A promise from a TZADIK | Letter #27 of 30 Letters in 30 Days

All right, we are recording our final Matzah Shabas class of this series. This is day 27 out of 30. And uh just to remind you that the 30th letter will be learned at the Soulward's house, which is God willing opening just in the nick of time for such an event. We're still finishing off construction over there and I'm very very excited to do something uh at the house right like literally while the paint is drying. Um it's call it the soft launch. We don't have everything 100%. Not all of the decor is going to be up and all that but more or less we're ready for we're ready for action. Um the house by the way the first floor is for events like Fabbrangans and Shim. The basement is a full podcast studio, full video production facility. So that's not going to be ready yet um till after PESA. But the the first floor where we're going to have events, that'll be 95% ready. And uh okay, so that let me just explain. We will live stream this for people who want to watch online. 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If you are coming to the live event on Tuesday, this is very cool. Um, we will be raffling off a full complete set of egress kesh. So, please make sure that you have room in the car home with you after the event because everyone who attends the live event on Tuesday will be entered into a raffle and we'll draw that raffle at the end of the class and one lucky winner will be going home with a complete set of Igros's published letters from Kahos publications and uh okay fine let's uh Let's learn our letter Brooklyn. This letter is from the 23rd of Tavis from 1952. I received your letter and your previous letter and also the pan. The pan means a special petition for blessings that one sends to uh I read your pan your at the oil and without a doubt it will arouse abundant mercy. That's the upon you write on to arouse abundant mercy. So certainly without a doubt it will arouse abundant mercy upon you regarding your health. Suppose the person had some type of a health issue that was mentioned in the pond. Okay. Regarding what you wrote that you're concerned you possibly caused dissatisfaction, displeasure, the opposite of in your previous letter. So I guess in the second letter he's referring to some there's a correspondence going back and forth between him and the Reb. So in his second letter he says by the way in my previous letter I think I may have caused some dissatisfaction. Guess he's apologizing uh for causing some dissatisfaction uh by in writing that I wasn't satisfied with the answer meaning with the Reb's answer. God forbid. There is no displeasure here whatsoever. No, I'm not not upset, not offended, not angry. No, no, no, no. It was just a sort of disappointment which you know I'm just imagining being the person who's getting this letter like that I was saying no no you didn't cause a lack of you didn't cause the opposite of but you know you want me to be honest I mean it was disappointing that's there's something so fatherly about that right like that's a classic father's line no I'm not angry I'm just disappointed ointed and you know some fathers say it in like a passive aggressive manipulative way you know trying to give you that guilt trip. Obviously that's not the way the Neba means it here. Neba means it the way that a healthy father says it when a healthy father says it. It's like look here's something you could have done better. If you're ready to hear it I'll tell you what it is and that way you have a chance to be informed. You know you don't know what you don't know. So I'm going to inform you and that way you could change your behavior. Right? So that's basically what the deb is doing here is saying look yeah it was it was disappointing but let let me explain to you what was disappointing you know maybe then you can have a chance to change your your attitude here. Um so yeah my intent in my answer to you was exactly the opposite of how you interpreted it. The person wasn't satisfied with the Debb's answer. And the Debb is saying, "I think you misinterpreted. I think the source of your dissatisfaction was that you didn't even understand what I was answering you." Like I wrote clearly that the the guarantees of that are great. Now, I can't say this for sure. I think probably I mean this is in the 50s still, right? So what was this? It was it was tavis of tiny base. This is a couple of years after yjat. In fact, it's not even two years after ya meaning the histoalus of the furb. I'm assuming this is somebody who had some type of some type of a guarantee from the and the and he and the now this wrote to the and the basically said to them yeah you're good like you have a ha from the and the person I'm imagining all this but it's consistent with a lot of other information that I have um the person probably wrote back and said like like but I want I want something else I want the I want whatever it was. And the Reb is saying like, I already told you you're good. Like that's not a brush off. I wasn't trying to be dismissive. I was like, "No, you're good. You have the It was clear to me that the promises of the must come to pass. They're unstoppable. The the promises of a of of theim are an unstoppable force. It may take time some sometimes, but there there's nothing that will stop it. And therefore, the only thing you have left to do is just to token up. You have to make a a a steadfast declaration. Posing is like making a decision like making a firm decision with absolute conviction you know the um so he used to say that's just what it is like don't bother me that's just what it is in other words the is saying like this let's not complicate this I don't know what the matter is that he has a ha for but the point is that is saying you have the ha so you're good that it everything's done the only thing that's lacking if anything's lacking is you just have to have clarity that it's good and it doesn't have to be so complicated you don't have to have such have to have such a deep explanation can just be that's it. That's what it is. However, you interpret it, you interpreted my response completely the opposite, like I'm trying to tell you, you've got this and you're taking it as like a dismissal. Now I'm confused. Now I'm confused. Like, what do you want me to What do you want me to do? Milan is like, "Hey, I I don't know what further to answer you." Like, I told you, if we can be so bold, if we can be so bold, it's like from the Reb's perspective, it's like I gave you the most ironclad answer you could possibly want. I told you you have the probably almost 100% I'm sure that he that means the is you have that. So like that's it. There's nothing more to do. Just get it clear in your mind that that's what it is. And you write me back as if the matter is still unresolved. It's like unresolved. This is this is as good as cash in hand. We're done. Like you've got this. You've got this. And now but but and the fact that you don't feel that that was a satisfactory answer. The says that that's that's why I'm like kind of disappointed here. Like what else do you want me to tell you? Like we're not speaking the same language. Now obviously in the Reb's answer the Reb is trying to teach this the Reb's language and teach this the Reba's perspective and worldview. So, you know, it's not look the deb could have just said whatever, you know, okay, yeah, fine. The deb is spelling it out as an opportunity for the recipient of the of the letter to think about this and to correct his thinking. And consequently, we're able to sort of uh look in on this as uh you know, the expression English is the fly on the wall, but uh we'll use the uh expression from Schlleame Malik, the spider in the palace. We're able to sort of watch this and glean from this also a course correction if we need one. And who among us doesn't need a little bit of a reminder about the importance of having absolute faith. Always good to get back to basics and get clarity in that area. Okay. Now, here's the tough part of the letter, and maybe people watching will have some insight for me, and you want to write to me. Um, let me know how you interpret it, or you could leave it in the comments below. Asus. It's known that the Reb Marash the fourth Reb of Kabad said that Isus that can mean like modes of expression of communication stem from the from the core the essence of the soul. Sometimes you answer that which answers itself. These are both sort of to me cryptic statements. Oius first. So the context is that Ebis says, "I don't know what else to tell you. I'm confused how to continue here because I've already told you the most ironclad guarantee and you're and you were disappointed and then you were concerned that you upset me and I'm telling you no, I'm not upset but I'm I'm disappointed actually. I don't know where to go further here because I've already said it really clearly and you misinterpreted it. But I'll I'll I'll just tell you, you know, like come from the benef um sometimes an answer is self-evident. That's how I'll translate that as you know sometimes something doesn't need to really be I think this is what it means like sometimes something doesn't need to be spelled out although you know we say it even though it's this goes without saying. Okay. So then why are you saying it? Okay. Cuz sometimes we just say it. Why? I don't know. Because it's coming from sometimes you say a truth even though the truth is self-evident. Not because it needs to be said, but it's just it's coming out. I don't know. That's how I'm reading it. And then another saying of the It's interesting. We have these three piscom. We have the pisk of the marash. We have the piskum of the fed and we have the pisk of I'm sure there's a deeper kavana also in this and who's being quoted and what order and which quotes but that's beyond my pay grade. Um is the answer that somebody gets is dependent to a great extent on the person on the way they are meaning people hear what they want to hear or what they're capable of hearing. [Music] of especially if the person is a smart guy and he relies on his understanding. In other words, I think what it's saying is a more simple person would just take my statement at face value and and be done. But sometimes when somebody is a big thinker, so he's reading a lot into it. I think that's what the deb is saying. It's like, look, I told you a very obvious statement. You have a of of we're good. You know, like you couldn't ask for more than that. You started reading all types of stuff into there. Okay. Like, so that's that's coming from you. That's not what I wrote. like if you were dissatisfied from my answer, but that's not your only dissatisfaction is from the way that you misinterpreted it. Okay, that that's how I'm reading it. And I would invite any further clarity about how to piece this together. At any rate, this that you asked for forgiveness, that's totally unnecessary. Like there's no there's no need to ask for forgiveness. You didn't offend me. You didn't do anything wrong. Like not hurt. It's just like I don't know what to tell you anymore because I told you the clearest thing and you're not really getting it. So like what else do you want me to do? Now the clarifies it. It is obvious. There's absolutely no nothing at all here of like pushing you away, dismissing you, God forbid, and God forbid. Like I'm not trying to push you off. So I don't want you to feel that way whatsoever. Now, here's an interesting comment. We remember last night we had that letter uh to the mechan to Rabbi Barnettki about or on Thursday night the last time we had a shar um the letter about children about you have to be loving and and and and tolerant and accepting for yourself and then you can transmit it to the to the students. So a similar thing that I was saying about our time, our day and age. If the concept of pushing people away is negated in all times, in all eras, I'm sorry. Um especially in our days of the footsteps of Mashiah when Mashiah is very close. um where the closeness the unity of like the said this is a third rabbi being quoted in this uh letters with their unity they will greet Msiah meaning the unity of will be a catalyst to bring redemption. So for sure there's no there's no pushing off here. I'm not God forbid and God forbid that it was a double shalom. I'm not pushing you off. Um you know to the contrary that I was saying I I told you what I felt was like a very positive answer. It didn't land that way for you. Okay. So what else can I tell you? Maybe you'll go reexamine this whole uh subject and learn how to look at it differently. All right. But at at any rate, there's only Kov here. There's no nothing of the opposite whatsoever. I'm only I only want to, you know, extend warmth and and uh build build a closer relationship. Not God for but God not God forbid to push you away. Okay. I was happy to be informed. I was pleased to be informed by the esteemed that you are teaching Torah in public. You're leading some group classes. I was very happy to hear that. Um he expressed some concern that he sees that you are kind of uh disappointed using that word again that you're sort of disappointed. [Music] Um, so I implore you, that's how I'll translate it. Um, to think about like I guess the person's giving public classes and and Sham have mentioned mentioned that he noticed that this person maybe is not feeling so excited about it. maybe feels frustrated with it. You know, sometimes you give a class and you don't think people are showing up or you don't think people are listening or whatever it is. I don't know. So, some type of disappointment. So the Reb says, I would just implore you to to meditate on this that on the greatness on the greatness of the of the matter that was given over to us from our from our And therefore who can compare to us we are carrying the message and the mandate of the holy rabbim. So don't forget that who can compare to us? Kazoo. It is upon our shoulders which this is being carried. This this mission from the holy and this is a interesting phrase. This is uh dimmian. It's somewhat like maybe we'll say it's compar comparable to what the rash said. I am nothing but a sim. I'm nothing but a a mark um a note. That's the way I translate a simmon. You know, like a person leaves a little little little mark or an indication or something a sign why do you say I'm just a little note I'm a little notation um it's explained that rash what was he explaining what was he saying that he was saying like I'm just a representation of godliness in this world I'm nothing I'm just a transparent conduit it. So I'm just the simmon. I'm just the mark. But Hashem is shining through me. Because he had no existence for himself. He was able to say this because he was nothing but the master, nothing but Hashem. And therefore he well as we know from well it's in but we know it from chapter 10 of Tanya um he says I've seen the men of ascent there are very few of them and he was he was one of them um talks about the to enter the the chamber of rashbi in heaven is very few people who could gain access there. They have to be on this level of Ben Aliyah the men of ascent and Rashbi was one of them and he knew he was one of them but he was able to say that because he didn't have an existence for himself. So the is saying a similar thing like we are carrying the mandate that the gave us and in that sense it's not about us really it's about the power the the holiness of that of that mission. So the deb is saying to this who's giving public classes and apparently according to benches of this person's feeling a little bit disappointed about it. that I was like, you got to like get out of your own head and just think about this from a perspective of we're just here to carry out the the and and when you look at it like that, then there's there's no room for disappointment. is just I mean the Reb says who can compare to us like you can't you can't I mean this is a real this is a we are so lucky we're so fortunate now on one hand you could argue who has the audacity to say they could approach that level of rash Okay, maybe it's maybe I'm reading it wrong. Now, who can say they have the audacity to approach the level of Rashb, which Rashbi said, "I'm nothing but a conduit for Hashem." Maybe you could say Rashb could say he's nothing but a conduit for Hashem. Fine, no problem. But now you want to use that as an example of how we can say similarly we're nothing but a conduit for for the debum and you know could we really say that about ourselves or really in a position to make such a to to make such a statement about ourselves. So yeah um so yeah so yeah but every has within him the [Music] It may not be even if it's not in a revealed state like you have and even if it's not in a revealed state um but it's close to revelation. It's there. It's there. And it's not just there. It's close to revelation. As long as the person will not lack the I call it the the the the expanded mindedness. to just ask Hashem for the access, the ability to make use of this, to use it out, to use it how we should and for the things that we should, especially in the areas of limitra. So like you're doing the way that I often refer to it is the company credit card. You know once you report for duty and you say all right I'm here to do work. I'm here to work for you. All right great. So I need this. I need this. I need this. All right. Can I uh get the company credit card because I'm not doing it for myself. I already surrendered. I already said I'm I'm working for the debit. Oh, in that case you get the company credit card. It's not a personal expense. It's a business expense. So, so the deba is saying you are nothing more than the conduit for through which the Reb's vision is being expressed. And if that's the case, I know like it's hard to look at yourself this way. It's like it feels like audacity. It feels like but the reality is that the ofb are in you and not just there but they're actually very close to being revealed and you just have to have the expanded mindedness to say to Hashem Hashem can you give me access to this please can I get some of the is going because that that's what I need right now and it really isn't an outlandish request by any means I mean that itself that I mean that just that one concept I think is worth the price of admission. And what did you pay to learn this class? Nothing probably. So it's definitely worth the price of admission. But you know, think about that that is saying every has in him in a way that are is accessible. It's caught of legal. It can easily come out and all you have to do is just turn to Hashem and say, "Hashem, I need access to this. I I I I need to put this on the Reb's bill, not mine. I can't cover it. I cannot cover it. I don't have the but the Reb does. Now the Reb says especially in areas of of to ask to uh to use the Reb's and it's known the difference between and Davening especially non Shabas dvening. Shabas davening is a little bit more like just blissed out peace. It's like almost like Msiah. Every Shabas is like a taste of Msiah. But so you're not working. It's not so much like that hard work as much. But weekday is really this struggle where you you're working up the ladder, struggling with the animal soul. Um and that's from below to above. Yeah. But when you're learning, especially when you're learning which is called the tree of life, then it's flowing downward. That's from above to below. Uh and it's in a ample way. In other words, is more like measured because you're working with your resources, what you can muster, what you can put together. Toyra is when you're receiving. You're on the receiving end of the funnel and Hashem is bestowing to you from his unlimited resources and especially when you're learning Sidus. So basically it sounds like the guy is teaching Sidus publicly and was frustrated in some way with it and the Reb is telling him listen you're you're not doing this for yourself. You're doing this for the Reb. So like just tell Hashem you need some of the to flow through you and it'll just it'll it'll gush there like no like no problem here or no uh let's not take what is that uh sort tavis. Why am I not getting the rash tavis? Someone will send it into me. Um to so anyway, a blessing for your health and you should hear good news. Um in general, it mean somehow in general this could also be the case where the PDF is just a disaster. Um, sorry to waste your time, but I'm gonna Did everyone notice on these PDFs, one good thing about the PDFs is that the the uh there's a hyperlink at the top, which is clickable. I guess that's the definition of a hyperlink. There's a clickable link that'll take you to the actual letter in kabad library.org. Okay. So, I'm looking at the real thing. Yeah, it's the same thing. Sorry, guys. Yeah, I don't know what that is. Means in general. What's this? Tough. Yeah. So anyways, we should hear good news in general from you and and especially specifically about your [Music] health. And there's enclosed in here the general letter that was written to all Jews everywhere um in honor of the festival festivals which is yutes. And that's the end of the letter. I wonder what those Oshhatavas are. I would Google it, which I'm going to do a second I finish here. And uh yeah. Okay. Excellent. Okay, guys. We got Sunday, Monday, Tuesday. We got three more nights of this. What are we going to do every night at 900 PM after this is over? Okay.