Maamar B'Yom Ashtei Asar 5731 #1 "Ana Nasiv Malka I Want the King" | Rabbi YY Jacobson, 5782

the yeshiva.net [Music] good morning everybody thank you so much for joining us welcome welcome everyone joining us from across the world thank you for gracing us with your presence those who are here on zoom with us those are all those who are here with us viachabad.org those who are here with us via the yeshiva.net those who are here with us via youtube via col via other websites or links our zoom our regular zoom students we have our students from pakistan all over europe africa the holy land of course and the united states and even new york where i'm speaking to you from so welcome everybody this is the first class of a series of four classes by ezra hashem today is the first class the second one will be sunday morning 8 a.m the third one will be sunday evening 7 p.m this is new york time and then the last one beija will be monday morning once again 8 o'clock am and they will be streaming live during our regular link through our regular links and everybody is welcome to join this series was initiated and is dedicated by the pearson family in honor and loving memory of an extraordinary jew who had the who i had the privilege of knowing many years david ben rabiaq of joseph raskin of blessed memory whose 95th birthday will be on the 12th of nissan and his yard site is next month on the seventh of ear zion ear this is dedicated by his grandchildren the pearson family and especially his grandson vincent pearson who initiated this project in memory of his beloved and special grandfather abdav draskin who was a true hasid a true yerey shamayam a true god fearing jew a very dedicated person he was for many many years the manager uh the dean of uh the central of shiva temple youth organization and a member of ada khabad which is the central committee umbrella organization of hasidim all over the world and a person who personified many of the ideas many of the experiences that we're going to learn in this class so tahini says may his light and his presence his soul continue to be a source of inspiration to many of us to all of us and especially a source of blessing to all of his children and his grandchildren his entire family for everything that they need materially and spiritually in a revealed way and thank you thank you so so very much for this sponsorship and dedication and initiation so next week next week tuesday is yura of nissan the 11th day of nissin which is the birthday of the la bhava chereba this year commemorates the hundred and twentieth birthday of the rebbe of blessed memory was born alofa nissan tough res the 11th of nissan 1902 we're in a country that is very very famous today it's called ukraine in the city nikolayev that's where the rebbe was born to his parents yitzhak and his mother ebbitzen khanna later his father was appointed as chief rabbi of the nepa petrovsk in ukraine then it was called yakatrislav because it was still before the bolshevik revolution before the communists took over so it was called yakatrinislav which was named after catherine the great but then after the bolsheviks took over all the names had to change of course petersburg peter the great had to become lenin grad and yakatrina's love went through the same fate and it became the nepa petrovsk at the coast of the nepal close to the dnapur river and um that's where the lobavich rabbi grew up so yidalif he was born 1902 2022 mark's 120th anniversary of his birthday i was just in florida there was a big event in honor of commemorating the rebbe's birthday when was it wednesday night so many thousands of jews was a beautiful event in south florida and i spoke there i think some of you were there or tuned in online and on the way back on the plane so i was sitting near somebody i wasn't sure he's jewish or not but then i heard him express himself on the phone with a hebrew word so we got into a conversation stuck up a conversation and he asked me now what he's doing in florida i said i came to speak at an event in honor of the of the rebbe's birthday he said you know of nissan 11th of nissan i said yeah he says how do i know he said it's my birthday too i was also born 11th of nissan and i was told as a child is a very secular jew i was taught as a secular israeli i was told a child that's a very special birthday of course it's also a few days before the birthday of claudia israel the birthday of the jewish people so it's all of our birthdays this season because as the navier haskell says in chapter 16 all of the jewish people were born by itis mitsura it's the yom her letters it's the birthday of claudius collectively and individually because we became a people we were slaves like hashem extracted one nation from among another nation he took slaves and he turned them into an independent free nation under the direct tutelage and leadership of hashem so it's really the birthday of the udall so this is the season of the birthday of the jewish people now the the only time we find in homage to celebration of a birthday is para para made a birthday party at the end of parshas mccates right that's when he emancipated the butler and he executed the baker you were xiaomi however tamadura rosh hashanah says that the malachites had a custom that they would send to the front lines of a battlefield a person who had a birthday that day because they said he won't be defeated easily because masoli gave you his muscle is very powerful and this is a basis of the power of the energy of a birthday that a person's contribution a person's life the gift of birth the gift of existence is repeated once again it's the day that god decided to send down your shaman to the world and rip sadiq of lublin the great hasidic master passed away in 1900 in the blind in poland in the seifer div is one of his fascinating works emphasizes this that the leader is the birthday is a day of celebration because the person's mazel person's spiritual energy is very powerful that day the baneshkai the great rabbi of baghdad rabbi savchem also passed away in the early 1900s also writes therefore that a birthday is to be celebrated even though others had different opinions in the hasidic world the balshemptiv who was born on the 18th of ello celebrated his birthday even though it was clandestine as well as the al-tarab tanya now in terms of the rebbe the la bhava on his 50th birthday which was a year after he became a rebbe 1952 he set a mimer in his room on the capitol to hillen um but he wouldn't hold any public events at his birthday when he became 60 which was 1962 he held the fabregan in honor of the gemara discusses the celebration of reaching the age of 60. um it's a whole discussion that made then a famous see by massachusetts we're going to learn today is a a historic and incredibly profound and life-changing discourse that was presented by the laboratory the date is yur alef nisantov that's the 11th of nissan 1971 and that's the birthday the river became 69 his big beginning of the 70th year and so so it's 1952 he set a mimer in 1962 and he became 16 in 1971 nine years later he went that day to pray at the resting place of his father-in-law the previous the sixth laboratory of blessed memory who passed away in nineteen fifty and when the river came nobody expected it would be any gathering but when it ever came back from the resting place of his father it was tuesday at all of nissan of the rest in place of his family and then notified there's going to be a fabric he notified there's going to be a fabrega and he died he came down to fabring it was a great great surprise and the rabbit began right away with this mimer and the mimer opens up with aposic from parishes there's a custom in many communities that during the first 12 days of the month of nissan we say every day the nasi which means the michigan was inaugurated the tabernacle was inaugurated on the first day of nissan and for the next 12 days those first 12 days of nissan every day one liter of one shavet brought a special offering a contribution for the new mishkan for the new tabernacle happens to be each leader brought exactly the same thing and the toyota repeats again and again 12 times what each leader brought 11 times what each leader brought it was 11 to see him that brought because levy was a different category it was the tribe of aaron so so there's a custom by many that every day of nissan we read the offering of that leader of that nasi what he brought that day which is really a repetition and the eleventh day of nissan is usher it was the gift of the leader of usher and that pasuk is the mighty deposit that ever began that mimer with known as the miner of the eleventh day of salamanal of 1971 it was a extremely extremely profound profound discourse and i would describe it as a mimer that really captures what is the jew who is this creature this creation we call the jew the ultimate jew the ultimate quest of judaism what the jew personifies individually and and collectively as we will see truly understanding and appreciating what is a jew versus the jews choices the jews relationship with hashem the jew in all of his or her manifestations what is this ultimate jew and as we will see the ultimate core is going to be going beyond spiritual self-centeredness i want only you i want nothing but the truth as this mimer will develop in great nuance and profound intricacy there's a build-up here it's uh it gets a little complex it gets detailed it gets intricate we'll try to explain with the best of our ability but the best but the i'll try to explain to the best of my ability base hashem the next year was tough shin lament base that's when the little baby should have been turned seventy then he made a fabregan again he sent a miami the same with the same beginning but yeah even though it was a different theme and from then he would hold the public for bringing every year on his birthday your olive nissan for the remaining years excuse me so let's begin let's go right into it and uh please open your source sheets if you're joining us on zoom i put into the chat the source sheet so you can you can open it up and follow inside if you're on the yeshiva.net you have the source sheet there and i think that other places as well have the source sheet org has the source sheet so you can get it over there and open it up and please let me tell you about the source sheet it's a long source sheet it has 121 pages but we're not going to be reading 121 pages we have here the whole mimer translated in in a beautiful english so those of you who struggle with hebrew you have the whole thing in english word for word translation like art scroll style and you could follow that in english i'm going to use the text in hebrew and translate so if you open up your source sheets and you go to page three of the source sheets we begin but if you continue scrolling down you'll see after a few pages you have the whole thing in english beginning from page 21 in your source sheets you have the entire discourse with hebrew and english translation all the way till the end so that may be very useful and certainly useful for to review says the maya may you all of nissan shalom i should say that the rebbe said it in 71 and then he edited it it was prepared by the writers and then the rebel edited it in 1989 top shin mem tess this was his 87th birthday beginning 88 that ever edited this moment that's when it was published and that i remember 71 is a little before my days but 89 when it came out i still remember the joy and the festivity and the ecstasy that gripped so many of us upon learning these powerful gems giving us very profound insight into yiddishkait and to terror and to mitzvos into a relationship with hashem and into the ultimate calling of a jew and especially in the days before pesach when we became when we became a nation when we became a people what is this unique people call the jewish people the 11th day of the month of nissan nasi living was the time that the leader of the tribe of usher offered his contribution is you see there's something strange about this portion entire hawaii usually the toyota is written in a very brief and concise fashion here the toyota for some reason goes into such detail which seems superfluous and unnecessary because it repeats as i said 11 times exactly the same words for each one of the leaders and it doesn't seem necessary the title could have just said the first leader nakshan who brought for your hood and then everybody did the same thing why do we have to repeat the same carbonus again and again when they were all doing exactly the same thing so the madras explains that every one of the leaders had a different kavanaugh he had a different meditation a different mindset in other words externally it looked like they brought exactly the same types of animals and the same type of same types of cutlery and utensils for the michigan that was external but internally each one of them gave the gift with a different mindset with a different intention and therefore the turtle repeats it it's a fascinating idea the marriage goes through each tribe showing the different kavana that they had including usher usher is a very long one all of them are very long it's one of the longest madrashim you have going through the whole every single carbon had a different kavanagh what about usher so this is what we're going to learn of isabella maduro so the madrid says all the tribes all the children of yaakov their names represent the redemption of the jewish people and the praise of the jewish people including usher asher nikrish also his name is connected to the redemption of the jewish people commander like the pasik says the navi says the last one of the prophets the last one is malachi and he describes the time of gullah the retention he says all of the nations of the world will acknowledge you will praise you will extort you because you will become eretz a land full of desire a desired land says hashem so the word usher which comes from the word ashrae fortune or to acknowledge to praise to extol to elevate represents the time of goula when the true nature of the jew will emerge in its full glory and the whole world will acknowledge it and the name also represents the praise of the jewish people come on the tama like it says in tehillim and we say it every day this is to hillam 144. ashrae fortunate is the nation that this is his faith fortunate is the nation that hashem is his god a shooter and shall israel says the madrish the great praise of the jewish people the great fortune of the jewish people is allah al-shabab islam the true greatness of the jewish people you could say the jewish people are great why because i don't know they're smart they're ambitious they're creative they have good families many of them have good families they're successful they made a lot of good contributions to society they survived through thick and thin they're stubborn they're tenacious they're strong they know how to persevere those are all good stuff but the marriage here says you want to know what the real praise of the jewish people ain't assuring you all the usher usher comes from the word the fortune the praise of the jewish people is one thing that they chose hashem they chose hashem to be their god and hashem chose them to be his unique people says the madrid this is all a quote from the madras wrap so when the leader of the leader the prince of the tribe of russia came to offer his contribution he offered his offering to commemorate the choice that hashem chose the jewish people from all the nations commander as the passage says where hashem chose you to be his special treasured nation and the madrid goes on to explain how every detail of the offering of usher is connected to this point connected to the choice that the jewish people made in hashem because this is the praise of the jewish people that they chose hashem and that hashem chose them and he literally goes through us it all represents the various nations of the world who appreciate the destiny and the uniqueness and the gift of the jewish people and they all become ultimately connected to the jewish people and inspired by the jewish people it's a fascinating message and he goes through how the choice of the jewish people in god and god's choice in them and every offering of usher represents this point and this madrid becomes the foundation of this discourse of the laboratory on the 11th day of nisan when usher brought his tribe which is nissan laid him so many years later the day that the rebel was born there's something amiss in this madrid is of gemara in other words every word is precise it's meticulous sometimes people read madrashim you know they think it's just some charming insights every piece of toyota has profound structure and meaning so he says there's something in the structure that seems strange in the beginning the madrid says that ashley usher comes from the word ashrae ashley ashley i am fortunate as the nation that this is his fate what is it sha hashem elikov that this is the people that chose hashem as his god you shouldn't show us well the only real authentic praise for the jewish people is that they chose god and the madrid ads as something else and god chose them right in other words sometimes we call the jewish people the chosen people and the message is saying it's not only the chosen people it's the choosing people it's the people that chose it's the people that chose god and in response god chooses them that's the beginning of the matter but later when the message summarizes and culminates the point the metric says when usher came to offer his contribution he offered it because of the choice of hashem in the jewish people what's the focus here first he begins that the praise of the jewish people is that they chose hashem at the end of it he says that usher which is the praise of the jewish people offered it because hashem chose the jewish people suddenly the focus shifts kamsariklahavan but we have to also understand something more fundamental not just in the structure of the madrid but the very concept the word choice is applicable when you have two things that are similar or even if they're not similar each one has an advantage that the other one doesn't have so then you can choose this is really going back to the basics when you're talking about hashem versus pagan gods pagan false deities how do you even use the word that the jewish people chose god over these other gods let me give a very simple example when you say choice you have to choose between two things you need to have two things to choose from if i only have one thing this is the only option there's no choice right in the olden stores when you came in to buy pants there was only one pair of pants so there's no choice either you wanted it you don't want it if you want it this is it today you have diversity you want pants and there's so many different types you want shoes there's so many different types so many different types of shirts so many different types of companies and designs and labels etc now you have to choose a person wants to buy a house right so there may be two houses two houses on the same block or two houses in the same neighborhood or two houses in the same city so now you have to choose between this house and this house right but what happens if there's only one house there's only one house tub available no so somebody will say oh you could choose between the house or you can also buy a car i also sell cars i don't need a car i have a car i need a house there's only one house so there's no choice choice means you have two things that are similar and now i have to choose between this dish and the restaurant or this dish in the restaurant between this car or this car this computer or that computer this phone or that phone right you're choosing a relationship right there's two people you can go people can go out with different people right each one has certain miles advantages now you have to choose which one i understand but when something is completely not in the same league not in the same realm it's almost embarrassing to say by the way i i chose you over what over something that's completely completely not in the same realm so means things that are similar to each other or even if they're not similar but each one has something unique something special so you say do you want to live in new york or do you want to live in miami there's milos in new york i know some people don't think that and there's my list in miami do you want to live here do you want to i understand it's a different category and these pros and cons and everything you have two jobs they're both interesting jobs this has pros and this says pro so now you have to choose but if you have one thing want a job that's going to pay you and a job that's going to press you that what what's the choice if you're a normal person so the reb asks a fundamental question we're praising the jewish people that they chose god what exactly was the choice for what were the options the options was to choose what to choose a fake deity is that really called a choice now you might say well the paganism was a major thing in the world they had to choose it but the mentors really described describes the word actually means you're making a choice between two things is it really a choice i mean once you know the reality there's no choice here conversely the measure says hashem chose the jewish people israel what does it really mean hashem chose the jewish people the jewish soul is a completely different type of soul than any other soul every creature has its unique identity it's unique so the jewish soul it's called a heiler it's a different thing so what do you mean you chose the jews from other people it's not the same thing again i have to live i'm buying two houses if i want to buy a house there's two houses i choose one house from another house somebody will tell me here you can buy the house and here's an apple so i choose the house over there i don't want an apple i ate apples already i want a house there's only one house what do you mean hashem chose the jewish people from the nations of the world if he wants the soul of the jewish people there's only one such type of soul there's nothing to choose from if you want a house this is the only house available i'm sorry if you're not looking for the jewish soul fine but if you're looking for the jewish soul it's not a choice it's not two things that are equal and now you have to choose so what do you mean god chose the jew if you want this you want this it's not a choice so you might say oh the answer is maybe he didn't choose the song it says in tanya chapter eighty fourteen chapter forty nine that when we say you wanna shows us it's referring to the body to the physical organism the physical brewed body hanidma which is similar but in its materialism lagoof asylum to the bodies of the nations of the world ah maybe that's the explanation because that is a choice the soul of the jew is initially of a different category it's just it is what it is every person has a soul a jew has a soul a non-jew has a soul in fact every creature has a soul every existence of a soul that reason writes that even rocks even inanimate matter is compr is made as a song today in science we know that within the smallest physical matter even though it looks lifeless it's completely alive there's a dynamic universe and a very very active atomic structure that is ha that is comprises all matter and there's this constant movement and motion incredibly swiftly with the nucleus of the atom you have the electrons evolving the nucleus of the atom which allows matter to exist so this only explains to us a little bit better what thyrizel says that everything has a soul but the question is what type of soul you can't compare the soul of an animal to the soul of a human being a human being a jew or non jews but selam elekim is in the image of god like it says in of adam shannon every human being every person is cherished as beloved because he or she was carved in the visage of god which is why human life is sacred especially but the jewish soul is a different type of soul so if you want that type of soul there's nothing to choose from so you might say the choice is the body the goof because this the body is also sacred the body keeps the divine score as we often discuss in our classes the body is sacred it says the goof is sacred judaism doesn't ultimately acknowledge that there is this essential split between the soul and the body there was once a fabric and just parented parenthetically but very important idea purim shalom and hey put in 1975. so the rebecca that's dedicated then to explain the gemara megillah so the tomorrow says torah and simha is yamtif and sasin is miller circumcision and yakar is filling and he explains why hazal connected these words to to this explanation but one of the points he made then was that there are religions there are ideas that believe that there is an essential duality between the body and the soul the soul is lofty sublime holy sacred the body the body ultimately should be disgraced the body is is negative the body should be scorned it's just brute materialism and that's a philosophy that has taken root in in many cultures and even within judaism you have certain streams that emphasize that but the representing the ultimate that's that's more of a there's a truth to it but it's a superficial truth there's a much deeper truth the truth is hashem is one and what hashem is one is that the oneness permeates the physical and the spiritual the soul and the body and as he said the soul expresses hashem's oneness through spirituality and the body expresses hashem's one is through physicality so we look at the body in a completely different way and here the al-taraba says in tanya that hashem chose the body so maybe this answers the question because the body indeed is similar sarika beard this still needs explanations the balatanya's words are the body is it appears similar to the bodies of the nations of the world appears but it's not for hashem appearance is not deceptive for people appearance can be deceptive so you could say ah you chose this over this because they look the same but for hashem appearances don't matter they may matter but they're not a determining factor so if he knows that the body is a different quality it's a different caliber because today we know that the genes that make up a body are completely connected to the personality of the person especially in epigenetics so the body of the jewish people is really a different type of body because of the genes and the body is a reflection of the soul etc so what's the choice if you want this so you have this it's not a choice it's not similar the fact that it's similar externally doesn't answer by hashem so therefore we're left here at the end of this paragraph with two big questions or three big questions first of all the structure of the medras seems strange first you emphasize that the praise of the jewish people is that they chose god but then you say the praise of the jewish people is that god chose them which one is it the second thing is what does it even mean that the jewish people choose hashem sounding like almost do we were real options and we have to choose one from the other when the whole world the word choice seems insulting and ridiculous and also what does it mean hashem chose the jewish people if you're looking for a jewish soul and a jewish body there's no choice if you're not looking for it so then don't choose it second paragraph base you've answered all of this will be understood by introducing one of those very incredibly powerful sukim in the book of echa echo is the book of lamentations we read it on tish above it was written by yermia navi jeremiah the prophet and it of course describes the horrific destruction of yerushalayim and of the base amigurus the first base amiktas during the milieu during the era of jeremiah navi by the babylonian emperor who was the king the monarch of babylonia and the babylonian empire and at the end of chapter three yamiya navi expresses himself and he says hashem my soul declares hashem is mine hashem is my helic hashem is my lot my part like we say ashrae numatov amranavshi my soul says god is my lot my helic therefore al qaida therefore i wait for him i anticipate him on this verse of echa there's an incredible madrish i think who quotes and this is a madrid known as verse and here's the message there's a metaphor parable of a king who went into the country he entered into the grand country for haywood are military commanders and the madrid continues and the great people of the country the locals were sitting there in middle of the country as the king entered with this impressive entourage and we have here three three uh types of people that the king came with duchenne are dukes ifrit are muslim governors of different regions and israel are military great generals and commanders so the medra says a conversation emerges one of the people in the country one of the great people in the country says i'm going to choose a relationship with the dukes i'm going to choose the dukes one of the dukes for to be my patron to be my protector the other one said i'm going to choose one of the governors for me to be my patron the third one said oh what are you guys going to choose the dukes you're going to choose the the governors you got to go to the army they got the power you got to go to israel these are the military commanders the military generals you know they they have the power if i need a relationship i am going to cultivate a relationship with the military commander this is a conversation that madrid is describing as a parable there was also one man who was wise he was a pikachu means a perceptive wise deep profound soul um he said i am going to choose the king the word nasiv means i'm going to take i'm going to choose i'm going to choose the king why the hulu is because all of them are exchangeable all of them are replaceable the king is not replaceable what's the parable says the madrish kane um the same is true throughout history various nations of the world mayhem there were those who worshipped the son of mayhem than the levana there were those who worshipped the moon and the marriage continues and those who worshipped wood and there were those who worshipped statues and rocks ava is the jewish people chose to serve hashem this is the meaning of the words of yermia jeremiah the prophet hashem amranakshi my soul says my phallic my patron is god this is how rib explains the words of hashem my soul says i want the king i'm choosing the king and that's why parenthetically this mimer this discourse of the laboratory of this option came to be known by hasidim if you just say three words everybody knows what you're talking about this is part of the chabad lexicon anonymous is a madrid but when you say no no somebody knows what are you referring to you're referring to this mimer because this is the my mirror with the rebbe dedicated the whole mimer to explain to us to to bring out to accentuate to suck the marrow out of these three words of malk i'm taking the king now let's understand this story whenever the madrid tells a story it's to bring out a point without the story without the parable we learned last week in the derek's foreign had three thousand parables that mayor the gamer in sanhedrin says had 300 parables a parable an analogy uh a muscle a metaphor an allegory is there to bring out the point what's the point the measure is trying to bring out the king comes in with an entourage now there's an argument right so schmedel says i know she metal one person's not just metal she one person says i want the duke i'm choosing to do the other guy says i'm choosing the governor i'm choosing the military commander and then the pikachu there's one smart guy he says oh kevin they're all they're all exchangeable they're all in they're here today they're gone tomorrow not tomorrow after tomorrow not after tomorrow next year next decade i'm staying with the king this is what a jew is this is what jeremiah says and you have to understand when you're me you said this you mean you didn't say this during easy times here may have said this as the flames were consuming the spiritual epicenter of the world and the epicenter of the jewish people didn't look like there's going to be a future and i say this because this is important to understand the whole continuation of the discussion the question is well known this is a question that's been raised among the hasidic masters of previous generations as he puts puts out as he points out in footnote number twelve there's a minor from the semart zedek the grandson of the bellatanya about us there's a miami from his son shmuel about this and other discourses here's the question of if you're reading a children's book a child's book to your child and the king comes in with a whole entourage and you ask your child if you have to develop a relationship with who should you go to what would the child say you have to be a picker you have to be a brilliant brilliant mind a really profound person he said i feel a tinnit cotton it's a beautiful expression even a baby knows that the king is greater than everybody else i mean they're all under the king they were all appointed by the king they all work for the king they're his employees you should have to be like really really wise and then the matters are saying this is the uniqueness of year me on naviance of the jewish people began another question the the the wise man the pka says you know i am choosing the king because nobody is firing him tomorrow the duke may be fired the military governor may be fired the military commander he may be demoted the king he has a secure position let's say the king gives the governor tenure life life tenure let's say the reasoning seems off the reason is because the king is not being fired let's say the duke is there for life he's not being fired everybody still understands that the king is greater why do you need this reason so first of all why do you need a pikachu what's the brilliance and second of all the reason seems strange and he adds a parenthesis it says about shawl hamelech the first king of israel in small aleph that from his shoulder and up he was higher taller than the whole nation what does it mean it does not just talk about physical stature it's talking about spiritual stature a true king a true we're talking about a true king a true true spiritual leader appointed by god even his shoulder is higher than the tallest part than the head of the people the shoulder represents the beginning of midos of the emotions that come from the brain in the head so even the midos of the king are higher than the sacral than the cognitive elements of the entire nation including the greatest ministers so how do you compare them to the king we're talking about a real malach a true king what makes him a king is something unique about him so the only reason i'm going to choose him is because he'll be here tomorrow in the job as well gemma so this is the madrish the first chapter discussed the madrid the first oyster first segment on this custom message about usher now we discuss the madrish about the dukes the governors the military commanders versus with the questions and now we begins perhaps all of this can be explained based on a premise and this premise is going to be based on the famous rambam in the beginning of the laws of idolatry desire and i'm going to tell you what the rambam says in zora it's unfascinating the first chapter of rambam it's a chapter of history the laws of idolatry and explained at length in derek by the time in the beginning as he puts as he points out in footnote 17. the rambam asks a question how did idolatry develop throughout history what happened how did our desire happen and the ramen said something very interesting it started actually in a very benign way he says in the early generations people said you know god has all these intermediary forces that run the world they should be honored they should be given dignity the stars the galaxies the planets the sun the moon the winds the clouds lightning rain these are all this is what allows life on the planet to be sustained god chose all of these entities to run the universe to run the cosmos all of them deserve respect in fact it's part of respecting hashem part of respecting hashem is you respect those who work for him you respect his employees you respect the instruments he uses you respect all those creatures that he uses especially the rambam says in hil that the the heavenly creatures have consciousness he says that all of them have dei of a haskell they have very deep perception we say shabbos and adonai what do we say um the luminaries that hashem created he created with das with perception with understanding with awareness now it doesn't mean he created them with his own awareness with his own understanding he created everything with his da's so this is what the rama is saying that they have das so this idea was that they have to be respected because this is part of hashem's respect after the generations continued there was already a new idea that god actually wants us to show respect and god wants us to worship them and show appreciation to them and by that appreciation we're going to get much more and then it evolved ultimately that they were responsible for everything and god was forgotten and paganism took over this is what the ramen describes so the rabbi here summarizes this evolution of idolatry in the early generations elusive those who worshipped stars constellations other forces of nature polytheism yadu they knew shepherds is base it's a very interesting gemara rava asked rabbi mari what's the source for different slangs of people one of them is khamri lamar tavus the wine belongs to the owner but the thank you belongs to the waiter to the one who comes to the butler to the one who pours the wine he doesn't own the wine but he's a waiter you say thank you you don't go to the kitchen and you look for the owner and say hey thank you for the wine unless he's your friend or he comes out for a visit to see you to see you but who do you say thank you to if you're sitting at a restaurant you order a cup of wine the waiter doesn't own the wine it's not his wine he's hired he's just delivering the wine but he brings the wine he makes a presentation he's dressed beautifully he pours the wine into your glass so you say thank you thank you so much right make sense hamra the martyrdom and the gemara there brings a proof from the torah for this that this is the right way with my you're sure you can look up this 92. so the rabbit says as follows in the early generations the people who worshipped forces of nature they knew that the flow that comes into our world through all of the forces of nature whether it's the sun whether it's the moon whether it's the planets whether it's the galaxies whether it's all the dynamics within the universe and within the planet it's not independent hashem is sending the flow through them but they thought that all of these creatures all of these entities are choosing to do the job and if they're too choosing to do the job you say thank you why don't you thank a waiter it's not his food not his wine why should i thank him i'm thanking him because he could have taken another job maybe an easier job right he's standing here on his feet all day in this restaurant he's serving me so what do you do you say thank you thank you doesn't mean you're the boss thank you doesn't mean you're the owner thank you doesn't mean you can fire the owner thank you doesn't mean you're going to be here tomorrow thank you means you chose to do this i'm benefiting through your choices i say thank you that was the beginning of a desire that's what the tsa do you know where this is that what these creatures chose on some level to do this work so you say thank you what was the mistake they didn't know the truth they don't have choice they're like an axe in the hand of the chopper the nova yeshaya calls it but y'all 10 isaiah 10. like garzan is an axe in the hand of the chopper do you say thank you to the acts they thought that if the waiter these are all waiters you choose and if they choose like the waiter you say thank you something else what happens when you're nice to the waiter what happens when you're nice to the waiter he's going to bring it out faster right and maybe he'll fill up the cup a little more when you're nice to the waiter you gain so they thought sins the stars and sins the constellations have choice so if you worship them you thank them you offer them offerings you show gratitude you'll get more so there's two mistakes number one they have a choice so you say thank you right you say thank you somebody did something for you you say thank you number two the thank you is also very beneficial if the waiter likes you know if you're a hotel for a week and you have a waiter and you're nice to your waiter and you give a nice tip to your way to what happens he's gonna go to the kitchen he's going to be first online you're going to get your food first you're going to get your wine first you're going to get your spare ribs first you're going to get all of your delicious desserts first if you don't tip the waiter you'll get it an hour later tip the waiter right so the rebel says this was their mindset their mindset was god chose all of these waiters they're doing amazing work we should thank them and if we thank them we'll also get the job done this was their perception um now it evolved they came to a greater error masala now comes mistake number two at some point hashem abandoned the earth the stars run the show the constellations were on the show the planets run the show the various forces of nature run the show they are the ones who run the world god is is is even if he exists but he's removed it's like a regular government melaka king chaminade you can't have a president of a country or a king of a country doing everything he appoints a government and the government includes ministers and the minister and appoints others and they run the show ah you'll say the king could fire all of them the king appointed them that's true but he doesn't make sin he's out of it maybe if there's a unique urgent situation he's going to mix it but usually he's out of it so this was the next stage the next stage of desire was based on the fact that god is on vacation god is not running our world god is not running our planet there's other forces that you have to appease that you have to reach out to to run the planet so there's two stages you understand stage number one is hashem is the boss and hashem is running it hashem is running the restaurant but he has waiters and you have to thank them because they chose stage and also by thanking them and worshipping them you'll get more stage number two is hashem was removed from the picture completely yes he's still the boss he could fire them but as long as you know you have people who start companies they appoint capable people and they're gone they come back once a year to pick up a check or maybe to sit at a board meeting they don't mix in and if you have a problem you don't go to them they're not going to answer you this is too small for me i'm busy with other things i'm on vacation i'm in southern france don't bother me who do you go to you go to the people who were chosen to work as ceo managers these are so of course avoiding zara makes sense now we don't have today the issue with people worshiping stars or galaxies or planets or the clouds or the wind or the rain right of trees or cows or fish right the egyptians worshiped sheep and others worshiped holy cows the hindus etc we don't have that but as we will see the concept exists in every person's life the question is how much is hashem connected to the details of life so here we're explaining the evolution of how avoid desire idolatry develops via schleimer noises the gemara says at the end of massachusetts page 110 that the nations of the world some of them called god the god of gods eloika the elekaya that was their name hashem is the god over gods he says this term includes two categories either the focus is he's the god of gods or the focus is he's the god of gods but it includes both of us there is it includes two different types of errors error number one is those who felt hashem gave over control he may still be the god of gods but ultimately the gods run the show why first of all he's the ultimate boss he's still the god he can fire them he hired them he's above them he's the boss and the fact that they can run the show is because he appointed them just like a president or just like an owner of a company or investor who appoints somebody to run the show so they can still call god the god of gods we're gods but he's the god over the gods that's mistake number one there's another mistake it's much more subtle they said no god runs the world but he does it through the waiters through his employees he's still on the top he's still running the show but it's through them and they choose and that's why we have to thank them and that's why we have to worship them and that's why we want to be nice to them and that's what we want to extol them because it's appropriate to say thank you to the waiter hamlet and also we're going to get more they too call god the god of gods because he's of course the god but the fact is that they have a choice and because they have a choice they're also somewhat of a god the jewish people appreciated the pristine truth what's the pristine truth so this is the point we can make peace i have shalom now we can appreciate the wisdom of the person who said i am choosing the king you remember the debate the son the moon the governor the military commander the duke if so we now may have an understanding at least on one level of the madrish you do need wisdom the jewish people became aware of the truth that everything in the world outside of hashem is kigaires and biyat it's like an axe in the hand of a chop when you finish building a sukkah if somebody companies somebody comes to build my sukkah and he finishes building what do i say i say thank you so much for building my sukkah he says wait don't thank me thank the hammer thank the hammer thank the nails thank the axe thank the drill i never saw anybody going over to the drill and saying thank you drill thank you ham why not why not without the drill there would be no sucker you know that somebody finishes the house go thank the bricks go thank the instruments that were used to build the house the answer is they don't deserve a thank you not because we don't appreciate hammers and drills and instruments we appreciate them very very much but because they really had no say in the matter so thanking them is they don't have a choice you talk about a lifeless hammer you don't thank a lifeless hammer you thank the chopper you thank the one who ployed the hammer to build your house that yeah he had a choice he has to get paid he wants to get paid the hammer you don't thank him and by thanking the hammer you're not going to get better you're not going to get better better support you're not going to be treated better by thanking the hammer the contractor is not going to finish the house faster the jewish people understood that every force in the world every force i'm not just talking about the sun and the moon and the stars and the winds and the clouds every atom every neuron every cell every person it's of every force in the world is kigaris and so all the instruments that hashem uses and he uses incredible instruments because everything the flow of hashem is manifested it flows through everything but it flows through everything it's just an expression of hashem there is absolute oneness in the universe everything is ain't mulvaney it's an expression of hashem the light of the sun the way judaism looks at it it's hashem's light but hashem's light is not going to be able to do photosynthesis because it's infinite so hashem's light is filtered through the light of the sun the rain it's hashem's hashem it's hashem's energy but hashem's energy is not going to make my crop grow or allow me to drink water it's infinity so hashem is samsung he condenses and he limits the energy that it flows and it it assumes a physical incarnation of water and the same is true with a cloud and the same is true with a worm what is a worm you look at a worm you know worms are very important there's nothing on our earth that doesn't contribute to the ecosystem to the balance of the ecosystem to the food chain to the food web it's unbelievable people used to be a question why you need lightening today we know that without lightening there's no way that the nitrogen will be able to synthesize be sensitized with the oxygen which is important for amino acids so that we can create new cells in our body so everything is part of the divine flow of energy the worm sits in the earth all day and it toils it toils but it plows the earth it makes the earth fertile to the growth there's no such a thing a wasted worm everything is part of a singular unity and everything is essentially divine energy but in order to be able to affect the existence of a physical planet and a physical cosmos the divine energy assumes infinite different incarnations and expressions and manifestations but it's all kigaris it's all the hammer that he's using and for this you need to see the penemius you have to be able to perceive the inner core of the universe when you look at the outside it can look like there's many different entities and everything has a say and as he says everyone has their own personality and their own contribution and therefore they have to be the intermediaries the jewish people understand no there's no intermediary it's all oneness all mamish one is a direct intimate relationship only with hashem and this takes das this takes awareness this takes perception to be able to look through the external facades and to be able to see the pneumous there's no other bella bus in the world there's nobody else that calls the shots it's not the waiter in the restaurant who can be in a bad mood and say i'm not giving these gape kids anything it's not the manager in your company who's having a bad day and decides to fire you or decides to make your life crazy it's obviously hashem is is giving you the money through this manager and through this company and you're building the house through this hammer and the wine is coming through this waiter but it's not like the waiter and it's not like the contract and it's not like your father and mother who you have to respect because they indeed have choices and they brought you into the world when you're talking about the big picture is the concept that ultimately hashem is not just running the world but every detail everything that comes through all the moments i am it's all from one direct intimate source without any khatsitsa without any hefsight without any any interruption whatsoever this was the perception of the jew this is perhaps what the madrid means that they all say i want the duke i want the military commander because look at this military commander right there's something special about him he has charisma he has power so you'll say well that's available no the king hired him the king hired him for a reason he's a good guy he's talented he's a good waiter thank him worship him and you're going to get better protection this other one says no the duke the governor everyone chooses their god to worship we all worship something everybody worships something everybody believes in something the question is only what you believe in everybody is afraid of somebody everybody i'm not afraid of anything really really we're all afraid of something we're all afraid i have to please somebody there's somebody right somebody who's paying the bills somebody else is somebody i want to impress psychologically financially i need him psychologically emotionally spiritually consciously subconsciously they say look at these guys i know the king appointed them and even if the king is still running the show he owns the restaurant but these are the waiters they're gonna get the job done you better be nice to them you better worship them the sun the moon the stars i hear what they're saying says there was a picaya he didn't look at the kids the panemia obviously the military commander has talent and creativity that's also hashem that talent and creativity is also god physical creativity is also divine i said before we don't believe in a partition between heaven and earth between soul and body the governor and the military commander and the duke and nature it's all a conduit and if it's it's not that there's something there outside of hashem it's all one thing the bread that you eat the bread that you eat i can't live without food i can't live without what is it so what does that reason say loyal divine energy should i be nice to the bread well bread is lifeless right so i don't think i should be nice to the bread but what's the concept do i take the bread seriously of course without it i can't live it's divine energy that's manifested through bread it's manifested through fruits through vegetables through legumes through plants through nutrients the nutrients the protein you're eating it's divine energy hashem says this is one that we once learned before pesa explains this at length everything is divine energy so this is the perception of the pikayak and therefore he says i'm not going to the duke i'm not going to the governor i'm not going to the military commander ah no no i'm going to the king it seems like it's settled but allah says we have to go one step deeper one step deeper i'm going to learn here one more paragraph till see if hey however maybe alzheimer's oh by the way that's why the balsamic's father when the balsham to his father was on his deathbed was five years old and he called him over and he said yes relic two things i want to tell you before i leave this world number one don't fear anybody or anything in the world outside of hashem number two love every jew with every fiber of your being his father passed away his name was eliezer and little yisraeli grew up an orphan because his mother died soon afterwards but those two final statements of his father when he was five years old became the two pillars of light that accompanied the balshemptiv and his entire contribution to the jewish world don't fear anything in anybody in the world outside of hashem now what does that mean it means as follows if you don't fear hashem then you're going to fear somebody or something in the world because there's always something to fear from there's always a boss even if i have 100 million dollars in the bank there's somebody who has two billion dollars in the bank and i want his money and i want to impress him and even if i have 50 billion dollars in the bank there's somebody else has 80 billion dollars in the bank and i have to impress him there's always somebody above me that basham this father said the only way you're not going to fear anybody or anything is if you have real real your shamaya if you have real real your shamayim then you don't have to fear anybody or anything then you really don't have to fear anybody if not of course you should fear people if not you're talking crazy why shouldn't you be afraid you should be afraid you should be afraid but here we go one step further amnam however of the messages as we explained in chapter three of the mimer there's something that's amiss what's the parable the madrid gave to explain why jews chose god a king with dukes governors and military commanders now i want to ask you a question do they have choices of course they have choices in fact throughout history military commanders revolted against the king they often assassinated the king read a little bit about roman history or other other monarchs how the king was always in danger because his closest people could destroy military commanders even in our own in our own times have made decisions in contrast to the commander-in-chief of course they have choice they were hired by the king they were hired by the president but ultimately at some point they could say you know what i'm not interested in this job maybe i'm going to quit maybe i'm going to do exactly the opposite of what you want me to do and this happens in the united states of america it happens in israel it happens in many many other countries so why would the madrid bring this as a parable it's the wrong parable here the parable is wrong because in the parable right by choosing the dukes the duke you're actually going to get better you he he has choice he is the waiter in the restaurant he may not own the food he may not own the kitchen he may have been brought in but he has a lot of input he has a lot of input the duke the governor the military commander of course they have tremendous input and they have choice and they could give you more they can make your life much better so one second you're telling me that the reason that the jewish people chose hashem is why because they realized everything else is baba myself it's like thanking the hammer it's just hashem but the metaphor then is off because the metaphor the parable is people who do have choice and by choosing them and worshiping them and being close to them and taking them and and being and having a relationship with them you're actually going to get much more in the nimshal in the message worshipping stars and constellations and galaxies and forces of nature is completely ineffective because they don't have choices they're just robots it's like you'll thank your computer for doing something right your computer was just programmed it's you'll thank the robot you ever thank the robot the robot was just programmed yes the robot is very talented when i take my car somewhere and you come to a destination do you start offering an offering to your car for bringing you here maybe but there's nothing the car is a wonderful instrument i couldn't do it without the car but the car is just the geyser behind the heistef so why is the medrage bringing this metaphor which seems inconsistent so that says you have to say that there's something much deeper here the reason the wise man or woman says i'm choosing the king is not because the ministers are ineffective they're worthless they may have a lot of power but in the muscle it's because he wants to be with the king and being with the king is more important than all the benefits he's going to get from the duke from the governor and from the military commander that's the muscle in the marshall they do have a point these guys are good to be connected to they have power they make choices so the reason you're choosing the king is not because they're nothing they don't really exist they're robots no that's not true you're choosing the king why because being with the king is more important than the benefits you're going to get from these people ah if this is the case the nimshil is telling us something deeper the nations the pagans used to worship the sun and the moon or people who still worship we all sometimes worship different things versus the jew who worships god it's not just because they're making a mistake they think the stars have choices we know the truth it's just an axe in the hand of the chopper it's much deeper than that it's because the question is what's my priority in life is my priority in life i want the benefit that's going to come from the duke from the governor from the military commander the um he says the main thing is i want the flow i want the ashba they said by the jew the main thing is i want the truth and nothing but the truth i want to have a relationship with the ultimate emis which means this is the metaphor of the king what does this mean the main reason that they worshipped stars and masalas it's not just because they made a mistake and they thought they have power it's something deeper even if you know they don't have power to receive hashbar from kedusha you need bitly for the ratso lava you need real bitter i have to be able to transcend every element of egotism and narcissism and i need to be able to become an open vessel transparent translucent extricating every last vestige of narcissism of any form or fashion abdullah masala daily to get the flow through other forces which is also all an instrument of god but to go through them you don't need bitter you don't need to open yourself up to infinity i could remain stuck in my comfort zone says unbelievable words and desire the spirit of impurity will always be available for free even if you come empty-handed the jews complained the parishes we remember the fish that we ate in egypt for free egypt will feed you for free um it's always for free you don't need bitter what is that ever teaching us here he's saying there's two types of relationships there's a relationship that you need deep work you need to work on yourself i need to transform myself i need to open myself because it's truth and then there's a relationship there is gratification without work and the zoyar says how do you know what's the litmus test if you're involved in something that's going to really fill your soul truthfully or you're involved in something that's superficial it's fake and tomorrow you're going to need more and more and you're still going to remain with a void and the answer is how easy it is do you ever notice that relationships that are fake are very easy to cultivate promiscuity promiscuity nus giliarayas things like prostitution war getting high through drugs getting high through alcohol escaping your misery through gambling escaping your misery through binging escaping your misery through certain websites it's always free it's always free it's easy it's a fast quick fix it's always there the temptation is right there it's available it's inviting it's tempting and it looks beautiful the food from its rayon is always for free desire says tumma is always available magana means for free no money no money we're here you know why because that's its power i wanna i wanna explain this to you this we have to understand as well what's the power of holiness over unholiness one answer truth holiness means truth it's a reflection of god god means truth reality oneness the word god is not really the right word because god sounds like a being here we're talking about god as the being the word for hashem is hawaii he was he is and he will be mother's god is the essence of reality god is not a being in reality god is reality that's truth that's the power of holiness what's the power of unholiness nothing it's a lie so how can it compete one answer it's free kedusha is not free tuma is free and within kudush itself there's many levels the deeper the gedusa the more you have to pay a price the more it's the more the kedusha the more you have to pay a price why why i don't want to pay a price because if it's real if it's infinite it permeates me in the deepest place if it permeates me in the deepest place it challenges me in the deepest place if i want to be stuck in my trauma and my wounds and my ego my fear my insecurity then i can only have a relationship with superficial things that don't demand for me truth authenticity take the difference between marriage okay you'll forgive me i just did this uh this big uh podcast you may have seen it be too i did with ellie nash about addiction to immodesty to websites to people to clubs where people engage in relationships that defy the moral structure of families and marriages what's the difference the difference is those places you pay a couple of dollars maybe it's not free but you pay a couple of dollars and you have fun you're excited what does it take to have a good marriage a couple of dollars a couple of dollars can help but it's not what it takes takes life long loyalty work commitment what's the difference the difference is one gives you a relationship that's real that's authentic that's gonna fill your soul and one gives you a fake relationship that in a week from now you're gonna be desperate again or if you're lucky in a day from now and you need more it's just like a drug it's a it's a distraction it's not a fulfillment why is it not a fulfillment because it's not true it doesn't really fill your soul that's the litmus test desire says if it's real kedusha it needs avoider it needs to be real it needs to permeate me to penetrate me i have to open myself up to infinity a real relationship means i'm really connected with you if i'm really connected with you i gotta work i gotta work on my ego i gotta work on my traumas i gotta work on my vegas nerves i gotta work on my ptsd i gotta work on my fear i gotta work on my knee to isolate to freeze to fight to flight i need to work on my limbic brain on my amygdala brain i hope all of you know what i'm talking about if not come more often to the classes i have to work on these things because a real relationship means i'm connected to you a fake relationship means i'm not connected to you you're not connected to me it's just a superficial facade a camouflage a veneer that looks exciting it feels exciting i'm in a bad mood i go to the pantry i take out food anybody knows about this i take out a danish i take out potato chips and i feel good for around seven minutes and then after seven minutes you look for another bag of potato chips and you understand here that i'm using potato chips also as a metaphor [Laughter] i'm not just about potato chips i'm thinking about different types of potato chips some of them are more expensive but it's the same concept free here doesn't mean it doesn't cost money free here means you're not really paying the real price there's stuck in the citizen efforts and you have it in holiness itself you have two types of teachers you have two types of classes you have two types of erebus you have a rabbi you have a rashishima you have a class you come you don't have to change anything you could sit and remain stuck in the comfort zone i could stay stuck in my comfort zone and listen to beautiful toyota and say ah now past the kishke pass the kishka pass the jalapeno herring and sometimes you sit by a rabbit and you have to become a new person why because he wants to give you a scythe he wants to give you infinity and in order to absorb infinity i have to let go of all my fears i have to be able to be subsumed which one do you want which one do you want which one do you want in life so that is i understand them i understand it's not just clear and up here it's not just they made a mistake that they could cover my robots no it's much deeper i want a relationship with something that doesn't challenge my core i don't need to avoid the i don't need bitter i don't need to surrender garnished not only is it for free you're also going to get much more why does it feel so much more gratifying when you run into addiction than when you go back to work on your relationship why so he says because all sitra gets its energy from makif makif means from the higher light of god that's not integrated because if it would be integrated it wouldn't be able to be divorced from hashem the reason something could live off hashem without being aware that it's hashem is because it comes from a light that's called maketh it doesn't get doesn't infuse the structure of the clipper of the situation it could still have an identity of situation and still live off god because the godly energy is not integrated it's not real it's not authentic it's mock if it's subconscious it's superficial because of that he's saying something unbelievable the flow that comes from satra is more powerful because it comes from a place that's makif it's not matsumtsum you understand what we're saying here so sitra is not only available for free it's also going to be faster and stronger and deeper and more potent and more promising at the surface at least we'll see later everything changes as you get a little more mature in life but at the surface it's going to be so powerful kedusha everything has to be integrated he's it's with a heisman because it's it it's becoming one with me so i need to earn it i need to deserve it oh so now it's limited that's very very intense so that's why they go to kehavam masalas number one i don't want the bittle number two i just i want the quick fix and number two i want that intense intense high i want the high um so in addition to what we said before that is which is true but there's something even deeper de la cabo magdalena it's very deep he says to receive from real kadusha you have to work you need toil you need effort and even then initially the flow is going to be limited based on your avoid initially later we'll see it becomes topsy-turvy the relationship with authentic kedusha allows for an infinite flow but initially you open yourself up and you get what you could get where you get what you deserve you get based on your avoider it's real it's authentic there's no shortcuts the jewish people say i don't want the dukes i don't want the governors i don't want the military commanders i don't want this intense flow even though we can also get shepherd from umaza we can also get at least temporarily it's not going to last forever no high lasts forever nothing fake lasts forever but at least temporarily you could get a flow from that place and not only that you're going to get more than everybody else they're going to put you on top you know why because clipper like bees they go to honey clipping knows that the greatest holiness is in a jewish soul so if i can get a jewish soul to me i will give him much more than anybody else it's like when thieves they hire somebody who's really talented they're going to give him a bigger share of the gold a jewish soul is going to get more than anybody else from sitra that's why addiction for the jewish people is very dangerous because you're going to get more because the jewish soul has much more potential so initially it's so promising it's so gratifying but the pique says i want truth i malka you want a relationship with ms oh yeah relationship with ms needs a void it needs beetle you pay the ultimate price the balsamic hashem is fire why do you call hashem fire why not water so you know the basement said water you could sit at the bank of the sea or the ocean or the river and enjoy you could dip your feet in you could put your hands and you can go swimming you can go in you can go out right you're going to the beach you come out you swim he says fire either you go in i'm a vet for brent or you stay far away with fire either you stay far away and you don't have a connection to it if you put your hand into the fire it's done ms is not compartmentalized there's no compromises either i stay far away and i watch it or he says if you want a relationship i have to be ready to be subsumed in the relationship i have to become one because that's what infinity means infinity means it encompasses everything everything is part of infinity so the pique says malka even though if i go through the garrison if i go through god's axes in the world i will get much more much faster much more distractions a much greater high it's going to feel better and i don't have to leave my comfort zone i don't have to challenge my fears i don't need bitter i don't need it i'm a sia i want the truth that takes pictures that takes deep wisdom takes deep wisdom why because it seems like i'm substituting something so promising for something that's much less here i need to work and i'm getting less it's like taking a job where you get less money you can get another job when you get more money you have to work so hard why in the world are you taking an inferior job with less money and the answer is because of will demelo because i want the ms which now brings us to step f to chapter five which brings up a huge question and that is is this a choice that is rational or is this a choice that is not rational what makes one person choose this and another person not choose this we will see the continuation of this mimer sunday morning eight o'clock am i hope to see you all there and we will also see how this applies to each of our lives in each of our lives we make these choices constantly as we will be hashem learn in the next installment again sunday at 8 00 am and then sunday 7 p.m and then monday 8 a.m at a viewed alif nissen see you you could join us sunday on the zoom on the yeshiva.net chabad.org on col and on youtube wishing you all a beautiful beautiful day and an amazing shabbos haggadah for those who live in my neck of the woods we're going to have a shabbos haggadah drasha 5 30 p.m shabbos afternoon that's for men and for women with a majitsa special section for men women children are invited that's shabbos afternoon 5 30 p.m followed by minha at the urkayam shoal in muncie 24 shea road muncie new york tent gimmel 5 30 p.m and then i'll see you again sunday morning we also did a class on tuesday for the women on pesach how the three names of pesach represent three stages of emancipation self-surrender self-abnegation self-actualization and self-transcendence you can look up the class on the yeshiva.net wishing you all a beautiful shabbos we'll take a couple of questions yeah you're too holy to get that debaran how are you supposed to get that you're a piece of kedusha how are you gonna get that no we all are that's what you're saying let me ask you a question right i'm gonna give a very simple example yeah i'm going to give a very simple example if i'm sitting one night in my house and i'm down i can do one of two things i can actually work through what's bothering me right that takes vulnerability self-control awareness or i can go on to my phone i could start binging i could start drinking i can go here i can go there you get it sitra akhir always means the fast quick route to distract you from your void kedusha fills the void citra distracts you from the void distractions could be fast and powerful and potent and the power of situation always comes from macheth makif means it comes from infinite energy that doesn't get integrated in caleb because if it would be integrated in caleb it wouldn't be situated means my i is not a is not a conduit for the divine in other words there is dissonance so how do i live i live from god but i live from god in a subconscious way the subconscious is more powerful than the conscious so the flow that comes from citra akhira is always more potent because it comes from the super conscious forces kedusha gets filtered and condensed in a way that it's integrated it's like two types of classes you can go to a sheer the teacher blows your mind away but you don't really understand anything but you go away and say wow that was great that was awesome that was powerful and then there's a share that the person actually wants to change you so what do they do they bring it down afkle natalerla they bring down the information you filter it you condense it right kedusha is always integrated doesn't have to be integrated so here is the issue the rebbe says number one with citra you don't have to pay a big price you get it there for free and number two you're going to get more superficially it's going to look like and it's true right now you're going to get more it's going to be more satisfying it's going to be intense it's going to be you know when people um betray their relationships and they go to somebody else and they come back to say wow with so much passion so much passion of course there was so much passion you didn't have to pay a real price for it it didn't have to be worked out it didn't have to be integrated you don't have to live with this person you have to raise kids together you don't have to run a house together of course there's a therapist who told me once that most people who leave their marriages to go to somebody else with whom they had a connection to before so three percent of them stay married 97 of them get divorced so i asked him why he said something very deep he says because the relationship between these two people was based on three percent of their lives three percent of the last he leaves his house she leaves their house they go out and three percent of them bond they're not connected to the bills to the mortgage to raising a family to the daily it's a fake relationship it's three percent of my life three percent of yours when they get married three percent of them stay married so it's always there's always an intensity this passion there's an expression alex says the sweetest water is stolen water when water is stolen it's sweet when you buy water that's legal it's not sweet when you steal why is it so sweet it's sweet because it's stolen on a deeper level it's sweet because it has that element of market so kedusha needs a different type of relationship a relationship with gurush is always with avoid it's not for free it's not for free whenever people would give the rebbe by people would come to the chair by dollars and give him a safer or give him something he would always say for a good thing you have to pay and he would give them one dollar two dollars he said it's symbolic but you have to pay because it says in zojar that only mitsurayam gives you things for free if it's a good thing you have to pay payment here means you have to give up something it's real it's challenging me it's triggering me it's stimulating me it's penetrating me something has to give this work avoid avoid right they say the only type of work that you uh you're initially right in the beginning already on the top is when you're digging a hole everything else you start on the bottom you understand about it makes a little sense it's a good question you're right if somebody is having a night and you're feeling very down and very low what do you do right so one option is the yeshiva.net listen to a class another option is do some exercise get involved in a project call somebody up a friend and talk to them be open be vulnerable and sometimes even a greater idea call somebody up who needs help and offer them love tell them i'm thinking about you send them a text send them a whatsapp send them an email become a giver become a leader become a source of light open up a gemara learn about gemara learn a mishna learn uh learn the parasha of khumash learn learn learn learn something entirely whatever part of target it is whatever it is learn something and have a support system it's very very important and sometimes we don't have anything available i'm not in the mood of anything and then the sitra the impurity lures me says come come come i'll take care of you i'll take care you come and opens up the net and it's for free it's always for free on this little guy everything is for free you know this guy everything is for free yeah maybe 60 maybe you know i have to pay 150. everything is for free exactly oh your guy not you beautiful you look at your child so uh so this attack says just come here it lures you into the trap and then an hour later my void is filled but it's not filled it's just it was just i escaped it i escaped it i distracted myself from it and that's always the key you have to ask yourself did you do something to help you fill the void then tomorrow you're going to be a changed person and after tomorrow you'll do more work and in 60 days there'll be major changes in your life and in a year you may not recognize yourself or i just ran away from my void i didn't really do anything but it was much more promising initially much more tempting much easier so that's the key so at the beginning of the explanation what the picchu says are no nos of malka i'm not going to the axes i'm not going to the instruments i'm not going to all the intermediaries in the world which are not really intermediaries but if i go there i may be able to get that flow it's also coming from hashem but it's coming through a way in which i can deceive myself that i am happy but really i'm just having fun for a few moments but i'm busy dying i'm not busy living and you want to be busy living have a beautiful shabbos yeah you're right sometimes you don't have to feel pressure sometimes gardening is wonderful these are all things that can be used in very beautiful ways taking a walk taking a walk with your spouse taking a walk with yourself listening to something you know maybe you need a little dancing maybe a little dancing maybe some physical work is great you know maybe playing with somebody you appreciate i think the message of kedusha is always to be curious about what triggered it i'm looking for the penemius i'm looking for the authenticity when i'm feeling down i want to ask myself not how to run away from it means god is here right now there's a message of goo right now i want to know what triggered this pain what triggered this mood and then i can get the help to work it through and understand where it's coming from that's the exact opposite of situation doesn't want you to do that it doesn't want you to go to the ms it doesn't want you to redeem yourself it just wants you to eclipse yourself so if it takes you away and distracts you great you don't deal with it kadusha is ms it's plenteous so i have to go into it and that's painful that's what the rebbe says here you're not gonna get a quick fast beautiful fix you're gonna have to work through the israelis in an internalized fashion but when you do that you're going to become a different person so you always want to be curious what is happening inside of you and find out sometimes you will find out sometimes you won't find out but that's the focus the focus is to work it through and then to become transformed from within but that's a slower process it's an exact surprise it takes a void it takes humility bitter it takes vulnerability and it's not a quick swift fix because you have to work with your own issues with your fears and with your traumas and with your wounds and within the language of time you have to work through my animal soul i have to work it through and i have to elevate it and transform it and refine it and align it with its own truth and see ultimately how there is oneness in my life so that's the idea that it's it's much more matsumtsum it's not this flow infinite hashpa that just comes easy it doesn't work that way because because if you have to work it through you gotta so to speak get down to the nitty gritty and when you get down to the nitty gritty it's detailed nuanced work it's not this overwhelming ecstatic feeling that overtakes me and watches everything away [Music] of course of course when you're in the presence of a tsadik you see somebody who embodies bittle somebody whose life is to be a conduit for hashem it becomes such a powerful source of inspiration for each of us to be able to find that ability within ourselves that's why you know the privilege of being in the presence of the rebbe for many years for me personally it shaped my life in such a profound way because you see somebody with toyota so real and your shamayim is so real and ava's hashem israel is so real that a person a flesh and blood becomes an embodiment where hashem's hashem's oneness becomes embodied in a person's life so it inspires every person who can see it or hear it or be part of it in some form or fashion physically or spiritually to be able to find that within ourselves and that's the function of a real sadhaka the function of a real sadak of a real teacher of a real rebel is to be able to help people find that oneness within themselves that's what you're saying yeah it's very true and every one of us in our own way can be that little rapper for somebody else and for ourselves you know the mendel first taste okay the first days of the defilst we'll get to the next next next is going to be about understanding versus feeling do we understand this or do we feel this do we know this or do we believe it okay we'll get we'll get to the next one but hashem this class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at www.theyoshiva.net donate