Parshas Terumah - Serving with Awe and Love

you're listening to the weekly partial podcast with Ari Gold bag recorded with a gems never-ending assistance in room up image is real 57 79 2019 this week's parshas parsha Struma and in our partial we have the donations of the jewish people gave to the Mishkan to build a tabernacle which would be a dwelling place for god's presence amongst the Jewish people and now as we're going to see rip time food land is going to share with us an amazing thing that there were two different types of donations that the Jewish people gave one of which was the shekel nakatsu shekel the half of a shekel which is an obligation for every single person to give and the other type was done in DeVos the the abundant offerings that people gave voluntarily in order to be part of the construction of the Mishkan and let's see what is the idea behind these two different types of nerdy voice these two different types of giving for the Michigan maize kaliesha shirt Valley boy take foolish trauma see the verse tells us this is in Exodus chapter 25 verse 2 that each person is supposed to whoever his heart awakens within him the desire to give to the basin make - to the temple so he's going to give a donation Marashi Rashi says no more of a sandwich - mr. Morris Khan there are three different donations that were spoken of here I've had two must Beckel ago girlís Sheen asana a Madonna there was one room on one offering one donation which was a certain amount per person and those were used for the foundations of the temple of the Mishkan the tabernacle has chromosome is bare Beca lugar that's the coop boys the Canadian currency bore another one was a certain amount again an obligation which was to be given in order to be able to pay for the for the different sacrifices which were on behalf of the entire seaboard entire public yeah has too much thought Michigan well and the other one the other type was in order to create all of the calum all of the different utensils that were used in the Michigan needed Vasco laughs aviacode it was according to how much a person wanted to give it wasn't a certain set amount but rumors clave I assured a good lucuma when it came to the obligation of trauma I came to the obligation of the donations it was a certain amount that was meant to be given mahashiv Olivia like we said before a half a shekel for each person Shammi Manolo ladonia Myshkin it was used for the foundation the special pieces that were used for the to hold together the boards of the mushroom Tomas and a double opinion Amishman Austin could I forgive universe a but when it came to that the gold and silver and the other things that were given so it was based on how much a person wanted to give which the virus ma houston initial station was a la havana davao my doing this how could we Sutra Muslim we need to understand the idea why is there some it's an obligation why there's some traumas some donations that are a certain amount and it's obligated no one is free from from giving that out that true that donation and there are other ones that were according to how much a person wanted to give based on a person's desire so he gives us a foundational concept and has to do the concert - mitsuo the ASA as opposed to a masseur yes sir there are people who are obligated in certain commandments and as a result of that there is a certain level of reward there's a certain spiritual attainment that a person has because he did it or she did it and they were obligated I supposed to someone who does a mitzvah or fulfills a commandment or fulfills the will of God without being commanded to do it which is greater but soonish de su game it's us yes sir mr. Schimmel qvi is the Chi Minh we find that there are two types of mysticism crime-free the other one is that there's an obligation to fulfill them - no mr. Shane McCoy will occur and are those that are not an obligation to let them keep going for example this person where sits this that's only an obligation if a person has a four-cornered garment we do it because we love it so we want to do them even though we're not obligated per se but we actually have a full corner garment put on this we wear it mezuzah personally ask that woman sir sir if they have a house nu 0 is clear bonus the dava different types of mitzvahs that are not an obligation to do them but one can elect to do them , mr. Shea with a high mom even in the missus that person has an obligation to keep them gone behemoth you drain endeavor you can also find that within the midst of itself there are aspects of it being a choice of a being a certain amount that I I do it based on how much I want to be sure I'm it's the same person gives the duckie they want to give charity so how much does charity does a person give theirs levels of charity yes sure she asked why women in my lease look um it's uh there's a certain minimal lowest level of fulfilling that commandment you sure became a Miss Fisher Rock reaches and there's an aspect of the midst of a certain level that if I give more let's say in sadaqa more charities so then that's my choice that comes out of money do believe that comes out to how much I want to do a mitzvah huzzah Lamar our sages tell us it's a chimeric condition on that flam and olive peach 31 good ol omitsu the Aisin minamitsu VA sir there's someone who does it because he's obligated so that's a greater level in someone who does it when they're not obligated because suet Isis Isis explains their the high no timer to me shimasu VA sir Oh DIF what is the foundational reason there's a few different understandings of it but Isis has a specific idea which claim free learn was going to expand upon and that is when a person is obligated in performing the Mitzvah it's a greater thing wine if he should die gamma star yes sir that person will put more effort into it he's more worried about it he's more concerned why pinata because he's afraid that it's gonna pass gonna miss the opportunity or he's afraid that he's not going to do it correctly mission a massive mitts over someone who is not obligated in that commandment it's a nice thing that they do it but they don't have that same worry they don't have the same attention there are the same focus on doing it properly she a possible solution here it's your Nia that person has what's called their bread in their basket which means that they could just not do it so therefore they're not as worried and not as concerned and so the results are different for somebody who performs it because they're obligated to do it had a girl akiima Mitzvah bonito Herrera dress her mind she's bottom when a person is worried about doing a commandment properly so that comes from there Yashiro and their fear of heaven they're all of God their respect for God their respect for the obligation autumn Sheena Doug miss starlett comes amid so a person who doesn't have that worry to fulfill the mitzvot unknown mechanism it's variation scar Mitzvah it's true that such a person fulfills it and he has reward is he has attained that as a spiritual attainment al-khaimah shana dig the hurried became a mitzvah but since that person is not as worried he's that is he's not as focused on the fulfillment of that commandment unless mi Drago's generation mine shall here is shaman shaman su voz doesn't have the same level of fear of having he's not doing it at the same level of all and respect for God as a person who's commanded to do it now I going agreed Lazar case off' because they were so the rabbi blade blazer says like this yeah dog of had sash of chemo missus that a person who is worried and he has she has pain she's worried is very Madonna as we say in Hebrew said that's a GU formaggio scar missus that worried that focus as we keep saying is what brings up the level of the Mitzvah it was a personal greater reward a greater spiritual attainment to Sharmini a Sheila the other mouth do Bob does say is pushing like just like other pain that a person has when a person does God's will the other one su V ASA Cooley that's what they said like we just said meaning gums the nikla Bahamas elephants are Agra and this is included in what are say just say what you mentioned last week we're gonna expand upon it today that according to the to the difficulty so is the reward when amid so is difficult to fulfill the harder it is the more that's like it's like the more challenging something is the greater the feeling is when one accomplishes it and that's true also admits us when a person is challenged it's difficult to fulfill that commandment the results are that a person has a greater spiritual attainment and so when a person is obligated to do it so there's a certain greater desire as we said there's a certain greater pain involved a worry he knows I'm moving my Alif moments of the I said laical some baja dog about social Cuba missus even within those who are obligated to do it not everyone has the same feeling toward the Mitzvah not everyone has the same worry about fulfilling it properly he's ethic ball in Arizona mr. shammies Borla this will be depend on a person's fear of heaven via KHOU serie so he came via dog about Sasha governments is according to how much a person respects God respects that or respects the obligation that's going to change the level of how they do that Mitzvah if you err theros of Joseph Atari the camera sunshine is Bora according to how much a person is concerned and worried about fulfilling God's will cane your arm even nieces are mid-sized to the Milo Milo rush so it's going to raise up the level of his fulfillment of that command key lafoon Sarah Agri according to the difficulty so is the reward according to the pain a person experiences so is the reward ammonium ashoka lumineers hashem especially if a person will be missing in his fear of heaven nagamma missus sheís I some yukl Leah's kibbles karim rock together in with severe so what can happen is very interesting but person doesn't really care so much about fulfilling the commune he's not so worried about doing it right he does it but it's not so concerned so then it can fall down to the level of someone who's a nowit's 2vi serve someone who is not obligated in doing it break ecology associational mitsuo VI say a Shana Matsui I said what is the advantage of someone who is mentally I said like we said who Rahman they had dog about Sasha Dyke Mysterio Supra or the fact that he's concerned and he's worried he's not going to do it right well let me shine your stomach ever Laveau a person who doesn't have that fear of having inside of him so what's gonna happen vein Doug miss Terrill Kimo mrs. penny over he's not worried about not doing it wrong Mizuki Gama mr. GK masseuse scrum wrap together and with service the result can be that a person is just going to the spiritual attainment is not as great because he's not as worried he's not as focused he's not as he's not giving up so much Kim avakov Schumann silver what does it help the person that he's obligated in a diagnosed artificial Malcolm if he's not worried about fulfilling God's will of worship Amma mother when you up Yahoo lob a medal and smile Osama - yes so we see that a person can lose the advantage of doing it as someone who's obligated and costly your social became emesis if a person is missing in his fear of heaven Makena dogma Mascherano harlem Avera are very interesting he says that we find in our sages they say in collusion that if a person has transgressed a certain prohibition okay is shown above a hoot relay if you did it one time okay there's something wrong did is the second time the person is now for that person it's he permitted what does that mean the high no action of ours have Arabic I'm Shana bow he nice I'm MOT spoon of Minami minima so see us how there's person has lost his conscience the conscience is that a person reminds a person this is something that feels wrong I shouldn't do this when a person has done it and I've done it again the conscience stops talking to him Kelly the SAS are very much gonna pay me for Neve commits like his conscience is already blemished well the recession assets like a head their affiliation with only a very even if a person that's a person has lost his conscience and one time I've already said he doesn't do this in he's from Shirley asked a severe mikka Makka Moo calluses Karla mitsuo VA say that person now loses heaven forbid loses the scar you know a person if you don't there's a certain again spiritual accomplishment when a person refrains from doing Anna Vera from from performing prohibition he car in Lea serum my man Amy molasses is severe why because a person when their conscience goes down they've lost that that fear of heaven maybe I'm a dragon mara and it's brought there as well I believe it's blazer as well from the words of the Gemara it's a a sorry I'm a victor rah okay excuse me Ravi tur going it says a god saw and he was my father on the nations of the world he gave up what does I mean Raja misses been in touch you know my kind of my son he saw that this the the nations of the world were not fulfilling the seven Noahide laws okay I'm gonna be turned I him and he said you don't forget it they're not obligated in the seven Noahide laws anymore we're said you tomorrow tomorrow explains JP was your shift key I may have asked you she will miss face it's not doesn't mean that they no longer are obligated in seven Noahide laws Elish a McCollum's car commit suicide rather it means that they no longer receive reward for fulfilling them like someone who is commanded and does it Alec a machinima supervisor only like somebody who's not commanded another module you koopa storm water they lose their reward why is it no longer a great attainment for for for one of the members of the mussalam the k.michelle raja means much shame economist and missus since god saw that they were now fulfilling the commandments Romania and I'm shunned Agra Maharaja but he misses he saw that they didn't have any of heaven they didn't have any worry about the fulfillment of the commandments like albums Cartman severe so they no longer can receive reward as a result now efficient is very shy Raymond Ray goes with Bettina summit sauce Mitsu's and some of the ISO there many different levels within it so VI sir okay cult is officially your sham maíam what comes out an amazing thing the more a person has fear of heaven more person has respect for God the more person recognizes within himself that I'm doing it because this is God's Will Smith star he's worried Shamu eros autumn like human mitzvah that's what's causing him to do Mitzvah maybe isolate the algorithm a akuma Mitzvah and he's worried about not fulfilling it st. michaelis eyes of Athena show him a to VI service carmen so that strengthens within him the level of the mitzvah the level of his fulfillment the level of his spiritual attainment in sin Cain comes out key hack FS cargo vehicle a vehicle OPA your shaman shall like the reward that a person attains is dependent on the level of his your shall I'm the level of his fear of heaven but Harada the key moments of Athena loop um Sarah Agra fulfilling it as we said based on how much desire a person has may never have been a good of death sir hey BB shame of exam that's the right name of his father but beer my mom's all you offer pom assets re me about my beliefs are that there's a concept that is better to do it one time with pain with difficulty with a challenge more than a hundred times without without difficulty Shane covenants Castle America sure shots are they're not going to tell us how much pain a person has elevator allah masha filled with Sark culture even a little bit of difficulty Zeca my map unofficially bits are is a hundred times greater than a person who did it without any difficulty fulfill the commandment without difficulty in my element sets are kosher the more difficulty it is is involved in the fulfillment eraser go and if you know how much you love it sir it's even greater than a hundred times our coaches officials are nice of ICS I mean so you've all chuva scar ping-mei each time it goes a hundred times a hundred times a hundred times a shekel I get a camera Vova chelated sir it can be that a person fulfills his obligation his Mitzvah this is his his commandment that God commanded and and it's done with challenge with difficulty with pain it could be tens of thousands of times the value of someone who fulfills it without pain in King you shouldn't assess most to come on a magazine commit suicide it to services are are there sham I'm we can understand how much a person adds to their fulfillment of the mitzvahs when a person has sorry as paint over it how through is your shaman through the fear of heaven but I rather like him and missus because he's afraid he might not do it correctly physically mr. Beecham I'm according to the level that a person strengthens his the concept of muster working on the ethical concepts working on fear of heaven Magne Magne subscriber but he knows how much to be Isis so he strengthens and makes greater the reward in the aspect of somebody who is fulfilling it because he was commanded to okay now that's all has to do we've been speaking now until until now about good silver VA sir somebody who's commanded to do it but there's something amazing there's another aspect we said within the Mitzvah right there's a person to be obligated to do it but there's also higher levels in the myths of person can give him more charity person had to have a more beautiful as we can spend more money on his missus each Mitzvah has within it different levels and that aspect of it is Ana Matsuya Vegas is so how he to understand that part because we seem to be saying that that's not the greatest smile it's not the greatest advantage no he says there's a greater advantage within that as well I mean either me th come my limits to the ICB patinas I have become a mitzvah until now we've been talking about the fear that person has the warrior person has because they're not gonna fulfill it properly but now there's another aspect which is when I want to do it better when I want to do it on a higher level that indicates not my fear I'm not afraid I'm not gonna fulfill it properly but rather it indicates that I have a love for us gem it shows that I that I want to do what God wants for me I show my love for uh shallow dig Mo Kio missus our remaining issue socio minimally catalysis is key moments of climate so V I said for example he says the Missa of the forum enum rule of the Hadassah Marathas cetera that's rude so there's the lowest level in personal fulfillment horuseus humor Mitzvah so there's also the beautification limits for having a nicer estwick having one without any spots she never tasted like you know missus shows how much the person loves the Mitzvah she may aim Bettina she'll animus Sylvie Isis so that's this aspect that we're saying of a no and so he's not obligated in that was a yes of girdle animus of the eyes to be between us haha Bivona deviously chemo ministers this disc inspected the idea of new diva's olive performing the commandments because we want to do it because we it comes it just pours out of our hearts because we love God only amess Sava he may be a lead a needy was amazing thing this has two sides of it when a person loves somebody else when a person loves their spouse or their child etc so the result of that love is that they want to give to the other person they want to go over and beyond for the other person they do favors for the person even if the person doesn't even ask anything any quest from a sister I'm not gonna read it inside but that that a child or a spouse who has so much love for their for the for the other one so when they hear even a hint to something they hear all my mouth is very dry it's an opportunity for me to get to get my spouse a cup of water get my father a cup of water his mouth is dry I didn't even ask for a cup of water but that's the the the what results from love is that a person it pours out from him the desire to do something above and beyond and that's this aspect of the Daevas how life and the animates of a visa aspect okay so it comes out the move or she could fee me this I have a shame la chemise Park according to the level of love that a person has for a sham kahu's economy that's Anna DeVos so the result is that a person has this aspect and the Devers of giving it out for free of giving out you know be above and beyond losses it's a mitzvahs me Tecna diva slaveship Athena's animal supervisor in this aspect like we said only Edith a metallic a fool but he gives us another very important point that it can also work in the other direction we took minutes on the divas of the Megillah Seamus minutes I have while it's true that the person has loved so the result can be an outpouring of doing things for the other person or fresh em but it's also true in the other direction when a person does something for another person extra do you do extra things they write a little love note to their spouse they they the mother pertz puts a candy or a treat inside of the lunch of the child that the child wasn't expecting that brings a person to a greater love as well it works in both directions Maran of Araby knows all his beer road ester explains it's a very well-known conception I have a utility sannasi know the word a bow which means love the root of that word says roof necessaries have which means to give love comes as a result of giving you shall Adam nice and mushy Bjelica verily when a person gives to somebody else are you they cackled miscarry love well if i say yeah i sir the more person invests in somebody else the more the person loves that person beers i shall be dragged Gemara we find and he explains this based on the words of the game or the game are says Adam race of the cow shall I Teesha Cavan Schalke bear I personally prefer one small measure of his own more than nine times that amount that's that someone else's meaning of our Rashi have evil evalutation Malbin when a person works at something when a person creates something it's his he loves it more than anything else even even if somebody invested more or someone else works very hard and created much more I want my thing I want to think that I created I'm connected to it because I gave I invested into it Adam Hama parish cubed sneha's a paris a person who worked very hard in in his field in his orchard bringing the fruit fruits to fruition Miska Charlaine isn't enough acaba vets like he's connected to it it's much more dear to him the Cossack in shock has their who would be another Mahavira certainly this is true when it comes to our relationships with others Kahala makea by a serum is dying my today to the extent that a person invests in somebody so he identifies with a person while you take a flea they are very loved and that results in love towards him Commodus hashem the alcázar be another one welcome so to in our service of God when it comes to the way that I relate to a Shem the column I say it's a void Association let me talk maybe with Slade to the extent that I do it out of freely giving to God as it were Margaret slicer/dicer Sabah shall L ishani spark the more I give to God the more I'm giving up for God the more i strengthen my love for a sham Amna mince the veena with mrs. Hugh VSB between us it's a V I say while it's true that we have an obligation when it comes to those misses we are commanded to do evaluation LaDonna hurry cuban we need to know that even after the obligation there's another aspect issue that in harming Malcolm Lapidus a sham a system it's me Tomas Anna DeVos there's much room within the Mitzvah to perform it in a way which is that extra step and that above and beyond me to quit so neha acts me from my own desire for my own will became our mitzvahs to fulfill those Commandments holidays our voy de Burkina see must be a shame and that brings a person to a love of God it brings a person to a higher level of love of God and he brings down here I'm not gonna read this inside but the morale says that the difference between people and Malakand angels they serve God only out of fear the only love that we find it's mentioned is the way that they treat each other they're not jealous of each other they're all serving God but as far as their relationship with God the Angels serve God out of fear man however human beings because we have bethere we have free will so that leaves it possible for us an angel doesn't have a choice they must serve God that's fear we have a choice we don't necessarily feel that we must serve God - that opens the possibility for us to serve God out of love so it's an amazing opportunity okay so now let's bring it back to the Mishkan back to our partial come or how Myshkin enemy states to get true like we said the beginning the Mishkan had two different types of donations drew Amex is a shekel she means el asesor Adana miss ELISA Michigan there was the half shekel which everyone was obligated to bring and that was the for the foundation of the Mishkan my mission is Romanian deviously the second aspect was the donations that were given based on a person's desire Amishman Schumacher Asahina the tabernacle which represents the place where God's divine presence dwells who Malcolm a mechanical mark of the Christ well this is the place that connects between God and us vanillite dark alley the minutes and Evo's the main aspect of its building was done through this aspect of doing it from a person's heart based on how much a person who wanted to shmita the Betina tightly rotc fava because we need the aspect of the inside being covered with gold it's golden it's beautiful it's special because it was done from the deepest olive out of choice out of love colors for Homer galas have awesome Easter oh that's the place where God reveals his love for the Jewish people add an image cone we need to understand that when it came to the foundation of the tabernacle you say this Hamish girl image from a sky but that was something which was given as an obligation it wasn't just coming because a person felt like it was coming because a person had to well I'm Damon this teaches us chef poppy and his burger da Mao Asada Anna DeVos even though we understand how important and how beautiful and how amazing it is to do something out of love for God of all you say the comedies of Shem he a gyro the foundation for all service of God is fear of God that's the beginning riches caught my year is Hashem the beginning of service of God has to be bottom line like we spoke about last week I do because God says so right I can't I can't ever do if I'm only doing it out of love so that if I don't feel the love today I'm not gonna do it right no there's a foundation there's a there's a there's a it's non-negotiable we do it because we fear God we do because we respect God's Word the more he have a keen of shown with two of you I said that's the aspect of you're obligated and we do it raka Harish a sluggish am I'm only once the person has that your sham ma'am then we add up add on to that Houlihan checklist will hit Kadima voice of Sheamus last week a smile sava from there we go to to receive or to try to attain the level of a verse a sham of loving God and and doing it out of our love Russia so I want to bless you and ask you to bless me back to some should help us that we should be safe that we should merit to be able to service young with both of these aspects with your assertion starting off with that respect for God with a fear of heaven and to the extent that we have that fear of heaven it gives a tremendous power tournament suicide should help us have that power and it should also help us to have the understanding to have the to be able to add on that level of Alva the place where we do it out of our free will to add on and create a tremendously deep level of love between ourselves and God thank you so much for listening have a wonderful Shabbos this podcast was made possible through the gracious donations of listeners like you for more podcasts like this please visit WWE [Music] gold black you