us and we have to tell ourselves the following that you know what even if we think we're nothing we still have to do the right thing and you know what and the truth is when we we don't real D when we don't realize what we're doing we don't realize how important how much K we have we don't realize what we're accomplishing that dka makes the MIT all the more special in the eyes of Hashem writes the following thing he says that we all we're all aware of the fact that as Generations go as Generations you know go from the time of of of you know the giving of the Torah till mhia comes we get weaker and weaker we all know that there such thing as you readus adoris the diminishing of generations we're not as great as our grandparents used to be we're not as big doers we're not as big Learners we're not as great we're not as great but Cesar is an unbelievable thing he quotes from the Runa fromes that at the same time at the same time that as a general power of individual Souls is diminished after as time goes on we're not as big doers we're not as big Learners and so on but there's a point of the Jewish heart there's some point in the Jewish heart that's that's actually becoming more purified as the generations go why because it's D as a because as gas becomes more thick as the darkness becomes more and more in enveloped over our lives the the farther and farther we think we are from Hashem then you know what then the more and more special our mitz become that's exactly the point the more the gull becomes heavy the more oppression we suffer the more we don't believe in ourselves the more simp the more little we look at ourselves that means the mitz that we do do are unbelievably great in the eyes of Hashem unbelievably great we have no idea what we can accomplish we have no idea we look at ourselves as as as nothing as people that can't accomplish anything but you know what not only do we have greatness inside of us not only do we have greatness inside of us but even even when we do things that don't seem to be so unbelievable even if we do things that don't seem to be unbelievable nevertheless they're they're so special in the eyes of hasem because of the fact that we that we don't think we're great it's because of that let me read to you a few lines Froman this is from RAB BR a few lines and I'll end up for this the story he says as follows he says my beloved brother you should know you should know the main thing in this world is to strengthen oneself in faith and he goes on to say that if a person does a little effort he says if a person moves himself a little bit in aana a small movement towards Hashem a small little thing a little bit you watch yourself a little a little bit more you don't want to do as many of as you used to you dive a little bit harder you put on a little slower you light shabas candles a little bit more serious or a little bit earlier whatever you do whatever you have to do small little things small little things says then in those small little things that we push ourselves we are reaching say you are being you are your n is soaring tens of thousands of levels in heaven when you do a little bit of effort down here why because you don't realize it's such a big deal that's exactly the point it's because we don't realize it's such a big deal because we think it's doing a little thing it's because of that that that's why it's so special in the eyes of Hashem and he goes on to say that this world is a dark is is a difficult place it's a dark place and he says the main thing is not to be afraid not to be afraid not to be not to lose faith in ourselves not to lose faith in each other that's the main thing that's the secret of being a Jew it's that it's believing in oneself and believing in Hashem that believes in you that's it let me end off with this story you know parisher ril parer was one of the great students of the batan so ril parisher once said he used to say this following story actually during rashash time he said the following thing he was once going in the middle of a Russian winter very very very cold Russian winter night he was passing by one of the Palaces of the Zar and he heard a whole commotion he heard some guy who was screaming screaming so he goes over what's going on so he finds that there's a soldier over there and the soldier is being beaten mom is beaten to a bloody pulp by his commanding officer so what's going on so you know he asked around what's happening and eventually he finds out that this is the following thing took place this Soldier was was appointed to watch to stand guard and to protect this this this palet of thear thear probably wasn't there but that was his job to protect it problem was this guy was by himself it's very very late at night very very cold he fell asleep for a few minutes problem is while he fell asleep his boots froze to the ground so he wakes up and he's Frozen to the ground so his commanding officer sees that realizes what happened that he slept on the job he fell asleep and he's beating him he's beating him for falling asleep so after this whole thing is you know happening the soldier is screaming out he screaming out please have compassion of rman is it's so cold it's so cold I fell asleep for 2 minutes two minutes I fell asleep I what am I supposed to do so the general said the commanding officer said the following thing he said I was there 10 years ago when you took an oath to serve the zar he said that oath that you took 10 years ago should keep you warm to this day so he said boom soil parisher used to say the story he said t the says in need to every single one of us before we came down to this world every single one of us took an oath every single one of us thear says before the soul comes down to this world takes an oath in heaven sadic and don't be Wicked be a sadic and that oath that we took all those years ago has to keep us warm throughout all the winters of this world has to keep us warm the only way the only way for that to happen One D to the other the only way how how we can survive the only way how we can survive is the following thing to remember two things to remember what we have inside of us to remember that to remember how great and awesome how powerful our is that's number one and to remember number two even more important that even in those days where you don't feel feel that even in those times where the where the oppression of Exile is so heavy and so and so and so unbelievably difficult and the thickness the the veil of Exile is so thick that we don't even believe anymore what we have inside of us but to remember the following thing that even the smallest Mitzvah the smallest Mitzvah if we do it just because it's the right thing to do no one's watching no one's going to give us a you know a Pat in the back we do it just because it's the right thing to do we have no idea we have no idea how precious it is in the eyes of because D because we don't realize who we are this is what we have to remember we have to remember this we have to hold on to this always if we do this there's no question there's no question that we'll come to that point in time where the the winter of Gus will will finally pass and the sun will come out this ice will will th and we'll be able to see the Rays of