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Say it.
>> There's a contradiction between science
and
science.
Yeah.
>> Or both.
>> Welcome everybody. Good morning Shabas.
Thank you for coming.
So we're holding the third class in the
busi
in these pamphlets in these and we're up
to page
page the second paragraph gimmel chapter
3.
The series is dedicated in loving memory
of Harav
Ben Harav
and by Reb Ezra David Phillip in honor
of the Rebim
doing this work.
Okay. So
I'm not going to give a summary of last
year. [laughter]
>> That's what I always say.
But if somebody didn't hear it, it's
very kadai to hear it
both in terms of the ideas itself and in
terms of the context of this mimer.
But to summarize what the Reb said in
the mime, in other words, what's the
main point he's bringing out here is
that to explain what the treasure that's
we have to always remember the theme
here. There's a treasure, the ultimate
treasures, the ultimate crown jewels
that are given all the way from the
highest, the deepest secrets of the king
of Hashem that weren't ever revealed.
And not only weren't revealed in the
terms of spent or splurged or squandered
or disseminated or distributed, but not
even shown. In other words, not revealed
in any way like in the metaphor of the
king who gathered crown jewels for
generations and stored it away because
it's too precious even to be seen. Even
seeing it is like
it's not necessary. It's there. Its
existence is its existence. Not anybody
seeing it. Nonetheless, there comes a
moment where even that's not just given
but splurged. It's called bisbus. It's
it's almost like
uninhibitedly spent. Why? Because what's
at stake is something even deeper than
that.
What's deeper than that? Deeper than
that is deeper than the mal these are
the treasures of the malus is the
underlying purpose of the whole
creation.
In the metaphor, it's the the victory.
But as we explained, it's not victory of
an ego. the victory of good over evil,
of light over darkness, of truth over
falsehome.
to explain what this is. He gets into
the whole explanation that was the main
theme that it says in
and
is the that's the that's
the
and to explain all of this he says that
till chapter 16 of
the main focus is
how it affects the worlds there's the
power of revelation and the power of
concealment.
He takes it one step further as he says
that in itself you have
and on this he asked the question
if
what's going why you going upwards why
you're going downwards it's a
contradiction in terms
till now you're speaking about the way
it impacts the world the way it affects
the other but now you're talking about
the itself
So, and he says it's all in one place.
It's not two separate places, so to
speak. So, now it's a contradiction. And
then he says, but nonetheless in the
have both and there's a difference
between them and there's a huge
difference between them. And from this
proves that he's not talking about what
we call
is probability withinos over there. It's
not two separate things. The
potentiality, the probability for this
and the opposite are all one. But here
he's saying there's a difference between
them and yet you say it's oid and the
iss and the alterb writes that means
that the itself is a not that just it
comes from.
So this was the main point that he
brought out that this is the whole of
the wholeish of is this paradox that on
one hand light its entire identity is
that it illuminates something its source
that's what its is and yet it's not its
source it's the light that illuminates
its source
is that you don't you don't call it the
you call it the you call it the
and because of this paradox in this is
the two this is the Right.
Huh.
And that's why you could say in the
those are the more or less the is of the
with a little more with with a little
more elaboration.
So now he actually starts explaining the
Indian itself.
So we'll go back to now
he explains in the
based on this explanation. He now this
is right to the quote. You see this is
in quotes because he explains every line
when it says that
what is he talking about? He's talking
about
literally a concealed light
means concealed hidden means also
plugged completely hidden.
It's not in the realm of revelation and
communication.
Not only that
because it's not it's not like after
many stages
of [snorts]
evolution it's going to be revealed.
It's never going to come into the gill
in a way of revelation
like it says in this is the introduction
to the zar known as
you are above everything that's above
concealed plugged hidden above
everything that's hidden. What does it
mean? What do you mean more? How can you
be more hidden than hidden? If it's
hidden it's hidden. The answer is
as he's going to explain there's two
types of hidden. There's hidden which is
a prep for revelation. It's hidden now
and then there's
essentially it's essentially hidden.
So this is the cat the element in the
that we call.
So it's la goes up up up means up in
concealment deeper into the essence and
concealment
to no end.
is
when you say
this is the element of that is in the
realm of revelation at least even if
it's not revealed
it's relatable to all of the universes
to all of reality
in very general terms the way you can
define it is in his atmos in his essence
it's called revealed it's a type of
inside of him it's something so to speak
in the essence that is called light
which means revelation light reveals. So
it's gil
I know this is very very abstract and
difficult terms. I told you last year
this is a not an easy but you have to
stay with it.
This is all quoting the of the whole
paragraph
in itself. You can call it Gil.
In other words, even though you're
talking about the which itself is
inside his you can call
after the brackets just go over the
breath
is the that even in his essence it's not
called over there also it's called
vanilla which means completely
concealed. So this is in this is what
he's saying that
not talking about the world talking
about the itself and in the itself you
talk about
in the what's in the itself the which is
this is so that's what he's saying that
one element is it's not
it's not even in the realm of what we
call revelation but you're calling it so
it's funny he's saying it's all in
Right? So it's called and is light. So
you say, but it's not. It's never ever
going to be revealed. And then there's
another element. It's still high. It's
still very very high. It's not this this
this is all before what we call before
theum and everything. But in this
highlights very much how paradoxical
this whole issue is. You're calling it
the word means light. So he's saying,
"Oh no, no, no, no. Sorry. So so don't
call it. I have no problem."
You see this is this is where this was
the tension that the M is addressing
here. You want to stop say that Hashem
can do everything. Okay, I have no
problem. So say Hashem can do
everything. Fine. He can disseminate
light. He can disseminate darkness. He
can reveal himself. He can conceal
himself. That's But he said that's not
what we're talking about. We're talking
about
inas. Everything is one. The yes and the
not, the positive, the negative, the
finite, the infinite. It's all one. Why
is it one? Because it's neither. It's
neither. It's just the the infinite
essence that has every possible
probability and that every possible
probability don't go through every
probability as a separate thing right
even in a person you don't say I could
write I could write olive I can write
baze I can write gimmel the ability to
write olive bay and gimmel the ability
to write
that's even in more limited terms and
here you're saying no there's two
madreas and there's a big difference
between them that's that was the tension
he explained so he comes comes and is
this is the holy of so what's the holy
of that in the hol which is not it's
called that comes from the there's these
two
one is that it's gill at least with
others within himself it's called and
one is it's also called but it's
and that's
itself
so
Right.
The the first the big question of course
is you call it light and then you say
something that's never going to be
revealed. So what what is it there for?
It's there for what? To tell me that
there's light that's never going to be
revealed. So So you like what's you want
to tell me that there's a part of God
that nobody's ever going to know and
there's no shas to it. So why why why
are you calling it? So you don't have to
talk about it number one and then tell
me what it is and then you say that
that's part of that's part of Gil like
it's that that's that's the real
difficulty here. That's why you have to
understand all these words as code
languages. They're code languages.
People when they learn this they get
stuck in words and levels and they start
defining the levels. They're not
understanding that and not to compare
but laavd those who know anything about
I don't but those who know a little bit
of physics and mathematics know that
physics uses the language of mathematics
but physics is not mathematics physics
is actually the the the universe the the
chemistry of the universe they need a
language and the regular words don't
work just like poetry serves a purpose
where words fail music serves a purpose
where even poetry fails And silence
serves a purpose where even music fails.
Right?
>> Uh so so it you need different
languages. So so physics employs the
language of mathematics. That's how it
is. They use what's called mathematical
equations. But if you get stuck in the
mathematical equations, that's not what
it is. Yeah. So
employed the language of Kabala has
names. There's something called there's
something called there's something
called there's something called simpum
there's something called there's
something called gilu so these are the
words and the words are expressing
something but the greatest error is when
the words become words and not
appreciate that every word is really
just like almost a code word it's like a
code you know when you say a code the
code itself it's just a code it's like
you know when you have a code on a lock
or a code on a computer the code is
Oh, I have the code. I have the
computer. No, no, no. You don't have the
code. You don't have the computer. The
code allows you to go into the files.
Now, you have to study the files. So,
these are all code words that are trying
to evoke a deeper awareness, a deeper
understanding. I'm just saying this as
it's very important to understand this,
not to uh
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
Now,
so
>> purpose,
>> huh?
[snorts]
>> Much more than that. The whole purpose
[snorts]
is such concept as light. So it's going
to be something revealed because that's
what
>> that's a good question. If there if
you're calling it light, it means
something is being revealed, right?
That's what light is
>> can be
>> or can be revealed or there's something
there's something that's being emitted
through the light. If not, don't call it
light. Light means light by definition
means that it's carrying a message from
one space to another space. However you
want to get into define it in the
details, but that's what light is. So
now you're telling me no that in the
there's something that's
not concealed because you're not ready
for it or it's going to take another
thousand years or it has to still come
down and filters. That's not what you're
saying. You're saying it's so stop
calling it light.
>> You're calling it and and what's the
purpose of it anyway? If it's something
that nobody's ever going to have a sh to
so it's the same question really. So why
are you calling it light? Why is it even
there? Why did Hashem create it? And if
it's just part of him, so then it's not,
it's him, it's atmos. So back to
so this is really
right bringing us back to the theme that
we discussed yesterday which was the
introduction to this and that is the
whole of what the of is
and what was the main point that is the
par itself is this paradox because when
you're saying the
is a big difference between them he also
said it's in one space so that itself is
a paradox if it's in one space so it's
not a difference is a big difference
between them and it's one space. So that
itself denotes the whole issue of what
we're talking about. In other words,
what we're struggling with is the whole
it's not a question that's going to
bring you to an answer. The question is
highlighting what the explanation is.
What's
so we explained in last year the main
point was that by definition means that
it's transmitting something. It's
transporting information from one space
from one source. It's bring it's
revealing the source into another space
like when I see you. So the light allows
me to see you. So it allows you to be
perceived by me. It allows me to
perceive that which is in the room or
that which is in the world. The light of
the sun or the light of the moon or
anything that emits light. I mean
everything emits light. But let's talk
about the light of the sun because
that's the most basic source of light
that we all experience and enjoy and
appreciate. That light allows us to be
able not only to see the sun but also to
be able to see reality. So whenever you
talk about means the ability to perceive
reality
that's the definition of
[clears throat]
in physical light we know that you spoke
about this at the end of the year right
at least has two dimensions. Number one
what's called the photons
which is the actual message that it
reveals. It's actually it shows me
something. It shows me you. It shows me
the sun. It shows me the moon. It shows
me the mountain. Chose me the squirrel.
It shows me the house. That's one
element of
it's called the particle. Is also the
wave. What's what do we mean by the
wave? The wave is that in is to
transmit. That's its inion. It doesn't
have its own ego. It transmits and then
it transmits something from its source.
>> It's the language.
>> Yeah.
So is the language of communication or
as we said is the relational field. If
there's no relation, there's no means
relation. I want a relationship with
you. That's what is light. I want you
should be able to perceive me. Why? Why
do I want you to perceive me? I just
want to be self-contained. So is the
idea that I want to be connected.
Connection is the ultimate language of
attachment of relationships.
This is why we call it O say
relationships. Okay? Because it's more
more than the word relationships. That's
so what's
a relationship with.
So is that something is the reality of
it in and of itself in its full purity
in its full essence by definition is
already a relation. There's connection.
There is connection.
That's what id is. If I don't care about
connection, then take out the word
light. If Hashem wouldn't create the
concept of, it would mean that a thing
exists in and of itself, but nobody
knows about it. In other words, nobody
has a connection to it. Not physical,
not emotional, not spiritual, not
intellectual.
Allows you to be experienced, to be
perceived.
>> Yeah, that's
All we see is light, but really we don't
see anything. All I see is what really
all I see is you.
>> That's exactly
>> all I'm really seeing is the light. I
don't see.
>> Yeah.
>> I'm looking at you, right? I don't see
you. [laughter] I see light.
the language of
>> Yeah. All we really see is light, but I
don't see light. I see you. How does
that happen? But I really don't see you.
I see light, right?
>> We look at the sun. Yeah. Eight minutes
ago, right? It took 8 minutes for the
light to communicate. It took eight
minutes for the light to travel from the
sun to here. We don't even realize it.
I'M SEEING THE SUN. NO, I SEE THE SUN
RIGHT NOW. NO. That's the kesh of light.
It's so bottle. Its whole agenda is I
don't exist. What what is what's ex what
exists my source? I'm here to reveal my
source. That's my whole identity. My
entire identity is I have no identity
outside of revealing my source. So what
are you seeing? You're not seeing me.
You're seeing my source. It's a channel.
I light is egoless.
Light is egoless. That's what it is.
It's pointing to the source. I want you
should be able to see the source. But I
want you should you should be able to
see it. Not that the source lives in
itself.
So on one hand
is not the moyer. It's not the source.
It's transporting it. It's allowing me
to perceive it. And here there's
billions and billions levels. How much I
could perceive the depth that I could
perceive etc. where I am in my own
existence that I should be able to
receive and how much I could.
But essentially what's the to be mala to
reveal the source. So it's not the on
the other hand
to the like we gave the example of
what's the idea of
on one hand
is a separate person
if you say I want to make you a but I
want you to stay right near me then you
I don't need a have me the whole idea of
a is you send him where you're not
that's the power of it and yet
that person is you there's different
levels of but that's the so on one hand
it's like light it travels the has to
travel in the source
it is you I don't need a the whole idea
of is to go where a place where the is
not
practically in so he's going to a
different place in other words he's not
the in fact the can be a robot in of if
the is completely not doesn't even have
his own d it's not a g
So on one hand there is independence. He
has his own mind and his own heart and
his own and yet all of that becomes what
of the to channel the
is the
can capture everything of in the even
though by definition is not the
nonetheless because of the of to the so
therefore mayer the can embody and so to
speak manifest all the properties and I
you know we can't use the word
properties because it's beyond
properties the pure infinity of atsmos
becomes itself and that's why it's the
itself is
and that's the paradox of or if you want
to use the language of physics it just
has a mshel simply is not only a wave
it's not only a wave it's not only that
I don't exist
is I'm transferring something. There's a
message that is transferring
>> basically.
>> Yeah.
>> In a way
to be
all you know without light is
impossible. All in means
>> all means all
>> there will be a knowledge spread you say
spread or given or revealed or whatever
it has to be life has to be means
>> yeah in a way essence
>> yeah yeah
>> so now I want you to understand the code
language here what do you need the word
just say hashem wants a relationship
with memos
could do what he wants if he wants a
relationship he wants a relationship
that's where it's So so adidal the
question is how serious is the
relationship right that's what you were
saying is he allin he could be all in in
anything but what allin in what all in
in his agenda or in my agenda allin
you're atmos I mean you're infinite
you're a with dafa saying it's not atmos
it's
why what's what's semantics like so you
invented a new word light fine don't
call the essence call it light who cares
like can argue the essence no it's the
It's not it's a whole ple it's not it's
an this is not and if it is what's going
to happen [snorts]
but now you understand the vertus
is about him is about me
of course he could do what he wants he
can have a relationship with a squirrel
he can have a relationship with a grain
of sand
the grain of sand and say that to the
grain of sand is the purpose of
everything and I'm not going to ask
questions cuz I didn't event logic and
I'm not God and it's above my pay grade
have no problem with that
of course it's infinite and unlimited
there's no need for any constructs
there's no need for any my
there's a need to tell people to go out
of their yeah fine which is a big step
okay stop telling God what he doesn't
play dice with the universe he does play
dice with the universe you know what
dice is you know what universe is you
know what god is
we create philosophical constructs and
then we force him into it and we say it
doesn't make sense to me.
Huh?
>> Supposed to make sense.
>> Yeah. And you do make sense to you and
your mind does make sense. I once said
to my brother was a cute story. He says
it was a professor. So he was teaching
philosophy, you know, doctorate
students, very very evolved students in
philosophy. And after years and years
and years, he announced it's going to be
a final exam. Final exam. Everybody
prepared for months. This is going to
be, you know, they thought maybe like
400 questions. They come to the test.
It's one question and the question is
one word and the word was why.
Why? That's the question. 10 years
philosophy. Why? That's it. So everybody
like they took all their studies and
they started to write. Everybody wrote
an essay, a book, chapters and chapters.
Why? Why? Why? Everybody failed.
Everybody failed. Two students passed.
One got an A and one got an A+. The one
who got an A wrote one word. Why?
because
he got an A. The one who got an A+, he
wrote, "Why? Why not?
[laughter]
That was it. Everybody else failed."
What's the difference? Why? Because
there's a why? Because. But he's still
in the world of why, right? Why? Because
you didn't tell me why. What? I won't
tell you because what the second one got
it. Why? Why not? Right. The whole
foundation of using That was not yours.
>> Very [laughter] good.
>> Very good.
>> That's a third question. Why are you
even asking about the why? Right.
[laughter]
>> So, so what's here? Yeah. You could say
everything is we have no problem with
that. That's that's that's what's
people. It's not a mathematical ppull if
is or not. It's it's it's a code
language
is about him. He's capable of
everything. I know. And I don't I don't
even know what I said because when I say
he's capable, I'm saying he capable
everything. I already put three
categories. He is capable of everything.
It's already I I I'm only defining it in
terms of human finite terms.
In the
isl
you don't call him finite. You also
don't call him infinite.
Don't say he is and don't say he's not
and therefore don't say he is. Even
saying he is is as flawed as saying he's
not.
But there is something the minute you
say.
>> I know. But when we say is something
right away there's a sun, there's a
moon, there's a computer, and there's
him.
>> Well, at least you can recognize.
>> I get it. I get it. I get it. Of course.
I get it. I get it.
>> That's all when we're talking about the
is the relational field.
>> Yeah. It's the way the is manifested in
light. What's that light? Why are you
calling it light? Light is not
potential. Because light already
represents the fact that there is a
perception of me by the other or at
least the potentiality for a perception
of me by the other.
Means I want to connect.
Okay, you want to connect. What do you
want to connect with? You want to
connect with something that's finite,
something that's limited. So the
relationship is very very limited comes
down to and says the id itself is
what said the itself is not
you could say comes from the that's the
of that the whole of is just to channel
the
so therefore itself could be called like
and what's it has NO AND NO NOT EVEN the
not even the definition of light.
[snorts] So in light you have not only
the
which is light aspect of light in light
you also have the aspect OF WHICH IS THE
atmos element of light which is
completely inaccessible and that's also
in the light.
Now if you don't hear the words if you
hear the energy behind this this is
revolutionary.
So you want to know if this chapter, if
this paragraph said anything because it
just looks like abstract. It's saying
everything
makes sense. Without this sense, this is
how it makes sense.
>> Explain.
>> Without this, we wouldn't have to talk
about what to say.
>> Yeah.
>> Gives us to talk about even this.
>> Yeah.
That's the that the is communic we call
it. Of course, you could say he's and
there's no gill and there's no and
there's no accessibility and stop
talking about it and stop making
yourself crazy and just do what you have
to do and and and just stop bothering
anybody.
That's not the the of the and this is
neg of the is how profoundly I'm going
to quote again yesterday that he's all
in what he's all in atmos is in
and in what not in his own orbit
[laughter]
fine I don't know fine that's not the
var
the of the is
in the relationship ship the relational
field, the connection, the attachment,
the atmos, the essence of Hashem is is
invested
invested in in the atmosph
But in the you don't only have that
which you could call
which is you also have in the that which
is
what is
so why you talking about so why you
calling it but that's the whole that
captures that
transmits to you. Gives me that too.
What do you mean? How are you giving
that to me? You just said you can't give
it to me. It's not revealed. So, this is
exactly the whole tension here. On one
hand, you're saying the
is in one space in when I say one space,
I don't mean in a physical space. Again,
muck is another uh another word. But I
don't mean a physical space. That means
it's in every of
>> physical space is also construct.
>> You're right. You're right. Even
physical space is not physical space.
You're right.
>> But it's it's a construct of
in a way it's like he's saying something
maybe maybe revolutionary for physics
because
>> he got there he gets there first he says
I don't know just I don't see this
saying anything and suddenly he said
it's a revolution in physics. I like
that 10 minutes later. No, because
mochum if you think about mo space right
if you will ask for space definition
>> but it's great you see how a person
evolves first like you just didn't say
anything suddenly
resurrection I could watch it I saw I
saw him coming from resurrection and
then I said the whole physics was just
revolutionary let's say the revolution
of physics which I won't understand what
you're saying anyway but okay [laughter]
>> if you look at the fabric of space there
is nothing out there in the universe
what we call space which is [snorts]
void from some kind of energy field and
when you're talking about energy field
you're talking about automatically light
because it's it's interconnected it's
revealed it's
relational it's communicative uh all
this property that you were just talking
about is there and it's already in the
fabric of space not only space time as
So, so what what he's saying is here is
like is much so so deep in a way that
the entire essence is is
like that's the that's the in the way
you can I don't know if you can speak
about itself right but what's what it
reveals about it's that it's connected
it's
>> it's influential it's
You can derive the entire universe from
there.
>> Yeah.
>> Only thing without it is just
impossibility to even talk about it.
>> Yeah.
>> To even express anything without
even start.
>> Yeah.
Means the way explains is that
everything was put into it. Everything.
Even that which can't be put into it was
also put into it. So what do you mean?
Is that just a semantic question? So he
says, "No, that's the whole vert of
how does that work? That's the B of
ifas."
So Mitsus can channel that which Mitsus
allows itself to be channelneled. If had
any mits, what's mitsus? I don't mean
ego like ego ego talking about the of
hem. But if it had any form of mitsus,
in other words, if light said I am his
light, you're just you're done.
Then you channel what your constructs
can channel. Everybody has their caum,
their vessels. You have a cup of eight
ounces. Fine. You could fill, you could
give me eight ounces of water. I have no
problem. 12 ounces. 12 ounces. A gallon
is a gallon. In spirituality, you have a
bigger kali, right? You have a gallon.
So you give me a gallon of of of
information.
That's why
>> but
I told you wrote this literally a few
days before his stalkus mish a few days
he literally wrote this about
and with this he explained the whole of
over the and by the way that's why the
ramach parenthesis for those who are
into it the ramach didn't not speak
about the was the first one to speak
about
the expression
>> [laughter]
>> So I know about Simpson that didn't know
about Simp.
We talk about simpum. Simp
but the student of the ramach he was
mgalum simpum is a gill of it's all
connected because by the ramach he said
you're not let us say the there's no
such a thing
is a property that comes from god but
THAT'S IT FROM GOD is not god
and don't confuse the two it's big it's
amazing it's incredible it's infinite
but it's from it's from a light of the
sun is from the sun. It's not the sun.
>> There's source.
>> There's source AND THERE'S LIGHT. LIGHT
IT may be the first thing that source
creates. So it has something very
special. You know it's the first
generation, right? The child of other
marishian had a different relationship
with God than otherish different
relation with God than us because we are
5,000 years 5,76 years. The first
generation is a big thing. You know, you
you saw what it was like on the other
side. But there is source.
And since they're source so therefore
the doesn't go into the of the way is
that the itself is
the itself is a so here is ofum in there
was an ofum once you appreciate what is
so it's not that didn't know about
because he couldn't like
the
source and then there's what's created
from source.
>> Yeah.
on a so from a from an encyclopedic
structural level that makes more sense.
Why? Because it puts God into God. Let
God be God. And now let's start from
there.
>> Huh?
>> It's not
the part of the
gill of and then the that's the what's
the is that which is inaccessible source
itself. Ultimately,
do I have source or no? You have to have
humility. And the truth is, you can't
come to the second step without the
first step because if you come to
without the first step, there's an
arrogance there.
>> But ultimately, it's all in.
>> Oh, but ultimately it's all in.
Ultimately, the relationship is in the
deepest deepest place that nobody could
even conceive how deep the relationship
is.
That's why the BMP Yeah.
That's why the
of everything was the connection, the
love, the
oneness. That's everything.
>> I saw yesterday
from the
I was I was on a plane and I was reading
it and I was [laughter]
he says I have to remember the tinv
1946. So a few years before this it was
uh I don't remember the date
he was talking to the he says that he
heard from his father
they're just the words I have to say
took an oathmos
means god took an oath just a word he's
not going to be revealed to a mascul to
someone who is a philosopher
only to avoid only in avoid only
somebody who's who's implementing it in
their body, in their nervous system, in
their animal soul, in their daily life.
He swore like whoa.
But that's really the in other words
means I'm all in. If if if if you're not
reciprocating on that level,
>> you will not know.
>> If you're not all in, it's not like I'm
going to take revenge. Oh, you're not
doing this. I'm not giving myself to
you. It's not because I want to punish
you. It's what it is. If you're not if
it's not avoid if you're not all in, if
it's just another mind game, even if
it's inspiring mind game, this whole
thing it's not anymore.
>> You missed the
>> You missed everything.
It's all relation. That's that's the of
and that the has everything. The itself
is
and the truth is it's torturous without
when said used to say in middle of Ding
that's says so he he was he writes it
and he saw it it wasn't it's not that my
my grandfather middle of Ding would go
into Vegas and he would say you we
always say
What? What? What? I don't I don't want
anything. I want only you. The only
reason he could say that is because he
felt that Hashem was saying that to him.
If for a moment would not think Hashem
is saying that to him, it's it's it's
it's not there. It doesn't work that
way.
I don't want your I want you because I
want only you because he felt it was the
other way around. I want only you.
That's the
that's why it's the
that's why this is what's neg to the
victory. The end victory when there's
crazy darkness
requires a relationship that is deeper
than any other relationship and a
relationship that can work even in the
greatest darkness. And the whole here is
going to be
that this element of
I'm giving a sneak preview comes out in
those areas in life where you feel
completely detached. I want you to
understand this
>> where you feel abandoned. Yeah.
In many ways, this most abstract chapter
is this most abstract probably one of
the most emotional things you'll ever
hear in your life. I'm telling you
that's how it works with in your most
abandoned space.
What does abandonment mean? There's no
connection anymore. Right? When there's
a leaving a little flow, there's a
trickle of water, something is coming.
What's abandonment? You're thrown off a
cliff. There's nothing finished. Put the
umbilical cord was severed.
What does he say?
It's never going to be revealed. Where
does that part come out? It never comes
out through revelation. It can come out
through revelation. Where does it come
out?
In the exper in the perceived experience
of abandonment.
That's what heals a that's that's what
heals a generation. That's what heals
the world
>> in a way. It's a healing for the view
because
>> very good
himself.
>> Beautiful.
>> Of course, it heals the symptoum. It
heals everything.
In the ultimate healing, everything is
healed. Everybody is redeemed. It's not
like my team won color war, the blue
team won, the red team won.
[snorts]
>> Of course,
[snorts]
>> and re real abandonment is not just
Hashem is not all in. He's not in at
all. He's like he hates me.
>> I'm me.
>> Exactly. I'm I'm the black sheep in the
family, you know,
and there seems to be like a lot of
black sheep in the family, but I'm
certainly one of them. And my mother
never wanted me. My father never wanted
me. They even told me it was a mistake
that they had me. You know, when kids
hear that. So, at the core, there's a
sense of abandonment. And never mind if
life confirmed abandonment.
How did life confirm it? Because of
experiences. So listen, it's very hard
to speak about this intellectually
because tell this to somebody who's
experiencing abandonment like oh because
the
and
so the also has in it that which is
atmos and like thank you.
>> Thank you my dearest you know go give
your lecture somewhere else. I'm in
pain. I'm suffering. I don't want to
live like whatever you that's why I'm
saying the bridge between this and real
life. It's very very important to
understand that the words are all code
languages,
right? It's it's literally laava like
like uh music sheets. I told you you
look at music sheets, right? If you
don't know music, what do you just see?
You see black shapes and lines.
>> Photos without knowing what they
>> Yeah. And then suddenly you have a a
great musician takes a look at the at
the music sheet and starts smiling and
then he starts making with his hand and
then he goes into ecstasy and asks
no he just saw what's happening right
one person
I don't know what you want from me like
what another another another words it's
hard enough to learn gamut and I'm going
to learn this kabala also if you see the
music in it you start dancing internally
so it's very important to appreciate the
bridge between that's why I'm saying
that he's not going to be revealed to a
mascul only to an
moment you keep these things as ideas
you're failing everything it's it's it's
a betrayal of everything he write he
says in the he says in the that
[panting]
he says there that he heard from his
father who heard from theb his father
Marash that who heard from the who said
that the rebba said that um
he said it's hard to say but for
learning without a without working on it
without dvening with it
no for my father
is it gives a flick in the nose and It's
it's like bringing into the Now those
are very serious words. What does that
mean? Bring into bringing not into the
is not it's it's pretty bad but at least
you let the mikdash be a mikd I'm taking
somewhere else bringing in the is you're
going into the and you're bringing
there. So this is what he writes that
that said about his father that to learn
without
you're taking and you're bringing it let
the don't bother it don't don't go there
don't learn about these things I'm fine
learn other things but you're learning
about this without without not not going
in with your heart this is already like
a desecration it's like you're inviting
me you're inviting at to intimacy you
know and then you're on your phone like
you go into aa The kala is waiting
makadesh. I have a text.
[laughter] Don't go to the kupa. Go go
go go go go read your text. I have no
problem.
So what's all this is all based on this
don't learn more.
>> Very good. Good. [laughter]
>> Huh?
>> That's not the devoid is not that you
shouldn't learn.
That's not that's not an
>> it. [laughter]
>> It's not an
>> it.
The is to understand what's invested
here. What's invested is eti
want want to go that direction. You
learn it.
that sometimes consecrates the appetite.
Now, we usually don't go there because
it's it's hard to go there because
there's too much at stake. If I have
walls, life is much safer. My relations
are limited. I I won't give everything,
but I also won't lose everything. If you
don't give everything, you don't lose
everything. If I put all my money into
one stock, all the eggs in one basket,
you lose everything. So, we have learned
early on, don't put all the eggs in one
basket. And in business it's a good
idea. Don't give everything because then
you could lose everything. The person
betrays you. What are you left with?
Nothing.
And this is what the realized is the
worst form of gulos. There's no healing
without this because we remain
fragmented and broken and torturous. So
when he said I don't want your I want
you. I'm giving everything.
The only way he can do it is if there's
a response that because because that is
because Hashem speaks that way.
Don't come to this place until
it's
so in.
>> Yeah.
>> Yeah. Yeah.
>> Yes. Yes. Yes. So what's the V? So, so
your to now I don't know the word to but
that's the of that's what he's saying
here with that has everything concealed
I have no issue atmos okay atmos is
atmos the ver is that it's all in
the relation in the relational field in
the relational frequency you have not
only that which is
potentially revealed
>> way
the ray that which could be communicated
through Gile. Because remember, just
like Atsimos could be concealed, he
could be revealed. Just like God could
be infinite, he could be finite. JUST
LIKE GOD can teach a genius, he can also
teach a 2-year-old.
God has no problem with that. Atmos has
no problem with that. The words God
doesn't work on these my needs because
God is just another.
Yeah, that's not the word. What the what
is that? This la is an even itself
what's oid is gil. So the gil of which
is hasn't it also that which is not. SO
STOP CALLING IT. Stop making me sugar.
Don't call it. No, that's the
the of to the what's the is it has no so
it can access and embody and channel and
manifest in that which is WHAT'S THAT
which is NOT IN OTHER WORDS itself
where does that come out that's what I
said before that's going to come out
later in the in that which seems
completely disconnected
that where you're connected that
connects you to
that connects you to the that's
channeling flow there's flow there's
elements in life where you feel flow
there's elements in life there's no flow
everything is interrupted boom you're on
your own
are you on your own
that's
where the is channeling that which is
not be gil. So how does it come out? Not
in a revealed way. And in that sense,
but but what is there in that
abandonment?
[sighs]
In that abandonment is is is everything.
You you have everything.
You can't really talk about it. It's
more experiential.
But there's moments in a person's
spiritual journey, emotional journey, uh
healing journey where uh you're left
with nothing. You're literally left with
nothing. Nothing. Nothing. And the pain
of that is indescribable
because you're literally left with
nothing. It's like everything you held
on to is taken away from you.
And what happens then? And what happens
then is
you touch
or at least you're open to touch
and I don't mean the words
because I don't know if a person starts
feeling oh I just touched I'm talking a
frequency I know the word frequency is
cute word but you get what I'm saying I
don't have a better word you touch the
frequency of atsmos but not the atsmos
that could be communicated through
communication which means I could say ah
gishmach I got it thank you for the
message
rather it's the message in which I I'll
I'll say it more in more more more
concrete terms what you discover at that
moment is that you are atmos
you are the flow you were waiting for a
flow you were waiting for connection you
are the source of the connection you are
the source of the connection wow Ah, my
whole life I thought I'm just a
recipient.
So now you cut the flow. I'm nothing. I
was thrown off a cliff. What do YOU
REALIZE? YOU ARE ATMOS. YOU ARE THE
FLOW. You create the flow. Just now it
goes upward instead of downward.
[panting]
Malik sayal was one of the big there was
a fire in the house and everything got
burned and the mother was sobbing. So he
says, "Well, we're a light. We had
nothing in the house. What are you
crying about?" So she says, "We had a
migillas in a family tree that goes back
generations, generations." He said,
"Don't worry, we'll have a new one that
starts with me." [laughter]
WHAT'S IF YOU'RE ATOS? YOU ARE THE FLOW.
YOU'RE THE SOURCE. IT'S LIKE I'm
waiting, you know, I'm waiting. Who
could you give me something? It's
[laughter] all there.
>> It's you. It's in you. So now it starts
the other way. NOW IT GOES UPWARD
INSTEAD OF DOWNWARD.
You said I was waiting for it to come
down. The waterfall should come down
from heaven to earth. And no, no, you're
the waterfall. Heaven is waiting for
you.
Cuz remember goes both ways. When you
have light, it travels. And was going to
see,
right? Light doesn't only go one way.
It's not just we're all recipients. God
says, "Okay, here, here, here." IT GOES
BOTH WAYS. COMES BACK.
>> The goes back. The doesn't just go one
way.
goes back to the there's something that
gets goes backward back
>> you can't return something that isn't
yours
>> exactly how does it become yours
if I'm just giving you back what you
gave me so fine call it
that's not that again that's not
relationship
>> yeah
and this itself is called
why because it's ultimately something
that Hashem wants you to experience, not
him to experience. And that's why the
relationship is real. That's the
ultimate question of history. Is the
relationship real or it's just some
construct of philosophy or religion to
make people feel better?
And that's why some of the very very
intelligent people became atheists. Why?
Because after they they realized that at
the end of the day like I I need I'm not
talking about atheists. uh
or out of anger which I understand I'm
talking here about it's like
you know after you go through all the
facads and all the institutionalized
religion and all the things and all the
feel good feel good feel good like if I
need real authenticity
>> what am I holding on to and it's not a
simple question to answer
>> all that knowledge make detached
>> the more knowledge the more detached the
more cynical
Yeah. The more cynical you become
existential and modernity and then
there's post-modernity and you break
everything apart and what are you left
with? You make fun of every institution
and there's what to make fun of?
[laughter]
Every cult, every brainwashing session,
every person who's throwing down
information down kids' throats. They
don't know what they're talking about.
The kids don't know what. But the main
thing is the system works.
And then but deep deep down the
sensitive real deep sensitive spiritual
souls you know you speak to them you
know they they're feeling something
and that for that your only way you heal
that is through the without the
without this this this this truth not in
words but in experience you can't heal
that
because this need to go need to go to a
place of real atmos
>> [snorts]
>> Yeah.
Yeah.
And ultimately it's all one and it's not
has good days. That's that's the hope.
Everything is here paradox. The world of
paradox in atmos could be transported
into
but there's one condition surrender the
power of is b
the moment stays in mitus
as I told you last time it's like
pulling out the plug you just unplug the
refrigerator you can go on vacation
you're finished the moment says look at
me pretty good no I'm doing well yeahh
gun's good for not bad yeah I have atmos
I
I have cats. Don't tell anybody. But
it's getting even better.
The moment that does the suddenly became
it's like the ray of the sun coming into
the house or you're sitting on the
beach, your private beach enjoying the
sun and you turn to the you're like,
"Oh, wow. What amazing sunlight. What
amazing sunlight after a crazy winter.
What beautiful sunlight I got in Miami.
I don't know why you came here, but
welcome. You change the weather
>> and the ray of the sun is so proud of
itself. You know why do I need A SUN?
>> LOOK what I just did for these people.
So the ray of the sun tells the son it
was nice knowing you. You're in a
dictator. You're an abuser. You're a
tyrant. You're a control freak. I'm
going on my own. Huh?
>> You're overwhelming.
>> You're overwhelming. Yes. I'm going on
my own. I already learned to trade. I'm
opening my own company. What do I have
to work for you? Ah a gazlin a shakran a
low life. I'm gonna do my own real
estate company.
That's classic Jewish story. What do I
have to work for this guy and get a
salary when he's raking it in? The sun.
The sun. The sun. The sun. I I DO I I'M
the one who does it. The sun doesn't
even do anything. Aslft. I'm the guy who
has to travel here. 186,000 miles per
hour. 300,000 kilometers per hour. I got
it right.
>> Yeah. Better.
>> Okay. Better. Cuz 186,000
miles per hour. No, he's counting. He's
counting. You're not counting, but he's
counting.
>> I'm just here for checks. Make sure it's
correct.
>> So, what happens? The ray of the sun
says goodbye to the sun. And you know
where that ray ended up in in the basis?
>> Eight minutes later, he was dead. Didn't
take long. They called the ray of the
sun is incredible because he's the ray
of the sun. The moment the ray says,
"Come look at me. Take a picture of me.
[laughter]
Light says take a picture of me. I don't
know. I don't even see light. I see you.
But what am I really seeing? Light. Cuz
that's is how we connect. We connect
through light. But what's the kadesh of
light? That light allows us to connect
with everything because it has no ego.
In the physical world, it's of course
still limited in physical terms. in the
of which is the iss
>> okay
>> so he says in physics it's also that way
okay
>> he knows that in physics it works that
way you think it works I don't think and
I don't know
>> I'm either the biggest one of the
biggest challenges in the world that
nobody knows except maybe one of my
cousins that passed
>> [laughter]
>> So there is the biggest challenge in the
physical world. What's gravity? What's
gravity? Right.
>> Yeah.
>> So I think what you're talking about is
in the way
according to my cousin Boris Mush.
So the the physics of gravity works
through it's complex. works through deep
concept of deep where basically they're
two includas are related but essentially
the light that we experience doesn't
matter physical whatever light is it
changes something in you in you it
touches you it touches you so in a way
it touches your antenna now the question
if your antenna can emit on the same
frequency or not back but [snorts]
but essentially the the light does
something
And it works like almost like a gravity.
Even if you don't emit anything back,
it's there. You the gravity holds you
up. So it's like even if you think you
are detached. So it doesn't work this
way because that's part of the fabric
that was created. So So it's like I
think what what he's getting into is
that nobody understands by the way
physics.
>> Wow.
with the exception of my cousin Boris.
>> So,
I didn't get that one, but okay. Next
paragraph for
the all of this.
It's based on
explains after he discussed alterb and I
told you that in the basilani theb would
uh build it from each one of the of of
his predecessors all the way from the
bump. So the basilani was a mime that
was built from the from the bump the ma
the alterba all the way down and so the
whole mime you'll see at the end the
structure is made up from a different
mime of each one of the rebas this only
did in basilani because it was the mime
of when he was mabas
so it's very fascinating so it's not in
the order always so first he discuss
with now he discusses from the is it
says my pares
So in
the famous about
we learned it once in he explains the
know that
put in some people say it in the morning
in the morning before dvening some
people say it after some people say it
on Shabaso
is the introduction of z
if you ever say It's Friday. We by us we
say Friday before after the instituted
because every week you go through the
four challenges of what you have to say.
So you make the at the end of the week
you're thankful that you went came
through the week you know you came out
you're ready for Shabas. So that's the
and then there's the
starts off it's the introduction of
opened up and said
the master of the world
quote I don't know I just say it on
Friday so I know it
the master of the world he's really
going through it you're one without any
without you're not one in as part of a
it's not like there's 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9
10 you're one but it's not part of a
calculation like one leading to two it's
complete oneness you'll
you're higher even than the highest
concealed
above everything that's concealed.
Higher and more concealed than
everything that's high and concealed.
No thought can grasp you.
And then you emanated 10 characteristics
called the 10 spheres. And he goes
through all the spheres
all the way down. And at he says,
"You're you're wise but not with knowing
wisdom. Maven you have bina but it's not
knowing bina there's no place where it's
known even your spheres are not
something that we can define and know it
just allows the world to experience you
in those forms and categories as
knowledge wisdom kindness compassion
strength discipline that's what the
spher that's basically some of the
structure of
this is from recorded in the z so
explains all these words what does this
mean you start off
onto
So obviously to get from you to the
spheres there's some form here of
evolution.
Yeah. So the question is what what are
you really talking about?
So that's what he's going to say and
he's going to show how these words of
the zar are really manifesting what the
m is saying here in basil.
That's what he says. base in the middle.
It brings us to
the first explanation is
it's the same. It's the same dimension.
In other words,
you're one without any not a part of a
one is essential. And that aunt, that
same aunt is
It's very easy here to get get stuck in
words but it's not about the words
according to this interpretation is
you're not talking about atsmos. Why?
Because about we don't say you're not
part of a there's you don't talk about
any definitions not even one about you
don't even say one not because he's two
and not three because he's not two not
one there's no definition so already
once you're talking about
according to he's talking about always
again is the relational field
it's the way is perceived
and then you're saying
you're more concealed than anything
that's concealed and this is higher than
10 spheres. Not only the ten spheres in
10 spherus in kabala does espherus
agluius and esospheris agnosus
esospherus agluius is like the fire on
the coal esopherus agnosis is like the
fire inside the coal you have to blow on
it so preum the 10 spheres are called
esospherosus
the 10 spheres they're still embedded in
the coal or like a spark in the
flintstone even deeper it's in the
flintstone but it's not accessible yet
but that's still a number 10us
here It's
so even what's also
which are this is higher than that cuz
it's not it's one.
So he says that means it's you have
something that's relative to the lower
levels in other words relative to the
reveal. This is concealed but it's not
essentially concealed. You have ideas
that I don't understand not that nobody
understands that I don't understand
them. in a higher level you do
understand them
means it's essentially inaccessible not
because you're too low as he said before
it's never going to be revealed it's not
>> it's not understandable
>> it's essentially that's
and this is all talking about the
so this brings out the
so it's higher than
a
But he has a second shot there that is
not it's already a lower level
is a higher end but
even according to this
It's not that we changed. It's just the
went higher is the
so
is still higher even than
so it all brings out what's that
not because I don't know about it. It's
not It's not I don't even know. I don't
know.
What's the
It's that type of that's not in the
realm of revelation. It will never be
revealed.
Not because I don't want to reveal it
because it's not
It's not to the word. The word
and this can't relate.
It's not only concealed relative to the
recipient. I didn't get it yet. I'm not
cracked open. I don't have the brains. I
don't have the heart. I'm too low. No,
IT'S
you have things that are because it's
too big. It's too secretive. It has to
be confidential. I'm not there yet. and
I don't have the brains. That's
means it's not because there's no
recipient that's ready for it. It's not
itself. It's
it's a secret in and of itself. Not
because you don't know about it. You
understand? It's not because you don't
know. That's not what makes it a secret
that you don't know about it.
What makes it a secret is it's
essentially a secret. Even if everybody
knows about it, it's still a secret
because they don't know it.
You know some things
even in its own essence IT'S NOT
[laughter]
IT'S NOT revealed to me it's not
revealed to you everybody has secrets
they don't tell anybody but to them
themselves it then there's secrets you
can't even tell yourself why for
yourself it's also a secret because it's
it's that aspect of self that can't be
revealed it's not because I can't share
it with you but by me it's revealed I
know about it I experience no even in me
it's also what this means that we're
talking about atmos Even in
that's weird, right? You say there's the
element of that's
the that's revealed. It's Hashem
revealed in his essence. And then
there's the parts of that even in you
say it's not revealed. AND THAT'S THE in
good. You're confused. pressure. In
other words, like respect like
[clears throat]
>> respect the if when you make a quantum
leap, you need an ion in the middle. You
can't right away. Yeah,
>> we live in a generation the microwave
oven. So, you know, we need it fast and
hot. But you're talking about quantum
stuff. There's there's an eye in
huh.
>> You're right. So, without definitions,
we're just using words. You're right.
All words are traps. That's true. But
that's that's the but still we live in a
world of words. So we do words.
But these words are are are indicators.
They're channels. These words are
helping us transport ourselves into a
realm without words.
>> Yeah. Of course it's better to be
silent. You're right. The problem is we
live in a world where we don't
understand silence. We perceive silence
as absence. The moment we'll perceive
silence as information, as truth, then
we could all be silent. And then I'll
I'll be I'll be quiet.
Trust me, I'll be quiet if God wants me
to be quiet. Huh?
>> You just need to get us there
>> and myself. It's not just you. I myself,
too.
>> When I'll trust my silence, you'll also
trust it. So, it's not just about you.
>> You're going to listen. You You'll come.
You'll come to my silence. Okay. I come
to a silence.
[laughter]
[snorts]
>> Huh?
>> Real silence is deafening. Yeah.
Can only come out in a deafening
experience.
So I I want you to what what is the deb
saying here? he's saying here is when
you talk about atmosph
good good morning
>> welcome you and Columbus discovering
America
>> only through avoida with hcali you don't
get there hculla it's it's cute
mathematics even inspiring mathematics
It's not mathematics. It's
not mathematics, but it's still it's not
to put it differently without
essentially proves that this is
inauthentic.
You understand that? That's the that's
the pain of it.
>> It in the person it means that by the
person it's inauthentic.
In other words, if this is true,
it's in the kishkas. It's it's in my
nervous system. If it's not, it's not.
That's why it's not just you're learning
something and you're not applying it.
So, you didn't go all the way. What's
what's so far? You didn't go all the
way. So, what you have to run the whole
marathon? You ran half the marathon.
It's a different type of engine here.
That's why he says it's my
So, so,
so let's understand something. We can't
talk about Atsimos. But one thing we
could say that we can talk about atmos
that we say. Now, even when we say we
can't talk about Atsimos, it's also not
a real thing. Because when we say we
can't talk about it, it's saying I can't
talk about that. So when I say I can't
talk about that, I'm already talking
about it. I'm giving you context. This I
can talk about and this I can't talk
about. But very much, you know, whenever
somebody has to negate something, it's
because they're connected to it. Right?
SAY I'M NOT LYING. I'M NOT LYING. I'm
not lying. Why do you think I think
you're lying? [laughter]
Because yesterday I lied. Because
tomorrow I'm going to lie. Because I
WANTED TO LIE. I'M NOT LYING. RIGHT? I'M
SAYING THE TRUTH. I PROMISE YOU I'M
saying the truth. Okay? You don't have
to say it a 100 times.
Whenever we negate something, it's
because we're we're stuck a little bit
over there. So we're trying to pull
ourselves away. So whenever we say you
can't talk about atmos,
it's because it's still stuck in a way
where you could talk. And that's why
he's saying I can't talk. So I'm just
making that disclaimer.
But one one that is clear from the whole
idea that when we talk about there's no
definition. When I say there's no
definition, there's also no definition
of saying that there's no definition. In
other words, no definition really means
no definition. Not even the definition
that there's no definition
is also a definition. At least the way
we experience it,
there's no definition. Fine. So there's
no definition is also a definition.
>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
And and and and that's what we're
saying. There's there's an that's
means Hashem has the just like a genius.
He could speak in a way that you hear
genius and he could speak in a way that
a 5-year-old understands. And a real
genius can do both. A real genius can do
both. He's not defined this way. He's
not defined this way. I could limit
myself and I could reveal myself. I
could limit myself to the point that it
seems like it's very simple stuff. And
then I could not limit myself. And it's
not simple stuff.
So you have the of that reveals that
which could be revealed of. What can be
revealed of? Whatever could be revealed
of some form of limited limited
awareness
but can't be revealed through. So here
we're saying that the itself is so the
captures not only that which can be
revealed which is but also that which is
not in other words even in so this is
the is called there's the
that of doesn't only carry that which is
reveal that which is capable of being
revealed even that which is what's it's
not and that's also
That's the Isis here. That's what he's
saying.
>> [snorts]
>> Let's learn one more paragraph here and
then we'll continue the mime Monday
morning
continues to explain
if he didn't have enough words. So here
you have new terms. The M says these two
aspects in are called two types of
and he says
is called the that's close and it could
be revealed. It's in the realm of
revelation even if it's not revealed
is called it's not that's the two things
we're talking about
is it from
>> so generally we have a term these are
cababalistic terms
literally means light that flows upward
from upward downward light it transports
is the light that bounces off the
recipient and returns back
our yasher There is always ma mata from
the higher to the lower from the giver
to the recipient like a teacher
communicating to a student and sharing a
parent sharing with a child love
information mentorship connection
is the light that returns the light that
bounces back
>> that acknowledges the light
>> it receives whatever it receives and
then something that goes back from the
from the from the source from not from
the source from the earth or like I said
before you become the source initially I
was just a recipient and then suddenly
you're giving back something.
>> Yeah. Yeah.
It's like you plant the seed into the
earth. So the earth is a receiver. The
earth received the seed. The earth
received the water from the rain. The
earth received sunlight. The earth
received ear. The earth is just like I'm
just here. Suddenly you go away a few
years later. You come back and the earth
says, "Oh, here's a gift. Here's your
apple tree. [laughter] Whoa, whoa, whoa.
I never put this in. I put enough octa
seed." that was anyway rotten. It was on
my window sill. I threw it into the
earth. I buried it. Oh, the rain. The
earth says, "Yeah, here's back." Yeah.
The husband gives something to his wife.
Nine months later, she comes back.
Here's a child.
The comes from the earth back up. So
there's
here he says of
in a different different word you say
goes downward goes upward. How high does
it go? As high as it can it goes up up
up up up up in these words going to be
but here he doesn't use the words. You
use the words of and of so itself you're
talking about the mak
there's two terms
is integrated light
is that which is above it's superior
it's transcendent transcendent always
called mak something that's integrated
into the vessels is called pimi it goes
internal mak means it surrounds but we
don't mean surrounding spatially
surrounding means it's above the vessels
of my consciousness. So it affects me in
a more subconscious way, in a more
transcendent way. It's something that
has a relationship with me, but the
relationship is not so conscious because
I don't know exactly. I can't make sense
of it. It doesn't fit into my vessels.
Somebody can give somebody information,
he's going to say, and 40 years you
don't know what they told you, but it
made a ruckus in your system.
We don't realize these things. There's
information I tell you and you go home
with you say gishmach beautiful I could
do something with it. You go to a a
business course, a computer course, an
investment course. You get information,
you go home and you start implementing.
You have a to-do list. You know what to
do. That's great. That's that's pini.
Then there's things real teachers, they
plant seeds. You don't even know what
you heard, but your system knows. And it
sits in you. It sits in you. It sits in
you 40 years. It sits in you 10 years, 5
years, 6 months. You don't even know.
But it it creates a revolution. But it's
much deeper because you didn't control
it. It wasn't on your terms. It was
high. That's called mak. That's called
mak.
What's uh what are you making like this?
You're experiencing something. If you
want to share just contrasting the
course of coming to the
>> Oh. Oh. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
The worst thing about these shim is you
don't go out with a vart. You really
don't.
>> There's nothing to say.
>> Yeah. Like if you're looking for a
shabas table three minute fast
boom boom boom boom theni is not that I
just have to say that
>> for that you go to a rabbi y why y clip
there's enough clips okay it's not it's
not it's not it's not it's a good for
table with a joke
which I'm not this very important stuff
you know
So that's but in there's of
so he says
that's of that's the first level of the
it's still called we'll see why that's
now what's this is what the says
to explain all of this he gives a
metaphor
from a teacher with a student. Now the
metaphors of teachers and student is one
of the most common metaphors that
alterba would give in he saw this
metaphor as key because Raven Talmud
here is not just talking about a hired
student with a hired teacher who's have
to spend a few hours a day. Raan Talmud
is like the ultimate reba and the
ultimate Talmud. the Reb whose entire
essence is invested in teaching
channeling and the student who's really
really ready to receive which is a
unique phenomenon on both ends. I just
have to say
it's not a higher job we're talking
about Raven Talmet in the most essential
pristine form of raven
and this mushel was always used by the
and in for the process of creation.
What's the mush he gives?
The real his may completely on a
different frequency than the
the intellect of the student.
But knows his job is he lit he filters
he con he constricts he condenses and
compresses his ideas so that the student
can receive
And when he actually learns the idea
with him, he may be communicating
something that is very very deep and the
student has no sh to it. So he says,
"Okay, we're going to bring it down."
And he brings it down and he limits the
flow and he he he uh whatso he packages
it in a way that's presentable. So
boyfriend
there is the parts of the idea he's such
a good teacher he's so skilled he's so
dedicated that it actually settles into
the recipient in a good way in other
words the student grasps it to the point
that they become one like in explains p
what happens when you learn that you
really integrate the idea it's mish one
with you like you go home this is me
compares it to food when you eat a good
meal a healthy meal it's not just the
food went into your system No, no. The
food is you now. First it wasn't you. It
was food that I took into my mouth. I
had to bite. I had to digest. But after
the digestion, what happens is not me
and the food. It's now part of my
bloodstream. It's part of my energy.
That's why what you eat is very
important as we all know because it
becomes you. That's what real teaching
is. Real teaching is not I gave you food
and now you put the food somewhere in
your kishkas. That's not eating.
[laughter]
That's going to create a horrible
digestive system. Real food. That's why
you have to know what you're eating.
Real food is the food that becomes
seamlessly integrated with you to the
point it's not food anymore. It's my
energy. It's me. That's why foods that
don't assimilate into the system can be
toxic. It's very important. The same is
true with learning. Real learning on
this level is it becomes completely one.
IT'S NOT EVEN THE IT'S NOT THE teachers
anymore. It's the students. If you give
me food in your house, it's not yours
anymore. Once you give it to me, it's
me. It's me. That's what real learning
is. Real learning is not the teacher.
It's the student. It's not my rebad.
That's nice, but that's not learning.
Real learning is I say that's what real
learning is. It becomes me. It becomes
part of his system. It it changes him
forever because as long as it's the Reb
saying it, it's not changing him. He's
just quoting. He's quoting which is
nice. But for that, you can go to
encyclopedia Bratanica
or Wikipedia. You stop quoting and you
start it's it's me. This is this has
become mine. It's a it's a different
type of learning.
Like he really gets it. He gets it. How
do you You right away see, you know, you
start asking a few questions. You see if
he's just repeating or he really got it.
But since he's still a student who's
learning from the teacher, so there's a
part of the that remains. What's
means he did not integrate it. It
remains above his present system.
It's it's but it's called close.
It's connected to him. It's close to
him. It's still
like like you say lady garments garments
are not inside of me but they're
connected to me and they have to be my
size. I can't wear a jacket that's uh
you know three sizes smaller or bigger.
It's not going to fit. So it's called
but it's accessible.
This can be seen from the
says it takes 40 years till 40 years. A
person does not really master the das of
hisb. Why? I learned it 40 years ago.
It's not that 40 years later I go back
to my reb and he says let me teach it
again. No, it took 40 years to
understand the first idea. Why? You're
not about a student who's add HD
whatever on stere. He wasn't listening.
was you were a real student and we
learned it from the says there after 40
years says
you did not have ears to hear and eyes
to see and a heart to perceive till
today 40 years learning from you didn't
understand what I was saying so the gar
says it takes 40 years for a person to
really understand what's so the explains
Since we say that after 40 years when
you'll understand the depth, it's not
that he teaches it to you again. Rather
40 years ago what he teaches you finally
now you got the depth which you never
got. This means that even the first day
when he taught it to you, it was already
doing its work on you. It just took 40
years to clench to you know what is huh
>> THAT'S
>> THAT'S THE FIRST DAY IT already worked
like the end of the story with a right
after 40 years he started to learn why
cuz he went to the river and he saw that
there was a rock that was [snorts]
penetrated through a flow of water every
moment another drop of water and he said
if water can penetrate the rock this way
then my rock MY STONE CAN ALSO BE
PENETRATED
started to beame.
No, I wanted to add I don't know didn't
know that there's rocks that are
penetrated by water. What what happened?
What did he see?
This is the Vartaka
realized the hole in the rock didn't
happen after 5,000 years.
The change started with drop number one.
If drop number one would have done
nothing, drop number uh a billion
[laughter]
a 100red billion times 100 billion would
have done nothing.
>> Change
>> change starts WITH CHANGE. ONE DROP DID
NOTHING. THAT'S NOT TRUE. Did it's not
true. The journey of a million the
journey of a thousand miles started with
just one step.
True. I could stop there and then
nothing is going to happen. He says if
after 40 years something changed it's
because the first moment something
changed. So why didn't I feel it? Mak
that's makar.
Why is it called karv? Because it's
coming in. It's doing its work. So the
real teacher doesn't only teach a
student that which he could receive now.
He puts into the system that which he'll
be able to fully unravel 40 years from
now. Now, it's very humbling from the
teacher because nobody knows he's doing
this because the student doesn't the
student doesn't appreciate this. 40
years later in ah ah ah ah ah uhh that's
a realb he he's happy to know what's pi
and what's mak and mak I can't give I
can only give a mak it's fine but it's
makarov
when saw that what's the most what's the
most discouraging per thing for people
in learning it's that the first drop
doesn't look like anything well you
learned for three minutes a day you
learned one Mishna grace gdulla look at
this you're They're going to know this.
You learned one Mishna. You learned one.
You learned one. It's a joke. And then
you start hearing people they're quoting
the whole like what a loser I am. That's
the greatest mistake of people. The
greatest mistake of people is they don't
believe in the first drop. That's what
was discouraging him. Raaka had a big
mind. But where am I going to begin? But
that's the first drop makes the change.
And then if you have a second, a third
or fourth or fifth.
So that's
that's why 40 years later he doesn't
have to teach it to you again because
from the first moment it was already
Shia to you but it was Shia to you in a
way that you couldn't yet see how much
it was shy to you.
>> It's accumulative. Everything that
happens in life is accumulative. Don't
just give credit to the last year.
Everything that happened was leading you
up to this. THAT'S WHY THE breakthrough
could happen now. But the breakthrough
didn't happen now. The breakthrough
happened 40 years ago.
That's
your that's the first. So there's two
elements. There's what the teacher gives
in a way that you say ah I got it and
then there's a way the teacher gives and
like okay it's like an okay but it
starts working its magic 40 years later.
Ah
he nailed it.
Um nom ke now comes here. But now comes
here a whole new v. Nom nom. You relate
to this voice of
this thing's paret, huh?
>> Not yet.
>> Not yet. Okay. Very good.
Very good.
>> Trust.
>> Has to trust. It's it's a it's
>> a lot of trust. This takes a lot of
trust.
>> It's a lot of trust. It's knowing what
can go into kale and what can't go into
kaum. But still it could be mak and mak
is kar. What fat? Karov is starts
working the system on a subconscious
level.
>> Huh?
>> I'm here.
Do you have trust in yourself?
Since in the we said
it's completely in a different league
than the student. So there are things
that stay by the teacher that even after
40 years that the student will not get.
That's called mach.
It's not just mach now,
but it's kurf to you because it could be
integrated. It's just you're not there
yet. You don't have the life experience.
You don't have the maturity. You don't
have the wisdom. You don't have the
depth. You didn't go through the
challenges. So, you're simply not a kay
yet. You know, life needs experience.
That's how it is. Something about age.
There's something about marriage.
There's something about raising
children. There's something about
crisis. There's something about loss.
There's something about pain. Everybody
understands that
>> something about life. There's something
about life that's not replaceable,
right? I can't tell the 12-year-old
everything because he'll have all the
information, but it's meaningless skull
without a
there's something about why we said why
we honor elderly people. It's
irrelevant. Who? There's something about
you know the the on the pun. What is it
called? The creases on the face.
Huh? The wrinkles.
But then there's he says that it stays
by the rav in a way that even after 40
years he doesn't get this is called.
Now here see this is weird. It looks
like he's saying a little vert to
explain the but here he's saying the
whole
we're not talking about things that are
not connected to the
then you wouldn't even call it
don't call it it's not connected to me
so it's not connected to me don't call
it don't call IT
stop calling IT MEANS IT'S RELATIONAL
is it's connected to him but the
connection is through now here again
same par just did the same paradox again
you tell me this pi I GET IT INTEGRATED
I GET there's things I need time I need
space it's relational but you couldn't
get it fine the the water has to go for
40 years until this it penetrates but a
whole time it was doing its work. Now
you're telling me there's things that
are not relatable. It's I get that. HE
SAYS, "NO, DON'T THINK IT'S NOT
RELATABLE cuz then I wouldn't call it
Mak [laughter]
just say it's not relatable. IT'S
THEY'RE DISCONNECTED." NO, THEY'RE
CONNECTED. But the way it's connected
through
so when a person was learning the
heavier this means you're disconnected.
So the says, "No, no, don't think that."
So here you see language, right? We said
before WHAT'S THE IN have
not he just said that here in the
relationship of the ra and the is things
that they relate to through
don't think is the part that you're
abandoned this you have no access to
you're a student you're a great guy I'll
give you what I can give you I'll even
give you what I can't give you now but
you'll get it in 40 years but then
there's things that
you know
ah They just are.
>> They just are.
>> Conscious, subconscious, and essence.
>> Oh, so there's the conscious and then
there's a subconscious and then there is
that which he gives. But even after 40
years, he won't know it. So he SAYS,
"OKAY, SO IT'S NOT CONNECTED." HE SAYS,
"IT IS CONNECTED. If it wouldn't be
connected, I wouldn't call it mak."
>> Oh, so he says there is a shik, but the
shik is [laughter]
so so how is he communicated? So he's he
can't say it in words. The T is not even
going to get it after 40 years. So just
say he's not going to get it. He's not
going to get it.
>> Huh?
>> This you got. Yeah.
>> So this is so this not this is because
this is not an Indian of 40 years. It's
not going to be before 40 years. It's
not going to need 40 years. It's not
even one day.
>> Yeah. Yeah. The way he gets it the sh is
through something we call which the m
now explains what is what does that mean
you get it through everybody thinks
means it remains aloof it remains
detached it never landed
so the says the is no it lands in such a
profound way that you can't say that the
talmet got it not because the talmet
didn't get it because it has no sh
>> within the framework of getting
>> because it's not within the framework of
getting it. It's a different type of
information.
In fact, you can't call it information.
>> It's something that you don't have an
access to or
>> you don't have access to when you're
talking about access. [laughter]
>> Maybe you get the access through some
kind of experience, but you'll get that
key that you'll be able to open it up.
Or
something else is
>> it's you're asking a good question.
You're asking a good question.
The real information here is that in the
complete independence of the Talmud,
he's giving the Talmet something that
he has to find it all inside of himself.
>> So the access keys he has to
>> this is something he has to find in
himself. This is something he gives him
something that he knows that it's all
inside of him.
It's given by
>> it's given by the in the in the language
of this it's that the gives the world
not just
but
which is it's not to revelation. So how
does that come out? That doesn't come
out in a way of revelation. Wow. MY
TEACHER GAVE ME AMAZING 40 YEARS AGO. HE
SAID SOMETHING I GOT IT. HE DIDN'T GIVE
me I didn't get it. 40 years later. So,
so where is it?
It's a gift that you don't even
attribute to the source.
You know why? Cuz it's the source
itself. A gift that you attribute to the
source is flow.
So, you're out of the source. A gift
that you don't attribute to the source
is you're the source.
You are the source. You become source.
You're the gift. You become source. How
does that come out in reality? It comes
out of reality in complete separation.
I'm not a recipient anymore. It looks
horrible. Keep me my keep me as your
student. I want to be your student. It
says when Msiah comes, there won't be
any students.
Really?
Yeah. I WANT KEEP ME AS YOUR STUDENT. I
want to be a student. I want There's
something so beautiful about being a
student. No. Re a real student. I'm not
talking about a I'm talking about real
student. There's something so beautiful
about being you know why you get
everything and you're not responsible.
[laughter] It's amazing. You sit at the
feet of your master, YOU GET EVERYTHING
AND YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE TO TAKE A THE
BEST OF BOTH worlds
means you're the
huh
[laughter]
the
Okay, we'll continue Monday morning 8:00
a.m. A beautiful shabas shalom.
>> And we we learn at 8:45. So usually like
10:15 we start 8:45 is a sh and then
10:15 10:00.
>> Yeah. Yeah. 20. Yeah.
>> You understood
>> which which level
>> abandonment. You understood abandonment.
[laughter]
>> Everybody understands abandonment.
Everybody comes to life. What do you say
about
>> I I hit me? Hit me like a ton of bricks
today.
>> Well, explain
>> that what
>> it's the black. It's the void. You can
only once once you go into the complete
void and complete darkness, then you can
become then you can return
>> because otherwise then you're just
you're playing catch.
>> You're catching the ball.
>> You're just ricocheting. But when you
completely absorb it and completely take
it in, which goes into a complete
darkness, into a complete void, then you
can return it. That's true. That's
>> You'll continue by text.
>> What?
>> You'll continue by text. I understand
what you're saying. I don't have to wait
40 years.
>> You said it. [laughter]
>> Or maybe not. Maybe I'm not repeating.
>> Hopefully, you're not.
>> You understand? As long as you're
repeating what was said,
that's not the student could never
repeat this. The student could never
say, "I heard this from my teacher. I 40
years passed. I never heard this." So,
you never heard it. He says, "No, no,
no. You heard it all.
>> You finally made it your own."
>> But you never heard it from him.
>> That's you giving back.
>> I go home. I told my wife this way.
Oh, so think about it.
[snorts]
>> Very good. I like that Chinese phrase.
>> So that's the it's a whole different
yet.
you read the m of the so he gives this
martial and then he says there's things
that are not to the even after 40 years
it's
so you think okay so the says what he's
trying to say is that it's also
connected
>> he said it's so easy to lose that vert
it's connected but the way it's
connected is through not in the way that
he's going to he's going to implement it
and understand what you're saying and
that's the marshall to understand the of
then catch in the not inos it's not in
the I know that is a good guy I don't
know it's in the it's in the is right
that's that's where you see the the
words is relationship and it's in the
it's not in the ra I know has everything
he's a good he's amazing he gave it to
the how through
that's the
he gave it through
>> so the is giving information constantly
And then you
>> Yeah. And but this is an element that's
deeper than information. That's the
>> von
information,
>> right?
>> There's a safer is
from the from theat. So it's the end of
I don't know if remembers was I think s
spring or summer tv over there. I saw
it.
Yeah,
>> I hear you.
>> The truth is this morning I'm like I
don't know how am I supposed to explain
these if it's it's just it's it's
like like la last what I thought like
these two chapters and somebody said to
me this morning I don't know how you
teach these things it's to this
>> Yeah.
>> In 40 years he'll get it. The father's
good name child lives with
>> dayto day he lives with it now. It is
not something that he'll get later after
20. I got my father's good name.
>> Gets his father's good name every
moment. was given to him.
>> It's his father's good name,
>> right?
>> You mean who his father is in essence?
Not just his
>> not just beautiful
like is even closer because you have it
now.
>> You have it right now.
>> But what is it? It's
>> but not in a way that you're getting
that you're getting it.
>> You're saying the is like you'll get it
after 120
>> and then right and then there's who the
father is. who the father is
>> and I that I that
>> he has right now. Right now you got it
right now. But
>> but I didn't even get it
>> right.
>> But that's beautiful.
>> That's
>> beautiful.
>> Yeah. Yeah.