Basi Legani 5725 #9: Wednesday - Feb 12

okay we'll continue B today we're holding Shear number nine I believe right and bem will also learn tomorrow Thursday morning 7:45 so we are at the end of page in this contrast we are at the end of page Zion we finished page Z last time which is Ice Dad well up to ice know everybody understood the last ver let for standing okay and this series is dedicated graciously by a family member thank you very very much it's also dedicated byra do Phillip in honor of the Reb and hisim for creating a revolution in the world to bring the G and now amen thank you very much to both sponsors and for your partnership thank you so much okay so the last major point that we learned was this was the last year we spoke about two major points and just to use the language one has to do with the and one has to do with the in the Cav these are the words meaning when the M explains the whole of that the first thing we learned from the alter is that theim was not in the the whole concept ofs of is only applicable to the not to the in other words in the source of the the whole concept the whole experience of doesn't even apply to the source to the there was no not a concealment not a suspension says the the source is is the same thing and that's why even children know the presence of Hashem in his Essence that the world hasn't affect nothing has changed that when the speaks about it's in the the light as he put it put it in the there's a concept of G it can also be a concept of hel the concept of Revelation there could be a concept of of concealment is not in a state of G it's not in a state of it is it is what it is here comes the that even in he went through the whole concept even Ain so it also has the capacity for finiteness why do you need a he explained as long as the is together with so what's felt in the is the we explain this at length so then there's no room for the world as Gul because the Gul is just a manifestation of B so for like like like the teacher who relative to the student let's call him infinite he has to suspend all of his ideas in order to make space for the world of the student and even the finite light in this teacher when it's together with the infinite in other words even the contracted filtered light it's still too much so there has to be a complete Sila complete suspension of the teacher to be able to imagine the world of the student and then the teacher has to reinvent himself so to speak what do we mean reinvent himself he has to take out separate the finite light from the infinite light and then contract even that finite light in a way that it can be relatable to the student the infinite light has to leave because it's not to the student there's a certain level of depth that can't go but even the level that could be communicated to the student as long as it's part of one big chalant in the teacher the student won't be able to receive it so in the in the Nim what is that when the is part of the even though it's but it's the way right Infinity is finite when Infinity is finite so the finite is also infinite what happens through the Tsum is that the finite becomes is perceived as infinite meaning is suspended that's called a look completely suspended once it's suspended now there could be the separation of the and the ble that could be felt as now there could be a room for the worlds and this is called the C the C is that there's a line so to speak that comes back in from the light that left right that's the that comes back in and it also had to be suspended because if you would leave the G the way it's part of the ble it wouldn't be able to be relatable to the student that was one big that he said and then he started to explain that the whole even thisum is only from our perspective yeah is not master is and here he explained it in two one and then the bigger is infinite explained and he gave the example of a teacher that even when he suspends everything it's not a concealment for him even when he's teaching the very limited information he knows the whole information it's just a student can't have access to it because the student would have access to it he would be completely overwhelmed and confused so the student that has to be the tum that's what he explained by but the teacher even B and even in the place of theum the whole o is there it's not like the is not there he doesn't have to wipe out from his brain all the information that he hadab the student that can't be revealed the teacher who's in a completely different space is talking to the student talking to the child or the student and he reveals everything he knows about this Su just a flow of Consciousness nobody will be able to understand a word so what he has to do is he has to suspend his whole mindset and his whole way of thinking yeah completely and then finding himself that information that is accessible to the student and then figure out how to communicate it in a limited and filtered way so again in the teacher's mind you have everything you have the infinite light you have the finite light but it's all mixed right and the finite is just an expression of it so therefore you suspend everything now there's an empty space what do we mean an empty space like we spoke about space for the for the recipient I'm not there completely not there yeah now from all of his information he has to so to speak find that that 1% that little fraction of information that's relatable to the student and now that could be communicated into the empty space But even that has to be communicated in a way that's relatable to the student it's not even the way it was by him that's why it's called a Cav it's like a little small line that now comes in and this information could be given to the student huh this is a mus what do you mean so that's what he's saying yeah ahma very like not only likely but in real reality from our perspective as if we explain yeah yeah of course when you speak about the godly perspective it's for us to understand what the pous of it is that in in even in the place of the Tsum the whole is there the entire is there just like in the mus we can understand that that even the talid can't be margit right but it's only him in other words from the other angle the whole earth is present the the entire light is present even in the even in the space of the Tsum so to speak it's practically when this when the teacher limits and condenses his words yeah and he's only teaching that line in the mission in the most simple way yeah we even he G let's say gives a metaphor he gives a mush for the student why does he give a mush this is the mush that's brought in VI mus that we learned from the why does a teacher give a mus the idea may be so abstract that the student will never understand it so he gives a metaphor and from the metaphor hopefully he'll be able to get back to the idea so now when the teach when the student is hearing a metaphor what is he hearing he's hearing a story a nice metaphor a nice illustration what's the teacher Hearing in the metaphor the teacher sees in the metaphor it's not for the student it's a concealment it has to be a concealment that's the whole point the whole point is that he's trying to limit the information and filter it through a mush through a story through an illustration she should be able to get it but that simp is only theal yeah the whole concealment that has to happen isab the Tal's experience but's experience even in this very moment the is not must rules right still work so what are we explaining exp so even not only even which is communicated you say there's no sh that the same the same that's there before the is also there after the even right here in the in the Mak of the or like the other example he gave the second example that prophecy or right is down here yeah or prophecy is here El the K is not there so it's not that the is not there everything is there it's just that if the vessel would be open to it like we explained that length You' be able to channel it so that's that it's all it's as opens up more and expands more it can it can detect more energy it's not that the energy is not here so it's not that the right is not everything is it's channeled and experienced in a way ofum huh that's one and then he says much more than that this is all the perspective of the teacher so to speak so there's two ways of looking at it the perspective of the student why you're saying if you go deeper with pus or you go from the other direction right from the from the perspective of the of the of the teacher even when he was mam everything it's not like he forgot everything all the information is present there too what say even deeper that even itself there's no sh even even the is not so this is what his the last was that the whole purpose is that the plans should be like him that the original tree wants that the nas The Offspring The saplings should ultimately be completely reflective of the tree itself they should be as powerful as independent as the tree itself so the whole purpose of the Tsum is not to hold back the purpose of the Tsum is the contrary the purpose of the tum is the the unity the whole purpose is that the tal should be able to be Mish like in order to do that you have to go through a process because since the student is in a different space and his mind has to develop if you right away throw the entire energy of the at the student you don't have a talet he's just overwhelmed or he checks out so you have to be like we said metaphors and it's only a limited information right and there's a you have to suspend everything and then you have to invent that's to him and even that has to be communicated in a limited way and you give metaphors in M but all of that is what for one purpose to be able to grow his capacity to the point that he should be able to experience the full that's the that's the that's the V huh why does it do it why he does why does it because the Connection huh because the love the yeah yeah so the whole is is of course the tal could not exist but that's not he could overwhelm him or just give him a little bit and that's it the whole right is it should be the complete the complete Unison so now in the itself the way that sees it even even itself even The Limited information that he's getting in that there's no say there no the pous of that is what is the PES of that the PES of that is it's a it's a preparation that he should be able to get everything it says that after 40 years a student understands the depth of the teacher what does it mean why after 40 Years cuz in the mus in the kiter right in that line in M you have everything but it took him 40 years to be able to be a vessel for it if you would have given him the whole is the whole depth right away he would have left been left with nothing so you gave him a kit you gave him a summation you gave him a concise brief summation you gave him a musle in that when he dissects it he'll see everything was in there because remember there was no tum it was just communicating the way that the T should receive it and why was it communicated that way that ultimately it should be able to be integrated fully that he should be able to be in full Oneness with the teacher to the point that there's a seemless of course the mus talking about talking about ideas it's just a mus here it's not just ideas we're talking about complete Unity also the raum is not creating the sh it's creating the tal itself remember it's just a mush but in the mush in in the it says says should always teach you in that you have the like in the Mish you have the whole when the child sees the Mish he sees only the mishna because he would see everything the whole P the whole depth everything it would be completely confusing so the whole of it the whole inion of it is also not the it's also because the p of theim itself even is what it's that they should be able to be complete Oneness between them that's what he says that uh not only is no first we said is it's just not being experienced by the tal now he says it's even more even the Tsum itself in other words even that which comes through a filter and is condensed and is finite right that little o that's being trickled down to the to the talid which over there you saying there is a his perspective his experience not his experience first you said that itself is just like you said this prophecy and there we just don't have the to channel it right we don't have the person to channel the prophecy but prophecy is there like I explained at length yeah we discussed the you know people are dancing but person is deaf so you think everybody who's dancing is crazy doesn't mean there's no music means you have to have the K but then he says that's all then the last ver is that even the Tsum itself since the whole is that the tal should be like the in other words the tal should receive the infinite light from the so in the itself what do you have you have the whole you have the but in order for him to really absorb it it has to be perceived in a way that it came through change and it came through T so that is even in the change it's even in the Tsum it's even in the condensed form and the Darkness and the finiteness which is all all a change it's not like it was procreation so over even over there the of it is because it's to be able to Beal in the space of the student in the space of the the complete the complete Oneness in a way that's integrated not in a way that swallows him up and overwhelms him and nullifies him then didn't need anything in a way that's truly truly integrated and that's what a real teacher that's what a real Mentor does a real Mentor there's a duality real mentorship it's holding space for where the person is right now but holding space for where you want them to be in 40 years and where you want them to be next week and both must come together huh yeah and in every real relationship that is when you're mentoring somebody a student a patient a child right a friend a talmid Aid whatever it is I could only say this is where you're going to be in the future but then I'm not getting you there you know I'm just I'm turning you into into a zombie or to a robot yeah or I do it for you I do it for you I told you know about taking out the chick from the egg without allowing it to develop its muscles you have a dead chick the chick got to fight its way out through the egg I already see what's going to happen after he comes out of the egg but it's a secret you can't tell the chick it's going to don't fight it's nothing no no the chick has to struggle for its life cuz that's how it's going to become who it is I'm giving a little mush but but it's very true right you want to do it a favor and jump ahead of the game right and give it access to a beautiful world you didn't give it access to a beautiful world you just killed its ability to be able to function to be able to grow you paralyze it yes and therefore it's that's what he says so there's there's a duality here but it's not really a duality we're we're calling it a duality like you say we're calling it from the perspective of what's The Duality on one hand you have to be able to this is true in relationships you have to be able to hold space where the person is right now where the talud is right now I can't say let him understand what I mean he can't understand what I mean that's why you have that's the whole idea of a mush what's the idea of a mush idea of a mush is you go out of your world why do we give M we give metaphors in order to be able to be relatable he can't relate to the purity of the con ccept itself the purity of the concept itself is not going to be relatable so you have to be able to hold space for the present intellectual and emotional and psychological space of this person H right so so that's where the tum is on the other hand what's the whole inion in it it's because you're holding space for the greatness of the person for the true potential of the person you know this is is a temporary process in order to to to get there so even in all the the whole everything is there his words is not only From the's perspective because theim is not mastered in Theus one day the student will look at the Tsum itself and he'll see that the whole ble V was there huh he has to stay the course so so why does it look like a why that's the vert because you want him to receive the not the teacher to receive it we know the teacher knows the like the said the whole of is has the yeah spoke that's the the first wasn't but for theet when you look at it from this angle of course there was a huh H yeah actively everything is is is is redefined it's not only something for the future it's like Ah that's what it was so the whole that's right that g redef g redefines the whole G it's not just for the future it's it's retroactive of course when I'm in it I don't I'm not there yet cuz cuz if I would be there it wouldn't be integrated it wouldn't be in my system you're talking about transforming the student not overwhelming the student and the student has limited capacity yeah that's the whole V there's a world means it's not bable it's cool so for him to absorb it you have to communicate to him in a way that he perceives it as AUM he perceives it as a sh it's not the same of before the Bri it's because we're talking here about all of reality this is the this is the fabric of reality all of reality is perceived as a and all of reality what is that whole perception growing capacity working through every nuda of your psyche every nuda of your experience and every experience of life is this every exper remember the mush is a she is an hour a day two hours a day the mush every moment is a she the N every moment is a she it's not a once a day once a week twice a week every moment of life is a the whole life is God giving a she the says the world is created every moment through it's a the she creates the she creates the mind creates the heart creates the world creates the psyche creates the circumstances creates everything what is that it must come through a the d a very Dynamic and not just a small of complete suspension so from the perspective it's in a way it's perceived in a way that it's with and but he says it's not a real change cuz when the have looks at it what does he see he just sees he just sees the process of the tal becoming M like him complete Unity but from the's perspective it's all in potentiality but it's yeah so we say because even in the world even in the fabric of the world where there is the the pous of it is reaching the Oneness the of so the way he way he looks at it is he sees in every moment the potential for that complete in the beginning of it and then it has to be actualized in P so the syum is a temporary thing in order to get to that space right so that's what we're learning that it's not a permanent thing huh yeah for sure that's true and that's the that's the depth of doesn't only mean you have pain and I also have pain from the fact that you have pain it's much deeper than that doesn't just mean I'm not sitting in my Palace you know and smoking cigars while you're in pain I have empathy Hearts here it's much deeper than that it's not just I'm not detached from you means that the full is is in this experience yeah it's not just I'm a nice person I have empathy for you means there's never an of Detachment there's never an a of Abandonment I mean if you want to speak about it in these words the simum is the source of the the original abandonment wound in reality which that abandonment wound is the source of everything it's the wound of Abandonment literally that's what is and all abandonment that people experience it's all originated in theim Edition which is the ultimate source of all abandonment wounds then it plays itself out in another million ways in every person's life how it plays itself out in stronger ways and weaker ways but where does it all begin it all begins everything is and Soul knows this in its DNA in its core and suddenly you wake up one morning it's called birth and now you're on your own now how much fear and terror is in that moment there's no way to describe it huh explain exactly so the pain of the teacher is as deep and maybe even deeper yeah cuz it's infinite it's also pain from from an experience of infinity and anything that's infinite is painful and it's also he knows the whole secret there's no substitutes so so so when so that abandonment of Tsum is very very powerful it's not it's it's beyond powerful so now you're asking why you giving all these M we're giving all these mum because we're trying to heal the wound you you're right we we could say we don't have anything to say and let's not talk and it's all Paradox the whole Indian the is trying to heal the abandonment wound of course you could say Z I don't know how he did it what he did what he did but it's pretty messy here that's what I know how it works what how it's going to fix I don't know or to put it differently the B was teaching that g is not just not something that comes passive G is a a process that we are initiating every moment so for this we need some experience of how to heal is not something that's done in heaven it's done on Earth so you write all the metaphors fall short and why are we comparing God got to a teacher and to a she and to an intellectual process and you have to suspend this and not suspend this he does what he wants he wants to suspend he knows probably how to give a without suspending anything and I should still be him you can ask a better question what do you need a for you made a whole is together with then you can't receive it you can't absorb it I understand that with a teacher a genius is talking and he tells me everything he knows nobody's going to understand a word he says I get it but in the do what you want you don't want to make a don't make he has to make the whole world and therefore there was no room for anything so you had to make a he could also make a and it shouldn't be an empty space quantum mechanics knows how to do it God doesn't know how to do it make aim there's no empty space that's all that's all true and then the conversation could cease but it comes all back to the same if you're looking at simp as a real in other words at some point is really just a [Music] gulf and what is it called the TW twins don't meet the what's the expression um it's an expression in English and the two never meet huh fine don't talk and that's that's why that's why yeah somebody mentioned when he speaks about this he holds he holds that but he says but don't talk about it in other words it up I have a table here I need to put on today you start with so there's no animal so there's no parchment so there's noin so there's no ties so I'm not wearing glasses I don't have a mouth so I'm not drinking coffee so I should have make a in other words let it alone God knows how to figure out his you have to live like this aims he said don't talk about not don't talk he talks about it but in other words it's not something it's it's it's a it's a different angle you understand you don't live in the black hole let the black hole figure out his stuff and you live here he says huh it's not working of course it's not working because we need to heal but doesn't say that explains yeah and he's right what are you going to figure things out and you have to have that awe and that respect and that reverence but now let's think deeper that's what he says if you're telling me theab there was NOS why you telling that to me why even talking about aims God could do whatever he wants he doesn't need anyim he could figure out how to make a world without tum trust me I don't know how to make a world withum and he could make a world without if you're talking about us we can't make a world even with you can make a thousand billion you're not making a world trust me at least I'm not like it says even all the citizens of the world come together to create a to create a mosquito they can't do it they can make a billion t a mosquito they're not making they can use material that exists and you know ultimately learn how to clone things we can make synthetic stuff nobody's making a mosquito we can't make a grain of sand we can't get to Mars yeah and that's with he can make whatever he wants without a the whole of the the whole V what the is saying the whole reason is teaching about simum is not to become a scientist and figure out God's brain first of all it's irrelevant and second of all it's more than irrelevant it's not even there's no capability of that a human brain is going to figure out God's brain the real is the whole syum is to be able to experience the healing of the abandonment wound that's the F that's the whole to H to to that's the that's what we learned earlier from the that the question to all the big the big question of whenever it says you'll understand that it's not so known whenever it says it means it's knowing to those who know he says K means to his father was known to the AL was known I'm just saying when it says k why is this the this is what we explained about in the previous if you would say that the creation was so then the Divine energy turns into a world so the is missing but since you say that everything was and the moment the is present it's all and then you say is not so that means it's so is really an upti like I said it's the equation to heal the world to heal the abandonment want not intellectually experientially yeah you have all the explanations intellectually but that's not the way the abandonment is the abandonment was not philosophical it's not that the abandonment is because we have a question and philosophy that's not the abandonment wound there's questions too there enough questions in the world it's the experience of Abandonment that's the so this is the whole V that first first of all the presence of for sure even the presence of what do we mean the that that spoke about don't think it was ever ever suspended and remember that the is also inside the May it didn't leave the may also so the whole is in the May with there was no and even experience of which is experience it's not just a is is reality his experience I explain the difference even over there that is fully intact then comes the third ver even the way the tal is experiencing the there also this doesn't mean it's not painful doesn't mean that talmud is crazy doesn't mean it's fictional doesn't mean it's a joke but it means you're holding space t means holding space Tsum is an empty space the word they use today holding space is a very good word for Tsum because literally that's what it is it's holding space for the other it's literally God holding space empty space without filling it you know you say hold space for you for me what does that mean don't fill it with your space hold space for me to as opposed of two things either you filling up that space and imposing yourself or running away cuz you can't that's the two ex extremes holding space for somebody means you're present but you're not present with your presence your presence letting them be present letting them find themselves so it's easy to run away I can't hold space for you you're too crazy you're weird so I run right the mus would be like Sil look I'm gone you're on your own holding space for your presence without me imposing myself and telling you what that space should look like because then there's no then there's no you m is literally holding empty space what do we mean empty space space for you not space for me I'm not there in that space I'm holding it I'm all around it says the is I'm holding the space that's it's called it's around but that space is empty so I'm fully here even though I'm here in a way that I want you to be able to find yourself so holding space has that duality of holding space for where you are right now but also carrying the vision of your ultimate greatness of where you going to be tomorrow where you going to be in a week where you going to be in a month where you going to be in a year where you going to be in 40 years and that's a very very patient process because it's it's it's all about integration it's about trust trusting you need to trust the student as much as you trust yourself if there's no trust for the student you can't do this so the whole tum is about trusting the student that it's a big risk oh it's a very big risk it's the Mish of course so the whole mus of Tsum and the the T and everything it's all M even the word is a m you're asking what are you giving a mush of a teacher and student I'm telling you more even the word in the N is also a mush withdrawing suspending forget about the mush with a student the word simum is also a mush you think the word simps does apply in it's all because the whole V of Tsum is for to experience that's the whole inion so if we don't talk about it what did you create the world for the whole is that we need to talk about it and feel it and experience it and work it through so even though there's a deep abandonment mood and that is what is so this m is saying it's not just that there's no abandonment and it's not just it's not just yeah and the here is here but it's much deeper there's three stages there's no tum in the may there's no real tum in the and there's no real Tsum in the Tsum those are the three stages in the M there's no in the means that everything is is is is and in the frequency of a of the that's how it is like he says the child knows takes it a step further even to because is already an of experience is already as we spoke light is what's transmitted is not just the essence yeah so he says even the whole the whole a is there so what says the whole a is there is there means it's a process that the talid has to experience the the yeah but ultimately is made here too and one day the talmid will be able to experience it like we said in the mishna right he'll be able to get to the whole gar the depth of the mus is the Nim when the says the musall it's not a Hester he sees the nyal in the musel he doesn't get distracted by the musall huh REM he remembers who he is he knows the whole story is just to bring out the so that's the but now there's the last page but what about in the abandonment that's the hardest part this is all one day the talud will get there here the last V is in the Tsum itself in the wound itself in the Shinu itself in the Tsum itself where everything is being concealed over there it's also why because it's all the talage should be it's all to create the ultimate so every that is communicating is not just that I have empathy that it's all it's all the full Atmos and experiencing it he's all in and you're all in but there's a lot of surrender that's necessary here not just a lot it's all about surrender it's the trust that it's all of it's a lot of trust both for this for the teacher to engage in this he has to trust the student ultimately in the deepest way and for the teacher for the student to engage in this he has to trust the teacher it's trusting that despite the full experience of Abandonment which is ssum it's completely not that takes a lot of trust because it does look like aims it does look like a thatav is only giving a filtered filtered thing and maybe at some point he's just completely quiet it starts with the D's Trust of course so it's very very deep trust it's it's the trust that requires complete complete surrender it's intense this is intense it's not uh it's not uh it's easier what do they say it's saying it's very that's in the abandonment what the sees here is something else he doesn't see here you're alone you're gone the is not here I'm making a trick for no it's all on it's still the same level of AK and even deeper because it's this AK where I believe that you could actually be completely one with me theum reveals a deeper level of that theas could be fully yours you own it the student doesn't have to remain a student the student is going to be completely one with the like in a real Marshall a real RAV wants the student to be as talented as brilliant as skilled and maybe even more successful than him where the says says my children were victorious over me because they said I want the student to be more successful that's the ultimate trust but for this you got to find your own Wings you can't you can't you can't live off my wings you can't remain on my back and fly wherever I fly that's not n if the sapling remains a little sapling by the tree he got to send them away the roots got to leave get a job yeah what of course yeah this is all this is all about infinite love and it's nonconditional love it's absolute infinite love Yeah verse says what what are you trying to be sh on manipulation this you got the wrong [Laughter] guy right we we experienced the world through abandonment the B did not experience the world through abandonment that was the biggest Miracle the biggest Miracle of the b as I we say is the B himself he did not experience the world through abandonment did not experience the world through abandonment theb did not experience the world through abandonment and we're not talking here about only on a level of faith on a superconscious level we're talking about in an integrated way real in real life dayto day integrated integrated and that's the whole of means you embody the full Oneness why is this because what this means is that every stage of the process is all part of theas so you don't have to be afraid of any stage and you don't have to amputate any stage and every curveball and stumbling block and bump in the road and fence right which is another tum another simum another tum another it's all one it's allas leveler that it's harder to get self awareness of course of course why you saying that talking the whole time about the negative I guess language negative side we still find it there but then again's at least you don't feel the abandonment oh that's much worse of course not feeling the abandonment is is much worse says the is when the concealment is concealed when you think abandonment is love that's the real abandonment that's the worst huh that's ctis yeah what's cus cus means you're cut off and you're excited you go on the roller coaster life is perfect you're completely cut off that's the greatest abandonment you created a replacement for connection at least if there's abandonment and I know it there's no replacement I'm I'm grieving when you stop grieving when theim becomes the GU and G becomes G that's that that's the tragedy I went heard from his father-in-law so he said this those who are lost in the land of of Fortune of of bliss and then there in the land of so first is the those who are laws the land of bliss from the word life is perfect they and then there there m there and it's it's two different experiences one is the person who has everything so he's Mish lost he has Madre too he has God too but he's completely lost and then way is much harder because you don't have to argue with them that life is difficult over there there's could be there could be dispar it could be depression his hopelessness he feels I'm completely stuck in you not just need you could be thank you so much so here here's the tragedy yeah Stockholm syndrome and all these types of syndromes and let's understand this in terms of healing when a person experiences the original abandonment mood of Tsum yeah what do we do with it so theam this is the whole theam doesn't want to say it was abandoned it's too painful so what does it do it tries to convince you that you weren't abandoned and it creates coping mechanisms to handle the abandonment and replace what you're missing with distractions that will make you feel good and that's the entire story of people's C mechanisms it's all replacing the abandoned wound with perceived compensation that will distract you from what's really bothering you and you'll have a good life and it and and it really creates torture because you're not dealing with the wound completely not dealing with the wound it's like you come to the doctor you have a serious infection yeah and he puts a Band-Aid so it looks good it looks good but a day later you're back in in pain and here the Band-Aid is more sophisticated but the infection is also more sophisticated but that's the and then you just run from one distraction another distraction and all the mid all the mid it says the t is divided into the year so every day we learn a little T so now it's holding this week so just finished and his is that he says says that arrogance is like says why why is arrogance I'm ding to God three times a day doesn't mean like we think you pick up a stone and you worship a stone yeah obviously that's also means he says the idea that Do's anything the idea that you're alone that you're separate that's that's the that there's something from that's what it is what's means I have to be something that's the any any feeling any T any coping mechanism that is basically giving any power and significance to anything outside of that's and every moment you have to choose not every moment every every time I drink a cup of coffee every time I take a bite every time I react to something my wife tells me something my husband tells me something your kids tell something your partner whatever it is you're reacting with an emotion that's either a not if the emotion is believes in the abandonment wound it's if the emotion challenges the abandon mood it's now we have these emotions cuz we live in AOS ssum world with his yeah that's why the biggest is in the whole because it's an issue because that's how we live we're not talking of there other literally worshiping Idols we're talking the essence of it thees yeah it's anything even it says I get angry why is it I got angry yeah theat is it's basically a feeling of Abandonment and that's a very normal thing alone yeah there's there's alone and and it's normal we have to hold space for the Tsum this holding god holds space because you need to develop you need to process it we don't deny it we're not denying any of this we don't deny that we have all these mid andas that's the that's where theum happened but you see you see how you see this is this is everything so this is the whole doesn't mean God feels your pain it means in the process you were never abandon even for a second and even the feeling of Abandonment is part of the even the feeling of Abandonment which is the talid experiencing theim in the deepest way is that you you should be able to choose the belief that you weren't abandoned and then it's you're one and you own it because you had to choose it you understand the student became the ble even that moment you're feeling all the abandonment and then you're going to choose you're going to choose to say no I'm not that was your choice that wasn't God's choice so to speak you understand that was the tal the talud reaching it that's so even that moment when you were left alone you weren't left alone you were given an opportunity to be able to get it to clench it those are the deepest moments of growth If you experience if you understand and experience what I just said it's a fight but it's really not a fight that's the point it's a fight because I don't want to let go I get it but even that that I don't want to let go is are it's much more torturous to stay where you are but it looks easier because I'm used to it it's like the stock syndrome stay in the abuse it's easier and it's really based on one n and in many ways this is the hardest nuda and that is to really really trust that the love of Hashem to you is infinite absolute unconditional every moment and that light your life was meant to be purely Blissful in pure intimacy with Hashem that belief system is one of the deepest belief systems because of the trauma of Galos and and and and it's part of the tremendous abandonment wound that we all experience and the pain of life so this is not in judgment this is why the B were creating such a revolution this was the revolution yeah huh what yeah that lives this that embodies it and it's not by denying pain this is not with na hey it's nothing everything is perfect it's beautiful that's not the process he could have started over the now let's go eat let's go do coule that's not the m the m is not denying experience if back to the Tsum what do you need a Tsum for you need a Tsum to be able to explain that the experience doesn't have to be denied to heal the abandonment world you understand how important this is the whole mush of Tsum he keeps on saying he kept said what what are we making all these things with God I don't know we don't know anything about God good question and a very true question the answer is that simum is there to explain to us in our experience that does not mean you have to deny the abandonment Mound and amputate it and suppress it and repress it and and get angry at it and and not deal with it That's The Power of all this why does he go through all these stages because in life you have to go through all these stages there's going to be the experience of Atmos there won't be a Tsum there there's going to be the experience of there's no Tsum there but then there's going to be the experience of Tsum and to be able to say there's no Tsum there either these are all experiences in life in very practical words we have two streams of Consciousness we have a stream of consciousness of people I'm going to get very practical who are very into the world of healing and it's all about feeling your emotions and expressing your emotions and identifying your emotions and not letting go of your pain because your pain is real and visceral and you have to feel it and acknowledge it and nobody ever acknowledge it so you're going to acknowledge it and hold space for it right and then you have the whole other stream which is you know move on be productive don't live and wallow and and and stay stuck in your pain and anxiety and get out of it and be happy like people say you should be happy as though you could tell that to somebody you should should should should should should should and then they'll bring you proofs from that you should be happy and somehow it doesn't work right that's the crisis that we're dealing with now everybody's done with you should I know what I should I should I should I should I should I should I should be happy I shouldn't be angry I should be dancing I should be Blissful so now you have the Other Extreme don't anything just feel and feel and feel and feel and feel and realize how much trauma you're carrying huh the the the the real truth you see in this m you hold space for the whole but that's not but then he says and it's all it's all doesn't mean you're a faker doesn't mean you don't have pain means that as I'm holding space for all your pain I'm holding space for all your greatness in fact everything you experienced is for you to get and it's not an intellectual explanation here he's not this m doesn't justify intellectually pain it's not what he does no M does that that's we say we don't have it had to be this way it had to be that way could have he could have done it all without pain I don't know why it works that way nobody does but to start asking questions that we have no answers for and get stuck over there and therefore say nobody can heal because we have questions that's the worst form of of abuse to people you understand what I'm saying so again fragrance con conscious could come from two places one is yeah or you're such an idiot anyway or means in a different space in other words once you hit a certain spot in yourself and are not where it's at it's not where it's at the moment the moment you experience the relationship on this level okay yeah my mind doesn't have a lot doesn't understand a lot of stuff it's true it's about trust it's not about that that child who's being held by its mother in complete love questions like I always say from the right put him you remember right there certain the level of relationship yeah first of all you can't understand it second of all you don't need to understand it it's not going to help you it's not going to add anything and the real thing is you don't even want to understand it it's just going to it's just going to Bruin it and is that t a little bit huh mean this paragraph is is is huh this paragraph can only be said by a that that holds it all together and that's to hold it all together to hold the whole system together with pure empathy and love the whole kav together that's that's that's this paragraph just to be able to say this paragraph is that is not th just to be able to say this to be able to hear this this is where did he get this from should finish here he just clenched it that even where there is a Tsum in other words the finite light that goes into the student cuz the Infinate was suspended at least from the student even at least from the student even that is not a real it's all the process of growth it's to get the student to the ultimate destination but now the M goes one step further why because all this is but the intuitive experience of life without the m is just concealment or to put it differently the teacher and the student already have a relationship the student is only getting a muscle and he's only getting a fraction of the light so we're saying that in this fraction of the light he really has everything not only M the teacher even M himself and one day he'll see it one day he's going to go back and say Ah that's what it was that's what it was but that's all with his relationship he's getting a sheer the real tum in our world is not that we're getting a little finite ray of light you know only m is not the real tum isum of absolute concealment and Chaos complete complete finer which is of course all a product of Tsum but it's not even so the mind now goes into the step goes one step further down even than before he goes down further in this SI he starts and then the next SI he he he he does the conclusion and then he finishes and that's theer that's the treasure after understanding all this that you give the soldiers to win the war so just another few minutes I want to learn the so now comes ONN however it's true after everything about the we say it's still that the infinite Oneness of pre-creation still exists post Creation in other words you weren't abandoned you're still inside of the like before and now ask yourself a question if your body would feel this if your body and my body my nervous system would feel this what would you be feeling now Bliss relaxed that's all his b in T and in he says to Godless so that your heart opens up it's dision because if my body feels even a little bit of this energy that inside you're completely relaxed you're relaxed you're truly relaxed there's a state of Serenity of bliss huh the ab is good so it's not as the ab is good du is good cuz it's all one you're inside the baby is still in the womb never left even with all the were those daving hours every day it wasn't because they had no job it's because this is the frequency they wanted to live with this was them this was the purpose of creation purpose of creation was was not it was theas where you running to after that where you running to what's what's the next what's going to be more exciting a ferris wheel a bagel what's going to be more exciting like I said from the B you know how you know you're running to your paros maybe you're running away so this is all true after everything we explained that the whole after it's but the way it's experienced there's a concealment after a concealment deeper and deeper like said that the way creation happens is that the is manifested in al which is and then the AL goes into B and giml and and and and that's where diversity expands and the worlds expand and it's a after a after a all the way to 400 tough 400 worlds but inside is him and then says that's but then what's the next that the continues to be camouflaged until it dresses up in it's not only letters of olive base it's pure Darkness so here he's adding something he says I know all this that I said but that's all when the tal is receiving a she this teacher is communicating he's maybe giving him not Al he's giving him T and you're telling me that from the you can get to the you can go back got it that's all this but then there it's a Finster it's like the teacher looks at the student and says who are you I don't know you have a good day bye that's abandonment that's a whole different inion so you're saying even that even thatan visceral experience it's hel it's concealment this is what he continues in the that it's true that the is not and it's true that the is not him and it's true that even is not felt and here comes even the what's the is the is the shear that you do get is the light that's integrated in the world it's the but even that the which gives life to all existence angels and souls know the truth but there are who don't feel that it's a they don't think there's a teacher giving them a she they're atheists and even though every creature knows that there's a life force you got to unless everybody knows there's a life force there's something I'm alive you call yourself alive you know there's something call it Consciousness call it a brain call it electricity call it whatever you want but there's a life force you know it he knows even more than that he knows that the main thing for life is this energy he knows that a body without it you know you could call it's worthless it's a corpse nobody makes the mistake and saying just give me my body I don't need anything else just give me a corpse that's wor it's a corpse it's dead a mosquito knows it a bee knows it a deer everybody knows this the is your life force your energy of course it's in the body but the body needs to be alive so they know this but they don't attribute it to Divinity they'll give every other excuse every other explanation it's random it's electricity it's some current it's some Force it's a simulation of Consciousness that's the Kish in our generation it's a simulation you think you're alive it's like buttons one of the buttons in our system happens to be consciousness in other words the way and you could be a very respected scientist you could even get a Noble Prize arat got a Nobel Prize for Peace So an atheist could get a Nobel Prize for science so it's true everybody knows they're alive and everybody feels their life and they know that it's more important than the Goof because the Goof without that is is is worthless unfortunately it's a corpse but they don't feel that it's a that it's divine what do we mean that it's divine AB that we never abandoned yeah that there's an with you there's a relationship the Creator loves you the Creator is with you don't feel that even more the Earth can conceal itself and Eclipse itself one level lower and another level lower to the point that you could say like the river is mine and I created myself and it's all it's all me in other words not only do you not feel you become God right he's saying something very deep it's not that the atheist doesn't have a God he is God that he takes the credit people say I'm an atheist I don't believe in no you do believe in God you just think it's you you have you don't feel it's much more than that not only Le I'm I'm the God I'm the one who does it that's a double double whammy it's putting in the sword and twirl you know twirling it A2 brute then Cesar Falls right this is a whole different it's not that the atheist says there's no God I don't know there's a God no no no usually if there's no God that's what's so dangerous about it the moment you his yes moment oh now it's now you're denying God cuz I became God you have something like I don't know that's one level I don't know you know it's even a certain humility sometimes you have people I don't know but then it's much worse it's Le I become I'm the one who takes the credit huh so here you already have it's not just is giving the tal a little but the student is learning M with or with his teacher yeah he's not getting the whole depth it's a tum it's a shin so you're telling me that inside you have everything but there's a communication here he's not denying the deser here it's a whole different inion here it's not like the mus here the Tsum the way it's experienced at least PR is complete concealment complete abandonment even if you know you're alive you don't know what that means what does it mean I'm alive I don't know I'm alive thank God I'm breathing I said Thank God but if I wouldn't be educated that way I'm breathing I'm walking and sometimes it's even more your whole life could be all about me taking the credit and who doesn't do this even the person who says thank God there's moments that it's it's just it's me you know you forget that's what happens to explain this more in the this doesn't make sense we would expect that through meditation a person should always recognize that the world the heaven was created through the Divine through Divine word through Divine energy see now he goes to the he did already was the about the that there was no there so now says has 1876 a whole big it's one of them I that he would numerous times and he says as follows every physical thing all physical matter is composite it's made up of the four elements a fire R water up for Earth the moment these elements disintegrate nothing remains because everything comes from them being together working as a so that means that the main reality the fabric of reality of everything in the physical world is what it's the kak it's the force that's Mar that brings together that hybridizes that synthesizes that connects and unifies all the elements and that must be above them because he's bringing together on its own can't bring together can't bring together so the that brings them together and does it in a particular way to create everything physical so everything has to be in a different different way here there's more there's more there's more more right it has to be done in an individual way so it it can make this this is a that's beyond the four of them so it could bring them together each in its own way the source of this that brings them together is from the energy from the Divine word that gives it life and creates it every single moment this is the that brings together the like it says hem your word is always standing in the heaven like the says that hashem's word that he said is always in the heaven in other words it's always making the heaven happen because theas have to always be together on their own there's the entropy on their own they'll be separated so you always need a to bring it together that has to be above them what's that that is a Divine energy constant if the eye would have permission to see the spiritual energy in every created being that flows every moment from hashem's mouth and his Spirit the physicality and the matter the brute matter of the creation and its physical substance would not even be seen by our eyes but our eyes don't have permission to see that dimension so all we see is we see the physical this is actually a quote from the says if the eye if if if if if uh the doors of perception were cleansed and the eye would be able to see the full fabric of reality you wouldn't even see the gashi you wouldn't even see the gashi you would see Consciousness because it's all Consciousness it's all energy It's Just Energy the way it's condensed and formed in a concrete way that our eye could perceive it but the moment if the eye would be opened up to see the full spectrum of reality what you would see is you would see and is saying that it's not it's because everything is made up of the and there's no way that theas could hang out together without a that's bringing them together that has to trans send them and that comes from the Divine energy and it's constantly doing it that's the and without that nothing has a msus so you'll say yeah but it exists it exists without what what exists just the very fact that things have to be brought together every single moment and without that All msus Is Lost all matter is lost because it's always a hybrid and a composition of many forces many realities together that's what makes matter this means there's a there that can't be random the question is if my physical eye detects it instinctively it doesn't but through his b us this is a this is a very obvious reality and this is one of the one of the when you speak about the four elements here it's not only representing the do the way they used to understand some Associated today with uh with uh gas liquid solid plasma energy some associated with uh positive force negative Force matter antimatter but even if you want to use the the the model that we use today with atams atams are the building blocks of all matter there's no d gashi That's not built through matter you must have you must have atoms are the building blocks literally if you take anything apart from the point of a pen to the point of a needle from a human being to a mountain from the ocean to the Sun from every cell in your body everything is made up of atoms right one of the biggest the biggest extraordinary wonders of the atom is that the atom has subatomic particles that all have to be held together there's what's called a nucleus of the atom protons neutrons that's called the nucleus the core and then you have the electrons that revolve around the nucleus most of the atom is empty space and everything has to be held together and the electrons are revolving with an extraordinary speed and naturally that it should disintegrate every single second and it's one of the greatest Plum that every single atom remains intact that's what he's saying it can't come from the atom itself it can't come from the proton from the neutron from the electron there has to be a you have to keep it together and you talking about forces that repel each other they repel each other they naturally they naturally are not attracted to each other they actually distance themselves from each other and nonetheless they keep it together and if this would stop for a moment kaput everything is kaput this sh also wouldn't happen this can't stop for moment and you're not talking about 10 atoms you're not talking about 100 atoms you're not talking about a billion you're not talking about a trillion you're not even talking about gazillion you're talking about numbers that we can't even begin to Fathom and that's even in the point of a needle Never mind take our entire planet and our universe it's it's not even and every atom has to be held together but that's not enough atoms have to be brought together to create what's called molecules an atom doesn't make matter it's atoms in the numbers that we have to now the atoms have to be healthy together in what's called a chemical compound in molecules that's a whole other inion and we know what happens when you split an atom yes yes yeah yeah so in science they talk about a strong nuclear force that holds the atom together a weak nuclear force electromagnetic force but it it it's it's unbelievable and it's all holding that soash is coming and saying this is a very very updated metaphor a very updated illustration if you're be all of matter the matter doesn't make the matter you need a it's holding it all together in Crazy even if it be one Adam it would be AES in crazy numbers and in every and it's with a complete system of Harmony because the Adam Works in Perfect Harmony so how could how could you deny this is a this is this is this is if we would if our eyes would be open when I would look at anything that's what I would see we don't even see the atams but I wouldn't even I would I would see the that's Mark of the atams he says our only sees the gashi now we have a gal for this because today we know that with a with a u with a microscope you see a whole different reality than what you see so the says if you would have Theus microscope yeah you would see the elus that's what you would see it's all elus nothing else we don't even see the atomic level we don't see the molecules we just see the we turn it all into a solid even though it's mostly empty space because our eyes have a way how to define reality we reduce reality to what our eyes it's it's the holes in the net that we spoke about the holes in the net our eyes have a certain way it detects reality and that's what we do to it and it works Works your so he says it just takes contemplation this this is not you don't have to be a PhD in cosmology this is all true but still practically this is all concealed and there's a concealment after a concealment to the point you could study the world you could know all this and you could reach a place where you say the river is mine I made myself it's all my energy and my strength but in the way of says the energy comes into pure darkness and this is back to that the conceals itself so deeply more and more and more and more concealed not only that it's finite not only that you don't see the bville even that is also a major tum that pre-creation everything was pure infinity and now everything is finite but at least you would know that it's God's energy creating the heaven creating the Earth creating the coffee beans creating the squirrel creating the mountains the oceans the Seas the canals the bushes and the shrubs that's that's all we're talking about at least that's and here you could talk about here it's I'm the boss I'm the only thing this is already a whole other reion this is that the concealment goes Higher and Higher and Higher and Higher to no end what does it mean to no end to the point that it's completely concealed complete darkness this is already the next stage is the way is trickles out in the world trickles through and reveals higher and higher higher here means more more concealed more concealed more concealed to no end to the fact that there's not even a trickle of light and in this world you can completely completely suppress and deny every lasting of and told me one is you don't see a and one is even more that you become the god that's that's the next level it's two stages one is you don't see and one is you become the god why this called this should be right so that we're going to see I already mentioned it in the previous class that the for the for the is a concealment but really it's the going back to the source of the that doesn't have to be present that's why it's called the we'll see that in the next SI on this comes the last ice of the the second to the last I and that for this we have to go not to Earth for this we have to go to Atmos till now we was speaking about and now for this he's going to go back to that in the there was no for this you have to go back toos and that's going to be the next if where he's going to tackle the last the last what's the called the last um huh the last Fortress of the enemy the last Fortress of the enemy is the concealment itself till now we were talking all in [Music] now he says it's all good but in life there's a whole different reality and in every person's life there's a different reality means there's moments you could say there's an abandonment wound right but in the abandonment wound if you go deeper you could say it's a Growing Experience there's capacity I'm growing capacity we all know there's moments in life abandoned where it's all abandonment sure a person could preach to you that it's not but we're talking here energetically that's what he's addressing now where you feel means you feel you're all alone you have to become God how abandoned do you have to feel in order to become God imagine a baby at one week old has to decide he is his mother how tragic is that you know we look at atheism more like in a judgmental way this but think about it from the form of emotional pain what that is imagine a one week old baby is so abandoned he has to decide that he's his mother how painful is that is the great tragedy you see that's why that's that's you know this differ from but here the real the tragedy of that's the the of is a tragedy atheism is a tragedy yeah you're also a but that's besides the point you're a sh because you're in a tragic situation right it's not so it's not about judgment it's really what's the how much pain do you have to have how much abandonment to think that you are your own mother imagine the baby the worst thing that can happen to a baby thinks he's his own mother that's that that's that's the re that's the real pain and forget about a week and what about a month old baby and a year old baby and a 2-year-old baby where you decide you have to be a mother H and an 18-year-old baby and even a 60-year-old baby the dog has to run the house the dog feels it has to run the house and here it a innocent pure baby that thinks I have to not only that I don't have a mother I am the mother you understand I don't have a mother I could be in pain I don't know where my mother is that's one level here it's I become the mother how painful that that baby needs to become the mother in its own Consciousness and now it has to fake that it's the mother how how crazy does it become and how lonely is it and how broken and how much value does it feel it has so theb is teaching us the a is how much abandonment does he have and how much value can you really believe you have when you don't have a God who believes in you cuz you are your own God how much pain is there in that you understand the pain of atheism it's a whole it's a whole it's a whole deeper V it's not the it's much deeper than that yeah it's it's it's it's the ultimate wound so he says T through his bonness you could see that everything is Aus but that's not what we experience in this world and psychologically we have those moments where you could say this is just this is just too much exactly before you get to the ab yeah so you have the abandonment you could say you know it's a growing experience but then you have moments of Abandonment where it's just it's so concealed there's no end to the concealment and the of the is that it's so this is the last step in this cuz here you're not talking anymore about is all in here he's talking about the the the way it comes out not in the way it comes out in for this there's no mush of a teacher and a student as I told you the student is is getting something from the teacher he's getting very little but he's getting so here you tell me that it's here he doesn't feel he's getting anything huh so this is the lasta of the where he's going to go from Earth and this is why we're going to understand why it's called why it's going up okay B we'll continue tomorrow morning 7:45 everybody have a beautiful and meaningful day h