Rabbi Perr - Reb Aharon Kotler's Yahrtzeit 5781

I have to ask him AA because I got engrossed in something else a matter that's very engrossing so I simply forgot to look at the time we started a new section of MRE s but I would like to digress today an exception and talk to you because today is the Earth said of of rabar cuddler and I had the privilege of learning in Lakewood and a special privilege of being close with him of all the people around perhaps one of the closest if not the closest part of it had to with the fact that my father in SL and was very close with them all the years and when I came to Lake with khah time so theiva greeted me I had met theiva in other cases when I was younger whenua said to me the first thing was I remember when your father came to sa my father was maybe a year younger than him something like that I always like to tell this story because it really illustrates his [Music] I one of the Russ Shas that I was in was there many many many years I was there was there rash so I'm one rash I said to him there was a by the sud so I said to I sat was to sit by his table and I was to sit opposite him face to face 3 feet away and I said to him uh it says the minut is not to sleep on rash because we don't know the moment of den and a person shouldn't be asleep at the moment of den you may have heard this from me so I said I know the moment of then that's the way I put it very challenging manner I said I know the moment you did so Shea said to me when is the moment then since supposedly since you know it I said the moment then is very easy I said is at rash 18 hours when the sun is 18 hours East of that is the end of the den and it's very easy to figure out right longitude where you are in the world exactly what time the den is at that time because that's the only time that the didn't the only time that the whole world has r at the same time because after that the sun has gone further and the day is over as as as the world Revol revolves I I'm explaining it to you would I have to say it to him I just said the only moment there's a in on the whole world and the gor says they're all judged with one glance simultaneously so that means the whole world is judged in one moment so there only one moment that the whole world has BR so it's very easy to figure out when R over according to those opinions that is 18 hours which is majority of opinions 18 hours East so sh SM and when I tell the story I always say that this Hano that he had from the question it's a question that gave him a pleasure and the smile that he had when he heard it gives me pleasure she said you're making a mistake you don't understand what it means all judged that one moment then he said aot theot he said was that when a person is judged this is not his original says this in other places if a person is judged let's say he has to have an oish so it's not just an oish for him but the family suffers with the also if the family didn't deserve the let's say person's injured so the parents suffer from the injury sometimes the siblings suffer from the injury they have a lot of Desire from it that one of the members of the family is hurt that this particular child is hurt so in order for the child to be hurt you had to do an a of some kind in order for the parents to be hurt they also have to do some kind in a ver that deserves that hurt because the doesn't hurt somebody unless there's a reason doesn't hurt a person emotionally unless there's a reason if the Mommy's going to feel bad about it and well she will so she deserves to feel bad so the person is judged and at the same time he's judged he's supposed to get a pain so everybody around him is judged and they to get a pain and the people around them are judged let's say an uncle or an aunt that they get a certain amount of minor pain because it's their sister's child or their sister suffering because of the child so they also are suffering so they also have to deserve the pain and if any one of them doesn't deserve the pain the pain won't happen to the child you all have to deserve the pain that's s on M but is perfect she says so everybody in larger circles is affected by what happens to each individual until the whole world is really encompassed and beside that he said the Judgment goes if he deserves to get a pain but there's a question why does he deserve it his father or his mother trained him a certain way so maybe it's not fully his pain his his it's not fully his punishment and his grandparents trained the Father the great grandparents Grand trained the grandparents and they serve as an influence and there's another if he has a pain what kind of effect will it have on him and what kind of effect will it have on his children that yet to be born what kind of effect will they have on the grandchildren s effects the question but nevertheless an effect in effects that are so subtle it can't be defined perhaps can't be seen but they have an effect SOA says you see that the din on each individual encompasses the whole world and the whole bries ious so that's what means that when a person is judged it doesn't mean everybody's judged at the same moment but the Gabi this individual who's getting judged the whole world is judged and why I tell you this story I told you if you to understand that Riva understood the world the whole mass of the world you understood the implication ations of something in its Universal sense he understood that in his time 65 bam later on I get became about 104 if I remember 65 b or 100 B in the United States of America where they were at that time five million Jews there still are five million Jews because rest already stopped being Jewish you 100 bar and he had at that time when I came to Lake was 65 70 bar small he understood the impact that 100 that 65 bam going to have on on their families and the world and the whole Jewish people and in fact in one of the times he spoke to us so in fact he said that during the sa it says that g went to fight the battle against the goam and in order to fight the battle he had to have soldiers who had not knelt had not KNE maybe or knelt I'm not sure the right word knels probably toar so he took his troops down to drink water and some of the soldiers went down on their knees because they were used to going down on their knees drink the water there were others who went did not go down on their knees because they never went to AAR on their knees and they just didn't want to go down on the knees so they got a hold of the water they lay out on the ground flat and they and they took the water that way without going on their knees they didn't let their knees go down on the floor there were 300 of them out of if I remember correctly 10,000 and those 300 became the soldiers so 300 people 300 young men army men who had not bowed to the idol bow and of the whole Jewish people people and rash said and from these 300 they rebuilt CL few Generations later buil thees so 300 people can rebuild Clos and take a look at what not only what Lakewood has become what lakan has built throughout the United States and Israel you know largest competing is with lir wonderful place a wonderful place I have a brother-in-law who's a couple years younger than me married to two sisters his name is a his father was famous verit remembers very clearly came time Ina I think 2 o'clock or something like that 25 he had to go out in the street in and asked us to come in to make a Minion for men there was no minion issue you hear that it was nobody there brilliant said a year you know how many B were in it two were two B in this year two BR look at the mirror now and where do those boys come from they come from America or they come from England from other places too of course now that you have a volume coming from America so of course you're going to have others why they come from America because Ran's impact on was the impact of a handful of tum that he had that they had on America through him and that's why does and because Mar is anothera that didn't exist or brisk was the Yesa had two or three Tom them so we B Sines through the tah throughout the world and the yish throughout the world it's so strong came from him World from him when I was young were very few in the world were they come from C background but they didn't turn out to be and they went toas turned out to be just B regular he became rers and the children became rers and they became rers because they were Bar's impact on them went back to the authenticity of your obar that's all his credit all of it and he never looked for credit but he had a view of what he's doing as he he understood the gigantic impact a small thing has one of the important things he said was that buer make a big mistake I think I should share this with you B make a mistake he thinks like this well I made have see on this m i Lear so many BL this year you year we learned 30 BL I learned very well next year 30 BL another year later I'll learn another 30 Block he sees every year year as just a repetition of the present year and that's not true because what happens with tah is tah just multiplies it explodes it's not that you learn 30 BL this year and 30 BL next year 30 next year's 30 BL is a different kind of 30 BL than this year your knowledge your head your information caring around is a different thing it's like having 300 blot next to you will you actually cover 300 or not and a year later it's not 300 blot became 3,000 and a year later becomes 30,000 or 300,000 and that the B doesn't understand and having heard that from him they look at Lakewood which they don't understand what they're looking at when they're in Lakewood they weren't there in the beginning like I was I look at Lakewood and I say look he started with who knows I think he started origin with 13 B I think so maybe 14 time I came by the time my came was 65 by the time I came maybe was 70 I don't know never counted them at that time maybe 70 maybe 80 a few years after I came I know they count somebody counted was 104 down to the beds look a langu can you believe it have you been there gigantic and that's all from one man just like he said you can't measure the impact just by looking and thinking it goes further it just explodes and in individual life your knowledge of to and your siss everything that you have in yourself explodes and you don't realize it a person is like a seed from a seed there was a whole tree have you ever seen an apple seed what piece do about this big all Tree Grows with apples hanging each one of them has dozen seeds one little seeda grows you read the popcorn you ever see the kernel little kernel like this exploded Expos it to fire just exploded into different shape popcorn pop that's what happens to a person and the fire that you expose the popcorn to is of course the fire looks like a fire you know fiery law was given from the bur's right hand fire exposed things to fire they melt they change can be shaped they can be formed explode that's the story of RAR other the time there were wife's grandfather special Jew great man he didn't do it and I think what was missing was this by all of them I don't think that they had that suet that this can explode to something gigantic have the world view gigantic change that will take place I think that's the most important thing to have to realize that when you are doing something it's not just you're doing it now having profound impact your children will be different your grandchildren will be different sometimes an older person children say you know he has 140 descendants it's true it's happened by a lot of people my bbby has so much and so much so old shabas and they're having each one is having is married with a family of six kids and next generation is is larger still that's what's happening that is small because the physical world doesn't multiply to such a great extent as R worlda they told the story and I never saw this happen I to drive a number of times remember how many but quite a number of times to New York it was a cycle those who were drivers it was like a a gab Yesa who said this time you going I was on them I didn't put myself on there foolishly I didn't put myself on there but they put me on I tried to get off because I didn't want to waste the time waste the time you understand driving TOA I want to stay with my gamor so I said to the gabbi came to tell me it was my turn to drive I told the gabbi I just got my license you know not a good driver he not safe he said I know you he said you're just got your license but you're a safe driver anyway the St was told but I never saw it in those days it was no easy P but there were my time they installed automatic Lanes where as you pass you through change into the a kind of a a half circle buckets and count went through a machine and counted it before my before that was by each by each lane of the exit there was a person then they put these automatic machines of automatic machines they put in there always was one lane where there was a person was you had didn't have the correct change and had to get change to one Lan had a person so they told in yes the was being driven he said to somebody I'm sure the story was true because so typical of him the story is typical of a person that you know is true that's the kind of thing you can if you knew him that's the way he would be so he said when they were approaching the tall booths he said to his driver go by the man made it hold there then driver said he's got to change whatever was 50 cents two quarters just throw it in said now go by the man and the man you should know was a slower of getting through was there other people needed change a guy would come with a dollar bill need a change you know took time car after the car go by the man so you know why you should go by the man is it because the man sees that a machine is doing his job and he's denigrated it's a m for him that a machine can do the job of a human being he's what what is he he's just it's just something just a subtitute for a machine has to know these we need to have him who this man who was a relative about was Aid was just another human being boy she would treated everybody with such respect with me I don't remember it even happening once and I'll tell you I know why it didn't happen because I knew the rash it happened to be that Riva at that time was driving with somebody and told him to do it but usually when you were driving Shiva he was thinking and learning he was so into learning he didn't know where he was holding he didn't see it you could see in his own eyes when he was thinking and learning like his eyes would go to the side and then the back to the middle as he thought about things and whenever he had was was free he was thinking of learning I used to watch him sometimes when he was at a a meeting with other people sitting with them and they drous this one would speak this one would speak R also spoke of course the other speeches there you know there weren't much to listen to except they were long and you look ata's face you saw his eyes you knew he was thinking and learning wasn't wasting his time he couldn't hold the safer in his hand he would had such a mind he didn't need a safer to think and learning but we knew he used to think and learning and would be sitting by lunch and they'd be could see they were quiet they were thinking and learning sometimes they told you sh I'm thinking and learning he carried the T with him a whole times C safer or not to usually C safer my time car M Brewer usual I went some with I was once traveled with him had a mar with himem I remember surprised on and that is of key importance that's what we saw and that's of key importance if you push yourself fast a certain level so learning was very easy you have to push past it the Lear becomes very easy happens by itself she had not been feeling well and we heard about it by the daughter base managed to his mail and on the nail was a small piece of paper from a small notebook like Place 6 in by 4 in something like that a small loose leaf notebook always and I had the mar clus the next year hanging there was sh in shabas or shabas night during the winter 8:00 sh Monday morning and the Mar m clus he was going to talk about were on that paper and she had been posted and the paper there was a little nail sticking out next to the door on the doorpost M side toward the inside of the Bas Mage and whoever had the marus who had taken had been dictated him would take that sheet of paper and wrote it down on and he pushed it over the top a nail and let it hang from the nail and when Yeshua started she said somebody would take it down the list on the bottom of the page would say the she would be at this time be Bas and the shear just hung there marus she did this say a Shear which is very shocking and hung there and hung there and hung there day after day and then we heard he was in the hospital and there was some who were were getting phone calls brother's condition heard had had a surgery a big surgery and somebody picked up the phone and his remark about the surgery was you hope it will be good was after the surgery when yov will be good very upset when I heard that yov would be good it sounds like despite the surgery there's something else to worry about you on the surgery very upsetting it's very upset and then he started saying to him around the clock pretty much I remember we said to him till late at night I don't remember maybe 12:00 at night or something and I was newly married I was married a year and we were told you know okay go home and I went home home got to bed about 2: or 3: in the morning my phone rang I got to call and come back to Yeshiva it's a very bad Massa and I got up with an hour or two of sleep and I walked back through the night to the Yesa maybe a block or two away it was 2 o'clock in the morning a block or two away I heard the cry qu the tilling in the nights in the quiet night quiet streets would hear a block away came to Bas MS was crying as hard out and up on the Bea I think it was three steps only the be dur CR was open a whole bunch of B I don't remember number standing with their heads inside their AR crish together bells are standing by SM anding and crying and saying till P by P these guys were standing up with the heads on the AR crish trying their hearts out it wasn't enough to try in front of the AR CR open the AR cred she stuck their heads in around your brother save our re he said to him maybe for two hours and the phone call Rang in the hall again and things took a turn for the better and we took went home again took a nap came back from shakas openes I don't remember what they open door in CR I do not remember if they open door in crish before c up to take out the was Thursday morning where they finished or the the second time I don't remember that I just remember they were Ines and he started say till him I remember AB seagull was leading the by was responding after him B by B and I remember the sh bline came in had rung in the [Music] hole came in the door the basement he walked down the aisle that was next to the door near the door and it was a Roy B on one side on the other side as he walked turned his head to the right to the B to left he said B to each grow and the well rose up as he scoll heard it but the moment or was in my mind impressed that I R seagull was standing by the the friends and he didn't know what was going on because the guys who were saying to were saying so loud such a cry that he didn't know the difference between those who crying that he should be saved and those it were crying because he was gone and the word spread around the Bish and gradually all those of the S tomb stopped and start to cry and single was saying P by P and somebody went over to him and tapped him on the shoulder and he stopped and the was crying as heart out they sat down on the floor on the dirty floor in fact everybody took off his shoes they were mourning and groaning there was a guy who used to sweep the floor and he came into the smackage came into Yeshiva in the front hall guys were sitting Bas guys were sitting every was on the floor and he looked and somebody said to him you didn't speak good English to guy somebody said was is dead an expression of his face and he just left his broom and walked out fores that so hard was so hard for K's resol not just us and after Levi in Brooklyn manatt put his are an entity herse I guess it was crowds such crowds you can't believe 50,000 e maybe more they reach forward to touch the hearse to touch him what a Devastation for was bless of that man man who shaped the generation and future Generations shaped all of us who are listening today and thousands more weren't [Music] listening and my friend who had been with him in the hospital before he died because he took shifts in the hospital told me that the Ron came and she sat next to the bed and she was in terrible shape what she saw what he was going through and he said to her and my friend heard it and told me I deserve it all he said in yish I deserve it all he said there comforting her of course you know he's not getting what he doesn't deserve I deserve it all because I didn't accomplish enough Bo son he didn't accomplish enough what do he say about the kid that has a good head and could be a good will be S he turns out just to be another schnook what about his accomplishments it never happened so of course there many of you that are thinking listen I don't have the talent and the Brilliance and the brains I'm sorry to tell you right Bo s I'm an old man I've seen many things in my life and I've seen tremendous things accomplished for ter for yish for am by people who pure Asia very untalented of all very untalented just ordinary very ordinary kids as R said the biggest mistake you make is today I do this and then later on it'll be like that and you don't know that it will explode explodes like popcorn when it's Expos when it's exposed the fire of ter look what happened that the best friend of the Jewish people that has ever been in the White House was primarily not supported by the Jewish people and the people other the people who supported his opponent rep people who hate Jews not only they say so they say so but they write in their constitutions and the secular Jews who have no Torah are with them I is not good for you is not good for your people no we hold like this and this and this how did that happen if majority of secular Jews support somebody's not good for Jews Giuliani ran for Mar mayor Italians will voted for him when dinkin the African-American ran for mayor the blacks will voted for him why don't you vote for somebody's good for you you know why because Jews need something to make them smart how smart we are this one thing that we don't have we can never think straight we can never think straight we can never think straight unless we have Torah in us we can never think straight unless we have Torah in us and all these Jews have no Torah we can never think straight that's a new a unique trait of the Jewish people we can never think straight unless we have children we don't think straight without sir and just like T mixes think straight R Boi the same reason that makes us think great and T thinks greater than non such basic things as your own welfare so T there's a lot of other things toes perfect makes even a fool smarta is pessy makes a fool smart the person who doesn't learn that to and understand that remains a pessy he gave us life and no doubt sh is Ted the source of all life who again win we talk about be for us should protect all of [Music] us thank you for listening