Being closed off is bad for you, self-expression and the holocaust, psychedelics for healing

[Music] shut up and welcome to practice spirituality here at Asia tour in the old city of jerusalem overlooking the Temple Mount and please jump on board and join the rabbit what's the name of my club yoga media Club I just for those just tuning in I just got back from mountain biking so my brains been in the hot Sun for a little while yum toe media club.com join young toe Media Club calm and also please share this no matter what you're watching this on if it's Facebook share it if it's tour anytime subscribe and YouTube please subscribe building up our subscribers okay so today what we're gonna talk about is how to get yourself opened up how to stop being someone who's closed up and rather be someone who's opened up and it could be some of you in this room were just looking at me like like why would me being open up be a good thing and why is RAM by talking about that and especially a lot of people look at Judaism it's like something that's more on the restrictive side and so opened up doesn't isn't like the first thing that you would maybe think I was coming here and talk about but but I believe actually that if you don't open up if you don't open up you're gonna pay for it God's gonna make you pay for it why because you see all you have to do is look it look it the way Judaism looks at the classes of mineral plant animal human in that is that a mineral is called domain in Hebrew and plant is called so math and animal is called hi like I like life and and humans are called mid-table err mid-table bear what's the die bare mean you speak we're actually that our class in Judaism is called speakers and speakers are expresses and expressions really really important I'm from the west coast where expression is the way of life out there I mean you just expressed whatever it is that's going on with you which really works with everybody so like for example you can be from LA where narcissism is not considered a personality disorder and and it works because if your narcissism steps too much on other people's toes they'll actually say something the problem is when in West Coast or Mary's in East Coaster and they're just waiting for their East Coast spouse to say something and these cuz spouse just can't figure out why this person so inconsiderate the West Coast persons not being inconsiderate cuz in the West Coast you just keep pushing until you get pushed back yeah you push until someone pushes you back when they push you back you're just like thank you for letting me know the edge and that's just the way they think now the question is which one's right which one's right which one does God favor does he favor the East Coast version is they favor the West Coast version and the answer is both obviously and we're supposed to be a good character and concerned of other people's well-being on the other hand any amount you were not self expressed you're busted yeah as the cops in the Bronx say you've been busted yeah you've been busted and the that's I grew up with cops used to tell us we've been busted so anyway so if you're not expressing yourself you've been busted and that's a freaky thing that it doesn't scare me so much because I'm if anything I'm overly self expressed and I it hits a lot of walls and I get constantly told when I've overdone it which is most of the time and be so I'm always in good shape as far self-expression pretty good shape I mean it couldn't be I'm telling you part of this media club the reason we have the media Club is just because I'm scared to death that my self-expression in a technological age like this is not enough it's not enough meaning it reaches whoever I reach but it's not reaching however it because it's every four months there's a different world called being optimized and so it scares me such that I've decided finally to just hire people to do it because I don't believe just hitting record on this thing's optimization I think it requires a higher level of profession for proficiency that's worth paying for and so and so but I really believe we're all we all could be busted now I've done this a million times I'll just do it again for those who are new his little bit diagram up there and on our left we have what is not exactly to scale things are on the left is being Jewish and on the right is being Jewish and and they're they're they're are mutually exclusive meaning meaning there are just certain things that every Jew is obligated to do regardless of their thoughts or feelings or preferences you know it doesn't matter what you think when it's evening time and you'd like and it's time to pray and the Sun is setting meaning meaning if it's if it's the first prayers of the day which today I think were 1:15 was the first time you can do the afternoon service and the last time you can do the afternoon service today is 7:40 that's quite a lot of hours there so if you're not feeling it you can skip it and do it at 3 or 4 or 5 or 6 but if it's if it's 646 39 and you're still not feeling it what do you do what do you do if it's 639 you're still not feeling it what do you get what do you do Jewish you do it anyway just get job done and people confuse this a lot people confuse this a lot people like feel like it's a good day for tefillin it's as no such thing as a good day for if it's day it's to fill in time yeah if it's daytime it's the filling time if you already put it on that day fabulous if not get it on but that but you understand it's not like there's good days for tefillin oh you may have better sessions in your tefillin than others depending where you're at but they are mutually exclusive and the and you get a lot of people with black attitude who are raised you know very observant who you wish got knocked out during the war see there's a psychological thing called disassociation disassociation is a psychological thing that takes place when during torture or or what's called micro torture and that's when your dentist comes at your gums with a needle okay that's we all disassociate for a moment there we all just kind of take off for a split second she's she's like it's just gonna be a little prick and you're gone when she says that and then and then and then it's in you know you feel it and then and then you the needles in your gums and then you realize like relax it's in and then she's of course you know filling it with whatever she puts them there all he knows it ends with civil cane and they believe the first part is coke and anyway but anyway then your gums are all your mouths all numbing but your reassociate 'add which isn't great by the way to be having someone using power tools in your mouth in full association but whatever way we reassociate paramedics disassociate I promise you everyone in El Paso yesterday was totally disassociated in that emergency that took place over there that's a disassociation that would probably require therapy in for anyone who is present at the time within reassociate enough probably many of them especially the younger they are are gonna reassociate in with with things that need work a nap in their system and and also we ourselves going through you know some of our rougher days will well sometimes need to reassociate I have I have my own meditative reassociation zai do with myself when I've overdone it when I've pushed myself too far and now my wife's like we spent a little time together and I'm just like you know can I use a chainsaw I'm just not gonna like candlelight right now and and so and so I'll do my little reassociation little miracle meditation and then I'm and I'm back you know light up candle put on the soft music you know glass of wine I'm good so so the anyway but that's disassociation now people have suffered real torture can become disassociated permanently there are three types of Holocaust survivors when it comes to this the three types are our physical survivors those are the types that I grew up with in California meaning they they survive physically but they dumped Europe like Europe is like gone goodbye Europe and and also goodbye all Jewish tradition that was in Europe and meaning besides lighting Konica candles obviously and hearing chauffeured on Rosh Hashanah and and Passover Seder xyq thank God we did all that stuff but but you understand Europe we're just closing the door on Europe including all the Judaism not everything these are the physical survivors but but you notice that that people are like not a hundred percent there they're very loving our grandparents and you can fry your great-grandparents yeah yeah and you got to have uncles are answered grandparents like this father okay you don't have documented the wonderful man I'm sure he loves you like crazy but he's what no no he was but but you also notice that they're about half their you know they're they're they're not like you and your buttons growing up a little different and and you can understand why they're a little different the next is then Nyx's is the physical and spiritual survivors these are survivors of the Holocaust that survived not only with their bodies but they also by the way these work generally together but not always they can be exclusive but then there are spiritual survivors they survive with their bodies they got the numbers on their arms but there's a purge feeling going on yeah that film straps going over the number you know they they they also you know the truth is they don't even they don't even hate Europe because the the Judaism that existed in Europe before the destruction was I was still you know just in like 15 index points above the Judaism that we all were raised with me there were still people walking around it would just look at your face and tell you who you were like every incarnation you know like and they and there were a few of them in every town like that Judaism was just our tribal experience as a nation work was just higher spiritually before that know what however something interesting is is no I wouldn't even say that forget that point I almost said and it just wasn't dated right it was 150 years before that but the but there was a Judaism in Europe before the war that was like like if any of you are doubting whether there's a God or whether tour is actually true there were there were people I even met some of these people that could walk in this door all your hair would stand up because you're looking this way you wouldn't be looking at the door Oh everyone's hair in this room would stand up you then look with shocked towards the door what the hell just happened you look towards the door and all of you would fall on your faces you fall out of your chairs onto your faces in the presence of some man or woman from that generation before the war maybe all of us know the horrors of I mean we don't know the words but we've heard some of the hope you know some taste of the horrors of the Holocaust but the we there's another aspect of it you don't know about and that's what all the Rebbe is called the destruction of Europe they don't call it they don't call it the Holocaust so much they often call it the destruction of Europe and then you'll think about it like any of you have been on a Eurail pass like what do you mean the destruction of Europe like I've traveled through 17 European country I didn't see anything destroyed there you know with what are they talking about when their time it's the spirituality that was destroyed we inherited a soulless Judaism in this generation it was a soulless Judaism that we inherited and if you can remind me remind me of the the final nail in the coffin okay in a minute anyway so so there are those who had both physical and spiritual survival and those are the ones who built places like like Brooklyn like Williamsburg Borough Park Flatbush which ultimately became Muncie and Lakewood where they said they said we're gonna show those knots bastards and we're gonna rebuild Judaism and they rebuilt Judaism in a and they did it viciously viciously because the number three they didn't have and number three is the high is the sense of self and and I mean you mentioned is Judaism without an eye that's one's rough you know like if it's just a ruthless like we're gonna show those Nazi bastards we're gonna rebuild and boy did they rebuild and I mean if you've ever had a Shabbos and in Flatbush of ballpark or any of these in Williamsburg I mean you see what I'm talking about I was just in Williamsburg for challenge is the most beautiful Shabbos ever but they wall I was in Chaves there was a a full-on protest parade going through the streets for people caring using the a roof that there is there is an area of there and it was like there was a major protest for people using their a roof now how would you feel if you're a mother who uses the air oven pushes a stroller to have have half half your city screaming epithets going down your street about you know whatever you know that the the sin of pushing your stroller using the a room that exists there and you shouldn't be using the air of a parent according to these people but you understand there's a bit of a ruthless it would have been it would have been a lot nicer to to maybe figure out which neighbors of which buildings are pushing strollers and maybe have a private conversation with them rather than cause the humiliation of everybody who who would like to actually go to their mother's house for Shabbos with their child you know like how about I bring my baby to my mother's house like is that big deal as long as there's a neighbor of you should be able to do that so anyway but it is a bit of a ruthless a ruthless thing and that's having the eye intact where you have both physical survival this spiritual survival and very few people can someone mention anyone they've heard of that also had the third type of survival there's a woman I'm thinking of who's famous for having a really amazing sense of self she passed away in this last year oh yeah history on rice she was there very few people who got to be have all three but Esther young rice was one of those examples there were some rabi's like that above a Rabi also his eye was still very very strong in fact his very first Shabbos when he was when he came off the boat I think to New York after the war and you know he was emaciated he was like you know he was in deep need of rehabilitation from the from the war and he but he was strong enough you know to make the voyage and it got to America and and he he mean he had already been in the camp that posts or what do you call this but DP camps and he had already gotten his strength back a bit so they so what had happened was there were Jewish kids in a camp in the country in the Catskills or there was already starting his his dynasty in Borough Park Brooklyn and he they asked him you know where you're gonna be for Shabbos he says I'll be with the kids let me go be with the kids for Shabbos and as he arrived from from the war from the camps the kids were all lined up hundreds of kids lined up at the camp were already we're singing above him in Eagan as he drove up and got out of the got out of his out of the car and saw that that Bubba will survive and as it does survive them thrive and around the world now anyway but those are examples of people who had both the physical spiritual and the eye but there even people who never had a Holocaust but they had a personal Holocaust and those are victims of and that's been very popular lately is you know the whole me two generation is that um that unwanted touch has the same disassociative disassociative properties unwanted touch and the and what's been going in the last two years is just a major awareness campaign I mean it's been politicized and it's become you know like people often you know roll their eyes at it but but we shouldn't have for it for its essence one should never roll their eyes at an inch should never become politicized because of the it's called affect the the cellular trauma inside the body of someone who was touched without their consent and that would include obviously even with consent if it's a child who doesn't know better and the and that is a disassociative thing can take place and reassociation is not a simple matter whatsoever and it's the the greatest therapy for reassociation is is likely gonna turn out to be a psychedelic therapy of some sort they seem to find that that either the psilocybin mushroom or the or the compound found in MDMA seems to be the best way to kind of research it ones one's self again it kind of defrag the body and the mind and and allows someone to kind of recuperate their sense of self and they kind of get them back to their original factory settings before the disassociation took place and and there's plenty of science there to read up on now you can just go you can just google google back that's simple googling or you can read Michael Pollan's work how to change your mind which is give some level of detail of that and it's a great read you can read the whole book in a day just cuz he's such a good writer I mean this is a book that should have taken anyone six weeks to read because it's so scientific but it's it just you just can't put it down it really a fabulous book it's called how to change your mind