Can You Let Go of Every Old Paradigm? - Maamar Reb Hillel Eisa B'Psikta #13

the yeshiva dotnet a page viewed BAE's one two three four five five lines from the top so at last we applied I should mention that today is the yard site of the author of this mind maravilla Perisher his yard site is you Dolloff menachem of of the afresh of Dollard that's 1864 so at last we have come to decode the marshall the long marshall that has been explained that when the teacher in middle of his teaching experiences this new flash of wisdom this incredible profound insight and he must interrupt the communication with the student in order to grasp this new epiphany and the interruption happens on three levels within three stages on the level of hokhmah where he senses the new insight but at this point he can still wing it and continue to communicate even if it's not with the same level of vitality and in stage b beena where he must already pay much more attention to the development of the new idea and therefore his words may become confusing and his inner thoughts his new inner thoughts may change the words which the student will immediately realize that there is something off and finally in the stur third stage of das with a teacher will fall silent and all communication will stop and the deeper he gets closer to the grasping the glitz the the the more he gets close to the grasping of the new idea the new hump saw the new epiphany the new insight the more the distance the more the absence the more the silence to the point that is no communication whatsoever not even a gesture with the hand not even wait for a moment because he's now totally consumed by the new insight what's from the teachers perspective only the deepest desire to give his student everything to give his student all truth in other words this is coming completely from the love to his Talmud from the students perspective is perceived as absence distance detachment and really on some level neglect or abandonment or even betrayal if he doesn't know who his teacher is and as a result of that there's two dimensions that are both very real from the teachers perspective there is a deep closeness this may be the deepest moment of closeness because the entire experience is here just to give the teacher the student everything even the deepest truth and yet from the students perspective it's a moment a very powerful distance and therefore there's a pain involved and the two are dependent upon each other they're not separate it's two perspectives of the very same reality and we could understand how this works in the martial if the teacher does not do this if he just allows himself to continue being present he will never ever be able to reach that state of consciousness and share that with the student it may disappear who knows for how long maybe even forever but here there's stage 1 and stage B - stage 1 is with this student is confused meaning he doesn't know what's going on all he sees is this blank look on the face of his teacher who used to be so close to her and is gone states to is when the teacher gets it and the student sees that something positive happened in the world of the teacher he doesn't have it yet but there is a glow what we will caught we call what we call me hero the unpin a brightness on the face a glow on the face and the teacher he got it and that glow itself gives comfort and solace to the student who could now see that there's something positive happened even though he or she did not get anything from it which of course in the NIM shell is the difference between plaza the poor Anissa and Shiva then attempter between the three weeks till Tish above and the seven weeks that follow that because as the language that was used from the sovereign from the writings of their easel in the stage one class of the Pyrenees this is the historic us there is the ascent the departure from the old motion from the old state of awareness and therefore communication on the three levels of caca mabini das but if we remember the language that was used all the way back at the beginning it was that after that you have them sienten attempter after the hist all coasts of gimel moisten Habad you have Zion and attempter which is as gallows motion that occur in the middle of Zhou which means the revelation of the new level of motion in the midde serves our meaning in the middle of the Mafia in the experience of the teacher now we can understand what this means the reason that there was the hist all cos of the motion is because of their perfection they reach their ultimate state South MYSA and therefore what happened is now there is a Cyrus there's a birth of my son de Atika of a new level of awareness and the teacher that is what happens and from that is iris old moissan have to leave and dissipate there has to be an ascent a departure from it on three levels caca Mabini das and that's what allows for the revelation of the new motion but the first revelation is we're in the seven mid days of the Mafia after it he reached ask Osama bin Laden which creates a glow and creates the nakami in the mind of the macabre who now has to get to the next stage which is opening himself up for this new level of awareness so that's what we continue now Villa pain you'd bathe five lines from the top Villa hey how do we know that the Mafia really got it we saw that the departure was so drastic that even his external thoughts and words are not being communicated to the student in other words there is complete silence Pisgah the see you say the entire life line has been interrupted this is the sim and this is a sign that the numeron have been absorbed not only by his gospel by his been a but also by his das in other words the muscular idea is completely ready in the mind of the Mafia because that's what das says das is the pro team that come after the bina well okay miss Garland him the bazillion mid-ice of Shalimar spiash a Miss spoil Mirza and therefore this ideas first revealed and manifested in the seven meters of the marsh be of the mentor show miss Foyle Meza who's affected by it who's moved by it the new awareness affects him on a level of mid-ice which means it touches his his core emotions and values jihad Asuma career Hamid is Kiowa because das has always the source the key to me this das is always the intellectual intimacy which makes the idea relevant and because relevant it becomes part of me who I am that das Rodham yo discover Kaka man Ben it could still be abstract and detached but na das Voorhis me dose of Shalimar spiritual needed an pinch alloy and the light the fact that it's glowing in his meat which is called nehe ruda unpin and a hero dumped and literally means I said the light of his face is a glow on his face Boykin they burst forth who may eat in between the Madera Rockefeller Makabe and this casts a glow even if it's a superficial glow I'm the recipient on the student shaggy I'm a man who Tom Holman that he should at least experience some solace Vicki way and hope and be talkin and trust al Haas there must be a knowing the love of the mentor Shia days amiss has a gamble Shahi sir goggle that gives him the his of the inspiration then Powerman the strength even in a very dense darkness shallow showing in Chickasaw Caius canal additional Scuderia table was momentarily at the moment there was an interruption of the flow of vitality as we explained for him the words of his Rebbe is his lifeline he's a Talmud movie he's completely committed not to miss a word and his tremendous pleasure in the light and it all came to an abrupt interruption and for this for him this is a you may call it a traumatic a very deep void that's created in kozo my minima Kavala are you godly i Sakana nonetheless there is an accommodator soul is because he trusts believes in hopes that there's a new light coming even though he knows nothing about this new light because all he knows is that there was a lack of communication for Arthur Cochran afterwards hamachi phaser by Kia Bahama Kabul gamba Musa then could come the next stage with this mark of meaning this light which is still in a state of Mach if it has not permeated this student but ultimately it can burst through and inter be internalized by him meaning she have in my favour liberally caballes Hadassah's now he needs to direct his mind in his heart to receive the new the Hadassah's he's taka a good student very good student but to be Makabe the Hedorah is the new inside the new epiphany now he has to redirect as maya and his life vahana hooba bays in unum and the preparation as always in two stages Alif number one condition in my favor Libre mcComish evasive ask elusive arcade machine year clay take on Montgomery for his mind and hard to become vacant of previous thoughts and ideas to become a truly empty vessel even relative to the emptiness to the openness that he had previously for hobbies number two Shama scar Davis at smell Hamish ble Schmoyer may Pyrrha boy he has to become close emotionally and conceptually completely close to the mentor tune in to hear from his Reba the new insight aldera similar to the expression of Hazael I say oz nakaka fracases to make your ear like a anybody knows the translation of rehearses ah a receiver yeah what yeah like a funnel of vessel that is completely tuned in to be able to channel the words through him his ears are completely become a conduit a conduit you're looking up the translation thank you I can't do it to be able to receive this information so there's two stages of preparation stage number one is going away stepping away ah a receiver professors are receiving one is stepping away from the old and the second is tuning in to the new stepping away from the old means carving out the empty space a clay rake on even from the previous level of awareness that's step one that's like sir Mira that's like whatnot but that's not enough that's that's big that's the prerequisite but step number two is now the sky riff to become close to tune really in to the mentor to be able to receive this new experience these are the two half shuttles miss probably for our two our shortest to new experiences to new half shutters to new stripping's of the previous layers number one we called hinako Satz Moosa or Anaka Scott's Masai which is what he's saying here suspending everything putting the self on the side carving out an emptiness an openness an openness which is an emptiness clay rake on an openness to the new idea and removing it removing anything else that's there and number two opening yourself up becoming close to become what we call the coup d'etat casaya side that I am completely tuned in to the to the new awareness you're asking usually when you learn you wonder how hold on to the previous cuz it just adds to that right right so the Gomorrah says baba metzia that Rebbe's era he saw the cloud of the astir all yeah some mem connoisseur another good Samaritan is Moustakas when a Talmud Bavli Nevada when he was going to her to stroll he fasted 40 fast or something a hundred fasts she should forget Talmud Bavli so he should I be able to understand how Madeira shall me now imagine somebody tells you he knows the whole time with Bob Lee but he wants to start learning your shamans you know Tom fast fast for half a year so you forget everything on the contrary right but the truth is that because there's learning and is learning ribs eight understood that the Derek Holloman of Tom Lehrer shaman is a different era Collinwood it's a completely different paradigm way and the remembering talmud bava lee it's not that he had to forget the facts that he's talking about real real learning the paradigms the estoy de s-- would destruct would obstruct and interfere the ability to be able to learn time with you a shaman see he pushes fasted imagine a hundred fasts a hundred fast to go through a metamorphosis to be able to be ready for a new day Allah says this Russell says this he's giving you a different way of looking at you're not really right so you're not moving away from facts that you learned that our tourists M s that are timeless you know you're moving away from the certain ways a certain bias certain perception certain perspective certain paradigms that ultimately will interfere with the new reality the new experience the yuvan base have shot to say in lucema had data to understand what these two stages are you can always understand something from what from from from what it's not from what's not may head in from the lack of it right in other words this is very interesting when you want to understand something so understand what's what's missing without it if you'll explain to me what's missing without it so then I'll understand what the contribution is if you just talk about something and if and if this was missing nothing so that means it's nothing you always understand something and what if I wouldn't have this and then you can measure always the contribution of it right when you see the lack the head there so then just like we know when somebody's missing something they often appreciate what they have because until you don't like the Pasek says well you're my lawyer your highness and mahadesh VIN if Khadijah keep Akkad Masha waha jónasson tells his best friend of it tomorrow or a side dish you will be remembered because your seat will be absent sometimes it takes a seat to be absent to remember somebody sometimes people are not remembered when they're there right I you see them you take it for granted you take them for granted even if God until you become remember it can you pocket which vessel it's a very real idea sometimes a sad idea how so yeah yeah that's on another level they also become holy so the truth is and everything in life is that way when it's not here I can appreciate it but here we're talking about a concept sometimes when you want to understand something do you want to appreciate in other words see really what it is see what's lacking without it he says yes I will understand that much better may a data from the lack of it let's see what's a student that doesn't have this let's talk about a student who doesn't have these things but what is it like he doesn't have it he says yes me shechet may hate off' sometimes you have a student he listens well the toilet and he absorbs a fin Luiz Inacio Shana move on him life which is a big finish he's ready to absorb letters and word that he doesn't understand ROC Shh otsuma prelab as long as they left his rep his mouth he will listen to them he will absorb them which was already a certain Madurai because you have somebody if I don't understand it I just shut down anybody knows that experience in other words I'm not really committed I don't have what do you call it skin in the game I don't know if skin and again as long as it's working it's nice it's fulfilling me good the moment it's like whoa okay I'm done have a wonderful day I tune out that's why there's iPhones and I go do my own thing if at some point you're gonna come back and you're gonna entertain me again I meant so he says that that he's not even talking about that's why Lena hola wash alone that's that's you know the person is Thomas now called a student this is called you know entertainment entertainment but here we're talking about a person he's going to listen to words that he doesn't understand that's a deep thing why cuz they came out of the mouth of his room but Soros are dying Ladakh big bamboo love in him he understands that he still needs to be my doctor he needs to understand them he needs to relate to them Avel a my mouth is absent my mask a loss of a coid man what he will not do is divest himself strip literally strip himself mouth me strip himself that's what it is removing he will not strip himself from his previous colors from his previous ways of looking at things but eyghon shakaal UDI so listen to these words incredible but - shall call you the ice of us a ghost of the dividend a boy who rock appeared the ice of her coitus he will only allow his entire appreciation of the words of his rubber based on what he knows before his preconceived notions and paradigms remain the defining containers that qualify and reveal and explain all the words in other words they have to fit into my filing cabinet I have a filing cabinet the filing cabinet has developed over 20 30 40 50 60 70 100 years and the words I'm here I'm here I'm in and I listen even to words that I don't understand but I'm going to approach it based on everything I know from before and that's how I will absorb the new ideas for Lehane logy Allah - rabbi call kar ke my mission math Assad's my macaulay the eyes of a coid mem rewrites allay the deviator by LP Cavanaugh's rabbi beloved and therefore he will be successful but he will never reach an understanding and awareness in the words of his teacher like the other student who's ready to strip himself from all the knowledge that he has before and is actually trying to tune in to what his Rebbe is saying not his appreciation understanding events but apparently sometimes it does sometimes it does it does not allow me to really really tune in to a whole new perspective which means there is growth that's incremental right I know something today you'll add something new and then on the contrary like you said I want to bring everything I know to the table but sometimes there's a truth that what's the Washington tehilim could you pass that Center please but Latonya says it says in - he'll mm hey shimmy Vassily Eva had a snake listen my daughter look and happy ah snake bring your ear over incline your ear very good happy isn't it fishy fishy I'm a whole base of it and forget about your nation and the house of your father the use of hemella - so the King can crave your beauty mmm hey what's this vicinity America base of it the use of a malady of it the truth is it's what I've sometimes avram let's look at my odds of Montcalm base official artist Eric now this is a very deep idea and frankly this is not an easy idea what he's saying we're not talking here about a guy who's an addict and he's drinking alcohol every night for three four hours and gambling and then on the web for the net worth of the night and he telling him that as long as you're gonna continue this lifestyle you're gonna destroy yourself you really have to go cold turkey and abstain over there it's very hard to argue I mean unless you're an addict you're not gonna argue with this right everybody understands that then even if you're an art addict you probably can't really argue with it if you're if you're being honest which is of course hard for an addict but here we're talking about a completely different idea it's rooted in the same idea and that is this Talmud everything is good he's a real student he's a real real student and as a real student his mind is filled with with with wonderful information but that's what ms is what truth demands is that ability to be able to allow every paradigm in me to be challenged to open myself up completely and that's why I call it masseur I called it mysterious nefesh Sur sniffers doesn't always mean you sacrificing your life physically but sometimes mental mysterious nephesh is very very intense it's very powerful can I truly truly step away from all of my paradigms and preconceived notions and open myself up to something new it's not hard it's very hard you know why it means a certain admission that everything I built up really now has to be moved to the side for a whole new reality for an unprecedented reality in life this is a very difficult thing to do sometimes you could see it with parents and children if I have been relating to my children a certain way and at some point a person realizes they made a very big mistake the greatest resistance comes from the fact could one admit that 20 30 years have been based on my insecurities my traumas maybe my good intentions but I was clueless I was ignorant it's too hard I'm gonna fight I'm gonna fight till the last moment and even if I hear new things great but as long as they fit in to the filing cabinet I have no problem if it's a good part and I could put it somewhere in but I have to find the place in the brain for it and if I have no place what do I do I say the guy's a lunatic the guy's an extremist guys are not precarious the guy is a weirdo we have all these words to be able to allow ourselves to remain safe right if what uh yeah I'm a Shia if I could find the place in the file for it I'm good I'm good but even if I don't understand it yet I'm tuned in I'm not so selective I'll listen but I take it from where I was in other words I'm ready to listen to you as long as it fits into my previous paradigms that's a wonderful he's a wonderful person but it'll calm it he'll never be a real Talmud he'll never be a Talmud move it was a sentiment mover time with moving means all I want is truth I want the truth of my teacher I want the truth I want the real real real unadulterated raw truth whatever its consequences and if that means I have to look in the mirror and say hmm whatever I have to say that's fine even though that's painful maybe a lot of tears in that that's what a clay rake honest Clay Aiken is not a small thing that's what I'm not sure such small Simmons I know cuz that's mostly means to take my entire at smears and unlocker such moosie is I carve out an empty space on a complete emptiness there's an old seditious Hasidic interpretation is a missionary hagigah calum hanok marimba Tahara see recent viola coitus literally it means calum vessels hani gomorian when they were completed when the the silversmith or the blacksmith or the goldsmith completed their development in purity because a Kayle utensil could be susceptible to Toma but only after it's complete when you're still making a pot it's not the cobble Toma only when it's done and it's worthy to use it can be macabre Toma because averse was not susceptible Demong till a person actually can use it or uses it until it's complete if I'm still a middle of I still have to put the the handle or I still want to make a design even though it looks completed that Makabe told me right if a dead mouse falls into it it's not Makabe to me so Calum on a gomorian but I read the Mishna says if I finish it and I finished it with purity to it some TV liliquoi - if you want to put a carbon inside you have to put it in the mikveh why why did Allah so literally it means because for carbon as they were so strict than it should be pure that even though I decided to finish in and I finish it with purity I was made sure I was pure so my contact with it was pure but for carbon is it still needs to go to the mikveh Richlands villa with koi - there's a there's a homolytic Alinta predation Calum on the gomorian Bottari when somebody feels that he's a Kaylie Gummer he's uh he's a complete Kaylie and he's a pure Kaylie sitteth vanilla kinda sure if he wants to absorb koi fish he needs to be submerged himself completely you know when you submerged under the water at that moment you loot like a person under the water you can't live it's a certain heavy psychic is it's a certain interruption of life even though we're talking here about a Kaylie but the concept of Sevilla means a new bird sees the person coming out of the mikveh is like a transformation you need a new transformation lacroix - sometimes this is where that becomes tricky if the Talmud wasn't ripe if he wasn't nickimja Bottari if he wasn't a real Talmud it's not so easy this dismiss my old paradigms but if I was a good Talmud so my paradigm seems so beautiful my paradigms seem so educated so now to be able to become an empty vessel becomes much more difficult sometimes you have a person you speak to them they confess ignorance inside in other words they know I don't know anything I'm a blank slate right that Leisha Pandava says do Suva al-najjar rubbish I'm a blank fresh piece of papyrus or or paper uh-huh papyrus yeah it's the one statement that Kazaa bring from Alicia Bonneville yeah right in picki of asparagus omelet Alicia said hello immaterial Ahmad I'm teaching to Toyota to a to a child is like what is like Inc written on fresh paper but hollow mater is arcane if you only learning terror as an old man then it's deoksu var Miami hook you know that piece of paper was written and erased and it written and erased and erased and arranged and now you get a couple of letters on it but it's it's not fresh there's one so if I bring in Shabbos so the Obama never said what's the message what is he trying to say was he trying to say it's a nice thing to say teach terror to your child as a child but what happens if nobody talked to me as a child so what is he trying to say never your toy is a is a fact it's not really gonna go in like what's the state what is he trying to say it's a good thing to say to teach terror to a child learn tired as a child so that's what you should say but he says no I'll a matter is a kid is this an encouraging statement somebody didn't have asked us to learn tried until 40 till 50 ttles had the catcher the caches don't get for their father tennis Coaches get what's this Jew a Jew didn't have the opportunity to learn trying to till he was 60 years old so he's learning prickly ovis and basically the message is it's erased paper you wasting your time because nothing is gonna get absorbed besides the fact you really need prickly of us for this everybody knows what you learn at three years old you remember for life and what you learn at 61 you forget a few seconds later present company excluded we all know what children are capable of learning you know how many languages you can teach a child I mean we dumb them down usually but you know what children children are fertile wet sponges they could learn everything you don't need a mission in prickly office for this this is everybody knows this once you hit a certain age comes AK that I and it takes a very long time it's not so easy so the rabbit said Alicia Pandava was actually saying something very profound at any age he's talking about any age at any age you could learn Toyota as a child or you could learn Toyota as an old person even when you're 80 is all you could learn trade as a child you can I tell you as a sucker that's what he's saying he's not trying to discourage people who never had an opportunity to learn he's trying to create a paradigm of how you learn it's two different ways of learning Who I am at the highest of our climate Toyota's okay huh you see he's been learning this mission and it was a discouraging Mishnah because the whole life ah at what age did you come to start learning Toyota very good kid you were listening you were listening to eat that car there's no sermon about sugar yesterday say but call you me obey knock adoption it's an attitude in other words really a clean slate to be a clean slate but how do I even become a clean slate in other words me telling myself that I'm a clean slate maybe part of the problem because that itself I come I'm a clean slate because I am a clean slate this is where a person often needs to allow themselves to be challenged and when I'm uncomfortable with something when I find myself resisting and uncomfortable so I have to ask myself very deeply is this resistance actually an invitation to be able to let go over the old and open to the new and now you're telling him forget yeah yeah yeah because the paradigms that were guiding your way of understanding the world that allowed you to understand the previous year will become the greatest interference and static to understand the new shape which is the reason that your ever had to interrupt this year he also had to interrupt it why because he himself needed a new experience he couldn't continue winging it he himself had to depart from the old to get the new so you think you don't have to depart from the old to get to know but here's what becomes tricky yesterday's redemption becomes today's exile yes today's expansiveness becomes today's trap yesterday's awareness becomes the greatest static for a new level of awareness and at some person up at some like stage in life a person is inclined to say enough enough I've already gone I already went to my therapies I already got out of all my stuff enough I graduated Oh a loose ship novel you says you graduated that's the beginning of the end if you graduated finds Guevara now suckin on out to eat now you could say goodbye you could say Kaddish on yourself Immanuel from Atlanta Atlanta ah on one level that's exhausting if you're arrogant if you're humble it's the most refreshing thing in the world if I'm arrogant it's very exhausting because my arrogance has always challenged by it but if life is become humble if life is about truth and openness to truth then it's the most refreshing thing in the world because it allows myself or it allows myself for newness real real real newness and and you know very often in life it's a real question you have to ask yourself am i really really open to something completely new so if I was involved in some and nourished Gaytan and nonsense my whole life of course I'm open to something new but here's where the challenges I wasn't I was listening to good things my whole life and I thought I was mama SH barking up the right tree and then to say but now it's time to be able to transcend yourself and to be able to discover something there's something much much deeper but if you want to get that you could get it on your terms but on your terms will never be on its terms on your terms means you know it works for you or what we call it's a good part it's a good word that fits into the whole roster was a roster of roster of vet Locke you know so I have another vort another vort another she and another four or I can allow myself to be transformed by the information and to be transformed requires a tremendous sense of humility that is very very deep do you understand what I'm saying revise it the first test you understand how hard it is is that why people resist it I'll fight against this people its professing failure and by the way even if consciously you say no of course I'm talking subconsciously I'm not talking consciously consciously you're a good guy you say of course I want to hear but subconsciously I will kill I will kill every new insight I will make sure to somehow make it work with my system you want to really to say that I should become a a new person you want me now to be a one-year-old child yeah a one-year-old child a one-year-old child you know that one-year-old child we we were doing that meditation right who looks at the raisin and doesn't know what it is can I do that can I look at this like for for 40 minutes you know like the baby in the crib and turn it around and say this is a waste of time I know what it is if you think it's a waste of time you're stuck so wait I know what it is I know what it is really you know what it is okay if you know what it is then that's what you're gonna stay you'll know what it is and the whole world you'll know what it is and everything will fit into that if I could say I know I know nothing I'm starting I'm a hollow material at this is my mission a clean slate teach me teach me truth teach me life be open this is the uniqueness of a child this is it's the curiosity it's the inquisitiveness most importantly it's the humility it's not distorting information based on previous paradigms now let's face it the greatest source of distortion our inner traumas and inner dispositions because we relate to the world from certain glasses I put on these glasses I never take them off these glasses I take off but there's deeper glasses I don't take off and everything I see through these glasses now sometimes a person went through a transformation in their life my father will mention the ball truth about children went through a major transformation in his or her life and that's a unique transformation that an F of B so to speak did not have to go through that transformation so if I went through and ffs bees if we animate I don't like those words but even somebody who had to work on themselves and grew to a particular place here in a way and take this take this with sensitivity the danger becomes worse the danger is expansion ah Kelly hi Nick my Bottari there's so much so much perfection it is so much good in a way you become the worst clipper I don't mean you I mean you understand why right because it's like it's you become a real Chell a real HUS because you have so much to back it you have so much opium you have so much religion behind you you know you have quotes as as long as you don't have quotes - bah as long as you don't have quotes to support your your your stuckness so you're pretty good the moment to have quotes and sources improves but he said but that one said this was but but but but but so I could remain so powerfully stuck in my own quagmire which actually may work and that's what he says the student will absorb everything but only on his terms you can't compare to somebody else who's really tuned in to what the emesis what the truth is not as yeah even if it's not but it's going to be the das that he molds and he this and which is nice it's nice but it's not the truth of the idea and this is yeah of course of course of course of course a teacher will never inspire this in the student if he's not challenging himself on the same level he has to be ready to reinvent himself in fact this is what happened in this story because he was giving a beautiful shear everything was dandy but then he realized that there's something completely different than he had to grow silent which is not easy for him he himself had to forget himself and his connection so if he's not open to it this he'll not be he will not inspire that in the student you know there's no such a thing that there was once a big mafia and Chabad his name was of Nissen em enough so he once said that the lubavitcher rebbe told him personally he says asthma asthma Montez for natal med Loughman moanin from zip wahala parkas calf ym toppled when you demand something you're challenging your student in that way you have to ask of yourself at least double at least minimum in other words the challenges of on the same level as that's not gonna work cuz if you're the mentor you're on a higher in a higher place at least double but it's a very profound idea because it's not like okay you grow and i'll remain in the ivory tower each Island and I'll watch you grow it doesn't work that way and that's where the all Trust is lost so so 100% show what's truth get into the truth as it moves to I don't know I never heard of this way of learning that you describe what bow I don't illumination I never I don't I don't think it's a Tyne it's if nobody wants to win nobody but you know but willingness to say I'm going to give it a lot you can't come with it with nothing to do nothing and then have the same idea of of bringing everything you know to try to get to the truth against what this person is you mean cuz you mean because the hoverer still won't be impressed why if the fighting of the the argument in the have Russa is just because I have to hold on to my point then what type of learning is that okay so the ash the ash Misha Moffett Assad's my bi sir oh man eeeh masala ki the ice of a coid mem so this is the first stage in allowing the student the openness to be able to ultimately absorb the the new idea if this doesn't happen the new idea will never be able to really really commend how does one even begin to do this how does one even begin to do this I think we begin to do this simply by the knowledge of this fact the knowledge the awareness of this concept that to allow myself to be moved in a way that I don't have to impose my interpretation the challenge is that how do I even do this like I'm always going to impose my interpretation like I'll allow myself to be moved the way I want to be moved so how does one really it's like almost seems like a vicious cycle because my eye is always there right I'm open to you based on my openness to you like no I'm really open yeah I'm really open based on Who I am like that ability to really it has to come from a very deep deep place that can observe how I'm responding to things that's really I think where one can begin to get a hold of this like you really have to go backstage so to speak go to like a very deep place in your mind that cannot be first a source of xug that can observe how you're responding to it like what am i doing what am i what am i doing with this information I'm manipulating it or am I not manipulating it that's the idea of a hundred fasts 100 fasts means that he understood that with his mind it's too tricky he will not be able to do it he will not be able to do because all the information is already clouded the Bizet de Guevara natal Madeira shaman most people wouldn't even understand it today because yeah because the way we learned the way we learned today is mostly fact so what servant I'm with Bob Lee come here show me another spot another cash in advance the way that Miriam learned was there was a derrick halima doer paradigms of comprehension that Talmud you saw me and Talmud Bavli are two different worlds you're like in a different planet different planet different rules different way of thinking it's hard for us to understand this even so so the process here is a very profound like in this muscle what happened the teacher was in a good place the student was in a good place there was an intimacy there was communication there was life being communicated and it was amazing it was incredible and then that all came to a brutal end a very brutal end for the teacher for the student what really happened is I'm left with nothing now the old idea is gone a new idea I have not and I'm God my teacher is gone everything is gone if there's no trust he runs away he runs away that's it I'm done and you know who tries to say fill the void other ways if he's a real student he remains and in that stage this stage one the plus of the pro Nisa where there's just concealment concealment is the new idea just came into the world a new light came into the world and that new light is overwhelming and if the teacher and I remain in the same paradigm we'll never grasp it and therefore he moves away from the old paradigm and I'm left right where was the expression hanging dry so to speak I feel that way but really what's happening is a new a new awareness was born in the world and if I ever want to grasp that awareness I have to go through this stage because if I remain and the teacher remains in the old stage this new light will be lost we call this the light of mushiya the light of gula the light of a base emitters right that new light but at this stage the new light we explained in the last year very important Friday sheer whitish above mushiya who was born that's the new light but that light comes with a destruction always a destruction that's very very powerful and very painful very painful shivered in attempter is I don't have the new light yet but I could see that there's a light I could see it on my teacher that gives me hope but now I have to open myself up to the new light so that's a ready stage B and that openness is going to require a lot because if I wouldn't require a lot it's not a new light it's by part of the old light so you know we have a the model of a teacher and a student but the concept is always existing in life the concept exists in in so many so many areas in life the essay I sent out for Shabbos some of you got it when the cracks show up in your life it's time to let the new light in what does that what does that mean you'll have it for example you'll have it for example with your relationship with children sometimes you know that's a challenge a lot of people have as I said before you educated your children you tried hard you're a wonderful father you're wonderful mother everything is good suddenly just cracks everywhere there's cracks everywhere and what am I left with I'm left with confusion uncertainty I don't know what's happening and then sometimes there's there's darkness there's negativity news detachment yeah your child somehow disassociates from you will you find yourself disassociating from your child what's happening now most people would say this is the darkest moment and there's a good reason for that we call Tish above the darkest day comes a citizen says it's the darkest moment because it's also the brightest moments that's such a powerful idea it's the darkest moment there's no denying that we're not in la-la land but it's because it's the brightest moment because a new light just set into the and because a new light just sent into the world the old light gotta go the old clarity gotta go what am I left with nothing I'm Amish left hanging it's between one yesh and another yes there's a complete iron it's the seed that decomposes in the ground before it can grow we spoke yesterday right Hazari rumba dimmable uniaxial that seed has to go through a major bit Allah gotta be thrown into the pit and decomposed not once but many times and what happens in that decomposition you look at the scene like never never where where where where where wait you give me 70 years or 10 years 5 years you'll have the most delicious apples dates and figs for me the point is at the moment of decomposition decomposition you left with nothing you're left with nothing but that's the moment that's the moment that the seed opens up itself to a space where it can become a source of tremendous vegetation and producing that moment of darkness that moment of confusion I don't know what to do there is complete uncertainty you know why because a new light was just born and for the new light to be absorbed the old old light gotta go a person has this experience I didn't give this metaphor with children and the essay but a person has this experience in a marriage there's a marriage it seems blissful all is good and suddenly crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack the wall is now falling apart in the house at one level you could say it's all over but if you understand the pen Amir's this may be the best moment a painful moment but the best or why the best moment because this is challenging you to a new light yes maybe you were living in la-la land in a very shallow place the same is true your relationship with Hashem your relationship with yourself and almost in every in every area of life in every single ever take happiness happiness right it's those those moments of darkness that can be seen in two ways it's darkness or there's a new light that God wants me to have and this new light means that the old light gotta go cuz the old light is what's interfering to the new it's like the old structure doesn't allow your house to be an expanded house so you have to demolish the structure break down the walls to create space but breaking down walls is not fun especially knowing the contractor who will not rebuild them so fast so it's always very difficult moment but it's always the greatest moment what do you do to hold on during those moments what do you do what do you do to hold on that's what Shivan and I come to shiver than attempt to is I don't know how it's gonna work but I know it's gonna work I know that there's a light I see I could see that there's a light now I have to open myself up to it yeah when you speak about restraint - what's your side dish credit is the new month you can't see the moon you know why you can't see the moon because it's actually in closest proximity to the Sun what allows us to see light on the moon reflection of the Sun when is the moon in a perfect perfect position where there is a straight line of the Sun the moon and the earth the moment that there that there is a what is it called alignment of the Sun the moon and the earth that's called the mileage the moon is reborn and at that moment you'll never see the moon you'll never see the moon when are you gonna see the moon when it grows distance from the Sun starts moving away from the Sun if you have the Sun here in the moon here and the earth here so the moon is facing the Sun completely so the half of the moon that's receiving light from the Sun we don't see so that's the time when the Sun is mama SH giving all the light to the moon it's in its closest proximity from the whole month the fifteenth of the month when there is the most light it's the farthest away the fifteenth of the month the Sun is here the earth is here and the moon is here so we get a perfect image of the Sun there's of the moon Rashied ish right we call my little Ivana you don't see it why don't you see it because it's reflecting the Sun it's like reborn it's completely in touch with the Sun what does it look to me like darkness when it moves away from the Sun when I guess this is suddenly I have the light isn't that a funny thing yes ah with your own son as well yeah it's interesting how Jewish months work the numbers go up tests evolve 15 the moon eclipses a wanes but the numbers still go up design you design your class your tests right all the way up you would think that it should start going down because when we goes up it really means it's more but it's not really more it's less it's following the moon but the truth is what do you mean by more and less it's really going up the moon is becoming smaller and Y's are becoming smaller it's becoming smaller because it's getting closer to the source and whenever it gets closer to the source the old light is being diminished so if I remain removed from the source I have amazing light when I get closer to the source the light gets more and more and more diminished ah yeah I'm waiting for the new reborn birth the Moylan rebirth means I'm becoming a child again and how do I become a child I become smaller and smaller have less light and less light because I'm experiencing more of the source and because it's more the source therefore my light is being diminished ah and then in that moment of rebirth you don't see the moon you don't see the moon at all and then when it moves away you could start seeing the light so in terms of the light of the Moon it's getting diminished in terms of the relationship with the source it's getting more and closer and closer and closer so whenever there's a new light the light from the source the old light is diminished and the more it's diminished the more there's a new light like this teacher the more his absorption of the new light the less the communication and the communication wanes and it gets less less and less and less until it disappears why did it disappear this is the moment of rebirth this is the moment of the Moya the reason the light disappeared he stopped talking to me is why because he just got the new light till now he didn't get the new light completely just had an intuition of it so he could continue teaching in other words he could still reflect light he could still be the moon the moment when he gets the real light we call it a mullet the mullet he's perfectly aligned with the Sun what happens he grows dark I see nothing nothing nothing nothing it's the worst moment and it's the best moment it was the best of times and the worst of times and it's exactly the same thing the worst time was the worst of times was the best of times but at this point I don't feel that all I see is a dark moon I don't see anything so I'm left in the darkness why am i left in the darkness because the moon just absorbed a completely new light and the moon wants to give it to me but not yet so at this moment I'm left with nothing all I'm left is with cracks cracks cracks confusion uncertainty a lot a lot of pain however if I trust and I stay with the program and I stick it out and I invest in the process what happens is I open myself up to a new life gevalt and when you open myself up to a new light everything has changed forever very good hello materially delimiter is archaic the hest ah people come to a shear right they're often cynical they heard everything should I'll get what are you gonna teach me rabbi why way what are you gonna teach me no watch'n of some soy you guys miss organ not about Phineas mimosa no covered from the brisk area of mahabharata medina hi I'm Claire Carver's guys - Michigan right we shut down we become old we become old negotiate Aaron you're in the barn what happened you may didn't even make one comment today you didn't even make one comment today it's a fish much more double triple ten times that's not even close that ever once told one of the secretaries told me he said before I say I asked anything from the oil um I first think to myself if they're capable of doing fifty percent of what I asked for and then I speak about it yeah not even a hundred percent first I think many times over of they're capable of absorbing and doing fifty percent of what I asked so one step missing Amina was for bringing and he said how many things were we not so at to hear from than ever because he thought that people won't even do 50 percent suck Austin's response how many things that we lose out because we didn't think we're ready even 50% of the process a new slate doesn't mean I take a sledgehammer and I knock my brain out a new slate is it's an inner place you understand it's not you can't force it it's okay now I have a new slate what do I do a new slate is just a complete commitment and readiness a lot of us are not that's why that's why your question was very deep because of the teacher is not ready to do that to himself he will lose the student the first one to do it has to be the teacher and in the end maybe that is what makes him the greatest teacher that he's ready to do this more than the student what what what allows them to be a teacher what puts them in the position of a teacher that he's the first one ready to say I'll change everything if not then it's a joke then it becomes a mockery becomes a mockery then he becomes the greatest interference but this is very true you're saying students our children come with with new ideas fresh ideas powerful new ideas whether in science or physics or psychology and all the teacher can say is our garbage nonsense just and then they ah spirituality oh so I just you know just just follow me and it's like so one of two things happens either they have to numb a certain part of their creativity in order to belong at least your kids don't do it some kids do it unfortunately or they have to detach like there's no trust anymore Deb is riotta FASTA katate effort em sighs uh knocking let themselves alloy material yelets I'll ask a question I've given serum for many years there's two types of people that come there's people that don't come okay there's people that donors people that come you know that's to try it out how entertaining is rabbi why why somebody tells me says I try to listen every day but there's not enough jokes and that's it's fine okay yesterday I finished the shear whatever was an hour and half two hours I leave somebody says thank you for the entertainment okay fine your jokes are funny even at 1.5 thank you thank you but there's two types of people who come and listen one person I see is is their life changes from the ideas from the truth their life they're just transformed and they like every day that they're mesmerized by the information like with the open mouth so to speak and others can't get to that space not they don't they just it's not there it's like you know it's nice it's good I'm I like it it's good stuff what's the difference between the two another one is more or less intelligent than the other they're both very intelligent four wonders mom-ish a transformation yeah mama there's a few people who sit or listen virtually I get messages from them it's like it's like oxygen it's they allow the power of the ideas to penetrate them and remake them constantly and others don't it's a very it's it's a very powerful idea the house was a joke huh I see him yesterday was and closed eyes he teaches his father Hannam cardassia's ball the but it's a fascinating thing you can't force this on somebody you can say allow the material to reinvent you I can you can't tell it to somebody because if it's coming from somebody else it's not reinventing it's a very deep deep process it's really allowing truth allowing ain't safe to reinvent you Wow that's it's amazing and once and once that happens it never stops because infinity will not stop reinventing you because if it does it's not infinite right if there's a certain point we're okay this is it then that means I just closed off I just I just closed down that's why you know real people the older they get the more they grow the more they touch truth the more the transformation it's a fast that usually we've we know formidable years 10 years or young adult years but by the real real people the transformation between 70 and 80 it's hard to understand this and it's very few in generation or the generation turn eighteen 70 and 80 is greater than the transformation between 10 and 30 and it wouldn't make sense 70 you dog retired right time for the inner clock for the or 8 o'clock no no no if it's infinity it's the other way around the more the more and transformation I'm not 70 yet but that's what they say rabble its Minh comes every day with a fresh slate he doesn't comes every day Hacha thank God you have a lot of questions today could have been much worse you could have said today I have no questions that would have been a death sentence on this year somebody who's not shrit isn't it good they're not shriek hurt if like everything is good I told you the worst compliment I knew the two worst things I hear after a shear is good Vaart or it's similar to what I heard Shabbos sellers shudders somebody said it trouble should this observe art on the parsha why this and I okay that sentence filing cabinets just put it in same idea for me it's a bit scary the more I know challenging Yosef das Joseph Marcos Yosef das Joseph Marcus agony slow mama Luke says the more perception the more mock off from the word cave the more pain the more acuteness the more acute awareness the more the new light a curveball is a new light always a new light it's a very powerful idea that when you're facing a moment of uncertainty and confusion and everything you knew is not working it means that he just gave you a new light it's it's such a powerful idea everything I know is not working it's because there's a new light that just came in and the no our new light can only many of the old light gets I don't know if you can explain it to kids you can live it you can live it and the children will absorb it you can live it that the teen years it's always dramatic the teen years you know they have to say goodbye to being a child they're not adults yet and it's like we are my and I don't know who I am and at that moment you gotta just hold on very tight you can't figure it all out you just got a whole second rollercoaster you got a foot on a seat belt and hold on tight and don't run away that's what we spoke yesterday by your mind you don't run away you know where I wasn't planning to read that poem wish I was not planning to as I was giving this year and I was speaking about people who go through challenge and their own tissue buff I realized maybe I should read it and then I had a conflict in my mind is it too vulnerable am i disclosing information I shouldn't disclose person wrote me a private email they didn't ask me to publicize it they didn't even think I would so in my mind just a man a second yes no no yes it's inappropriate is it really appropriate for a Shearer it's not nice you know this is dark stuff and then I thought you know what a lot of videos on Tish above a lot of programs on tisha buff I know nobody's gonna do this and this this this isn't this needs a weirdness just people should understand what people are going through and I decided I'm doing it I'm doing it I'm doing it I'm saying it but then when I looked at the crowd I knew immediately that there are people who like stop with this drama please I lost my fist I lost my this and lost - just as we say grow up and move on so that's why I said I know that there's people who are thinking think I'm dramatic and the writer is dramatic and I want to tell you he's not even being as dramatic as he should be because of what he's going through cuz I myself was clueless and you saw it shre it a very powerful electricity there was like a a hush and the crowd I mean whoever was their sort right there was a it was like there was level there's levels there's levels of electricity on the hook I probably couldn't hear it on the under videos but it was very intense Shauna's real it was intense yeah hush mouth okay there was like a Helen custard in shock okay I didn't prepare a try I was to check the email I was hoping that the email I didn't like archive it or this it was there so I got it because I I knew I didn't I wasn't my parents I didn't have it ready but I want you to know that the writer over the email and he sent it last night the night of tissue birth and he said that I was watching on YouTube and the amount of physic the amount of strength and inspiration of validation I received he said was incredible I would never imagine that you would reach it to think I sent it to you I would never imagine that you would read this in public and and he was just like he was he was like boy you know very very emotional and then he you know he thanked me for the words afterwards I said that it's a seed and you're gonna you're gonna become a tree and I realized just for that just for that yeah but I didn't know that I wouldn't know that he was I guess so I guess so yeah yeah yeah and and similar people so he wasn't there but he told me that he he he watched it on YouTube it's sharing with you so I knew that moment that it was was the right thing to do and then he said what I was really impressed is that you said that I was not as dramatic as I should have I won that how does he know that because it's true I didn't write all my pain I didn't write what I was experiencing I was minimizing and even though it was pretty dramatic but I was minimal she said that I was shocked by he more than anything else how did you know that he said it was so true and the validation he received he never received such validation because his family you know the Smiths Ted and everybody dismissed it and he went through a lot tremendous difficulties it was the right choice just for just for that there was the right choice especially that there's other people plenty of other people okay let's let's move on with purifying ourselves the gyrus similarly you know the my son I said in here I said it in your car I'm glad that I said it in your car yeah I said it here I think right one morning yeah okay we could move on yeah now that the new light was born it's time to move on this class is brought to you by the yeshiva dotnet please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they ueshiba net slash donate