Am I Using Religion to Cover Up My Issues? The Story of Pinchas the Zealot

so welcome everybody thank you for gracing us the store sheets is one page and today's class is dedicated in the Merit of shimshan Ben Reza for a complete and speedy recovery or a four schlem and krova and arifs also dedicated by Dr Miriam gross in memory of her beloved father reminisce is today the 15th day of year to heinous I'm sorry the 15th day of Thomas I stand corrected and thank you very much today is also the yard side of the urachaim rabbin otter the end of the class I hope to learn a little piece of the iraqayam the opening of parishes pinchas begins with a fascinating story or the conclusion of a story it's the First Source in your Source sheets this is the opening of Pennsylvania Hashem speaks to Moshe saying this is Numbers chapter 25 verse 10. Hashem speaks to Maisha this is what he says foreign the son of Aaron the Cayenne has turned my wrath away from the children of Israel by him zealously avenging my honor among them so that I did not eliminate the binay Israel because of this zeal and therefore the Torah continues therefore you should tell pencres that hini noises I'm offering him my Covenant of peace and what that means is that he and his children following him will become kayanim they will become priests because of what he has done this of course is a direct continuation to the story at the end of the previous Parsha it's impossible to understand the context there without knowing what happens earlier at the end of parisha's Bullock to summarize the story at the end of parisha's Bullock the way the Torah says it and the way Rashi and our sages explain it is impartial's the previous portion balaku was the king of a tribe and a country called mayav was very threatened by the Jewish people and he hired bilam to curse them was a well-known and world-renowned Sorcerer And prophet and spiritual genius and Mystic and apparently had the ability to bless and curse and he hires bilum the attempt was unsuccessful because instead of cursing the Jewish people as we all know bilam ends up blessing the Jewish people Bullock sends billum back home billum came from Midian he is very disappointed billum is disappointed because the attempt was a failure at that point bilam gives advice to Bullock and what's the advice he gives him he says to him God the god of the Jewish people loathes promiscuity is promiscuity promiscuous relationships this is what he loathes more than anything else if you can somehow cause them to become entangled in promiscuity you will be able to defeat them and this is where the moyavites and the midianites contrive a scheme which is quite successful and the terror describes in parishes Bullock at the end that the daughters the young women of mayev and the young women of Midian came out and they began and managed to entice huge amounts of Jewish males to the point that it became a national disaster that's how successful they were the daughters of mayev and the daughters of Minion it came together with serving an idol called strange Idol an idol to which was worshiped by defecating to it it's a strange interesting type of service and they managed to get the Jews the women managed to get the Jews to do that to the point that a major plague broke out what Hashem tells Maisha to penalize those who were involved in this and there is panic among the Jews especially the tribe of shiman because most of the people who were involved in these promiscuous relationships with the tribe of shipment the people of shiman came running to their leader their Leader's name was zimri zimri Ben solo and they said look were being penalized by no by the judges for this adultery so what did zimmri do so the Titus says at the end of parsha's balakzimri who was the leader of the tribe of shimen decided to act and what he felt was very courageously to save his people and what he did was is he took a midianite woman the Toyota doesn't identify the name not of the one who did it and not of the male not of the female only in Pinterest is the name identified in the story itself it's interesting the name is not identified it just says a Jewish man took a midianite woman in front of Moshe in front of all the Jewish people while they were weeping and he went in to have relations with her as the title will say in Paris this man was zimri the leader of the shiman tribe and the woman was Cosby who was a princess who was a princess of Midian her father was one of the Kings one of the leaders one of the governors and this was his daughter so in front of everybody he took her and they went into a tent and everyone was crying they were confused there was no clear-cut law what should be done in such a situation usually for different types of sins there's a system and there's always a court and there is a due process as we call it this witnesses there has to be warning and there's Witnesses and they brought to court and invest investigation and cross-examination and again investigation until the best in the sanheden could reach a conclusion and it's very very very meticulous and precise it wasn't easy to get a punishment according to Terror law had to be do warning and Witnesses and everything has to be investigated and examined but here was the middle of the Parsha they were middle of a relationship and everybody saw it and everybody observed it there was no clear law what happened was stood up and the way hazal said he came to my shirabeno now Pincus was a great nephew of Maisha because Moishe's older brother was Aaron Aaron had a son El Lazar one of Aaron's four Sons not the vavio Allah and Allah had a son pinchas but it's interesting Pinterest wasn't a coin because Kahuna was priesthood was given to Aaron and his children and anyone that was born afterwards but pinchas they weren't born till this story so Pincus goes over to my shrabena and he said we learned from you we learned from Maisha Maisha taught what's this Allah if somebody cohabits with an Aramis Aramis means with a in this case a non-jewish woman if it's done publicly in middle of the ACT zealots are allowed to Smite them but if they come to ask the court the court won't tell them to do it this is a unique exception that in middle of the in middle of the religion middle of the processing by their Allah them a moment later in Allah you have to bring to court the one who reads the letter the one who's reading the letter why isn't he the one who implements what it says in the letter so it says that Pinterest took a spear and he killed both of them he killed zimri and he killed Cosby that's the end of Bullock and there was a major plague at the time the plague stopped there was a plague that killed 24 000 Jews who were involved in these relations and the plague stopped that's the end of balak so Pincus parishes continues Hashem says that pinch is the son of Allah the son of iron removed my wrath removed my anger because he was Zealot and therefore he gets the Covenant of peace and he was given the gift of Corona for him and his children for eternity even though Pinterest was not a Cayenne at the time that's the story in the beginning of pinchas on this there's a fascinating Rashi which is based on a gemorian Sanhedrin let's see the Rashi it's in your Source sheets is the son of Allah the son of Aaron what's obviously bothering Rashi is that pincus's lineage is specified the son of Allah the son of iron what do we care for his lineage is specified the problem is first of all we know who pinchas was but most importantly when the story is told just a few verses ago if you could see in your next Source at the end of balak it says the son of Allah the son of iron saw what happened he stood up from the community and he took a spear so it says already who he was the son of Allah the son of our just a few verses later when Hashem is rewarding him why does he have to repeat his whole lineage if you say here I want to tell you a story about yankel yankel was the son of Mayor mayor was the son of zundel zundel was the son of shmer now when you're in the middle of the story you don't have to repeat the whole lineage again in the beginning of the story it says why here in the beginning of parishes so Rashi answers lafi is the third paragraph in your Source sheets it's with a different colors because the tribes were denigrating they were disparaging him they were making fun of him they were denigrating him they were humiliating him what did they say about him Hari isem Ben putza Israel they were saying about pinchas have you seen this fellow the son of Puti his mother's father used to fatten calves to bring them and worship them to to slaughter them for idolatry and now he goes and kills the leader of an entire tribe of Israel this is how they were making fun of Penthouse so therefore the terror comes and especially traces his pedigree his lineage back to Aaron in order to neutralize or or eliminate this mockery this humiliation that the tribes were making fun and disparaging and denigrating because that's why he says he was the son of a Lazar and he was the son of Aaron that's why the Torah has to repeat his lineage it's not just to tell us who he was we know already who his father was it was either was it was Al to say there was it was to say there was very clear from the story who he was the Toyota doesn't just repeat itself it's been making a point that there is saying Hashem was saying you want to know princesses Pinterest comes from Iron how do we understand this literally princess went and he killed zimri the woman's name was Cosby the man's name is Jimmy was a leader he wasn't uh he wasn't considered just a lowly uh promiscuous immoral degenerate he was a Nasi of a shavit the entire tribe of shemen was represented by this man his name was zimri Ben solo identify him with shlum he was the famous Nasi of shiman already identified earlier he had different names and therefore when pinch has killed them it was no small deal no small feat so people were talking who was talking that is the schwartam meaning all the Jews from different tribes what were they saying about him look at his Ada they started to talk about isaid who is a Zaid his mother's father Israel history as we know was a pagan idolatry in fact according to the Metro she was a priest he was a guy who was a he was a leader but he was an overdose said that there was not a single of a desire a single idolatry that he did not worship and apparently part of his practice was he would fatten calves give them to eat so these calves would be fat and robust to slaughter them for avidazara so that his gods that he was slaughtering to would get these fat big geshmacher delightful robust calfs they said you see the Skyping because you know who said There Was You know Jews are very good with and opening up files a lot before Google's days let me tell you about his zaida you know before the war right before the war is they the fat and calves to avoid desire that's how they made fun of Pinterest and this guy whose grandfather fat and calves he goes and he kills a Nasi a leader of the Jewish people this is what they were saying about business so in order to dispel this mockery of Pinterest in order to vanish it in order to get rid of it eliminate it the Terror makes a point pin hashems pins has been Elizabeth was iron it's true he had to say the Israel his mother's father was he says Avi IMO it was Israel his mother's father was Israel in other words huh so according to this tempora's sister married Aaron's son right yeah he had seven daughters yeah some say a v IMO some say Avi my means the lineage of Israel but from Rashi literally it would seem it was his grandfather his maternal grandfather obviously his paternal grandfather we know was Aaron but his maternal grandfather Allah married a daughter of Israel so iron was which is interesting because Maisha was a son-in-law of Israel so it's her own sister married her nephew right her sister married her own nephew her her husband's brother's son Eliza nobody said it's hard to understand she was just asking if that's the case and therefore he goes and kills Amasi so Hashem says now if you take a look this is the beginning of parishes which is for the first time the Titan introduces the people this is one two three fifth paragraph on the source Street the shame is the name of the man of Israel who was struck who was slain with the midianite woman his name was zimri Ben solo he was the Nasi the leader of the tribe of Shimon the title continues that the woman who was struck she was a midianite woman and her name was Cosby her father's name was Sur and he was one of the leaders one of the kings in the midunite nation so you're talking about two very prominent people and Peter has killed both of them during their promiscuity during their act of promiscuity and it stopped the plague but let's now for a few moments analyze what Rashi is saying let's put ourselves into the minds of the Jewish people interestingly they are mocking penis they're all denigrating and as it says One Tribe the tribes were talking about pinchas and they focused to talk about a grandfather who fattened calfs for idolatry and then he went and he killed a tribe and therefore the Toyota has to address him as the grandson of aranakaya but let's understand why were all the denigrating I can understand I could understand shiman the tribe of Shimon they were upset at pinchas because zimmy was their leader and it was most of their members who were engaged in these relationships with the daughters of Midian and mayaf so he killed their leader and he put an end to their Pagan orgy I get that so they were very upset at him but why was he condemned by all the by the entire community of Israel most of them who were outraged by zimry's act it says at the end of parisha's Ballard that they were crying they were weeping they were sobbing they didn't know what to do and they were probably grateful for stopping this insane plague pandemic which claimed 24 000 lives why were the schwartem embarrassing him but actually he doesn't say shiman's tribe who I understand had a personal Vendetta but all the number one but number two a much more fundamental question why is the focus here Israel is past his mother's father's early life when they used to fatten calves as we say in Yeshiva lingo anyway we look at it as if this is strange if Pinterest acted wrong what did they believe morally or immorally that pinches was pinterest's action righteous or he acted wrongly if pinchas acted wrongly and that's what they believed then he is guilty of much worse than having a grandfather who used to fatten calves before he slaughtered them for idolatry in fact the right word would be murderer You're a murderer you're right imagine there's a fellow who murdered two innocent people now he bring him to court say George what's the issue he said they used to fatten calves forever desara okay sir he said he's a killer he's a murderer I know that his Ada also was alive and used to fatten the calves but there's a much bigger issue here if you really want to embarrass Pinterest because he did such a heinous crime he did such a horrific Unthinkable inconceivable Act of taking the spear and literally taking the lives of two people a man and a woman who were not supposed to be killed on his own initiative stands up and takes their lives I get it that's pretty bad that's pretty dark I don't have to talk about what you say they did 100 years ago when he fattened calfs LMI you're gonna say they couldn't say that you know why because they didn't think princess was a murderer they didn't think that Pincus was a criminal they acknowledged that killing zimidi was the right thing to do maybe because some of the other people also knew what Pinterest knew because he heard information years earlier taught them that in such a situation and middle of the action of this type of promiscuity there's a halacha one Allah if somebody really cares you're allowed to Smite them not afterwards not before but right so therefore they agreed that he was right if that's the case so why was this young hero savior of the Jewish people mocked there's something awful it seems like they're going on a tangent about his when there's a much more fundamental issue here if he's a criminal it's much worse than his grandfather fattening cast trust me he's a killer he's already said it's a very serious thing whether his grandfather gave stuck all that let's say somebody had a say though didn't fatten calves he gave charity all day and learned Turtle all day and did holy things all day and finished to heal him six times a day but this guy is a murderer I don't care about his Aida and if a person is innocent he may have had a zedu who did things I mean and especially Israel is somebody who transformed his life history came to the desert and he told me you know stab as they say below the belt like so let's understand so it but even if you want to say his nature so zai but if he did the right thing he did the right thing what are you making fun of LMI he did the wrong thing then it's not just his grandfather was a bad guy he said I'd say there's something else also that we have to understand here and that is if let's say for whatever reason Pincus was being faulted for his Ada his mother's father did horrible things he fattened calves probably disorder why did they focus on this detail he fattened calfs he gave calves to eat a lot before using them to worship idolatry what about the fact that when he came to Moshe in the desert he told moisha Hashem now I know that God is greater than all the gods so because I'll say from here you learn that Israel did not abandon even one of aidazara there was not a single Pagan Idol that destroy did not experiment with there's not a single idolatry that he did not engage in anywhere he heard about some form of a desire and they were abundant forms of avidazar in the ancient world that's what much of civilization revolved around Israel went to study it and engage in it and do it his curiosity his inquisitiveness that maybe they should mention if you really want to talk about it say this that's a pretty big thing they somehow hone in they zoom into one detail that he fattened calfs lovely desara why that detail now comes the next question however we explain their mockery of pinchas how is all this refuted by calling him a grandson of iron okay so you had to say the Aaron but you still had a zaydah who fattened cash forever so this guy you say oh but he had another say there okay I know that he had another Zaid everybody knew that Pincus is a grandson of iron we knew that somehow all of this is refuted by identifying Pincus the son of Aaron hakain so I asked four questions question number one is why were all the tribes upset with Pinterest I understand the tribe of shim and why the other ones when they knew and they agreed with him and they knew that he stopped the plague number two why is the main relevance here his day has passed if he was wrong he's a criminal he's a murderer that's what they should discuss and if he's right who cares about what is Ada did besides we add it why insult and denigrated zaidu who was about trivia you're not even supposed to do that you're not supposed to tell Aguero about remember what you used to do and why focus on the fact that he's feeding calves instead of the fact that he worshiped in the universe on the planet whatever he can put his hands on and finally how does it all get refuted bye calling him now I don't want to get too nitty-gritty but in rashy every word is very very precise and if you take a look at the source again this is the third paragraph it's it's colored a little bit differently you see a little uh dark in the background so you could see the Rashi just a few a few interesting details and it will you'll see the Precision the Precision of Rashi [Music] says the father of his mother fattened calfs of avidazara well why is that necessary actually could have written one word instead of two words [Music] would it be a difference if it was his father's father his father's mother actually the fattened calves forever DeSoto especially here there's not even a question who it is because we know who his father's father was Aaron Aaron did not fatten the calves forever dessert but actually focused doesn't say the word he says the father of his of his mother so that means somehow that is relevant another interesting thing is they say with me Israel when you're murdering an innocent person if you're murdering an innocent person there's no difference if he's a Nasi or it's a child or it's a man or it's a woman or a child older younger all right it's the same death penalty Lois it's a heavy person if this was the taina that he was wrong they're focusing vahara he kills anasi element you're going to say they didn't think he was a murderer so we're back to that question yeah what do you want to ask you're asking even a bigger question if you're ready you want to mock this guy why don't you say you know his mother wasn't even Jewish her whole life you know he's not even a full group I mean he's a full Jew his mother converted but asada wasn't Jewish and you can even go further we focus one thing calves and fattening calves good very good you're adding more schmuck [Music] the truth is that the mockery of the Jewish people was very subtle if they would have felt that Pincus was a murderer that's what they should have said and then it's not just mocking him it's much more serious than that it's not just I'm embarrassing a person somebody is a murderer they should be penalized in very serious ways at least locked up or penalized in some way this is more like they were making these snidy remarks about him so for this we have to understand what was going through their head and in order to appreciate this let's understand a little more about the context of the story what does it means zealots what makes a person a zealot is there like a checklist I'm a zealot you see most laws in the Torah it's textbook so if there's a Judiciary if there's a due process and there's a court and it's a good court it's a best and it's an authentic Court we're not talking about the corrupt situation we're talking about a real sanhedra especially in that time you're talking about and the judges that he appointed and there's a due process and it follows that this particular crime warrants this particular penalty so you more or less following textbook and even if it's painful there's a certain confidence because we're doing what it says when it comes to this mean it means I'm a zealot so if I'm not a zealot I'm not allowed to do it in fact if I come to the court and I say am I allowed to go kill they'll say you're not they won't they won't give you that advice that's the part of that is that bezen is not allowed to tell Pincus to do it that's why Maisha didn't tell him to do it so what does it take to be a kanoi what does it mean I'm a kanoi the word kanoi means a zealot but what does a zealot in this context mean it means one thing that I have no agenda I'm completely completely selfless that's not a textbook situation that's something that's a very very deep reality I could do something for the wrong motives but I'm doing the right thing hear motivation is critical because it's this motivation that either distinguishes it from a moral act to an immoral act let's even understand what does it mean what does it take to be a zealot what does it really mean why is that that way either it's right or it's wrong if it's right so make it a law if it's not right so it shouldn't be right for anybody this is so interesting there's only a few laws in the title that work this way how does it work if it's right it's right if it's wrong it's wrong you say for everybody it's wrong if you ask me if you should do it or not it's wrong I'm not going to tell you to do it but if you do it it's fine what does this really mean what it means as follows there are situations in life there are situations in life you can't say it's black and white it's really not black and white it's all about where the person is where the person is the gemara says a person doesn't sin unless there's a spirit of insanity that goes into them that means what does this really mean it means that a person's internal most deepest deepest deepest instincts if I can remove all of the spirits of folly from me if you can get down to the Core the soul is a piece of Hashem it wants to do what Hashem wants the famous Rama the ramam says that we have a concept of somebody Allah has to give a get and he doesn't want to so that is the best in is a lot of force until he says I want to and he gives the get but the rambam says that you have to give a get willingly if you force them to say I want to that's not called I want to so why does it work the get should be invalid that's what the ramble man I'm forcing you to say I want thank you twist your arm until you say found then a minute later you go out you say I didn't want you didn't really want so the whole get should be invalid that's what the Rama masks but it's not it's a valid get if how logically the best didn't said he has to give a get under those situations even forcing the person to give the get and saying I want to is valid so the rambam says something unbelievably powerful he says every Jew deep down wants to do what Hashem wants foreign there's an outer Force called the yetzer and that prevailed over him like hijacked his emotions it hijacked his instincts so he says when this person was forced or beaten and he said the right Sonny I want to he was saying the truth even though he's screaming that he wasn't saying the truth but he was really saying the truth sometimes a person is unaware of their own truth I may have blockages I may say this is what I want if you go deeper if you remove my blockages you'll see it's not what I want I want something else we know it all there and I I sometimes say I want this piece of cake right do I really really want it no how do I know 20 minutes later I regret it and I'm like oh I was so stupid but I said I wanted it in that moment I was stressed I was overwhelmed I was under pressure so some of us when we're under pressure we go to The Pantry or to the refrigerator I'm not talking about anybody in this room I'm just talking about me ah the spirit of insanity ain't nothing there's always a spirit of insanity that takes over and we have these spirits of insanity some of us more frequently than others saying something very deep it's not that Mitzvahs are superimposed on a person no that's organic it's called living healthy balance centered in touch with myself it's called a life of self-respect sometimes I have a roosters whatever that works just looks like Temptation addiction stress fear other stuff that come in and they hijack my brain they hijack my heart and suddenly a few hours later I'm like what did I do and sometimes for years I could be caught up in I'm just detached for myself but if I could really peel away all the layers and truly see who I am see who you are then you'll see that the Jewish soul is aligned organically it's aligned with the will of its creator because it's a part of its creator that's natural that's natural it's called being being normal being centered the sin is the ruachthos so what's the idea of the kanoi what's the idea of when somebody when somebody is truly truly perturbed and bothered by a situation and therefore they make a move in a very bold move but they know there was no agenda here there was no ego here there was no personal Vendetta here it was not because of a certain external emotion that I'm trying to satisfy they were completely in a place of alignment completely in a place of alignment then we could say if there was no blockages then your intuition is divine but how can I say that I'm going to say every intuitive feeling is divine I can't trust myself on that level I would love to but I can't but sometimes every person knows this in their life there's moments in a person's life when blockages are removed and you know exactly what to do nobody has to say it it doesn't have to say in a book in fact looking in a book will ruin it not because the book is not good but because it's much deeper than that because you know exactly because the core of your soul is calling out but we have to be careful because I have an ego and I have bias and I have fear and have insecurity and Aviator and I have Temptation I have addiction so person therefore needs a guide and needs support and needs an unbiased opinion but at the core of the core the rambam says your intuition is Holy if I can touch my core that's the idea kanoi in Pagan boy I'm not going to tell you because if I have to tell you it's not that if I have to tell you what to do in these situations it's not going to work because then you're going to do it because I'm saying it I'm also not going to tell you you're not allowed to do it if this is really your state where you know this is the right thing how do you know because you're being you you're really being in touch boom you don't need to ask anybody because you're aligned with Hashem as well but this is a very sensitive very sensitive truth I think as mothers some of you understand this very well sometimes you can have the whole city telling you something about your child every expert but sometimes mama just knows best when does mother trust herself and when doesn't she trust herself this professional said this and that professional said this and this one said this so somebody who doesn't trust anybody and I always know best usually it's a big big problem and challenge but there are situations where there's just an awareness that a healthy person you have to know that you're healthy and you have to know that it's not an ego thing because if it's yeah it's very dangerous but if I know that I'm ready to hear opinions and I'm humble and I'm not here to prove myself and I'm not here to be confrontational but in the deepest place of my soul with a lot of clarity and peace I know this is the right thing sometimes mom got to say this is the way to go I this expert said this way fine if they're saying something and I realize it's true then the kanoi will be the first one to surrender because if there's any issue of ego or I'm going to be right or I'm going to prove you wrong that I'm completely not in that state that I'm in just I'm I'm in a place of static and these are two different states in life sometimes I'm in a place of static I'm in a place I don't have that clarity if this is the case so this is what the terrorist says this is a situation why I have to know that there's nothing but the true rats in Hashem that's guiding me ah this is so subtle this is not something I can point there oh this is it this is so sensitive this is so deep Hashem knows the truth and you know the truth but how does anybody else know the truth this is what happened here they knew that pinchas had a source for what he did he heard from my Shabbat they knew that they couldn't say he's a murderer he's a criminal he deserves to die he killed two innocent people their China was one thing they're looking around the crown they said I don't understand was here Aaron is here he said his father Allah is here well Aaron passed away already sorry Aaron wasn't there but his father Allah is there moisturabena was there all the scandals are there all the elders all the judges all the sages it says this fellow zimri took this girl in front of everybody everybody was there moisha did nothing nobody did anything one guy took a spear with boom maybe he has a hectare but I want to ask you a question didn't this come because he has a streak of violence in him of course that's what happened yeah he has a cover he has a cubism but I want to ask you should have been doesn't care about God Only He his great nephew cares the youngest guy obviously he has a streak of violence he has a streak of Cruelty he likes blood but you know what a whole day he has to control it he wants to be a respected member in society he had to give all the excuse so the Cheeto the tiger pounds Boom come on he has a good cover it may even be the right thing I'm not even saying it's the wrong thing but I want to know why him you know sometimes in the situation somebody speaks up and they maybe they're saying the right why are you the only one who said it does that have to do with the purity of it or does that have to do with the fact that I'm a not worked out person how did they bring this out they brought it out through one specific thing and that is he had a Zaid and asaida had a minute not that he was not that he worshiped Idols that's not the issue not even that he worshiped every single Idol in the world that's not the issue the issue is one thing let's understand he didn't take calves and slaughter them for the gods for the fake gods that's a stus that's insanity that's pettiness he fattened them what does that look like it's like cannibals who feed the people so that their meals should be gishmaker meals I'm feeding the calves what are the calves thinking when I'm feeding them what are they thinking that I'm their best friend [Music] this is a different type of axarius this is a different type of Cruelty sometimes I take a calf I Slaughter it from a desire may be wrong but here first I feed you I fatten you you're getting bigger and stronger the calf is loving every moment the calf trusts me the calf likes me the calf feels so good about what I'm doing the cat feels loyal to me because I'm loyal to it but what's my whole purpose my whole purpose is just that when I kill you ah it should be a real shrita to be a big fat shitta that my deity my Pagan God shouldn't just get a a lean calf an emaciated calf a hungry calf who's been doing fasting but rather a well-fed robust fat calf this is the quality of Israel what does that come from this is an extra lack of insensitivity this is what we call Midas it's an attribute of Cruelty so when I wanted to bring this out about pinchas this is what they said now let's understand what this means according to this it's not about the tribe of Shimon the tribe of shiman were upset at pinchas personal reasons and they may have disagreed with what he did Rashi says it was all the shmatam because the question was not what he did the question was what has what are his motivations what was happening deep inside his soul deep inside his heart why was no one ready to assume the role of a zealot save this young man who right away sprinted with a spear and boom killed them both is he really the most selfless human being among classical Israel is he really the most idealistic pristine pure soul untarnished unaffected it's much more likely to say he's an Angry Young Man or as they would say in English today he has a lot of other issues that are not worked out and he found a terrorist sanctioned outlet for aggression you know what that's dangerous he got to work on his aggression he got to work on his anger management and you know what we do as Jews we start digging up the skeletons from the closet that's what every Jew does and you right away go to the zaida of course you go to the zaida and this reinforced their initial doubts I have inherited genes from my mother I inherited dreams from my grandfather I inherited we all inherit genes from our parents in epigenetics we know a lot is embedded in those dream genes even things that happen later in life certainly things that are passed on from generation to generation take a look how this man worshiped idols and that's why Rashi doesn't bring out that they said Israel worshiped every avoidazara that was an issue of philosophy he made a mistake in philosophy he made a mistake in theology rather the issue was his inhumanus the inhumanity of it there's a cruelty here and he closed it in holy in the Holy in holy camouflage and holy vestments of of of divine zealotry this also explains why rashe says doesn't just say his Ada you see he says the father of his the father of his mother why is that so important because I'll say that there's a special relationship between where there could be a special relationship on a deep level there's always a special relationship between a father and a daughter and therefore a mother and a son the way they express it is ishakela when the Isha the woman is a boy when is actually a girl if so Rashi emphasizes Avi imoi if is as a special kinship with his mama even more than his papa his mother and this means that his mother has a special kinship with her father more than even than her brothers ah so if so it makes sense that if his mother's father had this nature of Cruelty what's the nature of Cruelty let's understand there's killing in this killing sometimes a person is a killer obviously that's horrific but there's something even more cruel and that is I'm your best friend I'm your best friend I'm gonna feed you come in trust me and then I use that trust against the calf I use that trust against them in other words the goodness that I'm doing for you is really with one purpose to kill I'm fattening the calf I'm feeding it in order to kill it that's a different type of Cruelty if this was zaida so they said ah this is where his zealotry comes from that's why didn't do it his nature of Cruelty was a tremendous Factor in this experience this explains why the shevatim did it denigrated him not only shiman this explains why they didn't just say call him a murderer that was not the issue this explains why it actually says it also explains why rashes doesn't say that he killed the Jew he killed a Nasi because this brings out this truth in such a deeper way this true this brings out even more the so-called cruelty of pinchas why what's the role of a Nasi the role of a Nasi of a leader is to take care of his tribe it's a life of service a life of generosity a life of benevolence that's the role of anosi the role of anasi is to help his tribe to be there for them in other words what was zimri's life it was about giving about dedication especially in this case why did Zim redo this whole thing with Cosby because she mind's tribe was suffering the consequences of their pagan origin they came to zimri and he sacrificed himself he jeopardized himself to legitimize the sin of his tribe in fact it says that he brought Cosby to Maisha and he said am I allowed to be with her or not but she said you're not allowed when he told Marcia you also married a midianite woman foreign and everybody started to cry at that moment and he went and he did what he did with Cosby so zimmri was putting his own life in danger he perhaps knew that a zealot could come and smite him maybe he even knew that so he put his life in danger why in order to legitimize their sin and rescue his tribe so they said ah look at the contrast between pinchas and zimri the contrast of the two [Music] the murderer was cruel and the victim was full of hasid in fact the act that he did for which he was killed was an act of kindness this brought out so much more the country didn't just kill anybody he killed the Nazi and especially they argued even more people who are cruel they hate most kind people because they evoke them they trigger them people who are opposite of me they're so different than me they touch the conscience they trigger the conscience so people who are cruel they hate the most kind people because he's so opposite than me ah so this was their Theory now I understand even better why pinchas was so triggered by zimri by this kind benevolent selfless giving human being this was the time of the Jewish people Cubs are Ashley and says in order to deal with this so Taylor says oh you want to know who Pinnacle says let me tell you about Pinterest is the son of a loser the son of Aaron of course he had to say that yesterday of course he had to say we know about to say the Israel but I want to tell you who pinnacus is I want to tell you about his character we don't biologically it is I want to tell you who he is and I'm telling you to right now in this story is attached to Aaron Aaron was the most gentle most peace loving individual of the Jewish people as the mishnah says love peace Pursuit peace love people this is [Music] the house of his everybody was in mourning men women children why because I'll say because Aaron spent years 40 years in the desert and perhaps before in Egypt to make peace between husbands and wives between people between cognitive friends between strangers between partners lots of Solomon is in fact it says that Aaron's funeral he had tens of thousands of Jews that followed his cough that it was he went up to her or her but at his eulogy there were tens of thousands of Jews he says and they were all children who were born from the families from the couples that iron restored their peace it's like a number of I think eighty thousand hundred huge numbers of Jews which basically meant that Aaron dedicated a lot of time for this so who was Aaron Aaron was he didn't have a mean bone in his body he didn't have a streak of violence in his system he wasn't an angry violent frustrated aggressive brazen tough harsh individual who was just looking looking for the right opportunity to be able to pounce on a person and say ah you're dead in fact when the title describes the story it says and we have it in the sources he took a spear in his hand yeah obviously where did he take it in his foot he took it with his hand yeah usually you take a spear with your hand you don't take it with your nose you don't put it in your mouth the toad is trying to say something some people they walk out of their house in the morning with a spear whether a physical one or a verbal one now they just have to know where they're going to use it and against we're going to use it I find the opportunity boom you're the Target today walk around with a spear it was that moment he took a spear with his hand that moment so Aaron who is the great lover and peace and pursuer of Peace this is what shaped pinnacus this is in character and temperament Hashem who knows what's happening inside he's attesting you have to know that Pinterest takes up after his paternal grandfather Aaron akayan so not only is he not inclined to violence and aggression it's actually the antithesis of his very chemistry of his very temperament some people are not inclined towards something it's not their thing it's not just he's not inclined his whole life is an antithesis of that he's a man of peace there's no element of meanness inside of him so then why did he do it only one reason he was aligned there was a moment that all the blockages were gone he was aligned with his soul he really cared for the Jewish people he really cared about truth he really cared about what's the right thing is I'm giving him a reward of Peace come on you could say pinchas did the right thing but you can't say he did a peaceful thing homicide is not peaceful even if the person needed to be killed don't call the peace I'm giving him the gift of Peace well you can give him another gift but why peace you could say he did the right thing nobody's going to call a war piece it may be a Justified War it may be a moral War nobody doubted the justification and the morality of the second World War no normal person doubts what Israel is doing in the Janine today to uproot dozens and dozens and hundreds of Terror cells may God protect the soldiers doing it but we all understand it's not peace it's painful it's painful engagement with your enemy because you have no choice the fact that the Torah calls it is telling you what Pinterest was all about his entire agenda was he saw that this type of this type of action is creating the worst war and strife and violence in the Jewish community in the Jewish world and that's what he was stopping this eliminated what the schwartam was saying about Pinterest and this is what you see if you take a look the second to the left the second the the the the third to the last Source the terrorist says but in the place where the title Trace is the lineage of the righteous person for praise it traces the lineage of the Russia of the wicked person for disgrace but what does it say disgraceful about him it says in the sea base of La shimani he was a Nasi of Shiva shim and where is the disgrace so let's understand I understand the praise of penichasaldic Aaron everybody know was the kind God oh you've solved what's the opposite but now we can understand it becomes very very clear because let's think about it when the Titus says the name of the person who was Smitten by pinchas his name was zimri and he was a tribal Prince of the shimanites of of of of shayvachiman what's the idea those who looked with a negative eye on pinch his motives they saw the cruelty quote unquote even more underscored by the fact as I said before who he killed he didn't just kill any Jew he didn't just kill any human being he slew a man who was dedicated heart and soul to his people he killed a man of love and not only that what he was doing was an act of love because he was trying to legitimize what shavid Shimon did so he was doing an act of love and sacrifice so Pincus was venting his own violent passions so they said while zimbri was the selfless person so the victim was selfless and the perpetrator was the one who actually was selfish and violent zimby put his life on the line to save his own tribe to legitimize their sins by showing it's not so bad I'll do it myself with Cosby and everybody will see it's fine because I'm such a hush of a person so even if pink has did the right thing obviously he did it for the wrong reasons zibree may have done the wrong thing but you know what he was motivated by love this was the rumor businesses did the right thing the wrong reasons too much violence inside of him Jimmy did the wrong thing these are Jews who agreed with what he did they knew somebody was wrong but you know what he was a good guy what did they say his heart was in a good place he did the wrong thing this was the rumor this was the rumor that's why they said me Israel didn't just kill anybody brought out more the contrast so Hashem who knows the truth dispelled the picture he showed that this is a distorted distorted picture is a child of our a grandchild of iron his nature is absolutely peaceful zimry actually he traces him to Shimon what's the uniqueness of Shimon yaakov on his Deathbed spoke about shipment and he spoke about shiman's Wrath and shiman's anger is saying he rebuked jimin for having some streak of violence relative to the level of shipment and for having some heated passion that can be harnessed in unproductive ways the story of Shem the story of Joseph this was shiman so the Toyota is now saying so I want you to understand the truth here about pinchas versus zimri in fact the gamar inside the Tells a Story there was uh one of the kings of the Jewish people he came from the hashmanayam his name was Alexander yanai Alexander janius they called him in the Greek and he was not a good King he was a violent violent King he was on his deathbed and he was giving over the royalty to his wife would be a monarch in the holy land during the second base for nine years and was probably the best nine years maybe a little more the best decade that they had because she was a uh uh she was a queen yes but not just a queen she was a a queen she had the character of a of a queen Sterling character refined kind benevolent the antithesis of her husband her husband was a killer a real satsuka sister and she saved her brother because her husband was killing everybody he went on a murder orgy so she saved her brother she was uh everybody was in awe of her what she did but her husband told her before he died he said so he was a smart guy he says there's two people you don't have to be scared of you don't have to be scared of the prism of the hate you know why they're honest we know who they I don't like them but they're honest they believe in Toyota they believe in Allah you don't have to be afraid of them they'll tell you what they think she of course was one of them she turned out to be one of them you also don't have to be afraid of The Other Extreme you have to be x-rayed from the tsvolume from the con artists and he used an interesting expression are you sin myself actions they do actions of zimri the reward they want reward of Pinnacles that was his expression literally it means somebody who's a con artist I'm doing one thing but I want to get rewarded like Pinnacles in other words I want to be considered a saint a Holy Angel but now we see how precise actually this expression is because zimri on one hand ice and mice and zimri not just that it's really bad it looks good at the surface right zimri's act as an act of kindness but his kindness was the ultimate hypocrisy why instead of fulfilling his role as a leader what's the real role of a leader to influence your people to seize their destructive Behavior which is destroying them that's what a leader is supposed to do what does he do he pursues the Fulfillment of his own Passions without seeing the terrible consequences for his people and he makes believe that he's doing it for them when it's really about his own passion so he's taking the very position of leadership and corrupting it and it's all disguised as an act of selflessness and self-sacrifice when essentially it's selfish through and through and through now you have Pincus pinch his deed was was so to speak you could call it hypocrisy in the positive sense it looked like it was cruel it looked like it was harsh look what he did he killed Jimmy and Cosby but in truth it was purely selfless it was purely peaceful complete the opposite of what happened now let's see what the Irish says the last source and as I mentioned before today teslaf tamos is the yard set of he was born in Morocco lived in Morocco and then at the end moved to your shalayim where he passed away Thomas he's buried in herization people visit his resting place especially today and he wrote a classic commentary on hummus called he's known as the Irish because of his saintliness and he has a fascinating piece here on this possic the name is Israel hamuka now you could see he's bothered by the grammar of the Apostle can we take a look at the possible it's like a run-on sentence the name of the man of Israel who was struck who was struck with the midianite we know that he was struck with the midianite those four words are completely Superfluous the whole story is that zimry was together with Cosby and Princess killed them both it could have just said he was struck with the midianite and then the next person says gives a fascinating interpretation and it brings out what we always talk about what how you have to look at a soul and here we're talking about zimri after explaining who zimri was and I have to explain and how it looked like things at the surface was really the other way around let's see what their hayam says I want to explain it based on what we have been taught earlier from the great from the macabolum from the kabbalists no spark of Holiness will ever be cast will be Cast Away for eternity which means nobody will be Cast Away every single spark of Holiness will find its way back the coulomb yes powerful words Every Spark will return to the place where it returned where it came from I may have be may I May Roam far far away but as one of the camp songs says as far as you May Roam you will always come back home says that the nitsuts The Spar can go far away which means in a person's life my Journeys my voyages can take me very very far from my own source my own core or to put it differently the ways and Google Maps may be broken in my system the GPS God's positioning system is shut down so therefore I make a right and I make a left I'm trying to get from here to the next town but I end up in Miami or California okay that's not so bad may end up in some other places says Every Spark will got back to its place sooner or later so therefore when you see a Jew even if you see that he or she is engaged in your real negativity or even yet basically the soul is screaming out of pain of how destructive he is trust distrust the truth at the end everyone returns to their roots for who I'm right this is what the Posse is saying is the shame is after the whole story this man caused the crazy plague this man did a horrible thing Pincus was justified in killing him the way the Titan introduces him after the story is the shame issue so I want to tell you the name of this Jew is trying to say something don't think he's less Jew after the story you would think okay as a guy a real guy at this point like his girlfriend his girlfriend was a midianite he's also became one so the terrorist says I know what happened but we're still calling him says Israel is acronym yes that means he still has his letter he's still connected but shame isram still come it's not it's not um sugar coating or whitewashing what happened but he's called the same issue he was not uprooted from his Source from his root the tree may be infected the tree may have bacteria the tree may have a virus the trees apples may be a little sour or a lot sour it may be a lemon instead of an essric but it has roots it's connected to its roots then the total continues even more if this is true he has roots so what happened so he says this Jew who was struck Ash who was struck with the midianites so there are times I'll explain to you what the Posse is saying this man who pinned his truck made don't think he was struck because his soul is lost his soul was not lost he was struck with the midianite woman it was not telling you a fact we know the fact it's telling you something much deeper peerosa medianes foreign [Music] he says as follows the part of him that was lost was not his soul s it's the relationship with the medianas there was a toxicity that went into him that was struck that was eliminated that helic that was nidbak boy like a dibbuk it was it cleaved to him it went into him that's the negativity that was struck down foreign and that part was eliminated with this and therefore his soul becomes completely pure you could say it differently same ideas he was struck only when he was with her the moment he was not with her there was no residue of any dirt any Sin City sometimes you're looking at negativity it's not the person's negativity it's their attachment with something their attachment that's the negativity it klept on them that's the only part that was struck so through when he was together in that relationship that had to be struck but the moment you separate it's a pure Soul this is explaining why am I calling him an itchy thrill he made such a horben is because essentially he remains a Israel and after what happened after Pinterest what it did his soul is as pure and pristine as it gets zakah this is what I want to write he says a possibility how you look at a person but this whole Rashi also brings out another very powerful point about judging people let's think for a moment we're putting ourselves in the minds of the Jewish people they see what pinchas did they're not disagreeing with them they're just saying he's a young Angry Kid young Angry Kid it happens and he found religion as a good outlet and we know people do that that itself is a lesson people do that people have to ask themselves am I doing this because this is what Hashem really really wants I'm really doing it from a place of peace or do I have other stuff and I'm just using God and religion as a good what's the word as a cover they call it in magazines the cover Story the cover story is God the inside story is rap this is a thing the person has to ask themselves sometimes a person could be so meticulous in Allah it's beautiful but they're suffering from OCD if their kids do something off a little of their wife does something of gavalk it's the end of the world [Music] I'm saying the right thing but where's it coming from that's a very very dangerous issue and that's what the Jews are having issues with because if that's the case what happens if tomorrow you're going to kill the wrong person you'll also have a justification so we all understand this in a very very powerful way they tell a story in in by khasid and they're very careful with the brux those of you who grew up among hasidim no matter and somehow says it's worse than Muhammad I'm just joking OMG those of you who know what I mean know what I mean brox is a serious everybody is careful but there's a reason for it because in the commercial matzah bakeries a lot of particles of flower you bring your coat in you'll see you'll go home with a white coat and those particles may not be baked even on the matzah and if it gets wet it can become hummus so it's a very legitimate camera even though not everybody accepted it if they say a story that was once the previous labavator the sixth chapter his name was the rabbit and among hasidim including they were very careful with so they were sitting at his one of his space Exodus and there was a Jew who came from a different community and they had what's called barst you know what barshtas uh beats like a beet soup vinaigrette uh pizza so this person had mats and he saw a beautiful beet soup so what do you do a Jew likes dips we liked Fila right ain't no no madvillain we like to beat to evil so he dips it in to eat his matzah with a little more today you do it with avocado guacamole then he had burst so there were some Yeshiva Boys there so they got very uh outraged so they it was at the end of the table they like I guess rebuked them what are you doing so the river ayats was on the other end of the table he saw there was a commotion so he asked somebody near him what's what happened so the persons found out and he says this person didn't so they're rebuking him so without skipping a heartbeat he said besser matzo we are written upon him much better a red matzah than a red face what is he trying to bring out not that brux is not an issue he was a very very stringent thing abrupts but it's perspective it's losing priority the whole reason you eat matzah is to be myself in your shamaya if in the name of that suddenly I'm gonna make you blush and embarrass you so then what's the whole point of it it's not understanding what's the means and what's the end so this idea this concern is a very profound concern in people's lives sometimes there are people who make mahas they protest and they're very they're saying good things they're saying the right things but they have to ask themselves why why is this what I jump but why is this the first Mitzvah that I jump on it's also have to ask another question every time a person rebukes their child or rebukes their spouse twice why twice he says rebuking is good but before you rebuke you have to rebuke one more person yourself I have to ask myself where is this coming from where's I may be saying the right thing but if it's coming from a place of Anger of negativity I don't have patience I'm impulsive it's going to come out the wrong way and it may not be productive at the opposite because the person will feel that you're not in a position of closeness so they're going to create a defense mechanism and they may have to distance themselves more just to protect themselves and to distance you even more so I always have to ask myself I may be saying beautiful words but what's behind those words nobody knows only I know and Hashem knows these are very very subtle things I could fool the whole world I'm screaming about something very holy and sacred MS but I have to ask myself is it my own anger is it my own misery is it my own disappointment is it the fact that you're disappointing me and you're ruining my statue my ego you know I have to ask myself if I see something in my loved one that I don't like what is it that's bothering me is it perhaps what's bothering me my own reputation which fine I'm a human being but don't confuse that with what God really wants maybe God really wants something else at this moment maybe I shouldn't focus on myself maybe I should focus on what my child needs so this question is a very deep question and that's why the Jews were challenging him this wasn't just they were bad people trying to make fun of pinchas this was a real concern especially when you're killing somebody sometimes there's situations when we have to speak sharply to somebody you have to avoid it as much as possible to come but you have to be careful because if I embarrass somebody it's a form of murder if I rebuke somebody in an inappropriate way I could be hurting them I could be damaging them so then I have to ask myself very very deep question if this is coming from my own my own unresolved issues my own unresolved anger my own unresolved ego my own unresolved fears or insecurities is this the right moment am I the right person maybe I need to be in a different state of mind maybe I need some support here maybe I need to work out some stuff maybe I have to come from a different place which will also be much more effective that's a question a person always has to be aware of because it's so easy to camouflage things especially when a person lives in a community that is Guided by Allah and guided by as it should be and I can often present things as a cover story which seem holy when inside there are other stuff going on and the results for Shalom could sometimes be opposite of what I desire but we also see the opposite lesson and that is how do I deal with other people sometimes you see somebody doing something and it's the right thing but there's sometimes a tendency in people in Yiddish it's called mahap ah his motives are a pure ego makavec different cultures have different expressions it says about there with their wrath they killed somebody he meant Joseph they almost killed Joseph so they used to touch but means with the nose sometimes with the nose you can kill somebody you know it's a how do you say it in English uh crooked doesn't really work huh jokes facial expression facial expression [Music] Town she's uh yeah she needs to be called the greatest bylas has said in the whole month see months he's not enough they won't say a policeman stopped a rabbi and he was speeding and want to give him a big ticket so the rabbi told the chauffeur tell them tell the police who I am so the guy tells the you know who I have in the back seat I have the chief Rabbi of the United States of America he adds Canada too oh this person you have to be a fine schmecker this person has to be a high roller this person has to be in the right Viva this person needs that the name the reputation that they're the kindest and Noble and holiest person it's very easy to do that I may know I may not know usually I don't know but it's a common thing and it's expressed why am I kid what do I care because I'm a sincere person I'm an authentic person I'm not a person of vanity I'm not a person of ego and when I see such ego and when I see such fan fear and drama and drama and drama I can't take it because I'm authentic that's the story that happened there we're authentic people we're not going to tolerate Pinnacles doing this holy holy holy thing and we know that inside there's a lot of a lot of other motivations this is what Russian hazala are teaching us here what Hashem is teaching us here how one has to be extremely careful because the first thing is let's say even somebody does something with different motives we have a cloud materials when a person is doing good things even if there's motives that may not be the most noble one should never stop it on the contrary I should continue doing it especially there's an explanation doesn't just mean from the shall illness inside the inside maybe externally I have this mode of them the rambam says deep inside you're aligned so I may think I may be doing it for one reason but deep inside your soul is actually doing it for the right reasons and that's why ultimately you'll find out who you are one day you just have to get rid of the blockages huh that's why for no section yeah so according to show the person should continue doing this they said it was once a Jew he came to the Balaton used to give a lot of money if it's DACA for poor people and he told the balatanya I give a lot of but nothing is sincere I do it all for covet actually he told me the truth it's not with an MS there's no truth they said that balatanya went into advocacy went into a spiritual like trance for a few minutes and he opened his eyes and he says but the bread that they eat is real bread it's authentic the bread is authentic you say you're inauthentic maybe you're inauthentic so work on yourself you're gonna stop giving bread that's going to be more authentic I'll sit on the couch and say okay I'm gonna wait till I don't have an ego and then I'm gonna feed the hungry child the bread is real that's much more important than anything else yeah and then we learn from here that besides all of this it's very very hard to know what's happening deep inside people's hearts very difficult people don't know what's happening in your heart even you don't always know what's happening in your heart do you think I could be in a position of knowing exactly what's happening in this person's life it's a very very complex and sometimes they even have to challenge myself and say you know maybe it's exactly the other way around maybe what's happening is that I feel guilty maybe or I have my own stuff or I'm dealing with jealousy I'm dealing with my own insecurities and my way of justifying and feeling better as if I could say that this person has this motive and this person has this motive and this person is looking for attention this person needs this to say that they're the greatest family in Muncie and this person has so much insecurity and this person is trying to get validation and now Baruch Hashem now I could sip my coffee and feel better about myself so what happens instead of learning from the other person and growing and saying what's bothering me and let me say I could become greater if I could put down the other person and say their motives are horrible I feel better so it's actually the other way around the other person may be far pure than I imagined and this is just a cover-up for my own impurity that I'm doing this and that's what happens here he says you're projecting pinchas was as pure As It Gets that's what you have to realize I'll conclude with a story they tell a story it's a gishmaker story there were two brothers and the older one was shorter than the younger one they were children of a Jew known as he was the son of the samachar and he had two boys rep Zalman Aaron and Bear Shalom bear was younger but taller Salman Aaron was older but shorter so one day he got upset they were playing in the garden the guys they got into some quarrel and there was a ditch so he took his younger brother and he put him into the ditch so the brother started to cry so the father called them over there was known as he asked the older brother versus so he said I'm older I should be taller he's younger he should be shorter I was just trying to create an equilibrium on the planet you know balance out the ecosystem he's younger he should be shortest I put him in the ditch now it was the way it should be I was taller his father looked at him and said the next time you want to feel taller instead of putting your brother in a ditch you should climb onto a mountain climb on a mountain very often voices inside of me are trying to make me feel a little taller the easy way is throw everybody in a ditch then I'm great the harder way but a much more authentic way is I could climb onto a mountain you climb onto a mountain you become taller this was the great lesson of pinchas Hashem said be very very careful because sometimes it's the other way around what's myself I need to work on myself when it comes to people and we become so judgmental especially when we see goodness and it sounds very idealistic when one is really in a place of centeredness and divine Oneness I would never you'd never denigrate the good another person does and if I am I have to ask myself some very very deep questions if this is not a cover-up of my own issues that are unresolved as it turns out here pinchas was the ultimate man of Shalom the ultimate man of kind is the ultimate man of Peace unfortunately he was dealing with a very very Sinister and serious situation which required measures that are unconventional measures are also to bring to save exactly and those measures it saved zimri's soul and it saved the Jewish people and it stopped the plague yeah and even the motivations as we learned were really were really pure and that's why he was Justified on doing it on every level I'm sorry what zimmri depends on which level I mean in the depth of his soul so so he said that was officially why he did it but the point is it may have been exactly the other way around zimry really had a liking to Cosby and he camouflaged it as saving his shave it is still a pure Soul just things oh you're asking a sensitive question is this I was supposed to look at every perpetrator so so it's important to understand yeah if somebody is chasing after somebody to kill him the person may have had the most difficult childhood right and deep down may have an innocent soul but if innocent people are going to be hurt if I don't stop this person I have to stop this person and when somebody has more compassion for perpetrators than for victims something that's very very off it doesn't mean that the perpetrator doesn't have a whole story that's complicated and that the perpetrator can't do truva people if they're accountable and they want to repent and they're ready to apologize and they're ready to heal they can do truva but we shouldn't side with perpetrators more than with victims yes yes the perpetrator deep down his nashama doesn't want to be a perpetrator unfortunately unfortunately got hijacked by whatever forces hijacked this person so I'm not even doing them a favor by enabling them yeah but then what she was asking if you don't know you don't know but sometimes you do know if you don't know you don't know you right but sometimes you do know no sometimes people feel bad for perpetrators they know that they're perpetrated but they say he has a family and he was young and he has a name in the community the victim nobody speaks about the victim yeah wants to commit suicide every day the victim doesn't have a moment of Serenity the victim is suffering from anxiety and depression the victim can't have a normal relationship the victim is quiet nobody knows about it but people are sorry that's that's that's just not fear doesn't make sense yeah of course yeah but sometimes externally I may be doing the right thing internally there's a lot to be desired says somebody who's compassionate for the cruel ends up being cruel towards those you have to have compassion for and there's a reason for it if I'm having compassion for a person who's cruel so ultimately I side with the wrong side so now I go against the right side so it works both ways yeah that way to look at a soul is like the erichem is describing yes that's the way to look at a soul always you always look at a soul that way but it doesn't take away from the fact that if somebody is involved in terrible terrible actions and especially if they're still involved in it the fact that deep down they have a pure soul will not will not be a justification for just sitting back passively and allowing not good things to happen it's it's people should not get confused it's not a steer not a steer the person may be your person as a Jew and the person has a Holy Soul and the person may have made Holiness may be very very deep and deep down there's a lot of Innocence there too in fact there is there is but if that becomes an excuse for not dealing with the darkness it would be like saying that's not what he did he killed him is saying is killed him I mean has killed him and he didn't say saheli therefore let's just let him do it he was wreaking havoc in destruction imagine somebody's walking around with a gun killing children and I say yeah and he had a hard childhood then his mother was at sadakis and his age there was a big Sabbath didn't fatten calves ate the fat and calf so they could be on a nice Farm in Muncie gavaldik but the poems this guy is happy you understand so you always have to have perspective of what's going on there's there's a there's a there's a perspective makes sense even a perpetrator yo what are you confused about it [Music] at the same time so now you're asking a good question that proof is right so why did emotion do something why didn't I why didn't Eliza do something he has a father let his father do it they're all there why are you the only one that was their proof that he's a violent kid he's a vildakaya he's a village like Israel he's a fat very excellent that's a good question the answer to your question is the answer to your question is every neshama has a schlichus that's unique pinchas feltus in the depth of a soul because this was his this was his thing this was his mission that's why he felt it now if I'm feeling stuff and this static and there may be ego involved then you have to ask you have to ask merchanted but as I said in the beginning of the class when you're aligned and you know this is your mission then you know this is your mission and it could be that Hashem caused everybody to be quiet yeah the gemara says could they why did Maisha didn't remember the when pilgrims came to Maisha and he said you told us what to do moisha said what did I say he forgot so Pinterest reminded Maisha so Maisha said well the one who reads the letter should go do the letter he didn't even tell him to do it he was just like because you can't tell somebody to do it what does that mean on a spiritual level sometimes there's a moment Hashem says eclipses the mind of myself because this is avoidance what does it mean in every person's life there's certain situations I say okay this is a situation going on well I'm I'm the only person alive there's plenty people but that's sometimes a wrong attitude sometimes I can't do anything about something there's a situation this is I'm seeing it I know exactly what to do it's because I'm the one who's supposed to do it nobody else is supposed to do it and that's why everybody either forgot or doesn't know what to do or they're confused or they're unclear it's not because it's the wrong thing they said it's because the wrong thing why are you the only way oh the only one you're a violent young kid go go to sleep go good to go do rage therapy in California huh sometimes you remind them creates a situation I'm in a position you're in a position everybody knows it's gonna be in your family in a community in a school in any situation and I'm the person who's supposed to do it and that's why I have the vision and the clarity so I shouldn't say oh there's another thousands in fact how did his whole job if I could say that what happened he went out he saw an Egyptian beating a Jewish he saw there was no man so the mafia said there was somebody there they informed on him so one of the interpretations is he saw Anish there's nobody to do anything there was no man you know he said there's no man in the house but there's no woman in the house maybe no man in the house there's nobody to do anything could have said who am I I'm not even he wasn't officially Jewish he was an Egyptian prince he knew he was Jewish but he wasn't part of the kahilla what do you want for me go call their abundant and the day on them and let them take care of it he didn't say that he protected the Jew and that's why he became so that itself is a similar situation the same thing happened with he could have said it was another billion people let me go to sleep what's mine there's four million Jews let them take care of it what made Pincus Pincus is he had a conviction he knew this is it this is your moment right they must say you never know this this may be it every person in their life you never know what's uh what's the moment I'm sorry what not you're not allowed or they just won't tell you to do it if you come to bed and say should I go kill zimmery they're not going to say go kill him that itself is that they're not going to tell you this is in other words if you're not if it's not deep deep inside there's certain things I cannot tell somebody to do you just don't tell them to do it because you heard affirmation [Music] because right because but he understood for motion that he wasn't wrong that's the he understood from Maisha you're right today we know that but remember this was the first there was no precedent for it ah what without agenda there was no agenda the moment is agenda it's not this and then there's no there's no head to for it then bring him to bazden then call the court and let them deal with it I can't go take things in my own that's why you have to be so careful and that's why they were so suspicious because this is something that's so sensitive it's not about an external Act that's what she asked so why did he even go to Maisha [Music] of course because it just shows how sincere he was how sincere it was he wanted to make sure you know maybe he forgot maybe he made a mistake he heard it from Russia 40 years ago 30 years ago maybe he misheard it's a serious thing you can't just go kill somebody this shows you that he was in a wild uh just a wild uh uh they used to sell wild Indian I don't want to be offensive to anybody no nobody was younger I Maisha was was the 40th year I'm traveling now for a few weeks so the class is going to take a break I I hate it I'll notify I just we'll send out a notice and I want to wish everybody a gazunta Zoomer a freless a healthy summer a joyous summer filled with bracha and atslacha and serenity and good health and the the Future Days should be transformed to Joy huh [Music] right no of course right but it would be like I'll tell myself you know I'm gonna right let's say a person will say you know I'm gonna put my hand in fire oh there's a hospital nearby I'll call Hot Salah that's what a normal person says I'm gonna get sick oh no problem [Music] it's not it's not something we choose if you're not if I'm a normal person I'll say I'll get divorced I'll destroy my family and then I'll do children I'll become about trova it's not it's not a normal way of thinking that itself is that itself is a rushed us Korean yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah that Hashem is saying I know his day there was yesterday but I'm telling you yeah but I'm telling you is he's Aaron's he's Aaron's child [Music] but the bread is real yeah yeah I must you're welcome oh wow mazel tov yeah yeah I will I will I just yeah I didn't know the date yet huh yeah you're just one moment okay yeah I saw I was very supportive but we're just sitting today relaxed because the kids are July 4th I like it actually much more when the alarms yeah cheers yeah and that's she's very serious I see I see but maybe we have to get her a larger notebook s or was it I was saying no I was saying that all of us could relate to their question because it's an important question I may be a great Zealot but I may read really an unwork for an honors I may have a lot of issues it was obvious to you and me but they said maybe maybe he's an aggressive guy I know he did he did the right thing he had a good cover he won't be able to be killed he's not a retired but you and I know my shoulder wouldn't know what that do I I I I either Leed would not do this this is not the way for a Jew to behave this is they both picked up the sword so technically he had it in him no no a Pentacles didn't come from Sherman OH you're saying Oh you mean lavy you mean Levy oh because Aaron from leaving but I think that's a good question also it says that Moshe said Mila May lie and the whole shebad Levy came and they went to kill the idolatrous over there you can also say that but uh that's my point that sins are ready for 40 years they were chosen as the cranium and the Levine so God already sanctioned Levy as being holy you understand that wasn't a question anymore right okay because for 40 years it showed that Eggo they killed Levy earlier so that would they that that's that score was settled only ones who did what mad and she but so I am either right right another another interesting thing is if the schwatten would be making fun of him because his grandfather was an over the desire that was the issue not the fattening of the calves then the Toyota said pink has been a loser not bin iron because iron was the one who made the eagle Aaron was the one who built the golden calf so he had some connection so therefore a loser would be a much better yes for that than Aaron so that's another proof tarashi that the issue wasn't of a desire that wasn't their issue is philosophy it's not genetic you can't say because his grandfather was a Republican or a Democrat oh avidazara's philosophy it's not generic cruelty and kindness could be genetic love on it from when Elias are having a room yeah exactly he's away from Canaan but meet us yeah yeah who is quoting from you it says because over there was an issue of middays not middays weren't but and also then Aaron would be also somewhat of a culprit that's right actually it's not about of a dessert it's about kindness peacefulness it also could have looked really nice to everybody plus the self that also was zimwi I believe if it looks like on the surface that he was almost coming that Korra wearing that was cool right yeah yeah you could tell from the argument they were coming out with convention right yeah you see important people here if we would know a billion of course of course you take accountability yes choices beautiful an educational experience you have a smart daughter yeah I'll give you my phone number um you're going back to school you teach kindergarten so just become one of your students as a teacher because yeah become your own student very akined it's good when a teacher in the classroom is also a child I'm sorry what's the story yes and internally his motives were Sterling pure of course it was uncomfortable that's the point he's getting the word for shalom some cleared them yeah Hashem said he's Vindicated yeah moisture green I'm not going to dab it in a show with her spilling blocks that's what you mean yeah you already like him oh the year is over right right right July July 4th yeah she teaches all she runs degalatera's preschool why is that crazy I was severe