Binah -- the Journey from the Intangible to the Concrete

the yeshiva dotnet so we will continue inside Vaser she um we are on page 22 the minor love and Marsha coast of Baja Gouda on top it says South the line begins holy Hannah vitinho gorilla four five six seven eight nine ten eleven around 16 or 15 lines from the bottom the one starts holy another tiny little it's a second column 22 a you'd a love column for that's easier for you you'd olive column for so the definition of yom tov is my sevilla Karaca bias emma Bonhams mecca hallelu KO mushy via Karaca bias did Amara knockin coffee at Castleman bay a co philosophical fetus says who the zoo Hedorah bakery bottom like the weasel that lives in that carries a bias in the subterranean layers of the home underground hidden away trying to protect itself from all its various predators and it hides their bakery bottom that's a Karaca bias mushy viet comes back and as the talmud of the Ramban in Shushan so this explains that that represents the idea of the malkos the divine energy which is at least from a revealed point of view detached from its source and it comes down all the way manifested and eclipsed by the various shells and husks of life when it comes back it reunites with its source the hollow connects with the ELA from this joy the joy emerges and the metaphor the kazama shouldn't say the metaphor the example the muscled example he gave is the neshamah nelem haba within a shaman ella mama is described as being in a state of tremendous ty nuk nan in missive arena as hazael put it they enjoy they feel the delight and the pleasure from the array of the scheana and explain what that means is that when the soul is here it often on to a certain degree there is a certain separation a certain separateness a certain detachment when the Olo returns to its ela and there is complete oneness so then there's Henault vitinho mifflin is extraordinary pleasure and the light Wiles NMR and this it says that this deposit says muhawwil i have i yesh the expression comes from a PASOK and Michelin proverbs in chapter 8 but the Dormition and the last missioner of she she's in remission enoksen says that a sadhaka - Miroku memory we shall burn levy a sadhaka - morocco a handful were called Sadiq wit Sadiq shy illumise slush may is visera illumise sham will bequeath every righteous person 310 worlds Shalimar Mahan hill I have I yesh to bequeath to give over to my beloved my beloved ones my friends I avoid those who I love those who love me yesh the H means something the mission attaches at the asia's she knew at 310 worlds but that's deposit that's used by the Casal to describe the gift of elam Holohan kalayavana sh so here the ballot anya reveals what's behind the word the Ashla hongjila of a yesh since hours NMR Lahan collaboration is gala in in safe perkiness yesh that the owner of the in safe is revealed in a state of yesh what are we mean yesh as something yesh means something Leo's house uh goatfish Solana Shama Leo's nanny miss Eva oil on his buyer lab so that there could be some ha sucker some comprehensions I'm grasping by the soul to be able to enjoy to be able to experience the radiance of the zip of the gradients of the skin of the owner of the energy of the insert the hi new shisha sugreeva Havana a Piazza my fellow lower god--all there was an understanding there was a comprehension and appreciation where I was where I am how she departed from the place of a fail of darkness to a place of our God light great light and that's what is behind the joy this joy that he's been describing the joy that's represented by Yom Tov there's always from the fact that the of the child which has been born which emerged which has comes from the ELA from its ultimate source its antecedent its progenitor has been distant has been separated in the initial the divine energy goes through the whole form an order of a stall Shoeless one level to another level to another level where it often becomes distant and eclipsed and when the owl comes back when the ala Liz mascara Eve when it comes close to the ELA and its Masek it has some awareness and comprehension of its of its ela he says but to hear simcha God Ilah this generates it results in a tremendous sense of of joy like the metaphor that he speaks of and we spoke about the child the prince who was in captivity and then is allowed to come see Eve and see never mind reunite doesn't even say he reunite even just see to be able to see that source to be able to appreciate it to be able to comprehend it on some level he says that's the simplest hoggle Allah wills of course like the child the sins of the all of the joy of the Bigelow's Nicholas Allah Allah Allah when it experiences the other the light of the ELA instead of being so far and distant and eclipsed because there was a ghillie and there was a ghillie the one that it could comprehend it can comprehend the process I think I'm breanne where I was where I am as he says my fellow lawyer goggle Mayville the yom tov machine but level which is of course often the text of the Haggadah the end of the brakesh are Galano before we drink the second cup of wine and that's the guila we generally connected to yum turf thereby cv icarus abayas and then the example for that is alum ha ha with a neshama which is the allah was ultimately reunited and therefore there's nothing obstructing the relationship between the ELA and the Olo and the tying of the the pleasure the joy that that creates the simcha that that creates the Honora that creates as he puts it at Taha know of a kind of an influence a tremendous experience of of joy and ecstasy because you have become one with your true core with your true self with your true source with your true origin and that's the source of real simcha there's this fake simcha is real simcha and real simcha is oneness harmony then when there's the unity the alignment between the parts of self and you're truly one we're truly one with yourself not that other people not that other people agree with you but that you agree with you that's not so easy other people agree with you could be exactly the opposite sometimes they agree with you because you're distant from yourself but for you to agree with you for the elbow to agree with the II look for the oil to agree with the ill effects what some tears but Lahani Loya have i yes and the fascinating term here is yesh for the ain't safe to be able to be experienced by the ELA it has to be able to relate to its vessels to its identity as he puts in to be able to be a ha sucker should be able to be at visa if I comprehend it I am connected to it that's what it means I'm connected to it I'm aware of it I comprehend it it speaks to me it's connected to me for that it must be contained it must be expressed in a state that we call the ash what do we mean yeah she's explaining her specialist is yet me yesh one yes from another yesh it must be expressed and manifested in a state of yesh meaning a state that is something something I could comprehend something I could relate to if not there will not be this sense of simcha the owl needs to appreciate the ELA then the some asked to understand something from the ain't safe if I can't understand anything if I can't relate to anything there won't be a sense of Simkin won't be a sense of I'm United with it it has to be something that can relate to the eye that the owl feels its own source its own truth its own core it feels this is my this is me what makes it me makes it me is this is how I can define my I this is where I find my eye this is where I encounter myself so it's always called la Hansel I have a yesh the day in surf is manifested in a state of yesh in a way that there could be a hosaka and it's Vista for the neshamah for though this is the deeper meaning in the posit know her we know her Yahoo beret girl some nice mature boy in tehilim in capital sama Hass as he put brings in the Maruyama climbers dove it up my luck sings and he says Ben nor her Yahoo Ruby regal through the river they passed on the Reg L on the yom tov on the holiday some vir miss macabre miss muscle boy we shall rejoice in him i'll people shot he's referring to curious yam so they passed through the river Benari avenue Bilad al-sham miss muscle boy and there we droid with Joyce Oz yashamaru chauvinist rock which happened on the seventh day of but there is also here a description of what's in case some shall miss mokuba what's the shamless for somebody's like before that you can't rejoice says Peters but no or hi HC me Aiden show Rubin who Holly a butthole regulation regala governor malakas amélie talking about pace he's talking about Gregor true pacer has recently regala as the Mishna says Richard Shana the beginning of the regala Nissen is the first month according to many calculations written Liholiho Shoshanna so station is the first of the Yemen - but this is Dalia it's in the nor in the river where is Dalia every regel we all grew you will you rise up - on every young - from the three festivities the three holidays pace of small circus with Shamu mockery simcha and over there Shum over there is the source of simcha aim huh Bonhams Mecca the mother is the one who rejoices he says we know her how ye say may Ada and partials bodacious and parshas voracious we have the story of the original Garden of Eden the GaN Eden how does it try to describe it when know her HC may a Damascus of Sargon hashem planted adam and having an Eden right ye Tasha Maliki Masada began Adan loved all the genre to work with it to protect it to preserve it then know her Yossi may aid in wash kisses egg on a river emerges from Eden Eden as we call it in English whatever that supposed to mean a river comes out from Aden to irrigate the garden who me show me a parade from there the river splits into four outlets of ohiolair bar Russian and you have the river of of ghee shine and peace shine and he deckle and Pross write the deck will be translated as the Tigris and press we translated as the Euphrates and peace shine we translate as the Nile Delta Rashi says it's denial decline is not cleared as different commentaries different and potential in here yeah yeah it's it's a it's not so clear what it is some associated with the am stuff so this is the literal shot like every post especially parish's veracious is multi-layered and multifaceted Aiden will soon see is the description for hokhmah no hard semi Aiden is the description for bina which is like a river that comes from a well the well is a drops very weak flow underground and the river expands it and the well irrigates the river the river comes into the gun that's what the gun gun aid in the original gun Aidan gets irrigated from it gets it's it's productive powers from its creative powers from the NA and then from there the nora splits this is a metaphor for bina nor as we will explain soon nor is the river that comes from Aiden like bina which comes from karma bernard the avenue be regal every um tooth we encounter the nora we have the ability to encounter the north to enter into the river of bina shamaness maha boy and from there comes the simcha when the allah understands in a state of bina the illa when there's a an appreciation and understanding ah ha saga which has been an aim huh Bonham the mother of the children children is the metaphor for mythos for their motions the mother of the children is the metaphor for bina the father is cosmo will soon get to the father this is Emma that's why that result told us he said ever they're getting on the Miami that yom tov is the guilty of my fin de mer right the mind of the mother what does this mean it means that I jumped if there's the ability there's a deeper intense empowerment for the experience of a mob onon the mother of the children to be able to comprehend to understand to appreciate this source the ELA in other words you can go into the place of the narbon or uber Eagle he says every regulars now lil the penis NAR you go up to the state of nor shop misma supply from their cumson when the UH load grasps the ELA when the other appreciates the illa even on a level of understanding deeper and deeper of course in understanding itself there's deeper and deeper and deeper sharpness mckubre that's where the similar comes from we call zelma penis motion de Mer this is all a manifestation of what we call my friend Deema the state of consciousness or the mind of the mother which is vena which is Olam haba which is granadan alien which is give Luton Agana Shambala fearsome Casa which is the revelation of the tiny organism is over there then a Shamas experience that's what Gilly means Gilly means revealed revealed here means it's experienced an autonomous experience the pleasure Lafayette Sargassum based on their comprehension and experience begins with vena because what's the definition of Vina Vina like we spoke many times Vina takes a seminal spark a seminal idea a seminal epiphany and develops it and makes it comprehensible people have ideas all the time epiphanies they call them right like a lightning goes off in your brain they call it a lightbulb moment what do they call it da ha like when it's pitch dark and there's a lightning and suddenly the entire environment is bright but for a fleeting moment and then it's pitch dark again the lightening leaves that's the metaphor called Baraka maverick about Latanya uses that metaphor for hockey Mubarak I'm a vet our blitz a Blitzen Cup a lightning in the headlight any moment it's brilliant it's very powerful I need not explain the levels of electricity voltage in a lightning it's it's beyond the what one can imagine the electricity of that that's also part of the metaphor of hakama and there's a certain clarity but it's fleeting it's not something you can hold on to you see somebody having have an idea what I don't know don't bother me now but I have an idea I'm not lying because if you bother me now we're gonna be left with nothing I need the time I need to internalize it in some ways that's the idea of the of the seed the sperm of life the tip of the Father it shoots like the gumar is russian is eureka hates like a light and shoots out like an arrow but it has no substance it has a lot of substance but it's all in a state of potentiality it's the movement it's the mother it's the aim the spouse the wife that can take it and they've conceived it and reunited within the organism that I shall create it the power of femininity to be able to do something with it Venus birth mother yeah Venus Emma Bonham a my Bonhams Micah to take that seed of life and to develop it into an embryo and then the embryo slowly develops over nine months you have a full-fledged fetus and our child could be born a maja Bonhams maker but without that stage without the state of be know what happens to Cosima it's too elusive it's too intangible it's too abstract it's too transcendent bina concretize --is the idea now it's not just I hadn't had an epiphany I have an idea I can make a presentation sometimes people communicate on a level of Hoffmann nobody knows what they're talking about right we spoke yesterday about leadership of a mouth house it's also associated with femininity one of the key elements is communication communication requires beena because it requires always that the princess mouth goes has been the Binion of malthus's from guru from being at the left side Kozma is the right column being as the left column the right column is always introvert and extrovert the left column is introverted the right column is a spacious expansive and the left column is symptom filter restriction veena has to make something out of the hakama it has to congeal it it has to turn it into a structure now that's painful who wants structures but without that you can't talk about it you can't write it down you can't do anything with it the transition from Cosmo to Boehner is the transition that he's going to call the transition from INTs custom is still a state of iron it's still very close to iron which means nothingness doesn't mean it's nothing it means it's too much when we see this when something is too much it's called iron you can stand yeah the app is that iron cuz it's nothing it's too much it's too infinite to to Seminole is too abstract it's too intense it's not filtered it's not in a state of yesh therefore I can't get it because the calum the vessels of my I won't grasp it so the iron now has to transition into a place of yesh concretization structure limit a beginning a middle and an end hakama is the raw material bina turns it into a structure there's a foundation there's a first floor whenever whatever you want to communicate successfully in any field in any field in yani kaduche will have no business whatever one of the key components and often people don't understand this is if you want people to really get it you must have structure structure is a critical component you sometimes will hear people get up to speak in any form or fashion whether it's a sheer level other things but there's no structure the beginning they're in one place then they reminded themselves with their grandmother taught them so there's somewhere else then they remind themselves something else and the beginning the middle and the end are disjointed and and there's a certain disappointment is that there's something off here what's what's missing what's missing is there's no Binion an architect you need a but there's an architect of physical structures there's an architect of spiritual structures you also need architecture you don't not anybody could put up a building the safety it's serious says that Ivana Marat seus stones are letter right stay Ivana masseur is the lotion stay Ivana on H Evan is an ice you put rocks together and you build a word you put words together right and you build a sentence and then you build a paragraph and you build a chapter and then you build many chapters and then you build your book that's in writing the same is true in speaking and communication it's always a Binion that's what it says the Cepheid Sara speaking is a form of building now you know you need an architect to plan it and everything has to fit with each other and if something is extra doesn't belong in the building take it out of the house take it out of that then of course you need a contractor the contractor has to know what the architect did and understand it so sometimes when you'll see in a communication a lot you know a person gets up you bring in some rocks but they're disjointed so what happens there's no home there's no creation there's no structure what's the what's the uniqueness when you read an exceptional writer he uses the same alphabet that everybody else uses the same a and B and C and D and E and F and she doesn't have new letters he doesn't have new Isis that other people don't have it's all about the pauses and the configuration of the letters I can use the same letters to speak foul language I could use the same letters to speak stupidity and I could use the same letters and I turn it into eloquent dazzling brilliance exactly the letters that are Shama yeah I mean sometimes a word is just it's just it's just coarse but you did those same letters very safe letters you're not doing much but you're doing a lot why the structure is different and just in parentheses it's not the topic of this year the ballot I knew once explained and explains the idea of good and evil that way and it's very very powerful all good and evil in the world everything comes from a sham how can they be evil the answer is if the letters are misplaced and when the letters are misplaced it's a completely different message like we learned about our in again agra from the Myron I am organic also from Soviet Syria right the letters are misplaced and when the letters are misplaced the energy is misplaced which means the main avoider of a person in history is to be an editor-in-chief that's the void of life yeah everybody is a cosmic editor you're an editor we're given the same letters now your job is to edit of course of the letters energy you want another chicken or the egg the oil is the girl I guess both so every person is an editor now I grew up in the home of a journalist so this is what we ate for breakfast and for lunch and for dinner my father would sit with articles this was typewriter days write and edit just edit what's the definition of an editor you look at an article right you see if there's no potential here there's no potential gotta go to the dustbin but if this potential you see an article you don't say oh my god this is the worst thing how can you put this sentence here changes that's what an editor does you change it so in life were given certain articles don't get affected don't get overwhelmed you got to change the letters yeah this gotta go there there's got to go there it used to be with typewriters you have to retype it and you have to use whiteout then it was a Shrek today cut and paste copy and paste to hold the formats off' why because you always need the Binion you always need a structure right like somebody once told me about speaking he says get up tell them what you want to tell them tell them tell them what you told them and sit down if it doesn't fit into those three scratch it out out tell them what you want to tell them then tell them then tell them what you told them and sit down and you can you can you can you can um this is just parentheses but it's it's it's getting good advice whenever you're making a presentation at work or anywhere else structure structure structure beginning the middle and the end has to come full circle if it's not coming full circle out if it sticks out yeah I mean I'm sensitive to these things because this is what i'ma it's a lot a big part of my life when I hear people communicate it's like a person a contractor comes into a house and starts getting headaches because this was placed for only this doesn't belong here this doesn't take that out this pipe is destroying the house so those I hear people making a presentation right and I'm like wrong pipe wrong place you just ruin your house you ruin your house does not belong there either doesn't belong there but cloud or that should have been before that should have been then I'm just personally a little bit of allergic to this but this that's fine you have to edit yourself every good writer edits themselves many many times anybody who writes you're right and then you throw it into the garbage and you do a new one that's a yeah if you listen some people have a tremendous gift for Kakuma their flow is endless and they need an editor who's going to be brutal and you know that editors and writers often have a lot of issues with each other because the writer thinks that every word was priceless the editor says I have a thousand words I have placed for a thousand words you wrote an article of seven thousand words so now he has to cut out six thousand words and the writers will never forgive them yeah yeah I can't say always but editing is connected very much to beena it's also connected to right-brain left-brain hakama is intuitive ah yeah I was smart and and and women are usually the editors of their husbands now in life you come home with an idea she's like yeah yeah yeah yeah I mean basically I think many wives are editors of their husbands right editor-in-chief yeah Billy you say de yeah that's so the ballot Anja will explain Billy you say Anisha there's a gift the Isha aim upon him as a gift in dinner and being as always detailed oriented doesn't mean no men have this gift doesn't mean no women are the opposite like we spoke last time we're speaking here in general terms of masculine and a feminine I mean every man there's a woman in every woman there's a man in every man there's sometimes a strong woman and in some women this sometimes a strong man you know it's not always black and white is the gender difference so there's a man there's a woman but a healthy healthy masculine identity includes a feminine identity and conversely which is why they could connect if not they would be completely in two planets now they are in two planets but they would be in two universes at least it's one universe two planets without this would be two universes and two universes that we never meet each other you couldn't have the King concert violet we learnt in Caesarea about ish Masseria the mind marry issue must reach Majority Leader Snoke ever so this is what bina always has to do to Kozma contra ties it turn it from iron into yesh you will never be able to hold on to hakama try it it won't happen you'll have the the flash the light it's like holding on to a lightning when you're stranded I was once stranded in a desert in the middle of them it was that night that was pouring rain I never saw such darkness because the way we live today wherever you are it's not completely dark you know there's a lantern there's a light there's a night light something is dead there's a car there's a truck there's a hotel Epis but I was somewhere in cat in camp in Michigan with with some with them Kevin and some children and it was on a canoe trip so we were in the wilderness and it pitch dark and it was not just darkness it was like the Amish tradition you could you could touch the darkness we couldn't see anything we'd push you didn't know where to go and it was nighttime and it was he felt it was dangerous and somebody saw a beer over there in any case there was a series of eight lightnings one after another and I remember seeing it and thinking ah that's what all tournaments with o'clock this is it it was so light it was amazing and since there were eight ones after each other so it gave us the the time to be able actually to identify a house for able to identify what's in the house and it's a it saved the day or saved the night but could you hold on to it it fear it's powerful it's intense the voltage is extraordinary but it's gone it's fleeting it's fleeting and that's a good powerful metaphor for when karma happens it happens and it's powerful at that moment you see everything but it won't last for more than a few moments and then you're back in this place of darkness but once there was hokhmah you got a seed and now you can take that seed and work with it it's going to be tedious it's going to be sometimes boring and monotonous because karma has that excitement of newness but that's the only thing that allows it to develop into something real you know the man comes up with a great idea you know what this idea is let's have a child really how long does that take and then nine months nine months there's somebody who has to deal with your idea ah and there's the pain there's the pain of development and pregnancy and then birth and all that and what has to one has to appreciate that which is why Jewish identity is based on the mother because the one who really sacrificed herself for the birth of this person is is is the woman and the man made a contribution a very important contribution he wrote a check and we don't underestimate that check it's called a seed and then hopefully he'll write more checks in the future but there's a contribution and there's somebody who's whose entire life becomes defined by it but here we're talking about this in the CUDA of taking hoffman turning it into bina so the marshal for this is the Mayan and the NAR what's the difference between the wellspring and the NAR the river the wellspring is underground and when you encounter a wellspring you will usually see you will usually see a very very weak flow it's like a trickle some Wells it's just a trickle of what it doesn't stop it's called mayim chayim but it's a small trickle it's underground it's buried but that Mayan feeds naharis wells Springs feed rivers rivers are large expansive they're not my entire many more how logically there's two types of mikvahs there's Mayan Shyam living water which means when you dip in a well well spring which is always connected to its source and then there is a pool of water a body of water even if it's natural water its rainwater which is natural and it's kosher from eco but there's a few towers is a few forms of cleansing that require only maíam kaya in that's the difference of man being Abena isn't nor it's beautiful you know when you come to the river nobody takes pictures by wells if you noticed cuz you're gonna get very dirty you have to go into the racks and go down a climb pictures you go canoeing and you go on a boat then you stand by the river it's beautiful it's very appealing it's very impressive it's structured it's nice it's big Isaiah Shane rivers are beautiful and they many of them come from natural water either the rainwater or the Wellsprings that feed into the river but the river often may be detached from the maíam times not am i am hyatt and that's the difference between bambina and comets the source itself because it's the source itself coming into you like the lightning therefore it's fleeting because how could it not be fleeting in hokhmah somebody says I have an idea said that wrong you don't have an idea the idea has you that's hakama I don't have an idea the idea got me the idea captured me I wasn't there you'll see in a moment of an epiphany you lose yourself consciousness if you would have been self-conscious you would have not had that insight the insight came only because of a moment of bitl you'll see whenever you have our new insight that comes into your head you were not thinking about anything outside of that idea you were completely subsumed and submerged in that space and because you were open therefore it could come into you but it captures you you don't have it it has you bina is morphing that into a new place not the idea has me but I have the idea by definition from me to have the idea the idea has to be diluted because for me to have the idea it has to enter into my cup and my cup is only eight ounces if it's only eight ounces what happens the Mayan has to translate into an or fixed shape molded a structure a beautiful structure it's a river but it's not the wellspring Benari Avenue bodega on Yom Tov is Dahlia to the north Sabina that's where we say hallo what's hallo a ma Bonham Smith moysha via Kara semis when the all will comes back to the ELA how can the all will come back to the eel in our world in Olam haba the nashumba leaves the body i understand the neshamah leaves the body it goes from the gosh me to the ruining and their summer is very happy what does it mean in our world that means this house saga when the auto has beena when there's a Vina when there's a real house organ when there's a real understanding every person according to his or her capacity but there's an understanding of the ELA there's an awareness of the ELA but he essentially ila the oil erupts in joy lejana hill i have i yes I'll um hobbies define sdh there's a hugger the iron translated in th and that's why you could comprehend it there could be at fits in the caballos that's to be shot that Yom Tov is the Gili of moisten the EEMA the mother what's the mother the mother is bina the character of bina is fully functioning that what that did the divine energy earning safe allows itself Hashem a vehicle reveals himself in a state of bina so that the mother rejoices with the awareness of the of the ELA rather than the mother being a Karass bias like a holder like a weasel who's weaselly what you say weaseling around the EK Hobbiton world will soon see Shabbos yet Hyundai asan diminutive moment before Shabbos what's the difference of the weasel down there and why do we call it from ups a whole debate about them the whole does the quality I looked up the Shushan scientist yesterday it said it's not a safer it doesn't even say a name on it they're all digital he's all retinas are safer cultural moral car is all and over there he meant use it and he says it was written by a town with harem bond so they we don't write under the name they just write that reason I'll write that it was written by the Talmud Rambam that's why when the ballot Anya says it he doesn't say a name we just says Talmud her bond doesn't give a name shoosh inside this but it's a Coppola safe very rare I found it a night Eric Hosmer was printed car courage tough Kaufman Dalit which is just a few years before this man was set off go from Dalit would be 1784 in Koretz where there was a printing press and so it's very old letters so the shells over the attack a little piece and he says that the holder goes down Malthus is Miss La Biche biiian saw him Malthus is manifested in the Clippers and then it goes back up that's what the Gemara means holder haddad a big career bottom now what's what's the meaning of this the meaning of this is as he puts it weasels like rats and mines they're always hiding you know they're always hide a they create their their what are they called their their dens yeah their dens in places like all animals and all birds and all Ronin they're very very sensitive to the fact that there are predators who want to cop them the hold especially is very sophisticated I mean I think that's what he means is extremely sophisticated in the fact that it has to hide out and we have an Sock'em interestingly the metaphor for that creature who's looking for the bread and hiding it somewhere is the weasel which is why they can mark the mission of thought that because comets should have to be done by everybody at the same time because if I do my biggest comments before your dick has comments right it's very possible that the weasel went to your comments and then brought it to my house and now I have to do a new political comments and the only reason the Mishna says we don't worry about that it's cause aim with oversight because basically you could close down the whole place of experience because then you could also say from town to town and then from city to city and then could be from Los Angeles to New York also so so every June the whole world internationally you know the whole does get around pretty fast these days they they hitchhike and they have no problems they hitchhike with everybody and everything and therefore England over so if mk9 with oversight my cuts will cut Samir England over safe but the hold is always hiding out its food for a time of crisis and it's it's it's basically extremely it conceals itself and that's why it builds all these things being a bottom it's not gonna do it on the open and the open because of predators and most importantly they don't want you to share their food with them right they don't know that we sometimes have a different taste we can understand this very much in human life you know I think there's an expression in English a weasel right to represent something but sometimes you have a person whenever the Allah is not one with the ELA you're always in hiding you're in hiding because you don't know who you are whenever you don't know who you are you have to hide you have to ID from yourself and you have to hide more from others there's a certain element of a holder Hedorah betray bottom a person who's really can't be fully fully present because they may be ashamed they may be trying to impress others so they can't come out in their full glory because the all and the île are not connected when the owl comes back to the ELA this instead of being a holder bakery bottom the person can emerge as an a mob on America the greatest one of the greater gifts of life is when you know who you really are and you embrace it and you embrace it fully and you embrace it with ease and with serenity you don't have to weasel your way around in life and you know today with this one and today with that one and outsmart this one there's a certain wholesomeness there's a certain once in a while you'll meet somebody and you'll see on their face I'm a new class a nephesh that is deep in that's inner it's inner serenity I'm not talking about our outer us through an analyst surrender you have to wait for after 120 years you know life could be stressful but I'm talking about inner serenity inner serenity comes I know exactly who I am and I also know who I'm not and I don't try to copy anybody I don't try to copy anybody there's an expression from the rabbit I shop the fifth Lubavitch Rebbe says in the city says opening me a real person a coconut stuff diva sign in nudity Cuvier I cooked I finished off diverse and in hysteria he doesn't look at people who are lower them yes doesn't look at people who are higher than he's done you have to know who you really are you could learn from everybody a hakama lemon pickle of them you could learn and be inspired by everybody but I can't copy anybody else I can't if I have to be authentic I could learn after challenge myself stimulate myself learn from an example of others apply to apply it to my life always we should learn from everybody and you could learn from everybody but I can't copy anybody I can't copy anybody and I can't stay in hiding life is too short to live in hiding places people live in hiding places and then they peek out right so you become like a holder they become like a rat hiding your food but don't stay in hiding places what does Hashem say it was in him/her aeneas Moriah Hashmi Nia Skyler Cocola ra-vu myrish Nava how does he begin you're a Nazi but hug via celibacy Salma draga the Dove beautiful dove lives in the clefts of Iraq it's hiding Caesar Aeneas Moriah show me your face as me near Scylla call a RA America Nova this was written before Cowboys before the in let me hear your voice let me see your face your voice is sweet a person lives in hiding why you're hiding I'm lying because I'm embarrassed for myself what are they gonna say what are they gonna think today I dare kappa AI Calif what does eylem do what he's supposed to do now right so the Hadean es man i show me your face rush mania scurrilous don't stay over there under the ground emerged but the only way I can emerge is if I Know Who I am so that's the yeah so that's the great gift of the auto coming back to the illa yeah that's the gift of yom tov that's the gift of yom tov now because of this you know Rashi says that the definition of on a show me you say it says on Shabbos and asami you say right an extra neshama so what does it mean surah she says you can eat more you can eat more you could see people on shoppers they can eat more it's like there's almost like the body grows the consciousness grows the brain grows the soul grows you can eat more but I'll convey if that's weird in a zombie to say that begins and ends yeah in other words on onion if there's a certain energy you can tune into dr. Deborah says what is that energy that the owl could comprehend de L'Amour that the neshamah can experience more than a knife but because there's a certain energy so a person could use it for a lot a lot of things but it's young tip they have to understand what what what it what it what it's meant for what the calling is what the unique opportunity is it could be squandered for superficial things it could be utilized for authentic for authentic causes I've almost in the ABBA how do you bring the old back to the ill on yom tov this is a kid deshyla he says the miner seems to imply something so serene and beautiful the pace of the sauce and overwhelming so if someone wants to know what this means practically what is he supposed to do on yet this jumped of different yeah if you should make a set extra kugel that's wasting the energy that's the first question of the managed on the first question mohnish Donna Lila's Amicalola Alice Tati is not only its Tati how do we make this night different than every other night so this is every other night I'm sitting with my cell phone and tonight I'm without my fault I mean there seems to be an energy even happens it's a genuine simple right yeah how do you tap in what'swhat's the exercise to tap into this energy ah you have an answer you wanna answer I'll say one who could that I think is practical I don't think that's all of it but I think it's one point that can maybe be useful I spoke about structuring so it's a little hard to structure this idea but however it comes out it comes out if we if we appreciate this idea the polybius what we're really saying is that the ole ole shouldn't be separated from the ELA it should never be him it is because our reality looks at it that way but the all is never separated from the ELA if specialist is not a real distance her stylist there's a perceived difference that's what all the starless is a stylist is that Hashem allows the energy to emerge in a way where man's mind can distort it where Malthus could become the fuel of a whole Hedorah be a career bottom so my Sharia Karaca bias a mob on America means when we say alia some all hostesses young toughest alia Somali coast all his lotion hair was made in the collection with dinar what does he say that Bernard who halia bacala raja ali of every necklace Dalia to the NAR that's what Ali O'Leary go means right you go up to the NAR so it doesn't mean physically I mean Tommy the victors they physically did a Lily regal - but the concept is it's it's a movement in the soul it's a movement in the soul Thalia some alko's it's a it's a concept of perception it's an issue of awareness alia some alko's means redefining who you are and where you are that's what Ali of young toughest so what this means is that much and as he puts it there it's house ugh it's about awareness it's about comprehension so it's not like okay um Toph comes so let me start doing certain things or not do with doing certain things to experience it that's not what it means maybe you can also mean that but I think what it means first and foremost is a perpetual awareness on yom tov that wherever I am the Allah is connected with the illa wherever I am in life and whatever reality I'm facing in life the Olo is appreciating the illa the all is connected it's united with the illa which means the person with the in safe yeah so you sit down let us say the table or at a young Tov meal right well you go to shul on yom tov or you come home on yom tov whatever you do and yump if you have guests on yom tov you sit with your children with your wife a family with friends relatives are come whatever it is whatever the format is before the meal after the meal before they say that after they said but it's a common denominator in all of you under what does it mean my Adela simcha motherless simcha means that wherever I am wherever I am in life is in the best place it's in the best place because I'm one I'm one with the source and and the person I'm facing I'm facing from that place from that place what happens the greatest impediment for synthesis disappointments and expectations that are unrealized yeah practically people come to their say they they prepared already they've been reading 4050 huh godless over the last month they have like 300 tightest in their head that they're gonna be sharing with the family who's gonna be enthusiastically inspired by their brilliance right Yankee cottage the Kaddish I don't wanna illness okay sorry ulcer I don't wanna and now is it really a fight going on yeah he took his better this spilling of the wine yeah and you're like trying to save us some safe and avoid from the brisker God avoids from the excuse north from the moon catch our God avoid from there I got the Janna God move us van right and people but it's my people frustrated they're angry this whole say there's not turning out there's well this whole pace of who's rude but it's my anus is [Music] disintegrated then he's not sure about as I feel espresso now he mama she has a heart attack the whole Eva holy you get the picture right so here's how to do it the way to do it is to remember that in the could of pace of his regatta to live in huh to speak to your child wherever your child is just to connect the moment I have expectations I'm not connecting to my child I'm connecting to my ego even if it's a spiritual ego connecting to my child means connecting to my child not connecting to who I think my child is or who I would like him to be by connecting to your child you can help him become who he should really become huh but not by not connecting some pay stuff you could trust him that there's a special energy in the world that allows a person to be in this place the point of young Toph is to continue a whole life the point is not to be Basim conn-young after we become miserable if you were really Basim conn-young if you're gonna be with tsimko whole year but the concept of younger there's a special or a special opportunity a special class in the world wherever you are you're sitting at the table whatever is happening is exactly where God is you don't have to recreate a world that's where it is it's great that's where it is it's only perception if you comprehend the ELA who are you living in the like a weasel but you care about them trying to weasel your way out if you realize this is the place of grandeur this is the place of unity from right here right now I'm going to connect because everything is the way it's exactly supposed to be and you can accept it and you can embrace it and you can celebrate it and sometimes that means talking about something very real sometimes it means identifying something very broken but that's also with it Allah is the Allah is not only in in endless grandeur sometimes it's in a very honest conversation maybe sometimes you know telling myself you know I'm really not feeling any it's Pesach and I'm not feeling anything yeah that's probably the best conversation for quite a few people to have it's their greatest mantra say no if they could give themselves permission to find God where they are and not where somebody told them they're supposed to be I want to know how many people sit down by the say they're an experience absolutely nothing besides a migraine and a lot of stress and just want to get this over with and our wondering who came up with this religion who came up with this religion tell me and what's the point and couldn't we celebrate our liberation in that different way a little bit that's nerd sir that's nerds yeah nerd sir that's newts now this is not about not challenging yourself it's about challenge it's about growth from where you are not growth in some world that doesn't exist that's what it means the ole could come back to the eland ole come back til there's enough to go anywhere wherever you are that's exactly the nana minutes with the Ziva she knows it's all about awareness can i comprehend it the reason i can't comprehend it is because i create expectations of what a relationship looks like maybe a relationship looks like exactly what it looks like including the fact that i could say you know a part of me is very very stressed a part of me is very very overwhelmed a part of me feels broken of part of me feels angry a part of me feels desperate the part of me feels anxious i don't think you should tell this to your children huh a part of me feels afraid thank you and then and for me this and this is where i'm gonna connect and you know what will happen you'll have a real yom tov you'll see and a whole yom tov is this what you come to shul you come to davon dr. Schurman say i learned to look good to Toyota that it's a you can tell him he also learned to code to Tyler I learned this the color code of a Shana can wear shiny commander the really Kim Hyon I learned that on Yom Tov it is the the OL could be massing the a lab in Nora Avril be regular shamanism acaba yeah that's where I want to be and that's where I'm gonna be and every conversation that you have on young turf should be from that place you don't leave that place I am now in my most wholesome place the most wholesome reality that there is what what a wholesome reality looks like we have expectations that's why we say I know I'm in a miserable reality this house is crazy everybody has a beautiful say that besides me why kept my family got it together we're the only family who can't get it together really go to some other dark couple ones came to me they were having some sullen bias issues so so the husband says you know last night we were at a Bar Mitzvah and there was this couple there at the schmucker's board whatever and they were so happy you know we were looking at them why can't we be that way she just didn't know that they came earlier earlier you compare yourself to others door him and other people and last year was better and in it what are you saying you basically you saying is that God is not here that's basically what you're saying that your view somewhere buried in the now lock your your holder I'm a hold of Barry not hiding my comments of course he's right here this is where he is and if there's a disappointment and there's something frustrating and there's something that's frightening me that's part of where he is the the ill is there to the Allah doesn't run away from there and I could share that could share with myself I could share it with them I can give myself permission to be wherever I am because God is there we don't give ourselves that permission we're trying to create substitute realities in the name of kedusha but kedusha means that there's no substitute reality kedusha means that a night Malvado is quite all right here with this child with the wine spilled all over the table ah with its weight weight with which which ah the writer Matz's yeah just staying there and connecting but don't use this as an escape this is not about an escape oh it's chaos there just who cares about pacer it's the exact opposite it's not about escaping or apathy or indifference this is about full presence being really present I don't have to run away and you know what yeah cuz I'll don't stop saying that the that the kid is on this tiny loft and the children should have fall asleep why because people fall asleep if they wouldn't fall asleep they want to talk about it they fall asleep and sometimes it means buying frogs before Pesach and throwing frogs all over the place whatever throwing yeah I know people who buy all the ten Marcus I'm a life mashenka well you have real snake so you don't have to you don't have to buy huh you do the real snakes to all the frogs nah I mean I told you once the host with the body server and alcoholic and then they say that I told you once yeah what did about did you ever like about a seder you like the butter say there that he wasn't copying anybody he wasn't copying anybody he couldn't copy such a say that it was too dysfunctional he said god I don't know anything about this jumped if I stay garnished I know you redeemed us then do us a favor and redeem us again so that's the green I said and he drank all the four cups one after the other words the Gemara says I'm sorry yeah yeah you die in your sea they doubt what crisis layout so and some restrain them say even doubt choices but not that with choices in the order okay but how are we explaining how logically so that's that's the point you know of course sometimes you have a say that you could see a lot of Toyota and beautiful diverter and beautiful vert and insights Kolkata from sure the way right but but the point is we gotta tell Avenger wherever your child is speak to him and I should say you know whenever I go speak somewhere I always asked the organizers to tell me about the audience I have to know the audience first of all what language who they are what their background is if it's audiences who don't know the word moisture nabe know often I'm gonna get up it's not quoting sukham they don't know what the word moistures I have to say Moses so you always have to know your audience right the past success and it's the it's the only Mitzvah sesame Nutella on the night of pace of besides matzah and even with matzo there's a debate when it comes to the only thing that according to everybody is mama shman heart IRA the night of pacer is one mitzvah they got at 11:00 huh tell the story to your child ah so the I want to tell the story to my child but do you know who your audience is if you don't know who your audience is how can you tell them a story how do you tell this story what language do you know your audience for this you have to know who your child is if you don't know who your child is you don't know your audience can speak to your audience so you have to know who your child is where your child this then you could speak to your child you could relate to your child you could pass on the story that's what it says and how God that connected our Bob on them Debra Tyra you got to know your audience if I speak to the awesome like I speak to the Tom and I speak Jenny a daily show like I speak to their Usher and I speak to the Tom like I speak to the song come I don't know my audience they look at me and they're like okay Tati have a good day if you have all four present well you have all four present so let me tell you when you have all four present you have to find all four in yourself when you find all four in yourself then you could speak to all four present people don't mind children don't mind when you give somebody else attention as long as they felt that their space also received attention it needs if you could give me your soul even for a moment I don't mind if you give your soul to another person to another child on the contrary I appreciate it I'm not selfish appreciate I have a brother have a sister there's another child too the problem is not that there's four children the problem is that some of them could be ignored and it's not about expectations that's the whole point it's not the ELA being United with the Allah in simple English means it's not expectations expectations means you're not United you're looking for something else I wish the words I wish we could have had a different house a different family a different marriage and different say there yeah that's the opposite of awesome that drains all it basically means your life is a failure how happy can you be about that so you have to substitute it with all types of weird stuff to make yourself happy but what if you appreciate how much am I shot oh I made a love add mascara shoe this is where it is this is where all reality is this is where all truth is this is where all infinity is you are completely one with the source you don't have to run any way you could be fully present in this massive in this situation and even if this thing's bothering you that's also part of it you can acknowledge that too you don't have to run away from that either there's things bothering me okay there's something that's hurting there's something that's painful to something I have to deal with there's something I have to confront that's also part of the relationship it doesn't and it doesn't have to define me completely I can experience it's also part of the relationship but then I can choose my values I can choose where I want to be what I want to say how I want to connect at every single moment and they can say you know it's hard for me now now I'm feeling angry I'm feeling scared I'm feeling overwhelmed okay that's part of the ooo so that's part of big holiday that's part of the child I'm also a child the good energy comes in a lady's way to receive it is where your present due reverence happens recognized and also otherwise it's all a distraction yeah when you're fully present you allow the ain't safe to be in your house when you're running away from reality you're also running away from God that's what people don't realize you're running away from your gift wholly present a fully present doesn't mean there's nothing aggravating of course is gonna be things aggravating you know the whole wine just spilled on my matzo you know I worked on my qaeda for like 40 minutes right and then somebody and if I open up my box of matches and I can't find a whole matzah right committee gonna give them mama for some huh exactly that's it life that's that's when the Jews left mature I am there was no K a flag when four million Jews left mid-slam there was no chaos what do you think huh there was no cast party too shitty and Kailasa Brocken get out of there no so your house is worse the original pay sucks is giving you notes I cuss yeah so you have to define if your party you're not partying are you gonna be the scream you're gonna be the listener but ah I'm not trying to say you should try to make it as orderly and as beautiful and as organized as possible but life especially with children there's always full of surprises comes with a titin if you have a baby and the baby decides to start screaming for an hour and a half so what now there's no pace look anymore there's no pacer anymore it's pacer I was sitting with some time ago I was like a few beef I think two years ago before Pesach maybe three years ago sometime will go before Pesach there was a group of single moms who asked if they could meet me women who are either widows or divorced with children usually and they wanted a meet it was mostly divorced and some of them very difficult and challenging marriages and challenging divorces so we met before peso was like a few weeks before paisa it was in Brooklyn a lot of women came and I spoke they asked me to speak for a few minutes and then I took questions and answers you know I asked him to shave they want to ask questions and so forth so a woman shared the following she said that she has I think four children and her husband her ex-husband made up with her that they're gonna be they day so for your mum told him they switched off one holiday by the mother one by the father and for one particular pace of the pace of before they made up it was her turn take out the children so she was very excited she's gonna have for the whole yom tov and she cleaned the house and you know cleaning a house is cleaning a house she's not a rich woman she didn't hire help she cleaned herself she cleaned for three or four weeks and then she prepared for the Seder and she prepared everything for the Seder single-handedly and he was supposed to drop over the children two hours before Lexington and she had everything ready and the tables were set and the lettuce madammadam the high racism the wine with the matzo but the chicken with the fish Lebanon it's two hours before looks and then they're not arriving around the half an hour before looks and then he texts her and he says I'm sorry the children are not gonna be able to come for film turf and it was a few minutes before Lucinda so she tells me that she was just like in shock just in shock and it's jump TIFF is about to come in I mean she was so crushed she didn't even have the cuff to ask a neighbor or a friend in the neighborhood to go over for the Seder she was just so disoriented and she told me that she had the worst Seder in her life and she doesn't even know if it was a seder she sat herself crying half the time she did the Haggadah she said the manage time and she made kidneys she drank four cups she ate matzo Marsh she fell without God till the end she said the whole thing took her I don't know 45 minutes some people would be jealous probably and so she asked me how was she supposed to deal with this element with such a experience emotionally because Pesach is coming she's traumatized she's traumatized it was it was a very intense question what am I supposed to say I'll tell you what I told her inna hashem lee rd there's one element with your ex which is a bigger issue than Pesach I mean obviously this type of behavior is it's immoral it's it's it's obnoxious it's rude that's beyond rude that's it's abusive it's really abusive and then you have to be aware of that there was something wrong that was done even if there was a real issue it's like it's not how you do it that half an hour before lists it's beyond disgusting you know so obviously I crouched then invalidated that and you know you have to figure out how to deal with this that's that's one aspect but she said she knows that she said that she knows she wanted to hear about the pace of God the stayed there and all that so it just came into my mind literally as she was asked as she finished asking it came in tonight in the Hodge family oddly literally I never thought about it I thought about it but I was it was somewhere in my memory and it came to mind and I said I'll tell you something that I once saw and I asked myself the question years ago and then it's just stay there and now I remember it I grew up in the Crown Heights section of Brooklyn the lubavitcher rebbe it didn't have children he used to do the Seder by his father-in-law there ever I asked the previous LaBarbera but till he passed away when he passed away in 1950 Tasha knew it he did it with it by his mother-in-law his wife Rebbetzin Nahum and Deana they lived on the second floor of 770 Eastern Parkway that's wherever I ought to live and his wife lived there and he would do the Sager there with his mother-in-law and something the people who used to come then you know some Hasidim came and bokram came it was pretty packed small room but man his mother-in-law passed away in 1971 so from then he went to do the Seder with his wife and they would do it alone just he and his Rebbetzin in their home on President Street in Brooklyn the Rebbe his wife passed away in 1988 off Memphis the question is who would he do the Seder with Pesach Nadia always did it with her and there was no way they didn't have children or relatives so the night of that night of Pesach the night of pace of my father all of our Shalom would get matzah from the river for the Seder so I would go in with him sometimes there was a boy ari halberstram REO Burstyn was shot and killed on the Brooklyn Bridge remember in 1994 ah other time here before pacer re Halberstam was a kid then 1988 his father was a machinist she used to help the Rebbetzin in the house on President Street you know help with different tasks his name was Cassidy Albert on crime scene I dove it sons I Rosen a Nicole from the harbour storms near shall I am so I saw re a little cute kid 88 going over to the rabbit when he was giving his father mots and him matzah and says my mother asked if you could come over toss for the Seder they lived on Eastern Parkway my mother has to be come over the city so I rehearsed I mustered up I saw myself so their ever smiled and he was very gracious and he thinks please thank your mother for the invitation but I'll be here okay so the olam left they never had a secretary by groaner her by label groaner so he thought the appropriate thing would be that he would stay there for the seder you know and then he would calm and his wife would understand he's with the rabbit so her burger owner stayed in the room to prepare for the city never was in his room he wasn't didn't even now go he didn't even have a house the room his room his little room became his house because once his wife passed away his room became his house 770 his little room so there a bastion what are you doing here he says he thought he sent them out he sent them out so from that Pesach till the end of his life did ever did the Seder himself completely himself ah yeah 88 89 90 91 92 93 did I burn and I took it ever had a stroke but all those years he did it himself he would come out to the outside of 770 to greet you know fairly oh uh Navi whoever hung around hung around but that was it he did to say to himself and I thought to myself I'm coming this woman I thought then I thought to myself I was only out of I was 15 16 I was a young Booker I thought to myself dear Abner asked he even asked a chief rabbis of Israel rebellion Irish appear oh that they should do publics Dharam iñárritu sir all for people who don't have a family and he'll pay for it and they did it they're ever initiated publix Dharam probably in the hundreds maybe in the thousandth from Nepal to the Congo to Tokyo wherever it is Jews who don't have family they should have a place I mean every every Shabbat house around the world you're dealing with three four thousand places the public say that for fifty people a hundred people 20 people or in Nepal three thousand people he wanted everybody to have a place and it initiated around the whole world called this wing ASA vehicle and he himself they didn't have even one person at a seder not one person not one not a child not an adult not a friend not a family not a constant not one person but to say that and you know the Gemara says there should be somebody to ask questions if there's nobody do you ask yourself so I see Mary sad to me and fee everyone in the world as I say the homeless Jews find the place to go yeah even secular people they go to somebody and handle about whatever yeah not one person that I said literally there was a guy günzburg Shawn bygones Berg who would would who also wanted to stay they never said just leave everything and you go home and I'll take care of everything the food and everything he sent everybody away and I told this woman I four years I wondered about this I thought about it then and it stayed I had no answer and then I said now you tell me a story I think I know maybe I know and that is a real Monica's role a real leader of the Jewish people has to think about every single Jew not about certain types every single Jew the revenue perhaps that sometimes as a person who makes us say to themselves so there's nobody there there's literally nobody there and it's difficult then it's challenging they want the deaf children they want to have a family and there's nobody there you there Mon pletely yourself and they might feel that that say that was worthless valueless nothing Newt said what was there you sat yourself for hawked disappointed frustrated angry furious your whole life was taken away from you that's what you feel like this is a say that this is Montesano and perhaps a real Monica stroll needs to be able to experience that and be able to be there for you in that way and to be able to give a message you know I owe saddest ADA myself and trust me I told that Alabama should ever say there was a seder trust me God was had to say that trust me it was a say that trust me it was pasted on every say there's a Satan but trust me his say there was a say that himself but it stayed that was a saint and that empowers you your say there was a real Seder I don't know the greatest say that not the great maybe it was the greatest say the but it was a real Seder and and you should just know that don't question that don't question that even for a moment what that man did acid Latina sardine to you but your say there was a real Seder that's it that's what happened so I think it's all part of the same point you know okay yeah very it was very comforting for ah no it was in the Jewish Museum who was in the Jewish Museum in the in the Brooklyn Museum it's a good idea it's a good idea shikaka block like you said like the whole yeah the greater the greatest sin is that you feel you're disconnected and you can't be happy now and the God is not here and you're not in a horrible situation and the marriage isn't that dumped and the families and the dumps and there's no pay circle there's no stayed and the kids are not for them and they don't care about you - Kyle and they don't care about God and nobody cares in this and with that attitude there's no sim cell with that attitude I'm never experiencing young if I'm experiencing an imaginary that could have been would have been and yes of course we have disappointments and of course we may have made mistakes I may have made mistakes how I raised my family and I've made many mistakes in my marriage and I've made made mistakes in my life of course doesn't mean I didn't make mistakes I'm not saying that everything I did was perfect I'm saying but God is always here right now right now there's a ghillie ain't safe and the owl could come back to the illa that Ben could come out of Sevilla first mom when you were in Florida and some tough or some to his weren't how do you know that for the first smart about some toes first mom the gomorian brothers the first schmuck so yeah if I made a mistake I have to fix my mistake and I've have to apologize I apologize but that's the point in my mistake I could find a way to fix and I could find a way to apologize and I could find a way to do what I have to do right now and right now there's simcha right now there's simcha in the world a child has left captivity and the father and mother want to see him and that means me here right now this year top scientists not just somewhere in Galicia or in Poland or north away neo and I are hungry I have 300 years ago that's why when people tell story you know some people will tell stories the baal shem tov say then the devil it may look say the introduces lady say then they say them and the deltas i just say then this one say the wreck and and they're beautiful beautiful stories but the stories have to have one point one conclusion and that is and that's your say that too you're not that person and you're not doing the same miracles like them and you're not in there moderating you don't have their kedusha and you have a big it so harder than them that's all true but this is God is alive God as a wife and if God is alive and it's real it's real now it's not real in in Galicia and in Russia 150 250 years ago or in which I am 3,000 years ago and I just roll to 2500 years and having this also helps with you being able to apologize being able to recognize of course you grow from this this is where you grow for all your thing just done on on the on pace that we have that energy there's a special Guillory of it as it says that the the ego so you yeah but you always have to know your audience you don't know your audience how could you speak to them yeah you have to speak to your child wherever your child is you want to know where your charge should be and then you could connect but if you don't know your child is people I find people are so stressed from their say their because a guy tells me that he wanted yet so much tone and nobody was interested and he Fanny felt so been he's a good man he said I had so much beautiful toy that nobody was interested so instead he created a parallel said in his own mind that didn't materialize ah and it ruined them they grew in this place huh he was so upset he got over it I just spoke about it today so what happens is yeah of course you want to say turn and beautiful ventless and inspiring ideas and niggler citizen al-aqsa Muslim our struggle whatever the Derick Syrus but the most important thing is to to be there with with the people with Manuka with simcha and simcha means embracing embracing accepting the reality in a very deep place could be a city which is totally and the white mutton is boring since that same Seder for 100 years not by mine but I read that Rizzo says you should say the Haggadah with simcha with Mikhail Romm try to talk about a mitzrayim that you want to go out of and then it'll be meaningful won't be monotonous I was once at a seder and I asked them at the Seder if everybody could share one or two myths ryeom's that they have in their life things that really limit them and confine them and they want to know during the Haggadah you everybody could just 60 seconds describe if they feel comfortable of course none of you know if it's some dark secret they don't want to share it because there was a lot of people were like I don't know 20 people share like one or two confined things that confine them that really limit them determines ryeom and they feel enslaved by and they really would love to get the help from Hashem and from themselves to get out of it yeah and trust me was not a monotonous Seder it elevated it to a place of very deep honesty now when you have the four year-olds that you said I don't know if this is this is the way to go that's not you know where they may be brutally honest but but I wonder I wonder if a father or mother get up and tell their children you know this is a mature on that I'm struggling with and you know of obviously it has to be things that are appropriate children children don't have to know always about every struggle than every parent parent has very good I'm trying to get rid of you right but but these types of conversations again age-appropriate I'm not I'm not giving you a rule what just say they should look like that's the point we gather to live in huh the point is this it's not it's not this there's no strict system what you say what you don't say but it's about connecting but these types of conversations automatically make us say they're not monotonous you know what I mean we have to really I think composure I don't know how God but just a manual for really just like what what to do what not to do in a very in a very real way like not Titus and Mo Titus and multi-dose editor usually not usually sometimes shared one story was never made such an impression every time they remember the story was that when I was in Russia we decided to have a seder for all of my friends who didn't know anything about the word Jagoda they didn't know who they submitted no the summer did you know depend the way we did that goda the only source we had one of us had a secret video you should support video of our house in the front and yeah was a Jewish encyclopedia and in that Jewish encyclopedia there was a text of our God and we were are you were sitting on on the floor everybody was sitting on profesores not seats and reading from encyclopedia the text of my brothers and that made swamp pressure primarily because everybody didn't know nobody knew what's what's what's going on once we read the text and everybody had triggered thoughts and so again it was the most mesmerizing taste and my how old were you so there was no Haggadah whose idea was this so it was my friends idea so to take out encyclopedia I was I had a Caesar but reading in Hebrew support before the oil lamp was useless so he founded cyclopædia no solutions was it it's a broken I was in front it was a old Russians perfume are there that this class is brought to you 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