Basi L'Gani 5725 #5: Life Is Beautiful | The Revolution of Chassidus on Tzimtzum/Abandonment

okay so we're up to the fifth she in we learned last uh when was it last Thursday Friday Sunday and Tuesday yesterday was the fourth she today will be the fifth and in this cont of bani we are on page the second paragraph the middle of chapter three of the m page you see the second paragraph on the page The Source sheets are posted on the usa.net if anybody wants to retrieve it later okay so this series of B is dedicated and may their uh Legacy and light continue to inspire their family the communities and all of us and the Jewish people the series is also dedicated by David by Esra D Phillip a dear friend in honor of the Reb who said my and all of his for creating a revolution in the world to bring now thank you very much to the dedicators we appreciate it thank you for your partnership so I'm traveling today so there's going to be a break in sh will resume in two weeks so that's going to be uh February 4 okay B resum will'll announce it and hopefully we'll be able to finish the M because that chabas ISAT so I hope to finish the MIM that week and there will be a big in here in 24 upstairs everybody's invited it's also going to be live streamed in honor of the 75th yard site of the reats who passed away Tak that's when the mayani was given out and 75 years of the Reb's leadership so that's going to bees the 10th of okay so let's now continue inside yesterday was a somewhat of a complex year and the one who gave it himself didn't have didn't have complete clarity and it was a little bit of jumping ahead because he starts off in the beginning of like with with really a punch the punch line that you only appreciate at the end so now you know he starts up with the claw it has to be unraveled and then come back to the claw you know this claw PR to claw you start off with the you go into the details then you come back to the claw and you can appreciate it much with more clarity but just to just so if you didn't understand yesterday at least a lot of it first of all you're in good company and second of all it's hard it was it was hard it was difficult because the things were just in Auda without without explanation but what what what did what did we learn we learned that the said that taught that when theel speaks about the Tsum the words are the Tsum and the all the contractions or all the concealments are in the light of and the definition of the word o is not not the source of the light or what's called inos The Essence and over there even though you have everything but it's in a state called potentiality so the words of and actually filled reality those are words that apply to light which could be manifested and present and revealed in a state of hisus expansiveness and Revelation and therefore there can also be tum the antithesis of that the concealment the suspension the opposite of isos the opposite of expansiveness but in the in the you don't say it its presence in its own it's present in its own pristine undefined form and therefore it's also not contracted or concealed and on this alar Reb uses the language in as he brings and that that even after postum everything the May there was no whatsoever the whole concept of doesn't apply to May and therefore as he puts it even children which represents the concept of the child no and we say no it doesn't mean knowledge you know yeah they read it somewhere that or somebody fed it to them means there's an experience there's a relationship like right there's an intimate experience of Hashem and what does mean Hashem Hashem is not a certain world or a certain sphere or a certain energy or even light it's the essence as is which has no definition has no description and uses the the name of Heaven is common in the mouth of everybody that that is what to everybody that's Atmos that's the mo so the way you take with the way the if we trace the Earth the light back to the source which is the moer which is Atmos over there you speak about you don't speak about as a manifested reality which is revealed and therefore can also be concealed so over there the whole experience of Tsum is not there the whole the whole discussion of Tsum is only when you talk about now we still need a lot of explanation what's exactly the difference what does it mean is it just semantics and what are the ramifications of this both in terms of ideas and in and but that's the first you say he said in gim so now he goes to the next step now he actually starts talking about the there was a we said there was a but here's going to come the whole and I'm just going to say again what I said but we're not going to and this is now going to start unraveling with different explanations on different levels that ultimately since the the light is really what's a light light means revealing the source of the light transmitting the source of the light so the true meaning of light is to reflect to to to bring out to be Malala to reveal that which is the Mayer right that's what light is through light I can see you the light that you emit allows me what to perceive the source of the light that came from that Source that's what light is light is your Gil it's the revelation huh a derivative so to speak a derivative yeah a derivative of the source that's why it's called which comes from the m m generates the light the light of the sun communicates on some level the sun yeah we all understand there's much more to the Sun than the ray that comes into my house but it does communicate it does communicate again to some degree the Sun so that that's what real is and what's the purpose of it the purpose of it is that there should be able to be a relationship between me and the thing that I See the Light allows me to be able to perceive to experience that which is emitting this light that that thing that Source doesn't remain completely self-contained in its own bubble so to speak in its own confinement and its own identity but rather there is there is a relationship I can experience you first thing is I could see you that's already I experience you I can see you I can relate to you you become relatable in other words is the source of relationships really is relational in spiritual terms is what makes you Rel relatable to me there's a relationship created so all is about connection connection with the other with the outside you in your you know the the sun doesn't need the light to know about the Sun so to speak if we would speak about sun in terms of Consciousness like you I don't have to look oh wow I have so much light you know it's also true with people it's important sometimes we judge ourselves based on the ray that somebody else is getting like it's not how he's supposed to know yourself like you know I once told you with the tree right the tree doesn't look at the peach and say oh people oh you like the peach oh I have some value as much as there is in the peach there's so much more in the tree that produce that peach and all the other peaches that are going to come from hopefully hundreds of years so when the whole value of the tree is reduced to the fact that oh you like my peach okay I'll I'll continue to exist it's tragic when the moer needs to get its validation from the fact that somebody perceived the and said oh there's something here huh yeah of course the the the the sun doesn't need the sun I appreciate the ray very much and it's amazing and I'm sure the son appreciates that I appreciate the Reay I'm just using that as as a metaphor but you understand the concept the doesn't need the to be able to say oh there's something here the mo is the mo itself but outside here on planet Earth we certainly appreciate light that gives us a little that gives us the energy it gives us the vitamins it gives us the nutrients it gives us the heat it gives us the energy that the sun provides which is of course we thank if we thank we thank for it every single day a whole special the first before that deals with because of how essential it is to life and that's the that we get that hem gives through the Sun or through the other or through the other sources of [Music] light that's true that's true that becomes a struggle when when I'm I'm looking for the feedback to find out how much value I have cuz then the Meer becomes instead of being the source of the light the Meer is looking to be a recipient of the light so it's like funny you're generating the light and then you're looking for the feedback you think there's any value to this so feedback is important the gamar says I learned a lot from my teachers more from my friends and from my students I learned more than everybody so that's an amazing idea huh thank you in other words the feedback the questions the debates right the rejections you learn from more than anybody more than teachers and more than friends from teachers you received from Friends he received they received but from the receivers he got much more because the challenge the stimulation it's called the that comes back you know the that comes back to you is more powerful but over there it's that you reach a much deeper space through that communication what I'm describing emotionally is when a person's entire identity is based on the student is a dangerous thing because then the teacher is not a teacher then the teacher is the student when the teacher is a teacher he really receives a lot from the students but he's looking to find out who he is based on that then he is the ultimate student so then I don't even know if he's ma from them this inion that he's supposed to be ma from them he's not ma from them yeah you're right there's certainly major differences between the and the of course there's a lot a lot of difference between so what's going to be the of don't cannot say from or except the that it's basically the or it's has nothing right from the you know that it emits such a property that emits yeah very good from the you know that the sun is or whatever the source is is a property that emits and emits this type of versus another source which will emit a different type of whatever its property is yeah very well said so s when we speak about it in spiritually and more abstract terms what we're going to understand here is that if the could be traced back to the source so if you saying the source there was no simp in the M there was NOS so ultimately the is going to be in the there was aim that's the whole point but when they say what it means is that because I'm just saying it I'm explaining it because I can't what really means is not like people think in the there was no in the was but not as bad as you think that's not the is much more abstract it's more subtle it's the words we use but the real concept is like this that the way the is expressed in and the way we perceive it which is why it's called light versus The Source remember here we're not talking about a physical property where there's a sun and there's the light of the sun it's all conceptual so why you making this distinction between Hashem and the light of hm like right always says who he is one what do we start making what do you want right before you start learning so there's one God and now suddenly there's the and then there's the there's and there's this level and that level I thought there was one and now suddenly there's like 100 billion and 100 billion is just the beginning huh I so main you're talking about you're talking about his his his troops but he talking about of course the is of course you're talking about one it's all one so the reason we distinguish between all these in order to be able to appreciate a little bit of the Oneness in order to appreciate a little bit of the winess you right Oneness you right away have to distinguish between your experience of the reality and reality as long as we don't make that distinction then we reduce the Oneness to a very small we reduce it to a very small experience of it yeah yeah yeah the mo the the the the the the first prerequisite to appreciate the true Oneness is to understand that my experience of reality is my experience of the reality which is important it's called it's called the communication of the reality and that's a difference between May so the whole idea of is the way it's perceived and experienced and transmitted and that becomes a foundational idea yeah so if that's the case ultimately what we want to say is when we speak about the words it means the way the world and reality could be experienced in the beginning of the process we call it ssum but really means that the is here to create ultimate fusion and unity and synthesis and Oneness but in a way that is truly integrated with you and the world cuz that's the whole purpose and therefore that Ultimate Reality we say in there was no is really saying there was no what do you mean but there was a there was no there was a no not could you decide what you want to say was not what do you want for me like what's not say what you want there was no was no fine that's what I mentioned yester all these levels are simply ways of experiencing life and unraveling unraveling like the mushel to see what is inside the mus until you reach the point understanding and when the can ultimately be United with its source which in other words means when we find out who we are and we realign ourselves with our source we learn that even the tum that we perceived was and there for ultimately the state of the is true about all of reality that's the preview of of where you get but just to say these words okay you want to say say whatever you want I mean fine because the word is it's not it's not the of saying it's the experience of it and that's where art comes in so the B and the maget as I mentioned yesterday after the she yeah they they they went straight to moer and that's what the B said you can have garments and garments and garments and garments it's all the ALF in one garment another garment but in the tough you can go back to the source and the mag said it's it's two halves of one hole and the whole point of all the Tsum and everything was there should be unity in other words don't take the Tsum seriously take it seriously but don't take it seriously at face value take it seriously as an opport for yeah usually the word simum right away means separation there's a gulf there's a dissonance the real you is gone like what I have is I don't know it's like fake news as it's fake news maybe it's real news but it's very diminished it's very diluted simum means separation what does the word ssum mean simum means your contracted all I get is a filtered dumbed down minimal reflection of a reflection of a reflection of reflection a reflection it's like okay you know it's not the real deal hopefully it's the fake deal even hopefully it's even a deal that's comes the mag and says no tum is really a TA it's all there for Unity that's what it is what do you mean you just if you want real Unity so why you limiting yourself why you concealing yourself why is there so much Darkness why is there struggle why is there dissonance why is there separation so the says that's the truth about simps it's all and therefore behind everything is K which is love now in order to explain this and when I say explain I don't mean only explain it intellectually that too but really to explain it energetically to be able to experience this in the way the and the meant so for this right away introduces this that when you're speaking about it's only a not in that means in there was no how does that help anybody that helps anybody because that means the whole ssum happened only in the perception and the experience of May in order that the O should be able to ultimately bring you to that place where there's no Tsum but this time it should happen through the so that it could be communicated to you in other words the words of the should be the Tsum is not for separation it's to create Unity why does the ssum create unity and the answer is that the whole ssum ultimately is there to be able to allow for the embodiment and the visceral experience of divine INF undefined Oneness within the world and within the human experience not in a way that burns up the world and consumes it and you cease to exist then you can go back to pre-creation no problem you don't have to have a Tsum the reason you need a simum is not to separate but to unite why do you have to unite because since since we spoke in the previous classes I think the second class that deeper than anything including logic is is the desire the love for the relationship and that's the ultimate vulnerability both from God and man that you're a that's very big stuff in other words I'm lonely without you and that's very very profound emotionally because you know people struggle and sensitive people struggle more and when the person really gets it that at the core of all the struggle there's a loneliness there's a fear so I blame this one and I blame this one that was abandonment here and abandonment here and fear of Abandonment and rejection and everybody's story plays itself out I don't know a life that didn't experience abandonment but really what the mag is teaching is what's the source of your abandonment the real Source it plays itself out through people that's just that that's part of the Tsum that you blame this one that one that one that one that one mommy TTI Brothers sister whatever Soviet Russia you wanted to ask to feel how how is it to be lonely uh so at the core of it is that your soul and even your body Miss God that's what it is you miss you miss Hashem flat out it goes back to the very simple vulnerable child who misses may take me 80 years to figure the out you understand I I don't mean figure it out into Le truly somebody could say it I mean to to experience but that's really what it is that's what it is it plays itself out through so many different ways so the mag I'm I'm giving you the code and the whole syum was to be able to create back this you're half and when you're a half you're missing you're missing something and it's painful in many ways our abandonment you said well teaches us about God's abandonment without us his loneliness my loneliness can teach me about his loneliness because it's like a mirror you mirror each other so my loneliness is his loneliness yeah it's referring to the it was he could not be alone that's what he Tes it's not just whenever it says it's the the ultimate [Music] the first time it says in is that is the a that happens from the from the resistance from the Tsum the simum creates a k is like I'm against you that's Tsum tum is going against them it's creating resistance concealment that's the a it's tension yinan yeah yeah the tension cono is the a everybody ask is she a is she con is the wife here to help you is she here to fight you that's a big question in life right which one is she so sometimes depends on the day sometimes depends on this mat but is saying something deep that the deepest a for the ultimate is from the K from theim because that creates the and takes him out of L so your loneliness mirror is his his loneliness mirror is yours when when a person sins and he he experiences what happened which is usually not when he sinned because if he would experience it he wouldn't sin yeah but when he experiences it there's no question as the says because the the abandonment creates a much deeper search and therefore the deeper the abandonment the deeper is the I would be able to see you in Holiness the way I saw you when I was thirsty in desert that had no water that when I come back I won't forget the passion the child that experienced abandonment there the Sim the enthusiasm of reuniting and reconnecting with yourself there's no sim like that in the world why cuz all the pain and the terror you went through become part of the experience of the you understand that's it says in t the says in that when we do out of love the sins become who understood about was about he says when you sin and you do TR out of love the sins become doesn't make sense understand yeah have a beautiful sad he never sinned so his a don't become mitz he doesn't have a this guy is about his whole life then he does and suddenly all every time he at it becomes aah the very upset at that he doesn't understand he gives a whole TI it's not what means he means about because of the guilt he does extra mitv to compensate but says that's not what say say is a whole different over there it's yeah very good very good because what happens is the negativity itself when it's re oriented into an aspiration a a yearning the more sick the more the love the more thirst the more the of drinking the water the authenticity and the depth and the power of the reunification after such distance and abandonment is unparalleled it's like somebody who doesn't have ear and suddenly you give them oxygen it's a different type of breathing then it's K it's every breath most of us we take our breathing for granted yeah you inhal you exhaled you understand what just happened you inhaled you exhaled you understand what that took that you should be able to okay next time to breathe again I don't have time it's time for breakfast but this person I'll call nim Nima so here so here the the the dysfunction itself the abandonment itself becomes the greatest impetus and Catalyst for unparalleled devotion and vacas and connection you see this experientially with a person you said you know think of the hostage the hostage coming back to his mother her mother after being in AIM this week three hostages came back yeah what what what's the experience says he says there's no in the world like the of when it comes back from a place of but for this two things have to happen you have to experience the prison if Darkness becomes ganaden then that's the tragedy and that's really the abandonment in this world the abandonment in this world is that I don't feel that abandon I blame this one I blame that one I need more money I need a bigger house I need I need this I need that I blame it on everything besides the fact that it's the mid was just cracking the code he's going to say you could deal with every problem you have let me just tell you the source of all the anxiety and as long as you don't deal with this you're not dealing with it everything else is a manifestation and it could be that sometimes certain Souls maybe chose to go through more abandonment so they should be able to experience in a much deeper way huh and then they forget about they exp and ultimately ultimately the soul never forgets about it the soul never forgets about it so it goes through all of these processes and then the Soul is really not a victim like we look at it like look what I went through I went through this and this and this and it's true and in a certain level you may be a real victim on a soul level it may be the exactly the design that the soul chose in order to be able to experience the and the oness that it needed to experience it went through thisum remember tum is also a personalized custom made experience it's not just one ssum for everybody you know one one size fits all no no no no there's the simpish the big ssum but the way it actualizes and manifests everyone has their own ssum their own form of Detachment dissonance abandonment loneliness confinement everyone has a different Sims custom made simsim for you C for me everything is this is all based on [Laughter] the this is not something you can preach this is not this is not even with even with that money you can't preach this this is an experience but but but everyone the mag says let's crack the code the purpose of all the was not separation it was Unity so I'll sell you I don't need your honey and I don't need your bite stop giving me your and stop giving me your let's be one without so the mag is saying the Oneness will not be Oneness it won't be real Oneness we won't be able to experience yeah the Oneness that truly is integrated to the point that it's that the two halves become one and each one is half so as as important as it is him it's also important you I'm asking why it's a good question if he's a and he could do everything thing so figure out a better way make make a Ferris wheel instead of a roller coaster so the moment we start going into pure logic as I always say we're going to get stuck here and the reason is not because we can't philosophize all day about it we could but back to that line that I once said from the of said once you get the relationship so SE becomes a tool but only a limited tool because this level of the relationship you can't understand it you don't need to understand it you don't even want to understand it because SE itself was created after this in other words says right he's a guarantor for the loan he himself needs guarantor you know he himself went bankrupt yesterday so this guy becomes the the problem is nobody trusts him is going to come and say you understand the is the expert right I have a good question on you however you want to call him and it's good is doing its job it thinks the only problem is SE was also created so we come back to why is there a why why good question wonderful but I have a better question yeah why does something that makes sense make more sense than something that doesn't make sense you know like somebody once said why so somebody answered because so he got an A minus the student who got an A+ is why why not you understand the difference why not but well has to make sense who created sense so that's why logic will take us to a an important place but it stops logic says I can't go walk into that door I have a limit so you read in ultimately I don't know I don't know but it's also experientially we know that even in yourself even if you understand everything about your life it's not going to make your life easier let's say let huh let's say the most brilliant person let's say God himself right can give you a whole mathematical why it had to be that way that's not where the issue is the issue is not a for sure the peace needs to be made in the soul in the heart the mind is a big part of it but it's a part of it it's not the so so so so so so what what becomes in the so so what was I saying here before you before you asked the question uh huh ah the mag is Rich so the ultimate at the core of everything is yeah and it's it's in other words you could say this from a place of Simplicity and even some people will say it's you know illiteracy and lack of sophistication but the mag is saying this at the end of everything in other words you can go through everything and he's say ultimately you you miss Hashem you miss hem is a and it misses yeah it misses it and it's it's it's the deepest pain because this is the deepest Oneness that is there's no deeper Oneness even the Oneness of a mother and a child which you can't even describe is a derivative of this oness this is the deepest Oneness so imagine the pain of the mother without the child and the pain of the child abandoned from the mother which happens constantly but often subconscious because the child doesn't know how to interpret it and then he blames himself for the abandonment right and that's what happens in life a whole time but at the core of everything is the Tsum which created the perception of Abandonment or at least separation so when the mag comes and says all of this was for to be able to reconnect those are big words so the mag and the B spoke as nuclear energy they were malal this is this is it they were malal energetically the brought into the world the experience of he saw it and you saw it you and Sh felt it and that's how it changed the Jewish world he lost his parents now the B could talk about this because on on in late terms he experienced ultimate abandonment or to put it simply you'll forgive me the should have been a psychological mess cuz even after he lost his parents you would think they took him in they took care of him they couldn't keep him in any any we did the B to spend most of his most most of his time in forests and he said in forests animals don't lie he likes it in the forest cuz nobody lies so that showed you how he healed from there was you would think the B should be a real trauma victim his father died his mother died no relatives and he was throwing out he couldn't integrate so he grew up in the forest so to speak so certainly okay you could say a lot of people went through tragedies but certainly I don't know how you say it in English suddenly the B he brought back the smile to existence a battered person and it would make sense and like so many people were battered the B's age in Jewish history was one of the worst in terms of just it was just endless misery even if you weren't murdered yeah to have bread on the table was a miracle so the that inside that the gullas was getting so long every hope they had was shattered it was right after the sh the back was one of the worst things because they really trusted even Raam thought he was Messiah it was a disaster right after tat 1648 1649 which till the Holocaust was the worst Since By by sh talking about hundreds of thousands of Jews murder just murdered what happened October 7th was a little reflection of uh of what happened in the and thousands the way they did it I mean it's not for now but safer from from yeah what is it and that's that's that's globally Collective individually there was also tremendous suffering there was no social like the gas got to them and as as as it's as was literally he started to bring he brought in the it was a it was a he gave a foraste that's what he did he didn't what did he say he didn't give people money he didn't give them physical power he didn't heal all the cows to give amazing milk but he transformed he transformed with his presence what did he do he started to heal the Tsum he started to heal the Tsum he revealed the Mia inside of people the G is in you the used to say G is D and gas is does it's a state of consciousness so this is what he started to and when the mag says the whole is for just think about it when a person felt this what that did it put you in a different space you were a free person you were unified you were infinite you defined your circumstances rather than your circumstances defined you but by the it's all like an energy literally like an energy like an explosion of spiritual nuclear energy wanted that all this should be integrated viscerally on every level of self that means your mind and more importantly from the mind the heart and the nervous system and the body that's called so therefore he gives he gives if I could use the word the mathematical equation of the B and the maget huh yeah no the language why is that important stop language look thing is the energy because it's the integration that is the whole key the whole point if you don't need integration then you don't need the whole thing then go back to the source else is good not so much micro and micro but but but but let's put it this way if the is not experienced on every f asset of your being then it's if it's only existed on a more inspirational level that the soul feels it at certain moments it's amazing but the embodiment of it and the visceral experience of it to be able to breathe that for this I must employ my mind my heart my identity in all of its in intricacies and complexities but not get stuck always go back to the all it's not real not it's not real it's real it's real but you need to know what is its realness what is its real is its realness a story of Woe and grief or is its realness a story of love and Oneness and that's a very deep deep difference is it a story of Woe Is it a story of sadness of Despair at the end of the day is it a story of ultimately despondency and Melancholy which makes sense and I'll tell you something interesting I'm not going to elaborate on it you know when you go through Jewish history you and even till today you listen to different teachers different sages you read over the generations you could see a subtle distinction I'm talking about people who are God-fearing who are committed to Y I'm not talking about you know Jews are interesting people you'll you'll be able to feel if you're especially sensitive to streams one is a stream that ultimately there's a deep despair at the core of everything there's a dispair it's very subtle because ultimately a Jew has but there's still a certain a certain despair or maybe a little bit of Abandonment or a little bit of disassociation in other words as the B would put it the the trauma of gas got to us even though way you talk about you talk about you talk about there's a certain dispar at the core of it huh and even if intellectually I'll tell you it's all not brutality and sism but experientially there's a certain sof there's dissonance right the B's presence we wanted to heal all of that and that's what you experience that's what made that revolution of is what it was people ask what happened exactly it healed the rupture in the deepest core and in language of the language and what does that mean it means that in the there was no in other words there's complete Oneness but complete Oneness means that you're part of it doesn't mean body besides me yeah I was telling somebody you know uh I mean we always talk about right that you're good you're good you're holy he says no not me when you say you're not that means Noto M right you're somehow the sore thumb that sticks out in the universe that God says oh you're lost but I'm the exception that's really the ultimate arrogance insecurity and shame is really the ultimate arrogance it's maybe your arrogance and shame also have a limit maybe your evil also has edges right maybe your trauma has edges it's not anoid but trauma doesn't want to say that trauma wants to say anoid m there's nothing outside of my despair it looks humble but it's really it's really theum celebrating not as that's so but what does mean means the essence fine God I can't tell hem what to do hasm knows what he's doing there's no fine what he's trying to say how does get experienced by you how is the that we call so when we say means ultimately the truth about the can be experienced on every level even in Earth so why are we talking about because that is how you work with you work with a perception and experience of blockages and what could be perceived as darkness and disassociation and abandonment on every level and there and from there and in there you find the ultimate you this is in yeah reite that's the V you're asking is it possible to reunite so the mag says not only it's possible every simum is a stepping stone for unification you whenever you think of Tsum in terms of Separation he's saying you're only getting the outer camouflage mask it's a stepping stone we you seeum it's just a stepping tone to get back it's a ladder it's a step in the ladder a step in the ladder can take you downwards or can take you upwards depends how you look at it I could look at the step of the ladder and say oh you want me to fall down you want me to go down or oh this is the way up great now I don't mean any of this to be philosophical and intellectual that's not the point here we could sit and talk about Jewish Philosophy for many years and it's fun and it's good and it's and there beautiful that's not the philosophy is part of it's more disassociated everything is like rational there's a place for it there's a place I mean you had the the great philosophers you know and and Al and of course but the r you see was a tremendous everything was but at the core of it at the core of it the said that this that to learn ra is because the's rationality is's rationality is a cover it's a cover for experience of God you see when starts talking about his relationship with hem suddenly this man is no rationalist people like to make the ram this cold intellectual rationalist who figured things out they even read a historian a wrote that the real R is a and very skeptical about everything he's so meticulous says that was Nostalgia for his father and grandfather he liked his the homie tradition the was one person he wasn't a fragmented personality so you see he describes what love to God is philosophers don't experience that love to God that he describes in when he speaks about how people have crushes on on women they think about it 24/7 and when they go when they eat and when they drink he says they can stop thinking about it they're overwhelmed that's only a bad musle for what real looks like where did he get this type of thing whenever the you see that the is a cover for for Spiritual I told you from Aristotle and the r Aristotle the more philosophy the more Brilliance the more arrogance and the ram the more Brilliance the more B cuz his Brilliance and his philosophy was just it was a stepping stone that simp was ath to now the doesn't talk about that's all I'm just saying doesn't talk I'm just using that as a mush so everything what what the is telling us is every ofum energetically is a way of you reaching your ultimate now think about this what that means in life every n of Abandonment that you experienced or experience consciously and even more subconsciously because the bigger tum is what we don't know then what know right what we know we have some form of understanding what we don't know is like oh my God that real re's Havoc every challenge the big challenges the small challenges our entire journey of Life which so much of it comes with [Music] pain willingly unwillingly by people who meant well by people who didn't mean well by people who just what do they say they did the best they can with the tools they had they wre Havoc but they did the best they can with the tools they had that's all manifestation of Tsum in one way it's all God's Oneness and love being concealed however you want to spin it comes the and is teaching us that every there is somehow your path to so you're like really that's your Redemption who what are you talking about now if you can experience this what it's it's a life Cher If you can experience this and this is not experiencing by bypassing saying we have a everything hasem does is good it's good it's good it's good it's good it's true it's good but that's it's good over there in you'll see that it's good now I'm going to be a miserable person in this world huh yeah this is a pror the this this is the main thing is the track forget about the pr don't hang out in the airport for too long you have to hang out in the airport for 100 years okay get yourself a seat try to get a seat in the lounge but if not you know don't worry the airport is not the destination even the plane is not the destination business class imagine imagine yeah people compete their whole life right business class or economy class so the highest I can get is business class in life but NE I'm stuck in a imagine your whole life right you're on a plane the question is those of us who are successful and make make it you're in business class but you know what it is to be your whole life I go on planes a lot sometimes I'm to get business class I could sleep a little bit on the plane so it's very nice but as that this is you understand what I'm saying sometimes our what what Comfort is What happiness what Prosperity is NE is like it's it's such a it's such a uh it's such a poor poor poor poor reflection of of what the human being isum and its ultimate manifestation that my great great experience of AR is I'm a stuck stuck somewhere but you know what I have another few inches in my seat and I could go back like a bed everybody should have a good bed when you fly you should be able to sleep but that's aband that's abandonment that's abandonment when you're saying the Mur was no simum it means that your destination is not to stay on an airplane and get another 10 Ines see it's fine get another 10 inches everybody and everything we're not afraid of that's also you could be says you know a beautiful home and when the D of a real is so what does the say is so when you have but that's because it's in your experience of who you really are not in in a dumb down version the differ or de yeah so if I want to if I want to if I want to speak a little radically if I want to speak a little radically I would say I would say that the of the which is the the ultimate treasure that he says was given in order to achieve the ultimate victory of the G of Mia is that is a code word it's a code word it's a it's I don't want to call it a mathematical equation because it's from it's and it's so I don't want to use the word mathematics cuz that's just a branch of wisdom but it's really a code word for something much deeper just like the whole ssum is a code word for so in itself is saying is a code word for really saying there was no but if I say there was no tum fine I don't you know you know so fine so let's stop at all the classes and let's just bypass and you know Z and you know we use the word simpon because we have to work it through spiritually energetically psychologically physically or in other words it has to be embodied and when you embody things that you can't bypass them because it's not embodied bypassing means it's not embodied it's Mak it's superficial I may be touching something truth in bypassing but but I'm not there and the self comes back to haunt you with a Vengeance you bypass me when I wake up I'm going to take revenge the neam is going to come back and going to wreak havoc and that's why people have Heights of inspiration and the next day do they have a low down a that they didn't even imagine the day after I don't want to use that word because that's a that's a serious diagnostic condition but my point is whenever we bypass I think I thought this from how does the whole end the whole say right with you go according to the end the end you know it's the punch line the last so the end of is what don't go up to the steps you need a ramp why cu the theen had short pans like what we call I remember was I was a kid that was he was describing what the country say he said a guy sends me a picture from the country yeah how did said it he's dressed in the pants of a the whole crowd burst out laughing everybody understood he says but why did he send me the picture what am I supposed to do with this picture he was describing that applies everywhere unifor uniformly in the summer winter wherever you are so since they had of the the so when you go up on step so it's steep so the pens go up a little bit so it's not so as dick so but you go on a ramp so it's a much it's it's it's a more uh gradual elevation that's what the pa and those are the last words how is that the end of the is you saw such Revelation what's the natural instinct fly up to the run up run up to the what are you staying downstairs huh one Leap one Leap and you're there what do you need to go with the speed of light you got to see the light you got to see everything yeah we're not we're done with hearing we see so run up so the end of go up gradually you know why when you run up it's amazing your soul ran up even if it was genuine not talking about if it was inauthentic we're talking about it was genuine you ran up but what's going to happen happen is in four weeks you're going to wake up one morning and someone is going to say something to you usually somebody very close in your life and it's going to trigger you very very deeply and you're going to say what whoa what I thought I became a Mal overnight and if you're an honest person you become so disillusioned and you could fall down very low and what happens suddenly this G suddenly we see parts of you that you yourself never dealt with and it's the opposite so he says when you're running up to the m remember that you have an AA just remember it as thear says whenever people stop denying their humanness they usually become dangerous unless they're really Angels you understand halite don't become to me AES KES KES I want a holy human being why is that so important first of all it's important because if you're in denial of your humanness you're going to fall you know men who think that don't apply to them because they're spiritual Saints and we know the results of that that's on one level and it's true in every experience like but there's also something deeper and that is even even if you could detach on that level the whole kav is embodiment the whole kav is it should permeate you and that's where the integration comes in and that's why we use the word simum as a code word for where your mission and work is but what's the truth the truth is there was NOS but if we say the words there was no simum then we're undoing everything so don't create the world don't tell me there was no you want to stay in my fine but you told me you want me so you want is the relationship you understand how it comes together so the way how do we use the words notum in a way that it's not bypassing the answer is the code word is really means there was no so just say that I can say that because if I say that I'm denying you and if I delegitimize your experience I delegitimize God's experience you understand huh it's a it's a partnership it's If you deny one half you're not only denying the half you're taking away from Hashem his half too his other half so that's very deep it's not just you're doing Injustice to you you're doing Injustice to the source and therefore it's not going to work you said it's she you know why it's she It's Not Just sh the way a therapist might say because you have to be honest with your craziness and your insanity and your wounds it's much deeper than that it's she because it's it's forem also because he needs your Sur too you understand if you're cutting away You're amputating the half Sur called me cuz his only God you just deprived him from the me which makes up Adam there's no Adam anymore and so it's a whole new is the doesn't want to be including don't amputate the from the Al and what's blood or other The Human Experience so is the code word of to reveal that the and there's no in the Mayer that ultimately that's where everybody is heading that's the pus of of of life that's the pus of existence so here you don't amputate anything there's nothing you're afraid of there's nothing you deny there's nothing you bypass on the other hand there's no depression there's no Melancholy there's no disassociation ultimately it's all part of a tensil it's part of a dance it's a symphony there's hope there's love there's Bliss at the core the Bliss includes grief because without feeling the abandonment you won't feel the AK so Bliss includes grief compassion empathy and a lot of tears but at the core of the tears there's the soul and the body reuniting with the ultimate source where there's complete love and that's why the ultimate healing of all the trauma in our generation is going to happen through and even the tools that we use outside because sometimes you need techniques and tools and it's all very helpful if it's done in a proper way and by people who get it and not just as a trip to escape But ultimately the pimus of all the healing in it deepest place that's that's the mag one the whole is not about separation it's about Yeah by itself yeah there was no tum in the why is that so important cuz that means there was no tum in the Earth how was your relationship because by God there's no distinction it's not like God is okay this is my source this is my light okay my light you don't get my source you do get what hasem has like a 100 parts and are just terms like everything else when people start learning these things they get stuck in words they think you have to completely writes the was very cautious about people learning cabala why he says most people who learn cab don't know they don't know how to abstract things from their physical Incarnation so what what so hard to understand tell everybody it's not physical what's the big deal that's not what the B meant you could tell everybody it's not physical what he meant phys what used to call physical is not what we call physical we call physical versus spiritual by the B to physical means you turn it into an entity even if it's spiritual that's also GM GM means says doesn't mean you're arrogant it means your your spirituality is is coarse you understand the V it's a whole different V when you learn cabala yeah and even if you're learning it without there's no there's no levels there's no M there's no thousand pieces in God we once learning with so he was talking about all the levels you know before after somebody was getting confused so he said isn't it interesting before you learn you thought there was one God now suddenly he started to learn the whole is to explain and suddenly there's like one million parts of God there's oh my God we learn we how many gods did you give me God created heaven and earth that's it no but isim is and Sh is this level and edit is this level and Al right that's all because that's what the B was worried about it's all like taking it as entities there's this and there's this and there's this there's and there's May and it's two separate creatures and now and it's very confusing for people because they're not tyus it becomes like another discipline where you're playing with words like mathematics yeah yeah and the worst is you distance it from your own experience it's habal it's like figuring out like Puzzles it's like Puzzles you know you're mixing this piece with that piece you know the matching puzzles you have to remember which piece so it's like okay oh this flew in here this flew in here you're dissecting it you're taking apart the whole so we always have to remember one thing the reason talks about so many m is really but explains it is to be able to experience just like the mag says the whole is for all the levels to be able to experience why because when you just say hasem is one okay Hashem is one but I'm triggered where does that translate Hashem is one but I'm having a pretty bad day Hashem is one but I'm struggling in my marriage Hashem is one but I'm struggling with my understand so yeah hasem is one so you can say he knows what he's doing but the whole of was that should be embodied I'm going to use the words if you haven't heard that word yet for me so for this you experienced so what's the first thing we have to deal with what's your experience of God and your experience of God is never God it's your experence experience of God we can't even experience light in its full Majesty so the Thousand madas we're talking about is a thousand different perceptions and possible experiences of God and now can we actually heal them and bring them back to the truth and that's the holy of okay here's my Ray God says okay my Ray conceal Tsum it's like he labels my put into the box of Tsum my out of the box of it's all code language and the code language is is the way it is in its Essence has everything to do with relationships o is relational so o is where you come into the picture over there you must have Tsum you know why you must have Tsum because you're dealing with stuff cuz you're a human being you're not a I'm not born a I am born a but I don't know it let's put it that way more than I don't know it I don't experience it I experience everything the opposite of me being a you wouldn't be aband you wouldn't feel abandoned if you were a so if you tell me there was no Tsum so so what do you want me to do with me what what should I do you want me to disappear fine I'll disappear disappear so people do that they disappear called dead dead men walking around they disappear they're not here they're shut down it's like a mask huh Rel yeah a relationship is built from boundaries boundaries means this's you and there's me and then you tell me no so how you going to say that so the B embodied it the mag built already for it wanted the full integration so first he tells you the you site about Mayer then he says now we're going to work it out in why do we have to work it out in because that's what is means we got to work it out I want it to be a relationship were people asking my mother people are learning it now why he gives this whole there's no when the big biggest focus in the is that the answer is because that's the whole he's cracking here the code that really what I want to tell you is that the there was no but not that there was no simum because there was no simum there was no simum cuz even what we call simum is not simum perception our perception of it is real it's not fake it's not fake news it's real but that's div in there's no in there is aim the is that even what we call inim is not aim not because there was no tum but because theum really is not AUM not that there's no simum there is AUM that's what makes that's what makes a relationship that's what makes connection that's what creates Fusion but when you can experience theum as not being AUM that's heal that's the ultimate healing that's the victory of the war that cracks the code of Helm and it's Checkmate back to our chess Marshall that then it's Checkmate in you it's Checkmate and in the world it's Checkmate and that's what g means Hashem wins the Mel wins I don't win Hashem wins the part of me that's Hashem wins yeah that's what you meant we all win we all win when you say Hashem wins it means everybody wins what does Hashem mean that's the whole V of this mind what does Hashem mean you know I always say in and people sometimes I don't know at Le these some get triggered I don't know why you know I always say people say where does it say you should love yourself entirely it say you should love God what what what do you think God is yeah your true self is God so of course what's the question so people feel like like this like this a little narcissism and egotism that's all if you're not you're right there's like this disassociation the moment we understand that all all healing and all truth is about the so of course when you say Hashem wins you win there's no separation that's the whole point now energetically what does this mean this means that at the core of everything there's love and there's Bliss and there's goodness and there's Oneness so you can experience the as being which means you're not experiencing ssum but not that you're not experiencing ssum you're experiencing that's the biggest Revolution to tell me you're not experienc ssum fine go back with a rocket ship to the lium you won't experience tum you're dealing with Tsum and all of its properties but you're cracking the code and you're looking and you're like you look at it and you say oh you were never a you were just my Vista my passageway to and you know what that does in a moment it heals everything it heals everything there's a concept of right things in sometimes work retroactively you understand huh yeah the moment you crack the coat of oh I always thought you were ah you were my pathway said that you are my Pathway to Oneness so retroactively every moment of Anguish in your life is healed retroactively you know why you just put on different glasses and you sort completely it's a different experience the moment the moment we experience that that's G that is g we say to give me joy like the days that you Afflicted us like the years that we saw evil what is he saying literally for 10 years I suffered give me 10 years of Joy at least for 50 years I suffered give me 50 years of joy someone's like quit proquo you know God be fear you punched me a thousand times give me a th000 candies each candy should be a million dollars at least at least I said plus health insurance business class my whole life is business class on an airplane without that could be life your whole life is a business on an airplane El you got business class cuz you bought a few buildings of mon you were smart you know like every says in the if I would have bought the houses in the [Music] 1960s yeah but I was too smart and this dummy my was a and he bought off all the houses so today he's worth and this guy you know is walking around whatever so the whole is this so we you know be fair God fart you have a good heart somewhere No so at least balance it out you tortured me but that's funny funny at least it should be equal maybe it should be a little more than equal like now we understand it's a whole different V means when you see the truth of the Tsum you learn that all the days of affliction was really so it's the word comes from the word years but it also comes the word change the way we saw the evil and is not yet 50 years of pain have 50 years of joy to compensate no the very 50 years of become because you just cracked the code of TS yeah like the become mitzvah in fact this was in a for his mother his mother passed away that so every of the weekdays he began with a or set a to be able to and drink wine and so he made a throughout the year every every so he made a and the went most of the for hours and the M was closer to the end so the whole was the story of you know that they saw the fox coming out of Kash and everybody was crying was laughing and they said why you laughing he said why you crying and he gave this whole explanation that from the from theban he knows that there's going to be a g and at the end they said amazing I'll I'll I'll and the whole the end of when you heard the you realize that the whole of was explaining in the language of and the showed that the whole was this V because everybody wonders what says now I see a fact I Know M is going to come he has proof because it says so if this happened the other things are also going to happen understand didn't believe the m is going to come they needed and even without the fox he wouldn't believe it's one of theia every kid at least where I grew up screams we want Messiah now and today already everybody says it not only where I grew up and needed proofs he gives a whole P why is Gonna Come and says oh thank you you talking about they didn't believe in [Laughter] Mia so the say of course they believed the M they believed the mashia as the future and that's an amazing thing but now you got to now now you cry was he showed them that the is not so you can experience the not because there's no grief also tore his clothes once you crack the Cod of tsim Tsum so then what happens is you look back every experience you say ah wow now you have to be sensitive with this cuz somebody is suffering and you tell them one day you'll see that you're going to look back and say beautiful the guy's like that's why we don't say there was no Tsum because if we would say there was no simum we eliminate empathy and the moment you eliminate empathy you're bypassing and you're delegitimizing people's experience and you're not bringing them with you you're preaching at them you're suppressing and you're teaching them to suppress even if they trust you so we use simum as a code word throughout gas we need to use ITA asked them why you crying they said why you laughing said why you crying so they told them so say why did he have to ask them why you're crying just tell them why you're laughing so you know what he said say was [Music] I actually I heard I heard it on a recording I started to cry when he said it he said he's asking him why you crying because he says I could explain to you why I'm laughing but that's not my point I want to create I want you should laugh from your tears and other I want that your crying should be the Catalyst for you laughing he's not saying I'll tell you why I'm laughing I see I'm an optimist you know I see good things everywhere that's not the from your I want to make from the I want to make ultimately I want you to laugh with me and not because I changed your mind but because I showed you what you're really crying about is also at its core a source of light so you say one second that doesn't make sense that's a good question it doesn't Mish make sense so that's what from theum we create that's why we use the word ssum so ultimately we come to the point that there was no ssum but not that there was no ssum from theum you come to see there was no tum that's healing because you realize thatum was there for so the Tsum itself brings you to the place of nossum through the Tsum with the Tsum you don't amputate anything but this needs good hbers and even though it's not about logic but experience needs to be experiencing something real so we have to have a paradigm of what are we even talking about what does this mean that's that's what you need to not that it should stay intellectual that's not of V but emotions follow the Paradigm what's the what's what's the idea what's the truth that we're saying here what's the truth so for this the and there's a long be of what does this mean that the ultimately brings you and that the itself is and that's what he starts that's what he starts in this paragraph and you want to put me on an airplane the whole she was don't put us on airplanes and give us a business class ticket it's a good Marshall cuz sometimes the people's ultimate h of bliss is I'll be on a plane for 99 years or 120 years just give me business class yeah that's what I am yeah and for dinner you have two choices you can have beef or you can have chicken the rice is celebrating it B Mitzvah anyway but you can have beef or you have chicken and you feel like a you're an aristocrat you can even watch AER a guy told me yesterday that he came for he went to Israel and on the plane he can hear my they have on the screen and they can hear he listen to a podcast he told me I don't I don't have to go business class can I already sit in economy as long as I know that a business class they watching that actually doesn't work for [Laughter] me my eego H yeah H once you start experiencing this you don't have to watch another movie in your life for entertainment in fact all the entertainments that you're going to find to distract yourself won't even come close to this this experience people think you know and this they didn't go to theater they didn't go to movies they didn't watch TV it's like suppression it's like you don't know about so you have that but that's a whole different V the moment your is the real Ty of Life most of the entertainment industry not most I could say 99.9% of it is a distraction it's actually numbing your pleasure it's actually numbs your pleasure know always talks in that everything we eat or everything we do either it gets you closer to God or further people like what I can't eat steak anymore I can't drink wine I can't eat cougle well first of all cougle yeah you shouldn't eat it's not not eating people understand all of these things as suppression like we want to chill out we want to enjoy life you don't want to chill out you want you want to heal your abandonment the moment you experience the that he's talking about here everything else is a dumb down version of pleasure not just dumb down it's it's not just fake it's so it's so uh um it's it's like vanity like this this is it you know like like the the teacher who came to Rothchild and he said if I would have your money I would be richer because I wouldn't quit teaching I would still be a mamit so he tells Rothchild I would be richer than you you then his AAG in 770 there was a collector of money his name was Teddy you remember Teddy Teddy was an ear he was an El he used to collect money a whole day and he was very adal he was like a nice man and everybody would always give him Sedaka you know it's a big SCH so a lot of people collect you know like here so somebody told me that Teddy once went to one of the grocery stores at KH on Kingston Avenue and he was buying a lottery ticket and it was like 200 million 300 million so the guy asked Teddy if you're going to win the lottery what are you going to do with the money so he said I'm going to hire security guards and put them at every door and entrance to 770 so that no other schnars are allowed into SCH so I'll have the entire giving I don't have to compete with us and then I thought we're laughing don't we all do the same thing of Teddy he was a nice man I Teddy Theus of Teddy of $300 million is what no other schar is allowed in SCH maybe if you have 300 mil that I can't even think of that's yeah so people live like that and it's not their fault it's called coping mechanisms I decide I'm AAR that's it you can give me $300 million I'll be a better schn yeah like once said if he had all the money he's going to build elevator so he doesn't have to go up on the steps toar so if it's old his story so if he had money he would build elevators in the buildings over there in but that's Theus of people he's going to watch a movie he's going to have Bliss and after that he knows how empty it is tomorrow you need something else why because it's not just dumbed down it's it's it's not so it's not coming from suppression it's not coming because people don't know how to enjoy life it's the question if you're touching something something authentic that that heals and then everything else is like it's just a distraction like it's not in the same frequency the moment your T is this energetically right you can't compare it's like almost Gan versus geham the peak of entertainment is like the peak of distraction of self yeah but you can't I can't preach this to people like because then it becomes suppressed like you know don't be entertained by this like people have to I'm I'm talking internally internally the moment you you get it it comes from a space of of not just persuasion but it's just very obvious I could right now be one with my truest self and deepest self if I open and learn or I can distract myself with something that its entire power is that it numbs me and it dulls my senses and actually dulls my pleasure it dulls your pleasure and that's what people have to understand when you know talks about you know gash you say like go away from gash go from R when we experience Judaism through trauma lens and through G we don't understand what that means we think it's like a war on gmas and so many teenagers suffer from this like he wants to play basketball no basketball is evil exercise is evil he wants a good meal meal sit by the gamar 24/7 and then you'll be a mench everything else is is is is evil and then you have the more balanced approach no kids need exercise kids need oxygen you're allow to have a good meal enjoy life right both are not both I'm missing the point the first one is you believe in you think that God is this and everything else is T you're missing the whole point the second approach is you also you're just saying don't take Judaism so seriously also you hear it's from one exe to those who Advocate complete aestheticism you're not let to have your body you're not let to do anything basketball is the epitomy of evil for yes and those who say no no no chill out you know no no learn your you know they're both compartmentalizing Divinity this one says God is in heaven Earth is completely T and this one is like relax go to heaven for a few hours and now let's go to Earth and you know enjoy the movie and therefore both suffer they're not the and therefore if it's that's bringing you closer to your own true Source then it's not departmentalization like the used to say it's intimacy with there's intimacy through which is but there's intimacy even when you're eating and when you're drinking and when you're exercising and when you're stretching and me you're playing with your children and when you're building an iGo in the snow so that your kids could go under the iGo means and when you're in the office and when you're making money and when you're fixing a leak and when you're cleaning your house and when you're cooking a beautiful nutritious lunch without the cougle and if it's Tak distraction from your vas with hasem this is not the pleasure that anybody's looking for they looking for realas for real pleasure so this whole Paradigm you know GM the war against GM this was what the B the were trying to reveal it's a whole different inion it's not coming from a place of of of fear and suppression and alienation and I hate your body and I hate your gmas and and just be and then you'll be a sadic and you'll go to Gan and everybody else is just a bunch of bums it's missing the whole nuda simp happens on two extremes either you throw God completely in heaven and the whole earth is just one big place of of of of of horror and evil or the opposite the one who runs to heaven and the one who runs to Earth they both believe in in opposite directions he runs to Heaven because the Earth is T and he runs to Earth to get as far away from God as possible and both are missing the whole point and the whole point is that you're deepest yearning and searches and the moment you experience that you will not have deeper Bliss any other Bliss that the physical world or Hollywood will conjure or television will conjure your what it will conjure won't be 1% of the Bliss it won't even be a fraction or a fraction or a fraction because at its core there's distraction and here you're giving the Ty of of of truth of authenticity before you do it the middle you do it after you do it how do you know the difference look two hours afterwards when it's a distraction two hours afterwards it's what's next okay am I tired yet let me go to sleep I'm not tired okay another movie till 3: in the morning hopefully I'll be tired if you don't have to wake up the next morning it's 5 in the morning and the guy doesn't even know he's he's just coping he's trying to cope it's not even people cope I get it he's not living from Consciousness from presence he's not celebrating his life when it's when it's true connected with GHA what says K integration then two hours later you're still feeling it and you already looking forward when can I learn the next M you don't want to go away from it you may have to go away from it cuz somebody got to pay the bills sometimes people C catch a flight they got to be on the plane so but that's also a and that's the real inion the whole inion how the world gets sublimated is you realize you're never stuck when you're in and when you're in Sims it's a it's to beala inimum and throughs there there's no so it's also a mission so you're not afraid that was the Y was a living embodiment of not because he wasn't in a pit not because he didn't suffer he didn't bypass anything he cried a lot as I always say there's nobody in tanak who cries as many times as YF I think times in why if you have a why you're crying what's every time he meets B he meets his brothers he cries and why are you crying God is good what the answer Isa asks them why you're crying because he understands that the only way to really laugh is when the laugh comes from the tears that's a a lot of people miss and that's why we use the word is tears it's from the tears it's the that creates it's the abandonment that creates Oneness what do we mean it's abandonment that creates Oneness it's the distance that you had to experience that allows the Oneness to truly be experienced and integrated so the tears themselves become sublimated this is the but the always needs hisa needs to be integrated because only when the nuda goes into details right details can always distract you from the point but without the details it remains still you know more General more superficial so essentially from this paragraph and on he spoke about the mo that was the the foundation now it's all about the you know that now it's all the way it's experienced the way that ssum is experienced and why the AL explains that it's which really means bringing the the back to May which in simple English means I told you God doesn't have 90,000 Parts he doesn't even have two parts in simple English it means the experience of fusion the experience of being unified two halves coming back if you don't recognize that it's a half you'll never come back what's the worst thing the only thing that's worse than realizing your half is thinking that the half is whole the only worth the only thing that's worse than abandonment is thinking that your abandonment is not abandonment you know why because then that becomes your mashiach your your your your Paradigm of ultimate wholeness is that you're broken and that's what happens then my augus is when I win a lottery ticket I'm going to buy some security I'm going to rent security cards very nice such classical music so early in the morning B Mozart you understand the only thing that's worse than abandonment is you make peace with it oh of course I'm abandoned in fact it's not even abandonment the darkness becomes light the becomes and now I invest all my copy mechanism in turning my abandonment into a philosophy so it's like people like a guy once told me in our family we have a philosophy not to show love to Children you hear we have a philosophy not to show love it's a philosophy it's a worked out so shim Russell told me was tell me he says I told the father you don't have to call Holocaust trauma philosophy people suffer terribly they couldn't express love don't turn it into a philosophy turn it into a crisis and a tragedy that we all need to heal from that's it don't turn it into a philosophy when the when I'm half and that becomes the only thing that exists now I have to decorate it and laminate it and suppress all my pain that's the worst tragedy that theer is also beer you don't even know that it's concealment the worst thing about tum is you think isim is and that's the ultimate Bliss of life and then of course I need distractions Galore and then sometimes even all the religion can become a distraction that's the point and this is a very subtle point and I'm going to say a big la here just like I spoke before about movies and other distractions religion can also be a distraction from Bliss instead of coming close to I Take God and I use him to build my separation you heard what I said I use God to build my ego to build my separateness so I'm using the ultimate vus but in the world of instead of being the Bliss becomes enforcing of my loneliness because I'm experiencing it through the lens of loneliness and abandonment and I turn the abandonment into the ultimate source and I I don't get the whole inion experientially so the only thing that's worse than abandonment is calling abandonment oness and then building coping mechanisms around it for example no emotions numbness Ang whatever it is everyone in their own way how they cope with it because this is life I justify to myself because I need to when there is the when you're actually in touch with the pain with the tears then you know what you need you know what you're looking for and then you could go there and then even in the tears there's already the beginning of the joy and then what you learn is when you crack that code of Tsum you see that the whole experience was simply your path to your ultimate even as it went through through all these complicated Journeys and again there's no one story how it happens everyone has their own path through tsim Tsum because it's like the sun that comes out an endless Rays you know and the Rays manifest themselves in so many different ways okay so we're going to take a break here I hope you'll be able toaz and you could prepare also the rest of the M like they call it iniva Al you know what Al is you here before and bem I come back we're going to we're going to continue so that's going to be February February 4th we'll we'll send out we'll send out a message on the WhatsApp Etc to everybody I hope you all follow me very soon says it's going to be the clouds what's it's going to be on the clouds huh Space X yeah Elon Musk will sponsor it maybe theat is mhia comes you'll see that wherever however you're going to St you're on the clouds you know when you see a young couple they're on the clouds whatever they're doing even if they're stuck somewhere in they're on their cloud in the clouds maybe that's I just thought wherever you'll go you'll be on the clouds a t guide it's probably better TS than me I don't know