Achieving Complete Faith in G-d with Rabbi Aaron Dovid Poston

[Music] welcome to the even i bait midrash although we are still in exile so to speak we're at my home this is my little office i hope the lighting is good the sound is okay but either way this is what it is it is what it is okay so we are in parches basharak and it's chock full of so many things there's no way we can deal with everything so we're going to talk about one thing and one thing only and that's the mind that came from heaven this was a big test for us and that's we're going to discuss so keep this in mind we're in chapter 16. previously meaning in the end of chapter 15 if right just previous this incident of requiring bread from heaven we were in the desert for only 30 days right as the parsha begins that this is when it is in the on the 15th day of the second month right we left on the 15th day of the first month okay so we're talking about let's say 31 days but it's uh it's around 30 days we had enough matzah to last 61 meals okay so after those two meals per day we're finished we started complaining what are we gonna eat what are we gonna eat so hashem provided but without but we first made a complaint now complaining to hashem could be problematic couldn't it however if you need something and it's legitimate and you ask in it in a legitimate way this is what god wants it pleases him it's okay and it's legitimate and you know chalking up to doing the right thing when you're asking for something uh beyond your needs we'll have to discuss that that's what we're going to talk about tonight but the main thing is that in chapter 16 verse 4 is what we're going to deal with so basically what happened is um as a result of our complaining i want to read actually verse three right the children of israel said to them if only we had died by the hand of hashem in the land of egypt as we sat by the pot of meat we're going to discuss this what kind of pot of meat i mean they had they were satisfied and we ate bread society for you've taken us out into this wilderness to kill us to kill this entire congregation by famine by starvation so moses this is our verse we're going to be dealing with hashem said to moses behold i'm going to rain down for you food from heaven unbelievable let the people go out and pick each day's portion on its day so that i can test them whether they will follow my teaching or not now let's see the hebrew because we're also going to have to deal with verse six in a second the hebrew says like this the omar hashem el moshe right god said to moses hedony behold you know what i'm going to do mom to let him i'm going to cause to rain down for you is bread min from the heavens the utsa arm the people are going to go out we'll lock to they're going to collect dover yombi yomo each what does this mean a thing of the day in its day what does that mean we all know that we had enough to last us one day every day we picked it came in the morning which we'll soon see and it was enough to last one day but this is the most interesting part what does it mean [Music] in order for me to test you hashem is going to test us to see if we to know to determine if we go in his way or his torah or his law what does torah mean in my law in my torah in my teaching or not okay so we have to find out what does it mean right because this is for all time are the jewish people right are you i'm only talking to each individual right are you i don't think people should look at anybody else are you going in god's way or not or what does it mean my torah so rashi right away will say oh you know what i want to go to verse 6 because it's very important for our discussion this is like the introduction still so in verse 6 let me read verse five just for the sake of continuity and it should be on the sixth day when they prepare what they bring it will be double what they pick every day verse six moses and aaron said to the children of israel in the evening you will know that hashem took you out of the land of egypt what what what only in the evening i mean come on for almost a year right almost a year they saw these ten plagues and uh they didn't know that god took them out of egypt the truth is they already went through the sea to see it split i mean you talk about a pillar pillar of fire the cloud of glory the sea had split they were saved what's going on very hard to understand that they would not know that it was hashem that took them out of egypt god through moses and aaron moses now said to them in the evening you will know that hashem took you out of land of egypt and what's the next verse it's number seven and in the morning you will see the glory of hashem that he has heard your complaints against him against hashem for what are we that you should incite complaints against us okay what exactly is happening we'll read we'll find out as we go along so that rashi in verse 4 when it says so that i can test them whether or not they will follow my teaching rashi tells us that it's the second part by giving the mana by giving you the jewish people this angel food this bread that's coming from the heavens that i'm gonna test you whether or not you keep my commandments that relate directly to the mana right it's not the whole torah is it the whole torah perhaps it's according to rashi it's the actual commandments they're dependent and contingent on the mon itself and he gives two examples for example they will not leave any of it over why is not leaving any any of it over a test first of all we know that it rotted the next day so what would be the point of leaving any of it over it could only happen once right if you're going to be tested i mean usually tests are i don't know challenging here you're talking about god says don't leave any of it over till the next day and let's say you did it that first day well the next day it rotted it was no longer there so you wouldn't do that again would you and the second example he gives is they won't go out on shabbos to gather the man right because we see that you're gonna get a double portion on day six well this is also i mean if i'm already having a double portion on day six and by a miracle that doesn't rot meaning the second part the second portion that i took that i didn't eat i left over for shabbat why would i go out and collect more i already have enough so for sure by the end of the first week of receiving this mana from heaven how much of a test could it be and yet god is doing this to test them to see if they're going to follow his laws his so what is his torah mean what is the torah all about let's just use the hebrew right the torah t to see if you go my torah okay so we're going to have to examine exactly what is the torah right okay let's open up we're using the clear car as we always do almost always do as the basis for this discussion and the first line of the clear car it just puts rashi in ishmael if you're going to guard observe keep the mitzvahs which are dependent on the mana for example shalom yotiro me menu you don't leave anything over well yeah but shabbat little code and you don't go out on shabbat to collect it now all this this is going to be the the line that we're going to be dealing with this concept that the clear car is introducing us to is all of this is relating do you trust me do you believe in me do you have security and faith in hashem that's what it's all about now the torah says don't leave it over so if you would leave it over zamoy fate sorry if you don't leave it over as the taurus says do not leave it over so if you fulfill that victim this is a moi fate my fate means it's a sign it's a proof shame that they have complete faith that they have perfected this character trait of a surety and hashem why is that true why is that the case kimi shihlo pat because if someone actually has bread in their basket meaning they have in their fridge they have on their backpack they have in their suitcase food for the next day and yet they were they have enough i should say sorry if these have enough even for today so what are they going to say if they say what am i going to eat tomorrow remember hashem is providing your daily bread that's what we said already actually just read the first rashi because we we only read the second part of the first rashi he explains what dover yom biyomo means a thing of a day in its day what is needed for a day's eating they will gather on its day but they will not gather today's needs for the next day with one exception which is the sixth day shabbos so if you have enough to last for today and you're in the middle in other words live in the now why worry about tomorrow hashem already promised you every single day he will deliver your needs and i'm using that word not lightly your needs and that is going to um contrast the other complaint we're going to see later at least even now that god does give them meat now what is meat is meat of necessity some people certainly think so right but in this case we see that bread and wood are necessities and meat is going to be considered a luxury but in the meantime that is how he brings it down that if someone has someone actually has in their basket enough food for today and yet if they asked what am i going to eat tomorrow mccartney amana this is considered small in faith now i do believe that i brought a gamora here and that would be in sota 48b just towards the beginning of this piece here the mission of states that from the time that when the second temple was destroyed men of faith ceased says these are people who believe in the holy one blessed be he and place their trust in him in all their ways so what kind of people cease people that trust and in hashem as it's brought into bristol rebel ezra the great says that whoever has bread in his basket to eat today and yet he says what will i eat tomorrow mor will will you tomorrow meaning he does not know how he will acquire bread for tomorrow he's nothing other than from those of little faith one must trust in god to provide his sustenance that's as far we're going to read on the gemara so what does god want from us god wants us to have faith that he will provide provided that he's already providing for today if he's providing for you your daily needs today you can be assured that he will provide from here on in and we're going to see forever not just from here on in but through here here on in forever hang in there we're getting there so the clear car goes on and he says similarly if they don't go out on that saturday morning to collect him so there are they're they have faith that from what they collected yesterday will be enough for them also for the following day meaning what they collected on friday would be enough for them on shabbos then i know then it's clear that they are walking in my torah in my teaching in my way this is the way of god because someone who is not complete someone who has not mastered this attribute of faith this is based on a verse in cohes gohellis is ecclesiastes chapter 2 verse 26. it says for to a man who is good at his sight he has given wisdom and knowledge and joy but to the sinner he has given an occupation to gather and to accumulate who this is king solomon it's not me this who's the sinner he gave over like in other words it's a full-time job worrying about your parnassa can you imagine not being able to learn torah isn't that what god wants follow my ways learn torah instead you're going around trying to figure out how you're going to make it for the next five years 10 years 20 years 30 years tomorrow i read it again but to the sinner he is given an occupation to gather and to accumulate and wait to hear the end of the verse and to him and to give to him who is good in god's sight this too is vanity and frustration listen to the words gamel we're going to see a few other the second kings chapter 16 verse 15 and in jeremiah chapter 2 verse 5 those same words appear that the clear card brings down and they went after futility and they themselves became futile someone who's running after the luxuries of this world who doesn't feel comfortable sitting and waiting for hashem to provide in other words hashems are already provided and yet you're worried about tomorrow you are living a life of futility not only are you chasing futility you yourselves become futile okay so this is how he ends up that paragraph that is someone he's basically someone who doesn't has not yet mastered this the end meaning his whole life is spent gathering and accumulating um when we ever find time when will he ever be involved in learning torah kinnode it's just the way most of the people of this world function exactly what i read in those two verses those words appear second kings 16 verse 15 chapter 16 verse 15 in jeremiah chapter 2 verse 5. the asaka torah tough of islam and their involvement in torah is considered secondary by them it's not a top priority and uh that's that's a real shame now we move on to the second paragraph davar alternatively yes this is a very interesting concept he's bringing down there are things that hinder that prevent one from truly involving themselves in torah now it doesn't mean you can't work it doesn't mean that at all but can you imagine can you imagine that they don't have the zits flesh the ability to sit and concentrate for however long it is that you need if you have a 15 minute haruta you have a study session for an hour a day or even an hour a week that if you're totally committed during that time you're not going to be thinking about the buying and selling on the stock market or you're not going to be worried about your production at least during that time and we're going to talk about that right now he says someone who is involved in learning torah they naturally have two he's going to mention two things that prevent you or that hinder you and that is something internally and something externally me by it means inside and um from the outside and what is it from the inside he starts with the inside me by it he's talking about the things that we eat things that how we eat either we eating we're eating gluttonously we're eating too much sugar we're eating things that prevent our ability to think properly i'll just translate literally so there's a thing that hinders us from learning from the inside and that's from the aspect of what we eat we eat gluttonously and we diminish it diminishes the food that we eat diminishes the clarity of of clear understanding until our ability and the kawak doesn't just mean power the the the power of of our intelligence or the abilities of our intelligence go deep down pass over into the muddy lurking waters these just muddied waters meaning our ability to understand it clouds our ability to understand what we eat the anal zach lasso the muscle and therefore we don't have the clarity to involve ourselves in these spiritual slash intellectual matters you are what you eat you have to eat healthy or you have to know yourself i mean there's just a certain amount of sugar you can you can have an intake for or eat gluttonously don't it's it's not good for your it's not good for your spirit it's not good for your mind kimi this is the very reason moses himself refrained from eating he did not eat for 40 days and 40 nights when he went up to mount sinai so it says in exodus 34 verse 38 he was there with the lord for 40 days and 40 nights he ate no bread and drank no water pre-inscribed upon the tablets the words of the covenant the ten commandments in everyth in hebrew or right bread and water he refrained from for 40 days why could they so that his ability to think was clear so that what in order that his intelligence his soul was pure and clean to understand the muscle spiritually sensitive intellectual concepts and we also find in chapter 24 verse 16 it says in the glory of god rested on mount sinai right in hebrew hashem but the next few words are important and the cloud covered it for six days the whole question what does it mean it covered moses or covered the mountain there's a whole description in the gemara we can look at that rashi real quick at the very bottom bottom line is that it teaches you that whoever enters the camp of the shrine requires several days of separation and is all discussed in the gemara but what's the point she is the time that he didn't eat and drink and the six days of preparation in the meantime are in order to cleanse out to to empty out any food and drink that is in his intestines that is within his digestive tract now we just described what was on the internal what's on the inside what about the outside what kind of preventions or hindrances does a person who wants to learn torah face we kind of linted it to it hello heyman yardain as the verse in deuteronomy chapter 11 verse 30 describes that they were walking all over the place when they were in the in coming into the land when they were in the desert i mentioned it's 11 30. are they not on the other side now the word other side is a their hayardane right on the other side of the jordan but we the jewish people are called evreem why are we called ivory because we're on a journey and we're on a journey for what for truth so we need to have our external um obstacles removed if the external obstacles are removed it would make it much easier to learn torah look what it says are they not on the other side of the jordan way beyond in the direction of the sunset in the land of the canaanites who dwell in the plains opposite google near the plains of moore but the way he describes is like this hello hema behavior yardain as he says on the other side but he says they traversed they as the word a there means to cross over that they were crossing over by waves of seas and rivers viraglov lyrdov amidbar bahar that their legs were like they were constantly moving like rams right to chase after their food in the desert such as in the mountains in the plains and in the lowlands well guess what the a6 this kind of involvement is matrid it's going to prevent one it's going to hinder you it's distracting from learning torah vamana rouhani and this was angel food this food is considered purely spiritual food kol oyklov and anybody who eats this mon they're saved from these two aspects we're not going to describe how that worked okay now there is a saying at least the clear card brings it down in several places that it was the generation that received the mana that ate the mana that received the torah in order to receive torah you have to be eating mon you have to eat spiritual food we need to work on getting rid of these two things that prevent us from learning that which is on the inside eat properly eat healthily don't overeat number two we'll have to discuss that now what does it mean they didn't need to chase after the food you know where the man ended up it ended up right at their doorway they opened up the whatever the the sheep by the door of their tent and if they were righteous they looked down and their food was right there so if you had six people in your home guess what you had six portions sitting right at your doorstep and if you weren't so righteous you might have had to walk out a few feet and if you were even less righteous you might have had to go around the corner and if you were truly evil you might have had a walk all the way across town all the way across the campus but rather what happened as a result of keeping god's torah each one found his own nourishment his own food by the doorway of his own tent wouldn't that be wouldn't that be nice you could everyone can elevate themselves to this point now we just described what was out external what about internal itself had no waste product it was pure and clean from any solace any type of waste product as i'll tell us in gamora yuma 75b karuhu let him a bireem it's called the food of the mighty now we go to if i'm not mistaken it's somewhere in psalms as i mentioned it's in the talmud yo 75 being the the passage i'm looking for is in psalms chapter 78 verses 24 and 25 right it says over there king dave it says he caused mana to rain upon them for food and he gave them of the grain of heaven man did eat the bread of the mighty now that's how it's translated so the good more asks what does it mean the bread of the mighty this is the bread that the ministering angels eat well guess what we know that angels don't eat so one second and that was his statement of rabbi kevin when these words were said before every ishmael he said to them go and tell rabbi kiva kiva you made a mistake ministering angels do not eat bread is that true they eat bread it already said about moses who went up he didn't even eat so if a human being who goes up to heaven to discuss and to receive the turret doesn't eat what do you think that the angels eat so um we already saw in deuteronomy chapter 9 verse 9 where it's where we discuss this idea moses himself said bread i did not eat him what i did not drink so if even a man who ascends the high doesn't need to eat certainly ministering angels don't need to eat so rather how do i understand this what does it mean abireen it can be explained because the word for limbs are a voring the same letters the same understanding but it's instead of the the fruit of the mighty which still means mighty but it's the food of the limbs meaning that the entire man was absorbed into the body we already know that they didn't sweat they didn't change their clothes they didn't even go to the bathroom which all of a sudden i have somebody else how can it be they didn't go to the bathroom right how can it be we see later on in deuteronomy there's a special mitzvah to carry a shovel when you go to war right because you have to take your excrement and bury it or make sure there's no dover raw in the camp you need to go to the bathroom go outside the camp we'll see that uh right now in deuteronomy chapter 23 verses 13 and 14. for example verse 14 says and you shall have a spade among your weapons and it should be when you relieve yourself outside you shall dig with it you shall turn your back and cover your excrement so we see that they did go to the bathroom that's what the commodore wants to know if this is pure spiritual food and you're assuming and telling me that they didn't go to the bathroom there was no waste how can it be the tour itself tells us what to do in case there is waste and verse 13 it clearly says you shall have a place also outside the camp where you can relieve yourself this is a little bit complicated but we'll just read the gamora from here from here we learned there was waste in their bowels as they had to leave the camp to relieve themselves so the more explains no this waste was not a a product of the man the mon did not allow did not have any waste it was from the food items the gentile merchants sold them okay there's a little bit of a disagreement about that uh we're not going to go so much into it but look at rashi on psalm 78 verse 24 and 25 where it says it's the bread of the mighty the bread of the angels another explanation like i said instead of um but avarim it means the limbs for it was absorbed into the limbs they did not have the need to excrete any any waste products from their from their body so we're saying that this is something that is purely spiritual food in essence and um therefore it's um this actually is the type of food that angels would eat and dewey what does that mean even though angels do not eat me what do they consume how do they survive how are they alive what is the life force for the angels it's the divine presence it's the zeva shrina it's the shine it's the light it's the energy that is going into these angels that's the only way they have any ability to survive or even live what do they consume this spiritual aspect the same thing that we're eating in the desert for 40 years they're also that's how that's what they consume in order to have life force it's something called spiritual energy and that's what we were eating because angels also um well we're talking about the man but basically the same thing that's in the mind is what they they eat because what's in it is the spark of spirituality and what was this man what did it look like look in numbers chapter 11 verse 7 and you can see that number 14. right we said right but now our bodies are dried out there is nothing at all we have nothing but mana to look at this is another complaint okay we'll talk about the numbers 11 but in the meantime how does the rest of the verse go now the mana was like coronder seed which is um we'll talk about that in hebrew and its appearance was like the appearance of crystal how about as rashi says there on if you look at the very bottom rashi on that rashi that it's uh it's like a precious stone and french it's called crystal so it had as the clear car is now going to explain a shine and a brightness to it maz that's what this man by the way we you know we eat two collars on friday night and when we let's say shabab is also shabbos morning we we break over mishna when we have when we're making kiddush right we're covering them the challahs we cover it on top and we cover it on the bottom because it descended on do and dew fell on top of it and the white the white cover and the white tablecloth represent the the the dew that covered the mana from all sides and perhaps the combination of the dew and the the mine itself it was shining and it was very bright lo the lohaya boschum posellus there was nothing no waste product at all in this material and that's the reason that it was totally absorbed into their limbs as i mentioned they didn't even have to go to the bathroom certainly even the the we call waste products of any sort the toxins leave your body it's called sweat and sweat is one of the main reasons why clothes end up getting ruined or you know called wear and tear it's not just getting caught on a nail it's not just you know you know filling it and you you you out you know you outgrow it right and then you tear it at the seams it's part of the body's mechanism of excreting uh it's quite toxic and it uh it ruins the threads as we say then this tackle moaning so through the man there was a riddance a riddance of these hindrances such as what is on the inside because it was purely spiritual there's no solace it was good it was healthy it was great for thinking and number two right you didn't have to chase after it you needed to spend a good portion of your day trying to make to make money to buy food it just came to your doorstep the charlize now way above this that's very nice that's beautiful what we said so far but beyond this listen to this mishiyeshlo harvey yotem daytarko what about someone who had who has in their possession more than they need what benefit is there are you aware there's a concept that says the more possessions you own the more worries the more worries you have right well guess what that's the same thing here someone who has much more than he needs me she is he has no time he's going to find find very little time to involve himself in torah we were talking earlier this week about hillel the famous hillel right he was a witch hopper he cut up wood into little sticks to make kindling and he sold that kindling that was how he made his carnosa that's how he made his money and every day he he whatever he made as soon as he made enough he split into two enough to pay the entrance to the bait midrash they had security guards and they he gave the other half to his family so you work the minimum you need to work in order to in order to go and learn then hillel and the famous stories one day he couldn't make enough money for some reason to pay for the entrance so he went up to the rooftop and unfortunately it was snowing and he was put his ear by the little hole in the in the roof and he was listening to the classes going on and it was snowing and snowing and you know what nobody knew where he was and they looked up and all of a sudden you know it became dark the the sky roof the what do you call it the sunroof was covered with snow and they realized there was a body up there and they revived him and brought him down you know warmed him up gave him a nice cup of hot chocolate right and uh he was revived and this is one of the ideas that no matter how rich you are or matter how poor you are how smart you are how dumb you are whatever it is there's no excuse somebody like this who didn't have any money was still able to learn torah right that look what he did so anyway the hogan mara describes so many different people with different attributes don't say well i'm so unique and different i won't be able to learn because i have this particular issue that i have to deal with even hillel who's so poor still made every effort to learn torah and in a certain way his mekai of us somehow obligates all of us who have a few pennies in our pocket to go on so he says like this someone who has an abundant amount of wealth and properties and is quite satisfied with his wealth he's not real the wealth itself is not allowing him to involve himself in torah and this this man right alleviated that because we know that it didn't last till the next day you couldn't accumulate it there was no way to accumulate it the only thing that came down for you on any given day was enough for one day and that was it so there was no opportunity to accumulate and therefore become distracted with all your wealth the omar hashem now remember the original verse in verse four laman anna senu i'm going to test you in order to test you haye lake but to see if you go in my torah or not by the very removal of all these preventatives these hindrances it's like a set table everything is organized for you you walk in the meal is ready la tora the market there's nothing hindering you you can get yourself involved in torah and nothing there's nothing to prevent you but hashem now god forbid if after all this is said and done and you don't walk in the way of god aims this is nothing but evil okay it's nothing but pure evil who tell hitahu lama aspithers hashem it was put there as a distraction it's going to prevent you from learning torah you failed the test and the results me that connected me to measure for measure this is what you god will lead you in the way you want to go well you would not be fitting to receive the torah and now we're going to discuss this idea further okay now we're on verse seven which says and this is crazy error of the adata only in the evening you will know hashem you will know that god took you out of egypt why they're already gone 30 days they already passed through the sea of reeds right the the egyptian army has been drowned they sang oh it's yoshi to hashem right as i mentioned they already saw that the the plagues i don't get it why only now in the evening you're going to know what is it exactly that's happening in the evening that they wouldn't know but it also mentions that i'm as i said that in the morning you'll see the glory of god when we go back sorry going back to chapter 16 and we mentioned in this verse in verse 7. right now we're dealing with six right sorry moses and aaron said to the children of israel in the evening you shall know that hashem took you out of land of egypt what what's gonna how are they gonna know and in the morning you will see the glory of hashem okay let's deal with it the clear car continues kevar amarnu rouhani we already described in detail how this food is spiritual of nature it relates it's connected to the light of either spirituality or intellect as i mentioned before the morale uses the word seiko to describe spiritual of nature the rambam the more rationalist describes sekha as intellect i like to combine the two you'll forgive me if you don't agree but we're talking about this he even says it right we're talking about a spiritual food it relates to the aura sickly because that's where the spirit rests in the intellect if you go to 2nd samuel chapter 23 verse 4. so the the verse is we're only using part of the verse as the light of the morning when the sun shines so obviously when the when is there most light right it's coming around the the increase of light happens in the morning and it's israel hashemish right look at the hebrew that's when the sun shall shine in the morning okay this is why the man is given only in the morning every single morning each and every morning it is given this spiritual food now the truth is it's remember they actually complained we didn't have any bread now that was actually considered a proper request so hashem benefited them with man as it was a proper request but the quail or the peasant whatever this bird is i'm sure it's very fat and delicious it's very heavy and it's physical alkane not on the arab that's why it's given in the evening since we already described that the spiritual intellect relates better in the morning the physical aspect relates better in the evening it was just a one-off thing right it didn't happen for 40 years man happened come every single day for 40 years the slav the quail happened once now and later on we'll see in bamidbari numbers chapter 11 for 30 days and it was coming out their teeth and it was i don't know five feet high meaning not each bird but a pile of birds through the whole camp a lot of birds a lot of meat okay but we're relating now to the slav that happened in our parishes bashar in the in the 30 days after we left egypt he says it's true in chapter 11 of numbers chapter 11 verse 34 they asked for it a second time and that's when it happened that there was an abundance of meat for 30 days he happens to have discussed this earlier in the blessing that that yaakov gave to um bimyamin it says over there baboker yochal ad the in the morning he devours his prey p-r-e-y right benjamin's a wolf and in the morning he devours just hear the words oh hell in the morning he's going to oh hell he's going to devour eat consume odd odd means the prey the the victim right this whatever he's going to eat but is going to relate to eternity so this is something that hashem will always provide you with your needs bread in the morning he will provide you with your needs but in the evening means distributing to others meaning you you have more than enough it's not a necessity we'll have to discuss that word but it really means like something negative something's missing something's chaser because that means spoils okay let's read the how the clear car expresses it we're talking about in the morning is something of necessity nitan lobo when one asked hashem for the necessities of life for right for example when they asked for bread he gave it to them in the morning so the man came in the morning with what a funny me rose with the radiance radiant countenance like we described use rakshavish the sun is shining there's a a radiant countenance something like um you know as opposed to what we're going to talk about at night as something dark so in the morning it's bright and radiant and that's considered a i'll just use the word a happy face so to speak coming from hashem a pleasing countenance that's what they did with it it was for the purpose of eating but what about the word odd which we said means pray meaning that are they odd forever they would never be lacking anything for their own for their own selves for their soul nitan or netsaf but it would be given eternally hashem will take care of you however what about the other word we talked about the evening what they were asking for at least not here but later on in midbar they were asking for the meat hainu hamutaros mutaros means luxuries extras things that are not necessary this was not a proper request this is where a person does not request his needs it was beyond it was um not necessary it would be given in the evening with a darker countenance a dark countenance it's something that you would distribute because the word you khalik is used distributing is is a concept of distributing to others of when you die right people pass on they leave their portion to others basically you don't have to die you're just the idea of the khalik is distributing you're leaving it to others this is the idea of something that is deprived and removed from his from his own property kahura just like the word when you go and get your coronavirus test you hope that it's negative vote furthermore shalom was only given temporarily it wasn't given for 40 years in the desert it was only given here just once and later on just for 30 days so too so too not and we're talking about all physical stuff right just like this the extras the luxuries in life they're only given for a short period of time just like the the fed the pet the pheasant was only given to them for a short period of time why is a very important principle kilo lenet hashem will not give luxury to the evil people forever it's only a short period of time it might only be today hashem hears your complaints he's going to give it to you very nice but it's not forever don't rely on it and i wouldn't even want it basically the following day he would still have a desire they ain't not show but he has no satisfaction from it because it's no longer around or even if it is around can you imagine making your efforts and desires towards these physical things and you you lose the satisfaction and it could be because you want more right so it says in the talmud someone wants 1 million the next day once they get it they want two million right whatever you you have you die with half of your desires fulfilled well me tom zev for this very reason you're in my minish mind is exactly why the man came from the heights from the heavens where did the slav come from we'll see shortly the the man came from the heavens which is the place where the light emanates from right and and then if you look in exodus chapter 16 verse 13 you can see where the sloth came from it's that it came up from the ground these birds came up from the ground they went up from the ground which is a place of darkness everything goes everything is coming from its source kathi masha according to its essence so the man is spiritual of nature and it's coming from the heavens and the slob which is physical is coming from the earth and that's why it says now we understand when we mention in verse 7 uber in the morning when you will see the cover of hashem the the the glory of god hainu pani me eroys this again relates to the idea of a happy countenance iranian countenance kinera lehem hashem ayam bayan as we know hashem did speak to the people face to face the jewish people collectively saw hashem look in numbers 14 verse 14 and you'll see that god appeared to them face to face that's what it means about the arab but but at night time go back to our original verse right in verse six and seven where god says you will know what is knowing versus seeing seeing is with your own eyes you there's no lying there's no fake news here but unfortunately when we use our seijo right we if you try to put two and two together sometimes you don't always come out to four you have faulty information right you don't have the whole not just the information but the ability to put it together so seeing is better than knowing so seeing is seeing god eye to eye but by night time it says and you will know in the evening as the clear car says that knowing is less than seeing it's not as qualitatively correct like this he gives an example i just want to run through it so let's say you made a request from a king so you go to the castle the palace wherever it is you knock on the door you make your request what happens the the butler the doorman answers the door he says i'll take your request to the inner cabinet he goes to the sergeant of arms he passes on the request sergeant obama goes to the cabinet member or the tsar and he pass it on to the king and now comes out your request so you know that it came from the king but when you rather see the king you know that it came from the king that's one idea but wouldn't it be better if you saw the king yourself give it to you that would be more preferable so here he's just using that as an example between seeing and knowing seeing the king give it to you directly what i don't know what joy what fulfillment you would have knowing that the king took his time out and gave it to you seeing it versus just knowing that it came from the king it's a big difference okay so let's go on to the next paragraph a dialogue this is the last paragraph for the evening so let's really get a grasp on it it was not explained what the verse was talking about it doesn't we don't understand yet completely what the verse was talking about when it says that in the evening you will know that god took you out of egypt come on they're already out of egypt i explained this already what does it mean to what they were thinking that moses and aaron took them out without god's help until the explanation verse 8 verse 8 says it's only once god gives you in the evening this meat to eat then you're going to know that it was god that took you out okay now it's going to be hard to grasp we'll try our best but remember in the evening god is going to give it to you with a dark countenance the zost and this with this you will come to unto know that it was hashem that took you out of egypt from the very place which they even discussed er i think it was verse three but it says from the very place where they sat uh by the flesh pots they eat that they're eating meat they were comfortable they were comfortable kadesh right they were they were there by the flesh pots in egypt so god took them out in order to what to become loathsome to become disgusted with this extra the luxuries shakoa bahami because it's those animalistic nature that you have these desires for that you'll become disgusted in other words what's our point of becoming an amsterda a unique people right a special people that we should be rouhani that we should be spiritual we should be spiritually driven that we should be involved obviously in his torah which is an instruction manual and how to work on your character how to refine yourself you come to this realization to you asukim sanofshi ultimately the goal is to work on your character i'll just translate his words that you would be involved in the completion of your soul the perfection of your soul the loca share of martin not like you said and i said that was verse 3 beyond hashem it's ryan would it right wouldn't we have died in the land by the hand of god and land of egypt right we sat by these flesh pots right we ate bread to satisfaction that you took us to the desert right we did we're aware that you took us out of i'm sorry we're aware that you took us to the desert there's no question about that but to take us out of egypt see egypt is a restricting place that's what matsar means right it's all about the the physical luxuries that's what egypt was about nobody took us out to the mid bar no but he took us out that's the whole point that he took us out to luna that basically they meant by their complaint should be shivtham al-sir habbasser they were sitting by these flesh pots she spoke sad shlamos there is an aspect of working on yourself and that we right it was us me and our own mean our moshe speaking that we took you out from the place where you were considered comfortable perfected to a place where there's nothing everything's lacking it's god who's going to give you these this meat in the evening tate in order that you will know it wasn't me and aaron that took you out when it's given to you every single morning this month this bread that will completely satisfy you you will see the glory of god i and behind face to face it's going to be given to you in a um in a happy way with a radiant countenance the coast shoe to anybody who asked properly and that's how we're going to end it do we have to know in our own lives yes it's three thousand three hundred years plus years later but the torah's instructions for living whatever was taught to them is being taught to us in our own way it's how many i mean it's it's a whole different world right it's really a different world yet the lessons are the same the challenges that we face on a daily basis are we katney bermuda do we have are we low and small in faith or are we going to at least right you don't have to occupy your whole day with learning torah it would be nice many did but it's not realistic so what is what are your priorities are you working nine hours a day in order to work to i'm sorry in order to learn that one quality hour then you got it made right but if you're working to live and living to work and you're just caught in that cycle and you're not even considering torah a priority so then your your your life is futile i'm just telling you i didn't make it up right you heard it you heard it yourself so bizrat hashem at least we have our priorities straight that we are searching for a spiritual life hashem will provide know that he will provide have security in that and bizarre to shem you'll be able to learn with clarity and go from one level to another strength to strength in your closeness to hashem and with that signing off see you next week culture have a great life [Music] is