Centers Yom Iyun - Teshuva Drasha 5784

this Tower class is brought to you by torahanytime.com good afternoon friends I was asked to come to give khazuk but I myself have received the greatest I don't think I've ever seen in my life such an impressive group of working people giving up an entire day's work that has a lot of value to give up an entire day to allow the values of chuva and Torah to transcend any Earthly value what greater is the closest is there not only for yourselves but for Clarissa the first the furthest trip I've ever made I was once invited to speak in Australia and I like to get around and the trip is interminable it's just forever first you have to get to Los Angeles and then you have to stay over in the in the airport and then you have to catch another flight and I get like Stir Crazy just on an hour flight I have nowhere to put my feet I don't know what to do with myself after an hour and first you have to get to LA and then it's another 16 hours to Australia it's a long trip you know sometimes just last week I was invited to speak in Cleveland it was a Thursday the flag was 210 I arrive in JFK I don't know 12 30 plenty of time the flight said it's slightly delayed okay so instead of 210 it's going to take off at 2 20. I get on the flight I had a good seat on the plane 220 230 240 there's weather weather it's from here to Cleveland kind of weather it was 90 degrees remember like a week and a half ago it was 90 degrees there's weather there's storms hurricanes I don't know what they're talking about like they make it up as they go along it's an hour later two hours later they need a new route an old Route a different route then after three hours they have to go back to refuel it's now 5 10 not flight is canceled and that's just Cleveland sometimes just to get I don't know an hour or two away you never get there certainly if you have a flight across the world are you gonna get there or are you not going to get there but in these 10 days we have to make a very impressive Journey we gotta reach all the way to the case we have to get very far how are we going to get there how are we going to do it it's a journey fraught with danger it's a journey fraud with impediments how could we ensure the safe arrival at the end of these 10 days I want to share with you a very interesting custom Min hug Hassam Seifer we have over here I came in and this Sadiq introduced himself as a descendant of the Samsung first I'm throwing you a plug right in the beginning was he would expound upon the last mission said Israel fortunate as the Jewish people for whom do you purify yourself who purifies you Maya your father and some sofa was troubled I needed to teach me this but mayor can't teach me this for powerful is the only Tana that knows that on Yom Kippur it's your father that's purifying you nobody else but more interestingly is says I will sprinkle upon you the purifying Waters and you will be purified and it also says Hashem and the question is why do I need to suck him I need one possible sprinkle upon you the purifying Waters and the passage Israel Hashem this was the subject of the some sofer's annual Russia Lele call nidre and the anacola explained further that he figured out what was so interesting the night of Yom Kippur do you know that we start the night of Yom Kippur with the following pasok almost in every show in the world before they call nidre the khazan chants what in the world are we doing it's a nice passage who is singing this song for why do we chant this before call Nidra it's not part of the ritual of kolnidre actually if you look in one of the works of the reason called Rua or zaru was written by rabies of Vienna he was writing about how to spell different names and get them if somebody has to write again you have to know how to spell the name correctly if you spell the name incorrectly they get his puzzle did not know how do you spell the word Akiva is it or is it vase hey so he had a dream and in the dream Heaven showed him the following Israel simcha he didn't know the meaning of the dream he awoke in the morning and it hit him hey spells out rebia Kiva that when you write the name Akiva ayanve by the way we don't ask in that way we pass him with an aleph and he was so inspired by this dream that he named his safer or zeroa so that's interesting that means at the very beginning of Yom Kippur we give a little plug shout out to revia Kiva oyer what does have to do with Yom Kippur so some suggest something very interesting you know the gemara says in the end of brachice that at the end of his life he was already 120 years old the government made a decree that you weren't allowed to learn Tyra and rabi Akiva continued to gather students and to teach Tyra to Rob him and the tamidam asks how could you do something like this said what do you mean he gave the famous analogy the famous martial he said well there was once a fish swimming in the river and a fox came on the side of the river and the fox said you know let's take a stroll together so the fish said I'm gonna take a stroll with you if in my place of Vitality my life is in danger if I leave the water Allah the fish said I can come out the Torah is our life the water of Torah is our life I am not going to stop learning now the gemara says they raked his skin with coals of iron with an iron rake he was saying who remembers the gamara writes in a tuba whenever Akiva said in his last word he transformed his name from Akiva with the hey at the end to Akiva with an aleph that's the secret of yatsu son that he became an aleph so really originally it was with the hay but at the end of the day he became aleph okay that's just samsiphon so what do we learn from this Kamara when did rabikiva die everybody knows that everybody's familiar with this camera but we somehow have in our minds was a Christmas chakras or was it and what day of the year was it so there's a medrish the medrish is found in the al-q shimani the medrish says rabi Akiva was in prison it was his student was there because his students sorry he was about to die and in the middle of the night told the student of Rivia Kiva ravia Kiva died in prison so if you put the Gomorrah together with the madrish which means if rubikiva died at the time of Shema and he died at night and it was Yom Kippur that means Rabbi Akiva passed aways the night of yamakipuram rabi Akiva never had a husband so the Jewish people eulogized rabi Akiva every night of call nidre they say yes which means Yom Kippur is kicked off with the commemoration of the life of rabi Akiva do you think it's a coincidence that of all the tanoam the one that reveals to Claudia Israel the power the depth the profundity of Yom Kippur Israel Kiva whose Soul left this world as the caduce of Yom Kippur came down to this world Israel let's speak a little bit about the Purity then that rabikiva presents the cloud Israel of the Mayim tahiram and of the Mikvah let's talk a little bit about the word tishray you know every word of the Jewish months has great significance so if you take the word Tish rate tough is 400 Shin is 300 racius 200 Yoda's 10 910. but actually kabbalistically also have Gematria did you know that Kudos have gamatria a DOT is like a year the 10. one dad is ten a Shiva two dots or at se is 20. apata is a verb is six if you remember from when you were four years old before art scroll came out with their font the original font of the Comets was a line and a circle now that it's like a line and a line but the traditional shape is a line above and a DOT the gamatria of a kamats is 16. [Music] by the way there are words in artilla that we manipulate the correct pronunciation in order to arrive at a certain gamatria based on the nakudais and it's brought in halacha for example in birkenazine really we should say according to the laws of Hebrew grammar but we'd say we distort the correct pronunciation we say in order to get a specific gamatria the Schloss says you want to get bread you need to access it through the special formula of specific nikudais so this is a system that has halache ramification says take the word tishre we said tough Shin ratio at 9 10. what's under the tough what's under the shin what's under the race two dots so you have nine ten plus 50 960. the gamatria of tishre is 960. [Music] what's 960. actually from Richmond is how many days 40 days how many hours 960 hours 40 days times 24. what's the significance of 960 amikvah is 40 saw 960 look tishre elbow is like a Mikvah now how does a Mikvah operate what's the mechanism of a Mikvah how does the Mikvah purify here you have a guy he's a barrier you know in the laws of tomantara if you have something which which is trafe let's say you have a little pig fat and the pig fat falls into a big vat of chicken soup you know imagine you have a big pot of chicken soup cooking and you have a Gentiles walking by and he has Grace Burger King he has some juice from his Burger flies up from the burger goes into the soup what do you do with the soup you eat the soup it's about the position is it better not to eat the soup no is it better to eat the soup absolutely it's an Indian to eat it actually the Menace Oscar writes you're now to be moving but if you could find the Dover kosher that happened to have been made it's big stuff it's a big school I don't know it was never marketed yet but there's an Indian it's an un it's an untapped school okay we'll put it that way if a little ant falls into one of these Vats of children like in Yeshiva these Vats of children where a guy could fall in he would be bottled LF what's our look of an ant poison you can't eat the whole pot barrier bottle a philube LF but that's the sheet of the Babbling do you show me holds barrier is bottle in 960. the mechanism of the Mikvah is here you have a guy he's a barrier but he's a Bad Barrier at least now and he goes into the Mikvah which is 960 lug and that has a purifying effect on the individual based on the you xiaomi that a barrier is bottle and tatkas tough tough summer 960. that's ELO that's tishray 960 hours which means whether you prepare or you don't prepare whether you're here at the shear or you didn't make it to this year maybe you're home maybe you didn't even think about the Yama Narayan anyone who travels through these 40 days will emerge to some degree purified 960 hours but rupam wanted to analyze this further because number one is I'm going to sprinkle upon you the purifying Waters pasig number two Israel Hashem why do we need these two sukim what are these two types of purification purifying Waters and the Mikvah RAF Palm enjoyed saying over from the son of rabies back there are two types of purifications and there are two types of chuva there's one kind of purification going to a Mikvah what's the halacha somebody goes to a Mikvah and they say watch this they jump in the Mikvah and they have you know the tip of their finger is sticking out what percent of them has been purified zero what if somebody goes into the Mikvah and the hair is sticking out what percent is purified zero what do you mean but 99.9 percent of them is in the Mikvah the Mikvah is All or Nothing you don't get credits credit for trying you don't get brownie points for making the effort that's one kind of purification there's another kind of purification the purifying Waters the purifying Waters is if somebody can contracted Thomas mace in order to eventually have the ashes of paraduma sprinkled on you you would have the kahin sprinkle on you Mayim Tahira these Mayim tahiram if they touch your finger if they touch the top of your head they touch the tip of your nose or you're pure are you 100 pure you've achieved a halachic status of Purity and you're ready for the next step all that's required is just touch the water says with palm there are two kinds of chuvas there's one kind of chuva that we all hope to do we try to do this year you know one time on Rosh Hashanah I believe you think of our ditch of caveman to the shul he said this year you're going to be at Sade gamor this year you said that last year he said but this year I mean it that's how we are in Rosh Hashanah we say this year I'm gonna dive in every filo with complete kavana I'm Gonna Learn with Focus I'm going to speak to people with respect I'm gonna be a perfect Sadiq the problem is the reality of that type of chuva is far-fetched the likelihood of it of it lasting is not that high that type of tuva is like going in the Mikvah it's hard to be successful at a fully immersive chuva process but there's another type of chuva there's another type of chuvo that's accessible to anybody there's another type of chuva that we like to ignore and the eight Sahara doesn't want us to be aware of it and if we are aware of it he doesn't want us to do it we we put it down where a person takes one thing a small little thing almost it's so easy this year [Music] once a week by the Shabbos table I'm gonna say the first Amazon with cabana pal that's the only thing you're gonna do this year yeah that's all I'm doing that's all I'm doing what did you do you know what he did he touched the Mayim he contacted he came into contact with the purifying Waters of chuva is he a new person no has he completely revolutionized his personality not at all does he look different than yesterday he looks exactly the same it's just he's adding one bracha once a week with kavana or maybe and once a week he's gonna say something nice to one of his friends and that's it what'd the person do the answer is if you can't change yourself completely at the very least you could touch the Mayim had to hire him you could contact you could make contact with the purifying Waters but friends it's very interesting that the one who reveals this principle to us is rebe Akiva let's think a little bit about the origins of rabi Akiva but before we do that once we're on the topic of out of the box Gematria systems I want to share with you another one do you remember Rashi and parishes who remembers the next word hey Dave hey you'd test vase what does Rashi say shivim Lashay knife seventy languages moisha translated the Torah in 70 languages so the McPherson want to know where does Rashi see in the word heytave 70. the most important commentary on Rashi is the mizration says Rashi derived this from a new mechanism of gamatria I call it the na na nachman system you know if you have it if you didn't make it to uman for Rosh Hashanah I'll give you a little flavor okay but this comes from the reshiner the way the system works is you take the word you take hey s hey you would test vase got it very simple you take a word you take the first letter then you add the first two letters then you add the first three letters then you add the first four letters hey is five hey Yoda's fifteen we're up to 20. hey your test is 24 we're up to 44. hey your test days is 26.70 that's how she knows moisture translated her into 70 languages this is an authentic system of gamatria nah nah that's that's what they're doing one of the all-time great mikhubalem of shamshin of ashtrapoli the 1649 he passed away reveals an astounding Gematria the gamar tells us where does it reach ad Vice great it reaches the Throne of Glory that's where we're headed cough cough samach aleph am hey vase 7 13. half love a fella the Gematria of chuva 713 is the same gamachu as kise using this system says why do you think that is that chuvas gamacho kisi are covered using the system of cuff cuffs the answer is because the greatest impediment to chuva is okay this year I'm going to be at Sade gamor and it worked so for some people worked for first day Rosh Hashanah some people pulled it off for the first two days some people even made it till time gedalia and then by the time we come back to work we realize we're the same guy that we were last year with no change it was just a fake it was just I mean she'll have nothing better to do so I might as well be at Sadiq but I'm the same guy nothing happened to me so forget the whole thing it's a big mistake you're not gonna be different now than you were last year you can't do it in four days you know how you have to do it with tiny little increments minute by minute small act after small act thought after thought first the cuff if a guy says you know this year I'm going to learn an extra two hours a day try it go for it I don't think it's gonna happen not like that what about an extra 10 minutes a day five minutes a day start with the cuff do something small that's the only way to get to the case the only way to get up there is you gotta take small tiny step after step after step don't underestimate the smallest thought is asking you is one little opening do you know who taught the world about the importance of minuscule perhaps microscopic increments of growth you know who revealed to the world and to himself how important it is not to underestimate the smallest Advanced and growth Hashem he was 40 years old and he was an MRS gumur and the reason he was an Amara's gum or is because he would learn every day and he just didn't see the difference between yesterday and today and the day after and he went and he passed by a Riverside he saw a well and there was something dripping on the well drop after drop after drop and he saw a hole in the well and rabi Akiva said how did that hole get there he looked at the drop the drop made no impression on the Iraq he looked at the second drop it made no impression on the Rock he looked at the third drop and made no impression on the rock but there's a hole there so ikiva made the following that if water which is so soft could make a hole in Iraq then the Tyro which is so powerful could penetrate my heart what exactly was it that Remy Kiva learned from this hole in the rack rabikiva didn't know water could make a hole in a rock Rabbi Kiva didn't have basic scientific knowledge that water could pierce the stone what didn't Rivier Kiva know what didn't Rebecca know about avoida sashem what Rivia Kiva didn't realize is that small tiny little movements of growth extra minutes extra actions extra thoughts can revolutionize the identity of a person you think it's not a big deal to come one minute earlier to chakras it changes the course of human history it could change the safety of the Jewish people this year instead of showing up with my fill in as the dominating star come one minute do you know what the value of a minute is saw from the water penetrating the stone that even though there is no discernible difference every time the water hits the stone but obviously it's making a big impact on the stone it could make a big impact on me do you know where the word Akiva comes from do you know what the word Akiva means foreign [Music] secret was every small advance in life you could acquire a world you could change yourself you could change the entire universe but do you know who's after every small increment of our growth I'm gonna tell you let's picture for a moment a guy's walking down the street to chakras let's say it's a two-minute walk you know what you could do in two minutes you ever see the first beer halacha says there are things that you could think about that each thought is there's a person could think I'm going to shul to dive into the rebelling Islam who created the world that's a Mitzvah eraser to have that thought Hashem controls everything that happens in the world there's no other Hashem foreign [Applause] no you weren't because you whipped out your phone to check it for the billionth time during the day what was that buzz oh it was a text it was an email it was a WhatsApp it was a notification it's the 90th fund uh solicitation that you got today and you just lost six minutes Vice because you needed to check your phone again do you know how many mid-slice the eight Sahara grabs and steals from us because he appreciates the value of I'm not even talking about in a basic knesses forgive me for saying this if you don't invite me back a person uh from Jew cannot not cannot bring a phone into a base how can I say it doesn't belong there you're standing there you're davening to Hashem what is Tila it's serving Hashem with all your heart can you possibly give all your attention if your phone is on you it is not humanly possible so what the person's not even making an attempt to have full cavana it can't be in the show period it just can't be there they're not even making the effort but think about what the Yates Sahara does he's made it that it's it's normal I'll bring it in I'll walk I'll walk with it until I get to my seat then in the middle of the diving I'll check it can even be in the base I'm not even talking now about the basicness I'm talking about being Tethered to it the entire day when there's so many there's so many moments that we could have been makaiim missiles you know the Astra vasner you know you think somebody who's so involved in learning Torah and every word of Terror is equal to all 630 misses they're now like taking time during the day to think about these six Mitzvahs they asked should a Jew think about these six minutes please he says I give you my word not one day of my life went by that I didn't think about the Shea Schmidt slice at least a hundred times and we think nah that's not possible every red light every time you walk somewhere when you're in the store why does a person's life have to be completely dedicated to their phone why does the person have to be sold and owned by their phone can you imagine how many moments how many minutes how many seconds of Life are robbed from us not on the hour I mean the studies are most people are on the dumb stupid phone four hours a day you know people say I don't have time to learn I don't know you know I would love to do that foreign but there's no time pal you could be doing every yomi in the world there's so much time it just requires a little discipline the personal advice just for successful living just say I'm not looking at the stupid phone until after I dive in chakras and learn something you're not missing anything I guarantee you you have more peace of mind just you'll be more calm the fact that we're so tethered it's stealing our life it's stealing our peace of mind who taught the world the value of moments of time a few weeks ago I was invited to speak in Panama I couldn't pass up the opportunity I wanted to go to see one of the Seven Wonders of the World Panama Canal Panama canal connects cologne to Balboa so instead of ships going around you know the southern Horn of Cape Horn and taking like two and a half weeks goes right from the Atlantic from the right from the Atlantic to the Pacific saves thousands of miles of trip how does the Panama Canal work is there any technology no there's nothing it's all gravity the water rises the water goes down so there's actually a cruise ship their Norwegian Cruise Line you know how heavy it is it's a 168 000 tons it's a hundred and sixty eight thousand tons the problem is you know the Atlantic and Pacific the water levels are not the same so the ship comes and now they need to get the ship up to the same water line as the other ocean so no problem lift up the ship you can't even find a crew you can't even find 20 cranes that can lift up such a ship so how do they lift up the ship you know there's something in this world that is so powerful that it can lift up the ship like nothing you know what it's called water so without technology just with gravity they let the water fall into the side of the ocean and all of a sudden this Norwegian cruise ship 186 000 tons 168 000 tons Rises up 20 cranes come to put up that ship but the soft water soft water just raises the ship like that and I'm thinking to myself what would raviakiva have said if he saw the Panama Canal maybe revia kivo would have made the following sometimes I feel so low sometimes I feel so sullied sometimes I feel so filthy and heavy and weighed down by all the things weighing me down in life how am I ever going to make myself elevated how am I ever going to schlep myself up who could Elevate me which is so soft could it raise up 186 000 tons imagine if I apply myself to Lima the Torah which is so powerful could Raise Me Up me with all my time and all my baggage and everything I'm carrying around the tire could Propel me up to the highest Realms to the kise saw the Panama Canal people are always looking for more things to do more things to do are great I'm not here to tell you to do anything more Hillel said at the simple space if I'm here everyone's here what does that mean then it says something so beautiful and so Timely you know we always wonder I don't understand you know I dive in every day why isn't it doing anything to me I learn every day why isn't it doing anything to me pal are you learning every day are you there are you davening every day are you there I have to be there that means five minutes without the phone is probably more valuable than an hour with the phone [Music] how are you supposed to learn a minute 30 seconds 20 seconds five seconds whatever amount of time God allows you to learn be there be a hundred percent present give it your all then the Torah will Elevate you then it will Propel you to Greatness but you need to be present with all of your heart and all of your mind and all of your soul and believe me I'm talking to myself just like anybody else that's the challenge of the time give being present in the avoida sashem that we do but if we're present if we give it even a minute of undivided heart Focus love yes just takes a minute a minute of real Phila a minute of real Tyra so I'm going to conclude back to my Cleveland trip that was canceled actually I thought I had this airport thing down so the first thing you need to know is never check in your luggage because the likelihood if you're checking your luggage is basically you're saying I don't really need it you know how rainy they have a they have a healthcare for the hour I went to we did a trip to France we went to Rashi Rabino Tam all I need is I need my suit and I need the camera you know we have these video clips for Torah anytime I made the mistake of putting the camera in the suitcase no it went to Orlando what in the world why do you go to Orlando I'm going to France why to go to Orlando so I made the mistake I had two trips after that where the luggage came off the plane so I had confidence again we went to Alaska not back to Orlando so this time I said that's it I'm not checking anything in I'm only staying the night what do I need already I have uh just my thousand to fill in some personal items and that's it so we got I got a brand new little wheelie I put it right on the plane the problem was it was a brand new suitcase and I wasn't used to traveling with it so I had with me three items on my way to Cleveland and JFK I had uh my hat box I had my knapsack with my notes I need notes to speak and I had my Talis and fill in the wheelie I would never give it to them but I would put it on the overhead fine I come out of the security it was a week and a half goes 90 degrees I was dehydrated I needed a drink I have my knapsack I have my hat box I got the drink I go to my gate I said I think I'm missing something where's my willy so where's my what in the world did I do with my I must have left it in the store where I got the water I ran back there did you see it no we didn't see so where where is it so I didn't take it out of security I'm not used to traveling with this thing I said what they probably blew it up you know I know what they do what do they do with 2K you hear every five minutes if anyone sees us you know I figured it was blown up or something said the first thing I thought where are my notes so my notes had my knapsack but my tolleson's villain was in my wheelie so I can't believe it I run back to the security what's the likelihood of me seeing it again you know with all the security there I go to the first conveyor belt nothing there a second conveyor belt anyone knows me I like Ramirez everything and whatever I could do there's this table in middle of the two security belts and there was my suitcase I was very grateful for Hashem anyway I never met it made it to Cleveland it was canceled and I'm thinking to myself what did I learn from the whole ordeal aside from the fact of tying a string between me and my suitcase so that night said to myself you know if I would have gotten on that plane without finding the suitcase or if I would have left the airport and gone home the likelihood of me getting that soup suitcase back you ever you ever leave a suitcase in the airport you know how long it takes to get back it could take months it could take years a guy on a trip with me he got his suitcase back like eight months later Arab pesach somebody knocks on his door JFK with his suitcase if you leave the airport lots of luck ever getting your suitcase back the only reason I got my suitcase back because I was still in the airport still in the airport you have a shot of getting that suitcase back and that's the privilege and the opportunity that we all have to have an associate chuba and to have him Kippur we're all here we're still in the airport we're still in this world we could still find the suitcases we could still go back and think about things we've done and regret and confess and come up with a game plan of how we're going to change it if we're still in the airport once you leave the airport it's hard to ever get that suitcase back this is the great gift of the yamnaram a gift of gives us the ability to look back at our life to analyze our life and to say you know not just because everyone's doing something just because I've been doing something if I make small incremental changes in my life little by little by little the cuff the kaf samach the Cuffs all it takes little by little the rebound will Propel me all the way up to the kise thank you very much you've just experienced another Torah class brought to you by torahanytime.com