Pesach-Acharei - Joy and Judgment

you're listening to the weekly partial podcast with hari goldwag recorded with hashem's neverending assistance in roma israel 5782 2022. this week is the last day of pesach for those in our tutorials ramos for those outsiders israel's the eighth day of pesach and so i'd like to share with you something which you'll be able to listen to now you'll be able to listen to next week on parshasa most but connected also to the tokufa we're about to begin which is called the sphere so omar we've already started counting the elmer and we have this time when we can all relate so much more now to the loss of the twenty four thousand students of herbie akiva and there are certain things that we do even though it's a time of great simca to lead up from pesach until schwes or between it's like a halamoid between pesach and shus to lead up it's a happy time but at the same time we remember those students who died in a great plague the coronavirus has taken so many people and we can relate to it so much more after what happened last year like omar we can also relate to it we understand how for almost two thousand years we're still sensitive to the loss of the great sadikim the twenty students of ruby akiva who passed away during this time so i'd like to speak about something which is connected parsha if you're not israel it's connected to the sphere which will start to feel amazing and it has to do you know the the sons of aaron died and they died in a terrible way they went inside with a h zara a foreign fire and they lost their lives in service of hashem they did it in a positive way they were tsaddikim said on a higher level in a certain sense the motion and it was also a very joyous time very joyous time the the mishkan was built it was the first time we were serving hashem in the mishkan and if we think about it we need to understand and i've spoken about it in past years but i want to bring it to the four again here pesach right we're still in pesach and we have a time of din tell us there are points in the year pesach rosh hashanah sukis there are times in the year which we know are these are times of joy but at the same time it's a time of din it's a time of judgment rosh hashanah it's obvious but the gooman rosh hashanah says there is judgment on each of the holidays pesach there's a judgment about the tour not serious it's about the fruits how may i have them mixed up on on sukis it's for the rain on rosh hashanah of course it's our entire lives but why is it that there's a coincidence i don't mean a coincidence isn't like something democrat that just happens there's a coincidence they coincide the time of din a time of judgment and the time of joy what is that about and you see that in the story of of iron sons it was a time of tremendous joy and at the same moment there was a loss of these two incredible sadiq these righteous individuals we're going to come back to lag by omar i don't know about you but every time i think about it i feel sad so like how do we reconcile these feelings these this is a time of of joy of leading up from pesach and it's a time of paradoxically of the loss of the students of rabbi akiva what is this about what is this idea about and i think that this concept is brought to the fore in the madrush the first the very first measure in partial and when we read the measures together it's a little bit difficult to understand it's it's saying something which on the surface seems is a pellet it's unbelievable brings up it brings a post let's see it inside so as is the way of the matrix the mesh goes through a few different concepts using the same exact verse which we're going to use in the end to explain something in relationship to our partials the death of the sons of our own at this amazing moment in time at the time of the kamas amish in the time of when the mission was built shimon which passage is says something which is matmia it's it leaves us with an incredible question just like all these questions we've asked until now why is it that we have this darkness and moments of great joy what is it about pasik says russia the positive in cohes in ecclesiastes king salman tells us something very wise and very true and when we see it on the surface it begs for an explanation and that is and we're going to bring many examples of it that we see that the same thing happens to atsadek and to russia two different people one clearly righteous one clearly wicked and yet the same fate the same fate seems to occur to each of them begging the question which the major doesn't address openly but we're going to talk about begging the question why how could it be that something could happen so good to somebody who's wicked and that same good we understand why it happens to someone righteous or something so negative happens we see it happens to somebody somebody bad but why should that same negative situation occur to somebody good it doesn't make sense it's hard to understand i should say because of course everything that hashem does hashem has a perfect judgment hashem has a perfect calculation every single thing that goes on in our lives every single thing that goes on in every individual's life is perfectly calculated perfectly deserved who knows what the calculation is it might be for some reason or another we'll discuss what the possibilities are and how we can relate to it how we can understand it but sadik the fussic says the same thing happens to it sadiq and russia the first example that the message brings is we have it's right we know noah was a great righteous person person it says he was a righteous individual um we find an interesting thing even though he was at sardic something bad happened to him imagine after an entire year on the tave of taking care of all of the animals he was involved in crested 24 hours a day seven days a week non-stop no time for himself okay he was the ultimate zookeeper tremendous question as kindness he did for all the animals as he was about to come out of the ark he was he was hurt by the lion ushevari broke his leg because he had a broken limb so he couldn't bring a corbin he couldn't bring a sacrifice a cohen a priest in order to bring a sacrifice he can't have a broken lamb so instead of shaming his son shame was the one who brought the sacrifice instead of him okay so we see that although noah was righteous he was a great individual worthy of being saved from all of mankind nevertheless he received for some reason this makkah he got a he got a broken leg and manchester's gonna say he had a broken leg till the end of his life russia yet we see a similar thing happened to somebody wicked which makes sense to us we find there was a pharaoh one of the kings of egypt his name was so the word nikoi can also mean somebody who is uh has a debilitating issue he had a problem with his leg as we're going to see kevin had a very special throne and now this throne in order to go up onto the throne to ascend the throne there was a there was a trick there were lines that moved and there were different animals and you had to know how to bypass them and to know that it's before when you as you rose up as you're walking up to the throne you have to lean on the line a certain way otherwise you could get hurt by the line with some kind of mechanical situation he procured the special throne of king solomon he wanted to sit on the throne of king solomon as he was walking up he didn't know how he didn't know how it worked hikisha ariel shivari so one of the mechanical lions hurt him and broke his leg he died when it came to his day of death he still had this broken leg this pharaoh he also had a broken leg this is what it means in the verse when it says that the same thing happens to the righteous as to the wicked okay so this is the first example of something occurring to two people one is good one is bad and yet the same negative situation follows them later of latamy [Music] we speak about it can happen the same situation to someone who is good someone who is pure someone who is impure maisha we find that moses is referred to as somebody who is good at when he was born the verse says that she saw that she that he was good he saw that she saw the mother saw that she that he was good mushroom moses was good so it's a reference taive is a reference to moses interestingly mayor says what's the idea why was he called good what was unique about this child he was born he was already circumcised with when he was born he didn't have any foreskin la tahor who is the one who is pure that we're referring to here shall you oh you see russian iron with somebody who is involved in purifying the jewish people shannon as the verse says bashar al-amish in peace and in strangeness he went with me and he brought people back from sin so he was involved in purifying the jewish people from their sins as involved we all know arun akain was somebody who ran after peace all you've shown the right to show him so this passage is referring that something happened to somebody who is good which is moshe and someone who is pure and something happened to someone who is impure who are the impure ones of reference to the spies the spy spoke negatively about the land of israel and what was the result [Music] of israel and moshe said how great the land of israel is how beautiful it is the land of milk and honey the moroccan spies they spoke negatively of the land of israel he spoke negatively of god both the spies and motion iron were not able to enter the land of israel even though these motion iron were were incredible people they were good they were pure and these the the spies were terrible people they they had done terrible things it caused the entire jewish people to not be able to enter the land of israel nevertheless they were all punished in a similar way so this is what we see in the verse again a second example where a righteous person a wicked person can seem to receive the same negative situation and what is the idea behind this how can it be that two people receive the same situation the same negative situation goes on to another example yaishiya versus yeshua was a great sadiq a king attack he was killed with arrows ah was killed with arrows he was a great wicked king he was another example of that he had a positive thing king david he was a king for 40 years over the jewish people he was he was the one who was able to build the foundation of the base he was king for 40 years and he destroyed the base something that she destroyed the temple other examples different people who you know hadn't had a similar end shimshon agibor shimshon who was a great sadiq samson a righteous he was he was a shayfi a judge of the jewish people who's a tremendous righteous person and sitki was a melaka russia he was an evil king and they both were killed with their eyes being gored out the same thing happens to to it seems to be the same exact thing happening to the wicked and the righteous and then finally the message comes back to ilabane the sons of arum also refers to them with the same verse that we quoted in regards to aaron who refers as well to his sons we find that korach so there was a whole group of 250 people who came with their with their fire pants and they were all killed they all died even though they were involved as the measures was about to say inaudible they were fighting against they were fighting against mushrooms the companions of korach so they came in and they were fighting against moshe rabbenu and they were they were burned alive the inland south like they didn't they weren't fighting against anyone they were coming in the shame they felt that they were doing the right thing and they were burned to love yes this roofing and they both met the same fate not one of you or great sadiq in a certain sense they were higher they were a higher level emotion around and yet they had the same fate they seemed to fall to the same fate as as the karakva those who came along with korach and brought their fire pants and so the mattress leaves us off with all these comparisons and without really an explanation and in thinking about this you know we need to understand how does it relate to us of course and what is the idea because it's a very tremendously difficult understanding a tremendously difficult thing to understand so it begs for an explanation and back to the original questions of why does pesach come within while his shoes come with din why why do these happy times come with a time of challenge of difficulty just look at what's going on in arts israel right now it's with tremendous challenges from our arab neighbors why does that come along with the tremendous simcha of hag i want to tell you a little story that happened yesterday a little story my wife she has a harusa and they learn together concept of amuna every single day so last night my wife's karussa she made a bar mitzvah for her son and she wanted her son to have a beautiful bar mitzvah she went out of her way to get special pesach cakes and ice cream so he shouldn't feel like he's missing anything just because it was on columnoid and it was put in the freezer they came to the hall and her husband came into the hole and the freezer plug was not in it had been unplugged and all of the ice cream and all of it was ruined but my wife said to my wife you should be you can be so proud of me because we've been working on a moon everything is from hashem i just knew everything is from hashem i accepted it completely i knew that everything is from hashem it didn't she didn't let it bother her amazing that very night last night my wife opens up the freezer to check on the she goes to the freezer to check on all the food that she prepared for yanteff and our freezer was left open for a day or two i don't know we don't know exactly how long and some of the food that was on the bottom was still cold and like defrosting and still able to be used but some of the stuff that she had already cooked had been ruined hashem sent the same nisaiyan at the very same moment you know many times it happens it's a it's a yantef it's a bar mitzvah why is it that a kurdish broker who sends this kind of nicolium to us a difficulty in the moment of such great joy peace that has such a time of happiness such a time of joy yantif why does hashem send this and as i understand it as i understand it so it's not a coincidence these kinds of things happen because hashem wants to give us good and we don't necessarily always deserve the good jim wants us to get he wants us to have a tremendous synchro onyantif there's a tremendous time of joy a tremendous time of joy and there's his gala there's a revelation of hashem's divine presence in our lives and this goes together i'll mention just along the way with parnasso you know hashem wants to give us paranas he wants to give us livelihood and lively that it's it's not so easy it's not so easy to to feed our families especially today rising prices of living so many so much going on but hashem when he wants to reveal himself hashem is openly revealing himself in the area of parnassus and there is specifically in the area of times of joy and when hashem reveals himself we don't always deserve it so sometimes negative things occur in our life because we've done something wrong and hashem wants to remove it from us hashem wants to clean us off of those things that we've done wrong and i think if we look at all of the examples of of the of the contrast between someone who's wicked and someone who's good each of them receiving something negative so when explaining nawak indeed the meforshim struggled with the issue a little bit don't really come out you know with pemale explaining it but in regards to noah he wasn't he was a tamin but he was in relationship to everyone else he was on a very high level but there was something missing within him as they as they explained and because of that it was represented by the fact that he was struck on his leg he got a broken leg he limped for the rest of his life and that represents the fact that there were certain certain imperfections and the point wasn't the point to point out the imperfections when someone is wicked and they break their leg that shows that that person is wicked and we understand that but someone who's a righteous person who breaks his leg like a noah it's because hashem wants them to come into the next world completely clean you know we can get into the next world clash we haven't done shiva if we haven't been cleaned off in this world and we'll have to get cleaned off that's what gahannam is about that's that's what the fires of ghana are about but we'd rather receive it in this world that's what our sages tell us and so anak receives it in this world uh not even a view they receive it in this world they want to get to the next world they're righteous but they've done something wrong on a very fine level on a very on their high level they've done something wrong and it needs to be cleaned off when we hashem wants to be still upon us something amazing something awesome there's a bar mitzvah there's an amazing incredible such a sim card to be with our families to to be around the table to enjoy so much bounty to be able to enjoy the the singing and the and the hallel the praising of hashem remembering the kindnesses that he's done for us as a nation in the past and the kindness that he's doing for us now in our present for claustro returning to arts israel seven million jews and earth's israel for the jewish people who are coming back for the jewish people wherever they are the incredible brachis that we have the blessings that we have but sometimes we don't really you know we're not so perfect and we don't necessarily deserve completely but hashem wants us to have that that incredible joy and that incredible wealth and that incredible so what hashem does is hashem places in that very moment of the hakamasa the michigan is being built awesome joy but sometimes it's accompanied with judgment because as he reveals that joy as he reveals himself which is the ultimate joy so there's a question do we deserve it or not and sometimes in order to deserve it we need a little bit help you a little bit of help we need a little bit of something that happens that's not so pleasant and it's so important to understand this is such a clear ashkava satyara the outlook of the torah is that every single thing that occurs in our lives is for our good that's what a moon is about so be talking is about having the faith and knowing that every single thing that occurs is for our good but it's but it's often if we open our eyes it's often so clear it's so clear that this thing happened at the very same time as some something negative happens at the very same time as something positive and i think that the major is bringing out that and this is perhaps the shot in the past again kahala's ecclesiastes he says it seems to be the same thing happens to this but we need to know that what does that really mean it really means that there's a cleaning off there's a different kind it's really it looks like the same thing but it's really not the same thing for the for the tsadik when something negative happens it's so that he can experience something really good and for the russia when that same negative thing happens it's just because he's because he's wicked it's not it's not a cleaning off it's not because it's just that's who he is so even though it's the same thing on the surface king david reigned for 40 years are also reigned for 40 years this one built the foundations of the base of english are the ultimate russia the ultimate wicked individual he reigned for 40 years but you know what all the good that happened to him it was just cleaning off all the little good that he had done so that when he comes to the hemis it's waiting for him the the judgment for his negative deeds that's our hazal say it so it's so important to know such an important idea to keep in mind in our lives sometimes it seems like positive things are happening sometimes it seems like negative things are happening sometimes it seems like it's undeserved sometimes it seems like why is that person getting so much good i know that person is not okay but we need to know that when something good is happening to someone who's not so good something bad is happening to someone who is good we need to know that there is a hajj man we need to know that everything is precise everything is being done by ultimately ultimately for the good of the righteous we need to recognize that we need to know that and we need to understand that even going in to this time this kufa and my kids were complaining oh we can't listen to music this is the last day we listen to music it's such a hard time can't listen to proper music i said what about a cappella no acapella is not so good hey i'm getting insulted here a compeller you know but it's a time where we we we you know step back step back from our involvement in listening and enjoying because we recognize i think part of it is that we have to recognize that it's a time of tremendous joy it's a build up to pace from pesach to us we're building up we're starting to build up to receive the torah but with receiving the terror comes also a time of challenge a time of we have to look at ourselves and see hey are we good enough are we doing what we need to do are we meeting the stanzas are we meeting are we rising up to the occasion of being all that we really can be do we really deserve it can we indeed step up and receive the entire property can we indeed receive the joy that comes along with the observance of the terror can we receive it properly can we receive the shrina the joy that comes with being in and basking in the divine presence of hashem in our lives in order to be able to receive that we need to be worthy of that so it's just an important thing to recognize and think about as we continue on through the omer as we go from pesach to schwes as we go through the parties and we think about what happened in the past what happens in our lives and how we can relate to it so i want to bless you i ask you to bless me hashem should help us to recognize this idea how does it recognize that all that happens in our lives ultimately is for our good recognize that it is really all good hashem should have helped us to have a beautiful pessah enjoy the end of pesach and recognize and learn and stag and grow and work on being greater during these you may have sphero the time between pesach and schwarz thank you so much for listening have a wonderful yantif and a wonderful shabbos this podcast was made possible through the gracious donations of listeners like you for more podcasts like this please visit www.ariegoldwag.com or search on itunes ari goldwag [Music]