Bringing the Joy of Sukkot into Our Everyday Lives - R' Benzion Klatzko speaking for CHAZAQ!

[Music] good evening everyone and I wish you all a good acquittal a beautiful Hashanah robber and I want to jump right into a very very difficult and complicated subject the subject is called Circus Circus is very tough I was speaking at a college this past week at Rutgers and I was speaking to second level students that means students that have been involved in Jewish life for a little while and I asked them how many of them had heard of Sukkot and in an entire room maybe two did and then I asked them does anyone know what Sukkot is all about and none of them did and I explained to them it's not surprising you don't because Sukkot or circus doesn't follow the pattern of the regular Jewish holiday the other typical American families heard about and the typical holiday there's a hero there's a villain and then we eat afterwards special food to commemorate that the hero beat the villain right just go through that pattern you'll see it really stands up Hanukkah you got your hero right the Maccabean you this you the Maccabee you have your villain Antiochus and what do you eat latkes maybe with a sour cream maybe with applesauce but you evolve because that's the banner pacer you got your hero Moshe you got your villain Paro and what do you eat matzo poor him you got your hero Mordecai Nestor you got your villain in a home as far as well what do you eat hamantaschen so anything that follows that pattern it's a very Hollywood kind of a pattern and ends in good distinct food we know about but in circus there's no hero there's no villain and there's no special food so why should they have heard of circus you think about that it's really interesting so the truth is it is not just the typical American student that it hasn't heard about circus the reality is that even we who have gone perhaps to Jewish schools Hebrew schools yeshiva zs-- even seminaries it's a little bit confusing it's a little bit confusing why seven days what happened in seven days right in a good question what happens on these we know on Pesach seven days is how long it took them to get from its Ryan to the answer and the last day yams herbs but what happened in seven days that in seven days long it's not a obvious question the whole circus is very confusing so what I want to do today is I want to demystify circus and maybe in the process make it interesting enough that from this circus and on suckers will have a totally different meaning for you okay that's my goal it's a big goal I don't have that long to speak so let's see if we can accomplish that goal and what I want to do is I want to I want to tell you a story that happened to me era of Yom Kippur this year so this story is all of two weeks old a little bit less Arab Yom Kippur I'm driving home sue them out of seconds have to go gonna go to the mikveh go get ready to slug parties with my kids and I'm driving and I have to deliver something so instead of driving in my usual car our family has a 15 passenger van thank god I've got 11 kids Liyana or grandkids as well so you need lots of lots of room but it's very helpful to schlep cargo and I brought my daughter with me and we went to schlep this cargo and as we are driving back up Saddle River Road really near my house there red and blue lights flash I see them in the back and I pull over over Yom Kippur think pulled over if that's not a sign what is I get pulled over and the police said do you know what you're doing I said no I know it wasn't speeding I don't speed I used to speed then I had kids and I'm I feel like I'm living for a lot of people I'm very careful he said you know you did earlier back there was a person crossing the crosswalk and where there's a person crossing the crosswalk you have to stop which I did but you can't continue until the other person is actually on the other side on the other side walk it's not good enough that they should pass you that you can go they have to be on the sidewalk and if not it's a major ticket okay I didn't learn that it maybe I should've learned that and in my driving school look he said license registration so I tell him right away I said by the way I'm a chaplain I'm a chaplain actually I not that I usually have with me but I actually am a chaplain police chaplain there we go I just have it on me I usually don't carry with me I I'm a chaplain thesis okay where's your ID I said it's in my other car so you know what other car I said I never drive this car to my wife's van he says well without ID you're just a guy license registration I said I'm telling you I'm a chaplain now if you're a chaplain I'm not spreading this but you're a chaplain they very often will let something go especially if was an innocent about driving a hundred 120 miles an hour they let it go I'm a chaplain but he said you don't have your your ID so I said one second I'm really near my house Mike my son has my car let me just quote he could bring it'll be here in two minutes so the police says you have two minutes so I call him I call him he doesn't answer I call him again I call him ten times their police loses patience with me and he goes back to his car now in my mind I'm thinking you know I'm actually a chaplain at large it's called the New York State chaplain it's not even officially a police chaplain although they recognize it but I would not even be in their records it's a New York State thing it's not a police thing so he said who do you who do you answer to and the answer is I don't really you know I took the course and whatever the guys name was three years ago I just renew it every year so he's you don't have your right you don't know who you answer to wait here so I'm waiting and I'm thinking I'm toast you know I'm gonna i'm through who knows what the tickets gonna be so while I'm there I'm waiting and you know they pull the police they make you wait for a long time to get you all nervous so while I'm waiting I said let me do a mitzvah there was a girl she wanted to go to Eretz Israel you know it was like a little bit of a little bit of an ASIC to get her there so I have a few extra minutes while waiting for the police I get on the phone to try to help her out he gets back comes back I roll down the window he adds on my license and says ok you are a chaplain I said I have like it's not in your records you are a chaplain and you're lucky that you are a chaplain because you don't have your ID and you're supposed to carry your ID it's not supposed to be in your car it's always supposed to be on your person and even more than that I could have written you up for four tickets for tickets that means I could have almost lost my license over that four tickets endangering the welfare like he could have and he said we're really cracking down in New Jersey I was right before New York at the border we're really cracking down but you're a chaplain next time Avedon you and drive away and I turned to my daughter I said I don't know how that happened like he could not be in his records it's just it's a different department and I didn't even have it on me and he whatever it was that evening I was in shul and I was leading the minion and I told them I told the Kela listen to me we come in fact that I cottage bar when we say God I've done a lot wrong in God's as I know you have as soon as I know but I turn to a sham and I say yeah but you know who I am you know I am I'm among the B'nai I'm from your cookin Yaakov I am a chaplain I got it from you I can Yaakov I got pedigree I got you girls and I Shem says where's your ID you don't look like a from you duckin Yaakov you're sensing you're feeling it sucka you don't look like you don't what's the part where's your ID and I say I know I don't look like it but I am trust me I am and I cut ash bar who comes back to us and says taka you are abhinaya from yet stuck in Yaakov and I will be Michael you you know why because I love you but you should be aware it's not one ticket it's many tickets there are many things that you did wrong this year that you're not even aware of that I'm going to forgive but be aware next time have your ID on you next time look like the Avram Bonet Avram your skull can Yaakov here is the idea it's a profound idea it's a simple idea and after you hear it you're gonna wonder how you ever missed it this is circus if I cottage bar who sang my dear dear claw Israel you have a long winter ahead of you and you can get a little depressed you don't average the shot Ana yom kippur coming up you've got months and months with no major holiday you got a panic in between which is not an official jankis nothing until paisa and you may think that we're gonna grow distant in the cold winter you may think I've done bad things you may think I need Mahela says I shall listen to me mine kinder luck I of you and I will not let you get depressed I will not let you get down on yourself I will not let you knock yourself around and say I'm so bad and I shams not really Michael me and I've got so far to go and nothing's changed you're wrong you've got ID on you you're the Bonet of Romney it's cocking that was so when you mess up remember that I love you I want to tell you that every yontiff is a fillip station explain to what I mean when you are young tough when you have a holiday the message of the holiday is supposed to then carry on until the next holiday so the first holiday that we have is pass on the message of Pesach is freedom so here we are it's spring we do we understand that correspond to us not to frolic at the beach not to go wild but I Shem freed us why to be above them Tasha to serve our Shem it pays like his freedom that's the lesson so the Phillip is Pesach and then after you filled up the gas tank then you've got that feeling of freedom and that's supposed to carry on until service and service what do you fill up with what do you fill up with unto us you fill up with an Torah mat and Torah you fill up on the appreciation that I shall give either you have a long summer coming up you have a big summer vacation coming up fill up on Torah what do we fill up on circus with what gets put in the gas tank anyone what gets put in the bad gas tank the answer is simcha you're filling up on simcha for the rest of the winter you've got a long winter ahead of you you have to fill up with joy so that that joy will last throughout the winter where does that joy come from the Rambam says the joy of a Shem is synonymous with our shams love when you know that a sham loves you you get filled up with joy and that's the feeling we're supposed to get come this circus the feeling that a sham loves me even though maybe it wasn't my best rosh hashanah it wasn't my best yom kippur let me explain this a little bit deeper it's gonna get sort of sort of deep but I think we can handle it even though it is close to midnight why do we have seven days of circus I asked that question before so that our Rizal says the seven days of circus are connected there's seven clouds that Ananya covered they were Ananya covered there were clouds that surrounded the Jewish people and the seven clouds are remembered through the seven acts of love through the seven days of circus now I have a question for you if you're surrounded how many clouds does it take to surround him count one to the right one to the left right six one to the front one to the back one to the top onto the bottom why did there have to be seven clouds where's the seventh cloud where is that seventh cloud the answers it's in you Hashem surrounds you on top on bottom on the sides but the main part the main cloud is within you as a person are Shem is saying I love you this is why we have seven who season what other season there were season are seven days seven of our ancestors our grandparents that we say our our our ID so when we welcome my from who gets to welcome the president somebody who's close to the president walked was the president when we welcome of Romney its cocoon Yaakov what are we saying I promise I was eight ofcourse we're gonna welcome him of course we're gonna welcome you duck of course we're gonna welcome Yaakov there are grandparents what are we doing we're flashing our ID Tasha and we're saying we're welcoming through season because they are our grandkids and therefore even when we mess up you still love us that's the message of circus so you've got seven clouds that surround you that either love and the seventh one is in you you have the seven who season and then you yourself you yourself are able to invite them as your Zetas you take the love and you you shake it seven six sides and who's the one who shakes it you you're the seventh one you're number seven six sides and you being number seven it is you telling gosh em Hashem I know you love me even though I may not have had the best young in the room that's the message of circus and in case we forget it the seventh day which is coming up or the eighth day which is right after so this is called Schmitt near Terrace and we have so many actors because it's called kasha li pre dascomb we say it's hard for me to leave you it's almost like the grandparents where the grandchildren are about to leave the grandparents say please stay a little bit longer I'll put out some good food I'll make it good stay a little bit longer there's no special simcha there's no special anything that we do except love Hashem and dance the message through the winter so what let's recap and then we'll go a little bit a little bit further with this we have suckers how cutters borrow who says I love you and I prove to you that I love you by putting you in a Sukkah we'll speak about that in a moment I proved you I love you about putting you in a Sukkah and therefore I'm gonna ask you to remember that I love you and then through out the winter when you feel down remember that my love will will hold you not just till the next Rosh Hashanah the next time Kippur but my love is able to forgive you even when you haven't forgiven yourself so it's a very interesting thing we say at the end of my roof right at the end of Yom Kippur we'd have an irregular mire of and we've seen that my wrist lock Lana Lana Levine aqui con who forgive us because we've done now there now this is right after Yom Kippur now think about this we just went through an entire Yom Kippur we just screamed hi Charla Kim we blew the Schieffer and then with Avenue I was a Cylon who why what does a sham have to forgive us didn't he forgive us already so al it back we'll give you the answer that you know what I shan't ask the forgiving for because you're thinking about food that's a licorice answer it's a little bit harsh you know why because we're hungry thing hungry is that's that's what happens when you don't eat for a day in an evening so I heard a beautiful beautiful part it's a little more classy this so so beautiful do you know why we have to say SLOC la new in she wanna astray mode say Yom Kippur you know we need forgiveness for whereas gosh I'm to forgive us that we don't believe that he really forgave us that we don't really believe that Yom Kippur worked that we still think there's no way in the world Hashem could forgive me Hashem knows what I've done I'm not exotic I didn't cry tears this Yom Kippur I'm still gonna speak loshon hora I'm still gonna dabble without qivana I'm gonna do these things it's awful but it's a reality and I shall knows it and therefore he probably didn't forgive me slaw no kata no are we such a ballet guys ax are we so Hardy to think that a sham can't forgive us that's why we say slack Ilana so in order to understand this on a deeper level let me explain to you how love works there's an old so old it was the story in the press in India I don't know if the story is true it's a weird story circles like this there was a guy who was dating a girl and they were dating each other and it looked like it was gonna go somewhere and one day we're near the end of the date and they already had strong feelings for each other and then the girl says you know what pull over to the side of the road so he pulls over to the side of the road and he says what is it he says you know I know it looks like it was about to happen and we even said we loved each other we said we loved each other how we really felt that we meant it but I feel like I'm not feeling it like I'm not feeling it anymore so I think I think I have to end it and the guy with a tear in his eye there's not much Jewish Jewish story the guy with a tear in his eye he she's breaking up with him he takes out of his pocket a little note and a hands into her answer that note and right after he answered that note there was a drunk driver coming from the opposite direction as the drunk driver swerved control and sideswiped the car and smashes right into him and kills him on the spot she miraculously does not die she's injured not that badly it's a very sad funeral and after the funeral when she's trying to compose herself she reaches into her pocket she sees this note that he answered right after she broke up with him she opens up the note and in it was one line that he had written and the line said I would die without your love now the stories from the India press in India for a dramatic story now your love I would die that was it but that's not the way I Shem works Hashem does not work that when we feel oh no there's no love comes the car and you you're finished hashem is actually quite the opposite and Hashem works with us exactly the way mature love works let me explain - how much sir love works when we love somebody well we want to be in a relationship with them but we want to choose somebody to marry us so there are three steps these are the three steps of love step number one is called respect you can't love somebody you don't respect right it's one of the reasons that within the Orthodox community you don't have little teenagers young teenagers dating you know why because I always skip that step they skip the respect step and you can't skip respect you have to know what it is about them the fact that they're cute or handsome or pretty is not enough who are they what do they stand for respect it's huge uh-huh it's big respect if Albert Einstein's wife says I don't know maths math science - I don't know but I love his hair is that is that good enough of course not you're married Albert Einstein you have to know right you have to respect that that when you love somebody you respect well if you want to love somebody have to respect them what do they stand for are they atomic akhom - they are good and me those two they do have Sodom what have they accomplished respect step number two step number two is actually the step of love what's love love is simple loving love is a complicated word in in romance in songs but love is actually a very simple concept what's the concept of love love as me saying I am ready to take the leap I have seen enough to know that I want to invest in you we invest in our children we love our children this is a Jewish definition of love investing there more you invest the more you love that's I have up from the word love so the second step is actually love what's the third the third step is trust now that I love you don't you break my trust now that I love you don't you betray me now you would think that trust comes before love but it doesn't the camp you have to leave first and then once you leap you hope the person's gonna is key not going to betray you right that's trust three steps to all of respecting love and trust Hashem used those three steps when it came to engaging the Jewish people Hashem loves us and our Shem says I want to be in a mature relationship with you so step number one was respect Hashem says you have to respect me say you know what I'm gonna do I'm gonna show you what there is to respect I'm gonna show you I rule over the sky I rule over the ground I rule over the water you know I'm gonna do it dumb spa day yeah keenum are of death right all the MCUs except for the last one all the first nine marcus three which were by land three words were by the water three which were by air were there just so that we should understand that our rules over everything and we're now we can respect touch them we respect the ocean your cash to my parts you rule over everything so step number one of the relationship is respect first nine Marcus step number two what was step number two that's the love that's the getting down on one knee and saying will you marry me that's the proposal that's the love I choose you you choose me when did that happen that was my cusp Icarus Marcus picaros was a totally different Makkah than the first nine completely different the first nine were just about respect the last Makkah was the choosing that's the choosing so who chose who well first we chose Hashem so what do we have to do we have to take every other of a deserter especially the sheep which was Valvo desire of the Egyptians and throw them out no I choose nobody but you wash em and what does that Shem say back then I choose you right you I choose I will be pasta have been but a B'nai Israel you I will kill your Belarus I will kill you all not you I choose you I do not it was the maka of the choosing Marcus buckaroos is the proposal it's incredible there's a lot more to be said about this I don't have the time but it's once you understand this you'll know why every single house had to have at least one person dead among the Egyptians even if there was no bahar you ever wondered about that even if there wasn't let's say the bahar had died says the magic the next one who was alive had to die what about if you weren't even Egyptian what about if you were Syrian and you were in an Egyptian prison but you happen to be a before you also had to die why so that nobody you shouldn't mistake the fact that I did not choose you no I did not choose you I did not choose a Syrian and I did not choose the Egyptian I chose you because I love you you're my console you're not my clientele so that was the love the love was Marcus buyers what are we left with my friends this is this is what it's all about the trust the trust in the relationship now before we get to trust I want to show you where we where we say this in diving over and over because these three steps are repeated over and over and Avenue let's take mire of davin tonight my earth the first bracha is a shepherd farro my revolve him the Cosmopolis Arab you created the Sun and the moon and you created the stars in the heavens whoa respect it's a big galaxy that's a big University created so the first bracha is respect what's the next brocco of us all our basis well I'm after then comes love so the first we have assalam you loved us so we respond with Shama they laughter Sasha Malacca you love me I love you and then what's the next book right after Sh'ma then we're not calls those trust right chakras Jaros your to all of our conscious respect our varaha love Shema day after the odd savannah con then we'll give us again trust even in Shmona Ezra you see the pattern of respect love and trust let's look at it okay legato like G bar Vanara that is respect you're big you're great Lamantia moe in order to bring Lamantia moe bhava to bring to love and after LOD what comes phenomena tilapias makes him trust that same three now we as Jews got the first two we understood our shaman needs to be respected we understood that we're choosing a Shem my moccasin he's choosing us but trust oh my goodness my goodness gracious were still here 3000 years later we still struggle with trust how do we know that we struggle with trust well right when the B'nai Israel left mitzrayim what did i sham say the very beginning beshallach though a knock him Ellen Kim that hurts pushed him I'm not going to take them to the through the police tomb because you know what they're gonna say I want to go back kill my pen he knocked him out they're gonna go back they don't trust me when's the first time we began to trust the very first trust ever there was a young sauce you know why because we had no choice we were gonna die right here you're gonna die by drowning here you're gonna die by sword so for the first time ever it says by Aminu bash em overemotional that's the first time for ya mean Abacha sessions decay we're gonna work on this trust thing and then came a 40-year saga of the third part of the relationship we tried to trust I shall said listen to me don't go out on Chavez there'll be no Munn trust believe me there's gonna be money every day trust believe me it's this all is wonderful you don't need to send him spies trust believe me my surname is gonna come down because of trust we could not 10 times we've seen couple of shots how shall we test that I shouldn't ten times again and again and again and again I don't trust you I don't trust you so what is Circus Circus is us trying to finish the relationship it's trying to complete it with trust so what do we do so the first thing is we leave our houses and we go underneath escucho with a ceiling that's flimsy and we're underneath basically the heavens so what is that trust Hashem says you don't need your cover with the cows you don't need your permanent house trust me they're gonna be in a flimsy cerca and that's okay I remember there was Mun because part of Circus is remembering the mana bear and Miriam it was all part of the NACE right one came from mice you won't get from Miriam won't get from iron trust me and then you know what you're gonna do you're gonna trust me by taking your love an asteroid and it in fashion mascara chemin era sham is truly everywhere up up right that's how you just know you know how to shake it you sing the naked Hashem you're everywhere and you know why we can trust the Shem like we trust a sham we've done so many bad things we don't deserve Neeson we don't deserve hats Locker we don't deserve a good we don't deserve partners we don't deserve says I sham you know why you could trust me because I love you that mock us pakoras that you celebrated that you chose me and I chose you I never forgot that so start trusting me trust me because you have ID trust me because you're a chaplain trust me because you're the B'nai I've run me a trucking Yaakov trust me so now we're getting a little bit deeper into what circus is all about and here's how the what the equation looks like Hashem says you just finished Rosh Hashanah Yom Kippur you're going to a long dark winter you're not sure how our relationship is you're not sure if I'm gonna watch you but you know what the problem is the problem is that you're not sure that's why you should say slack on who you should be sure you should trust me that I'm not gonna abandon you that I'm not gonna have a car sideswipe you the moment you say I'm not interested anymore trust me in this long and dark winter because no matter what you do you're still my Kindle and that's the equation of service yes there are clouds all around but the main cloud is you you are the neshamah 'la you are the soul and you can trust me because I will never abandon you even if you mess up throughout this Russia China by me throughout this winter that's coming up dance the message the only time we fail is when we don't trust that our Shem loves us and when we don't trust that a Shem forgives us when we mess up you know when we're occupied doing interesting things we don't get down on ourselves we only get down on ourselves when we think when we think when we start beating ourselves up and we think so it's not the reality it's our own minds doing it to ourselves we just think Hashem couldn't possibly forgive me if a Shem is big enough to forgive claw you saw Eagles of Hashem is big enough to forgive you and our sham wants to forgive you Hashem is the Tata in heaven Hashem is a father and a sham is a lover and a sham as a king and all of these relationships mean that Hashem doesn't give up on us and if I Shem patches us once in a while it's the biggest proof that he didn't give up on us so stop giving up on yourselves stop thinking that this rushes on Yom Kippur didn't work tonight is Hashanah Rama the last chance but what does that mean the last chance so according to what we're saying now you know it's the last chance for it's the last chance to realize that a sham really does love you enough to forgive you it's the last chance for you to say I Shem I trust you that you forgive me and I'm not going to beat myself up and I'm not going to allow oxforts and huge two to lead me down the dark path because that's all it wants to do all year's wants to do is make you not cling - um because you convinced yourself that a sham doesn't love you anymore Hashem it does not give up on anyone you know there's a song actually comes to the words of Rahman beautiful beautiful words you all know the words kala alum Kula gadgets are mode for it girl Olaf Akkad claw and the words mean the world is a narrow bridge and the main thing is don't be afraid so most people when they hear these words or a maximun the way they explain it is the world is an air or bridge but don't be afraid you'll be able to cross the bridge don't be afraid snare oh but don't worry but I always looked at a little bit differently and maybe there's M as to what I'm saying the world is a narrow bridge and it's so narrow sometimes it's so narrow you're gonna fall off the bridge yeah actually gonna fall off and even when you fall off don't be afraid even when you fall off even when you think that you're finished the bridge was to a narrow Hashem I couldn't do it I know I made that bridge it's so narrow but guess what I can catch you also who says the only way to catch houses all the way to get to the other side is through the bridge I could take you in the palm of my hand and gently put you on the other side the Brule is a narrow bridge you're gonna fall sometimes you're gonna fall off the bridge vicar the most important thing in the relationship as Lola fasted call don't have any fear even when you've fallen even if you fall during this winter even if the commitments that you made on Rosh Hashanah Yom Kippur don't seem to be matching your actions Lola farted call don't be scared Hashem still loves you Hashem believes in you because you've got ID you got the idea of of Rami it's Yaakov finished with the story there was a taxi driver and the taxi driver was the end of his shift it's a very very late night call and he was feeling a little bit Restless he really wanted to get home and he stops at his final destination person had called and he he's there outside and the persons not coming and he's gonna honk honk you know or he's just gonna drive away sometimes taxis they wait a little bit then they drive away but for whatever reason the taxi driver decided he'll go ill knock it's the last one he gets out of his taxi knocks on the door knocks again now there's no answer he's about to walk away when he hears a faint voice from inside of the house so he waits and then he hears a shuffling and then the door slowly opens up and there's a very very old lady standing at the door she's in her 90s and as the door opens he sees her house it's a very nice shell of a house but there's nothing there there's no knickknacks there's no furniture there's a few boxes with picture frames and old black-and-white pictures and little glass jars few boxes like that but the house is pretty much empty and this old lady she's got a suitcase and he says she says she says to the taxi driver excuse me dear would you help me with the suitcase and he says of course seeing a lady so frail of course so he takes the he takes the suitcase puts it in and then he comes back and he helps his lady and the door closes and she walks very very slowly towards the taxi and she comes in and she says here's the address that I have to go to would it be okay if you could go to downtown route he said downtown it's much you know it's longer I could take the highway instead of going here why would you want to go downtown so the lady said well you see I'm actually on my way to our hospice to an old-age home I'm leaving now this is my suitcase I've lived where I've lived for over 60 years and you're driving me to the place where I probably will about the last days my life and I want before I arrive at the hospice to go through downtown one more time just to remember and the taxi driver was very touched so touched was he that he turned off the meter and he took her downtown through the longer route and as he's taking her she says oh this is the hole that my husband and I got married in 70 years ago oh and that's where we had our first they that's that's where I had my first job here's where we had our anniversary and he's taking her this very circuit this route because she kept saying if we go down that road oh that's where I went to school as a child Wow I remember that this is where this is where my children surprise us with the birthday party my husband and I he passed away 20 years ago but this is where our children took us out that restaurant over there and I remember this and I I remember them she's so animated and he's very patiently taking her this long to our taxi ride and finally she says okay we can go and they drive to the hospice and he helps her in and there are people there who clearly were waiting for her and they take her suitcase and she turns to this taxi driver and she says you know you're very kind you really you really were a highlight you were like a highlight of my life you allowed me to see my life in a nutshell like a film I really am grateful thank you so much and she walked in the hospice and the taxi driver watched as the door to her life closed behind her and he gets back in the car and the Sun is beginning to rise and instead of driving right home he drives slowly and he drives around a little bit and he thinks to himself you know I'm so glad I didn't get upset I'm so glad I didn't honk I'm so glad I didn't drive away she could have gotten an angry taxi driver who didn't understand that she's an old lady and I feel like what I did today was among the most special things that I've ever done there are many things that are going to happen to us after hoshanah Rabbah after shmuly at Sarah's and some costará and we go to our lives and the world gets cold and there are many stops and many mistakes and many victories and I courage bark who wants us to understand that he will love us with the bed and with the good with our faults and with our virtues and the there's nothing that gets Hashem more depressed caviar ho then when we get down on ourselves surely at the IH may Hashem to mikesh it's forbidden to be me is so whenever the time comes and we feel like life is getting us a little bit down pull out your ID remember that you're children of our drum music on Yaakov sorry riff Garagiola Maya Govan and iron and Yosef and Misha I'm sorry schneier and Shmuel Hanavi and Yehuda's and devorah and all that sadek him and calm him and wonderful people who came before us and we pull ourselves back up they say Irish bar aku I believe in myself because I believe in you and I sham says ah that's the third step we have the respect we have love and now we have trust have a wonderful biscuit Iver and a good cos air thank you very much [Applause] [Music] [Applause]