Likutei Moharan Torah 5 Part 4 by Rav Yoeli Klein at Bais Medrash Ohr Chaim

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We'll start up with Hey, hey, let me put the There's one over here. and we were h >> so we were already uh we're up to a dollar but we're going to give a little recap and a little runin from what was previously in the first part so that we uh we know what we're talking about a little bit start off speaking about fixing the world and uh the way we were interpreting it again everything that we learn in this is not necessarily the exact intent of what said because I don't know the exact act intent but the terms are very wide open for everyone to interpret and to find themselves inside of it as long as you don't change al which is important [clears throat] um just uh two days ago there was a guy here doing interviews in shiners so he came over to me and asked me about minion so he said what does say about minion I said honestly I don't remember anything offhand where he says to go to a minion because it's why would he speak about it but I said definitely he speaks and the greatness of the ding with people and you know which I don't know if he says you should d with a minion necessarily but that's so anything that's obviously we keep but uh over here he's speaking about fixing the world and the way we we were speaking about is that it means to try to work on fixing ourselves because when we fix ourselves obviously we fix the whole world around us and he said that in order to do this we have to one of the one of the ways to fix the world. He said there are three ways is is is um there's to fix the world, to fill the world and to d for the world. So he said he focused it on the the point of ding. How how do you d for the world? So it comes in two facets. Two facets are when there's or when there is no when there's something against that's folding up against the world or when when when there's nothing that's you know stuffed up. He says when nothing's going on, everything's open, so to speak. So you can just dive in and the fields go up. But when there's a zag in, there's some barrier so to speak in heaven where they say, you know, you know, this is going to happen. And specifically, this is speaking in the 1700s, 1800s about the cantonist decrees in Ukraine in Russia where they were going to draft, they were threatening to draft young children into the armies for 25 years, which they ended up doing. Nakman was says a lot of about about these he called them these decrees that were very terrible and he said he pushed them off for for some 20 years which is what happened but eventually they did. So here he's speaking about the gazer that when there's then you have to go a different route you have to go a route of hiding it in stories or things like that but he doesn't get into the details of that yet he speaks more how are you going to know before or after how you know how you know if everything's flowing or everything's not so he very interesting idea he builds it over here from from a few things but what he says is that basically the mitzvah have in this world the reality of Hashem's so to speak energy of flowing into this world is through the mitzvah and when person connects to the mitzvah on a level where he's just doing it strictly for Hashem he's not doing it transactionally like Hashem I did 13 mitzvah today and I only got $14 like what what's going on I should have gotten thousands of dollars today I did so much. No, he's that's that's one obviously you should do all the mitzvah in the world even for all the worst reasons in the world because they're mitzvah. What what else are you going to do? But he's saying that person is he's seeing but he's seeing it from a very very um unclear perspective. This had was very clear that allows a person to do the mitzvah because Hashem wants that Hashem wants something and I want to do Hashem's will so I'm doing the mitzvah. He uses it would disgust him to have for doing your will. It's like, you know, in a in a beautiful relationship, a husband and wife, like here, you know, the wife gives the husband dinner and the guy's like, "Oh, wow." He pulls out his Freddy B. What can I get you? Dinner. I love you. You know, you giving me money for like what what is that? That's not truth. That's not real. So he says that's that's the same this type of a person that it's it disgusts him to get get any any uh any you know from the mitzvah. So for him for him it doesn't for him he's basically what he says he's tapped into the mitzvah and if's energy and his flow is coming into this world through the mitzvah. So he's now tapped into that energy and flow and do so to speak feels the heartbeat of Hashem and if he's feeling the heartbeat of Hashem he could sense in the mitzvah that he's doing if there's flowing through that mitzvah means Hashem is happy he's feeling Hashem so to speak and if there's no sit and not just because the guy depressed or he's having a bad day but he's one of these really tapped in people then Hashem is something something blocking from Hashem flowing into the world through that mitz he's able to sense it he knows that there is So now he knows that there's a zarden and he knows that there's something going on. He has to dive in on a different different route. That that was a few weeks ago last week we said that the main thing of is felt in the heart that was in giml and he spoke about the heart feeling. The only way the heart can feel sim again this person that's feeling the sa of hashem the person that's holding on a very high level of sa but obviously everything is for every person's da for every person's level is that our hearts are twisted he says our hearts in he speaks about the heart is twisted and a heart that's twisted can't feel sa but when your heart is straight then you can feel sa your heart feels your emotions are able to feel sa you're able to feel sa So, how do you straighten out the heart? He says through Ram is thunder literally just boom, you feel like thunder. You're like, "Ah, whoa." Like straightens out your heart. You know, a couple of seconds ago, you were thinking about some foolish thought like a you know, like no atheists in a foxhole. Like all of a sudden, the machine gun doesn't start firing. You know, you're you're you're focused. You're you're you're on your money. You're on your game. So he says the ram basically straightens out the heart but we were speaking last week about the versus the broken leg that we said that what's the difference? We see we we know that there's like a lot of rebas and a lot of sayings out there that said there's nothing more whole than a broken Jewish heart. So why is a broken heart beautiful and a twisted heart terrible? What's the difference between a broken heart and a twisted heart? So you're speaking that a a broken heart doesn't mean that it's depressed. depressed is like broken. That's how we we envision it. Like you see these guys that are broken and contrite and no that's not a that a broken heart is a heart that's broken open. It's a heart that in place of it being uh protection against all feelings. It's broken open and you're able to feel. You're able to actually open up the heart and speak about things that are painful and things that are incredibly joyous and yeah you're able to open up your heart. A broken open heart. That's a beautiful thing. There's nothing more beautiful than that. And aim, a twisted heart. Twisted means it's it's bent, which means it's bent to one side. I want to be my heart perfect. And now all of a sudden, this person is coming off and long and breaking my perfection because he's cutting me off on the street. He's not letting me get a parking spot. All of a sudden, I'm angry and full of, you know, anger and all this all these feelings and stuff. What just happened? It's my heart is twisted to one side and now it's being broken because now it's not being broken, it's being messed up and now now I fall into depression and anger and all those feelings because it's twisted into one side and a broken heart is something that's open. So he says that Ram is thunder but he he tes it up that the thunder that is speaking is from the is that person brings out powerfully in his when a person speaks the dinging powerfully and it could mean that that that he's screaming it like Stalin you know it's right but then again it could be that if you do that every single day you scream ash you're thinking about uh 15 other thoughts while you're screaming on the top of your lungs. It really means that you're present. Your mind is present in your in your screams, which doesn't mean screams. It could be a whisper, but it means that your voice is a voice that that you're hearing. A voice that you're hearing that's powerful that you're hearing that's something that's going to make an effect. And he says that that voice, the imagery that he builds off of the Zar is that that coil, that voice smashes into the brain, so to speak. meaning that it starts to hit the it starts to hits hit your thought process like oh I'm saying this this you are the one that graciously gives das to Adam to a person that's that's that's open to him so I need this I don't know what to do in my life I don't know where I'm going I don't know what's happening you know in this thing and that so all of a sudden your voice your your words start to penetrate into your mind and he says that way it penetrates the mind and it starts to to make an effect in the mind. So then that those things you it's a rain the rain falls down drops of rain the the thoughts are are are the imagery is drops droplets of rain. So those thoughts start to drop drop drop like a rainstorm into your heart. Ah, this thought that this good thoughts thoughts are opening up the heart and the heart starts to open when it hears those thoughts and it just feels it's opened up and now it's roy for simp now it's ready and it is in the place in the state of S when when it feels those when it when it um allows and when it it receives those those uh thoughts dropping from the call that you open up from the ram. So now this brings us to says that you have to empty out your mind from foreign wisdoms which literally let's say you know taking some philosophy class or something like that foreign wisdom wisdom that's not Torah based it means thoughts that are also foreign that are that are um strange if you want to call it zar would be strange strange thoughts and so you got to empty out your mind from that now the next next few lines are going to build this imagery even more he says it's a aspect of leaven bread that your mind shouldn't be puffed up and leavened with these foreign thoughts and these foreign wisdoms and and desires So that when you actually take out your voice, when your voice starts to to to exit your mouth and it starts to hit the brain, it's going to make a thunder, meaning it's going to make a thunderous impact. But when your skull, meaning the brain in your skull is stuffed up with tuma, with impurities, with dirt, bum the toy says that they were filled with tum but the over there somewhere in the gar says that makes a like from the the similarities of the words of tum and tim tim means to stuff up so it's not just an element that it's that it's dirty tum we look at as like dirty like the mind don't have a dirty mind no it's actually stuffed up it's a clogged up mind he's saying so when it's clogged up So then your voice you could be saying very logical beautiful things could be telling a person meaning telling yourself you know I I shouldn't be smoking the smoking is it's it's killing me it's unhealthy it's not good I know that not only that I'm not feeling well and it makes me cough and I have shortness of breath like what is it giving to me what you know what just ignore it don't worry about you know just just forget So, what's going on here? You have logic. You have your voice. You're actually speaking it out or someone else is speaking it to you. It's it should be making an impression on your brain. And the brain should be dripping down into your heart and and getting to be like, "This is crazy. I'm killing myself. I'm destroying my own health. What am I doing? That's it. Throw it away." But he says that there's something that's blocking it. And he says that's or he calls it. So he calls it tyus meaning that we have our desires. We want something and that something is gonna take our brain and fill it with blockages, right? I I the image imagery that I viewed, you know, in the back in the day, this was back in the back in the day, you know, Honey, I shrunk the kids, you know, they had these movies where the guy got shrunk to like, you know, when he hung out with the ants. I'm sure they had updated movies, versions, and sure they sequels and prequels and all that stuff that they came out later. But imagine that, you know, they shrunk the guy not on an int level, but on a on a on a microscopic atomic level. And the guy is in a brain neuron, you know, passageway. And he's but he's so small that he's like looking at this passageway of flying thoughts like like it's this huge tunnel. And he's sitting there and he's like you see like these huge thoughts flying by and all of a sudden he sees this big fat blob come there and it just gets lodged there and he sees another one get lodged there and then another one gets lodged there and all of a sudden these thoughts are like flying and they they slam into that slam and it's a clogged thought process and so that's an you're these thoughts thoughts stuff up the brain and then the good thoughts, the coil, the the logical amazing things that you're thinking are just they're they're jammed. They're just not able to get through into the brain to make any effect. So the brain is just like nice idea, nice thing. And we have this or in our in our brains and it's an amazing thing. He uses the le of right. We have to like means to it means to to to uh to clean out, right? When you uh do pes cleaning, you know, you have to do some pes cleaning in the brain. The brain when it has these things, it gets stuffed up and therefore you gota you got to be able to to do pesak clean. But how do we do this? And he's going to go into it a little bit. But I think the idea is also the same idea that we were speaking about before of sa and the heart is that why would the brain do these things? The brain is a very smart, logical thing, um, you know, muscle, so to speak. And so if you're going to be telling him nice things, things that make sense, so he should accept it and it should be all fine and dandy. What's making the brain just have this like thing that just throws off everything that you tell it? So the idea is that the same thing that closes up the heart, like we said, the heart that's twisted, that the brain also has a tremendous ability to shield itself. I don't want to feel pain. I don't want to experience anything that's going to tell me that I'm not perfect and I have to work harder than I'm working already and that I have to do stuff. Fine, leave me alone. I'm good. I'm God. I'm perfect. I'm the king. Leave me alone. So that's what the brain is going to be. And as you see it very bullet you see it very clearly with a child right when you see a child doesn't doesn't have a brain like that a child's brain when they're very young you see it doesn't have these protections eventually we all develop it and for better for worse sometimes we use it for good sometimes we see it's used for bad but a child you tell him something and he's like really wow he has like this curiosity his amazement with everything that you teach him And his questions are so sometimes like amazing like but why? How is it? How does that work? You know, like and you're like, "Wow, I don't even know the answer. It's been so many years since I thought about this." You know, like it's such a simple question because the child and then when when he gets hurt, what does he do? He cries. Isn't that eventually, you know, everyone develops that that protection, but a really young child, it hurts. He just starts to cry. He starts to scream sometimes. And you say, "Stop being a baby." you know, and then grow up like me and be protected and be always good. But there's a beauty to that, you know, that that to be childlike, not to be a child because we don't want to be children, but to be have that childlike mind, the childlike mind which doesn't have to protect itself all the time from everything. And that's the and the titus and all these things. We want what we want. We want the desires. I like the smoke. You know what I'm saying? Like it it feels good and it's cool and something that I've been doing for so many years and I feel an addiction. So like just leave me alone. So the mind will create a whole protection around any logic, any thought that comes into the mind that's going to convince it otherwise. Leave me alone and therefore it protects itself. And that's what the says you have to do some cleaning. Now the cleaning obviously you have some OCD people that are you know like cleaning their house all day and everything has to be perfectly clean. We're not talking about that. But every once in a while, you have you have you have all these times where you're in the car by yourself on the palisades for 20 minutes. Just clean out the mind. Just open it up. It's the first step. And just start to speak it out. Speak it out. So why is it that I do this? Do I really need it? Is it doing anything good for me? Can I do it any other way? Is there anything that just open it up? You open it up and you start to clean it out. What happens when I mean your your cabinet, you know that the the junk cabinet with all the garbage, you know, that you keep all your junk in your not the not the one with the batteries and the pens and the wires. Not that one. The one that has the the chocolate and the candy bars and all that stuff. After a while, it just builds and builds and builds and and it rots like and especially if you have some liquid there, forget about it. You have mold and garbage and bugs and everything, right? So, you got to clean it up. You got to clean it up once in a while. Refresh it. clean it out. So do these these these so we have to open them up sometimes and just start to to speak them out and clean them out because then when we do that then that's what says that it will allow us to have a call call that will that when we speak out or when we hear words from others and it says something good it penetrates into our brain and and it affects our heart. Um then he goes v a little bit. So in the last he was speaking that this coil this round this thunder is is an element of power of fear this thunder comes from a powerful place it shouldn't be coming from external extrinsic fears right fears that are like I'm afraid of dogs I'm afraid of my parents I'm afraid of the culture and I'm afraid of this thing it shouldn't be coming from those places if you don't have proper thoughts wisdom them in your your fear is going to be of everything that's foolish in the world says this is how over here if you don't have a proper element of fear of hashem and you're afraid of every single thing in the world then your is continuously not being able to be penetrated and he's going to keep building these protections that you're okay and you're okay but you're not going to be able to have the ram effect so says that a certain point Gabriel the Malik of strength slammed a reed into the sea perish and from that reed spun the island of Rome and spun a lot of bad things from this that came out from fallen fears bad fears not it slams a he's explain what that means in a second into your into your wisdom is Because the wind pipe is called the comes out from the wind pipe from the dross from the garbage. gold. Gold is but gold doing could be great or it could be the draw the garbage stuff which is so this call that you're trying to affect your brain gets stuffed up in your brain in your can't be heard to yourself. It can't be heard to anyone else. It shouldn't puff up. And the imagery by the way oft is so beautiful. He's gonna he's gonna he's going to develop that a little more because what is going to compare it to matzah is the same thing. It's flour and water butt is allowed to and puff up and puff up. So too our brains when they're building these protective things it's like uh you know I was thinking about it. It's you know we have proof of uh proof of proof of purchase proof of protection. It's a poof of protection. It's just like a big earbag around your thoughts that nothing can penetrate it. Nothing's gonna hurt me. I'm good. That's the image. But he's say that you need to get to say over here tie it into all these. It says you should you should rebuke like almost roar the wild beasts of the reeds. That's it says meaning destroy the the kingdom of evil. That's what I that's what I wrote down from the breaks. That's also so when you break you have a only difference between the words and areas and they're both the same. that you shouldn't have in your so that's of a battle is a um a battle you said interestingly enough comes from a fighting that we always speak about on pes is like the amuna and everything matzah means to fight it has an element of fighting the matut can make a a battle with their with their side of evil. They shouldn't come to come close to the when you guard your shouldn't have any of these false superficial right is also superficial. Anything that's superficial it's saying ah let's just look at it from the externals. Don't look at it deeper. Don't look at it deeper. No, >> when you when you fight with that like har shouldn't think like look at that uh look at that cheesecake. I I just have to have it. I have to have it. Okay, that's you know you have to have it. It's 12:00 at night. You had a full supper and a dessert. You don't need cheesecake. But something about it is just saying you have to have it. No. So you fight with that battle. Like you have this battle. You're saved from this poofed up thought in your brain like, "Yeah, just do it. Just have it. Just don't think about it too deeply." Which is an element of the side of evil that it's death. Here's our sourdough plug for today. Is literally sourdough. But over here it means something that's poofed up that's leavened. said this is an element of the side of so over here he's finishing this this this idea where he's saying that we have to make sure that if we want our heart to feel the sa meaning that he said that when we speak the words penetrate our minds and that mind that mind the drops of the mind that have been penetrated and that are understanding things now drop into the heart and allow us to feel and feel sa so if we want that to happen the mind can't be stuffed up with all these ideas and thoughts and desires that we have to be able to continuously take a little broom a little dust duster and whatever it is some humor sometimes some spritz some St. more and we have to scrub a little bit. Whatever we have to do, we have to take our mind, open it up a little bit and do a little spring cleaning every once in a while to make sure that the mind is not stuffed up that these are the way that it has to be. It has plasticity. It has openness that it can hear these words and then if it's like that and it's be able to hear the words, they'll be able to have an effect and go down. Now, the Rebel like kind of kicks gears if you want to drive a stick shift over here in the He's kicking into a totally different gear, but it's obviously related. I mean, >> it's basically having the honest talk with yourselves. >> Correct. >> What's going down in your head? >> Exactly. Right. Opening up the places that we don't really want to open up that we don't really want to we don't want to deal with. Right. I I was just thinking about it this week. It ties in very nicely the um I think I said it the other the other week also, the imagery of an iceberg. Later on I was told that uh Sigman Freud I think he was a kid but he he actually said this exact image that our our minds and our consciousness are like a big iceberg. We deal with that little part that's sticking above maybe 10% let's call it and we hawk and we humble and we speak and we fight and we have all our opinions. Our whole mind our whole world is built on that 10%. 90% is this huge para subconsciously going on that we stuff we don't deal with. we don't know a good about and he his most of our actions are really affected by those things but what I've been saying over here is that for sure we have to we have to open those places up now >> I I was thinking about it in a very unique way that the garra says right someone went up to the and it came back and he said I saw an upside down saying right it sounds like the everyone say nobody the nobodyies they were like in Grenada like what what does that mean? Oh, let's all bean. Let's all be, you know, nothing. That's not it doesn't say. So, you could look at it if you want to use the image of the iceberg and I saw this week in the in the Mishna in that says this on he says you should turn it over the what do you mean turn over the he says make sure that when you're doing things that your intentions are good. Why? Because he says that in next world the only thing they're going to see is intentions. >> Oh, you did things very nice. Okay, just open up the 90%. Which means that the next world is which basically now on his on its head. So the the over here that peak is sitting there on the bottom. Oh, you did a mit. Very nice. How you pronounce? Very nice. Beautiful. Okay, let's see the 90%. Whoa. Whoa. Whoa. Who's going on there? And that's going to be like whoa. And that's what he was seeing maybe he was seeing that we live in a world like like wow. Now if we would live like that here we would be standing on our head not just you know proverbally but physically we would be crazy. We can't live like that. I think that's why maybe this is my own thing he says which means turn yourself over take some time in the day was very into his means that you're taking time totally like what you were saying alone. You are now with yourself. You're not with your therapist. You're not with your wife. You're not with your kids. You're not with your friends. Alone. Now, obviously, that that works best when you're alone because if you're in a room with people, it's uncomfortable. But he says you could even do it in a room with people. You could be in the mirror. I've done this in the mirror. When I was in the mirror and became relat pointing to the lines and going crazy. Obviously, you're having a very emotional experience with, but you know, that's what you can do. But the idea is that you're just alone with yourself. You're alone with your thoughts. You're alone working out these places. Turning your whole iceberg over and just starting to go into those places. You don't have to go into the deepest things. And it's because my mother and this just start speak why am I so afraid of this? Why am I so triggered by this? Why do I run away from that? Why does this make me feel so what? What does it make me feel? I feel very angry, very scared. Okay. Why do you think you're scared? Just start the process. Start speaking a little bit is also good. And by doing that, you start to get into that place of the other portion of your of your life, of your world. And that starts to undo the clogs because all these things are just clogs. They're just places that our mind and our heart just clogged up somewhere along the line when it became too painful to deal with. So you said, "Don't deal with it. I want to speak better. Think about it. It's gone." And it became part of that 90. You start opening it. You start integrating. you start bringing it in opens up and it it feels very beautiful. But I think the are the one flipping out from what you said, we'll get to the next part probably next week is that in the mission says which means in this context is that you should turn over your mouth. Spend some time with yourself and that's what says spend time speaking all these things speaking out all the problems and all the issues and all the fears and all these things. Spend some time with yourself doing it. I'm going to spend two minutes and we spend 10 minutes in the basement and 20 minutes in the car. Awesome. an hour and a half in the forest. Wow. It'll come out. It'll be a new world. But turn the mountain back over. Put it back on its place. Go back into the 10% and go into the world and go. And this it struck me very very strange like why would that be? Here we are 90% of our lives and our consciousness are are hidden. And and Ram says you should not spend too much time doing them. spend a little bit each day whatever the time is and then the rest of the day just keep going go why are we doing that if if I was a stat statistician is that if that that's the right way of saying it if I was a a probability statistician I would say 90% should take 90% of your time 10% 10% of your time so 90% of the day we should be sitting working and thinking and working through and 10% you could be happy you know but it's not like that you know says that and and we know that. So the idea I think is that we live in the 10%. Physically in reality our lives are in the 10% when we're not in that moment of zikas and of quiet personal in introspection. We're in the world and in the world the way that we could interact with the world in a healthy way is when we're sometimes but take that time make sure that you turn over the mountain. Make sure you turn over the mountain and take some time to enter into that place of the parts that are not so not going so well that are not so flowing and just start to open them up. Open them up. The more you open them up, the more like what he says over here is that the more simp you'll feel. But it's not simple that we're speaking about always that ah you know like my friend was once saw a bunch of guys dancing on a truck and they were smoking something and he said he goes no weed. >> [laughter] >> you're not it's not that's not the simple that we're talking about. We're talking about you know just just when you when you feel this when you open yourself up to feeling those things and then you turn yourself back around the simp is that ah wow I just found parts of myself that I didn't even know existed and I open them up and they started to flow. I feel so much better. I feel so much more aligned so much more healthy. And now when you hear things, it'll start to go in. You'll be like, "Oh." And that's what the Reb says right here that the curl will then have an effect on your brain. Your brain to your heart and your heart will be able to open up and start to be affected by things and start to move and start to change and start to move. Help us to do it little by little and to feel that sim in our hearts and to make an effect on ourselves to make an effect on the whole world. end.