As You Let Go of Your Numbing Distractions, You Face Your Essence

the yeshiva dotnet okay good morning everybody Commission's on so we have one paragraph to go Samaha BAE's Amidala vinick's if bernard a verbal a girl sean is maha boy pasa can't hilum says that through the river they will pass be regal with the leg just LM capital samokov shamness maha boy over there we will rejoice in him that's the expression until them yeah view this is a telomere you can give it to me right right in front of you huh yeah tell him Sam above saddam brahmalok says half a ham Lea Basha he transformed the seat dry land but nor a robbery go through the river they'll pass by foot some they're nice maja boy we will rejoice in him the interesting thing about this pasta cos it changes from past tense to future tense he starts of Hoffa he omnia Borgia which is in the past Hoffa is not yeah epic but he has transformed the yam the sea into dry land but then he speaks Benari everybody go through the river they'll pass by foot shove their Nesmith oh boy not Samak no we rejoiced we will rejoice ceases key Otto keenya table is manizales shaken a simple because notwithstanding everything that's been explained with Christian so now in this destoy the real ultimate reality of Samaha is missing is wanting shall symphony premises gallows because joy is rooted in the realm of Revelation complete revelation Virata bisman has imbibed in a zoo his gallows and now in our time what we spoke before have I Adela Ella is ultimately not fully manifested qiyam Emunah which is why we call it a Munna maximus Hester huh goof because there are so many blockages there's the blockage of the human experience due to our our our containers which allow for a Munna which is an experience that we call a Munna but it's not the ultimate his Galison losted lover she here below her mother's holy in the future when the pus externally below her mother's death will be swallowed up forever be lama vez la mota SIV the expression of the Navi is key ayan biiian you see ayan bhai in Euros the Navi a Shia chapter 52 nun Bey's bond he says this expression they'll see eye to eye right I am Bayan will see eye to eye we'll see what does it mean she says ayan Bayan there's two eyes ayan Bayan will see eye to eye I am buying a penis Alma discussed a penis save of Kalam an emetic Azure asylum and then this almond is Galya she is gal obeys her via sana ayan bhai in our two eyes means two perspectives - vantage points two dimensions - way of looking at something every person has their own eyes right we'll say you have your eyes you have your glasses the paradigms to which you experience reality how much you can experience of reality at that point will be alien biiian you the two eyes will be able to meet all perspectives in the world can be ultimately categorized into two either Tavia the Lusaka it's how high in delaila it's one of those two of course within each there's endless eyes but ultimately it's one iron or another iron so I am body to is one eye in as Alma discuss the eye the perspective of AMA does the concealment which we also call penis size of Colombo which encompasses all over the worlds as one or meet a Kosrae asylum so very cold language the path successive is a Saarbrucken moisture says who Mitaka asylum which is an enigmatic statement but it's obviously like the arms under the world imagine the world being embraced by arms right to meet Asura asylums raise our arms metastasis under elements the world like arms embracing the whole the whole cosmos not just a planet the whole world oil up so that's like soap of Kalama that encompasses all the worlds then there's another I in Alma did is gal yet what I actually see with my eyes that's this iron actually the physical eye she is Galu Bay's obvious and now they'll be iron biiian gyro one I will be able to see the other iron because both harvests will emerge as one in a revealed way kela acid sieve the posix says about the future this is a half tire of a friendship a sake Shia pay to get out of the plastic speaks about another Korea's yam so that when the Jewish people come back by the goal of a hecarim are Seamus Lashon Yahya Mitzrayim God is gonna dry up the tongue of the Sea of Egypt the coal is Shyvana column and strike it - seven paths seven rivers for Heuser missile Allah shower oh my gosh I recently saw behind my license American society it shall be a path for the rest of his nation as it was to the Jewish people when they led the day they ascended from Egypt this is the expression the quote from me Shia Isaiah chapter 11 after of our control base which is often about machine hyeyeon beneath I knew she is galih alma discussion was protect will be another Korea cm self again the revelation of yam which is humble discuss vowels enema that's what the POSIX s into hilum Benari Avril Borrego shamanism Kailash an asset there we will rejoice in the future the charm daikin is macabre saga sevilla delaila fear they will be the Nyssa mashenka ngata Shana LM kanessa Munna Bhai Korea I'm safe now it says umbrella by army noob Avaya governor Malik says until the shum near in the future miss maca because there'll be the full revelation and simply is connected with his gallows Raksha harmless I sunk sieve although makka makka Pescara the gomorrah says secretary even today is the time of last sigh some to do well lemak her tomorrow Huli his lockable scare'm is a time of reward for success and very mother's cannon hi i'm lysosome today to do so much as today is for doing tomorrow is for reward what does this mean sir I am sorry classes today the focus of life is law such action I need a surah marij through going away from the raft from the brokenness from the toxicity from the negativity in this bit Volvo a DA will be ceruse total eSATA holy Commissioners by a left and as he said before in the beginning of memory the first the first paragraph that the sir made out of the person creates above the yield and the hay in the verb and a I would Simpson creates a symptom there which creates the shame avaya even delaila what's that what's the have one of this so there's three stages there's the stage before Korea Samsa there was Chris yam stuff then we save a hero our massage my a minnow Michelle Obama after and then there's die avoid the post Chris jumps off which leads ultimately to the second career Sam so by the cooler when we say SH um miss MacAvoy I in bhai in Euro and there'll be another career Sam self but on a different level than the first career Sam self which will result madam by Aminu only but in Xiamen is Maha by a sense of real simcha this is now as a Munna and then it's similar because when there is the full his gallows it's not called a moon it's called simcha this is now because there's still blockages so therefore we call it a morning well yeah I mean Obadiah so you have the ears by ear ooh we have deeper value a Minu which comes after the euro and then there's something even deeper and that's the scimitar shall mr. Massad boy as he says when it's completely bare his gallows it's completely revealed by earu he says his Ivy Adela sato alma des Galia but he could say year via a minnow is javea delaila alma discussion they can save a year ooh they could say a muna in the future there's another Korea see I'm self over there it's a chauvinist macho boy some in the future cuz ever they will be full his gallows even and therefore it's not even a Munna it's me it's not it's beyond the Mona its without a Hester I in behind you know and it's not that the two are detached it's the two are one today is the part of hacia and then is the part of Revelation that's how you are so similar muscle cars coming it's not two separate things it means there's it's two phases in one thing the moon and the Sun come together one is the phase of avoider we do still a blockage and then there is the expression the full revelation of what that a void is in fact it's not two separate two separate things the Lamar is a tomorrow from today there's no tomorrow without today it's a continuum it's the ultimate realization of what you did of what of what you believed of what you were working with and for this process as he said you need my survey I mean above i/o but motion after motion is Diocese Cassius Raya mayhem shepherding shepherding their moon in the silence of autumn Tahitian moisture connects the two harvests have vias which will be revealed for us and lava in eyghon of cyntha of real is galas that's basically the so now how do we understand the pasta event why are you sure all Asad Air Marshal raha vibe emits a lion for the first time they saw a yeah a gorilla they saw ups our yard that's not a regular yada-yada sure I saw a viable material as he says us a Hawaiian de la Isla something that comes from a via de lisle in other words they saw manifestation of that in the world three attachments are I am and primarily through Korea Samsa unlike Padre who said who struggled to Hawaii I don't know right me Avaya Ashe Bob McCullough whose disavow Aloha Dottie I don't know about him and he says his war was not on a vital eSATA which is more associated with shame Allah Kim but his war was a Nevada Leila shams earth was the end of mitzrayim Empire at the end of the reign not just physical but psychological emotional what is that expressed in that pyro is denial of Hawaii is now gone so viagra saucer dr. Lara also have arrived in Israel which are Shem said many times VA do midstream Kyani Avaya Avaya delaila that's why I crush em Hashem carajo McConnell moisture is very Kura Hashem our sin he asked in the beginning of the moment but yeah shame upon OVA ikura Hashem Hashem kar komak on on this moment I choose who's very kura mulch is the one who calls out both Hashem what's moistures role Hashem Hashem Avaya Hawaiian to bring Hawaii the Leila into the reality of I adore Sutter which is whatever I mean about value of my shelter that's why you deal me this Iraq mhmm these two are shams my Ekrem moisture calls Hashem Hashem the job of mulch is not to remain in one Hashem whether it's lay low the satyr by he crash mhm to integrate what seems like two separate realities and could be two separate realities into one that's why he calls to Hashem that's how he answers the question I'm in the beginning of the mind what starts out my shrimp that's the connection to this moment with Moshe firecrochet Marcia that's his function Raya mayhem Mena to shepherd a muna to give the flock to nurture them to feed them and one a meaning to help them connect Hawaii Delilah with a viola SOT assure us are viable Misrata me said also include something else which he went back to now and that is a survivor mitzrayim that the Jewish people saw their ability to create javea through material because just like a Via della satyrs you Dan hey and vovan hey like we spoke of idle a low so as these four because when you imagine something in your mind you're imagining what it will be so it has the same process who creates that you'd he said when a person does symptom in him which is Samira when I disconnect from that which is tempting or addictive and have to go back to my core that's at Simpson that you'd and the person creates the youth above the Hawaii delaila I shall survive only through mitts right miss Ryan means restriction that's the power of a person every time I restrict myself meaning I hold back from that which will distract me from who I am and who I really am and numb my pain that's a good and your mama's going to wonder could there it's called withdrawal symptoms that's what are you this it's very painful because whatever my outlet is is comforting it's calming it's soothing whether it's binging is a good example for it right I'm stressed or this and there's a piece of chocolate there piece of cake there whatever a slice of pizza I don't want to say a salad because that would actually not be withdrawal that would that would probably but but that that that that sugar whatever it is it's very attractive what does it take for me to hold back I become a you'd you really feel like you become a youth you know because all your attachments are gone what are you left with I'm giving binging as an example but you can give another twenty thousand examples everybody knows in their life what what it is Sir Mara means I have to disconnect from anything that's creating an illusion of connection and that's very that's not portions so you think it's just an act of discipline and self discovery which it is well Tania says you know what that does through your mitts and I'm SR via it creates that via the Leila at connect it creates the you'd in Hashem s a toy is expansion it's positive and positive connections good connections that creates the Hank which is the hiss pastors above and the youth is always deeper than the hey cuz holding back there's always deeper than engaging because you'reyou're disconnecting from so much and you really come to a place of self-discovery much more through so made out then I say toy if you would think it's the other way but he says math sir Meera helps you discover much more than I say toy huh my sister Lisa sir yeah because there's this there's nothing tangible you left with yourself yes then I say time is of course tremendous it's positive it's good things it's called positive his fastest sir Mira is cutting the ties it's it's it's abstaining yeah but it's that discipline that opens me up to to the truth yeah it's like going back to a deeper place he says love koi dam Lehane the bit one that the love always precedes the hain it's much deeper so this original Assata of a person doing that symptom what does it become it becomes God's you - M stencil it becomes his iord it's like a mirror my iord translates the divine responds it's like a mirror hashem mirror is mired that you'd of avaya delaila which means there's no way of touching her via della ella without challenging yourself in such a deep way in other words science without morality right will never allow a person to touch a vanilla layla hawaii de la le can only touch through avoider through the person's real transformation if not I cannot I will not tune into it to tune into it I have to go into my youth and my a and my love and my a which actually mirrors back to me that experience K vehicle by Hashem from its original status in the Leila I'm sorry what Shivan Acamas from the pass again 7th Street yeah yeah yeah yeah that's white Shiva that the Gila will be in each one of the minutes in each one of the mythos they'll be the Guillory of Alma discussing each one of the ship in Holland by Christiaan surf now it says in Hamish was a curious am self cuz I'll speak about it the twelve paths of the schwa tombs are separate in you but lawsuit love it says Dafa Shiva so it's twelve my crazy m77 is 1919 palace that's your tests it's connected to you test kissless no no it's not a joke no no because curious yam saw was the Hashanah for Matt and Tara they couldn't get to the first Martin Taylor without um so the future clear Samsa will be Asaf ganot uh Matt and Tyler the Martin Taylor of premier satalia rashly says in the beginning of she assured him he chicane him in a case P who he told him they'd ask of me I am right so rash he says till now there was no kiss from the mouth well awesome oh he's gonna kiss us on the mouth sir actually says your gallery is going to reveal to the Jewish people sorry Tom marrow or mistress for myself the secret of its reasons and the concealments of its hidden parts this is our actually in the beginning of inertia the pus success feeders Tyra Hadassah may eat eat ate say it doesn't mean a new Martin Taylor a replacement of the first month entire house for some terries knits his light mocha office but tired a gilli of Panama is a Tyler in a - of Simkin I don't know even of a Munna that's the second Korea some stuff has to be ha Connor for that the first crease amps of was 12 the second was crazy amps of was was was 7 together it's 19 it's the synthesis 19 is the fences of both Korea's Jam soft which is the synthesis of both elements of Toyota which win the world of Toyotas almond is galleon armored discussion niggler of Toyotas almond is Galya javea de la SATA and Nemea cetera is called Alma discussed and the feeb or the ultimate synthesis between them right is I in by I in year ooh that's 19 and for that you need the Korea CMS of each one in its own realm there's one created under creation soft and then there is the complete integration between the two which is some mismatch oh boy that integration always exists but there's a process in the experience of it in the internalization of it in the human being working through all of the containers all over the calum all over the concealments in order to be able to experience that full integration so via ashley sauce and inertia i saw how viable Mitzrayim he says you make a value through mitzrayim what Smith sir I am miss rime is restriction my iord creates the you'd lamella Mihai creates the hilum ila that's something else days so they didn't only see our value delaila as a passive thing vaya delaila had to transform their own paradigm you make of a hit Aleli you almost define Hawaii delay that's always through a relationship the experience of a delaila not through passive scientific scrutiny that's a revolutionary idea if not you don't touch that you're just not going to touch it you'll touch manifestations of of a genius of brilliance of four brilliant the phone that that was washed ashore but to touch Hawaii delaila you have to go into a different place and then they therefore that's what they so didn't only see her via delay loss Wow God God is more interesting than we thought they saw that they make it you define it a vehicle I shouldn't say you define it your avoiders McGarrett ah accesses it what yeah that's what no Hamas in the beginning of the mine what are you giving me headaches for why make a up between two people who are perfectly fine without each other right but apparently the youb the human condition is anxious now I think somehow there's still a little anxiety in the world a little bit there's something that tips is not fully connected it's expressed in different ways but that's how we go to sleep but if you analyze your dreams you'll see that even in the middle of the sleep no always always this moment is milestones you know you break through certain things but the you des is a constant is a constant process because there's always things that lure us into their delusional traps of attachments fake attachments and I need the you and I have to mom wish me Matt Samsa myself to a seminal point like I have to let go of everything what am I left with it looks like I'm left with nothing and that really touches your core it's very very deep experience it's becoming oh you'd and you know whether you looks like it's it's your mama shana could they're like but but this i have is you have these websites i have this food have these addictions have these habits I have these relationships I have these connections I have these movies I have these addictions I have these business obsessions right I have these these type of clothes these trips these vacations whatever it is kohada from sure and Aleya I'm gonna get to graphic here a specific and and to to to stop at all you know it's called silence the autumn Tahitian it's silence it's becoming a you'd that's in a way much deeper than I say tithe because it's really going to put it this way you could somebody wrote to me and then there's you can't applaud yourself on that so much you know there's no plaque for it for doing something there's a plaque for not doing something who's gonna give you a plaque a lady was some somebody wrote me an email after the first year and this for doing you get a plaque you'll become an honoree at a dinner not doing what again we're gonna honor him for what there was chocolate on the count and he didn't need it so let's honest in other words or what are your honoring what not there's no substance it is no was just not not not not not not new in Vasya that's that's the youth he says hain Kadem love code my symptom that bit landed symptom is kinda mine it touches a deeper place and what is a doula my like a vehicle everything is Hashem so her ganas are shadow like the Muslims themselves that by Hashem from infinity comes a unit by Hashem that's the biggest symptom from ain't safe which is everything to become a huge which creates a relationship so your symptom creates a reciprocal symptom of Russia also how valiant he makes javea them it's rammed through his moments ayah and that you can only have if you have a mitzrayim that you have to go away from and then there's my hero arm which is easy this year and then this is why I mean oba viable my shaft there and then this loss of love I shall miss Maha boy so male if not it's beyond their mana because I'm honest aster so he says today we feel more than last so some a young lass I saw the main feeling of scar is Lamar tomorrow to me that he says today the main avoid this last item as he puts it at then Bittle very Dhabi service analyst at the Credit Services delaila and then the offset lava is the Guillory of what divided Aurelius it's really yeah it's awesome as Manas there the question is his callous in other words what am I really aware of what am i aware of from experience you know this okay you know I don't argue with that I don't argue okay that's the real that's a real symptom it's it's it's going away from everything to my core and only then do I discover my core cuz there's no distractions left and the fascinating thing is not the discussion of this mind but another my martyrdom there's a point that since some kavaja whole that's it's all it's a whole other Simca vehicle also Preet Simpson was AI infinity and that symptom allows so to speak a manifestation of God's core which is not defined by infinity but but equally by relationships and by finiteness so in the way symptom is also going to a deeper place even in the ire but that's that's the separate circuits not I'm just mentioning that Walter ever says it in one place that that symptom brought out her shams Osmos movement before because it cut away in the whole infinite thing now not to minimize infinity infinity is pretty good stuff infinity but so but so art simple how do I do that by might symptom now you can't compare the two cuz my symptoms may be with an addiction or some habit or anger or explode people have their stuff that you rely on to numb you from your pain let's be practical and to do simpson from that there's article mysterious nefesh i may be used to its even thoughts you know maybe your whole life you used to responding to a particular sri Gurren a certain way right you say this and it's predictable it's predictable usually they say in many marriages there's one argument and it plays itself out over 65 years you know what i mean it's one argue it's one issue it's one argument that's the alma disguisey of it it could be a thousand not really one argument the argument started when he was three years old didn't start when he was mapping in other words it's a certain perception of reality and whenever you say whatever you said it triggers it today it's in this area in that area in that area in that area but it's really one good so it's really it's it's it's when a person can understand that can be aware of that go back to that and i couldna so we have our ways so you'll say something or your wife will say something your husband will say something your friend your employer your employee your brother your sister whatever it is your father your mother and you know where your mind goes right the reason your mind goes there is it's a survival mechanism always that way your mind is trying to survive we don't blame we don't blame ourselves for this your brain is doing a good job listen you survive to some degree miserable but you survived better than dead there's somebody to tell the story there's somebody to come to come to the shear right so you got to give your my you bring credit for being an genius and developing a way of escapism of going somewhere to somehow make you deal with the situation in one way or another maybe the thought is that this person is impossible just you make peace with that it's a way of surviving maybe the thought is God just hates me and I was born with bad Mazel that's a way people go through you know that much over you know I'm just I was born to be miserable and in a way it's like I said to be no curse on that fish I mean never but you know the murchison I first like I'm misery you don't understand borussia poor you you were raised in a different situation but some people they just have this pattern yeah I was born to be miserable I am that person I'm and in a way it's like it makes sense of my life everything makes sense in a way it's survival huh yeah there's a certain peace like it's expected it's gonna happen tomorrow it's gonna happen in 20 minutes it's gonna happen in two hours yeah I'm I am that I am the target you know the target will you shoot the arrow I that's me you have a knife I'm the guy or whatever the pattern is whether it's aggression against somebody else or it's aggression against yourself but it's always your thought going to certain places to be able to deal with this situation that's triggering something deep and what happens if I could stop that that's cold Simpson and that's not easy stop catch yourself we're not going there today where are we going I don't know where we going I'm frightened I reference I go here this is the place to go this is my comfort zone this is the only place I don't get hurt this is the place I don't get hurt nobody here with me yeah to stop that you know how hard it is I don't mean you I mean all of us gets hookers does the name of the first Jew so it's kind of everybody huh my name - my name - don't worry huh the first Jew is you suck and I mean Simpson laughter right that's the fascinating thing the first Jewish you suck and I'll turn episodes at the end is simcha awesome Avram wasn't born a Jew a run was the first gay relegate him the Gomorrah says it's hookers the first Jew he grew up in the Jewish in a Jewish family so the beginning is similar the end of simcha shall miss MacAvoy in between yeah he's a muna so when I'm going to those places to be able to not just an addiction you know I'm going to drink that's also hard to stop but there's much more subtle things where you brain goes my brain runs here to be able to stop that and say we're not doing that we're not going there so worried we're not going there where else is there to go I don't know yet I don't know where there where else there is but maybe we could reshape this we could rethink that of course not no that's that's exactly why the brain goes there to avoid anything else and yes as we always know you did these people who are there to manipulate I know they did it with people who could manipulate consciously or unconsciously maliciously anomalously and one always has to know if the advice they're getting is bringing them closer to their core or not closer to their core of course one shouldn't be vulnerable to a point where they allow and the any force to destroy them that's that's a given and you're right when people are very vulnerable people could take advantage of them there's no question I was was I was speaking to have to the group of haveta javea man Muncie you know the you ever find yourself without gas in the highway or you're not such a schlemazel like me huh there's no gas you caulk evade him and they come with gas ah flat tire you don't fix your own flat tires okay fart I eat huh so they had a dinner to honor the kovaydin all the calves ate him so worth like a hundred and twenty hundred and thirty with their wife's so I told him over and I said that in in interesting insight I think it says in the homage twice that somebody was found by an ish and partials were useless it says Yakov was alone why a of eight ish Amoy a man wrestled with him sera she says it was Sarah shall Asaph a subs angel next partially of Aisha it says Yosef got lost by him say who ish and the man found him Rashi says mark of real I said well away this is not fair it says the same word ish here it's a survey discovery yeah come on Wiz intellectual integrity and consistency if each is a solution say so so there actually is saying look at the contexts the two people in both parties remain alone and they're lost they're lost which would be metaphoric of being lost in life yeah in Yakov's case he's alone there's nobody there no attachments Levada he's alone he's a man finds him and what happens by ye of ik ischemia the loss of chakra who you're alone in a dark alley let me kill you I can't kill you let me name you now she says that's Irish elesif Yosef is also alone lost vulnerable father's not theirs brothers are not there man meets him vulnerable kids 17 years old then the man says two words Madhava Koosh what are you searching for and Yosef says us a high emotion of Akash I'm looking for my brothers Rashi says that's my lack of real so you when you see a person alone vulnerable stripped from everything one person says oh this is an opportunity to punch him in the nose this is an opened punch whatever that punch means and another person says how can I help you find what you're looking for that's the key difference same word ish but look at the context when a person is stripped from everything and you're alone in your vulnerability that's called a unit that's one of the most naked moments in life right at such a moment you have to be able to tell yourself matter vaca SHhhh what are you looking for and you'll always see the answer will be as a clear night in my rakesh I'm looking for a brother I'm looking for my brother whatever that brother means that moment says the ballot Anya dearie boy - a loyal Amash em in his ain't safe reveals himself in the same way he also goes through that said that symptom you just went through will respira sip recuiting in the divine I shall also have aya you can I oh he'll make the shame I value through your own betrayal that same process happened it's not just you're alone in the world but you're a good guy no no in that aloneness right the infinite one whose mamas infinite condenses himself to a core to a seminal point called cold you'd then your hey will create a hey your valve will create of love that's what I told you the first day with the Baal Shem Tov said about sadaqa you remember when you take out a coin and you give it it's your hey involve a it shouldn't be the other way because what what I do what everything I do or feel or experience creates that energy in all of the worlds including in the source of all the worlds that's the majesty of a human being the the power of a human being I said recently I don't know if some of you heard I was in California no somebody told me they heard a lecture from the right of the maggot a similar vault about by bicurious yams of Hashem looked like a a Bakr and my Messiah he looked like a kid than my mother entirely he looked like an old man so the maggot says I thought our chef doesn't have images the my filter says mashaallah that when the Jews left mitzrayim our Shem appeared like a child like an infant at the yams of he looked like a Bakr a teenager and at curious young at math interior he looked like an old man a sage eternity mistletoe says so the magaz I thought God doesn't have images so the market says that an incredible insight that a parent has the image of a child engraved in their head your child's image is engraved and therefore it's part of you it becomes you it's it's the in if I look at your brain so to speak if I can have an x-ray I see your child okay cuz it's because of the love so the magnet says how is your child engraved what does he look like or she look when they're engraved and answers exactly what they look like when he's one it's one than when he's 10 is 10 and when he's 18 is 18 and when he's 40 is 40 it's exactly what looks like and then the market says and when he makes a when he defecates that's that's exactly what he looks like sometimes he's very clean and sometimes he's dirty he says Hashem have the image of every child is engraved and therefore that image becomes so to speak the divine and exactly the way the child is she says bye you'd see a sermon I'm the Jews were like infants they were just born so that's what God appeared like and by Korea Sam soft like a teenager and by Martin Toyota has occurred because that's where they were holding because that was their experience because that was their experience that becomes the divine because my image the child's images engraved and then he adds and if a child is filthy and full of excrement that image goes into the child which means that's the pie he says shut in deposit in your shower rockets are sure messiahs Benoist Xion hashem bathe the excrement of the daughters of senior and said the Margot says not only he bathes their excrement rocket Sasha he has to bathe his own because their filth becomes his because your child is engraved in you and it's part of you so therefore whatever is there that becomes him cariago that's how deep the relationship is that's what the magnet of misery teaches but there's no such a thing as disconnecting it's not this connecting there's no such a thing you disconnect you're too dirty I disconnect that that that's not an option ok tomorrow will be a sheer base in other words the image of course he's just with the example of Sir may round when a person goes away from that which is raw for him that's a tremendous I mean that's a daily exercise no no I think a mechanism is good as long as you can always examine it and make sure the mechanism is coming from strength not from weakness that's building a dam against a current of water that's flooding your house is a good thing right that's a good thing but if I build a dam because I don't want to deal with myself and I'm afraid of real relationships and then I'm undermining it so then I have to get rid of those dams and I have to have the covers to be able to examine which dams are promoting my true values and which dams are just distracting me from my true values convention but you're a hundred percent right we all we want to create protective than we do that we live in shelter we live in homes another hole but you understood very deep the cell the self-discovery and self elation and self-realization that comes from this type of symptom in your life is incredibly powerful it almost allows you to reach sometimes to reshape everything as you go back to the start it's like almost your own eye in life you go back to your own eye this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot lay ueshiba net / donate