R' Chaim Horowitz - Who Am I - Atzmi 2

so before I begin we want to um thank Tor [Applause] anytime for spreading Ty and around the world and uh I think they're the biggest as we always say last we said too they're the biggest yiv in the world so if you have any extra M money you can always send it over to T anytime so if anyone wants the number you can write it down it's 072 398 2980 extension special special me extension 22387 since nobody wrote it down so after the speech you if you're really interested you can ask me for it also last year's dues had over 800 views on it so instead of just keeping the the chef at yourself you can tell your friends of course and uh Spread spread the wealth to all your family members and uh and all your siblings okay with that out of the way let's begin so everyone welcome to Shas ask me number two I want to welcome our returning members of last year and we love to yes we have a bunch of those and also want to welcome our new members metem will return next year for number three or few months and thank you for the old members spreading the new the the amazing shabas they had with shabas atmi and convincing so many new book to join us so let's go back to 19 1981 before I was born before all of you were born um 1981 was a very special year does anybody know what came out in 1981 no one the first personal computer came out in 1981 created by Mor IBM IBM came out with the first computer in 1981 and can you imagine until then computers were only located in universities only extremely wealthy people had a separate room that hosted a huge computer and 1981 IBM came with the first computer so now IBM wanted to make it exciting so they joined forces with kellogs and they said that they're putting two free tickets which will earn you a computer in rice Christy boxes across the United States and that's what they did and can you imagine how many boxes of Rice Krispies were bought in that week two weeks people were buying Rice Krispies they're eating it day and night just to get the first chance to get the first computer one day Tuesday afternoon Little Johnny 10 years old comes home he saved up a few dollars actually a few cents back in the days and bought himself a box of catalogs and some rural town in Wisconsin and inside he has a ticket to a brand new computer the New York Times all came down excited wow Little Johnny won three days later Scott who's 85 lives in a farm in Nebraska buys himself his first box of catalogs since he's been five and he opens up and he wins also so can imagine little little Johnny the day arrives the computer arrives through ups and the whole all the media is outside his house this they drop off this box with the first computer ever used by a person in his own house and little Johnny is so excited his parents help with his computer and he excitedly rushes into his room puts it down on the desk plugs it in G doesn't turn on he tries this he tries that 5 10 minutes go by he can't this computer is not turning on he's getting upset more and more upset you can imagine the media outside with all the cameras trained and every window everywhere waiting for it to come out and show how excited he is with the first computer half hour goes by 45 minutes go by goonish suddenly they hear a window breaking computer comes flying at one window 3 seconds later the mouse comes out a different window 5 seconds later the keyboard comes out a different window and you hear screaming from inside this stupid company IBM can't produce a normal computer it doesn't turn on it's worthless it's not worth the plastic and he's screaming and he's mad the media imagine New York Times next day highlights IBM a scam worth nothing and you can imagine Fox News had the opposite that the boy was too stupid you can imagine the media was going live withi two days later the computer rides in Scott's house in Nebraska 85-year-old he's so excited since he's a little kid he's heard of the idea of computer he's so excited to open the open a box with a computer and if he's psyched again get to this time to come with helmets cuz they don't want to get hit by a computer K he brings the computer in same thing 10 minutes later go 10 minutes go by scats doesn't turn plugs it in nothing's wor he says how foolish I am IBM the famous IBM created the first computer and the 10 figure had to turn it on we're all little kids created us we had so much we were so happy remember when you were 5 years old we driving the bike down a mountain backwards blindfolded incoming traffic you were mischievous you had ideas you you you had that inner you made people laugh around you you had aspirations remember the aspirations we all had one guy man one guy's going to be a billionaire one guy be an Asin the fourth guy's going to be all three put together everyone had the dreams the aspiration what what am I going to turn out to be I'm going be this guy I'm going to be that we had aspirations we had these great ideas we had such laughter we had such happiness and then what happens is we turn 13 14 15 and what happens we ENT Shana and life slows down a bit we start getting complicated we start having self-doubt who are we what are we worth who am I we start craving Independence we don't want we don't want to listen to anyone is bad my parents don't understand my understand me and then we start doubting ourselves we start am I am I am I worthy am I someone that's worthy for for show am I worthy to live who am I what's the purpose and you start questioning yourself you start doubting yourself you start pitting yourself and then some people unfortunately lose that that inner that inner spark that we have in kids but we forget that's not like that the I created a perfect computer we either could be the child who says his computer's messed up IBM is a scam and throws the computer out or we could be the Za and says iish the designer of this computer was the iish himself our father and Sh created this computer he didn't make a mistake the design of this computer cannot make mistakes I wish is perfect you created us yes I know we downloaded some things we should have downloaded we caught some viruses right we we didn't update certain certain things and the computer's slowing down it's not working properly but don't forget the IBM computer was still created by the iish it wasn't created by by a scam it was created by the perfect Perfect Design designer so sh ask me what's the purpose of sh ask me why are we here sh ask me is the time we go away from our daily life go away from and come out into nature to figure out to refigure out who are we what's to rekindle who we are and to ReDiscover that the design of our bodies the design of the design of who we are and where we come from it's perfect there's no mistake there was no mistake and I know he's hiding in a corner somewhere most to build this beautiful organization together [Music] with and they believe in this mission to help B ReDiscover the the inner inner fire that we some of us lost and we and learn new things that we weren toward download new programming and they they paid they spay so much money to the most amazing speakers we have question on a question in relationship is the perfect person he's here for you 24/7 any question any time there's no questions here which are you cannot ask every question you have something in your mind that's bothering you ask you're scared about marriage ask our most amazing any question you have if you think of you can speak to cats maybe you could help me with that you need to go to B of wine you can ask R we have everything covered here so I want to end off with a very famous quote I'm saying it's famous but maybe it's not maybe you never heard of it it's a very very deep quote and it took me a few minutes to cap it it goes like this the five colors make a man blind the five tones make people deaf so I read this line I was confused what does it mean what does this line mean I thought into it that which trained that there five colors right trained this what it is it's five colors we trained is five tones right if you do music there five tones you know voice training there five tones we train that's what it is and everyone accepts it and I realize that people accept that they're five colors this is this is who I am K this is how I was created I'm like this this is who I am that's why I know to be and that's who I am you limit yourself to five five six things and z and that makes people blind you don't see yourself properly you don't see yourself and you don't see yourself in in a p proper perspective who you are cuz you're seeing yourself so limited and so like scientifically I'm five things this is who I am I'm limited this is why hasm created me and z now I'm I'm excused that makes us blind so the shabas me is about making us have more than five colors we're way more than five colors we're way more beautiful than five colors there much more shades of us there much more there much of a purpose to us so I wish everyone properly I wish I I say with 100% sincerity I wish I had this opportunity to send the crowd like this and had real renowned speakers open my heart so I want to introduce our first guest all the way from America who's going to open our hearts and is known with his background through hisis through his through his therapy through everything to open a person's mind so be open-minded and ReDiscover yourself