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And What If Your Issues Come From Me?
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Likkutei Torah Behaaloscha V'zeh Maaseh Hamenorah #4 - The Courage to Challenge My Mindset Fueling My Addictions This class was presented on Parshas Shlach, 21 Sivan, 5779, June 24, 2019 at the Ohr Chaim Shul, Monsey, NY For Source Sheets: https://www.theyeshiva.net/jewish/7027
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the yeshiva dotnet you're asking of
accommodation manhoods meerschaum I am
how does it work with this
I don't think here it's a contradiction
because what he's talking about here is
mcdougal Morris says series from the
Gemara shahuri I see the d8 Sahara was
given to a person passion since I could
know she aided them how much time of a
nutshell kagama life that means that the
ability for a person to fall to make
mistakes
the Kalama is part of the Divine Plan
you know step oh they shrunk let's Mira
Maya means every moment I have to make a
choice but the reason I have to make a
choice is because this two choices
obokata Reina SOT ela for NASA right
I've given you two paths like motion of
innocence anus I didn't for NASA this
dairy I am and is there a cat toy
that there are some offices arabic
arabic i am i have to say choose life in
other words have placed before you Reina
satella furniture stage Rossum so that's
the key that is talking about it red
that mean that means that that means
that that that's part of the
possibilities it's one of the equations
that a person is going to I think that's
the main focus you understand you
understand what I'm saying okay good
morning everybody will continue it will
finish the mind move we started last
week while I saw this is the last piece
that we didn't finish yet page 65 Lama
the gimel column one so we learned that
vers mi salmon are mixtures of ah da
caparica that for a person to become a
manera does the element of mixture which
he said is hammering out to the gold
confusing its original form which was
idea of challenging a person's mid this
and not remaining stuck in my original
form and format Zahav which explained
that length is the concept of war fire
erase ashram add Eurasia at pika
we're first every type of Joo erases all
the way on the bottom the base of the
Maneri Topeka is the flowers on the top
and perfect from the word Paracas the
turn ended filler sores that source
because it has wings and all of them are
included in the malaria but the person
has to have solved our pure gold if the
gold is mixed in with other elements
it's it's the color changes the Demario
says Simon Levay des amis a casaba Simon
Levay da Dracon there's a greenish
greenness that comes in to the Zahav if
it changes a color and the both honey
says that means in a person to get rid
of all the sediments all the toxicity
the negativity which we call sir Mara
how so you went into a whole irises a
whole length relatively lengthy
discussion the person to believe that
every morning is a new morning muhammad
baba ki kadosh and wap karim to believe
that every morning is a new morning
every day is a new day in other words
not just that it's a new day everybody
knows it's a new day but that the world
has created a new omaha there's but to
void but kali am thomas master bodacious
it's recreated from nothing to something
it means there's new possibilities new
energy new resources the ability to be
able to say goodbye to the old and
embrace the new that requires already a
deep awareness and not only the world
with someone else or the person himself
not just the world at large the cosmos
the universe but he also in other words
to be able to experience himself as
other Mauritian
the way Adam felt the first day that he
was created there was something fresh
about it there was like it's a new slate
a new start it's this is it this is it
this is the beginning and that includes
every single person the toast of the
centrality of the person how dignified
how valuable the person is like Adam
Adam couldn't dismiss himself is you
know a garnish - Matt that's what I do
it doesn't make a difference what it
does it it's all you yeah you're at the
center of creation either you mind to
advance it or you're going to move it in
the other direction but it's basically
you bish really deliver aha I love the
the there's something tremendous at
stake in your life in your avoid that's
our person should feel every morning and
that creates perspective assess also you
see even with your eyes he said with the
physical sense the transformation from
night and today but oh you maverick oh
it's not just every day it's the whole
you I'm looking at everyday looking at
the transformation from night to day
creates divert how could the goal of
Labor beneficial Herschel mayor yet the
greatest challenge to this is that
people feel stuck that's what he says
the greatest challenge person feels that
this is true about everybody else
besides me why because some things are
so rooted as he puts it least Irish some
things are so rooted in their so
entrenched they were drenched in me as
he says I'll join morado a person
shouldn't say Shannon its life for him
it's impossible
Lepore admire ah the hottest Ernest
Irishman to separate himself from
toxicity or negativity or addictions or
habits or cravings or attitudes typhus
is a big word and rise a big word
includes the whole umbrella of anything
that so a person says I'm different
because I can't separate myself from all
of these habits or attitudes that are
deeply entrenched that's why there's the
whole section of Dominic where we
address this MSB mitzrayim Galton wash
Amal okay no I'm a base of Aden PD so
know called her a I'm her actor over her
face raga Alto what shot it's not just
we're saying it's true that it happened
ms it's true it's not fiction at this
point of Dominic you should hope that
the person thinks it happens you only
said in Kish Minear shymala case how
much I'd say system by the way its MS
rather mitzrayim was called eros or it's
the Toyota calls it ever saw it's the
nakedness of the land meaning as Rashi
says that it's it was morally depraved
you see even what they did to the Jewish
people
what does this mean that a person is in
mitzrayim not just geographically the
Jews were immature I am as he calls it
how did book batai vez when somebody is
is deeply connected not just connected
in a superficial way but really they
feel they feel tied up by their typhus
in their thoughts it's not just in
actions it begins in thoughts not only
that he says sometimes a person could
feel that the brokenness of the Texas
City encompasses him fully and like in
mitzrayim you couldn't get out you can't
get out you can't divert your mind from
it he says that's the real mitzrayim
that a person can't escape from only
Bharat's inertia
there was no way even a slave could
leave Egypt sometimes a person is in
that state they feel like in that state
and as he puts it Masha Masha Lou Bono
the Navi says women have ruled over us
and it's called women this is because
sometimes it's permissible and sometimes
it's things different types of
addictions and cravings they
forbidden I thought some moment you have
to be able to know me mr. Iyengar tano
Tucker you on your own you can't you
have to be able to surrender to the fact
that I may not have control I'm on my
own may not have control it's
fascinating because today this is
considered the first step of recovery is
when you could surrender and say that I
I don't have control he says mama SH
that's firstly could they hear that
because it's borrow home it's EMM it's
right yes to know that our shrimp takes
them out of my sight to go a step deep
recess because the real question a
person asks asks himself is we come
today um it's Ryan how does even come
there he's a child Bonham lahmacun may I
in your very sure sale of Christmas I am
how there's a Jew come to miss Ryan
Bonham lemak um he's a child of Russian
the nature of a child is that a child is
always connected to its source
a child is connected to a father and a
mother innately that's who the child is
TACA Seveso
you Binaca a child is innately connected
to parents the nature of a child is that
he wants to be close to his parents or
she wants to be the nature of a Jewish
the nature is to do the will of their
father in heaven so how the cloud those
are do end up in Messiah it's completely
alien you don't belong there it's not
connected to you it's not your place the
answer is that also comes some husha
like the gomorrah says a sherry i see on
the Prosecco sherry I see I have
afflicted I have done they rot then a
chef puts in the eights ahora to a
person just like the original
Goldsmith's Raya
ultimately came through his plan through
a lot of Google and a lot of
reincarnations and cycles and journeys
and winding roads but at the end through
all of the different Google in the
different situations and circumstances
they ended up in materia
that's collectively but individually
it's the same thing yeah end up buddy
ended up because of this reason that
reason that reason but ultimately the
reason is because God wanted you gave
the power that a person should end up in
mid sanaya so you say but I'm how do I
the answer is that's a hey look of
bonham lahmacun now that's a very very
powerful idea because if anybody looks
at their life they see they ended up in
different situations because of that
made this choice and I made that choice
and I made this mistake and I made that
mistake if I could only rear or rewind
the tape recorder of my life you know
when I was 10 and when I was 6 and when
I was 11 when I was 16 21 24 we all do
that and there's of course a truth to
that because that's how life develops
but he says but ultimately the Jews also
had reasons ended up in mid-summer
myself with the ISIF and the hunger and
they came down and was a whole you know
didn't just abracadabra here in Egypt
there were a lot of Gil Ghulam but he
says ultimately ultimately it's because
that's where they had to be that was
part of their journey
so drew has to know the fact that I
could end up here after everything said
and done it's not a steer it to my being
a child of Russia it's not a
contradiction suddenly I lost that
status no that's my ETS borough house
that also comes ultimately from him the
way she felt supposed the way it
actually happens in life is through this
one that one that one but ultimately it
comes from him that means that over
there Moe saw a child and if that's the
case it means there's no such a thing
that it's an irreversible situation
there's no trauma in the world there's
no addiction in the world there's no
situation in the world where the person
could say I'm lost I'm stuck how do I
even end up there that's the biggest
question how do you end up then the
answer is it's part of your divine
mission and if it's part of your divine
mission that you're not stuck you're on
a journey and that's why the pasta
Kinnear Mia says on moissanite artifice
auric cool oi Sarah Emma's I have
planted you as a beautiful vineyard all
of you remains a seed of truth so the
way it's usually interpreted is that was
the plan I planted you as a beautiful
vineyard and look what happens
Hermia was rebuking the Jewish people
but he says there's something deeper
sometimes you look at yourself and you
look like a siding saying it can also be
pronounced as asuric you're a crooked
you're a crooked line when a person
falls down they're not straight anymore
they're crooked Okuma meais it's like a
sugar soy dick is the same letters like
sugar sugar because there's the the the
the the could of the vowel of three was
three points but they're not straight
they're crooked diagonal baku mamas
he says that's when a person falls down
the matter has four celibate Ivor's
person falls down in all types of
cravings and habits and aspirations and
proclivities that are unhealthy
unwholesome addictions and so forth
nonetheless even at that moment he says
there's a noisy I'm I'm the one who
planted you and therefore all of you
remains a seed of truth and because it's
a seed of truth at any moment you can
change and turn the shoe rock into a
Sehgal you reformat that very same
energy into a Sehgal which means schoola
at rather treasures ghulam a column just
like originally by mitzrayim it's a
noisy area damn hobbits are I move on I
feel Hungama why I come I'm coming down
with you and I'm going to go up with you
and the reason he says are noisy is it's
me myself and I see Misha a nicely me
myself and my essence even beyond names
are noisy is beyond names me myself I'm
coming down with you and I'm going up
with you so it's not two separate things
it's because I'm coming down with you
completely therefore I'm also coming up
with you because I'm there so here to
annoy he is that the pressures are
mighty are no thing that I did to say
that I planted you in a way that you
could become asterik and therefore at
any moment you could transform the sugar
into a saddle and that's very same
energy can be morphed can be
metamorphosize can be transformed from
Zurich
into Sehgal and that's why he says my
nicely el Cigala even the guy
of life the osos the extras should also
have an alia that's what we're saying in
Davin e-m-s women I'm Gotham that the
person is always in a state of the Navi
says cool boys era MS always in a state
that he could connect with MS and
therefore maybe triumph Alto no if
you're always in that state so even if
the person looks at themselves and what
do they see they see garbage they see
filth they see trash they see this
function they see problems because this
person is stuck all the way in material
but he has to remember how did he even
end up there ultimately only as a
mission as a messenger as an ambassador
that's not his or her natural place if
it's not your natural place it's not
your ultimate destiny now of course if
the person would be able to feel this
fully wouldn't be in that material
that's why I said in the beginning there
has to be an element of of Mohammed to
appreciate who he is so there's no such
a thing I am destined to be a shuriken
oh no from the shoe rack you can always
make a Sehgal and the practice you don't
get rid of the sugar you transform the
shirt that's the difference you don't
get rid of it you transform the
formation in other words the very trauma
the very mature Allium the very the very
challenge the very obstacle will become
a catalyst a springboard that will
catapult you face was catapult meant huh
when the Romans and the Greeks fought
wars yeah they would have these
catapults they would use it for their
weapons for rocks and Spears catapulted
to the enemy so the very the very
tension the very sure to catapult that
it it becomes the springboard the you
that sir kaalia that lifts the person to
to a different place it creates an
awareness it creates a depth the
transformation of negative and
the positive energy creates an energy
that positive energy on its own can't
have that's something else
yes sir Nariman equation listen I'm in a
fashion the posture can K helis slam I'm
Alex SVC an easier system the hospital -
it was phenomenal I should have seen
that there's an advantage to wisdom over
stupidity like flight over darkness
friend is over
ECI knee Vakula almoloya de la vela
who's the only one who knows that light
is better than darkness and wisdom is
better than stupidity so in today's
world yeah senators are Pella smart
people can be very stupid but that's
what this video ec Annie I saw that it's
what wisdom is better than stupidity
dance farfalle foolishness like light is
better than darkness which does who
disagrees that's what desire asks on the
pasta can careless step shot the ballot
on he brings the chapters very easy on
me she assistance awesome Amina circles
keys in arm in her fashion it's not
there's an advantage to wisdom over
stupidity yeah that that work upset some
people who agree - Lima not everybody
but there's an advantage to light over
darkness that's where we put on the
light that's why we appreciate sunrise
we thank for it light over darkness and
it's not just the physical light of
physical light
vision over blindness the vorticity
initiation of cockamamie no syphilis
there's a tremendous superiority to hell
when it comes from from this
transformation of folly the ER that
comes from the fascia from the
transformation of darkness
this is sagol that comes from the Shuren
that's a whole different it creates a
whole different energy
so therefore in every situation you
could say Ms I'm in midstream but is
still in the hood of a mess a noisy a
rhythm come it's rhyme don't know if he
didn't leave your part of the noisy body
matter much I'm allocation that didn't
stop but may limit sir I'm gonna wash
Emily Kane
what's sad Ghoulie says that hashem
should become a like a no Alec a new
which means our consciousness may base
our Vaadin pity some not just Mitzrayim
generally but space above them base of
other means a person who's a slave what
are you a slave to he says you're mister
berlet i've assumed your slave for your
own cravings be the son he liberated us
what's the how does that happen
call pray and my Raptor of her face or
gout
do you remember what's clear quiet is
the firstborn what does that represent
in a person's life
it represents the first glimmers of
awareness hakama is called Clara Reyes
hokhmah Hakeem is called racist
awareness is always the beginning of
everything called cranium I racked up
her face auger alta means for there to
be able to be it's yes Mizrahim the
person always has to allow the program
it's ryeom to fall to fall down from
their state it says it's very mundane
awful mad are geekery miss spiritual
death is when a person falls down from
them I drink it's a form of death called
pro-am her after the pyramid shrine
which means done weirdness that's based
on myths Ryan the Palladium that are
produced by miss Ryan the type of
awareness the type of cycle that comes
it's it's the mindset of mitzrayim that
a person has to be able to allow to die
oh Pericles shrug Alto and it's the
mindset of his role as he puts it the
mindset of Ella course of infinity of
godliness that has to be able to be
redeemed and that ultimately is what
allows Google on all levels it always
begins of how a person thinks about
things how a person is aware of things
the mindset of a person there's a
mitzrayim mindset that the person
stubbornly clings to his own addictive
worm it's Ryan like mindset and he will
not get out of it and it becomes a
vicious cycle because everything follows
we don't always realize how deep that
car is that car could be conscious that
car could sometimes be
chess but it's always the racist you
always got to nip the bud you know you
got to go back and nip the bud because
if you're not ready to do that then it
becomes just a domino effect of what
your player looks like they say an
optimizer that there was a ye'd who was
a hell of a either heats from kellerman
poland and he decided to go to Varsha he
wanted to explore the big city seahorses
the big city in Poland he went to worse
so he started to travel by foot and it
was a long mahalo and there was a wintry
season so the earth mostly was mom-ish
mud no paved roads so it was a very very
difficult journey at some point in the
road he sees some metal metal planks and
beams in the length that are covering
the road then he said oh I'm a higher
you could walk on them and that will
protect his feet somewhat from the
quagmire and the dirt and the mud and
the filth and the was getting wet so he
starts walking on these metal pieces
good wonderful the journey is now much
more delightful suddenly he hears from
him back of him some noise noise squeak
so he turns around and he sees from far
he sees from farm something moving as a
with a little light and it's making this
quick ok doesn't know what it is she
continues to walk he hears the noise
gets louder and louder the squeak louder
turns around he sees something getting a
little closer continues walking and
suddenly does he hear noise war with
beeps and noises and the pressure and
intensity is so powerful he flies off
the tracks the poor guy he ends up in a
ditch it's a broken sahak mm of wounded
he's maimed he's bleeding a drew sees
never her mother drew in a ditch they
comes running he picks him up so fussing
ashen he says this thing blew me away
let me take
to my house and literally takes into his
house gives him a change of clothing put
some relax I'm gonna make you a nice cup
of tea so you could you could relax and
he takes a kettle he puts in water puts
it on the fire
and he puts on the fire a few minutes
later mmm
so this drew the guest who was wounded
she's a bat he takes her body goes over
the kettle and he starts whamming it
wrapping it until the whole thing is
splintered and the whole house is now
filled with sheer volume of this of this
poor kettle demand will hosts us what
what are you doing was to stone so he
says listen I have experience you have
to get these things when they're young
and small because afterwards once they
grow into monsters you're done you're
dead okay I have experience so I said I
set up a mitzvah you know you got to get
them when they're young and they're
small don't wait till later but it's
true enough the verdict it's an antique
adult but the voice is true in a very
session called cranium or octa there's
always the genesis the monsters don't
grow at a vacuum there's always the
genesis of it once it's already I'm in
mitzraim I don't go back to the play
that's why there's no you'd see a Smith
sir I am until Marcus protists and we
sometimes make this mistake you can have
nine Marcus the water contained in to
everything you could see that mitzrayim
is a corrupt place there's nothing there
but pyro will still not send out to
people the peri in me will not let me go
out why somehow I could still remain
there Marcus Paris that changed
everything
so the way we look at it is because it
was a blow that a pirate couldn't deal
with the economy was shot mela people
were killed may the party was still para
Marcus purists it was a tremendous blow
on a deeper level though we have here
than it could what is Marcus Paris a
little crazy that's Tom will kill more
people in medallion Marquez produce
represents the death
of the original glimmers of awareness
that produced a home it's Ryan mindset
and everything comes from that if that
pearl can go and the pride of you all
can be liberated and emerge its thinking
in a different way it's it's setting
down your sail in a different way then
everything changes called barnea more
active Curtis walk out now he continues
right so what's the exercise of this
what's the practical exercise from this
practical exercises now the next time
people ask me to give exercises at the
serum to give practical exercises for
people to do it should remain abstract
so the truth is from this moment is a
hundred exercises but at least one this
is the code there's a very very I think
very powerful idea next time you find
yourself overcome with a tremendous
intense emotion that you're not very
proud of yeah a lot of anger or
frustration or or depression or
addiction whatever it may be everybody
knows in their own life you know in the
morning a middle of the day or at night
or late at night whether it's relative
to yourself visa Vee something you're
involved in a relative to your spouse or
or your children or at work whatever it
may be
well it's you really ticked off you
really ticked off to be able not to deny
it that's that's where I am that's rare
but to be able to as they say take a
deep breath or maybe ten deep breaths
and allow yourself to experience what is
the original awareness that is producing
all of this there's no emotion that
doesn't come from an awareness there's
nothing that you say or don't say that
gets me angry it's my interpretation of
what you said to people could say the
same thing exactly the same thing one
person
loses it and the other person retains
their equilibrium it's not what you said
or what you did it's how I process what
you said and what you did your wife
could tell you one thing and the same
thing at another time one time you lose
it internally I'm talking about I know
that you're all mentioned less and you
don't show it but inside me left inside
inside you don't know if you're coming
or going and another time it's
completely fine there's Elba vet there's
the same words it wasn't the words it
was who I was at the time because what
you say something is processed it's
processed by me it's never about what
the other person said it's what I heard
and what I hear is based on Who I am and
who I am is based on who I think Who I
am right not who I am it's all I think
Who I am
if you can go back to that you'll become
a very enlightened human being you'll
become self-aware and that's the gift
that allows all redemption to happen
that awareness then allows me to choose
it allows me to see things and if a
person doesn't do this I can remain
crippled for forty fifty years and I'm
justified in my eyes I'm always
justified you're the culprit I'm the
good one look what she said she said it
again fussing is like another person
wouldn't understand it but for me it's
triggering tremendous stuff I'm
traumatized by something right every
time I hear this line the trauma comes
up again I'm not in control anymore I'm
not gonna say that to myself because I
want to look at myself as an intelligent
person so I'll blame you if only you
could change if only you could be normal
if only you could respect me if only you
could like me if only you could cherish
me if only you could this everything
would be would be different now this
doesn't mean the other person also
doesn't have to work on themselves we're
not saying that sometimes you know in
Vega from being a Geffen they're both
they're both side X they're both they're
both side X they're both Sherlock's they
all set that's not the word it's not
here doesn't mean the other person is
outside the gobbler and you're always
guilty don't hear that
there's somebody's saying it means
you're always empowered you're never a
complete victim because your awareness
ultimately nobody can control so you're
always empowered sometimes other people
make mistakes also that has to be dealt
with but you're not just in this
victimhood state at the mercy of
everybody else who's crazy and you're
the only you know you're the last normal
person walking somebody
I once saw an anecdote that there was
this fellow he turned 90 so he turned 90
so his wife says what do you want for a
birthday gift he says you know I never
drove before I think at the age of 90
it's time to drive great he practices he
got some lessons gets a license
she leases him a most beautiful car and
out he goes on his you know bon voyage
on his on his first journey to be able
to explore the world okay he's on the
highway he gets a call of course a car
today has to come with a phone so he has
a phone he's driving he feels that on
i-95 there's one car driving in the
opposite direction is that you is that
you I knew this was a horrible idea he
says one car driving in opposite
direction all the cars are driving that
misdirection besides me what the cars
are driving the opposite direction okay
so as funny as it is that's how a lot of
people if they don't say it doesn't
sound good but the enemy is you know
everybody is guilty and I'm the victim
that's a hey look of all of this so you
always have to be able to go back to the
prior Marquez periscope Kraemer actor of
her face raga Alto the period of Easter
all needs a Googler and the period of
mitzrayim needs to allow allowed to fall
down that's how he touches her actor
allowed allowed to fall down so now
let's continue inside the line is Rafi
doses of it's almost at the end of the
moment I don't know like 10 lines in the
bottom the line starts to drift feed the
stays obviously
gimel column one he's a middle of a long
sentence
Murphy's Law Walter what's-her-face
wrong it's ass a hell of a locust the
cycle of mitzrayim is that he has
everything has to be according to his
understanding Muhammad roots are
nowadays circular that he clings to it
and partly Searle is a cycle of Eliquis
and he says that's what happening is to
be able to be aware of God Allah saying
Southborough ho the hold of earning is
to substitute Kirkham italian with
correctly is wrong the perspective of
life from a divine vantage point
rafi doses off enjoy art says these four
sections of Tefila
me terminally release a silken does the
table does the throne this cheer does
the candelabra this demitted is the bed
four sections of Dominique told mine
Astra which is Mitte
the place of intimacy of union between
the husband and the wife doesn't get in
here to all the four sections but his
point is back to the word Rafi dosa is
off the bed the bed is made of of gold
go out this type of awareness you have
redeemed shallow year Denis Nicola the
davon Inge and the awareness of Romani
shouldn't be up some Akira Makura means
a coincidence in other words once in a
while every Jew has a good Avenue once
in a while that happens you know what I
mean they say even a broken clock twice
a day it's right once in a while you
have a bazaar he says but that means the
person is still not in control of their
life well yeah that is Nicola it
shouldn't be just a coincidence once in
a while you have an awareness and the
month is Maximus mineus because there's
so many mineus mineus means there's so
many things that stop us
Chaz Ogawa said I am this is still I'm
in a state of exile come by coincidence
you know I'd a venir davon there
something comes in
a vault here huh Gulliver hey dismiss
abode upon us Ashley government a
Mitzvah
a person has to make sure every morning
that there's no force in the world that
stops them from a genuine relationship
during Davin II and the biggest forces
the ship with a prognosis ship with the
burn us include all types of in desirey
and stress and worries that people have
about prognosis prognosis are both in
the limited sense of making a living
paying bills and prognosis generally all
the needs of a person are included in
the word processor and a person has all
this stress and anxiety and that keeps
my mind stuck and paradoxically that
only enforces the condition of godless
Messiah so you need to go out to
liberation
people light Fela officially is survey
de without gaveling a person can't be
sir made up a statement of Sugden the
lights filter without a real darvany he
officially is surah marij da vernon is
like the fuel it's the inspiration that
the gas to give a person the empowerment
that whatever comes up during the day
the person should be able to respond
correctly because Dominique tries to
create the mindset of redemption this
thinking in a redeemed way you know
there's there's thinking happiness
there's thinking positivity there's how
to think about yourself in a certain way
as he puts it here a cycle of Ilocos
that is what allows this sir madoff so
in the beginning on the hop of the page
when he spoke about solved are pure gold
without any rah and he said for this
after believe like you like other
Mauritian you were just created every
morning and even if you think you're
entrenched in mitzrayim ms mehmet
stranglethorn are shambolic enemies of
other beliefs ah no cop Karima active
herzog alte that's what he finishes here
without filler a person can't be sir
meera in a consistent perpetual
responsible way because ultimately you
need the gas you need the inspiration
for LaHaye movie do you mahal um it's
filler this is also the reason that they
were mistaken
if we do you V do he means confessions
every single day in davenic which we
call acronym
what's the idea look either you said I'm
sorry yesterday I'm sorry again today
so he says shequida mad fella before
Dominic say his boyish if loose issue
permits Ryan when a person it says
intrusion origin who kissed fella that
before darling I think a Simmons had a
class in Iraq I am right before Dominic
his bone and Bischoff lucidum oboro-sama
circle it's a verdict in substantial
tomorrow before Dominic a person should
contemplate schifflet Sodom the possible
humbleness of a person and godless are
killed the truth of God she says when a
person can template she flew say his
humbleness super mitzrayim or I should
say his lowliness that he he may be
stuck in Egypt he is Berlin buchdahl the
same safe Baraka but then he'll meditate
sometimes you feel you're stuck in Egypt
and that's to his brain earnest is
that's not enough if you only think
about how low you are that's not enough
some people are very good at that he
says you have those two think about the
second part
medulla Saint Sauveur who do the Saints
a vertical means the truth of God's
infinity which you're part of that's the
Voort but God is big thank you I'm small
he's big no no no was that helped me so
he's big I'm small
the creches as he said before you're
born in lovscheim allocate your part of
that ain't safe that means even if
you're in Egypt who's in Egypt
infinity is in Egypt that means there's
no trauma that can be transformed don't
tell me that you're a crooked messed up
case it's infinity that's crooked and
messed up if it's infinity that's
crooked and messed up it can be
transformed they can be reversed
never ever stuck there's no such a thing
stuck never that's the second part of it
shift I have to know that I'm in Egypt
if I don't know my ship floss if I think
that omits Rahim is Google
then it's just denial and denial is not
only a river in Egypt right there
it's also a river in Egypt but it's not
only a river in Egypt it's a river that
flows in people's minds and that's what
we're talking about to Egypt we're
talking about you can't be in denial
because if you're in denial there's
never a liberation so I have to know the
shiftless always but I also have to know
do la st. Southborough show that I'm
part of that's why it's essential
sonarak before darling is born and
bacillus are Adam uber a mimosa kale in
the lowliness of a person and the
greatness of God
so on a literal level it means you're
pretty low and God is great
what does that do to me so now I'm gonna
dive in so God is great and I'm low the
vert is if God is great you're great
thank God is great thank you that means
you're great that means you're being in
a state of syphilis is not inevitable
it's not a inherent destiny a lot of
times in people grow up and you're
Shiva's and and and Musa schmoozing and
this they learned the first part about
the ship flows they don't learn about
the second part they they'll hear God is
great okay fine so it means I'm more
garbage so therefore I should dive into
the great one and what what happens with
me in the process
yeah so that's the critical part here
that I'm a born Amata my semi location
um how did I end up in mid Senayan
because annoys vehicles the guy cuz the
ain't safe is there if the ain't safe is
there then I'm not stuck she says then
you started divide them in a row and
then the person feels remorse this is
not me this is not me I regret that I
was fair I regretted ah I regret there
are means and ifit's not me you know if
you have a beautiful garment you're
wearing a beautiful garment and somebody
pours chocolate chocolate mousse cake on
it and you look at it it's it's not
suitable for this garment
when a person appreciates who they are
so when there's things that are alien to
them they regret it that's it's not me I
don't want it oh but really if we did
for them
so the confession of da Vernon is
natural what's V Dewey V D is basically
I have a remorse for the past and I want
to change for the future for Ozzy in
manator our cars off toierate the
preliminary office this is what allows
the person to become a Manoa one piece
of pure gold and that means from your
rate all the way to peer so from the
bottom to the top the person is a
manator what's a monoid as we said
before he's transformed or she is
transformed into an ambassador of light
into somebody that brings light somebody
that becomes a source of light care but
there's one more thing finally that's
the Iker now this becomes a new acre
what's the EK seriously is a
Siddhas gum or as a meze there has to be
complete unity complete acidosis one
with another
shall I yeah BB rasca very vocally you
shouldn't look and see and focus on the
evil on the negativity of his friend etc
and of course this comes back to the
word mixture
there's no Manoa if it's not made of one
piece
if the manator looks at the other part
of the monarda and says who are you as
we're saying you disturb us Tatsuki
commoner you're a how do we translate
that you're not mr. Luna you're not part
of my group then you're not a Maduro son
ottoman era because the whole manner is
always mixed it's made of one piece so
if I look at one piece of the Manila and
says let's remember you come from a
different stock then I boasts funada
manator because the manator has to be
mixture it's an indispensable tonight's
an indispensable condition and he starts
explaining behind new shade ah but for
it how does this happen
what does it really be to be in unity
one with another behind Russia a the
person should know so you could think
don't look at somebody else's negative
don't look and what if you see it and
what if you see it shallow Yabut so it
could be don't focus on it
don't accentuate it don't turn it into
you know the main thing
well yeah Billy Abbott ha but that means
to look well
but really what he's saying is something
much deeper that's what he's going to
explain behind O'Shea a the person has
to know th love my laminator just like
down here there's a menorah up there
there's also a monoid everything down
here physical is a spiritual reality
that comes into the physical
so there's also above herminator and
like he said in the beginning of the
minor what's this minaret kanessa Cicero
kanessa sister all is called the menorah
Bizet varnish m/l Zubov old after of
bullosa that even if it's mixed up Sarah
other Mazetti behavior all the neshamah
s-- they could do shots clown the
summers is so like we looked in the
first year of the manor is a midnight
yesterday my lemonade mixture and it's
made of one piece what does this mean
sure alienated LaMotta about accident
Allah my Allah when you have a large
what does it call the big pieces in get
a huge massive ingot of gold and now you
hammer out what's going to happen the
part on the top of the higher that the
part of the gold the layers of gold on
the top will often go there end up on
the bottom in other words you're looking
at the menorah which part of the gold
that the menorah to come from the base
which part of the gold that the branch
has come from which part of the goal
that the flowers on top come from
nobody's gonna say oh it probably is and
the ingot that's which was all the way
on the bottom and probably ended up on
the bottom of the menorah and that which
was all the way on the top and there but
therefore that's how it works when you
hammer out the gold where that great
account becomes one big tie rivers that
which is on the bottom can go up that
which isn't pop can go down it can also
remain the same but it's inevitable that
it all gets mixed in to alien and the
tastin gets mixed that which was on top
gets up at the bottom that which is on
bottom goes on the top tallying areas
LaMotta what external lamothe
hara yuri did
Perelman LaMotta Venetian Espada Mira
sometimes there are as something
negative something broken goes down
below and enters into a person who
you're gonna look at this person you'll
say a lot of not good in this person Ola
HIPPA sometimes it's the opposite I see
essays in mid-summer other Mira la poem
Oh Lula my love and I tell Arthur the
Mitzvah that a person who you would
consider Radha's sometimes goes up and
is retrieved this goes into another
person the how atoms are a little such a
sudden boy VAT time shall Oy Shama who
may ask Shalala milah a person when
you're looking at somebody else you have
to be able to entertain the possibility
that the floors actually in you and the
toy that you have the goodness that you
have that you so proud of Shama who may
ask her maybe it's actually from
somebody else oh Lola my lit went up and
came into you Bourassa fear him and the
negativity you've seen somebody else and
others Schemmel who shall lie maybe it's
your own she ordered LaMotta and it went
down for us year by Emma second and then
you can really have unity how y'all read
a map rockin the base the lowest and the
flowers could really be one shakaal s
coccyx at Smith latina Sierra or lack of
a token espera every person could see
himself as the base and his colleague as
the flower the hovater la hyper and his
friend could see the exact opposite so
to understand this section I'll tell you
a my some of the hillock at son's ear of
the debris Shyam okay I'm Hamish Tom I
heard this story from his grandson he
actually recently passed away where I
grew up there was a show laughs you have
a few houses away called base dovid
garrison on New York Avenue near the
71st precinct the rabbi of that
shoulders name was rabbi Higham Reuben
he recently passed away a few months ago
but hi I'm Ruben was a grandson he was
named after the debris hi
that sons are over Khayyam halberstrom
safest also troopers debrief hyams he's
known as a debrief I am and he told me
once was mature Shabbos I went to Davin
my roof there man kept my roof and he
said that tonight is the yard set of his
grandfather delivery I am he wants to
tell me a story that he heard from his
grandmother and his grandmother he told
me said it over from her grandmother who
heard it from the woman herself that's
what he told me the my see goes like
this
I've heard other versions of the story
but this is how I heard it from his
grandson a prime room but then it could
then all the versions is the same crime
halberstrom was one of the goodell he
had to run the great holy Jews of the
generation did say they used to be then
you know you were you Shiva you learned
and somebody would come and look for a
costume for his daughter so the debris
Ryan was in yeshiva he was I think 14 or
15 years old it was learning he had a
big mind and Elisha cop and one of the
bigger upon him in Poland was a Jew know
and as the Boris tom is a safer call
trouser Traverse bar of Tom
his name was rabbi - oh man who is the
Rev of like Nick known as the Baraka Tom
he had a daughter and the daughter that
I'm gonna quote rabbi Shyam Reuben he
says the daughter was the nicest girl in
all of Poland
her name was Russell Fieger she says she
was absolute beauty on within and
without and her father decided for his
daughter he needs my creme de la creme
the best of the best so he goes to the
yeshiva s-- goes to one of the biggest
Shiva's in Poland and the asteroid Shiva
he needs the best Bakker
Sai in his heart and Sai in his mind and
he says there's nobody like the kayo
Halberstam you're not gonna find
somebody he's the best the birth town
was a very well-known man she goes he
meets him he sits down him he speaks Tim
for two hours speaks them for two hours
he's blown away he's like I can't get
better than this and he goes home tells
his wife Mazel Tov tells his daughter
Mazel Tov if it was that simple and
Mazel Tov
ever should this good they would write
letters to the motown to make a time for
the wedding you know it was a little
less complicated that a few weeks before
the wedding the wife of the borough's
come says I'm not so Alice you meet
somebody for two hours
and you decided that doesn't work that
way you have to know more said everybody
says unbelievable things about him I am
NOT happy and we have to see more I want
you to send two of the best bottom two
of your best talmidim to check him out
and give us a second report so the
borough
Tom the future father-in-law sends two
of his students who were older to go
check him up they go they come back and
they comment him and they say it's
unbelievable person but did you realize
his handicap he said I didn't see as a
handicap you know that he's the regime
was was he was somewhat lame he was a
little hunchback yeah he was an invalid
in that sense
so mark tom says I didn't seek was I he
was sitting in my Smedley she was
speaking for two hours I didn't see wife
hears about it she's a ho figures a tall
beautiful girl it's not fair and the bar
of Tom couldn't forgive himself to break
over this it was already you know
to know him with a pleasure now there
wasn't a simple thing on the other hand
he can do this to his daughter
it's not fair so he mama she couldn't
forgive himself he he was he was also
very big Rob so he felt that the break
of the would be very
inappropriate but it's not his
daughter's fault he's debating back and
forth it's already very close to the
house and I asked him what do you do do
you break of the shindig or not one day
there's a knock on the door and a boy
shows up who the cousin and now he sees
it ready how hard it is for him to walk
you know he's bent out bent bent
and he right away says I know what you
think he when you saw me you didn't see
my my blemish so if you want you have a
full right to cancel everything cuz it's
a mecca catalyst it's not you're not
doing anything wrong you didn't know
maybe you found that I understand don't
feel bad
I forgive you completely no hard
feelings and you know I don't deserve
this I don't deserve this and it's fine
Tom got so emotional to see you know the
dignity of the boy you know I was just
so do whatever you have to do so you
know he hugged him and he brought him
into the house he says one thing I do
want to ask you I want to meet my caller
before he before we break up for good I
want to meet my caller
I want to see the person I was supposed
to get married this is fine she goes in
with her to a room and there was a big
mirror there and they're talking you
know was obviously a little it was you
know there was a sad component and at
some point he tells her let's go over to
the mirror and we have to remember that
by tsadikim Victor dickham the border
between the physical world and the
spiritual world is an easy border to
pass you know by some of us is like the
border between Israel and Syria but by
summits like the border between you know
America and Canada you show a passport
then you go in and some maybe there's no
border even saying this as an
introduction to understand this story
they go over to the mirror and they look
in the mirror and she gives us scream
what did she see in the mirror and the
mirror she sees that he's erect he's
standing straight and she's bent
she's like hunched back she's sort of
what is this voodoo black magic he says
no no no no no calm down I just want to
tell you what happened and then you'll
make a decision it's up to you if
I was born I wanted to know who's my
de bas ploy Neela Pliny I want to
know who's boss play me
God says listen we don't start showing
things around you know everybody's gonna
start making selections I like this I
don't like this trust me I know who
belongs to him
he says you could trust me I'm not going
down
if you don't show me who so he showed me
he showed me my collar I saw that it's a
type of soul that's gonna be born in a
body that is that's going to be
Hunchback so I said to your boy initial
oil um I have a big favor to ask you
since a husband and a wife are two
halves of the same it says plug gopher
switch it around for me it's gonna be
much easier than for her I'll be able to
handle it I'm fine switch we don't do it
I'm asking you you want me to be born
switch it around I'll take it for her
let her have the perfect physique fart
if that's what you want that so you want
and so I was born with this challenge
and the mirror you saw the way it was
originally so she comes out of the room
and she says Tata mama
Mazel Tov he's my cousin and the rest is
history
and everybody knows Yoko Faga was the
first wife of the tongues are of and he
indeed had this this physical challenge
and he told me Rick I am told me that
when his grandmother told him to my sir
she said that when her grandmother said
to my so that she hurts them heard of
mother go figure
she said his grandmother was weeping and
weeping and weeping CEO so started to
stop hi I'm Reuben also started to stop
them eyes no but what's the Havanna here
what's the havona here that's what
mixture means mixture means
and this is not it's not always easy to
understand I look at somebody whether
it's a spouse whether it's a child not
even he's not even talking about family
another drew and I see something that's
really problematic
I can't always ignore it you can ignore
things
well it's but it's a reality so you have
to remember mixa mixa means today we're
individuals i am i you are you but
kanessa sees but all begins is one piece
of gold and they bridge the toys
muhammad he hammered it out sometimes is
a piece on the top that ends up on the
bottom sometimes is a piece on the
bottom that ends up on the top what does
this mean it means that sometimes the
goodness that I see in me I'm looking at
this and I'm so proud of it it actually
is yours I that person looks like on the
bottom in the hammering that went up to
a person who sees himself on the top and
sometimes the other way around they
rather I'm seeing may actually be mine I
am on the top yeah and the hammering out
that went down to the bottom so the
husband let's talk it up in this story
the husband is looking at the wife or
the wife is looking at husband and you
see a tremendous floor challenged your
spouse has it's very easy to get angry
and vindictive I need you I need this
you should thank the stars thank God
that I chose this that I'm asking to be
with this but let's remember let's
remember who's who who's on top was on
burden by tens as sinister as I push it
it could be that this challenge was
yours and your wife took it from you
well the other way around
so it's not when are you gonna become
normal when are you finally gonna become
normal it actually made me my issue that
you're struggling with so I'm looking at
you like fair you idiot you
no he took a hit
me was it called Tucker what's the
expression huh took the bullets for me
it may be my issue that he's dealing
with so you say come on what am I did
this this idiotic over the head what's
up this with me I'm on top he's I'm
bottom he says I make sure it's a nest
as I push it
so before you doesn't mean that you have
to start complimenting there I
it just means instead of being
vindictive and critical and alienating
where we're in this together
so the question is how do we help each
other overcome the challenge that's a
different question there may be a
challenge how do we work together to
overcome this challenge but what I don't
do is I don't a lien ate myself
alienation that's the opposite of
mixture because when a lien a myself
I'm not alienating myself from the other
person I'm alienating myself from me if
one part of the minutest says accomplish
m'dear I'm also not a monoid the my name
is miksa you're not in touch with
reality so he says that sense of Octus
is the real understanding that there's a
deeper layer to life that we may not see
immediately I could look at there Ryan
you and say you know what I'm not sure
with that originated and I could look at
the toy oven me and say I'm not sure
with this originator and you could do
exactly the same thing on one level I'm
the flower and you're the base and
another level I'm the base and you're
the flower and it's not a fake thing and
I say it and you're saying I were nice
to each other it's a genuine idea it's a
genuine idea that there is a a a mixture
a oneness and integration we're on a
conscious and an unconscious level
there's a lot of energy that flows in
between ourselves and that ability to be
able to see that bigger picture allows
people to be truly unified that's the
mixture to be to be truly as he puts it
afters gummer same gesture like yeah
baby Roscoe Vader the Baal Shem Tov once
said it says a hare to fear Kisame
why twice you should rebuke rebuked your
fellow so the Baal Shem Tov said before
hey after has to beat idea before you
rebuke you have to rebuke one more
person yourself hi heya before wife yuck
one more person you have to rebuke
yourself always first you have to ask
yourself am i rebuking you from a place
of alienation or my rebuking you from a
place of connection am i part of it or
it's just your problem and we all know
the difference try with your child one
and try the other one try with your
spouse one try the other one
if it's oh when are you gonna stop being
on meshuggener it's been than a mile I'm
always good you're bad the person won't
listen usually won't be effective I
always have to first rebuke myself and
asking me ask myself where is this
rebuke coming from it's coming from my
own insecurities they're coming from my
own issues is it coming from the fact
that you're not living up to my
expectations and it makes me feel
horrible about myself which means I
couldn't care less about you I just need
you to fit into my puzzle so I should
feel good about myself but it's really
all about me the effectiveness is gonna
be much less because you'll feel like
you're gonna get defensive if it's
coming from a place of love and
connection and understanding and even
deeper over learning here is
understanding that I may be talking to
you about things I really have to talk
to me and what this really of course
means is that sometimes the best way to
correct other people is by correcting
yourself because they are projecting
they are projecting you imagine if we
are if there's like mirrors around me
you know and I see something in the
mirror and I start breaking the mirror
this today the mirror has all this dirt
another instead of breaking the mirror
why don't you go to the bathroom and
wash off your nose and then the mirror
will be beautiful very often in life
people are projecting us even if we
don't see it that way so where's my main
focus I mean focus correct yourself go
to a deeper place and a lot of
interesting things will happen
that's the idea of mixture mixture
alcazar it's not so easy to live this
way but it's a very powerful way of
loving living it's a very wholesome way
it's a very deep way the main thing is
it's true it's true because we're not
alienated we are one we are mixture it's
nothing
we're not disconnected we are connected
we may like the feel with disconnected
because it's easier but it's not true
it's like you're married you say I'm not
really met you are I don't care what you
feel like you do care what I feel like
it's unnatural to say of course you care
you have to work it out saying you don't
care all apathy is a form of fear you
know that right I can't deal with
realities I become indifferent you know
when teenagers say I don't care I don't
care okay you know what that means right
I don't care I don't care you know when
your 4 year old says I don't care ok
they stop making with their shoulders
what does it mean they don't care they
care too much the only way of dealing
with it is saying I don't care
of course you care huh whatever whatever
whatever well your wife picks up her
hands is whatever right not such a good
sign whatever it means another hopeless
conversation and that also means that
when you're having these conversations
you have to be able to look at each
other because it's mixture don't run
away from me you don't have to run away
now if I could look at Yura and really
believe that this may come from me how
am I gonna speak to you about it very
different very different so my so with
Russia awright you know them I see yeah
you ever heard of my son he was in an
inn yeah and he's to see people he start
talking about himself everything that he
needs to fix so we look at it as he was
a smart diplomat no no he was he was
tuning into the scene yin okay let's
just finish the last words here for us
year Bama Sephiroth how you're a
semi-pro from Chicago said yeah the
cosmic initiatic will have available in
a span of a vanilla HEPA you see this is
how the Baal Shem Tov
and his talmidim the ballot Anya all of
them they wanted Yeadon to be this is
how they wanted
there's no coldness here there's no
alienation there's no sense of
superiority this is how this is the
turmeric the the the the forth of Bob
Campbell was the Maharaja of small he
once asked his father tomorrow said that
the Siddhas ADA gevalt what did your
grandfather doubt that everyone
she said he wanted that Sydenham should
experience themselves like Hamish Paha
like family they should feel family and
were talking in a functional beautiful
sense they should feel this in other
words what they wanted is that Jews
together should feel a oneness should
feel a varam Chi towards each other a
mixture a sense of mixture doesn't mean
there's no criticism it doesn't mean
there's no historian as' doesn't mean
enough to fix thing doesn't mean to be
naive and I talking about naivete but it
means how you look at it the sense of
alienation of holier-than-thou I'm
superior it's completely obliterated
it's a you know sometimes we in
religious cultures you see it is one
person is on the top I mean other people
on the bottom and it's very clear I'm on
the top you're on the bottom and it's
very clear and the boundaries will not
be crossed you're a yeah and I'm a para
to be stalked era who knows our Paris a
Pollock you're a Yannick and I'm a para
and it's clear very clear and dr.
Emerson this does I Porsha you may be on
the top now for a different reason
completely and he may be on the bottom
for a different reason completely let's
put it in perspective and then you could
forget also another person's house
locker it's not you could forget it's
not like huh
again they don't have forgetting in
English you don't have forget in English
for us your saladna korean loudly cache
oh now Iren could come and do work
now we could light the fire if there's
no man no you damn it she can't light
once there's a mixture now an could come
and
light a fire yet scan Brennan a fire
without this you can't have a fire
without the cage bacala's i inators she
who Kohen Gadol ralph Cassatt Kohen
Gadol Karina's Cassatt bava bava rectum
is ready to Mecca Baraka leash Casa de
ha Cohen go to Azarov cast the great
cast Chicago Kassadin boy Ralph chasm is
all the kindnesses in them Ujala
hamsters may average I believe a solo he
could bring forth from the lava robbed
of the highest love of asylum to the
love in the world Vaz Mammalia Toy Fair
erupts of a verb is godless liberals
pradesh to allow a drew to be filled
with love in a revealed way like a
glowing fire that's the age of the
menorah
Iren lights up the light of love in
every jew this L by hollow scarce on
IRA's irony alloys some you always need
the power of Hess of the power of love
to light the fire in every Jew I know
him I know him I know him he was amid
the Hibernians
it's a beautiful cover beautiful touch
lishchyna I'll get my fresh lime
solution Isaiah good it's very good mark
with this my mare knew the Baron was
acts tough Dalton ever you ever hammered
out a piece of gold when you have to
make for me when you have to make for
Mizzou hava Manila what do you think is
gonna happen
you think the part that's gonna be on
top is gonna pond on top it's gonna go
get mixed imagine you have a beauty of
gold you have to turn it into a
candelabra
yeah and wall gets yeah it's a meltdown
oh you have to melt it you can't just
chop it up you can't just hammer it you
melted once you melt it down it all gets
mixed I assume not Gold is very pliable
its own I'm sure they warm it up no
pleasure to have you
so this is what the Lakota my ram says
they're confute look at the marentina
people are very confused they're
entrenched in their actions they think
they don't have clear and it's not true
you do what you want
Couty Maharani e annika feud
somebody asked him nah c'mon how does
Peter work he said it's very simple if
you want you do if you don't want you
don't do same for it yeah same for ya
baba BA sir
baba BA sir the Gemara says there was a
Jew named Joseph the son of Revere
schewe
I think right Abbasid our feud he fell
ill what we call a near-death experience
comatose
he came back his father said what did
you see he's an oil um-huh for her easy
I saw a topsy-turvy world those who were
bottom here are above there and those
who want top here are below there Olam
haba they'll join him here are LaMotta
and the dr.nirmala milah same part in
other words when you go to a deeper
place when you look at the manarola
milah he says l'm ila it's mixture and
if it's mixture when you hammer out the
manner you melt down the goal you hammer
it out you you read the far design it it
all gets mixed yeah that's what he says
l'm ilakaka the Maneri Allah my Allah
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