Kabbalah Secrets: Change Your Past & You'll Change Your Future & Re-Create a Better YOU!!

when mankind arrives in the world life begins and so rashash marks the beginning of Life the beginning of the story of mankind which is the real story of life life begins with us on the first day of life God was here in a revealed way and it's the connection that they existed on that first day of life it was very clear to Adam and Eve in the very beginning that life meant a life where we're here and God is here and that's real life today that reality is hidden from us on at least in in a way to feel it and we actually see it but that doesn't mean that that reality changed reality is and life really is a life that's us in God's world together that's real life but things block that from us things confuse us things cause us to feel at least from our perspect persec distant from Hashem the truth is Hashem never really goes anywhere the real question is where are we not where is Hashem Hashem is hiding sure on one level but he's here to be found when you look and if you don't find when you look so you're supposed to look a little bit harder and so God is here he never left but he is hiding which creates a challenge for us if you work to find him you will and if you don't work to find him then you'll go through life thinking that he's not here here and miss out on all what you can gain from realizing that this is not a world that that God left it's a world that God put into our hands to see what we will do when he hides if God was right in front of us and he wants to see if we're going to listen so what kind of challenge is that of course we're not going to do anything because God's right in front of us so why is God hiding he wants to see what we're really made of he wants to see who we really are because without the challenge He he'll never know what we are who we are if we're really going to listen or not so God is here but he hides because he wants to really see what we're made of and will we follow or not from our own free will not because we're forced okay so but but with this scenario that he created where he hides and we don't see him so he creates the potential like these kids did to to do what we're not supposed to do to take what we're not supposed to take so how do we fix that so that's what rashash is really about a long year imagine it's a long year goes by and you've had a lot of time to drift off course right imagine a boat that's missing an anchor you know the waves come and Pull It in all kind of directions and if you leave it for a long enough time it disappears it's it's extremely lost we can get very very lost God says you know what if I leave you your entire life 70 80 years getting lost so you'll get so lost you won't even realize you're lost and you'll never find your way back so every year God says you know what I'm coming back like in the story every every so often I'm coming back and let's see where you are it's a time where God is more revealed and we remember that he's here and it's a time for us to to take a an accounting of what we did how we got lost what how lost were we and how did we find our way back this is called the process of chuva of repentance and really it means to return return back to who and what we are and where we're supposed to be and in doing so God kind of appears from be in front of our eyes like he disappeared and he reappears because when we do chuva when we return to where we're supposed to be then we realize that God really was there all along and that's really connected to the very first story in in the Torah that where God says to Adam after the first mistake the first turn off course with the the tree of the of knowledge of Good and Evil the forbidden fruit so God comes and says to Adam a where are you of course God knew where he was what was he really telling him where are you Adam was lost Adam no longer was able to perceive and see exactly where God was so he was telling him if if you're disconnected from me then you're lost where are you meaning that you're lost it's not I'm I'm not trying to find you you you have to find yourself and in doing so you you'll find me he wasn't saying that that I can't find you because you're lost he's saying you can't can't find yourself cuz you're lost and how do we find ourselves how do we come back to where we're supposed to be back to ourselves is chuva process of chuva let's appreciate it a little bit the symbol of rashash sh is the chauffeur that is the main symbol of rashash I mean it's the day of judgment it's the apple with the honey according to cabala it's should be sugar not honey you know you got the the the head of a of a of a of a lamb we got a lot of nice things on a lot of good food it's like a happy sad day it's a day of judgment but the symbol the overwhelming symbol in everyone's mind and certain vision is the chauffeur what is the chauffeur all about we take that Chau and we blow it on rashash it is the special mitvah of the day that is unique to rashash Shana so the the the rabbis tell us a little bit about this chauffer and let's appreciate through the through the chauffer we're gonna appreciate what rashash is all about and what chu is all about because the the chauffeur is a symbol for chuva for return for our return so the word chauffer means to improve in Hebrew means to improve okay so the schauffer represents self-improvement what else does the chauffer teach us what else do we do we see from the chauffer so the gumar tells us that what a kosher chauffer is and from the vision and the details of that instru those instructions we're going to kind of learn what the chauffer is all about so the so the gar says that that a kosher chauffeur in sizewise is if you take the chauffeur you put it in your hand and it protrudes from both sides and the literal language of the gamar is when you look when you can hold the chauffer in your hand and look this way and that way sort of it's forward and backwards of the chauffeur and see both ends that's a kosher chauffeur now what are the sages trying to hint to us aside from the fact of how big the chauffer needs to be I think I think this is one of the very powerful meaningful idea that we're going to glean from this is this the hands are always in in Torah represent action right holding the chauffer in your hand could mean holding chuva in your hand because the chauffer is chuva the chauffer is self-improvement and so when you're trying to DOA when you're working on returning to the true you and you're trying to improve yourself and bring yourself closer to Hashem which is what chuva is that's holding on to the chauffeur because your hands are the actions represent actions that you're going to do to accomplish this what are we being told to do so we're being told to look at the chauffer and meaning understand and Ponder the process of Chua you have to look uh we'll start with backwards you have to look backwards and you have to look forward that's an important part of chuva why so let's understand according to halaka and according to all all sources the process of chuva is this person is not perfect so we'll take for an example a person messed up he made a sin or he made a mistake and now he's looking back he has to first look back at his his past we look back at the past year even the past day we look back and see what did I do wrong the first step of Correction and Improvement is to realize that there's something to correct and improve you look back and if you find a mistake you find very simple sin person woke up late and missed praying a person took something that he wasn't supposed to these are all examples of that so you the first step of chuva is to look back and recognize what you must do Chua for that's going back in time you look back and you see what you messed up on that's step one of chuva what does that come with that comes with a process which needs to be that I recognize what I did is wrong I regret and feel bad that I did it and I'm and I and and I put myself through a process a negative process of of self judgment which is harsh but there's a beautiful benefit in the self judgment when I judge myself I spare myself of judgment from above which can be harsher if we take responsibility then what does God have to come and do if we avoid responsibility run away from responsib responsibility then in heaven they come and say look what you did and you deserve to be punished but if I myself look back and and take responsibility and and I punish myself so to speak I I recognize and I put myself through a process where I've I've I've grown from that mistake that all that's left for to do from the Heaven's perspective is is nothing because I've done it already so that's how Chua saves you from punishment and brings you back to Hashem so the first step is to recognize the mistake and to regret it and to feel bad about it almost to we don't really cry today but to to really feel how could I do that now there are levels of fear and levels of this process you could be afraid that you'll be punished which is the the the the basic level or you could just feel so terrible that you went against Hashem and you caused a sever you severed and and has have caused a little bit of a break in the relationship you've broken something on some level and you've disconnected and you've distanced yourself from Hashem all of this is proper in this looking back but that's step one as we look forward we come to the present in the present which is where you are holding on to this concept of chuva is the present you have to now have a resolve to right now to abandon the past Behavior to to to to leave the sin to abandon the sin and a further resolve never to return to that sin again and furthermore you look to the Future now the other end future in this unbelievable new opportunity to come back to Hashem and to be beloved in hashem's eyes and to connect back with Hashem and live a life with Hashem so the three steps to Chua are past present and future and all this is represented in the chauffeur that I'm holding which is a symbol of self-improvement of repentance of return so what we're really saying now and let's appreciate hold the chauffeur in your hand contemplate it's time to do chuva look back regret and then look to the present resolve and of course now look to the Future because now it's time to reconnect and come closer and Hashem has Open Arms ready to receive you the moment you even start this process it's his arms are already open receiving you and accepting you in tsha so we see the beautiful symbol of here and message is this chuva kind of connects past present and future all into one it's a powerful powerful tool which precedes creation God says that I created chuva before I created the world because I knew that you're ultimately going to fall and fail people are not perfect I know that you're not going to be perfect the question is what do you do after you fall when you work back work to come back get up and and come back to where you need to be I I'm I'm already accepting you before you even start and that's the process of chuva past present and future and the power of chuva is so strong since it it precedes creation it's not really limited to time that's how come we see chuva functions in all time frames past present and future because it's able to go back and erase the the sin on some level as if it was never done if you do a full chuva the sin even becomes erased which the highest level of chuva is a Chua from deep deep love and that has the power to erase the sin and even more than that the ultimate power of chuva is to transform the actual sin itself into a merit into into into a reward which is unbelievable this is the kindness of Hashem let's go one step further and appreciate what the shower shows us in even deeper sense because we we left out at this point the emotional part of this process and let's get a bit more into the emotions that we go through in life looking at the chauffeur again let's appreciate when we blow the chauffeur we make different kind of sounds we make a long drawn out sound of and we make broken sounds is a broken sound and which literally means broken is from the word to be broken so we make broken sounds very broken and we make less broken sounds and and so the chauffeur has three different sounds two are in the category of broken up sounds different levels of Brokenness and the the one long sound that's unbroken so now let's appreciate these sounds can can relate to the two sides of the chauffeur visually now there is a wide open part of the chauffeur where the sound comes out of and there is a narrow side that that that you blow into of the chauffeur and this is also past and future the narrow side is the past and the open side is the future why because ultimately the end result of Chua is the happiness and goodness that is the result and the beginning process is the broken and the sadness that it starts with and so the past is the Brokenness and the sadness and the self- judgment and the regret and the future is the unbelievable happiness in this new connection that you're developing with Hashem which is love and goodness and happiness and this is also found in the sounds of the chauffeur because we're we explained by the sages that the broken sounds of the chauffeur represent crying the sound of crying sobbing different levels of crying and the unbroken sound represents joy and happiness and so now we see the the the full range of emotion it starts off with the tears of sorrow and ultimately ends in the highest highest level with tears of joy an unbroken tears of joy which is infinitely greater and that's a process that we have to put ourselves through when we put ourselves through the regret the remorse the the so to speak crying the sadness and go through the the whole process and re reach the full ultimate Joy which is unbroken tears of joy which is the ultimate that's how we reach that high level you cannot reach the high level if you don't start at the bottom fixing sin and fixing failure means doing the the dirty where you have to roll up your sleeves and do the work when you do the tough work you reap The Unbelievable rewards and so there is no short cut you can't just ignore the fixing you know you broke something you can't ignore it you have to fix it and that's part of our growth and our process we're taught that the that the righteous person falls seven times and Rises we fall and we rise the point is not in Falling Falling is not failure let's not be convinced by what the world teaches you giving a poor performance doesn't mean you failed it means there's room for improvement it's what you do after you fall if you fall and you quit then you failed but if you fall and you work to get up even if you're not fully successful in that rise that's still not failure that's success we have to understand that there's a relative success as long as you're trying you're you're a winner you're a success relative success we cannot look to others to convince ourselves that we're failures we cannot rate and gauge our success based on others we have to look within and realize I tried I'm trying Hashem God sees that God knows that and God feels that and as long as I'm sincerely trying I'm a winner in hashem's eyes cuz he's not expecting Perfection and he's not comparing me to someone else cuz each one of us is different and Hashem knows that and so we have to not hide from the process because we have to understand that is the only way for us to recognize the true winner within irrelevant of how much we actually externally succeed in God's book The A for effort is the most important grade I remember growing up in school you get you get a couple of grades there you get you get actual accomplishment then you get the effort in school the effort grade means nothing certainly in the Work World it means nothing in God's world the effort Department means everything because that's the real true test because God creates situations that we almost can't succeed sometimes and he's really looking at how devoted we are not in the ultimate accomplishment this is a relative statement we can't disregard reality we have to avoid sin and we have to do the good things and the right things but ultimately in God's world that A for effort is what it's all about and he gives those A's out based on the person we all can have that a which is the a that really matters in our relationship with Hashem and our day of judgment on rash it's that a that matters and he's giving those out very easily because he loves us and he's with us that's the important thing to remember and that's the real highlight of this discussion of Return of chuva of repentance it's not oh you sinned you gota you gotta you gota you gotta scream at yourself you gotta you gotta kill yourself because you sin no it's Hashem loves you he loved you before you sinned he loves you when you sinned he loves you after you sinned and for that perspective we have to know that we have to make our effort and the a is already there Hashem is on our side and we want him to judge us what we're more harsh on ourselves and Hashem to be honest with you you could be a strong a Worse Enemy than you than you can imagine don't look at yourself worse than Hashem looks at you don't be you don't be your your your your accusing angel on yourself more than Hashem accuses you Hashem loves you hashem's on your side Hashem believes in you the question is do you believe in yourself and if you do this process becomes an unbelievable beautiful process of coming home coming home to yourself and to a home with Hashem I think that's an important lesson that we have to take with us it's on one hand we talk about rashash being a very very intense day a very intimidating day a very fearful day but ultimately underneath all those garbs all those external garments the root of Rashana is that God loves us that's how we got here that's why we got here and that's why we're still here that God absolutely unconditionally loves and accepts us