The Fragility of Life: Shaarei Teshuva 2:14-15 with Rabbi Aaron Dovid Poston

[Music] back to the bonus at the event at batman rush we're not in the bait midrash we're in my home in my study but it's the shari truva kabora and here's the safer we're using i see some of the people holding it up fantastic um so this is robina yona unbelievable unbelievable uh we're really far away from rosh hashanah but we should have ello on our minds right why not after we get through this with this class we are in charbette that's basically chapter two paragraphs fourteen and fifteen in the book that i just showed you we're on page 170. now before we start i want to mention that this class is dedicated to the refusal of ropinto yoshiyahu yosef benzakhri mizrat hashem through our learning should give some merit and some screws too towards his refusal eva okay so hi everybody on zoom and here we go the fifth way of inspiration in other words we're to be inspired to do chuba i just for those who have not watched from the very beginning i mean rabboni ribena yona um from spain was unfortunately involved with bashing or you know uh the rambam okay there was a lot of people that were upset with the rambam maimonides now ravenna is actually related through marriage to the ramban this is like the following generation and uh he did a lot of chuva and he dedicated so much of his life towards um let's say going back you know trying to undo the damage so he became an expert right he was a big doll he was a owned to begin with and he dedicated his life to try to explain to people how true should be done and the importance of it so here we are in the fifth wave inspiration why should we be inspired to do chuba beserati matuva right what are the ten days of truva those are the ten days that fall between rosh hashanah and yom kippur including those including the two days of rosh hashanah and yom kippur so basically you have seven days so during these ten days of chuva hayer at davar hashem so right the heart of one who fears the word of god should tremble within him should mommies one should be full of fear during this time bidato can call ma okay now this is a very strange concept because god doesn't have a hand and he certainly doesn't write right but yet we say it we say that hashem writes us in the book which book there's three books open right the book of life the book of uh the opposite of life right and the book for the bain onin right the beno name the in in intermediate the in between people how would you translate in intermediary type people they no name well there's a very interesting comment because we have to admit there really is no such thing as hashem writing in a book i have to find that comment here it is now if we go to perky i vote first of all let's go to perky alvaro chapter two mishna one it's uh it mentions this is one of the statements of rabbi yuhuda hanasi he would say contemplate three things [Applause] know what is above you well first he says no you should contemplate these three things and you won't come to sin in other words it's a preventative right it's a prophylactic a new word we came up with during the pandemic now it's an old word but now people are using it uh anyway know what is above you right hashem doesn't have an eye he doesn't have a body an ozin an ear that hears he doesn't have ears and he's writing into the book all of your deeds it's a very interesting concept we should accept it but we have to understand the comment here describes it says that regarding perceived it describes in human terms the fact that hashem is aware of all a person's deed and never forgets them that's really that's really the point there so that when the when the time for a person to be judged arrives nothing will be overlooked remember this is what the rambam wrote in the martin luther king is the guide to the perplexed for those who are perplexed right aren't we all so one of the ideas one of the major fundamental ideas the rambam explains is that the torah is written in the language of man all of the different i forget now what they're called and there's a certain word it's an english word i'm forgetting my english the um when we describe god in human terms it's not that he has a hand right with a strong arm he took us out of egypt or that he gets angry that such a thing that he has emotions or that he looks or he sees things no it's just so we can understand because we have an imagination we can only imagine hashem through our own eyes something that we are familiar with the main point is hashem never forgets what does it mean to be written in a book i don't know but this is really what he's saying in reality hashem does not record people's deeds in actual books if he does not require the help of any tool to remember people's deeds and i think that's understood okay so keeping this in mind the basic idea is that during this time during those 10 days of truva god will judge every deed including everything that's hidden for good or for bad everything that's when it's recorded so to speak uh i just want to have to get across this idea and we will talk about it those 10 days are very unique and special let's just start with rosh hashanah god let's assume right there's a makalokas when we were created whether it was on the first of tishrei or on the first of nisan one was well created either nissan or tishrei it wasn't that the world was created because the world was actually created five days before either point in time so let's just stick with tishrei meaning the 25th of ello that's when day one of the six days of creation let's say seven days of creation took place and it was on the sixth day of creation that man man is the pinnacle of creation so we say that the world was created on rosh hashanah we talked about mankind and uh to a certain extent like any human being would right would take stock and wonder what should i do for my business right every year you have to reevaluate how things are going what needs improvement what should be done away with as we know right there was dispersion there was flood there's calamity there's reward and punishment right so hashem is evaluating or let's say reevaluating however you want to look at it he's taking right to a certain extent for not for himself but for the world that he created so it's very important to know that's what's going to happen on rosh hashanah and during these 10 days we could let's say we're bain on him because the people who are completely righteous or completely the other way they're going to be written and inscribed pretty much immediately there's nothing to talk about they're they're solid right but hopefully for us basically the bano name the intermediaries right the one intermediate the ones who are in between not extremely perfect not extremely evil right we are benoni they don't need so that's the word we're going to use it's the intermediate in between people okay so we can change that we can change who we are especially during those days because by time of yom kippur when things are sealed sealed sealed signed and delivered just keep in mind we can always change throughout the year as well right hashem has so much mercy uh just to give you an idea of a hasidis of worth it's not such kasitis but it's it's a jewish concept i don't go into the details of the history of how this came about but the idea is that the whole month of tishrei is about judgment right even the zodiac sign the symbol symbolizes judgment through we call the mozanaim the muslim or the scales of justice i think in english or latin whatever it's called the libra right libras the scouts of justice and so what do you have there what do you have there you have rosh hashanah's day of judgment you're going to have then what you're going to have this 10 days of true where you can overturn and change and then you have the yom kippur the day it's sealed and then during the seven days of sukkot the whole world is being judged as well in terms of right as we know the prophets speak about the 70 bulls that are brought by the jewish people by israel for the 70 nations that they would come up and somehow you know show recognition of the god of israel and those who do not will not see rain in their land there's judgment on water there's judgment on the nations as well and by the way restaurants also all this has to do with every man not just the jews but on the seventh day of sukkot it's called and that is the final judgment on the non-jews okay that's the seventh day of the seven day festival where we bring those 70 karbanos seven plays and important numbers important uh role in the seven uh into the seventy nations the seven nothing laws and it's called hashanaraba so that's the last and final day and then there's the day after which is a holiday for the jews called shminiotseris okay so you see the three quarters already of that entire month is dealing with judgment but the khasidis void i began to tell you tells us that yes even though rosh hashanah it's um let's say written yom kippur it's sealed perhaps by sukkah's scent and then hashem reads it right if it's an envelope or you know we're talking human terms here an email it's opened up and read on hanukkah so you have all this time to do chuva right you can only no the truth is you can you have to do truva all the time and you can always change things but there's a special unique opportunity during the 10 days of truva during the tent during the whole year at least the men women are very unique they they're worth each one is worth ten men okay a man needs nine other men to help his prayers ascend to heaven why the number 10 is it's very interesting i'm not going to go into it but just the term jude right a jew is called a yid a yid and a yud are basically the same thing that's the smallest letter right number 10 right in order it's a community a man needs a community much more in terms of prayer than a woman does a woman has a very high soul and doesn't require none other men but anyway during this 10 days of juva of course a man should still go to a minion women kick your husbands out of bed right but the prayers are easily acceptable hashem the king comes out of his castle of his palace and he comes to the field to meet us to greet us to be involved with us and um so the you the individual prayer is heard just as well as when it is throughout the rest of the year with 10 other men that was that was the point i wanted to make something unique and we're going to talk about what should one do how should one behave during these 10 days of trivia because that's how he begins so he continues like this so during this period god will judge every deed right 16a it talks about how a person is judged on rosh hashanah and the decree is sealed on yom kippur i actually wanted to do i have the sitter here no um i do have a sitter here i will do my best um let me just tell you that on thursday mornings just to i know this is not really the subject but i just want to get this point across because a lot of people are not aware of this and um i run into a lot of ex-christians and not actually christians christians momish right people who are missionaries and are trying to convince me of something else whatever it is and they got the whole thing wrong these people say to me listen jew why are you celebrating rosh hashanah or observing rosh hashanah think for even a moment that on rosh hashanah that's called new year's right on the seventh month of the calendar god told you the first of nisan is going to be the first of the months to you so and we have to ask ourselves this question why are we celebrating rosh hashanah called the new year the beginning of the year on the first day of the seventh month what are we there's many ways to look at the calendar i mean gemara roshana begins that there are four new years there's more than one new year i'm just to get this off to my chest because you have let's say the school year at least in america maybe other north north of the hemisphere northern hemisphere countries school year begins in september right it's it's you can have a new year for something uh grapes right you have a new year of a grape harvest always comes in the same time of the year at least here in israel maybe california is different than new york i have no idea but i know israel there's always a season for grapes with a season for school well there's a season for judgment right so i wanted to show you on yom khamishi we sing the song of the livium actually does not tell me which uh peric usually the sea door tells you which parrot but i'll just tell you what it says it speaks about takuba de shofar below the shofar at the moon's renewal the word so blow or taku to kia so far below the shofar at the moon's renewal because it means covering over on the day of our festival which really means the new moon the casa means the new moon the day of our festival now what festival is a festival which festival do we have which festival do we have that falls out on rosh chodesh it's talking about is what it's talking about so first of all pesach is only 15th of the month full moon it's on the sixth of a month it's not a full moon it's not a it's not a new moon either then you have let's go to sukkus obviously the 15th shimini atserus is on the 20th whatever the 23rd 24th here 23rd here you have right rosh hashanah yom kippur yom kippur is on the 10th again not on the full moon not on the new moon rosh hashanah is the only hag it's the only festival listed in the torah to celebrate that actually falls on a we call it a new moon right and the next verse remember this king david israel who this is a statute this is a law this is etched into reality mishpotlet yakov this is a day of judgment for god listen you can't change you can't this is king david okay so that's the reality just wanted to get that off my chest here we go let's go continue romano yona is going to discuss how a person should spend her time during these 10 days of children okay no lifting let's say you had a court case and you were here at stone back going before a king you had a um a judgment before an earthly king right we know king solomon he was a judge right you can be a judge and a king at the same time you can wear two hats two crowns or one a crab and one hat i don't know so you're going before a flesh and blood king great what are you going to do i don't know if you know the root from the word kharedi right kharedi is people who quake who shake who are full of fear and that's a good thing so one should be filled with a tremendous amount of awe and fear the asit atsot banav show and begin to formulate plans listen you gotta hire the best lawyers you have to do what you call looking into the books for precedence things the previous um previous court cases that could speak to your you know uh benefit uh sculpability improve your innocence why not how about what are you going to do you're going to go to the beach you're going to hang out now the truth is if that helps you think perhaps maybe that's an aytsa as it says here yasid right you're going to put all your counsel into this you your life could depended on it could depend on it you're going to do everything to save yourself right to deliver yourself from whatever you don't know what the judgment's going to be but you're going to make every effort you mean you're not going to go to the left you're not going to the right i'm sorry and you're not going to involve yourself in any other of your affairs right you know you're going to get phone calls you're going to put your phone on silent you're not going to take any calls that are not from your lawyers or from your investigators your paid staff that's going to help you find the what you need to to to you know defend or investigate your innocence and the facts of the court case it's a little bit of a poetic you know it's taken from tanakh but you're not going to um i lost my hair you're not going to make pharaohs or break up clumps of soil in your land meaning you're not going to go down and start farming you're not going to go out and start doing your daily work that you normally do if you're a carpenter if you're a farmer you're not going to be involved in that below yif nader crummy and you're not going to go to the vineyards either you know you're not going to hang out the bars either below youtube right so on this day of distress you are like overwhelmed you're not going to relax you're not going to be able to relax for a moment right so you can be rescued like a deer from the hunter's hand again this is a poetic um style from tanakh but you're going to do everything you can you're going to put your full attention you're not going to get distracted you're not going to do anything that you normally would do when you want to just chill when you want to have down time right you go hunting you go sit and i don't know sit in a tree for hours or fishing for you know waiting for a bite you're not gonna do any of that now if this is true this is how you would react and act in a case of a judgment against the flesh and blood king um this is how you would normally act so then how much more so if you're facing judgment before the king of kings right so you're not going to act the same right you're going to act even more uh seriously so ravenous bemoans the fact there are people who act otherwise i mean what what do we call them we're gonna call them fools what are we gonna call them the fools let's call them what they are i mean they just don't know many of them are just ignorant but every human being right not in jew as well should understand this idea how foolish how absolutely foolish these people they go out to those activities right they work from morning to evening and what comes up all of a sudden now you're standing there on yom kippur let's say roshana first ten days of truva this is passing now now you're in those days and you have no idea what your verdict is going to be i mean come on you got to come in knowing you have to have some confidence okay i'm not saying overconfidence right but you have 40 days to prepare for yom kippur right from ello right and there's a famous expression i mentioned this to the guys this morning you you the women probably don't relate to it and they don't need to because they have this inner chamber right this they're they're like they're walking holy and holy people right holy of holies but the guys in yeshiva need to be screamed at sometimes by the rosh yeshiva the roshiva is screaming at them the sukim the sukim to say is there a city is there a city that hears the chauffeur being blown and doesn't tremble and here you are we're beginning the month of ella and we're blowing the chauffeur and you are asleep you're not being moved i think the women are much more in tune than men are they don't need such um or moosa but nevertheless there are people who during these 10 days of chuva during you know days of awe the trial is going on and they don't even know what their verdict is going to be so hello knows so why their hearts should contemplate what to answer on the day they are spoken for their judgment now there's a verse that proves this idea it says i think it's song of songs of songs eight eight sure beyonce she and i have a good translation over here we have a little sister who has no breasts what shall we do for our sister on the day she's spoken for now you should know that the song of songs is extremely uh allegorical very hard to understand but i'll tell you in note number nine what it's talking about in the medrash the madras explains that when it says our sister it's referring to the jewish people our brothers and sisters our sister and the day she has spoken for is referring to yom kippur is the day of judgment okay so keep that in mind romanian now describes how a spiritually attuned person so what we described with someone who's sleeping who's not spiritually in tune what about hopefully we are at least trying to wake up right we have a few months right a few months before uh hello before tishrei but nevertheless we want to be spiritually attuned how should we spend our assassination the 10 days of judah roy lako yura elokim close your business early right you normally have the business open during ello or let's say the ten days of chuva for eight ten twelve hours cut cut out a few hours early right it's appropriate for anyone who fears hashema to limit his involvement in the worldly affairs during this period of time i do have uh an underline i underline this point and let's see why and it's impractical for most people to completely detach themselves during from their worldly responsibilities during this time nevertheless a person should minimize his involvement in other activities as much as the person can so they can devote a significant amount of time to doing them okay so if you normally go to the concert or the you know the philharmonic whatever i don't know whatever you do you know obviously you can't close your business down people will need your services right that's why you're in the business to start with not for the money right but to help people so you're not going to diminish it so find time find the time you'll see that it will pay off and during this time that you are down down timing your your outside activities let your thoughts be occupied regarding the nikhtam regarding the judgment the upcoming judgment and sat set and established for yourself for yourself during during the day and evenings time i i almost don't like this word anymore but we have to go back to it right it's not a bad word to be isolated to quarantine yourself or find solitude that's really that's that's what he's talking about set aside times to find yourself without distractions right uh solitude so you can improve well that's sorry that's the next thing uh set aside times in the morning evening for solitude so you can search your ways do a hedgehog get up early to be involved in the work in the ways of doing chuva sharon hamas in order to improve your actions that's what life's about and this thank god this comes every year we live long enough we can you know get into the not the right but get into the right mode right knowing that we're approaching the high holidays but every new experience during the ello and those 10 days bring it with you for the rest of the year take that charge take that energy take that insight that you have experienced for yourself during this time and bring it into the rest of the year and then the following year elevate yourself even more and bring that into the rest of the year as well okay so what should you do you should wake up well before dawn occupy yourself with ways of truth improving your deeds right to pour out through well we didn't read the word heart yet but to pour out through prayers all types of prayers and cries and make supplications like the eighth eighth ratzon because this time is called ace ratzon the time itself is called a time of favor finding favor in hashem's eyes but feeling and and our prayers are especially heard during this time and we have a verse in isaiah 49 8 the verse goes like this so said the lord in a time of favor i answered you already there's a special time ace ratzon that's what it says ratzon this unique time in a strat zone i have answered you on a day of salvation i have helped you yeshua is artichoka and i will watch you and i'll make your people of the covenant to establish a land to cause to inherit the desolate heritage rashi mentions what does it mean ace ratzon in the time of prayer when you seek my favor and appease me okay on the day of salvation when you need the salvation this is talking about the 10 days of truth eight threats on i mean it's not the only time through the year right at a brits mila especially is it time to make prayers shoot them up right at hopa there's different times and min shabbas there's different times there are ace rats on okay 13 down below i'll just read the comment here from this verse we see that certain times are considered times of favor and that during such times hashem is more likely to answer one's prayers he says it's aceretzo and i'm going to answer you ramona yonah will then immediately demonstrate that the entire 10 days of trugah is considered ace red zone okay so we read isaiah 49 8. now gamora yavamos brings a verse from isaiah 55 6. now regarding this idea of it says in 55 it says like this seek the lord when he is found call him when he is near dear sure seek him when he is it doesn't like it doesn't make sense when he is found when he's available when he's mom is close right calling when he is near so what does the gomorrah say about that when scripture says this seek hashem where he can be found this is referring to those 10 days she been rosh hashanah this is what we're talking about this is called an ace rat song now even though you can one could spend and actually should spend the ten days of true doing truva you should know that there's a special obligation to do truva especially on yom kippur right don't just think oh and it is true there is a certain truth to this that the air you breathe on yom kippur the day itself atones it's true right again i don't mean to sit there and bash the christians but the the torah tells you that the day itself atones so you don't need all this other stuff right but you need to do chuva all right so there's two things it's true the day itself it turns but she needs to do chuva and when i say the christians what they say is they say without a yom kippur offering with that was a big thing for me when i first came became religious battling with these christian ideas because uh being growing up growing up in a we called a judeo-christian society you are brainwashed you are infiltrated in cut with that the shot not vaccinated but they give you like you're full of this bacteria and virus called christianity even though you're not you're not you don't have to be a christian just grow up around it right and so they tell you that um what was i thinking that um yeah i lost my train of thought on that one um but basically we were talking about like yom kippur that you nee you you need something right you need something to be forgiven uh the truth is the day itself as i was saying the day itself had it that's what the torah says it says that the day itself we're going to read it shortly um actually i just tell you that you go to vayikra we'll just skip down to vayikra chapter 16 verse 30. it says for on this day oh they think that you they were telling you oh what are you going to do you don't have the temple you don't have the sacrifice you'll never find atonement and i you know a lot of jews who don't know anything you know fall for this but the torah says for on this day in hebrew the very day is it doesn't say you need a corbin the day itself atones for you to purify you for all your sins live in hashem before god and you will be cleansed it's an amazing concept of course you still need to do truly don't don't uh think but you don't need the corbin right unfortunately we don't have it of course it would be quite beneficial if we did but that does not stop the individual from doing truva and finding let's just say forgiveness okay and actually that's where we're at now uh on page 173 the mitzvah assay it's actually a mitzvah now there's different opinions of what the 613 mitzvahs are but it's a mitzvah minotaur and we'll see the rambam shortly from the torella ear adam that the person is obligated to arouse themselves la serbituva beyond to actually do truva and i just read the verse now what does that mean uh comment 14. okay i'm going to read i want to read for you the rambam in hilkish chuba it's chapter 2 7. yom kippur is the time of truva for all both individuals and the community at large it is the apex of forgiveness and pardon for israel accordingly everyone is obligated to repent and confess on yom kippur the mitzvah of confession of yom kippur begins on the day's evening before one eats his final meal lest god forbid one choke to death in the meal before confessing although a person confessed before eating he should confess again during the evening service young keeper night and similarly repeat the confession in the morning and again in the musoff and again in the afternoon and again at neela five times at which point in the service should one confess question mark so during the amidah during the silent prayer as well as during the the repetition okay so you see it's a mitzvah to do trouba to confess and we're on page i think 174 at the top and we're continuing with this idea of what the rabbis have taught us right the gomorrah in yuma explains that yom kippur works with truman it does it has this magical effect but it has to start from the bottom up hashem's always there from the top down but it has to come from us al qaeda his hirano katushi and entire life shem betruvatena therefore the torah is telling us to purify ourselves before god on yom kippur elena and then he will provide for us the atonement on this day and will help purify us from the stain of sin okay so far that was chapter 14. uh paragraph 14. paragraph 15 is not that long i think we'll finish it quite early but i did want to read for you the gemara in shabbos 153a so we're going to quote it we're going to go through it quickly and then we're going to come back to it and go through it a little bit more in depth derek the fifth the the sixth way that a person should be aroused be prepared at every moment to call out to hashem um a person doesn't know when he's going to die so you have to be ready and prepared at all moments lest you die right you don't know when you're going to die alkane right there one should therefore arouse his conscious meaning his kidneys his conscious and firmly establish himself with righteousness in other words try to be righteous i'll tell you i certain i'm not gonna i don't know what sect of judaism they are but they're let's just call them quite modern whatever that means and they say we don't have to be siddique god doesn't expect it from us we can just be i try to arouse yourself try try to be righteous why not when you give back your soul to hashem why not give it back the way it came it came pristine it came unpolluted um you know what i mean it came pure and you can return it that way why not that's the way god wants it so try everything you can to return your soul in the state of purity to god who gave it to you before you go to sleep every single night but now you have the whole month of ello and you have the 10 days of chuba and you have all of your own keeper but try to do this all the time examine them every morning every morning always constantly if you find anything sinful do chuva now ravenna yona is going to present a teaching of the sages now we go we will read the gemara real quick even though he just brings it down let's use his words and that'll be the quick summary but then we'll when we finish another few lines we'll go back so it says in gamora shabbos 153 a ruby laser omer he said to his students now does this make any sense you don't know when you're going to die so if he tells the students do chew the one day before you die so that's very nice but the student said to him rabbi since when does a man know what day is going to die it's like unless you're sick in bed and you know the doctor says that person doesn't have too many hours left then you could you know assume but otherwise you're healthy you're walking around why should you think tomorrow gonna die so that the student said person doesn't know he's gonna die he says you're right you're right you're right so how does one fulfill this idea of repenting one day before he dies he said to them how much more so you have to do truth today today maybe you will die tomorrow you don't know so the nymphs what comes from this what is the bottom line result that every single day you'll do truly because you do not know when you will die now we're going to meant a quote a verse from cohellis gohellis is ecclesiastes chapter 9 verse 8. king silent pretty smart guy the cold ace at every moment all times your clothing your your outer garments should be live on what does that mean white white this is not a racial thing this is in terms of clean cleanliness and the the oil should never lack from your head what does this verse mean so loithein the godding this idea of having white clothes is a mashal is an analogy out nikki it's an analogy towards your soul we're going to talk the word shemin and nefesh are basically basically the same letters whatever the same idea but um so he says like this the whiteness of the clothes is a metaphor of the soul being cleansed of its sin which is achieved through chuva i want to read the comments here when a person sins the soul becomes stained and is comparable to a soiled garment just as laundering removes the stain from the garment restores its original whiteness so does truva remove the stain of sin from the soul and restore it to its pristine state so we understand that part of the hashem what about the shem and the oil that will never be lacking from the head is a mushroom toading that is compared to your actions why shame toef i'm sorry the shaman musculomycin told him the shame tone and a good name so you have a good actions and a good name usually they're interrelated how you act is how people remember your name so there's a positive there's a verse and doesn't say where it's also in cohes chapter 7 verse one um did i copy it down yeah i have it somewhere here it is a good name is better than good oil the day of death than the day of one's birth it's interesting um we talked about uh miriam last week and her death the truth is nobody even cared when she was born but once she died retroactively we gave a lot of a lot of respect to her so the rashi says at the bottom here on the day of death better than the day of one's birth when miriam was born no one knew who she was but when she died all of a sudden we need water there's no water and the wood the well disappeared so too the day iron died the cow the clouds of glory disappeared as well okay uh what i want to show you about this the um in the middle of rashi someone says right a good name is better than good oil so good oil runs down as it says in psalms 1 3 3 133 verse 2 as the good oil on the head runs down upon the beard a good name however goes up and i will make your name great as god said to abraham in genesis 12 verse 2. now good oil is only temporary but a good name is eternal and that you can find in psalm 72 verse 17 actually it's one of my son's name uh yaakov ninon is one of the four names possible names of meshiach ye known means shall live forever so yaakov shall live forever here it says which basically means right may his name be forever uh before the sun s-u-n and ninon is his name anyway getting back into the rubina yonah so he mentions just as a afterthought in the above verse what malek was teaching that a person should ensure that he's always in a state of chuva and that he should never forget the good name associated with worthy deeds and that's a beautiful saying so now this is just the final run uh a parable that will illustrate this point and then we'll go back into the gemara time permitting bazrat hashem of shabbos hey so the rabbi said in the uh madrish rabba regarding this idea it's it's compared to a wife of the sailor marshall the easter shell meme but this is a sailor what she would do whenever her husband went out on a trip and a sailor would go who knows weeks at a time months at a time half a year at a time a long time right she was very strange she would all get dressed up put her makeup on and the neighbors saw her doing this now i don't know what a neighbor would think when the husband goes away the woman gets all dressed up and puts on the makeup on well the the neighbors came to her the tomorrow the tomorrow night the yentes right the the curious neighbors they would say to her hello your husband's going for a long time isn't he you know we know how long he goes away for why are you getting all dressed up and all beautied for yourself for no reason i'm really in she says you know my husband's a sailor now that's true they knew that but what they didn't know was the following thing i don't know why they didn't know this but at least this is the wife this is what she said to them i mean today we have motors i mean we have inboard motors outboard motors apparently they use sailboats a sail i don't know that's what they they went across the sea the ocean the mediterranean who knows how they traveled where they went but they used the wind can you believe this they use the wind and the wind is like the luck of the draw you could be away for a long time or you could be i don't know you could just sell out sell out right you sail out and before you know it you're back at shore right because the wind took you right back so uh she says perhaps the sea wind will change direction and will he will actually return swiftly and soon by always looking after my appearance she's saying i ensure that if he does return i will he will find me adorned similarly similarly this is hashem might come at any moment to take a person from this world we don't know therefore one should always prepare themselves for the possibility of doing chuva by amassing good deeds beautifully put she takes this idea of viewing today as one of the last days of your life and this should be uh a step which one should imagine ye the yesha allah one should try to measure within his mind imagine the yoto anon that what you're in a common peaceful state try to imagine while you're in a common peaceful state the era of so you should how your heart will work knows you're right now try being a calm state no you're in a calm state breathe right how it's going to be on that judgment day on the day you're going to actually be wearing and trembling on the day of your death heaven and you have to give an accounting of your soul your entire life to god how are you going to confess to hashem how are you going to confess at the time of your death with a broken heart full of regrets you know what don't wait do it now you know how much trouble when you're gonna have to remember everything i mean through my life i remember things i did when i was young maybe not so young and wow i thank god wow thank you for restoring that memory i wish i didn't have that memory but that's something i have to drew before so imagine at that moment you're lying on the bed who knows the you know someone comes in and tells you it's time to say the shma you're on your way out is the time to really start and think yeah it is but how have i that while every day while you still have a calm mind right you're in a somewhat in a common peaceful state right now don't wait until that time comes you won't be able to think properly um but rather um so this is what you should do every day of your life you should confess your sins with a humbled heart and let the fear of heaven be upon you in the way you imagine it will be on the day that you die so you're not all mixed up you have the calm hopefully somewhat calm i want to go into that the more i mentioned because there's a few comments i thought were relative you know interesting relatively interesting we mentioned um i'll just read it quickly you know in so the gemara on um a and shabbos mentions abrasive revliezer says to students return do trouba one day before you your death so the comment over here says even someone who was evil pretty much evil his all of his life allah says never give up hope that hashem will be merciful upon you caitlyn yeshua just know this even if you do confess on your last day hashem will accept it this is very important to know and we said that even the the students asked him but rebbe a man doesn't know when he's gonna die he said you're right how much more so that you should do truva every single day because basically today perhaps tomorrow you will die so um you know he didn't say do trouba today he said i'm sorry he didn't say today you might die he said tomorrow you might die why is that significant so the the the commentators explain that people who die the same day without being sick is a very unusual thing obviously today with modern cars and trains and all this it's true you really could die without being sick but in the old days it was very difficult to die just dead no people got sick first so the tana didn't want to speak about anything that is not common that's very you should just know this is usually the case when the more the gemara talks furthermore if the person did die that day the day that he sinned then the actual death will atone for the sin itself so if one passes on the very day that they did a sin that death will atone or usually atones for the sin itself keep that in mind and this is why he said maybe you'll die tomorrow because because it's the death will not atone necessarily for the sin that you did one or two days prior okay then another comment and basically when he says it comes out that each and every day you're going to do truth and even king solomon himself said in that famous verse in chapter in in ecclesiastes chapter nine verse eight right the cold ace and every time your your garment should be white and the oil should be upon your head it should never be lacking so rashi the the marshall focuses on on the word your garments it's a language it's plural you're garments your garments should be white the intent here is your masim totin your actions the the garments are your actions and that's called midos meaning your character just like we find in the turtle there's a language it talks about the um the uniform medo bod it's character it's basically midos it's a measurement and that is used regarding a beggar and the verse is coming to tell you that that your actions and your character traits should be white belichit without sin it's telling you it's possible don't don't tell me it's not possible it's totally the telling you can do it and then what about the word shemin shemin is the same letters as neshama i mean hey but it's not the same order but it's the same letters as the root of an ashama the shaman means your soul you know you're not um lacking for it for the soul [Music] there won't be anything lacking in the nourishment that you will receive in the world to come now the venue explains that it's really upon a person to imagine in their mind at every moment the time of his of their death the tahrir are the white garments we wear when we pass on he's saying that one should imagine wearing them this is obviously your life you're healthy just try to imagine the i don't know what you want to call them the death clothes you know these are the clothes you're going to wear for eternity until you are risen in the resurrection of the dead kadeshiko in order to sub make your heart submissive the yakuza so you're not lacking the shaman remember the soul you shouldn't like the soul um here he translates he doesn't say shaming his soul sorry he says the shaman is meaning the wisdom from your thoughts that if you have this consciousness the evil inclination could not cause you to dirty your soul you'll always want to remain white meaning um clean soul and you'll do everything to overcome your gazer not only won't he affect your soul it won't affect your speech or your actions because you'll be in check so to speak okay i think that was there was one more thing i did want to share and let's try it this is from the mahara on this idea of return repent one day before your death so the maharaja asked the question madur why did rebellizer use the language he didn't say he says do triva one day before your death he could have said but he didn't do truth every single day so from here it should become known me that one has to always do true what it seems to be obvious from his own words at the end but why do you just say in the beginning so the answer seems to be according that if you would have said you have to do true every day it would be mashma it would infer to call your mother it would infer that anyone who sinned all his days they know yahuwah you might think that he can't so you do true every day fine but if i didn't do juve give up hope he wouldn't be able to do it at the end because he has so much sin therefore he uses this specific language that from it you could infer that also someone who sins his whole life even the one day before his death he can do truva and it has an effect the heat total low it actually affects is effective furthermore there's another hint to this the main point of trouba is the truth is truth is more effective the day before you die why because if you do trouble in your 20s in your 30s and then you stop well guess what you have a whole lot of things you got to work on the day before you died so you might as well just do not i'm not saying don't do it i'm saying that he actually said do it one day before you die meaning do it every day if he said um do it every day maybe we wouldn't have so much effect but doing it one day before you dying has more effect on your past sins let me just read his words it will be much more clear the prime true is is to be done before you die today in order when you pass on from this world the tasman and you return your soul to your maker to shrut zaka the nikkei it will be returned purified and cleaned my shame came which is not going to be the case because you shove rocks man of course if you only did truva when you were 20 and then you get you know you didn't do any more this keeps you on your ball on your toes right to do children before you die so you'll do true through your whole life and not just rely i think they call it um resting on your laurels whatever that means in other words your past successes wow i really did tube when i was in my 20s or 30s i'm you know i don't have to do so much anymore it's not true right do it one day before you die which means every single day don't count on what you did when you were younger because obviously there are stains and this is what we want to get rid of okay so i hope we've finished it in exactly where within an hour so what we're going to do is take questions from the zoom or comments from the people and i'm just going to sign off on the camera and just say thank you for participating we look forward to seeing you again you can look forward to seeing us again next week and if you want to join us there is a link below in the description box you can send us a whatsapp and we'll send you all the information okay so call to have a great life and we'll see you next week [Music] oh