Anger Is a Cover-Up Emotion; Why Is G-d Always Angry? - Likkutei Torah "Shuvah Yisroel" #4

the yeshiva dotnet okay welding page 128 in middle of passive gimel so yesterday we learned the Gemara says amass activators are in the first payday because he says para Clifton a a day n which is the first pay to cover with the Zara love casts that you saw it's a price of the be small but he strong excuse me we saw some Florence over the average that could have in baqara' hang the Bonet he saw the Jewish people living notes Lords outside of aerosol hot seller or it means coats outside of Eretz of the land the Veritaserum literally translated they worship idols Bottari and purity now the moment that says Bottari is trying to say something what's the chakra Tiger the tiger means it's not customer stolen that they're trying to over be over there were design Rashi explains but IRA means it's polite qivana that's what now she says without come on and a she also adds for ain't some in my wave they don't realize it it's he now she uses Tula shyness it's Beloit qivana they ain't some of my life it's not an intent of of a dishonor and because there's no similar slaves they're not cognizant they're not a we're and the big shine is what the Gemara means straws sugarfoot's thoughts out there with his owner mister be small talked your small was declined gotten at the end of by a shiny but he saw the urban I don't he saw the Corbin he was killed he was killed he was one of the surrogate mothers with small kine gobbled the first one that we read about him kipper tisha both right to be small kine goggle and efficient minimally on the seesaw the tiara be small lots my so revolution ulcers and hoots Lauritz it's a new dynamic so the ballot and explains it now I should just add that the Gemara over there brings for the price of admission a scenario the scenario begins to explain that a scenario says that over the cassava makes a feast a wedding feast for his son he makes her mister and he invites all of the Jews in his city she says that they eat kosher food they eat their own food they drink their own food they even have their own Shama sure they have their own attending their own waiter whose michonne much but he says my la la and my cost of kilo oklahoma's if he Mason now the question is what does this mean they're eating kosher food and why is it called over there by desert Abbot are ahead so without her ever explains even this mind man is that like everything the Gemara yzma dyke the word Bottari so rashly says 'but i remains without qivana in other words it's with pure intentions it's not they're trying to do something bad but Patera also means that it's a more subtle form of a desert and Hetalia of course it's not just your doing of a desert without qivana obviously it's not what the gomorian means the juices and hooks letters don't love a disorder how many jews have mysterious nefesh and cold floor it's not to do a vedas are throughout the dirty section are the dinosaur covers what it means is not by their fault it's without qivana in other words it's the dynamics of hoods loris that created it's not the jews that created and when we say Bottari we mean also that it's a whole different type of of a desert it's abstract it's subtle it's sensitive it's it's bad a curse of a disorder darkest means an ADA law - it's a much more sensitive of a design the Gomorrah says in uma hey she dummy solution for a certain person this is kilowatt sham for another person is not kill worship it depends on who the person is with the sensitivity of the purse what is the concept of his social code snorts I've never desert a batata so he said what was up my disorder traditionally people would bow they would worship the Sun or the moon or other forces of nature which became which they saw sources of plenty they used to call it the god of the Sun that God they had all these names the god of the water they worshipped crocodiles they had all these types of myths and some myths were based on facts meaning that the Sun and the moon do have to yield tremendous power nobody has to explain the power of the Sun and therefore it's worthy the Sun is worthy of exploration the Sun is worthy of appreciation the Sun is worthy of scrutiny and the Sun is worthy on what this what the mistake is that they attributed to the Sun independent power they turned the Sun into a god they turn the Sun into a deity rather than a force of nature that is a tremendous force and for which we're very grateful we all we talk every day about the Earth's elmyra's Amalia Lawrence Vlad our Amala Yoda is a special broccoli for Krishna dedicated to the luminaries yogena - what are the - the motifs are the mind is buchiach the mind first and foremost the Sun but we see the Sun as being male or 'it's as ash leah has an agent of the hash bar of the creator of the world of our shuttle can guys and be a decisive like the axe in the hand of the chopper the hammer in the hand of the contractor of the builder you don't attribute independence to the hammer you understand that the hammer is simply a tool that's being abused by the Builder so are we appreciated for hammers of course we're appreciative for tools but they're tools they're not deities they're not gods and when a person loses himself he bends down his head but with prostration it creates takabe means it represents that you surrender to the shamash thiourea this is classic of a desert he says in hood [ __ ] what happens is people worship also the Sun in the moon but we don't worship the Sun in the moon we worship those things that we look at and we say this is where my food is coming from it could be my boss to be my job it could be the person I'm trying to confer because I believe that this man is a God or this job is a god of this bosses of God do I have to do I have to work with his person yeah you gotta have a better car shambolic a Shopaholic a tosser a God's brush that comes in what you do not on what you don't do that means you have to do so I do need to I need I need to so I I need this job but there's a difference between worshipping it and not worshiping it I can appreciate it as ash Leah as a Kaylie as the channel fash'ems our spot this is a very harsh emilich a Shopaholic shot on the deer cavil akela is that even when you're involved in a short answer you should not become myth read Melaku since birth not become separated from is a Lucas meaning not to forget that la caja component that's le castle do we start with jackets are very sharp and then here to my the whole bracha is one thing here between the English to have the English the blue English chef so what's your Shila by yeah if I deserve right of course yeah yeah yes there anytime to say that putting them I love him in the middle of this whole thing like you just thought to say according Moloch come in is sort of reflecting our aspiration they understand that there goes even they see period that they see period a much wider the blind level the weeks of it where our level of pyramid is much higher that we aspire to that fact that our perception that this is not something that they are only Schlieffen that we're not different should approach them and that's why we're putting him in the middle of right perhaps if you look just from the track just want this how the translation of all the lucia measure your AF is right praise Him Sun and Moon in other words would say that the Sun and the moon also praise it with with or dressing the Sun and the moon that they also praised them you know they recognize who they are we just don't recognize them in the her shyness yeah there were those who were even criticize the thrill of my life here hmm mr. Aukerman money say rahman mani seen on the slowest there were those who deleted it why are you going to the Malacca go directly to God right okay so there's a big chuckle of Atari about it I'm just saying you have to not interpret these things cuz this room for error right right exactly in a phenom yet denied to be Hoda yeah I said to me Akash the bomb it's a big email come on the system okay super mainland this is called avoid eSATA Bottari you're not gonna say somebody who surrenders his head surrenders a snatcher to his job he's over the videos I'll he's not even ever thought he puts on he'd have a shaft us in the morning he'd ombudsmen if they got out might've even goes to [ __ ] off me during the lunch break even has a sheen on the telephone you know perhaps for some things are a bit of a desire the Taira what does batata me metalli means there's a purity there it's it's a adel it's a terrain avoidance art but it's a fitness on it today now it is not a look at the tidy attaches I told you once gaseous or ooh ah yeah it's really a stick-up it's a gas it's good up its course it's written is that but it's coarse here it's averages okay so therefore when the person worships that and turns it into a pea root it becomes separated from its source so there's no balance there's no harmony what's the result the result is skillet skillet doesn't mean here skill in gaja means it means skill erosion is what skill and rock me is the sensitizes the heart the heart becomes stone like from a heart that flows from a heart that's open as he calls it sick-ass a lathe a heart that's open to be able to experience life in its full richness this person's heart becomes like stone and that's what skill represents skill it doesn't begin in gaseous as we said the whole toy is a specialist always begins with Ramesh the Irish of skill is a psychological consequence of certain types of behaviour where a person's heart turns into stone on a physical level that's what's killer was there was a physical stone on his heart emotionally spiritually speaking was mean a physical stone on his heart that the heart becomes stone like the heart becomes hard and impenetrable you can't penetrate it he himself can't penetrate it the heart loses its emotional fluidity that worked our heart has to be fluid this energy there is love this excitement is enthusiasm and the heart closes that's called a laven and we know we know how this happens I mean if you're if you know if you're somewhat self-aware we know certain experiences we just close off the heart sometimes that are very engaged we close of the heart because of pain because there's a lot of pain so we just quote we don't want to get hurt again if you have a closed heart you don't get hurt nothing goes in nothing goes it helps you know it's very heat it's safe you cover it with a rock I am a rock huh I am Iraq and in this case my heart is a wrap which is all right I become a rock yeah I love Africa yeah yeah I should not even sell claim olive of us because I can't get it into my heart at least put it on top of yarn that's the concept of skill so when the trader speaks about certain behaviors that result in skill uh for example Hillel Shabbos pillow Shabbos is skilar so you save us f is still a Shabbos killer Herod is not together murder is a different punishment it's not stomachs of coincidence here we hack this punishment that punishment it all begins spiritually when somebody loses Shabbos in their life their hearts become desensitized essentially Shabbos is also a form of avoidable also form of a deserted the cynic says the idea of Shabbos is recognizing that the world stops the world has a creator you're not entitled to manipulate it constantly but the concept is that these various experiences of a person they desensitize a heart in other words the heart becomes a labor Evan and I can't open the harness you have sometimes you say about certain people they become heartless is somebody here yesterday who grew up in communist Russia spoke about so that's extreme spoke about Lenin or Stalin Trotsky these types of people the leaders of the Bolshevik Revolution 100 years ago 1917 it wasn't just their hearts were like stone they became heartless at a certain point I don't know how they were as children at a certain point you kill you murder millions of people and you don't blink it's almost you become a heartless person you your heart is not alive anymore you don't feel this you don't feel that it's almost like a machine so you have it in brutality and sadism barbarity but even but your savage Batala you have it in much more and much more refined people huh so what happens here is that the lave becomes a labor Evan and the person really it's very hard for them to emot-- very hard for them to experience life now it continues he says with shame one two three four five six seven eight nine ten eleven lines from the bottom one twenty a traditional Shabbos sugar the same colic is a similar thing would be because I'll say colic is kilo over the Vedas are here again when somebody gets angry you're not giving them skill ax not up some minion of Missa you're not giving a mass killer but when we say colic is kilo over the Vedas cake oven or next gaseous or dua because I'll say that gaseous aura which is arrogance is also lack of a desire so again it doesn't mean it's a very dessert if somebody who's arrogant you stone them you kill them somebody's angry you killed it what does it mean it's a cough a disorder this is again I've I desired Avatara it's the source it's this it's it's it's the of a disorder in a more subtle way in a higher place of response is the way of a disorder is manifested in very crude ways you have the molar then you have the bowel with all the heinous from security that these avoiders are is consistent of but you have a de la vie desires co-op chorus or gaseous aru arrogance is a concept of of a desire what's arrogance what is arrogance arrogance is basically you take the place of God in the world that's arrogance what's costs also you take the place of God in the world that's essentially what anger is what causes a person to lose themselves in a horrible temper or in cos they're taking the place of God in the world the same is true with with with gases or all these things whether they result in they result in skilar what's Killa skill is the heart closes up when they live in that space of anger a person lives in that space of anger what is that what is really that space evangeline space of anger or of gasosaurus means I'm playing God which really completely D legitimizes Who I am and who God is and our relationship and therefore these are subtle forms the fee shame hyper capital why are they all phones over this key covenant why would the Gemara compare gases to do what our Vedas are well the Gemara would compare a cast of a dishonor gossip sorrow is the beginning of moussaka site that of darlin cos is in massage the sharpest of Coffey what's the connections he says a few would assume hyper capital both of them rest represent that the person is not in touch with the reality of bitterest antithesis of bit anxious yeah yeah fitful means alignment again there's a balanced is a harmony what's the concept of arrogance arrogance is really the ultimate separation why is a person arrogant why is a person pompous a person is pompous because they're not recognizing at this moment their deep connection to God and they have to substitute that void with a different type of person with a pompous personality who needs it for self-protection why are people arrogant this is their only version of life they don't have another version of life there's their self can't their concept of self is so impoverished that the only way they could survive and operators through arrogance disagreeable argumentative confrontational hoarding always boasting they can only talk about themselves right they say a woman once said she's stopping to date why she said the last guy she dated all night three hours all he was talking about was himself that's it there was not nothing else I did this Serena such people you meet them and all they talk about is themselves so after after three hours she's like hoping for some you know maybe some interest in another person he looks at and he says you know three hours I've been talking about myself I think it's enough let me now hear what you have to say about me so you can't escape a person cannot escape out of that out of that rut what is that or but the person is in they don't reckon up in many ways what he's saying is arrogance is the ultimate insecurity arrogance is the ultimate betrayal of self that looks like you're very big you're really very small if you're big you don't have to be arrogant yeah you don't have to live off other people's energy you don't have to control other people and you know you're not looking for a place to be the arrogant person yeah I once it's from rabbi didn't Stein dr. Biden have a nice room he said the nature God gave frogs an ability to inflate themselves right you know a frog Kansas who blossom and suddenly becomes I have to fish a realist habit he says interestingly elephants don't have that capacity he said you know why they don't need it an elephant the left an elephant has presence he doesn't have to say it has been done and his thought he's fine but the Frog doesn't have so much presence so first of all a shrine I got stood up he screams and secondly inflates himself you have some of the birds you see it with peacocks you see it with roosters they they lift up there they lift up their wings and really it's it's a it's a summit so it's it's from fear you know that yeah if you familiar with farms a little bit those are you'll grew up in Brooklyn and you know about farm life farm life right or good old Muncie a good old Muncie before religious jury exterminated before Brooklyn arrived and decided that buildings are more important than nature and so you see a lot of these animal like roosters in this in chickens in self-defense in fear when they're fearful suddenly the wings are up and it's basically a way of saying don't start up with me I'm a big guy my totty is stronger than your Tati and I'm stronger than you so what is this all it's it's a natural instinct but it expresses a concept I'm inflating myself because I'm very small why am i small because I don't experience myself right now as part of the divine I don't realize that God is with me and in me right now of course have to be arrogant but the real elephant doesn't have to be arrogant is an elephant is good the same is true cos what's cos cos the survival wire people why so angry what you got so angry for its survival huh I don't know what you mean by opposites right the tapir capital what what do you think anger is person is overtaken by anger what is it person is furious he's angry you can't deal with loss of control that's not even cos yeah how you act with it what do you do with your anger and sometimes we and also a mode we have emotions that come from a consciousness of avoiders are the Vitara the question is what I do with it do I contain it or does it contain me we also have feelings of gases aura we have all these feelings that's part of human that's part of the human journey the fact that we have all these emotions that's not the issue the question is do these emotions to find me or do I do I put these emotions and context whether they put any in context of them that's the choice we all have these emotions unless you're a unique in a summer that's completely transcended that you never appear never in cast so you're never in this a person experiences cos but then I could be cognizant of what's going on and I could almost observe the pattern look at any outburst of cos even inside right at your children I don't want to stay at your spouse but at anybody and you'll see the pattern and if you look at the pattern you'll understand that you're not aware of how close you are to God at the moment you're in loss of control in trying to substitute it anger is basically a secondary emotion to cover a payment you want every emotion now enough with arrogance and depression is something else well ultimately everything is connected to this Nakota but depression is a different inion depression the way it's already expressed is that the person feels like nothing cos has not expressed that way yeah colic is kilo ever the Vedas are gaseous aru whose school assay says why doesn't mean a person who's worshipping of ADA's other people get angry all the time and they're fine and listen they're not over there with dishonor but the tire and the result is skilar against skill erosion is what is that a person's heart becomes stone life well acting on the anger basically means that you're not aware what the anger is a person has an emotion right we have these emotions what happens next it's the emotion but we're not we're not again a person can have emotions that are based on our voices are a Bottari but the question is do those emotions control me or do I control those emotions all right do I contain their emotions or do the emotions contain me do the emotions take over my eye but what's gonna be the difference if I let their emotions explode then just have free reign over my life good question somebody really hurts you somebody really hurt you so is it an anger almost a good emotion like you were hurt natural rights you saying the person has cos I was hurt but if you judge of the try to cut it under the TV there that's about another champion and if we you asked him a good question yeah right yeah yeah yeah yeah I want to respond to what if [ __ ] just said look Ida people often feel they judge themselves for getting angry because they're taught colic is keloid of a designer so they're good Jews they have to feel that they're not angry but of course they are angry so now that only repressing the anger and then they're upset at themselves for getting angry and they're now angry at themselves more than anybody else right and the anger comes out because they're really very angry even though they're not a lot of being because kill over the over disorder and he says why not just accept the anger and understand that on the contrary this is a natural emotion and you have to figure out how to express it you don't have to break windows and jump off a bridge but there's different ways you can deal with it that sounds very good but there's it's it's a little deeper than that and the reason is because anger is generally speaking a secondary emotion which means a cover-up emotion anger covers up pain that's what it is we don't want to feel the pain so we get angry if I could say you're a manoeuvre he's I Russia I deal irate say ludus I Bahama yeah it came up ramen from the veldt my [ __ ] up artists okay for animation capataz yes they're Khalifa's dead moving up on us right and you'll say we would say you know what he did right what really what really happened is I'm covering up to myself my pain I'm hurt I'm in pain that's where the real emotionless that's where the real emotion is I'm in pain I'm in pain but you know what that's very humbling it's very humbling to say wow I'm pain cool people it's it's a heart it's not an easy emotion to be with causes he's our low life a sickness of a person suddenly the whole energy is going there instead of here suddenly the focus is how evil other person is we're really what's happening is I was hurt and that's very real where I am now maybe in a year I won't be hurt from these things but that's where I am now I'm hurt now this doesn't mean I shouldn't protect myself when you're in pain you should protect yourself and you have their boundaries and you feel you should feel it if you're a person that's where mutilation happens but that doesn't that doesn't deal Ajith amaizing the pain that doesn't illegitimate is the pain and then on the contrary I can grow from it I can actually protect myself better I can become a much stronger person cos is really diverting my attention from what really went on to focus on a whole different reality about how evil you are as dr. torski like saying people are funny they allow their enemies to live in their mind for years and years and years rent-free at least charge the guy the guy who's been living he's attendant in your mind for 30 years he lives there Yemen Vil Ilah he lives there more than your own kids he lives there charge him four thousand dollars a month alight 25 another but with date that's what Casas yeah yeah it's trying to defend an ego trying to protect an ego trying to protect my vulnerability yeah so it's that's why there's a superficiality there chalo over the vedas are always means when you're in touch with a superficial life that's a substitute for realness which is God Hashem is really the word for Ms that's the word at least charge you guys I mean he was joking and if he doesn't play granny throw him out but this guy lives in the mind of God and not only that you give him the best room of the house you give him the best room you give him dominating learning the best room you give this guy so their album and his day is paid involve confronting a person that's much different than anger they're funding a person is actually you know that I'm obsessed to tell him you hurt me then I'm obsessed that that's different the namib says no cuz there is he says go to the person and say you hurt me if you could have that conversation some people you can't have that conversation my sister's official bill vivec up he says the worst is Bill of events or why because it's repressed it's it eats you up from inside you walk around with toxicity in other words you you have stats killer skill and means you walk around with a closed heart angry people have to close their hearts painful P paid people who are paying don't close their hearts they have open hearts they have open hearts so this doesn't mean people don't hurt it hurts and the natural emotion is it hurts and I may cry and they may have to create very strong boundaries and I may have to call the police you understand this is not don't get angry don't protect yourself let's make balloons when we teach people sometimes ideals that are are not based on it we say color codes kill away the vadas out of means somebody slaps you don't get angry make believe you're not available so what do you do with all the hangar it's the air it's then it comes out instead of coming out to that person comes up to your wife comes out to your children remember some of you would go home or you would get at night you told you father my teacher slapped me today and say this or what happened ah you got you got more and all his anger at work towards his boss who did he let it out at sometimes people are angry at work who do they let it out at they can't let it out at the boss somebody once told me he was a board member of a short of 45 years till he quit I said why'd he quit so he says all the board members yeah they're like harsh of a people but at home they can't express themselves they're afraid of their wives so where do older issues come out in the shoulder and the board meetings is he can't deal with it anymore sometimes issues that are not dealt with it's not they don't go away they come out but they leak they leak out here they leak out there because they're not dealt with mutilating the self doesn't work the COTS clear ever once said and again it's a subtle Vaart Azzam it's a Breathitt Iver vet phone ain't I've its way when you break at Iver you turn one into two now think about it what does it mean isn't it all about Shri so many small them especially say free muslin Chavira sativus God's could never knew about this one but he was saying a very profound idea you have to not a deal with a diver if it's just about breaking it you didn't get rid of it you turned it into two tigers one is conscious and one is unconscious you understand instead of it being conscious you just sent it to the unconscious because it can't be conscious about the positive keloid I'm not an over that witness on I don't get angry I don't get angry I don't get angry I never get angry I'm not a I'm not nothing I'm angry I'm not angry I'm not angry but well it's your problem I'm not angry yeah you know that you know that emotion oh look who came in if you're not vegan f is awesome I'm explaining what F is enlasa means Ms McCain f is Alice so that's avoid Zara always means being in touch with the facade of reality bittle means not substituting reality with the facade of reality Atossa mutters oh yeah a guy betrays you for five million dollars it's very painful and you should probably call your lawyer and it hurts and you shouldn't be doing business with this guy you have to protect yourself and you want to get back your money but now what happens if for the rest of the next year what my mind is busy is he is the most despicable person well what am I really doing am i helping myself we know I'm not helping myself I'm helping myself by creating bow injuries that I need by getting my money maybe I have to take him to then title whatever the proper method to get my money back I want 5 milli I want my 5 milliliters I didn't deserve to lose it I mean maybe I deserve to lose it but not through him let's put it this way he didn't have to take my 5 million dollars and then in another element in cos and other elements and casas ultimately when you could feel the pain you can also realize and this is a journey that the person that opened nobody is in full control of my life in other words this happened to me part of my it's part of my journey it's part of my relationship with God so you made a choice to hurt me and that's what you have to take accountability you have to apologize you can't say oh is I've gotta practice if God didn't want you to get hurt you wouldn't have lost the money so therefore I'm that's how the god I'm Ashley you wanna know why God is always getting angry so much we try to kill over the with desire yeah that's a good question why is this I'm getting angry Cara what's fair enough why is a Shem getting angry so the rambling would tell you right away that it's euphemisms doesn't mean anything the Saburo isn't different technological money other what does it really mean right hora off roshambo sell the car out for shampoo sell szostak also votes from the catskil the haven of art ciass our fake IDs are free code that she brings say for CSR fake IDs I think partially it's very very beautiful forty cents it's good for sesame chili and kipper says by moistur Hashem summoned him by the snap to go redeemed the Jewish people from Australia so my son took out every excuse you know the excuse book that Bach him in yeshiva have he took our every excuse from the excuse book why he can't go ah the first thing he tells us um is me or nice leave a penis I'm a nobody so God says well I'm sending you that's all you want then he says lowest bottom on IV I can't even talk that says who made anybody talk it's me I'm sending you then he says they're not gonna believe me he says they are gonna believe you finally schlock nabi optician I just said somebody else and Rashi says it was a whole week that they were arguing back and forth so basically you want to bring on so and and motion for the fluid what happens at the end by ye starfish and vamoosh Scott gets angry so basically you learn it basically you know you called in your son and you told him you want him to cool of a mr. presentation and he says I'm a nobody you said no you're good I can't poor could talk nobody's gonna listen they will listen get somebody else to do it but mitzvah for him I'm not becoming 13 so all you do is you start screaming he say I'm disowning you which is okay I'll go do it I mean first of all moisture here has to accept the mission of his life and how does he accept it because God got angry some couldn't convince him he had every excuse finally each and every time I mention in simple English if we weren't talking about God we would say he lost it at him he lost it he started to scream at him he got a name he said just go what is it okay so the whole assist was based on data based on fright based on pocket you know that things that you do out of fear are very weak things that you only do because your father screamed the living daylights out of you right huh those things they're not in graphic aired the first opportunity gonna let it go the whole slickness of motion was based on anger so the cuts crepitus says and this is the problem with all translations he says we don't translate the words we say buy a giraffe roshambo moisture if you want a good english translation and the lords are burnt against Moses the Lord's wrath better even God's wrath burnt against Moses which means he was burning burning mad at him he says read the words vahish are a fashion big motion the motion Hashem anger which will explain the moment started to burn in motion what does it mean his anger burns in my show she says Moshe I mean he says it in three lines I'm just the collaborating a little the way I understood it why was my she refusing to go he had good reasons he was humble he couldn't speak he was not a communicator he didn't see himself as a leader he didn't think the people won she had good reasons but the ultimate reason was something else and that is that despite everything the godless Mitzrayim didn't get them he didn't experience remember he cared he already beat up he killed an Egyptian by Eagle motion but he was in a desert he was with God some given guns good it didn't get to him yeah a mother has for Shalom whose child is very very ill and she needs to as we know from reality and she needs to affect doctors and influence people in hospitals to do something for the child she doesn't say Coco I can't communicate I don't know how to talk send somebody else if it's your child you learn how to talk and you don't send anybody else and you don't care if they believe in you or not believing and you don't say I'm humble you know why because Sabratha fire cuz the passion is burning after ash am talking to him for a week my she refuses to go by Yi star alpha shamba motion the passion of Hashem started to burn in motion he communicated to Moshe his own passion his own paying his own agony over the Gullah spits and what's happening that that I've started to burn in motion money she started to feel about dollars the way I sham felt about those the moment that happened he said I'm in I once hurts from the Obama should ever the habit of myself about the coffin Zion he said it once he said it himself with a lot of passion there was once a gazania in Poland against shittin I think it was the 20s and early 30s covet I am sent the delegation to the leader of Poland to speak to speak to so he said that they came back and the coffin I am asked them what happened so they told the coffin tsiyon that the Prime Minister was there but the translator who was supposed to translate didn't come and they speak Yiddish they couldn't communicate with him because they spoke you did she spoke polish and she can sit couldn't communicate the translator didn't come so the Javed Shyam said but aim it's accomplished that anybody of you faint if anyone would have fainted the Prime Minister would have understood you wouldn't need language when somebody cares when somebody's passionate about something they find the language they don't need language they could cry they could faint they could scream so the point here is values are a fashion bit much so when you say in crea Sh'ma the Torah of Hashem but then what's the real translation God's passion will start burning in you but them inside in other words you'll be able to see the world the way he sees the world you should be able to see reality the way he perceives reality it's a whole different experience how does it very good question how does it follow but how do you follow these words by watching us on our malaria monitor the same thing and here we come back to another important idea how do we understand what's our Assessor mind it's punitive in other words our people shot you say let's talk about a person you get angry you get angry at your family say we were supposed to go to column colormode was supposed to go to Six Flags instead not I was supposed to get you what are you get in 7-eleven sloshed Slurpees we're not we're supposed to go on vacation we're not you're supposed to have a Bar Mitzvah we're cancelling the moment sir and no salt no breakfast lunch and supper for three days okay yeah well or how far Simba them he gets angry sir that's it the show is over the game is over you're spoiled your narcissistic your idol worship is no more rank below your mother what is this is it punitive is it vengeance is it revenge is it God showing who's the boss you start up with me I'll start up with you is it anger pressured I'm angry I lose control so anybody understands that this is not done this is not this is not the concept every like we see here every Amish and tireder really the word punishment needs to be qualified it's the idea of helping you have to understand all the consequences coming from absolute love from absolute clearing from absolute affection just like in education the only real discipline that's effective is discipline that's coming from deep attachment if I get angry at my child and I say I'm gonna take revenge from this my 12 year old he's driving me crazy go go to your room for the four days stay locked up then I'm not that's not cinema even with humans what's the Timnath is based on the idea I want to help I want and I have to deal with those emotions where I lose myself we have those emotions above I deserve so by the rebind asylum for sure all these consequences it's all about education instruction elevation voxer assertion my Malloy a matter of Adama Lacey Tennessee Voula basically is the method for the human being to become sensitive to the world and see it the way God sees it in other words to experience his passion about of a desire or if you want to put it again on erosion is the Kalev Lavazza such a mine below your mother means you're gonna stop crying you're gonna lose your ability to cry the won't be the heaven in you will be plug below your mutter you will lose your sensitivity that's killer but recession mine below your mother you will lose the heaven in you the heaven and you will be plugged and your own rain won't flow your own energy won't flow on a spiritual level on a physical level it's the idea of the world being shaken up by the fact that it's dysfunctional so all these Ironman Toyota coming from Terrace high I'm a novice Cassatt earnest asset it's never about I'm gonna get you back it's rather about always about cleansing rehabilitation healing helping a person ultimately achieve his or her ultimate potential now this doesn't explain everything that happens in the world we don't understand a lot of things that happen in the world there's so much mystery just like we don't understand God's mind but whenever we see an owner Tyrel it's never coming from what we call loss of control or anger or I want to get back at you that's not that whole concept that whole concept is alien to Judaism always one always has to see the oven and if one doesn't see the oven it's they're not in touch with the reality Brendon you know that's the goal how will they be before our fresh embers the person becomes aware of imbalance in life when things are imbalanced how do I become a weir how in balance my life is when everything is working it's working when things are not working it challenges me to open myself up to a deeper reality and say maybe I'm in a world of of a desire yes yes yes so the breakdown of the system is painful but that breakdown helps you fix a broken system whenever systems breakdown you all know we all know this in our own lives when systems breakdown it's painful who likes broken systems right but if your car had a serious serious problem and it breaks down right it may have saved you if the plane stops working on the runway that's a good thing because it could be dangerous so when systems breakdown it's not fun but if they allow us to look and see what's broken and change perspective that's that's that's a that's a beautiful thing even if it's a painful thing okay again I know I know I know how people understand it hisham Rosa Hisham Rula ham were used to English translations say some rule of ham is basically we look we see you see this right when people say some rule of ham you could see God with a finger like people see it this is called real Aveda zara we all have pictures of God in our minds the most famous pictures like this Hisham rule ahem like that person in your life who said hits it hey stomach men so Yemen has a philosopher smashing traditional of one after Lavanya what they tell you was understand what the time I'm gonna see you start up a sham rule ahem Hisham rule ahem because if you start up with me I hit then I hit harder than you so does the guy with a finger the guy with the finger is why once read a description of somebody he said he wanted to be my earlier years sure mine before dominating before Domini he wanted to feel your insertion so what did he do this is the my sacct show it was a hobby he said he imagines God as a rhinoceros he pushes images imagine you walk out on the street and you see a rhinoceros charging you or a buffalo yeah how would you feel you get scared you'd get a little scared emma's he says now he starts Dominique now he starts dominating case I am must be that this whole balcony first days God is a rhinoceros and a buffalo huh yeah but that's what happens so and the buffer is shaman so all the all the words it has to be understood that's not a bizarre batata that's less than Matata I don't know real again I'm not saying he meant well yeah he wanted years sir Sam what's the best use of show you recited NASA receipt instead of turning that instead of seeing the rhinoceros as an aspect of the vine energy turned God and torment acerous he some rule of ham means you some room means Smee regards I want you to be sensitive I want you to guard yourself he some real offend means creates mirror for yourself it's beautiful words it's like you tell somebody you're a sensitive soul and I want you to guard your sensitivity I want you to protect your integrity I don't want you to squander yourself it's like telling a child who's eight years old imagine you can tell a child you're eight okay and you're a good-looking boy and there's people in the mikveh who have evil evil tendencies I want you to protect yourself there's people who will ask you to do things they'll promise you things they'll give you things and they're going to destroy your innocence forever hisham rule ahem I want you to protect you're too precious not to be protected those are not angry words those are beautiful words of a loving mentor of a loving mother of a loving father it's not give me the ever anybody ever got this anybody pulled your ear publish think of my clear satire you ever got this huh so you understand so when we say some rule AHA means watch out for me that's not a translation Alyssa means guard yourself you're too precious to squander Penn youth to love Africa the heart is very vulnerable with certain Bava determine like imitating mr. Winston welcome and then what's gonna happen is I'm not gonna destroy you because I love you too much pucara a fashion boham I'm gonna realize that you don't see the world the way I see it you don't see yourself the way I see you you see yourself as a piece of garbage piece of junk so vicara alpha schambach am the passion of god what you are how great you are needs to I wanted to start burning in you I want you to see yourself the way I see you I want you to see your destiny the way I'd see you of course this is part of shot this is real this is real shot you walk this is real this is the MS this is the MS let me let me let me in the same darvany we say a hundred times especially in slippers Hashem Hashem kale Rocco the candle Erica pie in Vera hazard notes it has said the amis so if you say about your father my father yeah my father is a man who's full of compassion full of grace full of patience and full of love Ralph guess it means abundant love and kindness so I say really well now tell me about your father's conversations with you every conversation is basically warning you that if you don't follow his instructions he's gonna throw you out he's gonna kill you is gonna destroy he's gonna destroy your family I'm like you know I think you need a little therapy with your father somebody over there something is off so we say a whole lotta toy you buy shamrock oil for a kebab I'll call myself you do have some call myself oh please say if I see a dark I must be it's a Turkish and behold Rafah crossing the whole mass of car wash them with Hokkaido are we schizophrenic is Judaism schizophrenic God is loving until you tick him off I'm gonna be you tick him off small small small stuff if he said the Gemara foolish saucepan butter croissant then by the shaman living Bartoli's tapa I feel you take him I tell you so you say this guy is nice but don't don't come close they say well he's a nice guy you know the God you know the guy buying soul right though he's the goblin sure he's a nice guy but if you come close to him if you get on the Bema evidence a franciscan evidence' frost canal imprint on your cheek till after you sever Broca's till after you sever process so you know the guy the guy that this summer should be you stay away from these people so we don't realize that when we educate people about God we do these things so children grow up with a horrible horrible image of a shell some of those images are filled with hate filled with negativity but they're scared to say because you're gonna get punished for that too they're gonna get punished for that too but just because I'm scared to say it doesn't mean I don't have it so underlying order Shoshanna in kippa to fill this little session with children by many people are very very negative feelings I'm not speaking from speculation here I'm speaking of hundreds and hundreds of conversations I've had personally with people in writing or bow paths hundreds not ten and not twenty hundreds of conversations what is it good people and then you have to say every day three times of a half-dozen mmm look at how so so imagine this it's fast get it on okay and then I say but tell me that you love me what do you what type of love you think the love itself is is unbelievably hurtful it's like I'm I'm gonna destroy you but now tell me you love me you know what that does with people's brains huh you know you know what that does with people's brains imagine an abuser after everything he does and now hug me and now embrace me and now tell me that you love me and tell everybody that you love me there's something very very dysfunctional about it very painful about and if you don't say you love me you're gonna get the biggest punishment so I mean how much can you love such other such a reality how real convey after session will occur shall be and therefore we have to challenge ourselves and get rid of a deserter we have to get rid of idolatry not cos mashaallah my voice is audible in the nationís but I've ideas on a Bottari all the images of Hashem that are very very ingrained in our psyches not because of anybody's fault it's not malicious it's just we reap so can we read tighter and we often don't understand take of what this is you think some of you think these are my [ __ ] manoosh guide that I come and I missin I distort the interpretation and it's against the homeless Ida and it's against everything because God forbid that God forbid Cosmo solemn to appreciate the fact that Judaism is based on the infinite love of God to every Jew and to every human being and that itself is the greatest tragedy the greatest tragedy is that people think that what eyes when I say this I'm like creating a new religious and new Judaism when all I'm trying to say is that Judaism is consistent and you kind of add Avenue where you completely schizophrenic one second guard is your best friend and the next second is with a flask like what what's going on do you love me you don't love me which parent who really loves a child's wants to take revenge of a child you ever heard a mother say I'm gonna take a revenge of that kids a healthy mother doesn't speak like that the mother may be hurt the mother may feel anger depends how self-aware she is but even if she's feeling anger which is a secondary emotion or she's feeling hurt which is an original emotion revenge it's not about revenge I care for the child I want to help him shine I wonder I want to help her Maxima I I see a person who's addicted to drugs who's gonna who may die tomorrow from an overdose counselors home I want to help them I want to save them I don't want to take a revenge I'm taking revenge who takes revenge with Wiz dis revenge what are you angry what's the anger you we lost control so how is it that with parents we understand it suddenly with Hashem we attribute to him the worst of the worst all the qualities that we go to seminars and workshops and we try to help parents to graduate from or deal with we put it all we put it all on God how did the negative approach become so prominent let me tell you what it says until the shock of the oyster parshas boy the heart around fresh um is not my variety cutting the cut scope was a shire feed he wasn't lovey dovey fluffy ice cream the conscript from all the suitors sure somebody once said them to loss and when the cuts of the Baal Shem Tov so on every bad he saw the good and the cuts can every good he saw the bad he ho he saw you know the paneer the cut school was a shad for youth but he also understood that God wasn't just angry at moisture moisture you go right now is stop fighting with me a whole week that's not fan of the relationship that's a relationship he lost himself so much she was scared the cuts good the kousaka's says this you could look it up and see eccentric right dish I'll pay you right from the moss and it's until the sack of yours I think it's a precious boy you could easily find it the based of art K on the Commerce Hashem can the Commerce a fear here's another juicy line right everyone today is Wednesday beautiful chaos is so you're gonna say K I'm the commissar am tell McComas a fear right and a camp they would sing okay I'm gonna calm my session with I'm naked what I'm making now translate K on the conversation God is a God of revenge if you didn't register we go right there came the commerce the god of revenge holy fear acted by vision he showed up he showed up okay and then it starts off he no sir so forth oh that's a messiah how do you finish the MS mer-moon around and all my shame no real that so you say no and the khatma fun of the site a little air so imagine your father calls you in and say your soul a Yankee lead of it though let me tell you about Tati I'm a man of revenge and I want you to know the man of revenge has appeared he's not at the closet anymore and his not he's here he appeared what comes next what comes next somebody once told me his father would give him a choice at night between a belt or a stick he had to make choice the next is the belt give me the belt talking in the old days before they'd be when these things were still uh I mean it still happened but a little different of people are more silent about now he says now my tidying the laughter you learn to bounce who I am lacunae nanana come la matanza and tell me thank you and start singing bismillah snotty a lot so who schizophrenic a it's been the mashugana what's going on in gob is gonna take revenge now start bouncing people healthy that could be normal with this that means I lead to one of three things either you mutilate your emotions you're not you don't have natural emotions anymore you can't deal with God as a normal emotions because it's it's so you become like a zombie or a robot or you're completely in denial of who you really are or you become the solution than cynical you just go through social um so you should be nested this differential devayne in them for Yom Kippur and hopefully get another year and hopefully your hope ups me the connect admit that maybe today will be a better mood or you have to stand back and say maybe we need a deeper understanding of what Judaism is [Music] so 300 years ago as the world became and developed in a particular was developing in particular ways God sent down the neshamah of the Baal Shem Tov to the world Kayal Tufnell has 60 98 to be able to be makalah the closer all the premieres of titan did that the truth of tired of the depth of tyler but someone didn't invent he revealed so the total shock of Yosef says that he went through the Baal Shem Tov or something asked why does it say twice in the commas I'm sure the vast even more which shame is the shame of Casa everybody knows kale which shame is the shame of raqqa me mute gave often which shame is Medusa Denali you had to say kaylynn the commissar sham can the Commerce a fear for carrots it Selleck invisible an economist Kahless s it and you give off kids you'd give them with a sermon kale Macomber salvia and again kale Macomber sofia and for the Baal Shem Tov ha ba tell you the two questions and search on kale McComas asha you should know we're talking about God's revenge it's all kale it's all good and it's all wrath on them it's pure love flex to me how could revenge be pure love all revenge's I'm gonna get you back so the plastic says let me explain to you Kalyn the Kama Sofia you know how God takes revenge you know how he takes revenge you know what he does from the Karma I fear he shows up in your life that's revenge that's what he does and he gives a Marshall I'm gonna use my own words for the Marshall pusher to explain it but the Marshall is the mall centers what's the Marshall the Marshall is you're in the dumps your mom mission the dumps you know sometimes a person is literally and of this I mean emotionally speaking you're in the worst situation you're broke you have nobody a man comes a mollusc mushiya comes slaps you out get you a job gets you a home gets you security but you don't know what he did for you you don't know you don't know that this man had absolute mysterious nethersphere you don't know and what do you do with this man you mistreat him you abuse him you backstab him you deceive him you're still in a dysfunctional place you try to manipulate and he's an easy guy to manipulate you don't know what he did for you or you're not ready to know so for years and years and years you try to outsmart him and you're sly and you steal from him and you lie to him and you use it and you abuse him and one day one day as you grow up and you mature you discover everything he did feel he appears in your life you suddenly feel his presence and what he is you know what you feel then what do you feel there's a deep deep shade and the one who says there's no revenge that's deeper than that all other revenge I'm gonna get back at you he says this is the shame that comes from Wow how can I be like this so he says kale in the comments on Shem God's gonna come is all love really how cuz kale in the comers what's out killing the comments I fear one day he appears in your life you say wow this God I thought was a boogeyman would be a boogeyman a monster the guy who hates me the one who hated me from the age of three everyone told me God hates me and I hate God you know you were told that you are a disappointment Hashem and suddenly I fear he appears in your life suddenly you become aware of Tamura kita Hacha mm alex says Tomoyuki ty russia why does nobody know about these per second these pursuit can i also rabbi why why makes up who made up the posse Tomoyuki ty Russia bene freedom made it up doubted everyone said Tomoyuki Torrevieja zoo vet is n as the neighbors there is good thirst but there has to be one thing taboo taboo if there's no time o you know sometimes you want to convince somebody say this is good food the Cholan today is unbelievable they say I don't believe in Charlaine taste it tomorrow how do you take how do you taste God how do you taste God do we have the mechanism to taste God so you have Lakota Taylor I eat how you tell you my son what are you even alive scream I am it 11 what do you each other self to know how do you taste God onions and then and the crushed eggs with with lever huh kishka how do you taste god oh yeah now blintzes lasagna spareribs with a little barbecue sauce how do you taste God huh so some people can filter fish so of course so what do you know there's a tomahawk but there has to be Tamil who revoke it I presume you read through till then you'll see it all says it till and you read through anything you see it but we have to have eyes that are sensitive so I would read the puzzle in the comments I shall kill him to come and say free as okay God is having a hard day today Wednesdays are they stay out of his sight comes about sentiment says what hard day for some things in love with you is crazy about you but some tough once said that Hashem loves every Jew more than parents love Abenaki who was born on there in their older age everybody knows the love of parents to children if you have a child you know imagine you can't have children and you have one child at the end of your life the love that the mother and father's are the most relative the love of our center every Jew is infinitely more than that love can you imagine that so think when you say today in turn in darvany of us over mouth don't know how do you touch that i rabbi why I made that up also Alvis Euler mouth Donna once a mother came if you're an Ashkenazi you say Avenue but not Besser hemlock daily we say to come out Delano hi bushka bombing survivor before smile you sir all you have to say twice not enough ones that God loves you like crazy before smashing stuff in the beginning of asylum and it's not enough i [ __ ] but I mean so Bible if not don't say smiley strong cuz I'll said you're not gonna understand myself comes might've first we speak about nature it's beautiful girl urbanization say [ __ ] and they're my video and maybe Loyola Martha William Irvine Leila sunsets sunsets evening arrives it's a beautiful sight the transformation from light to darkness darkness to light garland Lebanon clerkship he rolls up the light for the darkness my Gila the car shook and then he rolls away the darkness for the light like this morning well Mario even maybe Lila how my river of that's a celebration of nature at God's world what's the next step boom he created a whole world but now he's gonna tell you but let me tell you now about my I've asylum basis all I'm coughed the first thing you love them eternally oil on next next Tyler Mitchell asuka much but to my son of the mother tongue most people do with the opposite order but somehow has all didn't believe in the opposite order most people say if you'll do tight and mitzvahs God will love you ms if not to hate you that's not what it says and robbery why we did it make this order I didn't change this medicinal side other side of them based on I'm harmful because of their total mr. Conrad my son a llama that I love you so deeply I gave you a way to be able to connect it tell your own mistresses on all about it I'll cane what's okay what's I want to know what's the top alkane we say this every single night I know you know that explain the Siddha Koster solemn because it may be you know a lot understand Avenue right it won't be good then you may even change the relationship to God you may destroy idolatry who wants to do that right what's the alkane like I'm subset ellipse I can support what's the alkane anybody ever thought alkane our mole okay no right you can even pick up your hand if you want okay what's that cake what did you say first okay can anybody tell me what alkane is the blossom the best aha linguists what's the alkane therefore no it's not an alkane a shambolic a nobis of a nova kumain no no see special Casa Vinnie smiles but divination also meet special envoy and write the key entry anniversary men you see the structure of this broker every one of my shear them is in this broth you don't need more everyone it's all there I'll translate the brush you loved us with eternal love tired and mitzvos you taught us that comes right after the love you love me infinitely you give me Toyota a mitzvos which is the deepest way of connecting to you and the deepest way of life all cane therefore what's the therefore if because of all this love the shock of a know of co-main in the Sigma Kaka this relationship I'm not gonna let go of then this must be David it's a Roscoe I'm gonna celebrate it no it's epitome of life over there mega and then you continue if you made a mistake now you'll say Who but what happens if I make mistakes I betrayed I abandoned valve asfar I'll toss in a manner though how does that come in here this is already talking about somebody else this is a person left don't think the love changed valve Los Altos cinema no way moment why would I think tafseera man no because if it wasn't participating of command no no see a bottle careful so maybe you stop loving me say no no no I'll toss him in Manila um and this love will never change I love you unconditionally the way you are I take pride in what you can be in your potential but don't think the love changes ever barakaatuh sham or ehave I'm Maya strong and we all know to say ah shams name it serious you're not gonna say a broker Shana truth so every Jew makes a brush ashame amazos and says oh you've a me struggle with one hands God if he loves you how you saying his name you say a brush with a sermon that maybe doesn't love you maybe he's upset at you maybe he's angry at you that's not a Schuyler not a sailor the ballot Anya writes we say every morning three times Borel Kitaj a man on a marble the slowest maybe he doesn't forgive you how do you know you forgave you maybe doesn't he's looks like one of them ask him you have never he told you borrow Sbrocco love October maybe doesn't forgive you the shot is it's not an esophagus locker so the ballot Anya says in the garret room is the head is not even a Suffolk respects faker than he forgives all such a thing if you said I'm sorry it's over done what's the next step ain't neva an angel very very vain oh girl in the middle amongst Michael why don't you see my pain and redeem me excuse a moi I should see your pain you just two seconds ago said that your did you're full of sins [ __ ] vain no slack Alana they make a cut on it would mean I should see your pain why don't you look at your sins the aim of our a new look at my pain venom or anything to fight for me oh go Elena you just send the answer is coming on my mother slow ha it's over no since no since you said it my chakras then you said it my mimicker then my mind it don't you think after 50 years God says good nuke shemitish Turkish imagine every day you cheat again and every day you come to your boss and you apologize at some point he throws you out here he never throws you every day come and everyone gets up on a purple slash I didn't make up these stuff my friend its traditional Mikula naina Vanya know if some cabinda mob sister says why is it after the illah my daddy cavort afternoon 'la everything is done on my yard and kippers / forgiven what's the first thing we say after Nayla boohoo Rock'em yo I gots a tux I hate you said you forgiven whoo whoo laughs whoo misshapen already how many juice in between the eland - at least if there would be a break for five minutes come as a novice Indic but molester finish Leben after the illa people losers right they sat a whole shop as the 8d deep kicks in and the hunger kicks in and that vous Raskin was the fastest ver al come in the world so nobody sends between the ulema even if you want to say nobody talk they want to go home to eat so what do you happen oven and then you damaged - if I might have a slackline of Enoch autónoma come on we did you sit between for the quick - so the quick - we did you send who sent between the Alam might if I'm asking you what they do what they do to nil I might have they played poker they didn't even go on the web yet maybe some people between the alumni of the Kansas rest I know but most people didn't go okay so that's under Nevada the human being is hungry so you know what the bidam's huh that's that that Judaism has to go that Judaism has to go what else should we do well of course we do this what else should we do we should we should enjoy life we don't do that we have to be miserable you could hack around another brother brother make it miserable why not another a few kiyose why not that has to go that's all based on the same conception that is really somebody who's trying to what's a nice word huh whatever I wanted to use another word but well we'll keep it this way you'll finish the sentence you something so high up simcha Benin from sister you want to hear what he says he says you know what you copied oven is you know what's Lachlan what we know is that after a whole Yom Kippur people think that God did not forgive them and that's to sit after a whole Yom Kippur people don't believe that God forgave them they don't believe that they're healed they don't believe that they're fully fully good they still are busy knocking themselves down so you say sloth alone often occasional what's the sin that I believe that I'm a sinner that's a sin right afternoon laughs I can't now so who documents up and leave look um you have to say it for all your calves Aiden who don't believe the gods are game this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot a yeshiva net / donate