A Tale of Two Souls - Likkutei Torah Ki Seitzei "Ki Siyenah" #3

the yeshiva dotnet say page llama test I'm an alle for page 75 11 lines from the bottom focaccia yarmulke adam marsh after bees bananas are talking about mindfulness right the ability to think when a person immerses yarmulkes from the word I met death when a person deep goes deep in his mind into this meditation or vickielizabeth similar meditations min Mela the result of this is that you spar do Cal Poly of infinitive an option thus particle Palmas our second tehilim Coppola oven those who represents the negativity the toxicity iniquity workers of iniquity right Poli oven they scatter they separate the aspire to compare 11 workers of iniquity scatter nothing like good old English right grimace Haris Abhinav shine we're talking in the rod the fragmentation rod the fragmentation in a person's soul because as we said rod doesn't necessarily mean evil it could be also evil as the bad negativity but Rob begins with the positive the hell is Roo Roo off I saw everything under the Sun why my mother says how I'll have a loose rule it's all vanity loose Rua it's broken spirited meaning it's fragmented it's not cohesive so the person challenges and eliminates they'd rather brokenness in a soul vo is because her a vicitravirya England reuse clam it's a tax mo all negativity and all citrus attractor means the other side which is the euphemism for the other side that's not kedusha they don't have high as climates of oxygen they don't have feels vitality on their own Zulu's shamak oblems I used some after I introduced their fears comes from what they receive through collusion they receive it through the are quraíam which means so to speak through the hi part of kedusha not graciously not this I give you something you know looking at you and then something I throw I throw over my back that's called penis Ashley Ryan there's an expression and Kyle come on this shoddy buzzer cos boy you throw it over your shoulder because you don't want to look at it so our I'm leadership means it comes from so let's week the back of kaduche isla de Chasseur Moises when the person violates or transgress is one of the 365 lysis as so what it creates it creates a leak it creates a leak it enables part of his energy to go to places and feed feed the Sharks feed the crocodiles so to speak for la Haine therefore ain't a lamella kedusha capitalization of the area so therefore Citra Africa has an essential subservience of bitl in the presence of producer just like darkness has in the presence of light there's never a battle between darkness and light that battle is before you put on the light once you put on the light it's not like the light is battling the darkness the darkness immediately gets dispelled in the presence of light or it is done cessation so you have a pitch dark room it's middle of the night it's pitch pitch dark and you light a match you light a candle one today you'll put on the light so what happens it's not like the flesh that says no I'm not leaving who are you who are you why should I leave you should leave from me that doesn't happen I'm talking busting gosh miss that's the muscle he's giving why not the reason is because when the oil gets ignited the question is immediately dispelled automatically min Mela there's no battle what's the havona the Havanna is the definition of darkness is the absence of light understand this it's not the darkness has its own entity or identity the definite I mean there is my focus area showing him about this what's the definition of righteousness by the by the Philosopher's among the Jews but here he's naked here is following the idea that darkness the definition of darkness as absence of light so if that's the definition of darkness it doesn't have any other definition but the fact that there's no light so therefore when there is light the darkness is immediately dispelled if darkness was an entity a self-contained entity that was opposite the light so now that to battle each other they wrestle each other the question is who's gonna win the darkness of the light but if the whole definition of darkness is that there's no light that's what darkness it's a void essentially it's feeding off a void the moment there's light automatically there's no dark it's not like you're battling there's nothing to battle all you're battling is when there was no light when they would do home at sea it was because there was no white so as long as there's no light that's where darkness gets its existence from the moment the light comes in it's gone this is the metaphor he's using also for the human soul a person has a lot of darkness in him but the real huh well the nefesh on the case is not so sure no it's hell of course it's kedusha fiducia here is a metaphor for a and R as a metaphor for closure right right so what happens what happens is when there is a void when there's a lack of light so that's when the closure exists very powerfully and it could be very very powerful but what is its power it's not that it has really an independent Macias just like ocean and the presence of oil it's automatically gone because what do you want should be here all that it was here was the absence of light there's no absence of light it's gone the same is true sister after in the presence of kedusha it has no chance to win why does it have no chance to win because it doesn't really have independent power it's not an independent force all the identity all the highest it has is from kedusha because all the high is that it has is from kedusha so therefore whenever it is a real competition between kedusha and not kedusha kedusha is going to win just like oil will always prevail over the hard shell and the reason I will prevail over the question is because the question has no hope legate the oil because it's home at seus was just absence of life and that's why he's saying that the home at Sirius of only comes because there's a highest of condition it's a highest that it gets from the douche it doesn't have its own identity LM I it appears like it appears to be very very powerful but really its entire existence is only a distorted form of holiness that's what it is it's holiness being used being leaked being distorted being manipulated but it's always a Caius from Patricia because there's no other source of life and vitality outside of it so that's why in the presence of real real kedusha cetera Clara will not have real substance why because it doesn't have substance outside of condition its whole substance is coming from condition so therefore it doesn't have a chance to prevail over kedusha essentially and the reason is because even though apparently it gives off an illusion of grandeur and power but really with the genuine light it melts that's his point the boogey man seems very very real we know that and it can wreak havoc to wreak havoc to write because havoc is not created only from real things havoc is created from things that appear real they they can wreak the same havoc the fact that it appears real how much how often are people stopped by fear how real is that fear people are afraid to talk to somebody about somebody something how real is it when they challenge their friend they talk to him about it they see wasn't even a big deal lady that was easy but sometimes you build up a fear in your mind for five years and it becomes real what makes it real your thought of it being real makes it real what makes darkness real your decision that it's real that makes it real the moment you realize for real pun intended that it's not real then it's not real anymore because it's not real what makes it real is that you're giving it validity you're giving it significance you're giving it power that is what my I'm not sure that Roosevelt saw this mime when he said there's nothing to fear but fear itself but that's really the concept in other words the most paralyzing element about fear is the fear that is what you have to fear yes that's the clear thing that that's the clear connection here here on the questions are synonymous now we all know that evil is quite real and it was wreaked havoc in society and civilization for what five thousand seven hundred and seventy-six years from the day of creation you know one brother killed his other brother so when he says here that culture doesn't have a matsyas because it gets its keys from Sinatra this doesn't mean that people don't take it seriously doesn't mean it doesn't have power Stalin had a lot of power and Isis unfortunately is yielding some power to amass them all but what's the vote the vote is essentially there's no real substance the person may give a tremendous substance and become completely swallowed up by it just like the darkness may completely dominate my life and the fear may completely overwhelm me so is the boogeyman real you have to answer the question if you say it's real it's very real if you realize it's not real it's feeding off the absence of light bring in light then it'll be gone just like a person comes into the room and says there's no way I can deal with this room it's dark dark dark dark they're right okay better doesn't have power over you how much substantial power does it have so that's what he said with an emphasis on the kisser than a fish obamas when a person really introduces God to the animal soul the nefesh a Bahamas is there it's present it's just like introducing light into a dark room there's no real battle here now we have to understand what this means if a person is in middle of a tremendous impulsive middle of a tremendous impulsive Tyva episode very good so they may not completely be in this position because they're just they're not functioning they're not functional person is in the middle of an episode right uh-huh they're completely consumed this this is he's talking about you need mindfulness for this that's why he's focusing on Davin in here once I'm already in the midst of the episode now hopefully you got to do whatever you got to do just to stop to control yourself if you could do you need somebody else's help but the point here is in other words the darkness consumes you to a point that you already it becomes so realistic like people have you know sometimes very deep mental challenges where we're fiction becomes more real than reality so you're gonna start telling him all it's fiction it's not real and the fact that you think is real it's real that's that that says real as it gets in terms of its impact on you you know I can decide you're in the room we extreme cases a lot schizophrenia you talk about bipolar disorder you know a person's sadly but their their chemical makeup is a know strengthens that that fiction is reality so you're gonna come and tell them all this is fiction to Sorrell you have to understand the max of you're dealing with but he's building this and when your mama quit this is bonus what I just said to you they become much about tomorrow so coyote coyote Simba I think there's a few new code this one occurred is he started Rover atomic is Coulomb that everything's highest is from him so therefore sister Acura can't have real competing substance because they're very ability to oppose also comes from him so how much are they really opposing him understand if your very life force that's allowing you to oppose me is also coming from me so your opposition is also part of me so I can't take you that seriously because you're not a real contrasting force because the contrast itself is like a cell that's coming from me so when a person could truly realize that so then it's like cushion on the presence of oh the only reason is is that it doesn't speak its truth that it's home at Sears is really just a form of kedusha being manipulated and distorted so therefore it's not a real opposition it's not a real contrast because all it is its whole identity is also from kedusha even its ability to oppose kedusha comes from crucian so therefore it's another form of kedusha so it doesn't have a real real substance that's fighting with kedusha that's the first part and then there's the next part the mahkum chapter might signal Ossetia Matta might say I miss no sorry that there is nothing that can really call a comical hardship that there's nothing that can really become a half's I could become in ads and there's nothing that could be a half-second a partition and then there's what you said what did you say that the symptom itself what I think that's a third point and that is that the mahkum shot emerged in lhasa Shawmut a mine service no soy that creation was an act of another and what is our nava nava as we spoke his self suspension the ability to create space to ability to create a void so that's the plot of creation if that's the plot of creation it means that the finition of existence even on the highest level is confronting a void always that's the definition of life the definition of life is to face empty space to face a vacuum which some would call an existential vacuum in other words if you go back to the origin of life you're facing what seems like a black hole and that could get very very scary on the other hand when you realize that that is essential to the plot of creation even in the highest most sublime level there was a symptom in other words the infinity withdrew itself and created an empty space where creation can exist that's the idea of symptom that I reisel postulates so that means that even the greatest sadiq the most spiritual soul even the highest Malakand a neshama sin the highest world's there all posts in some realities so therefore on any level where a person exists the definition of life is confronting darkness confronting emptiness confronting avoid facing it and looking at the void and saying I'm going to transform this void into light because I know that this void itself contains within itself the presence or the meaning and purpose it's God's plan and creation because without this avoid accidentally do would be no I so life even in its most sublime interpretation is always confront confronting a struggle what struggle that there's an essential void well the value of this idea is everyone is facing a void the question is what your void is but everybody faces a void all bad habits and addictions are fueled by void all this functional behavior are fueled by void we have a void that we have to fill if I wouldn't have a void that I have to fill you know I wouldn't do a lot of things we do is in order to to fill a void are we conscious of it or not as a separate question but do but you could be pretty conscious of it and the void is on so many different levels you know financial psychological emotional mental spiritual sociological whatever familial issues but there's a void the ability here what we're saying is that as you trace back life and you climb the ladder so to speak up to the highest states of consciousness you will also have to confront a void you will have to confront the ultimate ultimate void and the ultimate void is a mahkum Chatham I'd say with a la Cite what we call doula is really on the side and then when the soul faces that emptiness that empty space it's very very scary it's very very powerfully scary nonetheless the truth is that the void is not avoid in and of itself what is it it's like facia the lack of oil is what creates the fascia in other words it's not that it has essential independent independent power it's waiting it's inviting you to bring in to bring in light it's a bring in lights these people okay okay why are they so unequal I mean it's so unequal between people somebody has a much deeper voice than other if the whole creation was that's a wonderful question why for some people is devoid so much more acute than others you wonder why there is happy-go-lucky and then there's others who experience the void I think it really has to do a lot with your sugar Shama Shama and with the source of your soul because usually people who suffer from voids deeper voids are far more spiritually sensitive which is why the expression color the via bi cieared LaMotta bi sir I mean for my experience over the years I could tell you whenever I met people who suffered from terrible terrible addictions and I've met quite a few usually it comes with a very profound spiritual sense that it's that is unique it's unique it's more exaggerated than in other people and I realized over the years that it's hubba Hetalia because if you have a deep spiritual sense to satiate it you need much more than other people you can't just get away with Sunday afternoon barbecue you know it's good Sunday afternoon barbecue is good but it's not gonna do the trick for you it's going to do the trick and you need much much more you need to satiate a lot of a deeper sense and when you're not satiating it you become much more frustrated much more annoyed much more depressed much more sad so they have in a way yeah in other words to put it simply they are simply awesome they're more sensitive to the original symptom the more you're sensitive to the original simpson the the harder life could get because you're not just oblivious and the min her mates across the UK are not even American view decay and I would say generally Jews have this in a very very acute way there is a streak of of a deep void in the Jewish people there's no question out there I think I once gave a metaphor imagine if Mozart would have grown up in a home without a piano what would have happened thank God he didn't he grew up in a home with a piano it was wonderful for Humanity but let's say he grew up in a home without a piano the genius wouldn't go away but what would be the outlet there would be no piano he had a piano they say that somebody once came to him and said you know he wants his child to become a musician pianist at what age should he start teaching so maybe 8 9 he says they say that you started at 2 or 3 says yeah but I didn't ask you're asking is there anything I didn't ask that's the point there it was it was for my soul it was organic so let's say there would it be a piano the genius would be there but the outlet wouldn't be there so we would it would have to go somewhere genius expresses itself what would be the outlet it's a revolutionary power point so when you have an outlet that could harness and contain such talent it enriches humanity what if you don't have such an outlet it's gonna go somewhere it's gonna leak somewhere it's gonna come out a dam you know you put up a dam there's a waterfall you go to the Niagara Falls right you could put up at them you're gonna stop the water but at some point it's gonna break through the question is where it's gonna go and how it's gonna be effective how it's gonna be effective in many ways I would say I would say in a general way on a deeper spiritual level that Jews without tighter and I'm speaking about tighter and the true ultimate calling of tighter including the spiritual Universal mission statement of China not just tighter in Duke a halakha but you without Ida is Mozart without a piano which is why you will see that in most revolutionary movements over the last century or two that we know about you'll see a disproportionate amount of Jews involved in it very unique even today in America 30% of Buddhists in America are Jewish 30% we're not 2 percent or maybe 2 percent of America 70 percent of leaders of new age groups 70 percent 50 percent of members these are crazy numbers most revolutions any revolution you'll see you'll see Jews in the 1960s the Li Li literally leaders that really were not even a quarter of one percent of humanity so the disproportion and this is staggering what is it it's that every Jew feels deep down something that his job is to change the world every Jews like has what's called a mushiya complex Messiah Complex every Jewish mother by a small cyst tells her child either be Messiah or bring Messiah in other words there's no mediocrity there is a very deep sense that the status quo is not good just give me a canoe and put me at a lake in Long Island for 60 years it's not gonna work I'm gonna work you know with some lettuce and kale there's some some some transcendental a yearning and aspiration that comes from a sensitivity to the fact that there's a very essential void behind existence so there's a need or a yearning to overthrow the status quo to transform the world to change the world comes from a very deep spirituality very very deep spiritual art but to satiate that you need a big piano you need a piano essentially you know there's something called a 12-step program for recovery but Jews have a 613 step program for recovery why because our addictions are far more serious so God knew that to keep Jews normal you got to give them 613 steps program for recovery because when you're dealing with insanity you can make a regular schedule insanity requires insane schedules you ever think about shaking lulav him on suckers and blowing ram's horns under Shauna and rapping black straps I'm taking your daily blood pressure what is the song if you reach so Canora thing you don't understand the spiritual background it's very strange it's very archaic those who grew up religious are used to it but anybody from the outside you hear it you see it you read it it's like especially the Dukedom you know them I met Varma morons Vishal Honora it's like first of all relax relax and what to see you're dealing with skit on Shabbos you know ringing out women it's like it becomes a little strange it's very hard to be sophisticated in a profound way and really internalized this I'm nothing when indoctrination that always works for some people but to really get it and what always took me about the ballot Anja was that the same seriousness with which he writes about these stuff he writes in South America his conscious a currents that are brilliant apollomon beacon Duke him of her Lausanne you know chata not passing am I gonna from Anna roger bernat Isis and I always try to understand how did he synthesized like what did he see so the truth is that it's very without understanding the core of Jewish kind and it's real universal power it's very hard to combine the two some are by definition they love how Lawson because it gives structure to their life they love structure and they don't like transcendence and some people are drawn to transcendence and mysticism and they're allergic to AA you know you have sometimes you make it cover it with somebody how laka and they go crazy they just you know they'd rather kill to kill themselves and other people forget you start talking about Ruthenians like just leave me alone tell me what to do they just want to be told what to do and it's not an easy synthesis it's two different types of souls really it's two different types of souls you even see sometimes you know people who become male sugar like where they gravitate to some love communities where you told what to do that it's a security especially if you're OCD it's very good because how love is wonderful it's mantra is Montilla you're in you're out nobody stays an extra minute and sure especially those souls you don't stay an extra minute the sermon is six and a half minutes so it's really it works it works on the other hand other people you know are spontaneous bohemian artists and and they can't contain themselves in anything and they love this transcendence they want to be high but both are grabbing on to part of the truth not the whole truth so so the truth is that that you know Mozart without a piano would have been would have been a disaster because you Babel you have to be able to have that piano as an outlet so really how lava is a very spiritual structure very spiritual but to understand the spiritual structure of a lava you have to understand the world in a very very broad way when you understand the world in a very broad way including the spirituality of the universe then you really see that every Dichter Calathes really facilitating another streak of the soul it's really an outlet for a very deep yearning that the soul has whether it's the wool of an onion if the chef of your Chabert soloveitchik has a safer called ishshah' locker the halacha command he contrasts a logic men from the mystical man so he has a story there he says that is remember the story yet if his father would have moshus elevation he was the robber for Slavic Kozlov which is a little town a Russian the paradox was there other SAS olive agent who came from the literature aristocracy salivate ryx the family of a kind of a larger know was the Talmud movie over the Vilma gone but most member most citizen of Kozlov which were considered sir of merchants elevate shook you know they it wasn't it was an interesting experience so Christian brass said that is his teachers eight years old poem Tanya Tanya class father got very upset but much it got very upset but he credited his teacher with explaining to him what you did giving him the essence of you very interesting stuff he said about it but I want to say one thing he says it was Russia Hashanah and his father was near of and he was standing on the Bimmer and the fuss about Takei he says was a hostage and he knew very well the hood to Taylor and Richard Shan Allah could the Toyota the ball Tanya's very intense about what chauffeur is chauffeur is basically man hamate sir it's the narrowness which is pulsed Simpson and the merit of is pretense of the broadness so chauffeurs trying to get out from the place of another from the small straight to the place of America he says the ball take a as he takes the shy he starts saying the pursuit give me starts crying he starts crying on the BIM she says his father is a brisk air emerges already behind oldest son says father's as was main stone was veins to by llola veins to what when you shake the wall of you crying sound mitzvah come on are my Tico the Gemara says in Russia Shona Lama taken a Maria Baba I'm a token burner Shoshana why do we blow so furniture Shona with the aisle throw the model um a token come on Tinku could the plaintiff says to blow it myself the question is why Iran was late what are you crying no Mitzvah to blow what are you crying by little of you don't spread my show for you don't cry I'm saying here you have the contrast of two worlds because for him Schaefer it was representing also and he was saying God says do it do it so the synthesis between the two is is is a complex one so the real Mukunda here is that halacha is the outlet toyota generally is the piano for a very very deep streak of transcendence that the Jew has to face that void it's really if you don't feel the void that's very hard to learn so tomorrow I always tell the buckram you can't learn toy service if you're not bothered by the question of tie service you don't deserve to learn it it's gonna be a waste of time if you didn't have the question on Rashi then don't learn toy stmas because there's nothing bothering you go further because you're not get it's gonna drive you crazy it's a big mistake when they teach boys toy service and they don't have the question of toasters themselves they're driving them crazy you don't have the question you don't deserve to have the answer not because you're bad but it's not gonna do anything for you it's gonna waste your time if the Gemara works for you so either you're not thinking whatever so go do cover you can't put you can't force people to be beyond who they are you have to let them be who they are if you don't understand the void you can't understand the response to the void you understand Judaism is a response to the void it's answering a question if you don't have the question so then why driving me crazy so sometimes we have the answers today we have the answers when we forgot the question people say we need answers today we don't need answers that we have too many we need to remind people that is a question and the answer came to answer a question so the point is that security douches like darkness and light in the presence of light darkness dissipates without even an intense battle or struggle and the reason is because there's no substantial opposition all there is is a void and therefore the only power it has is the power that we give it and the moment a person brings in light into his life the Kois ship has gone so so that sometimes a person has to know what they're dealing with are you dealing with real opposition is from stealing with a void you know sometimes the eight support is that a person is empty and when they're empty so then when there's no light there's darkness so they take the darkness very seriously and they build it they make from it piss in my ramesses and they turn it into this massive massive powerful entity but really doesn't have an entity it's whole entity is because there's no light and when you bring in light it's gone so that sometimes a very important idea that the whole what you're missing is just emptiness it's just what that's the problem problem is that it's empty and the moment you know how buried the Gemara says the committed passage says they threw yourself into a boy so the combustor says in violation of a boy ray came by Mayan so the gomorrah says i massage the Shabbos the second parrot it says our boy rake we know aim maíam if it's empty there's no water so the Gemara famously says my in Mumbai on the Hudson back crafting me as your buddy there's no water there was no water but there was something else it wasn't it was says it was emptied without water cuz it wasn't completely empty was the question my crafting me I should buy so the Schuyler is why does it try to have to say but I boil your egg right and then you say ain't by my in right so when he taught me how buddy Drake the boy is empty and then you have to say ain't by malian there's no my in but the Carson by crafting me as you boy you could just say that boy with the hearts of my cravat what do you have to make this whole negative and then from there we have a direction so there's a void that's brought that it's that's what the posse was trying to say when the boy is empty without water but mailing a hush from acrophobia applies well this be spiritually speaking sometimes the whole reason this scorpions and snakes is only because the bird is empty if the bird would be full automatically there would be no no harsh in my craft but it is empty so automatically it becomes attractive from the caution back Ravan because wherever there's no iron the crisis the crisis is present right right so that's probably totally in different situations you know sometimes there's nothing to battle all you need is you need earlier in your life sometimes it assumes such a powerful entity that you need to well this was the most likely between Bashar me and be civil that we spoke about in case interacting with Nacala but Shama I said you gotta first get rid of the husha and bacillus said no just fill it up with oil and automatically the hardship will be dispelled right right do you start with sir me not only you could start with us a time now he continues as Lloyd I laughed at her Olivet however it's not enough for a person just to be Mothra dear all of that just to separate it to quarantine it in other words to be able to distinguish between favor now which is in itself a very powerful tool to be able to know what is the toy venue and what is there on you and not to confuse one or the other Sarris Lovato and makovica but there's even a deeper avoid and that is to obliterate it completely there was to be math with it and math with itself is an important thing that's like Boyer you separate the positive from the negative the healthy from the unhealthy the functional from the dysfunctional and you know what in your system comes from where that itself is a very meaningful endeavor when a person could be could say this could know that this is coming from a particular place in me so I may not be able to get rid of it but at least I could identify it and that's a critical issue when a person doesn't necessarily have the ability to concur or a blitter way to eliminate something but at least they can identify it they can identify and say this comes from a particular issue in me and I don't want that this issue should be the ruler of my life the absolute ruler of my life that in itself that's called half rada the ability to make mental distinctions and say this is coming from here and this is coming from there that's fun so for example let's say a person feels rage and they have this tremendous impulse to blow up to scream and to hollering to to democrat to go crazy in their home can they always get rid of that emotion not necessarily it's there it's a very powerful way but what they could always do is they can identify its source and when you can identify its source you don't have to take it that seriously you don't have to become a victim to what it slave to it for example if somebody can identify that this emotion is coming from a certain part of themselves that is that is a lower part of themselves or a more base part a part that that has a lot of so to speak issues and struggles and because of those particular experiences or struggles they are reacting in this way so now I have to choose do I want that aspect of myself that wounded aspect of myself to become the king in my life or I can distinguish and I could say okay to something in me that's causing this but I'm going to choose to respond from my more wholesome self from a higher self or in the language of this mind man not for my nefesh a Bahamas but for my nephew Lucas so that distinction that half Rada itself is very powerful that's called a fraud identification right so I make distinctions between my fragment itself or my broken self and my wholesome self that's exactly the point I may have a part of me that's broken so a person didn't get validation ever in their life present company excluded but say a person never got validation in their life were not enough validation and they struggle with it sometimes even when they're 40 or 50 they still struggle with it when their child doesn't give them what they feel is validation they can go crazy emotionally right or their wife for somebody else so when you're feeling such an intense emotion you could act on it but when you're acting on it you are convinced that that is you and you're being honest to yourself you're being loyal to yourself but what if you could simply identify and say you know this is coming from a wounded place that has certain needs that has certain fears and has certain integers and it's going crazy because like oh I didn't get validation I don't exist I feel like I'm dying I don't exist what validation is people don't recognize you that's good our guy comes to me okay she be that guess the biggest solder that people have he's been in a show for two years they never gave him on a lien it's driving him crazy it's driving him crazy what am I supposed to tell him very good you're a cop I are you okay very good very good and the validation could exist in hundreds of ways the point is you get you feel you need some recognition that you're not getting a compliment that you're not getting criticism that you are getting somebody shoving you down pushing you down verbally denigrating or you think it's denigrating not recognizing you not acknowledging you not lifting you up on the contrary always saying how many mistakes you make so sometimes people respond it touch it like it's a sore it's like you know when you have a sore wound and somebody touches it you go crazy there's a wound here it's not what you said it's what I heard you say or how I perceived it because I have a wound so the question is am I gonna operate from my wound itself I'm gonna operate from a wholesome self that's a choice a person always makes so there are stuff going on do is type in this rap after other means to be able to identify where it comes from and to be able to say okay so you're there but it doesn't mean that you have to be the king to give a partial to example I probably gave this once a person is driving a car they're sitting at this Jarvis steering wheel right they're steering there's a backseat driver who sits in the back and just taking the red light take the red light take the red light there's no cars coming so you look at them and say you know thank god you're not driving thank god you're in the backseat and thank God I'm holding on to the steering wheel cuz if you would be but there will be psychotic Evancho's but now what if the backseat drivers in your brain not in the backseat it's them in the back and it's also telling you what do you do then you have to tell that voice in you thank god you're not at the steering wheel I'm at the steering look I hear what you say but I'm gonna keep the red light the same is true in every person's life who's sitting at the steering wheel that you have to choose who's steering it sitting at the steering wheel and you have to decide is this voice gonna define the journey of your life I'm gonna react based on this war I'm gonna talk to and say okay I hear you out but I'm not going to become a victim and say that my whole self is wounded and therefore this is the only way to respond I'm going to imagine that is a part of me that is actually very wholesome it's doing very well because there's always a part of you that's wholesome and doing very well a chemical akame mal could never be broken just like Hashem can't be broken okay local economy mal can be broken or some tough says of Saudi glances at some shutter Topher's been made so she at the toughest Bakula anything of essence if you have a little bit of it you have all of it so helical akame mal can't be broken it can't be tarnished even if it didn't get what it needed because it's essentially wholesome so if it's essentially wholesome so therefore imagine that that is me that is me that's how I'm gonna respond from that place think if you were completely wholesome and you were completely comfortable with yourself and you were completely in sync with your own essence and your own source would you also response from this way you would finally feel much stronger you wouldn't feel so wounded you wouldn't feel so weak so maybe the person said what they should have not said or they should have said or you one misunderstood who didn't misunderstand that it's almost irrelevant but how I respond I have to choose that's call half Radha identify the toy from there on and decide which one is going to be the chief director who was going to hold on to the steering wheel and steer the car but then there's something even deeper it's honest Lovato Michael Bacall does not have rudder but bitl not separation but illumination and we should cost of half rent agreement the Martian Apothic is we'll have him to whom destroy the melaka shuttle in ireland and is even deeper transforming darkness into light so wide a krishna this is the real function of Krishna and Avenue commercial Kosovo iike Reema it says by pinless that he took the spear in his hand the end of purchase Moloch and he went to BOSU Murray and Cosby and he stopped the magatha so it's brought in swearing that Haven the additional position is wrong and call us remark Dave in the creation ah a McRea Mihrimah increase my you have 248 words so that's racial Memphis in Sh'ma is Shana sham elokenu hashem i thought you have six words smile okay not a mascot so together its ratio of memphis 248 rama plus another six 254 that is aroma so another it's curious my from Schneider all through the entire Krishna which is 248 words and Christian and the six words of the yield of schmeyer all together it makes up imma imma say for more it is gracious if that's what this is a famous safer from karbala cyclopædia of Kabbalah right it may a puppy rash it's called more earlier in the earlier Michael Ball but I knew Pomona they had remarked why is that what's the connection between creation and Rhema that's even the reason why we repeat our Shama location I'm right I'm near Shama location why does the Carson repeat thousands I'd say yes once I'm please become a look him a mere sham allocation and then he repeats again three words are near djemaa location MS or if he'd have anemia Sid as many people repeated on their own if you're not with the minion the reason is to be moshling the remark Tavis why is it so important it's a drama to make grammatical spear why is it so important to have a spear the answer is because Kamisha they heard ray mucuna Tillison you saw the Maga Marie the Spears function is to remove completely the wife of the person of the enemy that's what Ben cos did cockeyed a creation amma battle mcnamara makovica the real concept of the creation arts to serve as a dry mouth as a spear to be Movado and to be matram to destroy their i in you not just be if mouth food would be at Novato Ashby's aroma cos of spears and in fact the word hacker aim right osa has in it the letters of Rema Rema Hayyim which is all the concept of hacker in that henry ma'am it's all to completely remove the life from it it's not just separated but remove the life from it beer out of our the explanation of the sort of Lahav in English my sauna Shamel okay no our summer thought this we have to understand a little more the meaning of the passage itself that we say in creation of a sauna from verse kana hear you sir all assembler ken-oh-sama Peters assertion everywhere long and Shia flow in my Russian efforts the word hellish a Mahad you can only speak post you can only say post creation why Shapira shied the basis of brings that I thought is a love has Dalit so there is shining explained him in the post came explain I love has download is a thought he's one but yes innate and darlin and for I love his one classes 8.4 so the basis from the mushaf in her high design of the kiev Eretz he's won the de maras says i'm lifted the mind on the map without jerusalem but I thought you make him a king up and down and all the four sides of the world so therefore Hess is there seven heavens in the earth and download is download ruthless I love the four sites so f naught is Actos but we're in the seven heavens and earth that's yes and that is all the four sons the same of my lung so if there's no heaven and there's no earth and there's no misra my there's no east west south north you can't say effort the word effort only applies to creation once there's existence you could say he's one in existence but Hema my Allah even if he speak on a higher level spiritually affectionate sliminess Elena's once Hashem emanated from himself he identified his midday is Shia Lloyd my Russian egg hunt then you could say the word effort why because you have effort because you have Zion mythos you have the seven minutes hadoo lord bharata fairest nuts ahoy that we mentioned by a virus david from debris Amin basically the seven minutes from hazard through Malthus kashama medulla quality fascinates authority culver members of harsh and hammam loss which is Malthus and then you have a download crisis p'nay area you have an America but the vision of your Tesco which we say now after of shoes she speaks about for angelic beings for high sequoias the face of the why in the face of the the eagle the face of the ox in the face of man with the moose Panay him the ego me acted long should call him tell him I love his burro and he unites them all because all of them are subservient to him so that's the ephod whether it's on a physical level Aleph is one and passes the heavens in the earth and Dollard of the force are on a spiritual level that it refers to the seven meters and the Dalit highest of the Merkava this is all post creation of allah kabhi bahu savate smajsak redemption a rule a Shia Kailash an effort clamp when you're speaking about his essence pre creation or transcendent of creation pre creation doesn't only mean in time it means even today when you're speaking about in a space that transcends creation the word accident apply shaming began there almani pop because he's not in the realm of worlds a cup means there's the reality of the universe from our perspective and he is one he pervades it he is its master he's it's created he orchestrates it he is he's the engine of it all so it's all a relationship already with the universe it's a description of Hashem in terms of the world F Codd is already a description of the world but Maga Bhima who savate samosa his essence he's aiming to get there Alma knees completely transcendent of the reality of the world to come before but safety it's zero it's explained this in safety at Syria one of the earliest form of Kabbalah is an expression there lift AF of Marta cipher before Akkad what are you gonna count meaning Shamu who save optimal saying I love my little of Assad in case municipal his essence infinitely transcends a story LIF May Alcott Marta safer when you reached beyond effort what are you gonna count or what are you gonna tell it's beyond the story a story is something that you can tell you can describe you can feature the Zelan is how value is shown oh that's the first Hawaiian Shania is Rob Hashem you'd cave of K Hashem Lak new duiker shaft Elohim Elohim ænima singing forever impoverish the Shaolin I am a conch rider even the Malakand cannot comprehend and they say Kaddish what Scottish Kaddish means he's aloof and they I a mechanic to either like we say the Davin Inc that Musharraf Shah Alam's Eleazar a yarmulke whether where is he so he's a sham allocate news oulous neshama Cicero besides Jewish the souls of a Jew the soul of a Jewish inimical me shared mission because the soul comes from that same Avaya commercial of war Allah Allah as we explained in the beginning about the nefesh of the kiss bully has they were held in club without any concealment kala Hashem am I it says his nation is a Balak of how valued came off gay that's beyond effort so the stages Schmeisser all at the end you're gonna reach a club which is already a description of God visa vie the world the way the world defines herself effort is already a description myths of the world but before that it's Maya straw wash em you'd give up Gaelic a new not even the my awesome because they even the my walk and say I am a coming Friday the neshamah has a sensitivity and it detects that reality because it comes from that reality come on Marisol the gomorrah says in Shabbos me give a rose Alabama where it says when they said NASA finish my sham said who revealed the secret to my children even the macho penis side a lien this is what we call Seidel in the higher secret Jasha special sister the past success josh's faceee toxicity places darkness as his hiding place meaning chanel Irma Philomena Malacca this is concealed even from the eyes of the Malacca this is a sight it's a secret a secret to who a secret even to the highest spiritual beings and yet the bond I the soul has a sensitivity to the secret Mahina Sh'ma Peters Russian Havanna now the word sh ma means to understand shamash raw doesn't only mean to hear as the as the refers i'm explained the word sh mine lotion cottage means to understand like in yiddish this headin in this dare Harriet we're depositors da bearish I may have defe speak because I'm listening what you mean I'm listening I'm tuning in I'm perceiving right like you who this says you can't suit very buzz not so you can hear but you don't get it so Shamar is not to hear it's to understand to get it she's a smart national election is boiling and I mask you'll be it's come a shaft it because when the thoughtful person will meditate and I'll take thought and he'll exit in strongly it took us in the word like Collier say to take a peg in to knock it in the youth come out softer because it to take your mind and fix it strongly on this theme they've seen a fellow unum attacked I know that he let go over the highest and the lowest leo servile ek no mames to be hvala le ke new our garden Amish that this how valued gave off their which even the Moluccan can't grasp because they say I am a con provider this is allocating new hours vanish AMA yard the man Malcolm Guevara called chemical account and the neshamah came down from such a lofty space which is mama SH a piece of our ship with a coin norm of my to a lowly space Li slobbers Tyson African is to become in clothes and manifested within the biological saw with an animal soul I shall Ozzie thus yes yes means it's it's Roy it's appropriate do it's appropriate it's suitable satisha lay love not sugar high that the soul and the spirit should urine frame should go out for him should seek for it should seek and yearned towards him as a yogya the penis vow after such a melikhaya so this allows a person to experience the vow after show pile a mate which indict look it's called appointment behalf the meaning kept eared CEO viola kaha the hafta the word Ahava comes ruin of a desire love is essentially a form of desire that bilham says like the puzzle says the light of asha Malekith helical alpha or key a visa see Gila the word in in Hebrew of visa Allah means desire so far hafta is with an extra hey but after means it's a desire she teared Cecilia hvala cava but half dozen similar Kappa means you should desire that javea youth cave of gave a after srvs ashram la casa that Hashem you'd cave of K should be la casa should be yours should be yours your God but God poyo say and indict akuto so poly I'd say Jocasta hvala milah we are half the you should desire and it also creates an AB Allah my Allah commercial cause over half the Eskimo Marussia it generates a love above vow after you cause him to love like the positives I love you Hashem says behind new is live now Ava Ava Ava Karishma a shall haveth Lovato Valley culpa oh there they harvimalhi meaning that his soul should become on fire with tremendous intense love like a fiery pole to become submerged in his light through the love that comes from him through the love that comes from above him that love creates a tremendous passion and a soul that wants to be completely absorbed in him commercial customers the passage says how did Alicia Ivanov she tell me the one whom I love who my soul loves her give Alicia Avinashi whom easy let me say yeah lovey Aguila penis McCallum I am I believe all the tacos are mashaallah my llama das which then allows a person to reach but call my death which means my MA is very you're very nice which represents infinity a love that's even behind it's even higher than what we would call we would call what we would call das okay the middle here of a longer meditation but let me just bring at one point to explain one who could do that the kids are when you say Shania still assemble the King nosh on my father's two parts of the possib it is the beginning and then there's the air lothario as the profession say the pasta has redundancies in it Shania Sarang you could say Hashem my father Shem is one a shambolic a know the God that is our God Shama hunt so three times it's a sham Shania Shem allocate new I share my heart that's Maya so much on the thought assemble the cane Allah could also work so rash she has a chopped inverse cognitive shop smile essentially every time you sing she is so he talked about mushiya but you know there are shameless fun and yeah it's an interesting notch it actually says up in shops my you saw hashem elokenu the god that is today our God when Messiah comes Hashem earth God he will be the one God for the entire universe so essentially according to Rashi and himesh every time a Jew says smile is basically becoming mindful of the idea of the Gulag the consciousness of gula that hashem oseh lake a new one day is going to be not now but one day is hashem echad as opposes us epithalamium Sephora liquor columbus a Michela of the coulomb Sharon method there's gonna be one is in the whole world universe that's how I she says portion shot that the plastic is talking about the gula and AD that's the fee of Christmas an interesting thing here he's going one step further honest on a spiritual level this to me put is a Shania straw or similar Cana and then there's in the code of hashem echad hashem echad is already describing hashem visa vie creation but to put it in a shiva solution her Shama thought is a Dean in the Bria it's a gather in the Bria it's describing how the world would describe the oneness of God from its perspective from its perspective it and therefore how does it describe the wonders of a sham Alice yes darlin as he said yes Zion Rakim and it says that's what you have to have qivana that is what in the universe in other words you look at the world and the world is a fragmented place and you say not even though it looks fragmented the truth is it's out and that's one of the reasons we cover our eyes by Schmeisser oh why do you cover your eyes McCoy uh you have to have cuff on so the pastor's it's because come on when you close your eyes less distractions but there's a deeper component in it and that is that sometimes you acknowledge that when you open your eyes in other words when you look at things superficially just with your eyes it doesn't you don't see a club you see terrible fragmentation one person from another person one way nature from another nation a person himself is completely fragmented and split and console of contrasts and paradoxes so you have to close your eyes meaning you have to use your mind's eye rather than your physical eye because if you only look with Flay shekharan with a nice Arum then you say it's not a cup you have to go into a deeper space in order to be able to recognize in the world that it's effort now the challenge is that even when you're taking a hands off your eyes you should still be able to see it but that's describing God in terms of creation in terms of existence how existence speaks about Hashem as the battery of the world the engine of the world of one of the doors but there's something even deeper and that's only the neshamah gets and that's my yousa royal you strong and i can actually talk this is our mascot is the whole world of people shot Smiley's wrong before we get to essa hashem elokenu hashem of the que nous is even not to not the world i'm in the malacca the nashumba is a helical a common mouth of the neshamah the sensitive this is basically what I said yesterday so what he said the neshama is sensitive to the reality of God that completely transcends creation why cuz that's where it comes from what are the practical ramifications of this something very profound and that is now let's say that's very bruh say briefly and succinctly when you define our sham you could speak about our sham in terms of the cosmic God or the transcendental God the cosmic God means God in terms of the cosmos he is the battery of the cosmos the battery of the world that's ever assembled at Cana you're not talking about the cosmic dog you're talking about the transcendent God it's one it's really one but we in our in our mind we distinguish between the two what do we mean transcendent size of Colombia and beyond it's not even began there almond he's not defined by having the control over the seven heavens and then the land the earth and ballade roof asylum that's already restricted in terms of the finite energy of the world Hashem is aiming to get there Owlman completely beyond that's where the salt comes from so therefore the soul cannot even find fulfillment in living a good meaningful life in terms of connecting to Hashem as the cosmic God has a depth because the neshamah is a helical coming map it's rooted in transcendence in infinity even the mile of him are not so sensitive like the song and yet this soul which is rooted in ultimate transcendence goes down to the lowest place where the mama can go down for character if the mammoth comes down it gets ruined the end of parshas voracious doom I'll often came down they became in the film they had Anna Fela they became more corrupt than everybody else why because they were my locker you take an angel and you send them to Las Vegas what's gonna happen you take a yeshiva boy who's been in and in download a mass of years to Miami throw him into a counter a hat make him into a cold bath you can't do it only on a shaman can do it because in ashram is higher than an hour because in a shaman is harder than a Malwa there for the neshamah could reveal the unity even in the lowest place even in Ephrata Mamas anybody else but under someone would not be able to do it and malice would fall apart completely then the Sharma is rooted in a place completely transcendent a shambolic a No therefore the neshamah could vote down to the place and reveal the unity over there so for the neshamah it's insufficient to connect justice spirituality through the cosmos that's very deep but then a shaman needs hashem elokenu the Hashem that's completely beyond the cosmos that's what Toyota mistress comes in as well continue explain so the neshama is a tailor Killa cam email that's my sister all hashem elokenu hashem echad - Emily Cain ooh is that which the neshamah the text that which the neshamah experiences which even the malach him don't the Malakand say I am a Kannada but the neshamah Sh'ma the neshamah senses it in a some experiences it because the neshamah comes from that space hail Akash M armor the never shall the kiss is directly from our son without any intermediary so therefore this is Emily Cain knew that the neshamah is sensitive the neshamah lepidus up and bittle the neshamah that a shaman becomes alive when it melts away in the transcendent all-pervading reality of Hashem that completely transcends the world anything else ultimately doesn't speak to the ultimate neshama your typhus this this is very very spiritually sensitive to talk about you know such nuance such nuanced sensitivities of a soul you would think that the soul you say is looking for Luke Aeneas he's not just looking for Luke Aeneas he's looking for the hashem elokenu that's even beyond our Shama thought because hashem echad is already defining Hashem's presence visa vie the world it's the way a spiritual man of the universe a spiritual creature of the universe explains God God as the battery the engine as the one who grants meaning to life but the neshamah that is not satisfied with that the neshamah looks for the hashem elokenu that SRAM which is beyond death God beyond the Zion Rakim and the Eretz beyond Dalek asylum the lift may occurred Marta cipher to get beyond data there's something higher than I thought because esketh is ultimately a description of Hashem in terms of the universal if they occurred Marta cipher it's beyond beyond the story it's not begad around and this is when the neshamah ultimately comes to life it's its ultimate identity because that's what Ana shamah is and a shaman is essentially made up of of that transcendent reality the Zell Shalamar this is the meaning of the pasa QC vis el shamah it's llama the last column 2 column 2 or 75 if you wish you don't see it the line starts my heed the Bleak vulva tactless I don't know it's like maybe 50 20 lines from the the top you see my oblique vulva tacklers Bozell Shama this is the meaning of a pasta can ear if the posix as an EIU parakeet bays Maga wa a muchos meanie hi Shari I see lowered some others he reveals depths there's a say from Ogawa Lukas taken from this pasa es para cute base migaila are muchos mini facial he reveals depths from amidst the darkness the Yoichi la urge some of us and brings to light the shadow of death so it's very poetic words in EF but he touches here his explanation on a spiritual from a spiritual perspective Peters salutation a gala Billy by Mukesh Minnehaha by the person revealing in his heart I'm Lucas depths from the darkness meaning but in this hvala cane of a penis you're suspicious Sisera the excavates the pin of her viola Cana which we call darkness and the reason we call darkness is not because it's lower than life because it's higher than light because it's concealed even from the eyes of the angels it's the pin of when the posix says your stress facial sister like this hasn't to heal him Perry confessed that his darkest is high places - in other words it's a darkness that's beyond light because it's not seeing it's not experience by creation so when a Jew reveals that I'm ik in his heart my mela this happens a shameful Inanna so the darkness the other type of darkness is transformed into light yo de la salle mothers between Si Racha by now she's an epic Latif the og lawyer the rock comes to light the rag gets transformed into tithe this realization of Sh'ma Yisrael are similar ken-oh-sama hug is the ROI markets the spear that not only distinguishes between the type and era but actually transforms it it eliminates it by transformation the he made but notice her showing him in the first generation shallow Yahya her dad going to burn coal car with the Rao was not as powerful and mixed in or you die limb the vital irrational and makhovikova crush my love addict they had only create smile and that was enough to be my battle around ye cannot be equus machine the dirtiest are you showing him there was only curious man meaning when he says their assertion Amira means before the unshaken a society law so what did the morning davin in consist of there was no dominate what was the Avenue like in the desert what was the are burning like during the whole first base of McNish till the second base on mixes when the antique has decided Allah instituted the new stuffs - sure that we have the new circuit filler three times a day they gave it three times in or twice or three times I mean three times in their Shankman commander and minister and they made all the brokers but before that there were no brothers so do it what krishna was always a mitzvah so basically what you woke up in the morning he said Sh'ma she said and even if he doesn't because Phil is a mitzvah sesame not Toyota at least according to many posts Kim should the saran bomb at least what is it not enough to feel ah ah yeah yeah in another man cook us by a summation of traction McLeish's but he could have him for 10 seconds you could have them for 10 hours via Devin for 24 then for 20 seconds you davon what you wanted so he says but those theories showing him krishna was enough liking at the weakness machine but not not not like that today because for sure meaning in the heels of mushiya as the generations die grip progressed further and further throughout history shahram is Gabbar my elite that there is brokenness that becomes very strong who built the official of outland makhovikova krishma Levada cream on its own will not do the bittle therefore Lazar sticklers Minister brothers therefore the Casal the AM signal indelible Misaki 18 blessings to be sent after creation on the morning Obara who lost nashville Bahama Shaka the word borrow which repeats itself 18 times and when a straw today actually 19 times because we have 19 brothers the word board of means blessed but really the source of the word borrow occurs in Mathias is an expression how maverick has a Geffen if you graphed a vineyard grafting meaning you take say a branch of a tree and you grafted you pull it and you draw it into another location in the earth in he modern Hebrew we have something not only modern it's called a break huh and he say a pool break has a pool why basically it pulls water in from the source whether it's a it's a river a lake a wellspring a faucet but it it gathers the water together so when it says borrow borrow actually means not blessed baroque means to draw forth to bring forth to bring down to create a flow that's what brothers brothers lost non shovin so when we say borrows after flushing ashram chocolates a flow and drawing forth communication sonim of action were asking should be useful but in this after the night God have I a leak a noble Shiyi Barnaby's gallows lebanner so you're asking borrow da Hashem that the Opta should come down and become Hashem so borrow Qatar Shambo canaveral abortion Mikayla Kaddish or all the brothers training hadass etc rates of achiever it's all Bora Qatar Shem borrow that's when he says borrow has lost my father you're asking that the otter should be able to come down in a way that I could speak about at manoa no that means second person somebody in front of me I say you not he who was third person to the second person so when I say after it's something that's fully present so he's saying borrow otter Hashem that the youth cave of K should be brought down that it should become otter something that I could say you in other words it's immediate it's imminent it's intimate she here Barnabas is garlis lebanner which should be in US should be after you in other words it should be revealed in my heart and Amalia fuller Dharma Culver Kyle capital aphasia and thus the route will be nullified like the develop occasion of darkness in the presence of light well the big the slaw no when you come to the brook of / la noche Hatano in Peru shame upon a year astonish she is Lachlan nobis really Amish a simulcast mashaallah / la Nova no ki Fateh on who doesn me that he's afraid of punishment you should forgive me because I don't want you should punish me that's the Vaart that's not what he's asking for after you show commercial other mavica shmakov a Timothy Louis listen she is gallery at Sony a la vidas iris Romano say it's like a person asking from his friend forgiveness because he wants to be close to him he wants that the same desire and passion he had for him before should not be ruined by what he did I this earlier sir kimonos and that's what's la novia okay Hanuman Omar Kentucky for Shana in other words there's two ways of catching the brush uh-huh no no it's from one extreme to another what is year what is year when you say fear what is your assertion what does it mean us Hashem your fear of a sham what do you fear how do you touch right so so what are you afraid of what are you afraid of are you afraid of your well I don't know I was thinking about saying you're afraid of your mother you're afraid of your father feared of your wife and then I realized yeah a lot of people are very afraid of their wife and their their father their mother what are you afraid of you know in all right you afraid to be sent to the principal's office why were you afraid what were you afraid of you were afraid of because he's tough right and he may not have your back and he won't forgo anything and he won't forgive and he's gonna punish you or expel you or penalize you generally what am I afraid of her I'm afraid to go into this conversation I'm afraid to tell my boss I'm afraid to tell my wife from her why what are you afraid of you're afraid of the consequences what watched you be afraid you're not afraid to tell yourself you're afraid to tell somebody who may respond to it very differently than you but in this space with this complete oneness that's his question what's the first last one of a new case autumnal McCullen MLK no Kiefer Shaw no so some people that's what they think of Hashem as well be afraid because he doesn't have your back he's actually looking down your back and trying to see what the mistakes are and he's gonna see the mistakes and he's not gonna forgive and he's gonna get you back for them so therefore you're afraid you have what to be afraid of and you have who to be afraid of he has the power and he's not interested in doing anything else but you know exacting payment for what is owed to him so that's one type of year that's what we call URIs honest I'm afraid of punishment so when I come to me I say slack low no of energy autonomy come on I'm al khaimah Kiefer Shauna what am I saying please I know I did something wrong but I'm turning to your kindness and I'm saying you could forgive me and not punish me I'm afraid you're gonna punish me so please forgive me for what I did and cleanse it and let's let's let's start over again let's turn a new page and start over this relationship that's one one type of year this is what's called year a scientist at shallow Yama Islamic hospital I don't want to be punished so I come to you when I say okay I did this and this a shaman obrigada no ghazzal no please forgive me and let's let's call it quits that's one life but he's saying the MS is that in the middle of Schwerner Astra you're already after darling where there is a tie of unity that this type of year actually is not what the core of the relationship is so what is the year what is the year he says it's like when you have a friend and what you want is these gala with Sonali love to put it maybe in these words the year is coming I'm afraid to ruin such a beautiful relationship the relationship is so precious I don't want to ruin it that's the new good I know that you love me and you love me unconditionally and you have my back maybe even more or not maybe you have my back more than I have my back and you're not judging me and denigrate me and I'm afraid of what you're gonna say and what you're gonna do to me you know what I'm bothered by I'm bothered by that such a beautiful relationship has been ruined has been affected has been destroyed and I want to build it up I want that there Rutzen that we have to each other there will the passion that we have to each other should remain completely intact even though there's room to call it quits and to just to sever the relationship so what am i afraid I'm afraid of ruining such a precious bond you have such a close friend and you're so close you're gonna allow this to get in the way that's what I'm afraid of not because you're bad or you're impulsive or you're not gonna care for me or you're gonna try to get me bad or vengeance there's something much deeper what I'm afraid is I'm afraid that you're gonna forgive me that's what I'm afraid of the opposite I'm afraid that you're gonna forgive me you're gonna say okay I forgive you now get out of my life that's what I'm afraid of in other words that you're gonna detach from me you're gonna say okay I forgive you it was a Jewish name was Simon Wiesenthal from the Simon made the Simon Wiesenthal Center hunting Nazis he passed away a few years ago Simon Wiesenthal so yeah I once read he told the story that when he was in the DP camps after liberation after he came out of the death camp so he was at one of the DP camps and he yeah he got some money there was a Jew who asked him if he could borrow from him ten dollars which was a very nice sum of money then people who had nothing and he said that he's supposed to get a package in a week from the US and he's gonna get the money he's gonna pay him back he gave him the $10 a week lady then he got it back two weeks later three weeks later a month two months and did you always had excuses tomorrow after tomorrow before sellers showed us after solar so there's almost got it I it came it almost came and went back you know it's called Jewish excuses around a year later the Jew comes out with Tim and he says that he's leaving a few days to America and here's the money he gives him back to the money so Simon Wiesenthal tells him you know I'm not taking the money he says why he says ten dollars is not worth me changing my opinion of you I'm not gonna say that some reason thought was right but the vault I like you know what I mean sometimes forgiveness that's what I'm afraid of you know fine take the money I know who you are I'm not even gonna take your money I don't want this be so this patatas punk slash Llano of imitation eternal don't just forgive me you know so you're not gonna punish me I want the relationship should be the same relationship sometimes two friends are best friends and then somebody does something he forgives him but it's never the same the trust is not there the trust has been breached so the stock loan of inner key Hatano is that the neshamah is mama shillelagh can the Kami mouth the Vegas of a soul with Hashem is the deepest type of Drake as possible and it's a type of a curse that transcends all of the worlds it's at Vegas without Shems essence with may Akkad higher than a shamrock this is our similar Cain ooh it's almost our secret it's our God it's hashem elokenu it's beyond our shemekka not because the world is not a good place but because the world could only capture the divinity that flows through the universe it can't capture a tremolo cane and that's what the Jew experiences by Sh'ma so when the ROM was less entrenched that was enough to have a spear and to be Movado they'd rather nefesh a bahamas to transform it McGowen mukesh mean equation yuma gala that emit from yourself the UFC large some of us there are alternate ly becomes transformed today there's a need for more in darvany including the richmond astra barakaatuh hashem with the hashem becomes after after you even the slash launder why does he happen / longer because here you may look at a brother that seems like there's a distance forgive me because I send thee says no what you're looking for is sparkle on OA vinegar then unless it's afraid that you're gonna punish me and now you're not gonna punish me now good have a good day I'm off the hook you know the principal said okay I'm not gonna punish you I'm off the hook no I don't want to be off the hook I want to always I want to always be connected so what I want is that erupts and should not be concealed for me the passion should not be concealed that's what it says by sinning you connected you don't want to ruin such a beautiful relationship it's - how do you ruin it you ruin it by by by you know by by betraying by betraying the relationship by yeah by violating the relationship you know there was a certain trust there's a certain trust you violate the relationship the relationship you're right the relationship is unconditional it's gonna remain intact but I won't be able to feel it and breathe it it won't be the same the relationship will always be there that I cannot tarnish the neshamah is not gonna become not a fail Attila comedy mom but I won't be able to breathe it I don't be able to feel it and that's why sensitive people they're sensitive to the volume historian not because of I know not because of a barbecue they're gonna burn it it was much deeper than that much more it was much less selfish says he's not gonna betray his spouse cuz she might catch him and the consequences will be dire okay I guess it's better than sinning and any calculation that's holding you back from wrong behavior is good even if you believe that the turtle is gonna catch you if it's holding you back from sin zones I'm brought in Cyprian muster that lachemann is by mitzvos not by a Vedas in other words in other words even if you stop being a Nevada because shallow the schmuck those Ines whatever the reason you're not eating the poison you're not eating it is good you have crazy foods - but everybody understands that the marriage needs a little help the relationship is so precious that how could I do it I'm embarrassed of doing let's say she doesn't catch me let's say nobody catches me okay God is gonna catch you alright somebody's that the FBI Google Google will catch you Google is there any way there's no can't go away from Google ain't noise Malvado or at least in their mission statement right so cool listen it's better than nothing you're a scientist is a good thing if it's gonna stop you from from from from you know getting getting getting into a mess is a lie about Slava but there's somebody much deeper I don't want to I don't know what I can't break such a beautiful relationship even if she doesn't find out it's too precious to me the violet it's too it's too deep it's too powerful it's too real I know I'm not going to betray you that's what I'm afraid of that's not selfish that's very subtle it's sensitive it's transcendent he says that's the slot la novia he katana I want to be at I should always be able to be with you and that doesn't happen so let's take for example lying right there's people who are naturally inclined to lie they always do it and let's face it in certain societies it's almost better than saying the truth people grow up almost without thinking you'll on you have to think if you should say the truth so people know you're not supposed to lie but then there's other types of lies you know white lie small lies and so forth so when a person knows about this after dose they stay away from all of these things very far why it's not because somebody will catch yourself white lies people don't catch you because everyone knows everyone is lying it's not like a big deal why are you late oh I'm not feeling well Shyne why didn't you come yesterday at to run somewhere I'm stuck in traffic whatever traffic there's always a good excuse for che construction right you could always say 45 minutes on the first night and sometimes you'll be right but the Vorta is when somebody's wreck is cognizant of the assadist that they have the neshamah has with a Fela Telecom Imam even slight subtle betrayals become very very painful for that because even a little distortion of morality or Taylor what it does is you can't look God in the eyes anymore you know when you betray me you can't look me in the eyes anymore and you know it nobody else knows it you know it and I know it I forgave you but that's the problem I forgave you that's the problem I forgave you but ultimately it's not the same I forgave you so that's what he's asked it's not la no villagers I thought I wanted to be able to borrow at Taha Shem you should always be able to look leery but nationalism in the eyes I mean metaphorically speaking of course you should be able to always have that clarity that transparency that we're completely intimate there's no secrets there's no betrayal whatsoever why because I'm completely one with myself I'm completely at peace with myself that's a different type of year that's a year not because you're gonna punish me even if I know you're not gonna punish me I'm not looking to get over the hook you should forgive me what I'm looking for is that the relationship should remain as intact and as strong as ever this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they ueshiba net / donate