Bitachon 14 - Negative Bitachon

listening to the 14th we talk on podcast and I'd like to share with you a thought of the Hat that I had this week this podcast is called negative baton what is I they have negative guitar home idea of negative betoken is is that it's possible because of the way that Hashem set up the world for us to have you talking unintentionally perhaps to receive something which we don't want to receive something which perhaps the the yet Sahara inside of us that negative force which is inside of us which wants to destroy us it's a horror which as has I'll say is running after us every single day to destroy us that part of us actually draws to us through beat often unintentionally something negative what do I mean and I'll give you an example which is a true story that happened to my daughter in our house for Hashem we speak about be talking a lot and it happened that there was some kind of me if it's not some kind of little activity that they did amongst the girls my daughter's in fourth grade finishing 4th grade 10 years old and in this move sauce they had to spend exactly not less and not more than 2 shekels and get each other candies and the Mora specifically said that they should not get these little cheapy candies but it should be something which is significant not too much not too little now my daughter had be talking and her be talking was that she should not get to Taffy's dude these little taffy is it shouldn't be these 2 you know 20 I GU wrote taffies ok so she had be talking that she shouldn't get to things but and when we went to buy something for the other girl and she was opposed to buy 4 5 4 so we got her something nice we whatever it was too little nice things for a shekel each now she came home crying because not only didn't she did she get not get to taffy she got one taffy which was a very low-level treat compared to what she gave and compared to all the other girls had given apparently the girl her class had been designated for her had some kind of learning disability and she ended up receiving less than even what she had had we taught him and the way that I understand what happened is something which I personally have experienced perhaps we'll see if I get into any personal stories about it but the the the way that I understand what happened was that Herbie Tahoe was negative Herbie talk woman she was afraid that she would get less than everybody else that she wouldn't get something good and because of that fear she had be talking that she wouldn't get so little but the result was that on a subconscious level perhaps she ended up receiving even less than she didn't want to receive now how does that work what's the what's the idea what's the function had it what's the technical function of that so we can avoid that and I believe that the idea is that as I said there's a part of us then wants to self-destruct there's a part of us that wants us to run away from Akhilesh punku that wants us to not have a relationship with a Shem and that part of us is afraid it's afraid really you know I remember I remember actually if I told you the story but there's a story with a boy that he was trying to have be talking and he had determined that is so he needed a certain amount of money $1,300 for his summer vacation and then he he determined how much it's not Lucy we need to do how much you wouldn't need to do and out of the blue he received it was a teenager at the blue he received a note with a check for $1,300 from his uncle who had not given him a birthday present for his Bar Mitzvah now when he got that he freaked out he was like oh my gosh it's exactly what I'd be talking before and then he didn't touch me talking for a year I believe I believe I told the story it's in Klan gold burgers books except the six steps of baton so what what's why does that happen there's a part of a person that's afraid that if I trust in a sham so she was gonna let me down okay there's a part of the person but the amazing thing is that that's very same part of the person that's afraid of that can actually draw to oneself the opposite and I think that the reason that this is true the reason that this is true is because I could have Spock who is a Loomis a bar like him Hashem created because he wants us of course to choose the good which is to choose be talking to choose to trust in him to choose to receive good and he wants to give us so on the other side of things it has to be possible for us to receive something negative and for us to so to speak blame it on a sham then a sham has done something wrong to us see I wanna have you talk when it doesn't work excuse me so that's I believe the idea so how does one avoid that because it's kind of unconscious it's it's on a subconscious level that a person may unintentionally have be talkin that something negative should occur so there's a lot of ways and I and I believe that a lot of what we're learning about whether it's my drink I saw them whether it's gonna be solid bubblies all these different things what they do is they serve to release the negativity within ourselves to release the belief within ourselves or the fear within ourself of having be talking right like if it's true and I said I believe it is that there's a fear that if I trust a sham now maybe you won't give me what I want later or maybe I don't deserve it right be talkin as an altar says it's not dependent upon which deserving it even or even a Russia a person who is evil who tries to beat off him who not just tries but has be toughened so he can also receive whatever he wants from a sham so the eighth Sahara wants us to be distant from our culture for awards or or the subconscious is afraid of that closeness as we spoke about in the parsha podcast because subconscious is afraid to be able to unlock be able to live up to that level stay on that level so puts us in a state of fear and we're in a state of fear and negativity so the result is actually the opposite of what we want we can actually draw to ourselves or receive the opposite Goku and and it will look like an ace it can even happen in a way which is unusually synchronicities to use a terrible word but but that that I could borrow who is like aligning things it will look and it is that way I shemin's align things and because we need to have force of good and Zelo myself force of evil we need to have this free will this free choice to be able to choose between the good and bad so how does a person make sure to avoid that negativity as a person you know it's on a subconscious level so what's the idea so I believe that this is much of what we're trying to understand him from the my dragon Sodom much of what we're trying to do is to quell the fear inside of us to lower the subconscious mind which is like a child within us like a child who needs to be saddled in buckled up and allowed to have perhaps its fear but at the same time to know the amazing power that there is when we trust in Hashem we need to reinforce positivity we need to reinforce our belief that a collage for who can do anything for us and wants to do anything for us like we mentioned also in the parsha podcast you know when the when the moroccan came into our sister all day they saw it's a place also shared in Shona hey Shona all right sister the Land of Israel is a place where there's unusual Ashikaga practice unusual divine providence that being the case they set themselves who are we to deserve it and indeed a person has to be on a level to deserve it in a certain sense yes Russia can have you talking but the reason that we talk on works is because through the be talked on this is how Marie she explained it through to be taught him have a pair through this trust and a shame a person raises himself up and raises up his relationship with Hashem becoming its addict right there's something interesting in the davin we say Alex said he came and I seed him in that in that Braco so we say you know cos emails gonna be cell plate has to frame out Guerra today : oh yeah right we speak well it's a tea game and the righteous converts volley no - yamuna raha my fashion okay no I have Rock'em have mercy and then we say well call Boyd Commission Kaaba a mess all those who trust in your name in truth the Sun calcaneal Mahan place our portion amongst them we want to be among those who trust in Hashem raha Tasha Michonne we've talked let's 'deacon the trust in the mainstay of the righteous so we see a sham yes we asked to be amongst them amongst the tsadikim because when we develop in our baton we become righteous even if we've done things wrong we become righteous in respect to our be talkin that's amazing thing about baton so what is the for what do I want to bring out from this what I want to say what if I when I feel like I learned this week this is my source potaka Muslim for the week is that through up to optimism it's important been acumen talks about the fact mr. gotelli there's peace in Cataumet it's a composite command me to always be joyous okay what is the idea what is the idea of this what's the it's important okay it's nice it's beautiful to be happy changes a person completely and approach some it's this is different you know you mean a person who's positive optimistic you want to be in their presence I mean a person who's negative you want to be as far as you can possibly from their presence so what is the idea the idea is besides for all of that there's also something else that happens because we are always connecting taco - Burcu if that's our mind space if that's what we're looking for we're always connecting taco - Burcu and we're always receiving something from him we're drawing something from him whether it's through our prayers through our toilets whether it's through our Batak and our trust in him and it can also be through our negativity it can also be if we think that we're going to receive something bad that something bad is gonna happen to us we can actually end up receiving that unintentionally through negative be Tahoe so when I switch into a state of optimism and this is the test this is the this is the challenge I would say when I switch despite the fact that things are negative I switch into a state of optimism I'm always looking for the good I'm always believing that things are going to be good I have you talking I'm gonna find a parking spot this just happened to me a cynic I'd be talking I'm gonna find there's a certain spot I want because I did I don't have to pay it's off to the side of the of the parking area where you have to pay I wanna oh I like the free spot which isn't really that far away from the mierqis so yesterday i have you talked and i'm gonna find i'm gonna have that spot and and i consciously said to myself I'm gonna be optimistic no matter what okay I turned onto that side street it's called an Getty and I drove to the to the area in past that area where I wanted to park and there were no spots and I and I got to the end and I turned around said I'm still going to remain positive and happy taught him and I turned around and literally I looked to the left where I just passed and there was no car in one of the spot and I didn't see any car that left so it could be I just didn't notice it which I think is almost impossible or I don't know exactly what the shot is but fact I need to maintain positivity no matter what which is something that we we touched upon last week that there's a difference between shalva and manuka there's a difference between wanting to have all of my needs fulfilled which a person can have with baton but the attitude that the author is teaching us is a is an aspect of Manuka which is that i don't need so much why because when i'm not needing so much I'm in a state where I already have everything I already have everything that's the state where I can draw I will draw to myself or I will receive from ecology Buraku what I need what I really need and and I will not draw to myself I will not be unintentionally davin for or having be talking for something bad because I already have everything that I need but if I'm in a state of seeking Shalva if I'm constantly seeking to have everything that I need the moment I don't have everything I need that moment will I lose everything because now I am in a state of negativity and I start drawing to myself where I started having unintentional be talking to receive something bad so that's the powerful lesson that I learned this week and I'm working on and I wanted to share with you so I'd like to read to you a little bit more inside here from the mud Regas odd I'm finishing off the piece about shavon Manuka for me she writes a rack shalva Xie Lily Marshall Ibaka is a person who wants to have only serenity having everything that their heart desires I was healed cab Vicky's flying there'll be a double problem she injured so she nailed Amitabh dooby car voiceover my love if you will want that everyone honor him and bring him close to me because because of his greatness not sure I could come to light him here I mean happiness America he'll be so upset when he sees someone else being honored I'm officially by not lying she car boy sorry and stayed instead of having the the right space inside of his heart that other people will want to be close to miss Davila besakih I give a curry salad sign of Chicago ice kkoma it will end up being when a person is in the negative space that we're talking about here he'll end up drawing to himself more negativity because people don't want to be around they don't want to honor somebody who's running after honor they want to the people naturally honor someone who is intrinsically honorable not someone who's running after honor if you ain't a Kazakh Ganesha shall I can expel my Comenius Garbus somebody who doesn't get affected by other people and other people's opinions of him named Sasha okay Becky flame so somebody who's running after it who's seeking serenity who's seeking honor he gets a double punishment so to speak emo vanish Bobby Clarice goodness all returned undercover dama dama what's gonna happen every was gonna criticize him for this that he's trying to get more honor so besides for the fact that he loses his imaginary honor I did my Galen I feel as part of MSU right I've I've actually eaten Lisa cuz she writes it he also this is that cuz he doesn't get what he wants he doesn't get that honor mr. Shue who Marcus Bobby Curtis Rock Lula so he is getting criticized for his negativity and his running after honor and he gets a double a double whammy mini us or us he doesn't get what he wants to be sign and he gets embarrassed machine mu holla Hockfield achiever the a shy boy and this is something from both of them that the person will can get very upset about the avocado the cosmic leave him such a person who's seeking serenity seeking to always have what he wants ends up with nothing to the focus on the negativity focus on trying to get something I don't have ends up you know paradoxically ending him up with nothing ending him up not getting what he had what he wants a lot of units are my shoe right but a person who makes himself not want that which he wants not to need where that would she desires bravado cause Allah gamma ray person can get into a space where he doesn't need that he's my bottom self completely who need some recall he saved through everything with nish anorexic loom you're in a mother vac right he doesn't want anything so no one's gonna criticize him who got me after Dubonnet autumn gammas lay off some labels if somebody suspects him of seeking honor he doesn't care doesn't doesn't bother him okay they've asked my share mutti mutti boy they could think what they want it's not true doesn't bother him is a goofy Lloyd Simcoe Seneca Manuka this itself is joyous that he doesn't he's not it's living in that negative space that's called my new huh that's the serenity that's the space that were after in our search should be talking in our search for a relationship with a co-worker who we named Simon look of a shallow Hamish native arm of him so it comes out that serenity and and rest are two opposite things you should read soon lip here is staff Gakkai shava somebody who wants to have everything that he wants yeah call named Adam ertzaina that everybody take heed of his desires as evil ruler Baker boy so I'll always have negativity inside of him he called ever xu- it son anytime doesn't get what he wants Anisha sky-high manuka but sony who lives this life of rest of quietude or sure that's like imma Mecca s removal cast of literal akan white police doesn't key doesn't care how much something costs doesn't care if it's a lot it's a little in a vacuum my same live if people are criticizing him if not it's a Gish MacLeod manuka shalva and it comes out that a person who has Manuka who has that rest also as travel they have everything that they want Avel a McLeod shava Manuka but a person who's always searching for that state of I have everything I want doesn't ever get Manuka of our - from a Kermit's use the wise person who understands reality royally Lavaca shrek i am a new ha such a person should only be searching after a life of Manuka of rest thanks for listening