Bitachon 12 - Specific Bitachon

you're listening to the 12th be talking podcast and before we continue inside of the Magi gas atom I'd like to just share with you a thought that which came up in the Bataclan group this past Sunday and that has to do with specificity specificity I heard recently on a sheer I was listening to rap Shia Cohen somebody who he's Russia Sheva in New York area he's a tremendous Bobby talk on it's tremendous stories I remember hearing already twenty years ago stories excuse me he gives Bashir mom be talkin you can find them Shia Cohen he's also on tour anytime he's on his own website in clever Salah bovis gives amazing Sheeran one of the interesting things that he pointed out is and I heard this and I knew this to be true from my own experience that when it comes to be talkin we need to be specific we need to be specific about what we're having be talkin for we need to be specific and clear where the collision borough who what it is that we are having me talking about then I find to be true I remember if I mention it in a be talking podcast but it certainly mentioned it in the be talking group and that is that I know for myself that I do not know where where my furnace is going to come from each month sometimes there are certain things that I have set in each year you and those things are not always clear to me exactly when it's going to come or what's go it's gonna come but what is clear to me is that I have a calendar you can see the calendar and then right into it all of my expenses I'm very clear exactly how much I need I'm also very committed personally I know we've spoken about pataga be talking with a stylist been without establish no I don't live in a place where I can always have be talking without a status at all sometimes I mentioned a story last time about something that happened without any interests Atlas money that came but but often I do wish Douglas but I don't know which he status I'm going to do is going to produce the results that's just the business that I'm in I can make up a song and I can send it out and nobody's interested in it or I can send it out and the right person wants to buy it and they'll pay a certain amount different person buys it'll pay a different amount right and I can also get different jobs the same job in my business in in one place and one circumstance I can make $500 for an hour or a few hours and another circumstance I can make the same same about the singing five thousand dollars so my business is very let us say it's a good place to work on me talking that's for sure true what I find to be true is that whenever I have be talking I know that the because I'm committed I it's it's the way that it feels to me is that I have a scam I have an agreement with a clerk who as it were and in our agreement so there's a certain amount of money that I need I do not debt I don't I don't borrow money generally speaking I'm not talking about like AB is a big business thing like a CD that's that's not in this category but generally speaking I don't borrow money I have a commitment to others for who I'm going to make this money I'm going to care who's gonna send me this money and that's how we work things and the money the opportunities the jobs always materialize that's been my experience I've been in this type of situation for about since since May of 2014 I've been in this commitment and Bar Hashem every single month I remember speaking to my wife after Rosh Hashanah Yom Kippur I have a regular job then which I do each year and so nice about the money that comes in for leading the dominant and but after Rosh Hashanah I don't I don't have I didn't know what where the money's gonna come from but every month like clockwork so to speak I don't know where it's gonna come from by kodesh more who sends it and that comes from a commitment and also from an awareness of how much I need there's a story with alternative Artic I don't remember if I've mentioned it in this series but the story goes I heard it from a Russia Shearer I paired that the alternative Artic he would if when he wasn't well so he would go to a doctor and he would come in to a doctor and he would get a prescription and he would walk out from the doctor and he would throw the prescription in the garbage so he's told me to my via Slee asked him what's going on why are you you want to go to the doctor why do you get a prescription why'd you throw it out what's this business and he would say the altar would say without vision edema halt which means we need to know where we're holding which to me in my understanding of it and my really here I don't remember what my machine is said about it but in my understanding of it in order for me to have be Tahoe I need to know what I'm having be talking about I need to know I could work first of all I need to have that faith and trust not close Roku that he's going to provide my needs I need to not depend on anything else not the bank not other people not other things only I could live or who's going to provide this for me he may have you may have many who come you may have many agents to get me that money so I need to know exactly how much I need I need to be specific I need to have betta hun I need to trust in a sham and I'm guaranteed that I will get what I trust in a sham about also we discussed in the Vatican Group how it could be sometimes I put the schmuck who will give me something I don't necessarily some 500 % be talk on the talk because it's 100 percent give it to me that's the rule cause we're who made that rule with reality so to speak if I have 30% be talking something in the college world who'll give it to me as well but interestingly somebody said on the group that it's possible for me to have it's possible that i could work who doesn't want me to have something i will not be able to happy to him and I've certainly had the experience where I couldn't muster up the baton I couldn't get myself to feel that way to feel I really trust Hashem will send me that parking spot even or whatever it might be but it's very interesting because it's very much something that we experience it's an emotional experience Pete often it's not just an intellectual experience yes we need to know intellectually but it it's something that we feel is a feeling of be talking and and it's something that it's something that it's possible I believe for everyone to get all right now let's continue on in Madrid Sodom he's speaking about the Hotham the person who thinks he's wise the person whose atomic Occam much ain't gay and haha somebody who is wise a sure yaksa Cassatt's machine pleeeease Talmud someone doesn't think he needs to be a student well evacuate he doesn't need to continue to search to try to understand Kiara lava Veera yeah seek he's handcuffed when he has when he doesn't of here when it does something wrong so he'll have a double there'll be a double negative Kino about how Vera sheila asked me besides to the fact that there's this in itself oh yeah says she too shallow Vera because this person is not a um he's not learning from life he's not learning from his mistakes but rather whatever he does is right so now he doesn't have arrow now this becomes the way that it should be a monkey can do either and he says this is how it should be initially Venetia and a gal in Mahavira because if the person is biased to the sin she has the guys same color team she calmly might say you can find all kinds of reasons why it was okay what he did yeah and Charlie they had Tara Ella it so that's my Derrick because through these had theorem now he's done something wrong now what he's done is okay so all can find all the reasons why it's okay and now it's become a new path for him he's fragment called me assure you vodka so they're actually well distant some stuff from anybody who will say that what he's doing is incorrect his scotum ish me sailor the dark guy and I'll attach himself to those who say that he's doing good things via Ghana Misha who'll Amala me darker and he will speak negatively of anybody who is above him who doesn't think that what he's doing is okay you shall bear me shoe ideas be dark I will praise somebody who holds up his ways right and just think about pride parades and this is exactly what we're speaking about an insecure Mitchell hexa clay had air and it comes out as a stumbling block darkened his path he called ebay that's my man Mitch Alyssa because he's so lost himself in the stumbling block I Kakashi Lila freshman man who he can't he can't separate himself from it Masek I should caution liverish and he decides he comes to the conclusion that the fact that it's so hard to detach cherish elevator I know this must be the right way I can culture Lila fresh free manner so he can't he can't separate himself he's already he's like in a vicious cycle I'm the Matteson parish I know haha Vera he/she that's what I said that but this type of person so the first the beginning the antecedent of the entire deal is the Avera itself the sin that's what created from this path because shall deliver should I dare push will sheer it's this a Vera now it's harder to detach from because he wants to do the Avera the ace of Cushman Avera inertia Lobby but what's worse then the aware it's us is that it becomes the new way for him the severa this this negative type of behavior initially showed me man of over 11 a BA in Asus Leggett because he hasn't stopped this behavior continues in it so he comes permitted to him so to speak and this is very safe if if you're familiar at all with addiction and the addiction literature so this sounds very much like what he's talking about with Shasha hakama masticates ask me the Talmud and now at a time when a wise person who considers himself a Talmud a student who is looking to try to understand what's the right thing to do he doesn't assume that just because he did it therefore it's right in Mahara varible ila so hazael say about such a person's Gomorrah who sent a few tests if you see a person who's done a sin talking about atomic ahkam at night Alta Eric Romano and don't don't think anymore that he still held on to it by the following day keep Avada of Tsukuba you can be assured that such a person has already repented Yankee demoniac Lobby that's my bahar Vera actually tails like there from you could since he doesn't allow himself to let himself become lost in the sin until it becomes his new path until becomes a certain kind of way of being reactionary she'll miss all the moment that he recognizes that it's a stumbling block who shove me man but I select God our idea is academically so he does chuubo he repents from it and makes a stronger a stronger defense than before the exam America Shiva gives is a person put a padlock his onto his shed there were bikes inside are there somebody came broke the padlock stole the bikes so next time he buy his bikes and he puts a padlock and he's gonna get a much stronger lock in the era there cuz ilakaka my sure in a massive customer the Talmud but if the same type of air would occur but that would it would be done by someone who is a hawk um a wise person who doesn't he's not trying to learn to be better and I'm sure any minor lost shoe since he doesn't quickly repent he's not interested in repenting looking this comic sets Leah Verico cockatoo Yeats to me marinara so then the Avera becomes comments by him it becomes normal by him it gets more it gets worse and worse until becomes his path marvelous a big push and he limits his desire to do things better this era came a lavaca chaser and he decided he's already decided that I don't need to be better cause I'm initially atsume climb of action was sure about her so there this is because he's already left the category of those who are looking for what's right and choosing the correct path the next class McCall a lecture I'd Erica Baker I some sure Ibaka Calif and instead instead of choosing his path that path chooses him so he gets he just gets drawn like a like a dog is attached a dog is attached to something in the and you can't you can't separate himself from it was then domina headed like a little Bane Kings a carton LaVon now we get back to Yosef if you recall Joseph made a mistake he said it twice what was the big deal about the second time so now we start to understand it if he had said at one time been Keim's occurred on elevado finished a poem as opposed to two times keep his the cart Annie I rejoin the first time he says remember me the sour mash Kim oh yeah okay Derek Micra so that's a sin and it happened you know that happens it happens and the question is is he going to learn from this and obviously speak my guys about sonic here so let's keep that in mind quieres rodrigo so high stock of why am i even has to be talking yourself italic had a very high level in be talking over an awesome level it's me we should we can only strive for the measurement seen amazed Charla home are you so mad Nilka dice I know we find that yo safe indeed has this level because when he was looking for his brothers before they sold him so he asked the person did you did you know where they went you know where they are where are my brothers you said I heard them saying they were going to do some perish gosh I wish a closer my love robber it's Margeaux that he heard from this guy that that that they were planning to kill him to kill Yosef Jose's Halle Halle Lane but nevertheless he went to them he went to where they were me sure a bit cleaner cause if you look up I sure in a tale as fun as it be I never but he had a very strong and powerful be talking he trust in Russia and nothing bad what happened to him Belarus I bury everything is in God's everything is in God's control reminds me of the story that the telethon of art occurs that when when a gun will be pointed at them they would literally open up their shirt and say shoot if you want to shoot me you can shoot me nothing can happen and without God's will right and people would back off so the courage okay so Yossi what static certainly had at least the level of the navarre occurs right okay my papa holla holla me wasn't afraid he went to them became a Coliseum Shoki Mottola am i any challenge when it came to fulfilling toora loora my mama asked my he didn't believe in himself he didn't trust himself alone uh commit suicide Tyra he did whatever the Tyra said so he's going to say and we'll stop here but excuse me that yo safe at Sadiq when he said remember me the first time so that happened when he said a second time remember me so it what he moves past the mistake stage learning from the mistake and he made a new path for himself which was I'm going to put in efforts it wasn't appropriate for yosef Italian as well soon see as I mentioned recently on a partial podcast a leader person like a dose of italic is going to be the king over the entire world really and over the Jewish people 71 years the longest reigning king of the Jewish people he has to have he can't have this mistake it can't be allowed to remain it has to has to wait and learn his lesson that you put your faith in people there's only putting our faith rush em thanks for listening we'll see you again next time