Rambam On Teshuva R Gottlieb Leibadik 2024 2

wonderful to come and we don't write off the possibility that you'll be here for what I'd like to share with you is some ideas from the and I'm going to leave time for questions because people often have questions my training is in philosophy both the one hand secular philosophy in the other hand questions in other areas if you ask I happen to know the answer I'll be happy to try answer that's where I have my train shua defines what Chua is and these are his words my what is the transgressor should abandon his should push it out of his thoughts he should resolve in his heart that he shall not do it again so this is what we typically call and has three pieces one is means stop doing it stop doing push it out of his thoughts try to train himself to think about other things or to make certain connections with that thought that give it positive Spin and resolve in his heart not to repeat the sin well all three of those together don't say anything about his success in the future will he succeed in keeping this resolved till the end of his life or will he not the words here do not say they're not committed that's one element of J he also should regret what he has done in the past says after I have returned I regretted what I did in the past so that's a second component and the two components are really independent of one another a person can decide to change his behavior for a lot of reasons his attitude may be was wonderful while I had it but it's now become illegal or too expensive or too fattening or whatever you like and it's just become something which I have to give up so here the the MIT requires not only do the person give it up for various reasons but he has to regret it that's the feeling I wish I hadn't done it we all have this experience when you think about the past and you think of something you did and you have that sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach like why did I do that why did I do that I shouldn't have done that so that's the second component now it says if you translate this to the dictionary what it says is he who knows hidden things that's the Creator should give testimony that he will not return to this head forever if that's what it means that the structure of the paragraph is a little peculiar first he starts with a abandoning then he moves to regret and now he says by the way he won't go back to it again that should have gone with the first part does it make a difference yeah Che differ I I'll show you the difference it makes because portion that I have below are going to reject that translation of the words and reject get the translation of the words then it'll fit where it is I'm saying but it's not it's not to right does it really matter matter the order that the ROM put it in as long as you understand the concept okay that's an interesting question uh I agree with you it wouldn't matter if you understand the concept but if you can't explain the order then you probably don't understand his concept it's a rumbum talking to us here I'm trying to understand what the rum says if it's out of order of normal development then I have to ask us I'm not missing the point and in fact as we'll see it is missing the point and then brings a proof to this idea of testimony these are people who are doing and they say we will no longer take the work of our hands and declare them to be our God okay that are the words of the person doing chuba I'm not going to do this anymore but what this supposed to be a support for or proof for is the statement that the Creator will give testimony that I'll never go back to it again how do the words of the penitent the person chba who says I won't do it again constitute a proof that will give testimony that he won't go back to it what's one thing to do with the other we'll answer these questions look at the commentaries below the third thing that he has to do is and his consists of saying these things that he fixed in his heart the things that he resolved in his heart so the last sentence says you I just told you two things that you're supposed to do in your heart and those things have to be spoken out okay now let's read the K Mish and we'll see what to do without those words and by the way if God is giving testimony that I'll never go back to the transgression why is his title knower of hidden things I would have thought a much more relevant title would be Yoda aidos he knows the future he can give testimony by KN the future that could it be the hidden things are the future it could but just not as felicitous is saying it straight out since that's what it's supposed to mean so because Vish says he quotes the words that we were talking about what kind of proof is he bringing from the verse how does that quotation that we speak when we say we're not going to do the transgression again support the idea that God is going to give testimony it's to explain it you could explain the words as follows he takes as his witness that he will not go back to it if you know Hebrew gramar is is a hi it's a causative it can mean to give testimony but it can mean to take someone as my Aid you're my witness that I did this that I mean this that I said this I'm taking you as my way my witness the just going does even more so the is saying don't read it God will testify read it that the penitent will take as his witness that he won't go back and then the quotation from the verse is very good the quotation is the words thank you very much quotation is is the words of the person doing chuva and what he says is I'm not going to go back to it anymore I take as my my witness that I need it I really need it sorry does maybe the r somewhere else had another element regarding future behavior and that is that he has to be confronted again with the same sin and resisted and not do it without looking to do it obviously because you can't situation very good that's the which I skipped but there he talks about that's why this start talks about CH which is a much higher Madre a much higher level and a separate performance this is Chua and Cha doesn't require it only chur requires it higher level it's a much higher level CH gamur you have to be confronted with the same Temptation under the tical circumstances and this time act correctly and act correctly because you've done cha we're studying doesn't require that it doesn't require that it just requires that the the the not be repeated you'll ask me what's the do what's the difference between the two of them I'll tell you I think that here could be described as strategic cha I'll give you an [Music] example Fred Fred lives in New Zealand Fred's a nice guy reasonably good meos Pleasant fellow except for one person up with whom Fred cannot put as my British friends told me to say when he's together with this fellow he goes to Pieces becomes irritable and aggressive and behaves badly and he hates himself for it and he and he despises the that way of Behaving but he just isn't getting control I'm say can't but he isn't getting control so what does he do he moves to New Zealand Ric is is nobody there BS him nobody there triggers him he's fine when he hears that that fell is moving from New Zealand to Ric he moves to Los Angeles he just stays out of his way way has he done Chua yes okay so I think many people have intuition that's too cheap what do you mean he's just avoiding the the problem but let's look at the definition has he stopped doing it has he resolved to stop doing it how much money he's putting into moving around the globe to stay away from it so he shouldn't stop doing it he definitely has stopped doing it as resolve not to repeat it does he regret it sure he regets it that's why he's running away from he thinks he's terrible to do such a thing did he say did he say do we could put that the example also he said that's chba but it's not complete CH complete CH would mean actually passing the test of being in those circumstances and if you will ask as you have a right to ask well then does it mean that part of the project that Chua is to seek out those circumstances to test yourself so that you can qualify for complete Chua the answer is absolutely not because the example that ra uses which is a m is that of elicit sexual relations and that means you have to be as ra writes writes alone with her and not sin but he's not allowed to be alone with her that itself is an available so the Mish is choosing a case where you can't reproduce the conditions and that means that part it's not part of Chua to repeat reproduce the conditions so that you'll be favored with doing a complete cha leave that meant to put yourself in a dangerous position life wisdom is stay out of trouble stay out of trouble you know you're in the elevator you work on the 87th floor it goes up and people get on and people get off you're reading the Wall Street Journal and uh getting close to the 80 and people left thining out and between 83 and 84 the alarm bell rings and it's stuck stuck in the elevator you look around it's just you it's just you and her who can arrange that he can arrange it but don't you look for it you're not supposed to try it's so something which happens when a who wants you to be able to accomplish it now more than that that's chuba gura this is plain chuba card variety which can be done strategically so Kish says that since I'm taking him as a a God as an E I really mean it then the the verse which which quotes what I say I'm not going to bake anymore Idols anymore works very well it's it's my statement of my sincerity not that he's going to make give testimony that I won't go back to it in the future makes another point to get to the same conclusion he said second L how could it be the testimony that he won't go back to the same transgression adult doesn't he have free will no matter what CH he's done now what resolve he's done now how can you guarantee that he's not going to go back do it again since he has free will says doesn't trust even in his holy ones because no matter how holy they are now they could deteriorate we can say that the understanding of the verse is this when he does he's got to accept as his witness it's he the person doing CH who's saying I'm not going back to it he me now if you want to see linguistically how this works he brings a famous I take the heavens and earth as my Witnesses I warned you what does the verse say been quoting the whole time gives a little more context you return to to him you're speaking to him V is said to and you say to him I'm saying that I won't go back to that same transgression it means I'm taking you as my witness that I really mean this but there's no he in here that he will never go back to and therefore temporary chba is Val temporary chba is down so some of us maybe everyone has had the experience that yum ker comes and you think about the past year and yeah there's X there X is there was there put it on my list you know X is there by the way ex was there last year also and the year before also and the year before also and it's I don't seem to be getting anywhere I don't seem to be accomplishing anything that's just stuck with this this thing which I don't conquer does that mean that the Chua I did each is retroactively invalidated so that I really didn't do Chua the answer is no temporary Chua is valid and if at the time your resolve is honest and sincere that you're that you're not going back to it if this is October if in May or June circumstances conspire and the Temptation becomes overwhelming I don't say you can't but you don't Master it and you and you don't succeed that doesn't mean that in October you didn't really mean what you were saying you really didn't what you was say it's just that you weren't able to keep it consistently forever so that means each year you have the opportunity to throw off responsibility for the last year's transgressions and if you go back to it it's a new slate it's a brand new slave the illustrates this with a famous gar maybe you've heard of this garan a man says to a woman let's be married hly here's the ring with with a with a condition that he puts on the on the condition that I'm a perfect okay that's what he says and she agrees and he gives her the ring what's her status says theor and say maybe it's valid maybe he had thoughts of chuva in his heart and therefore maybe they're married so says let's figure this out let's figure out the scenario he comes up to the he's a r r alol that's who he is stands there under the and says this shocking thing let's be married on the condition that I'm a perfect a perfect she says yes and afterwards the G says maybe they're married because maybe he had thoughts of tuor in his heart when he was standing under the ask the following question he walked up he said those words under the how did he walk out of the did he walk out of the as did he walk out of the or maybe there isn't enough information in the description to De determine how he walked out from the that's the question let's take a show of hands how many think that walks out again like alapo okay how many think he walks out as as how many think there isn't enough information to determine okay it's not relev well I'll show you I'll show marriage of course can I get condition is there a thir op you can make a condition that for she doesn't have to accept it you're a jerk what are you talking about you condition I don't want yeah like any contract like any contract if both sides agree to the condition if both sides agree to the condition then it's a valid condition people can make contracts with one another of any kind that they want by the way you have to know the the laws of civil law let's say in in the they're only default laws there's no restriction on what kind of contract you can make you can make a contract with a condition that the word of a child can determine the outcome of the I a child is not in a but you took his word so you you can make any condition we can't assess the condition I'm sorry we can't assess this condition he's made a condition we cannot assess well okay but theor gives up gives up that makes a difference she's gonna have to get a get if she wants to get out she can't just walk away because maybe they're married question is how does he walk away from the the in order to justify the's conclusion and he says there is enough information let's try to figure it out let's see let's try the other possibility he walked up his alone he sat on the condition and he walks out as the There's No Sa there now you know he had thoughts of ju in his heart he's a changed person the wouldn't be right if he came out as the he's got to come out again as Al Capone Al Capone on the way in Al Capone on the way out but still he said those words under the maybe he had thoughts of Chua at that moment in which case it would be true that at that moment he was at perfect s what does this illustrate this illustrates temporary children right momentary children at that moment because those are the thoughts in his heart he qualifies as the perfect setting I should put out he didn't say V that's why we don't know so not full Chua but the idea that when you have a thought in your mind temporarily even if you don't continue it even though you don't maintain it it's valid when you think it so here too says temporary chuba is valid chuba that being the case you have uh you have the sense that you by the way you say forgives abundantly some say I think it's actually say abundantly means when you do the same transgression over and over again he will forgive you over and over again full seven times is not a perfect person on the contrary M says and he gets up the r is the person who falls seven times and seven time he's out out for the count as they say in boxing and he's and he's he's knocked out falling doesn't mean that you're not you're not a well it just means that have something to repair cha is this great great leverage that even though a person fails in his lifetime he can leave the world perfectly clean with a perfect record because chuba can take care of the failures so it's not that you're stamped with the past and and and the uh stain of the Past St stays with you I heard from my son my Sonia few years ago something which I didn't understand right away he said everyone dies with regrets think thought about it certainly things that I did I regret they're like going away they're in the they're in the record so of course you think back and you say I wish I hadn't done it and I thought to myself that means when you're dying there's a certain then I thought well maybe not because as we saw regret is one of the conditions of chuva and if you do Chua you relieve the responsibility for those things so you can feel pleasure in the regret at least I regret it at least I'm taking responsibility for it I'm not I'm not explaining it and I'm not rationalizing it I'm facing up to it and I'm admitting I did something wrong and that means that I leave the world without responsibility for that F so that can be a sense of great joy not just a sense of of of the the pain of having having failed in the past it's the having done thing in the past and rectifying and taking responsibility for it and rectifying it it says you have to forget about it you delet it how could you ever regret over something that deleted he doesn't say forget there's a word in Hebrew for forget doesn't say that it means you shouldn't dwell on it you shouldn't think about it you shouldn't feel tempted by it to have to fight down the temptation all the time you should try to to reorganize your your attitude towards it so it doesn't play the same role in your life means it's not there it's not thinking he's not thinking about it not that he should forget about there lots of things that uh you have forgotten you haven't forgotten somebody ask you about them and say yes but you don't think about them and that's a big job how you how you control thoughts they say aboutto when he was dying him asked him how can we recognize a rebi with you gone how do we know to to receive from who should lead us so he said this is what the story says ask him if he knows the secret of controlling thoughts and if he says he does don't take it now I think the attitude that most people have is thoughts hit me they come out of the blue maybe I can be responsible for what I do in response to the thought dwell on the thought or or the plan how to implement it or to evaluate it or to turn my mind to something else but can I be responsible for the thoughts that enter my mind I I think we can at least sometimes um let's suppose you're living with let's suppose you're negotiating a very important contract well they preparing for an occasion in court if you're a lawyer right How likely are you to be dis distracted by I wonder who won the football G yesterday you know if you're appearing tomorrow in court there it's important case football W come to your mind because your mind is filled with something that's important to you so it's not a question of I'm not going to think about X that's famous right in my mind the words are I'm not going to think about X then I'm thinking about X so that doesn't work but if you fill your mind with something else when you're Lear with Kusa and you know what Kusa learning is it's a lot of competition you know if I open my mouth it's gonna shoot me down I better be very careful what I say so I'm thinking how could I go wrong what could he say and he's looking the same thing your mind is very focused and since it's very focused very unlikely that other thoughts are going to pop into your mind so if you learn to fill your mind that way you can largely I not always can your mind be fill that way it's not a perfect solution that's a solution for a lot of the time you know how great people used to go and recite mnas while they were while they were walking M they because part of their mind is occupied of the mnas that being the case there's less room for it to be susceptible to foreign thoughts that could put the so far that's good okay so now um there's another element of CH we say say every time seek when he's found call to him when he's close that means that was not equally close all the time and then the says when is that the 10 days of which we call that's a time when is close but that's when it's telling you to call out and the ra writes as others do that's only for the whenever they do interacts with that but for it's not so here's the explanation an explanation for how it works a person doesn't a let say in January well by doing the a he's taking a step away from I'm talking about Bazi now he knows what he's doing he realizes that it's wrong and he does it anyway that does happen you know once every six or seven years that happens to people he Tes he's taking a step away from he's doing something against K's World simultaneously takes a step away from him so there's a double distance set up now let's say in February the person does cha okay he's closed the distance from his side is going to close the this from his side automatically answer is no no guarantee has his and he decides how to handle the situation that's true for all of the here except for because there who comes first he comes first before we do chuba doesn't respond to our chuba and therefore he's closed the distance from his side already so that when we do chova the distance is zero we reconnect immediately that's what it means that the chuba is accepted because he comes first that's a gigantic a gigantic and a gigantic Bo of confidence and it applies to something which some people ask we have judgments are being made evaluations are being made is a day also but you do CH that's when Kar can take place that's when forgiveness can take place well wouldn't it be better perhaps I you keeper first as it is you go to you may not have done CH and you may not have been forgiven and you're standing there on day y with all the blemishes and all the stains if you have first and forgave you for all the things that you did then come to R and come clean and get a much better much better judgment so there's a uh I would say a practical answer if you know K came first you wouldn't take it seriously you have Chau and two days and then you have and that's lead up to to make those wrenching decisions that have to be made to do CH I think it's another another reason here which is which is really very persuasive and that is this what's going on in Russia one of the that's going on you see it over and over again is we're proclaiming now in the Hebrew language there are various words for the political leader one is Mosel and one is shate and one is D in classical Hebrew and one is Mel they're not the same the word Mel requires that the people accept him as such otherwise he isn't a is not what a six-year-old would hear yeah if you're all alone you can't be a king nobody to be king over no that's not what it means means without the people accepting him as king he's not a king so that means r as we say it's the coronation we place the crown On's head and make him King of the universe indeed M Shapiro one of his forign writes that it's based on the fact that who chose to be called me first of all means he chose a title which depends upon us which being the infinite creator of the universe that a title that he possesses depends upon us is almost almost in conceivable how could anything about him depend upon us but he chose it and said ra Shapiro this is a guarantee of the existence of the Jewish people because only we Crown this King until becoming the Messiah they may individuals but as an arm as a nation only we crown him King and since he decided on that title of King that means that we're going to be here to Crown Him King okay so now here we are in rashash where yum Ki is after rashash we may not have done CH yet and we're standing there with all of our faults still intact BR who says I want you to put the crown on my head could there be a vote of confidence more than that that you with your failures with your shortcomings with your mistakes I want you put the ground on you know you build a person's self-confidence you build his character by showing confidence in him really build a self-confidence if you choose him to do something for others where he feels that he's got Val because he made someone else's life that's how you build some tops well you won't find this in the psychology book but that's our our understanding of s here says I want you to Proclaim me and make me king of the universe even before you've done children before you have succeeded in your in your cleansing of yourselves how so far yeah now the r says Chua that ch is a a person who does CH doesn't get pun does not get no more punishment well Ines the Mish inum that there are four different types of transgressions and each type of transgression needs a different process to be expiated to be expunged if it's a simple a say like not that after a meal and not putting on filling when he does Chua it's over it's all finished if it's a simple say McDonald's bacon cheeseburger simp if it's a that has a punishment like a very serious punishment then it requires and and suff and if it has those characteristics and also the a public desecration of God's name then it requires CH G suffering and death so hold on you get to category three he's telling me that Chua isn't enough even CH is not enough it requires suffering what requires suffering what does the suffering do and the answer is this is absolutely crucial it's not punishment because as we said you do chuba punishment is not but there can be results of the transgression it's a little bit like surgery for an inner uh breakdown that was due to some bad behavior that the person he's motorcycle racing hope this doesn't describe anyone here and you know and he breaks bones and he needs surgery and so and so on well he could do chuba for the for the motorcycle racing he can sell his motorcycle and tell his family he's never going to do it again but they're the broken bones and they need surgery for repair that's not punishment for what he did it's just that's the position he put himself into and gets consequences and the consequences which which cleanse him of the respon of the of the results of what he of what he has done so we have to understand that the suffering afterwards is something which we should welcome one of the things that is said in that when a person is experiencing suffering we say Let It Be An atonement let this cleanse me from the things that I've done wrong that I've already done CH before so that when I leave the world I can leave the world clean a person who does Chua like I said before person who does Chua leaves the world clean he has a perfect record his record is unblemished no matter what he's done no matter what he's done chba nothing stands the way no matter how terrible it is RA writes that and tus writes it also even though the G seems to contradicted says that can't be the right shot even if what a person did left consequences all actions leave consequences but left serious consequences in the world something's broken someone lost something let's think the worst murder you can do Chua for murder definitely can and here you you you come into something which could be in a certain sense a mystery Nasha was one of the worst kings that the Jewish people ever had and he among other things he instituted IR in the temple and at the end of his life he did chuba he got rid of all the idols and preach in the correct way and if I'm not mistaken which says that when he died question was what's going to happen to him and um angel said well he did cha but look his record was really really over the top he can't be forgiven for what he did and there all all the paths of chuba which take you up to before they blocked each path was blocked what do he dug a tunnel under the under the the th of glory and brought him up with with the T this a mid are very very careful with what they say very important to understand what happened here the Angels blocked the paths because Rob didn't open up the blocks he left the paths block what's the message the message is when this Angel says Masashi can't come up on this path he's right and not that bad they're not that bad the only shortcoming of the Angels is they have tunnel okay there are 16 pants oh we got 16 members block them all who wants someone to be brought up he doesn't have to use the 16 page he can use another one so there really is an obstacle here but a CH nothing stands in the way of chba so a person should never give up never feel that that he's done something which is beyond beyond groups of Judah who left Torah andell and so on and student mayor tried to help influence to chuba and he said I can't do chuba I heard voice of Heaven all my children who have gone off the path to return but not but not me I'm excluded say he should have realized that that that voice from heaven was not telling the truth was not telling the truth it was done to to test it he should have said like said to yesah when yes said to him you're going to die said to him I have a tradition from my ancestor the never give up hope and he turned his head face to the wall and he prayed he Liv another 20 years the prophet is telling you he's going to die you can't that you cannot do so a person should should never give whatever whatever he's done chba can always always be in something which which stands in the way protects him from from punishment and means he needs the world clean anything else that has to happen engineered by but now there is some question about whether the last point that I'll share with you if you have questions afterwards whether tuba is a Mitzvah or just a procedure or let me put it more clearly maybe the 613 mitzvos some are just procedures they're not required you have a a vessel that's T you put it in a mikah you don't have to do that to leave it t nobody requires you to do that there if it's so called T which you it tells you if you put it in mi with certain conditions then becomes T but that's just a procedure that's all if you never sh an animal you didn't miss out on one of the mitzvas of the world makes okay fine some people do it some not do it so maybe takes his position maybe CH is like that CH is just a procedure you did things that are wrong you want to escape responsibility and punishment for them do not not it's up to you and it's based on a peculiarity in the language of Rab in the first chapter of CH where he says when you do Chu you have to they have to say say you have to do CH so suggest maybe you don't have to do the truth is that in base of says the following Yer so Kates CH is the end of CH for everyone the individual and the group now he said which I didn't bring to you here that you death in your death bed it's valid you've done CH and you are relieved of responsibility for all your transgressions so when he says it's the end it doesn't mean you can't do it afterwards and he says since it's so Ates so you want the words do right there at very base it's not very go it's right there at very base you have to do it you have to do it because Jer for some people say oh you see y has it own Mitzvah and one of the Mitzvah of Y that's what he means no he doesn't mean that because the way in which that's expressed by a famous verse lift purify yourself before you stand before doesn't bring that verse on the contrary his reasoning is it says it's the end so then that's why you have to do it one of the says the following let's think for a moment about filling to put on filling in the day takes 10 minutes let's say it's the day is 6 a.m to 6 p.m so sometime or other you have to put on F it's for you have to person has to put on Fillin I say to him hey it's 4 in the afternoon how about putting on F said listen I got two hours left he's right the m is concerned guess 10 to six hasn't put on yet say listen time wasting you know the the last chance if he still doesn't do it then he's violated the Mitzvah he hasn't put on T that whole day when was the transgression when we Pinn the time of the transgression last 10 minutes no the definition of the transgression is a tainless day 12 hours 6 a.m. to 6 p.m. and nowhere in those hours do you have Fillin that's the definition of transgression the transgression is the whole time as a result of the fact that nowhere those 12 hours in well maybe chuba is like Phil maybe chuba has a title the mitz your responsibility the transgression was in January the end time is Yum Kipper until yum Kipper if you didn't do didn't do CH in July and September would have been nicer to do it earlier but you haven't violated that responsibility but if your ker comes to an end then this responsibility of chuba you failed that and both you now have two problems transgression in January plus the fact that you failed to Chua in that period of time so that's what the means when he says it's the end it means the end of fulfilling this responsibility that you triggered with the transgression in January that has to be finished by the end of your GI that being the case that's why he says you're required to do it because otherwise you violated that Mitzvah which started in January with the transr and ends the end of and this can solve a famous problem because according to some sources not all sources agree with this but according to some sources a person who a whose's majority of good is written The Book of Life and a person who's Russia majority of bad has written the book of death and those who are 5050 are held over to Yum Kipper and then if they did they're written in the Book of Life and if they don't they don't do you the book of that so first thing you ask wait a minute it's 10 days there they did a lot of Miss in those days don't they count the answer is they don't count because the judgment is on last year it's not on this year these 10 days are going to go on this year's account okay now let's see if he does cha that's good because up until now the scales are balanced good and bad we does Chua one of the beds taken off it's lighter sh go out like this that's why if he does chuba he changes last year's judgment into a judgment a favorable Jud J but if he doesn't do CH so how does that push the scale down from last year what do failing to do chuba push it down now if you take the wrong this explanation the r you explain it very well what does it mean he didn't do chuba he came to the end of kipper he didn't do chuba well then there was a failure of not doing Chua from January through October that whole period of time is the time of the failure that weighs down last year scales also and that being the case it's now getting a bad Judgment at any rate this um explanation I think helps to solve another problem people ask if was Ser with joy how exactly you do CH in with joy I'm really going to confront what I've done in the past confront honestly put aside the izations and explanations and see if it for all it is all its glory and and take responsibility for it that's a painful process and definitely is a painful process but you put it into the context that we have given it I think you can see how to do this with joy that is by regretting it by taking responsibility for it and by resolving not to repeat it you then are relieved responsibility for it it's like selfhealing it's like self-healing self-rehabilitation actually making yourself into a better person which because World grants you so the fact that you this is the process with that outcome um I I guess most people share the feeling that I have about I say wonderful wonderful no there's no by the way you you know what says about that tell the to go out so you should say nobody fulfills that that I know never heard of anybody do that but you know because is tough you know not only does it take an extra five minutes but it's tough right someone whom I know very well tells me that Tak fills that person with joy said you can it off you can take it off will relieve you of it why should should be happy about that indeed ra says you before and you ask for things and you hope that you're asking will affect the whose judgment as to what should be given to the world and bring something good down into the world and sources tell us that Mak the critics above say who are you who are you standing before the creator of the world and you want to bring good into the world you're not worthy of that look at you and something has to be done about that and that's what does t responds to that critique by saying no it's not really me and no I'm not I don't identify with that and yes I'm I'm cleansing myself from that so that you can justify the fact that you have the right to stand before Lord's world and ask that the world be given the the Divine energy from above so that's something which can be done actually with joy if simp can apply even to that questions yeah about 15 minutes ago you were talking about how it's never too late to do Chua you do it the right way All Is Forgiven depending on were all how does one I mean for instance how do you not use that as an excuse use that how do you not use that as an excuse to not make the right decisions today and tomorrow knowing that I can still make up for it later down the line wonderful question uh now your question can we put two ways and the two different ways will have two different answers one way is really really um criminal and that is to say I have a good deal here wait a minute this is a great system you know cheeseburg is today cheeseburg is tomorrow cheeseburger next year three days before I die I'll do chuba and I not going to be punished right any why shouldn't I have the cheeseburgers and also not be punished right I get everything that's incoherent that's logically incoherent I'll tell you why because the spirit in which that suggestion is made the spirit of I've got a good deal I figured out a very good sound strategy but one element in the strategy is Juba requires my regret regretting having done it thinking I shouldn't have done it that's not going to happen cuz I'm saying now that it's a good deal it's a right it's a smart deal I'm getting out of it all the all the things that I want you can't think that and also think later you're going to regret it that's just incoherent so I don't think that it be a false regret it will be a false regret mean it won't really be a regret right can't be um but if a person says look it's hard and I've tried and i' haven't succeeded and he then the the the Trap is despair like said you know Y is the end of the world and M SW said the same thing the worst thing in the world is is Y where you simply give up I met someone I lived in Baltimore for 10 years I met someone there and N of his Jew and he exuded such self-satisfaction such self-confidence it really irked me you imagine why I suppose so I said to him are you perfect and he said no I said what are you doing to improve yourself said he said nothing really said look if something went wrong with your business wouldn't you hire that expert to figure it out yes and he hold the roof of the house yes so why aren't you doing something about yourself he said Rabbi I accept myself as I am I eat well I sleep well you know I accept myself as I am that's really you nothing improv that really HED me so then I said if you have children yeah he's got a 12-year-old son I said imagine the police bring him home and they say he was trth from school and he was stealing in the local store and brings to you and you said what you did that in school and you stealing said yeah that it's true it's true I was in school I was steing but don't worry I accept myself as I am I eat well I sleep well what would you say to your son at which point you remember an appointment and he broke so the the what you don't want is that's who I am that's just way if you know that you can always do children that takes away that use that despair of I'm just making my Pace peace with reality no it's not true reality is malleable reality is changeable every year at this time we think about this we focus on this we study this and we prepare for a sh Gipper and experience of a sh gier also that that tells us that that that there's always a chance we can always pick ourselves up very very crucial part of self self- understanding self- knowledge how do you explain the first the r then and the order oh so since thank you mention the first point is to be to to abandon the sin in the three ways that we mentioned resolve that the collective then to regret and then you call as your witness that you mean it that you're not going back to it but without the regret you don't have it because why are you why are you abandoning it you could be a abandoning it for any any number of selfish reasons and if those reasons changed you would change your mind about abandoning it no I regret it because it was wrong because it was bad then you can say I really mean that I'm not going back on the basis of the regret has become after the regret and the says that after I after I changed my my course I experienced the full sense of regret and then I and then I was able to to to do Che that way so I think I think it fits in very well that way as if it's testimony I'm not going back to it that he makes then it should have gone the first first section and not the second section okay are there levels of chuva that below the ideal the re mentioned that you are clean and there's nothing you have to account for are there lower levels of CHA that would leave some cleaning to do still and would that apply Toba that would have the din of an onus so um there are two things to be said here first of all if you do the Mitzvah of CH then everything is clean you could do parts of the Mitzvah CH parts of the Mitzvah not the whole Mitzvah you will not have satisfied the Mitzvah but everything that you do is is is uh relevant and helps in the Judgment that gives you I'll give you a famous example it says a person who confesses his sin but does not resolve to change it's like someone who goes to aik that lizard holding and the normal understanding of that is that it's it's it's hopeless in the water he's becoming T because he's holding on to the Sher one of the said we talk about a crazy person why is he going to the m why is he go swimming you know in the local pool or Roan or something else because he knows that he's T and he needs to become T that's why he's going to the mik well if so why is he holding on to the sherids because right now he hasn't resolved to get rid of the sherids but going to the m says I want to be to that's not zero that's not zero that's appreciated by first even that much is appreciated by the first world I'll give you one more example you all know the phrase conscience money that's when the person steals money he thinks well I'm stealing it you know that's not really so nice give some money to the charity that way he solves his conscience and says okay give you the charity so still he's okay and we all make fun of that we say that's utterly corrupt you know because fact that you get the charity doesn't justify the steal does that mean that he's just a hypocritical Criminal Just Wicked no it doesn't and I'll tell you why because we have a verse that describes real criminality the the wicked person looks at the and wants to kill it wants to kill it fact that there are rightous people in the world it crushes him he wants to rid the world of the the righteous person that's not this time this guy will give money to a his conscience money so he doesn't qualify for that level of Russia that already shows that there's a positive element in him and that he's not he's not fully lost so any any gesture of of chuba any gesture counts it's you know there are two types of Mitzvah there Fillin if you have a crack in a letter in the T it's not any one letter it's not fil ster you have to give a certain amount of money if you only give half the half you give is a mitah you need to give more but doesn't take away the the reward the half that you gave shba is like ster any part of it that you do is relevant and course broke appreciates it and it will lighten the D that you get you have to work towards the idea of of the whole and finally if a person is onus if a person can't do anymore then he gets credit for doing if he can't do any more then he gets credit for doing it this is Illustrated in various types of elements OFA supp somebody stole money and eight years later he says God I stole that money I got to give it back where's py guy stole the from well 3 years ago he moved out west and this is 200 years ago moved out west how am I going to find him how am I going to locate him I can't give it back well isn't one of the rules to give it back it is so do I sit and say okay I'm lost can't do it I can't give it back I'm not going to get atonement and he answer is no you give it to the best and you say listen I owe this person this money I stole it here it is maybe he'll come back maybe his reair will come back I hope some way he'll come back to him I don't want to has to stolen money by me you give it to him and you've done it so you've done all that you can and even though you're responsible for the fact that you can't do it because had you done it right away you would have known where he is and you waited six years doesn't matter if you do that you qualify for at and knows what I switch to at to chba because ra says giving back is not part of chuba it's only that's that's why I changed my vocabulary