Changing My Perception of Reality: Everything Is Infinite Light

Okay, I want to thank our host and hostess, the Gamman family. Thank you so much for your gracious hospitality and and the spread every week and also for the video and the other Gilbert for the video Silber for uh the streaming and I want to thank Shimshin and Rifki Versashonsski for sponsoring this series. her father and his father-in-law whose dedication to learning the was extraordinary. So this is in his memory. Thank you very much. Okay. So what did we learn? You remember you want to give a summation. Okay, I should learn from you. I should learn from you how to summarize in one word, right? I once introduced Rabbi Marlo to a dinner and he would speak very very short like if he spoke for more than 20 30 seconds it was a his name was Marlo so how do I introduce him so I said that we say in the so the world asks what's his he took 10 mckas and he turned it into acronyms have you dumped So the kadesh is that he taught people how to take 10 words and turn them into three. The says that was he was the main speaker. Why? Because when you know how to do this, you know how to condense the message, they make you the So I said here's somebody I'm introducing who knows how to do this. So that was good. So there's a V from the MG just as an as the summation there's a V from the Misha Mag it's a very powerful V it says there's a PK in Malim in Malim B speaks about the king wanting Alicia to give prophecy but he wasn't in the position he wasn't in the mood so to speak he wasn't in the zone so Alicia says I need you should bring me a to sing to play music. Yeah. When the hagggin when the was in other words when the musician began to play the music so the hand of Hashem the spirit of Hashem rested on Alicia. So the mag of m once said what's right could say it's an interesting expression. So the mag says as follows that there's a deeper message here. There's a difference between a person singing and an instrument playing a song. An instrument playing a song has no ego. The violin, a guitar, a cello, a piano has no ego. It's uh its entire identity, so to speak, is that it's a channel for the music. Yeah. The violin doesn't get arrogant if it does a good job. Doesn't get depressed, if it does a bad job. The mitus of the of the clay ne of the instrument is that it's a channel for the song. A person singing is not like that. You can ask people who sing. It's not that people, right? I'm self-conscious. We have our fears, our insecurities, our shame. Hagen when the men became the niggan when the men became completely one with the niggan. In other words, it's not the menagan is singing the song. It's that the managan is just the he's like an instrument like a musical instrument through which the song goes through yadashem. That's when the yadashem dwelled on him. In other words, the concept of aikagana is when there's no self-consciousness. When the manag is just is just like the instrument like the like the niggan itself or like the nag like the the clay there's no ego there's no there's no separateness. So then the energy of the niggan flows through him. There's no separation. I think this is one uh very relevant application of what we were learning about what means but let's summarize let's summarize the but very very big because uh we had Shia 2 and Shia 3. So those who want to review can review it and it's intense it's elaborate it's intricate but just to summarize the point there's aim there's a big of the when you say which means the infinite one if it's kesser or atmos now it sounds like a strange like but in kabal it's a very serious argument if the word anif refers to kesser which means the crown or hashem's will or it refers to hashem's essence according to cord Deo the Ramach who was one of the greatest cabalists in Jewish history passed away 1570 Shin lamemed of Gimlamos buried in he says is atmospher himself the infinite one a disciple of the ra who lived a generation later known as the rabbaru who lived in Italy one generation later in his pelar Ilam he has many cababala he was from the city fuo in Italy he argues and he says that a is not hashem himself a refers to hashem's name hashem's crown hashem's rutson hashem's desire and his tina is that if a was referring to hashem himself then title should have been he has no beginning not that he has no end because you can have something that has a beginning but it doesn't have an endem wants something to extend uh everywhere and to exist every through every time eternally. You can have it can be is a much bigger kesh. In other words, you can have no end but you have a beginning. You have a source. You have a progenitor. You have a creator. Yeah. A name has the master of the name. He says you should have a different name is much deeper because right everything that's eternal everything that's everything that is everything that has no beginning it existence is from itself nobody created it automatically it's eternal nothing is going to stop it but you could be eternal and still have a beginning as he brought earlier in the m so therefore the rama argues with the ramach and he says is not referring to atmos is referring to hashem's name hashem's ratson it's called kesser this is the raz opinion to put the argument in a little bit in different words the way he says it in the mimer according to the ra means the of the according to the means the is according to the ra means when it says in the of The it's the that comes from the source which is the says no no the source is not means the itself is the because the atmos the source of the is which is much deeper than than this is a big argument in between and now has a big sob and the famous there's and which is from this par and over there he goes on and then there's which is which is of course a comp so in the explains the view of the view of the I mean the didn't understand that is It's not like these questions I understand them and the ramak didn't understand them. Yeah. Obviously you had a different view. So the explains at length that there's two ways how you can describe a means it has no and it has no gather usually means it's infinite. So you mean it extends everywhere every place every time. In other words there's no time that's devoid of it. You'll say there's no place devoid of him. In every place you'll say he's means whether in time or in space there's no limit to it. There's no there's no end. It's not like this place is not going to be there. In English it's called omniresent, right? Present everywhere. Omnisient knows everything. Eternal, limitless, timeless. That's the raz the ra is a different the not that it doesn't have a scythe. It doesn't have a limit in terms of expansion means it has no definition. When you say a cy it has no scythe it doesn't only mean in space or time. It means there's no way of describing it. There's no way of defining it. There's no way not even in terms of expression of manifestation. So the rama is talking about a different talking about a different not really it's not a fundamental agreement where the two can't meet. It's that there's a different definition of that. This is a long is now why is this so relevant here in basilani? So as I told you last week generally especially beginning with reconciles the many of the big arguments in right we spoke about showing that each perspective there's an argument because each view brings out a different but ultimately there is reconciliation. What does say what does the say about this says that is right is the means the itself is doesn't mean that is wrong sometimes means the of but it's true at least here at least in many places means the itself is no the itself is a question is answered because you don't say you say you're talking about you're talking about however the reason is includes that the iss but the iss of is and Here we're just using the word since the definition of is that it's a continuum. It's a revelation. It's a transmission of the Mer. It's called it's one with the Mer and its definition is that it projects it brings out the Mer. So therefore, the an of is not just the of on its own. That's not what is the that comes out in is the of the source. It's a carrier. It's a carrier. It's a transmitter. Yeah. In other words, without that explanation, that doesn't have that iss of the which means Yeah. So the the is what you would call light. It's meal. What is it? Megala. It reveals what is revealed. What could come into revelation? That which could come into revelation. That which lends itself to the term Gili and Gili by definition means something that's experienced, it's perceived, it's manifested, which that's what means when we describe physically. When we think about light, what is it? It allows us to see, right? Things are here with light or without light. Without light, I can't see it. I can't perceive it. It's not known. It's not experienced. It is it is in and of itself. That's the metaphor. What does dor allows someone outside to be able to look at it to be able to enjoy to be able to experience to be able to perceive it okay that itself there's you know so many different levels of how much I perceive and how much I experience but that's the concept of so means by definition that which can be perceived can be experienced can be seen that is that's its function it brings it out brings it out to where yeah to a place where it wasn't there before the brings out the light of the on allows me access to it or whatever else emits light. Everything emits light. The question is if I could see it or not. We spoke about most of the universe is invisible. But everything emits light. But the light of the sun or the light of the moon and the light of a candle. These are types of objects that our eye perceives the light and therefore we perceive the source. Here we're saying something deeper and that is and this is the the real and the of this explained about is that the ain't means the ain't but what do you mean that the ain't safe not that the a of the but the the power of the is that it captures the a of atmos which is beyond the g of now what does this mean Where does this come out? Where does it express itself? To put it in different words, we said right is because has a source. But since is really so embodies in it transmits even that so even though does have a beginning this is where this is the even though doesn't and that that even though has a be has a beginning but because so the captures the even that doesn't have a beginning even that comes out in and And the ramifications of this are expressed throughout the whole mimer from the highest place all the way to the lowest space. Each sif he continues to explain the ramifications. Now first we have to understand what this means. Second of all we have to understand like where does it express itself? What you know what pushed to say this? So theuda that we brought out earlier is that it is a paradox. On one hand is nothing. What do I mean it's nothing? It doesn't have its own identity, its own substance. To give the example of the mirror, when I'm looking in the mirror, right? What did I give the mirror? I gave the mirror something substantial of me. No, nothing. There's nothing in the mirror. You can go to the mirror. There's nothing there, right? And the moment I walk away, there's nothing left in the mirror. It's not like the reflection is going to is going to remain there because there was nothing there. It was just my reflection. I didn't give the mirror something. It's not like we spoke the difference of right. I gave you something substantial. It's like I poured water into your cup. I gave you something substantial. I didn't give you anything substantial. Sheffa is like a teacher giving a student something. It's a t targeted. It's designated to him. It's tailor made. It's custom made even when the teacher is gone. Could be even after his passing. The student holds on to something forever. It's not like the mirror. You gave nothing to the mirror. That's on the other hand. The mirror captures everything that's in the source. The mirror is an accurate. If if I'm looking in the mirror and you're looking at my reflection in the mirror, what do you see? You see the perfect truth. You see the per on one end you saw nothing. There's nothing there. There's no substance here. There's no shea. Yeah. That's the my you actually gave something substantial. I gave you a cup of water and it's missing from the source. I pour water from a picture into a cup. That water was depleted from the source. Oh, it's not depleted. It's not like I'm diminished because of my reflection in the mirror. Like you have less of me. It's like, oh, it's too much. This is a copy of me. It's not a copy. It's fine. A teacher is teaching it occupies him. If the mirror is in front of me, not in front of me, doesn't make a difference. I may not even know there's a mirror. Yeah. Somebody takes a picture of me. The same I don't know. I may not even know. It's not taking up anything from the source. It's not depleting the source. Why? Because there's no substance in it. On the other hand, because of the the the my love of chaffos as a captures a certain dimension which is condensed, which is filtered, which is restricted, the mirror have everything. This is a mush. It's only a mush. is a physical mash to bring out the in of that that gives us access to everything in the source. That's the of But what do you mean it gives access? What what do you mean it gives access? Atmos, Hashem's essence has no definition, has no description. We don't even use on it the word existence. We don't use on it the word finite. We don't use on it the word infinite. As the says there, we don't say it's finite. So say it's infinite, you don't say it's infinite. Say it is. You don't say it is. Say it's not. You don't say it's not. You don't even say it's not. Not not yes or not. Not not not. In other words, I have no words. I have no description. All terms of experience and existence is already aish of this is all experience existence. It's tangible. Yeah. We say something exists. Even spirituality it exists. It's transcendent. These are all that don't apply to atmos. What do you mean they don't apply in is a source for it but it can't be described by it? Can't be defined by it. Theam calls hashemus built a nonexistential state of existence. that says I'm calling it an existence because what should I call it? Non-existence. You're going to get the wrong impression. You'll think I'm an atheist. But really, the word existence is as good as the word non non-existence. Is that mitas? It's a mitsus. But the only reason we're calling it a mitsus is because what else should I say? Yeah. What what else should I say? I say it doesn't exist. Okay. In fact, it may be more accurate because the way I tea doesn't exist the way I describe existence. Yeah. So it's it's but it's built it's not defined by any properties of mits including the idea that we say yeah it the word it right. What does it mean? Everything is it. Yeah. This is an it and I'm an it and everything is it. Existence. What's included in the word existence? What's not? What's included in the world reality? Is my shirt included in reality? Yeah. Is the coffee bean included in reality? Is this house? Yeah. And the mic also. What's not included in the word reality? My thoughts and my feelings and my emotions and my fantasies and my hallucinations and my fears and my love everything is included in the word reality and we call it real but that's all mits is physical not physical tangible intangible very spiritual extremely transcendent here we're saying can capture this what's because what's means light what does light mean light means there's perception something is seen something is perceived There's some form of you're being experienced. You're being seen. That's what light does. Says comes down to that. This is what explains this of the that because of the B of the because the definition of is what's the definition of the is the only mitsus in the world that says I'm not a mitz. The definition of the mitsus of is I have no definition. My identity is I have no identity. He doesn't say I don't have an identity because then you don't need you have says my identity is that I'm just you're light. I I don't exist. In other words, the moment you talk about me, you're not in you're in a different place. You're in Sheffa. You're in different places. As I told you the first time, has no identity crisis. Why doesn't have identity crisis? To have an identity crisis, you have to have an identity, right? People who don't have an identity in a good way. This is why I said, "Right, the violin doesn't have an identity crisis in the middle of a concert, they like me. They don't like me. They're gonna hire me. They're not gonna hire me." I think I said once that I once met somebody, he was a big artist. He was a musician. He played in Carnegie Hall. And I asked him, "How do you know you're successful in the middle of a concert? What's called success?" So he told me, "If I'm playing and I'm not present, if I'm not present, that's success. My fingers are just a channel for the music. That's a hamag. Sometimes artists perform. It could be in the middle of playing basketball, could be painting, could be communicating, could be writing, could be speaking, could be singing. And you're full of self-consciousness. What are they thinking? What are they not thinking? Anybody relates to this? Huh? You relate to this? Yeah. You don't even have to be an artist for this, right? You don't have to be an artist to have self-consciousness. Yeah. This is this is what this is what happens. The but the violin doesn't have this problem. Why not not because he's stupid, right? Not because he's stupid because he transcends it. Because okay so violin is not a he's a he can get when the that's that's a that's a muscle for I have no identity. So what who am I? But I'm I am is something. Is it something or is it nothing? The answer is this is the answer is the somethingness of is that it's nothing. That's the of it's something but what's the definition of it? That it's nothing. That is its definition. The mitas of is that it has no mitas. That is its definition. In other words, it's mitas is that I am here just to bring out to transmit to carry that which I come from the source. That's complete B of because of that has the ability to carry so to speak not just the source which is reflected in which is captured through revelation but what's the reason that there's the reason there's he says later in the because essence it has the capacity to express itself it also has the capacity not to express itself there was no need for if Hashem didn't want there wouldn't have What would the world look like without? There would be no relationship. Is the beginning of all relationship is the beginning of all connection. It is the beginning of the eye being perceived by the other. That's the beginning of it in the ultimate source. Then it comes down many levels. Hashem has a capacity for he has capacity for no. So when the comes out because of the bal to the source and the definition of is that it's so therefore the doesn't just capture the the of the captures something deeper the explain to use the shness in the m later the shows that the reason I'm here is because because hashem has the capacity to reveal himself the fact that he has the capacity to reveal himself comes from the same capacity not to reveal himself. It's the same capacity has to express not to express. So the fact that I'm expressing myself is not because I have to express myself. It's because of my capacity to express myself which is one with my capacity not to express myself. So is capturing the if it's capturing the it's also capturing the fact that I could not express myself. So that also comes out in so could also express his ability to not yeah to be so expresses the truth what's the truth the truth is he doesn't have to express himself SO NEVER GETS STUCK IN because he's real never takes himself seriously because is real so what does he expresses the truth I don't have to be expressed so why am I expressed because I can be expressed AND I CAN BE NOT EXPRESSED IN THE SAME WAY EXPRESSION IS no more real than lack of expression but it's also no more FALSE AND IT EXPRESSES THAT. So me expresses also the expressionless dimension ofos. It expresses also the darkness of atmosition. You hear you understand okay good choice. Huh? Is it a choice? You know, I come into the room, I don't have a choice that you shouldn't see me because everything comes with already. It's package deal. Yeah. You don't want I should see you stay home. If you're going to come out, we're going to see you, you know, right? We don't say, "Oh, you're here and your is here." We don't distinguish anymore between the two. But in the Yeah. In the ish is a it has a source. What's the kdesh? The kdesh is that atmos allows it wants that reality or that which is beyond reality should be experienced. Now what does it mean that which is beyond reality should be experienced? That's called reality. The of the word reality is what's reality? Reality is some form of of talking about existence. That's the beginning of that is atmos I can't talk about. I can't even talk about the fact that I can't talk about it because I have nothing to say. It precedes any definition including the definition that it precedes definitions. So I'm trying to say something but I'm not saying it because I don't know what to say. Right? Is already a beginning of conversation. Translates built into because that's what means means a form of revelation. What's revelation? Revelation means there's a form I can perceive it. I can grasp it. I can see it. Does R have recognition because definition is that it's nothing but pointing to its source. So it doesn't have recognition of atsmos but in its in its bit to atmos it captures not just that which lends itself to expression which is a very limited form and very limited reality but rather this is the of that is it's the of atmos that comes out in in other words even the even the fact of that it has no beginning because it has no definition and therefore it has no beginning it's completely different type of mits even that can be brought out in that's the of the captures how is there because hashem has a capacity it's called he has a capacity right to reveal himself he has a capacity to be you don't say reveal himself he has a capacity to be that's already the word a cap hashem has the capacity to be to exist That's a that capacity to be is not forced. It's not essential. It's not it has to be that way. It's part of his infinite. He could be law, he could be, he could be not, he could not be, he could be not. He could be all three things be, be not, not be. Because of this there's also the capacity of so which is completely loyal and dedicated to the source substance is that it has no substance outside of the source. So says this the reason I'm here is not that I'm essentially have to be here. I'm expressing his capacity to be to be expressed which is the same as his capacity not to be expressed. So expresses also that which can't be expressed the expressionless. trying to ask the capacity to express comes from the same fact that of course how does but I but I don't understand how it could express um the capacity to not express itself I understand that it could express its capacity to express but oh good be very good very good is good is good the rabbi that with darkness huh rabbi equates that with darkness I'm using the word darkness that captures also the darkness of the the absence I'm using the word darkness in other words since the and is one thing it's not two separate things it's one thing inmos and what's the definition of the definition of is yeah that I'm I'm I'm manifesting I'm transmitting of so in comes out not just is to express himself because the expression is coming from where from the same place where there's an ability not to express himself so brings out also the fact that I don't exist even else that's also that's also given out in remains feel the same way. Still remain still feels because never becomes something. When you become something, you have this crisis. It never becomes something. When you become something, now you have to ask yourself, who am I? Who I'm not? I told you in earth there's no identity crisis. So you differentiate between. So why are you differentiating between? You differentiate between because I'm smiling because it's a good question. I'm not smiling because it's a bad question. You differentiate between andmos because we we're having a shar about it. That's the differentiation. You understood what I just said. So the Reb brought out that this is what brought wrote in his last letter in Gak that our world our world comes from directly that's the reason why Haza is the only world that feels that it has no source even if we understand that we have a source but we feel we have no source in our experience We are completely autonomous, completely independent. I don't feel I have a progenitor. Even though the emmesis everything has a source, we call this world yes. Why something from nothing? It's nothing. Hashem is nothing. We call it nothing because in our world it's not a mitus. God is not a mitsus in our world. Put him in every laboratory, under every telescope, and every microscope. You won't find him. It took thousands of years to discover viruses, fungi, atoms, electrons, all these things. We didn't have the tools, right? What about Hashem? Somebody once said, uh, it was a famous philosopher in France. So, he once said an astronomer, sorry, an astronomer. So, he had the biggest telescope, most sophisticated telescope. He says, "I looked everywhere. I looked throughout the whole cosmos and I didn't find God." I didn't find God. So there was a violinist who responded and he said, "The other day I wanted to see what's inside my violin. So I broke it apart into small particles and it was completely splintered and then I put every piece under a microscope and I couldn't find music." Right? I couldn't find music. That was that was his response. In the world of the telescope or the microscope, there's no music. Or to put it differently, the eye never saw itself. I don't think anybody's eye ever saw itself. It's the source of everything else you see. But my eye never saw it. I could see your eye, but I never saw my eye unless I'm looking in a mirror. We call it Yeshin because in our world it it's not a mitz. It does. It's not a mitz. I don't see it. I don't touch it. I don't feel it. Not with my five and not even with my deeper. Love I could say is a mitsus. So we call it not that it doesn't exist in my world. I call it so it's me. That's what I call I could talk about it. I can prove it. I could try to prove it. We can explain this. We but intuitively it's not a you see acknowledges everything that happens substitute. So that's so says where does that come from? Where does that mitas come from that we should call a doesn't exist in any other world not in ganadel no world calls alusion nothing only here why so he says because this world comes taka from atmos and hashem in his essence tak has no source so we feel the same way we feel we have no source where's my source I am sorry not registered I never got the memo no yesesh ever got a memo that it comes comes from anywhere. Why? Cuz you embody doesn't come from anywhere. Hashem is the only thing in the world that doesn't have a source. There's no there's no source. It's taken in a real sense. Where does it come from? Doesn't come from anywhere. And got that gift because you can't every every product reflects its creator, right? I give I create that which I have. That which I don't have I can't create. So all the divine energies when they bring things into existence they give them what they have. They feel they have a source. SO THEIR PRODUCTS feel they have a source. Everything feels they have a source. But Haza has this direct link that it embodies atmos but it doesn't feel like it has a source because that comes from a place that doesn't have a source. That's the of that's what says in but says that the bri happened through the happened through the went into kale as he explained so gives the structure of the universe the but the atmos the bria happened through question is what do you mean the bria happened through it has a source has a source had to feel it ah but if you say that because of the B of it captures the of that's also an gives the I have no beginning I have no source there is there a reason why you have to go through off topic it's not off topic you're saying so skip everything just Go straight from atmos. Yeah. Straight to Laza and Gandic. Boom. It's the same. Ask a deeper question. Skip two. Let's create. These simple questions are the best questions, right? What do you we need all these question? Huh? Oh, so this is where where the where yeah, you're answering. Well, the whole point of sashulus is that the relationship should be on our terms. Huh? Yeah. The whole idea of as a relationship, Hashem could do whatever he wants. He could create, he could not create, he can create whatever he wants. There's no rules. We just said in there's no rules. There's not even the rule of right. You're right. That's true. He could have done whatever he wanted. But somewhere in the deepest place, Hashem wanted a relationship that's real. And a relationship that's real means not only that you can do whatever you want with me, but that we have a real connection. A real real and a real connection means a connection on my terms and on your terms. That means that I should be able to experience you and you should be able to experience me. Every element of is responsible for a different part of the human brain, for a different part of the human consciousness. Every part of is responsible for another aspect of reality. Every aspect of is the way is manifested in a particular form in a particular gad in a particular in a particular spir in a particular consciousness that gives rise to a particular experience in the world and to a particular experience within our psyche. So the whole sedanalus is really a mirror. It's a mirror of all the dynamics that happen in a person. There's literally every every is a mirror of a certain dimension within the human soul within the human psyche. Literally everything and every and the world everything in the world you could point to this aspect. It's a reflection of this element of this element. There's the in the world and there's the mali in the world and there's the malus in the world and there's in the world and there's this world there's this element this dimension what's the what's the tus of it the tlus of it is that this way the connection with hashem is not just a connection one way it's a connection where there's fusion where there's complete adus where I can actually get you I can experience you I can become one with you in an internalized way not just in a superficial way so is what allows the human being's identity to connect to Hashem's identity, so to speak. Do you understand what I'm saying or not really? Huh? Think about it. Now, that's the concept of Tim. What was Timum? Timsum is Hashem, so to speak, compressed himself into a world of identity, right? into a world of where there is finitness where there's so that we can have a connection we can have a relationship I impact you you impact me for example you speak about spheris what does all this mean it means inab it's called hashem has a personality he has a persona if you wouldn't have a personality I wouldn't have a personal how we how do we connect to each other we connect to each other because we reflect each other we mirror each other we relate to each other. We celebrate each other. You have love. I have love. You have fear. I have fear. Right? You have perception. I have perception. So that's where we connect. We can we can merge. There's allows there to be that a person should be able to experience within his within his or her individual personality. So for this you have sous is the way divinity comes into a structure so that my structured life should be able to have godliness as a backdrop. That's what I am is really our world. It's what our world looks like in an ideal in an ideal fashion. What does it look like to create a world that reflects the truth of the world? So that's what is like a backdrop you know like a architect a contractor uses the blueprint to be able to design a house. Soilus bria these are different levels of designing the house is like the blueprint of this world. So you say our world evolved from it says in that the 10 of a personal they come from the 10 spheres they could reflect the 10 spheres. What does that mean really? That the 10 spheres are a backdrop right how a person's becomes aligned with with Hashem. So that's the whole is that way for this went into all of these ca into all of these filtered and condensed into all of these features without it if there would be no hashem could do whatever he wants but that there should be an internalized relationship that a person should be able to refine themselves and uh tune in that every feature of my personality could become a a reflection of that wouldn't be shak Again, Hashem could make a miracle, do whatever he wants. But I'm talking from an internalized way. That's why is so important because there's a lot going on in people's lives, right? That's your that is your morning, your afternoon, your evening. You have happy days, you have difficult days, you have days that you're up, you have days that you're down, you have thrilling days, exhilarating days, stressful days. There's a dynamic. A person is not static. A person is not lifeless, numb, and dead. There's a rhythm. There's there's a rhythm, right? What's the power of a niggan? The power of a niggan is it's not the same note. There's a ballad that once wrote to somebody in a letter doesn't only mean I sing to Hashem during my life. I sing to Hashem with my life. Life is a song. And like a song, it has ups and downs. And there's sad moments in a song. And there's beautiful and and lively moments. There's high notes and there's low notes. It's a niggan. You don't have to amputate any part of your life. You just have to align it, right? It's like chords of a violin. What does say an about I am I am a harp for your uh for your melodies. later it was taken for but it comes from in his what is it called um so it means my soul is a harp for your niggan but there's different chords that produce different every in a person is just another aspect of you have to fine-tune it that it reflects so that there's complete aas there's complete fusion So you don't have to run away from any part every that's why you'll see this of and this part of a person and that part of a person and every you hear it's all another you don't have to get afraid of it you just have to find how it's aligned the big shila is yeah is there a relationship with Hashem himself or it's just you know God's playing monopoly with me so he sits down on the law and he makes believe that he takes Monopoly game seriously. That's really the of So you could say two ways. You could say that no is his own thing and there's nothing to say over there and you know whatever. It's just completely removed that we have no sh over there. There's no get there's no you he doesn't need anything. You can't do anything for him. You can't even say love or he loves you. question. There was a rashiva and a particularly yeshiva last a few years ago before a mother called me. That's why I know he asked his students in high school if uh if if they think that God loves them. They all said yeah. So he explained to them that it's aus because basic whole philosophy is well he loves you so now he has need so he's missing something right without the love he's missing something. So it's aus philosophy itself there was this whole problem Hashem is completely removed with emotions what is needed needy yeah but what does that do with it basically says there's no relationship it's just for you he gave you he gave you a good idea you should be able to have a good life and have so as I gave a mush imagine I don't mean to give anybody ideas but imagine you're getting married right but before you get engaged you turn to your wife and you say would you like to marry me but before you do I just want to tell you that I don't need this. Maybe some people do it. I don't need this. I'm perfect. But you know what? It's good for you because you won't you won't be able to damage the relationship. Whatever you do, it doesn't matter. It's just for your sake. If you behave well, you'll have a good life. If not, you're going to have a bad life. But in terms of me, you can't touch me. You can't affect me. You know, what type of relationship is it? So that's why in cabala there's the idea of elus theum right there is a relationship the there's mid all that but what about so this is where comes in this is where comes in yeah I'm sorry you can ask sounds like good Good, good, good question. Good question. Good question. Good question. So, we're going to get to that. So, so what's the summation of all of this? It's clear a little bit what I'm saying, huh? Or not so clear? Oh, very clear. It's clear. That's what means means I want to live in you, in your identity. people think means Hashem wants you should build a house in your basement and he's going to hang out there. A girl wrote me an email a few weeks ago. She's in a school and she said that she always learns that the purpose of life is and she finds it to be very selfish. God wanted to build a home somewhere. Let him go build it. I have to dedicate my life to build him a home in the basement somewhere. It's very in her words it's completely narcissistic. And my whole life has to be for that. She missed that one point. She thinks is somebody's house means in you. Means in me, right? Imagine somebody comes to you and says, "Listen, I have everything, but somehow I'm not satisfied. All I want for the rest of my life is I want to be with you." That doesn't sound selfish. That's what I want to be with you. But what does with you mean? With you doesn't just mean I want to live in your kitchen. Means your identity. Every feature of your identity, your personality, including your struggles. Including your struggles. That's doesn't your struggles. I just want to be with you. So that's where comes in. Without that, a relationship on that level would maybe be a miracle. God could do whatever he wants. Again, he also could create me and do whatever he wants and he could create a robot and and make a we're talking here about a relationship that is genuine that I have to work out just like with two people who have a relationship. It has to be on my terms and on your terms, right? If you don't exist in a relationship, it's not a relationship. Without sashulus, you couldn't exist in a relationship. You heard what I said? You understand with you exist in the relationship. You exist in the relationship. But the question is, yeah, it's on your terms. Now, is it on his terms? Is it really on his terms or God just says, you know, let's let this be a fake relationship? And that's the ultimate shila. How real is this relationship? Or to put it differently, how real isite? Now, this is the deepest. This is the most important one. How real is your I don't mean real externally. It's real to happen. How real is it in reality? How real is it in reality? For the soldiers to be able to fight the war, they have to have the they have to have the treasure. What's the is that everything is at stake. Not that it's just real in fact. It's not a madeup story on on on the news media. It's not fake news. Here real I mean how real is it? How negay is it? How relevant is it? How much is creation a joke? And how real is it? Or is it really a joke? Because you know, real philosophers get very cynical and very very pessimistic about life. Huh? I have I have I'm already on my second. That's why I'm not sleeping. How real is it? In other words, in real atsmos, in atmos itself, how real is my life? How real is your life? How real is your headache? You'll say, "Okay, don't exaggerate." You know, don't take yourself so seriously, right? There's an expression from the showed how small a person is, but how great he or she can become. And it's when you realize how small you are, you also realize how great you can become. You know, one is dependent on the other. So it's all part of the same. So because so because captures everything and the reason it captures everything is because it's nothing. Because if it would be something it wouldn't capture anything, would capture very little because it's nothing. It captures everything. So therefore the atmos could be given over through. So that is what creates which feels like a which comes from and was she uses that the creation happened and is that which reflects its source. It it projects its source is an energy that doesn't project its source is usually the source of it is called niv when something is separate from its source. If I throw a football, the football flies. It comes from me, but my energy is now detached from me. You may know that I have thrown it, but you're not going to see it in the football. You may know that it was somebody who who's athletic, somebody who knows how to throw a football, but you don't see the connection in because has the ability theos. So therefore captures not just the ability of giloy it also captures the ability to create in other words the ability for atmos to be dark to be nonreflected which is what our world is our world doesn't reflect you have to philosophize you have to dig but intuitively we relate to how does do that because captures also the ayion of atmos captures the ability of atmos to be not a mitus to be not to be not reflected. That's the comes out through it all in one word. Huh? We see it in this world. Allows us to understand darkness. Simple. Explain. Without we wouldn't understand darkness. Okay. Your words are a little dark. So maybe you can uh illuminate what you're saying. You're saying light allows us to understand and appreciate darkness. You can understand it. Without light, you couldn't understand darkness. Understand darkness. She's saying in the it's the same thing that it allows you to perceive not just that but why why because the is the same like so if is telling you the truth it's telling you that God's capacity to project is the same capacity like not to project so the fact that he's projecting is coming from the same place that can also nonproject other the projection is trapped by the need to project right it's not trapped by so says the whole story says yes I'm meal you what am I meala your ability to be MEALA AND ALSO NOT to be meala that I'm also mala and in that moment comes the connection between atmos and mitsus through seems like it that only happens once the earth is perceived Oh, now what what what now? Now what's this O? Now what's this O? This is O as is so to speak of it's called the capacity of Hashem which is actually inside of him. The capacity of Hashem to be known to be to be shown to to to to be it to be is. The word is is. We're going to make up a word. Isness. It's a new word. I sen nes. Is it a new word? I think so. Isness. Isness. Is huh? Beeness. By n. That's all. O. Isness. What is isness? Yeah, we isness is really Hashem, but it's not atmos. It's it's right where the name of Hashem which is it's called is is existence. That's why somebody says I deny God. I don't believe in God. No problem. But the Jew those words don't make sense. They also deny existence. That's it. You're calling it God because people look at God like some being existent. Do you deny existence? Anybody denies existence? Do you deny isness? Do you deny reality? It's a reflection of that. That's the truth. So isness is but but it's not atmos. Atmos is not isness. Now what happens with this isness? What is isness? This is part of isness, right? But the highest highest spiritual transcendent reality is also part of isness. So this is where begins the journey begins the journey. So I said last week it says in is the first is the first of what is a relationship is I'm sending somebody to go somewhere to do something where I can't be or I don't want to be or whatever it is. So what's is you're transporting you're carrying through the the first so to speak outside of is the union of but what is in essence it's ability to be translated into isness is that really atmos it's a joke that's why is nothing atmos is isness that's as much atmos as atmos is not isness you understand that's that's why on one hand is a harder it's just a ray it's not what it mean just a ray doesn't doesn't capture the essence. It's just a ray of the essence. It's the way atmos comes out in isness. Am I being clear or you think I'm crazy? Okay. Crystal is crystal. Is that why puts me because the is realizing that I can't be optimist I have to that's the last the way the end of this is that it all comes out it all comes out it's not that he's going to get to that what shabas is so so is already existence isness beingness yeah now the atheist [Laughter] because the atheist is living in Alam Haza and he's also a product of atmos right so he could come and say yeah no business no business even though of course he's contradicting himself because if you'll take away from him his career huh if you take away his isness I don't know you know if you take away the Nobel prize how deep it's going to go okay but that's a separate chila But the is that this ability of that comes from that's beyond anything doesn't have any source and that comes out in but it comes out through this was supposed to be my introduction my summation my summation learn from me to one word you got it down to one word. Okay. But let's let's can't let Huh. Okay. It's it's it's like it's it's it's a whole puzzle. It's like a building a building, you know. There's a lot of details and a lot of nikudas. You could sit here. So if you take a look at page at pageud gimmel page gimmel 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 lines from the bottom gimmel. This is [Music] battle. Now we understand what this means when it says it doesn't only mean that through I can have some glimpse some appreciation of the source that too it means further something else because it's it captur captures the aspect THAT THE MER HAS NO SOURCE THAT ALSO CAPTURES EVEN THOUGH IT'S A PARADOX OR IT DOES HAVE A SOURCE. So if YOU LOOK AT ME, I HAVE A SOURCE. HOW CAN I EMBODY THAT WHICH has no source when I do have a source? That's the if you look at me, I have a source. So how can I give you a feeling that you don't have no source when when I have a source? That's the of the of that of it captures it embodies it embodies it transmits that inmos that in the it doesn't have a that comes out of and that's what has what we that's what we that's what we have we don't reflect atmos we embody atmos how could we embody atmos that's the that's the power of that is even that which is beyond even of which is not because is a reflect is a continuum is all about a source that is doesn't have a source what's THAT'S THE WHOLE IS not its own thing. Yeah. The comes out. Yeah. She said before, are we looking into the art to discover or we looking to discover or are they both so inter that the art helps us discover that our is you'll see in a moment. This is the we said and here's a you don't have in other places. I think this is I don't know if I I don't know if I I don't think I ever saw it anywhere else that is usually understood that the goes down everywhere. It has no limits. He's saying not not the not that the is just endless. It's a much deeper means that it's to the point that it creates the whole until the lowest levels that completely feel detached that also comes from because can create the goes everywhere. Something much deeper than that. the the is of which is and therefore IT CAN CREATE A CAN CREATE something that's completely detached in its own PERCEPTION I is the opposite of when you have it's all about a source but because of the of it captures even the independence of atmos so because is completely nothing it's everything it has even the complete independence of the the the the come out in there and that could come out and create that's the now I want you to be typhus here how this develops now cuz it's it's this is something that's absolutely stunning. We'll go another another 15 minutes. He continues in the original from this that we're talking about came worlds and Without end, without limit. Here's a bombshell. If this is the about where does this lead us? We we fine. So there's this concept in whether we as much as we understand it and relate to it. Here goes the next step. Life didn't stop at it didn't. If life would have stopped right there, right? What would reality look like? Huh? Yeah. We know that it came all the way down all the way to Maza. So now the rest of the mime till the till the last piece which is an goes through the evolution from this original moment of till we got to this table here on for dogwood place in pomona or anywhere else in the world that's what the go and here's the if this is true about that what that the It captures the true he calls it. Not just that the is infinite because it extends everywhere because it's like the light of the sun a powerful sun right the light is going to go everywhere. Hashem is so powerful and infinite so the light is going to go everywhere but the light is only that which can be expressed. Well, here we're saying that also captures the that's the of that doesn't have any has no beginning that's also communicated in. So if this is the case, we come now to this great great revolutionary idea that everything in the world ultimately is everything is everything is. So you say one one second you spoke about shea we speak about simpum we speak about spherus we speak about me identity the here is going to be this if would have been limited to meaning if the definition of is what to see the source that's it then if I see the source it's if I don't see the source it's not right well you don't see the source it's not but he explains explained in the previous that is not just that I could see the source also transmits and embodies the source which CAN'T BE SEEN IN I SEE NO source I see nothing I see me and then also comes out through the says based on this we understand that every creation that came from Even that which exists in the lowest level of reality that is completely so to speak severed from its source really what is it really it's so all the distinctions that we make inulus shea and this level and that level that mga it's just how we access it and process it ma from our perception because we have to work it through cuz as I said before it's about a relationship that you have to work through it has you have to own it but when you get to the pimus of it what is it it's just articulating itself in endless different levels and if that's the case then life gives us the opportunity of ultimate aus of ultimate fusion every moment of life becomes the deepest celebration in which you're dancing with atmos Huh? So that even the is because captures the ayion. So since all of comes from so the goes through a huge process and this is basically what happens in the m in theb talks about in its original form. What it is is atmos has the ability to be. Then there is yeah this expressing itself its capacity to create infinite creations. The the capacity of isness to express itself in infinite ways. I ask you a question. How many ways can I express itself in? what's happen be another million things introduced a concept called spherus doesn't exist in kab said wrote it down he introduced a mus called spherus an kates and kabal is usually 10b said no there's a mus called spherus an kates the says here because because in this What's its capacity to express itself in HOW MANY WAY IS not spherous is light? Light is no structure. Spher is structure. But if in the isness of God, yeah, what can come from it? Huh? In the in this isness, I'm I'm using the word isness. I don't have a better word. I can use the wordh. So I'm being he said beingness. I said isness. Whatever you want to say. It's the capacity of isness to create whatever could have been infinite or there is infinite levels. It's the same thing. You want to know if it could be or it is. If it could be, it is. But is over there is on a different level by you. Could be and is is different because we all have dreams that we never fulfill. Right? But in a level of reality where are the same could be and is is you understand what I'm saying? If it could be, it is. It's just not is by us. Is means, you know, I need the money in the bank. That's is till it's in the bank, it doesn't exist, right? But that's just because our tools could be is a mity is just like is. Well, why is it less? You get what I'm saying? If I could put could be in under an X-ray. It is. It is in a different realm. It is in a different realm. There's the famous, you know, the mess. There was once a yid measure bush. He got into a fight with a guy in shul and he said I'm going to tear you like a fish. The bos was there and he put he said that should put their hands on each other and close their eyes. They sang a niggan right and they saw that the guy is tearing him like a fish. You know the ma. So what did the bos say? The bos said words are reality. It's just a reality on a different level. Yeah, that's why it's brought says in that affects three people badly. The one who speaks it, the one who hears it, and the one you're talking about. I'm I'm talking about real. I'm not talking about saving people from a murderer just for clarity talking real not it's not an right. So the bash said I understand the speaker I'm not supposed to and the listener but why the guy who he says when you talk about something you bring it out. So the debi used to say when you speak positively about somebody you also bring it out it's a reality what's what the reality it comes out into so this is already spherious introduced yeahb says but there was aum why is there aum why do you need aum because you're not going to get from a cat to can without symptoms allows there to be tense and they go into where everyone is structured and that's whereas begins. So here we're not talking anymore right the there's 10 spheres and they have and all that and without it couldn't happen because what's simp means that the whole had to be suspended because if would be present you couldn't have the mitas of the mitsus of finitness why because it would scream my Finitness is all infinity. What allows me and you to have our structured identities. It's allum. You had to suspend the whole feeling of infinity. The whole experience of blev the whole experience. Remember is all God. It's all hashem. The word God is actually isness, existence, source, everything, reality eliminates all of that. It creates this void and allows there to be a mitas of finitness. So the Reb says even that's also it's just the way is expressing itself in in in finite structures and again it's all part of this. If was defined by revelation, it wouldn't work. It got stopped at some point. God can do that. But if is not defined by revelation created which is in other words can embody which is not revealed. I call him nothing because he's not revealed. So then even inul is the same just articulated in a certain way. I experience it as in cifh the says what about our world in our world it's not just this god finite THERE'S NO NO PRESENCE OF ANY we just seem so he says when you study the diversity of creation and the system of creation you'll see you have to study it but it's all there in other words it's articulated in every single madreg of existence So it's interesting he started off with to explain what is then he goes to spheres which is the way is manifested yeah if god's being creates what could it create what comes from it anything and anything without kates that he explains from the postsum or it comes into kale and this tense spirit this but it's still bleak that he explains from the the way it comes in still ain't that he explains from the which brings him back to the of what really is and why it can do all this and that's from the and that's this way he went through all the and then in he says what does this all mean in a and he brings the mag to explain it in a that's how the Mahes. So it starts off with atmos the way would be expressed in that which comes from all before postsum butilis and then which is our world and then how it's expressed in a and it brings all the to this it brings us to back to this one of which is that there's there could the ultimate ultimate fusion. You still need because without again you could skip all these steps but then you have to cut out parts of yourself and inad everything is pimus. You don't cut out anything. It's all integrated. That's why there's we don't and every mga is is a reflection of a certain experience in life. That's why it says always that every has a so people learning orum or spirus where's the well what's negate to my life breakfast is going to be different my boss is going to be in a better mood because of it but it's a misunderstanding if you can't translate it to a particular experience in life you didn't understand it you hear what I'm saying there's no such a thing you're learning exodus a madrega and it's a madrea it's a pilp in in elus That's that's not it. You're missing the point. Yes. Huh? Kabala. Yes. Uh you say what about Kabala? So Ashab once said that the world thinks that is a beard on Kabala. The em is the so what's so I heard from Khan once once had a and he explained to the bakar he said and it's very powerful I'm going to give a dugma from a secular branch of wisdom but it's a good dugma there's mathematics and there's physics they're two separate things. But physics today employs the language of mathematics to describe anything in physics. Any equation in physics, they use mathematics. But mathematics is not physics. Completely not. The alterba decided to employ the language of kabala to explain but it's not the same. Kabala is the language of spiritual mathematics. The spiritual science of the universe is conveyed through cababalistic language. Butidis brings out the of. So when so Kabala is a beard onus because Kabala shows how the is reflected in and in this world and in that world and in this relationship and But then of the of it that's expressed in so there's no such thing as doesn't have a it always has an application to life or in the words of the blood of which is the so means that it's close it's relevant doesn't mean it's it's within a foot means it's close to me it's applicable it's relevant If it's not relevant, you're missing the point. The once said in the because the whole was created for the relationship. So if you don't explain Yeah. to say the thing was was created in vain. You understand? The whole purpose is you should explain it in a because so if you don't explain it in avoid it's missing its tas in other words if doesn't come into so then is like why do I exist I exist for you said unbelievable you understand in other words we have to be adal about it when needs me to explain it in my avoid Yeah, you shouldn't say it in an egotistical way. It's anishkite. But the point is based on the doesn't mean he's standing above you and watching you. He's standing on you. You're holding him up. Not standing over you to watch you. You know, like Google, you know, Google Google maps to watch you. of a love. He stands on the person. You hold him up. It's a medish over there. However you touch it, it's not for now. Hashem is but the is that it's all. So if you skip, yeah, he Hashem could have left it by and that was it. He didn't leave it by came down all the way to our reality. So that in our reality, in our world, in our identity, in our psyche, in our neurons, in our selves, you should be able to climb that ladder and trace it all back to the aus of atmos, but in a way that's integrated, not that eliminates you. That's why is not is not segregation. And ultimately, it boils down to this question. Do we have to run away from life or do we engage in life? Without this ultimately you have to enga disengage because because this is only a playground it's a fake playground right but with this of so then both ultimate transcendence and ultim intimate engagement become one and they're they're not they're not separate and is expressed also the so that's the he of this how it goes so first he explains the kates in other words how would be translated right before what does this look like how would it be translated if something comes from it. So if Hashem decides to be, what does that look like, what comes from that being? And the answer is everything and everybody. But that's not that's not that's already but the are endless. How can they work together? They can work together because because has the so of because the depth of therefore was that there's a cat it's because some form of structure it's things that are coming from why is there anything coming from what I became now a mocker I became a teacher Why is there anything coming from me? That's not because captures the so but there ain't. So that's the of this that this paradox that carries now is manifested in every level of reality all the way down to the smallest reptile and lizard in our world. the smallest egg laid by a chicken, right? and everything in between it captures this paradox and therefore there can ultimately be the between atmos and the world that's the that's the of this the goes through but from this perspective of you see in the original you don't see all this he says it all but he doesn't he doesn't he doesn't mention he doesn't mention all this it's the way that learned the inbat he brings it out you read read the original yud base he says yeah the ble comes out in all the worlds but this how the brings it out and that you don't see in the original mime you see how the reb learned the mime he's saying it all as a beard in the mime but it's all the beard in the mime with with a tremendous with tremendous that come out on the way where everything gets transformed within M yeah you're saying something very deep very deep you're saying that the way translates in a person's life is that embodies even that that can't come into right embodies that which can't come into so therefore saying something very deep in all science today. There's a paradox that nobody knows how to deal with. It's and it's coming out in every level. There's things that we get, we grasp, and then there's things that are coming out. Yeah. But we're not grasping them. We're wondering how it works together. We call it paradoxes. It's like strange like this follows a certain trajectory but creation itself shows that it's frustrated with itself and that's where is mgala that I'm not telling you the full picture. Gilu is not the full picture. There is that which I can't express which I'm also going to express. So the world is expressing that there's a certain that it can't express. How is that expressed? It's expressed by showing you that even that which is being expressed is not telling you the full picture. It's pointing to something. It's pointing to something that can't be expressed. But it's also being expressed. So it's creating this crazy paradox that you can only make peace with if you understand the paradox of I know that nothing I said made sense, right? But you see it constantly in every in you see there is this frustration that comes from the fact that we're capturing something that somehow is not working. It's it's expressing something that can't be expressed and therefore it's undermining that which is being expressed and somehow it's working together. In every nikud man and he talk about physics, quantum quantum physics, quantum mechanics. So there was like these paradoxes that undermine and yet they're all working they're all working together because the light also captures the darkness which can't be expressed in light but that's also expressed in and that that makes for the ultimate relationship. Now in a person's life what that means is that means that there's things I could do. That's what you're saying. And there's things I can't do, right? The things I can do are also part of what I can do. We often get upset, right? That's what you meant. There's things I can't do, right? We all get upset. That's also part of what you could do. That's also part of what you can do because if it's all captures also that which which can't be captured in the Gmorra says, Right. Just like says is is of that you could capture says that which you can't capture. You can only capture it by not doing but the is yet what I can do is also part of my reality. It's very this is a very important my darkness is also part of my light. Not everything is light. It is real. If it's real it's dark also. It captures also that which can't be expressed. That also is going to be expressed. Now it frustrates the living daylights out of light. That's why light gets frustrated. That's why light doesn't know if it's light is flying 186,000 miles per second. You're like where should I put myself? The answer is without ble. You don't have where to put yourself. Once this bit, you don't have to put yourself anywhere. Where does have to be? Wherever the wants today I'm here. Tomorrow I'm there. That's an avoid. Yeah. I don't have agendas. I don't have agendas. Today I'm here. Tomorrow I'm there. Now you want me to speak. Now you don't want me to speak. It's fine. Right. Your your capacity, your lack of capacity is also part of your capacity. Huh? To make a person comfortable with their limitations, not just because you're a loser. It's much deeper than that because your limitations is an expression of atmos that's what you mean your limitations are expression of it's expression of and that's that's that's an essential of that's also an expression it's a different type of expression the reb once told the story that when the rebay was in prison in 1927 in the spaler in lengrad So the the investigator, these were brutal, brutal communist Jews. The investigator was asking him questions and he was he was in his own zone. You know the deb was responding to what he wanted to. So the person asked him the investigator asked him, "Do you know where you are?" So he said, "Yeah, I'm in a place that's put from a muza just like a bathroom and a and a stal an animal stable. That's where I am. So the Reb asked what's the what was what was the point? Okay. He compared it to what was so the said muza creates muza says creates the needed then he needed security. Yeah. So he mentioned hilis muza part of hilis muza is that there's certain places that are put for muza that's a dinner in hilis muza so he so to speak he was makaya muza he brought muza because he said this is a place where tus says is for muza so so there's an INDIAN OF MUZA HERE ALSO SAYS HERE YOU DON'T NEED A muza huh I've never heard that it's really good at you Thomas once I forget which here dancing also once in jail with that there was that from because the same god who wants you to d wants you here not to d this is all the is also an you have to work it through you have to find in it it's all it's his ability not to express it's also him don't think it's not him you were not thrown out of the you you weren't thrown away and uh left hanging, you know, like like like wet laundry. What's the expression? Huh? Thrown under the bus. I'm just trying to explain what you said. What did you want to say? Ask you want to know if it's logical or there's a logical element. Now, of course, logic is all a creation. Right. Logic is also a creation. In other words, atmos is not defined by logic at all. Logic itself is a creation. That's my question. Does it work with today's logic that we in our world or does it not? You talk about logic. We we try to operate on some level of logic. That's you understand is a structure that has a rhythm that we call logic. Huh? That's the idea. from a certain place. Logic is as much logical as the opposite of logic. What the you know who who made logic boss, right? Hashem made a mitas. Why mitsas? Could have been not a mitsus could be a mishug and it would be more normal than a normal person. It's anyway happening these days. Yeah, it's anyway happening these days. Huh? So that you have to understand but the is you could say on everything. In other words, it's just a paradox and we don't understand it. But the vert here is that should be able to become part of your identity. That's the I'm answering your question in a strange way. Both of your are right that no which is atmos should be able to become part of your identity. That's the of so you want to know if it makes sense. The of is that it makes sense. What does sense mean? Every level sense means something else. Their sense of Haza, the sense of the sense of bria, the sense, right? Every has its world where it's what avar is in that world. Yeah. Real come from all the way where begins. But but that's the of your question is your answer. Bring bring your two sides together. That's your typhus. What I'm saying? I asked my brother if he thinks you know in in in physics there's a whole thing the last generation that light is full of paradoxes. They used to think light works like a wave which is akto cohesive like a wave of water you know it goes together. Then they found out when they did measurements that light acts like particles. Every particle is isolated. So they thought they made a mistake but then they saw that it acts like a wave. But it's a paradox because a wave moves cohesively a whole wave together. Particles, every particle is isolated. And then they realize that when they're observing the light, it becomes a particle. When they don't observe it, it becomes a wave. And then they made experiments and they realize that it acts like a wave and it acts like a particle simultaneously. So it drives everybody crazy. So I thought that in physics in gashm is this is a reflection of two the it's megala gilo is a wave which is unity cohesion and the of that it's megala the ability ofos that it's atmos including not the definition that it has to be. It could not be iron. I don't exist. I'm also fine. Atmos doesn't have to exist. You could think you're everything. You have no muker. That that's where it becomes a particle. And and and in both and they're really one. When you observe it, you're only going to see one because our eyes don't like that. You know, we like to to put everything in. We don't like But that's really what it is. So has no problem with that. It was just a ma. My brother told me he also had such a whatever. I don't know. I don't know that it's true. I'm just saying it's interesting because the biggest paradoxes in this world are in light. Everything is full of paradoxes. But nothing like light which is big mush for it's of course only a mushel but it's a mush that comes from the niml like everything right. I don't mean that physical light is what I mean is that physical light is the and the once said that's why you see in certain properties that are unique and they're reflective of the source even though it's gashm so ultimately you're not going to have the the physical because it is a thing but within gashm itself light is the most spiritual yeah you can't see it you can't touch it you can't define it and even measuring it is very problematic and its speed. In other words, is something that even in it points to it's like this fusion of it is and it's not right. Where's the in this room? I could point to the light bulb, but where's the exactly? It's everything and it's nothing. Right? The cup I could point to the cup. So the truth is that the cup is also that's the whole of the but the cup is the way it becomes a cup a particle. A represents the of this of of uh so in a in a this has become so critical because it's the ultimate of everything where life is is real. Life is real and meaningful and absolute and and every nuda of life is real. Life is serious. I don't mean serious as depressing. I mean serious as it's authentic. Atsimus is invested. It's not a monopoly game. Post Simpson, we think we have a reality. There was something you wanted to say something that the memory the ISIS are so abstract but it's like redefining reality on so many different levels. So like give us it's it's hard for me in our head to translate. I know this is very very abstract. It's very abstract and when you read it and you don't not familiar with the language, right? People could read it and they're just talking about and and spirates and and kayak and atmos but it's really redefining reality. The most non-abstract m also it's the most non-abstract m there is. Yeah. But you have to you have to be familiar with the language. If you're not familiar with the language and that it's relevant, you could just think it's a big pill pull and and that have no, you know, fine. And that's why people learn these things and they don't get excited because at best even at best they're understanding it maybe but completely abstract. So it's a pill in understanding how we feel, right? But really it's all brings out the ultimate aus the ultimate unity and in a way that you should be able to feel it in your gut in your bones because if you're not feeling it in your bones then we don't have we don't need is one the whole is the connection right all the way down to the yesesh is that the yeah meaning the has no relevance to me I can from that but on a level of of connection to that. I had a a that has yesesh but there is no but it's not connected to my yesesh it's connected to the yesesh but I don't understand that that is that's the mitzvah in gashm explains in that letter of garesh that why the mitzvah are in gashmi because this is the kdesh of gashmi yes yash exists on many levels there's the lulv and the right there's the physical material world there's There's the physical body and then there's the experience of a person's identity in the body and that's all part of it and a hashem relates to each in its own way but the kdesh of mitzvah that it's physical world is connected to this nuda the of ultimately is the embodiment of the deepest core of the deepest truth now if atmos then there would be no connection ction. You understand? Let's say Atmos would skip. Sorry guys, no oil. I could do what I want. I'm creating a gashmi. Then what would happen? No answer. There would be no connection. Huh? It's not relatable. It wouldn't be relatable. Everything would be there. Just like a room without light. Everything is there, right? Let's say you're married to somebody but you never see them. The Gomorra says the second, yeah, you're married to somebody, you never see them. The once said, he spoke about the he said doesn't only mean Hashem wants to live in you. The it should be a bright you're married to somebody. You never see them your whole life. What type of You're married. You never see them. Yeah. So what's the what what is it? You're married. You're actually one. But what's missing? There's no rel. You're not relatable. You see us. You're married. So Atimus could do what he wants. Of course he could do what he wants. He didn't need he didn't need anything. He could also not. But the V is he wanted a real a real connection. Real connection means that it's a worked out connection that I own it and you own it. That's you own it. You own it and you own it in your real self in in your identity. So that's where is that there should be a home where the atmos but that the atsmos should be not just atmos is here. Atmus should be seen, perceived, experienced. I should experience you, not just I should be with you in a dark room. That's what does light. The said then that the what was their mistake? They said we don't want to go into because we have in the midbar. What was the mistake? The mistake was that the is the like we're talking here. So saw this. It says in that after so ah so is then not better than me [Laughter] actually doesn't think I think better is better than yeah I'm as good as Mosha I'm better than what was the terrorist the correct that's always biker. So what's the biker? So says right you can't distinguish between you can't differentiate between morning and evening in other words because the is not just to have the shill and for gillu you need for gillu you need because because elevates the people elevates inspires the people. So in you yourself also with the same in your concealment hashem is as much as in in your revelation but to be able to appreciate that you need gilo a person says dvening and learning is not better than going to work. Yeah, you should be in Gashm all the day what you have to learn for right that's because it's not that way in order to be able to be in your work it's because you have to the and because you have that connection on the other hand if you only run away then that's the mistake of the so this is a subtle paradox that comes together that's that means that should be light for t out there would be could do whatever he wants the Okay, we'll take a break here. The next So, uh, the next sh is going to be online tomorrow morning 7:30. We're going to continue. I'm going to do it in my house because tomorrow night because other nights I have events, so I can't continue the Shir live, but the next year we'll do tomorrow morning 7:30. You can also watch a replay. This tomorrow morning. this tomorrow morning. We're going to go further. We're going to go further. So, you have a whole night to think about what we learned and then we're going there's no summation tomorrow. There's no summation tomorrow because if I do a summation tomorrow, then this mime doesn't get finished. My summation, huh? I'll use your summation tomorrow. But it's going to be 7:30 tomorrow. You could either come onto our Zoom or on the yeshiva.net. And then we're going to have it also Tuesday morning. Tuesday morning is 7:30. I hope to finish the m so it's going to be online. I want to thank very much Rabuda Zaltzman for uh arranging it and again to to David Gaerman and his Rebbitson and his wife for opening their home so graciously [Applause] and thank you everybody for coming. Thank you Rabbi