Bitachon 121 - Good and Kindness Pursue Me

you're listening to the 121st edition of the be talking podcast and here we come to the final Posse of this chapter and to Helen chapter 23 verse 6. however goodness and kindness will chase after me all the days of my life and I will sit in the house of Hashem for long days and often when we speak about what are long days it means the days of Eternity the days of the world to come the days after this present life which is a short a short time a lot of it's short days this life but I'll be able to to be in a spiritual place says for all times for all eternity foreign for the good that you gave gave me until today but there's something that I ask of you foreign that the good that you've given me the good that I'm thanking you for not be a one-time good not be a limited good but rather it let it be something which I experience all of my days all of all of the days of my life is let no battles from involvements in regular worldly matters let them not cause me any distraction because I want to be able to sit in the house of God I want to be able to pursue spiritual matters for long days so it sounds like where Doc is understanding in a simple understanding I want to be able to spend the length of my days the the main part of my time on spiritual Pursuits Elizabeth I would like to be able to sequester myself there to be alone with the terror with spirituality with you Hashem so that I can prepare my heart and my thoughts for your service for serving you Hashem and to unify you let's throw a dog beautiful so Hashem give me good continue to give me good always give me good why so that I can serve you properly so I can invest my efforts spiritual matters the sworno the main thing the only thing that I ask for toef what's good what's this what is the good thing says Forno that I'm requesting of Hashem it means foreign what is that good Mecca the good thing to acquire it's a reference to the Tyra it's a reference to hashem's teachings to us the spiritual teachings of the Torah and wisdom so I want that I want that good I also want the kindness of Hashem she retained that Hashem gave me all of my physical needs all of those things that I need in the spirit in the Physical Realm I need a terror that's Tafe the spiritual needs that's Thai that's good but also need kindness and that's my physical needs to be taken care of you're the funy interesting says a sworno the pasik is a request is asking Hashem please let me have all my spiritual matters and all my physical matters taken care of and let them chase me so he understands this to means I would like all these things to come to me without my efforts I would like you to Hashem to just see that I have been talking to you that I trust you that I know it's gonna happen and I'm not gonna need to put in any effort it's just going to come to me foreign and what is the result of having spiritual Pursuits on my physical uh means taken care of the result is that I'll be able to sit in the house of Hashem I'll be able to focus myself on spiritual matters as we said the Robin says foreign there's a however over here however that good and kindness chase after me what is this however there is a condition through which I would like you Hashem to do good and kindness for me and that is the condition is because I want to be able to focus on your Torah to work at your Torah if he also says what is that which is called good I want to be able to be involved and working hard Torah and doing kindness interestingly he kind of switches it the sworno said I would like these things to come to me without my efforts but the ramen Ramos says no I want to be able to work hard at learning Torah I want to be able to work hard at doing kindnesses for people why because in this way I will acquire these things right the things that we work hard for the things that we focus on the things that take effort those are the things that ultimately we feel satisfaction like this is something that I I got this is something that I worked hard for eign look I want to be able to have these things I want to have Torah one of her said I want to work at receiving them at giving them being involved in them but I wanted to get to the point where it just comes naturally where it doesn't require as much effort it's just it's flowing I'm looking for that flow I'm looking for the good in my life to you know we've we've got we know how to do it we know how to serve Hashem we get up in the morning we go to Daven we learn we work to be my furnace our families we are involved in our families we have food on our table but there's a rhythm to it there's a sense that we're doing things right we're getting satisfaction from it and it's flowing that's what it seems is saying let these spiritual matters let the Torah let the gosh means the physical matters let it flow that everything be in a state of flow now I'd like to share with you there's a lot of different things here on this final section on this final plus hook but I'd like to focus here on something that the khavascript says and he brings some footnotes about it as well is talking about sometimes a person it seems like he's going he's undergoing difficulties because of the fact that he did good right you know we expect or we want when I do what's right so everything should just be good for me everything should just flow nobody should bother me I should be able to do what's right it should just should just go smoothly for me which is kind of what we just said the other my fortune but the khavascript says sometimes it happens that because I've done good I become a near-duff I become somebody that people chase I did what was right I chose the right path and yet people around me are upset at me or people around me are belittling me or people around me are chasing me trying to stop me from doing what's right first thing can be chased because of the fact that he did what's right what's good and what's right tells us an interesting thing he said every person it's decreed upon them that they're going to undergo and they're going to have to go through a certain amount of difficulties in their life they're gonna have to go through a certain amount of being chased by others being being belittled by others being mistreated by others the question is how do you want that to come in it is a better thing it's the best thing you're going to have these things these difficulties these challenges again people who are your enemies no matter what so it might as well be that you're doing what's right you're doing you're involved in good and kindness and that's the source of the challenges that you experience and not and and let it not come from other sources interestingly says this is the simple understanding of this verse said that my whole life the difficulties that I'm going to go through the challenge is going to have let them become because I'm doing that which is good and that which is right the kindness and the terror let it be that that's what people have a hard time with me because I'm an action I'm tough when it comes to doing what's wrong with doing what's good and he brings in the notes Here If I'm going to style because of Garrus perishtime the stipler brings this exponential to him in a safer credit second section 27th letter is a particular individual who is very active on behalf of Torah causes and he had tremendous hardships because of it it's just a and he quoted to this person who is having challenges this type of road to him he brought in the khabis Khan and he also brought the magistrate says that there's no such thing as a person that doesn't have challenges and difficulties it's so much better when a person the the challenges and difficulties come to him because of Torah for total reasons for Spiritual reasons the push-up shot is the symbol understanding is that when I learned Tire it's a hard thing it's a difficult thing there are challenges in learning Torah person has to crack their head on it so to speak person may not have the money that he needs because he's busy learning Tower because he's involved in spiritual Pursuits but beer but the Cyber explained this madrish Chicago that when difficulties come because of a person's evolvement in learning Torah fulfilling the Commandments as kaliers so then the very difficulties that a person goes through are tremendous Merit for the person because now the challenges and difficulties that I'm going through I'm going through them because of the honor of Hashem the honor of the Torah is person would abandon his service of Hashem his involvement in Torah learning his involvement in spiritual matters which it seems like they're causing him trouble the difficulties won't pass they won't go away it's still going to have those difficulties their names are part of you they're decreed upon him they're just difficulties with no purpose at least when he has the difficulties and it's coming because of the learning that he's doing because of his involvement in support of tourist Scholars or involvement in learning himself personally so then the challenge that he has a have a Direction they have a meaning but when they have when the person has those challenges and difficulties and it's not and it's not because of the Torah learning that he's doing so then it has minimal purpose it has minimal meaningfulness to him there's a second note and he says here see over there his life in his Works page 464. see that it says over there a certain story about a particular Jew London there's a particular tune in the room pencils Landau he was from London asking he was a very uh distinguished person who was involved in helping out that siber helping out the community helping out people sitting and learning and his business wasn't doing well I mean he basically told her I love him his family said look you know why this is happening it's because you're so involved in circuit we're in the community's needs your your uh you're being lacks in your attention to our business so Sammy said to him please you must be stop being so involved in the communal affairs he didn't like this idea so he decided to go to Vina and he wanted to speak to there was some kind of gathering of great rabbis Hollow necklace he reaches the particular location was staying at the at the Grand Central Schreiber they show us through this it was shot it was Shabbos but the third meals and the house was filled with people finished saying his killer died which is actually our mesmerald right that we were discussing here so he started to explain the words of the mummer that he just read us and he said this word he said that it's the best thing if the troubles come upon a person because of his involvement in communal matters in in Torah matters and spiritual matters the difficulty is going to come upon him anyway s Landau from London heard the story when he heard what was saying this was exactly directed to what he needed to hear this this London Jew was shaken because he heard the answer to his question without even asking you about it so it's incredible thing is teaching us and telling us that we have options of how we receive the challenges in our life King David that the challenges that come upon us that no matter what we're going to have to experience let them come upon us because of our involvement in spiritual matters thank you so much for listening we'll see you again next time