Brokenness Forces You to Encounter the Formless Core

foreign I don't know [Music] um thank you for tonight foreign [Music] I was in Panama for a day I'm not even a day half a day in and out [Music] amazing Community it was first time I was there hit me twelve thousand Jews 40 kosher restaurants not bad beautiful Shoals yeah you're from Venezuela Brazil okay there's copies here if anybody wants from the mimer foreign good morning everybody and welcome today's class is dedicated by Esther weberman in honor of hashem's holy children okay that's beautiful thank you very much so the last two classes we had Monday morning and Tuesday morning learning the mimer of pesach Thompson or as the song goes remember to sing it huh it could be a different again amen amen Beyond what was the main point the first should ask the question that if he would have split the sea but would have not allowed us to go through what's the day you know what's the point what's the difference if you got slaughtered by the Egyptians or you get enslaved by the Egyptians and you have the sea split you don't have the sea split if you can't go through you're still stuck the whole point was to be able to get through the question the answer that the mafarsham give then it means that it would have been a Christian that the Jews would go through but it wouldn't be bakarava it would be muddy it wouldn't be comfortable needs understanding because then the term you should have been by abbasha as explained carava doesn't mean completely dry butcher means completely dry so from here you could derive that what the balha got the author of The God is saying in the dayenu is that the splitting of the sea itself is Diana this is also indicated in tehelum where there's two separates before the end of thy God there'll be full of because morning also tell them you remember such two separate verses one is we're being grateful for just Legos of the fact that you cut you split the arms of the Red Sea lexorum into partitions into sections meaning that the water congealed and became like a Maritza wall and now there's a pathway through the water that's and then there's a second thing a second a second phrase where heavy Israel that the Jewish people went through walked through the um it's a separate plastic with a separate when indeed the first one without the second would have been quite meaningless I mean it's a great miracle that the sea splits but in terms of the context of the Jewish people trying to avoid the Egyptians it would have been meaningless the same again a third time in the third person which according to the profession was two separate things and even if it's all Christians two separate things from all this the balagada understood that you can make a dayenu you could say Diana for Christians of itself and this was the whole long explanation that we already explored in the previous classes and that is that I'm just going to summarize it Mama's very briefly because I want to continue right away my summations often are longer than the pre original classes I should say bolina there but that's that's what our attempt is the Korea Samsung represents a watershed moment in history it's not just a technical gevaldica technical thing in order to let the Jewish people go through and this is also proven from The Experience from the facts itself as I said toisfus writes it's brought the masaka saita many people started to limit now so later inside the states which brings that the Korea samsov wasn't that the Jewish people should go through to the other side they didn't have to go through the other side the track if you look at the map the Trek from Egypt to Mount Sinai it's not so clear what the different opinions but according to most perspectives the Trek to Mount Sinai doesn't go through the amsof so he didn't have to go through the arms of and that's why says they went in and they came out from the same side like uh like a u a semi-circle not a full circle they went in like are you numbers the shape of you they came up with the same side but is it such a that's what he is that means objectively they didn't need Chris yamsov in order to get through they didn't need it so it seems like the whole point was what simply as a way of getting rid of the Egyptians but they didn't even have to do it the Jews could have gone further yeah and God could have either killed the Egyptians a different like Marcus protidus so it seems like the whole Christian was not really the essential thing it was just some way to figure out how to get rid of the enemy but then why was it necessary just another grand miracle the shot is the creation itself had a very profound objective and it was a watershed moment in history and then was not just on a physical level like every idea in the Torah it begins on an energetic spiritual emotional psychological level it manifested also in the splitting of the physical sea but what was the significance here the beginning of this was the spiritual sea that was split this was the entire explanation that is two modalities of existence there's two states of reality there's a state of reality living in the yam and the state of reality living in the abbasha and the dry land living in the sea living in the dry land water creatures and dry land creatures and then you have nunayama and expression of Desire the fish of the sea that Traverse dry land even though fish don't Traverse dry land they belong in the water but there's this concept like you have amphibious creatures that live in water and yet they have the ability to Traverse dry land also and not die and the key point was that the fish is submerged physically conspicuously not physically conspicuously in a very revealed way inside the water it's submerged in the moment it's taken out of that it dies it spells its death what does that represent spiritually the type of being that experience itself completely submerged in the Divine source of life it's not just knowledge that I receive energy from the source of life it's not even conviction it's their very identity of the fish of nunayama is that there's no I separate of the Divine eye and therefore no visibility no ego no conspicuous identity the very I is a derivative of the Divine consciousness there's no I outside of that and anything outside of that spells death because the very definition of identity the very definition of life is Bittle for it Bittle equals life dry land creatures is the opposite we all live from the earth we need the Earth but to be submerged in the earth spells the end of life a person stands on top of the Earth or can even be separated from the Earth and the oxygen that we are in all the time that's not visible it's not conspicuous we need instruments and sophisticated instruments to be able even to understand and relate to that what seeing is not the oxygen what's seeing is the person or the mammal or the tree or the bush that's what's seeing and that's the whole point because we're not talking here about the ultimate state of reality we're talking about the experience of reality what's my experience of reality and what allows me to live what allows me to live is that experience of reality that experience of reality a separateness I am I yes I need the Earth and I want the Earth and I'm connected to the Earth and I there's no way a person could live for a moment or any man nothing could live without the Earth how can I even offer girls that was the main point and what's Korea Samsung Korea Samsung is that for a moment in history there was a transformation the Consciousness that's usually inside the sea and if I go into it I can't be there because if I'm there I can't live there's no me suddenly I'm living there suddenly the fact suddenly it opens up the curtains part the sea bed opens up and I could peek into it not only I could peek into it I can walk into it I could become submerged in it for a moment I become a fish that's crazy that's a transformational moment nothing stays the same afterwards the moment that you know at the moment you have that that's it you see reality in a different way your glasses are cleaned right somebody once said if the doors of when the doors of perception are cleansed if the doors of perception were cleansed everything would appear as is infinity you know who said that for the name so the doors of perception were cleansed anymore usually there's a water bed that stops you right God says dry land and this is the water mixture we praise it we said right every morning and we're grateful for that there's Earth above the water so we could walk we could live Without A Name all day if we'd be in a McFall day either we become fish or uh that's the end of that but he says deeper than Christian I'm so deeper than Christians was that when the sea opens up and suddenly you can you can go into that space you're in that space you can even come out on the other side that's even a bigger that's a bigger header usually with Christians so there should be close enough fish become a fish you become a fish the moment you see that so there's no there's no turning away from that so the eye ceases to exist he says he explains in the mind that Chris came from even a deeper place just like Hashem is not defined by Alma this Gali is not even defined by Alma descasia [Music] just like he's not defined by ego he's also not defined by Bittle just like ego doesn't capture truth the death of ego also is a limited truth the death of ego is gevaldic it's Titanic pun intended but it's a certain revelation of godliness that causes the iron Samsung there was even a deeper man that what he says Essence which transcends both Revelation and concealment I'm a discussion so that the truth of Bittle can be embodied within the body with integrated within the structure of identity where there is an eye because that's the only way I could live my soul did come down my soul did become embodied my soul did come to a place where there's a sense of identity a sense of separateness foreign that itself for the Jews to go to matantara they needed kriya samsov because Tony without Korea samsov is always misunderstood religion in simple English this is where my summations go out the window because but it's an important idea religion without an understanding of division of Oneness can become very very oppressive and they can even cause some people to become dysfunctional and they can even allow for sickness for sickness to creep in to it I can't tell you how many emails I get before peso about people uh traumatized by the holiday it's a disproportionate amount you would think it's say no it's a time of our Liberation right so now everybody should be feeling we're going to Freedom I hate to say this there are people like that but there's people there we're going into slavery it's literally I'm going into slavery what happens is it's important to understand this even though it's sad to say that sometimes there are elements of sickness that penetrate a religion and this age of healing you have to heal people don't like to hear it because it's like you ah right but it's important to understand this because if I don't identify it I can't heal I can't tell I always have to ask myself what aspects of a religion or anything by the way this is of a culture are just feeding into to to negativity in Texas the pain of people I think all the dysfunction if somebody grew up in a dysfunctional home all the dysfunction was a hundred times the amount of of the regular day so if it's a home where there was attachment and connection so pesach brought out even more of that or at least not less but if there's a home where that was lacking or even if the home wasn't lacking it but the person for whatever reason experienced things that caused them must disassociation so pesach just brought out the pressure and uh harshness and and a lack of Serenity and uptightness and what's my point my put that's right is so important before Martin Taylor before they can go to get tired of that doesn't know what's the whole point of this what's the whole objective of this the whole objective of this is to bring out the Oneness of the world and to bring out the Oneness of the person not to crush a person to bring them to a place of true depth that's why Christians that itself is that we can actually walk through it no throughout the year we have a lot of a lot for someone holding and those who serve Hashem with joy give it over to the children of the job those who don't understand as much deeper and darker I hear you right yeah he's saying that pesach has so many laws and so many rituals and so many Customs so if it's transmitted throughout the year with Joys and then pesach it's transmitted with that same Joy if not then pesach it becomes much more intensified the absence of the transmission and joy yeah I think that's certainly part of it listen the preparations are very hard it's a hard preparations it's not an easy holiday to appear unless you're going to uh if you go away you have to pack up especially the Nordstrom said Connie is not so portrait but you can't compare that huh yeah foreign and if it lacks a joy and a Serenity it it translates into the atmosphere in the house what does this say to look like without Chris you know I wrote an artist Israeli magazine it's called so I write there in article so I wrote it for basic I submitted an article to them so I wrote about this so I said I believe that the main Mitzvah of the said there is to sit at the table and enjoy your children that's the Mitzvah it says connect to your child enjoy your child that's the mitzvah the stringency but remember the punch line punchline is to look your children in the eyes and push to enjoy them celebrate them thank God for them for your spouse for your children connect just connect vegan that's the Mitzvah of the night eating mother is a big Mitzvah it's only Madeira born and four cups of wine is a very big Mitzvah it's only with abundant has saber reclining is a givaldi commits especially to have two pillows and another chair but it's unlimited abundant um falling asleep as a gevaldica meaning but it's only a minute people don't know this one there's only one biblical commandment and that is talk to your child foreign it's important because if that's missing I could do every human in the world I'm careful and abrupt and if the fork falls down on the floor some houses it's a very serious thing and every every naranero patched every minute has its sources but the core if as a result of becoming completely obsessed with the fork that fell down or whatever right there's a severance between the parents and the child so then the whole pesos is meaningless I once told you maybe a story it just this story for me was a very meaningful story because it just taught me how to think like I said them they're very careful with the Brock it's extremely careful other communities this is a very serious thing the Mata shouldn't get wet and there's good reason for it among itself it's even more stringent and the reason is because the system adopted this from a trove of the balatanya the alter Rebel who was one of the biggest poison of his generation has a truth about gibrox and he explains what happened that the bakery remembered till his days there were no commercial matzo bakeries you baked matzo you went pasta he went home and you baked matzo with your wife the concept of commercial matzo bakeries began in the 1700s and he explained the process and the changes and he showed how in that process you know you obviously going to a bakery and you come out and your coat is filled with particles of flour so you explained that this particles of flowers that are not being baked and they're not being baked and they get wet and hummus is mushrooms so he writes to be my very Mach manga Brooks so the very other young they're very stringent so hold children a long Trove explains it very beautifully why he was so stringent about it fine there was once in the house of the river ayat the previous on the second floor of 770 Eastern Parkway where he lived from 1940 to 1950 till he passed away and there was a big island there and at the other side there was a Jew he wasn't accosted he came there I don't know who he was but he came to to be there and suddenly the rabbit on the other side on the other side he sees up some commotion somebody so near him so he asked him was uh so he found out and he said that the guy that was uh vinaigrette the Russian they call the vinaigrette how do you say that huh beep beep beep you know beet salad you know Birch salad vinaigrette and Russian they call it vinaigrette the Russians are very into the vinegar especially on peso it's one thing they could eat beat somehow thank God nobody prohibited beets so the regret we all had it was one of the you know three things you allowed to eat besides rocks and so uh so this guy what do you do with matzah you need a dip you need a good dip so before the days of guacamole of guacamole so he did he dipped his matzo and vinaigrette so the bakram over there but got alarmed so they started to scream at him you don't do this you don't do this you don't do this shmuel said it over to the to the lemonade so he looked at the Islam and he said upon him much better to make the matzo red and to make the face red and he was the lab so he was extreme it's known they were they're very stringent with gabracht besides then but this is called perspective context if in the name of gabrucht I'm gonna make somebody feel like a a degenerate loser and he's gonna go out with a red face he says better to have your red matzo and this is called it's perspective it's it's context [Music] if not a person loses the plot it's extremely important to know what's the means and what's the end if as a result of certain things I lose the connection with my children I lose the relationship with people so I may mean well and I'm sure the person means well but they're missing the nakuda on the other hand if as a result of not doing or doing something you connect to the child now you you reached your destination can their things be improved I'm sure these things can be improved is there room for growth of course there's room for growth every minute has givaldica you see this and some of them are amazingly rich and amazingly significant but you have to remember what the destination is the destination is not to stay on the plane that this nation has to go somewhere everything is to go to that place so I can go on a plane and I fly around the world a hundred times but the point was missing was supposed to get somewhere if he gathered to live in the other person maybe took a shortcut and maybe skipped some lines which maybe you know next time you shouldn't skip lines but you got to your destination I'm just saying that's why Korea Samsung was anyway so this is the the the short summation of what we learned with a few House Office okay now let's go to the next step [Music] if the point of the Soul coming down here is the soul is the one that could combine the two came down into this world they lost the plot they're good as fish they're not good as dry land creatures if you're a fish stay in the water you take a fish out of the water it's a Corbin that's what happened to them Allah when they came down they became worse more corrupt than people why because they were sensitive they were sensitive you take somebody so sensitive and you throw them in to almost sugar in a place either he dies or he becomes more corrupt than everybody else like Rabbi I didn't Steins out all of us all rights in one of his books he says you know Jews very often when they came to countries they wanted to become accepted they decided to emulate the Gentiles he said when the Jews were emulating the Gentiles they did it better than the gayam they out Gentile the Gentiles because they do it right so he says they became more more loyal and more radical then the Gentiles themselves you know the Israeli left you can't compare to anybody when the Jew becomes left they do it with the whole the whole mother cup you know I'm not just a left Winger it's a left Winger with with with profound ideology and and sensitivity and Brilliance it's a whole to now it becomes a religion somebody once said that Jews are religious even Jewish atheists they deny god with religious fervor you could deny God fine I don't believe in God no no it's a religion it's with a Muna when you start denying god with a Munna it's very hard to get out of it because I believe in it what are you going to prove to me you'll see Jewish atheists have a moon in their atheist they're very very tough it's tough because it's not rational anymore very good because because there so the atheist right so it's so so my my godliness has to become an atheist so my atheism is almost Divine you'll see it there's a certain obsessiveness you read some real Jewish atheist you'll see what I'm talking about they huh yeah there's a there's a passion there there's a passion it's not just okay you're talking about something objective I'm sorry what man it says at the end of boraciously brings from the medicine from the gemara that is because they were constantly complaining about the people he said go do and they became worse than everybody else why because they're fish so the moment you take them out it's like to give a simple example some people when they're in a from environment they're unbelievably from then they go what's called intervegans you know what intervegans means they go on a trip and they lose everything what happened as long as nobody's watching them and they don't have the support of the community huh before before the end of partials in their environment they were amazing but it wasn't internalized by the malachable it was internalized but this is who they are you take them out of that place they couldn't deal with it so either you run back to heaven or you become more corrupt than the Earth because you lose all sensitivity I was once in a court I was once in a court case I was testifying for somebody and the judge was a female and her harshness I never saw in court I never saw by male judges such harshness and I was wondering if because she had feminine sensitivity by nature or mother so in order to feel that she'll be a qualified judge she had to go to the Other Extreme I'm not sure I'm not a psychologist I don't know you know what I mean sometimes when I need to fit in but I don't really fit in so what do I do I become I assume a position that's completely from The Other Extreme my point is in order to fit in they became worse they lost the plot the critters the fish of the sea that can transverse the dry land as a fish that was the second is page 303. um what do we say now we go to a piece of the hagada that most people go through very very fast because they're either hungry or tired and that all this dirt in my word I never heard anybody say I have a vote on this on this place because nobody wants to hear let's go to it right before Diana right before you know after that after we pour out the wine ten times we say the markers there's an interesting piece in that God that's very cryptic you'll know what I you'll know when I when I mention it because everybody says it every year but nobody knows what really is going on over there I got the quotes are fascinating mahlikas between three people how many markers there were in Egypt how many plagues you look at it you wonder and how much it says there were ten plagues it's not a question he goes through the whole list and parishes boy do we have to argue about everything so the tanoying get into an argument says there were 10. and because in with Triumph there was a finger that's balikim and by the Sea it says and a hand is five times the amount of finger because the hand has five fingers so whatever happened in Egypt five times that amount happened at the yam because in Egypt there was a finger it's about the Kim and by the arm it says so if in Egypt there were ten plagues at the sea there were 50 plagues remember Egypt is a finger the sea is a hand so ten times five is fifty comes to be a liaison says no there were 40 plagues in Egypt it says every marker had four plagues inside of it so therefore and they see there were five times the amount of 40. so 200. come to me I keep it says you don't know what you're talking about there were 50 plagues in Egypt it says there were 10. each one at five so at the sea do with 250. because it's five times fifty five times fifty is 250. that's the machikas right away we go into dayenu combo Milos toy wasiano support 5 times 40 is Rabbi Eli Rabbi Akiva is five times fifty so if the C whatever happened everyone admits whatever happened at the yam was five times the amount of what happened in Egypt because in Egypt they told Paris Bella Kim we see God's finger they say it was more than 10. the basically says there were 50 at the arm the blood is 200 because it's 250. you don't see any plagues there that's that's the whole kindness over here starts off that there were no ten plagues there were 10 or 40 or 50. what's the Mac like [Music] this way the person this way the person but the Havana here is very difficult what do they have to argue it says in Commerce template you're not happy there were 10 plagues you need 50. what's wrong if there were 10 plagues we got out who cares yeah the gamar has an expression what happened happened what what's that they're arguing thousands of years later 1500 years later it's a political thing uh interesting thing is if you look in the god of the Bible he brings in footnote 23. he says the whole piece of dayenu is it's a continuation Rebecca says every marker at five so there were fifty and then he finishes Karma Milos tyvis that's all the continuation of Rivia kiva's View it's ought to be akiva's perspective which is strange what's the connection it's because he said that if he's going into the whole dayenu thing according to everything we explain now the whole Mahala will be understood this wasn't a small argument between these people this was a very profound argument said a moment ago that every one of the ten plagues consisted of five and that's why it was ten times five fifty right after that we go into the whole day a new piece and as I said this is believes that the Kama miles is a continuation of the words of rabi Akiva that's how the Bible now reads the hagada that's how he reads that God it's already Akiva speaking which is but but even without the advert it's still right after that so there's always a there's a sequence one of the hardest things to understand is the structure of the Haggadah it's one of the most just like the when it comes to pesos one of the hardest experiences for people to feel free on Facebook to understand the structure of the Haggadah needs guidance because at first glance the structure of that God is extremely cryptic it goes from one thing to another thing to another thing we would have thought I would have thought that God should have been a simple text just read the story open a commission read the story what do you do on Purim it doesn't make any you read the story that's it inspired them again they read the story that said so just read the story you have a text it's better than Miguel assessed it's written I bet it's written already it's komish just read the story of fish mice the eight Empire again right that would be a nice I gotta read the story we don't we don't touch the story we don't touch the story in fact the only episode can be reading the god of impartial when a person brings because and says you took us out of Egypt that's where we read the story you don't read the main story it's a pillow it's a propeller Versace you have to understand exactly how that works so when you look at the structure it's very hard to understand so but now we'll understand what's going on at least in this piece did he need to do it says this the cowboy says this Darkness says this is foreign the Lesser holds that every plague penetrated all the four elements fire air water Earth for example the water became blood what do you mean the water became blood what aspect of the water you could say the water the water the way we see the water became blood comes Ebola and says no water is made up of Fourier side there's four components fire air water and Earth and each one of these there was a plague so really it had four the same was two with all ten plagues it penetrated the Fourier say this the four elements the substructure of the physical reality so therefore it wasn't one it was foreign even the quintessence the fifth level let me explain what he's saying it says that medrus it says this yeah it's a very big was a big tenet in Greek philosophy is a big technical philosophy that the world is made up all matter all physical matter whatever you're looking at you could see it at the surface right this is a table and this is a cup and this is a piece of paper and this is a beam and this is a ceiling this is a person but what you call the substructure matter is comprised of building blocks and they call the building blocks dollars fire ear water and Earth for you cytus foreign at Great length dollars this is so to speak the chemistry of the universe on a deeper level there's What's called the Quint Essence quintessence the word quint in Greek is five when you want to say the quintessential father it means the core the core what does quint mean five because they understood there's a fifth level called it's the formless essence from where the dalidius emerged the ramban says in the beginning of voracious that the Universe started as a Kramer heuli and then it expanded that's what he says this is the 1200s and then it expanded expanded expanded and ultimately developed into the universe that we know yeah the word helium heuli it's a Greek word heilic energy hilac means it's like formless and then it develops the simplest atom which according to hamiruli is still formless it's still completely formless so it's some type of energy huh they call the fifth level the etsam the the core the quintessence quintus five if you want to use the question is how do you associate the dollar you say this with today's understanding of chemistry and science some say it's connected to the fact that we know that matter can exist in four different states solid liquid gas and plasma matter can exist and it's based on how the atoms are organized all all matter is basically the building blocks of matter are atoms but how atoms are organized that's what makes the difference right atoms come together to create molecules and that entire organization is what creates the difference of one one piece one part one type of matter to another type of matter so you have four types matter exists in four states solid like offer you can't compare the matter of lightning or neon lights to uh to to a mountain or to ice you can't compare it but but it's all made up of atoms so when you look at something when I see this cup what do I see I see a cup but if I use a microscope I don't see a cup anymore there's a whole world of atoms it's called the substructure what's underlying this cup and then there is what's called the atom itself is not indivisible and Adam itself is made up of subatomic particles the atom itself can you can go deeper into the atom itself today it's with the world of quantum physics so here's the mclachus not a simple argument said all the markers were on a surface level so how many plagues were there ten the water became blood which water the water that you see the water that you taste affected even the atomic level of the water the substructure level of the water the age for the water therefore they were in 10 there were 40. because each Maca penetrated to a level beyond the surface level of that which we experience with our eyes with our brain says no it affected even the it affected the quantum level of matter was also affected by the market this was a technical argument it's a whole question of what the how deep what's the makhalikis how deep was the dysfunction of Egypt and my women's class this week if you want to pursue this topic I did I did the Sinead at length and explained the argument is the rep explains the argument is how deep can this function penetrate a society and a person was a very innocent man he said only at a surface rebellies says no it can go much deeper trauma can go much deeper he understood everything he had they also understood he had the experience he came from a whole different world but Kevin was a grandchild of sister Rebecca said they can go into the core interesting because helium healing is the only element that can escape the gravity helium escapes gravity right it's above everything else it's the fifth level that's what I believe you can't you can't touch that you can't touch that that remains pure and innocent Rebecca said don't underestimate how much Clipper could go in it's half full of a fella because you see here where the halach and spirituality work fully together we spoke before about right take a look at comments and pesos there's three if you open up a Gamora episode the only like that really says you're not a lot of benefit from it you're not going to have it basically he says you're allowed to sell home at some places that'll benefit from coming On The Other Extreme holds aim beer comments you have to burn it the other including you don't have to burn how much you could crumble it and throw it into the ear the clip of Egypt only affected the surface Comet represents the clip of mitzram that's where we got rid of it on pesach so which part of the Comets you are not that which you eat we don't eat atoms we eat cookies nobody says what are you serving at the bar mitzvah Adams now the truth is we do eat atoms a cucumber is atoms and the characters atoms and a piece of chicken is atoms and races atoms but you're not eating atoms if I serve you atoms you're not going to eat it you're eating rice you're drinking a coffee not Adams Even though you're really drinking atoms you understand the world of achilla relates to the kitsonius it says that's where the comet is foreign everything the only eight is to burn it if you crumble something and you throw it into the ear you can't have a Gnar from it then you can't eat it but the eczem is still there so the three to share this though is that they can go out of Messiah that even after these markers these markers broken but and there was a goal from it in other words you can get rid of that level of comets so now let's see [Music] if so now we understand the dayenu you see it's all connected how do you you can only break little um you can only break the negativity only by One Way by strengthening the goodness the holiness that's how it is how do I in in you we know this in a person's life how do I ultimately liberate myself for my Brokenness by finding my wholeness by finding your kadusha you can eliminate the more you identify the more you identify with your wholeness the less you identify with your Brokenness you get that that's how it is who am I am I my trauma or am I my wholeness if I can find my wholeness that's that's who I am I may have broken pieces but that's not who I identify with that's the key that's the key who do you identify with emotionally energetically psychologically spiritually practically by allowed who to identify with to identify with the booklets in me or the sickness that's in me the infection that's in me or to identify with the light with with my wholeness how do I see myself is my anxiety me that's who I am I am my anxiety now I'm not saying that I know these are words it's not about words I'm talking about experience words are meaningless here you could speak from today till tomorrow anxiety is anxiety the worst thing you can do for anxiety is just tell people to get rid of anxiety right you ever try that people are doing it for 50 years get rid of why why that is the anxiety the anxiety is I'm trying to get rid of my anxiety makes it much worse we're not talking it's not words because even the words get rid of anxiety are coming from anxiety you idiot how why are you not getting rid of anxiety you idiot you're such an idiot that you still have anxiety even though you explain to yourself wow I'm a real idiot because even now I have anxiety the mental chatter doesn't stop we're talking about the experience when a person could go back to an inner place of wholeness which is not easy always so the more I identify with that the less I identify with the Brokenness foreign according to the bayakiva that the marker penetrated we're into the helec level into the so how do you eliminate that you have to go to that level in holiness you have to find not only before you say this the atomic level of kadusha you have to find the quantum level of the formula's core which is deeper than everything else that's what you have to find in very simple English when the trauma penetrates the very core of the eye I have to find the real core the real formless core of my eye pre-creation if you wanted a real simple English if the trauma happened to somebody when they were a child before the eye was formed to the very sense of I is damaged the only way I can heal that is if I find the eye the way it was conceived by God pre-creation yes in simple English pre-creation but but but pre-dubuque pre-abuse yes yeah when the nashama comes in then hashama is as pure As It Gets this is the you say that you say this of everything the summer is as beautiful and pure as it gets why am I not feeling that because my soul is tucked into the levusium of shells and Clippers and the boogers that don't have to do with the soul they're attached to it because of perpetrators who who Infuse their evil and toxicity into the soul and suddenly that becomes who I am so sometimes I might be carrying things from a previous life but the Soul at its core is is Holy so according to be Akiva that the that the Egypt that the evil of Egypt could penetrate the core that's scary so the only way to liberate yourself from that is you got to go to to the core of everything to the formless core of the eye of holiness because the battle is not on an external level the battle is not on a fourth level or on an emotional level the battle is on a core level that's what people don't understand that's where the makiva is so refreshing because everyone is talking their life experience they said Lily is talking what he experienced remember what he expressed Rebecca is introducing a new dimension from his experience so with that with that concept which brain is going back there and how can that brain go back there if it's not ah [Laughter] arvak Harvard has an expression your guarantor needs a guarantor if you're going to trust the brain to go there the brain itself has been damaged by the trauma so the brain is going to interpret it from a lens of trauma it's one of the hardest things in healing I'm using the instruments that were damaged right and one of the biggest urbanes that happened in Israel last year was the main therapist of benebrook you read that story to whom they were bringing all the children who were being abused he was the abuser so you understand that your child is being abused you bring him to this man he committed suicide at the end and then we were told that you're not going to tell the story because of Allah right that was the next level of abuse in the stand you murder kids and you murder a hundred women and then when I want to tell the story because that's this this is what I mean that religion could become sick you understand is an amazing people who speak Russian yeah they detach from themselves every day healthy people don't speak Russian are but when you say that you're not Allah against them child molestu perpetrated people and now he killed himself so that's where religion becomes toxic very dangerous anyway don't get me started on this one because I'm not going to end so fast that's the fifth level of sickness you're right you're right you're right so what is saying something very powerful right the brain is the one that needs the help so now the brain is being used to help you thank you you know the brain is going to come back the brain is is so to speak molesting my soul I I'm using a harsh word but the the brain the brain unfortunately needs the help that's why with mahjava you can't get there even with Seiko you can't get there a person really we need we said we need so much support to be able to go to a place of Innocence because my thought process has been contaminated unfortunately when I start thinking I'm thinking trauma that's what I don't it's not my fault I have no other way of thinking about the world it's me versus everybody else I'm in a survival I mean this is what active traumas you're an act of survival Act of survival 20 or your wife tells something says something to you all your thinking is there's a lion in the room about to eat me now imagine right now right now as I'm talking to you if a lion walked into the room okay right now and he was ah and I'm like cover we're gonna meditate okay close your eyes close your eyes and then I would say my control Heaven this is five years of learning seven years this is what you do relax yeah you're gonna say Rabbi okay have a good day we're gone huh okay maybe so my but it's important to understand this so there's a lion in somebody's room and then you're saying relax even if I relax it's just it's just survival this is what people who don't understand trauma don't understand about traumatives don't understand it it's not their fault Hashem they don't understand it they don't understand it thank God I'm happy for that but some people unfortunately understand it too well so when a person is in that place now tell them think positively what think positively the word think positively is another traumatic instruction which I'm doing only to please you because I don't have an eye This Is How Deep The Sharia can be so foreign there is a tick on but that tick on requires a complete complete death of ego in the positive sense death of ego to go to a place that's formless to go to the eye that's deeper than the eye that I ever knew gotta breathe you gotta breathe through this of course of course very well that's the whole pesach it's not just tell your biological child it's speak to your own child that's the key when you speak to the child then you you could speak to the children around you people who know how to speak to children are the people who know how to speak to the child inside those are the people I have to set my child free this was our main topic to Tuesday share for the women so I told them it says in your Mia Navi suffered from he felt he can't be a prophet who am I I'm a baby I'm a little child and later you know he was very he suffered from a lot of sadness and he wanted to die and he cursed the day that his mother gave birth to him you hear me you said I wish I would have been a stillborn I wish I would have never came out of the womb imagine this the sense of despondency that Year meow and Navi dealt with the way hashems Comforts him is he doesn't say you're a good guy you're good looking all the shatranam want you look your report card you got straight A's you accept it in the tap Yeshiva you accepted in briskem told Jeremiah first so I don't know if he would have been accepted in the yeshivas I'm not sure he says Imperial before I put you into the womb of your mother I already loved you and connected to you and knew you that's the key he had to go to the eye that was formless before the eye that was affected and infected by all types of behaviors and messages before you were in a womb our relationship doesn't begin when you're 10 years old when you're 30 years old our relationship begins before everything the shamishana and therefore he says don't be scared of anybody or anything that's the Yuli of kadusha that can undo the Yuli of the Clipper of mitzrayim which is the avdus the subjugation the abuse the genocide which should be Akiva understood exists because each market was not one and not four was five because the heuli was contaminated the water was contaminated on the deepest level in other words there was nothing left so you have to go toward that place in kadusha so now you could see the sequence of the Haggadah so now come to the next step and that is he near do what's known how you say this is it says in Kabbalah as I said before you say this correspond to the four worlds so to the four holy cities of heritage and Chevron was a city of Fire H Thomas is going to read on Travis there was always a fire burning Irish alive still a fire burning in your shalaya is fire it's fast you all know what svas is ruach you go to the Galil for ruach and over there people are very ruaktic you know artistic lofty people they're not so into offer swas is a mystical place it's a place of ruach ruach in terms of ear and rook in terms of spirituality lack of substance physical substance in a good way I'm saying ruachness trevia is the only city surrounded by water the canary it's Mayim the commercial Miriam was put into very the city of water and Heaven is the city of offer Earth first of all it's an earthy City but the others are in the offer of Heaven the offer of Heaven is is Holy the Earth are the four worlds it's the four cities of Heritage so it's the four letters of Shema and temperamentally there's different people are associated more with age more with mayimo with offer crime vital writes it's quoted in Tanya that the middays come from different things also right he says anger and arrogance comes from fire satanugam addiction and frivolous Pleasures are associated with Maya Idol talk and mockery and cynicism is ruach and depression and laziness is offer so this is where the four elements are dysfunctional the clip of mithunayam you have to liberate yourself from them so you have the knowledge you saw this on many many different levels what they are but it all represents the substructure that's beneath the surface what's going on in me if I'm dealing with laziness and depression yeah you can't do this stop being lazy there's a reason for the laziness there's something in my temperament that laziness is feeding laziness is something for example if I believe that I cannot succeed in anything laziness is a very good way of avoiding the admission that I feel like a failure oh I'm just lazy you're not lazy you're frightened you understand it looks like laziness you're not so lazy anger if it's hard for me to talk about my pain what do I do I get angry you're a villain oh okay we're good I don't have pain you're just a crazy person you said all these things you have to know what are the what are what are things that you saw it as a foundation ah there's an Essence to it you have to see how the atoms are arranged the atoms are arranged in a certain way it's not just the outer surface so it's the different Islands different you say there's a different elements the level of you are disconnected to artzilus over there primarily is the quality of the level of hey is Bina which is then you have what's called kesser kesser is the fifth level and that's called kite on the top of the year there's a little little line it's higher than the earth it's called the kites the little Thorn on top of the yield that's the fifth level that's called that's the formless essence that's even Beyond um [Music] what does this mean in a person's life in a person's life you have the malchus that's the offer you have the Mayim yeah you have the ruach and you have the ish each one is a higher strata of reality as he puts it here you have malchus you have middles you have been and then you have the beginning of consciousness the beginning it's the epiphany of Consciousness kesser is the super conscious that's the code social youth it's called the crown on top of the head why is it called the crown because I don't have it conscious in my it's not it's not in the country's brain it's above the conscious brain it's the super conscious or the subconscious Freud calls it the subconscious we call it the super conscious it's above because for Freud the deeper you went the dirtier you get and the autorabba says the deeper you get the cleaner you get that was a machlikas between Freud and the altareb Freud said if you go very deep you're just a crazy sexual monkey that's it you are said that's true but if you go deeper your helical kamehamesh so he went sub and he went super but that's kesser Kester is the super conscious I don't know the super conscious because what I know is the conscious so in order to heal my eye I have to find the eye of the super conscious I can't find it in the conscious eye that's why talk therapy has tremendous limits right who does talk therapy talk to it talks to the conscious eye now if the damage is on that level it's beautiful I'll explain to you I'll show you how it works I'll show you how you think I'll show you your motives and you'll become much better that's an amazing thing so you have cognitive behavioral therapy and you have many many other models which have brought a lot of positive benefits to many people when my damage is on a conscious eye level and then I could say ah so that's what I thought and and it has a lot of use in a limited context but what happens if the conscious eye is damaged at its Corey it's not on the level of it's on a level of Kester so now you're going to talk to me and explain through words how to process that eye those very words and processes are contaminated and infected with the toxicity of Egypt foreign before the eye the eye was already formed in in Brokenness so now you're going to use the broken arm to fix the broken arm like a dog trying to catch its tail you ever saw that a dog decides I want to catch my tail so the dog is running around and it's getting closer it's never getting closer yes yeah you fix a computer with a programmer with a program that's full of a virus thank you so what's going to happen to the to the broken computer to the virus computer now it has two viruses it had an original virus I thought I had saw this till now thank you this is very deep so this is where you see the limits and it's it's not knocking it it's just understanding the limits of things things have limits the way something goes in that's the way it goes out if it went in through words you can take it out through words if the reason I believe I'm a Golem and I'm a diaters because words just words so you'll explain to me if I cared but if it became my experience internally so when that the moment I learned who I am it equaled Golem there was somebody who told me that in his school there was a Golem Tish the beginning of the year the teacher after a few days would choose the people there with the witness of God they would sit there for the rest of the year imagine so bitterabeth before he knew his mindless you know he knew he was already yes I once had a teacher she was talking to the class and he wanted to give us self-confidence he said I'm greater than the morale the morale had one goylem I have 19. and then he said it even more the marasgoilum didn't know how to talk and my Golems know how to talk he was so proud of his joke wow I still remember how proud he I still remember how proud he was of his cup you see I still remember I'm saying it like 40 years later so you see I remember there's a cotton for that one of them I was in the class there were 19 kids in our class and he explained to us one day that he's greater than the morale of Prague and he was so proud of his answer he was so proud of it I still remember how he was smiling I didn't know what's what's the grace of pride of them so I still don't know my point is so you have to know which level penetrated that's why people who don't understand this and they try to heal people and they say come snap out of it snap out why can't he snap out of it just snap out of it all right our father the father as he tells his son learn from me I wake up six in the morning I have such a productive day why do you sleep till four because you abused them shyta that's why he sleeps till four because at three years old he was already abused go explain that to him my point is that you have to always understand the level of damage how did it go in how's it going to come out if it went in through pre-verbal messages it's not going out through verbal messages or at least in many cases it's not if it didn't penetrate so deep it could so according to Rabbi Akiva the healing from Israel had to come from Yuli not from Kessa um so the Revelation to heal had to come from the light that's beyond its thousands his thousands is the conscious structure of life beyond the Styles is the formless infinite structure that's where the light had to come from According to the Akiva to be able to liberate the Jewish people from the Clipper from the tram of Egypt because every Market was not 10 it was 50 because each one had five levels and what happened at the night of each year happens every single year this is a Seder what happens every single year is that the energy that came out that pace comes out pesos every year which it is present the Earth that's beyond yeah he says it's always about four there's four sons and four questions fear catches and four cups of wine four y four and the answer is because Liberation happens it says that reason says the four cautious but there's the fifth we call it the case the fifth cup the fifth cup is not something you can drink I can physically drink it but it's not something that I can easily integrate into Calum because it's beyond Caleb it's called Kaisers he says there's this the details of this say that I made up of four but the concept of the say that that's number five the Gentry says the clothes I say the close America and this is the key I said before in the beginning of the sheer you have the details of the Seder but you have the destination of the Seder it's two separate things you have the words of davening and you have what is davony that's not the words it's what is what is the essence of it what's the essence of the say there what's the essence it says that's a fifth level already that's going to the Yuli to the cloud that's beyond pratim that's the question beyond that Silas that's the fifth level so the sector itself is made up constantly a four but the concept of the say that the very general destination of the say there is the fifth beyond that like you're having a mattress you have the letters of the word they have imhakilo the whole the whole energy the sahakal the summation you know you have a company and there's checks and balances we do this we do this what's your mission statement what's what's the sahakal what's the point that you have to say in one sentence don't start telling me yesterday somebody called them who are you who are you that's the Pinnacle commissions because it's only by gula um so now we come to the summation our piezier now we'll understand the Hampshire call Marco Marco is Marcus says every marker consists of five Karma Milas is the facet of going through the arms of is that even when elocus of almond stimmon was revealed we didn't lose our matsius like the fish there was no close on that fish we went through why because he said because that kriya Samson was revealed the essence of Hashem who was beyond sea and Beyond dry land Beyond concealment Beyond revelation in other words what was revealed is that's the sea is called a yam over there the way Mal has come into breed I see it's called the abash he said this before in chapter three so you have yam is the world of the fish is the world of yabasha with his separateness how do you bring together the two so you have to go beyond that syllables the synthesis comes from a place that's beyond it's called Kester the Earth over there the super countries it's even beyond that Tillis it's beyond Revelation and Beyond concealment over there you could bring the two together this is called his nasus atmi essential exaltedness in a human emotion it's the dignity that comes from a person's infinite Oneness with the source of everything that's higher not only than yabasha it's higher also than yam because it's higher also than yam it doesn't have to remain concealed it can be revealed and even in the lowest place of separateness you could still connect to it it can go into the worst darkest places of trauma and doesn't lose its Infinity when the malachim came into the Earth they lost it because they had to be in the yam in atsmos you can go into a place of separateness and stay connected That's The Power of an ashama um then it could be the healing the liberation of the Clipper that didn't only penetrate before you saw this but also the fifth so it'll be Akiva the same Rabbi Akiva says you have to understand ilu Carolina but you know what happened was he didn't only split the sea we walked through the sea we came out on the other side there was a revelation beyond the arm the fifth level Muhammad so first he speaks about the plague that he speaks about the healing the healing came from the fifth level we walked through the arms of so therefore you can heal from the Clipper that penetrated the Hamish Marcus so you better keep it saying the whole abstract that's the dieno Korea Samson itself would have been amazing but then we would have have to go back to being fish [Music] is that in the dry land where you can have all the separateness and dysfunction you have to say because you could choose the opposite over there that can be healed you could integrate the two that's the transformation the Hest let's finish the last a few minutes there's basically 14 dayenos right there's some old I got this with this 15 but by us there's 14 dainos and they say Allah right that you did everything right all the way yeah [Applause] foreign the last words are very anticlimactic after everything you build the base of mothers to atone for our sins okay so we're not Sinners anymore so you would think it would be something positive so that's what he's now going to explain now we'll understand the whole nikuda so half of the kevart now what's the punch line of everything the banalano is based up here don't say it says means the house of choice the concept of a home is a place in which your natural self can be present my office is a place where I go to work so that's where my work skills come out if I'm a farmer I go to the farm that's where my farming skills come out if I'm a pilot I spend time on an airplane that's where my pilot skills come out why do people need a home what's a home a home is not just a technical place where you have a bed or you have a refrigerator so you can eat that's not a home that's a house a home is a place that's of a different acres to different quality it's a place where you're there which you the formless you the natural you the core you that's what a real home is why do children need a home what do they need in their house that's where they are that's where your essence is accepted commercial who that's where I love you without strings attached that's what a home is the four s's a child feels seen safe secure and soothed that's a home that can be there you don't need a reason why you're going or why you're going on you'll sleep in my house the gemara says in your vomis call me shanele bias was explained if you don't know how why why I don't have a house okay so if I don't have a hat I'm not another man fine so get it it's not what because that's that's what an Autumn is and Adam is not I'm a pilot I'm a farmer I'm a dentist I'm a lawyer I'm a I'm a real estate guy I'm a programmer I'm a teacher that's all career vocation the Adam that's the bias that's where you are which part of you you commercial so what's that base up here base up here means a home for Hashem the home in which the atmos is revealed fully present so that's the climax so banalanu is Center where you're fully present with atmosis presence is is that it's settled a home is not a place where you're flying away a home represents there's a settlement there's a crease there's a permanence there's a theaters you would think when hashem's Atmos comes into the world it can't be a home it can't be settled it can't be integrated it has to destroy everything else that it doesn't create a Bittle of Matthias on the contrary it's integrated in a comfortable way and that's the hiddish what happened here that there was a Gili beyond the arm and therefore it could synthesize it's not just it was kriya samsov you can walk through the yams of and come out on the other side without cloisonnephis it can be integrated the formless core can be integrated into my daily life because if it only means that I have a trip to a Transcendent place where I don't exist but it can't be integrated then it's limited to the world of yam the deepest the deepest connection is when it becomes the natural part of a person it becomes integrated this is who you are on a daily basis That's the basis if so we can understand the last piece of assignment The Last Words which seem so anti-climactic is really the reason for everything it's all to atone for thou voice what's the connection he's speaking about such positive things the whole purpose of everything is that you're going to sin and we'll have a place of atonement so this means something much deeper foreign what brings out the fifth level if you live in a beautiful home and you live a perfect life you don't you never have to go to the fifth level to put it simply if your conscious eye is healthy and beautiful and wholesome you never discover you don't have to you don't have to work you could live on a more superficial level because it works if your car never breaks down you don't have to open the hood if your computer never breaks down you don't have to uh check out the hard drive you don't need it it's working you press a button it's a gate people that you press a button and it's a gate they never meet their own Yuli they never meet it they don't have to meet it the only time you have to meet your formula self is when your formed self is damaged does this mean that it's a good thing to be broken don't say that you don't say it's a good thing to be broken but it happens to be some of you in this room know this all too well that those of us who have experienced tremendous Brokenness are challenged to go to a much much deeper place in themselves in order to heal and once ah and that's the shot of chuva that's the whole country doesn't mean you're a bad person and now apologize truva is the concept that God created a world in which sick sickness can take root a world in which people can hurt people a world in which a person can hurt themselves and others why the answer is true what's true means return but you're not returning to the same place you're returning to a much much deeper place that's what he's going to say who is the reason for everything not only is it the punch line it's the foundation so it's a big use site everything above is aroused through the avoid of a person God is your Shadow the shadow follows your movements a person is at the core of the of all everything so the avoid of a person triggers everything [Music] a person is like you have the button you know you're standing at the The Vortex of creation a movement of a person reverberates on every level of existence all the way up high high high foreign what the person does within himself or herself that's what creates this flow on all levels of reality which avoided in a person access is the fifth level it's not just simple English that Sadiq was always from and about true made mistakes that's a very very superficial understanding it says that he's going to get sadikin to become Bali you know it says he's going to get from people to become balichu he's also going to get Bali truva to become balichuva but truth is not ffb BT I grew up in Monroe or Williamsburg Crown Heights or Lakewood or Muncie and you grew up in Greenwich Village [Music] or Soho or Tribeca or Moscow auriga and then you did sugar that's the technical uh way how it happened it's two trajectories of life you could be somebody who grew up in Monroe and he's about true Amazon very good it's not where I was born and what type of school I went to it's who I who I am as a person that represents a person where there is just a natural sense of Peace that's the Sadiq you're on a good path essentially you're in a good path you're in a right place you're in the right you know who you are and you're happy and you're good a real subject we're talking about good person cognitive Consciousness and higher spiritual transcendental consciousness and that's the he Tunes in every day to the four worlds Asia it's Syria the four states of Consciousness which are integrated and those are the dollar you say this and then you have Mayim is the next level ruach and then you have nashama that's connected uh um sorry am I am offer a mind and ruach and then H which is which is [Music] damaged to the conscious eye is not working so what is sure the expression he has to jump over walls doesn't mean they have to leap over walls there's a big wall everywhere so I have to jump over the wall I jump over the wall I have to go to a place above [Music] you have to find the Infinity of your soul because the finite expression of my soul the way it's embodied in Consciousness is damaged I'm suffering from addiction I'm suffering from depression I'm suffering from dysfunction I'm broken I'm suffering from anxiety for this I have to go to the fifth level it's above the youth it's the castle beyond that solace that's what sugar means true it doesn't mean I wasn't from yesterday I'm doing today obviously that's one level of Truth the concept of chuva is you're a person who has to reinvent himself doesn't have to reinvent himself you know why he's a good guy you'd have to reinvent yourself you're a good guy about true that has to say goodbye to himself that's painful has to say goodbye to a whole self that he thought he knew and he says bye bye bye bye Charlie rebirth rebirth how do you how's the rebirth only from from the fifth level from the formless eye but tear them even Beyond that's the coaches that's the capsa now look how black how tighter works when moisha came up to harsina he saw Hashem riding the tag him on the safetyra the tagum are those little Thorns those little lines on top of the letter seven letters has like three Zions on top of them you know those little tiger so Maisha said what I said what are you doing like he says it's not for you one day there's going to be a Jewish [Music] Assad literature shall call tagavatag Tilly tillam I'll call quotes till later is going to take every one of these little thorns and they're going to build from each one mountains of Allah that's the kite that's the tagum on top of the letters the letters of that that's true was a grandson of sisra sister was a Hitler to deal with people don't understand was a grandson of sisra sister was the arch enemy of the Jewish people this is the seed he came from couldn't just look at himself and say wow I'm such a beautiful guy Rebecca had to deal with a clip of sisra that was his Gene and he became the greatest that's why he would keep his life wasn't easy and then when he was his father his parents converted he didn't come from Jews he had to completely reinvent himself and then even as a Jew he had to reinvent himself till 40 he didn't know all of Base his whole life was an element of Reinventing himself at every stage again and again think about this and then he already reached the greatness of the great nobody has 24 000 students pre-technology today you can have 24 000 students first of all it's not that students are going to be Akiva but they may keep at 40 24 000 students to have to be the achiever there were no whatsapps we didn't have enough I don't know why you weren't there why didn't you do it for the pakivers very good especially with artificial intelligence you can have 24 billion students if you just program the right people you'll have 25 billion students and what happens to be Akiva students he reached the opaque right there but give me the wow wow look at me 24 000 it was no Rebel like this [Music] and then they all die so what's about Cuba is supposed to do now it's time for depression what does he do he reinvents himself again with five students just think about the difference one day he's talking to 24 000 and a year later he has five people [Music] that's the fifth level five students who may hem from this I said from these five students this is a man who never stops Reinventing himself how do you reinvent yourself that courage to be able to say whatever I knew I knew but now we're going to a deeper place that's it about Kevin for this there'll be Akiva understood how deep mediterium could could penetrate that's the void of true ideas it says in mattress that Kyle doidi Heine is he leaped over the mountains leap pesach means but what's the connection why is that called PESA because that's what it is can't walk through this mouth this mountain is this this walls everywhere there's no way to go what do you have to find [Music] he has to jump over the hunt that's the look it's Quantum leaps it's a different level of moving you're not moving on a gradual level you're moving a graduate level you get stuck you have to go to a completely different place [Music] you know you take the highway you get stuck in traffic one day there's no traffic one day there's crazy traffic one day there's a little traffic but you're in the world of traffic right imagine somebody's in an airplane and he wants to be like everybody else he lands on the highway and the FDR and he's stuck in traffic and they say you're in an airplane you don't have to be here hey there's no traffic up there air traffic is at a different level when you have to land there's air traffic up there there's no traffic the baltuva can't stay on the highway he's stuck on him so now creates by Hashem so it's not Hashem revealed the fifth level it starts with the person the person went to the fifth level it brings out an alacus the fifth level [Music] foreign you start with gnus with shame and you end with praise what's good news we were slaves or it's a lover tried to kill everybody we do both we do dictionary what's the idea why do you have to start with goodness I don't understand why can't why you have to talk about at the bar mitzvah you have to talk about how horrible your grandfather was nobody does that today at bar mitzvahs anybody get up to say did they say the decade that's not what we do by the Haggadah you want to talk about the say the disados I'm a sugar and a killer but he says that's the whole nakuda says I said love and I'm sorry the second Peter says our forefathers were Idol worshipers and now we finally came close what do you have to embarrass the altazed Delta say there was a monkey Delta say there was a chimp Delta say there was an over there that's the mosque within us the answer is can only happen because the zaida had a lot of problems and if I have those problems you hear what he's saying here it's only when you can identify the Brokenness that you can do truva the only way you could touch your kid is the only way you can access this is not a justification classification for a person to be sick and do sick things but it explains why Hashem created a world in which there is that possibility of Detachment of separateness of losing the plot of of becoming disconnected and of damage happening on the five levels because that is what triggers and arouses the void of Truth only happens because I have to deal with stuff if I don't have to deal with anything I don't have to run away from anything I Stay [Music] true is what allows me to escape in a good way to transcend and then to integrate [Music] and that's what brings out the early Beyond The Starships so that's the part of the capital of because there's avoidance there's Distortion and I need atonement I need healing so we have a base up here which allows for children that's the Hindi being revealed and when that comes out it doesn't destroy the ego doesn't destroy the self you would think if you're going to that place that's it you're dead close enough but if it's if you're going to the fifth level it can go into all the four remember that which is beyond the arm could integrate yam and yabosha could walk on dry land that's the second level is the next level after Christians when that light comes in it doesn't have to destroy your Matthias you could walk through the arms of on the contrary it could settle in and that's what base up here means this world becomes a home for Asha this world doesn't mean a home a home your essence is there your core is there but how in a comfortable and integrated and not in an anxious way a home is not supposed to be a place of anxious anxiety it's a place where your essence is there comfortably it's accepted it's loved it's cherished hashem's Essence is cherished it's accepted it's embraced because when the essence comes out it doesn't have to destroy it doesn't have to be close on Netflix so therefore it could be comfortable it could be integrated it becomes Who You Are mushrooms and that's why the end of the whole God there is next year in Jerusalem both levels on the four levels because we have so many things in the garden that are divided by four that's the way and the avoid is which is the fifth level which is the general trajectory of nagada that God itself is made up of four but the general nakuda of that God is number five so the end of that God is that this is your slime is two words said let's bring together the two words became yerushalayim yerushala means the completion of era era in the most Wholesome Way it's a tors and Tinus the viewed from The Madras es means full reverence full or complete or this is the shlemus of avoided the synthesis of the Sadiq and the bachelor itself like it says the greatness of mashiach is he's going to come to bring back that sadiqam to Triva to bring back the Bali that's not so hard to bring that Sadiq him to true if I'm at sadik what do I need to become about truth I'm a perfect guy you need children not me that's how you're going to know if he's going to be able to get him to do it say okay now you're good it's the hardest thing in other words if I can open myself up to a world that's higher than judgment deeper than judgment deeper than separation when that sadly could really make space for the Bolton because he makes space for his own children that's the hiddish of lashanaim you have the synthesis of the two not that that Sada gets destroyed that sadly becomes about true in other words which is the quality of the bachelor can be integrated in the nepheus doesn't mean that I have to live in that world of the baltuva which is transcendent the death of ego but it could come back and be integrated into the daily structure of life in a settled and integrated way which is the concept of it's a home where your essence is there where hashem's Essence is there that's the line that comes as the climax of the whole journey of that he never did Sugar [Laughter] you're right what it means is that it's when you discover true Infinity so finiteness even Holiness needs true