Chesed of Hod - Counting the Omer - "Make space for others" - Rabbi Alon Anava

[Music] so we just concluded the the week of Nets up now we starting a whole brand new week of hood and last week net South we were concentrating on being successful and victorious and getting the power of meets a horn and so forth now we're starting a whole new week and the week is called hold and I explained already a few times that hog can be explained in two ways hold can be Hosea meaning that I thank a being thankful which is an extremely important important media to constantly be thankful for the good and the bad but Hosea is also can be admitting coming from the word in Hebrew lay hotdogs and I explained that so many times that we wake up in the morning what do we say modern elephant Atma so I thank a shame for giving me back my soul but you can take it to a completely different direction and say modern lilifer neckla means I admit in front of you that you are Malachi back I am you are the king that gives life and you give me life I'm not doing anything I'm a balloon of air and if a shame decides to go like this that I'm nothing so I admit in front of the Kailash Baku you are the master of the universe not me I don't do anything here I am literally a puppet you are the master this is called hoda yeah as one way you have the thanking another way you have the admitting this week we're going to focus a lot not on the thanking rather on the admitting thanking me please needless to say it's a no brainer you have to be thankful and grateful for everything the good the bad they're not so good they're not so bad anything that a person does for you you have to be thankful and needless to say how much you have to be thankful to the Kailash go go on a daily base that's said and put aside but we're gonna more focus on the admitting part we're starting the week with message at the hall which comes to teach me something very very simple yet very profound and extremely hard to do that I have to admit to your presence that you are in my life most people don't want to admit that most people they say the life I am everything you I don't know what you're doing here you just here to bother me so I need to admit your presence in my life I'll explain everything I don't know it sounds a little bit like what now what am i admitting exactly I have to admit what does that mean that I admit that I make sure that I give you your space this is not an easy thing to do because I always look at my needs my space my desires me me me I don't care so much about you no no I'm talking right now no not you why are you pushing so this is a very bad media I need to now completely reverse it and to start admit wait a minute you also exist and you also exist and you also exist and you have your thoughts and you have your desires and you have feelings and you have dreams and I'm one of the people here I'm not me and then the world is revolving around me so we start by admitting that you exist and you have room in my life I can't run your life I can't tell you what to do I can't expect you to do things I definitely can't take advantage of you I have to admit that you exist the same way that I exist and you know that means that I have to give you the space to operate how you need to operate and in most cases it's not necessarily going to be so good for me because you have to be you I can't oppose on you my needs and my desires I kind of pause on you my opinions I can't oppose any or anything I need to make sure that you have your space and you have to shine in New York colors and that takes a lot a lot of effort because I have to admit that you also exist and you say eh I don't agree with you I'm not asking you if you agree with me or not this is what you think and again we're talking here in a very very general don't start taking it to do details we're gonna start dissecting the whole thing throughout the week and because I know there's a big argument by saying wait a minute so how do I know who's what's the truth here and I said that many times there's only one truth in this world and that's called the Toa left OA is the truth not opinions the Torah is telling me what I need to do and how but I'm now not talking about that I'm talking right now that in my life I have a wife I have kids my parents have siblings have neighbors I have co-workers I have many people around me some of them I can tolerate some of them I love dearly and someone I can't stand them but we still my life and they're gonna be in my life whether I like it or not and even the ones who are closest to me it can be my spouse most people don't get along with other people because you're in my territory you're stepping in my my area of course we live together we live in a society we live in a community I have to start admitting that I'm not the only one here you also have your space what is the admitting means that you can operate how you are and if you like doing the certain things that's you you can change another person don't try to change anybody it's the worst thing to try to change your wife your kids don't they'll never be how you want this is only maybe in the army works that the drill sergeant will tell everybody what to do and everybody stands but it doesn't work in real life like that if you're smart you know how to let everybody shine in their own color or play in their own tune then that's where you get the best sound of everything if I oppress somebody I get nothing now how can I really build a real good connection with you that's based on honesty and love is only if I let you be you I can let demand you to be something now again don't don't take my words out of context and says wait a minute if the person let's take just example one out of many I am living in a marriage right now the the spouse is doing a certain act that is not appropriate I'm allowed to tell them listen this is not appropriate please don't do it it bothers me it's not what I'm talking about of course you have to have a conversation with somebody if somebody bothers you you allow to tell the person please don't do it it's it's bothering me but what I'm saying is that I cannot try to redefine you to fit me because I do not and unlike what you say this is very very dangerous to a relationship that I'm trying to overpower another person and try to negate your existence your desires your feelings your dreams so hold the hostage chipper hood is a very very important step in the week of a hold so first of all in order for me to build healthy relationship that I need to make sure that you have your space and I accept your space I acknowledge your space your existence where you standing and it's very important that everybody has their space in my life and you whether you like it or not that's not your business right now but everybody has to be who they are now when it comes to this fear of hold like I told you it's we're gonna concentrate this week about the meaning not the thanking thanking we left that already what do I need to admit I also always have to admit on one thing to admit the truth you can't admit something that is not the truth what are you mate it's wrong so hold the admitting is always the right meet on the truth and I know we spoke about it so many times especially in the topic of takuna me dot and I mentioned that so many times that the dominating student of the result about sakharova behind we tally has a book coach errick Lucia gates of holiness I saw some translations around I don't know how authentic or how good they are but nevertheless it's a very powerful book and I highly suggest everybody to to learn it it's not a book of Kabbalah the fourth chapter is but the three first three chapters are not the Kabbalistic approach it's more of a mousse our approach taught by a Kabbalist but nevertheless open this book and look at the heck adam at the introduction he says something very deep and very profound and he says the reason why we came down to this world is not necessarily to perform its votin to learn Torah that's the air and the food for my soul I came down to this world to do one thing this called Hakuna Matata to refine my characteristics that's what I came down here the Torah and the mitzvoth will give me the tools and the knowledge and the ability how to do it but I came down here are not refined diamond which is my soul now sham says here's a Toa here's mitzvoth start refining the diamond and when you leave this world after 80 years nine years you have to give the collage before polished beautiful shining diamond that's what I came to do here it's called tikkun aminos tikkun means to refine but the cool also means to fine-tune you take now a guitar our piano you need to tune it this is called tikkun it's not the corners not necessarily just to fix the words in Hebrew sometimes can take you to different directions so the coulomb adult is tuning llamado taking my anger and tuning it I need to have anger if the kunafa who created anger it means that it can be used for something good everything the kunafa who created he created for a purpose of to use it for something good he created anger he created pride he created sadness why did he create such things Shem created anger so when the yetzer is bothering me I should be angry dance a lot stop but you have to be angry did Sarah know that somebody took a parking spot and if a person has gather pride this is not to say I'm so great is to have no I was able to learn something in to fulfill it to have some what is called a hashida consider shipwright have gathered that I was able to do something and a Shem gave us jealousy jealousy is a horrible sin but nevertheless it says in the Talmud key not so firm tobei ohama when you jealous of a scholar it will make you learn harder I want to be like him I want to know it's so much like that that's a good jealousy there's one thing the collage people didn't create I'm sure you heard the famous quote from ABI Nachman from Brezhnev and Ravi nach one from west of says any overlap there's no despair in the world so people try to interpret it by saying oh don't worry when things go bad don't fall into despair ok that's a good thing but you know what really he's saying he says why falling the dispersion I said I shouldn't even create despair and yoshio ah it's not in the catalogue it's not an inventory on the inventory you'll find jealousy and hate and anger you're not gonna find despair I shouldn't create it it's the invention of the etc that makes you fall into despair my Nachman says any osha bola because it doesn't exist why do you why do you fall for the deception of the etcetera he invented something that doesn't exist he read today and it's an illusion it doesn't even exist him so everything in the collage procreate is for me to use it for something good even anger even jealousy even hate so when I'm looking at refining my MoDOT is taking all the MoDOT that I have if I have a very strongly data cast a lot of anger then directed this power to something positive sorry getting upset because somebody spilled a cup of water on the table or somebody did something so nevertheless in takuna me don't when the media first starts appearing then let me say differently every media will start appearing in some type of a way every attribute will at some point will appear but when does it start appearing when there's a glue you present when there's a gluey I read a violation of love and kindness that's the way to reveal the media if you have something now in the depth of the ocean how do you reveal it you need to bring it up to the surface it can be on the ground now two kilometers into the water how do you bring it up you have to bring it up to the surface and then now I can see what's going on here so the me notes sometimes are hidden in the depth of my neshama I need to bring it up to the surface how do I reveal to me that only through question that's why all the mid note if you see every week starts with lesson Hester chibok Vova tested chibin it's a hostage abit efferent and so forth so why present Kostas it is that says that is the side that gives and produces love when you give and you show love this is how you reveal things come now to a child scream at him all day long you're not gonna get nothing out of this child give the child a little bit of love a little bit of affection suddenly a total different person it's everything with your spouse same thing with everybody if you're a boss in a worker now be mean to the worker the worker will be a worker like a robot to give the work a lot of love and affection I mean that's to hug the worker just saying give a lot some respect some of you see it's at all different individual so the head is the giving side the loving side that's how you reveal the media now hence it should be hold now we press it then we have hold now put them together the easiest way to refine message abode is making space for somebody else this is it if you know how to make space for somebody else you're on the right track to be very successful individual you're not going to be judgmental you're not gonna be angry you're not gonna be disappointed because you make space for another person I need to know when it's time for me to be quiet when it's time for you to talk when it's time for you to take the microphone Hochevar has such a bond is making space to another person has said is the power that will so to say suck or pump or receive energy from the sphere above it if you're looking at this field now imagine the structure of the spirit how its familiar to most people so you have kept them on the top and then Hawk Mabini and dad so hokhmah is the right side beam as the left side and that is the middle so on the right side what do you have under hokhmah if Crescent what do you have to under Cass it Netta right we follow on the left side and Urbina I have grúa then hold right and from Quetta I have dad different your soul and mine would be picturing it in your mind so hazardous underneath hokhmah which means the thesis is drawing energy from the sphere above it that's where Crescent gets its energy from Hawkman what does it mean it means as follows there is a Mishnah there's a few mission I owed that it's asking who is the wise person now at the summer we have accustomed to read mission IOT of pikia volt and you'll find this missionary art as you ahaha who is a wise person one Mishnah will answer however it analyzed the one yeah I don't made Nicola Dom exactly there's a few missionary out one of them who's the hub the one who sees the future what's gonna be bird who's the up hello made me call Adam that can learn from any person there are many times that the Mishnah is asking who's a wise person there is a mission al that says as well ha ha ha make it at mekomo that knows his face I know who I am I know what I'm worth and I know when to back off and I know sorry to say that I don't want to shut up now who's a wise person that knows exactly who he is Moshe Rabbeinu exactly who's his Moshe Rabbeinu can you argue with motion ameno there was not one person in history of mankind that ever spoke to him face-to-face that's motion event no can you argue with that you can't argue with that lo cam cam O'Shea there will never be a prophet like Moshe I know some people don't like that opinion but to most opinion Moshe lebanner will always be greater in prophecy from any other prophet including Michelle so all the other prophets prophecies all the other prophets were receiving prophecy while they were sleeping mashallah be no is up right so to the majority of sources it says that Michelle will be a great prophet but motional banner will be greater than him in prophecy some opinion says no it's not true we're not gonna get into the argument right now but we're trying to emphasize Moshe Rabbeinu ma Sherman you know exactly who it is you think he was the in denial he doesn't know that he's a prophet he doesn't know that he's Marsha Levine oh but you think he and me he threw it in somebody's face well you know who I am you know I I'm motion nice to meet you here's my card motion libero he know exactly who is so he knew his power when he looked in the mirror he says I am a shaman I am the one who received the Torah and I'm giving an I am the famous masha'Allah be no it didn't affect him to become a poet he didn't affect him that he's he goes out of control left and he made him even more humble but the person needs to know who you are you need to know all your virtues you need to know all your good Meadows it shouldn't go up to your head that you're so great and you also need to know all your bad sides so the when the Mishna says let's do a ho-hum who's a smart person I'm a kid of mekomo know when to you need to know when to shut up when to speak when to put effort when to not you need to know exactly I always teach it to my kids and I try to teach it to my students you need to know what you good at if Hashem gave you talents and you know that you need to acknowledge I am amazing here don't go now in the street that said you know that I'm amazing that's already sounds like an idiot but you you need to know what you're good at cuz then you know to know cash em gave me a talent I need to apply it well I think I should give you a talent in order to do something good with it to another person so I need to know constantly my place and I also need to know that sometimes you know you greater than me that's what I need to be quiet I can't argue not too long ago somebody came here and we were saying something and anyways so I shared the hahaha in regards to that thing and it was an individual oh he came with all sorts of the arguments and aqui aqui aqui no I'm not accusation excuses and also says anyways and and then one time when I was on one of my trips he came here and he started making a whole a whole egg shy out of something and then somebody told him here you know you're totally out of place the rabbi said this is the challah ha he opened the books he showed you everything now when he's not here that's when you're coming and making a whole scene you're out of place first of all it's you talking in front of the rabbit like that second of all Wow who are you you're a nobody so what are you coming with your opinion right now so why am I saying this example cuz the persons W at a place so you need to know your place sometimes you need to know when to give respect to another person went to honor another person when to be quiet I'm saying it in a vulgar way saying shut up but you need to know who you're where you are and when you are somebody big you have to also act upon that so again going back the Mishna says Ezra haha my Mikael at mekomo you'll need to know your space when I said that s it pulls its energy from Hama the person that knows his space means that he knows the space of another person the Mishna is very very wise it's very very sad to see that most people don't learn mission and mission a yacht and the Mishnah is if you read it from the original doesn't have commas and doesn't have stops sometimes you need to put a comma in the right place it changes the entire Mishnah and sometimes the Mishnah ends two words before it should so I told you already a couple of times that there is a Mishnah that says not and I should not forgot it Ezra Ezra as oh ah she is the Samia as the war shield a symmetrical core so the Mishnah goes as over she'll has symmetrical KO who's a rich person that is happy in his own with his own loss but it's missing a few words to read it the right way as the war she'll Assam Arabic hilko shall have a bow that is happy in the portion of his friends you know jealous that your friend is successful did you know jealous that he has more money then you know jealous that he's doing much much greater so this is a perfect example of the Mishnah cuts it one word two words before it should and again as she was america caution have evolved who's the real world the person that he knows to value and to be happy for somebody else that he has a good portion that he has success and so forth here we have the same thing the Mishna says as the waka paama who's the wise person a McKillip mekomo that knows his face but add two words sedition mission commissioner doe s de oaxaca who's the wise person imma kill ethnic commotion Calvillo that he knows that his friend also has a space did you also have a space you also have to talk and shine and you have feelings and you also have a space but to negate everything that is around me so the real Siham the real smart person is constantly looking where can I make you be you not me overpowering you that's very easy to do I can overpower almost anybody you want to be smart let's see how I can make you shine next to me you need to shine you need to shine everybody needs to shine to me to step on barrier on somebody it's the easiest thing to do to me to move back to now say now you you you grow you you do good you take the mic this is a real smart person that is constantly looking where to first you you're more important you know what he's smart because by putting you in your right space his face is being revealed that's a motion of a no you think motion of a Ben who was like no no I want to do this I'm gonna do that now mashallah many you have to be the coin you the coin you have to be the judge you be the judge you have to build that one code that you build on kodesh when I know how to make room for you to have your space I'm a smart person because by default it will reveal my space and that's it and this is why we're headed is pulling energy from hokhmah that you want to apply the home on your their wisdom here now to to I mean we have a whole week of hold now we're going to go in a very special journey because it's probably one of the most important weeks of the entire sphere ah is to know how to make space for other people and the cloud whatever what is one of the dominating things is fill out the whole meal and we're commemorating the death of the 24,000 students of Obi Akiva these were giants in the Torah but still learn a about the busy they didn't give it respect to each other now you'd think such scholars will that's what they behave yeah even great scholars they can get to a point that they don't give respect we don't take haircuts we don't they make weddings we don't listen to live music why because we're mourning the death of these colors so even in spirit ami what do we see here that we have to focus on how am i giving respect to you we have to correct what the students of Albie akiva didn't do they didn't give respect to each other that's what they did long ago covered the busy so in this period I need to start developing how am i giving respect to another person even though I think I'm greater ok so you might be greater doesn't mean that you don't need to give respect to this person even if you're smarter if you're more successful you're more rich who cares I need to know how to give another person their respect that's giving them their space and it can be even my kids some people look at their kids they think they own the kids I don't know my kids the parents who are ignorant they try to change their kids the parents that are smart are letting the kids change them this is a smart parents I look at my kid I'm not trying to control my kid I look at my kid and I see what is this kid teaching me he's teaching me patience because it's a little bit hard to control and this kid is teaching me to control my anger because he presses my buttons and this kid is teaching me patience and this kid is teaching me how to love and how to give I'm not looking at my kids as I have to educate them the only thing that I'm ready to do is to teach them to arm it's vote that's what I'm obligated to do and a smart parent looked as the kids I'm not talking about kid when the kid is 15 the parent is 17 but when the kids are little young I don't look at my kids that I have to educate them to educate me they teach me how to really love how to be patient how to be fair how to play the right way and so forth so giving respect and honor to another person is not making me less it's making me greater that I can look at another person and I can be very wise very smart very rich very successful and and look at another person that maybe money might be less fortunate if you're smart you're looking at the good point of that person this is my mind method this is what I do in every person that I look I right away look for where that person is best better than mean something I have my own healthy ego let's put it this way me and don't with me I have a healthy ego I know I'm good at this I know what I'm good at I'm not kidding myself I know I'm good here I'm good here I'm good here like you said before you were good is this right I know what I'm good at I'm not gonna throw it at somebody's facing around so amazing but I also know what I'm real bad at I a long time ago came to conclusion and admitted this are a real badass and this don't even get me started so when I'm looking at other people I'm not looking at where am I better than him I'm looking where's that person better than me oh that person is better than me because this is this okay that's it now we're even you know what I used to do it for years every time I would come to show I would look where other people are better than me because that's when you make it make makes you real humble especially when you come to pray in front over the kadosh go home and sometimes I would sit and show and somebody will talk on the phone yeah we're trying to pray here and then a person does this and a person does that it's very easy to be judgmental and every time somebody do something that right away my feelings of being judgmental will come up I will right away shut myself up by saying you know he might talk loud but he came before you you were late five minutes he came before you so it's very easy to look at somebody's negative part much harder to look at somebody says he he has a few negative things like I don't but look how amazing this person is here and how amazing that person is there and my way of looking at every person is not how I'm better than that person that's not a good Meena is to find that person I might be better here but that person is a much better singer much better dancer much better father much better educator much better and many other things I don't have these qualities so to conclude the entire message of the hood is that I need to apply a mitzvah that we're now focusing on Rabi Akiva is behalf Tala hakama of course we learned that two weeks ago in the parish ah but hold on hold on but if you will not respect another person you will never learn to love them and we need to love another person now I know there's an argument or people say how can I love a wicked person so you don't have to love a wicked person I'm not talking about a terrorists are coming to kill us and another person I'm looking out another person that person desecrates you're bad so then I idolatry or whatever I don't have to like the person's actions but I'm still obligated in liking the person so because the Shemp created that person I also 20 years ago with doing horrible things but a person can do chuva so when I'm looking at a person and I'm pointing a finger that person is disagreeing Shabbat right now this person is this this person is like this person is Gershon Allah I am not obligated to like the actions I actually have to despise the actions and I have to approve the person against his actions but I can't not like the person's so he's been so when it comes to behalf the logic omocha and i have to apply that and first of all how do you love another person first respect the person if I don't respect another person I will never get to have any type of relationship and definitely not to love him so again hold is going to be a very challenging week because hold is when I have to really mint and admitting is very hard for me to admit when I'm wrong and when you better and you're smarter and you're more successful and I did something bad admitting is when you're really humbling yourself but now we're starting the week with message of the hood yes it draws the power from home ah and I've started using my home ah and like we said as oh haha I need to give you your place when I let everybody shine around me their way then by default my place is defined I'm not suppressing anybody everybody is able to contribute in to affect the universe in their way it's good for me because I'm respecting you I'm giving yours place and this is really wrapped in Hakka Mohan and this is exactly the tycoon we're doing for the students that'll be a Kira that they didn't give respect to each other so again I need to know where I'm good at and where I'm strong what my place is but I need to know also what your place is when we need to apply that in some type of I mean we can apply everything that I said in the last 20 minutes and we want to do some type of a homework I constantly have to look around me and to see do I know how to give room for you that's them that you should do that on a daily basis not once a year on the sphere of has the j-borhood every day I have to look around me and to know do I know how to give space for everybody around me and if I fail then I have to start working on the media and if I know how to do it good tomorrow will be a new challenge and sometimes it's with the person the same person over and over and over and I'm going to be challenged to know how can I give this person the place that they need to shine they need to flourish Florist as you say florist flourish flourish they need to grow then it will be them they have to be then don't try to change anybody in any type of relationship you try to change somebody this is already a recipe of failure you have to let the person be who they are and you move yourself around the person and you will by default find your place follow the mission either of Ahom who's the right person in knows his space you know you need to know when to raise your voice went to lower your voice meant to speak when not to speak and to back off when to give space when to let the other person shine when your time is to be quiet when it's your time to stand strong you need to know your space and that's knowing your strengths it's not knowing your weaknesses and also when you know your weakness you know when to give space to another person use the peasant use the comma the the power of wisdom of hama to nourish Tessa that's when the media starts shining because if you know how to apply this media in your life of hidayah of admitting in every situation then you really making space for everybody around you you'll be the one who's benefiting intra most a person that is sad and suppressed and pushed your corner at some point it releases that's what parents don't understand when it comes to kids you press the kid too much at some point will release like a spring and the more it's pressed the more it will release strong sending in any type of relationship and any type of encounter if I push somebody too much at some point it will release not necessarily from that person but it will be thrown into my face a smart person says no it's ready I'll you do what you need to do I'll work around you I'll be dynamic around you that's a smart person so we have a very interesting week to go through we want to know how to apply the entire week but how the first sphere on the Heston Chiba hold in this case or crested demon attack that's how we bring the sphere out to the surface with less it how do you do the rest how do you play the castle bring bring the energy from the sphere about classes which is Hama be smart my father gave me the best advice I could give me when I was a teenager and he told me in this world don't be right be smart if you're smart you know how to deal with situations if you constantly fight to be right even if you're right who cares you be smart so now we're starting this special week it's the week in the middle by the way where we're three weeks behind three weeks up front we're right in the Macondo and the week of the middle and the peak of this week Hajj abroad this is of course like bombing the day that Rabbi Shimon bar Yohai the pillar of all pillars decided to leave this world so we see how the entire week of hood is the middle of everything it's what's called a mood at average the main pole that everything is leaning on it to go to depth more in this week what you need to apply life will become much more easier to deal with challenges will be much easier to overcome because I know how to put things in the right place I don't get disappointed so much I don't get angry I don't have expectations I learn from other people most people don't know how to learn from other people so I gave one example that many how I like to learn for my kids some people will have the talent to look at every person and to take something and to learn from them did you know who has that now with the million me call me lambdai sculpting Tara Dominic says I've learned from everybody even from a little fail even from a person went against me and learned from everybody even for my enemies that's a smart person so we want to now get into this week in a lot of the right energy because this is where we can actually do the real ultimate Tikhon for what we're mourning for the 25 24 thousand students of Akira that's why too many opinions - Ken Aziz they go all the way through outdoor mats parties by like bomb and that's it we're done we did the tikkun back to party why because now we did the tikkun by the week of hold if you didn't do it by that by now it's not gonna work out if you didn't were able to do it now for 33 days to be able to apply some type of respect to another person you're lost case but I'm joking of course nothing is the last case we learned that yesterday nothing is ever lost but the point is we have an opportunity not only to refine ourselves also to do tikkun that that's why we're doing that this is the reason why we commemorate their death to do a tea kun kun is a rectification and a refinement masada shame we should merit to mamaj go into this week and take the maximum out of it so I can be able to really finally be able to get to the point of true humility of like Moshe Rabbeinu that he humbled himself by humbling himself the Kenosha who took him up to levels that nobody can reach that's what the Rambam says her spirit at Seneca make yourself small and humble Venus aha McCallum the kadaj Mahal will rise you to the level where you need to get don't try to get to a level that you don't belong there it so happened to Adama Lee Sean he tried to climb levels way too fast so he fell that's the reason why everything has happened like that so we can see what happens when you try to climb to a level that was the wrong turn you and Hashem do that moshe of a banner was very very calculated he humbled himself the kailash mahal ready elevated him when I'm trying to go way above my level that's where I fall when I humble myself that's where my successes and the humility they they are Nawab is when you admit only when you admit when you admit model I met I admit the truth you're becoming a clean vessel for the kailash bajo to elevate you Masada chambermaid we should have a successful week and weekend mama refine ourselves from the core so we continue because later on we have still the net Sahana so the man who this is the final part of the of the polishing so we really kind of like in the middle we had peasant woman develop before now we we finished nets up we're going into heart Boca Shem we're doing well in business shame shame should make us very successful and everything you do [Music]