Basi Legani 5726 #3: To Be a Real Student is Most Amazing. But If You Are the Rebbe?

Say it. >> There's a contradiction between science and science. Yeah. >> Or both. >> Welcome everybody. Good morning Shabas. Thank you for coming. So we're holding the third class in the busi in these pamphlets in these and we're up to page page the second paragraph gimmel chapter 3. The series is dedicated in loving memory of Harav Ben Harav and by Reb Ezra David Phillip in honor of the Rebim doing this work. Okay. So I'm not going to give a summary of last year. [laughter] >> That's what I always say. But if somebody didn't hear it, it's very kadai to hear it both in terms of the ideas itself and in terms of the context of this mimer. But to summarize what the Reb said in the mime, in other words, what's the main point he's bringing out here is that to explain what the treasure that's we have to always remember the theme here. There's a treasure, the ultimate treasures, the ultimate crown jewels that are given all the way from the highest, the deepest secrets of the king of Hashem that weren't ever revealed. And not only weren't revealed in the terms of spent or splurged or squandered or disseminated or distributed, but not even shown. In other words, not revealed in any way like in the metaphor of the king who gathered crown jewels for generations and stored it away because it's too precious even to be seen. Even seeing it is like it's not necessary. It's there. Its existence is its existence. Not anybody seeing it. Nonetheless, there comes a moment where even that's not just given but splurged. It's called bisbus. It's it's almost like uninhibitedly spent. Why? Because what's at stake is something even deeper than that. What's deeper than that? Deeper than that is deeper than the mal these are the treasures of the malus is the underlying purpose of the whole creation. In the metaphor, it's the the victory. But as we explained, it's not victory of an ego. the victory of good over evil, of light over darkness, of truth over falsehome. to explain what this is. He gets into the whole explanation that was the main theme that it says in and is the that's the that's the and to explain all of this he says that till chapter 16 of the main focus is how it affects the worlds there's the power of revelation and the power of concealment. He takes it one step further as he says that in itself you have and on this he asked the question if what's going why you going upwards why you're going downwards it's a contradiction in terms till now you're speaking about the way it impacts the world the way it affects the other but now you're talking about the itself So, and he says it's all in one place. It's not two separate places, so to speak. So, now it's a contradiction. And then he says, but nonetheless in the have both and there's a difference between them and there's a huge difference between them. And from this proves that he's not talking about what we call is probability withinos over there. It's not two separate things. The potentiality, the probability for this and the opposite are all one. But here he's saying there's a difference between them and yet you say it's oid and the iss and the alterb writes that means that the itself is a not that just it comes from. So this was the main point that he brought out that this is the whole of the wholeish of is this paradox that on one hand light its entire identity is that it illuminates something its source that's what its is and yet it's not its source it's the light that illuminates its source is that you don't you don't call it the you call it the you call it the and because of this paradox in this is the two this is the Right. Huh. And that's why you could say in the those are the more or less the is of the with a little more with with a little more elaboration. So now he actually starts explaining the Indian itself. So we'll go back to now he explains in the based on this explanation. He now this is right to the quote. You see this is in quotes because he explains every line when it says that what is he talking about? He's talking about literally a concealed light means concealed hidden means also plugged completely hidden. It's not in the realm of revelation and communication. Not only that because it's not it's not like after many stages of [snorts] evolution it's going to be revealed. It's never going to come into the gill in a way of revelation like it says in this is the introduction to the zar known as you are above everything that's above concealed plugged hidden above everything that's hidden. What does it mean? What do you mean more? How can you be more hidden than hidden? If it's hidden it's hidden. The answer is as he's going to explain there's two types of hidden. There's hidden which is a prep for revelation. It's hidden now and then there's essentially it's essentially hidden. So this is the cat the element in the that we call. So it's la goes up up up means up in concealment deeper into the essence and concealment to no end. is when you say this is the element of that is in the realm of revelation at least even if it's not revealed it's relatable to all of the universes to all of reality in very general terms the way you can define it is in his atmos in his essence it's called revealed it's a type of inside of him it's something so to speak in the essence that is called light which means revelation light reveals. So it's gil I know this is very very abstract and difficult terms. I told you last year this is a not an easy but you have to stay with it. This is all quoting the of the whole paragraph in itself. You can call it Gil. In other words, even though you're talking about the which itself is inside his you can call after the brackets just go over the breath is the that even in his essence it's not called over there also it's called vanilla which means completely concealed. So this is in this is what he's saying that not talking about the world talking about the itself and in the itself you talk about in the what's in the itself the which is this is so that's what he's saying that one element is it's not it's not even in the realm of what we call revelation but you're calling it so it's funny he's saying it's all in Right? So it's called and is light. So you say, but it's not. It's never ever going to be revealed. And then there's another element. It's still high. It's still very very high. It's not this this this is all before what we call before theum and everything. But in this highlights very much how paradoxical this whole issue is. You're calling it the word means light. So he's saying, "Oh no, no, no, no. Sorry. So so don't call it. I have no problem." You see this is this is where this was the tension that the M is addressing here. You want to stop say that Hashem can do everything. Okay, I have no problem. So say Hashem can do everything. Fine. He can disseminate light. He can disseminate darkness. He can reveal himself. He can conceal himself. That's But he said that's not what we're talking about. We're talking about inas. Everything is one. The yes and the not, the positive, the negative, the finite, the infinite. It's all one. Why is it one? Because it's neither. It's neither. It's just the the infinite essence that has every possible probability and that every possible probability don't go through every probability as a separate thing right even in a person you don't say I could write I could write olive I can write baze I can write gimmel the ability to write olive bay and gimmel the ability to write that's even in more limited terms and here you're saying no there's two madreas and there's a big difference between them that's that was the tension he explained so he comes comes and is this is the holy of so what's the holy of that in the hol which is not it's called that comes from the there's these two one is that it's gill at least with others within himself it's called and one is it's also called but it's and that's itself so Right. The the first the big question of course is you call it light and then you say something that's never going to be revealed. So what what is it there for? It's there for what? To tell me that there's light that's never going to be revealed. So So you like what's you want to tell me that there's a part of God that nobody's ever going to know and there's no shas to it. So why why why are you calling it? So you don't have to talk about it number one and then tell me what it is and then you say that that's part of that's part of Gil like it's that that's that's the real difficulty here. That's why you have to understand all these words as code languages. They're code languages. People when they learn this they get stuck in words and levels and they start defining the levels. They're not understanding that and not to compare but laavd those who know anything about I don't but those who know a little bit of physics and mathematics know that physics uses the language of mathematics but physics is not mathematics physics is actually the the the universe the the chemistry of the universe they need a language and the regular words don't work just like poetry serves a purpose where words fail music serves a purpose where even poetry fails And silence serves a purpose where even music fails. Right? >> Uh so so it you need different languages. So so physics employs the language of mathematics. That's how it is. They use what's called mathematical equations. But if you get stuck in the mathematical equations, that's not what it is. Yeah. So employed the language of Kabala has names. There's something called there's something called there's something called there's something called simpum there's something called there's something called gilu so these are the words and the words are expressing something but the greatest error is when the words become words and not appreciate that every word is really just like almost a code word it's like a code you know when you say a code the code itself it's just a code it's like you know when you have a code on a lock or a code on a computer the code is Oh, I have the code. I have the computer. No, no, no. You don't have the code. You don't have the computer. The code allows you to go into the files. Now, you have to study the files. So, these are all code words that are trying to evoke a deeper awareness, a deeper understanding. I'm just saying this as it's very important to understand this, not to uh >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Now, so >> purpose, >> huh? [snorts] >> Much more than that. The whole purpose [snorts] is such concept as light. So it's going to be something revealed because that's what >> that's a good question. If there if you're calling it light, it means something is being revealed, right? That's what light is >> can be >> or can be revealed or there's something there's something that's being emitted through the light. If not, don't call it light. Light means light by definition means that it's carrying a message from one space to another space. However you want to get into define it in the details, but that's what light is. So now you're telling me no that in the there's something that's not concealed because you're not ready for it or it's going to take another thousand years or it has to still come down and filters. That's not what you're saying. You're saying it's so stop calling it light. >> You're calling it and and what's the purpose of it anyway? If it's something that nobody's ever going to have a sh to so it's the same question really. So why are you calling it light? Why is it even there? Why did Hashem create it? And if it's just part of him, so then it's not, it's him, it's atmos. So back to so this is really right bringing us back to the theme that we discussed yesterday which was the introduction to this and that is the whole of what the of is and what was the main point that is the par itself is this paradox because when you're saying the is a big difference between them he also said it's in one space so that itself is a paradox if it's in one space so it's not a difference is a big difference between them and it's one space. So that itself denotes the whole issue of what we're talking about. In other words, what we're struggling with is the whole it's not a question that's going to bring you to an answer. The question is highlighting what the explanation is. What's so we explained in last year the main point was that by definition means that it's transmitting something. It's transporting information from one space from one source. It's bring it's revealing the source into another space like when I see you. So the light allows me to see you. So it allows you to be perceived by me. It allows me to perceive that which is in the room or that which is in the world. The light of the sun or the light of the moon or anything that emits light. I mean everything emits light. But let's talk about the light of the sun because that's the most basic source of light that we all experience and enjoy and appreciate. That light allows us to be able not only to see the sun but also to be able to see reality. So whenever you talk about means the ability to perceive reality that's the definition of [clears throat] in physical light we know that you spoke about this at the end of the year right at least has two dimensions. Number one what's called the photons which is the actual message that it reveals. It's actually it shows me something. It shows me you. It shows me the sun. It shows me the moon. It shows me the mountain. Chose me the squirrel. It shows me the house. That's one element of it's called the particle. Is also the wave. What's what do we mean by the wave? The wave is that in is to transmit. That's its inion. It doesn't have its own ego. It transmits and then it transmits something from its source. >> It's the language. >> Yeah. So is the language of communication or as we said is the relational field. If there's no relation, there's no means relation. I want a relationship with you. That's what is light. I want you should be able to perceive me. Why? Why do I want you to perceive me? I just want to be self-contained. So is the idea that I want to be connected. Connection is the ultimate language of attachment of relationships. This is why we call it O say relationships. Okay? Because it's more more than the word relationships. That's so what's a relationship with. So is that something is the reality of it in and of itself in its full purity in its full essence by definition is already a relation. There's connection. There is connection. That's what id is. If I don't care about connection, then take out the word light. If Hashem wouldn't create the concept of, it would mean that a thing exists in and of itself, but nobody knows about it. In other words, nobody has a connection to it. Not physical, not emotional, not spiritual, not intellectual. Allows you to be experienced, to be perceived. >> Yeah, that's All we see is light, but really we don't see anything. All I see is what really all I see is you. >> That's exactly >> all I'm really seeing is the light. I don't see. >> Yeah. >> I'm looking at you, right? I don't see you. [laughter] I see light. the language of >> Yeah. All we really see is light, but I don't see light. I see you. How does that happen? But I really don't see you. I see light, right? >> We look at the sun. Yeah. Eight minutes ago, right? It took 8 minutes for the light to communicate. It took eight minutes for the light to travel from the sun to here. We don't even realize it. I'M SEEING THE SUN. NO, I SEE THE SUN RIGHT NOW. NO. That's the kesh of light. It's so bottle. Its whole agenda is I don't exist. What what is what's ex what exists my source? I'm here to reveal my source. That's my whole identity. My entire identity is I have no identity outside of revealing my source. So what are you seeing? You're not seeing me. You're seeing my source. It's a channel. I light is egoless. Light is egoless. That's what it is. It's pointing to the source. I want you should be able to see the source. But I want you should you should be able to see it. Not that the source lives in itself. So on one hand is not the moyer. It's not the source. It's transporting it. It's allowing me to perceive it. And here there's billions and billions levels. How much I could perceive the depth that I could perceive etc. where I am in my own existence that I should be able to receive and how much I could. But essentially what's the to be mala to reveal the source. So it's not the on the other hand to the like we gave the example of what's the idea of on one hand is a separate person if you say I want to make you a but I want you to stay right near me then you I don't need a have me the whole idea of a is you send him where you're not that's the power of it and yet that person is you there's different levels of but that's the so on one hand it's like light it travels the has to travel in the source it is you I don't need a the whole idea of is to go where a place where the is not practically in so he's going to a different place in other words he's not the in fact the can be a robot in of if the is completely not doesn't even have his own d it's not a g So on one hand there is independence. He has his own mind and his own heart and his own and yet all of that becomes what of the to channel the is the can capture everything of in the even though by definition is not the nonetheless because of the of to the so therefore mayer the can embody and so to speak manifest all the properties and I you know we can't use the word properties because it's beyond properties the pure infinity of atsmos becomes itself and that's why it's the itself is and that's the paradox of or if you want to use the language of physics it just has a mshel simply is not only a wave it's not only a wave it's not only that I don't exist is I'm transferring something. There's a message that is transferring >> basically. >> Yeah. >> In a way to be all you know without light is impossible. All in means >> all means all >> there will be a knowledge spread you say spread or given or revealed or whatever it has to be life has to be means >> yeah in a way essence >> yeah yeah >> so now I want you to understand the code language here what do you need the word just say hashem wants a relationship with memos could do what he wants if he wants a relationship he wants a relationship that's where it's So so adidal the question is how serious is the relationship right that's what you were saying is he allin he could be all in in anything but what allin in what all in in his agenda or in my agenda allin you're atmos I mean you're infinite you're a with dafa saying it's not atmos it's why what's what's semantics like so you invented a new word light fine don't call the essence call it light who cares like can argue the essence no it's the It's not it's a whole ple it's not it's an this is not and if it is what's going to happen [snorts] but now you understand the vertus is about him is about me of course he could do what he wants he can have a relationship with a squirrel he can have a relationship with a grain of sand the grain of sand and say that to the grain of sand is the purpose of everything and I'm not going to ask questions cuz I didn't event logic and I'm not God and it's above my pay grade have no problem with that of course it's infinite and unlimited there's no need for any constructs there's no need for any my there's a need to tell people to go out of their yeah fine which is a big step okay stop telling God what he doesn't play dice with the universe he does play dice with the universe you know what dice is you know what universe is you know what god is we create philosophical constructs and then we force him into it and we say it doesn't make sense to me. Huh? >> Supposed to make sense. >> Yeah. And you do make sense to you and your mind does make sense. I once said to my brother was a cute story. He says it was a professor. So he was teaching philosophy, you know, doctorate students, very very evolved students in philosophy. And after years and years and years, he announced it's going to be a final exam. Final exam. Everybody prepared for months. This is going to be, you know, they thought maybe like 400 questions. They come to the test. It's one question and the question is one word and the word was why. Why? That's the question. 10 years philosophy. Why? That's it. So everybody like they took all their studies and they started to write. Everybody wrote an essay, a book, chapters and chapters. Why? Why? Why? Everybody failed. Everybody failed. Two students passed. One got an A and one got an A+. The one who got an A wrote one word. Why? because he got an A. The one who got an A+, he wrote, "Why? Why not? [laughter] That was it. Everybody else failed." What's the difference? Why? Because there's a why? Because. But he's still in the world of why, right? Why? Because you didn't tell me why. What? I won't tell you because what the second one got it. Why? Why not? Right. The whole foundation of using That was not yours. >> Very [laughter] good. >> Very good. >> That's a third question. Why are you even asking about the why? Right. [laughter] >> So, so what's here? Yeah. You could say everything is we have no problem with that. That's that's that's what's people. It's not a mathematical ppull if is or not. It's it's it's a code language is about him. He's capable of everything. I know. And I don't I don't even know what I said because when I say he's capable, I'm saying he capable everything. I already put three categories. He is capable of everything. It's already I I I'm only defining it in terms of human finite terms. In the isl you don't call him finite. You also don't call him infinite. Don't say he is and don't say he's not and therefore don't say he is. Even saying he is is as flawed as saying he's not. But there is something the minute you say. >> I know. But when we say is something right away there's a sun, there's a moon, there's a computer, and there's him. >> Well, at least you can recognize. >> I get it. I get it. I get it. Of course. I get it. I get it. >> That's all when we're talking about the is the relational field. >> Yeah. It's the way the is manifested in light. What's that light? Why are you calling it light? Light is not potential. Because light already represents the fact that there is a perception of me by the other or at least the potentiality for a perception of me by the other. Means I want to connect. Okay, you want to connect. What do you want to connect with? You want to connect with something that's finite, something that's limited. So the relationship is very very limited comes down to and says the id itself is what said the itself is not you could say comes from the that's the of that the whole of is just to channel the so therefore itself could be called like and what's it has NO AND NO NOT EVEN the not even the definition of light. [snorts] So in light you have not only the which is light aspect of light in light you also have the aspect OF WHICH IS THE atmos element of light which is completely inaccessible and that's also in the light. Now if you don't hear the words if you hear the energy behind this this is revolutionary. So you want to know if this chapter, if this paragraph said anything because it just looks like abstract. It's saying everything makes sense. Without this sense, this is how it makes sense. >> Explain. >> Without this, we wouldn't have to talk about what to say. >> Yeah. >> Gives us to talk about even this. >> Yeah. That's the that the is communic we call it. Of course, you could say he's and there's no gill and there's no and there's no accessibility and stop talking about it and stop making yourself crazy and just do what you have to do and and and just stop bothering anybody. That's not the the of the and this is neg of the is how profoundly I'm going to quote again yesterday that he's all in what he's all in atmos is in and in what not in his own orbit [laughter] fine I don't know fine that's not the var the of the is in the relationship ship the relational field, the connection, the attachment, the atmos, the essence of Hashem is is invested invested in in the atmosph But in the you don't only have that which you could call which is you also have in the that which is what is so why you talking about so why you calling it but that's the whole that captures that transmits to you. Gives me that too. What do you mean? How are you giving that to me? You just said you can't give it to me. It's not revealed. So, this is exactly the whole tension here. On one hand, you're saying the is in one space in when I say one space, I don't mean in a physical space. Again, muck is another uh another word. But I don't mean a physical space. That means it's in every of >> physical space is also construct. >> You're right. You're right. Even physical space is not physical space. You're right. >> But it's it's a construct of in a way it's like he's saying something maybe maybe revolutionary for physics because >> he got there he gets there first he says I don't know just I don't see this saying anything and suddenly he said it's a revolution in physics. I like that 10 minutes later. No, because mochum if you think about mo space right if you will ask for space definition >> but it's great you see how a person evolves first like you just didn't say anything suddenly resurrection I could watch it I saw I saw him coming from resurrection and then I said the whole physics was just revolutionary let's say the revolution of physics which I won't understand what you're saying anyway but okay [laughter] >> if you look at the fabric of space there is nothing out there in the universe what we call space which is [snorts] void from some kind of energy field and when you're talking about energy field you're talking about automatically light because it's it's interconnected it's revealed it's relational it's communicative uh all this property that you were just talking about is there and it's already in the fabric of space not only space time as So, so what what he's saying is here is like is much so so deep in a way that the entire essence is is like that's the that's the in the way you can I don't know if you can speak about itself right but what's what it reveals about it's that it's connected it's >> it's influential it's You can derive the entire universe from there. >> Yeah. >> Only thing without it is just impossibility to even talk about it. >> Yeah. >> To even express anything without even start. >> Yeah. Means the way explains is that everything was put into it. Everything. Even that which can't be put into it was also put into it. So what do you mean? Is that just a semantic question? So he says, "No, that's the whole vert of how does that work? That's the B of ifas." So Mitsus can channel that which Mitsus allows itself to be channelneled. If had any mits, what's mitsus? I don't mean ego like ego ego talking about the of hem. But if it had any form of mitsus, in other words, if light said I am his light, you're just you're done. Then you channel what your constructs can channel. Everybody has their caum, their vessels. You have a cup of eight ounces. Fine. You could fill, you could give me eight ounces of water. I have no problem. 12 ounces. 12 ounces. A gallon is a gallon. In spirituality, you have a bigger kali, right? You have a gallon. So you give me a gallon of of of information. That's why >> but I told you wrote this literally a few days before his stalkus mish a few days he literally wrote this about and with this he explained the whole of over the and by the way that's why the ramach parenthesis for those who are into it the ramach didn't not speak about the was the first one to speak about the expression >> [laughter] >> So I know about Simpson that didn't know about Simp. We talk about simpum. Simp but the student of the ramach he was mgalum simpum is a gill of it's all connected because by the ramach he said you're not let us say the there's no such a thing is a property that comes from god but THAT'S IT FROM GOD is not god and don't confuse the two it's big it's amazing it's incredible it's infinite but it's from it's from a light of the sun is from the sun. It's not the sun. >> There's source. >> There's source AND THERE'S LIGHT. LIGHT IT may be the first thing that source creates. So it has something very special. You know it's the first generation, right? The child of other marishian had a different relationship with God than otherish different relation with God than us because we are 5,000 years 5,76 years. The first generation is a big thing. You know, you you saw what it was like on the other side. But there is source. And since they're source so therefore the doesn't go into the of the way is that the itself is the itself is a so here is ofum in there was an ofum once you appreciate what is so it's not that didn't know about because he couldn't like the source and then there's what's created from source. >> Yeah. on a so from a from an encyclopedic structural level that makes more sense. Why? Because it puts God into God. Let God be God. And now let's start from there. >> Huh? >> It's not the part of the gill of and then the that's the what's the is that which is inaccessible source itself. Ultimately, do I have source or no? You have to have humility. And the truth is, you can't come to the second step without the first step because if you come to without the first step, there's an arrogance there. >> But ultimately, it's all in. >> Oh, but ultimately it's all in. Ultimately, the relationship is in the deepest deepest place that nobody could even conceive how deep the relationship is. That's why the BMP Yeah. That's why the of everything was the connection, the love, the oneness. That's everything. >> I saw yesterday from the I was I was on a plane and I was reading it and I was [laughter] he says I have to remember the tinv 1946. So a few years before this it was uh I don't remember the date he was talking to the he says that he heard from his father they're just the words I have to say took an oathmos means god took an oath just a word he's not going to be revealed to a mascul to someone who is a philosopher only to avoid only in avoid only somebody who's who's implementing it in their body, in their nervous system, in their animal soul, in their daily life. He swore like whoa. But that's really the in other words means I'm all in. If if if if you're not reciprocating on that level, >> you will not know. >> If you're not all in, it's not like I'm going to take revenge. Oh, you're not doing this. I'm not giving myself to you. It's not because I want to punish you. It's what it is. If you're not if it's not avoid if you're not all in, if it's just another mind game, even if it's inspiring mind game, this whole thing it's not anymore. >> You missed the >> You missed everything. It's all relation. That's that's the of and that the has everything. The itself is and the truth is it's torturous without when said used to say in middle of Ding that's says so he he was he writes it and he saw it it wasn't it's not that my my grandfather middle of Ding would go into Vegas and he would say you we always say What? What? What? I don't I don't want anything. I want only you. The only reason he could say that is because he felt that Hashem was saying that to him. If for a moment would not think Hashem is saying that to him, it's it's it's it's not there. It doesn't work that way. I don't want your I want you because I want only you because he felt it was the other way around. I want only you. That's the that's why it's the that's why this is what's neg to the victory. The end victory when there's crazy darkness requires a relationship that is deeper than any other relationship and a relationship that can work even in the greatest darkness. And the whole here is going to be that this element of I'm giving a sneak preview comes out in those areas in life where you feel completely detached. I want you to understand this >> where you feel abandoned. Yeah. In many ways, this most abstract chapter is this most abstract probably one of the most emotional things you'll ever hear in your life. I'm telling you that's how it works with in your most abandoned space. What does abandonment mean? There's no connection anymore. Right? When there's a leaving a little flow, there's a trickle of water, something is coming. What's abandonment? You're thrown off a cliff. There's nothing finished. Put the umbilical cord was severed. What does he say? It's never going to be revealed. Where does that part come out? It never comes out through revelation. It can come out through revelation. Where does it come out? In the exper in the perceived experience of abandonment. That's what heals a that's that's what heals a generation. That's what heals the world >> in a way. It's a healing for the view because >> very good himself. >> Beautiful. >> Of course, it heals the symptoum. It heals everything. In the ultimate healing, everything is healed. Everybody is redeemed. It's not like my team won color war, the blue team won, the red team won. [snorts] >> Of course, [snorts] >> and re real abandonment is not just Hashem is not all in. He's not in at all. He's like he hates me. >> I'm me. >> Exactly. I'm I'm the black sheep in the family, you know, and there seems to be like a lot of black sheep in the family, but I'm certainly one of them. And my mother never wanted me. My father never wanted me. They even told me it was a mistake that they had me. You know, when kids hear that. So, at the core, there's a sense of abandonment. And never mind if life confirmed abandonment. How did life confirm it? Because of experiences. So listen, it's very hard to speak about this intellectually because tell this to somebody who's experiencing abandonment like oh because the and so the also has in it that which is atmos and like thank you. >> Thank you my dearest you know go give your lecture somewhere else. I'm in pain. I'm suffering. I don't want to live like whatever you that's why I'm saying the bridge between this and real life. It's very very important to understand that the words are all code languages, right? It's it's literally laava like like uh music sheets. I told you you look at music sheets, right? If you don't know music, what do you just see? You see black shapes and lines. >> Photos without knowing what they >> Yeah. And then suddenly you have a a great musician takes a look at the at the music sheet and starts smiling and then he starts making with his hand and then he goes into ecstasy and asks no he just saw what's happening right one person I don't know what you want from me like what another another another words it's hard enough to learn gamut and I'm going to learn this kabala also if you see the music in it you start dancing internally so it's very important to appreciate the bridge between that's why I'm saying that he's not going to be revealed to a mascul only to an moment you keep these things as ideas you're failing everything it's it's it's a betrayal of everything he write he says in the he says in the that [panting] he says there that he heard from his father who heard from theb his father Marash that who heard from the who said that the rebba said that um he said it's hard to say but for learning without a without working on it without dvening with it no for my father is it gives a flick in the nose and It's it's like bringing into the Now those are very serious words. What does that mean? Bring into bringing not into the is not it's it's pretty bad but at least you let the mikdash be a mikd I'm taking somewhere else bringing in the is you're going into the and you're bringing there. So this is what he writes that that said about his father that to learn without you're taking and you're bringing it let the don't bother it don't don't go there don't learn about these things I'm fine learn other things but you're learning about this without without not not going in with your heart this is already like a desecration it's like you're inviting me you're inviting at to intimacy you know and then you're on your phone like you go into aa The kala is waiting makadesh. I have a text. [laughter] Don't go to the kupa. Go go go go go go read your text. I have no problem. So what's all this is all based on this don't learn more. >> Very good. Good. [laughter] >> Huh? >> That's not the devoid is not that you shouldn't learn. That's not that's not an >> it. [laughter] >> It's not an >> it. The is to understand what's invested here. What's invested is eti want want to go that direction. You learn it. that sometimes consecrates the appetite. Now, we usually don't go there because it's it's hard to go there because there's too much at stake. If I have walls, life is much safer. My relations are limited. I I won't give everything, but I also won't lose everything. If you don't give everything, you don't lose everything. If I put all my money into one stock, all the eggs in one basket, you lose everything. So, we have learned early on, don't put all the eggs in one basket. And in business it's a good idea. Don't give everything because then you could lose everything. The person betrays you. What are you left with? Nothing. And this is what the realized is the worst form of gulos. There's no healing without this because we remain fragmented and broken and torturous. So when he said I don't want your I want you. I'm giving everything. The only way he can do it is if there's a response that because because that is because Hashem speaks that way. Don't come to this place until it's so in. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> Yes. Yes. Yes. So what's the V? So, so your to now I don't know the word to but that's the of that's what he's saying here with that has everything concealed I have no issue atmos okay atmos is atmos the ver is that it's all in the relation in the relational field in the relational frequency you have not only that which is potentially revealed >> way the ray that which could be communicated through Gile. Because remember, just like Atsimos could be concealed, he could be revealed. Just like God could be infinite, he could be finite. JUST LIKE GOD can teach a genius, he can also teach a 2-year-old. God has no problem with that. Atmos has no problem with that. The words God doesn't work on these my needs because God is just another. Yeah, that's not the word. What the what is that? This la is an even itself what's oid is gil. So the gil of which is hasn't it also that which is not. SO STOP CALLING IT. Stop making me sugar. Don't call it. No, that's the the of to the what's the is it has no so it can access and embody and channel and manifest in that which is WHAT'S THAT which is NOT IN OTHER WORDS itself where does that come out that's what I said before that's going to come out later in the in that which seems completely disconnected that where you're connected that connects you to that connects you to the that's channeling flow there's flow there's elements in life where you feel flow there's elements in life there's no flow everything is interrupted boom you're on your own are you on your own that's where the is channeling that which is not be gil. So how does it come out? Not in a revealed way. And in that sense, but but what is there in that abandonment? [sighs] In that abandonment is is is everything. You you have everything. You can't really talk about it. It's more experiential. But there's moments in a person's spiritual journey, emotional journey, uh healing journey where uh you're left with nothing. You're literally left with nothing. Nothing. Nothing. And the pain of that is indescribable because you're literally left with nothing. It's like everything you held on to is taken away from you. And what happens then? And what happens then is you touch or at least you're open to touch and I don't mean the words because I don't know if a person starts feeling oh I just touched I'm talking a frequency I know the word frequency is cute word but you get what I'm saying I don't have a better word you touch the frequency of atsmos but not the atsmos that could be communicated through communication which means I could say ah gishmach I got it thank you for the message rather it's the message in which I I'll I'll say it more in more more more concrete terms what you discover at that moment is that you are atmos you are the flow you were waiting for a flow you were waiting for connection you are the source of the connection you are the source of the connection wow Ah, my whole life I thought I'm just a recipient. So now you cut the flow. I'm nothing. I was thrown off a cliff. What do YOU REALIZE? YOU ARE ATMOS. YOU ARE THE FLOW. You create the flow. Just now it goes upward instead of downward. [panting] Malik sayal was one of the big there was a fire in the house and everything got burned and the mother was sobbing. So he says, "Well, we're a light. We had nothing in the house. What are you crying about?" So she says, "We had a migillas in a family tree that goes back generations, generations." He said, "Don't worry, we'll have a new one that starts with me." [laughter] WHAT'S IF YOU'RE ATOS? YOU ARE THE FLOW. YOU'RE THE SOURCE. IT'S LIKE I'm waiting, you know, I'm waiting. Who could you give me something? It's [laughter] all there. >> It's you. It's in you. So now it starts the other way. NOW IT GOES UPWARD INSTEAD OF DOWNWARD. You said I was waiting for it to come down. The waterfall should come down from heaven to earth. And no, no, you're the waterfall. Heaven is waiting for you. Cuz remember goes both ways. When you have light, it travels. And was going to see, right? Light doesn't only go one way. It's not just we're all recipients. God says, "Okay, here, here, here." IT GOES BOTH WAYS. COMES BACK. >> The goes back. The doesn't just go one way. goes back to the there's something that gets goes backward back >> you can't return something that isn't yours >> exactly how does it become yours if I'm just giving you back what you gave me so fine call it that's not that again that's not relationship >> yeah and this itself is called why because it's ultimately something that Hashem wants you to experience, not him to experience. And that's why the relationship is real. That's the ultimate question of history. Is the relationship real or it's just some construct of philosophy or religion to make people feel better? And that's why some of the very very intelligent people became atheists. Why? Because after they they realized that at the end of the day like I I need I'm not talking about atheists. uh or out of anger which I understand I'm talking here about it's like you know after you go through all the facads and all the institutionalized religion and all the things and all the feel good feel good feel good like if I need real authenticity >> what am I holding on to and it's not a simple question to answer >> all that knowledge make detached >> the more knowledge the more detached the more cynical Yeah. The more cynical you become existential and modernity and then there's post-modernity and you break everything apart and what are you left with? You make fun of every institution and there's what to make fun of? [laughter] Every cult, every brainwashing session, every person who's throwing down information down kids' throats. They don't know what they're talking about. The kids don't know what. But the main thing is the system works. And then but deep deep down the sensitive real deep sensitive spiritual souls you know you speak to them you know they they're feeling something and that for that your only way you heal that is through the without the without this this this this truth not in words but in experience you can't heal that because this need to go need to go to a place of real atmos >> [snorts] >> Yeah. Yeah. And ultimately it's all one and it's not has good days. That's that's the hope. Everything is here paradox. The world of paradox in atmos could be transported into but there's one condition surrender the power of is b the moment stays in mitus as I told you last time it's like pulling out the plug you just unplug the refrigerator you can go on vacation you're finished the moment says look at me pretty good no I'm doing well yeahh gun's good for not bad yeah I have atmos I I have cats. Don't tell anybody. But it's getting even better. The moment that does the suddenly became it's like the ray of the sun coming into the house or you're sitting on the beach, your private beach enjoying the sun and you turn to the you're like, "Oh, wow. What amazing sunlight. What amazing sunlight after a crazy winter. What beautiful sunlight I got in Miami. I don't know why you came here, but welcome. You change the weather >> and the ray of the sun is so proud of itself. You know why do I need A SUN? >> LOOK what I just did for these people. So the ray of the sun tells the son it was nice knowing you. You're in a dictator. You're an abuser. You're a tyrant. You're a control freak. I'm going on my own. Huh? >> You're overwhelming. >> You're overwhelming. Yes. I'm going on my own. I already learned to trade. I'm opening my own company. What do I have to work for you? Ah a gazlin a shakran a low life. I'm gonna do my own real estate company. That's classic Jewish story. What do I have to work for this guy and get a salary when he's raking it in? The sun. The sun. The sun. The sun. I I DO I I'M the one who does it. The sun doesn't even do anything. Aslft. I'm the guy who has to travel here. 186,000 miles per hour. 300,000 kilometers per hour. I got it right. >> Yeah. Better. >> Okay. Better. Cuz 186,000 miles per hour. No, he's counting. He's counting. You're not counting, but he's counting. >> I'm just here for checks. Make sure it's correct. >> So, what happens? The ray of the sun says goodbye to the sun. And you know where that ray ended up in in the basis? >> Eight minutes later, he was dead. Didn't take long. They called the ray of the sun is incredible because he's the ray of the sun. The moment the ray says, "Come look at me. Take a picture of me. [laughter] Light says take a picture of me. I don't know. I don't even see light. I see you. But what am I really seeing? Light. Cuz that's is how we connect. We connect through light. But what's the kadesh of light? That light allows us to connect with everything because it has no ego. In the physical world, it's of course still limited in physical terms. in the of which is the iss >> okay >> so he says in physics it's also that way okay >> he knows that in physics it works that way you think it works I don't think and I don't know >> I'm either the biggest one of the biggest challenges in the world that nobody knows except maybe one of my cousins that passed >> [laughter] >> So there is the biggest challenge in the physical world. What's gravity? What's gravity? Right. >> Yeah. >> So I think what you're talking about is in the way according to my cousin Boris Mush. So the the physics of gravity works through it's complex. works through deep concept of deep where basically they're two includas are related but essentially the light that we experience doesn't matter physical whatever light is it changes something in you in you it touches you it touches you so in a way it touches your antenna now the question if your antenna can emit on the same frequency or not back but [snorts] but essentially the the light does something And it works like almost like a gravity. Even if you don't emit anything back, it's there. You the gravity holds you up. So it's like even if you think you are detached. So it doesn't work this way because that's part of the fabric that was created. So So it's like I think what what he's getting into is that nobody understands by the way physics. >> Wow. with the exception of my cousin Boris. >> So, I didn't get that one, but okay. Next paragraph for the all of this. It's based on explains after he discussed alterb and I told you that in the basilani theb would uh build it from each one of the of of his predecessors all the way from the bump. So the basilani was a mime that was built from the from the bump the ma the alterba all the way down and so the whole mime you'll see at the end the structure is made up from a different mime of each one of the rebas this only did in basilani because it was the mime of when he was mabas so it's very fascinating so it's not in the order always so first he discuss with now he discusses from the is it says my pares So in the famous about we learned it once in he explains the know that put in some people say it in the morning in the morning before dvening some people say it after some people say it on Shabaso is the introduction of z if you ever say It's Friday. We by us we say Friday before after the instituted because every week you go through the four challenges of what you have to say. So you make the at the end of the week you're thankful that you went came through the week you know you came out you're ready for Shabas. So that's the and then there's the starts off it's the introduction of opened up and said the master of the world quote I don't know I just say it on Friday so I know it the master of the world he's really going through it you're one without any without you're not one in as part of a it's not like there's 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 you're one but it's not part of a calculation like one leading to two it's complete oneness you'll you're higher even than the highest concealed above everything that's concealed. Higher and more concealed than everything that's high and concealed. No thought can grasp you. And then you emanated 10 characteristics called the 10 spheres. And he goes through all the spheres all the way down. And at he says, "You're you're wise but not with knowing wisdom. Maven you have bina but it's not knowing bina there's no place where it's known even your spheres are not something that we can define and know it just allows the world to experience you in those forms and categories as knowledge wisdom kindness compassion strength discipline that's what the spher that's basically some of the structure of this is from recorded in the z so explains all these words what does this mean you start off onto So obviously to get from you to the spheres there's some form here of evolution. Yeah. So the question is what what are you really talking about? So that's what he's going to say and he's going to show how these words of the zar are really manifesting what the m is saying here in basil. That's what he says. base in the middle. It brings us to the first explanation is it's the same. It's the same dimension. In other words, you're one without any not a part of a one is essential. And that aunt, that same aunt is It's very easy here to get get stuck in words but it's not about the words according to this interpretation is you're not talking about atsmos. Why? Because about we don't say you're not part of a there's you don't talk about any definitions not even one about you don't even say one not because he's two and not three because he's not two not one there's no definition so already once you're talking about according to he's talking about always again is the relational field it's the way is perceived and then you're saying you're more concealed than anything that's concealed and this is higher than 10 spheres. Not only the ten spheres in 10 spherus in kabala does espherus agluius and esospheris agnosus esospherus agluius is like the fire on the coal esopherus agnosis is like the fire inside the coal you have to blow on it so preum the 10 spheres are called esospherosus the 10 spheres they're still embedded in the coal or like a spark in the flintstone even deeper it's in the flintstone but it's not accessible yet but that's still a number 10us here It's so even what's also which are this is higher than that cuz it's not it's one. So he says that means it's you have something that's relative to the lower levels in other words relative to the reveal. This is concealed but it's not essentially concealed. You have ideas that I don't understand not that nobody understands that I don't understand them. in a higher level you do understand them means it's essentially inaccessible not because you're too low as he said before it's never going to be revealed it's not >> it's not understandable >> it's essentially that's and this is all talking about the so this brings out the so it's higher than a But he has a second shot there that is not it's already a lower level is a higher end but even according to this It's not that we changed. It's just the went higher is the so is still higher even than so it all brings out what's that not because I don't know about it. It's not It's not I don't even know. I don't know. What's the It's that type of that's not in the realm of revelation. It will never be revealed. Not because I don't want to reveal it because it's not It's not to the word. The word and this can't relate. It's not only concealed relative to the recipient. I didn't get it yet. I'm not cracked open. I don't have the brains. I don't have the heart. I'm too low. No, IT'S you have things that are because it's too big. It's too secretive. It has to be confidential. I'm not there yet. and I don't have the brains. That's means it's not because there's no recipient that's ready for it. It's not itself. It's it's a secret in and of itself. Not because you don't know about it. You understand? It's not because you don't know. That's not what makes it a secret that you don't know about it. What makes it a secret is it's essentially a secret. Even if everybody knows about it, it's still a secret because they don't know it. You know some things even in its own essence IT'S NOT [laughter] IT'S NOT revealed to me it's not revealed to you everybody has secrets they don't tell anybody but to them themselves it then there's secrets you can't even tell yourself why for yourself it's also a secret because it's it's that aspect of self that can't be revealed it's not because I can't share it with you but by me it's revealed I know about it I experience no even in me it's also what this means that we're talking about atmos Even in that's weird, right? You say there's the element of that's the that's revealed. It's Hashem revealed in his essence. And then there's the parts of that even in you say it's not revealed. AND THAT'S THE in good. You're confused. pressure. In other words, like respect like [clears throat] >> respect the if when you make a quantum leap, you need an ion in the middle. You can't right away. Yeah, >> we live in a generation the microwave oven. So, you know, we need it fast and hot. But you're talking about quantum stuff. There's there's an eye in huh. >> You're right. So, without definitions, we're just using words. You're right. All words are traps. That's true. But that's that's the but still we live in a world of words. So we do words. But these words are are are indicators. They're channels. These words are helping us transport ourselves into a realm without words. >> Yeah. Of course it's better to be silent. You're right. The problem is we live in a world where we don't understand silence. We perceive silence as absence. The moment we'll perceive silence as information, as truth, then we could all be silent. And then I'll I'll be I'll be quiet. Trust me, I'll be quiet if God wants me to be quiet. Huh? >> You just need to get us there >> and myself. It's not just you. I myself, too. >> When I'll trust my silence, you'll also trust it. So, it's not just about you. >> You're going to listen. You You'll come. You'll come to my silence. Okay. I come to a silence. [laughter] [snorts] >> Huh? >> Real silence is deafening. Yeah. Can only come out in a deafening experience. So I I want you to what what is the deb saying here? he's saying here is when you talk about atmosph good good morning >> welcome you and Columbus discovering America >> only through avoida with hcali you don't get there hculla it's it's cute mathematics even inspiring mathematics It's not mathematics. It's not mathematics, but it's still it's not to put it differently without essentially proves that this is inauthentic. You understand that? That's the that's the pain of it. >> It in the person it means that by the person it's inauthentic. In other words, if this is true, it's in the kishkas. It's it's in my nervous system. If it's not, it's not. That's why it's not just you're learning something and you're not applying it. So, you didn't go all the way. What's what's so far? You didn't go all the way. So, what you have to run the whole marathon? You ran half the marathon. It's a different type of engine here. That's why he says it's my So, so, so let's understand something. We can't talk about Atsimos. But one thing we could say that we can talk about atmos that we say. Now, even when we say we can't talk about Atsimos, it's also not a real thing. Because when we say we can't talk about it, it's saying I can't talk about that. So when I say I can't talk about that, I'm already talking about it. I'm giving you context. This I can talk about and this I can't talk about. But very much, you know, whenever somebody has to negate something, it's because they're connected to it. Right? SAY I'M NOT LYING. I'M NOT LYING. I'm not lying. Why do you think I think you're lying? [laughter] Because yesterday I lied. Because tomorrow I'm going to lie. Because I WANTED TO LIE. I'M NOT LYING. RIGHT? I'M SAYING THE TRUTH. I PROMISE YOU I'M saying the truth. Okay? You don't have to say it a 100 times. Whenever we negate something, it's because we're we're stuck a little bit over there. So we're trying to pull ourselves away. So whenever we say you can't talk about atmos, it's because it's still stuck in a way where you could talk. And that's why he's saying I can't talk. So I'm just making that disclaimer. But one one that is clear from the whole idea that when we talk about there's no definition. When I say there's no definition, there's also no definition of saying that there's no definition. In other words, no definition really means no definition. Not even the definition that there's no definition is also a definition. At least the way we experience it, there's no definition. Fine. So there's no definition is also a definition. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And and and and that's what we're saying. There's there's an that's means Hashem has the just like a genius. He could speak in a way that you hear genius and he could speak in a way that a 5-year-old understands. And a real genius can do both. A real genius can do both. He's not defined this way. He's not defined this way. I could limit myself and I could reveal myself. I could limit myself to the point that it seems like it's very simple stuff. And then I could not limit myself. And it's not simple stuff. So you have the of that reveals that which could be revealed of. What can be revealed of? Whatever could be revealed of some form of limited limited awareness but can't be revealed through. So here we're saying that the itself is so the captures not only that which can be revealed which is but also that which is not in other words even in so this is the is called there's the that of doesn't only carry that which is reveal that which is capable of being revealed even that which is what's it's not and that's also That's the Isis here. That's what he's saying. >> [snorts] >> Let's learn one more paragraph here and then we'll continue the mime Monday morning continues to explain if he didn't have enough words. So here you have new terms. The M says these two aspects in are called two types of and he says is called the that's close and it could be revealed. It's in the realm of revelation even if it's not revealed is called it's not that's the two things we're talking about is it from >> so generally we have a term these are cababalistic terms literally means light that flows upward from upward downward light it transports is the light that bounces off the recipient and returns back our yasher There is always ma mata from the higher to the lower from the giver to the recipient like a teacher communicating to a student and sharing a parent sharing with a child love information mentorship connection is the light that returns the light that bounces back >> that acknowledges the light >> it receives whatever it receives and then something that goes back from the from the from the source from not from the source from the earth or like I said before you become the source initially I was just a recipient and then suddenly you're giving back something. >> Yeah. Yeah. It's like you plant the seed into the earth. So the earth is a receiver. The earth received the seed. The earth received the water from the rain. The earth received sunlight. The earth received ear. The earth is just like I'm just here. Suddenly you go away a few years later. You come back and the earth says, "Oh, here's a gift. Here's your apple tree. [laughter] Whoa, whoa, whoa. I never put this in. I put enough octa seed." that was anyway rotten. It was on my window sill. I threw it into the earth. I buried it. Oh, the rain. The earth says, "Yeah, here's back." Yeah. The husband gives something to his wife. Nine months later, she comes back. Here's a child. The comes from the earth back up. So there's here he says of in a different different word you say goes downward goes upward. How high does it go? As high as it can it goes up up up up up up in these words going to be but here he doesn't use the words. You use the words of and of so itself you're talking about the mak there's two terms is integrated light is that which is above it's superior it's transcendent transcendent always called mak something that's integrated into the vessels is called pimi it goes internal mak means it surrounds but we don't mean surrounding spatially surrounding means it's above the vessels of my consciousness. So it affects me in a more subconscious way, in a more transcendent way. It's something that has a relationship with me, but the relationship is not so conscious because I don't know exactly. I can't make sense of it. It doesn't fit into my vessels. Somebody can give somebody information, he's going to say, and 40 years you don't know what they told you, but it made a ruckus in your system. We don't realize these things. There's information I tell you and you go home with you say gishmach beautiful I could do something with it. You go to a a business course, a computer course, an investment course. You get information, you go home and you start implementing. You have a to-do list. You know what to do. That's great. That's that's pini. Then there's things real teachers, they plant seeds. You don't even know what you heard, but your system knows. And it sits in you. It sits in you. It sits in you 40 years. It sits in you 10 years, 5 years, 6 months. You don't even know. But it it creates a revolution. But it's much deeper because you didn't control it. It wasn't on your terms. It was high. That's called mak. That's called mak. What's uh what are you making like this? You're experiencing something. If you want to share just contrasting the course of coming to the >> Oh. Oh. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. The worst thing about these shim is you don't go out with a vart. You really don't. >> There's nothing to say. >> Yeah. Like if you're looking for a shabas table three minute fast boom boom boom boom theni is not that I just have to say that >> for that you go to a rabbi y why y clip there's enough clips okay it's not it's not it's not it's not it's a good for table with a joke which I'm not this very important stuff you know So that's but in there's of so he says that's of that's the first level of the it's still called we'll see why that's now what's this is what the says to explain all of this he gives a metaphor from a teacher with a student. Now the metaphors of teachers and student is one of the most common metaphors that alterba would give in he saw this metaphor as key because Raven Talmud here is not just talking about a hired student with a hired teacher who's have to spend a few hours a day. Raan Talmud is like the ultimate reba and the ultimate Talmud. the Reb whose entire essence is invested in teaching channeling and the student who's really really ready to receive which is a unique phenomenon on both ends. I just have to say it's not a higher job we're talking about Raven Talmet in the most essential pristine form of raven and this mushel was always used by the and in for the process of creation. What's the mush he gives? The real his may completely on a different frequency than the the intellect of the student. But knows his job is he lit he filters he con he constricts he condenses and compresses his ideas so that the student can receive And when he actually learns the idea with him, he may be communicating something that is very very deep and the student has no sh to it. So he says, "Okay, we're going to bring it down." And he brings it down and he limits the flow and he he he uh whatso he packages it in a way that's presentable. So boyfriend there is the parts of the idea he's such a good teacher he's so skilled he's so dedicated that it actually settles into the recipient in a good way in other words the student grasps it to the point that they become one like in explains p what happens when you learn that you really integrate the idea it's mish one with you like you go home this is me compares it to food when you eat a good meal a healthy meal it's not just the food went into your system No, no. The food is you now. First it wasn't you. It was food that I took into my mouth. I had to bite. I had to digest. But after the digestion, what happens is not me and the food. It's now part of my bloodstream. It's part of my energy. That's why what you eat is very important as we all know because it becomes you. That's what real teaching is. Real teaching is not I gave you food and now you put the food somewhere in your kishkas. That's not eating. [laughter] That's going to create a horrible digestive system. Real food. That's why you have to know what you're eating. Real food is the food that becomes seamlessly integrated with you to the point it's not food anymore. It's my energy. It's me. That's why foods that don't assimilate into the system can be toxic. It's very important. The same is true with learning. Real learning on this level is it becomes completely one. IT'S NOT EVEN THE IT'S NOT THE teachers anymore. It's the students. If you give me food in your house, it's not yours anymore. Once you give it to me, it's me. It's me. That's what real learning is. Real learning is not the teacher. It's the student. It's not my rebad. That's nice, but that's not learning. Real learning is I say that's what real learning is. It becomes me. It becomes part of his system. It it changes him forever because as long as it's the Reb saying it, it's not changing him. He's just quoting. He's quoting which is nice. But for that, you can go to encyclopedia Bratanica or Wikipedia. You stop quoting and you start it's it's me. This is this has become mine. It's a it's a different type of learning. Like he really gets it. He gets it. How do you You right away see, you know, you start asking a few questions. You see if he's just repeating or he really got it. But since he's still a student who's learning from the teacher, so there's a part of the that remains. What's means he did not integrate it. It remains above his present system. It's it's but it's called close. It's connected to him. It's close to him. It's still like like you say lady garments garments are not inside of me but they're connected to me and they have to be my size. I can't wear a jacket that's uh you know three sizes smaller or bigger. It's not going to fit. So it's called but it's accessible. This can be seen from the says it takes 40 years till 40 years. A person does not really master the das of hisb. Why? I learned it 40 years ago. It's not that 40 years later I go back to my reb and he says let me teach it again. No, it took 40 years to understand the first idea. Why? You're not about a student who's add HD whatever on stere. He wasn't listening. was you were a real student and we learned it from the says there after 40 years says you did not have ears to hear and eyes to see and a heart to perceive till today 40 years learning from you didn't understand what I was saying so the gar says it takes 40 years for a person to really understand what's so the explains Since we say that after 40 years when you'll understand the depth, it's not that he teaches it to you again. Rather 40 years ago what he teaches you finally now you got the depth which you never got. This means that even the first day when he taught it to you, it was already doing its work on you. It just took 40 years to clench to you know what is huh >> THAT'S >> THAT'S THE FIRST DAY IT already worked like the end of the story with a right after 40 years he started to learn why cuz he went to the river and he saw that there was a rock that was [snorts] penetrated through a flow of water every moment another drop of water and he said if water can penetrate the rock this way then my rock MY STONE CAN ALSO BE PENETRATED started to beame. No, I wanted to add I don't know didn't know that there's rocks that are penetrated by water. What what happened? What did he see? This is the Vartaka realized the hole in the rock didn't happen after 5,000 years. The change started with drop number one. If drop number one would have done nothing, drop number uh a billion [laughter] a 100red billion times 100 billion would have done nothing. >> Change >> change starts WITH CHANGE. ONE DROP DID NOTHING. THAT'S NOT TRUE. Did it's not true. The journey of a million the journey of a thousand miles started with just one step. True. I could stop there and then nothing is going to happen. He says if after 40 years something changed it's because the first moment something changed. So why didn't I feel it? Mak that's makar. Why is it called karv? Because it's coming in. It's doing its work. So the real teacher doesn't only teach a student that which he could receive now. He puts into the system that which he'll be able to fully unravel 40 years from now. Now, it's very humbling from the teacher because nobody knows he's doing this because the student doesn't the student doesn't appreciate this. 40 years later in ah ah ah ah ah uhh that's a realb he he's happy to know what's pi and what's mak and mak I can't give I can only give a mak it's fine but it's makarov when saw that what's the most what's the most discouraging per thing for people in learning it's that the first drop doesn't look like anything well you learned for three minutes a day you learned one Mishna grace gdulla look at this you're They're going to know this. You learned one Mishna. You learned one. You learned one. It's a joke. And then you start hearing people they're quoting the whole like what a loser I am. That's the greatest mistake of people. The greatest mistake of people is they don't believe in the first drop. That's what was discouraging him. Raaka had a big mind. But where am I going to begin? But that's the first drop makes the change. And then if you have a second, a third or fourth or fifth. So that's that's why 40 years later he doesn't have to teach it to you again because from the first moment it was already Shia to you but it was Shia to you in a way that you couldn't yet see how much it was shy to you. >> It's accumulative. Everything that happens in life is accumulative. Don't just give credit to the last year. Everything that happened was leading you up to this. THAT'S WHY THE breakthrough could happen now. But the breakthrough didn't happen now. The breakthrough happened 40 years ago. That's your that's the first. So there's two elements. There's what the teacher gives in a way that you say ah I got it and then there's a way the teacher gives and like okay it's like an okay but it starts working its magic 40 years later. Ah he nailed it. Um nom ke now comes here. But now comes here a whole new v. Nom nom. You relate to this voice of this thing's paret, huh? >> Not yet. >> Not yet. Okay. Very good. Very good. >> Trust. >> Has to trust. It's it's a it's >> a lot of trust. This takes a lot of trust. >> It's a lot of trust. It's knowing what can go into kale and what can't go into kaum. But still it could be mak and mak is kar. What fat? Karov is starts working the system on a subconscious level. >> Huh? >> I'm here. Do you have trust in yourself? Since in the we said it's completely in a different league than the student. So there are things that stay by the teacher that even after 40 years that the student will not get. That's called mach. It's not just mach now, but it's kurf to you because it could be integrated. It's just you're not there yet. You don't have the life experience. You don't have the maturity. You don't have the wisdom. You don't have the depth. You didn't go through the challenges. So, you're simply not a kay yet. You know, life needs experience. That's how it is. Something about age. There's something about marriage. There's something about raising children. There's something about crisis. There's something about loss. There's something about pain. Everybody understands that >> something about life. There's something about life that's not replaceable, right? I can't tell the 12-year-old everything because he'll have all the information, but it's meaningless skull without a there's something about why we said why we honor elderly people. It's irrelevant. Who? There's something about you know the the on the pun. What is it called? The creases on the face. Huh? The wrinkles. But then there's he says that it stays by the rav in a way that even after 40 years he doesn't get this is called. Now here see this is weird. It looks like he's saying a little vert to explain the but here he's saying the whole we're not talking about things that are not connected to the then you wouldn't even call it don't call it it's not connected to me so it's not connected to me don't call it don't call IT stop calling IT MEANS IT'S RELATIONAL is it's connected to him but the connection is through now here again same par just did the same paradox again you tell me this pi I GET IT INTEGRATED I GET there's things I need time I need space it's relational but you couldn't get it fine the the water has to go for 40 years until this it penetrates but a whole time it was doing its work. Now you're telling me there's things that are not relatable. It's I get that. HE SAYS, "NO, DON'T THINK IT'S NOT RELATABLE cuz then I wouldn't call it Mak [laughter] just say it's not relatable. IT'S THEY'RE DISCONNECTED." NO, THEY'RE CONNECTED. But the way it's connected through so when a person was learning the heavier this means you're disconnected. So the says, "No, no, don't think that." So here you see language, right? We said before WHAT'S THE IN have not he just said that here in the relationship of the ra and the is things that they relate to through don't think is the part that you're abandoned this you have no access to you're a student you're a great guy I'll give you what I can give you I'll even give you what I can't give you now but you'll get it in 40 years but then there's things that you know ah They just are. >> They just are. >> Conscious, subconscious, and essence. >> Oh, so there's the conscious and then there's a subconscious and then there is that which he gives. But even after 40 years, he won't know it. So he SAYS, "OKAY, SO IT'S NOT CONNECTED." HE SAYS, "IT IS CONNECTED. If it wouldn't be connected, I wouldn't call it mak." >> Oh, so he says there is a shik, but the shik is [laughter] so so how is he communicated? So he's he can't say it in words. The T is not even going to get it after 40 years. So just say he's not going to get it. He's not going to get it. >> Huh? >> This you got. Yeah. >> So this is so this not this is because this is not an Indian of 40 years. It's not going to be before 40 years. It's not going to need 40 years. It's not even one day. >> Yeah. Yeah. The way he gets it the sh is through something we call which the m now explains what is what does that mean you get it through everybody thinks means it remains aloof it remains detached it never landed so the says the is no it lands in such a profound way that you can't say that the talmet got it not because the talmet didn't get it because it has no sh >> within the framework of getting >> because it's not within the framework of getting it. It's a different type of information. In fact, you can't call it information. >> It's something that you don't have an access to or >> you don't have access to when you're talking about access. [laughter] >> Maybe you get the access through some kind of experience, but you'll get that key that you'll be able to open it up. Or something else is >> it's you're asking a good question. You're asking a good question. The real information here is that in the complete independence of the Talmud, he's giving the Talmet something that he has to find it all inside of himself. >> So the access keys he has to >> this is something he has to find in himself. This is something he gives him something that he knows that it's all inside of him. It's given by >> it's given by the in the in the language of this it's that the gives the world not just but which is it's not to revelation. So how does that come out? That doesn't come out in a way of revelation. Wow. MY TEACHER GAVE ME AMAZING 40 YEARS AGO. HE SAID SOMETHING I GOT IT. HE DIDN'T GIVE me I didn't get it. 40 years later. So, so where is it? It's a gift that you don't even attribute to the source. You know why? Cuz it's the source itself. A gift that you attribute to the source is flow. So, you're out of the source. A gift that you don't attribute to the source is you're the source. You are the source. You become source. You're the gift. You become source. How does that come out in reality? It comes out of reality in complete separation. I'm not a recipient anymore. It looks horrible. Keep me my keep me as your student. I want to be your student. It says when Msiah comes, there won't be any students. Really? Yeah. I WANT KEEP ME AS YOUR STUDENT. I want to be a student. I want There's something so beautiful about being a student. No. Re a real student. I'm not talking about a I'm talking about real student. There's something so beautiful about being you know why you get everything and you're not responsible. [laughter] It's amazing. You sit at the feet of your master, YOU GET EVERYTHING AND YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE TO TAKE A THE BEST OF BOTH worlds means you're the huh [laughter] the Okay, we'll continue Monday morning 8:00 a.m. A beautiful shabas shalom. >> And we we learn at 8:45. So usually like 10:15 we start 8:45 is a sh and then 10:15 10:00. >> Yeah. Yeah. 20. Yeah. >> You understood >> which which level >> abandonment. You understood abandonment. [laughter] >> Everybody understands abandonment. Everybody comes to life. What do you say about >> I I hit me? Hit me like a ton of bricks today. >> Well, explain >> that what >> it's the black. It's the void. You can only once once you go into the complete void and complete darkness, then you can become then you can return >> because otherwise then you're just you're playing catch. >> You're catching the ball. >> You're just ricocheting. But when you completely absorb it and completely take it in, which goes into a complete darkness, into a complete void, then you can return it. That's true. That's >> You'll continue by text. >> What? >> You'll continue by text. I understand what you're saying. I don't have to wait 40 years. >> You said it. [laughter] >> Or maybe not. Maybe I'm not repeating. >> Hopefully, you're not. >> You understand? As long as you're repeating what was said, that's not the student could never repeat this. The student could never say, "I heard this from my teacher. I 40 years passed. I never heard this." So, you never heard it. He says, "No, no, no. You heard it all. >> You finally made it your own." >> But you never heard it from him. >> That's you giving back. >> I go home. I told my wife this way. Oh, so think about it. [snorts] >> Very good. I like that Chinese phrase. >> So that's the it's a whole different yet. you read the m of the so he gives this martial and then he says there's things that are not to the even after 40 years it's so you think okay so the says what he's trying to say is that it's also connected >> he said it's so easy to lose that vert it's connected but the way it's connected is through not in the way that he's going to he's going to implement it and understand what you're saying and that's the marshall to understand the of then catch in the not inos it's not in the I know that is a good guy I don't know it's in the it's in the is right that's that's where you see the the words is relationship and it's in the it's not in the ra I know has everything he's a good he's amazing he gave it to the how through that's the he gave it through >> so the is giving information constantly And then you >> Yeah. And but this is an element that's deeper than information. That's the >> von information, >> right? >> There's a safer is from the from theat. So it's the end of I don't know if remembers was I think s spring or summer tv over there. I saw it. Yeah, >> I hear you. >> The truth is this morning I'm like I don't know how am I supposed to explain these if it's it's just it's it's like like la last what I thought like these two chapters and somebody said to me this morning I don't know how you teach these things it's to this >> Yeah. >> In 40 years he'll get it. The father's good name child lives with >> dayto day he lives with it now. It is not something that he'll get later after 20. I got my father's good name. >> Gets his father's good name every moment. was given to him. >> It's his father's good name, >> right? >> You mean who his father is in essence? Not just his >> not just beautiful like is even closer because you have it now. >> You have it right now. >> But what is it? It's >> but not in a way that you're getting that you're getting it. >> You're saying the is like you'll get it after 120 >> and then right and then there's who the father is. who the father is >> and I that I that >> he has right now. Right now you got it right now. But >> but I didn't even get it >> right. >> But that's beautiful. >> That's >> beautiful. >> Yeah. Yeah.