Mikeitz - Faith Amid Brokenness

you're listening to the weekly partial podcast with ari goldwag recorded with hashem's neverending assistance in our opposition michigan 2020. this week's parasha is parshasmi kates and in our parsha we have the beginning of the realization of yosef at extremes he had a dream when he was 17 years old that he was to be a leader for his brothers he was to be the king and indeed at the beginning of our parsha yosef is able to interpret the dreams of power of pharaoh to explain that are going to be seven good years followed by seven bad years and indeed he is appointed second in command to paro he's to be a great king of great leader over the egyptian people over the jewish people eventually and the seven years indeed occur as he as he explained it seven good years followed by a famine and the puzzle tells us that yaakov avinu jacob 22 years he hasn't seen his son he doesn't know that yosef zadek is alive still certainly doesn't know that he became the leader over egypt and as the sukkam as the story unfolds so we'll see you next week sparsha the brothers it's revealed to them that yosef is the one who is this strange leader over the egyptians who's giving them the food who's selling a few of the food accusing them of being spies etc and the information is sent back to yaakov avinu that his son yosef is still alive he doesn't believe it at first but eventually he comes down to egypt to meet again with his son and the story is remarkable and interesting perhaps one of the most suspenseful stories of the torah and there's a point here in the matrix i'd like to share with you i never saw before very interesting point very deep idea perhaps that we can take out of it i'd like to share with you also even though hanukkah is ending today and it could be that by the time you're listening to the sonic is over but i'd like to share with you an insight and a feeling that i had over hanukkah which i believe is connected to the story tells us that the brothers are sent down to egypt nine out of the sorry ten out of the eleven brothers that still remained after yosef was sold and yeoman is kept in canaan with yakovin with jacob they're sent down and why why they sent down yaakov sees that there's food in egypt and so he sends them down because there's a famine throughout the land of canaan in the land of egypt so the matrix points out to us i'm an unusual language when it refers to the fact that yaakov sees that there's food in egypt it doesn't refer to it as ochel food the normal word used for food but rather as chevre the word chevre is an unusual reference to food and the word shiver can also mean a few different things which ever can mean to break the word chevre starts with the letter shin the message is going to teach us an amazing thing that the word shin can also be read with a dot on the left side instead of on the right side in that case it takes on a completely different meaning which actually is part of a song on a video i just released asrisha yaakov of israel praiseworthy is the one who the god of jacob is helping him sivrai which is similar to the word shivray which means food here's his hope the word means that the hope of the person the bitah on the faith of the person is an hashem his god doesn't just mean food but it also means that there was hope in egypt an amazing thing yaakov saw that there was hope they were they had a famine they couldn't they didn't have any food simple shot there's hope there there's what one needs there in egypt mentor springs apostate of chapter 12 verse 14 hain yaha [Music] at this point so the pasek is telling us that there's there's times where hashem seems to destroy the times that hashem builds there's those things that are built or those things that are destroyable system what that means but there's a connection between that which is this seems to be destruction and that which seems to be building the there was an etsa of the sheba there was a there was a plan of the tribes shimon and levi and other brothers to destroy yosef sadiq to break his dream that his dream shouldn't come true but their their plan didn't work it will be closed another person and it will not become open very interesting refers to the fact that sometimes information is closed off from a person he's not open he's not aware of that which is going on the shevatim the brothers they came down to egypt they went back and forth to egypt a few times and they didn't have any awareness of the fact that yosef was there in egypt right in front of their faces uliyakov and here's the kiddish that i never heard before listen to this an amazing thing we need to understand what it means because it doesn't sound like this is what's going on in the pastry yaakov already had a revelation at this point in time when he sends the brothers down he had a revelation that joseph is he's alive shania is has two meanings as we're saying shiver means that there's an aspect of destruction and that there's an actual an aspect of severe which means hope there's hope in egypt the fact that there is a destruction that's because there's a famine severe there's hope that's the fact that there's food there in egypt that yosef had collected seven years worth of food there's an aspect of destruction that yosef something bad happened that jose was brought down to egypt but there's hope because yosef is now the leader of egypt there's another aspect of negativity of destruction that's going on in egypt and that is that there's going to be the the jewish people it was decreed on the jewish people they're going to go down to egypt they're going to be they're going to have to be slaves and they're going to be tortured there but there's also hope as the prophecy said as abraham was told by god as abraham was told afterwards you're going to go out with great wealth with great riches measure springs another plastic bag there's an aspect of where karen says i'm before she'll explain it's a reference to the sun jacob avino was like the sun would he not shine it had been 22 years that he lost his as a result of his aveilus his his mourning for the loss of yosef but at this moment in time at this point in time all of a sudden something came up for him there was an awareness yosef is alive joseph is alive there's hope despite the destruction there's hope or maybe because of the destruction or side by side with the destruction there's hope in the end of the passage says also in iowa chapter 9 verse 7 there's a closure there's a a lack of awareness on the part of the stars the sun sees the sun is yaakov he was the sun in the dream of of yoseph but the stars those are the shvatim they're not aware of they were going in and out of egypt they didn't know that yosef was alive well yaakov to yaakov it was revealed indeed yaakov had a revelation at that point that joseph was around so obviously the kasha is not true we in the later parsha and the next parsha yaakov is can't believe that he's alive he didn't know about it before but the maforshim explained here an amazing thing an amazing deep thing it's such an important thing and it's it has to do with us it's not good to each and every one of us it touches each and every one of us number four should explain that yaakov jacob at that moment he had an awareness he didn't fully it wasn't fully cognizant he didn't come completely to his conscious mind what the awareness was but he knew that there's hope in egypt that hope meant this food there that hope meant that yosef's there that there's a leader claudia's throws leader joseph is there he's there it just it felt he felt it he had a he had a feeling he couldn't put his finger on the feeling it could be if you would ask him he's joseph lives no absolutely not he's dead but he had a feeling of positivity a feeling of there's something good happening there there's something good that's going to be there civra yeah the word zebra means a hope i i i feel like something good is going to happen something good is going to be going on the aspect of the talking of faith in god of belief in god knowing that something good is going to happen we're going to come back to this flush out what it means to us and and what's the idea here so let's put it on pause for a moment i wanted to tell you something something that i was desired to as i was walking passing by the meniere's on the night of hanukkah two nights ago i was inspired to something something inspired me i was moved for the jewish people 2200 years ago approximately over two thousand years ago hashem did an ace for klaus israel the jewish people they faced off with an enemy that wanted to destroy us spiritually to take away our soul to take away our connection to god to take away our connection to yiddish to judaism came and they lit a menorah they found a hashem in the small the small jug of oil it lasted a miracle for eight days it was only enough for one day it lasted for eight days unbelievable it was such a dark time it was such a dark time and the story i believe i mentioned it last week afterwards they didn't uh they weren't the best kings of claude israel they weren't the best leaders of the jewish people they were challenges there were troubles and we never really had that glory of the first temple the first place hamikdash and indeed the second temple ultimately was destroyed wha what's what happens there what's this miracle this eight day miracle i'm not gonna completely explain i'm not gonna get into it completely but what i do wanna say is it's a beautiful thing that the cholesterol did an amazing thing that the jewish people did as a thank you to for doing this miracle hashem did a miracle eight days those those candles lit they stayed lit for eight days awesome what did kaiser do what did the jewish people do in return every single jew ever he is in the world how religious he is no matter how religious they are every single little yid takes a menorah and lights it up for eight days out of the year for two thousand years every year two thousand years every jew everywhere wherever they are in the world what a response what a response the muscle that i thought of is like imagine a person gets a kiss from their grandmother they never want to forget that kiss and they got that kiss on a certain day of the year and every single year they have a they never want to forget their grandmother passes away and they have a picture of their grandmother every single every single year on the anniversary of the kiss from the grandmother they pull out that picture and they kiss the they kiss the picture of the grandmother and they give it over to their kids and they say i want you to and they make copies of the pictures and they say this is my grandmother who loved me she gave me a kiss i want you to kiss i want you to kiss the picture too and it goes on for generations for 2000 years everybody's you know you get what i'm saying it's such a beautiful response such a beautiful appreciation it's a beautiful expression kara sative we could say it's a small thing hashem did that miracle but it was a kiss and we never forget the kiss we never forget hashem's kiss but what's the what is it what's it about like what's the idea what is it what does it come to teach me what's the what's the vort what is the depth of it what's the what's the take-home of it and i was thinking or we could ask it even like why did hashem need to do that what was the idea behind this miracle was the idea behind our remembering the miracle i was thinking about it in terms of yosef when he's 17 year old years old he has a dream and his dream it's revealed to him that he's going to be the leader he's going to be a king as i mentioned at the beginning it's revealed and it's going to be a leader and a king he doesn't forget the dream it's like a kiss from a kurdish borough he doesn't want to ever forget that dream as soon as the brothers walk in he remembers the dream i don't remember what they did wrong to him he remembers the dream and when the sarah moshkin came in when he was in the jail the the wine cup the wine bearer of the of paro came in he remembers the dream this guy's got my ticket to freedom he's going to tell paro when he stands up in front of pyro and power asks him to interpret the dream he knows this is his ticket to the dream being revealed his own dream being revealed and so that dream is a kiss he doesn't forget the dream and he's not forgetting the dream the dream is fulfilled before should we explain why does he treat his brothers in such a tough way why does he go through this whole why does he put him into such a strange situation with bringing etc he wants the dream to be fulfilled he doesn't forget the dream it's important that the dream be fulfilled in a similar way when hashem did that little miracle for us in in in a dark time in a basement ignition a temple as the gemara says in yuma i'm sure in other places that there were there were miracles that occurred in the first temple all those miracles many many miracles they didn't occur in the second temple the second temple wasn't as powerful wasn't it spiritual wasn't as open the revelation of akush baruch but still hashem said to the to the jewish people he said i want you to know that i'm here with you give a little kiss it's like that little dream as long as we hold on to that dream as long as we hold on to that kiss we never forget it we always kiss that picture we always come and we give it back for two thousand years we give back we light wherever we are millions of jews throughout the world lighting that menorah we're saying hey we remember the kiss we remember the dream we want those miracles back we want those miracles back we're not giving up on that dream of having those miracles back because hashem this is how he does things he takes a little in a dark time in time of darkness he makes a promise makes a promise that it's this darkness is going to bring light you're in a time where you don't see me i'm going to show you that i'm here so that you know that i'm always going to be here through the darkness and you're going to get to the end of the tunnel and you're going to find a light there because i've been here throughout that's what to me this idea of hanukkah this idea of lighting the menorah means and that to me is the dream of a yosef and that to me is what this magister is saying they are yaakov yaakov sees that there is destruction in egypt but the word shever is also sever the word shever destruction also means hope side by side with the promise of a famine there's hope because you're gonna have seven years of plenty that are going to provide for you in those seven years of famine side by side with the promise that yosef we're not with the problems with the fact that yosef goes down and becomes a slave in egypt side by side with that he knows he has a promise he's going to be a king side by side with the fact that the jewish people go down into egypt go down into guns go down to exile are dispersed throughout the world side by side that is a promise that we never forget sivery there's a shiver of destruction and a civilian there's a hope i promise there's a promise that we never forget we're always kissing that promise that the twelve tribes don't see it we need to have the god of jacob on our side civil hashem like that our hope is to god that we see the we see the things that are bad in our lives we see the things that we don't like in our lives we see the relationships that we wish could be so much better we see what we're missing the things that we don't have several shema like there's a promise someone wants to take care of us it's uh they're always side by side there's a promise hashem will take care of us all we need to do is trust in him he's taking care of us until now he's going to continue to take care of us could perceive that he saw yosef he didn't know what he was seeing he doesn't find out for real until next week spasha but he had a feeling there's hope here there's hope here there's no food but there's hope in egypt there's no chevre there's no food for us there's chevre there there's there's a breaking and there's a severe there's a hope that's the amazing message i think of hanukkah there's a darkness there's a light within a darkness and i will never forget that light and i will pass that on to my kids i'll pass it on to my generations i'll pass that on to my students i'll pass that on to whoever i meet that hope that belief and that's why call israel has returned to eretz israel we are back in the land of israel because of the fact that we always had that hope we never forgot it inquisitions crusades holocausts animal we said it over and over again the place of chevre it's a place of sever the place of destruction is a place of hope and there's a feeling there's a feeling we get to start to get the feeling yaakov avinu gets the feeling this is this is where my hope is this is where the hope is so my kids down to egypt that's where the hope is he doesn't yet consciously know it's joseph's there there's hope here cal israel has hope we have hope [Music] we have hope we have this feeling something's coming is coming the gail the redeemer is on his way because who is going to reveal himself to the entire world everyone will know about hashem from the greatest of them to the least of them everyone's going to know and they're going to grab us the nations of the world are going to grab the four corners of the jew and they're going to say take me with you because god is with you we have the feeling it's happening we don't know how we don't know when it's soon though it feels like it's soon yak of 22 years he waited he didn't see his son but there was a feeling something something's about to change we're on the edge we're on the where things are about to change there's that feeling there was that it's so close i don't know how and i don't know why but it's so close i want to bless you i ask you to bless me hashem should help us to continue to hold on to that hope to continue to hold on to the hope to the promise to continue to to light those lights to remember that kiss should help us to be able to hold on to that until indeed we see the great redemption personally and for our entire nation thank you so much for listening have a wonderful shamas this podcast was made possible through the gracious donations of listeners like you for more podcasts like this please visit www www.arigoldwag.com or search on itunes ari goldwag