Ep. 31: The Rebbe Means What He Says with Rabbi Shlomo Cunin

Because the says what he means. The means what he says. Reb says, "Do what you could do. Don't sit and cry. Another year with film. I never miss a day putting on film at least one year on the planes that I fly back and forth once a month in the lounges." Not an easy business. Not an easy business, but you do what you got to do. Mashiach. One more woman using a mikvah, one more, one more than one more tum, one more muza. That's what it takes. That's a scotch. That is what ties us to our If you've been enjoying this podcast, please like and subscribe so that others can enjoy it as well. In addition, if you've benefited in any way from a monkin podcast and would like to give something back, you can do so today at their.org/donate. I'm Yasi Cayman. Welcome to among an ongoing fabin about life as our vibrant connection with theb and inspired living shaped by the way he teaches us each and every day. How are you? >> I'm fine. >> Okay, for being here I know you're here at Shabasim, but thank you for making the time to talk to me. It's my pleasure because the hair plays a very important part of the Reb's wonderful wonderful continuing leadership because the head helps people to understand that we are never alone because the Reb is the best Tati in the world in all of history. No good ti no good father would leave his children alone. So they set it up in a special system. How kabad labavich should go forward and that one of the most important things was a good kabad. My grandfather tun one of the first founders of Kabad in America was part of the first aid kabad and put up a lot of money to buy 770. The kabad has always been from the earliest days of his existence with the understanding that we are servants of ourb and what the rebba wants from us is what we do. We have no angular and beliefs la. We follow the directives of our and when you follow the directives of then you don't go lost. That's as simple as that. My first situation with August Kabad happened in 770 which I come very often. Now I come every shop many years already was looking for me. I going go into the office. You'll never know what that means. Yes. Is the one who appointed you nowad. I give it over to you in name. >> Do you remember when that was? >> Many many years ago. It was after the >> huh? >> It was after this after the story of the >> No, it's before. >> Before >> you're talking about the >> No, not the in Russia. Thearim >> now. You mean? >> Yeah. With the with the library here. >> No, that not No, no, no. Was after >> was after that. Okay. So, let me ask you a few questions. Uh, we'll go back to soon. So you mentioned that your zeda was part of a kabad in America and I want to know about your um the your early years and your early connection to the rebba like where where you're from and your first interactions with theba. My initial meeting with the was at a calm sukus. I was a young little kid. >> Where where did you where were you living? >> I was living in Bronx, New York. >> Bronx. >> I was born in the Bronx. My father was born in Manhattan. I'm a third generation American. But all my whole family's always been connected to the Reb all the mental because that is the source of it was before the crash in 1929 the stock market crash and Madi made his money from the stock market. He gave away Riziki gel. He was a labid board. Of course, >> from Russia. >> Yes. >> So whatever the case is, he takes me by the hand. We're going to go now to the someday to that's the first time I was with the then we were going to public school PS14. Why? Because Z de Mandal together with Z de MRA also Philadelphia. They went to see the one school one school and but there was in a Bronx kind. So they said before we send the children there I was much younger. We're going to go and see ourselves what it looks like. They told the people we're going to be here for a day, then we'll make a decision. They sat there for a few hours. They said, "Bye-bye. Thank you." What did they figure out? that unfortunately these teachers were were the apoculen from Europe originally and not only that they smacked the kids get up sit down shut up they said the king was the rock anti-semit the children will be here they're going to grow up to be anti-semites so what he did was Shawn Mendel Simpson was hired to come to the Bronx, teach me and my brother a few times a week after we finished in public school. Public school we went with big yamakus big yamakus directly across the street from my house. And that's how the first time I met with someone who was really involved on a day-to-day basis, >> Sean Men, >> which was Rabbi Simpson. Then I was 11 years old. My brother was going to be 12 and we go in to see the so looks up at my mommy and my mother which stays her yard very close to the deba treated her as his own daughter. She asked her questions in the letters. Should my children take hay fever shots to stop the allergies? Simple things back and forth. My mom would sit by the piano and play in the Bronx. Tears would come down on our face. Mama, why are you crying? She wouldn't say anything. Finally, one time as we had grown up said, "Mama, please, you have to share the information with us." She started to cry. So, I never wanted you to know, but all of my family, my brothers and sisters and their children were all killed by the Germans. My father Mortra Wilsker got for them passports, got for them all papers necessary to come to America, citizenship, everything. Let me see the letters. He sent them letters. Come, come, come. I'm going to send you the documents. Zeta, don't worry about nothing's going to happen. We're in Warsaw. It's going to be good. He writes another letter B. come to America. Another letter comes back. We are not coming. He sends another letter. That's the last letter they received before all of them were killed. So this is the background where I come from. >> We met and myself because of the what happened in America. That was a breakdown of yushkite. If you didn't work on shabas, you couldn't make a living. Very, very bad. There were hidden that said, I rather die amisa gashmas in Europe than die amnes in America. That's what America was about. My lady Wilson in Philadelphia told my mommy, I already asked from you a few things when you to get married. Number one, he has to put on every day. Number two, he has to keep shabas. He has to keep and you will have to go to the mikvah. And if you they don't keep these four things, don't come crying come of my don't come crying by my funeral and then by my c that's what America looked like. So came to the to the boat to meet the of the who >> his name was if I remember correctly they may make a mistake and they met each other met each other at the boat they looked at their beers that's how America looked like that's how I came into the picture. >> That's how our family came. So he now and then looks up at my mommy and says now is the time they will have to go to the yeshiva better than mama says it's very far away. The says we have a dormatory. We're in the dormatory. My mama said doesn't matter. This is my two eyes. I can't how can I be away from them? So there starts that says first and foremost you will go Sunday morning. Excuse me. You will go Monday morning by train to the yeshiva. There you'll get a room. You'll be Monday, actually Sunday. You go on Sunday on the train. It'll be Monday alone. Tuesday you will come. Devastating this to bring sandwiches to them and take care of that which we did. Now so you you've seen them already Sunday before they left. Now you they saying this now you're seeing them on Tuesday because you're going to them. So you have Wednesday and Thursday you wouldn't see them. Friday they're coming home >> shabas >> for shabas. So isn't this something that could work? That's my introduction to how it takes how we took the time to take two little kids and handle them as if they were mama's kinder which we are that's my beginning from there from Bedford and Dean I then went to Newark and Gman Avenue as one of the tamedum there from there to 770 Then 60 years ago, 660 years ago, we ran into the Rebson was then 17 years of age. Who should have a former andb said in California? >> This is this is in this before marriage. >> Huh? >> This is in the before marriage. This is in the is before we got married. Correct. >> We were we got married in December and listen is when we went to. So then looked up and said California. My parents were in the same with us. Those are them and Gansm and Gans California >> conquer whole California >> in the 60s we would not say capture we would say liberate because those were the 60s you say words capture you finished and that's what happens that's how we land now in Los Angeles was here smooth of it his job was to work with the Holocaust survivors >> many of them who would were drifting away from Yiddish got their families destroyed. He would travel to other cities to do the same. It wasn't his job to build Muslims. So when Da sent us, we're people of action. Soon as we hit the ground, we said, "Where is that place we can be for Chabas?" Oh, young Israel on Spalding and Meows not far from where we were living in the Fairfax district. So my was very good with artwork. She made a drawing shop party children no charge candy songs sodas free of charge. This is the address. She made a beautiful list >> to your house, >> huh? >> To your home? >> No. To young is >> young Israel. Okay. >> The young Israel. We stood by the by the doors of the kids coming out. We gave it to them. Candies soda. Bashem must have had 20 girls upstairs in the Bible with my nebson. And at least that with me downstairs. That's how we started. >> I have a question for you. Um I'm just going to step one step back before California when you were a baker. You spoke about you spoke about from when you're a child this uh this uh connection like a father to to to a child that you felt with the Reb. Um, how did you h was this the same feeling when you were Bakim? And was there like an an involvement that you had like like a child to the Reba? >> It only kept getting stronger and stronger and stronger because you see many people didn't have the understanding that needs something. So the would come and would be a snowstorm. So the car couldn't come in to service lane of Eastern Parkway. So Deb would have to walk out from 770 down the stairs and then the Reb would have to go to get to 770 to walk on the sidewalk in the snow. But we knew that the streets were being swept. So I got a snow machine. like a snow plower. >> I bought a snow machine that snow blower is like it looks like a lawn mower >> and what I would do is clear the way I have a lipkin if you all the other worked with me to clear the way to be able to have a way to ever could walk. We would do the stairs of 770. We always wait more or less to when that ever is coming out. Clean the stairs quickly and then hide yourself. You don't stand be your face like this. One time the ever decided to come out a little bit early. I'm the snow blow blowing snow. Thank God that the funnel was where yesterday that direction. It had its own traction with his wheels. I see that upcoming statement pond to man. So I put my face in the snow. The machine is still going forward. Still going forward on its own. And then my face is like this into the snow. And then I feel something. They was looking. So this is all good. So we would then go when necessary. But the would walk from to Kingston Avenue down to where the abs had the apartment. >> Mhm. >> So we would clean the way the whole way. That's when cars couldn't go. It's like this would go with cars have to clean the steps. But this time the cars couldn't go. So that's what we did. Then became the question, what's Shabas? What's going to be Shabas? Terrible storm. I gathered together a group of women and said we have to have Shabas Shabas went a lot of hot water. They had an apartment before 676 Eastern Park. come out near the corner of of Brooklyn Avenue. This was the Jaffy and Yafi, the English people with hot water they had. So, you have to prepare a lot of hot water because we're going to have a Shabas that we will go for a walk and Shabas said, "No, what could be more happy than going for a Shabas?" Take a walk. got the group of the we went upstairs, got a lot of hot water and we started walking Kingston Avenue and then we crossed the street because then the streets were being plowed so there would be no problem that we would walk in the street. All of a sudden, a snow pile is coming which pushes around this all the all the stepping that we step. Now we're stuck on the corner of Brooklyn Avenue in Eastern Parkway. So I said something stuff like this like was at the oil would stand in the water. How could you let stand >> like they would like um the water would come up in the in the cold. I'm talking about now going to the oil. >> Yeah. At the oil there was like >> at the oil at De would originally de would put the packages on the wall. >> Mhm. >> Gazan at the wall the getting bigger and they was always looking from the little room that was balancing them. I took my life in my hands. I have Emily Lipka helping me. We built a board like this with clips with background piece of plywood. Put it two piece of wood holding it on the wall and said that's really miss is not an easy story. >> It doesn't work that way but you got to do what you got to do. Then we walked in and watch from the corner takes puts the peek on the board. that takes one another little bag or so to put in torn off piece he wants to take back with him using the clips as if it was always there >> clips you had like >> huh >> they had like clips to put the bags >> yeah use the clips to hold these bags and the other bags would lie just on on top of the board >> and just used it as if it was always there >> so very easy to go >> used it as if it was it was always there just used >> as if it was always Yeah. >> Mhm. >> Then the next step is it got to be too small. So I built a bigger one, bigger walls. Ultimately both of them ended up by me because when they went to put in the when we used to put in the second board, the first board was surplus. Then when they made that little booth, that would be worthless again. It wasn't necessary. But then we see the standing in water with the sneakers, ice water. Again, you take your life in your hand when you play at the oil. We got 2 by sixes, pieces of lumber, 2x4s, and built a little platform this high. Shaking. How do you do something like this? They walked in, stored on the board perfectly, just the way it's supposed to be. Then there was a fire at the oil with their bud with not knowing how to connect the propane gas from the tank to the heater that was put in to warm. >> You were involved with putting in the heater also? >> No. >> No, that doesn't >> the heater. And there was also a a uh enc casement. >> Mhm. >> Of plywood and metal. So now somebody else was driving the river because he wasn't capable >> because he got injured when he >> he was injured. >> Mhm. >> The other person what a beautiful would do is hold the when it would rain or snow that he would hold him well over the Reb. >> Mhm. >> Right next to where the speaking to settler. The other ting the man that drove the Reb thought to do the same thing. The was not good. So David then goes and walks under the roof that there is at the oil. There's a a granite roof. >> Mhm. >> Not not in the section that's covered completely, but before that. It's like it's still there today. >> Mhm. >> The walks are standing his feet in ice water. >> He said the Reb moved to a different area that's covered because it was because it was uh >> That's correct. >> Right. Okay. But then the Reb's in the right. What do you do? The standing in ice water. One side says, "How dare you? How dare you with the shred? How dare you?" The other side their eyes. Why? What are you talking? Go. I take the breath of shaking. I walk by the is completely. I walk right by the eyesight. The eyesight. Nothing. I walk walked back now in front of the nothing. Then I start to shake. What am I going to do? I took a deep breath. I took the board. I walked right in front of looked up. Oh, took two steps back. Stood on the board. Now, why am I sharing all of this? You asked me before, what's the youth? What's a ber? What's all these things is? You have to know to be tied to our it starts off with you and when you take the first step the then takes you by the hand but you have the responsibility to tie yourselves to the how do you do it today so many years have gone by how do you do it just do it if the wanted could do could appoint someone to do whatever he wanted. He didn't appoint, he appointed committees like a good kabad. He appointed committees. I told you the story about Friday night with the right called. >> Yeah. >> I told you that story. That's how I got involved. >> Right. >> It was going to see the Kabad that fought the first case against that gentleman. I don't want to even say that who stole from downstairs. And now the Reb is talking about Fabang and nobody knew what it's about. Starts to scream boy shabas boy. So everybody thinks boy how do you bant and shabas if you're connected you know what to do. I took a folding chair upstairs by up the wooden stairs by the door where the librarian was a dear friend of mine told the story would go in sat on the chair. What are you doing here? Because the says what he means means what he says. Do what you could do. Don't sit and cry. Another year with film. I never miss a day putting on film at least one year on the planes that I fly back and forth once a month in the lounges. Not an easy business. Not an easy business. But you do what you got to do. Mashiach. One more woman using a mikvah, one more nashik, one more thanb, one more, one more muza. That's what it takes. That's his that is what ties us to our and when you are tied, you always see the other's hand. Never ever alone. So I have a question for you. Um, you're talking about never ever alone. So I know that everyone knows the story of the in California. You know, we've all been exposed to it, the teleathon and other things like that, but it didn't happen in one day. And you you started talking about you and your how you started off, but I think right away a few months later or a year later, you're already bringing people to the Reba and starting the Pulis in a big way in California. So maybe maybe you can tell me a little bit how that >> how that happened and the Reba's reaction to what you were doing in California. I could be here for three weeks to talk. >> Well, we'll try what we can. >> I'll give you an example. >> Among is brought to you by We live in a chaotic world. A world where for us is a we do not have the ability to hear and see the on a daily basis. Yet we know that the reba is very much with us and is alive and thriving more than ever before. One needs to only tap into it. Provides you and your family with the tools necessary to tap into all of this. 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You can be part of the through your financial support as well through visiting our website.org or through contacting us to setting up a meeting. Thank you very much. Enjoy the rest of the podcast. >> I take everything the says literally that's right. >> The said years to make >> and people are saying that I should retire 71 new institutions. By the way, I scribble a little note. I stood next to Mayor Easy to pass things up. Only me and my can understand my writing. The 10% >> 10% of the 71 institutions Hashem, there was one young man that was there. We had bought already before that for the birthday. We bought the little crowns for the ever like this with no crowns only. I spoke to him, you have any idea? He said, why not try a kessa? handmade from three different beautiful little >> for the >> for when we went to the we gave it to a mat the ka then I brought with a ready a man that was in one of the cities in California working for a different mid I said you keep saying you want to go off you want to go off come with Hey, if you don't don't talk with me, I'm ready. Okay. Go into the I introduced him as the first lady. >> You brought him into the Reba >> into I took him with me shaking like this. He was took him in. That was the first of the 71. >> Mhm. Mes that we needed and we created by the time we were finished we did 12 new not so whatever says he means whatever means he says there's no such thing as >> whatever says he means whatever says he does and you will do that's the first step in all of this so Then we opened up in one year 12 Mes not seven as far as that's concerned. Mhm. >> Mobile mitzvah tank different cities as Monica Berkeley real places Fairfax Avenue all over he started going to the to give a key one time was banging a photographer wanted we should take a photographer should take a picture of what's giving him the key looks at the key and says I start to shake smiles. We're talking about San Diego which we call today. >> The Reb didn't want to take it because it said sand. The Reb didn't want to receive it because it said on it sand. stand the free scotch bring the hand tears apart little pieces of paper which I still have put on a little piece of noon a little piece that tears off a piece of the of the tape tapes upon tapes of a >> he well I can go I could sit here all week not just all night >> but many many stories like this >> and then in the first year we raised millions of dollars we bought buildings the first year >> first year >> of shas We raised millions of dollars by still not $200,000 in debt. I never asked for money. You go into looks at the report most saw the report of the financials. >> He never went to settle but no one settle talk about money. Uh >> was checking this settle. I go like this. People die for 300. >> You shook your head that you need 200,000. >> Huh? >> You shook your head that Yes. 200,000. >> Yeah. That says I said to get the guilt. I'll give you the money. Deb opens up the holy drawer and starts to count money. I start to shake. I walk over them. It goes like this. come over each bill which is $100 is telling you to sell each $100 bill for $20,000. >> $20,000. >> That's $200,000. >> That's correct. You have $200,000. You have amuna. You do with amuna. You don't believe. You got to believe. So right I called up the other driver a bottle of crown oil. There was no gazed then went to the first ger I tell him said what is it you need? He says, "Money, you know, I don't need, but my daughter, my granddaughters are going out with with maring horses, very wealthy girls. They're going to marry You know, I'm not orthodox, but to marry Goy." What are their names? Call up on the phone. What was there about the line for my cell phone? It was that first bill. that they'll marry they'll become more religious and marry next one another person called Mandal name I'm saying you could use it even the article mandal who was really fighting for existence in real estate development very very very dangerous the steps he would be doing. >> I walked in. I said, "Um, what is it you need from the rebby? What do you mean? You know what I need? I need millions of dollars." Look, see this bill? We'll start off with you'll give me a check for $20,000 and I guarantee you at least a hundred times as much. Would you put this in writing? I'll have my secretary type it up. I said, "Of course. there and there and there with the hund okay most a lot of money you sayhuh called him up he became a multi multi-gazillionaire and likewise all the rest of stories. >> Everything that they what we asked for, we got period. There's more stories. I'll be here for a week. But that's a fact. So what does it come down to? Comes down to belief. If you don't believe, how do you walk into a big and tell him a story, write him a letter guaranteeing him on paper? How do you do this? How do you tell a guy who never kept kosher or anything else that his and his his wife was worse than him? She was from Bialastto in Russia. She proud to say that my would smoke a big cigar right in front of the shul because he had nothing to do. Fast forward few months later, she said, "What did you do?" He already had died from them. Mlin, that was the name. What did you do? What's the guitar? Come, I want to talk to you. What did you do to my daughter, my granddaughters? I said, why did you ask? They would always come to my house to eat. This time they came. They don't want to eat. I said, why aren't you eating? Because the house is not kosher. What did you do? And they married Eden. They live in that's what it's all about. And today is more important than ever before than never was in history. Such a time as this time. Now is the time. That's why gurus kabad comes in to this picture. So I go to see the kabad who filed a lawsuit with their bud the first one dealing with the hea sward sword here that was stolen from the library here and we had the incredible story that was talking about for many many years ago that was talking about I thought I will get you a pamphlet that tells a lot of these stories that was this said they was huming international. Those who have international connections should use it for the good. We're still human. You look around. Nobody there that looks like they got this connection. Makes no difference. In the morning, my phone is ringing. Tune in. Jerry Winrop was a chairman of my telephone. Tune in. The Reb spoke to me. Tell him I'm ready. I said, "Do me a favor, Jerry. I don't talk to the Reb." >> What does it mean? The Rebi spoke to him. >> He was in California. >> Yeah. >> He said, "The ever spoke to me. I will do what he wants me to do." >> He was watching the Feben. >> Huh? >> He was watching the >> soon come to that. >> Okay. Yeah. >> So Thompson didn't put on. I can guarantee you. I said, "Jerry, I can't really do that. You have to give me some more information. He said, "I was playing with my satellite dish and as I'm clicking, clicking, clicking, the Reb is talking." And then the was talking about who has international connections should use him. I knew the rebi meant me. That's why I'm calling you. Tell the rebi. So I don't talk to the rebi. I will ask the bud to explain this to the rebi in the car. It's very difficult. As I say, I like this guy Thompson Thompson. Whatever the case is, I figure before the goes home, you I'll tell it to you. He'll tell Dab in the car by Ma is looking at me, looking and looking and looking and looking. Okay. When finished, I walked the hallway. That blade is looking for me. wants to see you standing by the door and things are changing in motion is Jerry Wine. You ask the question I'm answering you. Norman is Jerry Zman is Armed Hammer. Arman Hammer is Spila Zitan. He plays both sides. >> Who was um >> Armond Hammer is one of the wealthiest Jews in the world. >> He's a businessman. >> Accidental petroleum. Petroleum units all over the world. So says that wine trap has a friend >> has a friend called >> plays on both sides >> on both sides with Russia and America >> is all wine that are in Russia. >> The wine trap should talk to Dr. Hammer and then Dr. Hammer will get the books >> the books that from the are in Russia. >> Yeah. and said meaning the man from downstairs was burnt say I know it's not so >> people in say in Russia they said that as far >> not in Russia the person worked in the library here said >> according to his information was all burnt in Kiev >> I think it was then How do you do this? Ranch Travis has a big castle in Beverly Hills. Says, "You are going to come Friday night to me for a Friday night dinner together with Dr. Hammer and me." So, I don't go to a place that's not kosher. What do you mean? That's exactly that. So, I can kosher your kitchen. So, but you what do you do with the plates? I said the plates. We'll have to use paper plates. Use paper plates in my house. If that's the case, I'll buy regular glass plates. No, you're not going to do that. Wait a second. He says, I have brand new plates that have my initials on them. JW, because they made him do for themselves. So, we'll take brand new plates and that will be used for the Friday night dinner. Can we cash your kitchen? Yes. He didn't know what he was getting into which we did and we had one of our people there watching over us everything good Friday night he comes introduces me to hammer and I knew this was a chance this was a chance by the way I'm missing a point in the story which I'm going to go back to for a second before that so then the gives me going back to where was talking to me at the door so after That was not the oxen dollar for wine. So for >> that gave $18 for wine. He should have a for a full recovery not to you to me. I take the rabb's words very very serious. Like the says that's exactly what the means. It give us even That's Kent. That's what the Reba means. That's what the Reba says clearly. So whatever the case is, I land in California. I call his very dear friend, chairman of telephone. I call Beverly Hills mansion. No answer. Call a cell phone. No answer. I call the castle in Metro Mrage. Somebody picks up the phone say I have to talk to him. You can't talk to him. What do you mean I can't? Of course I can. You will not talk to him. He's not able to talk to you now. Something's wrong. I go into George, a dear friend of his. George, tell me what's going on with Cherry. So it's a secret. Jerry had aal hernia very severe that needed a very very important operation. Nobody knows he is in the hospital at Sinai but it's not under his name. You'll never find him. So okay thank you. I go to the hospital you have to help me now. How am I going to find him? So I go to the emergency room. Do you know someone by the name of Wab? No. Then a Russian nurse who came from Russia as a nurse now working in the hospital says to me in Russian, "What do you want?" I said, "I want a person that came in with a hernia which needs to have a surgery and I have to see him. By the way, I'm his rabbi." She says, "One second." Goes upstairs. He's coming soon out of the recovery room. jump to the elevator, get off. As he's coming out of the recovery room, I said, "Jerry," he opens his eyes. Tune in, give me the Reby's money. Can you understand this? You can't. >> So that's how the whole with the started. >> Started. >> Then the said when we went, we saw that we had to take home. So Dav said it was it was myself it was Nandelam it was from the library by 11 and that's how we went. The Reba sent you to retrieve the from >> Yeah. Sometimes to find the >> to find them because we didn't know enough to >> find and get them everything. >> Right. >> So the said I don't remember which day for I took a deep breath. said, "Oh man, that's how started all built on a that's what I could sit here for a week, but that's at least the beginning of a story is the one soon that we had orders from the to start a kabad soon as we came to Moscow which we are the members myself, Rabbi Lean of Russia." >> Yeah. of Russia later was that >> but there was a sec this was by the second there was a second right is that when that happened >> right that's correct so that's how >> why was there a second >> huh >> why I'm saying what happened during the >> year for a week we have to talk about so that goes back to the fight that still goes on today we ultimately went second time which became part of the >> but what happened in the first was to identify that this existed >> oh okay good >> so then then you did Okay, let's let's let's start there. Good. They come there. We were VIP, Dr. Hammer's people. He said, "You can't come on my plane, but I'll get you the papers." I still have the passport because Russia was closed. He had a big office, big building in the middle of Moscow. Hammer. what we have to do. How do we not find what to do? Hammer says, "I spoke to everybody. Nobody lies to me. They're not here." I said, "I want to have a meeting together with the Minnesota culture. He's the one who holds the handle on the libraries." No problem, but it's not going to help you. It just doesn't exist. So I said there only one one person to go. So I was the one to go to a special place of the minister of culture. Before I left, I said to Sha, "Make me a list. Make me a list." We have the catalog, by the way, of the books. We never lost it. All the in Russia we have the catalog of. So I said mashima make me a list of which books are rare at least 13 books very different one from the other very different not some of them not expensive at all very cheap some of them very expensive a mishmash we come in to this meeting other People were waiting there. Also, Baba Walters from CBS was there and somebody was playing the piano. I realized this is the end of the road. This is my chance. I have to settle in my pocket. Come in. Dr. Ham was also there if I remember correctly. He was standing with two armed guards to me culture machine guns from both sides. Hammer was not there. Excuse me. Mixing up another story. Meanwhile, before I went in, somebody with Boba Walters was taking more time. I sat I started to cry. Eva, I need you. This is the one chance we have. I have to settle. They call me in on my eyes. You got to translator to translate. It's a pleasure to meet you. It's I was a pleasure to meet you. I said, I'm here because the Rebi is my life and the Reby's books are the Reb's life. I know these books. He says, look, I spoke already to Dr. Hammer. I told him they don't exist. I started to cry. He he he got confused. What can I do to help you more? Take out the list. find for me at least these 13 books in the London library. And then I threw myself at him to give him a hug. The guys with the guns started to lift the guns. I held him like the big guy like a a bear held him like this. I started to cry. He'll take care of it to you. Comes the next morning. We get a call from Dr. Hammer's office in Moscow. go to the library. They found the 13 books. We come in, we go to the now this you have to understand spoke Russian and understood to read Russian as well. He says, "Show me in the catalog these books." Opens it up. It says, "Paka not pyakov brothers were two wealthy that gave the a lot of money. They had shakers to these like to the moon." That's the bottom line. So we figure out what happened here. started putting the underneath. That's how the fight began. >> So you came back from the you didn't get the but we knew that the existed. >> We know that it exists. Hammer says now I'll get it. Don't worry about it. We're going to get it. We're going to get it. We're going to get it. You know, I said, "You know what? Without a clown, we were told, I may be mixing up two stories, but if I didn't, man, whatever. We were told not to go to Marina Russia. We were people that were dangerous people. We were told to go to Marina Russia. We went there >> not to go." >> First, we were told not to go. Uhhuh. >> Then I tell you how we did go. >> By who? By who? >> Huh? >> Who told you not to go? >> We were told that has been told not to go to because we are dangerous people. >> Who told you that? >> Khalakov said. >> So then we found the books. Now I get a call from You have to come. I know quiet and you hear overriding which we were told before not to go. We had already gone to numerous other cities looking for the sort before this conversation started. The main thing was where we found them was the stuff in Moscow. There are other places with we didn't find. We went to we went to we went to Leningrad. We went to various cities to look. I fast forward now I'm backing up. Never forget I go to me in I land I was saying kadesh from my father I'm standing there by the d and I started to sing and stand by me I think he cooked and then went like between his eyes. Then they never called me into the office. I called you back because the trial of the Weineberg estate which is another long story with the Reb $21 million gift that we got to be able to fulfill the Reb's promise to land where he will land said about you. >> Huh? The Debb was talking about you. >> Yes. I spring in spring. There's another long story. Why? Because $21 million, but I'm not going to be here for a week. So, we'll continue. So the Rebbit told you to come back so you can attend >> because the trial was coming to the Monday. The trial was >> California. >> Yeah. But going to court on Monday. >> Mhm. >> All of this came back to California. I wanted to lie down to sleep a little bit. There's knocking on the door. My way was the last the yoke of the land. >> The yoke of the of California. >> Yeah. The of the monies, >> right? >> We owed $18 million. Interest rates went up to 20%. >> You owed it to the bank. >> To the bank. >> Mhm. Not one bank, 13 banks. Whatever the case is, he says to me, Slmer, you have to stay here. I want to to go to the heaven. You have to stay here. What is it? He start to cry. said in the middle of all of this. with the same mush told that bud soon as we she was very much on top of the whole story with she told that the bookcases she was so excited >> she remembers after that mh And then the story goes on and on and on and on on. >> So then so then there was another like in anal there was a second >> right >> I guess after the fall of communist >> as I said like this to to spend on time here figuring out dates we're not going to right >> we have a booklet which we'll give you so you can fix up whatever you need. >> Yeah. So I have a question. Um so yes I know there was a second um I think it was infus that that the new group had and that's the formed that in Russia >> right >> um and um >> as I say again I'm not very good with dates but it's all printed >> yeah and it's a lot of it has been printed in the as well sai our conversations and sai the story of Russia >> um >> and ultimately the I'm saying this is something that still needs to happen the returns. But I I have a question for you regarding so you said that appointed or appointed you to be part of a um I don't know if everyone is familiar what is I mean what is the function of what does it mean and why is it important a kebab was founded as I said with my za in the times and a few other Jacobson I don't remember the names of the others it's public documents And when the fight for his local swarming here became it became the kabad locally to fight the court case was under the name of a kabad >> was the one fully in charge with this and then you had So and that's how the fight began the hea fight they hit the about the library in 770 >> about the library in 770 and that's what the first time was seen in a massive kingly vote and then made it clear that it's the differences of opinion between goab should figure it out either them or labavich and numerous other things that it's all printed stuff we have a meeting every week every Wednesday the members of they go to say kabad have a phone meeting I'm sorry not a phone how do you call it >> zoom >> a zoom I'm not very good at the current technology >> we have a meeting once a And we deal with many issues. That's very very important to deal with. >> Right. So the Reb wanted to be the body that deals with very important. >> Yeah. For example, if there's if there's another if there's a like country, if there's a whose husband died and then The other people said, "Wait a second. Your husband is dead. You have to cover the deficit like he did because you claim you want to control." He said, "You should be the one. We have to deal with the issue, >> numerous other things like this." >> Just saying. This is something that the and I know also that after the um I think it was inun the redid all the corporation all the papers and made all the members and uh the incorporated everything was up to date put a lot of focus on uh on on uh establishing >> but the bottom line is that spoke clearly what the responsibilities of kabad is so important for the local people here, the local people, which I love all of them. I come here. I love to see the people. The love is mutual most of the time. But whatever the case is, everybody has to understand that you can't go doing things that are wild and say is not a halfk. They have set up a system. If you believe that the Reb is the Rebba, you have to follow this system and if you don't believe it's a young rabbi someplace there places that could use people 6,000 all over the globe. We have in California 423 over 200 mls. Every time I come to 770, somebody comes over. Can I talk to you? I I want to go to California >> and we tell them the rules. Want to live by the rules. That's good. Don't go to a different place. And this is how they began the very close to the very close. >> Okay. So this is an important matter. Okay. One of the integral components of being aim and whether it's orim these days give us an opportunity to connect with ourim to connect with each other and be better. What is the story behind each of these days? How did the rabbi commemorate and celebrate these days? And most importantly, what are the lessons, the takeaways, and the action items needed for each of these days? All of this and much much more are answered in the new set recently published by Dher. Our days is a journey through the Kabad calendar in story, meaning and practice with over 700 beautiful glossy pages with elevated content, beautiful, beautiful photographs. You, your family and friends will enjoy and live with each. This book is a must for every labamature home, for every schul, for every school. It is a perfect gift item. This will not collect dust. It will be used day after day, month after month, year after year. You can have the set. Go to.org/ org/ourdays. Order your set today and start living with. >> But one point I want to tell you again, I said it before, I'm going to say it again. >> Mhm. >> I solidly believe in any millisecond we'll open our eyes. We will see the Reba standing in the steps coming to take us out of this the last the darkest of all the exiles. There never has been as of such a like the wonderful every till the lights go off. They are ma and they are simra and they be talking since the whole to is going to the army of never been such a generation. They knock on the doors. I want to go off for what? To have to raise your own budget. Have to travel miles through a mikvah till you till you build it. Why? Because they believe. It's all about belief. That's what it's all about. And it's not easy. Not easy at all on anybody. It isn't. Every say so many miracles. What do you say afterwards? What does that mean? And more of that. You don't believe then make yourself believe. Go to the oil. Damn is with us. Go to the oil. If you don't find an answer, I tell you a simple story. So I don't just take people because we have discipline. No hmas. We haven't got if there's something wrong, you will go to this vat and that vot. No vot. You want to work here? That's what the contract says. Either you listen and find what you're doing or you're out. So one time a young couple young couple comes to California tenon we want to go because my wife fine and we really want to go to a place that's on the ocean. That's where we want to go. Place on the ocean. We love the ocean. I said if you love the ocean, there's an ocean and flower there. Call right back off. Dear friend of mine, tired a good friend. I talked to him sick as he was practically till he died every day. That's what you're looking for. That's where you're going to go. You want to go. This is what I need. He looks at we did our research on that place. It's like a desert. In the summer could be 120 degrees. I said, "Look, that's why I'm offering you either take it or leave it. Go there and see if you'll find the answer to the car." or a while later or a day later. My phone is ringing me. We saw Dab's hand. We went to a 7-Eleven to get some cold water in the city. Somebody comes over to us and says, "The Rebi sent you to me. I'm becoming more and more religious. I love the Rebi, but how could I have the Rebi? I graduate past this point. I need the Rebby should send me someone. You that was sent to me by the ever. You put that put that in rational writing. It's not over yet. They come back. Okay. Now go to the oil. Settle to the oil. The way you do it, the way I do it is first you watch your settle. Go to the mikvah. Put on the cattle. realize you're talking to the Abba. Right after you settle and you walk in, the first thing you do is look at the screen. If you don't find an answer 15, 10, 15 minutes, then go to the oil. Pull your heart out. If you didn't find an answer at the oil, when you come out, look at the screen again. I'll do it. This sympathy calls me up. This is a very very subtle person that's excited like this. Calls me up. Rabbi Chun. Rabbi Chun. Tell me what happened. I looked at the screen when I came in. No answer. I went to the oil. I felt something very positive. But I still have no answer. I walked out and what did I see? Dad was talking to somebody. Have no fear to go a desolate desert. That's where the Jews came and that's how they received the the Mishkan and the to >> So I have a question um regarding So you you mentioned a lot of things uh $8 million loans, $18 million debts and he's saying was it ever hard to do to do this? Did he ever did the Reb ever tell you something about about these uh if it was hard to get the money? >> No. to to continue going. >> Continue the story now that we have some time. >> It's only water with honey. after >> which it was gimmel I believe or listen >> but I did run away go out knocking on doors hi I need a million dollars a big reason >> you had you had $18 million debt. Basically >> $18 million debt. >> Okay. >> And now the interest rates went up to 20%. Figure that out. >> Mhm. >> They have a lock but you got to do something about it. Knock on doors. Knock on doors. Knock on doors. Meanwhile, 1980 there was a fire that burnt the building down. first kabad house in the world on a college campus because when we sent us to California first thing we did was shabas then we opened up a global war to open up really which we succeeded then we had an afternoon tomato but then I was invited before all this happened going back a little bit I was invited we're sitting in our house getting $75 a week to eat on and to run the organization with. $75 a week. >> Yes. From Damas. My wife Dson was my secretary. So you have one medela on the knee taken care of and doing the work has to be done. So she says you should take this phone call. Sounds very important. Hi I'm from temple Isaiah big reform temple. Yes. Can I help you? Yes. The Sue Indians were supposed to come this Sunday. That's the Indian tribe from many years ago. They were supposed to come to speak to the graduation class. Teenage kids confirmation, excuse me, it's called. They canled and they were supposed to come to talk about a vanishing tribe cuz they're all dying out. You are from that season. You are also dying out. You're also dying out. Most of you were killed in Europe. I'm listening. Do you speak enough English to be able to address this group? I said, I think so a little bit. So, you think you could speak enough? Yes, I think so. Okay. Come Sunday, this and this time, I fill up a lawyer's briefcase with pairs of film, tea lights. >> There there was a Jewish group, >> huh? It was a Jewish Jewish group. Okay. Yeah. >> One of the biggest reformed temples still today. Mhm. I come there. Nobody greets me. African-American or cleaning guys just come in. Please go in. I go in. Somebody walks in. Big tall guy. Hi. He says, "I'm Rabbi Lewis. I understand you speak enough English that you would be able to talk to them. Do you really think so? If I really think so. I speak a better English than you do. You speak an English from Hamburg, Germany, where you became a rabbi. I speak an English with a Bronx accent from the Yankee Stadium. If I can speak English, of course I can. You will come to my office after you finish. Okay. No, he comes storming in. What is this? You should know you're a rabbi. What are you doing in the heads of my kids? I said you asked me to come to speak. That's how I speak. I thought how could I be able to speak to them? You will come to my office. come to the office. Before I get in, it's an African-American secretary. I said, "I'm going to see the rabbi." She said, "You have an appointment to see him." "Yes, I do." I walked in. I use very strong language telling him, "How dare you treat another person like this? He started to cry. We became ash gutter frank. He said, "I will get you appointments to speak to the hill groups on the college campuses." He became aid before rabbi. That's how I entered into the colleges. >> Now go to UCLA and talk to the kids were hippies. Hypocrates. You could smell them before you could see them. Long hair. That was the 60s. I was invited to speak. We hit it off together because they were crazy and they felt I was crazy. So good match started to come to the house. So one Friday night sh we took the mattresses off our beds and we put them in the living room floor and the hypocrites would come the the girl hippies feed them make shabas my would talk to them a lot next week the boys would come take him to sh with me a block away Ginsburg I'm sure. But it was getting out of hand. The landlord says, "You can't do this. You really can't." I said, "But I have to." I'm sure a whole long story. Bottom line is we went to another place. They said, "You can't." Then finally, I said, "You know something? I'm well accepted at Hill because I became very friendly with the rabbi there, the campus hill rabbi. I got to find a place near the campus. I don't have a penny. Okay. We get into an army surplus truck that would pull the trailer that we mobile classroom that I had. Mr. Tank. Now we driving around the truck. I see that that building is great. It's right across the street. Those years the fraternity houses were taken over by the hippies. So most fraternities went out of business because doesn't match a fraternity with the with the mockim of the hippies. Two different worlds. Make a long story short. We stop. I get the telephone number. Okay, boys. Who has a dime? We have to go to the safe way and call Marvin Goldman dear friend also real estate broker says I don't Victor Kurtzman I don't and I don't how to call the broker to buy a building we had soda bottles left 5 cents a bottle deposit and that we gave the kids for the release time I said we have the soda bottles we'll give them into saber we get money we'll call call Martin go short certainly a very long story I told him my it should be 2,250,000 he looked at me with a smile on his face I told you you're not good at math it's not 2 million250,000 it's only 250,000 said masletov we made $2 million in your house he started to have where you going to get 250,000 shortly a very long story with course every time I wanted to do something you went to we had no sh there was a rabbi very friendly with said I want to give you the shul you should give me a few thousand dollars a month in Israel so I could live there never had no children I go says Wonder how is it going to support itself to show mom that uses reasons not to fry your brains but give you a logical reason which I really don't need but it makes no difference come another situation the swimming school on Robertson Boulevard which they have a big sh on Robertson on Robertson Boulevard it's up for sale great idea swimming Tamora swimming tora the girls will come the boys will come from 8 to 10 8 to 9 they will study 9 to 10 they'll swim 10:00 quarter after 10 the girls will come but girl counselors first they will swim then they'll learn for an hour great idea it pays for itself Okay. Come into the office. I put all the gold how it pays for itself. Ah, two down. >> Rejecting your your your ideas want something else. Then the building came up. Aha. Then embraced it with two hands. When we came to give the Keith, I'm not going to go through all the miracles how we got the money. >> At that time, there was no prototype to follow. This is how you make a nothing. It didn't exist. That's whatever. They never said yes and no. And subsequently they never said when we gave him the key to Marvin Goldmith by the never said the the the bin kabad house. Why do we do kabad house? Because what would the kids on the college campus understand? Labavich it's a city wisdom understanding and knowledge. Wow. Mhm. >> That's how it started. It was only in the houses, whatever it was. So, whatever the case is, we go to give Deb the key. Deb looks up at Marvin and says, "To which Kabad house is this?" He's a a big lawyer, worked in the attorney general's office. He says, "Rabbi, there's only one." Says, "Don't be so humble. It will spread from the west to the north which is Francisco. I'm just telling you what it is why we're talking about from the north to the south which is the eagle from the south to the east where we really need them you should call them all by the same name kabad house. So when a person comes into Kabad house and then moves to another city, he opens up the telephone book and looks for the words Kabad house. We should call them all by the same name. That's how the movement started and all the miracles that we got the money. I'd be here for three weeks, not one week explaining all. >> Oh yeah. What happened when you started knocking on doors and asking for a million dollars? Oh, you're going when the told us slowly. >> Yeah, you're in the middle of saying that. >> Okay. When the said this, so right away the next thing is the next morning we were knocking on doors. We come back to California, knock on doors, knock on door. We already had a telephone. This is after the telephone when we raised money. She go looks at the big names, right, with big monies. That's where you go to. Every went slam dunk, slam dunk. Finally, it was a real gala big company that that they gave us $10,000 at a telephone. I think this is what we're going to do. And if you call it V, you never get an appointment. You knock on the door. It's a different story. Whatever the case is, I never go alone. knocking on doors because maybe there'll be a woman. You can't do that. Oh, the shades are open. In in the West Coast, we tell you if the shades are open, if your wife is in the kitchen, you are not going to sit and teach a woman or a girl alone. If the So then one day somebody walks in and say, "Hi, Rabbi. I have to learn with you today because my husband has a bad cold." Then what you do is so do I. My wife will have to teach you. I don't allow it. We don't allow it here. Should be no place allowed. No place allowed. If there's three or four of them together, fine. But one-on-one. No way. That's our policy. Going back to where we were before. Where were we? >> You're saying that you can't get an appointment. Yeah. Big >> right. Don't say no. I come there. I come there with my with my Aiden. >> You never You said you go with with your Aiden. Okay. >> Yes, I go with my Aiden. Ring the bell. Gigantic castle. Who are you here to see? I tell them the name. Do you have an appointment? No. But she's a contributor. Please come in with a schmate on his arm. The way that's the way they live in Beverly Hills. This little thing comes out four and a half feet tall. What are you doing here? What do you mean? You you sent me $10,000, but what are you doing in my house? I said, ' Give me a chance. I want to talk to you. No, I'm not interested to talk to you, but give me five minutes. She goes, this big gigantic dog comes. She says, you see the dog not getting out of here. He'll bite you. So, he'll bite me. I'll bite him back. I'm not afraid. Let's continue talking. She says no because if not I'll bring out a few more then I'll call the police. That's the time you know she really means it. Okay. So what do you do after that? Sit down and cry. No, you continue to knock on doors. That's what you do. Now you got to remember that this comes after another on the phone that we had because two things come before After the rabbis, shortly after had burned down, so I would take the homeless upstairs in my house, them would come upstairs in my house. Never have to turn someone away. This guy comes well dressed, said, "I need a place to stay." Of course. go upstairs, come in the morning, and give him some coffee, some cake, which we would do. A couple days go by, you see, he's a very sophisticated person. Bernstein, very sophisticated person. He's a couple of days go by, he says, "Rabbi, you want to know something? You saved my life. I have a gigantic business in Alaska. I have a private jet. My wife has a private jet. We would fly to Seattle from Alaska to do whatever you have to do and fly back to Alaska. One time, usually I would fly if I'm flying, I take the wife with me. This time I was so busy. So I said to my wife, "Why don't you go take our daughter with? We'll spend a week there and you will fly with Georgia. I'll come in a little bit later and join you. She says, "Okay." Then he says, "I get the news. The plane crashed. She got killed together with my daughter. You saved my life." So, I want to tell you, I'm a multi multi-millionaire. I owe you everything. Mazleto called the banks. The answer was coming. It's here. It's incredible. Tell me what are you doing? I'm building a school. Come over to yeshiva. Middle of building. Another story with that you'll remind me about after we finish this. Very important. I want to see the school of Swiss. This is too cheap. order these things instead of those, these things instead of those. I'll give you the money. I have all the money in the world. So now I tell the banks, the main bank, I said, you know what? I'm going to get $5,000, $5 million now, and you'll see from there you'll be able to help. He'll continue to help. Good thing, hi, you told me about all the big monies. I need $5 million now. give the bank. I told him the main bank. He said, "I'll get it to you." I said, "Well, I'd like to get it today as a wire." So, I can't do a wire because it's cash that I'm going to give you. Said, "That's fine." So, when am I getting it? You're getting it tomorrow. What time will I get it? I don't know. Morning, early afternoon. There's a storage there already. No. Where's the money? He says it's coming. It'll be here Friday. Saying come to the house of Shabas. It didn't come. What happened to the money? It got stuck and and the plane got stuck with the cash. I smelled already something. But I believe said listen to me. Either you will bring the money Saturday night like you say or don't ever ever come back to this house. I never ever want to see you. The almighty God wanted to show me a test where my belief is in place which I told you the story with the Rebi. And if not, don't you ever come back here again. That was the last time I ever saw him. Okay, fine. Now we're ready in the new building, the new Kabad House, but very raw. We had few offic Sorry, I made a mistake. Back up. It was before our anniversary. I supposed to go to he says for your anniversary I want to take you and your wife to dinner at the Milky Way restaurant. >> Same. This is the same guy. >> Same guy. That's before the end of the story. >> How I knew it came to an end. >> Okay. >> I want to take you to the kosher restaurant. I want to pay the bills. Come to the restaurant. He orders fancy wine stuff like that. I don't do this pal. I don't let nobody take me personal things, restaurants, this that. But I had to with my wife is he orders this, orders that. I order just a few simple things. And the the ma waitress comes with a bill turned upside down. Can you on the tray, gives him the tray. He looks at it then hundred and some odd dollars. I didn't bring my wallet. I haven't got a credit card. I had no money. Then I knew it was over. Then I knew it was over. Then I told him the story at night as I told you before. So now all the banks are go crazy with some sugar. Sugar guilt. Went to D. De gave me a nickel. That was our fifth million million for $5 million. Next thing we get staff staying there very very tight. Receptionist tells me hi. >> Who? Who told you? >> Huh? >> Who told you? >> My receptionist. receptionist. >> That's the initial calls that come in greets the people. Someone here to see you. He says he wants to help you. Here we go again. He gave me his card. It says senior vice president, city group, city corps, the big bank international, senior vice president. if he come into the office, I want to tell you I know what you do. Nobody does what you do and I know you're in a lot of financial trouble. You should only run the spiritual part of this organization. I had a lifethreatening story happen to me. I said, "I only want to do charitable work. I will handle the money. I know you're in a lot of trouble." Okay. He says, "So, I'm going to start handling it." Okay. Call up the banks. I sent copies of the card. Senior vice president. Matter of fact, I show him. We owe a lot of money. He He was in New York. I'm I'm going to go see his office and he's a going as a giant is a says get says get told him fine tell everybody this the way it's going to work he hires secretaries lend lends us some money hire secretaries then the people start coming from city group to look over all the books a head woman two other ladies to go to these things. This is it. Now he lived in New Jersey. He worked in New York. So put him is coming. So he said, "You know what? I'd like to go meet the rebi said you can come to the fabang and then put him." And the whole time I'm keeping them a breast of all of this on the phones such I I think I didn't tell you something before which I should have when the Bernstein thing came apart every morning I would call I would sing and then from there but after the Bernstein story I put on I start They cry. Let me mix up two stories. Makes no difference. Straighten it out. That happened after the second one. I was right in the first place. So then we go to scrap the what I just said that comes that comes on the second guy. You could cut this out of me. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> So what happens is when Sadun comes into my office, that's his name. He tells me what to do in all of this. Hired secretaries and people come as I told you before. And now he wants to go to Deb. I said, "Good. I'm running for Purum. Meet you in New York." The whole time we're keeping Deba updated every day. What's going on? Very strong. Strong. So now I take we meet him in New York. His wife also came big limousine. I never sat behind that ever. ever always in front of me this time to take him over to the so after I said to come we go over toba go over to the nice he saving in the rebb's institutions he smiles and says yes I'm doing that I'm saving the institutions. Devil looks at him and says, "You should have a peaceful life. You should have a peaceful life." Oops. Renee, you you're pale. Come, come, come. We have to go. You don't You don't feel good. I'm okay. No, you're not. I'm looking at you. Come, come. Took him off. Took him to the back of the sh. Had someone go upstairs. One of my kids was taking care of the wife. Come, come down. We were supposed to fly together two days after I supposed to wait in New York. First thing in the morning, I get a plane back. I go into he never let us talk to any of these people the bankers or anything else. One lady was against them. I come in said hi supposed to be here with Renee still in New York but a few things I want to ask you about the $10 million grant that we're getting from Cityroup. She says grant? What kind of grant? Who told you you're getting a grant? It's alone, but only if you could bring your big man. Jerry Wine is a guarantor. I said Jerry Ranch, what do I need you for? And we know you know Arman Hammer. They'll guarant No, no, no. But we're not going to give you a dime. The next morning, stay me goes. I start to cry. Now I have to deal with him yet who's controlling everything. Hide all these people. So what do I do? I call up the mad. I start to cry. Never done it before. says I can't talking New York Times Everything I say in the man's netshu that's how we then start to go door to door. >> That's how you started raising money >> really big time. But no no that's how we started not getting any money. So we come to one place. How many what time is it now? Yeah. Now, now you have to finish. So, so finish this off and we'll finish with this. >> What time is it now? It's >> 9:15. So, >> I got to go. >> So, we have to finish the sent. You have to finish >> I'll finish the sentence. Make your long story short. >> Yeah. >> We We knocked on all the doors said no, no, no. We knocked on one door long story. I'll tell you at a different time, but the bottom line is this woman passed away and left a third of our estate to Kabad and we got ultimately after a big fight with Davis Mim, we got $21 million. And uh this is the message for for everyone. >> Say you have to speak into the mic. Huh? >> You have to speak into the mic. Speak into the mic. The main important thing is