Are You Ready for Elul? This One Crucial Quality to Master

Shalom. Title of this year is called the seal of humility. In reality, it's a continuation a sequel to the last year which we said original mindsets avoid of the uh program and I hope and a profile which we can try and build up when it comes to lol. Let me give a little bit of introduction from the last year and then we'll come into this year. We mentioned that anili I am for my beloved and my beloved is for me meaning my relationship with the almighty is almost like a dual carriageway adri they say in Hebrew as I am so he is I'm not sure if that's a covenant but it's certainly a promise which says in as I am so he is if I show towards him affection and warmth and love so he'll show it back to me is back to Interesting. We mentioned last time that this is really the entrance lobby meaning is a major spiritual architecture building. It's in major building. It's interesting that this is called the entrance lobby. This is how you come into meaning you have to come in through your mat finding in the eyes of the almighty. Interesting. I suppose one would have thought the fear and the trembling. Of course there is that as well. But the preparation which you must make is to find connection as we mention is one of because meaning there's a certain aura there's a certain feeling and atmosphere an environment which we must pick up when we come to Elm is to find favor in the eyes of the almighty we mentioned also you can't possibly do that without thinking for yourself and we bought a minou as the main profile meaning at the age of three mate we mentioned he thought for himself he was an original thinker he thought things out for himself and he read like it's not the sun it's not the moon it's not the fire and therefore through that logic and through that deduction he came to and I'm suggesting really that's really as so we must be as well especially when it comes to find my way to find the my my entrance of how do I possibly get close to the almighty what is it it's my by original thought but let me just again explain and redefine we don't mean by original thought something which was never been thought of before we mentioned from nepheshim if you want to look it up at the back of the ro are the comments which the heard from the vagon at the at the end of the pime says as follows that the definition of something which is new in means something that maybe became new to you. Something which you didn't think of beforehand and now you it becomes clearer to you. There's more clarity. There's more understanding behind it. There's more discernment. That's what it means. Doesn't necessarily some but for you it is. And we brought an example from it. For example, and a person is supposed to learn 101 times. Each time you learn it becomes better. That's called something that maybe you knew before, but I want to drive the point a little bit further. That's the meaning of it to original thought to think for yourself. What does it mean? In the last year we brought two examples of it two really points case studies. The first was the ability to have a moon in the tur. confidence and the trust which one has that of course ll works that by going through the process of finding being careful with my dabing being more careful with what I say more careful where I put my eyes maybe a little bit more particular when it comes to mitzvah amid all these aspects that is what's called having a having trust in it and we mentioned we mentioned that one has to have believe in it believe in it not not just am but amun trust in it like a person has a in in the aspects of we mentioned you're careful about that if you follow the code. So you hope that the child will turn out a good child keeping toy mitzvah. You hope that happens like that. We bought also amun what a person has in different things which you have example in cash in getting married as well. Amun is a crucial aspect of it. The trust that you have and the second point which we brought out is the shinoi. Of course there's a change meaning there's an enormous change from maybe the way I was we mentioned that and no wonder what my mama looks like now. If you remember the example we brought of the smoker's lung and also the uh professor holding up the cup of water. All this came from the sh of last week. What I'd like to do this week is take that same idea of yidus but give you one particular theme which is for this week meaning the seal of humility and I think this is it. Let me explain. In other words, if you are mashed if you manage to think this out for yourself in your own thought processes not just what I'm saying but you consider the point a little bit more for yourself. Let me explain something myself personally. I don't think I would have reached any level of connection to the almighty had I not really taken to heart many of the psukim inim of because he after all was the master mascill. He understood things and he expressed things a certain way and his words are the words which we use when we come to speak to and some of these words made a tremendous imp when I thought about it a great deal and went into it much more suddenly become alive for you. The words of for example to kila if you have my safer on my introduction to the bridge called prayer which I um was fortunate to write several years ago I invented the minor of the altar from Kelmul it's normal it's normal in order to recognize something which is very well good a beautiful scenery a newborn baby something which is well done something which fits well it's normal to recognize something a kindness which is done to you and that I think really hit me home hit home a great deal made an impression on me. These words if you live with them a little bit if you walk through the streets and you think about them they develop and you become your own your own thoughts they enter into your nam and you think about them. No honor hashem honor hashem hashem save me hashem that I should be successful I remember I had a dear friend who was a young autumle he was n quite young I remember he once asked me following question what does it mean if you say honor why do you have to say if you have a then that's enough isn't it of course you'll be successful and he explained as follows it means like this sometimes is a person can be put in a certain situation of tremendous sh maybe he has more money maybe he's given a good zebug maybe has a home maybe has a beautiful position maybe has a wonderful shia that's that's called a moia but you have to be successful in it no that's the idea behind it all it's one thing to be given an opportunity but to use the opportunity in the best way that is no you see if you think about these words what does it mean my connection with these sentences have made a tremendous impression on me personally how can Can I possibly thank for all that he's granted to me? He's bestowed on me. His benevolence and his kindness and his welfare. Unbelievable. What can I return? The answer is I am your servant. No, that's the answer. The answer is what can I give back and give back myself to beem? And these sentences, if you dwell on them a little bit more, you realize the greatness of David and they can build up your whole you can develop a connection becomes much easier. you recognize hashk this is something personally which almost like my autobiography I suppose these are points which have made a tremendous impression on me but there is one particular paywick in which I think really is the seal of humility which I think really comes out which I'd like to make it as the something which you can think about during the kesh alum and with this you will find in the eyes of the mighty I think this really is a case study which is so relevant to the concepts of anili int said the word is something like pause pure gold it was very this chapter number 16 in was very precious I have trusted in you beautiful words next sentence says as follows lashem you said to hashem rashi says it refers towel say to even the individual out I say to my nephew say to Hashem Hashem that's adm you are my master and these are the crucial words three words my benefit and my welfare you're not obligated to serve me you're not obligated to give it to these beautiful words nothing has to be since when are you you owe me anything you owe me anything at all that I think is an incredible seal of humility. No, one begins to recognize since he's not he doesn't owe me anything. It doesn't it doesn't have to be anything. Doesn't have to be that I have a home. Doesn't have to be that I'm able to walk and talk. Doesn't have to be that I digest my food. You hear the point. I think that is the real seal of humility. I think that is really a d of finding and if you can turn man and say that meaningfully to the almighty you're not to me nothing has to be nothing has to be at all. There is a beautiful perish on by the maharitsk he was the shalim and there's a beautiful parish on it by the maharits he says as well he brings a from per 41 in he brings this is what I said everything is mine The meaning is as follows. Whoever preceded me, whoever came before me and I have to pay him back. Meaning, is there anybody who can turn around and say I was there before Hashem created this idea? I am I preceded it. It turns the mitzvah inside out. Did anybody come before me and turn around and say I preceded you? I got and the he brings down there the ya. The yalut says on this p as follows. You turn around and say you know I praise you so much with my with my mouth with my mind but who gave you a who gave you your mind? No where does it come from? It's very nice and very fine that you praise but where did it come from? Where did your ability your brain and your sha come from? Who turns around and said I gave a wonderful for my son but who gave you a son my dear friend? You follow the point I I the who gave you the beggar? You hear the point? It's a beautiful point. Who made a mark on his Who gave you the roof? Muka, where do you get the suka? Who gave you the room? Who gave you the space? You hear the point? It precedes me. Did anybody come before? Before I go, you can't do that. There's no such thing. Person turned back and said, I spent all my life learning to it's a wonderful thing. Who gave you the power to sit and learn and understand it? Who gave you the brain, the and the memory to remember everything in Torah? No, hear the point. I dabbed so carefully all my life. Who gave you the ability to concentrate? Who gave you the mouth? Who gave the opportunities to dab an inion? Who gave you that? I gave a tremendous amount of stalker to to to for helping people who gave you the money. You hear the point? You never ever precede that is says the nothing has to be anything which I have is only because you provided the circumstances. You didn't precede a turns the mitzvah around on its face. You think you did the mitzvah and therefore make me successful in business because I gave stock we banish since I dabed so carefully therefore but who gave you the ability to dab who gave you the ability to learn to you hear the point that is really the seal of humility it's not me it's him it doesn't come from me it's all from him it's not it's not me at all that is I think is the shish of the vakus that's made a tremendous impression on me I find when something something has happened something occurs which I'm very happy about maybe mazov It doesn't have to be like this. No. Doesn't have to be that you get married. Doesn't have to be that you have children. Doesn't have to be that you can walk around in the streets. No. That I can walk straight. I can see. I can hear. [snorts] Doesn't have to. Nothing has to be that I think is the real case study which you can come to an once you think about that for yourself and your you consider it. It doesn't have to be like this. Doesn't have to be that I I'm well. I can walk. I can see. I can talk. No. You hear the point? I was thinking I don't know if it's a direct chat of the mitzvah of the Mishna but the Mishna says Hill said in in Pikas ani if I am not for myself then who am I? I want to learn the Mishna a little bit like this not so much if I don't recognize myself but if I don't see what I actually have then what am I? If I don't see all the gifts which have been given to me if I don't see all these points that all the gifts which you give me the nebance and the kindness and the hashka and the divine everything which has been done for me doesn't have to be you know you're not to me if I don't do that me as me then who am I who on earth am I that's a real seal of humility I think which comes out if one can do that do it subjectively no start with your eyesight start with your ability to move your heart you know your lungs your liver your kidneys you're you're able to speak, you can hear. It doesn't have to be like that. You know, enough people, you and I have seen many many people walking around the street, don't walk straight, can't see properly, can't hear, can't talk. Never. You hear the point. It doesn't if I'm not for myself, then who am I? Now, go on a little bit more objectively. Doesn't have to be that I had parents. Doesn't have to be that I had a home, that I was given an education, no that I had clothes to wear, that I went to Simas, that I had a vacation. We can go on and on and on. No, it didn't have to be like this. And that's what that's the greatness I think the perception and the scholar the discernment of meaning he thought it out it doesn't have to be I said to myself you are my master you're not to be anything once you get that point clear you can stand in front of and say I think that is a major major passageway leading up to that thought thank you able enable me to dab with a minion. No, that I can I can sing along with any emotional. You hear the point behind it all. Maybe as an example, maybe we can take something like this. I remember my father had a wonderful friend. He was like a kava but also he was very close with him. used to go to Yahala in Gates said my parents and there was a RV there who used to run it calledender Fosin Foy was a principal I think of a school in Stampford Hill in London my father became very close with him I used to take the children there as well when they became bar mitzvah he later lived in Satskin when we lived in Satskin listen to this word listen to these words it's payw ku lamatesses cult it's not a cult pay listen to these words I I won't translate everything, but if you have a chance, open up to chapter 139 and then you see it clearly. My paths are my where I go. You you you worked it all out. You know everything where I go that I can talk. You know everything about me behind me, in front of me. You formed like you put your hand on top of me. It's a wonder to me. I can't work it out. How come you're in such control and you manage everything and supervise everything? Where can I possibly run to to run away from you? If I fly up to the heavens, I go up to the moon. No matter, you're there. If I go down to the belly of the ground, you're still there. If I take a plane to the other side of the world, you're still there. You're there as well. Maybe darkness. You can't see me. No, there's no difference between you and night and day. nothing at all. Nothing makes it dark for you. the beautiful po have a look at it say 139 in into that's really the chish behind it all once you come to that point of recognition then you're ready to come in front of it doesn't have to be and therefore I'm the seal of humility is this to recognize that mikmani did it's very nice that I d carefully but who gave me the ability to d carefully know it's very nice that I honor my parents who gave you the parents my dear friend no very nice to do said who gave you the ability to do the kindness You hear the point that is full full the seal of humility I'm suggesting here that I think if you if you think it out a little bit more like had said meaning on your own go a little bit more into depth in it like we mentioned previously being a have to have trust and also the this is another case study which I think I wanted to bring out think it out further that will you all the way into the passage where he comes back on that concept cept as well every single year when it comes to wash always the week two weeks before we always have the same para which is the para for this week paras has the in it the awful curses which will happen on kalis if khalis don't keep the why did it all happen in reality we see that there is one particular sentence inside which explains the reason the raz on detra why there should be such a why should there be such a situation of exile why the why the persecution of Israel here's the reason this is given in the middle of the reason why it all happened why the problems and the anti-semitism and the persecution of because you did not ser with happiness and a good heart from all that you've been given you didn't come in other words the the the main Point is the the fulcrum of everything is this you you maybe maybe you did d I remember my think of the music you did keep the mitzvah you learned but not the no you did give but you didn't give it with a happy mind with you you did keep shabas but it wasn't a sim when it becomes then it really is you then you realize appreciate the privilege of the mitzvah the merit behind the mitzvah it's all very well that you you you you learn it's wonderful to learn but did you do Did you come to mitzvah with a that really is the point it's the approach that you have many people people are very careful about people are very careful about people are very careful about different mitzvah it's wonderful but how did you apply yourself to it with happiness and with a good heart behind it [clears throat] interesting the excuse me just let me take a writes in the there he brings down that the Arizal had said you know the sim which we have on sim says the Arizal the reason he quotes the Arizal the reason why he was so exceptional why he was so outstanding in his brilliance in toya he said because he always applied himself to simal mitzvah the cause behind all his success in learning was only because he he applied himself with such happiness the privilege of learning to the privilege of getting involved in kala that is the motivation I think also also said that and also uh the gone as well we see it every day in which we say that that's behind it all it's not necessarily the actions which you do it's the approach which you have but let me bring down to you something which really shook me which I I saw as The comment of the mayor from the says as follows on this because you didn't serve coy says the oame it was his yacht site last week 100th yacht site of the osame the osame was a giant I remember just uh reading the he became the ravin dinsk so before the osame he became the ravin dinsk there was a great to Agon whose name I think were Bru Lavim he was Nifa and then he came to the Hespaden for the wav and they had no idea who they would take later who they would take so the maggot from VNA came to to uh to Dinsk and he said a hesford at the end of his hesford they say he said the following comment at the end of his husband and now you're looking he said for the next w the next wave of this town should be the husband of the shopkeeper in Bialistora But mayor Simra's wife had a shop there in Bialisto and her husband her father had given her a shop to manage and she looked after her husband and provided all the needs and the he had learned in a in bialisto for years and years for hours and hours he sat there they say 18 hours a day he was an incredible people didn't know about him people a few people did know about him evidently when Dinsk made inquiries about who the o simra was they went to the basi they asked the basalevi tell me what do you think about the siminsk So the Banana said something. It's not a question of what I think about him. What does he think about me? I think what he thinks about me. He he's a god. I'm not the god. You hear the point. He knew who he was. And he became the rov in the vince. He said as follows on this pos. The problem is which is so I think apparent in this pervasive tsunami which we have from the secular world. The Kashmir, the technology, all that there is, the immorality, the promiscuity, everything there is. It's like a tidal wave, a tsunami which is in front of us. The question is as follows. Where did your real delight come from? Does your de delight come from the glitter and excitement, enticement of something in the secular world or does it come from something in tora? You hear the point? That really touches a raw nerve, doesn't it? Where are you really happy? Are you really happy when you go to a fancy restaurant? Is your greatest delight really if you go on a beautiful vacation? Is your delight from something in sport and something in music? Is that really what gives you the greatest sim in life or not? And therefore he said because you became so involved and so enticed by the secular world and the culture which there is. That really is where the simra comes from. I think it's a very very tall order and people are excited about a holiday. People are excited if they buy a woman buys a new shitle. People are excited if you buy a new car. But is that all there is? I think maybe we can take it in a measure of priority. Is that the greatest priority or not? Meaning there has to be something that you reach the sim from something innas not something in gashmas and that's a major challenge. I'm not saying a woman should be delighted with her new kitchen or she has a new outfit. Of course that's a you get happy at that. Is that all there is in life though? I'd like to moderate a little bit the to say that my only simra comes from there. I don't know if we're on the dagger for that, but let's have to be a little bit realistic. Let's look in the mirror and think about yourself. Where is my real simra comes from? Does it come from something in the secular world, the culture, the excitement, the enticement of something materialistic or technology? I have a new laptop or something like that. Is that it? Or is it that I dabed well today or I gave money for stock or I helped somebody with a sh which is a mitzvah. Did I really have nas from helping a couple bias? Did I really have nas by entertaining an only? Is that my real simra or not? It's a very very sharp comment here which the but I think it's so realistic especially in our times where where is my happiness come from? What is it really? What is it all about? Where what what what makes me tick? What really is my my nas which comes out in life? I was thinking really isn't that what we say every single morning in davening? you know before you start in the morning you say this chapter is said um before you say on the morning I remember I once heard from he explained what's this pay doing here before I think he said in the name of the you know in the morning when you come to pray you must make sure that your body is clean use a bathroom and you it's called cleaning out the body cleaning out the goof that the goof should be The problem is how do you clean out the mind? the you go to the bathroom you say. But how do you make sure that your mind is clear that you have this peric is there for that? Meaning everything that you go through in life meaning all the different the circles up at the graph one minute I was he was angry with me then the evening I was crying in the morning I was happy. HT misb you turned around my misery into dancing patas saki and from my sackcloth I came into sim it goes up and down all the challenges and the questions which one has in life no the different you have what do you come out with at the end the last sentence really says it all in order that my which is a nickname another name for the that the shall sing and be silent not be dumb Such a beautiful line here. In all that I go through, all the the business dealings which I have, all the emails which I have, all the the business uh lives which I have. Yeah. But in order that what is that I should always be pumping and say no I thank you. It doesn't have to be like this. If that's where your sim comes from is that is that what it's all about or is it something else or is it the the challenges or the vacation which I have lean? in order that in order that then the sham should always be singing I'm suggesting I'm taking it further that's the point which is behind it all in reality if you take look a little bit further the beginning of as well when you bring and it says in front you shall be happy with all that you have you're coming up with the bikim in front of the basement and you make this beautiful comment and all that you gave me everything which I had and then the next para says also by vu you bring all And then at the end of the par it says there then it says I did all that you commanded me to do. How can you possibly say that comment can a person claim in front of make a confession I did all that you wanted me to do. What does it mean? What does it mean? I did all that you wanted me to do. Rashi comments on that. You know what it means? I was happy with what I had and I made other people happy with what I had. That is called all that you all see you commanded me what to be happy with what you gave me and make other people happy and share my happiness with others. Isn't that really what it's all about that the whole par is based on this everything is the comes on and the is also and so also by the as well you want to know what you have to do it's an incredible confession the answer is be happy with what you have and make other people happy with it that I think is the real profile to come in front of And if you show that concept that's the reality you can turn around with this seal of humility and say thank you you didn't have to do anything for me nor that you did do was all your no and therefore and I'm your servant and I recognize that all these sentences of think about them maybe put it on your pillow at night [snorts] and and think about these comments because these comments are really how you build up your nama in such a way and if you think about them in depth and you you take them to heart then suddenly they become real for you and that becomes your philosophy on life you know there's a sentence in the beginning of mish I think it's gimlish pos says as follows kindness and truth which is which is doing never leave them in actions tie them around your throat write them on your heart the MS meaning doing kindness and learning but it should be in action action that you should talk in and also in your heart as well. Next sentence says if you do that you find in the eyes of other people and that is that is what means doesn't it really it really is that means how can I find favor if you tie around your your throat always you're talking all the words of kindness and words of in your actions and also in your heart if it means something to you that's a tol If that is in then you really are and then the bris which I'm suggesting maybe works it's do as you are. So he comes back to you like that and I think that is really the main entrance lobby that you can get into be successful when it comes to you don't go from the beach straight onto melik you go through the month of takes you in that's the entrance lobby into this massive spiritual building of that is how you get in maybe we can take this point a little bit further maybe in practical terms as well let me give you something which is laisa which you can take out from here I hope and apply it a little bit more I saw in the writings of in the safer which he wrote on he says as follows we know that one of the worst possible offenses that a person can possibly do is to blaspheme against the almighty it's the worst possible thing he's stoned and he's has co it's the worst possible thing to stand in front of the world and say and blasphem the almighty that's the most terrible terrible thing the worst punishment of all says Now listen to this point. We know that the quality of goodness is greater than the quality of bad it's better. It's stronger than that. The explains how much is it greater than that 500 times more. Now think like this says rashman. If that's this is what happens to a mad can you imagine multiply by 500 times what it means when you come to say a properly. Can you imagine instead of blaspheming the opposite you do exactly the opposite if you now come along and say with meaning can you imagine the rewards reward that you get from it a which is said carefully and therefore what I'd like to do is suggest to you we've done it before but maybe in this particular sh maybe it's very relevant as well the word according to most means praise and thanks to the almighty the rash in his chus in means as follows that there's Another meaning as well also means a something of more what there already was also means who made he did and he will do inside a is you since you did this therefore I'm asking you for more that's the quality of it all you remember the episode of when Alicia came to the wife of a and he asked her what do you have in the house and she had a tiny measure of oil if she had something already then we increase on it and that was the miracle which happened with the oil. Remember that doesn't fall on nothing. There has to be something there meaning the will multiply. That's what the means means means also to more than what there is. There's a beautiful episode which is brought down in the Gay Z where Bishma Ben Alisha the Coen God came in to the Keshados in the holy of holies and he saw a vision there of the almighty whatever it means it's a very diffic it's a beautiful songish beautiful song I'm not going to sing it to you but it's a beautiful beautiful song Bench me my son said that your mercy should always overpower your you are already merciful but let it be more meaning go further go further you are already merciful you should be more and that was you are already let it be more than that and that's the meaning of the word the next word in a is says there ashbah a little bit grammatically incorrect why the begins with you at and ends with he who made the fruit from the ground. He he who brought the the bread from the ground. He who bought the the from you who to he who it's grammatically incorrect says the rash. So you and you or he and he. Why do you say you and then he at the end of the rash explains as follows that we shouldn't turn out to be an meaning as follows that you can hold an apple in your hand. You know Hashem B you who made the apple you're an apple maker. You make a coffee. You make you you shrink says what you're thinking about in the he makes apples. He makes tomatoes. He makes grapes. He he makes cookies. But he's he's more than that. You open it up more from toist. No means active and means passive. You move on. Not just the active which I see in front of me, but he's even more than that. Not just the the coffee which I'm here, the ice cream which I'm having now. It's more than that. Open. And that's why the ba changes from y who to he who at the end of the ba. Then we must turn to the writings of the VNO in his commentary on the impan the vagon asks why is it we have three names of the almighty hashem why do we have three names right is one one name enough and he explains as follows hashem is something we do not understand we don't even say the word properly it's written yud but I say the word adnas adnas why why don't I say the word properly to tell you that you really don't understand is completely nista meaning what the rashbah had said from yu to he who the name hashem is the same basis on that it's it's not I don't understand I don't see but I know that he's there I'm aware that he's there and he's watching everything that is the meaning why we have the yud don't think you can see everything of that's why that word is there is demonstrative is back right in front of it it's practical it's something that you see right in front of you Elohim he created the world who created the sea created the trees created the animals created human being elohim means the dynamic manager the supervisor and that you see in front that you can recognize you can recognize his creation the sun the moon everything that there is in the world that's the meaning of elohim now but we don't say that we don't say toe elohim we say elu meaning elu this apple that I'm eating thean gave it to me with with divine supervision It's mine that this is what I'm this is the whatever I'm enjoying now I'm saying the it was but he's also melam he supplies apples throughout the whole world if you go to Spain if you go to Australia you'll find apples there he's a world supplier but that is not given with eloc that is a world supplier of it it's less meaning direct individual precision in the person who's enjoying the the whatever it is he's also the grand supervisor the grand supplier throughout the whole world and that's the definition of a ba I'm suggesting take a slowly make a no say it slowly whatever it is say the word slowly don't say put the hay in don't drop the hay when you say it but if you can do that then you can turn around and say carefully say make it a nice I remember I once went to visit my rebi in the mirror and it was I think in in the middle of the summer. It was a very hot day and he gave me a drink and I sat at the table sitting in front of an aam god. You know made wonderful ba I made a very careful ma. I was very careful to say a ba correctly in front of him. As I had finished and he drink the dr the drink he turn around and said they're beautiful. And I thought to myself me you say to me a man with a gray beard saying I say that to a three-year-old. No. And he looked at me and I looked at him and I thought to myself how foolish I was. No. Why do you have to say that to a three-year-old? A man of 60 or 70. You also say a bi. Why is it only a child says a bi? I thought to myself how foolish I was. Of course a boaf meaning that's the behind it all the I'm suggesting comes on this concept of that's the the passageway that's the way you get in the think about it more like consider the point with your own thoughts develop the point everything that I have of the words of doesn't have to be nothing had to be you know shal did anybody you preceded you didn't precede everything nothing nothing everything came from him whatever I do whether I bench whether I learn to whatever it's he he was the source of it all and maybe that's me that's me who am I I am the one behind and I make a of all that this week's para is all about be careful be careful where my bill is I'm not saying everything should be like that of course you enjoy a vacation you enjoy a new car but is that all there is in life surely I must have nas that I I dab properly I learned Torah properly or I made Shabas properly whatever it is or I I act with properly that must also give you that must also be by end and I was happy with what I have and that's the vid which you say by the mus and I made other people happy with it all that's really everything though after all when everything happens my soul shall not be numbed I should be able to sing and if you're careful with the I'm suggesting can you imagine the reward that you get If someone who blasphemes goodness me his punishment is awful to is more than that. Be careful with say it carefully when you bench or when you say a say it with devotion. Say it with cavana. Let that be the which you come in with. Thank you so much.