101: Tisha B'av: Shattered Dignity

it's another tissue and uh we did this last year and uh i really was hoping that that would be the last tissue that we would have to do uh here we are we still have our guinness we're still sitting on the floor fasting not wearing shoes and observing the morning and thank you and as i said last year it's it's a struggle at this point uh i think i mentioned last year from where he left he always says i hate ishmael i really hate it i don't want to do this and when we hate it enough and we're sick of it enough then we won't have to anymore but for most people it's not so bad i don't like nuts that's a big deal one day i sit on the floor and i uh say guinness okay i don't really know what i'm saying you can find a lot of meaningful programs online go online and find a whole day people make videos specifically for fitish above there are explanatory kindness taking place around the world that you can you can go to our friends over at tour anytime they have them broadcasting from all around the world you can watch canvas uh the whole day you can say the kids as we mentioned a little hard but you can find explanatory ones english ones is something that's supposed to really tug on our heartstrings the conan is a is a whale it's a it's a it's it's a cry of pain la have lawrence olivier i forgot which shakespearean play was being made into a movie and he gives this cry of pain and he was asked in an interview how did you come up with that cry of pain and it was so intense so he said i read once about this a frog or a lizard or what it was that uh you know shoots out the tongue to catch a fly and sometimes when it's a very cold area it it hits a rock the fly with the rock and his tongue gets stuck frozen onto the rock and it gives out this terrible cry and that's what i tried to mimic so what do we do so we're mimicking remembering the cry that others have made throughout the centuries when uh believe in yoga go beyond so uh he gives his grandson the candy so the mother says say thank you thank you and he went oy that's how i thought just like that say thank you thank you is a is a challenge and so we have to go into it on a deeper level to find the themes of what's taking place for us to be able to appreciate it we dealt with one candle last year i hope this will be the last one that we have to do i hope next year when tischendorf is the yantif i'll still be making my podcast but i don't know the nature will be watching it because then malcolm machias will be broadcasting and i'm sure he'll be much more engaging i i think about it all the time i think that all the time um because uh they said abuse of heinrich zeinfeld he used to push himself at the simplest person she was able to dance he had problems with his feet and he had to work very hard they said baby why are you pushing yourself and he said because the mishna says that only the uh sadiq got to dance now i can dance comes in the basic magnificent might not be allowed to dance so enjoy it while you can so uh so now you know people are listening to me i know i'm under no illusions that i'm sure comes you know so uh i will be a footnote to history so uh so i want to focus on one kina that captures a tragic marine kitten in my case it's kenneth kimmel and uh and it's the story the kin is based on a story a tragic tragic story kenneth and the tears flow on my cheeks lift my voice every year i uh i say evil evening my heart mourns and i can't be comforted my heart like a fire burns when i think about this terrible terrible story the rest of the kinder goes on to tell the story and what's the story the gemara tells what the story is the small coin godol was had a certain uh majestic beauty [Music] in the time of the base of mikdash josephus writes that everyone knew the jews were the most beautiful people in the world and uh it would be small going had a z upon him with somebody who was exceptional and he had two children a son and a daughter they were captured and they were sold into slavery one master boy his son and one bought the daughter and they noted the unbelievable beauty of these two individuals and somehow the two of them met and they said you know i just bought the most beautiful boy slave the other one says really because i just bought the most beautiful girls she says you know what let's meet them like a thoroughbred racehorse and we'll get beautiful slaves we'll make a business we'll sell the litter we'll sell the the children that come out of this and so the two masters locked them into a room and figures what's gonna happen so they each sat in different corners and they cried and i said i i'm a cohen the son of a calling this is what this is what's become of me this is this is how this is how i'm i'm i'm going to be uh lowered and the daughter in the other corner i'm a bus cohen the nobility the greatness this is what i've been reduced to do you imagine growing up in a how you can't imagine you're growing up in the house at the base of of the cone gundle during the time of the base in the condition calling gundam somebody that people looked up to with uh with he used to go into the coach of the notion and and and see it's see the shrina experience it on some level that we can't even understand and uh here comes here here comes his children you can imagine they grew up in this house thinking who they're going to marry what their life is going to be like what kind of a torah home they're going to build it's a whole other you otherwise you're in danger and the coach barracuda might punish you for the fact that you decided to take somebody who was the nobility of the jewish people and you are not atomic my son had a rabbit he used to used to uh teach machias in the afternoon um he always talked about rosh hashanah and he said that the reason that he taught rosh hashanah was because uh he married a bus going i think murray says that you have to meet him to marry so he says i chose rosh hashanah and i'm constantly hazaring it and that's why i teach it for the kids so that uh i know i'm keeping my hand into the massage so here she's gonna hang off this slave according to one madrish which started the war in the time of hanukkah was a uh was a uh incident that the bus going because the greeks had made this rule that uh caller who was going to get married the hegemon the officer could come and be with her uh first and the cohen goddard's daughter was selected this wasn't strictly taipa this was being developed specifically to break the spirit and the kedusa of the jewish people anyway the bus going girdle is getting married and they hear the hegemon's on the way so okay it's honest you know it's basically a case of rape because you're not us so she comes out to the hosanna wearing nothing and everyone is scandalized that's going good and she says oh oh i forgot you people are so firm you don't want to see me like this but you don't mind handing me over like this to this to this uh to this uh you know evil evil governor you know enemy of our people and this worked the people up into such a rage she's right that when he came they killed him and started the war the point is a point where you have to say i can't and here she is in a room all of her dreams shattered everything born no family no friends alone in a room with some slave to be defiled to be breeded she's sitting there crying and here going yeah there's mitzvah to give karma to kohanim and clay yourself they're supposed to get the first aliyah they're supposed to leave the benching there's a office here i am and now i'm going to be greeted with some slave dog and the two of them are in two separate sides crying and when daylight came and the sun came into the room they saw that it was brother and sister and they embraced and they held each other and cried together until they both died impurity they they cried themselves to death and this is the tragic story that this kenneth discusses and talks about the story itself is a gemara and a number of daphim and kitten that deal with the khurban-basam and he says there's a reason why all of these are in because kitten describes what happens when a relationship fails and that's the hormone base of it's a story of relationships between us and our kurdish borough and that relationship going bad avraham saw the best is a mountain it's called story is a field yaakov sword is a bias this is the house of hashem this is the interface of shamayimpa pirates the bias is a place of anishinesha five things happened on tisha belt first basement was destroyed unbelievable second baseman was destroyed the entire door you know it's saying it's raining so chris yamcha when all the nissan it was the creed they would all die in the desert and never go into itself the city of beitar was wiped out there was so many people murdered that the blood flowed like a river to the sea and thomas rufus plowed the higher bias okay the basement was already destroyed they plowed the heart bias because yaakov saw the base of mikdash in its ultimate fulfillment it's a bias it's a place of an ish and amnesia and we lost that it went back to what it's hug so which was a sudden which was a field so there's a field it's a a field is a place where you do business you grow things a house in a world city it doesn't go back to you in the evil in the 50th year it doesn't return to you there's no owners but a house in the field that's considered part of the field you live out there because you want to work your field we had a bias we lived with akersboro the uh the valley levin it's not taking out time so uh he uh he gets into a cab the driver says no if i buy where's your home he says my wife died only by it now i just have uh an apartment i'll tell you the diet is the place in the east indonesia [Music] what do we do with the seder night we say i remember remember the love of akala and we come to schwarz seven weeks later we stand in higher c9 and there are hundreds of ghazal that compare it to a hasanah we get married that's what shirashum is all about that love between us and the kurdish prophet what's ah about isha azuba we lost that relationship it was broken our home was destroyed it was plowed like a field that intimate relationship that we have in the kurdish borough who was gone so when we take a story of two hidden from the from the finest episode each one of them thinks they're being mated with a slave and then they see their brother and sister and they embrace and they leave the world of purity rather than to allow themselves to be defiled to be a slave to work to be beaten okay but to be defiled says the kingdom the descendants of iran of the of the um somebody told me that they don't have a lot of sneeze rules and uh engage it yeah that's what i heard i i didn't check into it they have one rule dress like a buster so someone said to me why do we need so many rules i said because as a wise man once said common sense isn't as common as it used to be the things that it would never occur to us to make rules because sneeze is related to one word and a word that you don't really have today it's called dignity it's called carrying yourself with hashibis i used to teach in seminary i had three rules make sure your cell phone is turned off because when it goes off during class it's very disruptive to everybody no talking not talking if you're bored go outside i march in attendance i don't care go outside i don't care if you sit here at night but don't sit here and talk and it's very it's very it's it it's disturbing to me and to the other girls et cetera and if you're talking because you're not interested in what's going on there's no problem go outside i won't there's no panel penalty go outside and talk have something to eat take a drink or whatever and the third one was no come true that's just to get girls crazy what's wrong i said it's not dignified the queen of england doesn't chew gum there's a there's a certain there's a certain i haven't seen it i don't think it's happened but uh a collar under the hook has not chewed a piece of gum uh he carries some addiction and the girls would say to me we don't care and i said in this class you're going to see yourself the way that i see you dignity that's what sneeze comes from means i'm a princess it means that i'm somebody important i'll just do whatever i want wear whatever i want talk however i want there has to be a certain thing that you carry yourself somebody who was with mr shapiro when he was a pride he says he was walking down the street and the crowds just parted he didn't say anything he didn't do anything they just sensed that uh that you're dealing with a different type of a person i remember reading that the dutch masters used to be pictures of jews because when you saw a jew you saw nobility you sent khashevas importance back in the 1960s said in europe there were a lot of schmooze in dealing with gaipa so you have to deal with kaiba because in america we have to deal with we have to deal with the lack of self-worth i'm not worth anything nobody cares what i think nobody cares what i say doesn't make a difference what i do and so a person doesn't think he's important so who cares what it who cares what i say because what i wear but the children of the coming goddard during the time of the base of mikdash they had a sense of gravitas they understood that there was somebody important they understood that they represented something in cloud israel marine chavez brings forth who all say the same thing every jew in clay israel is considered nobility now you know this right certainly the men know this because the mishna says that you're supposed to say krishna when you get up which is of course sunrise maybe sherman says no princes get up already so late at like the third hour of the morning so you can still say krishna to the third hour of the morning anybody who does not say krishna you know by nate's so they're relying on the fact that they hold their nobility you hold it to somebody important physicists why are you so subject to such a busy youngest laugh that insulted only only type of racism that's allowed is anti-semitism black lives matter have uh anti-semitic uh points on their on their program their website who can make anthony somebody saying well you know we have to educate them we have to speak to them we have to this you know but you say anything against other groups forget about it you're cancelled culture you're finished but they can buzz us insult us and and trash us and say the most horrible things about us that's okay that's okay the problem is that you you put up with this abuse long enough and you start to integrate it we forget we we have gravitas to us we are important people one day a year we mourn we mourn for the base of mikdash because there used to be a relationship between us and a good particle that was the most beautiful relationship in the world and we mourn the fact that we've been reduced they sold the slaves and mistreated and abused they forget sometimes because you know when there's no programs there's no uh there's no uh uh you know crusades no holocaust no inquisitions we forget we think yeah everything's okay everything's not okay it's not okay the abuse and we start to integrate become those victims who start to think that yeah we are we know what they say about us a terrible terrible thing continuous we remember we were great and that day is going to come i said it in my regular podcast but if coronavirus teaches us one thing instead it goes broke we can do anything he can close down the entire world if he wants to and if he wants to bring back the base of mikdash bring the jews back to its trail and build the base of big dust he can do that too and then we'll have that sense of greatness of grandeur it says if you weird since this so thousands of non-jews will run over and grab onto your titties and say teach us because something will turn out that we were right all along and once again jews will be who they're supposed to be because they understand who they are i hate this i hope you do too i hope this is the last one i'm like thank guinness like fasting sitting on the floor i don't like the reflection on who we used to be i want to put the reflection on who we could be who we have to be it's hashem all of us will have an emotion and this will be the last dish