Are you in Touch with Your Soul? - Rabbi Dalfin

okay so good morning good day to everyone we're on page 363 but we'll just recap briefly what we learned in 362 the last part of the uh the paragraph [Music] okay okay and that really sums up a lot most of the of the paragraph we've been talking about in this he began the paragraph the the panic saying that there's two avoiders there's two activities in a person's avoidance hashem and that is one is called avoid the saguf and one's called avoid this on the show and avoid this and i told you that if you you know if you really wanted to see the origin of this in this you could look at chapter 42 and tanya and what does it mean it means either i uh not either one of these taking the goof and all that the goof represents and refining it including a meditations that that makes a person realize that how goofny's dick which means how corporeal one is and how distance one distant one is from godliness that was a a meditative thought that he suggested in the beginning of the paragraph but that meditative thought is part of avoid this because you're looking at yourself and what you're involved with and and then coming to the conclusion well i'm i'm distant from hashem good morning small but but that's that's called avoid the sun is accepting accepting the inspiration that you're given from on high to to use that to vacate the average the average approach which is you know progressional and and and and uh uh you know systematic and things like that it's it's an inspiration from above so he he he called that avoid this other shaman he also said that in order to appreciate avoid this on the shama you need to first do avoid this and that's a basic concept in the tata beginning with the possibility of failure avert evil a viet avert bad uh vasato even do good so first you have to do suramar so that ever didn't use those words but nevertheless he he definitely appointed him seems to imply that that's kind of where he's coming from then he spoke about going back to the possible the positive david says in in into hillary 146 a so he focuses on three things here a halal versus azamra havaya versus elokim and uh versus od there's three in other words seemingly moshe it's like the same i will praise and i will sing i will sing and i will pray so what's the difference that ever says take a good look at the words hallelujah means i will lord i will praise azamara means sing that means it's two different words to different meanings why number two it says [Music] and as amrit says two different names of god why and finally there's a difference between haya and aydi again two different words to different meanings so he's been focusing on all the differences and the sum total that we have right now is that a halal is divided and that's why it says youth cave of k because when you experience your soul you're getting a you're getting a lamination you're getting a um uh inspiration from the uk bufke which is the the the supernatural forces of hashem whereas azambra which is uh singing and then he also inserted a very interesting thought azamra is not it's because that's why we have the word clay zemer klezmer clay zemer so the the zimbra is not just singing with your mouth it's singing with an instrument and he he briefly threw in the nakuda that this means you make a kaley just like there's a difference between singing with your mouth and using achilles instrument so the kaylee azamra is making a vessel to retain the inspiration and finally the difference between which is neshama and odi which is goof because old means also additional more so or ancillary you know what i mean it's something else it's not as important or compared to the shrama which would be the goof and then the rapper said uh then that was said like this that the word azamura is also associated with the word zemer to cut away to remove the zamet sim to cut away the thorns the twigs the branches that are no good when you're pruning and all that in the process of pruning so here we understood that you have to cut away the tyves and he spoke spoke quite a bit about that which is all part of the avoiding and then towards the end he says this is also to say the two the two activities that we talk about in hasidis is to control the subjugate and means to transform to convert iscafia is which avoid avoid the saguf because when you in the activity of it is a goof you you are a goof you're you messed in the golf and you're trying to creep out you're trying to jump out get out so that's his cafe scoffing means i still have the taiva inside and the best i can do is control myself this hapka is already a higher and much more refined accomplishment when you actually transform the taiva to be an aide to you yesterday ensure this week uh someone passes by and he and he hears the house and say israel right the end of the end of british ishmael before shema so he ju he jumped he says out loud to making sure that i hear it he says i have because many times we say if it's a mistake and it's classification means an enemy you're thanking god for making an enemy enemy god forbid he was like he was ecstatic he says aye so i said what are you telling me i said tell him so what why am i saying this the the rabbit brings in different my mother in the fridge this idea actually with these words that you have to make from the oyave you have to change the enemy which is a eve to o'have toward the lover so this is the id that's called this that's transformation and that's a much higher avoid you should know we we don't have in tanya teaches that the avoid of his kaffir is avoided albani that's what we can expect of abandoning to control themselves and if you control yourself you know well you can reach the level and it's abandoning the level of oihave where you where the enemy itself the enemy himself becomes a lover and i have that's already his and that's the avoid of sad deacon and the altareba implies that that's not the general avoid of a jew although in chapter 14 and tanya paid it you dolla doubt that ever says that when someone is spiritually impregnated within the shaman but sadiq and he can and this is the way he answers the question of the heat sadiq the mother says be righteous how could you be a sadiq if you're born as a potential beginning and not more the answer is by getting a spiritual impregnation all of a sudden you give you you're given some kind of godly gift but that's not who you are that's something that you become and he speaks about that in chapter 14 towards the end had a right there's two ways that he says one way is you actually kind of become that because you your impregnation stays with you the other way is it doesn't stay with you but it you you train yourself so it's like a uh it's a second nature to you but anyway that's the avoid of his hapha is a higher avoider so here he says it says [Music] of night and day without any of him but he can't so how do we put this all into our practical entire life although the main thing for the the average jew is nevertheless from time to time one can experience that one can work with the avoidance on the shama and when that takes place in other words when we do what we're supposed to and we and we succeed in this kafir we're get we're then given a gift that his apra in certain areas and and then we have the mercury so a person shouldn't think well if it's kaffir is bainani and isabro is sad and i'm not exotic how can i make the how can i make yo how can i make a a one day it's it's it's uh it's i'm not a saddik so again the answer is as he says in chapter 14 natanya the answer is that if you do what you're supposed to as a bananee a potential benini then you will get from time to time sadiq like feelings of and then you will have the ultimate joy mahood this is what we learned yesterday and now let's go on to page 363. our sages of blessed memory said whoever lengthens says the word echoed from heaven they lengthen yamaha of his days which knows of in his ears like what's what's the connection between the two you mean it's that easy all i have to do is say echo long length and you know the word and automatically i get is there some kind of sense to this um segula to this gift that's the question what does it mean okay long gears everyone knows the famous he was going to be given a gift and for a birthday set up in this pioneer yard if it to the altar if if you're if you're giving me a bracha was the alternate but the middle of it to live a long life and live like a boar it's no thank you so what does it mean here call a miner that's a very powerful so this is what i want to explain talk about hashem separated between light and between darkness the idea of separation of dolo who mashi heavdul being the myla mercedes tausche luz the satanishtal shuls this means that hashem separated from what was be above beyond transcending the the progression the establishments to say that his thousands he made half dollars they were serving in in a mixed way it was all mixed up it was a big balagan as they say in europe there was a mixing a meshing of the transcendental infinite light that transcends his tonsils over there what do we have over there we have night we have light and darkness serving together working together venice it's brought down that that's called a a a day that's entirely long it's one very very low long day what is it you don't have a division in the day that part of the day is called yom and the other part is called lilo within the progressive descent of the of the energy of hashem called us light and darkness are limited so when you finish the light you have darkness vice versa [Music] night [Music] is but we turn back to the you talk about the experience of hashem as it transcends his dausolus hein benevole they're all mixed together i hear until here finishes kind of this talmudic and kabbalistic insight and just to recap what we understand from this piece of siddhis over here is that the the the the the mixing of light and darkness of your vocation is positive it's not negative it's a very high experience look what he calls it he calls it uh when you learn the rashi it's quoted in rashi i believe you look at it as a negative right hashem hashem separated night and day why did he do that because it was a balagang that's that's the simple way kabbalah says a different nakuda the the balagon consisted because the world was in a balagan state so you needed to have a division but the truth is that the higher experience which is above establish is a very lofty experience which is so special that it can tolerate yo valida together i have a pleasure together now that's that's the way we understand that i'll pick up allah now the rabbit talks about it in avoda who how is what does it practically mean in our daily activity it's the feelings of frustration and simha and the feeling of joy the same so too the feeling of ava love in all fear they are light and darkness there the two notions of frustration marinus and happiness in a lazer move not only are they different and separate one from the other what more so earlier they're actually opposites of each other the culture will be merely those when a person is frustrated and the basically is not happy [Music] at the time of frustration miss madame his soul is very bitter very frustrated while he's so distant with saddle emoji that is very bothered by it in yiddish it is no good to him and at that time he's not shy he's not he's not it has no association and when this person who's upset sees a matter of simcha greater like tuga you know what tuga means it causes it causes for him like um upsetness to go he's like he's like angry you know get away from me i'm now in an upset mode i'm frustrated and he and all of a sudden he sees some simple experience he doesn't take it in the right way but it really bothers him he rejects it [Music] he said and guess what happens his frustration becomes greater when he sees a simple experience while he's frustrated and he cries with a bitter soul mithirus libre from the depths of his of his heart this is all when he's in a mode of murders conversely when a person is is in the mode of simcha and you see he's emphasizing heaven he's emphasizing the word shaykh there is i'm not then there is i'm not able to i don't have the ability when you're really in the marina's mode you don't have the ability to be basim and and the proof is that if someone if you're confronted with simply you get more angry you get more upset yes hillary i don't hear you you you're you're you're still all right i thought i'd open the uh oh yeah we've seen another storm that the word marirus refers to something important and positive the kind of uh as opposed to access uh it's not a contradiction [Music] say it again i'm just asking us here he seems to be using he seems to be using more in the sense like we like we've used the octopus as something that uh that it's like a um a state of mind that really interferes with accessing other more itself from chapter 26 to 34 that's that's the theme there merida's is positive and important that otto's isn't but first of all he hasn't finished his thoughts let's continue i don't know we'll say and then uh i think the context is a different one but let's let's let's let's continue and see if we getting clarity on that but it's a good point you're making so he continues conversely when a person is basically liberals he's not able to uh entertain meridos filo when he meditates on a godly concept of massaging you know the key and he comprehends it and it rests well within him he got it i got it you know i i understand it i got it that inion [Music] means opulate it rests it's like um settled okay that's a good word it's been settled in the person although it's not it goes from comprehension yoni to being in in the very dna of the person we call that in hebrew and in yiddish the word is and when that takes place the idea illuminates him that indian liked it the idea shines to him and that causes him to be close to to to hashem the godliness when that's the the experience it's really good for the person he feels as is in bama's good you could say ah i i feel so good the sauce with some mayo but not sure he's happy and joyful with his soul algier that godliness has illuminated him him and and he's double kissed vehicles bellicose top of the next page 364 hambridge cloud and at that moment at that time he's not at all able to entertain amarillos so because he feels elevated um uh mats of maola means uh he feels so elated elated elated there's nothing else in the world that has value to him compared to the feeling that he has now about godliness in yiddish means immersed sunk in them he is like drunk ungodliness fat rookie means you know uh immersed but the words you can see the word trump can drink kind of he's drunk on god says now look i just told you two mindsets and realities what do we see from this that and totally opposite each other now he says i'll show you that yes yes hilo hill yes i just wanted to say it it seems like he's echoing here the words of the rabbi and he'll call chuva i just wonder if you had that thought as well [Music] um um i didn't have that thought i mean it you know you could well first of all talking about marinus and simcha let's see in the next line he talks about abba so let's see if you let's see what he says there the renu me this ava regarding the the the attributes the character of love and off here the beiju beaver in the beginning of the time when it's in beyond state fierce state he's not in the love state and when he's another love state is not an affair state the and what are those states the ava the love state is closeness attraction the year and the fear state is rehook distance she knows how foreign that's why there is a specific meditation to bring on love he's bonding us and there's a specific meditation but you know to bring on fear he is born in the zambia the meditation that brings down law of hebeli it's to meditate on that level and energy and experience of a godliness that condenses itself and invests itself in the worlds in other words the way hashem is here for our shrimp to be here you have to go through a symptom right a a contraction conversation a process when you you you can comprehend and understand this idea of assessing and that's why you can get close with vehicles or ava and have it at vegas because what is your abundance what are you meditating and thinking about the way god is here not the way god is removed and hashem is here because hashem contracts himself therefore the the amount of energy from hashem is able to be fathomed and experienced by the youth by you by us or another way of saying it is this is a love that's based on rationale and logic there's a there's a rationality that that in other words is something i can relate to god that has condensed himself and given over only an emanation himself into the world into my life and i relate to that so he sustains me he he wakes me up in the morning so there is a i i can i can i can talk about it and understand it and therefore i can feel close to it commissioner kosov as it says okay hold on he said do you guys hear me or very not choppy you're very choppy very muffled the last two days ruby i don't i think it's your microphone i i don't think it's the connection i don't think it's so um ring central i i did your phone maybe your microphone's not improperly you're not in the right place or something because it sounds like yes yesterday was definitely ring central because i kept getting bumped off oh really uh that's not happening today today is just some some garbling but i i i see you and hear you with no problem the wind no the air conditioner is off there's not much wind at all and it's very quiet outside um i i don't know uh what else to do i mean it sounds better now okay okay let's go further so he says that this medi this uh this meditation lends itself to relating better to hashem so it's shyer for us to be kiruf close to hashem because to begin with we're talking about the the the meditation is on how god is here because hashem limited himself and put himself here now he says further question to denote this experience to love god because he is your life when you talk about he's your life meaning he give so you have to relate to it how is he my life because i got up this morning i said my donnie i i i breathe and i'm here i'm here so if when i stop and think you gave me back my life i love you when i had corona you know i was a zombie and it was so scary and then you know when you think about life and everything that life consists of it's something that makes you feel close and thankful so that this ava lends itself lends itself to kirov to closeness and ultimately to the vehicles i want to be with you i want to attach to you give me you're giving me more life you're keeping me going right we have anemia so that's what we but nevertheless we call that so we call that avahitsonius because what prompts this alva the the symptom of the god's light so that simpson means it's like secondary it's it's it's it's onious it's not the entire god it's just part of him that dresses himself up for our experience comes along the higher experience and this we call the avapnemius this comes from a meditation not in the way god invests himself in the world but rather the exaltation we call that the hafla and reimus of the infinite we think for ourselves any and all manifestation of you of you in this world is only a horror it's not real you it's only your disguise your make-up octopus and what i'm getting has no is that no comparison to the essence sorry there's a nice when we feel and realize that we're so distant from god we have a take of a great lover in yearning quoting the devil continues [Music] the fear comes from the meditation and godliness how god has concealed the real god the essence of god from the world so i say hashem you must be so awesome because all i have is just a glimpse and if if in and and therefore i understand or at least one thing i understand that the real you is so awesome is so good he's locked up in his chamber he's quarantined [Music] that's external you know there's a guy sitting there behind the doors but he's locked up he wants to show he's a big shot he wants you to knock on the door make an appointment you know it makes himself important that's external meaning it comes from the closest high no means burning those world's relations there's no place where he's not there the same infinite god is found below as he is in heaven [Music] he gets back to his point he began teaching that ava love and fear are different than each other than each other heimba adds them in their very essence and also in in the content of the meditation that leads to the love and fear they're very different thoughts again what's the difference make sure you know this the difference is ava is through the key roof how it's through the meditating on the or hashem which is bit simpson condensed means he's my life that means i experienced him in my life but that's already a that's a limited uh expression of god and then the era comes from the distance so therefore the two the two very different notions and that's why ava and yida one is the source for the positive mitzvahs and one is the source for the negative missiles chapter it's the one who loves the name of god the prophet's love of god is and he desires to cleave him truthfully when you're coming from the perspective of love yo it's very precious to him it's just saying to do the positive commandments the omein he answers on me to the process you see how you're supposed to answer i mean in a shoe you don't have to scream like a lunatic but answer i mean make believe it it's it's something that you you want a lot in your life feel that um and when he and he when he has a year experience zoya he's very careful but mitzvah's life the sum total of what we said he says here the attributes the powers of avenger hambus they are different and separated by merida's with feelings of frustration or simcha ava or so this is what we learned today obviously still in middle of the the the thought which will continue tomorrow so we we haven't forgotten your question hillel but we have to see the whole picture before we can analyze what he's really saying here to address your your point and uh i think you might on your own come to understand the difference between what he says in tanya what you're in about the positive aspect of merida's he doesn't but i mean it's it'll tell you it it doesn't say here it's negative he just tells you it's different and and and and there is the purpose of marinus and there is the experience of marinus and tanya and inside he's talking about the purpose of burritos here is telling you when you are in the marire state when you're experiencing that if it's true marinus you're incapable at that time to feel joy so it's not a contradiction what take care thank you