Bitachon 178 - We Can Always Return

you're listening to the 178th edition of the podcast we're going to start a new PK together chapter 6 61 verse4 P says King David says to hem you were a protection for me m a fortress of strength in the face of my enemies says the this is a foundational idea and that is that is saying I saw from my past experiences I saw from my interactions with you Hashem in the past that you protected me you when I called out to you you answered me and so I call out to you again today and ask you to save me again today which is a very powerful idea because what it's saying is let's look back in our our past let's go look for all the times that our prayers were answered Hashem I know you answered me in the past in this situation in that situation and first of all it makes it easier for me to turn to Hashem again it helps me but besides that it's a reminder as it were to Hashem that hey you helped me before please help me again says the you are always my Fortress of strength therefore I desire that which it says in the next p it says I love him let me live in your tent hem forever let me be able to be protected in the in the hidden spot of your wing sah so he's saying that you are always the one who protected me and took care of me and therefore I say I want to live near you I want to live in your presence Hashem and I want to be protected by you by your protective wing for real meaning what does it mean to be protected by hasm was protective wi for real it means that sometimes it seems like helps me doesn't always seem to work maybe May talking doesn't always work the request of is let always work you've helped me in the past let it be consistent I want to live in that space I want to live in that place where I'm always calling out to you and you're always answering my prayers there's a note here that is explaining a beautiful thing you know when a person has desires so was a classic idea of kazal person has $100 he wants $200 right it's natural to always want more never feel like you have enough D is telling us that he also has desires he also wants I always want more but what what do I want more of says D I always want more connection to you Hashem I see that my connection to you worked I see that my worked I see that my prayers were successful you answered my prayers I want more of that I want more connection I want more spirituality King in the safer theik which is from if I'm not mistaken he explains as well that the concept of so really means I trust but there are different levels of trust there's different levels within sorry I missed the line you know the word really should mean absolute trust full confidence that's the word should mean but there are levels that's the truth the truth is that there are levels so really it should be that everything below there should be like which is absolute and there's something maybe above it something below it he says that there are four different levels of but again the idea here is that having is one thing trusting in hm is one thing Desiring a deeper level another level of B hasm I want I want my connection to to be even deeper I'm not satisfied with what I have spiritually I want more says the you were my protector so many times here's another we ask don't don't help me because of something that I deserve I don't deserve it help me you've helped me in the past but help me in the future for your Honor's sake why what does it mean that no one should say that hasem can't do it here he has a note the refers to this idea of hoping to hasem trusting inm because of his honor see what it says over there here's the words of what it says trusting in hem because of hashem's honor is something that you got a better chance of a better bet it's a better bet than trusting in hasem because of something that I deserve an idea here is you is right let's say a person always helps another person Ruan always he's the benefactor who's always helping shim right so if one time let's say shim does not help Ru it's it's if let's say Ru doesn't really feel like helping him this time or doesn't yeah would have to stretch himself to do so so it's appropriate that he should do that why right Ru always helps him he feels like doesn't really deserve it right now I got the names mixed up ruin is the guy who needs help shim is the one who helps him so he says you know he doesn't really deserve to be helped right now but you know what I'm going to help him anyway because I don't want anyone to think that I don't have the power that I'm not rich enough that I'm not I'm not helpful enough I don't want anyone to think that there's CD that there's something missing from the side of the helper there's something about helping somebody else okay it's not as it's not as great perhaps as if the person would deserve the help but we can understand that for the person the helper's own sake it's worth it for his own honor like King David says in chapter 79:9 he says God save us the god of our Salvation you always save us God is your custom as it were to save us and the next words help us as you always do why because it would be a piga in your coved it would be a lack of honor for you if he wouldn't help us and he wouldn't save us so what we're saying is we don't believe that we really deserve it God you don't owe it to me we don't it's not it's not something that's some obligation that you have on us it's not because of Any merits that we have it's for your honor hasem that the Nations should not say they shouldn't say that you weren't able to as you were until now and this makes me think of something very interesting you know why does hasm have to help us in Earth Isel what's the of helping us here and I want to say I want to point out that I heard recently from a from a an interview with someone who got into spe speaking in Arabic and speaking directly to the people without them realizing that he was Jewish and the hamon he asked them you know what's with the Jews do they belong in Israel do they have a right to Israel and they said no so even though in the Quran it says that the Ben Israel have a right to the land of Israel but these are not those Jews these are not the Ben Israel they said why because they for they forsook Hashem they turned away from God and they sinned and as a result of their sins Hashem forsook them that's what the Arabs said and this is the classic replacement theology the Christians claim this the Arabs claim this the Muslims claim this but it's an important question hey we've done what's wrong right didn't Hashem forsake us maybe hasm doesn't want us he threw us out of the B of mdos he threw us out of the temple he threw us out of Israel we were in exile for 2,000 years maybe hasm doesn't want us back but here's an incredible thing the incredible thing is and I've been thinking about this a lot the incredible thing is and hem promises us all over that even when we've done wrong even when we've done wrong over and over can a a mother forget her child maybe a mother will forget her child but I'll never forget you Hashem says the are everywhere about how hasem loves us made a deal with us and never forgets us is ready to destroy us in the midbar because we've done wrong says you can't do that you can't do that it would be a desecration of your name a desecration of your honor you made a promise to the other to ABR is and yov these are their children they've done wrong but you made a promise and so for hashem's Honor for hashem's Honor he needs to save us needs to protect us he needs to prove he doesn't make promises and then resend his promises take them back and I was thinking that you know this is perhaps one of the most powerful lessons that mankind can learn right it's it's very enticing for human beings to believe that there was a chosen people they were pushed aside they did wrong and now we're the chosen people oh and then the next one goes along says they were pushed away and we're the chosen people but the downside of that you might think that you're now the chosen people but now what you have basically said is that when somebody sins and does wrong they're lost they can't ever come back they're destroyed they're they're finished the greatest story of chuva the greatest story of someone who's done wrong and fixes his actions and comes back to Hashem is the story of am Israel yeah we did do wrong yeah we were axile yes we've been out of our land for 2,000 years but what a story of hope not just for am Israel but for the whole world that when you do what's wrong when you do what's wrong it's not an eternal uh verdict upon you even if you've been punished but it's not an eternal punishment you can come back to your land you can come back to your chosenness you don't really ever lose it and this might sound like hey what we got chosen instead of you uh it sounds bad for them because really they're not chosen but it's an incredible deep lesson for everyone for every human being that Hashem takes us back Hashem protects us Hashem wants us even when we've done wrong he still is interested in us for his Honor's sake he made a promise he's going to stand by this people forever so he has to save us he has to protect us has to take care of us he can't destroy us completely it's it's an incredible lesson I think that's part of what's going on here DAV also has this idea right DAV doesn't a Aro with B married womani comes to him and berates him and tells him that he's done wrong immediately he saysi I sinned he's the classic example King David King David does such a terrible sin one of the worst but he's the quintessential B also he's the one who returned s he's the one who proves that we could do things wrong and we can erase those mistakes we can come back hashm will forgive us Hashem will let us start a new slate that's the message of this time of year clearly and that's for hashem's Honor because Hashem doesn't want the destruction doesn't want the Exile doesn't want the negativity Hashem waits for even a Russia hasem waits for even a wicked person to turn back to him to do Chua that's what hasm is waiting for says the in explaining this King David was praying for the ultimate thing when he said even though you have saved me from the hands of King Saul and all my enemies like this so last time you also cared about me and protected me that nothing bad should happen to me wherever I go whatever I do but there's a terrible result of the fact that I am running away I know you're protecting me I know that you're making sure that nothing happens to me but still there's a great result of this and that is that I can't sit and learn I can't serve you properly I can't have the yesu the serenity to serve you as I would like to as I know I should as I know I can I don't have the rest I don't have the opportunity to sit down and prepare for the next World so prepare spiritual deeds in this world so I can have them for the next world but if you give me respit from my enemies who surround me thinking David is saying I promise you if you save me and you help me and you give me serenity give me a chance to sit and learn I'm going to do what needs to be done so that I have this world and the next I will be able ble to be in the secret place to be hidden near you as it were to be able to see the pleasantness of hem theous Yos he asked not just for salvation but also to be returned to his rightful place to his land that's why he said not only I know that you are protecting me I know that you saved me I know know that you didn't allow my enemies to get me but that's not enough for me I request that I be able to trust in you that I be able to be in the spiritual place where you are indeed protecting me a that's the second the that follows this which says I want to dwell in your tent forever I want to be in the place of your under your wing which means the world to come I want to be able to get there but I can only get there if I have the ability and the serenity in this world he said how long will I be chased chased after you protected me not to be killed in this world not to have a death physical death King David requests let me also have the peace the Serenity and not I don't just want a physical salvation I don't just want to be someone who is who is alive I want to be someone who's spiritual and in order to be spiritual and be safe in this world and safe in the next World and to have all my spiritual needs met I want to be able to be to have Serenity I want to be able to live in your tent I want to be able to sit in the place of Serenity in the place of Torah so that I can indeed get more and more spiritual Acquisitions to be able to enjoy ultimately the enjoyments of the world to come thank you so much for listening we'll see you again next time